Tranos & the Lived Experience

In slightly more than ONE WEEK, Kamryn goes under the knife. TODAY, she talks about how this process is so freeing in the way it's going to cut away some of the damage she's done to herself in service of people who didn't want her to be the person she actually is and how it's opening up space in her life she was too cramped to move around in.This episode is musically inspired by “Contortionist” by Arankai This episode's strain is Cherry GorillaMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

On the extended eve of her facial feminization surgery, after many setbacks, Kamryn explains what it means to her to transform her body to match what she carries around inside everyday.She explains what the content output will look like after her face has been peeled like a grape and her skull passes through the femininity forge and why she's choosing to undergo this ordeal. And, this is Bee editorializing, I'm so proud of her. This episode is musically inspired by “Shapeshifter” by DownswingThis episode's strain is Shape ShifterMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos & The Lived Experience is back for 2024 with a very special episode! This week, Kamryn is joined by John “JC Money” Cimino, a long-time locker room colleague, a long-time friend and sometime foe. They plumb their shared history for tender memories and interrogate the moments in their lives where they couldn't truly see each other through the filter of beef.This episode is musically inspired by “What's Beef” by The Notorious B.I.G.This episode's strain is Apple FritterMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn@TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter,@TranosLives on Instagram

In this episode of Tranos & The Lived Experience, Kamryn reflects on the time she shared with her mother at the end of her life and how generational trauma made those times complicated even while each moment is so precious in retrospect.This episode is musically inspired by “Needles and Pins” by DeftonesThis episode's strain is Mother's FinestMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Kamryn returns from a hiatus not totally, entirely rested. She shares the pain she's experienced around her career with UPW and how she plans to manage it with her impending retirement. This episode was not musically inspired and isn't paired with a strain.Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Kamryn reflects on the sense of betrayal she feels when people who build a brand around trans advocacy only ever seem to advocate for white trans people. She relates it to her local community building events by and for the white segment of the community and talks about what's lost by this exclusion.This episode is musically inspired by “One Of Us Is The Killer” by Dillinger Escape PlanThis episode's strain is Planet of the Grapes.Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Happy yesterday! Kamryn returns on a recalibrated schedule to share her nostalgia for the Sundays of her youth, how life intervened to take those away from her and how being a Sunday adult feels so remote to her childhood Sundays.This episode is musically inspired by “Easy Like Sunday Morning” by the CommodoresThis episode's strain is Sunday Driver Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos watches the watchpeople this week! Kamryn has tales to tell about activism and the ways in which internal politics prevent activists from fulfilling their mission because their path is blocked by high-school-style social hurdles.This episode's strain is Modified BananasThis episode is musically inspired by “Plugged In” by Pete & BasOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos fails to keep it light. Bee joins Kamryn to have a fun, chill conversation but they ended up talking about how illiteracy around intersectionality causes trouble in the queer community. Oops! They're still funny with it.This episode's strain is Lou's Legacy. This episode is musically inspired by “Shout” by Tears for FearsOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Bee is back from New York, and Tranos is back with some facts for that ass. Kamryn examines the social dynamics behind the response to the Montgomery dock melee and finds similar factors at play in every situation where marginalized people match energy where only subservience is expected.This episode's strain is Bio-JesusThis episode is musically inspired by “Holy Roller” by SpiritboxOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos delivers a piping hot anthology of transgressions. A person in Kamryn's life has, over years, exemplified some of the most toxic behavior allies get up to, so she's washing her hands of this person and collecting the runoff for the reference of other marginalized people who might have some false allies in their midst.This episode's strain is Memory LossThis episode is musically inspired by "My Will Be A Dead Man" by Project 86Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos has been journeying far and wide and didn't have time to record an episode this week, so Tranos & The Lived Experience will revisit an arc in the Neglectecon Saga! ---Kamryn, Andrew and Tracy convene to tell us all about growing up with a total lack of adult supervision. Together, they are The Neglectacons!The Neglectacons play Knifey-Spooney, teach us nasty Rochester geography and recount Kamryn's teenage fashion choices.This episode's strain is Blueberry GelatoThis episode was musically inspired by “Do Right” by Jimmie's Chicken Shack

