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Tracks of the Damned is back? We must truly be living in the end of days. Oh. Right. Well regardless, if we're all gonna be stuck in front of our TVs for the next two months than we might as well watch some movies together. So the plan right now is to go back into the crypt and dig up some old unreleased episodes and other archival material to release on a weekly basis. And to start off, a real doozy: Martin! In this episode, originally recorded in 2017, Patrick is joined by Gabe Powers of Genre Grinder to talk about the little-seen but oft-revered vampire flick by Pittsburgh's own George Romero. We talk about everything from the film's small-town Pennsylvania locale to Romero's work as an industrial filmmaker to whether or not this film was made prior to Tom Savini's nosejob! (Actually I'll give ya that one for free, it was.) And if you don't own a copy of Martin (who does?), psst, it's probably on YouTube, hint hint.   On top of that we go through the rest of Romero's filmography and parse out what of his work is timeless and what is era-defining. Absence makes the heart  fonder. That's what we hope anyway.   Timestamps: 0:00 - 4:24  -  Episode intro (2020) 4:25 - 7:12  -  Episode intro (2017) 7:13 - 1:46:35  -  Commentary Track 1:46:36 - 2:25:06  -  Romero Remake Discussion 2:25:07 - 2:26:11  -  Episode outro (2017) 2:26:12 - 2:26:51  -  Episode outro (2020)   And for more great podcasting about horror movies featuring Gabe and Patrick make sure to check out the Best Horror Movies of the 2010's discussion, which is not one, not two but three great episodes!

Today I am super excited to share a solo episode with you. You are going to walk away with one thing that you can do today, that I promise you is going to help you to not only profit in your business, but profit in your marriages, your parenting, and your friendships. I will be sharing a few insights that I have learned in business and my personal life, as well as a powerful message from the book ‘The Compound Effect’ by Darren Hardy. Life principles and skills that when you apply over time, you will live a better life, be a better parent, a better business owner, a better human, and be given the ability to make an impact in the world around you.Keynotes discussed:These are the life principles and skills that when you apply over time, you live a better life, a better parent, a better business owner, a better human, and we make an impact. (04:35)Try it for three days, seven days, eight days. But wouldn't it be cool to look back and say, I did that every single day. I don't even care what it is. Just one consistent action. (09:53)So, I have to grow me and I'm working with someone that makes $250,000 a month so that I can learn the systems, routines, the rituals of that successful person. (15:50)I just do it in a way that feels aligned with who I am because I truly believe that I can help. (19:55)When you start to make these small changes, they compound, they snowball, they become so big, and then you become contagious. (22:17)Learn More About The Content Discussed...No Boss Talk:https://nobosstalk.comDarren Hardy’s Book: https://darrenhardy.com/the-compound-effectEpisode With Glenn Lundy: https://www.bethholdengraves.com/rise-and-grindThe Camp Elevate Facebook Group:hereBeth’s Instagram:@bethholdengravesBeth’s website:https://www.bethholdengraves.comProfit HER Way Course:https://www.bethholdengraves.com/profitherwayBe sure to leave a rating and review on Apple Podcasts and share it with a friend that would get some value!Beth's website: https://www.bethholdengraves.comCamp Elevate: https://www.bethholdengraves.com/camp-elevateEpisode Transcript...Beth:Welcome to 'You're Not the Boss of Me'. If you are determined to break glass ceilings and build it your way, this show is for you. I'm your host Beth Graves and I am obsessed with helping you to not just dream it, but make the plan, connect the dots and create what you crave. Are you ready? Let's get started.Hey, Hey friends! Welcome back! Super excited for a solo episode today. You are listening to 'You're Not the Boss of Me'. My name is Beth Graves and I am so grateful and thankful for all of your shout outs on my Instagram stories. DM me, I love it. And before we get started with today's episode, what you are going to walk away with, is one thing that you can do today, that I promise you is going to help you to not only profit in your business but profit in your marriages, and your parenting, or in your friendships. So stay with me because it's a short episode, but I've got the goods I'm bringing to you today. I first want to read one of our five star reviews. If I read your review, I will send you a Boss hat. I don't always know who it is because of the way the name shows up, so if anybody knows this review today, it's Pepsi, B Broyle, Pepsi, B Broyle.He left this review. I love when a guy leaves a review because you're going to love what he has to say, like this dude is cool. So whoever you are, cool dude, let me know. DM me, send me an email, however you can reach out so I can get you your Boss hat. He says, even guys will love this. "Being a guy, I wasn't sure if Beth's podcast was for me. Episode one set the stage with empowering women to achieve their goals. With three young daughters and a talented wife", I love this guy already. "I'm always in full agreement with the encouragement, however, I wasn't sure if she was going to be able to talk to my heart's needs in the entrepreneurial world. Boy, I was wrong. Episode two, blew me away with how she seemed to be speaking right to me. Now I'm excited to hear how to balance life with family, while creating all that I crave".My family is my why, and I'm eager to make sure they always come first before the next rank, our trip earned. I know Beth understands that priority and is ready to give advice from her vast experience. I'm all in Beth, I can't wait to listen to the rest of what you feel led to share". I have a feeling that this might be my friend Cliff Roy. Let me know Cliff, if it is you, because I know you have three young daughters and I know you have a powerful wife. So if it's you, I've got a Boss hat for you, or if it's someone else, let me know over on the DM. These reviews and downloads and screenshots of stories, they make all the difference in the world for our message. Getting out there with 'You're Not the Boss of Me', and empowering one another to go out and just do that one thing.All right, so here we go. Today's episode. I didn't want to say the C word because I thought, oh, they're just going to be like, nope, not this podcast. Because I'm not preaching consistency. But yes I am. And I want to start with a little story about consistency and the compound effect over time. And if you have not added The Compound Effect by Darren Hardy to your audible lists, or to your nightstand, this is a book that I read each and every year, and it's also a book. I'll put a link in the show notes below. It's also a book that I love to listen to in the car while my 15 year old son Donny is driving with me, because these are the life principles and skills that when you apply over time, you live a better life, a better parent, a better business owner, a better human, and we make an impact.So obviously we know what compounding interest is, right? So what Darren Hardy talks about is that the little decisions and choices that we make consistently can be huge for the long term. Okay, so we talk about quick fixes and we talk about how to hack formulas. We talk about quick weight loss and all of those things, and we know there's no magic bullet. We know there's no magic pill, there's no secret, there's just that long term consistency that wins, and that is truly how you are going to grow your business. And make sure that you don't drop those glass balls. And I want to give you an example of your teeth, okay? You brush your teeth every day, twice a day, two minutes. You go to the dentist every six months. If you only did the one thing of going to the dentist every six months, your teeth are going to fall out of your head.The same thing with going to the gym, okay? I got up this morning guys. I'm like first day of the new year because my birthday was yesterday. I love my birthday. I love birthdays. I love hearing from people. I love getting flowers. I love getting gifts. I'm not one of those people that's like, Oh, I don't like the attention. I love my birthday. I was in such a high vibrational state yesterday. I literally manifested six messages from people that I'd been thinking, I want to hear from a person. Just like this, it was so cool. So cool when you get yourself into that. And that's going to be an episode; into that high vibrational state. However, it's the consistency over time that allows us to be at that higher level, and when we are there, when we are at that level of nobody can get in the way of my glittery, sparkly, happy existence today.It's the work that we've done every day. So when I got up at 4:45, I went to the gym after showering. Did I look in the mirror and be like, wow, that gym trip certainly changed your life. You are showing results. No, it's gotta be, we know this. This is like baby stuff. We all know it. We've known it since we were 13, it's every single day what we do. But what happens is life gets busy, life gets challenging. Our brain gets in the way and we start telling ourselves these stupid stories and they stop us from growing in our business and in our life. Okay, so I want to talk to you about something that happened in my courting days with Don. You hear about love at first sight. You have this big moment. We were sitting at dinner, and he was literally the first guy I dated.I had a failed first marriage. A lot of people don't know that, and I say that because, gosh, I learned a lot from the age of 23 to 28, I was kind of a spoiled rotten self obsessed person. I think we both were, there were no kids, so it's an easy split to the marriage. But I say that because we all have failures and I used to hide it. I used to be like, Oh, I don't want people to know that, but I'm proud of that because I'm proud of having that experience. That allowed me to go into a marriage with a different mindset with a new person. That's the compound effect, because first of all, just like business, I made the decision that I was going to do the work every single day to make sure that we stayed in that, with that love state, if that makes sense.So while you're dating someone, it's the little things that make you say, this is my person. And one of the things that he used to do, and I need to remind him of this, I talked about this on our morning call. We have a morning motivation call every morning for our team. And I talked about one of the things that I loved, was every time I would come home, I was teaching at the time, and I would come into the house, we would spend some extended periods of time together and I would open the fridge. And this is, you know, before I stopped with this nasty habit of drinking soda every day, there would be a can of diet Coke with a York peppermint Patty right there on top of it. Just a little like, here you go. I was thinking about you while I was out today, and that made me smile every day.Those little gestures. So you look at that in your business and you think about the Darren Hardy