Judith and Alina are long-distance friends and bereaved moms who lost sons to SIDS in 2021. Each Monday, we chat life after infant loss. Raw episodes with lots of tears, hopeful episodes on the good days, episodes to help those supporting a griever, and
Re-using an old episode title to announce that Alina's baby was born, and she's doing great! More to come -- soon! (But we may take a few weeks off.):::Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast!:::Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you!:::As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
How I wonder where you are...Where did our babies go when they died?To heaven? To the stars? Into the ether? We talk about our thoughts on this existential question and how they've evolved since we became loss moms.:::Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast!:::Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you!:::As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
Alina is about to welcome a new baby into her family... It's the latest in a long line of leaps of faith that she's taken after losing Quinn in 2021... probably the biggest one yet. Hear how she's feeling about it all in this episode, then send well wishes her way in the comments!:::Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast!:::Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you!:::As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
Join us for part 2 of our interview with Dr. Denise Mandel about relationships after baby loss. Part 1 was released last week... Make sure you check that out first!She answers questions like:- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?- Do men and women really grieve differently?- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through those feelings?- Can couples actually come out of the experience of losing a baby with a stronger relationship?- ... and so much more!Dr. Denise is actively recruiting for a new baby loss support group, so if you've been looking for a kind, supportive provider and a warm, welcoming group of bereaved parents... this is your sign! Reach out to her at griefwithdrdenise@gmail.com.:::The information shared in this episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional mental health treatment or therapy. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and think you may be a danger to yourself, please reach out immediately to the National Suicide Prevention hotline (800-273-8255) in the U.S. Linked here are additional resources in the United States. Linked here are resources for Canada. Linked here are resources for the U.K. Linked here are resources for Australia. Linked here are global resources. You are not alone.:::Things we talk about in this episode:-@griefwithdrdenise on Instagram:::Support As Long As I'm Living podcast atbuymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH atbonfire.com/store/alailpodcast!:::Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at@aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email ataslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us atanchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you!:::As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
We're back with our resident grief counselor, Dr. Denise Mandel for a very special Valentine's Day episode about relationships after baby loss.She answers questions like:- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?- Do men and women really grieve differently?- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through those feelings?- Can couples actually come out of the experience of losing a baby with a stronger relationship?- ... and so much more!Com back next week for part 2!Dr. Denise is actively recruiting for a new baby loss support group, so if you've been looking for a kind, supportive provider and a warm, welcoming group of bereaved parents... this is your sign! Reach out to her at griefwithdrdenise@gmail.com.:::The information shared in this episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional mental health treatment or therapy. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and think you may be a danger to yourself, please reach out immediately to the National Suicide Prevention hotline (800-273-8255) in the U.S. Linked here are additional resources in the United States. Linked here are resources for Canada. Linked here are resources for the U.K. Linked here are resources for Australia. Linked here are global resources. You are not alone.:::Things we talk about in this episode:-@griefwithdrdenise on Instagram:::Support As Long As I'm Living podcast atbuymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH atbonfire.com/store/alailpodcast!:::Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at@aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email ataslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us atanchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you!:::As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
Do you want to know our opinions on the best time to try for a new baby after a loss? How to throw a dead baby birthday party? The best thing to say to avoid talking about your unconventional family at the dentist? Then listen to this episode! We cobbled together some rambling advice on some random topics for you... take it or leave it! (Seriously, please feel free to leave it and ignore us entirely!) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
This week we are continuing our interview with Rochel, the bereaved aunt of sweet Sophie and psychiatric nurse practitioner. In this episode, we talk with Rochel about her other loss experiences (she's sadly an experienced griever) and how she uses writing and other modalities to integrate the losses into her life. We were caught off guard by how emotional this interview with Rochel was. Both of us felt seen and held in our grief in a way we rarely do with those who are not bereaved parents themselves... we hope you feel the same after this time with Rochel. Sending love to Sophie in the stars
In this episode, we interview Judith's friend Rochel about the complexities of grief, particularly the loss of her niece Sophie. Rochel shares how she continues to build on her relationship with Sophie even after her death, and the ways in which she continues to celebrate her life. You may remember Rochel from a post we shared on our stories a few weeks ago, part of which is shared below with Rochel's permission: "Every year, I throw a party for my niece's birthday. Tomorrow, Sophie would have been 11. My sister once told me that with time and work, grief eventually moves from a constant heart-stabbing cry for what you've lost to an intermittent glow of gratitude for what you were blessed to have. It has taken years for me to be able to access the embodied knowledge that Sophie's transition from this physical plan, was just that - Her death was a shape-shifting..." Listen to the episode to hear the rest. ::: If you are interested in working with Rochel, you can reach her via email! Her Instagram is @rochelspang. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
So many of you have asked how Alina is doing with her pregnancy after loss (PAL), and the answer is she's awful! and joyful! And terrified! And in love! And exhausted! And many, many, many, many other things. Listen to this episode to hear allllllll about her PAL experience so far. Sending love and commiseration to all of our PAL moms (or soon-to-be PAL moms, or formerly PAL moms) out there. It's not for the faint of heart. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
What does time even matter, when you've lost someone you love? And what does it matter, when you're WITH someone you love? A brief chat about Judith's (alive) baby son being "Aiden age" and the meaninglessness of time. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Learning to Measure Time in Love and Loss, by Chris Huntington ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.
