Johanna Draconis - The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD

Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am slowly coming back. As expected the fight was successful and completely burned me out. But I am FINALLY FREE! Of Torture AND Trauma. This took WAY TOO long. And now more and more falls into place and fully rebuilds me - which is a very energy and time consuming process. For all those reasons I will slowly make my way back.But to ease most of you: This end boss doesn't seem to appear unless you experienced many years of torture especially as a child. But since I am the only person I know who's cured of torture - I only have one data point and time will tell what is required.I also wanted to record this episode because I know the holidays are for many a particularly dark time and to strongly encourage you to take a step away from it all if needed. Your mental health is more important than being up to date.Fear mongering and hate watching are extremely popular on social media and give the feeling, that if you don't watch every video - you are going to be lost. Unless you are working with it - stepping away for several days or weeks will do nothing.It can actually be quite therapeutic to be away for a while and coming back to see the same things being told. The world didn't end. A new sunrise will come and a new set of dramatic events. Letting go can help a lot with your anxiety, stress and getting comfortable with needing some time for yourself and slowing down. I hope you are well and that I can bring you more soon.Take very good care of yourself, stay safe and happy holidaysJohannaSend us a textContact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am going shortly into what is going on and why I'm on hiatus. First on social media. I am going to restructure things and have plans and my silly brain decided that means I can't post anything in the meantime.Second - I have been still dealing with torture - as I seriously underestimated how much it would slow down the closer I got to the early years. Then everything slowed more and more down - which wasn't surprising given that my life got more and more on fire - and it got really hard to work and I genuinely thought I had burn out. But then I got those CPTSD nightmares after last episode and after some looking I found the reason: A gigantic cluster trauma - the biggest and strongest I have ever encountered. Which is unsurprising given it is strongly connected to torture and early in life. How did I overlook it? Well turns out it was hidden within the torture and with that removal it got active. A sort of really bad parting gift. Now will I win? Yes - 99% sure.I have the skill, knowledge and tools, but I really have to focus on it and myself now - and this work especially hits too close to home. I am optimistic I can get back to work very soon.I hope you are all wellTake care and stay safe!Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I wanted to give this sign of life.Life is kind of on fire right now - thanks to the weather almost also literally - and I need to focus on that. Things should be back to normal soon - and I'm looking forward to that.But since it's the 4th of July and I know many in my audience will likely suffer, I also wanted to remind that it is okay on some days to have a blackout day. To remove just everything one can from the timetable.So that only the absolute necessary and wanted remains. To spoil oneself on such a day and practice self care. Healing isn't just about the progress we make but also the damage we prevent. And sometimes all we can focus on is limiting the damage we take.The more rested, relaxed, happy and in good company you are - the less severe the symptoms and likely the trigger are. Or in short: Be kind to yourself. I hope to see you again soonTake care and stay safeContact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

Send us a Text Message. In this episode we will talk about being lonely/loneliness and the hole inside that causes all of it. There is a loneliness epidemic that keeps spreading and cause a lot of suffering. But why do we all feel so lonely? What is causing this feeling? And what can we do about it? We first get into lonely/alone, then the hole inside, then how it escalates, then how loneliness spreads and then how to stop it.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode176Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about abuse language - the language that is designed to weaken the victim and used as a weapon by the abuser to maintain and expand their control over the victim. Abuse language is hard to explain if you don't know the mechanics.We first talk about deniability, then teaching the language, then the slow game and then planting the seeds.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode175Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about flashbacks - the most known symptom of PTSD -  and wrongly assumed to be a central requirement for having any form of PTSD. Flashbacks are often referred to something along the lines of “having flashbacks like I have PTSD”. But unlike what many think it is only a severe symptom and not a requirement for PTSD. It is a sign that PTSD is in its more severe stages and needs to be addressed NOW.We first talk about what are flashbacks, then what causes them, then when do they appear, then what can we do about them and then how can we use them.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode174Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about how abusers keep control over us - even long after we are out of that situation it can still apply. Especially if we were children at the time and we learned this to be “normal”. We need to understand to recognize and unlearn it.We first talk about abuse language, then always on edge, then redefining normal, then always assumed guilty, then sabotaging skills, then sugar and pain and then isolation.https://www.choosingtherapy.com/narcissistic-manipulation-tactics/https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/narcissism-demystified/https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/addiction-and-recovery/Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode172 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about fate - in particular about the fate of those marked by trauma. Are we bound to be victims or abusers? That is a question I am sure many of you have asked when only these 2 fates seem to be available. But there is more.We first talk about how it starts, then the roadblocks, then the destructive outcomes, then the productive outcomes and then how it ends. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode172The Quote: Criminal Minds S1E8Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: You were just responding to what you learned, Vincent. When you grow up in an environment like that, an extremely abusive, violent household... it's not surprising that some people grow up to become killers.Vincent Perotta: "Some people"?Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: What's that?Vincent Perotta: You said "some people grow up to become killers."Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: And some people grow up to catch them. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0550491/quotes/ Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about what a healthy relationship looks like. The perfect relationship depends - of course - on your preferences, life and so much more. That is a science of and on itself. We just focus on a healthy relationship, that has the best chances to last and bring you happiness. We first talk about communication, then respect, then shared values and goals, then conflict, then support and then emotional stabilityContact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode171Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we talk about how love is not enough.Though this episode is going to be a bit different again, because - for one - it is something that is so deeply painful and hard to accept - that it is very difficult to talk about it. A deep wound almost all of us share. Some in great - some in lesser extent.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode170Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about building up your support system - especially about solutions until new relationships are possible, which I forgot to address last time and offered just an answer, but not a solution. Your healing progress is a long journey - and good company makes it a lot easier and enjoyable.We first talk about online groups, then online games, then animals and then local groups.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode169Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about being ready for a healthy relationship - a burning question for most. Which is understandable as a partner is invaluable in life - be it a romantic or platonic partner.We first talk about stable situation, then emotional range, then taking care of others and then the checklist.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode168Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about achieving this new “me” that seems often so far away and some even believe is a myth. Or are you trying to return to your old true self? Both follow the same path that seems to be so hard if not impossible to find. But today we really focus on the steps to take to achieve the new “me” - if you never had a healthy one - or return to your true “me” - if the experience has thrown you off your path. We first talk about changing takes time, then your mental state, then your view of yourself and then the steps and signs of improvement.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode167Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about emotions once again, but this time about loosing control over them. That can take many forms and is sadly usually a common aspect in dealing with PTSD and also during the healing progress.We first talk about how it makes things harder, then about abusers and healthy people, then why you loose control and then how to better maintain control.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode166Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about mens mental health.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode165[1] Suicide fuel/Incelhttps://incels.wiki/w/Suicidefuelhttps://www.leedsforlearning.co.uk/Pages/Download/3e2842ed-6270-4d21-9b8f-86eb72f95e98/PageSectionDocumentshttps://www.adl.org/resources/backgrounder/incels-involuntary-celibateshttps://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10600567/[2] "Fathers who actively seek custody obtain either primary or joint physical custody over 70% of the time"https://amptoons.com/blog/files/Massachusetts_Gender_Bias_Study.htm[3] More women then men try to kill themselveshttps://www.canada.ca/en/public-health/services/publications/healthy-living/suicide-canada-key-statistics-infographic.html (more hospitalized - Canada)https://www.priorygroup.com/mental-health/mental-health-statistics "Women and girls attempt suicide 1.5 to 2 times more often than men and boys."[4] Men not suited for therapy? https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/mens-mental-health-matters/202309/the-changing-view-of-men-on-mental-health (male therapist perspective)[5] Hair loss talk but not erectile disfunctionhttps://www.cambridge-news.co.uk/news/uk-world-news/men-taboo-health-topics-incontinence-27980585 (couldn't find the original study)[6] rather die than being vulnerbale.. partner being exceptionhttps://www.priorygrouContact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about time and life with the questions “Do I have enough time left” and “Is my life over” - which is something I went through myself and I hear so often. It's common to get entrapped by it - and finding the answer is hard.We first talk about why do we feel like we are running out of time, then is it too late for me, then what is lost and then where are we running.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode164Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about feeling like a child and not like an adult - often accompanied by feeling overwhelmed and lost. One of the more general issues, but also an absolute key element on recovering from trauma - especially if it happens in the childhood. Especially if neglect and parentification is involved.We first talk about are there no adults, then why being an adult is important, then why do we still feel like children and then what can we do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode163Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about how the mind can affect the body - and the other way around. If you keep getting sick or have this weird illness that just won't go away, then that might be related to PTSD. I can confirm the same - the issues I had disappeared one by one during my healing progress. After years and years of riddling doctors and everyone basically. This is known as psychosomatic and very relevant to PTSD.We first talk about how does it work, then how far does it go, then stress and then benefits. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode162 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn't kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG  where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Which honestly is in line with my observations. We end on a positive note, but we first have to clean the table - so to speak. We first talk about PTG, then why it is illusionary, then what does real PTG depend on and then is there post traumatic growth. Link to the study: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0272735823000594Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com  Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode161Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn't kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG  where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Which honestly is in line with my observations. We end on a positive note, but we first have to clean the table - so to speak. We first talk about PTG, then why it is illusionary, then what does real PTG depend on and then is there post traumatic growth. Link to the study: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0272735823000594Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about parents and if they were “good parents” - while there are many ways people define if someone is a good parents or not, we will - of course - focus on the trauma perspective, because it is sadly the root of many evils.The main point of this episode - helping to understand, to find and to resolve past issues.First we talk about covering the basics, then covering emotional and social needs, then what is caring love and then what does it mean to be a good parent in my eyes.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode160Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about being scared or anxious - sometimes both at the same time. Usually it's a cry for help by your overwhelmed brain. The feeling of fear is a very familiar feeling for those dealing with PTSD and can greatly impact your healing process.We first talk about why fear is a good thing, then the brain is confused, then why the fear is so damaging and then what we can do.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode159Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about being tired - something basically everyone who deals with PTSD is familiar with it. You feel tired, low on energy or lazy - depending on perspective. But there is a good reason for it and you probably shouldn't be too hard on yourself.We first talk about how to know it is happening, then where the energy is needed, then what you shouldn't do and then what we can do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode158Mentioned video:“what actually happens when you are sick?” - by kurzgesagt Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about scars - or in other words - the things that remain. I often say that the experience changes us - like climbing a mountain does, but what do we have to accept as that change and what can we still change after all? Since it's the 4th of July with a lot of veterans affected, I thought it is a good time to talk about the things that remain and how they affect us.We first talk about things that are not scars but a to do list, then what scars we have to accept remain and then what we can do.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode157Mentioned video:“what actually happens when you are sick?” - by kurzgesagtContact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about victim blaming: This is sadly a common reality that survivors face - as well victims of all kinds of things and even if anything bad happens to you.Victim blaming means one accuses the victim that their behavior has caused it and therefor they are to be blamed for what happened. We first talk about exceptions, then reasons, then fear and then how to deal with it.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about self confidence, feeling unlovable and loneliness. How to be self confident and able to love oneself is integral for a life with happiness and love.This is a continuation from last episode, where we talked about feeling unlovable and lonely. I strongly recommend to listen to it first. These three topics are sort of a chain reaction - you feel unlovable, that causes low self confidence and thats leads to loneliness. But how do we break this cycle? For truly being able to love yourself - you need to know yourself.We will talk first about what is self confidence truly, then ow to become self confident and then from questions to self love.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode155Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about feeling unlovable and to a part about loneliness - because if you feel unlovable than no matter how many people tell you that they love you - you won't believe them. A very difficult topic, but also integral for a life with happiness and love.It is - of course - not to point fingers at anyone and call it a day, but to help you understand what happened, where it came from and what you can do. First we get into why feeling unlovable is so devastating, then why it is so hard to get to the source, then the cause and then what now. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode154Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about the stage between ball and ring trauma - and therefor PTSD and C-PTSD - the double trauma or macarons trauma. I mentioned before that there seems to be something missing - and now I finally pieced it together.Now the whole set is round and no longer feels incomplete. As mentioned in a past episode - there was no point in making a step called something like a big ball trauma, because that would be the same basically just in significant bigger shape.We go from bad to worse - while explaining briefly what you need to keep an eye out for.We start with satellite, then we go to combined - but separate and then to coexisting. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode153Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about how to remove or cut someone out of your life - the universal recommendation seems to be: Avoid contact. But that is sometimes just not an option. So what can we do in that case? How do we cut someone out, that keeps coming up in our everyday life? Keeping as much distance as possible is extremely helpful, but what else can we do? We first talk about the strings that tie us together, then why the brain refuses to let go, then how to cut and then when trauma is added.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode152Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about why it is so hard to leave someone - even if they threaten our wellbeing - or to cut them out of our lives. While the decision is logically so easy to make, it can be hard to understand why we struggle so much with it.We first talk about how relationships are formed, then why are we being drawn back in and then why cutting relationships is hard. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode151Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about how a military mission can cause PTSD and what are the reasons why it could be. It is a bit of an experiment and so your feedback is especially appreciated.But for now I will give you the categories and what goes into them and you can add more details. Now these categories cover all the elements that are relevant in regards to PTSD. This is supposed to be a tool for you to use. Be it for better knowing where to look for triggers and the like, to estimate coming missions or to just better understand what is happening in your brain. Also these factors are all about how you personally perceived them. We start with the factors, then the 2 left out factors and then how to calculate it.(small correction I noticed too late: per (German) = by)Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode150Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about violence and the deciding factor for something to become a trauma or even PTSD. It is important to understand what the main factors are to know what to focus on - especially when dealing with ring trauma.To truly trying to understand this we use our slapped in the face example again - this time with the violence being the focus, while the level of force stays exactly the same. We first talk about the slap in the face example, then about the differences and then the deciding factor.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode149Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about why emotions are more important than facts - in the healing process - something I mentioned several times, but never really gotten into in greater detail. It is one of the most crucial things to get right to cure yourself.We first start with the purpose of facts, then an example and then applying example to a trauma.The scene of "inside out" about emotions + memories mentioned:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x__NgnMBHV0Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode148Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit archive: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/reddit convo: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk quickly about a big update that kept me quite busy and changes quite a bit.Support Group/Discord/Reddithttps://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhF https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/ Support mehttps://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/Johannadraconis Archive https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/ www.johannadraconis.com/Social Mediahttps://twitter.com/JohannaDraconishttps://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/ Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about how it comes that dealing with PTSD is so much easier than C-PTSD. I usually use PTSD to include both, but there is a very significant difference in difficulty dealing with it and its quite a jump. It is important to understand the difference and how to treat the different versions. As they require different approaches - which is likely why many struggle to remove C-PTSD from their life.We first talk about this in an example, then how to deal with ball trauma and then with ring trauma. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com      Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord: https://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhFtwitter: https://twitter.com/JohannaDraconisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/JohannaDraconis/youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis reddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive/https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/rss feed: https://feeds.buzzsprout.com/371360.rss

In this episode we will talk about just wanting peace - an expression often in regards with the marathon that is the healing process. Usually the sentence “I just want peace” is said by the biggest stirrer of chaos and unrest. Usually when they are confronted about their part in the chaos. But in this case it was from a mail I received and it wasn't the first time I heard it. It is just a sentiment of the exhaustion of this long and difficult journey to finally be over and one can walk again without the burden. This is part for validation but also helping.So let us talk about it. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com     

In this episode we will talk about survivor's guilt, a topic I so far skipped over as I was affected by it myself. What is survivor's guilt? Simplified you feel guilty for surviving and that is often accompanied with strong depression and the thought process of being undeserving of living. Last time - episode 84 where I covered it - it was for validation and finding purpose as band aid. First we talk about surviving, then witnessing, then why you might struggle and lastly what one should do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com    

In this episode we will talk about people who are victims and abusers. People who suffered and made other people suffer. There are some mixed opinions about it, but I think it is important to be clear on this issue.We first talk about what is not abuse, then the difference between mistake and pattern, then why I call them traitors and lastly the consequences.(This episode might have been inspired by a couple whith many projects and headlines atm). Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com      

In this episode we will talk about nightmares, which are a common occurrences and a symptom strongly associated with PTSD. An awful and tiring experience that might be able to be avoided.As I said, the nightmares that you get while suffering from PTSD are well known and they can range drastically. From relatively normal nightmares to being so terrifying that you don't even dare to breathe when you wake up from them.We will first talk about where do the nightmares comes from, then what we can do about them and then a little trick I use.  Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com     

Hello my dears,It is this time of the year again and though a bit late, I wanted to remind you to be kind to and not so hard on yourself.This time of the year is rough especially for those who suffered losses, already feel disconnected, have a complicated family situation and so on. If you add the limited daylight and it just gets worse. Same goes for worries about paying the bills - especially this year.It is a lot. And in such times it is especially important to be patient with yourself and not add additional pressure. Which is hard I know. But I hope this can give you a bit of validation.Sometimes all we can do is hang in there and that is okay. We all go at our own pace. Not giving up is important and worthy of a treat here and there. I hope you are well, I wish you the best for the next year and that you get out of this as soon as possible.Take care, watch yourself and I hopefully see you next year.Johanna

In this episode we will talk about a question I seen many ask themselves ”Why didn't I see it earlier?” and having a very hard time to come to terms with it and forgiving themselves. We talked about Denial before, in Episode 37, where we talked about being in Denial about what happened. This is the next step, so to speak, where we talk about the fall out of that, when you try to to understand why you didn't see it earlier.First we talk about the why and then the what now.

