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Ça devient une tradition, et cette année elle prend une toute nouvelle dimension. Pour la troisième fois consécutive, je partage le micro avec Clémence Lepic pour ce bilan annuel. Sauf que cette fois, ce n'est plus seulement ma productrice, c'est aussi mon associée. 2025 aura été une année de folie : deux films sur YouTube et un troisième qui arrive, 72 épisodes de GDIY, l'explosion de Combien ça gagne, et surtout... la création de Collision Productions, une société pour rassembler tous nos projets. C'est aussi une année où on a regardé la vérité en face : la dépendance aux IA américaines, ces enjeux de durabilité et de souveraineté de plus en plus centraux, la nécessité de rester positifs quand tout nous pousse vers le bas et tant d'autres sujets qu'on a adoré creuser. Dans ce hors-série, nous allons : Revenir sur les épisodes phares de 2025, de Carlos Ghosn à Ivan Zhao en passant par Esther Perel, Brian Chesky et tant d'autres Vous révéler les coulisses de nos plus grosses productions : notre voyage au Brésil, le lancement de notre série spéciale CAC 40, notre tournage en Chine et le film qui arrive en janvier (nous trépignons d'impatience) et tous nos projets vidéos en coursParler du lancement imminent de notre nouveau podcast — que nous n'avons dévoilé nulle part ! Évoquer notre deuxième formation avec l'EDHEC (qui va vous retourner le cerveau), construite dans l'ombre depuis des mois, avec experts chercheurs et scientifiques Vous dévoiler nos ambitions pour 2026 : nos invités "moonshot", nos prochains projets de films sur YouTube, notre arrivée imminente sur une nouvelle plateforme (vous n'êtes pas prêts)Nous arrivons en 2026 avec des projets plein la tête, des ambitions encore plus grandes que l'année dernière, et surtout avec l'envie brûlante d'avancer et de progresser avec vous, ensemble. Merci pour votre soutien inconditionnel. Vos retours, vos partages, la force que vous nous donnez tous les jours sur les réseaux sociaux nous poussent et nous obligent à tout faire pour être à la hauteur. Continuez de diffuser GDIY partout, de partager nos épisodes à vos amis, à votre famille, c'est le meilleur cadeau que vous pouvez leur faire pour bien démarrer l'année ! On vous remercie une nouvelle fois pour cette année de dingue et on vous embrasse fort, La team GDIY.TIMELINE:00:00:00 : Bilan de cette année de folie00:12:44 : Ce qui nous a choqué en Chine00:15:34 : Le démarrage au quart de tour de “Combien ça gagne ?”00:19:11 : Pourquoi une nouvelle identité visuelle ?00:20:39 : On dévoile un nouveau podcast00:26:20 : L'immense succès de la série CAC 4000:30:00 : Les épisodes pépites de l'année00:45:39 : Nos ambitions folles pour 202601:00:10 : Les meilleurs apprentissages de l'année01:05:09 : Les livres qui nous ont marqué01:10:07 : MERCI 2025Les anciens épisodes mentionnés : #440 - Thomas Jolly - Metteur en scène, directeur artistique - Créer la plus grande cérémonie de l'histoire#441 - Arthur Benzaquen - Masada, réalisateur - Qui a dit que le business n'était pas artistique ?#444 - Charlie Dalin - Skipper - 64 jours pour faire le tour du monde : Nouveau record du Vendée Globe#448 - Owen Simonin (Hasheur) - Flirter avec les interdits puis devenir l'homme de confiance de la crypto en France#458 - Eddy de Pretto - Artiste - Contre vents et marées#460 - Riss - Charlie Hebdo - Toujours se battre pour la liberté#461 - Sébastien Bazin - PDG du groupe Accor - Diriger un groupe coté en bourse sans ordinateur#470 - Maurice Lévy - Publicis - Faire de la publicité son empire#473 - VO - Brian Chesky - Airbnb - « We're just getting started »#478 - Octave Klaba - OVH - La guerre du Cloud commence#479 - Nikola Karabatic - Champion de Handball - 22 titres sur 23 : la légende du sport français#480 - Esther Perel - Psychothérapeute - Comment réparer l'atrophie sociale avec l'experte mondiale des relations humaines#483 - Carlos Ghosn - Out of the box : masterclass business de l'évadé du siècle#487 - VO - Anton Osika - Lovable - Internet, Business, and AI: Nothing Will Ever Be the Same Again#488 - Valentin Kretz - L'Agence (immobilier de luxe) - Le vrai business des Kretz derrière la série Netflix#495 - Anne-Laure Constanza Gorgé - Toulemonde Bochart - “Je me suis battue dans un seul but : mettre à l'abri mes enfants”#505 - Mingpo Cai - Cathay Capital - De la chine profonde aux sommets du capital-investissement#507 - Laurent Alexandre - Vers la fin des études supérieures ?#510 - Carole Benaroya - Kujten - La reine du cachemire#512 - François Ruffin - Député - En finir avec l'État perfusion#513 - VO - Jesper Brodin - IKEA - A $40 billion revenue empire built with no bank loansNos recommandations de lecture :La Chine ou le réveil du guerrier économique, de Ali LaïdiPour le succès des armes de la France, de Pierre de VilliersBelle du Seigneur, d'Albert CohenClear Thinking, de Shane ParrishL'urgence et la patience, de Jean-Philippe ToussaintL'homme qui plantait des arbres, de Jean GionoThe Road Less Travelled, de M. 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Another West Coast Storm... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

Aaron and Brian make some bold predictions for the 2026 Cloud and AI markets, as well as reviewing the biggest issues going into 2026.  SHOW: 989SHOW TRANSCRIPT: The Cloudcast #989 TranscriptSHOW VIDEO: https://youtube.com/@TheCloudcastNET CLOUD NEWS OF THE WEEK: http://bit.ly/cloudcast-cnotwCHECK OUT OUR NEW PODCAST: "CLOUDCAST BASICS"SHOW NOTES:CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - NOV 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - OCT 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - SEPT 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - AUG 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - JUL 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - JUN 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - MAY 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - APR 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - MAR 2025 (show)2026 CLOUD + AI PREDICTIONS (AND BIG ISSUES TO REVIEW)OpenAI Revenues and Focus AreasNVIDIA customer profitabilityCompanies moving to GOOG TPUsEnterprise success beyond CoPilot/GeminiEnterprise data+model trainabilityEnterprise price hikesBroadcom, AMD, Groq - alternative HW optionsData Center buildoutsDoes AI spending shiftWhat is Agentic AI?Long term spending + short term refocusesPREDICTIONS:At least one big AI IPO in 2026, and it won't go well. (Aaron says Anthropic)People will question whether Sam Altman is the right person to lead OpenAIAI will be a central issue in the 2026 US elections, either about job losses or electricity pricesOne major LPU/TPU/dedicated inference chip will break through in 2026Azure will be the Number One Cloud… (Aaron has to keep it going)We will start to see a shift in the Enterprise from big models in the sky (1+trillion parameters) to dedicated, purpose-built models of 500M or less in size for efficiency and securityGemini will dominate the consumer/prosumer space, OpenAI will go through the trough of disillusionmentThe industry will shift to a base/instruct and a reasoning split of modelsAWS and Azure will double down on being a solutions provider instead of a primitive supplier for AI and infrastructureFEEDBACK?Email: show at the cloudcast dot netTwitter/X: @cloudcastpodBlueSky: @cloudcastpod.bsky.socialInstagram: @cloudcastpodTikTok: @cloudcastpod

Laurie Putnam is the superintendent of St. Cloud Public Schools, and the first woman to lead the district. Her husband, Aric Putnam, is a DFL state senator, representing District 14, which includes St. Cloud. Together, they're navigating politics, education, family life and the challenges of leading in the public eye.MPR News host Angela Davis revisits another conversation in her Power Pairs series. She talks with the Putnams about how they support each other and why they picked careers that serve their community.

