Podcasts about AW

Worship With The Blue Army1st Age; "Come Be With Him"               "Lifting You Higher"2nd Age; "So in AW of You"                 "We Love You"

AW² est une agence internationale d'architecture et de design, basée à Paris. Réda Amalou, diplômé de l'Université de East London, fonde l'agence en 1997. Stéphanie Ledoux, diplômée de l'Ecole Spéciale d'Architecture à Paris, le rejoint en 2000 et devient associée en 2003. Dès lors, les deux associés mènent l'agence et sont personnellement impliqués dans la conception architecturale de chaque projet. Les typologies de programmes sont nombreuses, en dépit d'un développement conséquent dans le domaine de l'hôtellerie haut de gamme.Ainsi AW² se construit au contact de cultures proches et lointaines. Les voyages, les projets loin des bases, définissent les contours de leur démarche architecturale et de ce qu'ils sont aujourd'hui. La base de cette démarche s'affirme d'abord dans une approche ‘ouverte' du projet qui se base sur les notions d'idée et de contexte. L'idée étant l'origine – leur vision – du projet et le contexte les éléments identifiés qui la nourrissent. Dans ce numéro de Com d'Archi, à l'heure où les voyages renvoient aux notions de frugalité, de circuits courts, d'écologie, de quelle manière une agence comme AW2 assure la transition ? C'est justement ce dont nous parlent Réda Amalou et Stéphanie Ledoux en soulignant que l'essentiel est de se confronter à la matière ! Des parcours, un savoir-faire, un point de vue raisonné, de la maturité, à découvrir dans Com d'Archi.Images teaser DR © Mikael BénardIngénierie son : Bastien Michel____Si le podcast COM D'ARCHI vous plaît n'hésitez pas :. à vous abonner pour ne pas rater les prochains épisodes,. à nous laisser des étoiles et un commentaire, :-),. à nous suivre sur Instagram @comdarchipodcast pour retrouver de belles images, toujours choisies avec soin, de manière à enrichir votre regard sur le sujet.Bonne semaine à tous! Hébergé par Acast. Visitez acast.com/privacy pour plus d'informations.

Den här veckan gör vi det enda rimliga och kastar oss rakt in i midsommar, men hinner även med kostnaden för ett tillsynsbesök i Åre, momssänkning på take-away, matkravet på nattklubbar och det ständigt aktuella ämnet: när allt går åt helvete i restaurangmiljö.Vi får höra om bröllopet där köket inte fungerade och maten för 60 personer fick lagas hos grannen, kocken som försov sig och råkade skapa försäljningsrekord med stuvade makaroner och falukorv, samt källarmästaren som löste alkoholförsäljningen på studentdagen genom att helt enkelt ställa om klockorna.Dessutom bjuds det på hummerknödel som egentligen var havererad ravioli, en bakfull kollega som försökte sjukanmäla sig från jobbet medan han redan befann sig på jobbet, och två gäster som själva råkade argumentera för varför de inte skulle bli insläppta.Som om inte det vore nog får vi även en live-inspelad historia från vår restaurang-AW på Ring Katarina, där en anonym herre berättar om det ökända Senap-i-luckan-tricket.Mycket nöje!Tack alla ni som skickat in veckans historier: Henke Pettersson, Marko Wasenius (extra på Patreon), Jojo Svedberg, AC Hedborg, Arne Skog, Linda Andersson, Linda Örnekull (extra på Patreon),Och extra mycket tack till er som skickat bidrag via våra Swish: Martina Jansson x10(!), Johan Noring x9 David Burman x7, Sören Asp x5, Michael Katsaras x4 Malin Gille x3, Magdalena Rickardsson x2, Johanna Nyholm x2, Jon Andri Zogg x2, Kerstin Roslin, Tomas Stenbäck, Alexandra Grins, Adam Kullberg, Ellen Thompson, Yvonne Eidenbrant, , Magnus Häggström, Eden Ljunghager, Markus Erlandsson, Marcus Lind, Martin Schori, Katja Lomarker, Sebastian Löfwrnhamn, Elin Bergman, Oscar Petersson, Katrin Andersson, Elina Fröjd, Magnus Granmyre, Dennis Jansson, Alexandra Grins, Astrid Ericson, Jim Jonsson, Simon Roshagen, Johanna Nyholm, Edward Eriksson, Emelie Forsblom, Nerima Ouma, Oscar Pettersson, Magnus Foss, Philip Tisting, Cilla Jarminde, Axel Skog, Malin Ervik, Kim Johansson, Jon Larsson, Anne Tysnes, Jonna Broberg, Pelle Eriksson, Helen Andersson och Erik Ekstrand! Hjältar är ni! Glöm inte att trycka på följknappen i din podspelare och gå gärna in och diskutera veckans avsnitt på våra sociala medier och om du lyssnar via Spotify kan även delta i våra olika omröstningar. Fred, kärlek och Fernet.Medverkande: Jesper Borgenstrand, Henrik Olsen, Agnes Fällman, Patrik Tapper.Stöd oss på Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HantparestaurangSwish: 1234 8689 64 - Hänt På ABFölj oss: FB: Hänt På Restaurang / Insta: Restaurangliv / TikTok: Hänt På Restaurang / Threads: RestauranglivMaila in din egen historia till: jesper@hantparestaurang.seSponsor / Annonsering: agnes@hantparestaurang.seMusik:Henrik Olsen - HPR ThemeBrand New Heavies - Dream Come TrueLjud ifrån: SVT - NordnyttRedaktör: Jesper BorgenstrandProducent: Henrik OlsenFoto: Leo Josefsson / Light Box Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Aw heck yeah, nerds! Welcome to episode 228 of Up Yours with More, the official podcast of Up Up and Away Comics in Cincinnati, OH!This episode, MODOK and BC preview what comics, graphic novels, manga, and collectibles will be on sale in the month of August (and beyond)!Find Us Online at the Following Outlets Website :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠upupandawaycomics.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ YouTube :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠youtube.com/@upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook ::  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/upupawa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠y and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/uuablueash⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Instagram :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠instagram.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠twitter.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠

There are dozens of moisture and water activity meters for coffee on the market — but what are the actual differences, and which one do you need? In this episode, Ingo from Roast Rebels compares five devices on the same green coffee sample: the CoffMeter M1, Lighttells MD-500, DiFluid OMIX Plus, Lighttells AW-600, and CoffMeter W1. Full technical breakdown plus live measurement results for all five.Who needs what:- Home roasters and small producers: CoffMeter M1 or Lighttells MD-500 cover basic green coffee QC — moisture and density in under 4 seconds- Professional roasteries: DiFluid OMIX Plus — moisture, density, water activity and roast color in one device, built for complete roastery QC- Water activity only: Lighttells AW-600 (most precise, 6-20 min) or CoffMeter W1 (fastest at ~50 sec via dynamic evaporation algorithm)Key findings from Roast Rebels' hands-on comparison:Moisture measurement: all five devices use capacitance — resistance-based methods fail for coffee due to mineral content; results are indirect and temperature-corrected. Regular calibration is essential.Water activity measurement: two methods — relative humidity (Lighttells AW-600, CoffMeter W1; simpler, lower cost) vs. chilled mirror dewpoint (DiFluid OMIX Plus; professional lab method miniaturized into a compact device; ~30 seconds per measurement).Critical threshold: water activity above 0.7 signals a serious storage risk. Differences of 0.01 below that are negligible in practice.Measurement speed: CoffMeter M1 ~3 sec | MD-500 ~4 sec | OMIX Plus ~2 sec (moisture) / ~30 sec (water activity) | CoffMeter W1 ~50 sec | AW-600 ~6 min (quick) / 20 min (precise).DiFluid OMIX Plus additionally measures roast color and bean screen size via optical camera. Calibration: water activity devices use a saturated salt solution (reusable); moisture devices use a zeroing procedure.Links:What is moisture content and water activity in coffee? https://youtu.be/8HgpNvYRqTsGreen coffee density — deep dive: https://youtu.be/DM0HUduDLYURoast color meters compared: https://youtu.be/rmLyBUp064oCoffMeter M1: https://roastrebels.com/en/difluid-coffmeter-m1/CoffMeter W1: https://roastrebels.com/en/difluid-coffmeter-w1/Lighttells MD-500: https://roastrebels.com/en/lighttells-md-500/Lighttells AW-600: https://roastrebels.com/en/lighttells-aw-600/DiFluid OMIX Plus: https://roastrebels.com/en/difluid-omix-plus-green-coffee-roast-color-analyzer/Shop: https://roastrebels.com/enAcademy: https://academy.roastrebels.comAbout Roast Rebels:Roast Rebels is Europe's go-to platform for specialty coffee roasting. We sell small-scale roasting machines and professional QC tools — including the CoffMeter M1, Lighttells MD-500, Lighttells AW-600, and DiFluid OMIX Plus — alongside a curated selection of high-quality green coffees sourced from around the world. Our service centers in Germany and Switzerland ensure you get local support wherever you are in Europe. Free shipping across the EU.The Roast Rebels Academy (academy.roastrebels.com) is our dedicated learning platform for coffee roasting. It offers in-depth courses for home roasters and professionals — including the Aillio Bullet Masterclass with 11 chapters, 30 videos, and 4+ hours of content (249 EUR, free with hardware purchase from Roast Rebels).Shop: https://roastrebels.com/enAcademy: https://academy.roastrebels.com

Hypnotised Radio 153 Warren Scott Studio Mix Show: Hypnotised Radio Artist: Warren Scott Air Date: 4 June 2026 Genre: Techno / Raw Techno / Hypnotic Techno This week I am back behind the controllers and in the mix and I have recorded you a Aw hypnotic fast and furious mix and I have hand picked some of the latest and hottest techno releases. You can expect to hear new releases by top artists such as Robert Hood, Ben Klock & Fadi Mohem, Drunken Kong, Wehba & Herz, Ben Sims, Klint, USAW, some of my own productions and lots more great hot Techno releases. Tracklist: 1. Mauk -Rawtonic 2. Toni Alvarez - Cafe Ron 3. Uncertain - Honesty 4. USAW - Disposition 5. Dave Clarke - Zeno Xero (2023 remastered) 6. Hertz - Old School 7. Robert Hood - Insurrection 8. Warren Scott - Fast Eddie 9. Drunken Kong - Arp 2 10. Hertz, Wehbba - Ink 11. Ken Ishi - Syntax Error 12. Klint - Romance 13. Hedstorm & Pflug - Lozoria 14. Warren Scott - Driver 15. Ben Sims - Snapshot '99 (ANNE Remix V1) 16. The Subjective - Tremmer (remastered 2022) 17. Haliosphere - Aurora 18. Van Sorgen - Tanker 19. Mattia-Dambrossio - Rust 20. Keith Carnal (remix) - Walking In the Dark 21. Stef Mendesidis - License To Fly 22. Ben Klock, Fadi Mohem - The Machine Originally broadcast on Data Transmission Radio. Listen live and explore the archive: https://radio.datatransmission.co

Aw, Lazlo and SlimFast have their matching gay shirts on today! Was Tom Hardy booted from MobLand? SlimFast is here for Stedman, not Oprah. Pre-9/11, you could get a hotdog without getting jumped. Throwing a 70 mph speedball into the opposing teams dugout isn't the answer, coach. New polymarket bet! SlimFast predicted Nancy Guthrie will be found in September. Stream The Church of Lazlo podcast on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you get your podcasts!

On episode 346 of The AwardsWatch Podcast, Executive Editor Ryan McQuade is joined by AwardsWatch Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson and AwardsWatch contributors Dan Bayer, Mark Johnson, and Josh Parham to go back 15 years and take a look at the 84th Academy Awards, covering the films of 2011. On this week's retrospective, the AW team returns from Cannes to take a look back at the 84th Oscars, one that was known for having a great selection of films to choose from that the Academy decided to mostly ignore for more middle of the road, safer choices. This lead to a winner that is not remembered as much for a film that defined the year, both from a critical and commercial aspect, and also lead to one of the worst wins in the Best Actress category. So given the nature of the show and the game played by the AW team, change is a coming for 2011, as the following films were mentioned over the courses of lengthy discussions over every category; Weekend, Contagion, Shame, Melancholia, Crazy Stupid Love, Take Shelter, Killer Joe, The Skin I Live In, 50/50, as well as films that were already nominees getting more love like Moneyball, The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, Warrior, The Tree of Life, Drive, Bridesmaids, and more. In their in-depth discussion, the AW team talked about the film year of 2011, briefly discuss talk about The Artist as a Best Picture winner, and how that speaks to the legacy of their nominates and or wins, do an extensive conversation over the below the line categories and nominees for the year, and then the new version of the AW Shoulda Woulda Coulda game, where instead of individual replacements, they must decide as a group who the nominees and winners should be in the top eight categories. The rules of the game state they can only replace two of the nominees that year from each category, except in Best Picture, where the group could replace up to four films to make up the final set of five nominated films. Like past retrospective episodes, it was a fascinating, fun conversation including spirited debates, alliances, vote swinging, celebrating various movies, performances that aren't normally talked about and more that we all hope you enjoy. You can listen to The AwardsWatch Podcast wherever you stream podcasts, from iTunes, iHeartRadio, Soundcloud, Stitcher, Spotify, Audible, Amazon Music and more. You can also listen on the AW YouTube page. This podcast runs 2h52m. We will be back in next week for a review round-up episode discussing some of the newest releases in theaters like Obsession, Backrooms, Masters of the Universe, Power Ballad, Blue Film, Blue Heron, and more. Till then, let's get into it. Music: "Modern Fashion" from AShamaleuvmusic (intro), "B-3" from BoxCat Games Nameless: The Hackers RPG Soundtrack (outro).

! Turn On - Choon In - Zig Zag ! - ! What's Past - Is Prologue ! ! !   Callin'  ALL  The  Boom Booms  &  The Zoom Zooms   ! ! . . .   GROUND  DOWN  TO  THE  REAL UNDAGROUND   . . . * * *  GROOVIN'  BLUE   26 - 05 * * * Groovin' Blue is dedicated to Sunny "Sweet Daddy Fonk" Wong.  "S.D.F." Wong 1973 quote: "Jeez, gettin' these cassette mixtapes just right is hard work."  1.  (4:22)  WAGRadio GB 26 - 05 Intro - Produced by WAGRadio Vinyl Librarian William "Fats Is Back" Reiter (formerly CKLG-FM 96.9 Boss Jock - 'Bill Reiter - The All-Niter') 2.  (6:12)  "I Wanted Your Love" - ALI TENNANT, BRIAN POWER, RONNIE HERAL, DJ SPEN, GARY HUDGINS [SoulHouse Muse Ltd.] 2017 3.  (6:57)  "Love Is An Action (DJZigZag Vocal & Instrumental MashEdiT)" - ADEKUNIE GOLD, 6LACK [Believe UK] 2025 4.  (  :20)  WAGRadio DJZZ 'Riginal Id 5.  (3:35)  "Exercise My Love" - JOHN EDWARDS [Aware 45rpm No. AW-048] 1973 6.  (4:46)  "Find Your Way Home (DJZigZag Pt. 1)" - OCTO OCTA [T4T LUV NRG] 7.  (2:04)  "Gettin' Away" - THE TURNABOUTS [Prann Records 45rpm No. 5002] 1963 Prod. Ike & Tina Turner * The Turnabouts are Ike Turner and his band 8.  (  :20)  WAGRadio Tout Sur Moi Id 9.  (4:23)  "Change Places" - JEFFREE [Creative Outlet International Cd No. COI 5551 "Call It Love"] 1996 10.(4:37)  "The Plug (DJZig Zag Vote By Male EdiT)" - RONALD ISLEY & THE ISLEY BROTHERS [RI Top Ten] 2022 11.(  :20)  WAGRadio It Be Time Id 12.(3:12)  "WANTU2LUVME (DJZigZag 2026 EdiT)" - JEF MILES [Twelve 30 Records] 2017 13.(2:45)  "The Midnight Hour" - Jazz Is Dead Ensemble [Jazz Is Dead] * Jazz Is Dead is Ali Shaheed Muhammad & Adrian Younge  14.(4:10)  "Feel It (Feel It)" - JAZZ 2 MORE [Irma Records] 2018 15.(  :13)  WAGRadio Luv-sik 2016 Muzik Id 16.(6:01)  "Dance Toutourou)" - PAUL OLDER [Spa In Disco] 17.(  :33)  WAGRadio Jabba Workee Id 18.(3:24)  "I'll Be Your Puppet" - JOHN EDWARDS [Aware 45rpm No. AW-045] 1974 Prod. Floyd Smith * writer: Sam Dees  19.(  :17)  WAGRadio Simpul Id 20.(3:54)  "That's It" - SAINTE FRANCIS, LARRY PEACE [Sanctified Records] 21.(4:42)  "Front Foot (DJZigZag Dr. Hahn's Corn Dogg EdiT)" - ALBOE [TuneCore] 22.(1:58)  "I'm A Fool For You" - JAMES CARR [Goldwax 45rpm No. 328] 1967 Prod. Quinton M. Claunch & Rudolph Russell  23.(4:26)  "Bombo Papi (DJZigZag 2026 EdiT)" - JAMES BRADSHAW, ANDY REID, SAVISTA [Phoenix Music] Canada 24.(  :14)  WAGRadio Music segue 2012 No. 41-04 25.(5:40)  "Sonny Light" - JACK DeJOHNETTE [eOne Cd No. EOM-Cd-2403] 2012 - Esperanza Spalding (bs), Lionel Loueke (gtr), Tim Ries (sx), Ambrose Akinmusire (tpt), Jack DeJohnette (dm, pn), Jason Moran (pn) Prod. Robert Sadin 26.(  :07)  Nu GB End 79:57

...in which we climb Walla Crag in the company of academic and Back o' Skidda' resident Dr Liz Woodham for a deep dive into the history of guidebooks dedicated to fell-walking in Lakeland. Striding out from Surprise View, we set the historic context for the emergence of the walking guidebook – the earliest travellers seeking low-level views from Thomas West's formative Guide to the Lakes (1778), and the use of paid mountain guides, often shepherds, taking well-heeled visitors on mountain adventures. ‘Roving Laker' Harriet Martineau's Complete Guide to the English Lakes(1855) was among the first to speak to fell-walkers, Liz tells us, with an ascent description of Fairfield that was – like the woman herself – quietly revolutionary. On the long climb of Cat Gill we discuss the forgotten Victorian colossus of Keswick, Henry Irwin Jenkinson, who compiled the most authoritative guide of its era, his Practical Guide to the English Lake District (1872), in just seven winter months (he would go on to consult on mountain rescues, and organise the Latrigg Fell Mass Trespass of 1887). Entering the age of M. J. B. Baddeley, we turn to his evergreen (tiny type) Thorough Guide to The English Lake District – first published in 1880 and still selling nearly a century later. We consider the democratisation of travel, and walking, in the age of rail, and the changing nature of the guidebook, as fells received dedicated chapters and publishers augmented directions with maps. Atop breezy Walla Crag we talk about the contribution of The Rev. H. H. Symonds – committed to “rescuing scraps of natural beauty” – who published a kind of ‘campaigning guidebook' in his classic highbrow Walking in the Lake District (1933), and the very different books of his contemporary, outdoors advocate W. T. Palmer, who urged readers to get off the beaten track and take walking tours between youth hostels in his Penguin Guide, The Lake District (1939). Finally, on Falcon Crag, after a discussion of Walter Poucher's photographic guides, we arrive at the master himself, Alfred Wainwright, whose uniquely artisanal take on the format turned the guidebook into companionable pocket art. Back at Ashness Bridge, we reflect on the factors that make for the perfect guidebook – portable, easy to use, with an intuitive blend of text and imagery – and ask Liz to name her favourite guidebook; to consider where guidebooks go in the post-AW digital age; and to tell us why Steeple remains aloof in her 214 completer's list.

