Heart Talk with Kelly Goldson

Today's episode is short and encouraging! Change is hard, even when it's good, because it throws off our routine and sometimes knocks us off balance. I've personally been going through a lot of transition in my own life, and I wanted to share something God told me recently that really helped me to relax and trust Him.

“You are a child of God. Child of God is your most important title. This encompasses everything you were born to be, ever dreamt of becoming, and hope to grow into. I have found more power, more joy, more skill, more provision, and loads upon loads more purpose in abiding with the Lord and simply being His than I ever did surviving in the world. All of this really hit home for me one perfectly ordinary afternoon while I was cleaning up my bathroom at home. It always makes me giggle a little to myself when I think about how the Lord saw me standing there scrubbing the clouded silver nozzles on my sink, miles away in my thoughts, and tapped me on the shoulder. And just as clearly as you can hear the blast of a car horn, the deep hum of a bass, or the hearty cackle of someone embroiled in conversation - I heard the Lord gently but loudly, politely but forcefully, say to me: ‘Kelly, you think that your past is the most interesting thing about you, but it's not. I am. My love for you is what sets you apart. I didn't choose you to work for me because you have suffered, I chose you long before any of that happened. The abuse chose you because I chose you, not the other way around. So stop wearing your pain like a name-tag, wear my love.'” - Excerpt from page 277, To the Unloved by Kelly Goldson, copy written 2021, all rights reserved.

So, I have exciting news! This past March, I married my best friend and became Kelly Goldson-Vaas (pronounced like “boss” but with a V). If you've been listening for a while, then you know I was physically and sexually abused by my father from the time I was a toddler until I was 17 years old. With God's help, I've healed so much from this and built a healthy life for myself, but understandably, being abused has caused some complications when it comes to romance. For the longest time, I wasn't interested in being with anyone. For me, the fear of ending up with someone like my father was so intense I didn't even want to try dating. I met my husband, Byron, when I was 21 and he said he knew from the start that he wanted to be with me… and he was willing to wait if that's what it took. Well, it took 10 years, but here we are! This episode is about our love story, what it's been like being married after going through long-term childhood sexual trauma, and some tips for others who are walking a similar path after being abused. Friend, there is someone out there who will love you for YOU and won't rush your healing process. Love you, - Kelly

So often, we are pressured to follow the crowd, even when it comes to our faith in God. However, the Lord does not want us to do anything, even good and holy things, for the sole purpose of fitting in with everyone else. God wants wants our motives to be centered around loving Him - just like His are centered around loving us. Every step we take, every decision we make, God wants to walk us through personally. If you want to grow your relationship with God, then this episode is for you! I pray this provides guidance on how to rely less on the opinions of others, and be led by the Lord alone.

The world often stigmatizes mental illness, but Jesus never does. In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus tells the heavy burdened and weary to come to Him. We have a Savior who has compassion on us when we are burdened, no matter what the burden is (whether it's physical, spiritual, emotional, or mental.) Even when people struggle to understand what you're going through and judge you - your secrets, struggles, and feelings are safe with God. He wants to be your safe place, your refuge. It is vitally important that we stop stigmatizing mental illness in the church and show Christ-like compassion instead. We are failing our most vulnerable brothers and sisters when they need our support the most - leaving them to suffer in silence and pretend to be okay. Tonight, I'm sharing my own experiences with depression & PTSD along with powerful Biblical truths that have helped me recover. I hope this helps anyone who is fighting unseen internal battles every day. You are not alone, and you are not failing God. He sees you and loves you more than you know. - Kelly