In this episode, the focus is on clergy abuse—a topic made even more pressing by recent headlines. The featured guest, Sandy Phillips Kirkham, shares her harrowing ordeal of being abused by a charismatic youth pastor starting at the age of 16. Sandy discusses the grooming process, the five years of abuse, and how she was ultimately expelled from her church while her abuser was merely relocated. She delves into the long-lasting impact of the abuse on her life and her spiritual journey, how she concealed her trauma for 27 years, and how she ultimately confronted her abuser. Sandy also provides valuable insights and actionable advice for preventing abuse and supporting victims within church communities. Her story is also detailed in her book, ‘Let Me Prey on You,' which offers a detailed account of her journey from victim to advocate. 00:00 Introduction and Sponsor Message 00:47 Welcome to the Podcast 01:32 Introducing Today's Topic: Clergy Abuse 02:17 Sandy Phillips Kirkham's Early Life and Church Involvement 06:22 Meeting the Abuser: The Charismatic Youth Pastor 08:43 Red Flags and Grooming Tactics 13:51 The First Inappropriate Act 16:37 The Abuse Escalates 21:06 The Aftermath and Church's Response 28:15 Life After Abuse: Marriage and Keeping Secrets 32:09 Protecting Future Generations 35:17 The Importance of Sex Education in the Church 36:32 Techniques for Discussing Sex with Children 37:22 Personal Experiences with Sex Education 38:20 Triggering Memories and Emotional Breakdown 40:13 The Journey of Healing Begins 41:31 Understanding Clergy Abuse and Self-Forgiveness 43:52 Confronting the Abuser 47:07 Challenges in Seeking Justice 54:47 Preventing Abuse in the Church 01:00:31 Supporting Victims of Clergy Abuse 01:05:07 Final Thoughts and Resources Sandy Kirkham and her husband Bill enjoy life with their two grown children, two beautiful granddaughters, and two fairly well-behaved dogs. Sandy continues to use her voice to help victims of clergy abuse. She currently serves on the board of Council Against Child Abuse. Sandy has spoken before the Ohio Senate, a Maryland court, and appeared on a local television show in Boston. Her story, “Stolen Innocence,” was told in a documentary produced by The Hope of Survivors. Sandy works with survivors conducting victim support conferences. She has participated in The Voice of the Faithful (VOTF) panels moderated by SNAP (Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests), sharing her perspective from the non-Catholic point of view. Sandy has been a presenter/speaker at major events on clergy abuse including the Hope & Healing Conference. Sandy has earned a certificate of completion from the Faith Trust Institute entitled, “A Sacred Trust: Boundary Issues for Clergy and Spiritual Teachers.” https://sandyphillipskirkham.com/ https://www.facebook.com/KirkhamAuthor/  sandykirkhamauthor@gmail.com  Purchase her book “Let Me Prey Upon You” on amazon: https://sandyphillipskirkham.com/shop/let-me-prey-upon-you/   Link Tree   Website: https://dswministries.org Subscribe to the podcast: https://dswministries.org/subscribe-to-podcast/ Social media links: Join our Private Wounds of the Faithful FB Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1603903730020136 Twitter: https://twitter.com/DswMinistries YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxgIpWVQCmjqog0PMK4khDw/playlists Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dswministries/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DSW-Ministries-230135337033879 Keep in touch with me! Email subscribe to get my handpicked list of the best resources for abuse survivors! https://thoughtful-composer-4268.ck.page #abuse #trauma Affiliate links: Our Sponsor: 753 Academy: https://www.753academy.com/ Can't travel to The Holy Land right now? The next best thing is Walking The Bible Lands! Get a free video sample of the Bible lands here! https://www.walkingthebiblelands.com/a/18410/hN8u6LQP An easy way to help my ministry: https://dswministries.org/product/buy-me-a-cup-of-tea/ A donation link: https://dswministries.org/donate/   Sandy Phillips Kirkham [00:00:00] Special thanks to 7 5 3 Academy for sponsoring this episode. No matter where you are in your fitness and health journey, they've got you covered. They specialize in helping you exceed your health and fitness goals, whether that is losing body fat, gaining muscle, or nutritional coaching to match your fitness levels. They do it all with a written guarantee for results so you don't waste time and money on a program that doesn't exceed your goals. There are martial arts programs. Specialize in anti-bullying programs for kids to combat proven Filipino martial arts. They take a holistic, fun, and innovative approach that simply works. Sign up for your free class now. It's 7 5 3 academy.com. Find the link in the show notes. Welcome to the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast, brought to you by DSW Ministries. Your host is singer songwriter, speaker and domestic violence advocate, [00:01:00] Diana Winkler. She is passionate about helping survivors in the church heal from domestic violence and abuse and trauma. This podcast is not a substitute for professional counseling or qualified medical help. Now here is Diana. Hello. Welcome everyone. Welcome to my regular listeners, as well as some new listeners that have joined us today. I have a great guest for you today. We're going to be talking about clergy abuse today. Religious leader, abuse. Pastor, youth leader. You've seen this in the news recently with all these preachers being arrested or charged with sexual misconduct or rape or [00:02:00] pedophilia. I'm sure you've seen the news. Well, today we're going to hear a story about a woman who's been victimized in that way and she's fighting back. So let me read her bio for you. A church is where an insecure 16-year-old girl should feel welcome, happy, and most importantly, safe tragically. For some, the church can become a place of great harm. Sandy Phillips Kirkham details her account of how charismatic youth minister preyed upon her, a betrayal which left her broken with a shattered faith and the ultimate shame of being blamed enforced from the church she loved. Despite a successful and happy life, is a wife, mother, and friend. Sandy successfully concealed her abuse for [00:03:00] 27 years until a trigger forced her to face the truth. Sandy's story will take you on her journey of healing. Her strength and courage will inspire you. Let me pray upon you her book details. Sandy's journey from innocent 16-year-old, a victim to a survivor, and advocate. We please welcome Sandy Phillips. Kirk, welcome Sandy to the show. Thanks so much for coming on. Well, thank you for having me. I'm glad to be here. Wow. So I've been listening to you on the Preacher Boys podcast and thought you had a really great story, and so I wanted to come and bring you on so my listeners can hear your story as well. Mm-hmm. So tell us a little bit about your home and your church environment growing up. Let's [00:04:00] start from the beginning here. Okay. I'm the oldest of five. My parents were divorced when I was about seven, which that was really the impact of my life, of just how it altered everything about that time in my life. Then my mother remarried and we moved in with my stepfather shortly after my father remarried, and so I was dealing with these blended families and it was just very confusing for me at the time, my parents and stepfather did not attend church. So I, I wasn't a part of a church until I was about eight, and that's when my best friend who lived up the street invited me to go with their family, and I went with them and I went every Sunday after that, I absolutely fell in love with church. It was a place that I felt safe. I think it provided for me a place away from home that I felt comfortable and I got attention there. I was very active even as a small child. I went to vacation Bible school, church camp, love Sunday School. I sang in a junior choir. Really, it was a just a great place for me to [00:05:00] be. When I was 13, I was baptized and then my faith really deepened and my involvement in the church became even more so, started teaching Sunday school and teaching vacation Bible school. I started serving on committees with adults and doing more of the activities that would, , just be more in depth than just typical youth group activities. So, it's just no exaggeration to say that if the doors of the church were open, I was there and I loved it. I loved serving God. I felt that was the place for me, and everything about it was brought me joy and peace in the church. Wow. You really, were very sincere in your faith. It was not a fake one. I hear a lot of stories of. Being brought up in the church and being made to go to church and, you just go through the motions kind of thing. But it sounds like it was the opposite for you. It was that you really believed this with all your heart. Was that a fundamental Baptist church you were going [00:06:00] to or what? It was a church, Christ Christian Church, which is similar to the Baptist. It's an independent church. Yeah, that's the church. That was so something happened while you were serving the Lord and loving God. You met your abuser? Yes. Shortly after I turned 16, our church hired a new youth pastor, and from the moment he arrived, he was totally different than anyone we'd ever seen before. He was very charismatic, very dynamic. His sermons were really like nothing we'd ever heard before, and people were just drawn to him. He had a personality that people found themselves wanting to be around him. They wanted to please him. So he was very good at asking people to do things and they didn't hesitate. It, it was just a different kind of atmosphere. When he came to the church, the youth group exploded in numbers. We went from like 25 to almost 200 in a very short time. Even the [00:07:00] adult church was growing because people just came to hear him preach because he was so good at what he did. He was 30, married with two children, but he really acted more like our age group. He dressed like we did. He. Went to our football games at school, he knew our music. So he just, he really, he was tuned into us and in return we found ourselves, all of us being willing to please him and wanna do anything we could to make the youth group and the church better. So when people think of a profile of a child abuser, they usually think, oh, some dirty old man, that his roaming fingers or what have you, but this youth pastor sounded like, okay, he was really good looking and hip and really loved the young people. Mm-hmm. Is that typical of. Well, it's, it's typical in the sense that it's not the, dirty old man hiding in the bushes. Most abusers [00:08:00] are people we know. They're people that we like. They're usually people that, connect with people very well, and that's what makes them so dangerous because they're not obvious with what they do, and they're very good at that. They pretend to be one of us. They pretend to care, but in reality, their goal is to find a way to take advantage of the most vulnerable in, in the group. And so, predators are usually drawn to places where they will find vulnerable people. The gymnastics team is an example of that. The Boy Scouts, anywhere where you can, and certainly the church because we are welcoming into people who are in need. Oftentimes. Then there are many people in the church who are vulnerable to these types of men, and sometimes women. Were there any red flags? That you should have seen or noticed when you were around this youth pastor? Well, he came with so many different ideas and different ways of doing things. And one of the things that he was doing now, this was in the [00:09:00] seventies, so cultures were changing and it was free love and kind of thing. But he came into our church and he expected everyone to hug each other. So we were always hugging each other. And he also expected us to say how much we loved each other and that we love you and not just that I love you in Christ. He would simply walk up, give you a hug and say, I love you. Now you know, that may seem innocent, but that's a little odd for that pastor to be saying those kinds of things. And it also blurs the lines because when you say to someone, I love you, that can be confusing to. Young teenagers and even to vulnerable adults. So, but he did that with everybody. It wasn't like he picked someone else special, but, so the hugging in the contact was kind of a red flag in the beginning. But for me personally, I babysat for his family. His wife worked evenings. Mm-hmm. So one night after he came home, he asked me to go to his basement and listen to a song by Neil Diamond. [00:10:00] Well, it felt a little weird 'cause I'd never. I've been around a pastor that wanted to talk to me about anything but church in the Bible. But I went to the basement. Yeah. I mean a Neil Diamond song. So I went to the basement. I know, but that's a trigger factor for me sometimes. So anyway, I went to the basement and he put this record on and I sat down on the couch and instead of sitting in a chair or another place, he came on the couch and sat very close to me. And I remember feeling uncomfortable, but I didn't say anything. 'cause I thought, well, he is just sitting next to me. It's no big deal. But that's a red flag that I felt because it felt uncomfortable to me. And then the other times that I would babysit for him. His wife wouldn't come home till late in the evening, so he would come home around seven or eight and after the kids were in bed, instead of taking me home, he wanted me to sit and talk with him all evening. So we'd talk about the Bible or we'd talk about church, and sometimes he'd ask me what I thought of his [00:11:00] sermon, which at age 16, I'm flattered that this man has any idea that I would have some opinion about this great sermon that he just gave. So I didn't see anything wrong with that because he's my pastor. But had that occurred with my 30-year-old neighbor down the street, every time I went to babysit, I know I would've come home to my mother and said, okay, this is weird. Mm-hmm. Every time I babysit, this man wants to sit and talk to me all evening. I mean, what interest would I have as a teenager wanting to talk to this 30-year-old married man? But because my pastor was who he was and he tapped into our common connection of the church and God, and again, many times he would give me books to read 'cause he wanted me to get better in my deep, in my spirituality. So I didn't see anything wrong with it because of who he was. And so I just accepted that behavior, which is another tool and technique. They look for ways to get into you. Mm-hmm. [00:12:00] That don't seem obvious. And that was, so those were two red flags for me. Now as far as the congregation goes, I was in his office a lot by myself, but so were other kids, because he would actually call us into his office and say, I want you to come in and tell me what's going on in your life. Talk to me about your problems. Instead of us going to him, he would encourage us to come into his office. So while that probably wasn't a good thing, no one saw it as a bad thing. It seemed normal, but he called me into his office a lot more than the other kids. And later on there were people who did say to me, there were times when I wondered why he said something to you like that, or I noticed something one time. And so I think people notice some things, but no one thought enough of it to say, okay, there's something going on that doesn't seem right. So those were the red flags that I think in the beginning were very subtle. But they were hard to see, [00:13:00] and this is really important to distinguish these things because I was groomed by a guidance counselor in seventh grade. Mm-hmm. But he was one of those dirty old men that, he was doing creepy stuff. Yeah. But I never would have seen myself. A pastor and he's talking about spiritual things and he's talking about God and mm-hmm. He's not talking about sex. He's not watching, you're not watching dirty movies together. No, he's not, buying you sexy lingerie. It's, Hey, he's doing spiritual things. Mm-hmm. It's a setup. It's that grooming process you're talking about. It's pulling someone in to gain their trust, in a very di diabolical way, because he's using the church to do that. That's really scary. That scares mm-hmm. Scares me to death. What were the first times that he did something really inappropriate that you were just like, whoa? Well, the very [00:14:00] first time, was after a youth group meeting that was held in my home. I was the song leader. He put me in a leadership position, and it was very important to him that the evening always go well and that we were to make people feel welcome. And so at the end of the evening, I was nervous because I wanted to make sure that he thought everything went well. And he came up to me in my hallway and began telling me how great the evening was and how proud he was of me. And I was on Cloud nine. I was flattered that he felt that way. I felt good that the evening went so well. And then he just slowly bent down and he kissed me. And it wasn't, it was a kiss, but it seemed somewhat innocent to some extent. And I, I remember thinking, I think he just kissed me. Then my next thought was, well, he's my pastor and I don't think he would be doing anything he shouldn't be doing. And it was just a quick kiss. And he's always hugging people. And so maybe this is just his way of showing his appreciation for the evening. It was really [00:15:00] the only way in my 16-year-old mind that I could justify it because I couldn't think about this man doing anything he shouldn't be doing. And this was a person that everyone loved and thought so highly of, so how could I think he was doing something he shouldn't be doing? So I just let it go. I didn't think anything more about it. I mean, did you have any sex ed or anything? Did you know the birds and bees? Nine. Well, yeah, I'm 16. I did. Yeah, I did. But I wasn't, I hadn't dated much. I wasn't allowed to date till I was 16, so I hadn't had any dating experience. I had one kiss before this with a boy at camp. So I wasn't. Worldly or knowledgeable about all those things. But, and again, it was such a quick innocent type kiss. He didn't grab me, he didn't push me against the wall. I just, and again, I think for me it was okay if he's, if this is more than just a kiss, then what do I do with it? So therefore I'm just gonna say it's [00:16:00] nothing because I don't know what else to do. Um, wow. I let it go. I let it go. But as I babysat for him, he, sometimes when I would leave, he would kiss me and sometimes he wouldn't. So, I didn't see it as a con, kind of a continual thing that he was always wanting to kiss me. He always hugged me. But the kissing became more intense as it went along. So it, it would be another year, before he would have sex with me. And so that grooming process and kind of pushing the boundaries each time he was with me, finally ended with him having sex with me. Oh, wow. Now, some of us listening are like an adult having sex with a child or 16-year-old. Can you unpack that a little bit more, the process of how he got to that point? I mean, that the first time you had intercourse, I mean, did he, you know, go to a hotel with you and you had a candlelight dinner, or was it in the backseat of the car?[00:17:00] Was it an accident? It wasn't an accident. He was very deliberate and I had every intentions of having sex with me that night. I babysat, I was babysitting, I put the kids to bed, I walked down the steps. I assumed that we would go into the living room. Or the family room, sit on the couch and talk about the things we always talked about. But instead, he stopped me at the bottom of the stairs and he took me into the living room, and immediately put me on the floor and began undressing me. Um, and wow, I froze. I, I literally froze and I kept thinking to myself, he's going to stop. He's going to stop. And that the entire time he's whispering into my ear how much he loves me, that he would never hurt me, and that he can, I can trust him. And then he kept asking me, do you love me? Do you love me? And I, of course, I'm answering yes, because well, yes I do, because that's what I've told him for the past year. I, I, I just, I was so confused and what my real reaction was, I froze. Mm-hmm. Um, he, he sort of pushed my head under the [00:18:00] stereo. And so when he is starting to get farther than I thought he would ever go. I blocked, I just blocked it out and I started reading the serial numbers underneath the stereo. Oh my goodness. Just to be thinking of anything else. Um, at one point he then just picked me up and took me upstairs. He literally put me on the bed, penetrated me, and that was it. And I was horrified. I was absolutely horrified. I, I wanted to cry. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do. Um, he left the room, told me to get dressed, and he would take me home. And I remember sitting on the bed and I put the bedspread around me because I was so embarrassed that I didn't have my clothes on. Mm-hmm. Oh, wow. Um, and then I just remember thinking I just had sex. I'm no longer a virgin. I just had sex with this man and. He took me home. Now, in the [00:19:00] book, of course, I go into a little bit more detail, but Right, he took me home and just before I got outta the car, he said to me, now, you know, this is something between the two of us, you can't tell anyone. And of course I'm thinking, who would I tell? I, I don't want anybody to know. I just did this. So, that was the first time. And then I think I, at that point I kept thinking, you know, I've had sex with him. So now I'm committed to him again. I'm at this point, I'm 17 years old. I'm still like, what do I do with this? I don't, I don't know what to do with this. Um, and he was convincing me that he loved me. He was convincing me that he needed me in his ministry and that God, this was God's will in our lives. He threw that at me. Eventually he would say to me that we were married in God's eyes. I mean, twisting the scripture and using God as a reason that we should be together. And so. I started to accept that. There were a couple times I went to him and told him that I couldn't do this anymore. I felt [00:20:00] guilty. He would respond in one of two ways. One, he would say to me how much he needed me, how much he loved me, and that he couldn't live without me. So that was the guilt part of it. Or he would respond and by saying to me, you know, you're no longer a virgin. No one else is gonna want you. I'm the only one that knows how to love you, and you are committed to me, and this is gonna be the way it is. And I saw no way out. I didn't see a way out. And so the relationship continued for five years. Wow. Five years. It went on for five years. That is a long time. And it, during that time, he became more aggressive physically. Uh, he hit me. He became sexually more deviant. It just progressed. It got worse and worse. And to a point that I finally, I was, my self-esteem was so low. I hated myself for what I'd been doing. So I finally just accepted that this was my life. I knew [00:21:00] I'd never get married. I knew I'd never have children, and this wouldn't be over until he said it was over. This went on for five years and nobody in the church noticed it. Your parents didn't notice it. You know, people say, well, where were your parents? Well, first of all, my parents were thrilled. I was in church. I mean, this was a time in the seventies when drugs were. Prevalent girls were, having free sex. So for them, what safer place could there be than to be in church? So, and they saw his intention toward me and his involvement with me as a good thing. I mean, he would take me on hospital visits with him. I mean, they saw this as being positive. And they knew how much I loved being there and that it was a place that I liked to go. So they didn't see it. And many in the church didn't see it began because who suspects the pastor of such behavior. Mm-hmm. Yeah. And especially in the seventies when this wasn't an open topic like it is now, you wouldn't have dared thought anything like that. And so [00:22:00] it's not uncommon for people in the church, to miss the signs and to ignore what they really do see, because they just can't believe that it would be something that would be happening in their church because then they'd have to do something about it. Yes, exactly. When did it all come crumbling down? It does crumble. Eventually it does. Two elders became suspicious and followed him one night and found us together in a hotel room. And then from then on, the next month and a half was an absolute nightmare for me. Hmm. It was initially hoped that they could keep what he had done, quiet and keep it from the congregation. Now, I have to say one thing before I forget. This wasn't his first incident of sexual misconduct. Oh. Prior to and just after he was awri, he arrived at our church. A young woman from his first church came forward and accused him of sexual misconduct. When he was [00:23:00] confronted by my elders, he didn't deny it. He said it was true. He asked for forgiveness, that it would never happen again. It was a mistake. So within six months. That's when he was kissing me in my hallway. So this, so these elders were aware that this was the second time that there had been an incident with this man of sexual abuse and misconduct. But in spite of that, they tried to keep it quiet in hopes of moving him to another church. And so I was told during that time where I was to sit, how I was to respond to questions. I wasn't to talk to anyone. I wasn't to tell anyone about what had happened, including my parents. And this was all in an effort to keep it quiet. Well, that effort failed. And so it was determined that he should address the congregation. He did it in a very vague way, just simply said that he'd sinned. He'd sinned against God, and he'd sinned against his wife. And that was his confession. That was it. Two days later, he had me meet [00:24:00] him in a hotel room after that confession in front of the congregation. Now. He was moved to the next church. He was given a going away party. There was actually a vote to maybe keep him, but the vote failed and they decided to move him to the next church. About, two weeks, three weeks later, I was called in by the elders, and this is probably the hardest part of my story for me. Mm-hmm. I was called in by the elders and I was told that because of my behavior I was to leave the church. I was devastated. I loved that church. It was the only church I knew, and here I was being told by these two elders that I wasn't fit to worship there any longer. Mm-hmm. He could be forgiven and given a second, third chance. I couldn't be, I was told that to leave the church. I wasn't given any counseling. I wasn't helped in any way. I was simply told to leave and I did. I left. [00:25:00] And that I told people many times, as horrific as the abuse was, having been told to leave, that church had a greater impact on me spiritually than the actual abuse did. I don't think I ever recovered from that. It still haunts me to this day to some extent. That response of the church really devastated me. So that was the crumbling, as you called it? It came crashing down and I would, I left the church. So did that change your perception of God? What was your relationship with God this time? Yes. You were kicked outta the church, but. Well, I felt a disconnect from God. I never blamed God. I never felt like God caused this to happen. I, in fact, I carry the blame and the shame. I felt guilty for what I had done. And so I never blamed God, but because of the relationship being tied in with God and the [00:26:00] prayers that this man would give, and then, you know, he'd give these wonderful sermons about marriage and sanctity of marriage on a Sunday morning after having sex with me the night before. I had difficulty separating all of that, and there were so many trigger factors associated with the church and prayer that God really did. It was hard for me to have any kind of relationship with God. I did. I didn't become an atheist like a lot of victims do, and who become angry at God. I simply just. I just put him on the back burner. I knew he existed, but I didn't have a connection with him any longer. So for 27 years, I, I never prayed. I never opened my Bible. I went to church because when I met my husband, he was a Methodist. And I thought, well, I'll go to the Methodist Church. It's a different denomination. Mm-hmm. I'll just go on. It should be fine. It didn't work that way. I had anxiety attacks in church. I, his [00:27:00] reminders of him were constant, but I forced myself to go. I made sure that I went because I knew when we had children, I wanted them to have that church experience. But every time I walked past the minister's office, I got a knot in my stomach. Oh yeah. It had nothing to do with that minister. But you understand that. I mean, it, but I did that for 27 years. It became my norm. I just knew that when I walked past that office, I was gonna get a knock my stomach, certain hymns. I can tell you what his favorite hymn was, and every time that was played, that's who I thought of. I couldn't pray. It was so, I did have a deep, deep disconnect for 27 years, and I have to tell you, I missed it. I actually mourn that loss of my spiritual life, but I didn't know how to get it back. Because I'm keeping this secret. I'm still carrying guilt and shame. I couldn't forgive myself. I didn't feel worthy to be in church. So with all of that mixed in, I just put myself on autopilot and said, [00:28:00] well, this is the way my life will be and I'll just have to accept it. It just sounds so unfair. Somebody that loves the Lord so much and served in the church and so innocent and being kicked out. Oh, but it sounded like maybe meeting your husband would've been a positive thing for you. How did you guys meet? I actually worked at his office, so I met him there. We dated for about two years, and I just found him to be a kind, loving soul. He was very unassuming. He wasn't arrogant. He didn't, he wasn't a boastful type of person. He didn't like taking credit for things, even though he deserved it sometimes. He was just a good hearted person, and I just, I fell in love with him immediately. I really did. I thought this was a great, great guy. I mean, I will tell you, I have said many times because before I met him, I was on a destructive path. I did not have any self-esteem. [00:29:00] I saw myself just simply as some sex object that, I was only good for that. And so when I met him, he saved my life because he loved me for who I was and showed me that I was worthy. So I've often said to him, you saved my life, and he will respond back with you made mine, and you can't get any better than that. So meeting him was a turning point for me, but I kept a secret from him for 27 years, and I lived in fear that he'd always find out that I'd had this affair with a married man. And I know in my heart that it wouldn't have made a difference to him. But people who've been abused never forget the words, don't ever tell. And I never forgot those words. And I never forgot what the consequences could be if I were to tell someone. Because when my elders found out, they blamed me. And I, I couldn't bear the thought that if I were to tell him. [00:30:00] Somehow he would find fault with me, or I wondered, would he wonder why I didn't feel confident enough to tell him? Would he feel betrayed that I kept a secret? Would he see me differently sexually? All those fears that I had while unfounded were still present in my mind. And so I never could tell him. And I had to do a lot of play acting and pretending, through our married life in the sense that the times I was having trigger factors, I had to hide them. And I know he would've been supportive, but I couldn't see that. Because while trauma affects you at the time of the abuse, it's lifelong. It doesn't leave you. And so I lived with that for 27 years. So did you have. Intimacy issues when you were together? Was that what you're talking about? The triggering? No, I, know a lot of victims do, and that's understandable. I really didn't, because he was so different from my abuser [00:31:00] and I recognized that my abuser was emotionally violent mm-hmm. And physically, he just wasn't loving in any sense of the word. I was simply used for sex. Mm-hmm. And I didn't have that with my husband. And so I could separate that a little bit. But I think the guilt of hiding the secret had an impact on our marriage as far as my able to be intimate with him in an emotional way. I'm really glad to hear that. I, you are not the first person that I've heard that. The victim has hidden a secret from her husband. I passed her and a pastor's wife and her husband did not know. Mm-hmm. Children didn't know, and it was a family member that was the abuser. And I kept telling her, you've got to tell him. Mm-hmm. You know why? It's because, and I was thinking this when I was listening to your, the other shows that you were on. I'm thinking about your children and your grandchildren. If I was abused, [00:32:00] I would be like. How do I keep my children and grandchildren from going through what I just went through, you know? Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Well, that's an interesting thing because most people would assume that my daughter, I would've been all over it and worried sick every time she left the house. Yeah. But I actually had the opposite, reaction because keep in mind, I didn't see myself as an abuse victim. I saw myself as someone who participated, who willingly went into this relationship and stayed in it willingly, which is not the case when you're abused. There's the control, the manipulation, all of those things that play into keeping a victim in a relationship and they see no way out. So for me, I just assumed I got one bad apple in the whole barrel, that this didn't happen to other people and that I had an affair. But my daughter, who I knew, she would never have an affair with a married man, I just knew that. So I. Sent her on [00:33:00] retreats. I sent her to church camp without fear because again, I'm thinking, okay, this just doesn't happen to other people and this is not something I need to be concerned about with her. However, with my granddaughters, it's totally different because now I understand what really occurred and the damage that can occur when you've been abused. And so with my granddaughters, her mom and dad have talked to them, about good touch, bad touch. And I too have talked about to her, but I've been a little bit more probably detailed about it. Mm-hmm. And as she gets older, these men, the techniques change as you get older and they, after they go after teenage girls, so mm-hmm. Hopefully I'll be able to help her understand, what happens when someone's grooming. I want her to understand her personal space, that if you're not comfortable when someone hugs you, it's okay. That's right. Say I, I don't want you to touch me that way. Mm-hmm. Or say if they don't feel comfortable and we put a lot on kids to do that. 'cause here [00:34:00] we're asking a child to say to an adult, no. Mm-hmm. So it's okay to go to your mother or your mom and say, can you tell so and so Uncle Jimmy or whoever it is, I don't wanna be hugged. So we need to make sure our kids understand that their personal space is their space. And if they don't want someone in that space, it's okay to say no. I also think it's important to tell kids that good people can do bad things. Yeah. Because, as we talked about earlier, our abusers are not strangers. They're not mean people. Mm-hmm. They're usually good people. They're usually people who've given us gifts. They're people who help us. They're people who tell us how wonderful we are. So it's hard for children, even adults, to see this individual who. Who on one side is a good individual who does a lot in the church, who's done all these wonderful things. And so we, we have to tell these kids, just because they're a good person doesn't mean they can't do bad things. And so that's kind of the message I hope to get to my granddaughters that I didn't give to my [00:35:00] daughter. And fortunately she didn't have any issues with church or any, anybody abusing her. But I certainly did not, guide her in the right way in that sense because I just, like I said, I just assumed that I was the only one that this would ever have happened to. Well, I think, I hear a lot in the church that they don't teach sex ed because they don't want the kids to go out and have sex. Mm-hmm. And so a lot of these kids are like ignorant as to, what is healthy and what is not proper, yeah. We need to teach 'em that our bodies or are going to respond. They were built that way. God intended us to have feelings. You know, when we are around the opposite sex, that's normal. Mm-hmm. So we need to make sure kids understand. But there are barriers and there are boundaries that need to be taken. But you're absolutely right when we don't talk at it, then we figure it out on their own. And we could, we can all imagine when you're leaving teenagers to [00:36:00] their own devices to figure out things. That's probably not gonna lead in a good spot. No, we have the internet now, which when we, right. When you and I were younger, we didn't have the internet. We didn't have cell phones. No. If you wanted a Playboy magazine, you had to go to that kind of a neighborhood to get something. Yes. You know? Yes. It was a lot more difficult. Yes, absolutely. But too many parents are embarrassed to talk to their children about sex and, you know, everybody listening needs to listen. You need to find a way to talk to them about these things. And one of the techniques that I use with my daughter, just in talking about sex in general, kids don't want to hear their mom and dad talk to 'em about this. So what I did would say, I read a magazine article about this girl who did such and such so that I put it off on something else that's, a non-entity of a person. And I'll say, or Have you ever heard of this? And of course I know she's got a little embarrassed, but I, it opened the dialogue without me coming [00:37:00] out and saying, have you heard of oral sex? Instead, I would talk to her and say, I heard this about this. This is what kids are doing, blah, blah, blah. So you kind of have to find techniques and ways to sneak around it sometimes, but you absolutely need to talk to, because they know it's out there and they're going to experiment. That's just part of being a teenager. Yeah, my parents chickened out. They just gave me a book to read. Same, probably the same book. I got, I forget what it was called. Where did I come from? Or something. It was a cartoon book. Mm-hmm. And I'm grateful for that. And, they just, after I finished the book, do you have any questions? Yeah, yeah. I had a lot of, older people that were friends and I would actually go to my older. Senior citizen friends and ask them questions rather than ask my parents. Right? Yeah, yeah. It's more comfortable that way for sure. Like I said, it's not the topic that we like to talk to with our kids and our kids don't wanna hear it, but being uncomfortable is not an excuse not to do that. And in school you get [00:38:00] the basics of the mechanics of it, but then that ends, that's all you get there as well. And that's not as helpful either. Yeah. The sixth grade menstrual cycle, health class. Yeah, exactly. That's it. They separate the girls and the boys. Yeah. We were all really embarrassed and Yes, yes. Yeah, exactly. Great information. So let's, circle around back to, okay, you've been hiding this secret forever. Mm-hmm. And nobody knows about your past. And then one day you got triggered. So what happened that day? Well, that's the first chapter of my book, and that is one day I was driving to a golf tournament in Tennessee. We live in Cincinnati. I was driving, my daughter was in college. She was playing in a golf tournament. I was driving down there and I was about halfway when I saw an exit sign for the town of Kingsport, Tennessee. And that is the. Town to which my [00:39:00] abuser was sent after he left our church, and it just sent me over the edge. Mm-hmm. All of a sudden I'm thinking, I'm in the town where he lives. Am I close to his house? Am I close to the church where he's now a minister? I mean, even though it'd been 27 years, I thought he was probably still there. I didn't know, but that's what my mind was telling me. I, all of a sudden I felt his presence in the car. I, I could smell him. I could hear him. Oh. I was, it was unbelievable to me what was happening to me. I didn't even know what was happening. I pulled to the side of the road Oh, good. And I sobbed. Yeah. I sobbed for about 20 minutes and I was just trying to figure out what was happening because anytime I had trigger factors before I could manage them, I could control them. I kind of let them happen and then I push 'em back down. Mm-hmm. This one wasn't going back down and I was a mess. I was just an absolute mess. I was able to get through the weekend. I drove back home and all I could think about was, what am I gonna do? What am I gonna do? [00:40:00] I wanted to stop thinking about him and I couldn't. I spent the next two weeks, really in anxiety. I, my husband would leave for work and I would just walk around the house, wring my hands, trying to figure out why I was feeling the way I was feeling. What was I gonna do with these feelings till at one point I finally decided I was gonna tell my best friend, and I was absolutely petrified to tell her because for the first time in 27 years, I was going to utter the words. I was sexually abused by my youth pastor. And I remember thinking, he's gonna find out and I'm gonna get in trouble. I just, I was 49 years old and I'm still afraid of this man. But I did tell her, it was, it took me a long time to, to get the words out, but I did, she was very supportive. She was very kind. She was patient as she waited for me to tell her. And so that started my journey of healing just by telling that first person. I then told two or three other of my close friends, so the four of us spent [00:41:00] many days and many hours on the screened in porch of one of my friends just letting me talk. Mm-hmm. And being able to express what had happened to me. I wasn't ready to tell all of the story. I mean, there's parts in the book that I won't go into here because they're pretty mm-hmm. Embarrassing and some things that I did. So I wasn't ready to tell them everything, but I told them enough that it helped me start to release what had been done to me. And so that was the first thing that I did, I think. And then the next thing I did, which was so valuable, and I encouraged victims to do it as well, I just read everything I could on clergy abuse or sexual abuse in itself. So I began to learn the terms of grooming, manipulation, gaslighting, and then I could see how he methodically used each one of those things on me to get me to do the things he got me to do, and to stay in that relationship for those five years. And that was huge for me. So [00:42:00] it was, for the first time as I began reading, I understood that I had been abused. Now, it still took me a while to admit that I really was sexually abused because I didn't want that label. I didn't wanna be an abuse victim. And there was a part of me. We all wanna be loved. And so there was still a part of me that I wanted to think that there was some part of him that cared about me, that this wasn't just purely about sex and that he wasn't just using me for his own gratification. And I had to get past that. I had to finally come to terms with, no, this man didn't do the no one who loves you, would do the things he did and ask the things he did of me. So that took me a while, to finally admit, okay, this was an abusive relationship. So I told someone, educating myself, and then I had to learn to forgive myself. I had to let, I had to let go of the guilt [00:43:00] and shame because any guilt and shame belongs squarely on him. This was a man that I should have been able to trust. It was in a place that should have been the safest place on earth for me. And he took advantage of a vulnerable teenager who had, I didn't have a major crisis in my life, but he knew my home life was an upheaval at times. He knew that I didn't see my dad very much. So he used that to against me. And I had to forgive myself for being who I was at the time and being able to respond the way I did for the coping skills I had at the time. Sure. You can look back. I, and I think, why didn't I say this? Why didn't I do that? But I couldn't because of, of the re of the relationship he had created between us. Mm-hmm. I had lost all power. He was in complete control of this relationship, so I had to forgive myself and that wasn't easy either. Then, and I don't know that this is something all victims should do, but I just felt this need [00:44:00] that I needed to confront him. I just felt like I couldn't move past this unless I was able to face him. Now, I had no contact with him for 27 years. I didn't even know if he was still alive, but I hired a private investigator and he found him ministering in a church in Alabama. And so I had my investigator contact him and we set up a time and a meeting that we would meet. And I took my husband, I took my friend who was a counselor and another friend who was at the church at the time. Um, I wanted her at this point. You told your husband at this point, I'm sorry. Yes, that's correct. I, it was probably three months after I told my friends, that I said to him I would like to meet him in his office and talked to him about something and. I was terrified. I don't know how else to say it. I just was so afraid. Not that I needed to be, but I was. And I probably sat there for almost, [00:45:00] I would say, 40 minutes and just cried. I was able to finally get out. I'm okay, the kids are okay, and then I started crying again. He couldn't have been any more supportive, more loving. I remember looking at his face and I said I was sexually abused by my youth pastor, and he didn't. His expression didn't change, and then I said. I was their babysitter and his face just dropped. And for the first time, I could see the pain I was feeling was reflected in his face. It was, I almost wanted to hug him to say, I'm sorry. 'cause I could see how much it hurt him to know that this had been done to me, especially as a baby. I mean, the picture became complete for him once I said that. And so he was very supportive. I think he was worried about me confronting this man, for a couple reasons. But one, I think he was worried that I would be disappointed in his reaction, and that I would be expecting too much of this [00:46:00] person to understand what he did to me and show any kind of remorse, and that I, it would hurt me even more. And one of my fears was that, I was afraid he wouldn't meet me. I was afraid that he was gonna say, no, I'm not gonna meet with you. And my husband said, oh, he's gonna meet with you all right? Because if he doesn't meet with you, you just tell him. Call the church secretary. We'll call every elder. We're gonna, he, somebody's gonna hear your story if he doesn't want to hear it. So he did agree to meet with me. I went down to Alabama and the meeting took place and I said the things that I wanted to say to him. I wanted him to get what he did to me. But he didn't, he never could understand the damage. It was almost as if, okay, I shouldn't have done it and I'm sorry I did it. Okay, now what do you want? It was, get away. You bother me? Yes. And his greatest fear as most narcissist, and I believe he was, narcissistic, but his greatest fear was that I was going to demand that he be removed from the ministry. I mean, that's what he [00:47:00] was most concerned about, how this was going to impact him. And he should have been out of the ministry. So I went to his. Boss. I was told this, and something happened 27 years ago. He, we think he's safe. We're not worried, in spite of the fact that during the meeting he had admitted that there had been multiple occurrences of sexual misconduct throughout his ministry. Not all teenagers, some were most were probably women. And then he said he had gone to therapy because he had been identified as a sexual addict. And I kept thinking, who, what? What world, what world? Does this make sense that a man who has been identified by a psychologist as a sex addict belongs in the ministry? Nope. But here was this church. So I sent a letter to his 11 elders thinking, okay, somebody in this eldership is gonna see this. Is I something's wrong here. Not one responded totally [00:48:00] ignored me. 11 elders totally ignored me. Wow. No worries. So then, I decided to go to his denominational leaders, which were in Indianapolis. And there again, while they were sympathetic to my story and apologize that it happened, they said, we're an independent church. Our churches hire and fire their own ministers. We have no control and if they choose to keep this man, we can do nothing about it. And so what, I was shut down and basically I had no place else to go. I had pretty much. Done everything I could do. And it wasn't my place in the man that he be removed. I expected the church to be, the church was to do the right thing. Exactly. I assumed so naively that once they heard my story and once they understood the background of this man, surely someone would say, this isn't right. But again, keep in mind he's very charismatic. He brings in [00:49:00] people, he brings in money. And to be fair, and probably I'm being a little too gracious, these men are very good at manipulating not only the victim but the congregation as well. They're very good at getting control of the congregation so that they find themselves following this man no matter what he would do. Yeah. And that's basically what happened. There was going to be, I got a four page letter from his boss telling me that, know, I'm going to. Ruin this church if I continue on this path and that I'm going to feel all this guilt because I'm gonna be responsible for the damage that I will do to pe people's spiritual lives. I mean that, it was an incredible, I put the letter in the book, I, because it is so incredibly, hard to believe that someone write that to a victim of abuse. Just So that was What year did that happen? 2004. Okay. So we did have. We did have the internet. Oh, yes. And this was after the Catholic, [00:50:00] church had their, exposure of sexual abuse within their church. So yes, this was, it was out there for sure. This wasn't something that you would think, oh, I can't believe this happened. And again, he had admitted to these past instances. I mean, this wasn't someone who was saying, oh, I don't know what she's talking about. Or, oh, this is the only time it ever happened. He had been in therapy because he was a sexual addict, So he wasn't registered as a sex offender? I guess not. And in my case, at the time of the abuse, the age of consent was 16. So I had no legal recourse because of I was either legally age of consent. Now that has been changed in Ohio. It's now 18. It's now 18, but many states it's still 16. There are several states where the age of consent is 16. Now, the interesting about that is. His contact sexual contact with me was not considered a crime. However, if he had been my high school teacher, it would've been a crime. What, so pastors I know [00:51:00] does not make sense. It does not make a leg of sense. No, it does not. So it, they don't consider him a teacher. They don't cons, they don't, they considered an affair. A mutual. Relationship if he'd been my teacher, that's a different story. So yeah, I had no legal recourse. And that was frustrating. But I couldn't change that. So it was what it was. I just had to accept that he, yes, he belonged in jail. Yes, there's no doubt and should be registered as a sex offender, but I'm not so sure that even if he's registered as a sex offender, these people in Alabama and wherever he is now, would. Even take that as a concern. Well, you know, the millennials now, they'll just, they just post stuff on Facebook and Twitter and call the evening news and they have, yes. News people at their doorstep, right. Ready to mm-hmm. Track this guy's name through the mud. Mm-hmm. But you didn't choose to do that, I guess. No, you know, I'm very careful about naming him in the sense that, part of my story is that I [00:52:00] reconnected with his wife. She actually divorced him after they moved, because again, he committed sexual misconduct. She was 20, I think, at the time, so it wasn't a minor, but that's beside the point. This is a man in a position that, a professional who does not cross boundaries like that. So, to no one surprise, he committed sexual misconduct the third time, so she divorced him. And part of, I guess letting go of some of the guilt that I felt, I wanted to. Connect with her to at least tell her, not that I was responsible for what happened, but how very sorry I was for her pain and suffering as well because she was part of the youth group. I mean, she was there at the church all the time. We sang in the choir together. So it was like I had a relationship with her. Oh wow. To some extent. And of course when, we were found, when he was found out by the elders, she was upset and she of course, didn't wanna have anything to do with me, which is understandable. So I actually think I [00:53:00] also wanted to give her the opportunity to say whatever she felt she needed to say to me if she wanted to. I mean, I didn't know what she was gonna say or react. I thought maybe she'd hang up on me. I didn't know. So I called her one day. My investigator found her phone number and gave it to me, and she couldn't have been any more gracious. I, she never blamed me. She understood as she, as the years went on, what this really was just like I did. She's remarried. She's has a wonderful husband now. And so I visited her several times. We keep in contact. And so part of my not wanting to expose him too much is that it would be hurtful to her. And he does have children. Now. I know that, well, whatever consequences are as a result of this are all on him, but I don't feel the need to add to that. That's not my purpose in speaking out. And so, mm-hmm. I've gone to his church leaders, I've done everything I can to get him removed from the ministry. And nothing, it's just [00:54:00] he's still, I don't know that he's still a pastor, but he still remains in good standing within that denomination to this day. Yeah. I mean, sometimes we have to just let God. Right. Dish out the justice. It may not be in our timeline, it may not be the way that we think it should happen, but Right. He's not gonna get away with this. No. And again, I did my part. Yes. So my conscience is clear and I am able to say I did what I could do and whether or not they removed him, I certainly hope that I maybe put some doubt in some of their minds and maybe questioned their motives in keeping this man. I don't know. But, I feel I did what I could do and I feel good about that. I feel good about that. Absolutely, you should. And what I'm really interested in is, you're trying to keep this stuff from happening to other people, so, I mean, what can we do to prevent some of this stuff? Well, it's [00:55:00] difficult again, because these men are among us as wolves in sheep's clothing, and so they're difficult to spot. But a couple things. I think the first thing I would tell people is if something doesn't seem right. Keep your antenna up. Don't just ignore it or just don't think, oh, well that can't be true because he's the pastor. Mm-hmm. If it's behavior that you wouldn't accept in someone else, or it's something that you would question in someone else, then question it in the pastor or the choir director, whoever it is. Don't be blinded by the person. The persona that they're presenting to you. So that's the first thing I would say is keep your antenna up. The other thing is we, and we're churches, I think are doing better about this, but you've got to have policies in place that say, no, you're not taking a 16-year-old girl on your hospital visit with you. Yes. That's, that's not normal. That's not right. What is she doing going on a hospital visit with you in a car? And of course now we have the texting [00:56:00] and there should be absolutely no texting between a pastor, a youth minister, and anyone in the congregation. And that includes, no, don't forget the meeting for the church luncheon. No, there should be no texting because you, it's too hidden and it's too easily moved to the next step. And that's how it starts. You know, all of the abuse when it's someone you know, it always starts with small things and subtle things. It doesn't, innocent things. Innocent things that, yeah, that, that are innocent. But so that's why, so no texting. Yeah. So put in the policy, those places of, when you take a 10-year-old child to the bathroom, you make sure there's another adult with you. Absolutely. That's for your safety as well as for the child's safety. Mm-hmm. So I, I think we need to be aware. And then I would also say watch for the vulnerable in your, among your church or your group. Watch for the kid that's got issues at home and is looking for a father figure. Be aware that they're going to be more susceptible to someone who's a predator and pay [00:57:00] attention to their cues and kind of keep in touch with them as well in a sense of asking questions and how they're doing and be the kind of a person that they might feel comfortable coming to if something were to happen to them because they're the ones that are gonna be most vulnerable, to a predator. So that's kind of, an overview of what. Maybe a help to try and stop and prevent some of this. Yes, I like lots of video cameras. They're cheap now. You can put a camera, you can hide cameras all over the church facility and Yes. And I think too, talking to this about this issue to the congregation before anything happens, maybe having a person in your congregation who is the go-to person on this topic, who, who's researched what all these grooming and manipulation is so that they are even more equipped to, to notice the signs. So you have a person who's kind of in charge of that topic and then address it to the congregation once a year and say, here's our policy and here's what we expect of our pastors and here's what we would hope you would [00:58:00] do if you notice something. So it just brings it out so that people feel like if there is something that they know is going on or something's wrong, they feel comfortable going to someone about it. Those are all really great tips for leaders and, church members. So what, what if I am listening and I am being subjected to some of this stuff, what should I do? Well, what you need to do and what is the hardest thing to do is to tell someone. Yeah. And it's hard to do because when you're in an abusive relationship, you are being controlled by your abuser. And the narrative is what he is directing. And so he's going to tell you, look, you can tell anybody you want. They're not gonna believe you. And he tells you that over and over again. He's also going to tell you that you are going to be in trouble if you tell anyone. And then there's that problem of you sort [00:59:00] of care about this person. Here's someone that has been helping you, who's been your mentor, and you don't wanna get him in trouble. So with all those dynamics involved, it's very difficult for victims to come forward. But I am telling you, you don't wanna wait the 27 years that I did no. And live with this guilt and the shame and the angst and the anxiety. First of all, it's not worth it. You're not doing anyone any favors, especially yourself, because there is help out there. But they can only help you if you're able to be able to tell someone. And believe me, I understand how difficult that is. It's not easy. Mm-hmm. But I would hope that I hearing my story and others that you will understand that there is help out there and you need to tell someone. 'cause it won't end until you tell someone. And if you need to, you go to someone that you trust. And if you need to, you go outside the church. Yes. You tell someone you know is going to listen to you. [01:00:00] Hey, I tell my listeners, you can call me anytime mm-hmm. And email me and I'm sure you'd say the same thing. Exactly. Reach out to Sandy if mm-hmm. You need somebody to talk to. Mm-hmm. Or you don't know what is the next step I need to take here? Right. It is scary to make First step. It's very scary. Very scary. Absolutely. So then there's the rest of us, those that have not experienced clergy abuse, maybe we're members in the church, maybe we're friends or family. What are some helpful things for us to do to support a victim? Helpful things to say, maybe there's things we shouldn't say, well, that's a yes. First, I would say anytime you're aware of a victim of clergy abuse or anybody who's been abused, whether it's clergy or not, reiterate to that victim that it was not their fault and that there was nothing they could have done, should have done that would've prevented this. And by doing that, you are [01:01:00] telling that person they're free to speak to you. And victims need to hear it over and over again because we do blame ourselves. Children as young as five will blame themselves because they allowed someone to touch them 'cause mommy said not to. And the that guilt in that shame that victims carry, it's difficult to let go of it. So to hear someone say to us, it's not your fault is so freeing. So that's the first thing. The second thing I would say is. Let them know that you will listen to them without judging them, and you will hear their story without being shocked that you are able to say, tell me everything you need to tell me, or Tell me as little as you wanna tell me. Give them a comfort place to go to talk. And then I would say, and this is difficult for people who have spiritual lives or who are part of the church, be very much aware that things such as prayer and Bible reading and [01:02:00] scripture can be very triggering for those who've been abused in the church. Mm-hmm. So things that you would find comforting like prayer. Can be a very major trigger factor for victims. And so instead of saying to a victim, I'll pray for you, or Can I pray with you? The best thing you could say would be to phrase it in such a way as to say, I understand because of what you've been through, prayer can be difficult. And so I would like to pray for you, but I would completely understand if you don't want to pray or you won't, don't even want me to pray for you. And so you've opened up the door to say to this person, wow, I don't have to feel guilty because I can't pray. You know, when we've grown up in the church and we've been told how wonderful church and prayer and all those things are, we still carry that guilt too because we're no longer connected to God. So to have a person on the outside. Recognize that these can be trigger factors is again, a gift. It's a [01:03:00] gift. So those things I think would be the most helpful when dealing with a person of clergy abuse. And give them time. Don't push forgiveness. Don't push trying to get them back into church. 'cause some victims will never be able to go back to church if you let them find their own pace of time and you do it without judging them. And I know that's kind of hard sometimes for Christians and people in the church because we love the church and we find it to be such a wonderful place and we want this person back in the church. Yes. But it, it may not be the best place at that point for that victim. Such valuable advice. I That is awesome. And again, back to like, when you're talking about the sex education, open up the dialogue, you know? Yeah. Bring it up. Bring it up before they bring it up. Again, I read in the newspaper that this girl was molested by, a gym teacher. You know that, that ha I know that happens. And then let 'em know that if. It is, like you said, allowing that comfort to be able to [01:04:00] talk to someone. I think for me it was important to give my side of the story. No one had a clue that he was emotionally and verbally and physically abusive to me. They saw this as a little love affair and that we had this, magic little love affair. Evil temptress. Yes, exactly. And so I wanted them to know the full story. That was important for my healing too. And they did that. And, they welcomed me back to the church. I went back, I've been back a couple times for, a youth group reunion that we had. So, and that was difficult. But again, I thought that was necessary for me to move forward. I had to let go of my past. I had to figure out, not to forget it, but how was I going to incorpo

