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What is it to be a pee-on? Why am I happy to be one? In this episode I pull together a few life-lessons reached by choosing to be a witness, choosing to feel empathy, and by watching others struggle with greed/power/cognitive distortions and these things related to NOT being a pee-on.Maybe I'm wrong, maybe power and money somehow benefit your soul. Or maybe the story they do is all you need for benefit. I just can't see it, and this is my explanation of why.I chose this image of flowers at the base of a tree trunk because it represents the little beauty at the bottom that can go missed if you only insist on seeing the big tree above it.

I personally feel like the more people become self aware, the less they feel they need religion. That's not saying the less they need "God", but the less they need to be told what God is and what God "wants". And isn't that really what religion is all about? Being told all these things by "MEN" that they say is from that all knowing being in the sky. In fact, don't they tell you God is everything, while also telling you in a round-a-bout way that he actually needs you to listen to the men who speak FOR him? Ya, this is all part of what you end up hearing when you finally start to think for yourself, get to know who you are, and finally allow the questions about what "God" is to YOU.If you are anything like me...the self awareness came with questions about Spirituality also, and answering questions about spirituality is really where the goods are these days.Do I need religion? Am I spiritual? What do I want "God" to look like? What if I answer these questions without anyone else telling me what my answers are?That's who I am now. The one who won't be told the answers to such big questions.

I thought I'd share my personal experiences with Craniosacral Therapy and Somato Emotional Release from 20 years ago.It's actually terrifying to think 20 years have passed since my initial reading of the book The Inner Physician and You by Dr John Upledger. I wish I had done more with the knowledge in that time, and shared this information sooner. I feel like I have a thousand stories, and only randomly do I think to share some of the really good ones.Another factor is that as much as I DO share, I really struggle sharing. Sometimes it feels easy, and not vulnerable, other times it feels so hard and very vulnerable. It all depends on the headspace I'm in and if I feel like I'm complaining too often. I definitely have issues around always trying not to sound like a complainer, because I know how lucky I am, despite any pain I feel. The world is a difficult place, and on a scale of "hard", I really do rest on the easy end. I never want to sound like I don't know that. Bless you if you feel like life is hard. Whatever you are going through, I share because maybe something I've experienced is useful to more than just me.I think ultimately, we all seek feeling a sense of Wholeness.

MTHFR is a Gene transcription error with an estimated 44% of people having it. That would be no big deal if it didn't directly affect your health in BIG ways. Finding out I have this issue, I'm having to learn more, and it's not fun. I thought an episode about it might be a starting point for some and prove to be somewhat useful.This is also a story of my health over the last few months since learning MTHFR is a thing.Below is the notes from things I reference.Jay Getten article: Understanding the MTHFR gene mutation and it's link to mental and neuro-developmental disorders. Published May 12 2024.Gary Brecka on Diary of a CEO with Steven Bartlett.The Ultimate Human with Gary Brecka (garybrecka.com)10X Health System (.com.)Medical Medium by Anthony William (Thyroid, Mono, Epstein barr)Dr. Jennifer Daniels VitalityCycles.com (free turpentine download)@drmaryclaire (has free peri-meno downloads)Your Inner Physician and You by Dr John UpledgerCraniosacral TherapyThe Upledger Institute, find a therapist, iahp.comThe 85% Solution by Dr Dan PurserDanpursermd.comMary Ruth's Liquid Morning Multivitamin EssentialsThe Yeast Connection and the Woman by Dr William CrookDirty Genes by Dr Ben LynchDr Ben Lynch website: mthfr.netDr Matthew Stoddard Sundance Foot and Ankle

I'm going to continue doing these for a while, it feels right for me. I will create another podcast and call it NatAndChat Sleep Stories. You can find them there shortly. This will be the second and last one I upload here on my Self Awareness podcast. Eventually you will be able to play them back to back without interruption there. I look forward to writing fiction getting easier :) Keep an eye out for the Podcast Art on that one to be changing; I have a kind friend who is going to help me with a photo for it. I have a fun idea and hope to execute it with her help. These Sleep Stories are for my sweet friends Fufu and Lulu. This is my attempt to "do something". Background Music credit: Permafrost by Scott Buckley | www.scottbuckley.com.au Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/ Creative Commons CC BY 4.0 https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/

Some gifts can only come from some people. This feels like a complicated thought, and I hope I explain what I mean in rhese few minutes.

If you know me, you know I don't write fiction. So this is an exception. I wrote and recorded this for a friend who is in a very stressful part of the world. She is a new mother, and both her and her baby are struggling to sleep. I personally find sleep even more vital to my health than eating. So, because I can't do anything to physically help her, I decided to make her a sleep story. -Fu fu and Lu lu, my voice will go with you. Included in this recording are some sounds I got online: bird-voices-7716 Evening Improvisation (with Ethera) by Spheriá | https://soundcloud.com/spheriamusic Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/ Creative Commons CC BY-SA 3.0 https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/ After writing this, and the urgency to finish, I decided I need to not just make one sleep story, but a series of them. So be patient with me as I extend the stories of Momma Fulla and Little Leen. As I do this, I will make a podcast exclusively for those stories. May peace be your companion if you also need help sleeping.

Working on many things I want to share on my podcast...and continually interrupted by my upset over what's happening in our world. I am uploading the least in the history of my podcast, while feeling the most. I have not walked away...its actually the contrary. Im also working on getting a sleep story (or a few) for those I love also struggling through this. Bless you, if you are too. Today, this is my prayer.

I spend so much time questioning the lack of humanity I see, and feeling desperate to find the humans. Could we all be different alien species, or is being human more like a decision? I know this is a short one, but its a great question to ask. Shout-out to the band The Killers for helping me make a point. And to my beautiful friend Carla for dancing on the beach at sunset; providing me the perfect shot.

I finished a book I've been working on for for a very long time, and the best way to tell you about it is to share the back cover, the Preface, and the Prologue. I hope this sounds like a book worth reading.

Everything in life is an equation with a sum. It depends on what sum you are looking at, that tells you what it took to get there. I'm in a position of currently needing to think differently because not thinking and just expecting an outcome was a bad experience.  I'm seeing that intention, and caring is the way to achieve so many things in life, and when you pay attention to the 1 AND the 1, it's then that you benefit from the 2. This episode is concentrating on both of those 1's, not just the 2. I sound like I'm being cryptic, no, it's just that you need to listen in order for me to effectively explain :)

I've been working on a book for many years about self esteem, self respect, confidence, and self awareness. It's finally finished and available. This is a short episode reading the back of the book, and the preface. I hope it sounds worth your time.

In the recent past I started watching YT on my TV. Without being logged in-YT suggested a chanel that I started watching, and now have watched more than any other chanel EVER on that platform. Its called YES Theory. Their motto is Love Over Fear, and they fund their chanel with a clothing line that is also a motto of theirs: "Seek "Discomfort". (Its also a second YT chanel for them.) If you've listened to me before, you probably know I'm keen on COMFORT, not its antithesis. I was drawn in by the name Yes Theory, and find their origin story beauriful, as well as their willingness to share many stories of their lives. Maybe I'm just late to the party, and you already know Ammar, Thomas, Matt, Steffan, Tommy, and the gang. But if you don't already know them, listen to this letter to them about PARADOX, and then check them out. They are giving me reasons to push my boundaries on discomfort, and they are leading by example.

I didn't have heroes when I was young. In fact, I didn't look up to anyone with eyes of adoration. I'm not sure why that was, but the older I am the more heroes I have, and lately I feel like the heroes are too many to count. I have social media to thank for it because most of my heroes are everyday people sharing the world around them. Which has also made me notice how little my opinion is for so many "famous" people. I wonder if this flip-flop of opinion I'm experiencing because of social media -is happening to others also?

My friend Andrea the Glow Guide recently said to me "I'm going to share ebooks about the things I've been feeling so passionate about lately". Then barely a week later she asked me to look at her first draft of her decluttering guide for spiritual growth. Andrea is a go-get-er and I can't say that about many people I know. She is full of ideas, inspiration, creation, and goodness. And her execution is also unlike anyone I know. She understands beauty, communication, and speed like a PRO. Her decluttering guide is packed full of gems, and so easy to follow. It can be found at:  https://stan.store/andreatheglowguide/p/decluttering-for-spiritual-growth Her instagram presence is @andreatheglowguide and @flamingofriday  The guided meditation that comes with the ebook is wonderful too! You will love everything she does!!

I never knew asking friends for input could be so valuable. I've learned that sometimes its the smallest thing that someone says that ends up tipping the scales. Man, I love my friends. I've had to analyze my childhood a bit further to get this one, but I've learned something huge.  I also had a hard time explaining this one because its cyclical. Its true that my own conditioning puts me in a place where its kind of like I make myself angry...because I'm trained not to speak my truth. And not speaking my truth breeds anger. I've learned that feeling anger, and not allowing healthy anger, means it stays inside you.  That's quite simplified, but this episode isn't a long one even with the clarity and the attempt to share this new lesson. I will be moving on to my Joy series, and I'm looking for people who would like to answer some questions on Joy. Email me on natandchatpodcast@gmail.com if you would like to share.

Many people don't seem to know they can choose who they are. And that includes choosing to be someone you like! Don't be one of those people who can't see the person they are presenting to the world. What is your "MO"? And if you don't know, now is the time to decide. I have to give credit to Nicotine Dolls for helping me make a point so easily...its like the song "What Makes You Sad" arrived in my life just to help me explain. *kiss kiss*

It was bound to happen that one of my friends would also be struggling with Anger, and we didn't realize we had this in common. It's interesting for me to hear how hers presents, and she does struggle with a combination of anxiety and anger. If you can ignore the dogs that want to be as near Kristine as possible, you will hear two old friends laughing and realizing things they didn't know about each other.

Not only the old are wise. The old souls in young bodies are also full of perspective and experience we can all learn from. Katelyn shares some things with me that I knew I needed as soon as she said them. And isn't it cool when someone less than half your age can validate your experiences and feelings with the same perspective? This woman will go far in life, its inevitable.

This is a short but fun episode; we don't do an amazing job staying on the topic of anger, but we cover the necessary bases. You'll learn some new things in this episode that I might not have anywhere else. Andrea knows me so well we talk about everything and anything. So I really did have to try and cut out a lot of my rambling. I hope this series is a good one for you, I only have two more episodes left, and then I'm going to share something else new to my podcast and fun for me to execute. Be well friends, and let anger guide you instead of overwhelm you. (That's not me preaching, that's me needing the reminder.)

I have smart and loving friends...not that I didn't already know this, but in the sharing of my friends and the smart things they have to say in this Anger series; I am feeling pride at how loving, helpful, and willing they are. What a grateful friend I am in return -to have these people in my life. This episode makes you want to put attention on perspective. And even made me want to reconsider the words I use when describing my outward situation to my internal perception. My friend Sherrie is one of those people who knows so many things, you always have something to talk about. She's a wealth of knowledge and experience. This is the tiniest slice of Sherrie pie.

My friend JT is moving to New York to get his Masters in Couples and Family Therapy. Just as much as I want my female friends' input on anger, (because it feels like a different struggle for women), I equally want JT's thoughts because he's a friend that always makes me feel understood. Honestly, I didn't know he was going to say so many things I needed to hear. With every friend I sit down with I am pleased anew -with this idea to talk to the people around me...the ones I spend my time with, NOT discussing anger. The growth and benefit from turning to friends with a topic we don't discuss, and DISCUSSING IT, has been amazing.

I did this episode via email so that I could include my friend Melissa in my anger series. That makes this one considerably shorter than the others, but still helpful to me. I'm not a friend who asks for things, but having asked people for input and advice on Anger instead of a therapist, I'm starting to see a whole new perspective on the benefit of asking for help from those that know me best. I still have countless gems in many more episodes to come, but heres a short poignant one.

Nat Chats with her Friends on Anger. This series is so useful for me already, and I hope it has some gems for those of you also dealing with anger. As different as we all are, its sometimes comforting to know others have the same struggles. In this chat with Ann, we cover a lot of ground, and get a bit loud, sometimes giggly + loud. We talk about having a values list, ketamine therapy, using a whiteboard to draw out upset with who or what is causing it, and then the fact that forgiveness feels like BS if someone hasn't actually said sorry.

Nat Chats With her friends on Anger. I tried therapy recently for anger...and it made me angry. I gave it 7 weeks...and now I'm trying something else: my friends. Recording this series has already been so useful for me, and I hope that it might be useful for you too if you need help with anger. If nothing else, I will always have these episodes at my disposal when I need them.

I asked my friend Jackie to sit with me and tell me about her favorite book that introduced her to Absurdism...and this is my introduction. Its an interesting philosophy...hope you enjoy listening as much as we enjoyed talking.

I'm searching for a bridge out of anger. I've been trying therapy, but you know what really looks like is going to be the bridge...people. In this episode I ask myself yet again if its perspective...and thats absolutely part of it...but what I'm figuring out, and already working on since recording this episode here...is that the answer is Perspective + People. People who know and love me. People I trust because of who they are to me. I hope I can edit fast enough...because benefit is on the horizon!! I can hear it!

Leadership is a hot topic on podcasts, and I end up listening to this subject often because people I enjoy revisit it. I have a peculiar view on leadership, and its come to my attention that what people like in their leaders -varies. I've been working a lot of years and I've had lots of leaders. Things I say here are because this stuff is on my mind a lot lately. I've been having a hard time with winter lasting longer than usual, and when things get difficult PLUS a lack of sunshine, I end up dwelling. I haven't been uploading, but not because I haven't been writing. I'm writing lots and thinking lots. That makes me more quiet. But so has this topic of leadership...

A friend recently introduced me to Stoicism which is a cool thing, but has also forced me to address something I've felt for a long time and never made the effort to articulate. The topic is that anger is a choice, and while I accept so many feelings are things we choose, I see anger differently. Its a complicated emotion and I think I've finally had a breakthrough in explaining why I think that.

I caught myself asking a question I don't normally ask, and more than just once or twice...it kept coming up at random times over various topics. So I started answering and analyzing not just the question, but what MY answer is. I feel like this was a break through for me in my journey of self-awareness.

I got caught up in upset, and I let myself down. Are there people who don't do that, and are they in Possession of themselves to the point they can't be pushed outside of their nature? When you do miss-step, is there still something good in that too? So many questions, so few certainties.

This is me feeling like I need to touch base because I haven't written, recorded, and uploaded since Sept 11th. I have been writing, but not much stuff I know I will share. But as always I'm thinking, and with the loss of my wonderful cousin; I am Dwelling. I think we spend life believing life is meant to be easy while we live learning: its not. How did that "easy" thing ever get introduced? Maybe its just simple wishful thinking and the innate need to be happy. Ok...yes...I'm dwelling on this dichotomy too these days. :)

I've been learning about EFT Tapping, and experiencing immediate results. Its fascinating while being so incredibly simple. Have a listen, do some tapping, and explore it yourself. I don't want to be dramatic, but its kinda blowing my mind.

Success, achievement, mattering, and being "something special" by the end of your life. Is any of this yours to experience? I think it might not be.

Have you ever considered...the things that make you YOU might not be things you should share or show just anyone? Do you have pearls? Do you know what your pearls are? To say "don't cast your pearls before swine" makes me imagine pulling out something valuable in front of a mob boss that he's now going to kill you for so he can take it. But it's not that...its really so much more tidy and everyday. Do you do it? It's worth asking yourself. I'll explain...have a listen.

The Lack of self-awareness seems to be growing. No, nobody is perfect, but all of us can try to see what we are doing and consider possible consequence. Listen more to what you are saying, watch what you could be doing to contradict your own words, and maybe we need to start calling it out. If for no other reason than to put a pin in it so it can be pointed at later. Lots to consider in this episode.

I've changed my opinion on Longing. I think its a good thing. I think we need to do it often to keep us appreciating the Loving we do. Even the loving we do that won't equate to having. In fact...having is not a feeling we should grab hold of. I'll explain: *you pushing play*

I got thinking about how we have "gut feelings" and asking myself what that really is. I've learned to put so much stock in what my gut says because it's always a better guide than my thoughts. Then I remembered reading about morphic fields, the habit field, and quantum healing. In this episode I share from the books Energy Medicine by Donna Eden and Quantum DNA Healing by Althea S. Hawk. I also share my little theory about our gut feeling actually coming from the fields that surround our body and dictate who we are and what we become. This is a different kind of episode because I have to share so much of the science to make my point, but I hope the science is as fascinating to you as it is to me. This episode is a thought experiment, but one I'm going to continue to consider for a while.

