Just Chelsea

Living with Idiopathic intracranial hypertension isn't easy. No one tells you the ups and downs you go through with this illness. It's so difficult to describe because it affects each person differently.

I'm so excited to announce my brand, Poppy and Lily is launching mid July! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

I have been slammed busy for the first part of the year and I really need to take a break. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Yes! I had brain surgery and I have a cat! And of course the roommate is moving out. I don't wanna be that person that says I'm excited, but to be honest I am hopeful. There's an omnipresence with certain people and it can suck the joy out of you. That's why I'm excited I suppose - because at least I can see a light at the end of this long dark road I have been down. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Recently I've dealt with someone who seems to draw out my negative emotions and reactions. I shouldn't say negative. I don't think emotions can be negative, I think how we handle them can be. Anyways, this person has accused me of being self centered by saying, “you know not everything revolves around you.” Interestingly enough, they say it during times in which I am unbothered by their life. I have also learned that this type of behavior is common when you are ACTUALLY self centered. Because of this I have found myself doing unnecessary research into myself. I've come to realize this person is simply upset because they are not the center of my focus. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Intracranial Hypertension is a rare disease that affects many areas of your life. Today I just want to talk about what I have experienced and others have experienced. You can find out more about intracranial hypertension by visiting Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension - IIH Symptoms https://rarediseases.org/rare-diseases/idiopathic-intracranial-hypertension/ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

With the new roommate I have almost wanted to kick him in the nuts everyday. But what I have failed to recognize is that I can be cruel and reactionary while calling it defensive. But at some point, recognizing that the world around you is shaping you to react instead of reflect is how you can combat the feeling of “everyone is out to get me”. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Spent some time getting to know the roommates "friend". She is a very bright lady, but I also feel bad for her. Partly because I'm wondering how we (women) are feeding the ego of my roommate. I wonder how giving out our time is going to play a roll in his villain story. I'm not saying his a bad guy. But damn it if he don't act like one sometimes. As of late, I have found myself over sharing. I'm not one to internalize my feelings. I used to rarely get visibly upset. But since starting diamox for my IH, I am down 23lbs and amy mood changes are noticeable. I go from 100 to 1,000 real quick. Idk what zero is. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Seriously, just vibing today. Woke up feeling pretty chill. Chill AF. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Alright I rambled. But you get the point. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Yeah I was kinda slacking this week because there's been so much going on. Like idk where to start lol --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

This episode is late so you're getting a two for one. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Sometimes we build friendships with others surrounded by darkness. Ask yourself, is that what you really want? A friend who only sees you in your darkest hour? --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

I never really put much thought into explaining the depths in which I am a person. That is until someone called me out for being inauthentic. That which I understood wasn't a jab - but a direct result of how little anyone actually knows anyone. I asked my significant other: What are my core interest? He honestly gave me a surface level - literal interpretation of skin. This made me realize that I have spent entirely too long engaging in conversations that serve me no purpose. I spent entirely too long allowing people to only come to know me at the surface. Let's be honest here, most people don't give a shit about you. They don't actually want to know you below the surface. They'd sooner learn about the idea of you that makes them the most comfortable. It is in this fact I have come to find the truth. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Discovering this Intracranial hypertension hasn't changed me, but the stigma around any illness is problematic. Being a black woman, I'm supposed to be strong and happy all the time and it's just not happening. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

I've had a busy few weeks. I'd like to thank that's a good thing, but it could be avoidance. I'm really good at that. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Had my spinal tap and other life stuff! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Nothing of value have really happened this year, outside of expensive medical bills, my mother move, doing taxes, and the occasional creeps who masturbate to my voice. You know normal things. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Yea. My ex's are like cockroaches, if a nuclear explosion were to happen I'm pretty sure they would survive. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

It's been such a long year --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

It's one of those days y'all. I'm tired so excuse me lol --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

It's one of those random days because I got stuff to do. I have also come to realize that you don't need to have stuff to talk about each day. Sometimes just chill. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