Why not finish the year with a geek-strength pile-on: we've got everything from robot cars freezing up in blackouts to electric Jeeps blowing up in garages, rich fat girls getting high and running over the NYPD, the importance of being prepared for your adventure (whether at sea in your sweet fishing boat or on-trail in your busted up rock rig), and electric school busses that can't keep kids warm (let alone work on hills, in the cold, with a load, or in any municipality's budget).  There's also a maddening report on the ongoing inability of bureaucrats to make the Dem's watermelon nightmare of electric everything actually work (stupid physics always getting in the way).  More: another way that pinko Chinese manufacturing is destroying the free world, and some analysis of the problem posed by folks who think the Second Amendment is a second-class right (or don't even have one in backsliding nations like Australia) and that bans on guns will stop the evil in a man's heart (when it just stops law-abiding citizens from defending themselves). Going for broke: a rare exception to the Good Soundtrack/Bad Movie Rule, an Excellent Weirdo R.I.P. for Gil Gerrard (Buck Rogers his own damn self), some Morty & Rick, and music from the Chemical Bros., Prodigy, Bio-Mechanical Degeneration, Josh Wink, Naked Funk, Soul Coughing, Poker Face, Mirwais and Korn.

Why not finish the year with a geek-strength pile-on: we've got everything from robot cars freezing up in blackouts to electric Jeeps blowing up in garages, rich fat girls getting high and running over the NYPD, the importance of being prepared for your adventure (whether at sea in your sweet fishing boat or on-trail in your busted up rock rig), and electric school busses that can't keep kids warm (let alone work on hills, in the cold, with a load, or in any municipality's budget).  There's also a maddening report on the ongoing inability of bureaucrats to make the Dem's watermelon nightmare of electric everything actually work (stupid physics always getting in the way).  More: another way that pinko Chinese manufacturing is destroying the free world, and some analysis of the problem posed by folks who think the Second Amendment is a second-class right (or don't even have one in backsliding nations like Australia) and that bans on guns will stop the evil in a man's heart (when it just stops law-abiding citizens from defending themselves). Going for broke: a rare exception to the Good Soundtrack/Bad Movie Rule, an Excellent Weirdo R.I.P. for Gil Gerrard (Buck Rogers his own damn self), some Morty & Rick, and music from the Chemical Bros., Prodigy, Bio-Mechanical Degeneration, Josh Wink, Naked Funk, Soul Coughing, Poker Face, Mirwais and Korn.