This past December I went in for a scan to check my ovaries (I have PCOS) and they found that in the 2 months since my previous one… I'd grown more than a dozen new cysts and a very suspicious mass. In just 8 weeks. Within moments, that doctors visit went from routine to frightening. I was ushered into another exam room, where I was told I would need a biopsy. They gave me an extra-strength Motrin, a snack, and let me have a few minutes to process everything while the painkillers kicked in. I prayed in a panicked whisper, had the biopsy, and then continued to pray (and cry at times) for the next week as I waited for the results. I'd seen the worry on my doctor's face during the exam, and I couldn't get her expression out of my mind… in my gut, something didn't feel right. I just kept thinking, “I'm 29. I have a newborn niece I want to see grow up. And, my siblings… this will wreck them after what happened to our mom. God, what about the dreams You gave me? What about the future I've believed, hoped, and worked for?” He answered back, “Do you still trust me? Do you still think I'm good?” I'll be honest… at first, I wasn't sure. I was still so shocked. Everything in me and around me had been upended. Me and God had some really honest chats that week (it was a week before Christmas… such lovely timing). And, through that terrifying situation, God strengthened my faith in unexpected ways. This episode is for anyone who has been blindsided by their own bad news and is wondering what their future holds. Hold onto to God and believe that He is holding on to you. This nightmare won't last always. I hope this episode uplifts your heart and challenges your faith. If you need prayer over any area of your life, my email address is kellygoldson@heartofhosanna.com.

What we call a “harvest season” does not just happen by accident. The Bible tells us in Galatians 6:7 that we will reap what we sow. God wants to give us wholesome relationships, good health, and a peaceful mind. However, often the way God gives us these things is by giving us the strength, wisdom, and courage to sow into different areas of our lives. The enemy wants us to believe that we are powerless, but Jesus makes you powerful. You are a child of God, and when you set your mind to live the abundant life He has for you, your Heavenly Father will help you to take action.

Tonight I'm talking about the moment I knew when it was time for me to deal with my past and forgive. It's a moment with God that I will never forget. Forgiving someone who hurt you can feel impossible to do at times, especially when the wounds they inflicted are still raw and they don't even seem sorry. Dear friend, God wants you to know that He understands. He is here to help you. He will not dismiss your pain. He will not brush you aside. He wants to heal you and lead you through to the other side of trauma. When it's time to forgive, you will know it because God himself will tell you in the most loving way possible. Love you, - Kelly

In my book, To the Unloved, I shared some of the triggers that I've dealt with as a result of my father's abuse. Over the years as I have walked with God, so many of the wounds I had in my early 20s have healed. However, after those triggers stopped hurting, God revealed some other ones I didn't know were there… Trauma effects us more deeply than we know. I am so grateful that God is thorough in His healing process, shining His light and love on every single wound hidden within us - no matter how deeply imbedded they may be. He never stops until we are whole. In this week's podcast, I'm sharing about the triggers I used to have and the ones I'm overcoming right now. Healing is a process, and sometimes it's a struggle. God doesn't want us to be ashamed of the ways we still need healing. To struggle means to put up a fight! Keep fighting to overcome. God won't ever give up on you, so don't give up on yourself. - Kelly Scripture: Matthew 11:28-30 Songs: Music: Wander Musician: @iksonmusic Music: Accra Musician: Jeff Kaale Music: Beach Musician: Jeff Kaale

“Never doubt God's mighty power to work in you and accomplish all this. He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request, your most unbelievable dream, and exceed your wildest imagination! He will outdo them all, for his miraculous power constantly energizes you.” ‭‭- Ephesians‬ ‭3:20‬ ‭TPT‬‬ Don't settle for less than God wants for you. Don't settle for half-healed. Don't settle for mostly okay. Enjoy your life. - Kelly Music Credit: Music: Shoreline Musician: Rook1e Music: Solitude Musician: Rook1e Music: Chill Musician: LiQWYD

One day while studying, God linked 3 passages of scripture together in a way that made His love feel so REAL. Tonight we will be covering Isaiah 49:26, Romans 8:26, and Romans 8:34. If you ever doubt how God could love you with all of your flaws and mistakes, I hope this helps. All of God loves all of you.

If you ever wonder why you aren't seeing the victory in your life that Jesus promised, you are not alone. I used to wonder what I was doing wrong. It seemed like no matter how hard I tried, the obstacles in my way STAYED in my way… and even worse, they seemed to taunt me. I finally hit a breaking point one night and begged God to bring me clarity and breakthrough in my life. Over the next year, God reshaped how I viewed the problems in my life and taught me how to combat them effectively. I spent a lot of time talking about all of this in chapter 10 of my upcoming book, To the Unloved. Tonight, I'm sharing excerpts from this chapter! Here is the passages from scripture I reference in this episode: “See, I will make you into a threshing sledge, new and sharp, with many teeth. You will thresh the mountains and crush them, and reduce the hills to chaff. You will winnow them, the wind will pick them up, and a gale will blow them away. But you will rejoice in the Lord and glory in the Holy One of Israel.” ‭‭- Isaiah‬ ‭41:15-16‬ ‭NIV‬‬ “Jesus answered them, “Do you finally believe? In fact, you're about to make a run for it—saving your own skins and abandoning me. But I'm not abandoned. The Father is with me. I've told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world.” ‭‭- John‬ ‭16:31-33‬ ‭MSG‬‬ To the Unloved is set to release on January 25, 2022. You can preorder it now at www.heartofhosanna.com! - Kelly

My father used “Spare the rod, spoil the child” to justify his abuse throughout my childhood. Because of this, I struggled to trust God for years. I would wonder, “How loving can God be if He gave my parents permission to beat me every day?” The truth was, He hadn't. Proverbs 13:24 has been taken so far out of context. The “rod” mentioned is not a switch, it's a shepherd's staff. In Psalm 23, David writes of the Lord, “I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort and console me. (Ps. 23:4 AMP)” In John 10:11, Jesus Himself says “I am the Good Shepherd. The Good Shepherd lays down His [own] life for the sheep.” God instructs parents to lovingly shepherd their children with verses like this one: “Fathers do not provoke your children to anger (do not exasperate them to the point of resentment with demands that are trivial or unreasonable or humiliating or abusive; nor by showing favoritism or indifference to any of them], but bring them up [tenderly, with lovingkindness] in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.” - Ephesians 6:4 AMP We never have to be afraid of our Good Shepherd - He is here to guide and protect us, not hurt and demean us. - Kelly

Jesus came to pay the price for your sin and take away your shame. With His love, grace, and forgiveness in your life, you have nothing to be ashamed of. I'm going to say that again, and maybe you could take a moment to declare it out loud: “Jesus came to take my shame. I have nothing to be ashamed of! Shame, get off of me in Jesus' name!” The verses from scripture that I used in this episode are: 2 Corinthians 3:18 Psalm 34:4 Lamentations 3:23 Your journey out of shame and into the wholesome life God wants for you is a process… one that He will walk you through step by step. Let's talk about it today. - Kelly Featured music info: “As Leaves Fall” By @iksonmusic, “Another Time” By LiQWYD, “Mesmerized” By Philip E Morris Email: kellygoldson@heartofhosanna.com If you love this podcast, leave us a review!

In chapter 5 of Mark, Jesus shows us how much He values people on a personal level. He traveled all night by boat through a storm… all to reach one man who was suffering with demon possession and living in a graveyard. The demon-possessed man's story has been told throughout history and for the most part, he is known by his demons. However, it's important to remember that his story does not end with shackles, but with liberation. When Jesus left that day, the life of this man was fully restored and he was praising God! In this beautiful account of redemption, we have a man who was bound in every way — and a Savior who journeyed far to set him free. Our Savior will do the same for you every time you need Him. Let's talk about the unstoppable love Jesus has for all of us individually today.

Yup, zombies are real… but not in the way you think! So many people are haunted by a painful past that refuses to stay dead. Personally, long term childhood abuse caused me to have persistent zombie nightmares into my adulthood. These dreams were so terrifying I often avoided sleep, which lead to lots of anxiety and insomnia. When I asked God for help, He showed me that I was being chased by my past each night because I refused to face it. Tonight, let's talk about how to finally lay the past to rest in a healthy way, and have a fresh start with Christ. I know that some things feel so traumatic you think you'll never recover, but that isn't true. There is a wonderful life waiting for you on the other side of that pain, and God will lead you to it if you'll trust Him. This was based on one of my favorite entries called, “Zombies Are Real” from a devotional book I book I wrote. The book is entitled “I Am My Father's Daughter” and it's available on our website - www.heartofhosanna.com. Thank you so much for tuning in! - Kelly

“He (Jesus) was not able to do a miracle there, except that he laid his hands on a few sick people and healed them. And he was amazed at their unbelief...” ‭‭- Mark‬ ‭6:5-6‬ ‭CSB This verse stops me in my tracks. I wonder how many times we block a blessing because our faith is too small? The idea of Jesus being amazed by my LACK of faith just makes me cringe… I don't want to miss out on what God has for me because I don't believe. This week on Heart Talk, I am releasing two new episodes! The first one is this quick, 5 minute episode to encourage you to press through difficult circumstances with strong faith! The second episode will be out this Saturday… and let's just say, it might take you by surprise! - Kelly

*Note: We wholeheartedly apologize for the background noise in this audio. The nearby traffic didn't seem so loud at the time we filmed. We thought about refilming, but feared it would seem inauthentic if we did that. Some moments are so special, they can't be captured twice. So, here you go. I'm praying that despite the noise, it encourages you. ❤️ — — — — I4 years ago, I ran for my life out of the motel room my family lived in. I was almost 15 and my father had just beaten me up… again. I ran until my lungs felt like they would explode, finally stopping in the farthest, darkest corner of the parking lot I could find. My face was bloody and I didn't know where to go or who to call. Between sobs, I asked God to help me. “I called out your name, O God, called from the bottom of the pit. You listened when I called out, ‘Don't shut your ears! Get me out of here! Save me!' You came close when I called out. You said, ‘It's going to be all right.'” - Lamentations 3:55-57 MSG God has been unbelievably kind to me. So much has changed since that night. Today I am safe, happy, and healthy. I've written 3 devotional books to encourage others who are on their own healing journey, and I'm about to release my first non-fiction book. I have gotten to share the Gospel at events around the country and have seen God redeem lives the way He has redeemed my own. Recently, I returned to that corner of the parking lot I once ran to, but this time in the light of day with nothing to fear. In my upcoming book, To the Unloved, I share all the ways God has rescued me. How He healed me and interceded mightily in my life. To the Unloved will be released on January 25, 2022. For more information, visit http://www.heartofhosanna.com. For now, I just want to leave you with this. If you are going through something painful and it feels like everyone has left you to face it alone, please know that God NEVER will. You have a Heavenly Father who will always show up for you. God truly does have the power to rescue you, and He will prove it in your life. You just wait and see. - Kelly

What does it mean to truly heal? What does a restored life look like? In ministry, I often share about how broken I used to be, and how God has made me whole. Recently, I realized that so many of us have different ideas of what “whole” looks like. So, let's talk about what it means to be healed & while from a practical, biblical perspective.

I can vividly remember what it felt like to hear about God's love for me and not believe it was true. When I would try to pray, I felt awkward. If God had been a person sitting in front of me, I wouldn't have been able to look Him in the eyes. To me, I was messed up… a lost cause. It took God a while to get through to me, but eventually He did, and once I believed His love was true, deep, and UNEARNED, no one could take it from me. This is from the first chapter of my story, To the Unloved, which will be released on January 25th. Please forgive the background noise, this was filmed outside in a parking lot I used to go to pray when I was still trapped in abuse. It was profound to return to this place where I was broken after God has made me whole! Here is a favorite verse of mine from scripture, and a big theme throughout my upcoming book, To the Unloved: “For it was only through this wonderful grace that we believed in him. Nothing we did could ever earn this salvation, for it was the gracious gift from God that brought us to Christ! So no one will ever be able to boast, for salvation is never a reward for good works or human striving. We have become his poetry, a re-created people that will fulfill the destiny he has given each of us, for we are joined to Jesus, the Anointed One…” ‭‭- Ephesians‬ ‭2:8-10‬ ‭TPT‬‬ I hope you enjoy this personal glimpse into my story with God, and that it encourages you as you continue to walk with Him. - Kelly

Tonight, we are talking about the ways fear tries to control our lives, and how to overcome it with faith. My past experiences used to keep me in constant terror of the future. At first, letting go of my past and the fear (that honestly felt like a security blanket) was hard. Looking back now, I know now that my perspective was distorted. Even though fear often held me back and kept me up at night, it felt like it was also protecting me. How else would I see danger coming? When God first started to help me overcome it, I felt as though I was stranded at sea and God was taking my life raft away. I was so wrong! In this metaphor, fear was not safety from danger, but one of the dangers itself. I thought fear was helping me, but really, I was drowning in it! Faith in God taught me how to swim, empowering me to stay above the waves life brings. He saved me. The truth is, fear tries to convince us we are weak but God makes us strong. Tonight, let’s talk about how to be less intimidated by circumstances, face our fears, and live courageously with Christ! Love you, - Kelly

Hey lovely, I know what it’s like to count yourself out of something before you even start. I used to talk myself out of doing brave things because I didn’t feel good enough to try them. Over time, God has helped me to see myself as someone He desires to use in a great way. I hope this message helps you to see yourself as someone God can and WILL equip & qualify as you trust in Him. To see yourself as someone with a big destiny in front of you. The plans God for you can not be destroyed by one little mistake. Your calling is not a house made out of cards, ready to topple at any moment. Your calling is strong, built and sustained by grace, able to withstand the enemy’s attacks... your calling is bulletproof. Tonight, let’s talk about dreams that feel impossible, messy moments, finding faith when you are filled with doubt, and so much more. Love you, - Kelly

The way we can face our fears is to wake up every day and tell God in prayer: “Please help me to be brave today in all the right ways. Help me to take healthy, courageous steps in faith. I want to be living proof that all things are possible with Christ (Phil. 4:13)!” You were made to live courageously! Feeling fear is part of what it means to be a human. It happens. Just don’t let fear freeze you - keep moving forward. You can feel fear and still act bravely - this is what being brave is all about and it’s exactly what you were created to do! The moment you decide in your heart to trust God about something no matter what, setting your heart to be brave in faith, God will give you the faith it takes. Our faith is a gift from God anyways, and when you need more, God is always happy to give it! So don’t be frozen or controlled fear, ask God to increase your faith and help you to be brave! Facing your fears will help you conquer the enemy, grow like crazy in your faith, and begin to think differently. God has literally helped me to confront my fears, and in many ways, I’ve become a different person - someone brave. God can do the same for you! Love you, - Kelly Here’s my email if you would like to reach out for prayer or just to share your thoughts on this lesson: kellygoldson@heartofhosanna.com

Hey, lovely listener! Let’s continue this series on what it means to conquer your fears and really live in the freedom Jesus won for you. This is all based on powerful lessons I have learned through studying God’s Word and walking with Him. God has helped me to let go of so much fear, and I pray He uses this series to help you do the same. Learning how to overcome fear is key to unlocking the life Jesus wants us to have. How would you live if you felt completely safe? What new things would you try? How would you carry yourself? Who would you help? What dreams would you pursue? How free would you feel if you knew that even when you make a mistake, someone will always be there to guide you? Jesus wants us to know that He is a Good Shepherd and we are safe with Him. Our hearts fear when we have not yet grasped that God loves us unconditionally. “Do not be afraid of sudden fear nor of the storm of the wicked when it comes [since you will be blameless]; for the LORD will be your confidence, firm and strong, and will keep your foot from being caught [in a trap].” ‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:25-26‬ ‭AMP‬‬ “Trust GOD from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for GOD ’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to GOD! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life!” ‭‭- Proverbs‬ ‭3:5-7 MSG‬‬ It’s not that we don’t anything to fear, but that we have EVERY REASON to trust God. I hope this series is a blessing to you! Love you, - Kelly

In this new series, we will be talking about conquering our fears - both big and small! Jesus wants to help you and I become powerful people of faith who live in freedom and don’t back down. You might not feel completely free from your fears right now, but beginning today, God can lead you to take healthy steps away from fear and towards Him! Come and join me for a conversation about Jesus, sharks, roller coasters, and fears of being alone - oh what a combination! It’s about to get real! Love, - Kelly

Yes, the name of this episode is... unique. I promise, it’ll make sense if you give me a minute to explain! Hopefully, by the end you’ll be laughing along with me! Come and join me for a fun lesson on humility! Xo Kelly Website: heartofhosanna.com Email: kellygoldson@heartofhosanna.com

Wherever darkness tries to hide you... Wherever you try to hide yourself... The love of God will see you, seek you, and carry you home. For anyone who has run away from God... or anyone who is currently running... LOVE IS COMING AFTER YOU. And, when God finds you (and He will because He’s never lost sight of you), He won’t send a shred of shame your way, just redemption. This is because the Lord understands our human nature more than we know. And He knows that running away and hiding from Him is what hurting people do sometimes. He meets our flighty responses with kindness, grace, and love. God is such a safe place.

Have you ever heard of that children’s story about King Midas? Everything he touched turned to pure gold (whoopty doo for him). Though the story isn’t real, when people think of King Midas, they think of success. Personally, “successful” definitely was not a word I would use to describe myself. At least, not until these past couple of years! For most of my life I felt doomed and thought I had the “Midas touch” gone WRONG. Everything I touched or attempted seemed to turn into crap. ⠀ ⠀ If you too, feel like you have the “Midas touch” gone horribly wrong, then I pray this episode is helpful for you. Here are some of the main points we will be studying in scripture: Your past mistakes have been ERASED! Jesus came and gave you victory! So, don’t let the devil stick you with crap ever again! You are not doomed anymore. Your new identity in Christ is abundantly blessed and divinely favored! You have been REBORN for success! Come and join me for a Heart Talk and together, let’s look at our lives with new eyes! Love always, - Kelly

In this episode, we are talking about “grey area callings” and how to get through seasons when you feel misunderstood. Friend, God believes in you and this is enough. God sees something in you. He personally chose you, and wholeheartedly believes in what His Spirit is capable of through you. You don’t have to wait for people to believe in your unique purpose as a child of God before YOU believe it. Let’s declare this over our lives today: “I am who God says I am... even when I don’t feel it.” “I can do what God says I can do... even when it seems impossible.” “Even when people don’t understand the work I’m doing, that is okay with me. God will defend me and I will continue to be obedient.” Now come and join me for a Heart Talk. ❤️ - Kelly

Hey there, lovely friend! Today's episode is not your average lesson on prayer. This truly is a conversation with a prayer warrior friend of mine who means a lot to me. I have known Byron for a bunch of years and he has shown me such great support through his prayers - not just through the tough times, but we have thanked God together in prayer as well! Byron can be shy, like most of us are when trying something new (he has never podcasted before), but he is bold and passionate when it comes to prayer! Prayer has had a significant impact in my life, and in the lives of my friends. I have never known anyone who has said a prayer and regretted it. Your prayers always do something. Your prayers never, not ever, do nothing. Today, my friend Byron and I are giving God all the glory as we talk about all of the "something's" the Lord has done with our prayers. Some of these will blow your mind - they certainly blew ours! You can't limit prayer, nor its power. Prayer helps. Prayer equips. Prayer encourages. Prayer illuminates. Prayer clarifies. Prayer directs. Prayer emboldens. Lean into prayer and trust God. The only way you can do anything is with Him. God's will for all of us is to pray without ceasing. (See 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18) This means we should be both consistent and persistent in prayer. The Lord wants to hear from you. He has assigned value and authority to your prayers. God wants to see the look on your face when, after asking Him for help, you watch Him move Heaven and Earth on your behalf! Thank you for letting me be a part of your day! I hope this podcast episode makes you feel valued and loved, because you are! Love you, - Kelly

In this second part of Healing Parent Wounds, we are looking up from the wounds and focusing on the Healer of them. Lovely friend, if I could personally tell you a million times how much God loves you, I would. I think sometimes we need to hear it over and over again before it really sinks in. God really does love you, and His love really can make you whole. Your broken past does not have to lead to a broken future. I am living proof of this. God swoops into our circumstances, and because He does we can confidently say: “I am a child of God. I am not doomed to repeat my parents mistakes.” “God sees my life and He won’t abandon me.” “I am meant to have joy. So, I can look forward to a bright future and not live in dread of more pain.” There is a care-free quality children have when they know their parents love them. Lovely listener, this is what your Heavenly Father wants for you. When you give God your trust, He won’t break it. He is not just a father, He is a Good Father. You don’t have to worry about a thing. I hope this lesson leaves you with more comfort and courage than you started with. Love always, - Kelly