It's our annual horoscope episode! Let's see what the stars have in store for us in 2025... We also talk about Alina's recent "spiritual" massage, and Judith's visit to her astrologer. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Happier New Year: 2022's new year episode, where we talk 2021 and 2022 horoscopes - We Reject Our 2023 Horoscopes: 2023's new year episode, where we talk about our 2022 and 2023 horoscopes - 2024 Is Going to Be Our Year!: 2024's new year episode, where we talk about our 2023 and 2024 horoscopes - Judith's 2024 and 2025 yearly horoscopes! (Sagittarius) - Alina's 2024 and 2025 yearly horoscopes! (Capricorn) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're continuing our anniversary celebrations (belated! we got overwhelmed!) by hearing how YOUR lives have changed since you started listening to As Long As I'm Living. Thank you as always for being a part of this community. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Have you ever wondered why your hair fell out after your baby died? Or why your skin looks gray? Why you feel like grief physically aged you? It's because it DID... kind of. Physical appearance might seem like a silly thing to worry about after your baby dies, but not recognizing yourself in the mirror is horribly depressing. In this episode, we speak to board-certified dermatologist Dr. Lawrence Green about how grief and stress affect your physical health. He also shares with us how to take care of yourself as best you can when you have very little energy, and ways that a dermatologist can help you feel more like YOU again. ::: This episode is sponsored in memory of Lily! You can sponsor an episode of As Long As I'm Living here. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
It's Aiden's 4th birthday, and for the first time since he was born, Judith is planning to go to work on the day. It might not sound like a big deal to some (especially those of you who HAD to work on previous birthdays), but it feels like a big deal to us. There are not many things that we keep sacred in our grief, but the birthdays and death anniversaries have (so far) been two of them. Not so anymore. Big feelings all around... and shout-out to Taylor Swift for all of the songs we reference in this episode that help us talk about these big feelings. - "It only hurts this much right now, is what I've been thinking the whole time." - "I love you. It's ruining my life." - "A lesser woman would've lost hope; a greater woman wouldn't beg. But I look to the sky and say... please." - "Isn't it just so pretty to think, that all along there was some invisible string tying you to me." ::: This episode of As Long As I'm Living is sponsored in memory of Isabel Poppy! We'll post a bit more about Isabel on our Instagram this week. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We need a minute, post-election. We're going to take a couple of weeks off and re-group, but we'll be back soon with regular episodes! Xo, Judith and Alina ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
It's our podcast anniversary! We're celebrating this year by taking a look back (well, listen back!) at old episodes and seeing how our lives have changed. We want to hear from YOU! How has your life changed since you started listening to the podcast? Send us a DM on Instagram, either using text if you want us to read your update, or a voice note if you want us to include your voice in the episode! ::: This episode is sponsored in memory of Frank! You can sponsor an episode of As Long As I'm Living https://buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast/e/270151. Frank's family wanted to give a shout-out to the https://www.childrenshospital.org/programs/roberts-program, which investigates sudden unexpected death in pediatrics. (We love the Roberts Program!) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at https://buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast/membership OR buy buying our MERCH at https://www.bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast/! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/aslongasimlivingpodcast/, send us an email at mailto:aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at https://anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
About a year ago, Judith and Alina joined Rob and Chris of the Sad Dads Club for a super fun and casual Instagram live! We talked about the legacy of our respective loss work (ALAIL and SDC), how our grief has changed over the years, finding a grief support tribe, and so much more. If you'd rather watch this Instagram live, you can do so HERE! We'll be back with a regular episode next week! ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - The Sad Dads Club (website, Instagram) - ALAIL | The Sad Dads Club - ALAIL | Father's Day Wishes from the Sad Dads Club ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