Karolina hyser sin kärlek till olika sorters BRICKOR och har ringt till sin lokala Ica och förklarat konceptet ostbricka för den unga personalen. Sofia har undervisat i linedance på en högstadieskola och försökt bemästra gruppen av ungdomar. Hon har också fått uppleva den hemliga världen - lärarrummet! OCH: Problematik med gruppchatter, AW på uteservering och en idé om en merch-bricka! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Brett records an episode without Christina and Jeff and chats with Melissa Davis (The Mac Mommy) about her start as a mommy blogger and longtime Mac podcaster, her tech-support work, and the strange lack of closure when online friends disappear. They trade mental-health and chronic-illness updates, Adderall vs. Vyvanse, difficulty finding curious doctors, and being labeled “worried well.” Don’t worry, they nerd out on mechanical keyboards, Karabiner, and remapping keys. GrAPPtitudes include Bartender 6 Pro, Sortio for AI tagging, Sketch Party TV, and Karabiner. Sponsor OneSkin improves your skincare routine with science-backed skin care products. With over 10,000 five-star reviews and validation from clinical studies, OneSkin has made a name for itself in the skincare industry. If you’re interested in trying OneSkin for yourself, you can get 15% off your order with the code OVERTIRED at oneskin.co/OVERTIRED. Chapters 00:00 Meet Melissa Davis 00:56 Early Podcast Days 02:20 Tech Support Seniors 05:52 Digital Legacy Work 06:50 Sponsor: OneSkin 08:14 Mental Health Check In 08:34 Insomnia And Focus 13:19 Doing Time Tracker 16:04 Suspenders And Stenosis 20:18 Mobility And Home Hacks 22:10 Melissa Health Update 23:25 ADHD Meds And Mutations 25:25 Curious Doctors Matter 27:59 Vyvanse Vs Adderall 30:26 Tracking Mood With Data 32:27 Cane And Somatic Therapy 36:09 Somatics For EDS 36:50 Yoga Modifications 38:19 Polycystic Liver Shock 39:20 Fatphobia In Healthcare 40:56 Pole Dancing Reality Check 41:55 Mechanical Keyboard ASMR 45:56 Nail Art And Picking 49:09 Keyboard Layout Rabbit Hole 01:00:59 Shortcuts And Muscle Memory 01:03:12 GrAPPtitude App Picks 01:14:07 Karabiner Power Tips 01:17:30 Wrap Up And Thanks Show Links hEDS Doing Timing Royal Kludge Keyboard Gamakey Silent Linear Switches EPOMAKER Switch Benefit Section EPOMAKER AegisSil Keycaps Set SketchParty TV Karabiner Sortio Bartender Pro Day One Join the Conversation Merch Come chat on Discord! Twitter/ovrtrd Instagram/ovrtrd Youtube Get the Newsletter Thanks! You’re downloading today’s show from CacheFly’s network BackBeat Media Podcast Network Check out more episodes at overtiredpod.com and subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or your favorite podcast app. Find Brett as @ttscoff, Christina as @film_girl, Jeff as @jsguntzel, and follow Overtired at @ovrtrd on Twitter. Transcript Nails and Keys with Melissa Davis (The Mac Mommy) [00:00:00] Meet Melissa Davis Brett: Hey, this is Brett Terpstra. I am without my usual cohorts, Christina and Jeff. Um, so I, I wanted to, you know, get a, get an episode out for all of you listeners, and I reached out to Melissa Davis, known as The Mac Mommy. Um, I don’t, I, I don’t know if they’re still known as The Mac Mommy, but in m- in my lifetime they have been. Um, Melissa, why don’t you introduce yourself, let people know, like, M-Ma- long time, like Mac personality, podcaster. Tell us where you came from. Melissa: Where did I come from? Outer space. Uh, I came from being a mom. I, I, I will admit, this is hard to admit, But I will admit I started out as a mommy blogger. That’s, like, kind of a bad word nowadays. Brett: back, back, yeah, this is way Back when Melissa: [00:01:00] Yeah. Early Podcast Days Melissa: so we’re talking, like… Well, my oldest is gonna be 20, Brett. My oldest is gonna be 20 this summer. End of, end of June he’ll be 20 years old. So that’s about how long I’ve been doing podcasting. I mean, I started, I started, like, when… Well, you know what? I started listening to Adam Christianson’s The MacCast Brett: But you know what? I started Sure. Like one of the very first podcasts, Yeah. Melissa: still, I still listen to him on the Mac Geek Gab. Like, his voice is just so soothing to me. I used to… Like, that was the f- Back when I had, I had, I remember I had, like, an old G4, uh, Quicksilver Mac, and in the stinky little back room of our old house. And I used to, I used to download the podcasts, burn them on a CD, put them in my Walkman, ’cause I didn’t have an iPod yet at the time. I wasn’t that… I was never really that cutting edge. And I’d burn them on a CD, I’d put the CD in my Walkman, and then I would sit and nurse, I would nurse my baby. I, [00:02:00] and I would have to tuck the, uh, the headphones, you know, I’d have the ear- the, the wired, kinda like I have now, uh, and tuck it behind my back, like, behind my shoulder, because otherwise he’d, like, yank on the cord. And I would just listen to podcasts while I nursed. And I… And then, uh, then I met Victor Cajiao, and I started just kind of being, like, a serial podcaster, showing up here and there, and then it just kinda grew from there. Tech Support Seniors Melissa: Um, and I do… So I do tech support. I’m an IT tech s- tech support person. I… People call me their computer guru. I mostly work with, uh, the senior population, our, our vintage people, which I, I’m slowly becoming one of them. We’re all, we’re all gonna go that way. Brett: I feel like anyone who does Mac tech support deals with probably an, a, a population that skews older. Melissa: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yeah, it’s actually, it’s actually more– I will say it’s actually more difficult to work with somebody younger. Like, especially people my age or people [00:03:00] that are like, say, in their sixties I consider pretty young, 70 even. Uh, yeah, so but it’s, you know, the people are so, so interesting. You can learn so much. I love working with this population because they’re like encyclopedias, and the stories they tell you and the things you learn, it’s pretty amazing. And I could just, I could just spend– I have actually spent all day with some of them. Some of us just have really great chemistry and, you know, it’s… They– I, I’m also– I have ADHD, that’s no secret. And I think when you get older, um, not– it doesn’t affect everybody, but I do see a lot of what could be either they, they have ADHD or it’s like a– Brett: they have Melissa: of creeps in and it’s just a natural process of aging, cognitive decline. So, yep. Brett: have a lot of patience. Sure. S- some of my, some of my most interesting relationships over the last 10 years have been with, uh, Mac users in their late 70s, [00:04:00] 80s. And, uh, like they’ve been– They’re very– Like, they’re definitely… The people that I’ve known have been technically capable and very interested in learning. That’s why they follow me. That’s how I meet them, right? They’re like, they read my blog, which is just all nerd stuff. And, and so they’re, they’re technically competent, and they’re doing things that I can only aspire to be doing in my 70s and 80s. Um, I had a guy who was writing his memoirs at, in between like mountain bike rides. And so here’s the thing, though, is when you, when you know someone online and they’re in their 80s and you stop hearing from them for a Melissa: Yes. Yes. Brett: you have to assume that they have passed on. and that is sad, and you never really get any closure because you don’t know their friends or family. You [00:05:00] never get like a notice, an obituary. You don’t, you don’t know where these people go, um, and you don’t know how to check in on them once your normal channels of communication are severed. Melissa: Yeah, we’re at that age where we probably start reading the obituaries. Like, I haven’t heard from so-and-so in a while. Let me check the obits." Brett: I had, I had– Before NVUltra went on for, what’s it, like five years now, uh, without a release, um, I had a project called BitWriter with David Halter. And Melissa: remember you mentioning that, yeah. Yeah, and you wondered. Mm-hmm. Brett: he stopped responding. Melissa: you find out any at all? Any, Any, concrete… Brett: Nothing. I have put feelers out everywhere I can think of. I have no idea what happened to him. Melissa: went Richard Simmons, huh? Brett: yeah. Yeah. With less Melissa: No contact. No contact. Aw. Digital Legacy Work Melissa: I, I’m lucky that, uh, in my line of [00:06:00] work, I do typically hear from the family if they’ve passed on, because I form kind of a bond with a lot of people. I, I typically don’t lose clients unless they die, so… Brett: and you have some, like, in real life connections to Melissa: Oh, yeah. Yeah, I do, I do both. I do… I have some clients where I’ve never met them in person, I’ve only ever done remote. Uh, and then, but most of my clients are, are local, the majority of them. But I, I still s- see them remotely too, so yeah. I’ve, I’ve actually been hired by some people, um, mostly I’ve had two male clients who they got a terminal illness, they knew they were terminal, and they followed me online and they pretty much hired me to take care of their surviving spouse. So that, that was… that’s a difficult thing, but I’m just honored that they chose me to, to help them out with that. So I’ve kind of been a bit of a digital undertaker in that regard. Sponsor: OneSkin Christina: I want to take a moment to share something that has significantly improved my skincare routine, OneSkin. [00:07:00] So we all have those days when our skin doesn’t feel its best, and I’ve certainly been in that boat, especially recovering from surgery. And I was tired of navigating through endless products that promised results, but often fell short. And that’s when I discovered OneSkin. It was founded by scientists dedicated to longevity, and this brand stands out for its commitment to real science over marketing hype. 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Thank you for supporting our show by checking them out Mental Health Check In Brett: Um, so do you wanna do a mental health Melissa: Sure. Brett: I, I know, I know you’ve listened to the show before. I know you know how this works. Melissa: how this works. Brett: Would you like to start? Melissa: I think I would like to hear you start, and then I’ll, I’ll add on Brett: that sounds good. Insomnia And Focus Brett: Um, so sleep continues to be a major issue for me. Um, I actually for four days in a row last week, I got eight hours of sleep a night, which was insane. I felt so good. Um- The first night… So I take [00:09:00] Lamictal for bipolar, and if I miss my evening dose, I crash and I sleep in the next morning, and I sleep soundly. Like, it’s the best sleep I can get. And then I wake up and all of a sudden the withdrawal kicks in, and then I’m shaky and dizzy for half an hour after I take the dose. Um, but that’s after, like, a solid night of sleep, and it never works two nights in a row. And, like, I’ve tried, like, maybe if I take Lamictal in the mornings instead of the evenings, maybe I’ll sleep through the night. It doesn’t work after that first missed dose. Um, but then I just, without making any changes in my lifestyle, started sleeping, and I thought finally after, like, two years of insomnia, I had turned a corner, because I can’t remember the last time I got eight hours of sleep for more than two nights in a [00:10:00] row. And then it ended, and then I was up. I’ve been up since 2:30 today. Melissa: I wondered, yep. Brett: I mean, I went to bed at 8:00, so that’s still nine, 10, 11, 12, 11, Melissa: I actually dozed off on the couch around 8:30. Like, if only I could just be in my bed right now, just be, like, transported. Yeah. Oh. Brett: Oh, I, I wish. If I could go back to bed… Like, sometimes I’ll, I’ll lay back down around 7:00 or 8:00 and get, like, another half hour of sleep, but it’s really that, like, uninterrupted block of deep sleep that I need, not… I take naps during the day, and I can usually fall asleep for half an hour, um, given that I’m usually functioning on five hours of sleep anyway. But anyway, um, I– That, that’s just kind of par for the course for me, so, like, any, any of our listeners know that that’s gonna be the first thing I report. Melissa: are you, [00:11:00] like, kinda competing? Like, are you trying to get eight hours because that’s what’s prescribed? Have you ever thought about Brett: be- actually, what works eight and a half, like I’ve, I’ve… Back when I had the option to sleep more than five hours, like, I did a lot of kind of experimentation and Melissa: know where your sweet spot is. Brett: Well, it… See, the sweet pot- spot changes as you age, though, and you need less sleep as you get older. So, so I can’t say for sure that eight and a half hours is still my sweet spot. Um, and I think honestly, if I can sleep seven hours, I feel pretty good, and I consider seven hours a good night’s sleep. Melissa: Yeah, ’cause mine’s like between four and six. Brett: really? Yeah. See, Melissa: feel Brett: I don’t function well. Oh, I don’t function well on anything less than seven hours. Melissa: I just have a love-hate relationship with sleep. I just don’t– I just hate to sleep. I just would rather be doing other things. Life is [00:12:00] just too interesting. Brett: I get that. I– get that. I– as someone who’s bipolar and has had like manic episodes where I’m up for five days straight, like I, I love not sleeping. Um, w- when, when I have the mania to give me energy and back it up. It’s when I’m just dragging all day and feel like a zombie. The thing– The, the plus side to it is the more tired I am, up to a certain point, the better I can focus. Like my brain slows down and it’s really easy for me to get into hyperfocus. And like most mornings I’m up at, you know, 2:30, 3:00 and I just start coding. And I can not only hyperfocus, but I can switch focus between three or four different projects like simultaneously. I hit compile on one, I move on to the next one, and I can rotate [00:13:00] through them and like keep track of all of it. And then right around 10:00 AM, my ability to do that ends and suddenly I like flip to a project and I cannot for the life of me remember what I was doing, which is why I’ve spent my life building note-taking apps and, and time tracking tools. Melissa: Yep, same thing. Doing Time Tracker Brett: dude, h- d- I don’t… You might not be familiar with my project Doing. Melissa: N-no, but I– you alluded to something. that’s not what you’re working on with Dan though, is it? Brett: No, no, that’s gonna be Melissa: Dan on that too. I, I, don’t know what it is yet, but yeah, I’m, I’m Brett: Oh, it’s… Yeah, it’s gonna be cool. Melissa: that’s so exciting. Brett: no, Doing is a command line tool where you can type things like, “Doing now podcasting with Melissa,” and it starts a timer for like what I’m doing now, and then I can ask it if I leave and come back, I can say, “What was I doing?” And it’ll tell me, [00:14:00] “You’re podcasting with Melissa.” Obviously, that’s a weird example ’cause I’m not gonna leave in the middle of this. But then it can give you like totals, time, tag-based time totals, uh, for your week and everything. It can show you like what you finished yesterday. Um, it’s not so much a task tracking app as it is a tool for keeping track of what you’re doing in the moment. Um, for, for people like me who switch between four projects at once, it’s really handy. And some guy, some fucking guy Melissa: Some fucking guy. Brett: it, rewrote it in Rust, and it is really good. it is really good. Uh, he like, I- Oh yeah, I use Melissa: Okay, ’cause Brett: This is, this is separate. this is this is a little more ‘ intentional than Timing. Um, I use both. They kind of work together, and Doing can actually import Timing’s JSON exports. So you can turn your, you can turn [00:15:00] all your Timing data into command line, uh, readable Doing files. Um, but anyway, this guy rewrote it in Rust with my permission, and he gave me full credit on the page. And I think I’m switching ’cause Doing is written in Ruby, and Ruby is slow, and Rust is fast. And like my Doing file where it stores all of my current projects, like my Doing items, gets so big that it can take Doing like up to five seconds to respond when I ask it, “What was I doing today?” Which is five seconds is a long time on the command line. Um, and his Melissa: pretty instantaneous. Brett: his version is like 100 milliseconds. Boom. But anyway, Melissa: It’s almost like you built your own little AI thing. Like, what was I doing? What Brett: kinda, kinda, yeah. Melissa: you doing, Dave? Brett: This is, this [00:16:00] was built long before AI was a common thing, but the other thing that’s contributing to my mental health Suspenders And Stenosis Brett: is suspenders. Melissa: Ah, yes. Brett: So I have I have gained 100 pounds, um, not, n-not of my own choice, but like I had rapid weight gain and I recently got a stenosis diagnosis, which I hate the Melissa: telling you, I’m telling you, we’re like 23 and me here. I’ve got that too. Brett: apparently during one of my, like when I gained 50 pounds in like six weeks, my body was looking for places to store all the new fat and decided my spine might be a good place for that. Um, so I have fat in my spine and I have degrading discs. This is separate from my love of suspenders, so I’ll get back to [00:17:00] that. I, um, Melissa: Wait till you get it in your eyeballs. Brett: Oh, for real? Melissa: Yeah, you can have… I have, um, what’s it called? Cholesterol. Yeah, if you look at your eyes really close, if you see like a white kind of w- ridge around your irises, that’s cholesterol. Brett: Oh, wow. Yeah, I hope, I hope that hasn’t happened yet, but who knows? Um, Melissa: Brings out Brett: I– So I have all this, I have all this extra weight and I had a lot of trouble with belts. A, belts hurt ’cause they dig into my, my gut, and they don’t really work. I, every, every time I stood up, my butt crack showed and I had to like wiggle my pants up. And then I I tried a pair of suspenders and it was like a l- a switch had been flipped. All of a sudden my pants just stayed up without any constriction around my waist, just like they just stayed with me wherever I went. And now I can, [00:18:00] I can tuck my shirts in and it actually looks kinda cool when you got the suspenders look going on. Which means, so like for a long time I only wore one brand of shirt, um, and because they, it was, it fit my belly and it was long enough and like it wasn’t, wasn’t baggy around the top and didn’t hang off my belly like a muumuu. Melissa: Mm-hmm, Brett: And like, so I, I, I only wore this brand of shirt and I own like 15 of them, and I would just cycle through Melissa: dresses, they’re just your Walmart $10 cotton tank dress. Love it. Brett: Yeah. But now that I can tuck my shirts in and feel okay about it, I can buy those extra large nerd shirts, ones with funny slogans and stuff on them. And normally those would hang straight down off my belly, and I hate the way that looks. But now I can tuck those in, which means I can get back to wearing funny, [00:19:00] ironic T-shirts, and it, it’s like opening up a whole new world of possibilities Melissa: That is a bonus for mental health. Brett: every day now I put on my suspenders and it makes me happy. Um, Melissa: wonderful. It’s almost like a, like a mobility aid. Brett: Kinda, yeah. Melissa: yeah. Brett: of, I– So I, I have a monopod, um, like a tripod that folds up into a walking stick, and it’s nice and light and it is an adjustable height ’cause it’s designed to be used as a camera tripod. Um, and I’ve started walking with it Melissa: yeah. kinda like you’re Brett: I c- yeah. Yeah. Like one of my fat friends has s- literal like ski poles. They’re like half height ski poles and they walk with them and it helps them a ton, and I Melissa: Yeah, hikers use those. Brett: try that out. But a walking stick [00:20:00] really does help with my stenosis, but I can still, even with a stick, I can only walk for about five minutes, which is about .3, Melissa: Yeah. Brett: 3, .3 miles. Um, and then I have to stop and sit, and it’s been a real pain, literally. Mobility And Home Hacks Melissa: And is standing difficult, too? Brett: standing is worse than walking. Melissa: thing, yeah. Standing’s worse. Brett: Yeah. Like if I am in the kitchen and I’m at the stove cooking, before the onions start to brown, I have to sit Melissa: Yeah. Yep. Brett: Uh, so we now have a stool in our kitchen, Melissa: Do you have one in the shower? Brett: yes. Well, our shower, our shower has a nice, like the back of the tub is a seat. Melissa: Oh, okay. Yeah. Brett: I don’t know if this house was designed by old people or not, but, um, but it’s certainly everything is relatively [00:21:00] accessible in that way. Um, but the stool in the kitchen means I can cook dinner. Emptying the dishwasher is the worst for me. That just like bending over, picking stuff up, and then just moving back and forth, like the five feet across our kitchen. My– I, it takes me three stops, three rests to get a dishwasher emptied. Um, and then I’m kind of ruined after that. I hate it. And I hate that I Melissa: stress mat? Brett: What’s that? Oh, you mean Melissa: mat to stand on? Gotta get, gotta Brett: think that would help? Melissa: Oh, yeah. Yeah, I have Brett: used to have one Melissa: and one in front of the kitchen, and I don’t even, I don’t even, do the cooking. Brett: Ha. I used to, I used to have one of those in front of the stove when I w- when I didn’t have pain, but just because I was really getting into cooking and I was spending a lot of time, and I was starting to feel it in my knees. Um, yeah, maybe I should do Melissa: I think it’s a fatigue [00:22:00] mat, I think they call it. Brett: Yeah. Melissa: Yeah, Brett: That sounds Melissa: plus they look cool if you get little designs on them and stuff. Yeah. Oh, we could spend the day talking about just mobility aids and ergonomics and all that kind of stuff. Melissa Health Update Brett: Well, it’s your turn. Talk about whatever you like. Melissa: Yeah, you give me some ideas to talk about. Um, yeah, I struggle with a lot of the same things that you do. Um, I’m always like kinda comparing notes every time you post something. I’m like, "Oh No, ‘Cause you talked about Have you … You haven’t started the injections yet, have you? Brett: No, and they just delayed those. I don’t get them until like June 20th or something. Melissa: nervous about those for you, because I’ve had those and I’ve decided to just swear off them, so I’ll just kinda give you just a heads-up. I mean, it does raise your blood sugar, so that’s not great, and, um, it can give you the roid rage, kinda make you angry, so that’s something to watch out for, and more weight gain, so …But it’s like one of those things where you just have to kinda try [00:23:00] it and see if it works, because if it does work, then you could be more mobile and then maybe drop a few pounds and get some of that weight off of your spine. But if it doesn’t work, just know that that can happen, Brett: my doctor did not mention any of those side effects, so good to Melissa: Yeah. Yeah. It’s, it’s the chronic life, so that’s, that’s what, that’s what, uh, affects my mental health, so I’m, I’m really good at faking it. I am actually … I will say I’m actually feeling a little bit more even. ADHD Meds And Mutations Melissa: I’m on, uh … I love when you talk about different prescriptions and stuff. Uh, I just mentioned, so I’m taking Adderall. That is, ugh, it’s a mixed bag. Um, I wanted to ask you about Vyvanse, cause that’s the next thing for me, but it’s, like, super expensive, so I’m trying to make Adderall work as best I can, but I’m, I’m in the process of playing with the dosage. But I think she told me, like, the highest was 30. The thing is, uh, I’ve had genetic testing done, and [00:24:00] I have this condit- not a condition, but it’s a I’m a mutant. It’s a genetic mutation called, it’s, it’s just initials. It’s MTHFR, lovingly known as Brett: you process your, your, chemicals twice as … fast. I have Melissa: Yes, faster processing in the liver. So that’s when she told me, ’cause she started, uh, me out on methylphenidate, and I was like, “Well, what about Adderall?” Because it, I see it work for my kids, you know? The kids are chip off the old block, right? And so I’ve had them tested too, and all three of us are positive for that. It’s lovelin- lovingly known as the motherfucker gene mutation. Um, yeah, so, and it is. It’s, it’s quite a bitch, um, ’cause it causes a whole bunch of other problems. And of course, we’ve talked about Ehlers-Danlos, so I have, uh, hypermobile Eh- Ehlers-Danlos. I’m having a hard time … I’m just having a hard time with that in general, mental health wise, because there’s just not enough awareness about it, enough people, and doctors, doctors and nurses. And you know, I’ll, I’ll say I wanna, I would love to be able to get [00:25:00] to a point where I can just say, “I have H-E-D-S,” or heads or what- however they’re gonna pronounce it, and, like, somebody know what that is when I go in for an appointment. But I still have to explain it, you know? And then that, that cuts into my time. ‘Cause they only … When you’re, when you’re our age, they only give you, like, 15 minutes, if that. When you’re much older, ’cause I’ve had to take, I’ve had to take family members to the doctor, they get a whole lot more time. But, uh, you know, it’s like, "Oh, you’re, you’re too young to be this sick. You’re too young to be this old," Brett: Right. Yeah. Curious Doctors Matter Brett: Um, I did– I found that doctor for me that knew exactly what all those acronyms meant, knew exactly, like, not only did they know what POTS was, they knew like seven different kinds of POTS and what tests to use to narrow it down. And then she got called up to National Guard Melissa: Oh, I wondered, I wondered, what happened to that doctor, ’cause it sounded so Brett: I waited. I was on a, I was on– I w- I had an appointment scheduled that was gonna be six months from the time she [00:26:00] left. Um, and I had it scheduled, and it was on July 7th. And then I got a letter in the mail saying that her Guard duty had been extended, and now I can’t see her again until September. And, like, I’ve, I’ve tried seeing other doctors that work with her, but none of them have the knowledge she has, and it was such a relief Melissa: Is this the curious one? Okay. I always think about you whenever I’m either looking for a provider or in the, in the midst of, of getting, you know, shuffled around to a new provider. I’m like, “I hope they’re curious,” ’cause that made– that meant so much to me when you explained about how a doctor needs to be curious. I’m like, “That’s what I need.” I need somebody… Or even just my therapist. I have a new, a new therapist that I see, and she’s really curious, and I really, really like that about her. That’s something that helps with mental health, is when somebody’s curious, ’cause I’m Brett: it goes h- it goes hand in hand with credulousness. Like, [00:27:00] first they have to be willing to believe you, and like, especially when it comes to invisible issues like EDS. Like, you have to be willing to believe a person and then be curious enough to look for answers. Like, the first step is believing, and the second step is curiosity. Melissa: Yes. I’ve already had my patient record marked as… Have you ever heard this one? Worried well. Brett: No. Melissa: I looked it up. It’s basically hypochondriac. Brett: Yeah, that’s what I was gonna guess. That Melissa: Yep. I actually– I was proud of myself because I actually did confront the doctor about it and I said, “What does this mean?” I said, “I, I looked it up and it kinda concerns me ’cause it makes me look like a hypochondriac.” And she said, "Oh, no, no, that’s just a, a code that we use when we don’t have something else to assign to it so that insurance will pay." Bullshit. Brett: Yeah, right? I feel like that’s exactly the kind of [00:28:00] thing insurance doesn’t pay. Melissa: Mm-hmm. so Vyvanse Vs Adderall Brett: what do you wanna know about Vyvanse? Melissa: Um, a- and I know it’s different for everybody, but I just kinda wondered what your take was on it. Um, how– can you compare it to Adderall at all for me, Brett: Yeah. Melissa: no comparison? Brett: it’s basically a non-abusable, I would call it lower lying version of, of Adderall. Like, it’s in the same family of stimulant as Adderall, but it can’t– It isn’t processed or it’s… I don’t remember how the mechanics of it work, but you can’t snort it basically. Like, it doesn’t, it doesn’t do anything Melissa: Which I wouldn’t wanna do anyway ’cause there’s nothing up here. Brett: Sure. Sure. And then, yeah, I’m not suggesting that was gonna be a problem for you. Um, but it’s also, like, it’s way, um, for me anyway, it’s way calmer. [00:29:00] Um, and there are people that say it doesn’t do anything at all. Um, especially a lot of people, a lot of people say the generic version doesn’t do anything, um, and that the name brand version does, but I haven’t found that to be true. Like the generic, which you’re correct, still costs like 200 bucks a month, um, for the generic. Um, but it is– It’s not my favorite. Melissa: I wondered why– what made you stop taking it. Did it just not work for you? Brett: No, I still take Vyvanse. Um, yeah. Um, I used to take, um, Focalin, which I loved. Melissa: That really worked for my kiddo, yep. Brett: but it also triggered my mania, Melissa: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Brett: so I was always walking this line of like, do I wanna be super productive and manic with like weeks of depression in between, [00:30:00] or do I just wanna be somewhat productive and stable? Um, which is why I’ve stuck with Vyvanse, and my doctor loves it enough for me that she won’t, she won’t prescribe anything else for me at this point. Like, I’ve asked about switching. I’ve asked about moving back to Adderall and things like that, but, Melissa: It seems like you’re, like you’re kinda on an evening out. Brett: Yeah, I haven’t had a manic episode for a couple years now. Tracking Mood With Data Melissa: Do you track it? Do you– Like, have you ever seen those– I keep seeing these ads for it ’cause, you know, the algorithm feeds us the stuff for wearables that are, um, called– I think it’s called Visible, so it makes your symptoms more visible instead of invisible. Like, do you track it? Do you Have you nerded out on your own data? Brett: like my mania and depression? Melissa: Yeah, like do you track it and look at graphs or anything like that to Brett: See, I’ve never had to use an external tool because I can just look at GitHub contribution graphs, and I can look at [00:31:00] my RSS feed, and I can see exactly, like for a period of like eight years, I can pinpoint exactly where my manic episodes were, um, because that data is historically preserved out there on the internet for all to see. Um, it’s, yeah, it’s– Well, and that’s, like I built tools that gathered that, those various sources of data. Um, and then there was a, a tool called, um, I forget. Melissa: cool, though? Hmm. We’ll think Brett: But it could pull, it could pull in all that data. Um, Bell Beth Cooper, Hello Code, I can’t remember the name of the app. Melissa: Yeah, it’ll come to you eventually. Brett: sure. Uh, but it could pull in like your GitHub, uh, commits along with like what the weather was at the time, how many songs you listened to that Melissa: Oh, day one sorta does that, yeah. Brett: Does it now? Melissa: A little bit, yeah, your locations, [00:32:00] um, if you turn on some of those things. Like not– I don’t think it does the music and things like that, but Brett: I haven’t used it for a while. I haven’t used it for a Melissa: I was gonna switch to the journal app. I was actually really… I held off on upgrading to Tahoe for the longest time, but that one kept nagging at me ’cause I thought, oh, you know, maybe. I mean, as much as I love Day One, I, I thought about, I thought about actually switching over, but no. I tried it. I’m, I’m gonna stick with Day One. Brett: Cool. All right. Cane And Somatic Therapy Brett: Um, so did you have, did you have more to add to your Melissa: Oh, I was gonna, I was gonna add on to what you were talking about with the suspenders. I did start… I think you probably… Well, yeah, you commented on it. Um, I started using a cane, and that I have mixed feelings about that. Um, I should have brought it in here so I could show you. I’ll show you later, ’cause, uh, anyway, it’s, it’s purple. I did get a pimp cane. That’s what my husband calls it. I thought, damn it, if I’m gonna use, like, a cane, then it’s gonna be [00:33:00] purple, and I’m gonna like looking at it, as much as I hate to use it, so. So I’ve been trying to use it. I… What you were talking about with, uh, with finding a curious doctor, I do have new physical therapist, um, so I’m really happy about that. Same kind of thing where she’s super booked. I think that’s just how it is. Like, the really good ones, they’re good, and, you know, it shows because it’s, it’s hard to get in to see them. So yeah. So I’m, I’m looking forward to that. We’re gonna be doing… Have you heard of somatic therapy? Brett: Yeah. Melissa: Yeah. So ha- have you tried it? Do, do you like it? Okay. That’s, that’s what I’m embarking on. Brett: I actually have a friend who teaches classes in it. Melissa: Oh, Al probably knows about that. Brett: y- yeah, Melissa: Yeah, I’ll, I’ll Brett: and it is, it is amazing how hard just doing things, doing motions you’re used to, but doing them very slowly and intentionally. It is like you– Just like, Just like, doing y- like a clamshell where you drop your knee, you’re [00:34:00] on your back and you drop your knee down to the side and bring it back up. Like that motion, most of us, even infirmed people can do that okay. You try to take… You try to do that and take like five breaths in each direction, and you’ll start shaking. It’s very Melissa: Ah, uh-huh. Yep. Brett: Yeah, but it’s good. Like it’s g- it really retrains your muscles. It really, it strengthens, retrains, and helps with, uh, finer motor control. Melissa: Oh, that’s interesting. Yeah, I, I’m, I’m a little bit on the skeptical end of it, so that’s why I’m, I’m glad that, that you, you vouch for it too. It’s like I know that it works, but I just… I guess I wanna understand the science of it a little bit more. Like, for example, I’ve tried, uh, acupuncture, and I just didn’t feel like it did, did anything for me. I think you have to be, like, a believer, and I just Brett: think so. Melissa: I, I, I even did that on purpose knowing that I kinda felt like it wasn’t gonna work. I was like, well, what if I just go into this? ‘Cause, [00:35:00] ’cause I talk to people and they’re like, "Well, you have to believe in it." I’m like, but what if I don’t? I just don’t, you know? I’m, I see it Brett: it’s not medicine if you have to believe in it. Melissa: Yeah. I mean, I see it work for other people. I know there’s, you know, such a thing as placebos and things like that, and I don’t know, it’s, it’s woo-woo and I, I, I like woo-woo stuff. I, it just, it didn’t do anything for me, so… It’s not to say that it doesn’t work for other people, but it just did not work for me, and I, I kind of, I, maybe I just, uh, did that on purpose when I, I try- probably just tripped myself up going into it thinking, well, I just don’t believe it, so if it works, then there must be science behind it. And then, then, I’ll believe. But it didn’t work out, so. So the, I’m a little bit on the fence about the somatic thing, but the, the, the gal that I’m working with is just so, she has EDS herself, and like, like what you were saying, like, she, she knows all about it and she could even, you know, tell me the, the type that she has, and I was like, I met, I met, actually last week I met two zebras in one week. [00:36:00] You, you’re familiar with the, the zebra mascot? If you, uh, the saying goes, if you hear hooves, think horses. But we’re not horses, are we? Yeah, so Yeah, so that’s, that’s our, our Somatics For EDS Melissa: EDS Brett: somatic– somatics you don’t have to believe in for them to work. Melissa: Okay, that is Brett: it’s an actual physical therapy method that trains the finer muscles, um, that surround your larger muscles and, and strengthens those, and it– Yeah, it’s for real. It’s, yeah, it’s not like a… It’s soma- I think, Melissa: w- totally Brett: ’cause I I had the same reaction when someone said somatics, ’cause I think, “Oh, that’s some holistic idea of the body, um, of soma,” and it’s… No, it’s, it’s got legit physical therapy behind it. Melissa: And, Yoga Modifications Melissa: you used to do a lot of yoga too, so that probably makes Brett: I still do. Melissa: Yeah? That’s [00:37:00] wonderful. Brett: it’s gotten really hard. Um, I can’t, I can’t– So I get dizzy Melissa: Yeah. Brett: going from sitting to standing, um, and my back gives out if I am in, like, horse or warrior two for more than a couple minutes. Um, and I can’t do cobras because I have a belly like a nine-month pregnancy. Um, so I have to do, like, prenatal yoga, um, which is actually a thing. Melissa: that’s a good idea. I’m glad you brought that up. I should look Brett: a- and I do chair yoga, um, where I I take the class that everyone else takes, but I modify it to work with… Like, there, there are defined moves that you do with a chair instead of. Instead of doing down dog, you do, like, a 90-degree down dog holding the back of a chair. Um, and you put, like, a knee on the chair to do warrior two, so you’re actually [00:38:00] resting. And Um, and you can do it fully seated too and get at least the arm exercises out of it. So I’ve been trying to maintain, maintain flexibility and some endurance. I’m not doing yoga the way I used to do it, but I am still Melissa: I’ve seen some of your poses. It’s pretty impressive. Brett: Yeah, back in the day. Melissa: W- when you could be upside down. Polycystic Liver Shock Melissa: I should look into that because I, you know, although I’m done having babies, like far done having babies, I have… You probably know about this too, I have polycystic liver disease, which is a really rare type of liver disease, and it’s not fatty liver. Oh my God, I have to keep telling doctors that. That’s the other thing. It’s like, it is not fatty liver. It is not. It- they’re cysts. It’s a totally different thing. I’m basically full of bubbles. So I… But it feels like that’s why I went in to get it. I didn’t actually get that checked. I found it accidentally when I went in for an heart, for a heart CT. That’s when they found it, and for a, a breast MRI, so [00:39:00] both those, those types of scans caught it. The other parts were fine, so my heart’s fine, so that’s a relief. But yeah, so this was a bit of a shock. And so I don’t know exactly what it means moving forward, um, but my entire liver is, like, engulfed in cysts, so. Right? But my blood work is, is fantastic right now, so I’m just gonna keep Brett: That’s good. Melissa: hoping it stays that way. Brett: That’s something. Fatphobia In Healthcare Brett: Um, I I have heard for a long time about, um, doctors being fatphobic and, and always assuming that, um, always assuming that your health i-issue is because you’re fat and not even looking for underlying issues, which has been an interesting experience for me because that really never happened to me. Melissa: Mm. Brett: Um, at least not once I switched to Gundersen from, like, a local clinic. Then I realized that it’s not just being fat that gets you [00:40:00] stigmatized, it’s being a fat woman. Melissa: Mm, I was gonna say try having a uterus and being Brett: yeah. Yeah. Um, like I talked to one of my best friends, April, who he’s, has been on Melissa: by, women doctors. Brett: Yeah. Yeah. And that’s, that’s what April tells me. She tells me all these horror stories. Even after finding care she trusted, she still has to deal with people saying, “Well, if you just lost some weight.” Like, she’s been fat her whole life. She’s in better shape than most skinny people Melissa: Yeah. Mm-hmm. Brett: I mean, she does sit-ups with 50-pound plates and does, like, five, 10 miles at a time on her, like, on her bike and, like, she’s in great shape and still has to walk with the ski poles, and she’s getting her second knee replaced this week. And, like, it, it’s just infuriating to hear the way that doctors dismiss Melissa: You know what the problem is, Brett? Brett: goes through [00:41:00] when Pole Dancing Reality Check Melissa: Not enough doctors have watched fat pole dancers. That is the problem right there. They need more education. Brett: Um, yeah. There’s, there are a couple of, um, queer burlesque shows Melissa: shows, yes. Brett: in my area that almost always include a plus-size pole dance, and it is amazing to Melissa: Oh, it’s mesmerizing. It should be an Olympic sport. Remind me to send you the, the link to, unless you’ve already seen it, have you seen the Deadpool pole dancer? Brett: No, I don’t think Melissa: you are in for a treat. We might just have to put that in the show notes, but I don’t know, I don’t know if your listeners are that, are into that It’s fully clothed, but it’s, there’s even blue Crocs involved. Brett: So this is nobody that you’re seeing on the Melissa: I wondered, yep. I wondered, yeah. Aw, he looks so soft. Mm. Mechanical Keyboard ASMR Brett: So you’ve [00:42:00] gotten really into mechanical keyboards. Melissa: have, I have. In fact, uh, I was gonna, I was gonna see how this might sound, but I, I brought my little box of key caps to show you so that I could say, welcome to my ASMR channel. Brett: That would… is is that a thing? I bet there are ASMR, like, key switch testing. Melissa: yeah, yeah. I’ve run across a couple of videos where, you know, they’ll have a hashtag ASMR in there, and that’s, that’s what it is. Do you experience ASMR yourself? Brett: No. Melissa: No? So when you listen to those videos you don’t get like the s- the tickling of the spine and stuff? Brett: No. Melissa: I do. It actually, it goes, it… I forget. I always forget what the acronym stands for, but it, you know, has something to do with the meridian. So if you can i- imagine your brain like split in half, and I feel it right on this side. It goes, it goes like the, down the back of my head, behind my ear, and down into my shoulder. It [00:43:00] is the funkiest feeling, and I love it. I love it so much. Even when we were talking about animals in the, in the beginning and I even had a cat that would come and just like kind of lick my ear and, oh, I just, I love that. Most people cannot stand that sound. They have the opposite condition where they can’t handle somebody chewing gum. My grandfather had that. Um, some, some kinda, it ends in a tonia. Misatonia or something like that, um, where… I don’t know. Do you have any of those like sound sensory issues? I have a lot of Brett: really don’t. I’m very, I’m very, like, sound Like, I like loud, heavy music. Like, that does something for my psyche. Um, but general sounds, they neither bo-bother me nor stimulate me. Melissa: imagine what that’s like. I just can’t. I’m So bothered, and my kids too, and you know, ugh, God, Brett: So El Melissa: has been problematic. Brett: El is, El is, definitely sensitive to sound, um, in a way that Like, even my [00:44:00] mechanical keyboards can’t be, can’t be on the same floor of the house as Elle. We pretty much live in silence, and that’s fine for me most of the time because, like, it just doesn’t affect me either way. So, like, keeping things quiet is easy, and I focus well in silence. And then when Elle’s gone, I blast my music, and w- when I’m in the car, I blast my music, and then the rest of the time I live in the quiet place. Melissa: Mm-hmm. In The Quiet Place. Brett: Yeah. Melissa: Yeah, we have- something a little similar, but m- my husband and I have, uh… We have our his and hers kind of setup here in, in the, in our den, in our inner study. So he’s got his side and I’ve got my side. So we’re together, and he does a lot of grading papers, and he’s really good about putting his, his earbuds in and just tuning the whole world out. He’s… It’s fascinating to watch that man just [00:45:00] execute. I mean, I just am so envious of people who can just execute. But the, the, the, yeah, the sensory, it’s all about the sensory stuff for me when it comes to keyboards. I actually thought about… I don’t know how popular it would be, but I also thought about making a podcast, a video podcast, that would highlight the intersection of nail art and mechanical keyboards. Because I’ll tell you, that’s actually what… I’ve always loved mechanical keyboards, but yeah, the, the one that I had, someone had given me a, a Matias, and oh, it’s, it’s so loud, but it’s like high-pitched. It’s kinda sharp. And it was even kind of annoying to me after a while. And then it does not, it’s not a mechanical keyboard in that you can’t pull the switches out, so you’re kinda stuck with what you got. Like, you might be able to change the key caps if you could find them, but couldn’t change the switches. And something happened to the S key, and I was like, “All right, it’s over,” so. But I can’t get rid of them either, so one of these days I wanna have like a display of, of keyboards. [00:46:00] Nail Art And Picking Melissa: But what got me, what got me into saying, “Okay, I’m finally, I’m just gonna invest in a keyboard because it’s ergonomically important to me,” is I have… And I can’t pronounce it, so I’m not even gonna try, but there’s a condition, and it’s a self-diagnosed thing. But I, I am a picker. I pick my skin a lot. Um, I think it’s called derma something Anyway, so I wasn’t gonna try to pronounce it. But, uh, I’ve always had that condition since I was a kid. I didn’t even know it was a thing. I just thought everybody get, uh, picks. But then during the pande- during the pandemic, it got super bad. Like, I had, I had, um, some panic attacks and, you know, as a lot of probab- people probably did. But it got so bad to the point where I had picked my fingers and they were bleeding and they were throbbing and they were hurting. And I said to one of my kids, I said to my youngest, I said, “Can you just, like, if I, if I’m picking, can you just let me know?” And then I regretted doing that because then he took it on as this, like, full-time job, you know? And it kinda [00:47:00] gave him anxiety, and I thought, “Oh, okay, that, that was a bad thing to do.” So I s- I let him off the hook. I said, “No, you don’t have to tell me anymore.” Um, because, yeah, ev- even if I went to, like, just kinda, like, clean under my nail or something. So it was actually causing a real problem for the family that I was just picking so much. And it’s not just my fingers, it’s, like, other parts of my body. So I thought to myself, “Well, what can I do about this?” And so I started putting fake nail tips on. And I hate to be all, like… I don’t know, I’m not, I try not to be, like, a very vain person, but I really started kinda falling into the nail art side of things, and I, I just recently learned how to do gel and work with, um, uh, what’s it called? Uh, not resin. So I… Oh, that’s another ASMR thing. Do you like to watch resin pours? Brett: I do, actually, yes. Melissa: that’s… Okay, so if you like resin pours, if you like to watch the viscosity and the way the, the chemicals, like, form together and when they, when they mix colors in and stuff, [00:48:00] that’s what it’s like with nail art but on more of, like, a macro level because it’s, you know, you’re working with small stuff. Like, just, just recently I learned how to do… So I’m showing Brett this on, on camera, but I recently learned how to do the kind of nail polish that you take a magnet and you run the magnet along it, and it makes this, like, a cat’s eye. Brett: Yeah, that’s cool. Melissa: I love it. So, so that, so combining nail art then, and I thought, “Well, now I’ve got these long nails,” but all of my keyboards have been these flat, really low-profile keyboards. And, you know, I just, I started to dread it. So then I was kinda caught between a crossroads. Like, either I leave nails off and I can type really, really fast and have high accuracy with no nails, but then as soon as, as soon as I get, like, a little snag or something, then I start picking and then it’s just, it’s all over then. Or I try to find a way to work with these nails. So that’s what I started thinking, “Well, maybe if I had higher keys.” And so then I just, yeah, rabbit hole. [00:49:00] Went down the rabbit hole, and I’ve, I’ve just kinda been there ever since. And, uh, it really, I think, uh… Let’s see. How long ago did this start? It’s only been about maybe like six months or something like that, so. Keyboard Layout Rabbit Hole Melissa: But in that time so I’ve started, um, building a collection of switches. So I’ve been really interested in both the key caps and the switches. Um, I’ve got my baseboards. I like my Royal Kludge the best. This is… I’m gonna show Brett my Royal Kludge. So, so this is what it’s looking like right now. Brett: Yeah. Melissa: It is very purpley. Um, I did post some pictures. I can… I don’t know if you do pictures in show notes, but I could take some pictures for you It’s got a knob. It’s got, um… Let me see if I can do it real Brett: Do you use the knob. I have a couple keyboards with knobs and even a joystick, and I never actually use them Melissa: Good question. Um, I, I use it, I try to use it for volume at [00:50:00] times, and that’s probably what I use it for the most. But this one does have a… Let’s see if I can get this into focus here, backwards and upside down. It’s gonna be upside down, but you see how you can put, you can put your logo Brett: Oh, yeah. Nice. Melissa: got my The Mac Mommy little logo on there. Otherwise, it gives you the time in military format, so that’s kind of handy to have. Um, but yeah, it’s… To be honest, I, I love the, I love this Royal Kludge because it’s nice and heavy, and I love the form factor. It’s got a number pad, um, because I’m, because I am a grown-ass adult and I need a number pad. Um, but it’s nice and heavy. It doesn’t, it doesn’t move around my desk a lot. I kind of have to type, like, kind of crooked, ’cause that’s just the way my neck goes to the wrong way and stuff like that. So I like being able to fit it on my desk. I have a, I had a larger one made by Red, uh, what is it? Redragon. This is the one that I started [00:51:00] out with. Gonna make lots of noise here. But as you can see, this one is way bigger. And it was, as much as I liked it, I mean, I fell in love with it, but what was happening was my accuracy was, like, really thrown off because I fe- I kept feeling like it just needs to be, like, a couple centimeters to the right or a couple centimeters to the left. It just wasn’t centered very well. So this one, my husband gets all the hand-me-downs, so that one went over onto his desk. Uh, and then I also have a baby keyboard here, and this is another Redragon. This is my little mini one. Brett: that’s, that’s the kind of keyboard I mostly use, like a 70% keyboard. Melissa: Yeah, I think this one’s even 60. Um… Brett: My– The one I’m using right now is, uh, 60. There’s no, there’s no function row, there’s no arrow, there’s no keypad or, like, arrow pad. Um, Melissa: No [00:52:00] arrows? How do you live without arrows? Oh, do you, you mapped your keys to something Brett: so it looks like this, Melissa: nice. I love the Brett: that the, the space bar is split in two. Yeah, my, my, my partner says it looks like, uh, gay ’80s. It’s all pink and blue and purple. Um, but the, the space bar is split, and the right half of mine functions as something called a mod key, and when I hold that down, then my I, J, K, and L keys become arrow keys. Melissa: Oh, wow. Brett: once you get used to it, you never have to take your hand off the home row. Melissa: Oh my God, that must be amazing. Brett: It– Yeah, once you get used to it, it, it’s so… Like, g- moving to a keyboard that doesn’t have that is kind of tortuous. On my MacBook Pro, I have remapped it using Karabiner so that Melissa: [00:53:00] That’s what I’m using. Brett: if I hold, the semicolon down with my pinky, then H-I-J-K-L become, Melissa: Oh, nice. Brett: become arrow keys, so I still don’t have to move my hand all the way down and to the right. Like, that’s such a inefficient movement that then I have to, like… Because I don’t have great feeling in my fingers, so finding, on a low-profile keyboard, finding the, the homing buttons again Melissa: Oh, do you use the humming buttons? See, that’s the thing, I was never taught that. I mean, I took like a ty- I took like a typewriting class back in high school, and I just didn’t like it. I, I just taught myself. I just… I’m an autodidact that way, so I just taught myself. Brett: my dad, back in 1984, we had a typing program on our PCjr, and I Melissa: It wasn’t Mavis Beacon, was it? Brett: remember. I don’t remember. All I know is, like, It taught you touch typing, and it would give you [00:54:00] these lessons, and you would basically just mirror what was on screen. And at the age of seven, I was typing at about 68 words per minute on an, on an old IBM PCjr keyboard. Um, got a lot faster through high school and everything. But yeah, I was, I was, from day one, I was raised to be a touch typist, and, and I took all the classes they had in school. Melissa: But you still touch Brett: labs. Yeah. Melissa: Uh-huh, yeah. So you don’t do the home rows. Brett: No, that is touch Melissa: Oh, touch typing, so you do feel… for the bumps. Brett: Yeah, I feel for the bumps, and then I just, like, my f- my key, my fingers never really leave the Melissa: Oh, yeah. See, I wish I could do Brett: centered home row. Yeah. It’s, it, it’s good. Um, Melissa: And you’re using the split, so my gosh. Brett: What– You get used to that too. Um, like, [00:55:00] I can’t do it with the split far apart. I’ve seen people use, like, splits, like, way out to the sides, and I can’t, my, my brain doesn’t do that. Like, my hands have to be within, like, six inches of each other. Melissa: I always thought, it would be so cool to have something where you could have it, like, raised up like this, right? And use your hands sideways. Brett: Yeah. Well, that’s I mean, that’s essentially, I have, on the bottom of this keyboard, I have these risers. Melissa: Oh, uh-huh. Oh, Brett: So it sits, right now I have it at about a 45-degree tent, tent, tent. Um, but it can go up to more like an 80-degree tent, where you’re actually Melissa: Wow. Brett: uh, almost like you’re clapping, you’re typing. Um, I don’t Melissa: of that. I have a, a, handshake mouse. Brett: Vertical mouse. Melissa: You like… Is that what you have for a mouse too? Brett: no, I, I love Melissa: Trackballs. Oh, trackpads. Oh, okay. Brett: Apple’s Magic Trackpad changed my life. I’ve never used– I’ve never gone back to a [00:56:00] mouse since the first Magic Trackpad came out. Melissa: So you’re all about the gestures then? Brett: yeah, Melissa: Yeah. Yeah, yeah. That’s great. Brett: Bet- bet- better touch tool for the win. Melissa: You know what it is for me, is because of the type of work that I do, and this is very much true for both of us, you do these things because of the type of work that you do. The type of work that I do, I’m in everybody’s homes, so I have to ty- I have to be able to type and use their mouse and, I mean, it’s actually a very dirty job. So I keep hand wipes with me everywhere. Um, that, that was why during the pandemic I was like, “I am not coming to your house and I am not touching the stuff that you just picked your nose and…” Yeah, mm-mm. But, so, so i- it’s been kind of keeping me almost like a purist in a way as far as keyboards have gone all these years. I, I finally just kind of let go and embraced this recently, th- which is why I’m so excited and why I’m just kind of nerding out on it, because when, when I worked [00:57:00] in, like, I’ll call it the industry, um, I got my f- my start in prepress. So I worked in prepress, I was a typesetter, and we had… That’s what I kind of miss. We had the old clunky beige keyboards, and I had my muscle memory such that I think my o- my Option key would have, like, the indentation of my nail on it. You know? ‘Cause I had, just like you have, keys that are programmed. I could… I was a Quark queen. I don’t know if you’re familiar with QuarkXPress? Brett: Oh, yeah. Yeah. I was a graphic designer. I I know Quark. Melissa: Yeah, I loved it. I was… And, and I used it back in the OS 9 days, OS 7 really, is when I started out. Uh, I did not like the OS X vers- OS 10 version of Quark. Did not like it at all. Brett: No, but that’s Melissa: it was slow. Brett: Adobe came out with, what was, what was Adobe’s… InDesign. Yeah. By the time I had started, by the time I had started my own ad agency, we were all InDesign. Melissa: Oh, [00:58:00] nice. Okay. I mean, it was a Brett: and none of the, none of the print shops expected Quark files Melissa: Yeah. Oh, it was so expensive. I remember I had to buy it when I was in college, and I remember it cost, like, $800. I’m probably still paying for that, damn it, in interest. Yeah, so that, that’s how I got my start originally, and that’s how I was doing… I, I went to… So I have, I have a Bachelor of Fine Arts. I went to college in order to be a designer. I wanted to be a designer designer, and that’s what I, what I thought I was good at and thought that I liked doing, ’cause, you know, “Oh, you’re a girl. Go to art school. You like to draw.” You know? I’m always bitter about that because I really wish that I would’ve been able to go… I mean, this was, you know… I’m, I’m 51, so this was back in the day where girls, girls don’t do computers and girls don’t do coding. G- girls don’t do computer science. They didn’t even call it computer science. They didn’t even call it graphic design back then. It was commercial art. Um, so I studied that and, you know, I liked it ’cause I thought, “Well, this is what I could, I could take my art and make [00:59:00] a living into it.” And then fast-forward, um, I just started to fall in love with the technical troubleshooting side of things. So as, as good as I was at the technical typesetting and the technical, like, putting prepress things together, you know, um, uh, key sheets and s- you know, things like that. Do you remember, was there, uh, did you ever use a program called Quick Keys? That was one of the ones Brett: familiar. Melissa: you could map your own keys to things. So w- when I was in prepress and doing typesetting, I used that program and I, I mapped all my keys, and I had all these quick keys and stuff so I could go really, really fast, you know? So when they wanted something done fast, they gave it to me, and I could just fly through documents with this. But then as people learned that I was good at this kind of stuff and troubleshooting, they’re like, “Oh, hey, Roger needs, you know, has a problem. Can you go help him?” So I’d go over to his cubicle, I sit down, and he’s got nothing. You know, he’s got [01:00:00] no quick keys, no nothing, and you just kinda get lost because your muscle memory just adapts to it. And I couldn’t help people the way… And, and that was what it was about for me. I really liked more helping people and troubleshooting and the technology side of things than the actual design process. So I kind of went to the other side with it. And so I just kind of, like, vowed that, okay, I’m not gonna do any kind of, like, customization on my own workstation because then I’ll, my, my muscle memory will map to it, and then when I go to sit down to help somebody else, I won’t… You know, I’ll be so much in my own world that I won’t be able to help them. And so I just kind of, like, remained a, a pu

