Podcasts about Victim

Aileen Wuornos is remembered as one of the most infamous serial killers in American history. A sex worker who murdered seven men along Florida highways, she became the subject of headlines, documentaries, and the film Monster. But behind the sensational coverage was a life marked by trauma, instability, and survival at any cost.Before the murders, Aileen experienced abandonment, sexual abuse, homelessness, and years of violence. When she was finally arrested in 1991, police used the one person she loved most, her girlfriend Tyria Moore, to obtain her confession. From there, the trial became less about justice and more about media spectacle.On death row, Aileen's mental health deteriorated and her final interviews left more questions than answers. Was she born dangerous, or did a life of abuse shape who she became?Follow True Crime Recaps as we examine the woman, the crimes, and the systems that failed long before the killings began.

In January of 2011, 27-year-old first-grade teacher Ellen Greenberg came home early from work and was found dead hours later on her kitchen floor by her fiance. She had twenty stab wounds covering her body, ten of them to the back of her neck and head, and a ten-inch knife buried deep into her heart. The Medical Examiner called it suicide. Ellen's parents have spent fourteen years and over $800,000 proving that's impossible. Renowned forensic experts find evidence of wounds inflicted after death, a crime scene was cleaned before investigators could properly examine it, and a fiancé who called his attorney uncle before calling 911. Ellen was planning her wedding, loved her students, and didn't like the sight of blood. Can someone really stab themselves ten times in the back of the head? And if Ellen didn't kill herself, why won't Philadelphia call it murder?Sources:Hulu Documentary: "Death in Apartment 603: What Happened to Ellen Greenberg?"https://www.cnn.com/2025/10/13/us/ellen-greenberg-death-philadelphia-cechttps://edition.cnn.com/2025/02/03/us/ellen-greenberg-philadelphia-case-update-cechttps://www.cnn.com/interactive/2024/01/us/ellen-greenberg-mystery-dghttps://www.foxnews.com/us/ellen-greenberg-case-pennsylvania-woman-found-dead-20-stab-wounds-ruled-suicidehttps://www.foxnews.com/us/pennsylvania-teacher-found-stabbed-20-times-ruled-suicide-parents-fight-justicehttps://www.inquirer.com/news/ellen-greenberg-suicide-ruling-philadelphia-parents-lawsuit-20250210.htmlhttps://www.inquirer.com/news/ellen-greenberg-death-suicide-philadelphia-lawsuit-20241217.htmlhttps://www.nbcphiladelphia.com/news/local/ellen-greenberg-case-philadelphia-suicide-rulinghttps://www.oxygen.com/crime-news/ellen-greenberg-death-ruled-suicide-despite-20-stab-woundshttps://www.cbsnews.com/philadelphia/news/ellen-greenberg-case-pennsylvania-supreme-courthttps://lawandcrime.com/high-profile/ellen-greenberg-case-pennsylvania-supreme-court-to-hear-casehttps://people.com/ellen-greenberg-death-investigation-timelineBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/reverie-true-crime--4442888/support.Keep In Touch:Twitter: https://www.twitter.com/reveriecrimepodInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/reverietruecrimeTumblr: https://reverietruecrimepodcast.tumblr.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/reverietruecrimeContact: ReverieTrueCrime@gmail.com 

Brad's morning at Panera turned into an accidental observation study on how personal drama is infiltrating the workplace. Surrounded by Gen X and Boomer professionals complaining about family issues, relationship problems, and personal grievances with coworkers, he witnessed something that used to be unthinkable people bringing their entire personal lives into professional spaces.The once-impenetrable wall between work and personal life has shrunk to a speed bump. For Gen X professionals, that boundary used to be absolute. Personal problems stayed personal. Work problems stayed at work. Today's workplace doesn't operate that way anymore, and it's not just Gen Z driving this change.The blending of personal and professional lives creates challenges for leaders. It's a time suck, an energy drain, and a real cost. But it can also reduce turnover when handled with empathy and clear boundaries. The question isn't whether this blending will happen - it's already happening. The question is how leaders will manage it.Highlights:Gen X and Boomers are bringing personal drama to work, not just younger generations.Victim mindset conversations drain productivity regardless of generation.Company-first approach: provide designated time for personal talks with clear deadline expectations.Employee-first approach: offer time off to resolve personal issues before they become distractionsAre you struggling with personal drama bleeding into your workplace productivity? The solution starts with deciding what kind of culture you actually want.Subscribe to Blue Collar BS for more honest conversations about the messy realities of leading modern workforces across all generations. Share this episode with leaders who need permission to set boundaries while still showing empathy.Get in touch with us:Check out the Blue Collar BS website.Steve Doyle:WebsiteLinkedInEmailBrad Herda:WebsiteLinkedInEmailThis podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrpOP3 - https://op3.dev/privacy

