Thoughts of a Trillionaire

Today I wrestle with some feelings I've been trying to figure out... what cages am I in? How can I continue to grow and expand myself and experience freedom in a world where I feel constantly limited and alone? These are some of the ideas that was partially inspired by this video: https://youtu.be/_4PaTt7lylI?si=SpSxayW0XdxbEN1g Hoping to share my vulnerabilities and connect with more people on a deeper level through that discomfort!

After coming back home and talking with my partner, who I consider an unofficial pro on this topic among many others, she gave some great insights and perspective that I wanted to share as well.

I share some of what I've been feeling over the past few weeks in the way of energy management. I then find myself talking about the concept of manifestion and hermeticism, lol... but wait there's more!

In this episode, I explore why I procrastinate and why I think it's important to believe things can be better.. and work to make it so. I reflect on my history with failed ambitious projects, from hovercars to coding to trillionaire startups, and discuss what I learned from them.

Today I give some updates on what I'm planning to do next. Spoiler Alert! I want to focus much of my abilities, ideas, and passions into growing a series called Building Better Futures! Aaaand I want to learn craft/trade work like carpentry, woodworking, or millwright work. Tune in for the former, and please let me know if you have suggestions for the latter!

Do you think changing the world is hard? Impossible? Unrealistic? Well today I hope to show how changing the world could be as simple as building a real community around yourself.As I seek to decompress from being gainfully employed, I meander my way into sharing thoughts and desires I have around the importance of community in building a better world. Check out my new podcast with my brother, called Claudian Rhythm!https://open.spotify.com/show/5SPKle96FpcHRgU0myEFEs?si=GheWv0l8SoyMnM0wvr1H9Q

I take an evening walk.. with my cat... and talk about what I'll miss about my job. So long... for now, and thanks for all the headsets.

I am being put on furlough.... basically it's being laid off, but I can keep my benefits until I find another job, they hire us back, or they close up shop.Losing your job always sucks, but I feel particularly frustrated for not being more prepared for this inevitability since I always knew that job security was not a thing. Nonetheless, I am also very excited!! I'm finally going to have hella time to work on all the projects I've been wanting to work on over the past few years. So stay tuned!! And let me know if there's anything you want to see first! Also... if you want to support financially, feel free to send to my cashapp: $ElijahThaddeusClaude

I'm back!! I share some of the stressors I've had and much of the stories I've been reading these past few weeks. These stories include (roughly in order of discussion): Consider Phlebas by Ian M. Banks, The Long Earth series by Terry Pratchett and Stephen Baxter, House of Suns by Alistair Reynolds, and the webfiction Ar'Kendrithyst by Arcs.And I forgot to talk about A Half-Built Garden by Ruthanna Emrys... which is a shame because it was my favorite novel of the lot! Definitely have to get into it in the next episode.

Today I struggle to recall the podcast I listened to interviewing Sara Walker talking about Assembly Theory and the origins of life. So instead talk more about philosophy, Solarpunk, scifi, and the importance of giving alternatives alongside critiques.

Today I share some thoughts I had after watching CJ The X's video called "6 Shaped of God" https://youtu.be/GZg_36utl2w?si=ywmvPFqxDxxufZde ... I get into my frustrations/beliefs around god and what I think is a more rational and helpful spiritual belief may encompass.

Today I share some thoughts I had after listening to the Decoder podcast with Harvey Mason Jr., the CEO of the nonprofit that runs the Grammys. I go into the problems of institutions and how we may be able to do things differently if we take a more decentralized, anarchist approach to organizations, power, and social support.

In this episode, I give some updates on what I've been doing and struggling this month and share my thoughts on hip-hop and the place competition plays in the art... all while walking my cat (well for some of it).

Today I share more ideas on how I can combine a research center, a community center, an innovationab, and ab educational center all into a communal living system. This is the type of co-operative organization that I want to help create to solve some of the most important problems in the world...

We finally moved into our own place!! I recount the process, troubles, and highlights of the move as well as what I'm looking forward to. I then share some insights I'm learning about getting furniture and such. Finally, I end with some ideas I've had around tools that would help build communities, craft stuff, and a Solarpunk trucking game!

I share more updates on my housing journey, talk about a new web fiction I've been reading called Shades of Perception, and talk about games I've been playing/watching like Talented and Deadlock. Plus some other stuff...

Creepy houses, horny pets,.. oh my! Heres a continuation of my (mis)adventures with finding a house and new pets.

Today I ramble a bit before I stumble into the topic of how playing challenging games can be really helpful. I talk about two games I started playing this weekend: Talented and Emberward.

I continue sharing my experiencing trying to rent my own place for the first time...

I share my experience trying to rent my own place for the first time...

Today I talk through my fears and insecurities around sharing and embracing my ideas and idea-centric skillset...

Today I share my experiences in Arkansas, my thoughts on capitalism and some realizations I had while visiting these large corporations. I also share some initial thoughts about Afropressimism.

Just giving an update on what's been going on in my life the last few weeks! It's been a bit of a rollercoaster lately... Literally!

My grandfather passed away. I reflect on that moment. The Body: https://youtu.be/EtVca4XV4_U?si=LTpZo97XSh5fD6q1

What kind of music do you listen to? What art do you consume? How does it align with the type of world you want to live in? I share my own frustrations and ideas on how people can/should seek out art (and other things) more consciously. I argue that it is actually important whether you listen to someone like Drake or Kendrick if you give a shit about culture and building better worlds. Even beyond that, if you listen to just what is popular vs all the other amazing but lesser known art out there, then your worldview will almost certainly be limited. I think the things we consume, and the things we create, and the things we share, are all important facets of the world we are living and building.

