Breaking Autopilot's Podcast

Well, how did Ebb and Flow work out in 2019? What happened to my zen balance when thwarted with breast cancer again, returning to work full-time, and loosening self care. Did I have a nervous breakdown? Did I chuck it all and go on a retreat? How do I feel at the end of this Ebb & Flow season? .. spoiler.. I'm doing great, but it wasn't easy and I didn't do it alone!

It's time to close this podcast, where I shared my thoughts and cycles to break my own autopilot and live intentionally. It's time to ebb and flow in what is somewhat a full circle. May you be encouraged that you are more than you see on the surface, that you are enough in your choices, and that perspective and attitude can change your life. Enjoy this crazy beautiful life! Follow H3Grace on instagram for further encouragement and engagement. Fly!

I feel so happy I could laugh and float to the ceiling like in "Mary Poppins movie". I can move from my heart and not understand why that seed is planted, but just follow it. It's okay however it turns out and I worry less about what others think. It's all coming together and I didn't plan the details and that's what crazy. I set intentions and showed up to put myself out there but I had no idea how good these plans laid out for me were going to be. I get this day, this life! 

What did I do and learn in 2018 with a year away from full-time work and living intentionally? My year sabbatical studying yoga, mindfulness, and meditation helped me become more grateful and  compassionate towards myself and others. It was a time in this Western society to release my urge to overachieve so that I could be ENOUGH. I've shifted and am ready to balance my prior business world with new perspectives. A wonderful 2019 is in store!

Online dating! The hype, the drama, the it is what it is.... Finding a steady match was lucky for me at first.... then it ended and I have been in fast paced online dating world for the last six months... it is what is is and not as personal as you think... or is it??

Upon popular request, I hope you enjoy this guided meditation as you offered the opportunity to honor and rest your body. As your body travels into deeper states of consciousness, it can rest and repair itself. Your mind may become lighter and it may feel as if you are awakened from a lengthier rest period or you may choose to go onto sleep. Whichever your choice as you leave the meditation, may you be healthy and strong; may you be at peace and feel this offering of compassion. Fly.

Have you ever recognized a shift in your life? A shift in your path? A shift in your perception? This past few weeks beginning a regular practice of mindfulness and communicating with trusted confidantes became one of the greatest gifts to myself. I learned how to use body scans noticing the feelings, look at my perceptions and meanings deeper to my NOW. And even how my business/busyness was no longer getting in other peoples business. Can I be in the NOW and TRUST/FLOW?

(17min)  It's time to Listen to the voices that serve me and not hold me back in fear. It's time to practice what I've learned and what I share with others. What do I feel in my body? How can I open myself to what brings me closer to peace, love, comfort, warmth?  Finally, I learn to trust this moment and be more than enough. (pssst...It's alway been there inside me... just needed to be still and listen and accept.) #h3grace

Let me share with you my blessings and reflection from my 200 hour yoga teacher training. You'll hear the snippets of my self-discovery and how yoga found it's place within my lifestyle. Yoga strengthens my Christian values and compassion for self and others.  For those listening since my Wonder and Why Not podcasts began, I hope you can hear a difference. Thank you for your support in my journey. May the light within me honor the light within you. Namaste.

As we begin to SEE ourselves, we may have emotions and feelings in our bodies that arise. What is happening? Is this more comfortable or actually less comfortable than being on autopilot and not seeing myself? What is this stuff? Why is the past coming back? How do I see myself today and what can I do to see myself with hope for a future? A future that I am intentionally living and recognizing my choices.

Do you really see yourself? Have you really given thought to who you are within? Do you honor yourself, showing yourself grace, love and acceptance? If you do, great! Keep doing you and sharing your light. If not, join me by opening our eyes beyond the physical. Listen to ways we can see ourselves and become more aware of the wonderful person in each of us. You are a masterpiece! It's time for you to see your beauty and accept yourself.

