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I talk with Scott Schuette about the importance of ownership and accountability. Of course we also go into several other directions along the way. Pretty sure there are some Endgame spoilers in here, too. I honestly don't remember everything we talked about as I had waaaaayyyyy too much to drink during this recording. See? I'm already taking ownership of my past behavior. And aspirin. Lots of aspirin today. Be sure to check out Scott on Tales From The Yard on the Leftover Army Podcast feed! Website: https://media.zencast.fm/starkcast Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/starkcastpod Twitter: @TheTubbyNinja (I'm seriously never on here though) Email: starkcastpod@gmail.com StarkCast Intro & Outro Music by James Wetzel This podcast is powered by ZenCast.fm

The "Netflix" Of Defensive Line Video Tutorials (Drills, Pass Rush Moves, Hand Combat, & Mush More): https://www.bigdawgfootball.com Submit A "Trench Question Of The Day": trenchtalk@fivestarlinemen.com What's up Big Dawg. This is Coach Rolle at Five Star Lineman Academy and we here with another episode of Big Dawg Trench Talk. Big Dawg, I tell you what. It was a excellent weekend this weekend for me. I got a chance to watch my Big Dawgs play in the trenches. Shout out to all my college Big Dawgs that's out there doing your thing, man. Applied the technique we worked on and off season. Truly, I can see it pan out. One down, many more to go. Catch it back by its toe. If he hollers, squeeze it more but you bet not let it go. I'm just playing man. Nice work baby. Man, I'm equally excited for week one NFL football. I got some more Big Dawgs I know for a fact they've been putting that work in. They had an excellent off-season, a fantastic pre-season, and we finally approach the season. I look forward to watching my Big Dawgs play one game, one series, and one play at a time. Big Dawg, you know what? Before we get into the thick of today, I just wanna talk to you for a second. I just wanna share something I've been thinking about and something I've been reflecting on as I've been talking to my Big Dawgs, preparing them mentally, psychologically, for the season and even doing a little reflecting after their first game. As a young man for me, I was around football a lot. My dad was a football coach. He was also a track coach. He played lot of football as well. He was a wide receiver, as well as a running back. He played in the NFL as a receiver. I also have an older brother who played football. He was also a running back. He was also very, very good. Ended up going to Texas A&M. So growing up for me, I watched my older brother play a lot with my dad. I would be on the sidelines with my dad at these high school games and watching the crowd go crazy as my brother scoring these touchdowns and playing good defense. I also watched them play a little college football. And that definitely turned me on to football. I wanted to be like my dad. I wanted to be like my brother as they were successful in the game of football. And here I was, this little boy trying to figure out what I'm looking at. So that turned me on to watching the game of football. I watched football a lot. Because of the way I was developing, wasn't look like I was gonna be a running back and definitely not a wide receiver. I wasn't fast enough, neither did I have the stamina to run that long that many times. Something about that just was not sitting right in my soul. So I kept soul searching. So I'm watching the game more, watching TV, watching college games on TV. And when I say TV, I ain't talking about the flat screen TV. I'm talking about these big old gigantic, big ol' huge box TVs that take up half your room with antennas on 'em. And the knobs where you might be able to get six channels on 'em on a good day and don't let you get a good channel but it's staticky and now you gotta smack it in the right spot a couple times to get some kind of clarity. Shoot. Now I realize how I learned to club. I learned how to use my hands slapping that TV. Bop, bop. Come on TV, I can't see. And don't let the knob fall off. Oh lord, the knob done fell off. How am I supposed to turn the channel? Now I'm stuck watching the same channel and it's staticky and I'm slapping it, clubbing that thing and it still ain't clear. Now I gotta go get the pliers. Now I'm turning the channel with the pliers trying to watch some football. And don't let you miss the game, you gotta wait until the game come on again. I didn't have those boxes where you can set it to record and you just watch it when you get home. Nah, you better be home when it come on because if you get home late and you turn that TV on, bop, bop, it be gone. Game is over and you watching the clock tick zero, zero. You done missed it. You wasn't home. There it go. So I made sure I was home. My friends wanted to go outside and play and we played tackle in the street. We ain't have no football. We got us a Pepsi can, we crushed it, and that was our football. I don't know whether I was crazy, I don't know if I was just crazy or I really loved playing football 'cause there ain't no way I'm gone play tackle football without a football. You playing with a crushed can, more like mob ball. And if you pick that can up, boy, your behind gone be toe up because you gone have 15 thugs, little small little gangsters coming after you, running you through the street. Oh don't worry about the cars. Beep, beep. Just cut off of them. Spin off the hood, you'll be aight. But don't let them gangsters come and hit you. The cars aight. Them 20 little gangsters, these were the thugs, you done picked up the crushed can and here they come full speed getting ready to drive you through the water hydrant. Boy I don't know what I was thinking. Why I came home so many times scratched up from the street, playing mob ball or tackle football in the middle of the street. My goodness. I done came a long way y'all. Me and football have a history. But I loved the game. I knew I wanted to be a football player. "Hey little man, whatchu wanna be when you grow up?" "I wanna play football." I ain't talk much but I knew I wanted to play football. "You wanna be a doctor?" "Nope." "You wanna be a rapper?" "Heck no. Stutter too much for that." "What you wanna be little man?" "I wanna play football." That was me, big chunky little dude with a afro, wanted to play some football. Couldn't be like my dad or my brother but it looks like destiny would have me in the trenches. But it was fun, man, I loved playing football. I didn't mind playing football in the street. Every night again, we'd have the luxury of playing in the grass with a actual football. That was even better. Played [inaudible 00:06:49] football, played D-line, played O-line, with guys three, four years older than me. But you know what? It taught me something. It taught me a lot about character. Taught me a lot about dealing with giants, dealing with people bigger than me, faster than me, stronger than me. Everybody was bigger and faster and stronger than I was. I was 12 years old playing against kids 14 and 15. I had to because when I played, it was by weight. I was heavy. I was heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy. I was too big. I remember one time, I wanted to play so bad and we had to get on the scale before we played a game. The weigh-ins. Big Dawg, I was in my undies man. My underwear. I was in my tighty whities trying to make the weight. And don't act like I was the only one out there doing that. The cheerleaders there looking at me. Big Dawg, I ain't care. I was just hoping they was clean from the back. You know what I'm saying? Your boy was just trying to play man. But you know what? It was fun. It was fun playing the game because you learn. You learn to overcome obstacles. You lean to deal with certain situations. You learn that you actually had to fight for what you wanted, eve if it cost you. You learn that growing up. No, you didn't have the best technique but you knew what you was into was good for you even though it was challenging. You knew that ultimately, this was gonna bring you something. This was gonna teach you something and take you somewhere. I knew that. And there my dad was, watching me. Proud of me. And every time I got knocked down, I looked at 'em in his eyes and he said, "Son, get back up again." And he said all that without opening his mouth. You know what I'm talking about. Yeah one of 'em dads if you even blessed to have a father, or a father figure that look you in the eye a certain way and he done told you a whole paragraph, word for word without opening his mouth. That was my dad man. That man, he played the piano but he did not play PE. He just ain't play. Man it got to a point, Big Dawg, that football changed for me. It began to change. I began to hear on TV how they talk about how big somebody was, how tall he was, how strong he was. I would hear the NFL football analyst talk about his arm length and how big his hands were and how that was the reason why he would bat down balls and shed and throw guys around. And they began to list all the tangibles, all those things that they said made a great defensive lineman: his height, his strength, his speed, his quickness, his arm length, his hand width. All of these things make for a great defensive lineman. So here I am, watching these things, looking at these things on my big old box TV that half the time I can't even see. Wha, wha. That's me, hitting the side of the TV. Be careful. Be careful 'bout that TV. You know what TV stand for? Huh? TV. What does TV stand for. No I'm not insulting your intelligence. I'm just asking you a question. What does TV stand for? Well I learned it stands for television. TV stands for television. Now my next question is what does the TV, or what does the television do? My dad actually told me. He would tell me this and I would not listen to him. He say, "Alright Bubba, stop watching so much TV now. Ain't nothing but a ignorant tool." "What's you say Daddy?" "That ain't nothing but a ignorant tool." "A what?" "A ignorant tool." My dad called it a ignorant tool and you know what? I agree with him for the most part. Television means just what it says. The television tells a vision. It tells you a vision. What vision is the TV telling you? Whatever the vision is, is what we can sometimes deem as truth. What's my point? When I was young and I'm watching the tell-a-vision, the TV tell me a vision, the vision that I was getting was that in order to be a football player, that I had to look like that. The vision was portrayed for me that I had to look like the vision the television was showing me. So I began to look in the mirror and compare the vision to what I actually saw. And it wasn't looking like I matched up to