This is part one of a two-part recapThe Real Housewives of Beverly Hills reunion ends with a whimper as Dorit, Kyle and Erika refuse to reconcile. Aw, the Fox Force Five is officially dunzo and in the ground. How will we move on? We'll find out next year! To watch this recap on video, listen to our bonus episodes, and get ad free listening, go to Patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens. Find bonus episodes at patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens and follow us on Instagram @watchwhatcrappens @ronniekaram @benmandelker Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This is part 2 of a 2-part recapThe Real Housewives of Beverly Hills reunion ends with a whimper as Dorit, Kyle and Erika refuse to reconcile. Aw, the Fox Force Five is officially dunzo and in the ground. How will we move on? We'll find out next year! To watch this recap on video, listen to our bonus episodes, and get ad free listening, go to Patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens. Find bonus episodes at patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens and follow us on Instagram @watchwhatcrappens @ronniekaram @benmandelker Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

AW issue 107 on Augustus' German campaigns is in the last stages of preparation so the panel thought it would be a good idea to lay the ground work in preparation for next month's podcast on issue 107. So, tonight we're discussing 'Why Germany' and the opening up of the Rhine frontier as a place for future campaigns, from the Cimbri and Teutones and Caesar onwards down yo the time of Augustus.

Aw heck yeah, nerds! Welcome to episode 228 of Up Yours with More, the official podcast of Up Up and Away Comics in Cincinnati, OH!This episode, MODOK and BC preview what comics, graphic novels, manga, and collectibles will be on sale in the month of July (and beyond)!Find Us Online at the Following Outlets Website :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠upupandawaycomics.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ YouTube :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠youtube.com/@upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook ::  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/upupawa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠y and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/uuablueash⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Instagram :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠instagram.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠twitter.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠

Merriam-Webster's Word of the Day for May 5, 2026 is: augur • AW-gur • verb To augur is to show or suggest, especially from omens, that something might happen in the future. Used most often in formal speech or writing, augur is often followed by an adverb, such as well. // The downturn augurs badly for the success of the business. See the entry > Examples: "Last March, almost exactly two decades after his ghost church appeared at the Whitney, [Banks] Violette put another destroyed structure on display: the canopy of an abandoned gas station split in half. ... This wreckage could only augur doom." — Rachel Wetzler, Artforum, 1 Feb. 2026 Did you know? In ancient Rome, augurs were official diviners whose function it was to divine whether the gods approved of a proposed undertaking, such as a military move. They did so by various means, among them observing the behavior of birds and examining the entrails of sacrificed animals. We doubt the Romans predicted that their verb augurāre, meaning "to foretell by augury," would evolve into an English verb meaning "presage or foretell," but in retrospect, augur's path must have been in the stars.

From the desk Pete: "I know. I know. We didn't 'reformat' the show like we said we would which might be why this month's show is delightful chaos. I can't tell you for sure if this is how we're going forward with the show, but the last three episodes have been heavy on the nostalgia and light on the 'movie review'. Frankly, I kinda like it which makes it fun for us and all the more worth doing. To HELL with the listeners. Wait...I don't mean that...I sorry. GMB WUVES they peoples. We do. Honest! Anyway, this month we dive into Captain Pete's nostalgic past and dredge up memories. Listeners are usually cautioned when the curtain is drawn into the mind of Pete but fear not friends, this show is as PC as Bond movies get. Wait, oh yeah, I forgot to mention that we're FINALLY covering a James Bond film. GoldenEye is one of the most important films in the 27-movie franchise and we let you know why in this episode. As Pete likes to say, 'NO SPOILERS,' so I guess you're stuck listening to the show. Aw shucks! We have a bunch of fun ideas for you as we squeeze into our new GMB 2026 pants and once we get off our butts to actually MAKE said promised changes, we think you'll like what you hear. If not, it's all Charlies fault. Pete is innocent of any and all crimes against podcasting."

This week, Mike Erre reminded us that that the Bible's story isn't so much about Heaven vs Hell. Instead, it's about how Heaven and Earth are reconciled. People focus way too much on Hell, he said. So, what kind of questions did we get on the text line afterwards? Oh, about 25 messages on Hell. Aw, heck. Here we go discussing it just this once. Special guest  Lauren Sellers joins Kevin Dixon, Suzie Lind and Tim Timmons.TIMESTAMPS11:45 No producer Edwin this week, so this is when Kevin breaks his microphone. It's a wonder that didn't happen sooner.12:07 … and this is when Tim fixed it for him. - - - - -Have a question or comment for the NOW team? Join the conversation by texting us at ⁠⁠+1 615 861 9503⁠⁠.

We made it: triple figures! And as luck would have it, Nature just simultaneously published four major meta-science papers that are right up our street. Aw. Thanks, Nature. You shouldn't have.How screwed is social/behavioural science? We read all four papers to find out.We're incredibly grateful to everyone who's been listening for all this time. See you for the next hundred!Show notes* The four Nature papers:* Replication* Reproducibility* Robustness* The non-DARPA oneCreditsThe Science Fictions podcast—all 100+ episodes of it!—is produced by Julian Mayers at Yada Yada Productions. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sciencefictionspod.substack.com/subscribe

Welcome to our bi-monthly ENCORE PRESENTATION of classic REVOLUTIONS PER MOVIE episodes from the vault! Aw....this early Revolutions Per Movie recording, with my fantastic guest KLIPH SCUROLOCK (drummer/multi-instrumentalist for The Flaming Lips, Gruff Rhys of Super Furry Animals), brought out all the excitement as we bonded and talked about one of the greatest unreleased music documentaries ever made about one of the greatest bands ever to walk the Earth: MC5-A True Testimonial. Enjoy!(Episode 13 originally aired on Dec. 9th 2023).ORIGINAL SHOW NOTES:This week, we talked to Kliph Scurlock (drummer/multi-instrumentalist for The Flaming Lips, Gruff Rhys of Super Furry Animals) about the greatest unreleased music documentary of all-time, MC5: A True Testimonial! We also discuss the by-gone era of famous rock managers, the physicality and sonic push of the MC5, bad band decisions, FBI footage of the band & how bands end.Kliph Scurlock:https://www.instagram.com/kliphscurlockMC5 live footage:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfDoUIh23WgHost Chris Slusarenko (Eyelids, Guided By Voices, owner of Clinton Street Video rental store) is joined by actors, musicians, comedians, writers & directors who each week pick out their favorite music documentary, musical, music-themed fiction film, or music videos to discuss. Fun, weird, and insightful, Revolutions Per Movie is your deep dive into our life-long obsessions where music and film collide.Revolutions Per Movie releases new episodes every Thursday on any podcast app, and additional, exclusive bonus episodes every Sunday on our Patreon. If you like the show, please consider subscribing, rating, and reviewing it on your favorite podcast app. Thanks!PATREON:The show is also a completely independent affair, so the best way to support it at patreon.com/revolutionspermovie. By joining, you can get weekly bonus episodes and series such as A Very Opinionated Look At Urgh! A Music War & What Makes The Midnight So Special?, physical goods such as a limited edition 7" Flexidisc, and other exclusive goods that I send out to you for supporting the show. It helps the show to keep going and is greatly appreciated!TIP JAR:ko-fi.com/revolutionspermovieSOCIALS:@revolutionspermovieBlueSky: @revpermovieTHEME by Eyelids 'My Caved In Mind'www.musicofeyelids.bandcamp.com ARTWORK by Jeff T. Owenshttps://linktr.ee/mymetalhand Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What happens when you take a hard look at what is going wrong in your life and you go, "Aw..it's ME!" Mental health advocate and psychotherapist Chad Taylor is in with the Mayor this week to chat about helping others see the best version of themselves, his podcast, and his book, "It's You, Oh Fuck, It's ME." https://chadtaylorpsychotherapy.com.au/