Caller Questions & Discussion: Becky challenges us in the New Year to reduce the amount of time to get out of a bad state of mind with help from Ephesians 4. Should I separate from my husband to overcome my unforgiveness? My husband left a month ago; what can I do if he blames me and doesn’t like confrontation? How can I help my daughter-in-law? My son is a narcissist and verbally abusive to her.

Block Day 26 Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather     LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

Explore how AI is transforming consumer goods execution with Arvind Mathur, AWS Executive in Residence, and Anupam Sinha, CEO and Co-founder of Vxceed. Anupam reveals how Consumer Packed Goods (CPG) companies are leveraging predictive AI, generative AI, and agentic AI to close the execution reality gap that has plagued traditional trade for decades—turning delayed insights into real-time market responsiveness. From preventing stock-outs to achieving autonomous trade promotion optimization, discover how forward-thinking leaders are protecting market share against digital-first insurgent brands penetrating traditional retail channels. Learn why your field execution strategy—powered by AI that delivers actionable intelligence—has become your most critical competitive advantage in markets where traditional trade still drives 95% of volume.

This episode is a wide-ranging conversation about how coffee businesses support people at different stages, from new partners to experienced teams. Marc joins the show to talk about wholesale, training, and why the goal isn't to force one “right” way of doing things, but to help partners find systems that actually work for their reality. Along the way, the conversation touches on craft, technology, and hospitality — how simplicity can be more empowering than complexity, why consistency matters more than perfection, and how good tools and thoughtful training help teams take better care of guests. At its core, the episode is about meeting people where they are and building coffee programs that balance quality, accessibility, and real-world execution.

Welcome back to another episode of Stay True Podcast! This week, Madi sits down with Dr. Henry Cloud, psychologist, New York Times bestselling author, and trusted voice on emotional and spiritual health, for a powerful conversation on boundaries, growth, and the courage it takes to let go. Together, they unpack why some endings are not failures but necessary steps toward the life God is inviting you into. From relationships and seasons to habits and expectations, Dr. Cloud shares practical wisdom on discerning when it's time to hold on and when it's time to move forward in faith. Always remember to stay you and stay true. Questions/topics discussed and answered: • What "necessary endings" really are and why they matter • How boundaries protect growth, freedom, and purpose • Knowing when a season, relationship, or habit needs to end • The role of wisdom, faith, and emotional health in decision-making • How to move forward without guilt, fear, or shame • Practical tools for creating healthy, God-honoring boundaries AND SO MUCH MORE! Helpful Resources: For More From Dr. Cloud: https://www.boundaries.me Necessary Endings by Dr. Henry Cloud: https://a.co/d/00tGTon How to Get a Date Worth Keeping by Dr. Henry Cloud: https://a.co/d/e9UpR0J Dare To Be True by Madison Prewett Troutt: https://a.co/d/gdfpHX5 Stay True Website: https://www.staytruepodcast.com Stay True Merch: https://www.staytruepodcast.com/merch Glorify: Get full access all year for just $29.99 at glorify-app.com/STAYTRUE Connect with Stay True!

Caller Questions & Discussion: Marc discusses what it looks like for a parent to let go by offering their children freedom, and he gives the example of Jesus going missing when he was a child in Jerusalem. A few months ago, I realized I'm a covert narcissist, my family had me admitted to a mental health facility, and I threatened suicide; what do I do now? If I receive a blessing from God, but then turn around and don't accept the blessing; do you have any insight into that? I'm a single mom in love with a man in meth recovery, and I struggle with anxious attachment; what can I do? My bipolar nephew and his pregnant wife moved in with my stepmother and me; since it's her house, am I supposed to stand up for her?

Quiet weather..... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

For insurance agents and brokers, being a trusted advisor is the holy grail of professionalism. When your clients rely on you for advice, you are creating value for them beyond the insurance policy.Becoming a trusted advisor means that you are bringing wisdom and advice, and that it is thoughtful, precise, and predominantly accurate. Over time, your credibility goes up, and credibility is a major pillar of trust.In this Profiles in Risk episode, Nick spoke with Marketing Expert Paula Warden and Zywave's Director of Content Cloud Jamie Nelson about how agents and brokers can become subject matter experts and thought leaders using content strategies. They specifically looked into using Zywave's Content Cloud library with examples from both Jaime and Paula on how agencies and brokerages have successfully used these strategies to drive inbound traffic, leading to new business opportunities.Slapping ChatGPT into your agency for content development is not the solution to becoming a thought leader using content...it will likely produce a lot of erroneous information, that could be counterproductive. Content Cloud uses thought leaders to generate the content for you to then share with your marketplace. A useful feature to have for agencies looking to driving inbound traffic and wishing to remain lean and mean.Zywave Content Cloud Website:https://www.zywave.com/content-cloud/Paula Warden - https://www.linkedin.com/in/paula-warden-44904912/Jaime Nelson - https://www.linkedin.com/in/jamienelsonwi/

Happy Holidays, Cloud 9fin listeners! We hope you're enjoying some much-needed down time as we prepare for what is to come in 2026. But for those who have a few more odds and ends to tend to, here's one last episode of Syndication Nation, our leveraged finance-focused podcast series to keep us company.In this episode, 9fin senior levfin reporter Dan Mika sits down with Mitch Garfin, co-head of leveraged finance at BlackRock, to discuss the dynamic landscape of high-yield bonds and leveraged loans as we approach the new year.They explore the trends in bond issuance, the shift towards leveraged loans, and the impact of monetary policy on the market. Mitch shares insights on the evolving credit landscape, the role of private credit, and the anticipated challenges and opportunities in the coming year. Tune in for a deep dive into the world of liquid credit and what lies ahead for investors and issuers alike.Have any questions? Send us a note at podcast@9fin.com. Thanks for listening!

A lot changed in the world of Cloud and AI this year. And then it changed some more, and some more, and so more. The only constant was change. SHOW: 988SHOW TRANSCRIPT: The Cloudcast #988 TranscriptSHOW VIDEO: https://youtube.com/@TheCloudcastNET CLOUD NEWS OF THE WEEK: http://bit.ly/cloudcast-cnotwCHECK OUT OUR NEW PODCAST: "CLOUDCAST BASICS"SHOW NOTESIT WAS AN INTERESTING YEAR IN CLOUD AND AI TECHNOLOGYAI has become a mainstream technology, political and social talking pointAI went through 7yrs of news cycles in 1 yrDeepSeek - Maybe NVIDIA chips aren't needed?NVIDIA acquihired Grok and their technologyMaybe AWS' lead in the cloud is now in questionGoogle got their act together with GenAI, after inventing the technology in 2017Microsoft and OpenAI sort of broke up, or at least they are seeing other peopleOpenAI forecasts 100x their current revenue in future computing needsThe US Gov't either bailed out, or socialized IntelBitcoin - 94k, up to 125k, down to 84kFEEDBACK?Email: show at the cloudcast dot netTwitter/X: @cloudcastpodBlueSky: @cloudcastpod.bsky.socialInstagram: @cloudcastpodTikTok: @cloudcastpod

168 Breaking Taboos: Talking About Death with Gabby Jimenez  In this episode of Hospice Explained, host Marie Betcher RN, a registered nurse and former hospice nurse, interviews Gabrielle Jimenez, a hospice and palliative care nurse, end-of-life doula, grief educator, and author. Gabby shares her journey from commercial real estate to nursing, witnessing nearly 2000 last breaths, and discusses the importance of human-centered care in hospice. The episode also covers the challenges and rewards of starting a nursing career later in life, the need for earlier hospice care, and supporting parents losing a child. Highlighting Gabby's intention to create a safe place through her Facebook community 'The Hospice Heart,' this episode emphasizes the critical role of compassion and education in end-of-life care. 00:00 Introduction to Hospice Explained 00:46 Meet Gabrielle Jimenez: Hospice Nurse and Doula 02:01 Gabrielle's Journey to Hospice Care 10:12 The Role of a Doula in End-of-Life Care 17:01 Challenges and Changes in Hospice Care 21:38 The Importance of Discussing Death and Dying 24:04 Celebrating Life and Death in New Orleans 24:37 Organizing Funeral Food 25:51 A Funny Story About My Dad's Funeral 27:20 Reflecting on My Mother's Death 29:13 Dealing with Family Drama During Funerals 32:12 Advice for Handling Grief and Family Dynamics 39:08 Supporting Parents Losing a Child 43:46 Conclusion and Final Thoughts  https://www.thehospiceheart.net/   If you want to help, you can donate to help support Hospice Explained at the Buy me a Coffee link   https://www.buymeacoffee.com/Hospice  Hospice Explained Affiliates & Contact Information Buying from these Affilite links will help support this Podcast.  Maire introduces a partnership with Suzanne Mayer RN inventor of the  cloud9caresystem.com,  When patients remain in the same position for extended periods, they are at high risk of developing pressure injuries, commonly known as bedsores. One of the biggest challenges caregivers face is the tendency for pillows and repositioning inserts to easily dislodge during care.(Suzanne is a former guest on Episode #119) When you order with Cloud 9 care system, please tell them you heard about them from Hospice Explained.(Thank You)  If you would, you can donate to help support Hospice Explained at the Buy me a Coffee link  https://www.buymeacoffee.com/Hospice Marie's Contact Marie@HospiceExplained.com www.HospiceExplained.com   Finding a Hospice Agency 1. You can use Medicare.gov to help find a hospice agency, 2. choose Find provider 3. Choose Hospice 4. then add your zip code This should be a list of Hospice Agencies local to you or your loved one.