what the television was telling me. So because I didn't match to what the television was telling me, I began to misinterpret what I was seeing in the mirror. And I began to question myself. The game that I have so loved and seen so much of growing up, the game that I used to love to enjoy playing in the street with the crushed can, the Ma Ball, the game that I watched my brother play. The game that if you asked me what I wanted to do, I say play football, began to tell me through the television a vision. Now I'm definitely not against television at all, so I don't want you to misunderstand what I'm saying. What I'm saying is that the message that I received was wrong. I totally misinterpreted what I was seeing and what I was hearing, the television tell me was also wrong. I would hear on the television a lot about the tangibles, as I mentioned before. But I would never hear about the intangibles. Those things that we can't see, all those things that we can't touch. I wouldn't hear a lot about the attitude of the player. I wouldn't hear a lot about the will of the player. I wouldn't hear a whole lot about how it was really about the motivation and inspiration these athletes had to be great. I wouldn't hear that. But what I did hear was a lot about the tangibles, and that's where I began to compare myself and that's definitely, big dawg, where I went wrong. For episode number eight, we're going to open it up to two of our subscribers, which I really appreciate them asking me a question, a trench question. And the question had a lot to do with what I was just referring to. Shout out to Big Dawg [Kip 00:13:27] and Big Dawg Tyler, I appreciate you all being subscribers, and I definitely wanted to answer this question for you guys because I think it's extremely important. So let me read the questions here. This is Kip's question. I'm big and I'm decently strong, but I'm not that tall. I'm only 5'8" and I play interior D-line as a one technique. How do I increase my productivity against O-lineman that are often taller than me? It's really difficult for me to see around them. I have a good pass rush, but because of my limited ability to see around them, it's hard for me to see the ball handoffs, and stuff and a couple of times has cost me big time during the games. Okay, Kip good question. Now let me read Tyler's question. I'm 6'3", 160 pound, five tech defensive end. My pass rush is decent, but most linemen I play against are much heavier than me, and sometimes I feel unable to move them, especially in the run game. I was wondering if you have any advice/techniques that would help me in those situations. Big dawgs, I think those are valid questions, and I sincerely appreciate you asking them. All right, big dawg, let's talk about it. When I read these questions, the first thing I can think of is, man, that was me. That was me comparing myself, comparing the tangibles, to the guy across from me. That was definitely me. And sometimes I will be bigger than the guys across from me, and because I was bigger than them, or stronger than them, in my mind that meant that I was better than them. But there were a lot of times, especially when I started playing high school and then even in college especially, those guys started to be a lot bigger than I was. Now if my confidence relied on how big I was and how strong I was or how tall I was, then at that point my confidence is gone because I'm not bigger than those guys no more. I'm not stronger than those guys anymore. So therefore, does that mean I'm not better than them because I'm not bigger than them or I'm not taller than them or I'm not stronger than them? I was completely mystifying how I would do in that game because my definition of success was all about my tangibles. It was all about how much bigger I was or stronger I was. It's just interesting to me when I read these questions, one person said I'm big, but I'm short, and the other person said I'm tall, but I'm light. The first part of the sentence was I'm big comma, and the other person said, I'm a 6'3", 160 pounds, five technique. Big dawgs, I completely understand where you're coming from, but as being big dawg, I have to say this, it is not about the size of the dog in the fight, but it will always be about the size of the fight in the dog. Can I tell you a quick story? Real quick, big dawg. I want to tell you a story about Little Willie. They call the dawg Little Will short for Willie. Every day Little Will will walk down the street and he will always get to this gate when he saw this big dog. I mean this dog was big slobbing out the mouth, but Little Will have to have that bone. So as soon as Little Willy saw the gate and he saw that bone, Little Willie get in the gate. Here come Little Will busting through the gate, running full speed to the bone. As soon as Little Will went to bite on that bone ... that big dog, slapped him with his paw. Little Willie ain't like that. So he charged at him again, and that big dog lift up his paw ... stopped Little Willie again, and that big dog went charging at him. Bit him, tussled a little bit and Little Willie ran out the gate. Ran home. There Little Willy was in his gate, beat up and boneless. So the next morning he thought about that bone, and he went back down the street where he knew that bone would be. So Little Willie went right to that gate. The same one he was at yesterday and there it was, that bone. Willy saw that bone, got through that gate, full speed to that bone. Bit that bone, headed for the gate. Here come that big dog ... swatted at Little Willy. [inaudible 00:18:23] bone done came lose. Big Dog beat up on Little Willy. Swatting him, throwing him around, growling at him ... Little Willy ran out the gate, ran as fast as he could back home. There Little Willie was again, beat up and boneless. The next morning Little Willy was thinking about that bone. He went again, and again, and again trying to get that bone, and it seemed like nothing was changing. That big dog kept beating them up and Willie kept running home, beat up and boneless. All those weeks have gone by and Willy was still boneless. But one morning Willy was determined to get that bone. Willy was like, "I gotta get this bone. I ain't gonna stop until I get it." So he goes Willie again walking down the street, think about how he going to get this bone. And there it was, there was the gate, and he looked in that gate, and he saw that bone. And Little Willy came through the gate and he saw the bone and he saw that dog. You know what Willie did? Huh, big dawg? You know what Willy did? Willy charged at the dog. Willy went full speed and he went and attacked that dog, that big dog, and they was going at it, and they was going back and forth swatting at each other. Growling and tussling. See Little Will wasn't little no more, at least not his will. His will had grown, and that big dog was tired. That big dog was tired of Little Willy coming to get that bone every day. Day after day after day as if every time that big dog beat up Little Willy, it meant nothing to him. He kept coming back every single day. Little Willy really wanted that bone, and that big dog realized it. That big dog realize that beating Little Willy up meant nothing to him. He wasn't gonna stop until he got that bone. So the big dog stopped growling. He backed up as if to say, "Man, just take the bone. You want the bone that bad? Just take it. Just stop coming right here in my gate. Take the bone and forever stay away from my gate." You know what Little Willie did? Huh, big dawg? I bet you can't guess what Little Willy did. Little Willie left the bone. He left that bone right there in that gate. And Little Willie walked out the gate and looked at that big dog and said, "I'm leaving the bone here." The big dog in went up like ... "What? After all this time you wanted the bone." "I did, but now I got an excuse to come back and whoop your ..." Little Will was making a mistake. The reason why he was Little Will because his will was little. That's what made them little. Not that he was physically little, but his will was little. All Little Willie wanted was the bone. The bone was the most important thing to him. But see, that was the problem. The bone was more important. But it wasn't a bone that caused Little Willy to grow up. The thing that changed Little Willy, what made Little Willy bigger and stronger was the fight. The fight was doing something to Little Will. The fight was changing him. The fight was causing him to refocus what he really wanted. A lot of times we go into the gate like Little Will focusing on the wrong thing. We're teaching our young men to get the bone, but we're not teaching them to fight as a young man. As a man, the most important thing is to learn how to fight for what you want. If you want it big dawg, fight for it. That big dog might be standing in front of you slobbering at the mouth, slapping you down and around. But I'm going to tell you like my daddy told me without even opening my mouth, big dawg, get up and try again. What you need to win is within. Leave the bone alone and go get that dog. It's about being a man. That's the real vision. You have to be willing to stand up, and squared up in front of any opposition that's keeping you from what you want. Sometimes our focus is wrong, and we all about the stats. I got 10 bones today. I got 12 bones today. We ain't fighting though. Your will, your will, your will has to grow. You got bigger task than that. If the bone is all you want, then that bone you might never get. If there's something that stands in my way, then you're my first task for today. What eventually made me a better player is that I had to tell myself another vision, and that vision was that my will had to grow. I couldn't grow no other way, no tangible way. I am what I am, and after coming home plenty of days beat up and boneless, I finally looked in the mirror and said, "This is who I am, and this is all I need. As long as I have oxygen in my body and blood in my veins, I'm fighting everybody." If you keep standing in front of my way, keeping me from what I have to have, pap pap, come get some. Move, I can't see. You understand what I'm saying Big Dawg? The only way that I could grow and the only thing that was worth growing was my will. I had to out-will the guy in front of me, but it started with not wanting a bone. It started by wanting to be a man and fight, and that's when the fight in me finally grew big and strong. Now my will was grown. See I'm six, one and a half, maybe 6'2" on a good day. It don't even matter. And in college when I finally figured this out across was for me was 6'8", 6'7", and I'm putting my gloves on smiling and I'm telling you, I start bringing all I had every single play. When I start making plays, when I start making