quote, which is "The accomplishment of any goal is the progressive accumulation or compound effect of small steps taken consistently over time". We know this to be true, yet we don't do it in certain areas of life. So I encourage you today to look at one tiny little thing that you could do every single day, from now until the end of 2020, like one thing for each area of your life. I want you to journal about it. I mean try it for three days, seven days, eight days. But wouldn't it be cool to look back and say? I did that every single day. I don't even care what it is. Just one consistent action. What about your health? What's one thing that you could do every single day that would move your health forward?Not one big, and I'm so guilty of this, like I'm all in. I'm all in, I'm running the marathon, I'm doing it, I'm doing it. And, and then fizzle. But what if I had committed every single day to just walk, run, walk, run, walk, run for 20 minutes? And I did that for 20 years. That consistency over time is what adds to this magical life. The consistency. So what are we going to do for our foundation, for our personal development for that time? And I talk about it all the time. It's the sacred rituals, that water the garden we can't grow without. For me and for everyone, I believe it's meditation. Devotion. It's setting the intention, the prayers, the devotions, the meditation, every day. Can you consistently commit to 15 minutes a day of that? Or would it be journaling? What about seven straight days of gratitude?What about if you did personal development, a podcast, 15 minutes, something every single day? But if you say, I'm going to do a podcast, I'm going to do gratitude, and do my meditation. I'm doing my super attractor journal with Gabby Bernstein. Oh, how I love my Gabby Bernstein supertracker journal. Just a side note. I'm obsessed. Go get the audible book, you guys. You know I love to get you, like all into the things I'm into, so we can chat about it together. What if you made one commitment that could shift your entire life? That morning routine will shift your entire life? You heard about it on the episode with Glenn Lundy. If you don't remember that episode, just go back. Actually I'll even put that down in the show notes below. So one decision, one decision for your health. Perhaps it's 15 minutes of walking every day. Perhaps it's 10 pushups.Perhaps it's eating in one day more a week. There's this part in, I kind of embellish this part of the compound effect . Darren Hardy talks about this one dude comes home from work every day. His wife is, maybe she's working a online business and she been working all day and the kids are young and it's a little chaotic and frazzled and he comes in, he grabs a bag of Doritos from the closet. I'm embellishing a bit. I'm so sorry Darren Hardy. I'm kind of creating from a story you told in that book. But I have a very active imagination. And he grabs the bag of Doritos, that have 125 calories, and he grabs the Pepsi and he sits down on the couch and his wife is like looking at him, like you jerk. And the dogs haven't been walked and so they're running around and everything seems to be a cluster.And then there's the guy that comes in, Joe. And Joe decides every day he's going to come in and kiss his wife, high five the kids and say, let's go on a walk. He doesn't grab the Doritos or the Pepsi, because the dude that's on the couch, we're going to call him Sam, he's just consumed like 400 icky, gross caloric garbage for his body. His wife is mad. There's chaos in the house. The dogs are running around, they're knocking things over and he's watching horrible TV that's filling his brain with icky things. On a side note. I do love a good binge of some good Netflix. Like I'm not anti that. I'm going to tell you that there are some, I'm going to share with you guys in the next episode, one of my favorite trashy HBO shows. It's not that trashy, but it's like good stuff, that when you want to have a binge, I want to share that with you.So anyway, we've got the dude on the couch and things over the next three years go downhill. His wife gets annoyed, the kids are fighting, the house is getting torn apart and he's gaining weight and he's getting unhealthy because with stress, with the extra 500 calories a day of the soda and the chips, and his brain is being filled with icky stuff. So the other scenario is the walk ,just 15 minutes a day, the time together, maybe a nice moment of gratitude. The kids are out walking and riding their bikes. The dogs are being walked, and over time, guess what grows? Which family has a better environment? Which businesses are growing? Or the businesses growing in the house where there's chaos and ickiness and people screaming and yelling and the TV too loud? Or in the house where the rituals and routines are set up for productivity, for good energy.Because when you sit down the next day to do the work and you're like, ah, that feels good. It feels good. So the compound effect, the consistency. So what if you made one healthy habit? What if you decided right now before the New Year starts? Before this, cause if you're listening to this episode live, it's launching in November. What if over Thanksgiving you decided I'm going to stick to this one healthy idea every single day? Maybe it's just drinking water. Maybe it's drinking an extra glass of water. Maybe it's a 15 minute walk. Maybe it's 10 pushups, 10 squats. Maybe it's just doing 10 jumping jacks. But it's moving. I encourage you to do the walk thing, that's really helped to change our lives. Okay, so what about in your foundation? What if every day you did something, like we said, the meditation, some personal development, the journaling, the gratitude. What if you committed to that one thing? And every day that was a piece of what you decided to do, and the consistency of those habits over time built you, built you, built you, into growing, because I can tell you that is what has changed my life because it grew.As I listened to a podcast, I was able to find my personal mentor and coach. I'm always working on myself, and yes, on a side note, I always invest in working with a coach, always have a coach because I am an athlete. I am an Olympian at making money and helping you. So I have to grow me, and I'm working with someone that makes $250,000 a month so that I can learn the systems, routines, the rituals of that successful person. Okay, so we're going to talk about that at the end of the episode, how you can get into a high level coaching program to grow as well, if that's your choice. So let's talk about that one piece that has to happen in your business every single day, or that should happen in your business every single day. And that is showing up. Show the heck up for your business, and that is not a Facebook scroll, and that is not hop on a team Zoom and cheer for your friends.Showing up in your business is showing up with what makes money. What makes money are conversations. So whether you sell essential oils, insurance policies, houses, vitamins, face cream, I mean there are a million things that people sell out there. How many conversations are you having every day that feel genuine and authentic, that are asking somebody or sharing with somebody a story or seeing if they're open? And I know I talk about not being a Spamala Pamela, not doing things that feel icky, but you could talk yourself into saying every conversation feels icky. Hello my friend. You have chosen sales to be the way that you make money. Whether you sell coaching or whether you sell vitamins or whether you are a therapist, you've got to let people know of your service or your product. And if you believe that you can help someone, you are going to have the conversation, right?Yes, yes, yes, yes we are. So I'm going to ask you, I'm going to ask you this question. Do you show up consistently with content for your fans, for your friends, for the people that you're connecting with, that shows them who you are and what you do? Or are you like, Hey, this week I'm going to share this, and this week I'm going to share this, and the next weekend I'm going to talk about my neighbor being annoying. And that's cool if you're just on social media to socialize, but maybe you're on social media to show people about building businesses online, and streams of income ,and how all of these things happen. And you educate and you talk about it and you share stories of success. And then suddenly you're like, oh, and I'm opening a bakery in New Hampshire. And then you're not talking about the online business anymore. But you're talking about the bakery, you're going to attract people because you're in Facebook groups that love baking. Your online people, the people that build businesses online, or maybe it was like sustainable income online or how to build a following with your online business or whatever that is, they no longer find your content useful.So now you've shifted to the bakery, which is fine, if that's your thing. But remember that you have, you want to make sure that you have vision around what you do so you can consistently show up. So the right people are getting information from you so that they're actually coming your way. And we talk a lot about that in my Facebook group. We talk a lot about that in my program, Profit, Her Way, about how you create your entire mission and vision around your product or your service. So it all fits together and makes sense. And actually people start to reach out to you and ask you more often. But even to this day you would think, Oh, she's done this and this and this and blah, blah blah. I still ask questions and have conversations with people to sell what I have.I just do it in a way that feels aligned with who I am because I truly believe that I can help. So what if you had one conversation a day no matter what? There's some companies that want to give you a free account so you get a little free website for information, and that puts you on the list, right? That puts you on the VIP list. What if you got one email address a day for your email marketing list or for your free account list? Or however that works in your business. And you added 365 people a year that actually wanted to have information from you. And what if every day you had one conversation saying, Hey, I think I can help you with this. Well I know I can. And how would that feel? And with every day, you not only had that conversation, but you had been doing visualization and affirmations and filling your brain with positivity . And what I want to call optimism, from being and hearing the voices of people that are winning instead of filling your brain with negativity and violence and hate.What if you made your Facebook feed a place where everything that you saw made you feel good and empowered and you never felt like, eh, I don't want to see that person stuff. What if you did that small compound effect? So I'm going to encourage you as we finish this episode to take out your journal. You know, I love that journal. You know, I do. And to really think about one area, I don't care if it's just a teeny, tiny little thing. One area, think about even finances. Someone said that intermittent fasting saved them over $365. Like they were spending a dollar on their egg McMuffin or something every day, $365 a year. Well, most people spend more money on