A quiet shift begins when a lifelong member of the Churches of Christ realizes that his faith life, rich in study and careful exegesis, struggles to move from mind to heart. Brandon Marlow's story traces the Restoration Movement's ideals—erase denominational lines, do Bible things in Bible ways, and speak where Scripture speaks. Those guiding slogans shaped a culture suspicious of creeds, titles, instruments, and anything not “authorized.” The result formed disciplined habits, robust Bible study, and close-knit congregations. Yet the same strengths could narrow imagination and flatten mystery. A low view of the Holy Spirit's personal activity and an intellectual approach to faith left little language for awe, beauty, or sacrament. Brandon describes how good intentions produced a protective fence, but often fenced out wonder.His turning came when he stepped into preaching during a pastoral vacancy. Wanting holiness to match responsibility, he searched for time-tested disciplines: daily prayers, fasting rhythms, and a pattern of worship that stretches the soul. He found them in Orthodoxy. Prayer books spoke soberly about judgment and mercy, teaching him to remember ultimate things every day. Memorizing whole psalms, not just proof texts, reoriented his inner life. Icons startled him. Venerating the Ascension icon, his heart rose in praise, not just his mind in assent. He realized devotion is learned by doing—beauty tutors love, and ritual teaches reverence. Where logic said “believe,” the Church taught him to behold, adore, and belong.Scripture did not shrink; it deepened. Listening to Orthodox homilies, he felt less “interpretation” and more unveiling. Texts clicked into place as part of a living Tradition, the same bloodstream that nourished the Fathers he had once mined for citations. C.S. Lewis had cracked the door years earlier, proving that Christian wisdom could move the affections without verse labels in every line. Meeting the Fathers as pastors—Ignatius, Polycarp, and more—showed him a church that loved, bled, and prayed as one body. Their worlds made sense of bones cherished as gold, not as superstition, but as love made tangible in the saints who fed, blessed, and shepherded their flock.The Eucharist became the center of gravity. In his upbringing, communion was precious yet rushed, migrating from homemade bread to sealed cups as the table drifted to the side. Reverence thinned as routine took hold. In Orthodoxy, he discovered preparation before, prayer during, and gratitude after. The chalice, spoon, and altar were holy because the Lord gives himself there—Body and Blood, Presence not symbol. Approaching the chalice for the first time felt like approaching fire. He stepped forward in obedience and love, realizing this is why Christ died: communion. From there, everything else reframed—ascetic practices, feasts and fasts, the calendar that walks believers through the life of Christ, and the solidarity of Holy Week that exhausts, burns, and resurrects a community together.From “people of the book” to people of the Book and the Table, he discovered that truth is not only argued; it is adored, sung, tasted, and shared. The heart learns by worship as much as the mind learns by words, and both find their home when Scripture meets Sacrament in the life of the Church.Questions about Orthodoxy? Please check out our friends at Ghost of Byzantium Discord server: https://discord.gg/JDJDQw6tdhPlease prayerfully consider supporting Cloud of Witnesses Radio: https://www.patreon.com/c/CloudofWitnessesFind Cloud of Witnesses Radio on Instagram, X.com, Facebook, and TikTok.Please leave a comment with your thoughts!

Want to build your own website but don't know how to code? This episode is for you.Join JJ and Bubble expert Gio as they show how beginners can use AI-powered tools to design, build, and launch a personal website from scratch — for free.You'll learn how Vibe Coding works, how AI can help you write and edit code, and how tools like Cursor make building websites feel approachable, even if you've never coded before. JJ also shares his own journey from no-code tools to AI-assisted development, showing how anyone can level up their skills.By the end, you'll understand how to preview your site locally, save your work with GitHub, and deploy a live website on the internet — all with AI helping every step of the way.Perfect for students, creators, and curious beginners who want to build real projects using AI.What you'll learn:• What “Vibe Coding” is and why it's beginner-friendly• How AI helps you write, edit, and understand code • How to preview your website before publishing• How to host a personal website for free• How no-code and AI tools work togetherTimestamps:00:00 What is Vibe Coding?00:33 Gio's experience getting started03:59 Intro to GitHub (no stress)06:04 Creating and managing projects13:34 Using Cursor to build locally16:00 Editing and previewing with AI26:18 Deploying with Cloud tools28:30 Publishing your site live32:16 No-code vs AI-assisted building41:50 Where AI and no-code are headed48:10 Final thoughts + course update

ASUG CEO & Chief Community Champion, Geoff Scott, joins ASUG Talks this week to discuss three of the year's most critical theme--as revealed to us by our ASUG Talks agentic AI chatbot!Geoff and I also walked listeners throughout our own AI use case and reflected on the year's key themes and topics in the ASUG community. Key Insight:AI growth and innovation in the SAP ecosystem Cloud adoption among ASUG members ASUG's own agentic AI use case

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Caller Questions & Discussion: Dr. Sheri explains cognitive dissonance and why it is essential to take steps to protect and ground yourself after a spouse has betrayed you. Many people wonder how men and women can survive in a world with OnlyFans and AI girlfriends, and New Life LIVE radio hosts discuss strategies for maintaining healthy relationships. January sees a rise in breakups as many couples postpone ending relationships until after the holidays, and the radio hosts explain why this trend occurs. What should I do after confessing my infidelity to my husband? How can I heal my marriage and make things right? How can you support someone who is struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts? And what can they do themselves?

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Block Watch.... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

    Not much to say in this post other than here is part two of my favorite ambient albums of 2025. I'll also repost the full list here with links. Alexander Knaifel - Chapter Eight Almost An Island - Almost An Island Andrew Heath - Signals and Codes Anthéne & Simon McCorry - Wellspring Bill Brennan and Andy McNeill - Dreaming In Gamelan Byron Metcalf - Spiral Exchange Clarice Jensen - In holiday clothing, out of the great darkness Dictaphone - Unstable Emily A. Sprague - Cloud Time Erik M - Soft Wish Florian TM Zeisig - A New Life Lab's Cloud and Flavio Salvaje - Kalima Loneward - Musings of a Painted Sky M. Sage - Tender / Wading Martin Stürtzer - Nexus-6 offthesky - form.radio offthesky - Nocturnas Peter Gregson - Peter Gregson Rod Modell - Northern Michigan Snowstorms Seabuckthorn - A Path Within A Path Six Missing - Without Mind Steve Roach - The Reverent Sky Taylor Deupree & Zimoun - Wind Dynamic Organ, Deviations Xu - Murmurs of the Machine Yorkshire Modular Society + Peter Digby Lee - Beneath the Hanging Sky zakè - Silentium Here's to more excellent ambient music in 2026.   Cheers!     T R A C K L I S T : 00:00   Lab's Cloud and Flavio Salvaje - Sandwhistle (Kalima) 04:12   Byron Metcalf - Voices Of Vision (Spiral Exchange) 09:25   Seabuckthorn - Shadow Of The Land (A Path Within A Path) 12:15   Steve Roach - The Nuturing  Ground (The Reverent Sky) 20:10   Bill Brennan and Andy McNeill - Reverie (Dreaming In Gamelan) 23:35   Almost An Island - Perfume Gloves (Almost An Island) 27:40   Andrew Heath - Delegate 24 (Signals and Codes) 33:00   Anthéne & Simon McCorry - Summer's Glow (Wellspring) 37:20   Taylor Deupree & Zimoun - Deviation V (Wind Dynamic Organ, Deviations) 42:55   Xu - Echoes from the Ether (Murmurs of the Machine) 45:50   offthesky - form.radio 3 (form.radio) 50:12   zakè - Pax Animi [ft. Tyresta] (Silentium) 53:20   Loneward - Shrouded Sighs (Musings of a Painted Sky) 59:48   end

When end-of-the-year list season began I wasn't sure if I was going to do a favorite ambient albums list. I wasn't as locked into ambient as much this year as in the past. I spent most of my listening time in indie, jazz, and berlin-school. I had several ambient albums that would for sure make my list so I started with those and the next thing I knew - I had a list of 26 albums that are my 2025 favorites. Here are my favorite ambient albums of 2025, in alphabetical order: Alexander Knaifel - Chapter Eight Almost An Island - Almost An Island Andrew Heath - Signals and Codes Anthéne & Simon McCorry - Wellspring Bill Brennan and Andy McNeill - Dreaming In Gamelan Byron Metcalf - Spiral Exchange Clarice Jensen - In holiday clothing, out of the great darkness Dictaphone - Unstable Emily A. Sprague - Cloud Time Erik M - Soft Wish Florian T M Zeisig - A New Life Lab's Cloud and Flavio Salvaje - Kalima Loneward - Musings of a Painted Sky M. Sage - Tender Wading Martin Stürtzer - Nexus-6 offthesky - form.radio offthesky - Nocturnas Peter Gregson - Peter Gregson Rod Modell - Northern Michigan Snowstorms Seabuckthorn - A Path Within A Path Six Missing - Without Mind Steve Roach - The Reverent Sky Taylor Deupree & Zimoun - Wind Dynamic Organ, Deviations Xu - Murmurs of the Machine Yorkshire Modular Society + Peter Digby Lee - Beneath the Hanging Sky zakè - Silentium I made two mixes so it will be a little easier to digest. This post is for part one. I hope you enjoy this look back at 2025. Cheers! T R A C K L I S T : 00:00   Erik M. - Tall as Grass (Soft Wish) 03:55   Offthesky - Poised Above A Place (Nocturnas) 08:06   Rod Modell - Snowstorm In Munising (Snowstorm In Munising) 13:40   Emily A. Sprague - Osaka (Cloud Time) 19:23   Florian T M Zeisig - Earth Loop (A New Life) 21:00   M. Sage - Fracking Starlight (Tender / Wading) 26:18   Dictaphone - 122 (Unstable) 29:50   Six Missing - Sit Down and Play (Without Mind) 35:38   Peter Gregson - Prism (Peter Gregson) 38:37   Clarice Jensen - From A to B (In holiday clothing, out of the great darkness) 44:05   Alexander Knaifel - Chapter Eight: Stanza XXIII-XXXII (Chapter Eight) 49:15   Martin Sturtzer - Nexus-6 (Nexus-6) 55:30   Yorkshire Modular Society - Beneath the Hanging Sky (Beneath the Hanging Sky) 01:09:28   end

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Caller Questions & Discussion: Chris shares that he struggles to cry, but every Christmas Eve he gets the gift of tears. Let your tears teach you what is most important and most hopeful in life. Chris also shares that our emotions are a muscle; if his sad muscles get strengthened, then his resiliency for sadness increases. If you live your life to avoid loss, you will also avoid life. What are one or two ways to start trusting God when trusting anyone is difficult or feels impossible? I'm in a new church, and they've said you shouldn't really be in the presence of the opposite sex; how do I not let that throw me off spiritually?

Merry Christmas! Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

As we close out 2025 and prepare for 2026, Dr. Eric Cole breaks down what it truly takes to be a world-class CISO in the year ahead. In this episode of Life of a CISO, Dr. Cole shares hard-earned lessons on leadership, health, resilience, and why taking care of yourself is foundational to protecting your organization. From personal reflection to executive-level strategy, this episode goes far beyond technical controls. Dr. Cole then dives deep into the three forces reshaping cybersecurity in 2026: artificial intelligence, cloud reliability, and ransomware, all centered around one core principle that too many organizations ignore: data protection. You will learn why AI is an augmentation tool, not a replacement for humans, how unrestricted AI use is creating massive new risks, why recent cloud outages are a warning sign for every executive, and how CISOs can regain trust, influence, and a permanent seat at the boardroom table. This episode is essential listening for CISOs, security leaders, executives, and anyone responsible for protecting critical data in an increasingly unstable digital world. Part two of this series continues next week.  