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If you've ever felt like your abuser managed to twist the truth so completely that you ended up defending yourself against their behavior — this episode is for you.Today, I'm breaking down DARVO — Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim and Offender — and how it shows up in divorce and custody cases. DARVO is psychological warfare disguised as concern. It's the reason you end up explaining, over and over, why following a court order isn't “withholding,” or why setting a boundary isn't “abuse.”We'll walk through:What DARVO actually means — and why it's so effective in family court.Real examples of how it plays out in co-parenting communication.How to respond when your protective actions are reframed as “control.”Practical steps to document and communicate clearly when this pattern appears.If you've been accused of being the problem simply for following the plan, this episode will help you see what's really happening — and how to get back to solid ground.You can find the documentation course, my “Divorcing a Narcissist 101” course, and more tools to support your case and your nervous system at emotionalabusecoach.com or highconflictdivorcecoaching.com.Support the showJoin the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy *New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your Relationship Website: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse {E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

In this episode of The Untrapped Podcast, Keith gets blunt about breaking plateaus in your landscaping business. Stuck doing the same $300 jobs and wondering why nothing changes? Keith shares how he raised prices, lost the wrong clients, and rebuilt around higher-ticket, white-glove packages—think bundling gutters, shrub trims, bed edging, windows, and lawn care into one profitable day. He digs into math-first pricing, route density, and incremental increases (small for existing clients, bigger for new) so your average ticket and net margin finally move. No victim mindset, no busywork trophies—just a hard "cross the Rubicon" moment: choose ownership, package value, market smarter in targeted neighborhoods, and aim for profit per day (not hours worked). If you're ready to stop playing small and start stacking real wins, this one's your wake-up call.     "When the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing — that's when you change." – Keith Kalfas   Topics Covered: The real definition of insanity in business Why raising prices feels scary (but necessary) The "higher-ticket jobs" breakthrough The power of packaged services Route density, travel time, and profit killers When staying the same becomes more painful than changing Victim mindset vs. ownership Why entertainment-driven content makes growth harder   Key Takeaways Raise Prices—Incrementally and IntentionallyBump existing clients in small steps, quote new clients higher. Confidence + consistency = better margins without a mass exodus. Chase Average Ticket, Not Hours Design your pricing around profit per day. Bigger tickets + fewer trips = cleaner math and calmer schedule. Tighten Your Route, Grow Your Wallet Route density kills dead time. Shorter drives, less fuel, more jobs done—that's real margin.   Connect with Keith Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/keithkalfas/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thelandscapingemployeetrap Website: https://www.keithkalfas.com/resources Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@keith-kalfas   Resources and Websites:  Start Getting Leads Now https://www.footbridgemedia.com/keith The Untrapped Alliance: https://www.keithkalfas.com/alliance Resources You Need To Build A Successful Business https://www.keithkalfas.com/resources

In this reflective episode, Colleen shares a deeply personal moment—learning she couldn't qualify to assume the mortgage on her own home—and how that realization became a masterclass in emotional sobriety, choice, and self-trust. What begins as a financial obstacle unfolds into a powerful teaching on energetic alignment and cognitive reframing. When life tells you "you can't," your mind begins to collapse into fear, scarcity, and victimhood. But when you pause to challenge that narrative, you remember: you always have a choice. She walks through the process of shifting from agitation to awareness—examining her story line by line, regulating her emotions, and reclaiming her sense of agency. Through this lens, even discomfort becomes data, showing where your thinking needs to evolve. She shares how: Victim and survivor often face the same reality—the difference is in the response. Feeling "stuck" is always a story, not a sentence. Manifestation isn't magic; it's energetic coherence between thought, feeling, and choice. Power begins when you care more about how you feel now than what you think should happen next. Ultimately, this episode invites listeners to practice self-leadership—to stop, drop, and feel what's true before reacting, and then rewrite the story from a place of grounded power. 