their Starbucks. So thinking about how the compound effect works and even how it works with kindness, that one nice message sent today. What area of your life?Your health, your family, your faith, your foundation. You know how you grow yourself and your business. I promise you this. When you start to make these small changes, they compound, they snowball, they become so big, and then you become contagious. What about if you shared every single day on your social media that one thing that you learned from Think and Grow Rich? What if you decided, I'm going to read the Bible every day? I'm going to read Gabrielle Bernstein every day or I'm going to read? I'm looking at my books that are sitting right here. I'm going to read, Think and Grow Rich ,two pages a day. And then I'm going to share that out on social media and talk about what Napoleon Hill says. The ripple effect of what happens is huge and then all of a sudden the pieces fall together. But there are those people and they're good people.But I am here to tell you how to make money. I love making money and I love living a life that feels so aligned with who I am. So we've got to really push that compound effect into our business. And if people see you building some of the time, posting some of the time, being involved some of the time, but not all of the time, they're gonna think, eh, it's just like kind of a side gig. I want you to show up all of the time and it starts with changing one habit a day. So what habit will that be? I want you to send it to me over on a DM on Instagram. Please screenshot this, post it up on your stories on Facebook, on Instagram, and send to me in the DMS. The one habit, that one thing you're committing to, because sometimes when you say it, or if you're over in camp elevate, we're going to post this over.That's our free Facebook group where we hang out the campelevategroup.com. Join us over on Facebook. If you can't find it, send me a DM. Either Nikki or I will answer you in the DM on how you get into that group, but I want you to think about that one habit and then if you want to go a step further, find an accountability partner that you just are like, I'm doing this every day and we're checking in with each other. Got it. All right. I hope that this has been a helpful episode for you. I love chatting with you. I love hearing from you. So like I said, make sure that you do this over on Instagram, over on Facebook, wherever you like to hang out. And I want to end this episode by sharing with you what I talked about earlier. And I talked earlier about how I have always, well not always, it was two years into the business that I made the decision that if I was to grow and learn and become and evolve, I was going to need to make a deposit, an investment into me.And so I've worked with multiple coaches on, well the things that I needed at that time. And so I am currently launching a program called Profit Her Way, and it is a program that actually walks you through each of the areas of how you grow your business in a genuine, authentic way. I call it my sales system, because I want you to have the foundation, connecting the dots in a business that aligns with your magnetic marketing message with you. We work on all kinds of things. We work on productivity, we work on the money mindset, but most of all we create that map, that vision map, and then we get into action together, and we provide accountability, and we actually work together. I do a lot of one-on-one zooms and things in this program. We do an in-person event and it may not be for you, it may not be for you yet.It is for someone that's looking to go from just a part time level with their business and move it to the six and seven figure mark. It's called Profit Her Way. It is application only, because the group stays small. bethholdengraves.com/profitherway. Go on over there. See what it's all about. Fill out the application, book a call with me. I would love to see if it's a fit for all of us, because I am determined to help you to have your own plan, your map, your profit plan and if that's not for you right now, we are doing it here on the podcast. We're doing it. I offer it for free over in the camp elevate group. And I just want to thank you so much., this community is growing each and every week beyond my wildest dreams. This has been one the very best decisions that I've made because I love connection. I love community and the 'You're Not the Boss of Me' podcast community is growing. And I'm meeting so many new people, and I just love it! And I love hearing your stories, so keep them coming. As always, remember you have the power to say 'You're Not the Boss of Me' in every area of your life. And it all starts with those daily decisions, those daily deposits of those consistent habits that you work on over time. I'll talk to you guys all next week. Thanks so much for tuning in with me today.Thanks so much for hanging out with me today on 'You're Not the Boss of Me' . I'm hoping that you've found one thing that you will do today that will allow you to move forward to that big, audacious goal. And I have a favor to ask of you, and that is leaving me a five star review over in iTunes every single week. I read your reviews. I love hearing what you have to say, and it allows me to bring you more, to get more people to interview that are doing the thing, breaking the glass ceilings, creating what they crave, and helping you with your game plan. So leave me a five star review, and when you do, I will enter you to win the 'You're Not the Boss of Me' swag. So make sure you leave it and we'll reach out to you if you're the winner. Thanks so much for hanging with me today and we'll chat with you soon.

Hi. Alright. How we doing? It looks like I'm in a small prison. Hello, Facebook. Is this working? Welcome to The Katrina Ruth Show. Okay. Three people here. Hello, three people. I might be the smartest person in the world right 'bout right now. Oh my goodness, Leah. I'm feeling all the feels. I'm in the airport. I'm at my gate. I'm in such a weird ass mood that I didn't even want to hang out in the lounge. The lounge in Bali is pretty shit. The wine is terrible, it'll poison you. So I'm just in the room. The holding room, where you're gonna board the plane, but I've come kinda early, so I don't have to board for a while. I was so in a weird, grumpy, anxious, bizarre place all day, and then I was like, "I'm not even going to sit in the lounge, I'm going to sit on this gross ass floor, in this skanky airport boarding room, since that's the mood I'm in." And I feel fantastic. Now, I'm going to advise to you, that I might be the most intelligent person in the world from an engineering standpoint, and the reason is, I don't have a tripod in front of me, but yet I'm not holding the phone. How is that even possible? "How is it possible," you ask? Well, I'll tell you. I might even show you, but I'm a little concerned that if I show you ... Can't even have any more coffee, 'cause my heart rate's already like frickin high as fuck today. I'm in an anxiety day today. I'm concerned that if I show you my arrangement here that I won't be able to get the phone back in again, but I'm too excited at myself, so I'm gonna show you. Are you ready for this ninja-ri? Are you guys ready for it? Check it. So there's my Chanel luggage case. It's beautiful, isn't it? Chanel. And there's my purse, and there's the airport lounge, and there's the gross ass carpet that I'm sitting on, and here's me. Okay, now the phone's telling me off for rotating it. So aren't I intelligent? Because, I had the phone stuffed here, I had the phone stuck behind that. I'm so impressed at myself. I'm just like, "Look at me." Sometimes I think I'm just a little school girl. I'm like, "How am I the age I am?" I walk around in little shorts, with Nike's on, looking like an escaped backpacker, and then sit on the floor. I don't know. I just feel like one of these things is not like the other. Something's wrong in this picture or something, but at the same time, obviously I fully embrace, and love, and accept myself. But I just have that feeling of I'm not a real adult, and somebody's gonna come along and knock on the door and be like, "Listen, we've heard that you're actually passing yourself off as a grown ass adult slash entrepreneur, and you're really not doing it quite right. But good luck to you." Right. "How's the nail?" It looks gross. There's some congealed issues there. The Balinese man at the gym yesterday, like the gym manager dude wanted me to go to the clinic. I'm like "Fuck that, I'm not going to a frickin clinic." So now I'm just letting it do what it wants and we'll see what happens over the next few days. So I nearly called this live-stream ... I was gonna call it something about how critical it ... and now, by the way, I look like a crazy person because as far as the rest of this waiting room is concerned, I'm talking to the back of my handbag right now cause they can't see the phone. But check out the new top, it's good isn't it? It's good. So I nearly called this live-stream something about ... By the way maybe you can just chuck that call to action straight in, go right into the CTA. Whose joined break the internet? Okay, I keep being like, "What the fuck is that loud noise?" And I was getting really shitty about it. It sounds like a massive vacuum cleaner, and then I realised it's a plane landing. I'm at the airport, it's probably okay for a plane to be landing. And, they take your water off you though when you check in to the ... You actually have to check into the waiting room in Bali. You've gotta check in, and they search your bags before you can just wait to get on the plane, and then they take your water off you. It's super annoying. So, now I'm live streaming which means I always want water, and I'm sitting quite far back, because otherwise the top of my head's cut off. So, I'll just lean down. So, what was I saying? Oh, whose joined break the internet? We'll talk about that in a moment, that is next level. I almost convinced myself that I shouldn't livestream today, because my energy's not super crazy, and high vibrant badass like it was yesterday. And, then I was like, "What is this bullshit story? This is how I'm feeling today, I'm gonna show up as who I am today." Do you think they could possibly quiet down with the announcements, when somebody's trying to livestream? People can figure their own shit out at the airport. Okay I'm getting side tracked already. So my other title that I had in mind, was that I could call this livestream something like, "How critical it is to lean into the feelings that are coming through you." But, then I reminded myself to always go with what was originally coming out, which in this case was, "It's okay to feel what you're feeling." Reason being, yesterday as you might know I did one of the craziest, bizarre ... The [inaudible 00:05:42]. And then, I gotta say, this waiting room area is massive, and as soon as I went live people came and sat near me. What's that about? Why did they not sit on the other side of the room? So, now I've got that slight feeling of self consciousness, where I'm like conscious that people can sort of hear me and are probably like, "What the fuck she's doing." At the same time, like fully committed to being as crazy as possible, and waving my arms around in the air if