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2025-12-25 | Way-Seeking Mind Talk | C. Seren8y by Appamada
Annunciation ~Marie Howe Even if I don't see it again - nor ever feel it I know it is and that if once it hailed me it ever does - And so it is myself I want to turn in that direction not as towards a place, but it was a tilting within myself, as one turns a mirror to flash the light where it isn't - I was blinded like that - and swam in what shone at me only able to endure it by being no one and so specifically myself I thought I'd die from being loved like that. Gabriel's Annunciation ~ Jan Richardson For a moment I hesitated on the threshold. For the space of a breath I paused, unwilling to disturb her last ordinary moment, knowing that the next step would cleave her life: that this day would slice her story in two, dividing all the days before from all the ones to come. The artists would later depict the scene: Mary dazzled by the archangel, her head bowed in humble assent, awed by the messenger who condescended to leave paradise to bestow such an honor upon a woman, and mortal. Yet I tell you it was I who was dazzled, I who found myself agape when I came upon her— reading, at the loom, in the kitchen, I cannot now recall; only that the woman before me— blessed and full of grace long before I called her so— shimmered with how completely she inhabited herself, inhabited the space around her, inhabited the moment that hung between us. I wanted to save her from what I had been sent to say. Yet when the time came, when I had stammered the invitation (history would not record the sweat on my brow, the pounding of my heart; would not note that I said Do not be afraid to myself as much as to her) it was she who saved me— her first deliverance— her Let it be not just declaration to the Divine but a word of solace, of soothing, of benediction for the angel in the doorway who would hesitate one last time— just for the space of a breath torn from his chest— before wrenching himself away from her radiant consent, her beautiful and awful yes.
2025-12-15 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story by Appamada
2025.12.14 | Dharma Talk | Forgiveness | Nate Smalley by Appamada
link to poem : https://www.poetryverse.com/emily-dickinson-poems/you-cannot-put-a-fire-out
2025-12-08 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story by Appamada
2025.12.07 | Rohatsu Ceremony | Nishijima Roshi on the Buddha's Enlightenment | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-12-02 I Inquiry I Go to the Limits of your Longing I Trudy Johnston by Appamada
2025-12-01 | Depth In Practice| Not Two: The Appamada Story by Appamada
2025-11-30 | Dharma Talk | Shuzen is Not Zazen | Ellen Hippard by Appamada
2025-11-24 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story by Appamada
2025-11-25 I Inquiry I Bodhichitta Blessings I Suzanne Kilkus by Appamada
2025-11-23 | Dharma Talk | Black Holes, Basic Goodness, and the Perfection of Wisdom | Jon-Eric Steinbomer by Appamada
2025-11-18 I Inquiry I It is our shared pain that is the cord of our belonging I Trudy Johnston by Appamada
2025-11-16 | Dharma Transmission Talk | Nathan Hōshin Kōnen Smalley by Appamada
2025-11-04 I Inquiry I Meeting what is needed I Joel Barna by Appamada
2025-11-03 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-11-02 | Dharma Talk | Living in a Polarized World: Cultivation of the Delusion of Separation | Rosemarie Gardella Gates by Appamada
2025-10-27 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-10-28 I Inquiry I Zazen and Precepts I Flint Sparks by Appamada
Mercy has no hands, yet carries the whole mountain down to the quiet. All are welcome to the river's edge. Spelling note: Jessica cites from several sources, including by Cynthia Bourgeault.
W.H. Auden clip https://youtu.be/oWtVYYoJFl4?si=MkPur0C6uJFKddz0
2025-10-20 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-10-19 | Dharma Talk | Grace | Nate Smalley by Appamada
Songs arrive even in the mail box Songs keep coming even happy to be sad Josephine Foster
2025-10-13 | Depth In Practice | Not Two: The Appamada Story | Peg Syverson by Appamada
Recording of Calling Out to Hungry Hearts by Krishna Das courtesy of Upaya Zen Center: https://youtu.be/2wI5zlF2eeQ?si=uK1PoeKDSyJMO_bw
Fred LaMotte 'My Ancestry DNA results came in. Just as I suspected, my great great grandfather was a monarch butterfly. Much of who I am is still wriggling under a stone. I am part larva, but part hummingbird too. There is dinosaur tar in my bone marrow. My golden hair sprang out of a meadow in Palestine. Genghis Khan is my fourth cousin, but I didn't get his dimples. My loins are loaded with banyan seeds from Sri Lanka, but I descended from Ravanna, not Ram. My uncle is a mastodon. There are traces of white people in my saliva. 3.7 billion years ago I swirled in golden dust, dreaming of a planet overgrown with lingams and yonis. More recently, say 60,000 B.C. I walked on hairy paws across a land bridge joining Sweden to Botswana. I am the bastard of the sun and moon. I can no longer hide my heritage of raindrops and cougar scat. I am made of your grandmother's tears. You conquered rival tribesmen of your own color, chained them together, marched them naked to the coast, and sold them to colonials from Savannah. I was that brother you sold, I was the slave trader, I was the chain. Admit it, you have wings, vast and golden, like mine, like mine. You have sweat, black and salty, like mine, like mine. You have secrets silently singing in your blood, like mine, like mine. Don't pretend that earth is not one family. Don't pretend we never hung from the same branch. Don't pretend we don't ripen on each other's breath. Don't pretend we didn't come here to forgive.'
2025-05-12| Depth In Practice | Vimalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-10-06 | Depth In Practice | Vimalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-10-05 | Dharma Talk | Sin and Repentance | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-09-30 I Inquiry I Joel Barna by Appamada
2025-09-29 | Depth In Practice | Vimalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-09-28 | Dharma Talk | Bodhisattva Check-In | Joel Barna by Appamada
2025-09-23 I Inquiry I Being ourselves at Gate A-4 I Suzanne Kilkus by Appamada
2025-09-22 | Depth In Practice | Vimalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-09-15 | Fall '25 Intensive | Shikantaza | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-09-16 | Fall '25 Intensive | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-09-17 | Fall '25 Integrated Intensive | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-09-18 | Fall '25 Integrated Intensive | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-09-19 | Fall '25 Integrated Intensive | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-09-20 | Fall '25 Integrated Intensive | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-09-20 | Fall '25 Intensive | Peg Syverson by Appamada
Kim's drawings available at https://blog.kimmosley.com.
Thanks to Pádraig Ó Tuama, August 24, 2025 on Substack.
2025-09-14 | Dharma Talk | Who Are the Earth Store Bodhisattvas? | Peg Syverson by Appamada
2025-05-12 | Depth In Practice | Vimalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-09-09 I Inquiry I Take Care How You Place Your Feet in the Zendo I Josh Gifford by Appamada
2025-09-08 | Depth In Practice | Virmalakirti Sutra by Appamada
2025-09-07 | Dharma Talk | Worship & Transmission | Nate Smalley by Appamada
2025-09-02 I Inquiry I Compassion has no enemies I Trudy Johnston by Appamada
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