tackles, when I started batting balls down, when I started causing fumbles and recovering fumbles. You know what I did Big Dawg? I bet you can't guess what I did. Every time I gave that ball back with a smile on my face. Why? Because now I have an excuse to comeback on this next play and whoop his ... I'm just messing with you Big Dawg. I don't curse, man. My parents did raise me a little differently, nothing against those that do, but my dad ain't play that and he still don't play that. So what am I really saying here Big Dawg? What I'm saying is, if you're 5'8", use that 5'8" to your advantage. Use that to help you establish better leverage. Use that to help you get underneath the chin of that offensive lineman. If you're a taller guy, then use your leap. Be quicker than him. Get on that offensive lineman and get off. If he's heavier than you, most of the time it might mean that you might be a little quicker than him. Use that to your advantage. The problem that I have with the question or at least the mentality behind the question, is seeing heavier as being an advantage, and seeing you being lighter as a disadvantage. Here's what I'm saying. When you begin to look at yourself and look at yourself as a disadvantage, that's the problem, because now somehow I have to convince you that your disadvantage can still get the job done. That is very hard to convince somebody that their disadvantages can still accomplish a goal, or that their disadvantages can still achieve what they will want to achieve. It's almost impossible to convince somebody that is looking at themselves as a disadvantage or believe that they are full of disadvantages that they actually can accomplish their goal. It doesn't matter what technique I tell you to use or what I tell you to do, it's not going to help until you get out of your mind that you are or you have lots of disadvantages. Stop focusing on what you don't have and focus more on what you do have. Big Dawg, you have to change your mentality. The fact that you are lighter than him is the advantage. The fact that you are shorter than the guy in front of you can play to your strength. Progress starts when you start seeing yourself as advantages instead of disadvantages. When you start looking in the mirror and saying that what I have is all I need, then your will, will start to grow and you'll start to see yourself achieve. I want to read you a quote from Bobby Jones. Bobby Jones was a golf player, a very successful golf player. And even though this is golf and not football, what he said is very true and will always be true. He said, "Golf is actually a game that's played on a five inch course, the five inch course that is the distance between your ears." Man, that's a very true statement. The first game that you actually play, the first battle you actually have is in your mind. It's all the doubts, it's all the negatives, it's all the disadvantages. It's all of the visions that the television tells you. All of those things that you think you can't do, you won't. It is. It's such a battle going on in our minds and we get to the point where we don't trust ourselves to play the game. We believe more in our fear than in our faith, and that mentality causes us to not see the truth. And what's the truth Big Dawg? The truth is that I don't have a disadvantage. The truth is the more you believe in yourself, the more you will see. But until you believe you're not seeing anything, you'll never see the truth. You'll never accomplish what you're supposed to accomplish. But I'm telling you Big Dawg, everything you have is all you need. I'm telling you Big Dawg, do me a favor. Go and look at the NFL history books. Even look at some of the rosters right now. You will be surprised at some of the height and weight on some of these guys. Some of these guys are not as heavy as they say. Some of these guys are not as tall as you think. I've seen some 5'11"s out there balling. I've seen some guys in the low 200s out there balling, and yes, I'm talking about guys in the trenches. I'm not talking about safeties or corners. I'm talking about those dawgs in the trenches. Those wills in there. Have you ever seen John Randle's story? Hopefully you know who John Randle is. He just in the hall of fame. One of the best defensive lineman that I've ever seen play the game. There's been a lot of them, but my God, he's one of the best. How tall was John Randle? How much did this man say he was? Did you hear the story? How he had to put chains round his waist just to get a shot, because he couldn't gain the weight? Go look this man up. He was a mad dawg. Watch this man's story, and then go and look at what he accomplished. He's in the hall of fame. He's one of the best to ever do it, but was nowhere near one of the biggest physically to do it. But I tell you what, the size of that fight in that dawg right there, if you listen to his story and you listen to where he came from, and the things that he had to deal with, the size of his will was huge. And if you listen to his story, he talks about going against one of the best offensive lineman in the NFL as he was part of the Minnesota Vikings. He talked about how he went against him every single day. And he figured that if I can beat him, I can beat anybody. And John, not afraid to say it, and he said it. He said he'd get beat by him almost every day, but he just kept coming every single day until finally, finally he beat him. See, that's the mentality we need. It's not about the bone. It's about the fight. Muhammad Ali said it best. "Rumble young man, rumble." Muhammad Ali, the greatest of all time. Rest in peace. You got to be willing to fight. You have to understand all you need for the fight is within you. All you need to be successful in the fight is within you Big Dawg. No, you're not too short. No you're not to light. You're actually tall enough and you're just right. Get in there Big Dawg, get in their and fight. And one day all the crowd's going to be gone. All the thousands of fans, they ain't gonna be there. There ain't going to be no bone to fight for. What now? You fight. Because you're a man, you fight. Well, y'all got to be ready to go back and strap your play. I'm telling you boy, just give me one play. Don't even give me one series. Just give me one play. That's all I need. As always Big Dawg, I appreciate your time man. I appreciate you spending it with me. Thank you so very much for downloading another episode of Big Dawg Trench Talk. I hope you find this very valuable. It is something that I wish that I had heard as I was growing. I definitely needed it. I wish that I heard this when I was in college. But eventually I did and I needed it. And definitely when I played professionally. Playing professionally has its own challenges, but all in all I had to fight my way through. Thank you so much for subscribing. Thank you so much for subscribing to Big Dawg Trench Talk. Thank you for the awesome reviews and the awesome ratings. We really appreciate that. But also thank you so much for visiting www.bigdawgfootball.com. A lot of you have actually visited. I really appreciate that Big Dawg. Thank you. Thank you for joining me in the mission to make a defensive lineman, the best defensive lineman they can be. That is my mission. I don't care how tall you are, I don't care how much you weigh, I don't care how light you are. I don't care how big you are. My goal as a coach and our goal as coaches in the Big Dawg Community is to get you to understand that you have the advantage. That when you look in the mirror, that is all you need and we're going to figure out how to use what you have to your advantage. To me, that's what takes a good coach is to help that young man to see that what he needs, he has. It's not just about taking that 6'7" guy who's already very strong, talented and gifted. He just looks like he was just born to play football, born to make plays. That's great too. But also it takes even more skill as a coach to take that young man, take them for exactly who he is, and take what he has and to help him to dominate that guy in front of him. At bigdawgfootball.com. We have all of the resources and tools you need to help those young men dominate the trenches. To help them be tacticians in the trenches. And we're adding resources all the time. I'm telling you Big Dawg is the best D-line content in the world.I might be a little biased. Go visit and subscribe. On our next episode, we'll dig more into the mechanical side of things. First we had to tackle work the mental side. As they used to always say, 90% of the game is mental. I never understood that until recently. All right Big Dawg, enough talking. It's time to strap up. Stick those cleats in the dirt.

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I am here. Here I am. You know when you look something up on YouTube and then it doesn't give you the thing that you were looking for and then you thought that it was there? Lee Gibbs, what's up? Rich Hot Empire bad ass in the house. I feel like I'm having one of those days, one of those days, one of those weeks, one of those lifetimes where the world just seems overly quiet. I feel that I should brighten it up. Up, up, up. This is Will Robinson of the [crosstalk]. What? ... group. I'm the- Stop. ... to discover evidence of an alien intelligence. Oh, shit. YouTube stop. YouTube is just doing what it fucking wants. Should we let it keep going? YouTube's just rocking it on out. I wasn't even going to do that. Oh, okay. No, that's enough of that. It's been one of those days, one of those lifetimes, one of those weeks, one of those months, one of those years where you know when you just look around or you walk around or you go around? Do you think we have too much light? Less light? Sad. More light. Happy. Cord in the way, not happy. Hello, people of the internet. Now you can all wait for just a moment, just a little moment. Chat amongst yourselves. Because what I want to do is share this lives too. Larissa, I considered changing my shirt because I feel like people already saw this who were live with me in the High Vibe Mastermind just before. I could have made the effort to change my shirt. Then I was like, "Well first thing, nobody gives a fuck." Secondly, I look fucking fabulous because of my amazing light so why would I change anything? I'm just going to sit in this chair and basically never move until the end of time. Then what happened was smack down time. Purpose church with Cat. I think that's what's happening. Let's go. What happened was we were talking about all the things. What's happening now? Do you feel like I look less bright than I did before? No, that's too much bright. I think I might have a small lighting addicts anonymous problem of some kind. I don't know how I even lived in my life