that's what comes out. "Hello from Norway." But, tell me if you've joined Break the Internet. That shit is just gonna rip the soul right out of you. Which doesn't sound ideal, to be honest. It's not really what I meant. It's not gonna take from you. You won't lose your soul. What I should do is stand up. I'm gonna sit here in a zen like fashion. Do you think I should sit here like this for the rest of the livestream? Could do. I want this phone to be a little bit higher. Actually I don't want [inaudible 00:06:30]. I just want the phone to be a bit higher, but I've gotta push this trolley back. This Chanel case back. But, I don't want that ugly red chair in my stream. What's Break The Internet all about? Well I'm glad you asked. It's in the pinned comment Melissa. You read the pinned comment below the pre work dropped last night, it was madness. It was madly amazing. I'll talk about it in a moment, but there is details about it in the pinned comment right there. It's my new programme, it starts in two days. But, you get into the Facebook group straight away. It's a ten day intensive smack down. And, the first module, which we do on Friday, is about getting angry. Getting angry with yourself for not speaking your truth, and not sharing your true message. So, when I say it's gonna rip the soul right out of you, it was less than ideal wording. I didn't mean you're gonna lose your soul. I meant it's gonna help you to unleash your soul. It's gonna unleash the fullness of your soul out of you. Ashley stole the shenanigans with actual work. The pre work, I'm really impressed with myself for the pre work to be honest. I mean I just like allow it to come through me, and download it. And I was like, "Fuck me, that was a good exercise." And wait till you see the follow on one. There's more pre work coming. So, you don't want to wait till Friday, because like Thursday and Friday I'll push it as hard as far. I'll be promoting everywhere, I'll be like join, join, join, before we start. Obviously so you don't miss out. You don't want to wait till then, you may as well join now, and you get to be in on the energy at that group. We should seriously just level as fuck already, and get to enjoy the pre work of being prepared. And, what Break The Internet's all about is, it is about unleashing your core, unadulterated, unapologetic soul and truth. But, here's where today's energy mood comes in right. Because, I honestly nearly didn't go live. I could've gone live on the way to the airport, from the car. I keep looking for my water. They ruined my groove, they took my water off me. So, ridiculous. I'm a business class passenger and I'm without water. I'll survive. So, yeah my energy and my mood today, it's been really weird. Yesterday I was in this kind of crazy like hysterical other worldly dimension shift thing that was going on. If you didn't watch my livestream from yesterday, it was seriously one of the most bizarre things that I've ever published on the internet, and it was just like a crazy explosion. I was completely in another dimension, another place. I watched the whole replay myself. I was pretty funny. I thought it was quite funny. But, I also dropped some amazing gold. I just cannot recommend highly enough, like how deeply you need to watch that livestream. In fact Mim, if you're still here grab the URL from that live yesterday and drop into a comment here a well, so people can find it easily. Otherwise, you can find it on this page, or on my personal trainer page, cause that's where I actually did it from. So, then today ... Actually today started fine, and then early on in the day I started to feel that anxiety rising up, and that kind of like disconnectedness. And, there are a couple of things that maybe could have brought that one, or called me ... Yeah, my little stickers. Wasn't that [inaudible 00:09:26]. There were a couple of things that kind of maybe contributed to that, but then nothing like where it was really valid, or worthy of going into my anxiety mode. And, I did my journaling, and I did my blogging, and I did all the things that I usually do, and then went over to the gym, and by the time I got to the gym I was seriously like having a full on anxiety day, where it's kind of hard to breathe, and you don't really want to communicate with people, and you have to kind of talk carefully and more carefully. And, I don't know if it was because I was coming down from the high and the trip of yesterday. From all the places I travelled to yesterday. Or, it was like whatever random shit that was going on in my head. Or, it's just nothing at all. So, then you try and shift it. And, I know how to shift it, and we always know how to shift it. But, at the same time you kind of like, "It's not fucking shifting." And, it's just kind of like melting a little bit, a little bit. And, when I feel that way I do, do whatever I feel I need to do in order to shift, or in order to let it go. But at the same time, I understand that it is what it is, and there's two parts. So, one of the practises or processes that I'll go into when I feel something like that, something that I don't really ideally enjoy feeling, or what I'll be feeling is kind of just getting back to groundedness, getting back to face. So it's kind of like ... Actually I'll give you a good example, frequently when clients come to me and they're freaking the fuck out about money, like they've got serious money shit going on, and there's kind of like a fear and panic reaction going on. I always bring it back to two things for them. I say, "Okay, number one. Can you get through today? Like, are you able to get through today, and is there action that you can take today. Can you do today's work of being you." And the answer is like of course, of course I can survive today, of course I can get through today. Not just get through it, but also take the action that you need to be taking. And, then number two. Do you have faith. Like, go big picture. Do you have faith? There's the big picture that I'm not going any [inaudible 00:11:17]. I'm here to stay, I am gonna run this thing, I'm gonna create everything that's inside of me, and I'm gonna bring my vision to life. And, 100% I've had client's, friends, me, my family ... I don't know, I don't really as them that stuff. But, the people that are in my circle, are definitely gonna say yes. Ultimately yeah, I can get through today for sure. Right. There's a child looking at me. And, I do have faith in the big picture. This kid's coming up to see what I'm doing, cause they think I'm talking to a handbag right now. So, those are the two things that you'll want to look at right. And, that's easy for me to rule off, and it's easy for me to say or share with clients when it comes to the money side of things. Because, I'm not in that space anymore, but I'm teaching from a place of when I was in that space right, and when I did go through that, when that was my reality and that was just how it is. And, so I remember, and I was caught up in that before I broke through my business. I'm not kidding there's like 3 children like just ... They're all right here, kind of like. And then their parents came up and got them. And then the parents are also kind of half looking at me, like, "What the fuck is going on?" I swear to God, I've gotta give myself credit for being able to tune this stuff out and just keep going, like give me a love heart [inaudible 00:12:29] for support please. Because, not only am I having an anxiety day, but I'm dealing with the fact that this waiting room is full of people looking at me like I'm crazy, cause I'm talking to the back of a bag. And, I'm still paranoid because I believe in this message, and I want to bring it to you right. So, I need the love hearts even extra today, and the flying Katrinas thank you. Okay, so it is kind of easy for me to rule that off right. Because, I'm not in that place of anxiety to do with life anymore. It's long past, but I was there, and I was there for quite a while. Thank you for the love, I so appreciate it. I was there, and I was there for quite a while. Okay, I just realised something terrible. I realised my lighting went out, and I could look even more bright in light than I do right now. One second. How did I not notice that, that went out? Look how much better it is. Alright, let me put this back in here. One second, just jam it back in. That's so much better, I'm so excited, I'm such a lighting addict. Alright, now my comments have disappeared though. There they are. Yeah, maybe somebody needs to hear what I'm saying, exactly Nicole. Thank you. I feel way better with this lighting, that's improved my mood by 14%. So, I remember the feeling, and I know that that's what gets you through. So, then when I go into random ... I don't know how to do the sparkler filter anymore, I swear to God, these filters are just all messed up. Should I try it? When I go into this mood now. Let's try it. When I go into ... Nah, it doesn't want to let me do a filter. You know what, I think it's because when you're in the Creator app, the Facebook Creator app which allows me to have the show banner down the bottom, as opposed to when I do it through the page's app, then you can do more fancy things. That's what I think. Okay, no the fricken light has gone off again. Okay, so what I was trying to say is. When I'm in this anxiety place relevant to whatever shit that's not about money, but whatever it was just about. Just that feeling that I come back to that same stuff right. Yeah, I don't know why. They need to fix that in the Creator app though Leah. It's annoying. So, I come back to the same stuff. Let's get that red chair out, I don't like that red chair. And, it's essentially, "Can I get through today?" Like, can I not just like survive the day and not die, that's not what I mean. But, more like can I do what I need to do today? Can I still do my inner work? Can I still message from this place? Right? Hello, that's what I'm doing right now. So, a lot of us including myself have been guilty of feeling like, if I'm feeling that way, if I'm feeling stuck, or if I'm feeling disconnected, or if I'm having an anxiety attack, or whatever it is that you may be experiencing. It might not be anxiety, I know a lot of people who do though. But, then we think I can't show up today, because I'm not in my zone, and I'm not in my vibe. And that's the story that I was telling myself relevant to live streaming. I still did my blog, and then after that I did you know, my personal stuff, I answered my messages, I packed my shit up and got myself to the airport. Spoke to a client on the phone, that sort of thing. But, when I thought about going live, I was like, "I just have ... Like I've got to much of this going on in here, and I didn't ... I felt worried that I wouldn't bring a powerful message, or it would make me feel upset or something like that." Like I was really buying into the anxiety being in charge of me, rather than me being like, "Hey, you know what? This is just something that is part of my experience today and I can still show up, and it is what it is. And it's okay." And, I shared over an audio message with one of my best friends a little bit about what I was feeling. And, actually I was not happy with her answer that I got back. It made me super shitty I triggered. I was like, "Fuck off, that's not why I was sharing