This week on Tranos & The Lived Experience, Kamryn talks about her shared life with Gabreal Saint. Kamryn explains how Gabreal developed into a substantial-enough person to pilot their shared life for years and how she eventually took control back by committing to becoming the woman we know and love today.This episode's strain is GranimalsThis episode is musically inspired by “Just Pretend” by Bad OmensOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos guides us through the maturation of her reaction to Rosa Montoya's toplessness at the White House. Kamryn examines the ways respectability politics especially binds trans women of color.This episode is musically inspired by “Israel's Son” by SilverchairThis episode's strain is Sugar Black RoseDon't forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Today, Tranos shares an intimate tale of Trans vs Machine. She details the embarrassing ordeal she worked through when she accidentally killed her sex toy, including several neighborly intrusions, an act of god and an electrical fire. This episode is musically inspired by “Stinkfist” by ToolThis episode's strain is Forbidden FruitDon't forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos is back exploring the legend of transness. All over the United States, lawmakers spend their days arguing about if trans people are real. But here we are. Many of them have had close encounters with a trans person. Kamryn explores the relationship between trans people and other spectacular creatures whose existence is in doubt. This episode is musically inspired by “Sun Doesn't Rise” by Mushroomhead.This episode's strain is White Truffle.Don't forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos has to take a break this week, but don''t fret! Tranos & the Lived Experience presents the first episode of Kamryn's new podcast with producer Bee. Remedial Mixtape is a guided tour of curated mixtapes where queer people discover the depths of the music they share with each other. Tranos will return at its regular time after this.

This episode of Tranos is a reflection on Kamryn's history with addiction. She revisits how painful it was to live in the closet and how that led her into the care of a therapist who put her on the 50s housewife treatment plan of 24/7 Valium. Instead of healing, she spend a long time chemically dissociating, but she was able to free herself from that toxic cycle and talk about it with clarity here today.This episode is musically inspired by “Strung Out” by 3rd StrikeThis episode's strain is Lilac DieselOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos addresses some barriers to her piece. Though Tranos & the Lived Experience is striving to generate more positivity and comfort, certain people in the world are making it hard to focus on that. This episode examines the fake outrage on the right about Dylan Mulvaney's brand deals with Bud Light and Nike. She's an unobjectionable, white trans woman, and June's coming up. It's the most usual thing in the world, but conservatives and their figureheads are mobilizing boycotts where they buy a bunch of product and destroy it- which is not what a boycott is. But this misguided, flailing, ineffective outrage is drowning out important discussion about actual serious stuff like Tennessee lawmakers illegally attacking democracy in their state. There are layers of distraction that need to be peeled away before Kamryn can find room to focus on herself, but she's still working to find that balance.This episode is musically inspired by “Like A Villain” by Bad OmensThis episode's strain is Han Solo BurgerOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Kamryn talks about a recent breakthrough: She went out in public at night. She's struggled for a long time with feeling safe enough to venture into the dark, and she finds herself in a place where that can be an option now. She outlines the ways her trauma contributes to her agoraphobia and how her agoraphobia hampers her mental health, and she talks about how she's working to care for herself though this cycle-breaking process.“Point #1” by ChevelleThis episode's strain is Kosher KushOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos is back with a new theme song and new attitude! This week, Kamryn wants to talk about the fruit borne by the last episode. She gets to the root of her “inability to feel joy,” how that has served her and how it's harmed her and she talks about the self-care she hopes to do to repair that harm. And some of that healing will happen on this podcast, so stay tuned.This episode is musically inspired by “Trippin' on a Hole in a Paper Heart” by Stone Temple PilotsThis episode's strain is GMO KushOur NEW! theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This is a special episode of Tranos & The Lived Experience. A recent conversation sparked an epiphany for Kamryn: She works the soil but joy isn't flourishing. The world is a hurtful place with no shortage of tragedy, and that overabundance of tragedy makes it hard to produce a podcast that doesn't reflect personal, societal and global tragedy. But for the health of our host, our producer, our audience and our greater communities, Tranos & the Lived Experience is going to try some things.This episode's strain is Forbidden FruitThis episode is musically inspired by “Alkaline” by Sleep TokenFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

“In Harlem, Negro policemen are feared more than whites, for they have more to prove and fewer ways to prove it”- James BaldwinTranos presents yet another reminder that marginalized people can and will carry water for their oppressors. Kamryn talks about how she was pushed to activism by circumstance, how some activists never want to get too active and the tensions that arise when there are serpents in these social circles.This episode's strain is Grapes of WrathThis episode is musically inspired by “Passive” by A Perfect Circle