Do you sometimes wonder, "What is this not so me feeling I have?". I should be feel joy but I don't... YOU are YOU every day and every day we are made up of impressions from our experiences. Sometimes we experience them and sometimes we let them manifest into illnesses in our body or affect our moods so greatly that we just want to change everything or helpless to change nothing. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and a masterpiece in process to be loved by you.

In December 2016, I set out to live intentionally. I could not have imagined my life as it is in December 2017. I still have to ask myself out loud... is this my life? Where is my conservative nature.. where is my security blanket.. what will my life look like in 2018? Best thing about surrendering is being real and authentic and saying it out loud, breathing deep, and knowing that truly one set of footprints is all that we sometimes see. (Being spiritually carried by another)

Well approximately 6 months after starting my online experience, I am happy to say that I am happily matched for now 4 months and going. I've learned more about what I want and not to settle and found someone that brings more to my life and is truly caring. If you've been discouraged with dating, look at it as learning experiences and take a break now and then until you are ready to be found. Step out and enjoy! (or call a life-line and have someone get you out of the date sooner lol)

I have a right to feel! Life has a way of showing up with disappointments and we can suppress those feelings they stir or we can allow ourselves to acknowledge those feelings and use them as indicators of emotions but not dictators of actions. We can choose our next actions based on understanding that we have a right to feel those emotions of denial, anger, realizing suppression is easier.  When we do sit with the uncomfortable feeling, we can make conscious choice to see blessing and opportunity.

Allowing myself to make decisions best for me... adults don't expect it! If you can picture a high cliff in a tropical setting and a young woman jumping with a large smile and the word TRUST written in cloud script catching me and letting me enjoy the fall. Listen to my thought process of excitement and joy to retreat and guilt. It is time for me to live more heart centered, more family focused in the small daily things... it's time for me to leave at the height of my career and retire. My final decision...."It is well".  Do you have a decision to make?  Sit with it in quiet and pray about, listen to you and not the noise from all those that want to influence you.. sometimes your best interest and sometimes not... YOU decide! 

Recently, I completed a two-day yoga training titled introspection and introduced the chakra energy system to us. . The chakras are areas of the body that take in energy from outside, process that energy internally, and express it back out again. In this way, the chakras are centers of organization for the receptions, assimilation, and expression of life force energy.  Listen as I follow the guided meditation and sort through my very own root chakra. (descriptions from Chakra Balancing by Anodea Judith)

On a recent Girl Scout camping trip, our Junior troop girls shared what they enjoyed about their trip and girl scout experiences. Listen to the sincerity and pure joy of these young leaders. #privilegedtroopleader

How can time go by so fast? Where is my energy going? Am I being intentional? Why are so many things in my head and energies colliding? It's time for me to slow down and give time to reflect. Folks real time to reflect. Time to sit with the uneasy and sort it out. Join me as I walk through the introspection and come out on the other side seeing things as they are.

Do you feel a range of emotions and feel bottled energy? Not sure what is causing this anxiety and try to settle yourself? I'm feeling anger, joy, discontentment, contentment, and a what do I do with this time? Can I just sit with myself and feel what I'm feeling and "see", "feel", "acknowledge" the range of emotions?

Sometimes your autopilot is carefree and your running on track and then you look up to realize a new season, a new schedule needs to be worked. Lay out a blueprint for your next season, but leave time for the unexpected opportunities that will come your way though and seize them! So go out, start planning some new goals and enjoy the new season! Fly! (disclaimer: recorded this in a car while driving... forgive the road noise... )

Join me as I reflect on the opportunities seized on a recent trip to San Francisco. A relaxed Californian Rebecca without an agenda enjoys San Francisco with friends and comes back home to make the ordinary... extraordinary.  Are you seizing your opportunities? 