From all of us at Cloud Realities, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! Back in our December 2022 Christmas special, we explored the far reaches of reality, asking whether we live in a simulation and if that even matters. Now, we return to that question with fresh perspectives and new challenges…In this last Cloud Realities podcast of 2025, Dave, Esmee and Rob return to the simulation with Anders Indset, philosopher, author, and long-time friend of the show, revisiting a question that's been quietly running underneath everything we've discussed since 2022: If reality itself is information and what does that mean for being human? TLDR:00:58 – It's Christmas!08:32 – Major announcement and reflections on the Cloud Realities podcast journey15:32 – Celebrating three big wins: B2B Marketing Awards (Best Content, Best Customer Retention) and The Drum (Best Creative Audio)22:55 – Is there a next thing?23:30 – Welcoming Anders Indset, who shares his vision for practical philosophy and the future of human/AI co-evolution32:02 – Exploring the Quantum Economy and the Singularity Paradox58:10 – Deep dive into the Simulation Hypothesis, revisiting the 2022 discussion and Rob is again confused...01:27:45 – Anders enjoying Christmas in the Norwegian wilderness01:29:40 – Edit pointGuestAnders Indset: https://www.linkedin.com/in/andersindset/ or andersindset.comAdditional information: thequantumeconomy.com and tomorrowmensch.comHostsDave Chapmanger: https://www.linkedin.com/in/chapmandr/Esmee van de Gluhwein: https://www.linkedin.com/in/esmeevandegiessen/Rob Snowmananahan: https://www.linkedin.com/in/rob-kernahan/ProductionDr Mike van Der Buabbles: https://www.linkedin.com/in/marcel-vd-burg/Dave Chapmanger: https://www.linkedin.com/in/chapmandr/ SoundBen Jingle: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ben-corbett-3b6a11135/Louis Snow:  https://www.linkedin.com/in/louis-corbett-087250264/ 'Cloud Realities' is an original podcast from Capgemini

Caller Questions & Discussion: Dr. Alice invites us to turn off our screens to put time and attention into our family. How do I cope with going no contact with my elderly parents for the second time? Their words aren't life-giving. I've been married for two years, and my wife is separated from me because my anxiety is stopping me from living life. Do I tell my teen kids that their mom is a narcissist so they can learn to cope? I struggled with marijuana addiction my whole life until I gave my life to Jesus!

On August 7, 2025, the Supreme Court of British Columbia delivered a decision that has captured international attention across Canada and indeed any country that has its legal system based on British Common Law.The Supreme Court ruled that 750 acres which now form part of the urban center of a Vancouver suburb have aboriginal land rights which precede the current system of land registration. They ruled that the title must be shared, but didn't say how. ----------------**Real Estate Espresso Podcast:** Spotify: [The Real Estate Espresso Podcast](https://open.spotify.com/show/3GvtwRmTq4r3es8cbw8jW0?si=c75ea506a6694ef1)   iTunes: [The Real Estate Espresso Podcast](https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/the-real-estate-espresso-podcast/id1340482613)   Website: [www.victorjm.com](http://www.victorjm.com)   LinkedIn: [Victor Menasce](http://www.linkedin.com/in/vmenasce)   YouTube: [The Real Estate Espresso Podcast](http://www.youtube.com/@victorjmenasce6734)   Facebook: [www.facebook.com/realestateespresso](http://www.facebook.com/realestateespresso)   Email: [podcast@victorjm.com](mailto:podcast@victorjm.com)  **Y Street Capital:** Website: [www.ystreetcapital.com](http://www.ystreetcapital.com)   Facebook: [www.facebook.com/YStreetCapital](https://www.facebook.com/YStreetCapital)   Instagram: [@ystreetcapital](http://www.instagram.com/ystreetcapital)  

Brown Christmas... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

Aaron and Brian review the Year in AI, hand out AI awards, and discuss the biggest AI trends from 2025. Maybe a few predictions will be made as well.SHOW: 987SHOW TRANSCRIPT: The Cloudcast #987 TranscriptSHOW VIDEO: https://youtube.com/@TheCloudcastNET CLOUD NEWS OF THE WEEK: http://bit.ly/cloudcast-cnotwCHECK OUT OUR NEW PODCAST: "CLOUDCAST BASICS"SHOW SPONSORS:SHOW NOTESCLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - NOV 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - OCT 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - SEPT 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - AUG 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - JUL 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - JUN 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - MAY 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - APR 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - MAR 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - FEB 2025 (show)CLOUD & AI NEWS OF THE MONTH - JAN 2025 (show)2025 AI YEAR IN REVIEWThe Year of OpenAIThe Year of NVIDIAThe Year of MicrosoftThe Year of GoogleThe Year of OracleThe Year of China AIThe Year of AppleThe Year of Coding Agents (Anthropic, Cursor, Windsurf, CLIs, etc..)The Year of Data CentersAI Highlights and Lowlights (Corporate Layoffs, Acquihires, Funding, etc..)2026 AI DraftFEEDBACK?Email: show at the cloudcast dot netTwitter/X: @cloudcastpodBlueSky: @cloudcastpod.bsky.socialInstagram: @cloudcastpodTikTok: @cloudcastpod

Conversion stories often get reduced to neat headlines, but the road from New Age spirituality to historic Christianity is usually messy, humbling, and deeply human. In this conversation, Michaela Nikolaenko  @MichaelaNikolaenko   lays out a candid record of life inside tarot, yoga, psychedelics, and an adulterous relationship that spiraled into a series of demonic encounters. The scenes are visceral—faces morphing, oppressive presences, and a stark battle of wills that ended with a shaky, embarrassed prayer to Jesus. That plea wasn't tidy, but it was decisive. What followed was a slow reconstruction: throwing out occult tools, breaking off a relationship that was corroding the soul, and letting Scripture set guardrails when fear of the dark felt nearer than hope. This is where the healing began: not with spectacle, but with obedience.Her path to a church wasn't linear. She tried a Catholic parish for holy water, sat with Mormon elders chasing answers about a “great mother,” and explored non-Christian traditions to avoid surrendering her favorite sins. None of it resolved the dread. A Protestant friend finally said, “Just come to church.” There she saw families, order, and women who would look her in the eyes and say the hard thing kindly: God isn't sending you someone else's spouse. Confession began informally in living rooms before it matured into sacrament. The Bible became less a slogan and more a survival guide. If she walked its way, the demonic stopped walking through her door.Yet she still needed peace about Jesus himself. It arrived as a dream: a suffocating abyss like hell, then a burst of light warming her body, air in the lungs, the face of Christ breaking through. That experience wasn't a lifestyle brand; it was rescue. Enter Orthodoxy, where the lives of the saints—Mary of Egypt, Moses the Black, Anthony the Great—normalized spiritual warfare and recovery. Reverence replaced adrenaline. The liturgy felt like work, sometimes literally painful, but that was the point. Worship isn't entertainment; it is labor of love that shapes desire. Emotional highs faded; steadiness grew. The church calendar, fasts, and feasts became a map for ordinary holiness.Practically, Michaela is now building resources for seekers leaving occult practices: short guides on tarot, moon rituals, psychedelics, and their spiritual costs through an Orthodox lens. The tone isn't sneering. She respects the honest desire that drove her to search in the wrong places and insists that God used even that confusion to guide her home. She urges listeners to read the Apostolic Fathers—Ignatius, Polycarp, the Didache—and to use accessible summaries when primary texts feel dense. The goal isn't trivia; it's rootedness. Along the way, we pressed into real-life questions: navigating reverence without chasing constant “feels,” and simple dating wisdom for Orthodox men—groom, work, pursue, and be brave. The final word is simple and ancient: come and see. Online content can spark curiosity, but only a parish can teach you to breathe again.Questions about Orthodoxy? Please check out our friends at Ghost of Byzantium Discord server: https://discord.gg/JDJDQw6tdhPlease prayerfully consider supporting Cloud of Witnesses Radio: https://www.patreon.com/c/CloudofWitnessesFind Cloud of Witnesses Radio on Instagram, X.com, Facebook, and TikTok.Please leave a comment with your thoughts!

Caller Questions & Discussion: Staying home and being isolated at Christmas? JJ shares what you can do to have joyful holidays. Should I reach out to the other grandmother of my grandson? Her son and my daughter used to date, and their young son is not living with my daughter. My son was raised by my mother as my brother, and he wants to stay with me at Christmas; should I let him? My young teen is being bullied for not using social media—how can I help? What should I do if I've been taking asthma medication that gives me suicidal thoughts?

West Coast Wet...Dry and mild east... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860

In this special Best of 2025 edition of the Tyler Tech Podcast, we revisit standout conversations from the past year — moments that highlight how resilience, cloud innovation, and artificial intelligence are reshaping the public sector.The episode begins with Cate Ryba, director of resident engagement at Tyler, who unpacks the many dimensions of government resilience, from organizational and operational readiness to cyber, fiscal, and disaster recovery planning. She explains why strong community connections and real-time resident engagement are foundational to building trust and navigating disruption.Next, Russell Gainford, Tyler's Chief Technology Officer, explores how cloud infrastructure gives governments the flexibility, redundancy, and scale to keep services running 24/7. His insights reveal how modern cloud environments create new possibilities for continuity, failover, and system reliability across interconnected public-sector operations.Turning to modernization, Mike Teeters, senior product manager, discusses how cloud technology helps agencies reduce workforce pressure, simplify upgrades, and scale effortlessly during peak periods — all while ensuring staff stay current with the latest capabilities.From there, Franklin Williams, president of the Data & Insights Division and deputy chief technology officer, explains why strong data governance is essential to the future of AI in government. Clean, discoverable, and authoritative data, he notes, is the key to enabling accurate insights and unlocking the potential of emerging agentic frameworks.Finally, Elliot Flautt, director of state data solutions, shares how governments are beginning to use AI to enhance transparency, streamline routine interactions, and guide residents to the services they need. He highlights the importance of secure, privacy-minded data practices in building the trustworthy AI systems that will increasingly support government operations.Whether you focus on technology strategy, data management, or community engagement, this best-of episode offers practical lessons on strengthening resilience, embracing cloud-driven modernization, and harnessing AI to serve communities more effectively.This episode also spotlights Tyler Connect 2026, where innovation and collaboration take center stage. Taking place April 7–10 at the Venetian Resort in Las Vegas. Connect brings together public sector professionals from across the country to explore new solutions, share ideas, and strengthen communities. It's a week dedicated to learning, connection, and imagining what's possible for the future of government technology. Explore registration details and early bird pricing in the show notes to start planning your Connect 2026 experience.Learn More and Register Now: Tyler Connect 2026 in Las VegasAnd learn more about the topics discussed in this episode with these resources:Download: Modern Governments Live in the CloudDownload: Building a Resilient GovernmentDownload: Digital Access and Accessibility in the Resident ExperienceDownload: Revolutionizing the Government Workforce With AIDownload: A Digital Guide to Modernizing the Resident ExperienceDownload: Cloud-Smart Strategies for IT Infrastructure ModernizationDownload: A Digital Government Guide to Effective Data StrategiesRead: How Cloud-Based Solutions Expand Access to State ServicesRead: Using Cloud-Based Solutions to Improve Access in CountiesRead: Boosting Resilience: Cloud Solutions for Modern GovernmentRead: Partnering With Communities to Build ResilienceRead: The Power of Data: Building Resilient and Responsive SystemsRead: Preparing for the Future of AI in GovernmentListen to other episodes of the podcast.Let us know what you think about the Tyler Tech Podcast in this survey!

This year's AWS re:Inforce conference was larger and fueled by greater agentic capabilities. Part of the 451 Research team that was at the conference, Henry Baltazar, Scott Crawford, William Fellows and Melanie Posey, join host Eric Hanselman to explore the announcements and progress that's been made in expanding agentic capabilities and much more. As an incumbent infrastructure provider, AWS is looking to the top of the infrastructure stack to secure their advantage. A suite of developer tools, including the Kiro IDE, are looking to make the creation and operation of agents simpler. There was progress in FinOps, with greater cost transparency and support for partner opportunities in helping customers manage their cloud spend.   There was also a more enthusiastic embrace of multicloud environments, with the introduction of AWS Interconnect, a service that provides easy and scalable interconnection with other cloud providers, with Google being the first and Microsoft Azure said to be in the works. 451 Research's Voice of the Enterprise (VotE) data shows dramatic increases in data migration volumes, making interconnection performance more critical. With the holidays in full swing, how many Mariah Carey song title references can you spot in this episode?   More S&P Global Content: Next in Tech episode 236: Data Migration Next in Tech episode 222:  FinOps AI for security: Agentic AI will be a focus for security operations in 2025   For S&P Global subscribers: 2026 Trends in Applied Infrastructure & DevOps Data Insight: SKU removals run out of steam — hyperscale SKU changes for November 2025 AWS' agentic strategy comes into focus with AgentCore platform and pre-built agents Cloud spending expansion on tap for 2026 despite bleak macroeconomic outlook – Highlights from VotE…   Credits: Host/Author: Eric Hanselman  Guests: Henry Baltazar, Scott Crawford, William Fellows, Melanie Posey Producer/Editor: Feranmi Adeoshun Published With Assistance From: Sophie Carr, Kyra Smith

Join us for the final episode of 2025 as Mark Tinderholt (Principal Software Engineer at Microsoft Azure, HashiCorp Ambassador, and author of "Mastering Terraform") teaches us Infrastructure as Code through Minecraft! If you've ever wanted to learn Terraform in a fun, visual way, this is the episode for you. Mark demonstrates how to use the Minecraft Terraform provider to build infrastructure in-game, making complex IaC concepts tangible and engaging. You'll see live demos of provisioning Minecraft resources, managing dependencies, handling state, and even importing existing structures into Terraform. This unique approach transforms abstract infrastructure concepts into something you can literally see and interact with—perfect for visual learners, educators, or anyone looking to make IaC training more engaging. Whether you're teaching your team Terraform or just want a creative way to understand infrastructure patterns, this episode shows you how gaming and cloud engineering can come together. Subscribe to vBrownBag for weekly tech education! ⸻ Timestamps 0:00 Welcome & Technical Difficulties 1:27 Last Episode of 2025! 4:41 Planning for 2026 5:37 Mark Tinderholt Joins 6:14 Introduction to Minecraft + Terraform 8:52 Why Use Minecraft for Teaching IaC? 12:35 Getting Started: Requirements & Setup 16:47 The Minecraft Terraform Provider 20:18 First Demo: Provisioning Basic Blocks 28:32 Managing State in Minecraft 35:41 Working with Dependencies 42:16 Advanced Patterns: For_each & Count 48:55 Importing Existing Structures 55:23 Real-World Applications & Teaching 1:00:17 Q&A: Provider Limitations & Features 1:05:24 Minecraft Level Building Tools Discussion 1:09:05 Final Giveaway & Wrap-Up How to find Mark: https://www.linkedin.com/in/marktinderholt/ Links from the show: Marks repos: https://github.com/markti?tab=repositories Marks book: https://amzn.to/3N1rnuJ Mark's Ignite talk: https://ignite.microsoft.com/en-US/sessions/7fa5095f-9f65-46e3-9f82-9af6603ea903

This week is a classic “how did we get here?” episode — starting with the pain of losing a recording, then jumping into what's been happening in our world, from a surprise New York Times mention to a hospitality-heavy event with Mazzer at Sightglass. We talk about what makes coffee service feel special without getting stuck in inside-baseball language, and how energy, flow, and intention can shape the whole experience. From there we spiral into specialty coffee in places built for speed, using Downtown Disney as the example: expectations, wait times, identity, and why “special” has to be obvious and deliver fast if it's going to work in high-volume environments. We close out nerding on espresso size and extraction trends — how coffee's swung from tiny ristretto culture to modern big shots — and what all of that says about where coffee (and our own work) is headed.