Neste episódio especial do Fronteiras no Tempo, recebemos o Cacique Japoteru Pataxó para compartilhar histórias de seu povo e dos povos indígenas do Brasil. Em abril, mês de celebrações e reflexões, discutimos a importância das tradições, saberes e visões de mundo indígenas, fundamentais para compreender nossa história e construir um futuro mais justo. O episódio aborda a luta por direitos, a reparação histórica e o protagonismo indígena na sociedade brasileira. Uma conversa potente e necessária, que convida todos nós a reconhecer e apoiar essa causa pela vida e liberdade dos povos originários. Awêry (Obrigado)! Arte da Capa Artes do Episódio: C. A. Financiamento Coletivo Existem duas formas de nos apoiar Pix recorrente – chave: fronteirasnotempo@gmail.com Apoia-se – https://apoia.se/fronteirasnotempo Episódios Relacionados e Recomendados Fronteiras no Tempo Fronteiras no Tempo #35: Indígenas na História do Brasil Fronteiras no Tempo #63 As funções dos guerreiros na cultura Tupi Guarani Fronteiras no Tempo #75 Questão indígena na história do Brasil Fronteiras no Tempo: Giro Histórico Fronteiras no Tempo: Giro Histórico #45 História Indígena, mitos e lendas de Roraima Fronteiras no Tempo: Historicidade Fronteiras no Tempo: Historicidade #57 A queda do céu: escrita e história indígenas Fronteiras no Tempo: apresenta Fronteiras no Tempo apresenta: Isso é História de Guarapuavano #2 Etnias Indígenas de Guarapuava Spin de Notícia História indígena: sobre o que estamos falando? – 9 Borean (Spin#1908 – 07/02/2023) O significado dos Indígenas na História do Brasil – 21 Driadan (Spin#1618 – 16/04/2022) Chutando a Escada Chute 237 – Genocídio indígena no Brasil Como citar esse episódio Fronteiras no Tempo #97 Histórias Indígenas. Locução Marcelo de Souza Silva, Cacique Japoteru Pataxó, Cesar Agenor Fernandes da Silva e Willian Spengler [S.l.] Portal Deviante, 21/04/2026. Podcast. Disponível em: https://www.deviante.com.br/?p=66849&preview=true Expediente Produção Geral: C. A. e Beraba. Host: Marcelo Beraba. Convidado Especial: Cacique Japoteru Pataxó. Recordar é viver: Willian Spengler. Artes do Episódio: C. A. Edição: Talk’nCast Redes Sociais Facebook, Youtube, Instagram Contato fronteirasnotempo@gmail.com Madrinhas e Padrinhos Apoios a partir de 12 de junho de 2024 Alexsandro de Souza Junior, Aline Silva Lima, André Santos, André Trapani, Andréa Gomes da Silva, Andressa Marcelino Cardoso, Augusto Carvalho, Carolina Pereira Lyon, Charles Calisto Souza, Edimilson Borges, Elisnei Menezes de Oliveira, Erick Marlon Fernandes da Silva, Flávio Henrique Dias Saldanha, Gislaine Colman, Iara Grisi, João Ariedi, Klaus Henrique de Oliveira, Manuel Macias, Marlon Fernandes da Silva, Pedro Júnior Coelho da Silva Nunes, Rafael Henrique Silva, Raul Sousa Silva Junior, Renata de Souza Silva, Ricardo Orosco, Rodrigo Mello Campos, Rubens Lima e Willian SpenglerSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Neste episódio especial do Fronteiras no Tempo, recebemos o Cacique Japoteru Pataxó para compartilhar histórias de seu povo e dos povos indígenas do Brasil. Em abril, mês de celebrações e reflexões, discutimos a importância das tradições, saberes e visões de mundo indígenas, fundamentais para compreender nossa história e construir um futuro mais justo. O episódio aborda a luta por direitos, a reparação histórica e o protagonismo indígena na sociedade brasileira. Uma conversa potente e necessária, que convida todos nós a reconhecer e apoiar essa causa pela vida e liberdade dos povos originários. Awêry (Obrigado)! Arte da Capa Artes do Episódio: C. A. Financiamento Coletivo Existem duas formas de nos apoiar Pix recorrente – chave: fronteirasnotempo@gmail.com Apoia-se – https://apoia.se/fronteirasnotempo Episódios Relacionados e Recomendados Fronteiras no Tempo Fronteiras no Tempo #35: Indígenas na História do Brasil Fronteiras no Tempo #63 As funções dos guerreiros na cultura Tupi Guarani Fronteiras no Tempo #75 Questão indígena na história do Brasil Fronteiras no Tempo: Giro Histórico Fronteiras no Tempo: Giro Histórico #45 História Indígena, mitos e lendas de Roraima Fronteiras no Tempo: Historicidade Fronteiras no Tempo: Historicidade #57 A queda do céu: escrita e história indígenas Fronteiras no Tempo: apresenta Fronteiras no Tempo apresenta: Isso é História de Guarapuavano #2 Etnias Indígenas de Guarapuava Spin de Notícia História indígena: sobre o que estamos falando? – 9 Borean (Spin#1908 – 07/02/2023) O significado dos Indígenas na História do Brasil – 21 Driadan (Spin#1618 – 16/04/2022) Chutando a Escada Chute 237 – Genocídio indígena no Brasil Como citar esse episódio Fronteiras no Tempo #97 Histórias Indígenas. Locução Marcelo de Souza Silva, Cacique Japoteru Pataxó, Cesar Agenor Fernandes da Silva e Willian Spengler [S.l.] Portal Deviante, 21/04/2026. Podcast. Disponível em: https://www.deviante.com.br/?p=66849&preview=true Expediente Produção Geral: C. A. e Beraba. Host: Marcelo Beraba. Convidado Especial: Cacique Japoteru Pataxó. Recordar é viver: Willian Spengler. Artes do Episódio: C. A. Edição: Talk’nCast Redes Sociais Facebook, Youtube, Instagram Contato fronteirasnotempo@gmail.com Madrinhas e Padrinhos Apoios a partir de 12 de junho de 2024 Alexsandro de Souza Junior, Aline Silva Lima, André Santos, André Trapani, Andréa Gomes da Silva, Andressa Marcelino Cardoso, Augusto Carvalho, Carolina Pereira Lyon, Charles Calisto Souza, Edimilson Borges, Elisnei Menezes de Oliveira, Erick Marlon Fernandes da Silva, Flávio Henrique Dias Saldanha, Gislaine Colman, Iara Grisi, João Ariedi, Klaus Henrique de Oliveira, Manuel Macias, Marlon Fernandes da Silva, Pedro Júnior Coelho da Silva Nunes, Rafael Henrique Silva, Raul Sousa Silva Junior, Renata de Souza Silva, Ricardo Orosco, Rodrigo Mello Campos, Rubens Lima e Willian SpenglerSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

On episode 340 of The AwardsWatch Podcast, Executive Editor Ryan McQuade is joined by AwardsWatch Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson and contributors Mark Johnson, Karen Peterson, and Josh Parham to go back 35 years and take a look at the 64th Academy Awards, covering the films of 1991. On this retrospective, the AW team takes a look back in time to when the Oscars last rewarded a film for winning the "Big Five" awards, with The Silence of the Lambs taking home Best Picture, Best Director, Best Actor, Best Actress, and Best Adapted Screenplay. In being only the third film in Oscar history to ever do that, and it being 35 years since it's big night, the wins for the film are historic, so the question would be for this episode, will The Silence of the Lambs stay a "Big Five" winner? In a wide ranging conversation, the Best Picture winner is mentioned alongside films The Prince of Tides, JFK, Beauty and the Beast, My Own Private Idaho, The Addams Family, Terminator 2: Judgment Day, Cape Fear, Thelma & Louise, Boyz n the Hood, and more, as well as spicy, first time moment for the game that you'll want to listen to asap! In their in-depth discussion, the AW team talked about the film year of 1991, briefly discuss talk about The Silence of the Lambs as a Best Picture winner, and how that speaks to the legacy of their nominates and or wins, do an extensive conversation over the below the line categories and nominees for the year, and then the new version of the AW Shoulda Woulda Coulda game, where instead of individual replacements, they must decide as a group who the nominees and winners should be in the top eight categories. The rules of the game state they can only replace two of the nominees that year from each category, except in Best Picture, where the group could replace up to three films to make up the final set of five nominated films. Like past retrospective episodes, it was a fascinating, fun conversation including spirited debates, alliances, vote swinging, celebrating various movies, performances that aren't normally talked about and more that we all hope you enjoy. You can listen to The AwardsWatch Podcast wherever you stream podcasts, from iTunes, iHeartRadio, Soundcloud, Stitcher, Spotify, Audible, Amazon Music and more. You can also listen on the AW YouTube page. This podcast runs 2h32m. We will be back in next week for a review of Mother Mary, the latest film from director David Lowery. Till then, let's get into it. Music: "Modern Fashion" from AShamaleuvmusic (intro), "B-3" from BoxCat Games Nameless: The Hackers RPG Soundtrack (outro).

मार्च 2026 के आख़िरी हफ़्ते में एक ख़बर आई—पाकिस्तान के बहावलपुर में एक व्यक्ति मारा गया। यह था जैश-ए-मोहम्मद के संस्थापक और 2001 के संसद हमले के मास्टरमाइंड मसूद अज़हर का बड़ा भाई, मोहम्मद ताहिर अनवर। अब ध्यान खींचने वाली बात क्या थी? किसने मारा—नहीं पता। कैसे मारा—नहीं पता। यही एक पैटर्न सा बनता दिख रहा है। पिछले 5-6 सालों में भारत की धरती पर आतंक फैलाने का इरादा रखने वाले कई पाकिस्तानी और खालिस्तानी आतंकियों को अलग-अलग मौकों पर इसी तरह मौत के घाट उतारा गया है। किसने मारा—नहीं पता। और फिर एक शब्द सामने आता है—“Unknown Men।” पाकिस्तान आरोप लगाता है कि ये RAW के लोग हैं, लेकिन RAW इन आरोपों को तवज्जो ही नहीं देता। अगर आपने धुरंधर 2 देखी है, तो उसमें भी इस तरह के ऑपरेशंस का इशारा मिलता है। लेकिन धुरंधर 2 तो एक फिल्म है… असल में क्या हो रहा है? क्या R&AW जैसी एजेंसियां वाकई ऐसे ऑपरेशंस को अंजाम देती हैं? CIA और ISI जैसी एजेंसियों पर भी ऐसे आरोप लगते रहे हैं। तो सोचा, जासूसी की इस दुनिया में थोड़ा गहराई से उतरते हैं—RAW की वर्किंग को समझते हैं, केस स्टडीज़ के ज़रिए, पुराने उदाहरणों के ज़रिए। और इसलिए आज हमारे साथ हैं इन्वेस्टिगेटिव जर्नलिस्ट Abhinandan Mishra। ये पहले नेवल ऑफिसर रह चुके हैं, नॉवेल लिख चुके हैं, बैंक PO भी रहे हैं और वकालत की पढ़ाई भी की है। लेकिन सबसे खास बात—इन्होंने इंटेलिजेंस एजेंसियों की कार्रवाई पर विस्तार से लिखा है। इनसे पूछेंगे सारे सवाल। जानेंगे सब। क्योंकि ये है Padhaku Nitin—जहां हम मानते हैं, लाइफ़ है छोटी… जानना सब है। प्रड्यूसर: मानव देव रावत साउंड मिक्स: रोहन भारती