Well it's time to date again! But how does a modern busy mom meet someone? Well, I chose online dating and this first month has been something. While there is no match yet... I am learning about the me I am now. I have learned that I like me. I am enough! When a match doesn't work out, I look for the positive learning experience and take that with me with an open mind for whatever or whoever might be interesting next. Sit back and listen, wondering if you or your friends have encountered the same feelings and experiences. It's just real life going on here without fear and without judging myself. How are you doing knowing yourself and being comfortable with what you get from your experiences?                     

Has there been something you want to try, but fear held you back? Was is it the fear of what others will think if you do it or the fear of the unfamiliar? Have you stepped out of your bounds and overcome one of your fears to realize that the end result of accomplishment and your growth afterwards was all worth it? My life is continuing to grow and I'm feeling the sense of urgency for more and to not be held back because of fear. Listen as I explain how I'll move myself from fear to a state of exhilaration! Only forward! Fly!

Do you have the next step of your life planned and then things change? There is an uncomfortable feel. One of excitement, but also of nerves and chaos. Sometimes we need to not plan and just trust the next step will arrive in its own time. I need to let go of my bananas...my self image and life expectations...my experiences from the past that I cling to and want re-created. What are your bananas? Where can you trust more and not have it all figured out?  Trust, take-off, and FLY!

When did we start believing Auto-Pilot is always negative?  Here are 7 life balance areas to keep me focused as I reach for auto-pilot. I actually believed I was going backward into Auto-Pilot and realized, it is what I need for this next season. Today was the Professional Learning Community session "True Colors" and today I also ran across a list of 7 personal important balance areas that I listed many months before. These balances are consistent ones I list as important. It's just the focus and the specific action areas in them sometimes change. I can appreciate my "true colors" and accept my areas of balance so I can grow in them. What are the areas of your life where balance is important? Are they consistent over time?  Are you accepting of yourself? If you want to learn more about True Colors personality, message me and we'll find a way to connect.      "Fly" or perhaps "Glide" for a little bit.

Are their times you are busier than others and you can't avoid auto-pilot? It's needed for survival.. a future podcast. lol   I'm going into that season at work and just wanted to take a quick moment to reflect on what I've accomplished by living intentionally and give an update to regular listeners on what's going on in multiple areas of my life. Did I stick to healthy eating? Am I still practicing yoga? How did the first Professional Learning Community go at work?  I'd love to hear your inspirational and intentional moments. Leave a FB comment, message me, or leave a comment on itunes.  

From one conversation to another and another, a spark of insight created what will become our agency's Professional Learning Community. Have you wondered how you can get your teams/departments to talk more to one another? We will try a PLC, a community/team of professionals that will share their personal insights as we read books and participate in professional development opportunities. We will use these first 6 sessions to go through the forming, storming and hopefully move into the norming stage. All of these stages are necessary to learn about each other, our team make-ups, our shared visions, and build trust. We can transition from the norming stage to the performing stage of teams and begin to discuss deeper team topics and move agendas at more optimum levels. This is my hope anyway! Please share if you have other ways to build work communities. I love my work leaders for supporting this idea and know we already have a good place to start.

Have you wondered "Why me?" Had something happening in your life and wondered where is it going? Perhaps the unsettled broken feelings that happen are our subconscious telling us to slow down and TRUST that it will all work out. It is when we are vulnerable and feel weakened that we draw on our faith and remember to rely on God's plan. To be quiet and listen...  How nice it is to play this over for myself... cause the battle remind ourselves we don't need to have it all figured out happens more than once in my life.  Are there messages you play over to yourself? Times when you needed to be quiet and listen and trust? 

Ask folks about me and you'll hear words like positive, encouraging, determined, caring, and energetic. I like those descriptions, but I'm also real and have moments where I feel broken but have no specific reason... I wanted to share this because too often we see the best in someone because that is what they show us and we forget that we are all "real" and have our moments of sadness, tiredness, and maybe even brokenness. I allow myself to have these moments... I just don't get stuck there.. listen to another of my podcast "Moving past self doubt" to leave this podcast on a positive note and with the energy you normally come here to get. 