Kendrick gives us a great example of the type of energy we need to utilize to take down corrupt systems. In this episode I discuss how we can use his crusade against Drake as a playbook for how we can tackle capitalism, patriarchy, hierarchy, and all these other terrible systems too. #notlikeus

Today I share some frustrations, ideas, and inspirations regarding the need for an overarching process for creating better futures...

Today I delve back into hip-hop to talk about the various problems plaguing the culture and where they came from. I then share some ideas on how we can fix them.

I'm just needing out about a game I finally started playing. I share some lore and lessons about the game.

I end up going on a long rant about the history and evolution of hip-hop and why diss tracks are a part of the culture, but also why/how the glorification of violence and misogyny became baked into the 'culture' even when it shouldn't be. I go on to dissect my distaste for Drake, my dislike for J Cole, and why I feel like Kendrick is indeed a GOAT! Come at me!

I go on a long diatribe/exposition about the start of civilization and the research I've been talking about in my Afrofuturism 101 course.

Today, I share some updates on what I've been up to this month; from traveling in the mountains, to doing errands, to teaching my first class, to gaming and more.

I share some lessons I've learned from playing Mind Over Magic, and share other reflections and life updates.

Today I reflect on the past couple of years of podcasting/audio journaling. I also end up talking about the importance of ideas and the ideation process.

Today I have to give a heartfelt apology to all the folks I may have unravelled or otherwise had way too intense discussions with. After/during a recent discussion that did not go super well, I realized, or rather crystalized, something about myself: I like to pull at threads! And I will often do so relentlessly until something comes apart.. or proves resilient enough to stand. Though I greatly value this trait about myself as a major driver of my curiosity, it can be very tough for other people. I don't want people to be too scared of talking with me, or to think that I'm just trying to be antagonistic towards them. Though curiosity and a thirst for understanding is important, it does not bode well to put people in a defensive or floundering state in the process. So I am very sorry to all those I may have troubled in my thread pulling. I'll endeavor to be more tactful going forward.

It's been two months!! Sure I've been sick, and had some family events, and it's been the holidays, and I've been working, and it's been cold... But honestly a Huge amount of my time has been spent reading The Wandering Inn... One of the best stories I've read in my entire life. Today I share just a bit about why this story has captured my attention and imagination so much!!

Today I just vent and grouse for a while about all the frustrations I've been having, big and small... Then I get into a bit of some ideas on what we can be doing instead.

I'm back! And today I share thoughts about recent current events that you probably know about but I won't say here so as not to get immediately censored. Maybe it doesn't matter since this is a small lil podcast, but whatever helps.

I went to Vegas! In the first 30min, I share some thoughts while walking the strip. Then I recount my experience with a guest star while back in Atlanta! I share my thoughts about everything from the hotels I visited, the Sphere, and the conference.

I start this episode with some apologies and critiques for some comments I made previously. I try to show the difference between venting and constructive criticism and so on. I then share some ideas I had from listening to a podcast about Self and Identity, which you can find here https://player.fm/1BZaBKZ then I stumble through some ideas I had around the importance of structure and couching the new in the familiar when it comes to envisioning better worlds.

Today I just walk and talk, sharing my week, my experience playing with (off brand) lego bricks, and what I've been watching. I then share an idea for a solarpunk story that I had and more!!

Today I delve deeper into the various magic systems that were foundational to my idea of magic, and especially my unquenchable thirst to create a more magical world. I talk about how magical religion is, contrast between monotheistic and polytheistic ones, compare with various fantasy tropes found in books like Harry Potter and various urban fantasy and vampire books... then I also talk about how science and technology differs from magic, but also how it is still quite similar. Finally I end, as I often tend to do, with a sort of call to action, to imagine a world where our technology feels more magical in a more real sense... empowering us to channel the magic within us out into the world...

Today I share the story of how dissecting my beliefs around religion at an early age taught me a lot about magic and belief; seeing why it's important to believe in something bigger, but also to have a systematic approach to life.

I wanted to walk today, and ended up talking about what I like about magic systems and stuff, especially in communion with technology and science.

I share some of my frustrations and stresses, go on a tangent about magic/shamanism and fantasy vs sci-fi stories, and talk about my ideal job. I also talk a bit about the problem with longevity technologies.

Today I explore some ideas on how to build a better future and what that can look like. I talk about turning suburban waste lands into micro eco villages, as well as anarchistic businesses with egalitarian, cooperative business practices.

Today I talk through my anhedonia and share a bit about why and how I've been feeling especially constrained of late. I hope I can express more of myself going forward, and create a world where everyone can do the same...

I recap my week thus far, talk about my restless desire to create with my hands, and talk about the Death of Death... Different perspectives on immortality.

Today, I reflect on my self. My difficulties with self expression, self esteem, self confidence, and other aspects of my self. I also share and work through some ideas I learned about the inner Self... The core... The Omniscient, the Spirit, the Ancestors, the Source of all wisdom and consciousness or whatever we want to call it that is always (or often) right about what we should do (and so much more). We only need to listen, and engage in dialectic about what we (think we) hear, to better digest and act upon said wisdom. I reflect on the Self.

Working through my feelings of restlessness and fatigue. This is why I get so frustrated with the way things are and get so passionate about living in a better world.

I recount my trip to NYC