Warrior in the Garden

Holy Moly IM BACK!!! my journey into the jungle was incredible and now that I'm getting into the groove of my life again, I want to get back to the pod. I figured the best jumping point to what all happened t me while I was away, was to share one of the biggest changes that happened to me and it is about my process of decision-making.  I have a huge decision to make coming up with my business and Oje and Lotus are working BIGTIME in this whole decision process.    glad to be back, ENJOY!!   optimalaz.com @optfitness 

Just wanted to share some things I was thinking about today as I get ready to begin my 8 week dieta starting TOMORROW July 1st 2022 ENJOY!!    

What's up, everyone!!  Before I plunge into the jungle I wanted to try and get out 2 podcasts.  What's been happening for me the last 40 days and the spider is going to help me untangle this sticky web of rejection, worthiness, perfectionism, fear of being in trouble, and finding balance within the medicine world.  lessons unfolding already.   Enjoy!  

Whats up ALLLLL! In todays episode I touch on the topic of how trauma lives in your body, what has been unfolding for me during my 40 day challenge as I prepare for my trip to Mexico and how my fear of rejection has been front and center for me lately.   ENJOY!! optimalaz.com @optfitness 

Folks, we got a special episode for you! Ry, Serene & myself break down Kendricks new album and our takeaways from the deep messages on this album. Part 2 coming soon.  @optfitness optimalaz.com

For this week's episode I go into depth about my tarot card pull, and how to begin to get out of the dysfunctional triangles of food, money, and sex. ALOT OF HEAAAAT in this one, ENJOY! @optfitness optimalaz.com 

We have a DOOOOZY this week folks.  I talk about "mindset" how did yours develop? is your mindset actually YOURS? what is the difference between dogma and mindset? and a big question I open up "Is there a  difference between Hitler and the Nazis and Christians and their Soldiers?" ENJOY!!!   The man I mentioned at the end is DARYL DAVIS, I said Glen Davis, SMH.    optimalaz.com @optfitness 

"Dreams are messages from the deep" - Dune This week I break down a dream that I had of my dad yelling at me while eating a red starburst and what it means for me in my waking life.  I also go into depth about the quote "fear is the mind-killer..." MEANS.  Lots of good insights for me over the last few weeks.  ENJOY! 

Today's episode I open up about my personal experience with "The Buddha" and share how the 8 fold path is almost identical to the "Corn Pollen Path" or the "Red Road"  I was asked to teach about the topic and I share why I decided to go ahead and begin teaching in this way.  ENJOY!! @optfitness optimalaz.com

In this week's podcast, I talk about how to get out of your own personal hell.  I share about my solar plexus experience and how I got here, what it means, and the passing of my old friend & teacher. ENJOY! 

In this week's episode, I talk about the lessons I learned while taking a road trip with my family, the Jordan Peterson lecture I went to, me finding a Buddha statue and what that means for me and I address a conversation that was brought to my attention about people judging me without even talking to me...very good stuff!! ENJOY. 

Man o man!! caught fire on this one.  I think this is one of the most vulnerable episodes I've ever recorded. Tops include; worst batman my Ayahuasca internship  "If I die" and how I use that to navigate my life Ecstasy rave?? How I process hard times Road trip with my sister and her 3 kids  The end of my Creosote diet  My Intimacy Tree Creation  Enjoy!! @optfitness 

First Episode of 2022...I been SLAAAACKIN!! but today the spider called and brought me back.  I talked about whats been happening, my ketamine sessions, my creostoe diet and this new evolution that is happening for me.  It felt good to get some of it out into the universe.   Enjoy!! @optfitness   

In this week's episode, I talk about some of the lessons learned watching the new Spider-Man & Matrix, some thoughts after listening to one of Jordan Petersons most recent podcasts, Christianity, Resentment, and the O.P.T Toy drive. ENJOY!!

HOLY MOLY after 8 months...my diet is officially closed. I talk about what I learned, my 4th vision quest, my braids, and much more. ENJOY!! optimalaz.com @optfitness

WHAT A DOOOOZ?Y!! this was probably my most intense podcast (personally for me) I give an update on my diet, how I have been dealing with it, I talk about the Henry Ruggs situation, and how we are still missing the mark on "health" and much more. ENJOY!! @optfitness optimalaz.com

Oct. 11th marked 6 months of this "dieta" I am currently on along with 6 months of celibacy and it happens to be on "National Indigenous Peoples day". In this episode, I talk about what I'm learning through this journey I am on, why I think "days" like this make things worse, whats happening in society when it comes to "race" and "identity" and why I think Comedy is what will save us...HOPEFULLY. hold onto your seats...this one is a DOOOOZY. enjoy! Optimalaz.com  @optfitness

Holy moly! What a fast. I talk about what I experienced and learned during this process ( a lot around anger and resentment) and how I worked through it. ENJOY!! optimalaz.com @optfitness

In this episode, I open up about my book and some things I uncovered as I've been piecing it together. I also talk about how I am working on untangling mistakes from failures. and the difference between endurance and resiliency and I open up about some of my mushroom experiences, It was a tough week for my diet and I learned so much about myself. Enjoy! optimalaz.com @optfitness

