Talking ‘Bout My Evolution

I talk about trying to help Henry and his search for a car and how I'm a little frustrated by his thought processes and his not understanding that my time is valuable. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I got some positive responses and some help from a flurry of texts I sent out last week. My new helper started today and I also have received a few letters of recommendation. I also talk about forgiving more people, including myself. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about much of what I've learned from Caroline Myss and Rebecca Davison and how, if I followed their suggestions, I could clear out all my limiting beliefs, rewrite my story on all kinds of issues that are blocking/stopping me from living my best life, and forgive a long list of people in ONE YEAR. It's all about taking small actions every day, which I am not consistent about. And that makes me sad and mad at myself. (So here I need to rewrite my story about this!) --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about listening to Rebecca Davison's training on forgiveness and how important it is and what I need to do to forgive various people in my life right now. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about Caroline Myss' online class The Great Transformation and how I'm finally listening to it. I also have some difficulty keeping my road rage in check and my concentration up. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about going to Pridefest with Fran, a jewelry show at my friend's house, shopping at the consignment store and scoring some exciting tops, and seeing my favorite band The Record Company. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about Jenny Walkowiak's funeral. She was one of the founders of Pathways High, where my kids go, and she died unexpectedly leaving 4 daughters behind. All the girls attend Pathways. The funeral was simple, but moving. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about a bunch of different things that are weighing on my mind, including being late to work, worrying about my student worker, traveling to Michigan, and my Mom's health. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about my niece's wedding and what the kids told me about it. It sounded kind of strange and sad, unfortunately. I discuss Henry and how he seems secretive about his money now. I told him he can be 100% in charge of his money, but he had asked me to help him manage it, so that's what I've been doing. I don't need him angry or frustrated with me, because I'm trying to keep him safe and make sure he's paying his managers. I also talk about trying to figure out how much Bill and I need to tell each other about our comings and goings. I --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how Bill was out of town and so I went over to move stuff out. (He wants me to do this.) I talk about how hard it is for me to be in his house and to see and smell everything there. I can't stay very long, because I get overwhelmed with sadness when I'm there. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. and how that's supposed to be the best time to connect with God/Source/The Universe, but how it's incredibly unrealistic to take advantage of this open connection when you have to work the next day. I also talk about meeting this guy (who I thought was someone else) at the bar I go to after work sometimes and how he kind of asked me out and then freaked when I said I was flattered he asked me out. The entire encounter was very strange and unsettling. I'm not sure I'm going back to that place. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about the Mt Mary Mission dinner I attended. In two hours, I was able to meet a bunch of different MMU employees and get inspired about the school and our students. I also talk about how I reconnected with my high school friends and had a lovely zoom call. I also talk about how busy I've been and how that makes it hard to relax. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I try and talk about my experience in the knitting lab the night before, but all this chaos is happening all around me as I'm driving and it really throws me off. Once things calm down I talk some more about the Holy Trinity -- three things to brag about and three things you're grateful for. I got my friends to try it and they thought it was strange, but good. I also talk about how we should all be celebrating our wins -- big wins and little ones. It's very important for our mental well-being to do this. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about what we did in Florida and how I developed a cough. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I consistently believe that I don't have very many friends in Milwaukee. This is because I keep comparing how many friends I have here to how many I had in Grosse Pointe growing up. If I focus on the fact that I have some excellent friends here, just not a ton of them, I can rewrite my story and feel better about my social situation. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk as I walk around the boardwalk area in the mangrove forest down in Safety Harbor, FL. I also talk about how powerful my individual session with Patricia Kennedy was. She is very skilled and effective at moving energy. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how our assignment after my coaching call was to see what I feel shame and guilt about in my life. I wrote ten pages of things! I found it interesting to note where I don't feel shame and/or guilt. I cleared most of it and am in the process of rewriting my story, so I can move forward and let those toxic emotions go. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how energy and emotions get stuck in the body and create "frogs in the throat" or illness/disease. I also give the latest updates on the house. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about using the tuning fork with different intentions and how that moved a bunch of energy for me. I also explain about Patricia Kennedy's activation series that she offered on her FB page "For Starseeds Only" has activated a lot of anger and started to make it come up and out of my system. I view this as a positive change, but need some help managing it. After talking to Patricia, I agreed to work with her one on one to come up with some custom activations and strategies for moving the anger through more easily. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about my first coaching call in the program "Calibrate to Joy". I signed up to work with Rebecca Davison for the next 3 months. She's reminding me about ideas and skills I had forgotten about. She was also helping me realize that I need to forgive the parts of my body that I feel have let me down or disappointed me in some way. When I do that, massive amounts of energy open up for me. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I don't think any decision I've made in the last couple years has really been a good one. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about working on my kitchen and other major projects in my house and how difficult that was. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how my life is getting shaken up by a surprise visit and how people aren't doing what they're supposed to and how that's creating problems for them. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about the practice of swamping and how important it is to move emotions through your body as they arise, otherwise they get stuck and cause disease and pain. I also describe how teary and emotional I've been lately. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I took massive action and bought a 3 month coaching package from one of my favorite coaches Rebecca Davison. I talk about the first session and meditating and also how I finally got my butt in gear to do some deep cleaning in my house. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how to I can find joy in my life and question whether I should stay at my job or not. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk at length about the HellaMega Tour concert the kids and I saw the night before. Weezer, Fall Out Boy and Green Day all showed up playing their hits and it was very fun. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about an incredibly uncomfortable conversation I had with the owner of the tree removal company and how he tried to bully me into backing down or denying that his company wrecked my garage door. I was very proud of myself for standing my ground, being respectful, and refusing to be mistreated. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about the excellent admin at the tree company who showed me humor and compassion when I was so upset and how helpful she was in getting my needs addressed. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how the tree guys wrecked my garage door and how fun that was to discover. I also discuss the Chiron return, which happens every 7 years in a person's life and what this means. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how someone I had been reading and listening to and really enjoyed studying suddenly turned extremely political and not in a way that I expected and how that has made me doubt her integrity and teachings. I also discuss how I don't want to be told what to think or believe or engage/interact with everything "out there" using fearmongering tactics to keep us "in our place". I want to go within and gauge the veracity of a situation by checking what feels true to me and to tune into the larger Truth at work in the universe. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Chronically listening to the news, which is nearly completely bad news, manifests as an addiction and supplies dopamine hits to the listener, creating the same cravings and sensations as any other addictive substance. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I gave a "regular" person an energy reading and how different that experience was compared to reading my intuition friends. I also talk about how school is ramping up next week for the kids and how little or much they contribute to the household keep-up. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about the complications of trying to get someone to remove the tree off my roof. I also discuss how frantic the first day of the semester was and how I was the only one in the office to deal with everything, which made me angry. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about my afternoon at Irishfest the day before and how I chose to leave after listening to 3 bands, because my ears were overstimulated and tired from all the auditory input. I think listening to live music requires stamina and I never knew that before. The pandemic has made us all out of practice with festivals, crowds, and music, so I had to leave to get quiet again. I also talk about how tired I am when I get home from work and how I want to escape from reality once I get home instead of doing anything constructive. This behavior makes me sad and anxious. I'm not sure how to feel differently. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about the difficulty I'm having getting an ID card for Fran. Part of it is because of the name change and part of it is because of the his being transgender. There are many hoops to jump through, but I know what to do next and we will figure this out. I also discuss my irritation re: the abundance of crosswalks in in Wauwatosa and how it signifies white privilege. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about a bunch of different things, but what I'm really trying to figure out is how do I create freedom in my life? Financial, emotional, relational, geographical, etc. freedom? I feel restricted by my job and bank account and can't see a way past the restrictions I've imposed on my life. I also talk about how I switched from instructing the Sonic Slider tuning fork to do actions to my body to intending that the SS will infuse my body with love with every application. The recording cuts off, so I apologize about that. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about work and the house - especially all the stuff cluttering up the house. I can't figure out what to do with everything I own. I also talk about trying to shift my mindset to bring in more joy so I'm not so overwhelmed all the time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I had a series of power surges in my house that blew out a lot of my electrical appliances and my hot water heater. I describe my ensuing interactions with WE-energies and then switch over to discussing a few immutable laws I learned about last night. They are all about perfect timing in your life. For example, one is that everything happens at the right time in your life for you. Another is that everyone you meet is at the right time in your life. Lastly I discuss the need for the human body to shed toxins in order to get ready for evolutionary advancement. Switching to a more liquid-based diet will allow us to add more light to our bodies (eating lots of dense food keeps us stuck in 3D). Lastly, I mention that Dolores Cannon says that the pollution on Earth is much more far-reaching than just our own planet. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how lucky I am to have so many spiritual teachers in my life, many of whom I know. I also talk about Dolores Cannon and her book The Three Waves of Volunteers, which I'm finding very fascinating. She's a hypnotist who normally does past life regressions, but has encountered many sessions in which the subject discusses off-planet circumstances. She simply transcribes what she records, organizes the interviews, and publishes them. She talks about 3 different ways to raise the vibration of the planet. One of them is to have fun. When you go out an enjoy yourself and have a good time, you change the vibratory pattern of the earth. Interestingly, wearing perfume also helps raise the earth's vibration. Having become chemically sensitive since having children and knowing so many other people who are sensitive to smells, I wonder if this is indicative of the low vibratory state of most people on the planet? Will clearing out more of my limiting beliefs and unhelpful thought patterns allow me to wear perfume again? Something to think about. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Hello! We're back! I've decided to keep going in my story, even though it's rather out of date. Today brings more issues re: the tree on my roof, a detailed description of seeing the Brothers Osbourne concert in the rain and an edited version of my interaction with my ex later that night. His car was stolen from his driveway and his power also went out. I wound up going over there to see if I could help in any way and we had a lot of laughs and some fun having a couple beers together. The episode cuts off -- sorry about that. I'm guessing what I was going to say was that Henry wasn't that thrilled that Bill and I hung out together and actually had a good time, because that might be stressful and confusing for him. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how my boss is now actively vetting multiple candidates for the Assoc. Registrar position and trying to speak in code when her door is open. I feel uncomfortable about all the secrets and hushed conversations that have started taking place since she started. I realize that if I don't get this job, I will need to look elsewhere for employment. I need my salary to reflect my worth. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how the tree sitting on my power lines caused a massive power surge that took out a whole host of appliances and how WE-Energies came out and had to reconnect the ground/neutral line back up from my house to the pole. They could have done this days ago and prevented these problems, but they kept ignoring me and now I have not hot water, dehumidifier, fans, monitors and multiple lights. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I really wanted to dish some dirt last night and put people down, but the universe didn't want me to do that, so everyone I wanted to spill to wasn't available to listen. Then I discuss all the teachers and coaches I have in my life and how grateful I am to be able to learn from these gifted people and even know many of them personally. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about another crazy day that happened. I went to see the Brothers Osborne play at State Fair. They got in most of their set in between rainstorms. I almost didn't go to the show, but the ticket was pricy enough and Henry said, "What's the worst that can happen? You get wet?" So I went to the show and the music was so good. While I was there, Bill kept trying to get a hold of me, so I called him back as I was leaving. Craziness was going on in his world too, including an extended power outage and his car being stolen. I wound up going over there and spending the rest of the evening with him and his neighbor Rick laughing and catching up. It was really nice to reconnect as friends. I hope it happens again. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how 1/3 of a very large tree came crashing down on my roof last night during a straight line windstorm. It was absolutely terrifying! So far the damage seems minimal, thank the Lord, but it is a massive tree that is covering my entire backyard. I'm pretty sure it's sitting on my power lines, but we still have power. I didn't know if I should leave the house or stay. I'm not sure what to do right now. (Ultimately, I called the insurance company and got that ball rolling.) --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about my trip back to Michigan and how it didn't turn out so well. I discuss how my awareness of white privilege is now making it hard for me to go to places like GP and have conversations with my friends and family. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about some of the hoops I had to jump to spend some quality time with Henry. I also talk about how excited I am to see the Foo FIghters tonight and how fast the summer is going. I'm feeling in the flow of fun and happy summer moments and can't wait for my trip home that starts tomorrow. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about getting my first haircut in quite a while. I overanalyze this experience a bit, FYI. Then I switch topics and talk about asteroids in astrology and how the 4 major asteroids show up in my chart. Where they land doesn't really provide me with any additional insight into my personality or understanding of myself, but they do strengthen everything I already know about myself. Basically, a lot of my worrying tendencies and inability to handle criticism well comes from the heavens. Interesting. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how I had all these good intentions to do stuff after I got home after work, but one small thing derailed me from doing any of it. Then I spend some time trying to figure out why I have to be doing something all the time to feel useful and worthwhile. I also talk about a plethora of nervous energy I'm experiencing, possibly a restless feeling from thinking it might be time to find a different job. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I talk about how Henry is eager to branch out and wants to rent a space and start a recording studio. I have a problem with this idea for multiple reasons, not the least is he can't pay for his own car insurance right now, so how is he going to take on a monthly rent? I also have questions about the reliability of his friends. I know they are good friends and mean well, but who would obtain the lease? Who would front the expenses to buy more equipment and soundproof the space? I just don't see how this can happen when he can barely organize a trip to record/make beats/make money with his friends. So, yes, I don't think Henry is ready to take on additional financial responsibility at this time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app