This week's episode was originally going to be about many things, but once we got started, we realized that there is one topic that we needed to talk about: abortion. We discuss the implications of restrictive abortion laws, the personal nature of abortion decisions, and the importance of voting to influence reproductive rights. We cannot emphasize enough the need for equitable access to this very important type of healthcare. Two notes: 1. If discussing abortion access is triggering to you because of the nature of your loss (i.e. TFMR), we welcome you to skip this one. It is all we talk about. 2. If you support limiting or eliminating access to abortion and would like to discuss this with us, we are open to that, but please use our Instagram DMs instead of a public comment. We do not want the folks in #1 to have any more exposure to these viewpoints than they already do. ::: Previous episodes of As Long As I'm Living about abortion or TFMR: - Abortion is Healthcare - TFMR is Baby Loss, with Hadley's Mom Jill - When "Choice" Doesn't Feel Like a Choice, an interview about TFMR with Adelyn's Mom Alyssa - Maliyah's Story, as told by her mom, Emily - When Your Pregnancy is Killing You, an interview about TFMR with Emily, Maliyah's Mom Abortion Information and Resources: - Guttmacher Institute - CDC Abortion Findings and Reports - AbortionFinder.org - Center for Reproductive Rights US Voting Resources: - Vote.gov - Vote.org ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Are we... happy? Welcome to our most recent life update, where we talk about how completely, permanently fucked up we are... and also how much joy we have in our lives in a way we haven't since Aiden and Quinn died. Both/and. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Opening a Time Capsule (and the Instagram post where you can see Judith and Aiden at the coffee shop) - ALAIL | The One Where Judith Made a New Friend, an interview with Judith's friend Mel ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Meet Marnina! Judith and Marnina have known each other for 15 years... but they didn't really know each other until they each lost a baby. Judith lost Aiden first, and when Marnina lost her daughter Michal the next year, Judith became a lifeline for her. This was incredibly meaningful for Judith, who had needed so much care and support from others over the previous year and finally got a chance to pay it forward. Now, Marnina is a few years out, and she channels the way Judith cared for her as she pays it forward to the newly bereaved in her community. The circle of loss is a devastating, beautiful thing. ::: This episode is sponsored in memory of Harper, on her second birthday. You can sponsor an episode of As Long As I'm Living here. Harper's mom Erin wanted to shout out a few organizations that have been meaningful to her since Harper's loss: - @KindermournCLT: KinderMourn is an absolute lifesaver for families who have lost children. They have an annual Duck Race every year that celebrates all babies gone too soon. - @Madelynsfund: Madelyn's Fund supports NICU families in NC and SC. They paid our funeral costs when Harper died. - @SaylorsStory sends beautiful, meaningful comfort bags to Moms. - @MotherofWilde - creates the most beautiful prints. We have one hanging in our front foyer of our sweet girl. - @evolvehealthclt_supportgroup is a monthly group in Charlotte open to moms who have been through any type of loss. Dr. Sydney Fenton is a huge advocate here for the loss community and the group has brought some amazing moms together. You can connect with Harper's Mom (and receive a free copy of the resource guide she's put together for loss parents for Harper's first birthday) here: Harpershopefuls@gmail.com ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
In case you missed it, Alina is pregnant! And it's hard. She went on a vacation a few weeks ago and faced her first "pregnancy after loss" gauntlet of questions that were well-meaning but ultimately extremely triggering. Listen to find out how she dealt with it, and to hear what advice Judith has for her and others in similar situations. ::: This episode is sponsored in memory of baby Arthur! You can sponsor an episode of As Long As I'm Living here. Arthur's favorite book: The Moon is Always Round Lyndi asked us to shout-out her favorite loss organization, Return to Zero Hope! ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Judith gave birth to her baby boy a few weeks ago, and while the birth was smooth... the subsequent hours and days were not. It was extremely traumatic for both Judith and Alina, who were acutely reminded that babies can and do die. Thankfully, Judith's son got great care and is alive and well, and they are adjusting to life at home as a family of 5ish (2 adults, 1 dead child, 2 living children, and 1 dog). This episode was recorded on the day after Judith's birth, while she was in the hospital, and it was all very fresh. We hope you enjoy this episode, but it is pretty raw, and for those with NICU trauma may be triggering. As always, please take good care of yourself and only listen if it feels safe for you. ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Today on the podcast, we're welcoming back our resident grief therapist: Dr. Denise Mandel! We talk to Dr. Denise allllll about support groups. What are they, how do they help, how can you find one? We also talk about why some people DON'T like support groups, and other ways that you can find support in your loss if the group you tried to join isn't working. Dr. Denise is actively recruiting for a new baby loss support group, so if you've been looking for a kind, supportive provider and a warm, welcoming group of bereaved parents... this is your sign! Reach out to her at griefwithdrdenise@gmail.com. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - @griefwithdrdenise on Instagram - ALAIL | An Incomparable Loss, an interview with Christine, Miranda's Mom - ALAIL | Grief Needs a Witness, an interview with Dr. Denise Mandel - ALAIL | There Are No Silver Linings, an Interview about Making Meaning in Grief with Dr. Denise Mandel ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Hi all! It's a holiday week here in the US, so we're taking the opportunity to release an Instagram live we did back in May to the feed. In this live, we mainly talk about a then-recent episode of the podcast in which we tell the stories of our losses. If you haven't listened to that episode yet, listen HERE and then come back and listen to all the commentary :) If you'd rather watch the Instagram Live instead of listening to it (highly recommend), you can do that HERE! We'll see you back here next week with a brand new episode! ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Long Story Short, I Survived ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
In this episode, Judith talks about how she's prepping as she approaches the birth of a (hopefully alive) new baby. How is she thinking about naming her son, after her first son died? What of Aiden's clothes will she put on the new baby? Will she do the same religious traditions, in the same way? How is her mental health? Preparation for a new baby is always a huge undertaking, but it's even more intense when one of your babies has died. Update: Judith's baby was born, and he's alive! ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Maybe Baby (Judith in labor with her daughter) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We are honored to be joined on the podcast today by Emily, Maliyah's Mom, to talk about her TFMR (termination for medical reasons) last year. In our previous interviews about TFMR, the parents have had to make the decision to terminate due to their baby's own serious condition(s). In this case, Emily had to choose a termination to save her own life and lost her daughter in the process. This is a crystal clear example of how abortion is healthcare. Emily's pregnancy was killing her, and there was no way to save both her baby and herself. This conversation feels more important than ever with the continued attacks on reproductive healthcare in many states here in the US. Thank you for listening with an open heart to Emily's story, and thank you Emily for your vulnerability. Note: We separated out the majority of the medical details of Maliyah's birth into a separate episode for those of you who find pregnancy complications triggering. To listen to that episode for all of the context, go back one in your podcast feed! ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - HELLP syndrome - Hemolysis, Elevated Liver enzymes, and Low Platelets syndrome - ALAIL | TFMR is Baby Loss, an interview with Hadley's Mom Jill - ALAIL | When "Choice" Doesn't Feel Like a Choice, an interview about TFMR with Adelyn's Mom Alyssa - ALAIL | The Stillbirth Specialist, an interview with OBGYN Dr. Heather Florescue (Part 1) - ALAIL | From the Other Side of the Stirrups, another interview with OBGYN Dr. Heather Florescue (Part 2) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We are honored to be joined on the podcast today by Emily, Maliyah's Mom, to talk about her TFMR (termination for medical reasons) last year. In our previous interviews about TFMR, the parents have had to make the decision to terminate due to their baby's own serious condition(s). In this case, Emily had to choose a termination to save her own life and lost her daughter in the process. This is a crystal clear example of how abortion is healthcare. Emily's pregnancy was killing her, and there was no way to save both her baby and herself. This conversation feels more important than ever with the continued attacks on reproductive healthcare in many states here in the US. Thank you for listening with an open heart to Emily's story, and thank you Emily for your vulnerability. Note: This episode contains the majority of the medical details of Emily's TFMR, and if you find pregnancy complications triggering, we recommend you skip straight to the next episode in which we speak with Emily more broadly. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - HELLP syndrome - Hemolysis, Elevated Liver enzymes, and Low Platelets syndrome - ALAIL | TFMR is Baby Loss, an interview with Hadley's Mom Jill - ALAIL | When "Choice" Doesn't Feel Like a Choice, an interview about TFMR with Adelyn's Mom Alyssa - ALAIL | The Stillbirth Specialist, an interview with OBGYN Dr. Heather Florescue (Part 1) - ALAIL | From the Other Side of the Stirrups, another interview with OBGYN Dr. Heather Florescue (Part 2) ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast OR buy buying our MERCH at bonfire.com/store/alailpodcast! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