my words. I was sharing for a solution." Just being transparent as fuck right now. I wasn't sharing looking for an answer to why I'm feeling what I'm feeling, like I shared what I was feeling, and I said why I feel I'm feeling that way. But, then I was like, "Yeah an but I also know this." Like coming back to faith, and coming back to groundedness, it brought me back to [inaudible 00:16:18], so I ... So, it's kind of like coaching myself, sharing everything on the audio which is what we all do with friends. And then she kind of came back with, "Oh well, the reason is blah blah blah. And what you need to do is blah blah blah." And I was like, "Um, I'm already fully aware of that, actually all I wanted was empathy." But, then I was like, "Okay, so if I'm not gonna get empathy from somebody else if I feel like they're nice, and they're just tryna like school me on something that I'm already fully aware of, then where am I doing that to someone else. Right. So, everything's always [inaudible 00:16:46], so I was shitty, but then I was also like, "Clearly this is coming from inside me." But, it still didn't shift it, so it was still ... And, so after that, that's where this title for this livestream came from. Because, after that I was kind of sitting in the car on the way here to the airport and I thought, "At the end of the day, it's okay to feel what I'm feeling, but I don't have to shift that in order to be a good person, or be an indulged conscious person. I also don't have to be the crazy ass motherfucker that I was yesterday travelling to other places. Actually still in a state of super flow, even while feeling all this stuff. But, it's just the different angle, or a different side of the same point. Okay, are you guys not commenting anymore. Is that what's happening? Somebody leave a comment so I know this is working. Either you're just enraptured by what I'm saying, or the comments have stopped working. Let me check on my laptop. Okay, so that's where the title came from. That's what I was trying to say. It's okay to feel what you're feeling, but more than that. I think that we get to lean into what we're feeling, and by that I mean just ... Okay you're listening, thanks Sherry. We get to lean into what we're feeling. Enraptured. You're so funny. Perfect, good. See, I'm getting into my little self conscious mode, because there's so many people looking at me right now. And, also because I'm feeling like a self conscious day anyway. My growth is like phenomenal today, I'm just growing stronger on the inside moment by moment right now. I'm gonna get on the plane. I'm gonna have some fricken wine. No not the rapture. It's a different rapture from yesterday. Yesterday I blogged about being in the rapture, which is when you're in the deep collective unconscious, you're in the super flow. I do need the heart shower. I think I just need a lot of hearts. If you were here I would need a cuddle and a kiss, and a marshmallow. Not to speak like a marshmallow. Some people know what that means. Yeah, yesterday I was in like the full power super flow. You guys saw that on the livestream. I was kind of out of control, and crazy. Thank you for the love. Today is actually still ... It's like a follow on from it, and it's still a deep connectedness. It's just that sometimes you have those shitty feelings that you don't want to feel, and what I'm trying to say is, that's not bad or wrong right. What if we literally just went that's how I'm feeling today. It is what it is. Can I analyse it? Sure, but doesn't matter. Haven't agreed to my marshmallow demands. Can you repeat them here, cause did I miss them, or did I just comment back with a smart ass reply. I don't know what you mean. You know, so we can analyse we can come up with, "Oh I think it's cause of this, or it's cause of this." We can do state shifting stuff, like okay it felt a bit better after doing my workout, it felt better after getting my tunes on. I felt a lot better after I ate actually. Beautiful salad with chicken and beef and mango in it. It was amazing. Exhausted from workload. I don't have any workload at all. I feel like I do no work at all. I don't think. I just laugh emoji, but what was the request. I don't think I'm exhausted at all from workload, I definitely don't have much of a workload. I feel like I do no work, but then I clearly work all day, but then I play all day. It's all just a [inaudible 00:19:49] mish mash. And, hang on. Now I'm accidentally watching my livestream. That's a mistake. Alright I'm trying to read these comments, and they're half coming up on the phone, and half on the laptop. So, what was the point I just half finished. It's fricken okay to feel what you're feeling right. You're allowed to feel it, because what I was trying to do earlier today was probably push it away. Like, I was sort of trying to state shift. The reason I try anyway, you either shift your state or you don't. But, it was more in a mindset of, I don't want to feel like this. This is annoying me. I want to push it away, I want to get rid of it. So, that's like a resistance, and as I was driving here. I hate driving here honestly. I suddenly went to myself, "Well, what if I just let that feeling fully wash over me?" It's okay to want to be a human burrito in my mind. That's exactly right [inaudible 00:20:48] You wouldn't want to do a burrito bed here in Bali, you'd probably lose 14 litres of sweat. And, I'm definitely getting wine as soon as I get on the plane. Or as soon as [inaudible 00:20:57] anyway. But, I mean even from talking about it now right. It's actually shifting even though I surrounded the idea that I needed to shift it. Maria says, "Let's all drink wine." Right. So then I surrendered the idea. I was like, "Okay, this reminds me of whenever I'm getting my tattoo worked on ... I speak about that a lot. How if you try to not feel the pain of it, if you try and avoid the pain of it, then it hurts more. And you give it power over you. Whereas if you lean into the pain, and go okay, "Let me just allow myself to feel all of this pain, let me allow it to kind of wash over me and threw me." Then, all of a sudden you go, "Aw, it's not that it doesn't necessarily have any pain attached to it, but it's probably less painful than what it was before." And you take the power out of it, because you're not trying to hide from it and run from it. And so that's what I realised I got to do, an hour or two from when I was on the way here. Oh they're boarding. I think they're boarding. It's alright I've got priority boarding, I just like zoom straight in when I'm ready. So, I just let myself surrender to it. I actually gave into the anxiety on the way to the airport. I was like, "Okay, it is what it is, but don't feel that I have a very good valid reason why I should be feeling like this. But I do feel like this, so okay maybe that's my experience today?" I'm still fine, I'm still in full love and acceptance, I'm actually still connected and charged with super flow, I've still created amazing content today. I know I'll have an epic time on the plane, I always do. I typically go into super, super flow when I'm in the air. [inaudible 00:22:26] And, yeah. That was it really and I was like "Okay, it's cool." Because, it would be all passed tomorrow and probably be the best fucking [inaudible 00:22:34] ever tomorrow, but there's no rule ... Half of all these people are such sheeps, they all just get up and do what they're told. 100% of the people just got up. Please not be my derro time. No there's actually one guy who's sitting over there, he didn't get up. He's like, "[inaudible 00:22:51] I'll do exactly what I want, I want to sit down until the last minute." So, yeah I think that a lot of times we think we shouldn't have any emotions that we have maybe labelled as negative right? And, what if there was no negative emotions because there's not. There's just not. They all are here for a reason and they're all here to service right. So what if all emotions were there to teach us something, or guide us something, or to bring us back closer to our soul. And I realised that when I actually surrendered to feeling anxious and surrendered to feeling like I couldn't quite breathe properly, and I was in a slight state of panic and I just wanted to be like, "I want to be like super fricken happy and excited again." When I surrendered to it I allowed it to teach me something. And, I don't really know what that was yet. I don't know. Maybe I'll never know. It doesn't matter. But, it actually allowed me to connect back to my soul because I was being with what is. I was allowing myself to be what I am, and recognising or realising that there's nothing I need even at emotional state in order to be enough, or be good enough right. I'm completely loved and accepted. I'm completely [inaudible 00:23:56]. I'm completely still able to move through the day, show up, do whatever I feel called to do. Be present and in attendance in any circumstance or [inaudible 00:24:05]. Or, alternatively watch a movie and drink a wine on the plane. Whatever it is I feel called to do. But, then now ... And so now, I obviously got on and did the livestream and I was in the airport already for an hour before doing this live, and I did go to lounge for a little bit and I was nearly gonna live there but the wifi wouldn't really work. And, I was kind of, "Oh, I think I should just leave the livestream for today, let's just get on this plane and you know tomorrow's a new day." And then I was like, "You know what? I'm gonna just do the thing right. I'm just gonna talk about it's okay to feel what you're feeling." And now, like literally right now in this moment, I'm noticing I shifted because I surrounded [inaudible 00:24:41]. Like, I feel happy. I feel upbeat. I feel a slight little [inaudible 00:24:45] in there of that anxiety. But, I feel like it's totally 100% fine and I mean it. If it comes back, or if it doesn't and I go into like la la marshmallow land. Do you know what I mean? Whereas before, I felt like it was scary, or bad, or wrong. Somebody's coming to get me, what's happening? Excuse me. Yes. Final call already. Final call already? Okay how did that happen in one minute? They must have an empty plane. I don't know how that happened. Okay, so. The pre work has dropped. I want to read about it to you. How the fuck did they get to final call already? The pre work has dropped for Breaktheinternet.com. It must be an empty plane. And, you've gotta read about it in the pinned comment. It's my 10 day smack down intensive. It is about getting back to your soul, and getting angry. There's a bunch of comments here in the pinned comment about what people said about the pre work. This is ... Like I could read it all out, but I don't think I'm prepared to do that to miss the plane. So, it's for the crazy certified crazy badass, who has not been showing up fully as themselves. Okay, there's the rest of my head while I pack up. Who has not been doing the damn work, and who is ready to do the damn work? Let's do this thing. Okay, shit. I'm literally the last person. How the fuck is it, that I always miss planes ... I never miss planes. I always nearly miss the plane, when I'm like the first one at the airport? Because I'm live streaming. Alright I'm gonna totally go, because there's nobody else here. Don't forget, live is now press fucking play.