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Is perimenopause something to dread, or is it the ultimate diagnostic tool for your future self? In this eye-opening episode, Lesley Logan sits down with Bria Gadd, the “Period Whisperer,” to dismantle the myths around female hormonal transitions. They explore the idea of “health debt”—what happens when life keeps demanding more than your body can give—and how that starts to show up over time. Bria reframes perimenopause as a “reverse puberty,” revealing where your foundations may need support, so you can move out of the shame spiral and start investing in a vibrant second half of life. If you have any questions about this episode or want to get some of the resources we mentioned, head over to LesleyLogan.co/podcast https://lesleylogan.co/podcast/. If you have any comments or questions about the Be It pod shoot us a message at beit@lesleylogan.co mailto:beit@lesleylogan.co. And as always, if you're enjoying the show please share it with someone who you think would enjoy it as well. It is your continued support that will help us continue to help others. Thank you so much! Never miss another show by subscribing at LesleyLogan.co/subscribe https://lesleylogan.co/podcast/#follow-subscribe-free.In this episode you will learn about:Perimenopause can reveal what is really happening in your overall health.Many women are unknowingly living in a cycle of “health debt.”Functional issues can exist long before tests show physical problems.High-intensity workouts can drain an already stressed hormonal system.Joy and pleasure are essential sources of energy for the body.Episode References/Links:Bria Gadd's Website - https://www.briatheperiodwhisperer.comThe Period Whisperer Podcast - https://www.briagadd.com/the-period-whisperer-podcastInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/bria_period_whisperer/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BriaThePeriodWhisperer/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@briagaddYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@bria_period_whispererDutch Test (Functional Lab) - https://dutchtest.comGuest Bio:Bria Gadd is a Functional Diagnostic Nutrition® Practitioner, holistic health coach, and certified personal trainer, who specializes in female hormones, helping women with weight release and energy gain in pre and post menopause, and finding clarity in hormonal chaos. Her podcast The Period Whisperer is a top 1% wellness podcast in the world with an instagram following of over 17,000. Bria has been featured in Fox News, Women's Health and top women's podcasts such as The MidLife Makeover Show to name a few. If you enjoyed this episode, make sure and give us a five star rating and leave us a review on iTunes, Podcast Addict, Podchaser or Castbox. https://lovethepodcast.com/BITYSIDEALS! DEALS! DEALS! 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Take a minute every day or once a week, look at yourself in the mirror, eye to eye, and get really real with yourself about how you're feeling. Be honest, be vulnerable with yourself and take that stillness. Nobody wants to be still, but you need to be still. That's where your answers come from. It'll be uncomfortable, but you can do it. You can do hard things.Lesley Logan 0:23  Welcome to the Be It Till You See It podcast where we talk about taking messy action, knowing that perfect is boring. I'm Lesley Logan, Pilates instructor and fitness business coach. I've trained thousands of people around the world and the number one thing I see stopping people from achieving anything is self-doubt. My friends, action brings clarity and it's the antidote to fear. Each week, my guest will bring bold, executable, intrinsic and targeted steps that you can use to put yourself first and Be It Till You See It. It's a practice, not a perfect. Let's get started. Lesley Logan 1:01  All right, Be It babe. We are going to talk perimenopause, periods and our bodies, and specifically, like listening to our bodies. And I am obsessed with our guest today. It will not be the last time I have her on the pod, for sure. Bria Gadd is here. She is the period whisperer, and she is someone who really is diving in on a on a holistic level, but like with tons of research and information and and really taking in herself and with hundreds of clients that she's worked with. And so this is really fun, educational, informational, and lots of great tools, things you can do on your own once you listen to this based on what you need. So here is Bria Gadd. Lesley Logan 1:11  All right, Be It babe, we are about to have an amazing conversation on a topic I have been wanting to have on this podcast for years. I'm very excited about it. I'm so excited our guest is here because she's amazing. She's the one and only period whisperer. Bria Gadd, can you tell everyone, I'm gonna kind of let them know, but can you tell everyone what you rock at?Bria Gadd 2:00  Thank you, Lesley, first of all, I love I'm super loving your podcast these days. I love what you bring, how you show up for people like I felt super inspired, and we actually had you on my podcast. And you should know that I have been actively searching for, like, a great Pilates studio with the certifications you told me about. So I'm really inspired by you, and I'm sure everyone listening already knows and loves your podcast, but I hope they go review it if they haven't. Lesley Logan 2:26  Aw thank you. Bria Gadd 2:27  Yeah, I'm excited to be here. Thank you. And yeah, I am a Functional Diagnostic Nutrition practitioner, you know, personal trainer, but really, I specialize in female hormones, so my whole goal and purpose is to help women better understand their bodies so that they can thrive and live out their dreams in midlife and beyond.Lesley Logan 2:47  I am obsessed with this topic lately because, you know, I'm really grateful I had friends who are well 10 plus years older than me, so they were like singing the perimenopause warning symbols well before I needed to hear them, which is great, because I could go in with research and information, like, first, like, sign, a potential symptom. I could, like, take some autonomy and some agency into like, what am I doing? What is this? What are my options, right? But I actually feel like, for generations, women's bodies, we have not been told information about them. I mean, the crappy little video that they teach you in the sixth grade, or maybe it was the fifth grade, right? That's like, the last time, that's the first and last time. Because I actually did AP science, biology, they don't talk about any of this stuff in schools ever, unless it's like you're, you're a specialty, and even then, I wonder, you know, so it's like you're kind of like, at the mercy of what your doctor knows, and you start to feel crazy because there's, there's symptoms of things that have, not that have, that might not appear to have anything to do with your female reproductive organs. So can you chat a bit about what we should know about our bodies? I mean, that's a big topic, but like, you know, with the women that you work with, like, what do we need to know? Because being it until you see it, it's completely tied to how we feel.Bria Gadd 4:01  Yeah, for sure, I love this, and I am going to disrupt some things, I think, a little bit here, because, I mean, look, seven years ago when I started entering into this magical age box, which, for everyone, begins around 35 right? It's like a reverse puberty. I mean, you could not define, I didn't, nobody even knew what the word perimenopause was, and now it is like shoved down your throat. You cannot scroll social media without seeing something about hormones or perimenopause or menopause, which I think is a wonderful thing on one hand. But what I like to kind of really explain, after now working with hundreds of women and kind of going through my own journey, is that perimenopause, as I said, like your reverse puberty, is really just the retiring of your ovaries. And do not get me wrong, they're a major player. They're a big support player in our body, and when they retire, that obviously causes a lot of stress. I really think about it like, you know, if you were working in a corporate, you know, land and one of your, like, best colleagues. Who does a boatload of work for you just is starts to retire. I mean, that puts a lot more pressure on the other people in the department. Lesley Logan 5:07  Brilliant. Love that description. I can feel that I've lost an assistant before, and I'm like, Oh, we can handle this. It's like, hold on, how long does it take to book a flight? Bria Gadd 5:15  Yeah. So like, all transitions, right? There's more workload happening in the body. You know, everyone understands this, if you're, you know, getting married, getting divorced, changing jobs, moving locations. We understand transition. Costs more energy and doesn't really provide more. So, you know, I think on on a macro level, that's really what's happening in our body. Now, if that was the only thing going on through a few months, you know, of hiring a new person or trying some hormone replacement therapy that would resolve the issue. And here's where I think a lot of women don't understand, and it took me a while to get there, is that this? I think what perimenopause really is, it feels like a burden, but it's like the gift we we didn't know we needed. It's like a measuring stick for where your body is at, I think so that you get uncomfortable enough to do the work to change and then, like, live the next four decades feeling fabulous. I mean, I don't know about you, but I plan to live to 100 and I'm almost 44 so I got decades left. I wanna feel great, right?Lesley Logan 6:21  Yeah, yeah. Well, and I think, like, I think there's right, I grew up in the in the age of, like, my period, like, this thing, of, like, we should, like, it's an annoyance. Don't talk about it. Make sure no one knows you're on it. I don't know why the tampons are in crinkly paper, anyways. Like, you know what I mean, anyways. But it could just be under like, paper and it would be biodegradable, but that's my like, all these different things, right? And so then you get to perimenopause, it's like another thing to hate. And that is all this stuff we don't like about our bodies when, because of all this information is out there. You know, I got to listen to this one woman who talked about how incredible the period is, and how it's, like, taking all these toxins out of your body and like, how you should, like, it's a sign of health all these different things, like, when it's consistent and on time, it's a sign of, like, what your health is and what's going on your body. And I was like, Oh, well, then we should just welcome every time it comes. I'm like, Well, this is a good thing, but to your point, like, we are going to transition, and it does put us in a different stage, and it is a rewiring of the brain, from what I've understood, like, with the way the our bodies have to work with different hormones and different types of it, but to get mad about it, oh, now I got a hot flash. Like, we're, we haven't ever been raised to like, love what is so uniquely different about our bodies.Bria Gadd 7:32  And that's a human thing, right? What do we all hate? Things we don't understand? I mean, it's just a normal thing for us to push back the things. And I really think about, I mean, listen, women weren't required to be a part of medical research until the mid 1990s so if you're in my age box of being born in like, the 70s or 80s, everything you have ever operated on has been adviced for men, yep. So we're working on strategies. So it's like learning the language of the female body is like learning Latin. No one speaks it. No one teaches it. I mean, we're getting more and more teachers now, which I think is super exciting, but you're trying to learn a language that no one is speaking that's very difficult for us.Lesley Logan 8:09  Yeah, and also, the people who are finally ringing the alarm bells, there's very limited scientific research, they have to go with a lot of anecdotal stuff, which is fine, like, I don't have a problem with that, because we need something, because it does take time to do research, but it is also hard. And I, and I, you know, you kind of alluded to this in the beginning. It's like, if you open up your Instagram account, there's a million things. Oh, you're perimenopausal, you need a weight vest. Oh, weight vest, don't do anything. Oh, you're perimenopausal, you need more protein. Oh, you don't cold plunge. Do cold plunge. Like, for the record, I love my cold plunge. Luckily, my husband does not like it too cold. And so as a woman, it says like, you shouldn't cold punch, but you can cold punch to like, 49 Guess what? That's what it's at. And I'll fucking breath it. And it works for my body right now. And I think it's but you just open it up and it's like, do this, don't do that. It's so difficult to know what to do. And then, on the top of that, you weren't ever raised to know your body.Bria Gadd 9:03  Yeah, in fact, we were raised to look outside of our body for approval, to decide what to do about our body. And that's, I think, the rub here, Lesley, for everyone, that's like, what has gotten us into what I think is the real problem for most women, which is not perimenopause, it's something I like to call health debt. And health debt is when the energy you supply your body, which is through sleep and nutrition and joy and purpose, right, no longer meets the energy demand of your body. And we've been probably in this deficit for a lot of our lives as women, but now, but one, youth is forgiving, and two, now we have this added energy demand, perimenopause, so it just kind of cranks that deficit into such discomfort that now all of a sudden we have so many of these symptoms. And we know it's not just perimenopause, because again, if all it was is that your hormones are decreasing, we could take hormones, and that would fix it, but it's not. I talk to women all the time who are taking bioidenticals or hormone replacement therapy, and it might work a little, but it's just not doing the they don't feel great, and I think that's because we're in this health debt, and we're in that debt because we've been operating on strategies for men, we're in that debt because we haven't paid attention to what our body says to us. You know, we're in that debt because maybe we, you know, aren't breaking down and absorbing things in our gut anymore. Maybe our adrenals are taxed from everything we've been through in the last two decades. You know. Maybe, you know, our liver is congested. Maybe our brain is putting on the brakes, on our thyroid hormone, like, until we dig deeper in to find the root cause, we can't really get out of that debt. And I think the problem for so many women and make what makes us like, really hate perimenopause, is the longer you stay in debt in health debt, it's like financial debt, it just compounds. Just compounds, compounds.Lesley Logan 11:00  Oh my God, you have the best analogies and metaphors. Not really sure which one it is. I'm so sorry, guys, I really did copy in English class. It just wasn't my thing. I like to read the books. I didn't want to learn all the words. But that makes so much sense, because it is interesting, right? Like, how some people can have a whole different experience than someone else, and you're like, What is going on? And I feel fortunate that, like, in my 30s, I had a digestive issue, problem that forced me to, like, take some actual stock of like, Oh, I am not sleeping enough. I am not absorbing the nutrition. We have to make massive changes so that, you know, two years ago, when I started having sleep issues again, I didn't like, go like go, I didn't go, oh well, it's just a bad night's sleep. No, oh hold on, yeah, two nights in a row, I didn't get good sleep. That's not normal for me, right? Like, and I don't think enough people, I think you're right. So many people have been operating on a on a health debt for so long that lack of sleep is normal for them, yeah, and just because it's common doesn't mean it's normal, right? And so that I love that idea. Like, you know, if you're in a health debt, it does compound how perimenopause is going to feel because you don't have enough to give it. And like, if bioidenticals aren't working for you, it might be a sign that you need other things, you know. Bria Gadd 12:18  100% and I mean, as a functional practitioner, I feel very strongly that we shouldn't just go blindly try things. Yeah, there's, there's a lot of reasons that can actually make things worse for us. But I love what you said there about, you know, kind of noticing in your 30s, like right away, or now right away, noticing what was starting to happen and jumping on it. Because you're right, it's not our fault. I don't think as women that we don't pay attention to ourselves. Again, culture puts us that way. Most women have been so busy doing 100 other things that they're just trying to kind of survive in advance. But that's why I think this is like your call to hone perimenopause. It's like before it gets too late, wake up, lady, like we need to listen to what our body is saying, and that's really what, because we don't know where the source of debt is coming from until we go digging. Like, that's why, you know, you get this confusing information. Like, everyone's like, eat more protein. Lots of women are eating more protein but not feeling any different. Why? Probably because their gut is not breaking down and absorbing the protein properly. This is a very common thing that I see, and then it's so frustrating because we think it's our fault. We're like, oh, something's wrong with me. I'm broken. And then shame spiral, right? Lesley Logan 13:29  Yeah, that shame. Oh, my God. Everyone listening knows the shame spiral. Okay, I think I have a question for the perfectionist and overachievers listening, listening to your body. Like, what are they should be listening for, you know, like, let's like, are they are like, what are the KPIs or biomarkers, or, like, what are some things like that they should because I again, like most of when listen this, are over 40. They're doing they're in that sandwich generation as well. They've got elderly parents who are still alive, causing drama. They got kiddos, and if they don't have kiddos, they're single women, working for themselves, so they're their own income source, right? Like, so they're exhausted, so, yes, they're tired. And so is that the only what are the other signs that they could be like, looking at their health, debt, or listen to their body?Bria Gadd 14:13  Listening to their body, yeah, I mean, I think like to try to make it super clear for the for the type errors, like, what's out there? Like, if whatever symptoms you are having is impacting your life more than 20% of the time you're in debt Period. End of the story. I think that's a really great measure.Lesley Logan 14:28  I love this bright line, yes, 20%. You guys thatBria Gadd 14:34  So like, that's four times a week, or, like, four, you know, in a way, I think about it right. If you think about it in nutrition, for example, we eat three meals a day. That's 21 meals in a week. You know, 20% of 21 is about 3.75 so, like, let's call it four times a week, where you're like, Oh, crap, I'm not sleeping well four times a week or, I mean, probably three times a week would be enough. You know, I can't get through the afternoon without like, brain fog or needing caffeine or needing sugar. You know, I can't get through my workout, or I'm not getting results from my workouts anymore, like big signs from your body. Like, let's not waste our time here. Let's step back and get out of debt so that we can get back to investing energy where we want it to go.Lesley Logan 15:15  I like that. I think that was a great, easy thing for people to think about, 20% of the time, and then it's disrupting your week. You are in health debt. And I think where people are going to struggle is like, well, if I'm having trouble sleeping, it's not like I just sleep more. Because some people it's not like they're going to bed too late, you know, like, you know, like I go to bed at the same time. And when I do have a bad night's sleep, it's so frustrating because I'm like, I set aside enough time to sleep, I woke up three times. You know it happens for me, it is typically, usually the night before my period. No matter what progesterone I take, no matter what supplements I take, it's just the night before my body is like, we're just having a rough time staying asleep. I've got at least a cycle to it, but it's not four times a week. But I guess, like, what I'm saying is, like, for the people who who are struggling, like they're committing to getting the sleep or eating well, who should they go to? Because you go on, you can get with your doctor sometimes first, like, what are they looking for?Bria Gadd 16:13  Yeah, no, it's a great question. I think, like, I was one of those people. I mean, I had been a personal trainer and nutrition coach for like, 10 years, and all of a sudden, I'm like, what is happening to my body? And, I mean, when I look back now, I'm like, Oh, I was like, all of a sudden having anxiety in my life. My periods got really heavy. You know, I was having this, like, weird, twitchy eye thing for a long time, I wasn't getting results from my workouts. In fact, I hadn't changed anything, but I was gaining weight. It took until my sleep, like, totally tanked, where I was waking up every night in a sweat for me to actually be like, Oh, maybe something's wrong. Hit yourself over the head with it. But I did go to my doctor, and she was wonderful. Asked all the questions, did all the lab work but she kind of looked at me, Lesley, and was like, Bria, you're the picture of health. I mean, then that's when you start to think, oh my gosh, I'm crazy. It's in my head, like, and then I also thought, like, that was 30 I was 37 so I'm like, if this is 37 and this is the picture of health, like, I'm not down for the next 37 years. Like, it does not sound fun for me. So to answer your question, that was a long way, sorry. Lesley Logan 17:14  No, you're good. Bria Gadd 17:15  I always think it's important that women understand doctors have an important role, but their job is to test and look for physical problems in your body. If you do not feel well, and you do not have a physical problem because your doctor says you're fine, it's a functional problem. It's way before, like, way before we have, you know, like, have to have a hysterectomy from really heavy periods and endometriosis. There is a hormone imbalance, there's a function imbalance, and it can be there for a long time before we get to that piece. Way before people are diagnosed with hypothyroidism, there is a conversion issue in the thyroid. So, and that's what our doctors aren't testing and looking at. So I really strongly believe that a big part of owning your health as a woman these days, in this landscape when we're uneducated, is working with a functional practitioner and getting to know the function of your body and your numbers now, where they're at, when you feel good, if you can, and if not, when you feel bad. So we can repair that function so that we don't get to that point.Lesley Logan 18:17  Okay, I love this. So now my next question is, because when I was on your show, we talked about like, how to find a good Pilates instructor, how to make sure you got a real Pilates instructor? And I think, like the way the algorithms work, whether it's YouTube, Instagram, Tiktok, the moment you start looking up stuff about your body, you could end up down a rabbit hole of people who don't pay attention to science. So how do we make sure that we get, aside from just looking up you how do we make sure that people like, what are the signs that someone's a true functional practitioner, like, and not, you know, just go do some tallow. And I don't know, I'm not really sure. Like, there's a lot of weird stuff out there. You're like, is that where we should all be going?Bria Gadd 19:01  Yeah, for sure. I totally, I love that. I've never been asked this question before, so I really love it. Lesley Logan 19:06  Because, like, because my mom, like, sends me something. She's like, you know, she like, sent me this one thing. I was like, oh, yeah, totally, I agree with that. My my MD, who also does Eastern medicine, agrees with that. And then to the next thing, I'm like, Okay, so I'm gonna push back on this one, Mom, I don't know what algorithm you're on, but like this, this thing is a little bit, you know, and then the next thing, she's sending me like, okay, you are, you need to change your algorithm. You are now on the wrong side of the internet. Bria Gadd 19:29  I'm curious about what those things were. Lesley Logan 19:31  Oh, yeah. Talk offline.Bria Gadd 19:35  Yeah, it's, there's, and I understand that it's challenging one. I feel very strongly like get on a free call with someone. I really think, you know that's the landscape, because, yes, a good, functional practitioner should, should always be working with you on like lifestyle and nutrition. First and foremost, they're the bedrock. And anything that comes up in a lab and any protocol, whether it's supplement or hormones or peptides, not really going to work if we don't have these foundations. So make sure that that's a part of the protocol, that they're trained, either holistically or with nutrition, so that we're dealing with that as the foundation of your health. But I think you know when you get on a call with someone, because I think that's important, and you know, you want to understand if they can actually order the labs and explain the labs for you. So sometimes, when I hop on a call with someone, I'll actually pull up my labs, because those are the only ones I can share and go over, like, what we're going to learn in there. Because I think I end up working with a lot of people who have ordered labs online themselves or through something, but they don't know how to read it or, like, they're just getting a written response when really, I think labs are so about customization to what you're feeling in your body. Like, why are you not sleeping well half of the month, Lesley, you know what I mean? Is it a blood sugar issue? Is it your thyroid? Like, where are the little kinks in the, you know, in the pipelines of energy, that's kind of making it harder for us to get there, especially if you are taking progesterone, for example, does that make sense?Lesley Logan 21:10  I love this because I like that, like, first of all, they should be, like, looking at lifestyle and nutrition first. Because before you just, like, add supplements, you could just be putting a band aid on a problem, and so you're not solving the source. Bria Gadd 21:20  Or wasting your money. Lesley Logan 21:22  Yeah, oh my gosh. And also wasting your money, because also, some of the supplements guys don't even have the things that they like. It's like, you got to be careful. You got to you got to be mindful. And and I love the supplements that I'm on, but I'm on specific ones after, like, doing some real research on, like, is my my room, the temperature, it needs to be like, okay, is it as quiet as I need to be? Is it? What do I need? How do I sleep the best so that I'm setting myself up for success? Then it's like, okay, now we can try some of this up. Otherwise we're just it's not working.Bria Gadd 21:55  Yeah, I love that. And what you do there is so important. Is that, again, it's this kind of self assessment. Like, okay, like, let's hold on a hot minute. Like, am I at least creating the space for my sleep? Like, going to bed at an appropriate hour, not staring at screens before I go? Am I just creating the space before I start, you know, testing out all these supplements to see if they're going to make that difference or not? Because we I think sleep is one of those things that's so hard to control, and the more you try to control it, it like, slips through your fingers like water. Lesley Logan 22:17  I understand what you're saying. You know, it's so funny. You just brought up, you guys, I was totally on my screen last night. I didn't have to walk my dog, wasn't here, and I was like, 1,000% like, I want to look at these reels and just like, laugh. So I fucked my own self up. That was me. It's really funny. We forget that we did that. Like, Oh, I have a no screen rule, and I usually walk my dog so I'm not on my screen an hour before bed and it's dark outside and I didn't do those things.Bria Gadd 22:51  I'll get into habits like on my last Dutch which is like a good functional lab that helps you understand not just your sex hormones, but your adrenal hormones, your cortisol pattern, the clearance and detoxification of your hormones, which I think is so important, I could see this elevation of my cortisol at night, which is now called like a like dysfunction in your HPA axis. And I'm like, I know exactly what that is. I was watching like The Walking Dead for all 11 seasons over like two years. So I'm watching this show before I go to bed, I'm like binding up my cortisol. And I'm like, why am I not sleeping well?Lesley Logan 23:25  Yeah, yeah, yeah, it's really, you know, like we have a rule at this house. Like, my husband loves to cook, and obviously, like, I could take responsibility there, but he sometimes cooks late, and like, we're Spaniards or something. And, you know, and I am like, I just, I need you to cook earlier, or I need to eat by myself, like, so I can take responsibility if you don't want to cook until 7:30 because that's when you got home. And 7:30 means you go to the store, whatever, like, maybe I need to go, okay, what can I make myself right now and then? Just sit with him while he eats. Because if I eat too late and I go to bed, I have a really rough time falling asleep. And that's normal. It's not like, oh, I should call my doctor. No, I didn't set myself up for success for what I need. And I think that like to your point in taking time to understand what your health debt is and understand like, what your lifestyle so I love that you said that the person you're talking to should want to touch those things first, because, if you you know, like, and yes, there should be labs. And yes, you can look at them and go, that's because of these things. But like, what are you currently doing? What is your current habit?Bria Gadd 24:32  Yeah, and I think where it's so helpful to get help is to recognize that we all don't have cookie cutter lives. You know, some of you know when, when you work, how you work, how much you work. You know what your family dynamics are like, what your partner support is like, like, all of these things really play a role in how we're able to change and create foundational habits, and what those habits are for you. And at the same time, like the people always want to know, like, what should I eat? How much should I eat, I'm like, I don't know your body knows. So we need to take the time, and what I think you've already done so well is like, what is good for me? And it's not like a magical answer, it's trial and error to kind of figure this out for yourself and maybe for you and I, being in the wellness industry, maybe that's been a little bit easier, because it is a priority for us. But so if you're someone who that's not, you're not in the wellness industry, and you cannot seem to do this for yourself. I mean, get some help. Like, that's what a practitioner should do, is help you nail the customization for yourself.Lesley Logan 25:34  I think that like and having patience and not trying 17 things at once ladies, so, like, don't start with a new trainer and a new functional medicine person and a new this at the same time. You got to, like, be kind yourself. It's really not the easiest thing to start a bunch of new things at the same it doesn't work. It's overwhelming, and then you don't know what's working.Bria Gadd 25:53  The analytics are hard because there's no constant, right? When you think about like I was, science wasn't my favorite thing in school, although I love more of it so much now, but you know, you have to have, like, a constant with the variable. So, like, you need to know what the solid things are and what the thing you're testing is, to know if it works, and you're right. Like, we didn't get here into health debt overnight. So getting out of debt is going to take a little bit of time. Always worth it. It's always worth it. Lesley Logan 26:21  Yeah, okay, I want to just in case, like, you know, I think that we all know that your Instagram account is full of everything about perimenopause, but just in case people are being because I do think people get a little misled or inundated with, what are some of the we talked about, 35 is this start point, probably for most people, what are some of there's the common symptoms that everyone knows about. What are some of the non common symptoms that could be that they're in perimenopause, and then maybe, if you have time, like, how can we address it a little bit differently than just, like, Oh, I gotta go. Now I'm perimenopausal. This is where I'm at. Like, how do we, like, welcome it in and, like, take care of ourselves for it?Bria Gadd 27:02  Yeah. So I would say uncommon symptoms are, like, frequent urination, things like that, or it might start any type of incontinence. So if you're waking up a lot in the night to pee, or, you know, that can be a really sign. Again, for me, I mentioned, like, I had this weird Twitch, like in my eye. And again, it wasn't perimenopause, but it's just that it just kind of, it was, like, likely how my life had always been going from my it was my adrenals actually off, but you add this all of a sudden challenge of your hormones shifting and like, oh boy. Like, this is a part of it. I mean, libido is always a quick one to go, but I think that's pretty common for people, Restless Leg Syndrome, you know, hair loss or changes in your hair and skin, that can all be a part of this time. But I think, like the real symptoms of hormones kind of decreasing, we really, if that's all again, that's going on for you, yeah, you might start to have a bit more trouble sleeping. Yeah, you might find a little bit more brain fog, and maybe not quite have the same energy and not quite have the same ability to repair after a workout. Yes, your libido might go down, because our sex hormones are really big part of our libido. But again, I think that if it's something that becomes consistent, like any of these things, that if they start impacting your life, so that you can't live the way you were living, that's when we know. One, it's time for help. And two, it's likely more than just perimenopause. It's not great. We can try some hormones, and then we should be feeling significantly better to navigate this transition.Lesley Logan 28:34  I love that reminder that, like it's quite possible that's not like the perimenopause is happening, but it's really shining a light on the other places in our bodies that we haven't been taken care of because we can't. I was just talking about with my client, actually, this is really funny, not funny, haha, but just, like, interesting. I was just talking about how, like, oftentimes, people are pushing themselves so much so that when something bad happens, they don't have enough in the tank to handle their life and the something bad happening, but if they had been taking care of things to the best that they could, so that when shit hits the fan, they could handle the shit and, like, the other plates don't fall down, right? But like, so that's the same thing, like perimenopause happens, and because they're already running on empty, all these other things are happening too. Yeah. Bria Gadd 29:20  Yeah, it's, it's the biggest reminder to learn how to work smarter, not harder. And I think a lot of us, especially women, have gotten by and gotten the success we have in the first half of our life by hustling, hustling hard, and it has come at a cost. So we need to start to learn and adapt different ways that prioritize the foundations of our health, so that, like we so that, yeah, a big wind storm comes in, or a tsunami.Lesley Logan 29:47  Yeah, I know you guys just had a crazy windstorm. Bria Gadd 29:50  Oh, yeah, we did. It wasn't, I mean, maybe it was crazier near the airport. It wasn't as crazy near what, where I was, but, yeah, anyway. But I think that's what happens. Like, we're going through life, and then life is going to have storms. It's just is, and we really don't want it to knock us over. We want to have the foundations of our health in place. So you kind of ask, like, you know, what are I think? What are those foundations? Or, you know, where do we go? Okay, now I know I'm in health debt, what is my first step? And I'll try to cut through some of the noise for people to give them, like, what I think of as like kindergarten, basics that we should be focused on and haven't been in our health to get us out of debt, right? Like, just same thing with like financial, you know, basics that we need to do. So one, we have kind of four pillars of our health that we all know pretty well we looked out to, like the Wild Kingdom of animals. And they all, they do all these things every single day. So we need to bring this back. We do it for our kids. We do this for our pets. One we gotta hold space for our sleep. We've already kind of talked about that. So, you know, making sure you are creating and really, the reality is, most women do need eight hours, like you can get away with seven here and there. But we do for the average need that eight hours. Again, everyone's a little different, but hold space and be consistent with it. Try to be as consistent as you can. Again, 80% is enough with when you go to bed, what you do before you go to bed, when you wake up, and what you do when you wake up. And obviously we know watching stressful shows at night or screen scrolling is not ideal for your adrenal hormones to help you sleep. Okay, so we want to hold that space and be consistent with it like we do for babies. Nutrition is the next one. So I think before we even worry about how much protein and how many carbohydrates, let's just have some consistency to our nutrition. Treat your body like a baby when you wake up, we need to eat within two hours of waking. We need to eat four and a half to five or four to four to five hours later. We need to eat four to five hours later. If you have to go longer, have a snack. Your food, the amount of food you eat should really keep you full and satisfied for four to five hours. So if you eat breakfast and you are hungry or anxious or exhausted before four and a half to five hours, you haven't eaten enough, or it's not the right fuel mixture. Right there. It's really, really simple to get to that. So you can play with that. You can then say, Okay, let's try more protein at this meal, specifically, because everyone's a little different. So at the very least, we want consistency in our nutrition. And I mean, this is not new news to everyone when we're trying to get out of debt, and food is one of our biggest suppliers of energy, like our currency, our salary, we could call it in that example. So make sure the food you're eating provides your body with more energy than it taketh away, right? And that's, so like, let's take be real about your food. You know, if you are eating processed foods, sugar, gluten, conventionally raised, dairy, you know, some of the heavy hitters, alcohol, right? If you're doing this more than 20% of your week, it's costing your body way more than it's providing, like, it's not even not, here's a double negative for you, English. It's not even that you're not going to get the energy you need right now, but it's creating inflammation in your body. So now, all of a sudden, the energy supply isn't getting where we need to go, and now we have a greater demand. So we got to get really real with our nutrition, that way, for kind of basic health debt. I really feel strongly that women need to be prioritizing movement, functional movement, over fitness. And we talked about this a bit when we interviewed you. So like walking, yoga, Pilates, like Pilates is a really great one, especially for those like type A women who really need to feel a workout, but we need to do something that literally is not calling on cortisol so significantly in your body, but is still moving the body in some ways. So before you start like lifting heavy weights and calling on cortisol on your body, or doing your CrossFit or any high intensity interval training, are you at least moving your body enough in a day so that it has what it needs for lymphatic drainage and for, you know, oxygen coming in and just overall functional movement. And I think that's a big one for women, is that we're out there, like, brushing it in our workout, and then we're tanked in the afternoon. It's like, three you just used a credit card to get something done when you don't have money.Lesley Logan 34:16  And that's like, you know, I realize, like, some of these things we talk about, some of the fitness, it's like, it can be inaccessible financially to have a personalized fitness program for you. That being said, be really mindful then if you are, oh, I have to go to a studio for my fitness classes. Then you got to pay attention to where you are in your cycle, if you can track it still, because that workout wasn't tailored to you, and you're going at the time that they're giving you. So I have a trainer I love to lift weights. This particular week is not the week for me to push as heavy as possible. So I had to go, Okay, what other things can I take off the plate? Because I still want to do the training that she provided, right? So I was supposed to film this week. I was like, we're not filming this week. I either can film or I can do these training sessions. I can't do both. So I was like, we're not filming also, I don't need a fucking camera right now. I don't want to be on a camera right now. So I'm going to honor that I don't want to be on camera right now, we're gonna film a different day. Then she goes, like, you can take two to three minute rest between these. Guess what? I took three plus. I was like, three plus was a long workout, but I didn't stress myself out. So I could sleep well, so when I woke up the next day, I wasn't sore. The other thing is, is, like, on the weeks that I know that it's not a pushy week, I am taking the max time, and I am doing my sauna blanket, or I'm doing my red light, like, whatever I can to just keep things. So if you're going to a class that is, oh, this is when the class starts, when the class ends, and I've do whatever the class is designed, you have to take care of yourself other places, because you're, you're just going to be in health debt. It's just not, it's gonna be fun. And when I learned that about my cycle, I was already like, like, you know, always hard on the same day, but the symptoms before my cycle completely changed, which was, like, amazing. I was like, Oh, I was in control the whole time.Bria Gadd 36:10  Yeah, I love that, you so, because what, exactly what you did there is, you're like, I can't afford both of these right now. So which one is my priority, and how do I make up some extra money, you know. And I think money energy is giving here, so. Lesley Logan 36:24  Yeah, oh, thank you. Well, thanks for validating that.Bria Gadd 36:27  And I'll just think real finally, like, onto that kind of the foundations, those kindergarten foundations, you know, you've got sleep, movement, nutrition, stress management and, or really, I mean, I, what I'd like to call it is joy, right? Like, joy is the most underrated, but like, 10x opportunity for you to provide energy for your body. Everyone can think of a time when, whether they were falling in love and, like, weren't hungry, couldn't could stay up all night talking on the phone, or, you know, went to a concert and just like, felt so amazing because of the energy we know that joy provides, you know, energy, however, if you're so stressed, like, everyone knows if they're stressed, like, we can't orgasm and we can't take a joke, so it's like, we need to find ways to relieve that stress in some ways. So whether you're someone who can take a few deep breaths, or whether you're someone who needs to, like, go scream into a pillow, like, you gotta get that out daily, so that you have space for pleasure and joy, because it's one of the biggest energy currencies for your body.Lesley Logan 37:28  I love the sign you can't take a joke and you can't have an orgasm. Because I think we all like, yeah, can't take a joke. There's a sign, ladies, you are not.Bria Gadd 37:38  If you can't take a joke and you haven't orgasmed in a while, you're likely in health debt.Lesley Logan 37:45  I love you so much. Okay, we're gonna take a brief break. Yeah, find out how people can find you. Follow your work with you. Lesley Logan 37:52  All right, Bria, where do you hang out? Are you on Instagram? Which website? Where's all the places people can go?Bria Gadd 37:58  Yeah, so I do hang out a lot on Instagram, which is @Bria_period_whisperer or come check out The Period Whisperer Podcast, anywhere you listen to your podcast. I think those are some of the best places to catch me. You'll find a website there anyway. Lesley Logan 38:12  Yeah. Also, like, go nerd out. Is this a topic like, this could be your hobby for a little bit everybody like, there's a you know what? Like, it's easier to get information from one great source than like from a bunch of sources that you're like, I'm not really sure why this is my feed. So go, go check her out. Okay, you've given us a ton of great tips already, but bold, executable, intrinsic or targeted steps people can take to be it till they see it. What do you have for us?Bria Gadd 38:35  Okay, number, I'm going to tell you to do all the things that you're not doing as a woman, get ready. Three very clear things. One, you have to slow down and be still. And the action step is like, take a minute every day or once a week, look at yourself in the mirror, eye to eye, and get really real with yourself about how you're feeling. Be honest, be vulnerable with yourself, and take that stillness. Nobody wants to be still, but you need to be still. That's where your answers come from. It'll be uncomfortable, but you can do it. You can do hard things. Number two, start with the foundations. Everyone wants to like, skip on up to university before we've done these kindergarten basics, do the basics. If you can't do the basics, you know it's time for my third action step, which is ask for help. Again, women are terrible at asking for help. They're terrible at being still, they're terrible at starting from the ground, and they're terrible at asking for help. But it is exactly like the obstacle is the way. It's exact things that you need to do first to start digging yourself out of debt so that you can increase your energy and invest that in anything you want to be investing it in in midlife and beyond.Lesley Logan 39:43  I love these so much. Also, like asking for help, ladies, I'm just gonna tell you right now, feels really weird because you're like, oh my god, I should I know? Like you feel like I don't. I don't want people to know I don't have I know how to do the thing I'm asking for help for everybody knows you can do it. Somebody wants to do that. That's the job that they want to have, you know, like, my amazing assistant, like, does all these amazing things for me, because it allows her to do things that she loves it to do, you know, so, like, just remember that, like, when you're not asking for help, you might be taking away someone else's opportunity to have joy, because that's what their strengths lie in. So you're stealing joy from other people by not asking for help, I'm just gonna. Bria Gadd 40:22  Stop stealing other people's joy.Lesley Logan 40:24  You know, some ladies are so good at feeling guilty, let's use a little guilt to motivate you and ask for some help. Bria Gadd 40:32  Thank you. Lesley Logan 40:34  Oh yeah, Bria, you're so great. This is so fun. We'll have to do this again sometime, because I'm sure there'll be next levels. We'll be on the other side of all of this, and we'll have more things to learn about our body, but I just adore you and what you're doing. Thank you so much. Everyone, how are you going to use these tips in your life? Make sure you let Bria know. Let the Be It Pod know. Share this with a female friend in your life who needs to hear it. We all have that friend who needs to slow down, take a minute and you know what, she won't know, that this is why you send it to her till right now, she'll just be getting great advice, and then right now she'll realize that you did it because she's not listening to you to slow down. So anyways, but it's all for love. Until next time, Be It Till You See It. Lesley Logan 41:13  That's all I got for this episode of the Be It Till You See It Podcast. One thing that would help both myself and future listeners is for you to rate the show and leave a review and follow or subscribe for free wherever you listen to your podcast. Also, make sure to introduce yourself over at the Be It Pod on Instagram. I would love to know more about you. Share this episode with whoever you think needs to hear it. 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On episode 338 of The AwardsWatch Podcast, Executive Editor Ryan McQuade is joined by AwardsWatch Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson, Associate Editor Sophia Ciminello, and AwardsWatch contributors Dan Bayer, Jay Ledbetter and Josh Parham, to go back 50 years and take a look at the 49th Academy Awards, covering the films of 1976. In this retrospective, the AW team returns from their two week break after the end of the 2025-2026 Oscar season to take a trip back 50 years to one of the most interesting ceremonies of all time; one similar to the one they just covered in more ways than one. A big, crowd pleasing film about an underdog boxer stole the heart of the Academy and audiences around the world, while the politically charged, socially relevant films walked away with the most awards on Oscar night, but missed out on the top two prizes. It was an epic battle between Rocky,All the President's Men, and Network, with Bound for Glory, Taxi Driver, Seven Beauties, Face to Face, Carrie, Marathon Man, and more honored by the Academy, with films like The Ritz, Grey Gardens, Mikey and Nicky, The Omen, The Bad News Bears, and more making up the films talked about on this show as films that could replace or be celebrated in this retrospective; highlighting a wide range of memorable titles released in 1976 that the team admire in one way or another.  In their in-depth discussion, the AW team talked about the film year of 1976, briefly discuss Rocky as a Best Picture winner, how that win speaks to the legacy of their win and the franchise, do an extensive conversation over the below the line categories and nominees for the year, and then the new version of the AW Shoulda Woulda Coulda game, where instead of individual replacements, they must decide as a group who the nominees and winners should be in the top eight categories. The rules of the game state they can only replace two of the nominees that year from each category, except in Best Picture, where the group could replace up to three films to make up the final set of five nominated films. Like past retrospective episodes, it was a fascinating, fun conversation including spirited debates, alliances, vote swinging, celebrating various movies, performances that aren't normally talked about and more that we all hope you enjoy. You can listen to The AwardsWatch Podcast wherever you stream podcasts, from iTunes, iHeartRadio, Soundcloud, Stitcher, Spotify, Audible, Amazon Music and more. You can also listen on the AW YouTube page. This podcast runs 2h30m. We will be back next week for a review of the latest film A24, The Drama, starring Zendaya and Robert Pattinson. Till then, let's get into it. Music: "Modern Fashion" from AShamaleuvmusic (intro), "B-3" from BoxCat Games Nameless: The Hackers RPG Soundtrack (outro).

This week Adam Biles speaks with Tash Aw about The South, his novel of inheritance, identity, and quiet upheaval. Set on a decaying farm in southern Malaysia, the story follows a family confronting generational fracture, class tension, and the uneasy weight of belonging. Aw explores how landscape is felt through the body rather than described, and how memory—fragmentary and unreliable—shapes narrative voice.The conversation covers adolescence, queer awakening, and the tension between freedom and fear when removed from social scrutiny. Aw reflects on writing from hindsight, the interplay between personal experience and fiction, and the ways families both sustain and constrain individual identity. Buy The South: https://www.shakespeareandcompany.com/books/the-south-7*TASH AW is the author of five novels, including We, the Survivors, and a memoir of a Chinese-Malaysian family, The Face: Strangers on a Pier, both finalists for the Los Angeles Times Book Prize. His work has also won a Whitbread Award, a Commonwealth Writers' Prize, and an O. Henry Prize, and has three times been longlisted for the Man Booker Prize. His fiction has been translated into twenty-three languages.Adam Biles is Literary Director at Shakespeare and Company.Listen to Alex Freiman's latest EP, In The Beginning: https://open.spotify.com/album/5iZYPMCUnG7xiCtsFCBlVa?si=h5x3FK1URq6SwH9Kb_SO3w Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Want to Be the Best Version of Yourself? Sign Up Here.https://app.beerbiceps.com/web/checkout/699d46a79b98fa69b168b402Check out BeerBiceps SkillHouse Courses Here - https://www.bbskillhouse.comCheck out my Mind Performance app: Level SuperMindLink:- https://level4665.u9ilnk.me/d/F1ZOZV4OnTShare your guest suggestions hereMail - connect@beerbiceps.comLink - https://forms.gle/aoMHY9EE3Cg3Tqdx9Follow BeerBiceps SkillHouse's Social Media Handles:YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@BeerBicepsSkillHouseInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/beerbiceps_skillhouseWebsite : https://beerbicepsskillhouse.inFor any other queries EMAIL: support@beerbicepsskillhouse.comIn case of any payment-related issues, kindly write to support@tagmango.comFollow Anirudhya Mitra's Social Media Handles:-Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/anirudhya.mitra/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/anirudya/X: https://x.com/AnirudhyaMitra3In this 480th episode of The Ranveer Show, we are joined by Anirudhya Mitra, an ex- journalist with decades of experience researching the ISI, the Pakistan underworld, and regional geopolitics. This episode dives deep into the real-life history, psychology, and secrets that inspired the film Dhurandhar, uncovering the dark stories that exist between the lines of the movie.In this conversation with Mr. Mitra, we talk about the brutal Lyari Gang Wars, the rise and fall of Rehman Dakait, and the terrifying rivalry between Uzair Baloch and Arshad Pappu. We explore the real-life inspirations behind the film's characters, including the politician Nabil Gabol, and the masterminds like Major Iqbal and Ilyas Kashmiri.We delve into the legendary exploits of National Security Advisor Ajit Doval during his time in Pakistan and the truth behind Dawood Ibrahim's influence in Karachi.This podcast is a valuable resource for anyone interested in Geopolitics, National Security, Indian Intelligence (R&AW), the history of Pakistan's ISI, and the Karachi Underworld. It is a must-watch for those looking to understand the intersection of crime, politics, and intelligence in South Asia.(00:00) – Start of the episode(01:31) – Dhurandhar Special Begins(05:40) – The Brutal "Head Football" Story(11:38) – Mumbai vs. Karachi Underworld(15:11) – The Anthropology of Mafia(19:51) – Nabil Gabol: The Real Politician(24:40) – Inside Pakistan's Political Chaos(32:31) – ISI: The Real Puppet Masters(37:46) – Masterminds of 26/11: Major Iqbal(46:34) – Captured: The Horror of Spy Torture(51:58) – How R&AW Trains Indian Spies(01:04:59) – The Most Emotional Jail Meeting(01:13:21) – Ajit Doval: 7 Years Undercover(01:21:29) – Dawood Ibrahim vs. Rahman Dakait(01:31:18) – The Real 26/11 Revenge Plot(01:36:31) – SP Chaudhry Aslam: The Real "Baba Cop"(01:50:41) – ISI & The Global Drug Trade(01:53:31) – Why This Film is National Service(01:58:36) – End of the episode

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Southern Charm finishes its season at a big cast party where Craig gets dumped and Charley gets Leva'd. Salley's pestering finally works as she wears Austen down to a situationship where he can make out with her whenever he wants and promise nothing. Aw, romance! Sorry to whatever chickens were harmed in the paving of Salley's road to fboi paradise. To watch this recap on video, listen to our bonus episodes, and get ad free listening,, go to Patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens. Find bonus episodes at patreon.com/watchwhatcrappens and follow us on Instagram @watchwhatcrappens @ronniekaram @benmandelker Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Naarm's own Babycino steps up next mixing dubwise rollers and summery house digs. A budding DJ, producer and open-air dance specialist, his Reasons To Be Cheerful parties and Skylab shows blend classy jams with playful flair, meaning 100% good times for the groove inclined! @babycinoofficial Q. What sounds or feelings did you draw upon when gathering inspiration for this mix, and what listening environments could you imagine it being best enjoyed? I wanted to try to keep it nice and hypnotic in parts, mostly through the first hour or so. So there's some dub tinged house, deeper house cuts and then into some kind of psychedelic, percussive funk jams. All roads lead back to House music though, in some form or another. If I can lock in, lose my train of thought and kind of forget where I am for a little bit while listening to a mix or music. That's the best. Almost like entering another realm. That being said, I do like flourishes of chaos being injected as well, so hopefully there are some well placed disruptions and switch ups. For the listening environment. Perhaps a long car journey, or a long walk/ jog through a changing landscape Q. Are there any records in the mix that you were especially excited to share, and what is it about these songs that resonate with you so much? A. There are a few favourites in the mix but I have to say that the closing track, the Janeret remix of Flash And The Pan's Walking in the Rain, is on heavy rotation at the moment. I absolutely love the original, it's so moody and ethereal while also being raw and kinda edgy. This particular remix reworks it for a dancefloor, while keeping that vibe sooooo well. Q. Your Reasons To Be Cheerful parties have become a much-loved part of the annual party calendar, featuring a smorgasbord of house and disco legends the likes of Jex Opolis, DJ Lloyd and Chee Shimizu to name a few! Tell us about your plans for the party going forward, and what you've most enjoyed about the experience thus far? A. Aw, bless! Thank you so much! Going forward, I just want to work on maintaining a consistent quality with the curation and to ensure it's a free and open space, musically and spiritually. Quite simply, I really want to focus on improving with each event, adding more visual art elements/installations, not to reinvent the wheel but just to add my own personal weirdness to the space. Things I've enjoyed so far.. I'd say meeting people and inviting artists who I really respect, whether it's an OG like Chee or connecting with some of the local peeps that I deeply admire. A specific top experience so far is going b2b with Chee Shimizu at Angel. He really is one of the best! Chee and Weatherall are the guiding stars for me, so it was such an honour to go beat for beat with a master!

