My Life as a Social Experiment.

((Recorded in L.A.)) I woke up from a difficult dream and, of course, spilled it all in the name of analysis. My conclusions reflect the "new me". The stonger, more confident and independent individual I've worked really hard to become. It's proof that the work has paid off. It's certainly not done, but it is beginning to have a very real, and measurable impact.

I've been forced to steal out of necessity. My survival depended on it. Now that I'm older, wiser, and more independent I've been able to release that version of me. That's until i realize I actually haven't. Trauma lays a biofilm that everything else adheres to. By bringing this story out in the open I hope to let go of some of the pain.

A show for those who are alone tonight, or who just feel alone. Christmastime can be a right bastard. I get it.

Learning to accept love is difficult after a major loss. This episode takes you into a mind learning how to love and trust again. Trauma is a specter; haunting us in broad daylight and in our dreams. It infiltrates everything. The ghost will take you if you don't learn to fight it. Find a support system immediately! Learn how to accept help before attempting anything further. Ya know, all that "grab your own oxygen mask first" bullshit..... Turns out it's true.

I use the word depression in this episode, but a more accurate label (in my case) is psychological trauma. The signs and symptoms of trauma line up more closely for me than depression does. Every day is a different experience, and it takes an extrordinary amount of energy to stay focused; because of this, I consider myself to be "high functioning". Since I'm able to function relatively well, I feel it is my duty to help those that that may need someone to commiserate with. I got you!

(and other dumb shit people believe when they cannot cultivate a feeling of self worth outside of their ability to incite fear in others where, in turn, they automatically become a savior who knows how to alleviate the aforementioned dread)

Podcast-a-day! Raising funds for Umbrella. This one sheds light on toxic power dynamics and the services out there that help folks get through. Please have a listen!!!

I've always had a difficult time managing my cognitive "abnormalities", but am now realizing that they are what make me successful. I am compelled to seek fundamental knowledge at all cost. The urge to go deeper grants me an intimacy with the world that otherwise would be missed. It also guarantees me a lifetime of seeking and never settling. I'm ok with that now.

**WARNING** This episode is not for the faint of heart, or the judgemental. This is only the beginning of a larger conversation, so stay tuned.

How Ricky Skaggs and Natalie MacMaster became part of my life.

He wasn't drafted, he signed up to go to war. #endalz #lifeafterloss #diabledamericanveterans #knowthename

This is "required reading" part 2. In order to understand the social experiment, one must delve into the deep text.

I need you to hear me....So you'll understand. I'll never be free of the psychological war inside my head, so I use it to my advantage.

Never underestimate the power of a girl playing pond hockey in figure skates. She will crush you, because she has no other choice but to fight like Hell.

This episode is "required reading". In order to understand the social experiment, one must delve into the deep text.

Also known as: "Assets Don't Grant You Power Part 2". I never end up talking about what I originally intend, but therein lies the charm. This episode scratches the surface of my gripe against being a blind follower of social "rules". There are cultural/social forces that work against our instinct, but yet sort of "feel" instinctual. It's "MOCK INSTINCT", and we are all victims of it. It gets me incredibly fired up and deserves a lot more time than I gave it here. Consider this podcast an intro to the subject.

Recorded on the way to the courthouse. No one can take your power. You have to give it away willingly. I suggest you don't do that.

I deal with some fucked up shit. Here's some of it....

YOU are the author. Don't let anyone else write your story. This episode is a reaction to several difficult days. The stuggle for self value is REAL, especially when you live among wolves; yourself included. This recording captures a VERY important moment where a desicion was made to keep fighting. It's all mental. Your self-talk matters.#knowthename

A delightfully scattered episode full of beautiful fragments. Ingredients for the next monster of an episode! Listen carefully.

"SocialEx": Turning deficits into assets since 1987.

This is a personal reflection on dealing with distorted thinking. Psychological "red flags" are difficult to admit to, especially when they manifest in those you love and trust. Breaking a destructive cycle is hard but, left alone, will certainly become worse. In cases where your loudest screams go unheard, it's probably time to leave.

Sometimes the options seem few to none. This is for anyone who's in a tough spot, wondering if there is anything left for them. Life gets tough, but you're tougher. Keep moving!! (Recorded at the airport)

This is me: raw, uncut, and coming out of the gate fighting. My father developed Alzheimer's when I was just a kid. Adjusting to a life change that huge at that age made me who I am. I'm forever grateful for my time with dad, but sometimes wonder what life would've been like without Alzheimer's. #endalz

I always assumed that my obsession with emotional music was a personal flaw. I've packed away several albums so they cannot steal me away from normal functioning. I've guarded myself from certain content to avoid drifting into unsafe areas of my mind. Music is medicine for me. So much so that, much like cherry cough syrup, just the taste of it sends me reeling. My musical tastes are very much entangled in my own personal trauma. I know that now without a doubt.

A look at how childhood trauma effects the brain. This episode describes the link between trauma and future outcomes. Playful, funny, and serious all at once, this episode is proof that our complexities are worth talking about!

Dedicated to those who are brave enough to make a life changing decision, even if it means losing everything. All of Molly's podcasts are "off the cuff" and can delightfully derail here and there. Names are never used to protect innocent bystanders. Train of thought inspired by Thomas Kuhn. Thomas Samuel Kuhn (/kuːn/; July 18, 1922 – June 17, 1996) was an American philosopher of science whose 1962 book The Structure of Scientific Revolutions was influential in both academic and popular circles, introducing the term paradigm shift, which has since become an English-language idiom.

Want to find balance? This podcast won't help, but you should listen anyway. Includes aliens, Dollar General, and Toaster Strudels. Good luck!

Dedicated to all those who have stuck with me. I'm a bit of a nut.

An unexpected story about healing from trauma. This is probably my best one yet. It (FINALLY) captures my natural flow of thought only slightly effected by the scary recording device. Pull it out of the garbage bin and give it a wee listen. Podcast #4 is an honest, straight from the gut, reflection on life as it was presented to me this past Saturday within a time span of 30 seconds. There is a lot of content within a moment. Sometimes more than we can handle.Dedicated to Iain M MacHarg, Brian Horbal, and James Feeney

The Miseducation of Molly Stone.

My father developed Alzheimer's when I was just a kid. Adjusting to a life change that huge at that age made me who I am. I'm forever grateful for my time with dad, but sometimes wonder what life would've been like without Alzheimer's. #endalz

It's almost as if you can hear the needle on the record in this one. My very first podcast attempt, where I overcame the fear and discomfort of speaking out loud to no one and everyone at the same time.