Identifying Red Flags: Making Safer Relationship ChoicesDr. David Wexler joins Bill Eddy to discuss his new book "Choose Him Wisely: How to Identify a Safe Partner," co-authored with Dr. Donald Meichenbaum. Drawing from over 40 years of clinical experience working with relationship dynamics and domestic violence, Dr. Wexler shares crucial insights about recognizing concerning patterns early in relationships.Understanding Warning SignsThe conversation explores three key categories of warning signs: observed behaviors, historical factors, and gut feelings. Dr. Wexler explains how early relationship behaviors like "love bombing," expressions of contempt, and patterns of entitlement can indicate potential future challenges. The discussion examines why psychological abuse often creates deeper lasting impacts than physical abuse through its systematic erosion of self-esteem and autonomy.Questions Answered in This EpisodeWhat are the top three warning signs of potentially abusive relationships?How can someone distinguish between healthy attention and concerning obsession?Why do people sometimes ignore clear warning signs?What role does family history play in relationship patterns?When is couples therapy helpful or potentially harmful?Key TakeawaysEarly relationship intensity ("love bombing") warrants careful evaluationExpressions of contempt and entitlement serve as significant red flagsPersonal boundaries and gut feelings provide valid assessment criteriaUnderstanding attachment patterns helps explain relationship choicesSelf-blame often prevents recognition of concerning behaviorsThis episode provides valuable tools for anyone navigating dating and relationships, offering practical guidance for evaluating potential partners while maintaining healthy boundaries. The discussion emphasizes empowerment through awareness rather than victim-blaming, acknowledging that while warning signs exist, many relationships can provide safe, healthy connections.Additional ResourcesDr. WexlerBook: Choose Him WiselyRelationship Training InstituteOnline Course for Family Law: Conversations About Domestic Violence in Family Law with 16 Experts Law PrfProfessional DevelopmentInvite us to speak at your organizationNew Ways Training (work, mediation, divorce)Conflict Influencer Class (for personal life)Connect With UsVisit High Conflict Institute: highconflictinstitute.comSubmit questions for Bill and MeganBrowse our complete collection of books and resources in our online store—available in print and e-book formatsFind these show notes and all past episode notes on our websiteWatch this episode on YouTube!Important NoticeOur discussions focus on behavioral patterns rather than diagnoses. For specific legal or therapeutic guidance, please consult qualified professionals in your area. (00:00) - Welcome to It's All Your Fault (00:42) - Dr. David Wexler (02:41) - David's Book Choose Him Wisely (03:42) - David's Background (09:23) - Warning Signs (14:25) - Obstructions (23:18) - Psychological vs. Physical Abuse (26:53) - From Victim to Abuser (30:33) - Where Is the Line? (35:09) - Gut Feeling Test (38:07) - Counseling and Couples Counseling (43:34) - Wrap Up

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Today, in a throwback episode, we talk about my experience with COVID and how that can apply to many things we do in life. Often, how you experience something is very much determined by what you believe about that specific thing. Most people let the external circumstances determine how they experience certain things, without even knowing. This inevitably can make them a victim to their circumstances. We talk about how by living in your circumstances, you repeat them. We also talk about the concept of creating your own life merely by the way you think and the things you attract as a result. If you are serious about attracting what you want in life, make gratitude a part of your daily routine and watch amazing things happen... Did you know that you can have

On this episode of Have a Seat with Chris Hansen, Chris is joined by Renée Williams, the CEO of the National Center for Victims of Crime, an organization dedicated to serving individuals, families, and communities harmed by crime. The two discuss the importance of the Center's work as well as with victims of high profile cases such as Jeffrey Epstein and Bill Cosby. Williams explains how to navigate the media in the wake of tragedy and the vital resources available to all victims through the National Center for Victims of Crime. victimsofcrime.org Donate now to the National Center for Victims of Crime This episode is brought to you by: Dupe: Stop wasting money on brand names and start saving with https://Dupe.com today! Home Title Lock: Go to https://hometitlelock.com/chrishansen and use promo code HANSEN to get a FREE title history report and a FREE TRIAL of their Triple Lock Protection! For details visit https://hometitlelock.com/warranty Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