The statistics about freak accidents, rare diseases, and the astounding unlikelihood of your baby dying are comforting... until you're the one in a million that has a bad outcome. Our attitudes about statistics have changed. Let's talk about it. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - The Miscarriage Odds Reassurer ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Listen to Part 1 HERE and Part 2 HERE. This is the last part of our interview series with Judith's sister Ilana about how their relationship has changed since Aiden died. In this part, Ilana gives advice for friends and family of grievers for making their griever feel supported. We're using a framework for life transitions Ilana mentions in a later episode by Bruce Feiler: - The Long Goodbye: where they mourn the "old" relationship - The Messy Middle: in which they shed old habits and create new ones - The New Beginning: in which they live into the new version of their relationship Grab your tissues. This series is a tear-jerker. ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Listen to Part 1 HERE. This is part 2/3 in our interview series with Judith's sister Ilana about how significantly their relationship changed after Aiden's loss. We're using a framework for life transitions Ilana mentions in a later episode by Bruce Feiler: - The Long Goodbye: where they mourn the "old" relationship - The Messy Middle: in which they shed old habits and create new ones - The New Beginning: in which they live into the new version of their relationship Grab your tissues. This series is a tear-jerker. ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
For the next 3 weeks, we're interviewing Judith's sister Ilana about how their relationship was affected after Aiden died. The effect was significant. We're using a framework for life transitions Ilana mentions in a later episode by Bruce Feiler: - The Long Goodbye: where they mourn the "old" relationship - The Messy Middle: in which they shed old habits and create new ones - The New Beginning: in which they live into the new version of their relationship Grab your tissues. This episode (and the subsequent ones, too) is a tear-jerker. ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Announcing... As Long As I'm Living podcast sponsorships! We've released 155 episodes of our podcast, and Alina has edited every single one of them. It's a LOT, and she's tired. We want to ensure that making ALAIL is sustainable so that we can keep going for as long as we have things to say. There are a couple of ways you can support the podcast (below), and you can hear more about each one in this episode. 1. One-time support 2. Monthly support 3. Episode sponsorships Our content has always been free, and it will remain free! This is just a way for us to build our community, get to know your babies, and ensure that the podcast sticks around for the long haul. Thanks for considering supporting us! ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Guess what... 3 years out from our sons dying, and we feel "sufficiently" healed to the point that we are not complete and total walking disasters 24 hours a day anymore. Does that mean we're actually completely healed? Of course not. But it feels good to know that parts of our personalities, relationships, and worlds have recovered more than we ever thought possible. ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We are joined on the podcast today by chaplain Reverend Marcie Brozyna! Marcie is a bereaved mother to her son Rumi, who she lost at 26 weeks pregnant, but even before that she was a hospital chaplain working with the recently bereaved (or soon-to-be bereaved). We talk about Christian mourning rituals, and especially how they are applied after the death of a child. We are so grateful to Marcie for her perspective (and her patience as we ask her to explain the literal basics of Christianity... this atheist and Jew needed some education). ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
In this episode of As Long As I'm Living, we talk about an article that caused a LOT of controversy on our Instagram. It turns out that you are at higher risk for sudden death after the death of a loved one... but in a surprising twist, you are MORE at risk after the death of a spouse than after the death of a child. At first we didn't really believe it... but the more we talked about it we kind of do! Listen to hear our thoughts, then message us on Instagram with yours! ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Time Magazine: Losing a Loved One is Life Threatening - Life Change Index Score - Quora Article: Is it more painful to lose a parent, or a child? - ALAIL | There Are No Words, an interview with widow and greeting card maker Jess Walker of Five Dot Post - ALAIL | An Incomparable Loss, an interview with Christine, Miranda's Mom ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Hello! We're here to give you all a basic life update. What's going on with Alina's IVF journey, how is Judith's pregnancy progressing (yes, we also talk about the intersection of these two things...), and an opportunity to marvel at how much we get done when we're together. Xo, Alina and Judith ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Today we're welcoming Aiden's Dad back to the podcast! In this episode, we talk to Aiden's Dad about what the past few years since our last interview with him (which you can listen to HERE). During that interview, we talked about the story like it was over, but in hindsight, it was just beginning. Aiden's Dad talks about grief and trauma aftershocks, depression, the weight of continuing to be a parent and spouse and employee while dealing with your own personal struggles, and so much more. Thank you so much, Aiden's Dad, for your vulnerability. Wishing a gentle father's day to all of the Sad Dads out there. ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.” - Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy It should come as no surprise that we don't subscribe to the belief that time heals all wounds. But what DOES heal wounds, and are all wounds healable? ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Detritus - Still Breathing, an interview with Katie Joy Duke - All About EMDR, an interview with trauma therapist Rebecca Munini ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