On January 7, Tyre Nichols was caught up in an “officer involved murder” in Memphis. Five Black cops assaulted him and he succumb to his injuries in the hospital three days later. A 29-year-old Black father was killed as part of a traffic stop that wasn't even provably justified. But the cops were Black, so who can even tell if it was racist for the police to murder a Black person? Tranos can. Kamryn explains the history of Black slave catchers, how slave hunters became professional police officers and how doing racism is what makes a person racist, regardless of the color of their skin.This episode is musically inspired by “Sun Killer” by SpiritboxThis episode's strain is Garlic

“First, I must confess that over the past few years I have been gravely disappointed with the white moderate. I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Counciler or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate, who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice; who constantly says: "I agree with you in the goal you seek, but I cannot agree with your methods of direct action"; who paternalistically believes he can set the timetable for another man's freedom; who lives by a mythical concept of time and who constantly advises the Negro to wait for a "more convenient season." Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection.” -Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.This episode is musically inspired by “Milquetoast” by HelmetThis episode's strain is Jealousy

For the first Tranos & The Lived Experience for 2023, Kamryn presents a case study in white saviorism. She recounts her personal history with a white person for whom friendship is not an end in itself but a hobby from which they harvest self-esteem. This episode was musically inspired by “Shame” by Stabbing WestwardThis episode's strain is Death StarCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

After a series of uncomfortable interactions, Kamryn unpacks demands of compromise with friends Dani and Brandon. Kamryn tries to demonstrate how it feels to have your identity up for debate with strangers who couldn't possibly know what they think they know and with people as close as family members who have no excuse not to know better.This episode contains frank discussions of misgendering, dysphoria and transphobic violence in service of Kamryn's point that treating a person like their whole self isn't worthy is harmful and disgusting.“I Don't Care About Anyone Else But Me” Drowning PoolThis episode's strain is Grape VineCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn@TheTranos on Twitter,@TranosLives on Instagram

Today, Tranos brings you an extra long but extra serious episode. Producer Bee joins the show to talk about the shooting at Club Q. Kamryn and Bee talk through how they've been processing this tragedy, the people who did what they could to make this happen and what people who want to live in a better, safer world might consider to get us all there.This episode was musically inspired by “Get Up Again” by FlawThis episode's strain is Snoop Dogg OGCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos returns from some long, late hours in the lab to speak on some behaviors that trigger dysphoria. Kamryn took her time on this topic because she knew what she wanted to say, but it was hard to get the words out smoothly because she recounts a slew of painful, transphobic interactions. She runs down a short list of "compliments" and other comments that diminish and deny trans identity. And she does so to remind cis people that, very often, no one asked!This episode was musically inspired by “The Spell of Mathematics” by DeftonesThis episode's strain is SlurricaneCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos is back with an ambush episode! Kamryn chats with Louis Javier Mason about the downfall of Kanye West. They try to find the line of cancelability and discuss its malleability with regard to how consequences seem to never come for people who can still be profitable. They cover intersectionality, the overlap of antisemitism with baseline racism and how capital interests prefer itemized bigotry.This episode was musically inspired by “Chop Suey” by System of a DownThis episode's strain is Garlic CookiesCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

There's no new episode this week because Tranos is metamorphosing her life to fit within her new converted bus! Kamryn is building her new home aboard Skantuary, so the show is revisiting a Tranos classic while her attention is elsewhere.This episode's new strain is GoldmemberAnd this epsiode now makes Tranos think of "The Spirit of Suffering" by Spiritbox-----------------------------------------This week, Kamryn takes us on a deep dive of the celestial, alienating experience of transness in a cis-centeric society. She explains how she navigates passing, her willingness to put up with being clocked and how she forces the world to make space for her.

This week, y”all get a special Tranos double header! Arwen Kathke from Cardboard TIme returns to the show to talk about what it was like growing up during the height of mall culture and what kinds of crimes were best to do at the mall. And our special part two is a discussion about the ways trans people can sense each other without even speaking. This episode was musically inspired by “Separate Ways” by Journey, Arwen's truest mall banger.And this episode's strain is “1994 vintage snodgrass swag,” no longer available.