before lights. Now I got to admit, the world seems kind of quiet when I'm not talking. It seems wrong basically is the truth of the matter. It seems like I should always be saying something. I have many things to say. Come on over. I suspect you're probably the same. This is one of those live streams where you've got to get up higher. You got to get up higher, because you can feel that the ... I feel like I should sit on the back of this chair. Do you think I should have been sitting on my throne? Is it just flat-out bad form that I'm not sitting on my throne right now for this live stream? I'm sorry. I'm in my pyjamas. Do you know what I'm going to do? I'm going to do my stretches while I sit here. I get a daily notification reminder from my Google calendar that says, "Stretch whilst learning Russian and French." I don't know if you can learn Russian and French at the same time as each other, but I'm attempting to do it while stretching every evening in my groinal region, because I've decided that I want ... [Corinne 00:04:30] says I should go to the throne. Show of hands if I should go to the throne. Send your votes into me via love hot shower. If you're on your cell phone thingy, then where your emojis are, emojis, the little sticker that's on the inside of the emojis is going to blow your beautiful mind. You'll be able to send flying angel devil cats across the screen. Do it. Do it. Oh my goodness, [Rashida 00:05:00] says throne as well. How am I to deny? I'm nobody to deny. Anyway, I've decided I want to be able to have ... I'm sorry, this is just one of my goals, and I'm going to do it. There they are, the stickers. I want to be able to open my legs completely up, out wide, like a sideways splits. I want to go back to doing the sideways splits. What's wrong with that? Nothing. I used to be ... I can still do the regular splits. I can demonstrate right now if you insist. Probably won't, because I feel like this live stream is already going to go in too many crazy directions for sure. I want to get back to doing the sideways splits. My system is, I'll show it to you, my system is that every evening when I'm sitting here like so thus, thusly, on my chair, doing my work in the evening. By the way, if I'm ever on the phone to you, if you're my client and I'm on the phone to you and you know that it's evening time for me, I guarantee you I'm doing a groyne stretch at the same time. What I do is, I'll show you. That was not what I meant to do. Calm down. I put two chairs ... My pants are just cool, that's why they've got holes in them, all right? Nobody ripped holes in the pants. They came like that. They were extremely expensive. I got them in Beverly Hills at the yoga studio. They're Arlo pants. I have the matching top. I look cosy as fuck when I'm wearing it all. I sit on one chair that's back a little bit like this, and then I put the other chairs slightly forward, one on each side. Then I sit there, and I get into it. It's pretty painful. Then over time, I widen. I widen, like I basically am creating some kind of a 17th-century, one of those stretchy torture, the rack. You know what I mean. When they would put you on the rack, okay? I'm going to try to get this back in the tripod now. I'm getting into it already. It feels uncomfortable, but it feels like it's going to be beneficial in many ways, which I'm sure I don't need to explain or point out. One of them is I'm going to become a gymnast. I am a gymnast already. I can do many gymnastic-y things from when I was a gymnast. See? I'm going wider already. I can't do this in the throne though. Now I'm getting into my stretch while I'm doing it. My legs are nearly all the way out. Well, they're not at all. They're not at all. They will be at a right angle. Give me a couple more weeks and they'll be all the way out. I learned this from Amanda Francis, by the way, because she was insane flexibility, that girl. I have pretty damn good flexibility myself actually, but she told me how when she was 13 she would lay up against the wall and just every day let her legs go down further and further. We were working out together at the gym when she came to attend my San Diego day. Then she ended up sleeping in my bed. It's a normal thing to happen with your private clients. Then we went to the gym together the next morning, and she was just stretching all over the fucking place. I'm not used to people being more stretchy than me, and I didn't particularly care for it, but I was impressed. Basically, that's a long story of how I decided to do my stretches daily while sitting on my chair and learning French and Russian at the same time. It's not really working that well on my subconscious mind so far to try and mix the two languages together. I feel like if I'm committed to it and I just decide, then it's going to work. That's how I feel about it. Now I've got to come back, back, back, back, back to wherever I picked up this story earlier. We were doing the High Vibe Mastermind live stream. I don't know if I can go to the throne now you guys, because the problem is that when I stretch my legs this wide and I've got them on the chairs, like on the stretching rack, they're kind of stuck now. I'm kind of stuck here in the sideways splits stretching position. I'm going to have to stay here until morning until somebody comes along and rescues me from my own crazy self. I think we're going to stay here. In theory, the throne would look a lot better. Now I'm starting to get throne [inaudible 00:09:23] by not being on the throne. Too bad. Let's wait for tomorrow for the throne. We were doing the High Vibe live stream for my members. I was talking about bringing the energy that you need to bring, the energy. Leo, you think you just joined at an interesting time, you seriously are mistaken, my lady. You need to rewind afterwards, because you will see the real shit that actually just happened, although it was not that interesting at all really. I feel like it definitely is normal to be ... I demonstrated the stretch. I showed the whole situation and explained it in a very professional manner. It's definitely normal to be so high vibe that you couldn't sleep. It would actually be rude and selfish to the rest of the community to not be so high vibe that you couldn't sleep. Then the next thing that I was going to say was okay, the spotlight thing, I'll get to that in a moment. It was a very relevant point. Thank you, Jamie. I appreciate the validation of my hilariousness. I did have quite the argument with my brand designer in LA in February as to whether or not I was allowed to be officially branded as hilarious, because he tried to argue with me that I'm not hilarious. He said maybe I'm funny, but not hilarious. He's German and he's quite German about it. I can say that because I'm sub-German. I don't know if sub is a thing that's relevant to our culture or our race, but I'm honorary German from growing up there in my teens and I speak it fluently. So there. Anyway, he was like, "Well, are you actually hilarious? Because I don't think you're hilarious. I think that you'll find that you're funny." He didn't want to include hilarious as one of the descriptive words in my official rebrand. He's a good friend as well, by the way, so I felt no problem at all saying exactly what I think. Not that I normally do. I was like, "Excuse me, I am fucking hilarious, Chris. I will prove it to you." I said, "People send me laughing emojis all the time on my live streams, and they tell me that I'm hilarious." He said, "They're just sending live feed emojis and they're saying hilarious, but when people say hilarious, they really mean that you're funny." I was like, "No. No. No." I got straight on What's App and I was like, "Team ninjas, find me all the most hilarious clips of my live streams and send them over forthwith before the end of business LA time." Which they did not do, because they were fucking asleep because it was the middle of the night in Australia. Instead, I had to do a live demonstration for him. A live demonstration. The only thing for it was to tell my story of spiritual pooping, so that's what I did. By the end of the story, he was in a state of somewhat shock and horror. I mean, I think that people have a certain perception of me. I can present the world, myself to the world, as a fairly classy lady about town when I feel so aligned and maybe I carry a Chanel bag or whatever, and it makes people think that I'm [inaudible 00:12:36] and standing. Then I just bring out the freaking country whatever it is that's just up in there that just comes out, just I don't know, I can't even explain it. It's probably the same part of me that was singing freaking Cold Chisel on the live stream in the High Vibe before. I'm so sad that I didn't finish the rest of that song. I feel like I should sing some of it now for you, because I was so into it. Who wants me to sing Khe Sanh? I want to sing Khe Sanh. I was so into it. I wanted to be rocking it out at the pub or something. Anyway, by the time I finished the spiritual pooping story his mouth was hanging over in shock and he probably was going to sack me as a client, except it was too late I was already there with my entire team from Australia with me as well, or half of them. He agreed that I'm fucking hilarious. There we go. That's the whole story. Zing. I'm not making this up, but there is a ghost in the house. Because just when I said zing, okay it didn't happen that time, but the time before that the dishwasher just sung. It's a dishwasher ghost. Well obviously [inaudible 00:13:44] it's spiritual pooping. If you don't understand what spiritual pooping is, you can't understand it. I suppose I could tell you about it but I don't really care to. Just so you know, it's not an analogy. If you watched all of my live streams, it would only take you 1.5 lifetimes, but you would definitely see me talk about it at some point in time. Not the stupid water machine. What's next? Then we're in the High Vibe Mastermind live stream. I was singing a bit of Khe Sanh, because I thought that Jimmy Barnes was downstairs on the beach. According to my client Lisa, it was a fake Barnes. Barnes is going to be here sometime over the weekend. If you don't know who he is, you should just become Australian immediately and then you'll understand. He's like the Aussie answer to Jon Bon Jovi. He's an ageing rocker. He's an icon. He's like the man of my youth, so to speak, in a not-weird way. He's going to be right downstairs on the newly-erected stage that's just down there this weekend. I got super excited about it. Who could not get excited about a little bit of Barnes on a Thursday evening? As a result of that, I had to play some Cold Chisel. It all went on from there. Then at some point in time, I had to sing it, because