“Honor [esteem, value as precious] your father and your mother [and be respectful to them]—this is the first commandment with a PROMISE— so that it may be well with you, and that you may have a long life on the earth.” ‭‭Ephesians 6:2‬-3 AMP‬‬ Our pain tells us lies. The devil convinced me for years that I was an exception to the rule, that I didn’t have to honor my parents because they had abused me for most of my life. I desperately wanted God to heal my heart and family dynamic, but my personal feelings towards them kept getting in the way. The truth is, if we want the Lord to do His part, we have to do ours. Staying angry may sometimes feel like our only way of getting justice, but it’s not. Friend, real justice is living completely FREE from that burden in Jesus name! The Lord isn’t expecting us to forgive all at once. He just wants us to WANT TO, to try. If we can get our hearts into a place of surrender, He will help us with the rest. God has amazing plans for you - plans to heal you, help you, and return all that has been stolen. But, to reach this abundant life, there’s a road you have to take that’s narrow and tough... and requires you to forgive, even the unforgivable. Join me today as I talk about healing parent wounds, and the miracles God can work through us and for us when we are willing to show grace. Love, - Kelly

A deep breath can be refreshing, not just for the body, but for the soul, too. Sometimes just breathing in deeply is another way to tell God we trust Him deeply. When your schedule picks up today or things get tense, take a minute and breathe. Step back. Pray. Let God remind you that He is with you always. “And the peace of God [that peace which reassures the heart, that peace] which transcends all understanding, [that peace which] stands guard over your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus [is yours].” ‭‭- Philippians‬ ‭4:7‬ ‭AMP‬‬ Love, - Kelly

How many doors have you avoided or feared because you didn’t think God would open them up for you? Yup, I went there, ha! The more we walk and talk with God, the more He shows us about life and ourselves. This lesson has been a huge topic of discussion in my prayers as of late, because I can see now that in some seasons of my life... I have stood in my own way. My own doubt has held me back. My own limited perspective has prevented me from seeing so many hopeful possibilities. Yes, sometimes there were real issues holding me back, but all too often I have said stuff like, "I'm waiting on God to show me when to move..." When, in reality, God was telling me to "Go!" and, overcome by hesitation, I kept saying, "I'm not ready, God. I can't. No." Today we are talking about how to let go of fear and take hold of faith! God is trustworthy! When He says to move, we can always trust that there’s an open door in front of us! Walk through it with confidence! - Kelly

This final episode of my new series on “Learning To Live In God’s Abundance” is all about the victory we have through Jesus. I have discovered that there are important moments when we have to fight for what we KNOW God wants for us. Jesus said in John 10:10 that He came to give us “life to the fullest” but that doesn’t mean our lives will be free of attacks - it means we have to put our “game faces” on! There are nights and early mornings when we must declare the truth of what Jesus did for us, and the truth of who Jesus is through us, over every doubt and fear the devil sends our way. We are new creations through Christ who have been re-created for faith, bravery, and victory! It can’t get more abundant than that! Today, let’s unpack what it means to win at life in a very practical way. In previous episodes of this series I have shared how to seek the goodness God has for us. This episode, however, is about finding the courage to hold onto the goodness we have already found. I pray this empowers you! Oh, and one more thing: I was getting over a cold as I recorded this message. Please pardon my sniffles! Love you, - Kelly Email: kellygoldson@hohmkg.com Website: http://heartofhosanna.com

As we continue with this series on learning how to live in God’s abundance, today we are looking at an important statement Jesus made three times in the Gospel about His joy being completed in us. One of the surest ways to an abundant life is through the joy of the Lord. Joy in its fullest leads to life in its fullest!

So many of us are great at being content with a little bit in life, but we’re not so good at accepting lavish gifts. However, lavish and extravagant is exactly what your Heavenly Father wants to be for you! God wants to blow your mind! God wants to teach you how to live in His abundance without questioning whether or not you deserve it. Jesus makes you deserving. Friend, you don’t have to be a tragic figure in your life, even if you have had to walk through tragic circumstances. You will get to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! I pray today is a blessing for you! Love always, - Kelly

God is proud of you, whether you are working your booty off or spending a day lounging around the house in your sweat pants. Today is a sweet reminder for all of us that we don’t have to earn God’s love and approval, He gives it to us freely through His Son, Jesus (see Ephesians 2:8). We aren’t barely saved, but totally saved and God is beyond proud to call us His own!