Kat: Alright. We cannot begin yet. Okay, one second. Hmm, approve. Kat: I feel like I'm brand new to the internet when I do these sorts of things. Patrick: Hey! Kat: I feel like such a magician. Patrick: We can begin. Kat: To me it's like a greater accomplishment to successfully do a split screen broadcast then it is to launch some massive new programme. Patrick: It's pretty badass. Kat: Yeah, I was very scared about how that would work. I felt technologically challenged. Patrick: I'm trying to get used to it. But I ... Kat: Is somebody seriously sending angry faces? Patrick: Yeah. Probably Brandon. Kat: Brandon's angry that he's not on the live stream. Patrick: Yup. Sorry Brandon, not today. Not today. Kat: Not today. I've got to say that my lighting looks better than your lighting. Patrick: Not right now. I put in my room so I can get way better lighting. Actually I'm gonna do you even ... Kat: You're view is way better. Patrick: I'm gonna do even dirtier than this. Kat: Dirtier? We're going dirty already? Patrick: Real dirty style. There we go. Okay. Actually I'll get in that bed. Kat: Is that an accent? Whose got an accent? I don't have an accent, obviously. Everybody knows that. Patrick: No way. Kat: My accent is ... Patrick: It's purely for shits and gigs. Kat: One day, maybe when you've known me for a hundred years, you'll figure out that I'm not British. Patrick: British, Australian, it's the same thing. I'm sorry to let you know it. Kat: Oh, it's so not. Patrick: Alright, so I'm all set up now. So my lighting is good. Let's see where you told me about the ... To turn the lighting on. I can't really do it. That's one thing that's missing here, is that little button you showed me to brighten it up. You know, to brighten the ... Kat: You look bright. Patrick: Yeah, let me see if I can switch that on. Kat: You look like you've got a tanning line [inaudible 00:02:26] on your face. Patrick: That's good. 'Cause I definitely do not. But let me get some more. Put that down. Boom. Kat: Alright. Now we're gonna go into it. Patrick: I don't know how you want to start this off, but I'm ready. I am in the zone. Kat: Firstly I think we need to set the tone, and let people know that this will only be serious and professional content. No laughing emojis are allowed. Patrick: Hey let me share this. I wonder if I can share this with my group? Let's see if that works on this thing. Kat: Yup. Patrick: Okay, share to group. Awesome. Players club, there we go. Kat: Hey. Patrick: Boom, it's done. Kat: I just said no laughing emojis you guys. Don't send laughing emojis automatically when I say "no laughing emojis". That wasn't funny at all. It was completely non-funny. We've actually had a serious discussion about this live stream before. We went live, it's actually taken all day, neither of us have accomplished anything. Except discussing the fact that this live stream will be only serious and professional business. Patrick: Straight professional. Only professional business. Strictly business. Kat: Purely professional. Strictly business. People wanted me to introduce you again. How did every ... how did ... You gotta go ... Sorry can't do intros again. We did intros last week. You're gonna have to go to his profile, follow his profile. You'll very quickly figure it out. You'll either be deeply drawn in, or potentially shocked and appalled and you'll leave. Patrick: Gonna be horri ... Kat: Much the same as when people [inaudible 00:03:55] my profile. Patrick: You'll be horrified. Yeah I'm on a camp chair, Meg. Meg just asked me if I'm on a camp chair. This is a camp chair in my house. Kat: Yes. Patrick: That's a quick ... But that's a good segue right there. Why am I on this camp chair? I'll tell you why. You know, I'm just recently starting new, you can go check out my stuff. You see all the stuff that has been going wrong since I actually finished my offer, and put my offer out there. Right? Patrick: So, I had quit my job to go start doing all this crazy cool shit that Cat told me about. Convinced me to go be myself and just say whatever the fuck is on my mind. Just have ... Kat: I didn't convince anybody of anything. Patrick: You convinced me. She convinced me to do it, so I just quit my job. If this fails, I'm blaming it all on you Cat. I'm blaming it all on you. And uh ... Yes you. Kat: I did nothing. I just lead my damn life and then people do whatever they want in response to it. Patrick: What I heard was "Quit your job, Patrick, quit your job." So over and over again I'm hearing this, and I left. And so ... Kat: Question. Patrick: What's that? Kat: Can we block Ryan's [inaudible 00:05:07] from being on this live stream? Patrick: Yeah he's [inaudible 00:05:09]. Very, very mad. But I think he knows that you had some kind of part in this whole thing. So, of course. Patrick: But anyways, so I just jumped off cold turkey. Needless to say, I still had a shit tonne of bills, 'cause I live a pretty expensive lifestyle. And so, yeah I just said "Fuck it". I just had a couple of skills. Patrick: Now I do have a few skills. I do build marketing automation systems. I do build for people like Cat, coaches. You know I can take your shit and boost that shit up. You know what I mean? Get you some automation going, make you some money. But, that's a skill that I'm not really trying to use. Why? Because somebody else is trying to do this shit for myself. Patrick: the first time in my life, I'm making my own bed, I'm doing my own thing. I'm doing it for myself. What's on my mind is going to come out. Putting it out there, and just to bring this all back home. The fucking deal is, ever since I started doing this, every fucking thing I can possibly think of, that could possibly go wrong, is going wrong. Patrick: As a matter of fact I'm on a cell phone right now. Because my laptop screen, my mac screen burnt the fuck out. TV burnt out. I can't even, the list goes on and on. It's just. Kat: What? The TV burnt out now? Patrick: The TV burnt out, the laptop screen burnt out. First the laptop screen burnt out. On my mac that I bought, like probably two years ago, all of sudden that shit burnt out. On the day that I dropped my offer, mind. On the day that I finally, finally stayed up all night, and crafted this thing out and wrote it all up. Kat: Tried to go to bed halfway through. Patrick: Tried to go to bed halfway through. Not being able to. And staying up and finishing it. Then waking up early in the morning and even more finishing it. And then even halfway through the day, till one o'clock today, finally finishing it. Off of a MacBook, which had a burnt out screen. That I hooked up to a big ass TV, in the living room. Kat: Which looked amazing. Patrick: It looked pretty good. Yeah it looked amazing. I was gonna do what you told me. Which was present my offer. Instead of just writing it out, I was gonna present my offer on TV. It was gonna be all crazy, badass, a great idea. I thought it would have been fucking wonderful. Had it worked. Patrick: So, you know, TV burnt out. Brand new TV mind you. Don't buy Zenio. The MacBook burnt out, and now won't connect to that TV. I took it in here to the other TV. It won't connect to that one either. And every possible thing to prevent me from doing this, has been happening. Patrick: So now, I have a little phone, and a camp chair. Because I'm not gonna sit in there, I'm gonna sit right here and actually have something go right. I'm having a good backdrop, right? Patrick: I have a good backdrop, and just ... I don't know. This is going pretty well I think. Kat: It's going exactly as it's meant to. Are you reading the comments? Patrick: I am kind of, yeah. I was just talking. I get ADD so I can't really, I'm gonna have to go back. Kat: Well, everybody's like "Your whole life is blowing up". I think Katie said, this is pretty much ... You know this, this happens. I hear this every single time somebody actually full backs themselves. Kat: Yeah exactly what Kristin said. It's an "are you sure" from the Universe. Patrick: Yeah, it's double check on it right? I don't fucking know. I don't know, but it's crazy. It's like a poltergeist, or something is ... Kat: It actually means ... Do you know what it means? It means, like all that shit happens. The more that shit like that happens, the answer is you just gotta be like "bring it the fuck on then, I'm ready". And let it go faster. And then it's a level up after that. It's the breakdown, before the breakthrough. Patrick: Yeah. Kat: Like for sure, if shit starts blowing up it's means that I'm about to go to a super high next level. And I've seen it a million times with my clients, and friends. Patrick: It's gotta be right there. You know, that's the one thing too. I'm totally, so all in with it and every single day I get even more all in on it. And just finishing that up, and just putting it out there and seeing all shit happen. It just makes me want to go even more all in, you know? So I'm like, let's just keep seeing how far this goes. And maybe, maybe you know, six months down the road I'm gonna be fucking living in a shoe box somewhere. Maybe. Patrick: But then I still have faith, and I still know that there's going to be that sales that gonna come in there. Eventually. It's gonna come. Kat: I think it's about, like everything that you would lean on outside of yourself gets striped away, and you learn how to fully lean on yourself. Patrick: Yeah. Kat: Yeah, "Arrow is drawn back before being shot forward" says Stephen. Patrick: He's in my ... Kat: Exactly. Patrick: He's in my entrepreneur players club. What's up Stephen? I dropped the link back there. Kat: Yeah, you gotta put that link for the club in here. Patrick: I gotta be marketing myself now. You know what I mean? I gotta be doing this. Kat: It's exactly how it goes for everyone. It's like, it's the test. And it's the "are you sure", and it's when you start laughing at it and be like "okay, I see what's happening here. Surrender." Then it all just starts to wash over you. Kat: But it makes you stronger anyway. Like, you're already getting stronger through it everyday. Patrick: It's tough. Some crazy stuff happened today too, though. Like just