you can't not, clearly. Then from some point from there, it got into talking about energy of sales. Energy of sales. Then I wrote down an important catchphrase which came forth from my mouth as I was presenting. The catchphrase was well if you want to be in the spotlight, then fucking act like you deserve to be in the spotlight. I thought, "That is a damn good Facebook post." I can put it as my goodnight Facebook post before I go to bed. My hair is stuck. My hand is stuck in my hair. I'm not trying to just sit here with my hair looking cool. My hand's actually stuck. It's stuck. There's some kind of weird situation going on there. It hurts. It really hurts. What's happened here? I think somebody's put honey in my hair. I don't know what's going on in my home today. There's all sorts of shenanigans, and not in a good way. I'm losing the gist of it. I feel like we should move to the throne. I feel like I learned something. Should we play some Cold Chisel to make up for it? I feel I can get it to work. I think I've been waiting for it, this whole moment. If you're not Australian, just seriously sort yourself out. As I said to the High Vibers, the thing that you've got to understand about me which is a bit of a confessional that I never thought I would say is I think I'm actually bogan at heart, because I get so excited by a bit of Chisel or Barnes. Recently when I was on the phone to my lawyer about my will, he asked me which songs I want at my funeral, which I thought was a little bit of an untoward question to ask somebody while they're sitting in Bali drinking a fucking smoothie. Nonetheless, I answered the question like the professional I am. I said, "Well, obviously I want Khe Sanh at my funeral, followed by House of Pain, Jump Around." Here we go. If you don't know the song, sing along anyway, because you must know the song. (Singing) Just one more little piece. (Singing) It's so good. (Singing) Mark loves me. I don't get [inaudible 00:17:53]. I don't know what's happening. He loves me. Thank you, Mark. (Singing) He said their legs were often open but their minds were always closed. A little bit more. We'll just keep going, because we just roll. (Singing) I don't know all the words now. I'm just waiting until bits that I know. (Singing) If you don't know the song, you've got to go listen to the song. I just don't know how anybody could have survived in life without Khe Sanh. Really, like really. The world seems so empty and quiet without that music on. I don't know why I keep getting away with being able to sing on my live streams and play music, but I'm rolling with it until I get an official pardon. I don't want a pardon, because I've got nothing to be pardoned from. A memorandum that says don't do that anymore. He does talk about going to southeast Asia. That's a good bit. I feel like we could play that bit. Let's talk about the spotlight thing. I feel like there's so many boring people on the internet. Sometimes I'm pretty fucking sure that I'm one of them. I know I can be extremely laissez-faire about how I'm showing up. I apologise for that. If you ever see me being really dull, like I'll give you a demonstration of how I am when I'm dull. Hi. Today we're going to talk about online marketing. I'm going to teach you about online marketing. What I've learned about online marketing is that there's a lot you need to know about online marketing. Probably the main thing you need to know ... It's [inaudible 00:19:43] laugh at yourself when you're being so bad. Probably the main thing you need to know about online marketing is that online marketing is a very ... I lost it. I'm sorry. I don't know. Probably that's how I've acted sometimes. It's just teaching you about online marketing in a very serious way. I never sound like that. I feel like it sometimes though. Good, I'm happy to hear it. You know that when you teach people properly, like properly, not prop-ly but properly, about online marketing, you've got to make your eyes bigger. You've got to make your eyes a little bit bigger like that and put your eyebrows up, just up. Just get them a least bit up. You've got to slightly tilt your head forward. It starts to look a little bit crazy. I'm just channelling other fempreneurs that I know. Fem-bot-preneurs. I feel like I've done it sometimes. I feel that way. I'm happy to hear that I haven't. This is how it's done, if you wanted to know. You jut your head forward a little bit, and you talk with an upward lilt at the end of every word, because actually you don't know what you're talking about. If you just keep talking, even though you've got that slight question in everything you're saying, maybe people will buy from you. Then you forget what you're saying, you freak the fuck out, and you don't live stream again for four months. You've got to look a bit ... You've got to go like that with the eyes and the eyebrows and the head forward, because then people know you're very earnest. The number one thing that you should be looking like when you're teaching about online marketing ... By the way, my vagina is getting fabulously stretched right now. I haven't moved my position from the sideways splits the whole time we've been talking. I was excited about that. The number one thing when you're teaching about anything, not just online marketing, is to look very earnest. Because if you look very earnest, then people know that you know what you're talking about. That's how you do it. That's the boring version of me, which I apologise for, which I feel that I've done many times. We might have a problem. Oh no. Oh, lucky. I thought my lights had died. I was going to give up and leave. Let's just skip ahead then. Let's just skip ahead. Here we go. We'll skip ahead to here. (Singing) We had a good intermission. Let's continue on. I did a damn good job of boring [Leora 00:22:31]. Don't mock my boring. It was boring as fuck. It was quite energetically exhausting, to be honest with you. I feel like my eyes have goggled up into the top of my head. No wonder people are freaking addicted to all sorts of escapism shit when they have to market that way. Anyhow, anyhow, anyhow, I feel like people don't ... Somebody needs to tell the people, and I shall appoint it unto myself, unto myself. I shall appoint myself as the person who tells the people that if you want to be in the spotlight, and you feel like you were born to be in the spotlight, then you're going to need to freaking be in the spotlight. I'm pretty obsessed with this new lighting. I'm just going to use it for all manner of analogies for probably months on end. You should act like you deserve to be in the spotlight. You should turn the lighting up even more until you become a ghost angel. Then you should freaking say something interesting. Now what's amazing and amusing and entertaining, message me Rashida, and I will tell it to you. You are going to be absolutely delighted about the lighting situation. What's amazing ... okay, wait. Hold up. It's 11:11. That was just an 11:11 celebration. It's 11:11 right now. Pause. Moment of silence. It's still 11:11. I hope I'm not taking the 11:11 in vain. I'm going to continue on. What's amazing and ridiculous, if you think about it, that nobody seems to have figured the fuck out, is that if you can bring it as an entertainer, and I must admit that mostly when I get into my silly mode, which I'm kind of in right now ... Oh, don't give me the 9/11. 9/11's are chasing me all over the globe. I get 9/11 all day every day. I think that I'm quite the idiot when I go into my entertainer mode. Actually, when I get off the live stream, at the end of the live stream, I feel super self-conscious. I go into kind of a hidey-hole, and I have to go and get, I don't know, like a blankie and just curl up with it and rock myself back and forth a little bit. Not really, but I feel like that for a moment in time, because I feel like I was an idiot, and people are probably like, "Look at this idiot. Who does she think she is, dancing and fringing ... " Fringing? I was going to say singing freaking Cold Chisel and I went with fringing. Who does she think she is fringing Cold Chisel? Why? Why do I keep getting away with it? Why? I just keep pushing the boundaries, because I can see that I'm getting through all the boundaries and it's exactly what I've always done for my entire life. It's the truth. I get self-conscious about it, because I feel like an idiot. I feel like I have no substance, no substance, you understand. I trust that at some point in some way I'm getting some kind of fucking message across, whatever it is. Then further to that though, and what I was really trying to say was nobody seems to really quite get that if you can just bring it with the performance and the entertainment, then actually, actually, actually, actually it doesn't really fucking matter what you're saying or teaching. You can sell whatever you fucking want, because people are connecting to you emotionally and energetically. Yet we've got all these leaders ... Lee, you should just set your alarm for 11:11 to enjoy the 11:11-ness of it through your body, the 11's and 11's. Sounds legit. Wait, okay. A guy once told me that if you twirl your hair when you're talking to him that it means you want to have sex with him. Do you think that's true? Because I don't even know if there's any men on this live stream. I think we're in a man-less situation right now, and yet here I am twirling my hair. Do you think I'm thinking about a man? There's no men that I can see right here. Maybe the dishwasher ghost is a man. Is that a true thing? If you're with a man and you're twirling your hair, does that mean you want to sleep with him or does it just mean you're really in love with your own silky locks? Because that's honestly how I feel about my hair, but I'm curious to know your opinion. What was I saying? Something about entertainment, being in the spotlight. I'm just going to go onto a tangent. There is something in it, even if it's a girl crush. What about biting your lip? Does it just mean you've got a piece of dead skin on your lip, or if you're biting your lip it means you want them to kiss you? Can you manufacture those reactions though, or is it real and true? It doesn't even matter. Stop distracting me, everybody. Stop changing the topic. I think the point was if you think that you're a leader, if you think that you're born to be a leader, and then you're freaking trying to teach shit on a live stream, then you miss the whole point of the whole goddamn point. Hair is flirtatious. Maybe I'm flirting with everybody here. I'm just flirting with all you all. I'm just like hi, hi, hi. This is my best selfie. Look, I'll show it to you. No, when you go a bit too side-on, it makes my nose look weird. It's kind of like slightly down. That's