Caller Questions & Discussion: Marc shares about family dynamics and why it is so hard to be an adult when we go home for the holidays. I have full guardianship of my wife with severe depression and she refuses treatment; how do I cope with feeling stuck after trying everything? What should I do when my marriage has no intimacy and my wife refuses counseling? How can I heal from being estranged from my son and grandchildren for over ten years, even after long-term therapy? What is the difference between Understanding Your Attachment Style by Marc Cameron and How We Love by Milan and Kay Yerkovich?

In today's bonus episode, Gastor and Shalewa talk about claiming pets as dependents, the most Google'd sex questions of the year and Pantone picking a bland color of the year. PATREON LAUNCH! For all those that have asked how they can help support the pod - it's finally here! Thanks again to all the Troops and Correspondents who rock with us. Check it out - we'll have some exclusive content and fun perks, plus it really does help! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠patreon.com/WarReportPod⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Many Thanks to our Patreon Troops & Correspondents for helping us bring this show to life.Shouts to the Correspondents!Tanya WeimanFontayne WoodsMark OrellanaCrystall SchmidtB. EmmerichCharlene BankAskewCharlatan the FraudCynthia PongKen MogulSayDatAgain SayDatAgainLaKai DillStephanie GayleUncleJoeStylenoshCato from StonoJennifer PedersenMarcusSarah PiardAna MathambaFollow The Team:Instagram@SilkyJumbo@GastorAlmonteTwitter:@SilkyJumbo@GastorAlmonteTheme music "Guns Go Cold" provided by Kno of Knomercyproductions Twitter: @Kno Instagram: @KnoMercyProductions

Topics covered in this episode: Has the cost of building software just dropped 90%? More on Deprecation Warnings How FOSS Won and Why It Matters Should I be looking for a GitHub alternative? Extras Joke Watch on YouTube About the show Sponsored by us! Support our work through: Our courses at Talk Python Training The Complete pytest Course Patreon Supporters Connect with the hosts Michael: @mkennedy@fosstodon.org / @mkennedy.codes (bsky) Brian: @brianokken@fosstodon.org / @brianokken.bsky.social Show: @pythonbytes@fosstodon.org / @pythonbytes.fm (bsky) Join us on YouTube at pythonbytes.fm/live to be part of the audience. Usually Monday at 10am PT. Older video versions available there too. Finally, if you want an artisanal, hand-crafted digest of every week of the show notes in email form? Add your name and email to our friends of the show list, we'll never share it. HEADS UP: We are taking next week off, happy holiday everyone. Michael #1: Has the cost of building software just dropped 90%? by Martin Alderson Agentic coding tools are collapsing “implementation time,” so the cost curve of shipping software may be shifting sharply Recent programming advancements haven't been that great of a true benefit: Cloud, TDD, microservices, complex frontends, Kubernetes, etc. Agentic AI's big savings are not just code generation, but coordination overhead reduction (fewer handoffs, fewer meetings, fewer blocks). Thinking, product clarity, and domain decisions stay hard, while typing and scaffolding get cheap. Is it the end of software dev? Not really, see Jevons paradox: when production gets cheaper, total demand can rise rather than spending simply falling. (Historically: the efficiency of coal use led to the increased consumption of coal) Pushes back on “only good for greenfield” by arguing agents also help with legacy code comprehension and bug-fixing. I 100% agree. #Legacy code for the win. Brian #2: More on Deprecation Warnings How are people ignoring them? yep, it's right in the Python docs: -W ignore::DeprecationWarning Don't do that! Perhaps the docs should give the example of emitting them only once -W once::::DeprecationWarning See also -X dev mode , which sets -W default and some other runtime checks Don't use warn, use the @warnings.deprecated decorator instead Thanks John Hagen for pointing this out Emits a warning It's understood by type checkers, so editors visually warn you You can pass in your own custom UserWarning with category mypy also has a command line option and setting for this --enable-error-code deprecated or in [tool.mypy] enable_error_code = ["deprecated"] My recommendation Use @deprecated with your own custom warning and test with pytest -W error Michael #3: How FOSS Won and Why It Matters by Thomas Depierre Companies are not cheap, companies optimize cost control. They do this by making purchasing slow and painful. FOSS is/was a major unlock hack to skip procurement, legal, etc. Example is months to start using a paid “Add to calendar” widget! It “works both ways”: the same bypass lowers the barrier for maintainers too, no need for a legal entity, lawyers, liability insurance, or sales motion. Proposals that “fix FOSS” by reintroducing supply-chain style controls (he name-checks SBOMs and mandated processes) risk being rejected or gamed, because they restore the very friction FOSS sidesteps. Brian #4: Should I be looking for a GitHub alternative? Pricing changes for GitHub Actions The self-hosted runner pricing change caused a kerfuffle. It's has been postponed But… if you were to look around, maybe pay attention to These 4 GitHub alternatives are just as good—or better Codeburg, BitBucket, GitLab, Gitea And a new-ish entry, Tangled Extras Brian: End of year sale for The Complete pytest Course Use code XMAS2025 for 50% off before Dec 31 Writing work on Lean TDD book on hold for holidays Will pick up again in January Michael: PyCharm has better Ruff support now out of the box, via Daniel Molnar This is from the release notes of 2025.3: "PyCharm 2025.3 expands its LSP integration with support for Ruff, ty, Pyright, and Pyrefly.” If you check out the LSP section it will land you on this page and you can go to Ruff. The Ruff doc site was also updated. Previously it was only available external tools and a third party plugin, this feels like a big step. Fun quote I saw on ExTwitter: May your bug tracker be forever empty. Joke: Try/Catch/Stack Overflow Create a super annoying linkedin profile - From Tim Kellogg, submitted by archtoad

AWS Morning Brief for the week of December 22, 2025, with Corey Quinn. Links:Automate java performance troubleshooting with AI-Powered thread dump analysis on Amazon ECS and EKSAmazon Threat Intelligence identifies Russian cyber threat group targeting Western critical infrastructureOptimize WordPress performance on Amazon EKS with Amazon FSx for OpenZFSAWS reduces publishing time for Carbon Footprint Data to 21 days or LessAWS Payment Cryptography reduces API pricing by up to 63% and introduces tiered key pricingKey Commitment Issues in S3 Encryption ClientsCoursera and AWS survey reveals how technology leaders navigate cloud and AI transformationAutomated extraction of compressed files on Amazon S3 using AWS Batch and Amazon ECSCryptomining campaign targeting Amazon EC2 and Amazon ECS

Wet west, warm and dry east... Welcome to the DayWeather Podcast — your daily look at weather trends and impacts across the Western United States. Meteorologist Don Day breaks down the latest forecast patterns, temperature swings, storms, and seasonal trends affecting travel, industry, ranching, and recreation from the Rockies to the Pacific Northwest. #DayWeatherPodcast #WesternWeather #WeatherForecast #TravelWeather #RanchWeather #OutdoorForecast #RockyMountainWeather #LongRangeForecast #ElNino #WyomingWeather #ColoradoWeather #NebraskaWeather #UtahWeather #MontanaWeather #PacificNorthwestWeather       LINKS: Regional Travel Forecast - https://www.youtube.com/@dayweather Learn about the features of the Sainlogic Smart Weather Station SA9 and tips on how to set up a digital weather station. https://www.sainlogic.com/products/sainlogic-wifi-weather-station-sa9 Code: Day (buyers can enjoy a 30% off with this code at checkout for all products) Tim Vasquezs Forecast Lab - www.youtube.com/@ForecastLab https://www.cocorahs.org/ Cloud ebook - https://whatsthiscloud.com/ebook Jan Curtis Flickr Page - https://www.flickr.com/photos/cloud_spirit/ All New Highly Accurate TROPO Rain Gauge - USE CODE RAINDAY FOR 10% OFF https://measurerain.com  DayWeather Journal for Kids  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09M57Y7J1?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860  

It's the 21st annual iFanboy All Media Year End Roundup! Conor Kilpatrick, Josh Flanagan, and special guest Ron Richards discuss some of what they enjoyed in media in this, the year that was 2025. Movies, television, music, podcasts, books, and comics — it's all here! Note: Timecodes are subject to change depending on dynamic ad insertion by the distributor. Running Time: 02:54:30 Movies:00:02:35 – The Year in Movies00:06:19 – Sinners00:09:45 – One Battle After Another00:12:30 – Superman00:14:43 – Hamnet00:16:39 – Caught Stealing00:19:24 – The Naked Gun00:22:46 – Wake Up Dead Man: A Knives Out Mystery00:26:03 – Lurker00:27:24 – Mickey 1700:28:37 – Train Dreams00:31:26 – Jay Kelly00:34:02 – Blue Moon00:37:36 – Nouvelle Vague00:40:48 – Nuremberg00:44:58 – Weapons Television:00:47:45 – The Year in Television00:49:07 – The Pitt00:50:31 – The Gilded Age00:54:25 – Slow Horses00:57:16 – The Lowdown01:00:28 – The Beast in Me01:03:22 – English Teacher01:05:13 – Andor: A Star Wars Story01:07:32 – Alien: Earth01:11:16 – Paradise01:12:56 – Death By Lightning01:19:47 – The Residence01:21:38 – The Studio01:23:05 – Dept. Q01:25:59 – Dying For Sex01:28:49 – The Conners Music:01:32:54 – “Who Is the Sky?” by David Byrne01:33:34 – Who is the Sky? Tour by David Byrne at Radio City Music Hall in New York, New York01:34:30 – Hamilton: An American Musical at Richard Rodgers Theatre in New York, New York 01:38:22 – Suffs The Musical at Hollywood Pantages Theatre in Los Angeles, California01:39:35 – Pulp Live 2025 by Pulp at Queens Forest Hills Stadium in Forest Hills, New York01:41:51 – “God Save The Gun” by Militarie Gun01:43:08 – “Antidepressants” by Suede01:44:28 – “Alive in the Catacombs” by Queens of the Stone Age01:45:45 – The Catacombs Tour by Queens of the Stone Age at Boch Center Wang Theatre in Boston, Massachusetts01:49:05 – Oasis: Live '25 by Oasis at The Rose Bowl in Pasadena, California01:50:14 – “Yell at Cloud” by PLOSIVS Books:01:51:49 – The Year in Books01:52:20 – “Lorne: The Man Who Invented Saturday Night Live” by Susan Morrison01:55:20 – “Lollapalooza: The Uncensored Story of Alternative Rock's Wildest Festival” by Richard Bienstock & Tom Beaujour01:58:41 – “All Systems Red: The Murderbot Diaries” By Martha Wells02:00:10 – “Gai-Jin: The Epic Novel of the Birth of Modern Japan” by James Clavell02:03:30 – “Perfidia: A Novel” by James Ellroy02:05:16 – “The Ship Beneath the Ice: The Discovery of Shackleton's Endurance” by Mensun Bound02:09:42  – “To Kill a Troubadour: A Mystery of the French Countryside” by Martin Walker02:10:34 – “The Name of This Band is R.E.M.: A Biography” by Peter Ames Carlin02:14:21 – “The Impossible Fortune: A Thursday Murder Club Mystery” by Richard Osman02:15:22 – The Patrick Kenzie and Angela Gennaro Series by Dennis Lehane Podcasts:02:18:34 – “The Town” with Matt Belloni02:20:48 – “Blank Check” with Griffin Newman & David Sims02:23:29 – “The Rest is Entertainment” with Marina Hyde & Richard Osman02:24:54 – “Gone South” with Jed Lipinski02:27:44 – “Mike & Tom Eat Snacks” with Michael Ian Black & Tom Cavanagh02:30:21 – “Fly on the Wall” with Dana Carvey & David Spade02:31:46 – “Nudgecast: The Official Podcast of Nudge Magazine” with Ian Jacoby & Shane Told Comics:02:38:16 – Batman & Robin: Year One02:39:11 – Wonder Woman02:40:29 – Absolute Wonder Woman02:41:19 – Assorted Crisis Events02:43:04 – Daredevil: Cold Day in Hell02:43:43 – Usagi Yojimbo02:44:31 – Fantastic Four02:45:39 – Uncanny Valley02:46:41 – Redcoat02:47:40 – Supergirl More From Ron Richards:• Listen to Android Faithful!• If you're into pinball, check out Scorbit! Brought To You By: iFanboy Patrons  iFanboy T-Shirts and Merch Music:“Mele Kalikimaka [feat. Shannon McGill]”Slowey and The Boats LISTEN TO THE IFANBOY 2025 ALL MEDIA YEAR END PLAYLIST! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices