The Peter D'Agnes Podcast

Krista is a friend of mine in Sedona.  She  is a channel, a teacher, an artist, oracle, rapper/music maker.Krista and I connect on the frequency of empathy, sensitivity and we both share a joy for creative expression, silliness, and childlike humor.  You can find her work at kristaraisa.comher etsy shop https://www.etsy.com/shop/EzoterraShop?ref=profile_headerKrista and I discuss manipulation, narcissism, gaslighting, love-bombing, devaluing in relationships and all the pitfalls women and men face in love matters.We also discuss emotional safety in relationships. And what helps to create healthy and loving partnerships. We discuss what difficult and painful relationships with narcissistic people have taught us and how we have grown and empowered ourselves in positive ways as a result. We discuss covert narcissism, codependency, setting boundaries.I really enjoyed this conversation.  It was like therapy for me.Thanks so much Krista for being such a bright light in this world. #dating #narcissism #heart #romance #trauma #sex #starseed #introvert #narcissisticabuse

I had a conversation with my friend Adrian Fisher about the new world, changes in his life in the last few years as the pandemic began, the old world collapsed.Adrian tells his story of building businesses, traveling the world, and all the glimmers and flashes where spirit spoke to him along the way.    The guidance that became louder and louder until he finally surrendered to this higher purpose, and opened up as a channel, and made real changes in his life.We speak about his move to Sedona about a year ago and how communities will be forming in this new landscape, especially in a place like Sedona We cover the topic of surrendering to those higher forces of divine destruction and intervention and how it is affecting every single person on this planet.  #heart #newworld #psychology #selfhelp #divine #love 

The internalized parental voice that lives in you, until you deal with it and take care of it.Learning a balanced relationship with self criticism while not falling into a deep hole of isolation, self abuse, drug abuse, is a huge step.Forgiveness of self is crucial.Learning how to be your own internal father (masculine) and internal mother (feminine).Traveling back in time to heal the 5 year old you, that is still inside you, waiting to be cared for, waiting to feel safe.  The short audio clips at the beginning and end are Bill Hicks. You are the perfect and holy child of God!!!Instagram : @peterdagnesFacebook: Peter D'Agnes

Those that teach me about unconditional lovebeing seen with the eyes of unconditional love and forgiveness, it wrecks your whole world in a wayand you remember why you need to show that love to another I am so grateful for those who have walked into my life to teach me about lovethese souls that love fiercely and unconditionally, and help you remember who you are the strength of people to endure the pain of rejection, loss, abandonment, to keep loving despite it all...it inspires me deeply, when those people serve a role of illumination and remembrance for me, I remember why I need to serve, the responsibility to love others and light the waythank you for being a guiding light in this world and showing the way to those who forgot how to love, they only just forgot temporarily that they are loved eternally and unconditionally..."by the grace of God, go I....."#love #growth #starseeds #unconditionallove

Look into your own heart and know that you are the one you have been looking for, you are your own greatest love, romance, all miracles, magic is contained within you waiting to be unlocked.  I feel that in our society we have programmed to install operating systems in our head that have to do with beauty, money, fame and we all try to jump through hoops to see who can win the prizes and feel worthy of this "King of the Castle" title.  It is ironic, however, that the people that get to the top of the mountain; they have money, fame, popularity, yet they all say that it does not fulfill them.  It is because your soul is desiring a deep union and intimacy with itself.  Your soul wants to dive into the infinite mystery of YOU, and see that God, the universe and all things are contained within you.  When you begin to crack those outer shells of defense around the heart, you begin to dive into the infinite death-rebirth, spiraling cycle of soul evolution. When you start to become your own greatest lover, you see that love is new in every second, every hour, every day, it will never stop deepening, expanding. I have found the best way to learn about this supernatural force of love, is to glimpse it in yourself and you will begin to see miracles birthed out of your own heart daily, and know that you are a well-source of love, and all you perceive on the external projector screen are just fractals of you.  You are beautiful because you have a beating heart.Because you breathe air into your lungs. Because you will never be repeated for eternityThe main theme is AUTHORITY, we have been programmed by society to grant authority to an imaginary panel of judges that are supposed to tell us when we are worthy of love- such as having a lot of followers, being sexually attractive in the way that the television has said we should be.  The only person who can glimpse the truest and deepest love and beauty is YOU.  you must be the first and only authority over yourself.   And when you start to see inside your own heart and all the crevasses, and hidden, repressed parts, you will begin a journey into the infinite void of knowing the Godself within, the love that animates of every particle of existence.  

2019 has been an intense year of deaths and rebirth.  I speak about the process of shedding outer layers in my heart, processing traumas, letting go of old grudges, anger, and becoming a new, naked, free, version of myself.The adjustment period can be slow and requires patience.  I have slowly been learning to listen to my heart more, to tend to it's needs, to take care, and attention to my healing process....being alone, meditating, walking barefoot in the grass, listening to 528 hz music with noise canceling headphones.... these are things I love to do.  I speak about how it is new and confusing at times, operating with a healed nervous system.  My mind still scans for threats, but I often check in and ask my heart and it says "no, that's just an old pattern."  It is safe to be you now. I have needed a lot of time to process, to grieve, to say goodbye to these old versions of myself that have died.  To let go of the me that was so attached to my pain and trauma, the me that could only know myself through pain.  Instagram: @peterdagnesBlog : thesoberhombre.comSong : Landslide, Fleetwood MacYoutube video:  Self Love, Self Trust, Self Forgiveness (techniques to heal depression and self sabotage)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIReflections on my first Ayahuasca ceremony in Peru with a Shaman and slideshow of my time in the Amazon Jungle  (youtube video) : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tg2WNZkTyvsPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

I speak about how I had profound Ayahuasca and Psilocybin Mushroom experiences that taught me that all my fears, sadness, anger, is all inside of me.I talk about how there are many generational traumas that are passed down to us through our DNA. I describe what I perceive to be, grids of fear that act somewhat like a contagious wildfire spreading around the collective of humanity.  I have had the experience of confronting all of these fears in myself and what I have found is that the issues in my life all resulted from things that first existed inside myself that I then projected out into my hologram or sense perception.I know now that fear is a completely synthetic construct that has been governing all of our experiences.   Fear ceilings are not perceivable but have been dictating our experiences  (mind programs)Fear is an imaginary construct that has been embedded in the source field of humanity for millenia and we are breaking it's chains together as one human race.Intro Song : Awake, by Electric GuestSong at End:   Dirty Talk Wynter Gordon  (Laidback Luke Remix)Seth Speaks (channeled texts): 30+ books published in the 1970's on (mentioned in the podcast) https://www.amazon.com/Seth-Speaks-Eternal-Validity-Soul/dp/B07LCSQ949/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=seth+speaks&qid=1573151789&sr=8-1Paul Selig's "I am the Word" series (channeled texts) 7 Books published so far  (mentioned) https://www.amazon.com/Am-Word-Consciousness-Transitioning-Mastery/dp/1585427934/ref=asc_df_1585427934/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=312607785736&hvpos=1o1&hvnetw=g&hvrand=16628456331141330167&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9058760&hvtargid=aud-802037562948:pla-492346723349&psc=1&tag=&ref=&adgrpid=61775261186&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvadid=312607785736&hvpos=1o1&hvnetw=g&hvrand=16628456331141330167&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9058760&hvtargid=aud-802037562948:pla-492346723349 Instagram: @peterdagnesBlog : thesoberhombre.comMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video: Egos deaths/Identity Crisis during Spiritual Awakening https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OoIFJcfiW4Podcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

Words are powerful tools and can be used to create the reality we perceive before us.It starts with an intention and a feeling in the heart, and from there you direct the energy.First we just need to clear out the many subconscious programs that lurk below the surface in your mind, heart, soul.I detail steps, techniques and speak out loud in this episode, actual commands/training exercises that I do.   I also speak about the power of subconscious and subliminal programming in Television/ advertising/music and how this has the power to influence your thought patterns and belief systems, highlighting the need to for vigilance and intentional use of your time and energy every day.  Be careful with the words you speak to yourself, even the simplest derogatory remarks, the body and your subconscious hears you!Speak loving and uplifting things to yourself!Intro Music - Run through the Jungle by Creedence Clearwater RevivalSong at End:   Lover Come Back by City and ColourSeth Speaks (channeled texts): 30+ books published in the 1970's on (mentioned in the podcast) https://www.amazon.com/Seth-Speaks-Eternal-Validity-Soul/dp/B07LCSQ949/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=seth+speaks&qid=1573151789&sr=8-1Paul Selig's "I am the Word" series (channeled texts) 7 Books published so far  (mentioned) https://www.amazon.com/Am-Word-Consciousness-Transitioning-Mastery/dp/1585427934/ref=asc_df_1585427934/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=312607785736&hvpos=1o1&hvnetw=g&hvrand=16628456331141330167&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9058760&hvtargid=aud-802037562948:pla-492346723349&psc=1&tag=&ref=&adgrpid=61775261186&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvadid=312607785736&hvpos=1o1&hvnetw=g&hvrand=16628456331141330167&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9058760&hvtargid=aud-802037562948:pla-492346723349 Instagram: @peterdagnesBlog : thesoberhombre.comMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video: My 10 defining characteristics of the Matrix  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wjkv28byAAPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

Rejection is a profoundly liberating experience for me because each time it happens, it shows me a chain that was still shackling me to the idea that external validation of whatever kind will make my life complete and whole.  Being rejected many times in my life, whether romantically, friends, career, or creative endeavors, has taught me the very valuable lesson that the truest, strongest foundation and most unshakeable love, is to be found in myself.And when I can cultivate the most powerful love in myself and the God inside me and in everything around me (everything that ever was and ever will be .. within me) Every person that ever rejected me was merely playing a role for me and directing me into a deeper and more intimate love and trust with myself. Whenever I am rejected, in whatever way, creatively, romantically or otherwise, it show me ...hey that wasn't so bad!!!! I'm still alive and now I want to tryt that again!!! That feels good!!! What OTHER parts of myself have I been holding back all this time just because I thought that I would be safe in the warm blanket of "likability/agreeability/approval"I also speak about how many souls, call in the experiences of rejection at the higher level (their higher self-the aspect of that person existing outside of space and time that is all knowing) because they know it will strengthen them, break down all illusion, deception, co-dependent slave contracts. The Cult of Likability : by Bret Easton Ellis  NY Times Opinion (mentioned in the show)https://www.nytimes.com/2015/12/08/opinion/bret-easton-ellis-on-living-in-the-cult-of-likability.html(Author of  American Psycho)   One of my favorite movies - although he didn't have any creative pull over the movie.  Instagram : @peterdagnesTwitter: @thesoberhombre"They hurt you at home and they hit you at schoolThey hate you if you're clever and they despise a foolTill you're so fucking crazy you can't follow their rulesA working class hero is something to beWhen they've tortured and scared you for twenty-odd yearsThen they expect you to pick a careerWhen you can't really function you're so full of fearA working class hero is something to beKeep you doped with religion, and sex, and TV."-  Working Class Hero, John LennonYoutube Video:  The Best and Worst NewsI'm just a character (Divine Detachment) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNapgFrvRKkReflections on my first ceremony in Peru and slideshow of my time in the Amazon Jungle  (youtube video) : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tg2WNZkTyvsPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber#heart #truth #rejection #spiritualawakening 

I talk about the experience of being a highly sensitive empath who has been unconsciously (unknowingly) absorbing the emotions of everyone I come in contact. Through the guidance of this society,   I have mistook this sensitive temperament (a gift)  for being dysfunctional, maladaptive, depressed, anxious and all manner of "illness", "disorder", being shuffled in and out of Psychologists most of my adolescent life.  Many empaths struggle with this predicament of literally being a shapeshifter.  We often don't realize how good we are at mimicking (like a chameleon) and mirroring back the emotions of every single person we come in contact with, because you are always feeling their emotions as if they are in your own body and you just want them to feel better so that you can feel better!!! It can feel like being a slave or living in a prison. Especially because of the puritanical foundations of American society that have been brainwashing us into believing that everyone must REPRESS all emotions that aren't militant, docile positivity.So, being the SEER, the intuitive, the one who is the emotional sponge, it can get exhausting and make one believe they are crazy, but what I found is that my intuition was right all along, many people are sad, upset, angry, beneath the surface they just mask it really well and we live in a society where one is rewarded highly for pretending and repressing their true emotions in service of always being happy.My healing process has led me to believe that when you repress so called "ugly" emotions, it gets stored in your body, soul, mind and festers, goes rotten and creates all kinds of blockages, sickness....mental, physical, emotional.  unfortunately we are taught to believe this is normal, therefore we are a chronically sick (mentally and physically) population.  I detail some steps that the empath can take to become free of enmeshment trauma and essentially Stockholm Syndrome where you believe your only worth to the world, is being the shoulder to cry, or your ability to soothe others (being liked by everyone), and you accept your role as emotional punching bag in your family or friends.The process of taking your power back as the one who was previously coddling and agreeing with everyone around you can appear shocking to these people because you are literally a gold medalist Olympic champion at MATCHING vibrations (and you don't even know it) and ALWAYS shrinking your energy to MEET theirs and SOOTHE them.I speak about breaking these subconscious, energetic contracts that we have agreed to as empaths to let everyone take from our energy and having unhindered energetic access to you at all times.As an empath, Highly sensitive souls, your service to this planet is to heal yourself, love yourself first and foremost, so you can then be an example and a leader to others, but you can't give anything to anyone if you are not filling your cup first. You are a warrior who is here to anchor down a brand new energetic frequency (YES, seemingly ALIEN to most people) but PROTECT it at all costs.  You are PRECIOUS!!!!!!"I don't expect you to understand,after you've caused so much pain,but then again,you're not to blame, you're just a human,a victim of the insane."          -Isolation, John Lennon            Plastic Ono Band, album (1970) (Song played at end)Instagram: @peterdagnesTwitter: @thesoberhombreBlog : thesoberhombre.comMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video- Sedona, Arizona- Interactive Video Tour of Vortexes (Sacred Healing Land)  

I speak about my experience with abusing alcohol and getting into many dangerous situations, going to the depths of depression, sadness, isolation, and the experience of being sober now for 4 and a half years.  I speak about the perspective I have gained from sobriety.Why is the consumption of the drug alcohol, that kills roughly 90,000 people a year in America (more than all drug deaths combined) considered "normal"?  Why is it glorified everywhere you look? Song in episode:  "Apocalypse" by Cigarettes after SexInstagram: @peterdagnesMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video- Self Love, Self Forgiveness, Self Trust-  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

“The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.Neo: What truth?Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.”― Morpheus The MatrixWhat drives the Matrix?  What feeds it the collective field of energy of the Matrix?   Gossip, judgment, fear, complaining, fame worship, television.I talk about how the constructs of fame, money, beauty are programmed into us and drive us like a collective organism,, with the help of television, media and consumerism/materialism.  The Matrix is the person behind you in the supermarket pouting that you are taking too long, it is that person you accidentally cut off on the highway, that speeds up and takes 20 seconds to catch just to give you the finger or curse you off.They are not mad you, they just put their faith jn a system that told them to hate themselves and worship Gods and idols outside of them so they are more easily controlled.  The Matrix wants to take all of your energy and have you feed the collective grid and give you nothing back.  The Matrix, like the Universe, is inside you, we have the power to dismantle it by not giving our energy to it.  You must go inside yourself and dismantle these programs, that we all inherited.In the Movie the Matrix, Neo reaches Christ Consciousness at the end of the movie, he shatters the veils of deception, fear, amnesia, and remembers he is God and that we are all creating this reality together.  Instagram: @peterdagnesSong at End:  Heavenly by Cigarettes after SexMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video: Sedona< Arizona- Interactive Video Tour of Vortexes (Sacred Healing Land) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYv5naJP3UoYoutube-   Self Love, Self Trust, Self Forgiveness  (techniques to heal depression, self-sabotage) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

I talk about warrior/mercenary soul/revolutionary, the comedian WILLIAM MELVIN HICKS who lived from 1961- 1994 and died at the age of 32 from pancreatic cancer, right on the verge of hitting it big in the Mainstream American Entertainment Scene.  Bill Hicks helped me remember who I am, and to re-ignite the eternal source fire inside me. He would stop at nothing to uphold the greatness, integrity, and honor of the human race, and every living soul on this planet. He is one of the funniest people I ever laid my eyes on.  Bill was a torch bearer of love power, he came here to set down a Galactic explosion of heart fire; a fearless warrior for Truth, Love, Freedom of Expression, and Individualism, a booming voice against all injustice and lies in this world.  There are some very short audio clips and some longer ones, interspersed throughout the episode of Bill's bits (some of my favorites), so you can get a feel for who he was. Knowing that Bill existed and, still does in some form (has been immensely helpful in carrying me through the hardest times in my life.)  I never belly laugh so hard as when I am watching him.  His comedy is ruthless, fierce, unforgiving, cerebral, global, prophetic, and many years ahead of his time.  He was a visionary, a leader and an ambassador from another world, his mission was to remind us who we are and how we can reclaim our true divine birthright of freedom and PARADISE on this planet.   He spoke out against the military industrial complex, corporate agendas, the erosion of American culture through advertising and marketing with a stinging bittersweet cocktail of finesse, charm, and raw soul power.    When I saw him for the first time in 2011 in a documentary called Bill Hicks: American made by his best friend, it set my soul on fire and I felt there was a soul who understood me and the meaning of why we are actually here, for the first time in my life.  The balance of Bill's child-like silliness and softness with his fearless warrior nature that never hesitated to go straight for the jugular of any injustices he perceived, is a rare, magical, exquisite, beauty and mastery.Highly Recommended Book: Bill Hicks: Agent of Evolution, by Kevin Booth.  Link:   https://www.amazon.com/Bill-Hicks-Evolution-Kevin-Booth/dp/0007198299Check out Bill Hicks' specials currently available on Netflix: Revelations (1993) and Relentless (1991).SONG:  Whitney Houston- it's Not Right, but it's Okay (2000 Thunderpuss Club Mix)Instagram: @peterdagnesMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube video:  Self Love, Self Trust, Self Forgiveness (techniques to heal depression and self sabotage)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

I describe the relationship I have to the divine feminine part of me that is contained within me and everything.    I describe the feeling of rediscovering the feminine, parts of me and the sensitive child within me that was afraid to receive love and be welcomed home by the mother.    I learn about the difficulties of opening up and being able to be intimate with myself in the first place and then being more open to receive love in the outside world.  The divine mother/cosmic mother to me is the Creator and the Destroyer, death and rebirth the water that consumes everything, the fire that destroys and rebirths in truer form   I have had to learn to surrender and be humbled by the stern direction of the mother, which is a tremendous relief  As a man I believe that accessing these parts of myself have allowed me to be stronger because I am letting it flow through me and I am infused with more power in my masculine energies and more balanced with yin and yang, masculine and feminine.    Website/blog -   thesoberhombre.com Instagram : @peterdagnesTwitter: @thesoberhombreSong in Intro:  Like Janis- Sixto RodriguezSong at End:  Rainbow of Love - Club mix - Bob SinclairMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video :  Self Love,  Self Trust,  Self Forgiveness  (techniques to heal depression, self sabotage, alienation)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

In the fall of 2018, my first nephew was born and my uncle died in the same 2 month span.  This was the perfect metaphor/divine timing for what began a season and year of intense deaths, rebirths and metamorphosis in my life.   I talk about how my nephew being born changed my perspective on mortality and was a major milestone in maturity in my life.   Also, how grieving the death of my uncle taught me so many lessons about the heart and the nature of death and life, how it is to celebrated and that we are all just preparing to die and go home.  I returned to Peru in February 2019 for the 2nd time to take the medicine Ayahuasca with a Shaman for 4 ceremonies over a span of 7 days.I go into some of the epiphanies I had during these ceremonies. I talk about the difficult integration with Ayahuasca and building myself back up from the ashes after the 4 ceremonies with Ayahuasca, that yet again obliterated everything I thought I knew about "reality", God, Self and opened my heart, mind and soul, to unimaginable and miraculous dimensions of experience.This trip to Peru for Ayahuasca in February 2019 felt very like "going home" and meeting my star family, getting the advanced course on this thing we call consciousness.  I speak about how I finally start to get a handle on this spiritual awakening thing and having an open third eye, receiving psychic downloads constantly, being super sensitive to energies and really integrating into my life and not being afraid of it anymore.  The experience of loving myself is very new, weird even, when I have never loved myself and was abusive to myself your whole life. I describe the steps taken and feelings I had:  the agony and ecstasy, the anguish and the triumph of the long journey home to reuniting with my higher self.  2019 for me, was the year of the masculine, harmonizing dualing polarities, having an inner child parented by the mother and father equally.  In this year I learned that I if I can heal anything INSIDE myself: Fear, shame, trauma, anger, I can conquer anything in the outside world and the power of love and the heart can incinerate anything in it's path.  Intro Song:  You Sexy thing by Hot ChocolateSong at End:   Rock your Baby by George McCraeInstagram: @peterdagnesReflections on my first ceremony in Peru and slideshow of my time in the Amazon Jungle  (youtube video) : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tg2WNZkTyvsYoutube Video: Sedona< Arizona- Interactive Video Tour of Vortexes (Sacred Healing Land) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYv5naJP3UoYoutube-   Self Love, Self Trust, Self Forgiveness  (techniques to heal depression, self-sabotage) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues, my musings on many different things, are posted on Youtube as Videos:--Peter D'Agnes--https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber

Refer to Part 2 of my story in the next episode.I define Spiritual Awakening as waking up to the part of you that is eternal and infinite and knows death isn't real, that knows that we are playing roles for each other.   That knows that love is the only eternal truth.  I describe the years of 2017 and 2018 and the first part of my spiritual awakening.  I went on an Ayahuasca Retreat in the Amazon Jungle in April 2017 and this opened many new doors and highways of higher dimensional connection.After that I started down a path and discovered things inside myself and the universe I would never been able to previously imagine.  I had my eyes, heart, mind, soul opened up to new realities and dimensions of experience.  I did a lot of dying in this time, and these "deaths" have taught me that what our soul desires for us is eternal evolution, which is scary and painful for the ego.  In the next part, I will focus on the year 2019 when I went for my second Ayahuasca Retreat in the Amazon Jungle in Peru for four more Ayahuasca ceremonies. Instagram: @peterdagnesTwitter: @thesoberhombreSong in Intro:    Whitney Houston- How Will I know (Van Hooft and Forever Kid Remix)Song at End:  All these Things that I've Done-  The KillersMy Reflections on 4 Ayahuasca ceremonies with a Shaman (over the course of one week in Peru (the Amazon Jungle) (Youtube) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFfvL7FdzcYoutube Video: Sedona, Arizona- Interactive Video Tour of Vortexes (Sacred Healing Land) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYv5naJP3UoYoutube-   Self Love, Self Trust, Self Forgiveness  (techniques to heal depression, self-sabotage, alienation) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgfJwp3s6JIPodcast Episodes and other original content such as travelogues are posted as Videos on Youtube as well:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNCpwKyFvAEAjRt_zs-Xr9g?view_as=subscriber