This episode of Tranos & the Lived Experience is a racism double-header. Beginning with the loud and annoying mourning period for Elizabeth II and its interplay with centuries of colonialism and genocide. Specifically because of the reactions people of color faced when celebrating too much or not being sad enough. Then Kamryn zooms in on a personal experience where a colleague demonstrated less pointed racism that left a bad taste in her mouth. In both of these cases, white liberals bare their ignorance about racial politics in different ways, intentional and unintentional, to harm people of color.This episode's strain is Sugarplum SunsetThis episode was musically inspired by “Who Wants To Live Forever?” by QueenCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

In this episode, Tranos produces an interview from the depths of her soul. She tells the story of the birth, death and legacy of Gabreal Saint. In her youth, external pressures forced Kamryn to construct a shell, layer by layer until it manifested into a person who lived her life for her when she didn't believe she could be suitable for it. And she details how she molted from the life Gabreal was built for into the life she lives now as the Kamryn we know and love. This episode's strain is Cheetah Piss“Love?” by Strapping Young Lad

In July, a wealthy couple in Rochester threw a “parody” Juneteenth party themed around anti-Black stereotypes. So what's up with that? Is there anything about Rochester that made this seem like a good idea, or is this an anomaly that could have happened anywhere? Tranos interrogates the historical context of Rochester that makes it rife for expressions of cartoon racism, and maybe there's a special treat at the end where she gets fed up with Black people who love to sayl the responsibility for racism doesn't fall on racists.This episode was musically inspired by “Stabbing In The Dark” by Ice Nine KillsThis episode's strain is Khalifa KushCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

CW: CSA, regular adult SAThis week on Tranos & The Lived Experience, ALove from The Screw joins Kamryn to discuss predators of all types. With conservatives labeling all queer people “groomers, it's necessary to define specific terms in and out of a queer context. Kamryn shares her personal history with predators as a child, ALove shares his experiences with entitled older men as a young adult and they try to define how much of this behavior comes down to people abusing their power in socially-sanctioned ways whether explicit or implicit. And we learn about how Kamryn's butt plug provides the absolute “The Last Dragon” surround sound experience.This episode was musically inspired by “Predisposed” by Ill NiñoThis episode's strain is Black cherry gelatoCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos returns with another exploration of transness. Emma Bonn came up in Kamryn's home promotion and embarked on her transition only recently. She talks about starting HRT as COVID kicked off, how she felt trans long before she learned a vocabulary for it and how her own transition was influenced by Kamryn.This episode's strain is Grandaddy purpleThis episode was musically inspired by “Volcano Girls” by Veruca SaltCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos flees the surly bonds of this Earth by playing Would You Rather? with friends. Network-mate Hannah Harkness, (@Hark_ItsHannah) creator and star of Kate's Bunker answer questions administered by producer Bee (@TheHumanSuplex) to discover what sorts of impossible situations they might theoretically prefer.“The Beginning of the End” by SpineshankThis episode's strain is Dolce gelatoCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This episode is a discussion from the perspective of a trans wrestler in upstate New York about the material hurdles that present themselves when you live your life like that. Also Kamryn hosts as usual. She's joined by Paola Gonzalez AKA PJ The Whip. Paola emigrated from Puerto Rico to the United States and shares her struggles with finding a comfortable niche in the world. the extra challenges that non-cis, non-WASP people encounter when they're looking to settle somewhere or to work and rude Facebook friends.This episode's strain is MimosaThis episode was musically inspired by “Engine No. 9” by DeftonesCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos talks to Haley Laidlaw about video games. Haley is a close friend of Kamryn's and a close spouse of producer Bee, and they have a lot of game opinions. They talk about how they got into video games, what obstacles they faced trying to experience certain parts of the hobby's community and how many chocolate eclairs a young girl can earn washing kids at Tekken 3.This episode was musically inspired by Sleater-Kinney. Just grab-bag style. We can't hold your hand through everything.This episode's strain is Silver HazeCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn@TheTranos on Twitter,@TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos and Cardboard Time's Arwen catch up on their shared history from being a couple of Western New York state eggs to the wonderful women they are today. They fill in their diverging histories between meetings, and they share and compare their mature truths. This episode was musically inspired by "Vitamin R" by ChevelleThis episode's strain is Cherry Pie BashCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