In this awesome talk with my dad in Part Three, we are going back in time, into the past when I was poisoned by food at nine years of age and suffered horribly until Spirit Of Compassion spoke to me about something critical that turned it all around—that's when my great grandfather's garden became the medicinal paradise miraculously needed. Dad and I talk about his past, when he was a child and he got injured with his friend while climbing a large, special fruit tree in somebody's yard. We also discuss his favorite guacamole recipe using his heirloom hot peppers he grows in the garden. My dad is a hot pepper expert, with generations of family seeds going back to our roots from Italy. There is much wisdom and knowledge to take in and learn in this profound interview. Fasten your seat belts and take a ride with me and my dad… In this episode… Discover AW's dad's special hot pepper that he grows and named himself, and why it's so good. Learn what Spirit of Compassion told AW to do when he was nine years old after he was food poisoned. Learn about AW's great grandfather's garden and all the different fruits, herbs and vegetables that grew there. Find out what AW's great grandfather called him and what he would say to little AW because of his gift in talking to Spirit. Discover the way AW's father makes his favorite guacamole and what ingredients he uses. Find out why the tree AW's dad climbed as a child was very dangerous and how he got injured. Learn about the time that AW should not have picked green tomatoes. Discover what happened to AW and his father when they both ate their first real hot pepper out of the garden at 6 years old. All this and more, tune in and don't miss out on this important episode. You can revisit this episode anytime you need it. For more information visit www.medicalmedium.com

On this episode of National Disability Radio, we sit down with award-winning recording artist, advocate, and author Lachi for a powerful conversation about disability pride, music, and unmasking. Lachi shares her journey, from navigating the music industry as a blind artist, to founding RAMPD, a coalition amplifying disability culture across the industry. We talk about what it means to say “I identify as blind,” move beyond the medical and social models of disability into a cultural model rooted in identity and joy, and remind listeners that no one can defeat someone who hasn't given up. From glam canes to Grammy stages, this episode is about claiming space, rejecting internalized ableism, and turning perceived flaws into flexes. Transcript: Alden Blevins: It’s Lachi? I feel very- Lachi: Lachi like Versace. Alden Blevins: Lachi like… Oh, I love that. Michelle Bishop: That is the best way to explain it. Lachi: I mean, but you know what I’m saying? Come on. Alden Blevins: Well, we’re really excited about having you today because we’re all music lovers in this group here. Michelle Bishop: Yes. Alden Blevins: We talk about music all the time. Michelle Bishop: So much. Lachi: Good, good, good, good, good, good, good. I’m in the right place. Michelle Bishop: Hi everyone. Welcome back to National Disability Radio, the official podcast of the National Disability Rights Network. I am Michelle Bishop, 1/3 of your podcast hosting team. Stephanie Flynt McEben: And I’m Stephanie Flynt McEben, public policy analyst here at NDRN. Alden Blevins: I am Alden. I am a communication specialist at NDRN and I am so excited today, like I mentioned, we’re all lovers of music, so we got a guest that I’m really excited about. Lachi is an award-winning recording artist and a recording Academy Grammy’s national trustee. She’s also a disability advocate who’s been breaking barriers in the music industry and beyond. She’s the founder of RAMPD, which by the way, is such a fun play name. I really love that. And the author of the upcoming book, I Identify as Blind. So without further ado, Michelle, you’ve got some questions to kick us off, I think. Michelle Bishop: Yes. We’re so excited to have you with us. As Alden said, we are. We’re huge music lovers. I’m pretty sure we spend most of our meetings where we allegedly plan this podcast just talking about music. So you’re absolutely in the right place today, but to get us started, I mean, you’ve been open about the fact, and I’m just really interested in this as a disability rights podcast. You’ve been really open about the fact that it took you some time to really embrace your identity as a blind and disabled woman, especially in the industry that you’re in that often really rewards conformity. Can you tell us a little bit more about that journey for you, both as an artist and as someone navigating just the world with a disability? Lachi: Okay. Yeah, for sure. Hey, everybody. Lachi here, Lachi like Versace. I am a Black woman with cornrows, chilling here in New York in my studio. I also identify as blind, I identify as neurodivergent, and I identify as an Aries. So do with that what you will. Michelle Bishop: All the important points right there. Lachi: All the important points like name, age, sign. Thank you. Okay. Yeah, but I’m really glad to be here. And thank you for that question, and thank you for having me. So music has always been a very integral part of my life of growing up. Where other babies would kick in the womb, when she was pregnant with me, I was playing the piano in the womb. I don’t know how she got a piano in there, but she’s not a liar, so I’m going to take her word for it. When I was super-duper young, I didn’t really have a lot of friends, especially because of the fact that I had differences and this and that. And so I would take to music to, I guess, understand the world better and have the world understand me better. I just knew how to express myself through song and it just said the things I needed to say. It was the prayer I needed. And because of music, I started to find confidence in how to speak and how to behave and how to act. And as I got older, when I was growing up, disability was not necessarily a thing people talked about a lot in schools and teachers didn’t know what to do. My parents didn’t really know what to do. And so I would always just turn to music. It’s actually right now I’m working on a children’s album because I think that kids need to hear music that has to do with disability and neurodivergence, as well as their parents as they grow up. When I got into college, I started wanting to do music, but I studied business and finance because when I told my parents I wanted to do music, they were like, “That’s not how you spell doctor.” because they are Nigerian immigrants and everybody else in my family went to either med school and blah, blah, blah. And I was like, “No, I want to do music.” But I did get a day job after school, after college, and didn’t love it because this girl is not going to exist behind a desk. So I ended up going to South by Southwest and I got signed actually from playing the guitar at a hole in the wall spot that nobody was at, except for this A&R apparently. So we got signed to an imprint under EMI, which was a major label back then, and we started touring and music then became my life. Now today, why wouldn’t I pay my respects back to music? I mean, it’s because of music that I was able to really lean into who I am, my disability, my confidence, et cetera. So because of that, because of how much music has given to me in my life, I’m here using music to give back to other people with disabilities. Now, your question was essentially, how do you sit here and try to bring about change for disability in an industry that is not only about conformity, but also about like, “Hey, pick me to exploit.” is essentially what the music industry is. You’re raising your hand to be exploited and that’s what kind of authenticity is that? But at the end of the day, music is some of the truest forms of storytelling. And I think to myself, just the way that hip hop has amplified Black culture and the way that country music has amplified rural culture and the way that different global musics have represented different global cultures. I want to use music to amplify disability culture. I want to use music to amplify disability stories and feelings that are difficult to put words to, that are words of the soul, which is essentially what music is. And so I started going to studios and realizing things weren’t as accessible as they should be. I started speaking with organizations and realizing things weren’t as inclusive as they should be. And the response I kept getting was like, “Oh, well, there’s nobody with a disability in the music industry, so why would we make these measures?” And so I have made it my life’s goal through RAMPD, which by the way, the best thing we ever accomplished was our acronym, not us working with the Grammys to get sign language on the red carpet, not us getting these partnerships with title, Live Nation, Spotify. I mean, we’ve done so much, not just for artists, but also for professionals. And we’ve started to realize something really interesting with the work we’ve done with RAMPD. We are getting people joining our membership who are director level folks, who are label owners, who are like the big wigs that write the checks, and they’re like, “I’m neurodivergent. I’m actually hard of hearing. I have a TBI.” And so when I originally set out, they said, “We don’t do disability inclusion because nobody’s disabled.” That was three years ago. Now I’m like, not only are there neurodivergent and disabled music professionals out here, but we all are. So really to conclude, it’s just that everyone is navigating trying to make it out in this world, but everyone’s masking. Everyone feels that they have to change some part of themselves to be as close as they can to what success looks like, be as close as they can to what “beauty” looks like, what winning looks like. But really all it is internalized ableism. And I say, as soon as we drop that internalized ableism and we really start to sit in who we truly are and we start to recognize our perceived flaws as flexes, that’s when we truly start to win. And so that’s what we’re finding out with RAMPD, that people are like, “You know what? I’m tired of navigating this difficult industry with the added layer of having to mask.” And so that’s why I do what I do. Michelle Bishop: Yes. And honestly, as ridiculous as it sounds that they say to you, “Oh, there aren’t any people with disabilities.” When I tell you, we see that in everything that we do. I do voting work at NDRN and we’ll have elections officials tell us, “This polling place isn’t accessible, but there aren’t any people with disabilities that vote here.” And it’s like, “What? You realize we’re everywhere and we do all sorts of things.” Maybe the reason they think there’s no people with disabilities here is because they’re stuck outside and they can’t get in because you didn’t make it accessible, just a thought. But I mean, it sounds like coming up against all that is really, correct me if I’m wrong, helped you to develop that identity and that disability pride in the industry. When did you first say, “I identify as blind.” and what did that mean for you? Lachi: Well, so when I first came into really doing the disability thing, really leaning in, I wanted to find out more influencers or thought leaders and such with disabilities. I didn’t really know that many people. This is pre COVID, 2018, 2019, that kind of thing. And so I came across an influencer, her name is Molly Burke, and we’re great friends now, but I didn’t know her back then. I had just seen her tagline and it had said, “I’m Molly Burke and I’m a YouTuber who happens to be blind.” And for some reason I was like, “I don’t know if I love the happens to be blind thing.” I was like, “Well, I’m proud of being blind. Blindness is part of my identity. I don’t just happen to be a woman. I don’t just happen to be a Nigerian. I don’t just happen to be all of the things I am.” And so I would go to… I was touring… We’re always touring and every time I tour and do a show, I do a comedic open where I just introduce myself, I do a quick self-description, et cetera. And in my self-description, I would say, and I don’t just happen to be blind. My blindness is part of my identity, has given me all of the opportunities I have, and it’s really made me a deeper blah, blah, blah. It was just too long. So I had punched it up to be, “My name is Lachi like Versace. She, her, I’m a Black woman with cornrows and I identify as blind.” And the interesting thing about that is people took onto it. They were like, “Oh, that’s cool, nice and punchy.” But whenever I would say it in front of a large crowd or like I’ve said it on interviews or during commercials, I would get this weird, I don’t know, pushback of like, you can’t identify as blind. Blindness is an identity. It’s a medical condition. Or they’ll be like, “Do you read braille or not?” Or they’ll be like, “We don’t want people to think trans blindness is a thing where you just have a blind identity.” And then you can be like, “Well, I’m blind today, so that’s my identity.” And I thought that was really fun. I was like, “Look, everybody’s upset. They’re talking about blindness though.” So I really leaned all the way into it. And I have to say, I am super proud of my disability identity. Was it music that brought me there? I think in a sense and in a way, like today I have a few songs, you guys are music lovers, I have a few songs out that really talk about my disability pride. I think that a lot of the times as we navigate the world, masking our disability, masking our chronic condition, our difference or whatever, we end up overcompensating. We end up building up this really, really thick problem solving muscle or this really, really thick how to get around things muscle and we overcompensate. When we’re finally accommodated, when we finally get to a place where we’re accommodated or we have the tools we need, we’re coming in like bulk as hell. We’re coming in with problem solving muscles. We’re coming in with all of these things that we had to build up because of navigating the world differently, because of every day working through this very difficult maze that is living a life unaccommodated, then when we finally are accommodated, then we are killing it and crushing it. And how could you not be proud of that? How can that not give you a sense of pride? So the songs that I would love for you guys to check out that are mine is I have a song called Life on Hard, which has gone viral several times on Instagram. I’m known as an Instagram rapper, which is like, what? Hello, I do disability advocacy. Look at that stuff. But anyway, so I have a song called Life on Hard, which is essentially about just winning the game of life, playing it on the hardest setting out here while people are still trying to consult the manual. I have another song called Professional, which is oftentimes when I walk on the stage, people see the cane and they’re like, “Aw, she’s going to do a song for us. Is this from Make a Wish Foundation?” And then I bust out these raps or I hop on the piano and I go ape on this piano and then they’re like, “Oh, snap. What? Okay.” And I’m like, “Bro, I’m a professional artist. I’m not object for pity to make you feel good because you felt weird on a Monday and you didn’t feel like getting up for work, but it’s like, she could do it. So can I.” I’m like, “No, I can do it. You most likely probably just can’t.” So that’s what that song’s about. And then there’s The Bag, and The Bag is just essentially like, I’ve been told no so much like, “No, you can’t. No, you’re not good enough. No, we don’t want you.” And I’m like, “You know what? Yes, I am good enough and I deserve everything. So I’m going to throw everything I deserve in the bag, which is everything.” I don’t know. I would not be the person I am if I didn’t love all parts of myself. And that includes my disabilities, that includes my neurodivergences and all of the other wacky, weird body jazz that I bring with me everywhere I go. Michelle Bishop: Lachi, can we maybe, do you and I just FaceTime each other every morning and hype each other up? Stephanie Flynt McEben: I was literally about to say the same thing. I would like in on a true call. Michelle Bishop: I don’t know if you know. Actually, I want to say quickly, I know some of those songs actually from social media, but they’re real. They’re so real. So people haven’t heard music, go check it out. I don’t know if you know one of our co-hosts, Stephanie is blind. You’re speaking directly to her soul right now. Stephanie Flynt McEben: I literally just texted them in our podcast group text and I was like, she’s totally speaking to my soul RN, but of course I don’t want to interrupt anything. Michelle Bishop: No, I know you’re dying to talk to her about the book, Stephanie, and take it away. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yeah, no, absolutely, for sure. And as somebody who is blind and who also identifies as a blind person and definitely does not identify with the medical model of disability, clearly gotten to more of a social model. But yeah, in terms of going through that journey of accepting all of who you are and everything about yourself, for me, I mean, it took a minute, especially when you’re talking about your experiences as a child and I totally feel that. I was that girl playing the harmonica on the jungle gym by herself. Anyway, this is about you. This is not about me, but I’m just saying that I totally relate to you on a spiritual level. And given that, I would love to know, were there any particular moments when it came to writing the book that were particularly hard or healing? Because I mean, I think that we all know that it’s not always a linear journey. Some days are going to be harder than others. And so would love to get your perspective on that. And I think that our listeners would be interested. Lachi: Yeah, absolutely. The journey for me has been one of constantly unwrapping this amazing gift. I always try to use that as the visual, if you will, of you have this big present and you get to unwrap it and then you just keep getting something cooler inside and then you get to unwrap that and you get something cooler inside and you just keep unwrapping this beautiful gift that is yourself. But you don’t realize that when you first get the box, the amazing stuff that’s going on inside, and it takes time to get to it. So a lot of times growing up, I would kick myself in the butt of, I wish I had come to this when I was so much younger. I wish there were people out there when I was younger, role models that I could look up to when I was eight years old and pointing on the TV and saying like, “Okay, well, I mean, I understand that Ray Charles existed, but that’s not going to…” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Stevie Wonder is here, Ray Charles is here, but we need more of us. Hello. Lachi: We need more of us. Hello. Exactly. And so this time and place where I am right now is where I needed to be for this to work. So I can’t really kick myself in the butt of like, “I wish I had this. I wish I knew this so much earlier. I would’ve been so much further.” That kind of thing. You have to be where you got to be where you need to be. Even right now, this conversation we’re having right now is going to have been necessary for the next thing that is happening in our lives. And just the other day, I was hanging out with Queen Herby, who’s been one of my favorite more modern rappers. I just did a thing with Apl.de.ap. I have done some stuff with Black Caviar. Folks that I’ve looked up to, I’m having the opportunity to Snoop Dogg. I’m having the opportunity to work with these days because of the fact that I am here at the right time now. So when I was writing my book, we were peeling back all the layers. I’m a generally very positive and energetic, social butterfly type of person today. But it’s interesting, I wasn’t always this person and I had to unpack all the layers to get there. One of the biggest things that happens to me, so I’ve always been low vision. So I was born with relatively low vision and it stayed the same throughout my teens and early 20s. But one day I woke up and my sight was just gone. Boom. So the interesting thing is anybody listening would be like, “Oh my God, if I woke up and my sight was gone, I would just die or I would not know what to do. My life would be over.” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yep. Heard that a million times. Yes. Lachi: But for me, it was weird because I was already low vision, so I was going from level one to the underwater level or whatever. So it wasn’t like that life changing of a thing. I was already using screen readers or Zoom text. I was already doing stuff of that nature. So I wake up blind and I’m just like, “Okay, I guess this is it. This is the day that they told me was coming.” What had ended up happening was my corneas had erupted. And so I went to the doctor and he was like, “You’re going to become completely blind. You’re going to go from this much worse vision than you’ve had to complete blindness over the course of time.” So here you go, here’s a coupon. Bye.” or whatever. So I’m like, all right. So I had decided at that moment that I wanted to start a bucket list. So I was like, okay, what are all the things I’ve always wanted to do before completely going completely blind? So I was like, let me go skydiving, let me go spolunking, let me go meet with people, meet with celebrities and just do all of the things I’ve always wanted to do before I lose my vision. So I went out and I did it. This is still me doing it. This is still me doing it. And so I say that because to people who say if I ever went blind, I would just die. Well, when I went blind, it made me want to live. And that’s what opened me up into being this person that I am today. Stephanie Flynt McEben: That is amazing. I genuinely love that. Lachi: We talk about charity model and propping disabled folks up as tools of pity. We talk about medical model, which is really just waiting around for cure, making the cure the hero. We talk about social model, which is a really good place to live in the sense of things are impairing if they’re not accessible. Society is impairing if it’s not inclusive. But honestly, if I have all of the things, like if I have all my tools, if I have all that I need and if folks are inclusive, then I’m still blind, but I’m not impaired. But I like to go a little step further into what is the cultural model. And so the cultural model is it’s not just a discussion of what society should and shouldn’t do. It’s actually a celebration of what you gain as a person who identifies with their disability or their neurodivergence, the things they need to overcompensate because they’re navigating the world a little differently, leaning into that. So let’s say for instance, deaf culture, sign language, and the fact that folks can have complete discussions outside of what we’re talking about, there is so much deaf pride out in these streets, that is a celebration of culture that comes out of disability. And for me, let’s say for instance, I have ADHD and it powers my one million and counting ideas. I have diagnosed OCD, which helps me carry out all those one million and counting ideas. I have diagnosed general anxiety disorder, which gives me my empathy and my excitement. And then I am blind, which when I have the tools I need, it gives me drive. It keeps me determined, it keeps me focused, and it gives me my dope ass glam canes. There was a girl and her mom, and she came up to me after a show and she was like, “Oh my God, your music was great.” I was like, thank you. She’s like, “Mommy, can I get one of those canes?” And then her mom was like, “Ugh, well, you have to be blind.” And I’m like, “Yeah, girl, you better want to be me.” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yeah. We drive sticks. Anyway, sorry. Lachi: Yes. You know what? I speak softly and I carry a big old stick. Thank you. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yes. Amen to that. Exactly. As somebody who considers themself a lifelong disability advocate, I never really thought about it in the sense of going beyond the social into the cultural. So thank you so, so much. We all learn something new every single day on this podcast, but I’d love to know a little bit more about, obviously you were very, very, very good at talking through these experiences in such a way that they are very relatable and easy to understand and that thing. So I’d love to pick your brain about the intended audience of your book. Who did you write it for? Other blind folks? Did you write it for, was it written for multiple audiences? Lachi: Yeah, honestly, I wrote it for the person who is masking. I wrote it for anyone who is tired of… Listen, let me put it like this. Let’s face it, disability is boring, a lot of the time it’s sad and it’s compliancy. We have to go the extra mile to make it fun because the actual truth of it is that the only reason it’s boring, sad, and compliancy is because society has kept it that way through its collective internalized ableism. And so my book is actually a humor book. It’s a pop culture book. It’s a comedy book. In fact, when we were talking to the publisher, it’s like, we should be putting this up against other comedic books, not necessarily disability books because it’s a book. I got so many jokes. I have dad jokes, they’re corny jokes, I have rap bars. I rap in a lot of the book just because I was like, “Hey, this rhymes.” I’m going to say it like a rap. We’re doing the audiobook right now, so I actually get to wrap it, which is really fun. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Oh, that is so cool. Oh my gosh. Lachi: Which is really, really fun. But really, honestly, what the book is what everything I do is it is using joy, soul, pop culture, jokes, humor, fashion, and just a really good time to celebrate disability, as well as community. So what you’ll find in this book is my story through my story, through historical deep dives, through interviews with some really, really cool popular figures and a really big deep dose of disability joy. And so a lot of folks who have disabilities, they will read this book and they’ll be energized. It’ll be like, “This is really great. I’m glad that I finally get to read a book that talks about disability in a positive way.” For blind specific folks, they might relate to a few of my stories because I talk about the day I woke up blind, I talk about when I went skydiving blind, I talk about just some of my interesting blind moments. But then I also talk about how I would go to red carpets and not know how to talk to anybody. So I’m in this amazing room with all these celebrities I can’t see and I’m just sitting on the wall. So I talk about some of the hard times too as well. But at the end of the day, really what the book is is an invitation in for somebody who feels a little different, a little awkward, has to mask, and just needed that invite in to talk about disability in a fun, joyful, celebratory way, to recognize that yes, that thing in you that’s different, that thing in you that society has told you you should view as a weakness and hide, you should be proud of. And I say this to people all the time. I say it in the industry, I say it to all my friends, I say it to anyone who will listen. I say it to my local barista and they come back and they say things like, “Oh my God, I’m so glad you said it that way. It turns out I have a titanium hip and I’ve never told anybody about that.” And that’s the vibe. The vibe is someone who was like, “I really needed this to be said to me this way, and now I am able to step all the way into my disability identity.” Alden Blevins: I love, especially what you said about joy. I feel like for me as an autistic person, my experience in the arts is that it is really a space where people who maybe don’t belong in other spaces or don’t feel like they belong in other spaces or are made to feel like they don’t belong in other spaces. I think that a lot of them really do find a safe space in music, in the arts, in theater. And I just wanted to ask, why do you think the music space is such a special one for you and why do you think it’s a place where other people with disabilities seem to flock together as well? Lachi: I mean, you hit the nail on the head. Counterculture, I mean, music often rewards counterculture. And then it eventually becomes mainstream and then we got to rebel against that. So music is a place where your soul can speak. And I think a lot of the times with disabilities, especially autism for me, I’m ADHD, OCD, a different neurodivergence situation, but a lot of the issue is communication. We don’t know how to say exactly what we need or whoever we’re talking to just doesn’t know how to hear what we’re saying. And so I think that what music does is it allows a soul to speak to a soul. A lot of the times music does this thing where you’ll be listening to a song and you’ll just be like, “That, that right there. That’s what I it me. That’s the thing I’m feeling.” type deal. Music has the ability to do that. And so for me, right now, this children’s album that I’m working on, the kids’ album, which is an album that is essentially R&B, pop, electronic, sort of the genres that I dance in for kids centered on disability and neurodivergence. Because what I want to do is be able to say, “Hey, I want you to point at that and say, that’s me.” And I think the easiest and quickest way to point at something and say, “That’s me also.” has been music. And so it’s why it’s been my strongest medium. Again, it’s not my only medium. I’m talking to folks through the book, I’m talking to folks through fashion, et cetera, et cetera. But again, music has been just the quickest, easiest point A to point B conversation easer, if you will, about disability. Another thing I also love to use is humor and comedy. So I make jokes all the time. They’re all bad. They’re all very not good jokes. I need to probably get a joke writer, but the fact that I’m having such a good time telling the jokes, I think I think is all that really matters. So I think both music and humor are just really, really great spaces for two people to get to relate to something that may be difficult to talk about. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yo, if you need a joke writer, I’m your girl. I actually do a joke every single episode of this podcast. Michelle Bishop: Her jokes are not better than yours, Lachi. Don’t hire her. Stephanie Flynt McEben: My jokes are pretty bad. They’re worse than dad’s jokes. They’re like granddad jokes. Alden Blevins: Yeah. Stephanie is the queen of the jokes on our podcast. She always brings one through. Didn’t know that you were working on a children’s music album, and I think that’s really interesting. I actually used to be a teacher, so children’s music is something that’s near and dear to my heart. So I just wanted to ask, what would you want to tell to younger people with disabilities, younger disabled creatives about claiming space and being able to tell their own stories? Lachi: Well, one thing that I heard from someone else, I don’t remember who it was. I think it was- Michelle Bishop: Jordan? Lachi: Yes, Jordan. He’s the one that said this. Michelle Bishop: I love him. Lachi: Yeah, he’s so funny. I met him at a… What did I meet him at? The Webby Awards or something. But anyway, no one can ever defeat someone who hasn’t given up. And for some reason that hit me, and I don’t even think he was trying to say it that deep. He was just saying a joke or something. But I took that and it was like, no one can ever defeat someone who hasn’t given up. So at the end of the day, you are really the only one who can end whatever you’re trying to get. Because as long as you are still going for it, it is still still there. It’s like a Schrodinger’s cat. It’s like as long as you’re still running for it, that opportunity is still there for you to have. The opportunity is never lost as long as you’re still going for it. And people can tell you, people can take your shoulders and tell you to go right. People can take your shoulders and tell you to go left. But until you take your own shoulders and go in the direction that your heart, your soul, your passion, your fire, desires, that is when you truly begin to live. And so I say personally, lean into that. I hear from a lot of younger, especially creators with disabilities. I mentor a lot of folks, tons and tons of folks. It’s one of the things I love to do the most. But what I love to tell folks is you are going to be the best you. And that you is going to include all of the different parts of who you are, but it is especially going to include you leaning in to the things that make you different and unique as unique selling points. Earlier I talked about how people try so hard to be the “definition of beauty”, definition of success, definition of whatever. Everyone’s trying to be this reference man. Everyone’s trying to be as close as they can to the reference man. And if I’m as close as I can to the reference man, then I’ll be successful or then I’ll get this job or then I’ll get this gig. But the truth of the matter is when we look at all of the people that are doing all of the big things, they’re “eccentric”. They’re “weird”. They did some big different idea that no one was thinking about and everybody fell into their trend. The further away you are from the reference man, that is when you start to win. That is when you’ll start to see success. That is when you’ll start to feel much better about yourself. That is when you can wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and say, “I am fine.” When you are able to accept all of those different freckles of yourself that are as far away from the reference man as possible, because guess what? There is room outside of the barrel for everyone to win if they are all being their unique self and running their unique purpose. That’s what I would tell to young disabled creators. Michelle Bishop: That’s amazing. Almost feel like we should stop there, but I have so many follow-up questions. Lachi: Listen, I’m here to drop as many mics as they will let me keep breaking. Michelle Bishop: I was wondering how you see the conversation around disability and inclusion and evolving these days. And a lot of our listeners are people with disabilities or people who have other even multiple intersecting identities in which they experience barriers as well. What does allyship look like to you? Lachi: This is one of my favorite questions. So yes, we have folks with disabilities and we have folks who want to work with people with disabilities, want to help a friend with a disability, want to make sure they don’t say the wrong thing to a person with a disability, neurodivergence, chronic condition, mental health condition. That’s not an ally. Wanting to help a person with a disability is not an ally. To me, wanting to support someone with a disability, that’s an ally in the very basic definition of allyship. Here’s what I think an ally is. To answer the question, I got to do two things. One, talk about the disability umbrella. So the disability umbrella encompasses so many forms of disability. It is neurodivergence, which is ADHD, dyslexia, OCD. It is mental health conditions like anxiety, depression, bipolar. It is someone who learns a little differently. It is someone who has explosive situations like anger management. It is someone who has substance abuse disorder, maybe somebody who drinks too much or uses different substances. It is chronic back pain. You know what I’m saying? It is asthma. It is EDS. It’s POTS. It is long COVID. It is different complications that you gain after pregnancy. It is different complications that you gain as you age. It is different complications you gain through menopause. It is temporary. It is breaking your arm and wearing a cast. It is seasonal depression. There is nobody on this earth that is not within the disability umbrella. And I don’t mean that you’re going to grow into it. I don’t mean in the future. I mean right now. Whether you identify as a person with a disability or not, you have disability identity because you have experience in your body disability. And when you figure that out, then you’re an ally. Allyship is seeing yourself through the other person because you can’t look through someone else’s eyes unless you can see yourself in them. And you can’t see yourself in disability until you recognize the disability identity within yourself. All of a sudden, and I say this and people are like, “What? I say this, but I’ve seen this. I’ve seen it happen. I’ve seen people who did not associate themselves with any form of disability or anything and they’re just like, Oh, them. Oh, I’ll help them. We have a conversation and then we have a follow-up conversation and then we’re drinking and then all of a sudden they’re telling me all their disabilities and then they’re walking a little different when they encounter disability. It’s no longer a them thing. And so that’s what an ally is. People with disabilities are also allies. I am an ally to the deaf community because I recognize though I’m not deaf, I see the having to navigate the world differently in you of myself. So that’s how I define an ally. An ally is someone who understands their own disability identity and can see it in others. Michelle Bishop: Don’t mind me over here just taking notes. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Literally. Oh my gosh. Lachi, thank you so, so, so much for being with us and taking time. I know that your website, lachimusic.com is one of the places where folks can stay up to date on all of the latest and greatest things that you’re up to. Is there anything else in particular you would like to plug for our listeners? Lachi: Like you said, LACHI, L-A-C-H-I M-U-S-I-C. I’m on the internets everywhere. Instagram, Spotify, check out the old music. If you’re a creator, a music creator or professional with a disability, check us out at RAMPD, R-A-M-P-D.org. Or if you want to donate or if you want to partner with us over at RAMPD, please do. If you are a cane user, whether you’re a blind cane user or you use Mobility Cane, check out glamcanes.com, get your canes bejeweled. I Identify as Blind, our book is out on Penguin Random House, imprint called Tiny Reparations by Phoebe Robinson, who is also a comedian. So we’re out here all writing very funny books. So please check it out. And lastly, listen, try to find moments in your day of disability joy. And when you find that moment, take a picture of it or write it down so that you can go back to it and live for those moments. So thank you guys so much for having me on this podcast. It’s really been a blast getting to talk at you about all things I identify as blind. Alden Blevins: I love it. I was over here taking notes too because I just found so much of myself in what you were saying and so many things were poignant and empowering. I, as an autistic person, try to be an ally to other parts of the disability community myself. And that’s something where I’m always trying to put myself in the shoes of another person and what they might experience. So I think that’s really powerful. We were so grateful to be able to connect and learn more about you, Lachi. Lachi: Yes, yes, yes. So honored to be here, guys. Michelle Bishop: Before you head out, Lachi, do you want to hear one of Stephanie’s grandpa jokes? Lachi: I was going to say, I was like, “Let’s hear one of these granddad jokes.” Let me see. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Okay. This might be- Michelle Bishop: Okay, do it. Stephanie Flynt McEben: … a granddad joke. Okay. Where do spiders like to get their information? Lachi: The web? Michelle Bishop: That would be something to do with web. Stephanie Flynt McEben: But what kind of web? Lachi: Wow. Really? You are fired from being my comedy writer. You are fired to be my comedy writer. I was rooting for you too. I was like, let’s just… Please. Stephanie Flynt McEben: I wouldn’t even get to the punchline yet. Michelle Bishop: Worldwide web? Stephanie Flynt McEben: It is the worldwide web. Michelle Bishop: Oh. Stephanie Flynt McEben: It’s fine. It’s fine. My wife warned me not to tell that joke this month and I didn’t lose it. Michelle Bishop: Oh my gosh. I’m so glad you stuck around for that part. Lachi: As I live and breathe. Thank you guys so, so much. This has been so much fun and I will see who else I can tell that joke to. And go ahead and just to help you out, Stephanie, I’ll go ahead and embarrass myself by telling that joke to others. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Not my best work, but that is allyship. Yes. Michelle Bishop: Oh my gosh, Lachi, thank you so much. And everyone, please lachimusic.com. Check it out. Listen to the music, read the book. Alden Blevins: Speaking of the worldwide web, this has been National Disability Radio. We celebrate stories, leadership, and talent of people with disabilities. If you enjoyed this episode, be sure to subscribe, share, and continue the conversation with us on that worldwide web at ndrn.org or anywhere you get your favorite podcasts. Thanks for listening and until next time. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Bye.