In this episode of the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast, host Diana Winkler interviews Pastor Mark Sowersby, who shares his powerful testimony of overcoming childhood abuse and finding forgiveness and healing through faith. Mark recounts his early life filled with abuse, meeting Jesus at 16, and wrestling with his identity as a victim. Through the love of his church community and personal determination, he not only found freedom but also pursued education and ministry. He also speaks about reconnecting with his birth father and how the loss of his mother catalyzed the launch of his ministry, 'Forgiving the Nightmare'. The episode serves as an inspiring account of transformation, resilience, and the power of unconditional God's love. 00:00 Introduction and Sponsor Message 00:47 Welcome to the Podcast 01:25 Introducing Pastor Mark Sowersby 01:40 Technical Difficulties and Apologies 02:17 Pastor Mark's Testimony 05:49 Childhood and Abuse 07:10 Finding Faith and Forgiveness 18:06 Weight Loss Journey and Healing 23:08 Dyslexia and Education Struggles 24:42 Writing a Book and Ministry 28:14 Reading the Bible: Audio vs. Written 28:27 A Life-Changing Christmas Story 29:20 Overcoming Illiteracy with Help 30:14 A Love Story Blossoms 30:56 College Journey and Divine Guidance 32:49 Answering the Call to Ministry 33:13 Struggles with Self-Worth 35:15 Finding Confidence in God 35:56 Weight Loss and Self-Love 40:01 Victim to Victor: A Personal Transformation 45:00 Reuniting with Birth Father 48:20 Launching Forgiving the Nightmare Ministry 54:40 Final Thoughts and Prayer   website: www.forgivingthenightmare.com email: mark@forgivingthenightmare.com    Bio:  Reverend Mark Sowersby has been married to his wonderful wife Jennifer for 17 years and is the father of four children. Mark has been an ordained minister with Assembly of God for over 25 years and is currently the Pastor of Christian Assembly of Schuyler in beautiful upstate New York. Pastor Mark holds a BA in theology from Zion Bible College/Northpoint Bible College. In 2019 Pastor Mark went through a time of great healing. He began speaking about the experiences of his past and God's grace and the transformational work of forgiveness in his life. He now speaks about his story through his ministry, Forgiving The Nightmare. When he isn't serving his congregation and his community through ministry, teaching, and support, you can find him on all the trails and lakes in Upstate New York, spending time with his family.   Website: https://dswministries.org Subscribe to the podcast: https://dswministries.org/subscribe-to-podcast/ Social media links: Join our Private Wounds of the Faithful FB Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1603903730020136 Twitter: https://twitter.com/DswMinistries YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxgIpWVQCmjqog0PMK4khDw/playlists Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dswministries/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DSW-Ministries-230135337033879 Keep in touch with me! Email subscribe to get my handpicked list of the best resources for abuse survivors! https://thoughtful-composer-4268.ck.page #abuse #trauma Affiliate links: Our Sponsor: 753 Academy: https://www.753academy.com/ Can't travel to The Holy Land right now? The next best thing is Walking The Bible Lands! Get a free video sample of the Bible lands here! https://www.walkingthebiblelands.com/a/18410/hN8u6LQP An easy way to help my ministry: https://dswministries.org/product/buy-me-a-cup-of-tea/ A donation link: https://dswministries.org/donate/ Transcript: [00:00:00] Special thanks to 7 5 3 Academy for sponsoring this episode. No matter where you are in your fitness and health journey, they've got you covered. They specialize in helping you exceed your health and fitness goals, whether that is losing body fat, gaining muscle, or nutritional coaching to match your fitness levels. They do it all with a written guarantee for results so you don't waste time and money on a program that doesn't exceed your goals. There are martial arts programs. Specialize in anti-bullying programs for kids to combat proven Filipino martial arts. They take a holistic, fun, and innovative approach that simply works. Sign up for your free class now. It's 7 5 3 academy.com. Find the link in the show notes. Welcome to the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast, brought to you by DSW Ministries. Your host is singer songwriter, speaker and domestic violence advocate, [00:01:00] Diana Winkler. She is passionate about helping survivors in the church heal from domestic violence and abuse and trauma. This podcast is not a substitute for professional counseling or qualified medical help. Now here is Diana. Welcome back. You made it well. I have a great guest for you today. I