Life got busy and I looked up to see short term rewards becoming long-term burdens. How do I stop this? How do I recognize I need self-control? Better yet, hold myself self accountable to be intentional and stop or clean up that short term action so I can look further at what I want from life. My debt needs to be controlled and spending wained.. My eating needs curbing before I wreck the diet and weight loss from the beginning of the year. Can you relate? Are there techniques or places of strength you draw from to keep you on the path you? Share with me in the comments. 

Have you had a really busy day and dreaded the number of "to do's" on your list? I'll get going, but I can't wait to be back here in the bed and have it all done... Once you get going and accomplish the first item, gain confidence, and gain positive thoughts that you are able to accomplish the many items and accomplish them with a blessing. an "Everyday" can be a "Blessing Day". It is good! I have a purpose and what I do is needed, the energy will come when we value our "to do" list. Each day is a blessing so why not FLY each day! 

Have you ever found yourself wondering what to eat and appreciating it? I found myself for the first time craving roasted vegetables and being proud of the many colors that were appearing in my diet. I ran across Alison Simpson's Diet by Design book and it inspired me from the cover to the scriptures referenced within. It also inspired me to read about her personal journey and start mine. Are you in need of inspiration and encouragement to being your color wheel of food journey?  Come join us and FLY! 

I wonder if you think about the leading ladies or men in your life that set examples of strength. How do you define strength? For me, it is feeling deep moments of trouble and heartache and going forward with a smile, still encouraging one another, and seeking God in times of sadness and joy! I've been blessed by strong women in my family, the Clark family, especially. To this day, I keep learning about, witnessing it and appreciating their strength and support. I also know that God has provided them strength and peace at times unimaginable to me. Let us never forget we each can draw on God, the father, son, and holy ghost. It is simply having faith and asking for him to come into your life. For those that doubt religion... I'd rather believe and be wrong, than not believe and go through this life without God, who provides me joy, strength, comfort, and courage! For today's podcast, I'll just say don't FLY alone!

Try having an executive position behind a desk for the last 20 plus years and step out in faith to become yoga certified instructor! That's just what I've done and pushed through personal self-doubt... finding encouragement in strange ways. Can you relate to starting something new? What emotions did you feel? Anything like the roller coaster joyous experience I did? If you have been thinking about one and said you would try it, have you tried it or still talking about it? Today may be your day to set a goal and Fly! 

Even Parent's need to be "checked"! Has your child explored a hobby or interest that didn't match with yours? When Jack began painting custom colors on shoes, I didn't automatically support him. Fortunately, mom got "checked" into his creativity and supporting his passion. Together he and I have used this platform for more discussions about his interests and threw in a few life lessons for us both. Maybe you are experiencing this now or have in the past. Let us know!

Think back with me to a time when you wanted to try something new. Do you still daydream about taking the leap of faith and exploring a new opportunity?  What are we waiting for?  Leap out with me and FLY as I begin my yoga journey! What journey will you begin?

Are you ready to release your creativity, passion, and dreams? Are you ready to see in yourself what others see? It was time for me to reflect and allow myself to move forward; a time to break free from my personal stereotyping. Carpe diem and Fly!

Ever choose a necessary goal that wasn't so pleasant?  I did and was ready to give up and let it go, but sometimes a goal is necessary. Not all things in life we like, but we must complete. Can you relate to my process of completing my living will and power of attorney?  I had seen firsthand with my mom the need for both documents, which had to be used during a time of unfortunate health declines. I want to be be prepared for my children as she was prepared for me to help her. Won't you consider this goal if new to you or maybe you can be encouraged to continue what you've started. Set out and Fly through even the not so pleasant goals.

Reaching back and reading Who Moved My Cheese, I began to wonder what character in the story did I relate to now in my life. Do we always scurry around on autopilot or can we choose to break it and move forward in our journey? 

Welcome to Breaking Autopilot, our conversation about living life and breaking through this journey with intention and gratitude. We can make the very best of our days!