In this episode, we talk about how we tell the story of our loss(es). It depends a LOT on the audience, our energy level, and so many other factors. We can't wait to chat about this with you all on Instagram, so head over and follow us so you can join the conversation! We also take a TOTAL tangent about naked photos so please enjoy our chaos :) ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
The title says it all. In this episode, we talk about what it's like for Alina to be NOT pregnant -- again -- while Judith is pregnant -- again. It's harder than the last time, but probably not as hard as you'd expect? Note: this was recorded back in January, but it's May, and Alina is STILL not pregnant as of the release of this episode. Send wine. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Loose Threads, a Conversation About Unrealized Dreams ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
"I think about them all the time" -- this is a thing that loss parents SAY a lot about their baby, but what do we actually mean? We try to explain. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Beyonce Heartbeat - ALAIL | A Picture Is Not the Same As Being Together ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're returning from our accidentally really kinda long podcast break, and we are so happy to be back! Catch up with what has been up with us since January, while we catch up with what's been going on with all of YOU while we were out (via Instagram question box). ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're back from our break to say... we're not coming back (yet). Alina is not doing well, and because she mainly edits the podcast, that means that we can't keep releasing new episodes right now. That's okay! We'll be back when we're ready. Content note: Judith is pregnant, and (barely) announces in this episode. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - What a Shame She's Fucked in the Head sweatshirt (Etsy) - ALAIL | Happy For You, Sad For Me (On Pregnancy Announcements) ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: how to take a really good bath, from Judith, and some other cheap or free hobbies. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Baked by Melissa - Trader Joe's Green Goddess dressing - Reddit 30+ Skincare - Lush Melts bath bars ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: If you have regained the ability to read after your baby died, we have some recs for you! Judith's are sweet and fluffy. Alina's are about severe mental illness. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Lessons in Chemistry - Icebreaker, Hannah Grace - A Heart that Works, Rob Delaney - Everything is Fine - Juliet the Maniac - One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: we share a list of reality TV shows that will pass the time, and Alina talks around WTF happened in Saltburn. Watch that one at your own risk! XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Love is Blind Sweden - Bad Vegan - Six Feet Under - Millionaire Matchmaker - Indian Matchmaker - Jewish Matchmaker - Saltburn ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: Judith wanders down a TikTok rabbit hole and shares her favorite follows. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Therapy Jeff - Mrs. Melody Jenkins - Cost n' Mayor - Carla & Clio ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: Alina talks about WTF is going on with generational-wealth-holder, beauty-pageant-contestant, homemade-butter-churner, and mother-of-8 Ballerina Farm. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Ballerina Farm at Mrs. World - Kyte Baby controversy ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
We're taking a podcast break, but while we're out, we're sharing some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: Judith talks about her polygamist podcast obsession and shares a few ways to travel the world via Youtube. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - Growing Up In Polygamy - Simon Wilson - Harald Baldr ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
Listen y'all... we're tired, and we need a break! We'll be back with real episodes in a few weeks. While we're on our podcast break, we're going to share some tips/tricks/recommendations from the bottoms of our very random hearts. This week: what on earth to write in someone else's baby shower card. XOXO ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL| Happy for You, Sad for Me (On Pregnancy Announcements) - Five Dot Post greeting cards - Em and Friends greeting cards - Noble Paperie greeting cards ::: Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at @aslongasimlivingpodcast, send us an email at aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com, or visit us at anchor.fm/aslongasimliving! We would love to hear from you! ::: As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support
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