In this episode we will talk about isolation - a topic which occurs throughout, from the traumatic experience itself up to the healing process. When we talk about isolation in this episode, we refer to both the literal isolation by being separated from everyone else physically, as well as the figurative isolation where people can be around, but you are still isolated. We first talk about the fallout, then the disconnect and then about adapting.

In this episode we will talk about survival, which affects most affected by PTSD. When we hear usually about survival it is about being stranded on an island, the wilderness and the like - which is of course accurate. But survival also refers to the state many people affected by PTSD are in.We will first talk about surviving and then what we can do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com   Song mentioned: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0a5WyAjL1MM&ab_channel=Mr.ProbzLyrics:My face above the waterMy feet can't touch the groundTouch the ground, and it feels likeI can see the sands on the horizonEvery time you are not aroundI'm slowly drifting away (drifting away)Wave after wave, wave after waveI'm slowly drifting (drifting away)And it feels like I'm drowningPulling against the streamPulling against the streamI wish I could make it easyEasy to love me, love meBut still I reach, to find a wayI'm stuck here in betweenI'm looking for the right words to sayI'm slowly drifting, drifting awayWave after wave, wave after waveI'm slowly drifting (drifting away)And it feels like I'm drowningPulling against the streamPulling against the stream

In this episode we will talk about the question why we cry so much - especially during our healing process - and why crying is a good thing. It is an important part for getting better, but often quite confusing.There is of course some opinions about who can and can't cry and those are absolute nonsense. Crying is an important part of a healthy human being and mental health and also very important for bonding with other people. We first start talking about why do we cry and then how it helps our healing process.Link to Cinema wins - Lessons Animation Taught Us: Inside Out (usefulness of sadness):https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8nU4RoSlpQ&ab_channel=CinemaWins

In this episode we will talk about feeling hollow, which can feel like a hole inside of you - that somehow hurts.That feeling is the reason for many problems, sufferings and harmful behavior. Not just with PTSD and many are affected.The feeling hollow is quite widespread, but hardly talked about. Quite difficult to describe the feeling properly without having experienced it. This sometimes yawning void. 

In this episode we will talk about the question “How could you make okay what happened?” that I heard many times and is a reason many people don't seek help. A dangerous misconception that can leave people vulnerable and unable to move forward.The short answer to the question “How could you make okay what happened?” is that I don't. I am not trying to make okay what happened - I am trying to make you feel okay despite what happened. First we talk about the difference and then the first steps towards being okay. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com 

In this episode we will talk about how during the healing process we sometimes move slow - sometimes it even feels like standing still - and sometimes fast - at least compared to the other. I covered this before during the healing wave section. This is the biggest part of your healing process - therefor I think it is important to revisit it for a different perspective. So we first talk about anger and then about sadness.

In this episode we will talk about feeling quite lost during the healing process and to be fair - it is quite a chaotic time. But the question is why and what can we do? Understanding is a huge part of it, which also helps to navigate it all.We will first talk about the order of healing, then walking the path properly and then your change along the way. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com   Clip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxVVaTXr4FM&ab_channel=TopMovieClips

In this episode we will talk about 9 methods to counter PTSD - as in which methods help us go up against PTSD and fight it. Knowing how to turn the table changes almost everything.First we talk about methods for finding the enemy and then about methods how to best fight them. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com  

In this episode we will talk about methods in case of an PTSD emergency, which is usually when the symptoms take over. A situation we try to avoid for a good reason and where mistakes are punished hard. We fill first cover the crucial first steps, then the methods used in an emergency and then the grounding method.  Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com      

In this episode we will talk about methods you can use in your everyday life. It has been years since we touched upon this and I felt like a updated version was long overdue. These are the things you can use the most - and therefor important and extremely helpful. First we talk about methods for everyday life and then resource management. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com