Today is the first episode of Aesthetically Dope. Let's vibe, and rant lol

Well this is the last Wednesday Beat! I didn't plan to be this busy this year and I wanted to do it before the end of the year but life happens you know. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aestheticallydope/message

I'm rambling on cause nothing happened this week. Well several things happened I'm just avoiding it. Lol --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Working with my first major client has been a challenge but I get it. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Late. Yes I know but becoming me is becoming a balancing act. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

What's up! So I went on vacation which was pretty cool! A cruise nonetheless right before a lovely hurricane decided to make it's way to my home state (booo). While all this is happening life goes on and I'm still kicking. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Don't forget to check out my designs at shedesignsthings.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

My sister was a really good person. She suffered in this life like many do. Visit siearaproject.org to learn more. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Don't forgte to check out my designs at shedesignsthings.com --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

If you'd like to read the opinion here it is https://www.supremecourt.gov/opinions/21pdf/19-1392_6j37.pdf It would be laughable if it weren't so serious. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Hey hey hey. I know I've been gone but not really! I've just been busy living life and honestly forgetting lol. Focusing on my business mostly. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

In short I'm cheap. Shedesignsthings.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Hey There! Just wanted to list where you can find me and my businesses: shedesignsthings.com - Web Design Templates, Graphic Design Youtube - She Designs Things Youtube - Aesthetically Dope - mostly neon tutorials Website: https://shedesignsthings.com Instagram: http://instagram.com/shedesignsthingsco Photography Website: https://thebokehlens.com Etsy Shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/SheDesignsT... Blog and Personal Aesthetic: https://aestheticallydope.com/ --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

I need to clear the air in case I kick the bucket. lol --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

I went to Jeep Beach! While I had fun, I do notice a problematic trend in Jeep culture. It's not everywhere, but I did notice it! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

As always, I don't plan anything when I make my podcast just be chilling, lol. Anyways, I've come to realize that I have outgrown certain things in my life, and that's not a bad thing. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Some people be reaching. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/aestheticallydope/message

Today's beat is just random. Lol

As a creator, what would you want to see, what would you want to do, if you had a space to be unapologetically black?

Didn't expect to make this a tips and tricks podcast lol. But anyways you can pickup my designs at shedesignsthings.com or head over to my personal blog, aesthetically dope. You can even Google me lol

Sometimes you leave a place and they think that you're gonna do something to them. I'm a black woman - go try somebody else with that nonsense. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I'm feeling pretty good! Lol I made blog post about my resignation - you can read it on aestheticallydope.com.

This is the part about resignations that no one prepares you for.

I resigned and it was kinda like breaking up with someone

I loved my job. I loved having a sense of purpose. I loved being able to have a different day everyday. But as time went on my job demanded more from me than I could give them. They had these expectations that I could do everything. I kept telling them I couldn't do it. I kept telling them, my plate was full, I kept telling them I needed more support. I spoke out and advocated for change. I tried my best to stay positive. But the excuses became too much. Sometimes you gotta letgo and move on. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

I'm always willing to talk. I'm not gonna advertise when I'm feeling some type of way. Sometimes the noise and self deprecation can become so loud that you don't know how to handle it. Sometimes can become the last time. It's important to recognize that this too shall pass. But it's equally important to acknowledge that it shall comeback. It's when it returns and you aren't prepared. So what do you do? Make a PLAN. If you're struggling with something make a plan to let someone know that you need help. This might be asking a friend if they can be your lifeline. Your lifeline is a huge responsibility. It's like being a godparent - but more of a guardian angel. They aren't a therapist or doctor, just the person you can text a keyword to and they know you need help. ❤️ Making plans saves lives.

I'm always working. Even if I'm trying to disconnect from work I find myself working. And it freaking blows. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Suppppppp. I still very much hate work. Flirting is not a skill and everything sucks lol --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Some people are just angry for all the wrong reasons. Like mo miserable coworker who went on a complaining power trip because I didn't say good morning to him. That's just laughable. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app