On this episode of National Disability Radio, we sit down with award-winning recording artist, advocate, and author Lachi for a powerful conversation about disability pride, music, and unmasking. Lachi shares her journey, from navigating the music industry as a blind artist, to founding RAMPD, a coalition amplifying disability culture across the industry. We talk about what it means to say “I identify as blind,” move beyond the medical and social models of disability into a cultural model rooted in identity and joy, and remind listeners that no one can defeat someone who hasn't given up. From glam canes to Grammy stages, this episode is about claiming space, rejecting internalized ableism, and turning perceived flaws into flexes. Transcript: Alden Blevins: It’s Lachi? I feel very- Lachi: Lachi like Versace. Alden Blevins: Lachi like… Oh, I love that. Michelle Bishop: That is the best way to explain it. Lachi: I mean, but you know what I’m saying? Come on. Alden Blevins: Well, we’re really excited about having you today because we’re all music lovers in this group here. Michelle Bishop: Yes. Alden Blevins: We talk about music all the time. Michelle Bishop: So much. Lachi: Good, good, good, good, good, good, good. I’m in the right place. Michelle Bishop: Hi everyone. Welcome back to National Disability Radio, the official podcast of the National Disability Rights Network. I am Michelle Bishop, 1/3 of your podcast hosting team. Stephanie Flynt McEben: And I’m Stephanie Flynt McEben, public policy analyst here at NDRN. Alden Blevins: I am Alden. I am a communication specialist at NDRN and I am so excited today, like I mentioned, we’re all lovers of music, so we got a guest that I’m really excited about. Lachi is an award-winning recording artist and a recording Academy Grammy’s national trustee. She’s also a disability advocate who’s been breaking barriers in the music industry and beyond. She’s the founder of RAMPD, which by the way, is such a fun play name. I really love that. And the author of the upcoming book, I Identify as Blind. So without further ado, Michelle, you’ve got some questions to kick us off, I think. Michelle Bishop: Yes. We’re so excited to have you with us. As Alden said, we are. We’re huge music lovers. I’m pretty sure we spend most of our meetings where we allegedly plan this podcast just talking about music. So you’re absolutely in the right place today, but to get us started, I mean, you’ve been open about the fact, and I’m just really interested in this as a disability rights podcast. You’ve been really open about the fact that it took you some time to really embrace your identity as a blind and disabled woman, especially in the industry that you’re in that often really rewards conformity. Can you tell us a little bit more about that journey for you, both as an artist and as someone navigating just the world with a disability? Lachi: Okay. Yeah, for sure. Hey, everybody. Lachi here, Lachi like Versace. I am a Black woman with cornrows, chilling here in New York in my studio. I also identify as blind, I identify as neurodivergent, and I identify as an Aries. So do with that what you will. Michelle Bishop: All the important points right there. Lachi: All the important points like name, age, sign. Thank you. Okay. Yeah, but I’m really glad to be here. And thank you for that question, and thank you for having me. So music has always been a very integral part of my life of growing up. Where other babies would kick in the womb, when she was pregnant with me, I was playing the piano in the womb. I don’t know how she got a piano in there, but she’s not a liar, so I’m going to take her word for it. When I was super-duper young, I didn’t really have a lot of friends, especially because of the fact that I had differences and this and that. And so I would take to music to, I guess, understand the world better and have the world understand me better. I just knew how to express myself through song and it just said the things I needed to say. It was the prayer I needed. And because of music, I started to find confidence in how to speak and how to behave and how to act. And as I got older, when I was growing up, disability was not necessarily a thing people talked about a lot in schools and teachers didn’t know what to do. My parents didn’t really know what to do. And so I would always just turn to music. It’s actually right now I’m working on a children’s album because I think that kids need to hear music that has to do with disability and neurodivergence, as well as their parents as they grow up. When I got into college, I started wanting to do music, but I studied business and finance because when I told my parents I wanted to do music, they were like, “That’s not how you spell doctor.” because they are Nigerian immigrants and everybody else in my family went to either med school and blah, blah, blah. And I was like, “No, I want to do music.” But I did get a day job after school, after college, and didn’t love it because this girl is not going to exist behind a desk. So I ended up going to South by Southwest and I got signed actually from playing the guitar at a hole in the wall spot that nobody was at, except for this A&R apparently. So we got signed to an imprint under EMI, which was a major label back then, and we started touring and music then became my life. Now today, why wouldn’t I pay my respects back to music? I mean, it’s because of music that I was able to really lean into who I am, my disability, my confidence, et cetera. So because of that, because of how much music has given to me in my life, I’m here using music to give back to other people with disabilities. Now, your question was essentially, how do you sit here and try to bring about change for disability in an industry that is not only about conformity, but also about like, “Hey, pick me to exploit.” is essentially what the music industry is. You’re raising your hand to be exploited and that’s what kind of authenticity is that? But at the end of the day, music is some of the truest forms of storytelling. And I think to myself, just the way that hip hop has amplified Black culture and the way that country music has amplified rural culture and the way that different global musics have represented different global cultures. I want to use music to amplify disability culture. I want to use music to amplify disability stories and feelings that are difficult to put words to, that are words of the soul, which is essentially what music is. And so I started going to studios and realizing things weren’t as accessible as they should be. I started speaking with organizations and realizing things weren’t as inclusive as they should be. And the response I kept getting was like, “Oh, well, there’s nobody with a disability in the music industry, so why would we make these measures?” And so I have made it my life’s goal through RAMPD, which by the way, the best thing we ever accomplished was our acronym, not us working with the Grammys to get sign language on the red carpet, not us getting these partnerships with title, Live Nation, Spotify. I mean, we’ve done so much, not just for artists, but also for professionals. And we’ve started to realize something really interesting with the work we’ve done with RAMPD. We are getting people joining our membership who are director level folks, who are label owners, who are like the big wigs that write the checks, and they’re like, “I’m neurodivergent. I’m actually hard of hearing. I have a TBI.” And so when I originally set out, they said, “We don’t do disability inclusion because nobody’s disabled.” That was three years ago. Now I’m like, not only are there neurodivergent and disabled music professionals out here, but we all are. So really to conclude, it’s just that everyone is navigating trying to make it out in this world, but everyone’s masking. Everyone feels that they have to change some part of themselves to be as close as they can to what success looks like, be as close as they can to what “beauty” looks like, what winning looks like. But really all it is internalized ableism. And I say, as soon as we drop that internalized ableism and we really start to sit in who we truly are and we start to recognize our perceived flaws as flexes, that’s when we truly start to win. And so that’s what we’re finding out with RAMPD, that people are like, “You know what? I’m tired of navigating this difficult industry with the added layer of having to mask.” And so that’s why I do what I do. Michelle Bishop: Yes. And honestly, as ridiculous as it sounds that they say to you, “Oh, there aren’t any people with disabilities.” When I tell you, we see that in everything that we do. I do voting work at NDRN and we’ll have elections officials tell us, “This polling place isn’t accessible, but there aren’t any people with disabilities that vote here.” And it’s like, “What? You realize we’re everywhere and we do all sorts of things.” Maybe the reason they think there’s no people with disabilities here is because they’re stuck outside and they can’t get in because you didn’t make it accessible, just a thought. But I mean, it sounds like coming up against all that is really, correct me if I’m wrong, helped you to develop that identity and that disability pride in the industry. When did you first say, “I identify as blind.” and what did that mean for you? Lachi: Well, so when I first came into really doing the disability thing, really leaning in, I wanted to find out more influencers or thought leaders and such with disabilities. I didn’t really know that many people. This is pre COVID, 2018, 2019, that kind of thing. And so I came across an influencer, her name is Molly Burke, and we’re great friends now, but I didn’t know her back then. I had just seen her tagline and it had said, “I’m Molly Burke and I’m a YouTuber who happens to be blind.” And for some reason I was like, “I don’t know if I love the happens to be blind thing.” I was like, “Well, I’m proud of being blind. Blindness is part of my identity. I don’t just happen to be a woman. I don’t just happen to be a Nigerian. I don’t just happen to be all of the things I am.” And so I would go to… I was touring… We’re always touring and every time I tour and do a show, I do a comedic open where I just introduce myself, I do a quick self-description, et cetera. And in my self-description, I would say, and I don’t just happen to be blind. My blindness is part of my identity, has given me all of the opportunities I have, and it’s really made me a deeper blah, blah, blah. It was just too long. So I had punched it up to be, “My name is Lachi like Versace. She, her, I’m a Black woman with cornrows and I identify as blind.” And the interesting thing about that is people took onto it. They were like, “Oh, that’s cool, nice and punchy.” But whenever I would say it in front of a large crowd or like I’ve said it on interviews or during commercials, I would get this weird, I don’t know, pushback of like, you can’t identify as blind. Blindness is an identity. It’s a medical condition. Or they’ll be like, “Do you read braille or not?” Or they’ll be like, “We don’t want people to think trans blindness is a thing where you just have a blind identity.” And then you can be like, “Well, I’m blind today, so that’s my identity.” And I thought that was really fun. I was like, “Look, everybody’s upset. They’re talking about blindness though.” So I really leaned all the way into it. And I have to say, I am super proud of my disability identity. Was it music that brought me there? I think in a sense and in a way, like today I have a few songs, you guys are music lovers, I have a few songs out that really talk about my disability pride. I think that a lot of the times as we navigate the world, masking our disability, masking our chronic condition, our difference or whatever, we end up overcompensating. We end up building up this really, really thick problem solving muscle or this really, really thick how to get around things muscle and we overcompensate. When we’re finally accommodated, when we finally get to a place where we’re accommodated or we have the tools we need, we’re coming in like bulk as hell. We’re coming in with problem solving muscles. We’re coming in with all of these things that we had to build up because of navigating the world differently, because of every day working through this very difficult maze that is living a life unaccommodated, then when we finally are accommodated, then we are killing it and crushing it. And how could you not be proud of that? How can that not give you a sense of pride? So the songs that I would love for you guys to check out that are mine is I have a song called Life on Hard, which has gone viral several times on Instagram. I’m known as an Instagram rapper, which is like, what? Hello, I do disability advocacy. Look at that stuff. But anyway, so I have a song called Life on Hard, which is essentially about just winning the game of life, playing it on the hardest setting out here while people are still trying to consult the manual. I have another song called Professional, which is oftentimes when I walk on the stage, people see the cane and they’re like, “Aw, she’s going to do a song for us. Is this from Make a Wish Foundation?” And then I bust out these raps or I hop on the piano and I go ape on this piano and then they’re like, “Oh, snap. What? Okay.” And I’m like, “Bro, I’m a professional artist. I’m not object for pity to make you feel good because you felt weird on a Monday and you didn’t feel like getting up for work, but it’s like, she could do it. So can I.” I’m like, “No, I can do it. You most likely probably just can’t.” So that’s what that song’s about. And then there’s The Bag, and The Bag is just essentially like, I’ve been told no so much like, “No, you can’t. No, you’re not good enough. No, we don’t want you.” And I’m like, “You know what? Yes, I am good enough and I deserve everything. So I’m going to throw everything I deserve in the bag, which is everything.” I don’t know. I would not be the person I am if I didn’t love all parts of myself. And that includes my disabilities, that includes my neurodivergences and all of the other wacky, weird body jazz that I bring with me everywhere I go. Michelle Bishop: Lachi, can we maybe, do you and I just FaceTime each other every morning and hype each other up? Stephanie Flynt McEben: I was literally about to say the same thing. I would like in on a true call. Michelle Bishop: I don’t know if you know. Actually, I want to say quickly, I know some of those songs actually from social media, but they’re real. They’re so real. So people haven’t heard music, go check it out. I don’t know if you know one of our co-hosts, Stephanie is blind. You’re speaking directly to her soul right now. Stephanie Flynt McEben: I literally just texted them in our podcast group text and I was like, she’s totally speaking to my soul RN, but of course I don’t want to interrupt anything. Michelle Bishop: No, I know you’re dying to talk to her about the book, Stephanie, and take it away. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yeah, no, absolutely, for sure. And as somebody who is blind and who also identifies as a blind person and definitely does not identify with the medical model of disability, clearly gotten to more of a social model. But yeah, in terms of going through that journey of accepting all of who you are and everything about yourself, for me, I mean, it took a minute, especially when you’re talking about your experiences as a child and I totally feel that. I was that girl playing the harmonica on the jungle gym by herself. Anyway, this is about you. This is not about me, but I’m just saying that I totally relate to you on a spiritual level. And given that, I would love to know, were there any particular moments when it came to writing the book that were particularly hard or healing? Because I mean, I think that we all know that it’s not always a linear journey. Some days are going to be harder than others. And so would love to get your perspective on that. And I think that our listeners would be interested. Lachi: Yeah, absolutely. The journey for me has been one of constantly unwrapping this amazing gift. I always try to use that as the visual, if you will, of you have this big present and you get to unwrap it and then you just keep getting something cooler inside and then you get to unwrap that and you get something cooler inside and you just keep unwrapping this beautiful gift that is yourself. But you don’t realize that when you first get the box, the amazing stuff that’s going on inside, and it takes time to get to it. So a lot of times growing up, I would kick myself in the butt of, I wish I had come to this when I was so much younger. I wish there were people out there when I was younger, role models that I could look up to when I was eight years old and pointing on the TV and saying like, “Okay, well, I mean, I understand that Ray Charles existed, but that’s not going to…” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Stevie Wonder is here, Ray Charles is here, but we need more of us. Hello. Lachi: We need more of us. Hello. Exactly. And so this time and place where I am right now is where I needed to be for this to work. So I can’t really kick myself in the butt of like, “I wish I had this. I wish I knew this so much earlier. I would’ve been so much further.” That kind of thing. You have to be where you got to be where you need to be. Even right now, this conversation we’re having right now is going to have been necessary for the next thing that is happening in our lives. And just the other day, I was hanging out with Queen Herby, who’s been one of my favorite more modern rappers. I just did a thing with Apl.de.ap. I have done some stuff with Black Caviar. Folks that I’ve looked up to, I’m having the opportunity to Snoop Dogg. I’m having the opportunity to work with these days because of the fact that I am here at the right time now. So when I was writing my book, we were peeling back all the layers. I’m a generally very positive and energetic, social butterfly type of person today. But it’s interesting, I wasn’t always this person and I had to unpack all the layers to get there. One of the biggest things that happens to me, so I’ve always been low vision. So I was born with relatively low vision and it stayed the same throughout my teens and early 20s. But one day I woke up and my sight was just gone. Boom. So the interesting thing is anybody listening would be like, “Oh my God, if I woke up and my sight was gone, I would just die or I would not know what to do. My life would be over.” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yep. Heard that a million times. Yes. Lachi: But for me, it was weird because I was already low vision, so I was going from level one to the underwater level or whatever. So it wasn’t like that life changing of a thing. I was already using screen readers or Zoom text. I was already doing stuff of that nature. So I wake up blind and I’m just like, “Okay, I guess this is it. This is the day that they told me was coming.” What had ended up happening was my corneas had erupted. And so I went to the doctor and he was like, “You’re going to become completely blind. You’re going to go from this much worse vision than you’ve had to complete blindness over the course of time.” So here you go, here’s a coupon. Bye.” or whatever. So I’m like, all right. So I had decided at that moment that I wanted to start a bucket list. So I was like, okay, what are all the things I’ve always wanted to do before completely going completely blind? So I was like, let me go skydiving, let me go spolunking, let me go meet with people, meet with celebrities and just do all of the things I’ve always wanted to do before I lose my vision. So I went out and I did it. This is still me doing it. This is still me doing it. And so I say that because to people who say if I ever went blind, I would just die. Well, when I went blind, it made me want to live. And that’s what opened me up into being this person that I am today. Stephanie Flynt McEben: That is amazing. I genuinely love that. Lachi: We talk about charity model and propping disabled folks up as tools of pity. We talk about medical model, which is really just waiting around for cure, making the cure the hero. We talk about social model, which is a really good place to live in the sense of things are impairing if they’re not accessible. Society is impairing if it’s not inclusive. But honestly, if I have all of the things, like if I have all my tools, if I have all that I need and if folks are inclusive, then I’m still blind, but I’m not impaired. But I like to go a little step further into what is the cultural model. And so the cultural model is it’s not just a discussion of what society should and shouldn’t do. It’s actually a celebration of what you gain as a person who identifies with their disability or their neurodivergence, the things they need to overcompensate because they’re navigating the world a little differently, leaning into that. So let’s say for instance, deaf culture, sign language, and the fact that folks can have complete discussions outside of what we’re talking about, there is so much deaf pride out in these streets, that is a celebration of culture that comes out of disability. And for me, let’s say for instance, I have ADHD and it powers my one million and counting ideas. I have diagnosed OCD, which helps me carry out all those one million and counting ideas. I have diagnosed general anxiety disorder, which gives me my empathy and my excitement. And then I am blind, which when I have the tools I need, it gives me drive. It keeps me determined, it keeps me focused, and it gives me my dope ass glam canes. There was a girl and her mom, and she came up to me after a show and she was like, “Oh my God, your music was great.” I was like, thank you. She’s like, “Mommy, can I get one of those canes?” And then her mom was like, “Ugh, well, you have to be blind.” And I’m like, “Yeah, girl, you better want to be me.” Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yeah. We drive sticks. Anyway, sorry. Lachi: Yes. You know what? I speak softly and I carry a big old stick. Thank you. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yes. Amen to that. Exactly. As somebody who considers themself a lifelong disability advocate, I never really thought about it in the sense of going beyond the social into the cultural. So thank you so, so much. We all learn something new every single day on this podcast, but I’d love to know a little bit more about, obviously you were very, very, very good at talking through these experiences in such a way that they are very relatable and easy to understand and that thing. So I’d love to pick your brain about the intended audience of your book. Who did you write it for? Other blind folks? Did you write it for, was it written for multiple audiences? Lachi: Yeah, honestly, I wrote it for the person who is masking. I wrote it for anyone who is tired of… Listen, let me put it like this. Let’s face it, disability is boring, a lot of the time it’s sad and it’s compliancy. We have to go the extra mile to make it fun because the actual truth of it is that the only reason it’s boring, sad, and compliancy is because society has kept it that way through its collective internalized ableism. And so my book is actually a humor book. It’s a pop culture book. It’s a comedy book. In fact, when we were talking to the publisher, it’s like, we should be putting this up against other comedic books, not necessarily disability books because it’s a book. I got so many jokes. I have dad jokes, they’re corny jokes, I have rap bars. I rap in a lot of the book just because I was like, “Hey, this rhymes.” I’m going to say it like a rap. We’re doing the audiobook right now, so I actually get to wrap it, which is really fun. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Oh, that is so cool. Oh my gosh. Lachi: Which is really, really fun. But really, honestly, what the book is what everything I do is it is using joy, soul, pop culture, jokes, humor, fashion, and just a really good time to celebrate disability, as well as community. So what you’ll find in this book is my story through my story, through historical deep dives, through interviews with some really, really cool popular figures and a really big deep dose of disability joy. And so a lot of folks who have disabilities, they will read this book and they’ll be energized. It’ll be like, “This is really great. I’m glad that I finally get to read a book that talks about disability in a positive way.” For blind specific folks, they might relate to a few of my stories because I talk about the day I woke up blind, I talk about when I went skydiving blind, I talk about just some of my interesting blind moments. But then I also talk about how I would go to red carpets and not know how to talk to anybody. So I’m in this amazing room with all these celebrities I can’t see and I’m just sitting on the wall. So I talk about some of the hard times too as well. But at the end of the day, really what the book is is an invitation in for somebody who feels a little different, a little awkward, has to mask, and just needed that invite in to talk about disability in a fun, joyful, celebratory way, to recognize that yes, that thing in you that’s different, that thing in you that society has told you you should view as a weakness and hide, you should be proud of. And I say this to people all the time. I say it in the industry, I say it to all my friends, I say it to anyone who will listen. I say it to my local barista and they come back and they say things like, “Oh my God, I’m so glad you said it that way. It turns out I have a titanium hip and I’ve never told anybody about that.” And that’s the vibe. The vibe is someone who was like, “I really needed this to be said to me this way, and now I am able to step all the way into my disability identity.” Alden Blevins: I love, especially what you said about joy. I feel like for me as an autistic person, my experience in the arts is that it is really a space where people who maybe don’t belong in other spaces or don’t feel like they belong in other spaces or are made to feel like they don’t belong in other spaces. I think that a lot of them really do find a safe space in music, in the arts, in theater. And I just wanted to ask, why do you think the music space is such a special one for you and why do you think it’s a place where other people with disabilities seem to flock together as well? Lachi: I mean, you hit the nail on the head. Counterculture, I mean, music often rewards counterculture. And then it eventually becomes mainstream and then we got to rebel against that. So music is a place where your soul can speak. And I think a lot of the times with disabilities, especially autism for me, I’m ADHD, OCD, a different neurodivergence situation, but a lot of the issue is communication. We don’t know how to say exactly what we need or whoever we’re talking to just doesn’t know how to hear what we’re saying. And so I think that what music does is it allows a soul to speak to a soul. A lot of the times music does this thing where you’ll be listening to a song and you’ll just be like, “That, that right there. That’s what I it me. That’s the thing I’m feeling.” type deal. Music has the ability to do that. And so for me, right now, this children’s album that I’m working on, the kids’ album, which is an album that is essentially R&B, pop, electronic, sort of the genres that I dance in for kids centered on disability and neurodivergence. Because what I want to do is be able to say, “Hey, I want you to point at that and say, that’s me.” And I think the easiest and quickest way to point at something and say, “That’s me also.” has been music. And so it’s why it’s been my strongest medium. Again, it’s not my only medium. I’m talking to folks through the book, I’m talking to folks through fashion, et cetera, et cetera. But again, music has been just the quickest, easiest point A to point B conversation easer, if you will, about disability. Another thing I also love to use is humor and comedy. So I make jokes all the time. They’re all bad. They’re all very not good jokes. I need to probably get a joke writer, but the fact that I’m having such a good time telling the jokes, I think I think is all that really matters. So I think both music and humor are just really, really great spaces for two people to get to relate to something that may be difficult to talk about. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Yo, if you need a joke writer, I’m your girl. I actually do a joke every single episode of this podcast. Michelle Bishop: Her jokes are not better than yours, Lachi. Don’t hire her. Stephanie Flynt McEben: My jokes are pretty bad. They’re worse than dad’s jokes. They’re like granddad jokes. Alden Blevins: Yeah. Stephanie is the queen of the jokes on our podcast. She always brings one through. Didn’t know that you were working on a children’s music album, and I think that’s really interesting. I actually used to be a teacher, so children’s music is something that’s near and dear to my heart. So I just wanted to ask, what would you want to tell to younger people with disabilities, younger disabled creatives about claiming space and being able to tell their own stories? Lachi: Well, one thing that I heard from someone else, I don’t remember who it was. I think it was- Michelle Bishop: Jordan? Lachi: Yes, Jordan. He’s the one that said this. Michelle Bishop: I love him. Lachi: Yeah, he’s so funny. I met him at a… What did I meet him at? The Webby Awards or something. But anyway, no one can ever defeat someone who hasn’t given up. And for some reason that hit me, and I don’t even think he was trying to say it that deep. He was just saying a joke or something. But I took that and it was like, no one can ever defeat someone who hasn’t given up. So at the end of the day, you are really the only one who can end whatever you’re trying to get. Because as long as you are still going for it, it is still still there. It’s like a Schrodinger’s cat. It’s like as long as you’re still running for it, that opportunity is still there for you to have. The opportunity is never lost as long as you’re still going for it. And people can tell you, people can take your shoulders and tell you to go right. People can take your shoulders and tell you to go left. But until you take your own shoulders and go in the direction that your heart, your soul, your passion, your fire, desires, that is when you truly begin to live. And so I say personally, lean into that. I hear from a lot of younger, especially creators with disabilities. I mentor a lot of folks, tons and tons of folks. It’s one of the things I love to do the most. But what I love to tell folks is you are going to be the best you. And that you is going to include all of the different parts of who you are, but it is especially going to include you leaning in to the things that make you different and unique as unique selling points. Earlier I talked about how people try so hard to be the “definition of beauty”, definition of success, definition of whatever. Everyone’s trying to be this reference man. Everyone’s trying to be as close as they can to the reference man. And if I’m as close as I can to the reference man, then I’ll be successful or then I’ll get this job or then I’ll get this gig. But the truth of the matter is when we look at all of the people that are doing all of the big things, they’re “eccentric”. They’re “weird”. They did some big different idea that no one was thinking about and everybody fell into their trend. The further away you are from the reference man, that is when you start to win. That is when you’ll start to see success. That is when you’ll start to feel much better about yourself. That is when you can wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and say, “I am fine.” When you are able to accept all of those different freckles of yourself that are as far away from the reference man as possible, because guess what? There is room outside of the barrel for everyone to win if they are all being their unique self and running their unique purpose. That’s what I would tell to young disabled creators. Michelle Bishop: That’s amazing. Almost feel like we should stop there, but I have so many follow-up questions. Lachi: Listen, I’m here to drop as many mics as they will let me keep breaking. Michelle Bishop: I was wondering how you see the conversation around disability and inclusion and evolving these days. And a lot of our listeners are people with disabilities or people who have other even multiple intersecting identities in which they experience barriers as well. What does allyship look like to you? Lachi: This is one of my favorite questions. So yes, we have folks with disabilities and we have folks who want to work with people with disabilities, want to help a friend with a disability, want to make sure they don’t say the wrong thing to a person with a disability, neurodivergence, chronic condition, mental health condition. That’s not an ally. Wanting to help a person with a disability is not an ally. To me, wanting to support someone with a disability, that’s an ally in the very basic definition of allyship. Here’s what I think an ally is. To answer the question, I got to do two things. One, talk about the disability umbrella. So the disability umbrella encompasses so many forms of disability. It is neurodivergence, which is ADHD, dyslexia, OCD. It is mental health conditions like anxiety, depression, bipolar. It is someone who learns a little differently. It is someone who has explosive situations like anger management. It is someone who has substance abuse disorder, maybe somebody who drinks too much or uses different substances. It is chronic back pain. You know what I’m saying? It is asthma. It is EDS. It’s POTS. It is long COVID. It is different complications that you gain after pregnancy. It is different complications that you gain as you age. It is different complications you gain through menopause. It is temporary. It is breaking your arm and wearing a cast. It is seasonal depression. There is nobody on this earth that is not within the disability umbrella. And I don’t mean that you’re going to grow into it. I don’t mean in the future. I mean right now. Whether you identify as a person with a disability or not, you have disability identity because you have experience in your body disability. And when you figure that out, then you’re an ally. Allyship is seeing yourself through the other person because you can’t look through someone else’s eyes unless you can see yourself in them. And you can’t see yourself in disability until you recognize the disability identity within yourself. All of a sudden, and I say this and people are like, “What? I say this, but I’ve seen this. I’ve seen it happen. I’ve seen people who did not associate themselves with any form of disability or anything and they’re just like, Oh, them. Oh, I’ll help them. We have a conversation and then we have a follow-up conversation and then we’re drinking and then all of a sudden they’re telling me all their disabilities and then they’re walking a little different when they encounter disability. It’s no longer a them thing. And so that’s what an ally is. People with disabilities are also allies. I am an ally to the deaf community because I recognize though I’m not deaf, I see the having to navigate the world differently in you of myself. So that’s how I define an ally. An ally is someone who understands their own disability identity and can see it in others. Michelle Bishop: Don’t mind me over here just taking notes. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Literally. Oh my gosh. Lachi, thank you so, so, so much for being with us and taking time. I know that your website, lachimusic.com is one of the places where folks can stay up to date on all of the latest and greatest things that you’re up to. Is there anything else in particular you would like to plug for our listeners? Lachi: Like you said, LACHI, L-A-C-H-I M-U-S-I-C. I’m on the internets everywhere. Instagram, Spotify, check out the old music. If you’re a creator, a music creator or professional with a disability, check us out at RAMPD, R-A-M-P-D.org. Or if you want to donate or if you want to partner with us over at RAMPD, please do. If you are a cane user, whether you’re a blind cane user or you use Mobility Cane, check out glamcanes.com, get your canes bejeweled. I Identify as Blind, our book is out on Penguin Random House, imprint called Tiny Reparations by Phoebe Robinson, who is also a comedian. So we’re out here all writing very funny books. So please check it out. And lastly, listen, try to find moments in your day of disability joy. And when you find that moment, take a picture of it or write it down so that you can go back to it and live for those moments. So thank you guys so much for having me on this podcast. It’s really been a blast getting to talk at you about all things I identify as blind. Alden Blevins: I love it. I was over here taking notes too because I just found so much of myself in what you were saying and so many things were poignant and empowering. I, as an autistic person, try to be an ally to other parts of the disability community myself. And that’s something where I’m always trying to put myself in the shoes of another person and what they might experience. So I think that’s really powerful. We were so grateful to be able to connect and learn more about you, Lachi. Lachi: Yes, yes, yes. So honored to be here, guys. Michelle Bishop: Before you head out, Lachi, do you want to hear one of Stephanie’s grandpa jokes? Lachi: I was going to say, I was like, “Let’s hear one of these granddad jokes.” Let me see. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Okay. This might be- Michelle Bishop: Okay, do it. Stephanie Flynt McEben: … a granddad joke. Okay. Where do spiders like to get their information? Lachi: The web? Michelle Bishop: That would be something to do with web. Stephanie Flynt McEben: But what kind of web? Lachi: Wow. Really? You are fired from being my comedy writer. You are fired to be my comedy writer. I was rooting for you too. I was like, let’s just… Please. Stephanie Flynt McEben: I wouldn’t even get to the punchline yet. Michelle Bishop: Worldwide web? Stephanie Flynt McEben: It is the worldwide web. Michelle Bishop: Oh. Stephanie Flynt McEben: It’s fine. It’s fine. My wife warned me not to tell that joke this month and I didn’t lose it. Michelle Bishop: Oh my gosh. I’m so glad you stuck around for that part. Lachi: As I live and breathe. Thank you guys so, so much. This has been so much fun and I will see who else I can tell that joke to. And go ahead and just to help you out, Stephanie, I’ll go ahead and embarrass myself by telling that joke to others. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Not my best work, but that is allyship. Yes. Michelle Bishop: Oh my gosh, Lachi, thank you so much. And everyone, please lachimusic.com. Check it out. Listen to the music, read the book. Alden Blevins: Speaking of the worldwide web, this has been National Disability Radio. We celebrate stories, leadership, and talent of people with disabilities. If you enjoyed this episode, be sure to subscribe, share, and continue the conversation with us on that worldwide web at ndrn.org or anywhere you get your favorite podcasts. Thanks for listening and until next time. Stephanie Flynt McEben: Bye.