told you about him last week. Pastor Mark Sowersby and he has knocked this interview out of the park, and we had an amazing time. We did not have an amazing time with the Zoom platform. I could not hear him, but he could hear me, and it was a half an hour of back and forth trying to get it to work. So I wound up having to record this episode on our phones with the earbuds. So I don't normally do [00:02:00] that. I usually have my $300 studio microphone. So if it doesn't sound as good, I apologize. But this content is so great that I think you'll forgive me, but I'll try to do some, post-production, to make it sound better. So without further ado. Here is Pastor Mark. Yeah. Nice. Nice to meet you. Yes, nice to meet you also. And I saw your wife there too, so, and I think you saw my husband's beard anyway. Yes. And my wife is the strength and the brains of this operation around us. I'm blessed. I'm a blessed man there. Amen. Thank you. Yes. So we got the, um, the technical, uh, demons outta the way. Well, I appreciate that. We tried two computers and my Apple phone. And I have to tell you, I am a novice at computers at best, so Yeah, me too. So we're kindred spirits for sure. Amen. Amen. And I read your testimony about your [00:03:00] website and your faith and your podcast and everything. What a beautiful testimony you have. Oh, thank you so much. So you, you're in Arizona, is that correct? Yes. Wow. Wow. Well, I have to tell you of one of my bucket lists because I'm a northeast guy. I'm a New England, New York. We have snow. It's freezing. They're saying we could have a possible blizzard tomorrow. Uh, I love that. Go to the Grand Canyon. That's my, on my bucket list. My, my family. Hear me speak about that all the time. I've never seen it. But I long to, let me tell you, it's more breathtaking than you can imagine. The pictures don't do it justice. I've been there many, many times, of course. And yes, you should come as soon as you're allowed to travel. I would be over here. Yeah. There's so much more to see. We long to go. We really want to see it. You know, if somebody said, you really see the significance when you look at that great canyon and you see how [00:04:00] small you are, it humbles you and reminds you of what a great big God we serve. So, you know, we just, uh, amen. Thank you for hearing my story and my testimony, and it's an honor to be here with you and celebrate the victories that we have in Christ. Amen, brother. We're gonna get to know you a bit here for my listeners. So why don't you tell the, listeners a little bit about yourself. My name is Mark Sowerby. I'm a husband, a father, a friend. I'm a sports fan. I eat too much. I talk too much, but I'm a pastor and a servant of Jesus Christ. I was looking at all your pictures and stuff, and I saw your progression of your weight loss. That is so amazing. Thank you. Thank you. And my weight loss journey is really just a symptom. Or result of the greater healing that's taken place in my life. Uh, I'm very proud of it. It's something [00:05:00] I have to work hard for and be very disciplined in. So yes, there's a work towards it, but really it's the sub to the main plot. The main plot is what Jesus did in my heart to help me forgive and help me heal the abuses and the pains. And as that began to fill my life, this weight loss journey with the discipline and that burning good habits and exercising, and I'm up to running, uh, six miles a day on the treadmill. So, wow. Six miles. Yeah. So well, remember, we're not in Arizona heat, so it's not hot, well, I have a treadmill. That's usually what I exercise on. I have an exercise room, I don't run unless somebody's chasing me or the laxative has started working. Those are good reasons to run. so let's start at the beginning. So what was your childhood like? Well, unfortunately I have a story of brokenness, pain, and sorrow. I was born from an affair. Uh, so my [00:06:00] father never really had a relationship with him. I am assuming that as soon as he, uh, got the news, he, he left. So I was raised by my mom. I have two siblings that my mom had from a prior marriage. So the three of us kind of lived together at my grandmother's house, and that's what I knew. That was what life was. I was seven years old. A young man came into our family, and that young man eventually married my mom 20 years, her younger, and when he came into our home, he brought abuse and pain. He brought death and destruction. He brought lies and poison. And as any abuser, those abusers have touched many people. And as not only did he abuse my mom in a and. With just vulgarness and pain, but he also abused me and with sexual abuse and physical abuse and emotional abuse. And it was just a very difficult time in my life. So from seven to 14, that's kind of the world I knew. Not only did he abuse my body, not only did he steal from [00:07:00] me, my dignity, my value. Not only did he try to control me, but he also sold me for other men to abuse me. Mm-hmm. Other men to take my body. He stabbed me and beat me and burnt me. And at 16, I was invited to church, I ran into a youth group. And, uh, there's a whole story in that. But let me tell you, I ran into youth group and I ran into Jesus. Jesus was Amen loving. Amen. Jesus's loving arms. He wrapped him around me and started me on the journey, journey of forgiveness. And it's been a journey up. I just turned 50. We just lost my mom earlier this year. Wow. They say a flu. Some say COVID, but we lost her earlier this year and it was really kind of a season for me to walk through some even deeper, deeper healing. We have a lot in common. 'cause I just lost my brother this week. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for your loss. Yeah. So we both have losses today. Yes. Yes. I'm so [00:08:00] sorry for your loss. You as well. Thank you. Your mother was a believer? She was at the end of her life. As we say, the 11th hour of Thief on the cross remember me. Mm-hmm. My mom did have one of those kind of conversions. Unfortunately, she never, the last few years of her life, she came to understand Jesus, but she never forgave herself or forgave. Her pain. She lived with the regrets and the shames and the guilt of her pains. She knew the love of Christ, and I believe that when she closed her eyes on this earth, she opened her eyes there because of what Christ did for her. But she carried this burden of shame and guilt and hurt. But I forgave her, not because I'm special, not because I'm better. I forgave her because Christ forgave me. And in that journey of learning with to forgive people say to me, how could you forgive such a great thing? I just forgave what was in front of me. That's it. Step by step, precept by precept. That's how I forgave. I [00:09:00] couldn't think about the whole journey all at it was too hard. What's in front of you? Well, we'll definitely get into, your process of forgiveness. Would it be okay to, circle back to your stepfather coming into your life? Now it sounded like it was a very violent to way he treated you. Did he do any grooming of you to start the abuse or was it violent right away? I believe there was grooming, again, being so young and, uh, being so, uh, naive. I probably didn't recognize it, but I'm sure there was grooming you know, there was this natural longing. From a child without a father to find a father figure. Mm-hmm. Um, being so young, not understanding the process of that, and any person that would gimme attention, I would run to them to try to find somebody who would govern me or lead me or [00:10:00] guide me or accept me. So I'm sure there was some manipulation in that, as I became more groomed or broken or became more pliable, if you would, because of my young immaturity. He began to have more of his way on it, just so you know. And I always refer to him as my mother's husband. Never as my stepfather? Yes. Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah. Oh, no, you didn't offend. No, I have forgiven him. I think in forgiveness, it's okay to have, uh, some boundaries. Sure. I think that, to have some healthy boundaries, I've forgiven him. I've put him in the hands of God, and I pray the grace of God will meet him and his pain and his sorrow, and only God can reach him. Uh, but again, there's some healthy boundaries around my life and my families. So what was your relationship with God when you were going through all this abuse? We grew up in a very religious home. I was a New England Protestant, so most of New England are [00:11:00] Irish Catholic, Italian Catholic, Polish Catholic, French Catholic. But I was the rare Protestant. And I remember saying to my grandfather one day, I asked him, I said I, well, let me back up and say, I always knew what I wasn't. I knew I wasn't a Catholic, but I didn't know what I was. So, grandpa used to tell us we weren't Catholic. He announced that pretty clearly. But one day I asked him, I said, then if we're not Catholic, what religion are we? And all he said was, go ask your mother. So, you know, we didn't really grow up in any kind of. Formal faith-based community, uh, you know, sometimes went to Christmas Eve service, you know, those kind of what we call Sea Easter and Christmas. The CE. The CE crowd. That's right. But it really wasn't, a church was not a part of my life. We knew God was there, be good and you go to heaven, be nice to people, you go to heaven. But there really wasn't a faith-based situation. I'll be honest with you, uh, the [00:12:00] only religion I got, or the only faith I got was the one album that was played in our home. It's not a Christian album, it was Jesus Christ Superstar. I'm a kid of the seventies. Yes, I'm very familiar with that. Yeah. And but God's name is so powerful now as a Bible college graduate, as a pastor, I could see all the holes of the theology in that and how it was really written, dragged down the gospel. They say Jesus Christ, and as a child, that name is so powerful. So, I mean, I didn't know anything. So here I was, I, I remember seven years old with a big headset on sitting in front of the speakers and listening to Jesus Christ Superstar. And, and now I realize what a mockery it was. But then just the name has power. Yeah, there was no resurrection in that movie. No, no, no. You know, when you have Mary Magdalene sing to, to him and say, you're just a man, [00:13:00] only a man. I mean, it's such a mockery. But again, at eight years old, 10 years old, I thank God that all truth belongs to God. Amen. And his name is so, amen, powerful. Amen. That every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. And as that name, Jesus was smoking, it pierced my darkness. Now, I didn't know about crying out. I didn't know about prayer, but God was preparing me for such a time. And at 16 the lifeguard at the apartment complex invited me to church. She was a pretty girl, and I didn't wanna say no. Uh, she invited she invited me and picked me up with her boyfriend. Oops. We went, yeah, we went to church that night and there began my journey into meeting Christ, knowing his mercy and grace into my faith walk and it's been a journey ever since. So is that when you, met the Lord for real [00:14:00] and got saved? Exactly, I was 16 years old. It was the early part of the summer and I went to that youth group and everybody told me that. To throw away my rock and roll music and to cut my hair and take my earring out. And everybody wanted to hug me and I didn't wanna be hugged by anybody. It's an evangelical Pentecostal church. And I was like, I don't, yeah. But come to find out, the youth pastor lived in the same apartment complex I did. I had a ride to church anytime it was open. So, later on that summer, mid-August, I remember a man inviting me, a young man from the youth group. It was raining. He was giving me a ride home. We got into his car and he asked me right there, uh, mark, do you wanna ask Jesus Christ to be your Lord and Savior? And we prayed right there the sinner's prayer. And I recognized the grace of God and the mercy of God and the Spirit of God. And at 16 years old, I asked Jesus Christ to be my Lord. And I thank him that he was calling me at such a time. So, and then I [00:15:00] had to grow up. Wow. And then I had to grow. I was still 16 with a messed up background and, still was spilling life all over myself. But that church loved me. They hugged me and kicked me in the can at the same time. Now were you out of your mom's house? Away from your abuser? Well. When the abuse first became, and I don't wanna say public, but when it became outside of the family when I meant the first person I confessed it to or, or shared it with, was my uncle. And I think that people have to remember my abuse happened from 19 7 7 to 1984. And the awareness and the advocacy that's out there today wasn't there then. And things like this happen behind closed doors. And I think culturally, not everybody, but culturally in most families said, we keep that stuff behind closed doors. We don't share it. We handle it as families. I told my uncle at [00:16:00] 14 years old. He was the first person I confessed to, and I ended up living with my uncle for about a year. He became my defender. So from about 14 to about 15 and a half, I lived with my uncle, and about 15 and a half I moved back with my mom. And yes, her husband was still there. But he, uh, he was very sickly at this time. So, he wasn't able to hurt me physically anymore. And I was strong enough to not allow anybody to hurt me anymore. So Now you said the word confess. Well, you didn't do anything wrong. Thank you. I, yeah, I just meant, I told. You shared your story, your abuse, uh, your victimization. So yeah. You don't have to apologize for anything. Amen. Thank you. That's right. It was probably a poor choice of words. I was just reading. I announced to my uncle, or I, I shared out, I took it out. I took it outta that simple family unit that I would tell my mom, [00:17:00] my mom having so much hurt and pain in her life, didn't know how to handle that. And just would say, well, he promises not to do it again. And he promised not to do it. And of course, so in a lot of ways I felt like my mom was a victim. And, and. Even though I've had to learn to forgive my mom because of what she allowed to happen, but in some ways, not that I justify it, but I've begun to understand it. Because she was abused by her first husband who broke her heart because, uh, just pain who had many affairs on her, and she was so broken down, so hurting and she did not understand love. I think she, um, interpreted love in a very, uh, trying to think of the word here you know, an enabling way. My mom was more of an enabler and I think she