it. I've shown it one time before. I shall never show it again. I don't want anybody taking my secrets. I need to get out of the sideways splits. I've got to lift my own legs up with my hands, because they're stuck there from being stretched for too long. Youchie. My groyne is as open as a new daisy. I don't know if that is something that's open, but it feels open. Thank you, Addison. My hair is looking amazing after it got freshened up a few days ago. Oh, my hips have had new life breathed into them. They're going to be able to do all manner of interesting things. I'm really honestly just thinking about in the gym is the truth of the matter, but I'm sure they'll be useful in other areas as well. Mainly I'm concerned with the gym, to be perfectly frank. Because I already got the flexibility in the other areas, let's just clarify. I can put my legs any which way that I like, whether or not I care to depending on the situation is another matter entirely, right? Because I feel like you don't really want to go there with your legs completely up over your head and spread out for any old person, that's kind of like an advanced level in a video game that you've got to unlock or something. You've got to reach a special sort of ranking to get that. Because then people just think that they can do whatever the fuck they want with you, which may or may not be allowed and true and okay. Leaders. Leaders who think that they are leaders and don't fucking act like leaders are not leaders. That is roughly the point that I was trying to get to. A leader, am I right or not, am I right or am I freaking right as fuck, a leader needs to be a performer. If you're not performing and entertaining as a leader, then you're not a leader. Yes or yes? Yes or yes yes? Yes yes yes yes, or yes yes yes yes yes yes? Deborah, it was just straight-up true. I don't show all my tricks to any old person in the bedroom. In fact, largely I don't show all my tricks at all. I'm just thinking about ... I think I have some sort of blockage. Maybe it's an emotional connection thing. I'm going to think about it. I shall report back via live stream, as I always do, once I've had the opportunity to tune into that and potentially experiment. Yes, you agree. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes says Terry. Exactly right. Exactly right, Terry. Exactly right, Rashida. How the fuck do you consider yourself a leader if you cannot perform, captivate, magnetise, entertain? Am I here? Am I over here? What's happening? Is she talking about stretching, now sex, now this, this? I mean, the beautiful thing is, catch me if you can, I'm sorry not sorry, but I don't even think about how to do it. It just fucking happens. It just comes out of me. I'm just born for it, and clearly quite certain about the fact. That's really the whole story. I can't teach it to you. I can't teach you how to be interesting or magnetic. You can't fucking teach that shit. Am I going to teach you? Am I going to do teaching? Am I going to run a course on freaking selling from the stage and magnetising from the stage? Am I going to tell you to make sure you use your arms to move people's attention? Am I going to tell you to pattern interrupt them so they don't fall asleep in their chairs? Imagine the boring-ness of it all. It would be completely like this. Hi, I'm going to teach you about how to magnetise and sell from the stage. That's how I'd feel about it anyway. I'm sure I do a better job of it than that. It would roughly look and sound like that. I'm not going to teach you any fucking thing. I won't teach a single thing to a single person, including my own clients. I am not here to teach you. I am here to reach into your soul and grab it and help you to unleash the power that is inside of there already. Basically, if you're not already that person, you don't know you're already magnetic and entertaining as fuck, you should leave, leave now, unless it's that you want to see the stretches again and the sex talk. Then really you're just being kind of like a creepy stalker person if you're only hanging around for that, right? If you're not a 1% within the 1%, magnetic and entertaining as fuck, story-teller leader who knows that all eyes should be on them all the time and also all the lights, then you shouldn't be here and that's that. Deborah says now there will be a few who try to go on and be funny. Exactly, exactly right. I can't wait to see it. Good luck. Good luck. What's the expression? Good night. I don't know why, I nearly just flashed you my boobs for real though. I've got no bra on underneath. I just pulled my top up. I do really weird things when I'm talking. I don't know what happens. Luckily, I actually stopped myself at the crucial moment. Apparently, I can get away with singing a bit of Chisel on a live stream. I don't think I could get away with flashing my tits. I'm not going to find out either, just to be clear. People try, people try, people try. It's going to sound egotistical to say, but I'll go with it anyway. People will try to be me. Either people will be infuriated by me, infuriated at ... Why does my hair still keep getting stuck in my hand? I'm pretty sure there's honey in here. I've got to sort that out. I don't know what it is. If it's not honey, it might be some Sweet Baby Ray's. It could be that, but you would see that, wouldn't you? I only ate like 18 lamb cutlets for dinner covered in Sweet Baby Ray's. I had an entire, well, rack, plate, whatever it's called, of sticky porks for dinner, for lunch. Sticky pork, not sticky porks. I don't think I had several pigs, it was only one. I don't know what is happening to my appetite since I got here. I'm eating like I'm eating for 10 men who are about to go on a freaking jungle exploration hike. Hike? Who hikes? Sounds like a boring one. Adventure ex-bonanza. My metabolism has kicked into overdrive. My legs were freaking like hard and lean and shapely as fuck today in the gym, extra, extra. I think because I've been main-lining five pieces of French toast every morning for breakfast. I'm enjoying it fabulously, but it's kind of confusing the fuck out of me how much I'm eating at the moment. Anyway, let's test out how those stretches worked. My hips are so open. You can probably store things in there in the sides of them there's so much openness there that wasn't there before. We'll do a lotus now while we sit here. You should never live stream without doing some hip opening, I feel, because it's very inefficient. Inefficient. You could also have a subliminal little air pod in your ear that's playing your French and Russian at the same time, so you learn a language. That was the cutlets coming up, and the Sweet Baby Ray's. People might try to be me. I don't know why. I don't know why, but I've seen it happen before. I saw a whole bunch of them dye their hair red, and then I changed it to blonde. I was like, "Catch me if you can." To be perfectly honest with you, and I try to be and I do use that expression probably overkill manner, I've felt that way the whole time in business, and even in business before business was online. I've always noticed. I'm sure you've noticed this as well. Let's obviously just remind ourselves that I'm not here just talking about me being freaking entertaining and magnetic as fuck. I'm talking about everybody here who's that same person. Whether or not you're stepping into it is another matter that we perhaps should get to talk about. I've always noticed people trying to model what I'm doing in business, even like when I was a trainer and I would do all these cool extra things. I would always have extra side hustles on the hustle as a trainer. I would always make a load of extra money in different ways, not just from training clients. I just did a tonne of extra shit. I was always freaking coming up with ways to make money. Then everybody would try and copy it, and I would just be like, "It's not going to work." Then it didn't work, and I was like, "Bitch, please. Because you're not me." I was probably a bit egotistical about it. I just felt like catch me if you can, because when you think that you've figured out my move, I'm already 50 fucking moves ahead of you on the next move, and that move is so freaking old. It's still what I do now. However, however, it shouldn't matter, because obviously the point is never to model another person. The point is to let what's inside of you out. If you resonate with me and you feel like I want a sharp, as bold, as crazily as her, and if so, I shall send you some medication swiftly, because clearly you are blessed with the craziness of the craziness as well. I think that most people would be terrified to be like me. The ones who are born for it will be like yes, that's how I want to show up. It's not that you want to show up obviously as me, it's that you see something inside of me that you know is inside of you. Am I right or am I right? Yes or yes or yes yes yes yes yes yes? Which one? You can choose whichever yes you like, right? It's a resonance. It's never that I'm teaching somebody how to do anything. I have nothing to teach at all. I'm a shocking teacher. I could never care for the profession myself. I was very bad at attending the classes. I just got all the top marks from manifestation. I like to learn things though. I like to learn from performance and entertainment and leadership, even when it ... Yes, thank you for the yeses. Even when I was keep going to church all the time, Ruby Lee, do you remember or were you too young to remember, I see Ruby on the live stream, who was a rich hot empire bad ass who's testimonial I just posted today. She did rich hot empire in January and did 20K in her first month and quit her job and increased her email list by 31%. More relevantly to the point of my story about church, I've known Ruby for 25 years because she's the best friend of my younger sister. Anyway, do you remember Pat [Mas-ee-tee 00:38:37] back in Waverly Christian Fellowship, Ruby? I'm going to use this as an interjection moment to remind you guys that rich hot empire has begun. There's still time if you want to work with me one-on-one for six weeks in the exact programme that I just mentioned that Ruby did in January. This is the last time to work with me at this level one-on-one for the six-week intensive until way later in the year. Because after this closes, which will be probably in the next 24 to 36 hours and then it's going to be sold out, after this the only way will be in my $72,000 inner circle. This is nothing like $72,000. This is six-week one-on-one intensive. Results are fucking killer. It is an amazing transformational programme. I just popped a comment in about it. You should mention me about ... you should mention me? You should definitely mention me wherever you feel