goes beyond that. Just to let me kind of know I'm going on the right path. Like, you know Travis Plum, he's on here right now. He's all in. He says "all in". Kat: [inaudible 00:10:49] Patrick: Yeah T Plum was over here today, and he is just all in. We have another sales guy that's gonna be coming on. He's doing his thing, and he just kind of popped up. So it just kind of feels like there's support now, on that. It's cool to see there's some other shit going on. It doesn't totally feel like I'm out here by myself, even though shit's still fucking up. Patrick: Shit's still fucking up for them. They're in the same boat, but now there's us. We're pouring the water out of the boat. And we're motivating each other. And it's kind of difficult when you're just by yourself doing it, but you kind of get those thoughts. You know what I mean? Patrick: The thoughts ... I don't know if you know what I mean, but you get the thoughts that ... You probably haven't had these thoughts in a long time. Kat: I don't know. Yeah, well I still remember though. It doesn't seem like that long ago for me really, since I was in that place. It's not actually that many years ago. Kat: But you know what I think is really cool? Basically nobody would talk about it, like you're talking about it right now, while they're going through it. Everybody waits till afterwards. Like even I fully talk about it as transparently as what you're talking about it right now. Kat: Nobody does that. Everybody waits till later on, and they can tell story. Or they might tell a little bit of it. [inaudible 00:12:17] your just like, "There it all is." Patrick: Hey I thought about that too, but I'm like, you know what if I'm going down through it, if I'm going to go through it, I'm like, might as well fucking do it. Just do it. Patrick: I was thinking though, and this is something I want to talk about. 'Cause I had wrote like a pretty long post earlier today, to go in company with my thing. You know. And it's like talking about how, you know I'm just gonna fucking do it. And I'm just gonna drop the parachute out and just fucking, just go and do it. Patrick: Not only that, I'm gonna show you guys ... I'm gonna let you all in to see it, and you know. I promise you that I'll take everybody through this whole thing and you'll be there, and everything like that. And there's all sorts of different options that could happen for me. Patrick: In the next month, or two months that if I don't put up, if things don't happen then there's very low levels that I can go to. But I'm totally comfortable with that. I've been there before. Kat: Right. Patrick: Be fun if ... I didn't think about that, you're right. But I have seen a couple of people do this before though. I saw one sell his, I saw one guy with line sell all of his shit and just start from scratch, you know. But I don't know how far he made it. I haven't seen him or heard from him in a long time. Patrick: You have the Demio webinar kids that created their own webinar software, and they did the same thing, and haven't heard from them in a while. So typically it hasn't worked out well for people that have, maybe like ... I guess what I'm saying I'm doing here is like how to just ... And I have been talking about it and walking it through the process of being honest about it, and saying that shit's getting fucked up. Patrick: I just gave Ryan back my car. You know what I'm saying? Like he had, when I worked for him, I'd had a fucking badass Maserati and everything like that. He'd let me use like a company car or whatever and I'd pay him the note on it and everything like that. It was nice and made me feel good. But I just went and gave it back to him. You know, so no car. Patrick: So, but I don't really need too much, where I really need a car anyway. I got my mind on, you know, bally at in about two months when my lease is up here. So you know, shit's going down. It is what it is. Fuck though. Kat: It's the all in thing. Patrick: Yeah, what's more important to me is the end treasure that's there. That I know is there, and that is there. I mean honestly, I'd rather have some different shit anyways. Kat: Exactly. It's just exactly like that meme you made with the plane flying off the cliff. Like, most people wouldn't be willing to go through it. Kat: Like the crazy thing, I used to wonder what is the worst thing that could possibly happen if I would run out of money, and if things didn't turn around, and it got down to where I had like, eight, nine cents in the bank. Then I would always end up making a few dollars to just, kind of keep my head above water. But sometimes I couldn't buy food, or anything like that. And it was always like, just can you get through that one day? And sometimes it was like, I think I'm gonna be done after this day. Patrick: Yeah. Kat: But I remember, I thought "Okay but what's the absolute worse case outcome?" And for me, it was move back in with my mom and dad. And I'm like, alright well that's not actually like the worst fucking thing in the world. I'm sure I'll start acting like a bratty teenager after like three days, 'cause that's what happens when I stay with my parents. But it's not gonna kill me. Kat: So then, it was kind of like acknowledging that I'm not gonna ... Like you're subconscious mind, or your nervous system is screaming at you that you're gonna die. Patrick: Yeah. Kat: And so that's why most entrepreneurs flake out. Because they can't handle the emotional pressure, and they can't handle the nervous system pressure. Having this nervous system response that says you're about to get eaten by a lion and a tiger. Like that's a hormonal response. Kat: When really, it's like if I totally hit rock bottom it would mean living with my mom. And then I would just get pissed about that and then I would go sell some shit. And either way, I'm gonna make it. Right? Patrick: Yeah. Kat: So then kind of go, oh why am I letting that shit get to me then? Like, can I get through today? Yes. Do I believe that I'm ultimately gonna make it? Yes. So, keep fucking going. But most people? Kat: That's why we say one percent within the one percent. Like I know for a fact, like only 0.001 percent would put themselves through what I went through emotionally. Patrick: Yeah. Kat: Or what you're going through now. Patrick: True. Yeah, and then you get stuff and you get so attached to the stuff that you're, that people get scared. And they're so secure, and they get scared to let it go. You know, and in order to get back to the big picture or to get to that next level. Patrick: But I think about the same thing you think too. I've been thinking of like options too. What's the worst that could happen to me? I'd have to go back down, 'cause I'm from the trailer park. So I have to go back down, and live with my dad. Patrick: You know, I'd have to go live with my dad. Which I also think, what's something that I would do as a very high level, once I make it? Once I'm living this fucking life of my dreams. You know what I'm saying? Once I'm like able to go and do anything, and live anywhere, and travel the world like I want to. Which is exactly what I'm gonna do no matter what, in three months when my lease is up. Patrick: I'm really just here because my lease, I have to stay here till this lease is out. You know, then I'm gonna get. Who knows, my lease might be fucked up. Sorry Travis, but he's on the lease with me. Patrick: But me and him are kind of like going hard together. He's on the same journey. And he's just pretty much like "fuck it". He's got into this as well. Riding on him doing well as well. So it's all good, it's not like I'm totally alone on this thing. It's always good to have a friend, but I think like "What's the worst thing that could happen?" Patrick: Right? And then it's just something like, if I went down to my dad's and had to stay down there for like a month. This is something that I would most likely, my higher version of myself. My higher level self who's achieved this, this is something that he would probably do. Anyways. Patrick: Maybe I'm having a good time overseas, and stuff like that. And I'm kinda like, missing the states a little bit, I'm want to just come back and chill with him for like a month. You know? Just post up and just see him for a month. It's probably just something I would do. Patrick: You know? Kat: Yeah right. Patrick: It's just something you would fucking do. Kat: I mean all the fear, reactions, and emotions it's all based on real shit. Like when money's not coming in, that's a true and real thing. But if you put that aside and you come back to what you know is true inside of you, like you fucking know who you are and that you're going wherever you want to go. And anything that you've ever decided to do in your life and you actually meant it, you have already achieved. Kat: And even like, what I said on that video today. Like you've literally helped people make millions of dollars? Patrick: Yup. Kat: And it's just continually putting aside your own ... Like for those who don't know, 'cause you might see this if you go to Patrick's sales page anyway, but it was Patrick's, not idea, but he helped me get out my idea. And actually express it properly, to launch my inner circle. Kat: And my inner circle clients know this. But that's like my highest level thing. I actually said in that video, that it makes hundreds of thousands of dollars. And then when I awoke I was like, hold on. It's on track for a million dollars per year, from one stream of income. Kat: And that was something I'd been trying to bring to fruition, actually since 2013. And I've had a few iterations of it, which just weren't right. And then I got gun shy because I felt like, I just don't fully know how to ... Like I know the vision of what I want, but I couldn't actually get it out of me. And we were sitting on the couch one time and I just was like "Man this is ... I kind of want this, but I don't know." Kat: And he's like typing away doing his thing, and he's like "Oh well you should just ..." I don't know, I wish I could remember what he said. But, blah blah blah blah blah, something something something. And I just remember sitting there going, "How