The Teenager's Diary

You would love this... From the depths of a great hugger ;)

And there I go... being masochistic about you...It's about my first love !!!

You want to stay poor? Be poor. No one is going to stop you.But you can be rich too, did you knew that? Only the very few know :)

In the end, the darkness is simply all that exists...Clouds are not white anymore. And all knew... you realize it was nothing but FAKE.

Sometimes, darkness just simply overlaps... And the thought of dying seems to be the only thing that comforts you...From that experience... I present this clip.

A THOUSAND THOUGHTs... & relatable experience of being AN OVERTHINKER...That will be all

The black cat is still there. A mother who lost her children... It's beating and it's hard...That will be all

Well, it was bought when I was in 2nd standard and now I'm in 10th... So, we just sold our 8 year old cycle for just 1000 less than it was bought for... Know the full story though :)

Well, the magic of thinking big was an amazing book which led me to think how thinking big can change the way you look at life. It's amazing and definitely worth your time :)GO FIRST CLASS !!!That will be all

Smoking was prohibited and was never looked at as a good thing. I was prejudiced too. And now, I am unveiling my secret of secretly smoking for the first time (It was my last time too). Learn about MY FIRST SMOKE at: https://bit.ly/MyFirstSmoke HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #writersofig #writerscommunity #writers #smoke #smoker #smokey #smokeweed #smoked #chainsmokers #onlysmokethefinest #smokers #smokehouse #wedontsmokethesame #poemporn #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

DO we truly listen to others? Or do we only listen to the stories in our own heads... Get introduced to THE FREAKING STORIES IN OUR HEADS at https://bit.ly/FStoriesHead HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #writersofig #writerscommunity #writers #poems #authorsofinstagram #words #writing #stories #storiesofindia #belovedstories #littlestoriesofmylife #shortstories #instastories #poemporn #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

The black cat which I would feed was a mixture of YING & YANG... This one was a mother and a female too. But shit happens when everything seems just right... Learn a little more about THE BLACK CAT at: https://bit.ly/TBlackCat HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #catsofinstagram #cat #cats #catstagram #catlovers #catoftheday #catlover #catlife #cats_of_instagram #catsworld #writersofindia #writerslife #writersofinsta #poemporn #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

To be successful, you have to think successful. And to do that, you have to THINK BIG. That's the main thing behind this best-seller book. Get the quick gist of HOW TO THINK BIG at: https://bit.ly/ThinkBigbook HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #writersofig #writerscommunity #writers #poems #authorsofinstagram #writersofindia #writerslife #writersofinsta #poemporn #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #book #bookreview #review #bookstagram #books #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

Down at the end of our days, EXPECTATIONS have made us see over the horizon and also have pushed us DOWN to the deep rabbit-hole which we never imagine. Well, a piled up bunch of another... A little intro to FUCKING EXPECTATIONS

Little things NEVER go unnoticed. And in the end, these what that matter. If they truly do matter, then how could they be little

How do you get RICH? You THINK & GROW RICH. That's the main thing... And probably there's a reason why this book has been an best-seller still. Get the quick gist of THINK & GROW RICH at https://bit.ly/TAGRbook HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #writersofig #writerscommunity #writers #poems #authorsofinstagram #writersofindia #writerslife #writersofinsta #poemporn #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #books #bookstagram #book #bookworm #booklover #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

The time flies like the FALLEN DRIED LEAVES... A little ones go off and each & everything gets unnoticed... Well, get a little more of TIME FLIES at https://bit.ly/TheTimeFlies HASHTAGS: #poetry #writer #writersofinstagram #words #poem #writing #thoughts #writersofig #writerscommunity #writers #poems #authorsofinstagram #writersofindia #writerslife #writersofinsta #time #timeflies #goodtime #goodtimes #funtimes #writercommunity #writerofinstagram #poetofindia #instagramwriter #writerquotes #teenwriter #shadowsparkling #theteenagersdiary #thoughtsandrealizations

TRUE LOVE is one of few things that can ever be converted into FAKE. Care is a REAGENT. And sometimes, this LOVE BECOMES THE PERFECT PRISON... Check out "TRUE LOVE?" now by clicking or copying this link below

Your SUBCONSCIOUS MIND is the one with INFINITE POWER, WISDOM & KNOWLEDGE. Your future depends, trust me... Get to know about it DEEP and in gist here

Being a TOPPER is something we all have wanted at least once in our life... And anyone can be a TOPPER at his own game. But for studies, take these SHORTCUTS for free.

Everyone is SELLING. The boy proposing from the old man asking for some pennies... YOU CAN SELL has been an amazing guide which every seller i.e. everyone must read.

This body is a BEAST of sorts. And taming it is truly a life long process... But when you control YOUR SELF. You have a part of your destiny bound in your own hands. Check out TAMING THIS PHYSICAL BODY now by clicking or copying this link below

Just because someone is a guy, it doesn't mean that he doesn't feels VULNERABLE. We all have OUR OWN MOMENTS OF VULNERABILITY. And I thought that it would be good to open up.

Everyone of us would love to break OUR LIMITS. Don't you too? Well, if you fight for your limits, you get to keep them. The educational one can surely be broken though. Check out Be LIMITLESS now by clicking or copying this link below

I knew that the rain would come. And it did. Well, it was like meeting an old friend. Different vibes in the shower... well, it feels AMAZING.

Recently, felt death by an inch. It went past me. I was prepared mentally, yet SHE & MY DREAMS anchored me to this world.Read about I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/FeltDeath 

At the last bench, it's a different feeling. Shadows become friends. And there's no fear of getting stabbed behind, because there's no one behind you. Read about AT THE LAST BENCH by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/LastBench

Just going around and DOING MY EPIC SHIT. Each and every page of this book, contains a quote worth remembering. Get the GIST of the whole book here. :) ;)Read about DO EPIC SHIT by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/DEShit

Your MOMENTS OF NON-F*CKERY determines the quality of your life. Our life is limited and so are the things we could give a F*CK ABOUT. Read the super-gist of the BEST-SELLER book THE SUBTLE ART OF NOT GIVING A F*CK. Get enlightened.Read about THE SUBTLE ART OF NOT GIVING A F*CK here:https://bit.ly/ArtNoFuck 

Problems don't f*cking leave. They never do. They only get upgraded. But the good part is, HAPPINESS IS BORN OUT OF PROBLEMS' WOMB. Read about SHITTY PROBLEMS by clicking the link here:https://bit.ly/ShittyProblems 

I have a VERY DIRTY MIND. No. I don't have a Dirty mind. I have SEXY IMAGINATION.

I think I am love with her. Verbalizing my LOVE for her, the Moon. My Artemis, lightening the entire night. Chasing away all the dark clouds. Read about MY RELATIONSHIP WITH ARTEMIS by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/LoveArtemis

Being LOST is good. Sometimes by being lost, you could find your TRUE SELF. But most times, it's nothing sometimes but an ABYSS - A PIT WITH NO END.Read about LOST by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/ReallyLost

We went to Kalimpong. An amazing place. It's CALM byet surrounded by an POWERFUL UNDESCRIBABLE AURA. Something that only be felt.Read about ONWARDS TO KALIMPONG by clicking this link:https://bit.ly/OKalimpong

 Hey...Welcome to THE TEENAGER'S DIARY where you hear the different feelings, thoughts, and emotions of the teenager. Well, this is your host, SHADOW SPARKLING. I'm a different teen of 14 and I hope to enlighten you by sharing everything I have. Well,...Today, we are going to talk about ACCEPTING MORTALITY. And like always, I would love if you keep an open-mindset while listening to this. INTRO...“I don't know how I will feel when I am dead, but no matter what, I don't want to regret the way I lived.”That's what Itadori Yuuji said in Jujitsu Kaisen. That one sentence was enough to bring the major change inside me. The Realization, is what I like to call it. Well, from then on, I have completely accepted the fact that I'm gonna die one day. Which has led me, to utilize my limited time, as much as possible, in every way. But things go wrong. Life sends you lemons and we all can make lemonades, but sometimes, the way we make it, is what dictates our situation.  PETTY STUFFS.I don't want to die now. I honestly don't. I don't feel it. But there's a little probability. I have dreams to fulfil. And also have my virginity to lose. Both of my lips and my dick. I had an argument with HER, and things are not as good as I think. I still haven't yet finished this week's highlight and here, I am writing this entry in a good homestay, on a vacation to Kalimpong, upon the whim of my father to see the Kanchenjunga, the second highest peak in the world. Ma and Bon are happy to go anywhere. I haven't yet completed my science book of my class and there's a super lot to learn YET. Things have been tensed a little bit for me. The food might be IT.Recently, I hadn't had GOOD FOOD like my home for four days. And probably all of it sucks but though, it's decent and satisfactory. Clouds are jealous enough to let my father have his wish fulfilled, yet they are nourishing and petting me with their energies when I meditate. I think I'm losing touch with everything. Especially my friends. Especially among them my second crush at school. I wanted to her to hate me and not see me ever again, and hence I irritated her, and probably I think I have gone too far. She's the top girl of my class and the day before our journey I called her. It was picked up by her mother, and she CHARGED me and that too POLITELY; I didn't see it coming.  DEADLINES.I think this is good and yet at the same time fear is there. Being a mortal is super easy, you're gonna die when your time comes. And guess what no one knows their deadline. Most can only feel it before a week or less. Honestly speaking, WE HUMANS REALLY NEED TO SEE OUR DEADLINES TO INCREASE OUR PRODUCTIVITY. I'm losing it. Pain is good to feel. Taming this body of mine, has been turning out successful. No expression when the extremes hit this body, I mean. Time is passing and yet I can't devote it to my hunger of learning. In this cage, I am.  THINGS THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE.I can't even completely devote my time and as my parents, though they give me enough freedom, can't stand it when I learn something out of the track of the society. They say “It's not your age.”, “You're gonna have plenty of time.”, etc. bullshits that don't make sense to me. And if I fight back, all I get is a great lecture about being the grateful for what I have, every time. It's a good lesson and I'm grateful for whatever I have. After all, I came into this world empty handed, and every thing since then, whatever I have and have been given are GIFTS. I am not proud of that, I'm GRATEFUL for that all the time. But time is something no ones owes to no one. This bitch is gonna float and make others float. She's gonna rough you up if not treated with the respect she deserves. That hardcore is going to be on your death bed. When the-person-you-could-have-BECOME meets the-person-you-have-become, hadn't you been so scared. FLOATING.Some of us are just floating. We all have, at some point in our life. Floating aimlessly in this ocean, without anchors. I'm glad that I have HER and my DREAMS to anchor me when I feel lost. Those poets failed to point exactly at what actually binds us all. It's not empathy, it's not caring (though we all care and some of us cared), it's not human nature to be exact. It's MORTALITY. It's its branches which binds us all. That big tree has been there since the birth of time. And will be there even if this universe is destroyed.  DEAF-NOTE or THE MOST PROMINENT ONE?However, we sometimes fail to grasp the concept. It's not KNOWING that you're gonna die one day, it's ACCEPTING that you're gonna die one day. It could be anytime and anywhere. We have our death clocks ticking and the tick has been getting stronger, not day-by-day, it's getting stronger moment-by-moment. Why are we all pretending it to be a deaf note, when it's the MOST PROMINENT one every time? Are you afraid that one day, you're gonna die? It's okay to be afraid of that. I personally was afraid of that before I had my Moment of Disillusionment. But avoiding the problem, avoiding the eternal truth that all that is born must die, is not at all a smart thing to do. I don't think it is. Being aware is one thing you can try. You don't know when the person next to you, is gonna be having his/her funeral. You are gonna regret not displaying the thoughts, feelings and words that were left inside you for him/her.  Yeah, all of it makes sense, but HOW?You can simply try by saying whatever you had inside you to that particular person. You can simply open your mouth to vomit all those words which lay aback. Just don't give a FUCK WHAT ANYONE WOULD THINK. That's all. Be aware of your actions, what you did, what you are gonna do, what was the best thing that happened today. I generally use a Word document to document all the things that I did on a day every night (it takes less than 10 minutes), and then set up my goals for the next day. As for the best thing, I have gratefulness jar. Upon the sticky notes, I write every night the best thing (or things) which happened that day. That line goes like, “I am grateful for...” and at the back, would be the date. That's all there is. THE GRANDMASTER.In this mortal life, we have limited fucks to give. And hence we have to choose who, what and when to give a fuck to. That's Mark Manson's style. Learning and maintaining a basic routine (not too tight or not too loose) is an essential part of having a satisfying look on your face. PS: You alone can feel that satisfactory look (it might not have to be a smile). Time is the GRANDMASTER of all the things. Respecting it is not necessary, IT'S CRUCIAL. And the day, when you truly ACCEPT YOUR MORTALITY, THAT WOULD BE THE DAY, WHEN YOU WOULD TRULY UNDERSTAND THE VALUE OF TIME. Just let the shock, pain, feeling that one day you're gonna die SINK IN. It's gonna be psychologically a BIG SHOCK, but things will only get BETTER after that.That will be all . Thanks for being till the end. Sign up to my weekly newsletter , where I will remind you about the things you might have missed. It's FREE and will come on SUNDAYS . You just have to scroll down to the footer. I would be extremely grateful to you for doing that hard work of scrolling . Check out my INSTAGRAM & TWITTER accounts too. And also, you can get to know me at my FACEBOOK PAGE & PINTEREST. They too are at the bottom . Or you can simply click at the three lines at the top right.                 Goodbye, till we meet in the next entry .  This is Shadow Sparkling signing off.

This is the second part.

Realizations Hit hard.

The tick of our lives is coming at a stop.

Clearing up things - Dreams, Goals & Ambitions.Had it inside me for a long time.