called, and tag me as well so I know. You should message me over on my personal page about rich hot empire. You could also go, since Ruby's jumped on here and now we're talking about church, but it was also very timely about rich hot empire, I'm going to give you the link. You can watch her video, which is such a beautiful video, by the way. Thank you so much again for that. I love to watch it. I watched it about 14 times, or maybe four. Still quite a few. You've got to go watch Ruby's video. It's amazing. I'll give you the link right now. There it is. Do that afterwards. Anyhow, there was this minister, preacher, whatever he was, Pat Maseetee. Now, some other people here may know who he is because he then transformed himself out of the church. I think he got ejected actually for untoward activities is the truth of the matter. Then he became a Mindset Millionaire, Millionaire Mindset mentor and coach. Basically, motivational speaker. He's also the type person ... Hi, Christy. That was a super high voice, I'm sorry. That was extra excitement. You missed me singing. You're going to have to watch the replay for the singing bit. Love you back. That's love hot shower for Christy and for everybody else. There's a virtual hug. That's the hug. Anyway, anyway, anyway, even back in church, and Ruby remembers because she was fucking there 25 years ago. We certainly weren't cursing about it at the time though. There was this guy, this minister, Pat Maseetee who then got excommunicated from the church for too much sex outside of where it should have been, and then became a Millionaire Mindset coach. He is an amazing, successful entrepreneur, and an amazing speaker. I remember watching him speak on stage in the church when I was like six years old, or seven or eight. Very young anyway. Maybe I was 10, I don't know. I was young. He was my favourite preacher because he was so entertaining and he was so funny. He was very irreverent, and he was hilarious. Now, what did he teach about as far as preaching and teaching? Well, I don't know. We're talking nearly three decades ago for the love of god. Don't have too many expectations of me. I'm sure, I'm quite certain that he would have been getting some kind of godly, biblical message across in whatever he was doing. What I remember is the entertainment. What I remember is how much I really enjoyed his messages even at that young age. I was always really excited when he was going to be the preacher or the speaker for that day. I always sat up straight in my chair and paid extra attention. I just wonder why don't people realise this with preaching and teaching online? Why does anybody think that a single fucking person out there in their audience wants to sit there on a cold, hard pew ... okay, we didn't have pews in our church. It wasn't that sort of church. Why does anybody want to sit there on some kind of internet pew and just learn shit? Nobody does. Nobody wants to learn anything from you. They think that they do, but let me ask you a question. Are they binge-watching you, or are they binge-watching fucking whatever it is, young girl on whatever show that's on, what is it? Stupid Stan, it's a silly name. Are they binge-watching Netflix, right? Are they binge-watching you, or are they binge-watching Netflix? Oh, my hips. Because honestly, I know for a fact people are binge-watching my stuff. I know for a fact that ... No, I wasn't talking about sex, that's for sure. He was communicating the energy of the high viber. I know people binge-watch my content, because they tell me, and because I know that I'm fucking hilarious, so why would they not binge-watch my content? When I do my most random, all over the place live streams, which this one appears to be ... My god, I just realised I can have octopus arms. Check it out. I love it. This only happens normally when I'm at the SLS hotel. Can you see my octopus arms in the window behind me? My daughter does the best impression of a jellyfish, you guys. I don't know how this came up in conversation. I have an unusual method of parenting. One day I said to her, "Alyssa, be a jellyfish." I said it in a stern, demanding tone, just like that, because I like to say random things to my children to surprise and delight them. More so to shock and appal them, but then they think it's funny and it's always fabulous. I'll just randomly say really weird shit. They might be trying to talk or say something, I don't know, whatever it is. Out and about, we're having a conversation, and I'll just randomly drop something like, "Alyssa, be a jellyfish." They just respond to it. My children are so [inaudible 00:44:21]. They're going to be multi-millionaires by the time they're 11.11 years old for sure. She doesn't even skip a beat. She's not like, "What the fuck?" Well, she wouldn't say that, but I've definitely seen it on her face before. She's just like ... I was like, "Oh my god, you look exactly like a jellyfish." Actually, she was kind of like a double chin. She kind of went ... then she bobbled her head around. I was like, "Holy shit, you're an actually exact jellyfish. I don't know how you did that, but it was amazing." I've used it many times since then. Why are we talking about jellyfish? Because of this, octopus. I'm completely lost. I'm at a total loss. Do you think I finished the whole live stream already and I just thought I was still going? Because I feel like I'm done. What was I talking about? I honestly have no idea. I know I talked about Ruby, I talked about church. I talked about nobody wants straight-up teaching, who cares. Oh, binge-watching. Binge-watching people. Binge-watch me, because I'm hilarious. I know that already, and because they tell me. Whenever I do a really random, stupid, like this live stream. After this live stream, for sure I'm going to have ... It's kind of like a walk of shame feeling. I've never even done a walk of shame. What have I got to be ashamed about? I understand the concept from the movies, which I should be in, by the way. I will. Anyway, I have a walk of shame type feeling after I do a silly, funny live stream. I will probably have it after this one. I just cleared it right then and there. Maybe I'm done with that. Maybe that was a silly thing that I've been getting myself into. I feel like that was really silly. People probably think that she thinks she's all that, or I think like, "What am I even doing? Why am I doing that?" However, I carry on, because I allow my message to be bigger than my own bullshit. I continue to show up like this. I know that these are the ones that get the best rankings. Not that it's too big, but if it was too big, you would be getting rankings. These are the ones where people are like, "I can't stop watching. I literally can't stop watching. I can't. I'm supposed to be ... " Fucking honey. "I'm supposed to be going to work, or I'm supposed to be doing whatever." Why would they be going to work? Sometimes they seem to need to be. They're just freaking watching it instead of Netflix. If people aren't watching you instead of Netflix, be fucking interesting is all I'm saying. If you want people to be interested in you, then consider being fucking interesting. It's an interesting idea, I think you'll find. Terry says a breakthrough. Entertainment, Deborah. Exactly. Addison says I need you to entertain me every morning like this. I should. It's extremely irresponsible and selfish of me that I don't do an entertainment-based show every day. I apologise. I actually love to do it more than anything. It's my favourite thing. Then some people watching it in the mornings who are [inaudible 00:47:33] like you, and then other people are watching it in bed at night, and then they can't go to sleep because of all the high vibery. I don't apologise at all. Not even a little bit. In fact, I'll just play you some more music to rev you up so that you can't sleep so you get more excited about ... I could sing any time, any time. I'm trying to restrain myself, unless you've got a suggestion for me of another song. I had another song playing before. Here's my other song. I have some eclectic music taste. Here's my other song from earlier this evening. (Singing) A little bit of Deep Purple for you to spice up your evening. The dulcet tones of Deep Purple. God, there's so many good songs here. I'm just such a song maestro. You've got to be interesting if you want people to be interested in you. It seems like an obvious fucking thing if you say it out loud, but yet nobody's freaking doing it. Here's the secret. The secret, if you would like to know the secret, the secret is you're probably not going to do it. 99.99% of you are not going to do it. That's evident, obviously, because it's fucking math. There can only be 1% within the 1% if there's the other 99.99% who don't do the damn thing. Everybody, I'm sorry. I'm not sorry, because I'd rather kick you up the ass and call you out. Everybody here on this live stream thinks that they are the 1% within the 1%. Mathematically, that is incorrect, my friends. Incorrect. Who are you? Who is the actual 1% within the 1%? No need to say it's me. No need to jump up and down about it. Say it in here, and then freaking back it up, right? If I go onto your page, if I suddenly did a recon of your Facebook page, am I going to see you shine up with your message today? I don't mean if you hustle something together in the next 24 hours, I mean if I go look now and the previous week, 24 hours, month, year, freaking lifetime, right? Of course you can change it now. We all had to change it at some point in time. I used to be incredibly boring, like boring. Maybe not really though. I certainly was compared to now. How do you change it? How do you change it? How do you change it and do it? Why are more people not using the cat stickers? Inside your little emoji box, press the sticker button and give me the cat flying. Press play. If you know you're a 1% within the 1% person, okay, I believe that there is a 1% sticker that you can actually press. There are those pink ones, exactly. You can press a press play one too. Why would you not? You should be pressing play all the time, unless it's time to press pause. That's okay. How do you do it? You're going to have to get out of your own way. It's actually the only thing for it. You're going to have to get over yourself. You're going to have to sort your shit out. You're going to have to just do a little bit of these ones and do a little bit of a pretend you're in a box. Fucking stuck in a box and you're trying to do your business in life like this. Then you just break free, you just escape, escape. I said escape, yup. What a low-class thing to say. You just escape out of the box. Meanwhile on the inside, you're probably freaking the fuck out, because you're probably like me. You're