Whether you have questions or you have opinions, your experience in a world with endless input is not going to be the same as another's. Perspective is the new word for "self" and no two people will be the same. We are going to need to learn how to grasp that fact, because the "teachers" aren't going to disappear.

I didn't know that being an enabler enabled my unhappy life of enabling. Its like a catch 22 I didn't know I was stuck in. It took the tenderness of a great friend to help me see my patters by relating times she had watched me being an enabler that had me finally able to see it. Here's the story of that realization.

It was in listening to people talk about friendship being an enigma to them and that they don't have many friends -that I found myself with so much I wanted to share. It was a podcast...so I couldn't share what I had to say with them, but it made me want to write a few things down and share them here. This is a short one, but its a topic I feel strongly about. :)

I need to pull wrap my attention more around paradox than I have been because I give so much of it to hypocrisy. The less self aware people are the more they become hypocritical. And for some reason I get more and more bummed about people as I hear them saying such stupid contradictory stuff. BUT what if I put my attention on paradox? Can I see less hypocrisy and more paradox with a beneficial outcome on my attitude? Will noticing Paradox make ME less of a hypocrite? I would like to think so. Here I am trying to explain...

I had a class reunion this summer in 2021 and it was more than a reunion for me. It was a resolution and a healing. I didn't know I had so many unresolved issues related to my high school years until the night was over. I woke the following day feeling such a peculiar type of euphoria I wanted to try and find words for it all. This is still quite short, considering, but a long story is not what I want to share. Maybe you can relate?

In this episode you hear two people talking about super random stuff. We're telling stories, and admitting life is just a crapshoot of happenstance and we become the person we are because of it. I doubt we make any important points, but as always, I have fun talking to my friend Larry. I hope you find it fun too.

I don't tell people what to do, but if when giving advice to my friend I say "you should", I catch myself and acknowledge I'm just talking, and I add to it saying "Not that you need to do anything I say". But recently, when wanting to give advice to this friend blamed for everything by her family members, I thought of a new word to help me be clear. And that word is Refuse. Naturally, I decided to elaborate.

I dont think the question of "Where were you on 9.11?" is as much about knowing where you stood when nearly 3000 people were killed, as it is about how you felt in that moment when you were so shook that everything in your world froze. I know that America has a self centered view on world events, seeming to care far less about what happens outside its borders than in it, but this American was living in Europe on 9.11, and this was how it felt for me. I do struggle with mass destruction happening in any country, and that is why I don't watch the news. I can't handle it. I do feel that part of why 9.11 was so big world-wide is because New York City is a magical place, visited by so much of the world. My love and affinity for New York City no doubt contributed to my experiences.

Who do you find comfortable? What is comfort? When are you comfortable? Where is comfort hiding? Why do we want to be comfortable? How conscious are we of these answers?

1 + 1 = 2 MOST of the time when it comes to a situation, your reaction, and the emotions you feel. I fought allowing emotions for many years and I still catch myself thinking I'm supposed to not mind when stuff comes up. This is the break down of doing it and the realization we don't have to see it as acting like a 2 year old because we are having emotions. We ARE emotional creatures, and we can be sensible creatures with lots of emotions. *mic drop*

I often catch myself doing or thinking things repetitively. It's when I catch myself that I decide I want to break it down and maybe find a whole new way of seeing the thing on repeat. And when the break down teaches me something, I want to attempt sharing it. Maybe you can relate to this too.

In my experience, the internal whispered words aren't always noticed when they start because they begin so quiet. I've seen that once they are loud, you have already adopted them and made them truth. But repetition does not dictate truth. My 2021 has me learning some old lessons in new ways, obviously because I have yet to fully learn them. Here's a dose of honesty.

When I recently talked to my friend Allison Olson about Love, we touched on a topic I thought I had shared a long time ago: The "Negative Committee".  I know I've mentioned them in the past, but apparently since my podcast started, I hadn't shared what you will hear here. This is my getting clear and fixing that so the Negative Committee is not some ethereal idea, but rather an unattractive and real force you too can relate to experiencing.  There's a great article you could google if you want to do a little research on this topic; "Never call them Archons" by Cameron Day written in 2012. If you ever hear me use the term "Ankle Biters" it's because of that article. He explains them as "energy parasites" with a very detailed back history.