Holy moly what an episode! I bring on one of my childhood friends (literally since 8th grade) and we talk about what we remember of each other, how we stayed friends and Corrine opens up about her brother's life being taken due to gang violence., and her non-profit "Lady Boss" Thank you to Corrine for being in my life and for coming on the podcast!! @optfitness optimalaz.com

My guy Rohit had some questions about "god" "gods" "spirituality" and I asked if we could have the conversation over the podcast and he agreed. I love having these conversations and thanks to Rhoit for starting this convo! I loved it. @optfitness

In this episode, I break down why Hollywood is ruining movies, Kanye's new album YAWN-DA, my new program genesis, how pain and shame creates our current "self" and SIN DUDA (NO DOUBT) enjoy! @optfitness optimalaz.com

In this weeks episode, I talk about how compassion ties into this diet I am currently on, LUST (yippieeee) , the movie "The Green Knight", some of the lessons I learned from keeping fire during the Tipi ceremony, what happens when you make big changes in your life, and what to do when you're in a depressive state. ENJOY!!   @optfitness optimalaz.com 

I talk about how to add "Sabor" into your life, low-hanging fruit, my tipi ceremony coming up, and my sister Ryan yelling "GAAAYYY" at a comedy show and sparking a 10 min bit haha. ENJOY!!! connect with me on IG: @optfitness

whoaaaa, I am halfway through my celibacy. I talk about what I'm learning, what I'm struggling with, my palo santo diet, and a really hard question about someone who recently committed suicide. ENJOY!

Holy moly what an episode. We talk about forced vaccinations, Clevland Guardians, how world peace isn't possible, North Korea, and how that can apply to the meaning of our lives. It was a great conversation!

I'm just a caterpillar going through a new set of changes. I talk about the caterpillar at O.P.T., Simone Biles, and how changes can be made to help people sooner than later when it comes to "mental health"

In this week's episode, I talk about my red tail hawk, how it came to be, what it means and what it is teaching me.  I also get a little emo when talking about my dad/family and some things I'm working through when it comes to all of that...YIPPEEE!!  Enjoy!  

In this episode, Rachel and I dive deeper into our conversation around hate, how to deal with it, move past it and what triggered her "hate" and her journey since leaving the Mormon church.   Thank you to Rachel for coming on and being courageous enough to share your story!

Holy, Moly... it's been more than a year since I released my own podcast and seeing as though it is my 3 month anniversary of being celibate, figured it was time to get back into the swing of things.  Please be patient with the name change and me getting back into the swing of things, thank you!! 

I recommend you listen to episode 27 first.  

The world doesn't care about health, the world cares about FEAR.  A conversation inspired by the coronavirus.  Enjoy!!

Holy moly! what an episode.  Topics are; 1) Be courageous 2) Lords Prayer in OPT 3) Spain, Apaches, Forgiveness 4) Maturing  5) My Hair  6) Everyone now a days is a "Health Coach" and a "Personal Trainer"

Holy moly!! so much has happened since the last podcast including me opening up the new O.P.T., my 2020 intentions, my 11 day fast and so much more!!

IT Chapter 2 movie review for all you CLOWNS! I break down worthiness,my hawk, my recent 40 day challenge, all the ways I still suck annnnd O.P.T. !! Enjoy

Today I was able to sit down and hear the origin story of how Martina Drassl became a Ayauhusca Shaman and somatic experience healer.  Please check out her blog homewithin.org as she shares her life through some of her writings.  Enjoy!!

WHOAAA!! I had a lot to share in this episode about O.P.T finding an investor, a rattle snake on my hike, zombies in my dreams, yelling at a guy in the grocery store, my commitment issues, what being vulnerable ACTUALLY means and why the phrase "toxic masculinity" is one of the dumbest things a person can say. ENJOY!

I break down the passion seminar, why I love helping people pursue their passions, what to expect from the seminar. I talk about a great quote "F*** good vibes only" What it means, plastic positivity and I'm looking for a new home for O.P.T.

What happened to the retreat? what is "God" according to me? and the 40 day challenge recap

I share what happened on July 19th 2019 where I called and forgave the man who molested me. Hold onto your seats....

I share the story of my Native American Grandma meeting my "white" Grandma and Grandpa, more lessons about shame, teaching meditation for one year!!

Hold onto your seats for this one, I take you on a personal journey and share some of the hardest lessons I am currently learning.

Meditation retreat update, failure,  my new morning routine, garden work, weeds, and SOMEONE STOLE OUR JESUS STATUE...WTF!?!

I talk about what is meditation, my upcoming meditation retreat, circus marketing, aladdin, and much more!

Wanted to talk about Sadness Vs. Depression and how anxiety is NOT an mental illness. Enjoy!

My good friend Fallon Reached out to me and and wanted to talk about Sex Shaming and some thing she has gone through and personal discoveries she has had when it comes to her sexuality.  I open up on the same topic as well as why I gave up porn.

My good friend Tudor and I sit down and talk about all the things that we learned from being fired.  Enjoy!!

I received a phone call from a woman that has heard me speak about my experience and she wanted to share what happened to her, I was inspired by the phone call to create this episode.  Please give it a listen and share it with someone that could benefit from it. Thank you. 

I get to open up about my boy.

I talk about some of my favorite comedians and some insight to working on addictions. 

This episode I share my very first Ayahuasca experience and how it healed my alcoholism. Please subscribe and share, Thank you!