the ... What? Yes, that's exactly it." Kat: It was like you read my thought. Like that's ... You've got the skills is what I'm saying. Right? Like you've helped make or build a business that makes five million dollars a year. These are, like I'm not just sitting here trying to talk you up. Kat: But it's more like, when you feel like "Well what if the worst happened?" Or "What if this or that?" It's like, wait. Look how much I'm already helping people and can help people. It's a done fucking deal. And you'll go through whatever you've got to go through. If you go through some short term period, alright you get rid of all your stuff and it's just you and the camp chair left, you'll probably be happier anyway. Kat: You'll have the freedom you want to move around the world. And like, it doesn't matter. None of it fucking matters. Whatever's going on right now. Like a year from now, you're gonna look back and be like "It was all worth it". Patrick: Yeah. Kat: And it'll be so worth it, because then you can help the people you were meant to help, because you can actually understand it. Like I can understand all that my clients are going through, 'cause I actually went through it. And I was prepared to go through it. Same thing. Patrick: I'm trying to like, enjoy it right now. That's my big goal. You know? Kat: Right. Patrick: I want to enjoy it right now. I want to savour this, and hold onto the moment. And hold onto these moments that I'm here, and learn as much as I can while I'm in these moments. You know? Patrick: Learn as possibly, as much as I possibly can. Experience and feel, and remember as much as I possibly can from these moments. 'Cause once I cross over the line, and it breaks open for me and you know people start buying my stuff then, you know. My big thing is like, how am I gonna feel after that happens? Patrick: You know, I'm gonna feel great. I'm gonna feel great, but I'm also gonna be transforming, I'm gonna also have transformed into something else. You know, and it's gonna be just ... I don't know. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with that. Patrick: That's one of my deep thoughts right there for you, if you will. So. Kat: I don't think you change. I don't know, like I don't think I've changed. Like my surroundings have changed. I don't think I'm any different to who I was years ago. I think you remember. Kat: But also because you are actually talking about it openly now you'll just be able to watch your own video advice. Patrick: Say again? Kat: Because you're actually talking about it while you're going through it, you're documenting it. So you're not gonna forget because you're gonna have the videos. Kat: But I don't think you forget. I don't forget any of that stuff. I can remember all the feelings and the emotions of it. And sometimes I think maybe I take having money for granted, or like the kind of [inaudible 00:23:00]. Kat: Like that I never look at prices anymore. Sometimes maybe I take it for granted, but not really. Because I do still, very frequently have moments where I'm like "holy shit", like is this even real? Like how is this possible, it's really only been, you know, a small handful of years since it seems like an impossible dream. But then I always .. Patrick: You've been doing this fucking shit for like 20 years. Kat: 20 years, how old do you think I am? Patrick: No, I'm saying like you been doing this since you were like 10. Since you were like one year old. Kat: One year old? Actually it was three. But, thank you. Patrick: There you go. Yeah. Rounding up. Kat: But I was making money, but I was not holding onto the money. I was in debt, and you know. I was bottoming out. I sold my house that I owned. And that like, make like 30 grand profit on that, and that just disappeared. And then I sold my Audi, which was like my first nice car, an Audi '04. And I loved that car so much, and that money disappeared. And then I sold my little Chinese share portfolio, that I had from my 20s when I was trying to get serious about wealth, and then that money disappeared. Kat: And then I was even trying to sell shit on Ebay, but back then I didn't have like Channel purses to sell on Ebay. I had things that I was selling for five dollars. But it was really like, every little dollar counted. And then I would go and buy groceries, and I'd get like 30 dollars worth of groceries and I would go through the checkout. And I would never just like, check my bank account because I couldn't handle the fear. Kat: So I'd just go through the checkout, and basically pray that the card would go through. And sometimes it would, and sometimes it wouldn't. And you just keep going one day at a time, but even though you'd feel like "what if it never works, and what if I'm crazy?" And what if, all the stuff that you think, that everyone thinks. Kat: But then when you put all that emotion aside, you go back into your core and you go "but I do fucking know though." Patrick: Right. Kat: Like when I get out of the drama, I know. Like I just fucking know. It's not up for discussion. I will keep picking myself back up again, until I get there. And then ... Kat: Now I'm so fucking grateful for all that. And I do remember so much of it. I'm so fucking grateful that it's over. But I'm so fucking grateful I went through it. Because it made me so strong. Like I feel like, I have such high levels of resilience and tenacity and those are some of the most important characteristics for us. For entrepreneurs. Patrick: Absolutely. And you know I think ... Kat: It is what you said. Like embracing it now. Patrick: Well, you know, the think is too, is that I say all this stuff to you and then you just make me think too, that like I've already been here before. And I already overcame. And I'm already pretty much hacked this stuff, you know. Just by being able ... Just like I remember the first time that I actually sold something. Because whenever I first started working with Ryan, it was like he found me. Patrick: 'Cause I quit my job at the car dealership right? Went through a bad breakup, and it just made me realise, fucking life isn't for me to be putting all my happiness ... It isn't meant for me putting all my happiness into somebody else. That's kind of what kick started, and had me first say "fuck it all". You know? Patrick: And so I quit my job at the car dealership. I just walked in and it ... This was such a big moment in my life. That I didn't even like, have the questioning or anything like that about that. There was nothing that would've made me stay there. You know? Kat: Yeah. Patrick: This is like such a earth shattering thing to happen to me. I guess I was like, I guess I must been about 26 or 27. And it was just, I had put all my chips into this thing, you know? And thought I was getting engaged and this stuff, and like that you know? And then it came crashing down. Patrick: And I found out she was married to some dude in prison. Long story short. But it was, I just put so much stock into this thing you know? And then it just fucking like, came crashing down. And that was when I first saw the reality, kind of like shift. You know? Patrick: And I saw this for what it is. And once I started like picking back up the pieces of everything, I just realised like, it's not supposed to be like this. You know? It's not supposed to be, to where I give other things power and control of me. Patrick: For example, job, security, things like that. And I really just, really, really saw that. Like about a week or two afterwards, you know, after we had called everything off, and everything like that. And I just remember it clear as day. I was just like, immediately started selling all my shit off. And started to trim up. And I started to figure out ways to get out of there. Patrick: I mean I was not gonna stay there very long, but I eventually, it just... fuck it ...

Here we are with podcast 58 and this week introduces our two new regular co-hosts, James Richardson and Matt Davis from Tracyandmatt.co.uk alongside Andy and Gareth. Tonight the four discuss all the news and current goings on in the mobile world including the Blackberry 9700, the LG GW620, the Archos 5 Internet Media Tablet and a rather controversial listener question. iTunesRSS Feed Show NotesCompetition Time!Mobile Tech Addicts iPhone ApplicationNokia drops Symbian V2T-Mobile admits importing iPhonesVodafone’s Twitter attackSony Ericsson Aspen running Windows Mobile 6.5.3 Andy gets a BB 9700 and paying for it!  UMA?Blackberry Program - Unread (Google Reader with full read/unread sync)5 day trial, 5 dollars to buyANDY'S BB PIN 21B38A46 (Listener's Welcome to Chat Direct) Archos - as Linux was problem free? (Review will be live in the morning - (may not be we'll see! - Matt) JR -You bugger! Actually I'll make sure it is to coincide with the podcast!James and I will have both seen the Palm Pre by the time we record. JR - I will have used it to shave! I have the LG GW620 I can talk about a bit and the Nexus One if anyone it still interested?. GM - You can try to flog it also :) We could mention that we are looking at the E101 and E200 for Clove too but we wont talk about James not being able to work it! :) JR - No we should!eBooks coming to the HD2? - RumourNEW HTC Handset rumours - Legend, Bravo & IncredibleNew Google Buzz (not sure if you think that has any place on the 'cast chaps?)Gareth and James pre-MWC comments? Who you think you will see, what you think you will see?What do the listeners want to see or know about? Listener question: Hi, hope your well!What's the best phone to recommend to my mate who's having an affair!!??A little background. My mate layed an egg when I recalled some of his text messages from his n95 that he thought he deleted. He was looking to upgrade to an iPhone, but as far as I'm aware, he won't be able to delete individual numbers made or recieved. Only entire call lists which may rouse suspicion!? 2 phones is a no go apparently. And he's not eager to downgrade to an older phone. This got me thinking, what phone would be simple. A silent ringtone for a certain number? Obviously the wise thing would be to end it but I don't think he'll do that either!!!! What do you rekon?