TW: PRETTY MILD CRITICISM OF THE INSTITUTION OF WHITENESS AND ITS FANSTranos is tired. The response to Supreme Court Justice Samuel Alito's draft opinion that the court should overturn Roe v. Wade was obvious, underwhelming and annoying. White women who respond only seasonally to oppression scrambled to put up ungrounded protests that fail to address the structural and social problems that make instant removal of abortion access possible. The lack of bodily autonomy for people in the United States is by design, but white women mostly don't have to think about it, so why do some of them want to criticize lifelong activists of color and queer activists for not lining up behind them? Tranos investigates, but it's because they're racist.This episode was musically inspired by “Charlotte” by Kittie The music video homework is linked here.This epiosde's strain is Blue Walker Catch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos details the disrespect she experiences as a Black trans woman when she moves through the world. Whether she's ignored when she expects to be engaged with, objectified when she expects to be treated like an equal or erased when she expects people to remember she exists, Kamryn knows what disrespect feels like. And she's learning how to advocate for herself in new ways to cope.This episode's strain is GG4This episode was musically inspired by “Resurrection” by Fear FactoryCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Felicia Rose joins Tranos to talk about harmful portrayals of trans people. There's a lot of ground to cover with this topic is all. They talk about Kamryn's first exposure to trans panic in “What's Opera, Doc?” and Kamryn almost remembers the title of “Barney Miller.”This episode's strain is SFV OG kushThis episode was musically inspired by “Guilty” by Gravity KillsCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com and follow Kamryn @TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram and follow NQO on Twitch to catch Tranos & the LIVE Experience

This week on Tranos & the Lived Experience, producer Bee returns to take fiction extra seriously. Kamryn and Bee chat about found and hand-made trans representation in media. They talk about characters and figures who speak to their identities and who helped them navigate to becoming the trans heroes they are today.This episode's strain is Gorilla CakeThis episode was musically inspired by “Archetype” by Fear FactoryCatch up on all the NQO happenings at NewQueerOrder.com

Kamryn, Andrew and Tracy convene to tell us all about growing up with a total lack of adult supervision. Together, they are The Neglectacons!The Neglectacons play Knifey-Spooney, teach us nasty Rochester geography and recount Kamryn's teenage fashion choices.This episode's strain is Blueberry GelatoThis episode was musically inspired by “Do Right” by Jimmie's Chicken Shack

This week, Tranos has a hard time. She describes the hollow she feels in her heart and how it can be filled only by justice where transphobia, racism and megalomania have left a void. Kamryn contextualizes bigoted laws or application of laws in Texas and Florida, and she reflects on the ways Russia's invasion of Ukraine invites people to reveal their asses.This episode's strain is Dosi-DoeThis episode was musically inspired by “Rejection Role” by Soilwork

Tranos had a tough talk with a relative about trans people playing sports. They did want to listen, but she has a loyal audience for that. Kamryn discusses the hurdles trans athletes need to overcome to participate in their sports and dispels the myths about the supernatural advantages trans women must have over their cis competitors to justify systemic transphobia in sports. This episode's strain is Peanut Butter SouffleThis episode was musically inspired by “Blow Up the Outside World” by Soundgarden

In an episode recorded before Spotify removed more than 70 episodes of the Joe Rogan Experience for the host's enthusiastic use of the Hard-R N-Word, Tranos discusses the role gleefully problmatic podcasts hosts play in greater social problems of anti-intellectualism, bigotry and toxic masculinity.This episode's strain is Skunk #1 This episode was musically inspired by “Point #1” by Chevelle

Have you ever felt like you weren't getting the kind of attention you signed up for? Everybody has. Today, Tranos talks about the emotions she processes when she finds herself in that situation and what she wants to do with it in 2022.This episode's strain is MK UltraThis episode was musically inspired by “Turn the Page” by Metallica

CW: CSA, gender dysphoriaToday, Tranos reveals her experience of sexuality. Kamryn has spoken briefly before about her sexual history and how she discovered it, but she's taking you on a deep dive today. How does medical transition change a trans woman's feelings of attraction? How does a trans woman's body respond after HRT? She answers these questions and more.This episode's strain is Grandaddy PurpleThis episode was musically inspired by “Violet” by Hole