a natural introvert. It is what it is. You can believe me or not believe me. I have a little captioned video clip actually proving that I'm an introvert, which I shall use at some point in time when I feel so cold. It is true and real. You have the performer in you. You're either going to let it out or you're going to sit down and cry about not feeling ready. I don't feel ready. I do the damn thing anyway. I certainly didn't feel ready when I first started showing up like a weirdo bad ass. Not weirdo, bad ass, right? Nobody's going to believe me. Most people aren't going to believe me. If you've met me in person, you know that I'm like the biggest fucking introvert in the world, right? I'm in my performer mode. I'm activating what's inside of me. I'm letting it out, right? It's a choice. It's a choice. It's a choice of am I going to be bigger than my own bullshit? Am I going to let my message live and shine and gloriously impact the world, or am I going to be like, "But I'm scared and I don't feel like it." Those are real feelings. I'm not really making fun of you, but I'm trying to remind you that you're never going to feel ready. Of course, you're going to feel fucking self-conscious. You're going to feel like an idiot. You're going to wonder what people think about you and how bad you want ... How badly is it killing you softly and not so softly at all to not live purposely and to not step into the flow that's inside of you? I don't know about you, or I do really know all about you actually, I'm right inside your mind all the time. I do know that being like me, it just kills you to not let yourself into that performer mode. I mean, this is the shit that lights us up, isn't it? Let's be honest. This is what gets us freaking excited and high on life. We feel amazing. We just feel like we can rule the world, and we have access to extraordinary, creative powers. We just become unstoppable. You access your magic. You don't need anybody to tell you anything about anything. You know everything. That happens when you let yourself be who you really are on the inside. That's really all I have to say about anything. I don't know how long I talked for, but it felt like about a minute and a half, so I trust that I gave something of value to some person somewhere. If that was you, and you would like to work with me six weeks one-on-one, we do indeed have liftoff. Rich hot empire has begun two days ago. You can still get in. It's actually extending like six weeks plus however many fucking weeks I add on after that is always what happens. This is my most transformative one-on-one intensive ever. I've [inaudible 00:54:14] multiple times over. The results just keep getting better and better. I've been posting them all week this week. They're easy enough to find on my page. Those are examples. Obviously, you've got to do the work and bring it and back it up. If you've been wanting to work with me as your mentor, if you know you were born for it, not if you're like, "I want to make money online and I just want someone to tell me how and then I'm just going to do it and make money but I really don't believe in myself or back it up," that's not going to work. I will read that in your energy anyway if you message me, so it's just not going to happen. If you know that you are that person and you want the kick up the butt, you want to get into how I obviously do the internet and yes, the strategy of my multi-seven-figure business, you want somebody to reach into your soul and help you unleash what's in there onto the internet and indeed the world, rich hot empire is for you. Message me. Not on this page ideally, on my personal [Katrina Ruth 00:55:10] page would be best. There's a hiccup that's stuck like right up there. It doesn't want to come up. It's a Baby Ray hiccup. We'll get it out afterwards for decorum purposes. What else? What else? What else? I will send you on the message a full overview of everything that it's about, explain all the details in the module. You get unlimited one-on-one access to me, plus a structured six-week programme, lifetime access, access to my team. Insane amount of content. There's no freaking way you'd get through it all in six weeks. You get to keep it for life. What you do go through in that six weeks, you're going to create more in that six-week period than most entrepreneurs do in two years or indeed really a lifetime. That is for real. That is based. That line of six weeks' work, doing in six weeks what people do in two weeks, I started saying that line because so many clients kept saying to me, "Oh my god, I just did more in six weeks with you than I've done in the last two years or one year or whatever it was." Consistently people were saying like two years plus. Then I observed the same thing, so I started saying that line all the time. A bunch of other stuff. I will send you an overview of that. Message me about it. Do it quickly. This is set to sell out in the next 24 to 46 hours is my prediction. I believe it will sell out by Saturday my time. It is currently late Thursday. Oh my god, it's 11:44 PM. 11:44 PM Thursday night my time. You want to message me over there now, my personal page, please. Not here. It's better. I'll send you an overview, and then we'll go through cost. That's really all there is to say about that. Now, final reminder, if you want to be a leader, want to be in the spotlight, start to show up like you deserve to be in the fucking spotlight. Then the spotlight will be on you all the damn time, because you put it there. That's it. Have an amazing rest of day or evening wherever you are in the world. Leave me a comment. Leave me a love heart. Send me messages. I do come back and read my comments later, because I usually miss most of them while I'm talking. Do not forget life is now press play.

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Playlist : Radiohead - Videotape Moby - Inside Peter Gabriel - I Grieve Moby - Everloving Tool - Wings For Marie, Pt. 1 Radiohead - Videotape : When I'm at the pearly gates This'll be on my videotape My videotape When Mephistopheles is just beneath And he's reaching up to grab me This is one for the good days And I have it all here In red blue green In red blue green And you are my center when I spin away Out of control on videotape On videotape On videotape This is my way of saying goodbye Because I can't do it face to face I'm talking to you from... No matter what happens now You shouldn't be afraid Because I know today has been The most perfect day I've ever seen Peter Gabriel - I Grieve : It was only one hour ago It was all so different then There’s nothing yet has really sunk in Looks like it always did This flesh and bone Is just the way that we are tied in Now there's no one home I grieve for you You leave me It’s so hard to move on Still loving what's gone they say life carries on they say life carries on and on and on and on The news that truly shocks is the empty, empty page While the final rattle rocks its empty, empty cage And I can't handle this I grieve for you You leave me Let it out and move on Missing what's gone They say life carries on They say life carries on and on and on Life carries on In the people I meet In everyone that's out on the street In all the dogs and cats In the flies and rats In the rot and the rust In the ashes and the dust Life carries on and on and on and on Life carries on and on and on It’s just the car that we ride in The home we reside in The face that we hide in The way we are tied in Life carries on and on and on and on Life carries on and on and on Did I dream this belief Or did I believe this dream Now I can find relief I grieve Tool - Wings For Marie - Part 1 : You believed You believed in moments none could see You believed in me A passionate spirit Uncompromise Boundless and open A light in your eyes that Could end all lies Vacant, broken Fell at the hands of those movements that I wouldn't see Cause it was you who prayed for me, so What have I done to be a son to an angel? What have I done to be worthy? Daylight dims leaving cold fluorescence Difficult to see you in this light Please forgive this selfish question, but What am I to say to all these ghouls tonight? She never told a lie Well might've told a lie But never lived one Didn’t have a life Didn’t have a life But surely saved one See? I'm alright, now It’s time for us to let you go 4.5.08 : ... You've been breaking my heart more-so than usual lately. Can I say that and not worry about being victimized by vulnerability? I question this because it is a question. The tears start to splish-splash in the back of my throat when I think of all of the missing face-to-face time. Why does life hand out cheat cards when no one is ever interested in accepting them. The length of your legacy was unfairly snatched short. I've remembered every square inch of your face. With a welcoming smile constantly plastered between your compassionate sidewalk-chalked cheek bones. How could I ever forget a significance such as you. I rhetorically question that one too. Because it is a question. You with your ever constant influenceable face. I'll forever remember your face. I remember the way it used to light up in those pre-cancer days. Getting hung up on the cancer. Because cancer has become my whole-hearted-heavily-hated enemy. But in an attempt to be honest. I barely ever think of the way you looked when it clung to you like a heavy apathetic-overcoat. When I think of you. I think of only you. 4.8.08 : aphex twins - stone in focus Sitting here with these oversized headphones slung atop these surpasingly-sad eardrums. You would have loved this song if you had heard it during your luminous laughing days. How I've fucking wept and bargain-pled for another round of your spectacular laughter. It has always been my most significant song of rememberance. 4.9.08 : ... And it's not until you're choking on pieces of your own nostalgically hemmed-heart. That you remember why you're even smile-broken in the first place. You were one of the luckiest faces to be splattered all over the heart-space. With the inspiration and constant love from a woman that considered you to be an adopted version of her very own pre-existing trio of children. She constructed great elaborate plans for both you and your slung-stalled art career. She believed in you. She adviced you. She pushed you. She loved and listened to you. She made you believe in yourself. 4.9.08 : ... With a blue Sharpie-marked M on the underside of my wrist. All I can do is remember the brilliant heart-bombarding that is known to come on behalf of you. And as usual. My heart capsizes within all of the love that I have for you. 4.10.08 : ... Today is the day to follow in the footsteps of old infamous familiars. Today is the day I'll wear my tribute smile.