Wow! This was an incredible interview with my father. A lot more was covered in this talk: we took a dive into the old days when we had a coconut farm and drank a never-ending amount of fresh coconut water from the best tasting coconuts around, and how we sweated up a storm in 100-degree heat while harvesting thousands of coconuts. This is just a fraction of what we covered in this powerful, inspiring conversation. Dad and I talked about his animal friends and one in particular that he protected and saved so that it could survive. We even delved into his home life and his critters that mean the world to him. Get ready for this episode—an inspiring window into my personal life and, of course, my dad's… In this episode… Hear about some of AW's past with his family and his history, and how he would receive information from Spirit for animals that were in need of help. Learn about all the different animals that surround AW's father and why it all happened to be. Find out about the bird that was suffering and had no support, until he crossed paths with AW's mom and dad. Discover a majestic world that surrounded the coconut trees and how the coconut farm was teaming with wildlife. Learn what happened to the wild bird that AW's dad had named ‘Broken Wing' and how Broken Wing disappeared and why. See how AW's dad's cats got along with the squirrels and the crows, and how they all became friends. Learn what kind of coconuts were on their coconut farm and how to open a coconut a special way. Find out about how people did not like coconut water back then and they only used coconut milk in the culinary world. Discover how these specific young coconuts on the coconut farm are filled with an abundance of water and have a jelly inside that is delicious. See how many different fruit trees are growing around AW's father's house and how it's a magical, sacred place for animal life. All this and more, tune in and don't miss out on this important episode. You can revisit this episode anytime you need it. For more information visit www.medicalmedium.com

Aw heck yeah, nerds! Welcome to episode 219 of Up Yours with More, the official podcast of Up Up and Away Comics in Cincinnati, OH!This episode, MODOK and BC preview what comics, graphic novels, manga, and collectibles will be on sale in the month of May (and beyond)!Find Us Online at the Following Outlets Website :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠upupandawaycomics.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ YouTube :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠youtube.com/@upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook ::  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/upupawa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠y and ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠facebook.com/uuablueash⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Instagram :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠instagram.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter :: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠twitter.com/upupawaycomics⁠⁠

In this edition of AW, GEIST… THIS TREND SMELLS LIKE ZEIT, Miles and special guest co-host Mort Burke discuss Florida trying to make George Floyd/Charlie Kirk Day & Snowflake Brigade happen, Alligator Alcatraz hitting a bit of a speed bump, the Clintons testifying about the Epstein Files, Metallica @ the Sphere, the release of 'Scream 7', Burger Kings new AI BS and much more!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

EPISODE 347 - We go over the first half of the Hellboy short story collection THE CHAINED COFFIN AND OTHER STORIES.  Specifically we discuss: The Corpse The Iron Shoes Baby Yaga A Christmas Underground The Chained Coffin Joining us are the hosts of "Aw, Crap: A Hellboy Podcast" - Mark David Christenson and Kait Thompson! ------------------- Don't forget to participate in the Official Screwit Instapush #screwitinstapush! ENDS MARCH 1 Subscribe to support the show and for bonus episodes at screwitpodcasts.com Email us at screwitcomics@gmail.com (REPOSTED - originally I posted this at double speed, pretty cool)

A wild week in news as Xbox honcho Phil Spencer retires and is set to be replaced by someone from one of Microsoft's AI divisions. What does this mean for the future of Xbox? Also: Sony shutters Bluepoint Games, Evo expands, and my son got way into Knack? Aw man. Use code 50jeff to get $50 off plus free shipping on your first order at goodchop.com/podcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

[AUTOPROMOCJA] Pełnej wersji podcastu posłuchasz w aplikacji Onet Audio.   Cztery lata po rozpoczęciu pełnoskalowej inwazji Rosji na Ukrainę świat znów stoi na krawędzi kolejnych kryzysów. Rosyjskie naloty są bardziej brutalne niż kiedykolwiek, Iran i USA balansują na granicy wojny, a Bliski Wschód płonie od sprzecznych interesów i religijnych obsesji, także tych, które wpływają na decyzje amerykańskich dyplomatów. W tle geopolitycznego chaosu wybrzmiewają pytania o bezpieczeństwo Polski: o rolę Białorusi w rosyjskich planach, o słabości Zachodu oraz o to, jak wygląda prawdziwa siła naszych sojuszy, gdy świat wraca do języka siły i zastraszania. W tym świecie podwyższonych napięć głos Tomasza Awłasewicza brzmi jak zimny prysznic. Autor „Łowców Szpiegów", znawca archiwów kontrwywiadu PRL, przypomina, że zagrożenie nie zawsze przychodzi z frontu, często wchodzi drzwiami bocznymi, podając się za dziennikarza, eksperta, znajomego znajomego. Awłasewicz opowiada, dlaczego ludzie zdradzają, jak służby werbują „od wdzięczności po ego", jak działają "nielegałowie", dlaczego część agentów można przeoczyć, a innych rozpoznać po drobnych sygnałach. I ostrzega: Polska już żyje w czasach „szpiegomanii", ale jednocześnie wciąż nie docenia najgroźniejszych metod rosyjskich, białoruskich i chińskich służb. To opowieść o świecie, w którym fronty wojny i fronty wywiadów splatają się bardziej niż kiedykolwiek, a o bezpieczeństwie państw często decydują nie czołgi, lecz ludzie, którzy potrafią udawać, że nie istnieją.

There was so much covered in this interview with my father. We talked about saving baby turtles that were lost, a baby alligator that was in our pond, and more. Dad is a hard worker and it's the season he works on his mulberry trees. We covered that and some powerful, inspirational information about mulberry trees. We also took a dive into my childhood and talked about the gift I was given to help others heal. We discussed my old office from decades ago, and reminisced on when I was a child helping others in a grocery store while my parents were trying to shop for food. One of my favorite parts of this interview is us talking about when I would disappear into the woods for long durations, foraging for wild food that Spirit would direct me to. I do hope you enjoy this special talk we had the other day, and many blessings. In this episode… Learn what AW's dad drinks every day, all day long. Find out what happened to AW when he was in the woods foraging for wild foods as a child. Discover how AW's dad can grow mulberry trees by the hundreds. See how AW's father would save turtles when he was younger. Find out what AW's dad said about the Medical Medium's office from decades ago, and what was in his office. Learn about the Medical Medium's childhood and listen to his dad's experience when AW would walk up to adults while his mom and dad were shopping for food. Discover what happened when AW called his father about a surprise in their little pond. All this and more, tune in and don't miss out on this important episode. You can revisit this episode anytime you need it. For more information visit www.medicalmedium.com

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On Episode 333 of The AwardsWatch Podcast, Associate Editor Sophia Ciminello is joined by Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson, Executive Editor Ryan McQuade and AW contributors Josh Parham and Dan Bayer out on the wily, windy moors to discuss Emerald Fennell's third feature, "Wuthering Heights," starring Margot Robbie, Jacob Elordi, Alison Oliver, Shazad Latif, and Hong Chau. The adaptation of Emily Brontë's groundbreaking 1847 Gothic novel has already caused quite the stir, but is this an adaptation that they cannot live without or one that drives them mad? The team discusses Fennell's vision, their favorite performances, the changes made from book to screen, the movie's eroticism, and more. Then, the gang previews the 79th British Academy Film Awards (BAFTA) taking place next Saturday, February 22. Will it be one award after another for our nomination leader, One Battle After Another? How will the Brits respond to Chloé Zhao's spin on Shakespeare? We break it all down.     You can listen to The AwardsWatch Podcast wherever you stream podcasts, from Apple Podcasts, iHeartRadio, Soundcloud, Stitcher, Spotify, Audible, Amazon Music, and more. You can also listen to it on our AwardsWatch YouTube page. This podcast is 1h55m. We will be back next week with a recap of the BAFTA winners. Till then, let's get into it. Music: "Modern Fashion" from AShamaleuvmusic (intro), "B-3" from BoxCat Games Nameless: The Hackers RPG Soundtrack (outro).

On episode 332 of The AwardsWatch Podcast, Executive Editor Ryan McQuade is joined by AwardsWatch Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson and AwardsWatch contributors Dan Bayer, Jay Ledbetter, and Josh Parham to go back 25 years and take a look at the 74th Academy Awards, covering the films of 2001. On this retrospective, the AW team starts the year off with a look back at a solid year of film in 2001, that brought together some of the most memorable films of the last 25 years. But the winner for Best Picture is not one held in high regard, as A Beautiful Mind took home the top prize, a make-up win for director Ron Howard after losing for Apollo 13. While the film hasn't aged well as a winner, and even as a film, the year has with spectacular films that are mentioned throughout the show like In the Mood for Love, Mulholland Drive, Gosford Park, Memento, Ghost World, The Royal Tenenbaums, In the Bedroom, Hedwig and the Angry Itch, The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, and more.  In their in-depth discussion, the AW team talked about the film year of 2001, briefly discuss talk about A Beautiful Mind as a Best Picture winner, and how that speaks to the legacy of their nominates and or wins, do an extensive conversation over the below the line categories and nominees for the year, and then the new version of the AW Shoulda Woulda Coulda game, where instead of individual replacements, they must decide as a group who the nominees and winners should be in the top eight categories. The rules of the game state they can only replace two of the nominees that year from each category, except in Best Picture, where the group could replace up to three films to make up the final set of five nominated films. Like past retrospective episodes, it was a fascinating, fun conversation including spirited debates, alliances, vote swinging, celebrating various movies, performances that aren't normally talked about and more that we all hope you enjoy. You can listen to The AwardsWatch Podcast wherever you stream podcasts, from iTunes, iHeartRadio, Soundcloud, Stitcher, Spotify, Audible, Amazon Music and more. You can also listen to it on our AwardsWatch YouTube page. This podcast runs 2h06m. We will be back in next week for a review of the latest film from director Emerald Fennell, Wuthering Heights. Till then, let's get into it. Music: "Modern Fashion" from AShamaleuvmusic (intro), "B-3" from BoxCat Games Nameless: The Hackers RPG Soundtrack (outro).

The Deep Theology of Sexual Unity (With Some Fun!): Interview with Randy and Rozanne Frazee You're not just trying to survive another week. You're not just trying to get the kids fed, keep the peace, and hold your marriage together with duct tape and prayers. You're living inside a bigger story—whether you realize it or not. When you start seeing your marriage through God's storyline instead of just your stress and circumstances, something shifts. Not overnight. Not magically. But deeply. Steadily. For real. And that's exactly what Randy and Rozanne Frazee unpacked in today's episode. In this episode, you're getting a conversation that is both wildly profound and surprisingly fun. Because yes—you can talk about theology, the Trinity, the image of God, and sexual unity… and still laugh. And that's exactly what happens when you sit down with Randy and Rozanne. They've spent decades helping believers understand the Bible not as scattered verses—but as one cohesive story of God's love and pursuit. Randy has been a pastor for 38 years and had a personal mentoring relationship with Dallas Willard—so much so that Dallas asked him to rewrite Renovation of the Heart for students. And Randy and Rozanne are not just brilliant—they're the real deal. High school sweethearts, married 44 years (going on 45), four kids, and now five grandbabies in the mix. What makes this episode so special is this: They don't just talk about the Bible. They talk about how the Bible transforms marriage, unity, and yes… even your sex life. You Keep Reading the Bible Like a Reference Book… But It's Actually a Love Story You've probably been taught to read the Bible in pieces: a Proverb for wisdom a Psalm for comfort a verse for anxiety a passage when your marriage is hard And those are good. But if you only ever grab the Bible for a quick fix, you can miss the whole point: it's one grand love story—from Genesis to Revelation—about the lengths God will go to get you back. When you start seeing Scripture as one unfolding narrative, you stop reading it like a scattered collection of morals… and you start hearing it like a steady message: God is pursuing you. God is restoring you. God is rewriting what sin tried to destroy. And yes—this includes your marriage. You're Not Just Living a Life… You're Living a Story You live in what Randy and Rozanne call the "lower story": Lunches. Laundry. Bills. Hormones. Conversations you're avoiding. Tension you can't name. The ache of feeling alone, even though you're married. And it's real. But there's also an "upper story" happening at the same time: God's bigger plan, God's spiritual reality, God's redemptive work that you can't always see while you're in the middle of the mess. You see it clearly in Scripture: Job experiences devastating loss in his lower story… while an unseen spiritual battle is happening in the upper story. Joseph is betrayed, enslaved, and forgotten in his lower story… but God is positioning him in the upper story to preserve His people. That's why Joseph can say, "What you meant for evil, God meant for good." It doesn't mean the lower story didn't hurt. It means the pain wasn't the point. So ask yourself: What if the hard thing you're living through right now isn't proof you're failing… but proof God is working? God Created Marriage to Reflect His Image—and Sin Has Been Trying to Ruin It Ever Since You've heard the phrase "two become one." But you might not realize how sacred that actually is. Marriage wasn't just meant to be companionship. It was meant to reflect something divine: unity, love, covenant, oneness. In the beginning, God says, "It is not good for man to be alone." And you can read that like, "Aw, God wanted Adam to have a friend." But it's deeper. God Himself is relationship—Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Not isolated. Not independent. Not self-focused. Unity. So when God creates marriage, He's not just giving Adam a partner. He's giving humanity a living picture of His image. And that's why the enemy attacks it so relentlessly. Because if your marriage reflects God's love, covenant, and unity… it becomes a threat to darkness. You Can Know Scripture… and Still Not Live It One of the most powerful themes Randy and Rozanne address is something you've probably seen too: You've met people who know the Bible. They can quote verses. They can correct theology. They can debate Greek words. And yet… They aren't gentle. They aren't kind. They aren't tender. And you're left thinking: How can someone love God's Word and still not look like Jesus? Randy explains this through something he learned from Dallas. He describes the difference between: believing something is the "right answer" versus believing it as a "way of life" And this matters for your marriage, because it's the difference between: knowing what love is supposed to look like and actually becoming the kind of person who naturally loves well The "12-Inch Journey" That Changes Everything Randy talks about the journey from: Head knowledge → Heart transformation And he explains it in a way that lands: When Jesus says, "Turn the other cheek," He isn't just commanding you to grit your teeth and try harder. He's describing what becomes natural when your heart has been reshaped. And that is what every marriage needs. Not just more information, but more transformation. Sexual Unity Isn't Just Physical… It's Theological If you've ever wondered why marriage feels so sacred—and so fiercely contested—this is why. Lean in, because this is where things get breathtaking. Randy explains the concept that: God is three Persons (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) who share one Being And marriage—two becoming one—is meant to reflect that kind of unity. Not perfectly. Not as God. But as an earthly image. And Rozanne brings it back to the practical: Sexual intimacy bonds you in a way nothing else does. It is not "just physical." It is a sacred expression of covenant oneness. And when you treat your spouse like an "other" instead of part of your own being… You start wounding your marriage from the inside. You Don't Need Your Husband to Be a Seminary Graduate to Be a Spiritual Leader If you're a wife reading this, you may be carrying a burden you were never meant to carry: "I'm the one who prays." "I'm the one who gets us to church." "I'm the one trying to get him to lead." "I'm exhausted." And if you're a husband reading this, you may feel stuck too: "She knows more than I do." "I don't even know where to start." "I work hard, but I still feel like I'm failing." Here's something freeing: Spiritual leadership isn't about being the most impressive. It's about being the one who initiates. The leader is the starter. The one who creates space where spiritual thriving can happen. That might look like: "Hey, let's read something together for 15 minutes." "Let's pray before dinner." "We're going to church as a family." "I want God in our home, and I want to learn." That's leadership. And yes—your wife might know more Scripture right now. But what she's been longing for isn't your performance. It's your presence. Your courage. Your initiation. If You Want Him to Rise, Stop Coaching His Weakness and Start Naming His Strength This is where it gets tender. Because if you're honest, you've probably tried to motivate him with disappointment. You've tried to push him into leadership by pointing out everything he's not doing. You want to feel safe. You want to feel supported. You want to be led. But here's something you need to understand about men: Men move toward competency, not incompetency. If you highlight his failure, he retreats. If you honor his effort, he leans in. So if he makes even a small move—don't critique it. Celebrate it. If he picks up a Bible, don't correct how he reads it. If he prays, don't edit his words afterward. If he initiates church, don't mention that it's "about time." Instead, try this: "Thank you. That meant a lot." "I feel cared for when you do that." "I'm grateful you're leading our family." This isn't fake flattery. It's faith. It's calling out the man you want him to become—while giving him a reason to keep going. Your Intimacy Will Not Heal If You Keep Avoiding the Scariest Conversations One of the enemy's favorite strategies is fear—specifically fear that keeps you from talking honestly about intimacy. You live with this person. You share a bed. You share a home. So why does it feel terrifying to say what you want? What you need? What hurts? What you're longing for? Because intimacy is powerful. And the enemy knows if he can keep you silent, he can keep you disconnected. But if you can learn to speak with tenderness, honesty, and safety… You can rebuild something beautiful. And here's the truth: Sex isn't dirty. It's sacred. It's a physical expression of covenant oneness. And when joy rises in your relationship, romance often rises too. Not because you force it. But because safety creates desire. And desire grows where connection is nurtured. You Don't Need Two Hours a Day. You Need One Small Step of Obedience. You might be thinking, "Okay… but I'm tired. Our life is chaotic. Where do we even begin?" Begin small. Set a timer. Fifteen minutes. That's it. Obedience comes before blessing. And when you take one small step toward God together, it does something inside you. It starts moving belief from your head to your heart—where real transformation happens. Little by little, fruit grows. And fruit isn't for the tree. Fruit is for the person who tastes it. Which means: your spiritual growth is meant to bless your spouse. Your Next Step: See the Bible as One Story (Not a Scavenger Hunt) Randy and Rozanne recently released a book called Encountering God's Love: From Genesis to Revelation. And their heart behind it is simple: Most believers don't struggle because they don't love God. They struggle because they don't understand the storyline. They know verses… but not the narrative. So this book is designed as 52 weeks of bite-sized pieces, walking you through Scripture chronologically, helping you see: God's story your story and how your marriage fits into redemption And yes—this is something you can do as a couple. Even if you're exhausted. Even if you're busy. Even if you feel behind. Final Encouragement Your marriage isn't just a relationship you manage. It's a covenant you steward. And if you've been living like the lower story is all there is—God is inviting you to look up. He's writing something. Even here. Even now. Even in your marriage. So take a breath. Ask Him what He's doing in the upper story. And take the next step. Because your story isn't over. And God is very, very good at bringing dead things back to life. Including you. Including your spouse. Including your intimacy. Including your marriage. Blessings, The Delight Your Marriage Team PS - Want to check out Encountering God's Love for yourself? Click here to visit Randy's website and learn more. PPS - Are you ready to take the next step in transforming your marriage? We would love to chat with you. Book a free Clarity Call to speak with one of our Clarity Advisors and see if we are the right fit for you. PPPS - Here is a quote from a recent graduate: "The atmosphere in our home was very toxic with lots of hollering and hurtful things said. There was no fun or joy. We were just existing.  This affected my thought life as I was very disappointed in myself and felt like I was a hypocrite as I am a leader in our local church and lots of people look up to me.  I felt like God was even disappointed in me.  I felt shame for not being a good wife...[Now,] I have become more aware of my actions and reactions to my husband, and realized I have the power, with God's help, to make our marriage good and to love my husband well.  The tools I have learned in DW will forever be in and on my mind as I focus on becoming the wife God desires me to be.  I have learned that sex is good and holy and also meant to be pleasurable for me!  The atmosphere in our home is changing and playfulness is back!"

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Me So Phony. Age Appropriate Creepiness. Ussy Galore. Is There a Band Called The Band Because I Like Really Wanted to Know. My Man Thing Smells. We Dropped A Lot of Tools. Appropriately aged crush. Enshitificating Aura Farming for Rage Baiting. The Last Christoph Waltz. Swamp Thing Smells Like Flowers. 52 Socket Pick Up. That's not how caviar works. Aw, the Bigaboop! Goats are Dicks, and This Proves It. Only room for one Danica with Dan. and more on this episode of The Morning Stream. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.