Manifestor's Journey Home

As always: I'm just soundboarding what's coming up for me RIGHT NOW. And yeah, I mention leaving the gram too.

I just let myself blah blah blah today. Leftness, tribal circuitry, Buffy, and many other things that don't matter.

She angry.

Yeah, she went.

Out of this mental prison, please.

I'm a moany bitch.

I had to release some shit around Emotional Manifestor Guy and stuff. I didn't think it would be so long though lol.

G center, correct movement, some 3/5 experiences, love gates, and some other shite present in my head today. Much love!

I'm back with sound-boarding some general updates and just sharing my current frequency.

I felt like summing up my journey a bit, raving about the gifts of Human Design so far and other blah blah blah. I need time to integrate, regroup and come back with new energy. (Hear this in Terminator's voice, please:) I'll be back! I'm just not sure when lol

I had a mushroom trip yesterday and oh boi, hold me cause I'm just cray cray. What is happening to me?! But oh well. Experience is experience.

This must be the most boring of all episodes. I'm going through a whole lot of mental fuckery out loud. Like I'd got my head open up and all that nonsense that this transit (and life) has brought just poured out of me. I talked about the this and the that and some stupid personal stuff and sense of identity (or lack thereof) and all sorts of Mind fuckery extremes. I'm pretty ridiculous, quite frankly.

It doesn't feel like I've been super coherent here but what came out was barking up the love tree, tribal vibes, and such. lol. A lot has been happening, I'm integrating, and speaking some of it out helps immensely.

I don't remember what I was ranting about this time but I vaguely recall talking a lot about outsourcing one's inner authority. Have I mentioned other things? Probably.

My dating drama, which isn't even proper drama, continues. Who cares anyway? It's all experience, it's all bumping into things for this 3rd line WTD

Urgh. Ranting time! It felt gooooood to release this.

I've been processing a lot recently and I wasn't willing to do it on here so when the energy came just now to record something my Mind had its tantrum lol. But hey, it is what it is, stuff came out.

I'm not even sure how or why I ended up recording this today. The process was tough, visceral, ridiculously past resembling. There's a lot of silence here and not much sense. Just me, slightly beaten up but still standing.

This one should probably get a mental fuckery warning. I'm processing another helping of relating deconditioning and my usual dating inner drama. Because nothing happens and yet e v e r y t h i n g happens.

I've listened to the first few episodes of this podcast so I'm sharing my experience with that, I mention that the pen pal has been annoying me (by doing nothing lol), that I've been at work, and some other absolutely unimportant shite. It's fun.

I'm moaning like a mad person in this one. I was feeling sad and lonely and felt like externalizing some of it. Ok, ALL of it, quite frankly. It's long and tedious and I am just processing boy stuff again. Eh, boring.

This was a fun sound boarding sess. Theatre, weekend plans, different frequency behind figuring shit out and being moved to do things and such. Fun fun fun.

The inner frenzy saga continues (without any additions to the plot, mind you). I'm chatting away about layers and layers of my Mind's relational deconditioning and such. I'm quite ridiculous so it might be somewhat entertaining. Is there anything worth listening to? Probably about 5 minutes of gold scattered around half an hour of my rambling.

Yesterday was difficult but correctness is all there is.

I woke up and just moved to blahblah away. I seem to remember mentioning emotional definition, fear, shatterings, and other stuff. I was all over the shop but had a peaceful frequency today. What a life!

Today I've chatted away about my Bday feels, gave a lil dating update and generally rambled a bit about where I'm currently at.

I'm sound boarding the shit of my feelings in this one. There's the Mind and there's correct movement. And there's Leena that gotta talk things out. Relationshipy stuff of my life as per usual.

Leena's Ego said out from Emo Manifestor's situ. Oh the peace.

I was chatting with Sami Rae (IG: @justsamirae) about cognition and just couldn't stop after she went to sleep.

She talks a lot. What to do.

This might be the messiest and just plain silliest episode as of yet. Oh well, it is what it is.

No doing, shattering of another set of identity conditioning, sweetness, manifestorness, who the check knows anyway.

My Ego moved me to speak today and I don't really remember what came out. It felt really good to say though!

I went on a proper journey with this one! There was truly a lot that came out so it's difficult to pinpoint the main thought of this sharing. I went everywhere and nowhere. But here it is. And here I am now.

In this episode, Leena processes her almost-date with an Emotional Manifestor dude.

In this episode, I ramble about my supportive energy wake-up moment, the lack of passion, and just externalizing whatever was going on in me today. Also: If you'd like to have a session with Sami or follow her, her handle on Instagram is @justsamirae and the link to everything is in her bio. Chiara's handle is @mysticalheretic and Amy Ruth is @amyruthhd. Much love!

I went on a ramble about resistance. It was fun, actually.

I, Leena a 3/5 Ego Manifestor, am still suffering from Covid. My Mind and conditioning have been flaring up today so some unnecessary but needed sound boarding was on the menu. If it's correct for you to listen - I appreciate it. Much love xx

Whilst being sick with Covid again, my Heart had things to share, who would have thought?

In this episode, my Heart is sharing about the latest shattering, lack of support, inner child cravings, and more.

I, Leena (3/5 Ego Manifestor), started recording thinking I will just release my good Ego vibes and chat a bit about informing. Nah, after a sec of sound boarding whatever came up at the moment, my voice just started talking about Solar Plexus, being non-emotional, and such. This episode is loooong too. I hope you'll enjoy it nevertheless!

I recorded this episode after sharing my Buy-Me-A-Coffee link on my Instagram page. I burst out crying and experienced my body moving to record a few words. Deconditioning in the area of money is just mental. I, Leena - a 3/5 Ego Manifestor, let the words about it out. A lot of mental rambling but hey, there's a chance it's relatable. Love always!

In this episode, I, Leena - a 3/5 Ego Manifestor, let myself speak about my recent family holidays and meeting my fam for the first time in aura since starting my Human Design experiment, my big transformation, and in general, about whatever came up at that moment!

This episode is as raw as it could be. I am speaking about going back to a bond recently cut, about following my Ego even though the mind says 'this isn't good!' and happily making mistakes that are correct to make. Enjoy!

Leena - a 3/5 Ego Manifestor, is back with another portion of some channelled deconditioning message. When she feels the energy, she starts talking her heart out. Listen to what came out today.

I'm Leena a 3/5 Ego Manifestor in my experiment since March 2020, and this is my deconditioning journal podcast. In this episode, I rant about Manifestor anger and how I currently feel about it in my process. Enjoy!

I'm Leena a 3/5 Ego Manifestor in my experiment since March 2020, and this is my deconditioning journal podcast. In the first episode, I tell a story of how Human Design found me. Enjoy!