interpreted her love in enabling. So she enabled people. I mean, it sounds like [00:18:00] codependency. Was that the word you're looking for? Yes. Okay. Yeah. Thanks. So you struggled with your weight for years. Was that a symptom of your. Abuse your childhood? I, I think it was, you know, I'm, I'm not a psychologist or, a social worker. I'm a preacher, but you know, I think what I was trying to find in food was comfort, friendship. It always accepted me, uh, it comforted me when I was having a bad day and it rewarded me when I was having a good one. But like any drug, if you would, it lies to you. And it says, Hey, is everything will be okay. Just have a little bit more, have a little bit more, and, it just is. So for me, food became my drug of choice. Mm-hmm. Uh, it became where I found comfort, found peace, found acceptance. I punished myself with it. Boy, I'm no good. I'm going to eat ice cream. Oh, I'm having a great day. I'm gonna eat [00:19:00] ice cream. So, you know, it was one of those things. Uh, what I tell people is that I wish I could say to you that, that God has taken away all the hurt, all the pain, all the sorrow. It's still there in my life. It's still a familiar. Familiar pain that continues to call to me. But what God did is he became bigger. He became bigger than the pain. He became bigger than the shame. He became bigger than the hurt. So is it still there? Sure. And the flesh wants to run to it. And the psyche wants to run to it because I know it, it's comfortable. I, I know my role there. I, I understand what my protection and my manipulation that I can find there. But God became bigger. God became bigger. You know, I was telling a friend today, and I climbed a mountain after I lost about 50 pounds. I climbed a mountain. And it was about a half a mile long. And to me it was Everest. It was the biggest mountain in the world. And it took me hours [00:20:00] to go up and I had blisters on my feet and bruises on my toe. I was very proud that I climbed it. But after I lost about a hundred pounds, I climbed the biggest mountain in the state of New York called Mount Marcy. And what was the difference between those two mountains? One was bigger and I think that's the same thing. What happened to me is that even though that sometimes the enemy wants to try to bring me back to those familiar pains, those familiar insecurities, those familiar foes, God became bigger. His word, his spirit his love all became bigger. And I have to hold onto that and I have to claim, not claim it, but I have to run into it. You know, I have to run into that every day. So. Oh, you would love the mountains here. We have so many mountains to climb. So yeah. If you come to Phoenix, then we'll have to go hiking together. Yes. I wanna see that Grand Canyon. I wanna come to Phoenix. I am a New Englander, but it's cold [00:21:00] all the time here. But I hear that you guys leave for the summer and go back in the winter. We leave for the winter to warm places because it's so hot in Phoenix in the summer. Yeah. We're not snowbirds. We are here all year. Now we get to 110 every year. That's, that's normal. It gets to 120 here every summer. But this year it was 55 days of 110 degrees. Wow. Which, um, that killed all my plants and, uh, two of my trees, so Wow. Yeah, it's 70 degrees outside now, but in the summertime it's brutal. Wow. Don't come in the summer. Come in the winter. Okay. I, um, I did get to do a mission chip for Juarez, Mexico, which is obviously south of you guys and a little east, but at the same time, I got a touch of hot weather and I have done a lot of missions trips to Central America and the Caribbean, but they do have a different climate because of the sea and the water. So it's not that dry heat. [00:22:00] It's, definitely that, more moist, heat. Yeah, I think you'll do fine. Like I said, I looked forward to it. We were just in Israel in, November November, 2019, and it was 85 degrees. In Jerusalem and I roasted, I had such a hard time because the elevation was different and the humidity from the from the sea. Yeah. I don't know if you've been to Israel, I have not. Another, another bucket list, yeah yes, definitely recommend that for sure. Thank you. My wife and I, we love to travel. You know, we, we have four children, so right now our kids are in the ages of 15 to seven, so we are right in the midst of it. You know, we're, we're mom and dad, taxi and, and we homeschool. So my wife is going a hundred miles an hour all the time. Pastor wife. Homeschool mom and she's taking care of [00:23:00] me. So, I mean, this is, God bless her. If there's a hero in this story, it's my wife. Your wife's a homeschooler. Um, you had said in your story that you had dyslexia growing up. What was that like? Well, you know, I think that I still have it. Uh, God hasn't, hasn't healed me from it. So what happens is, is I tell people when the way I was raised, I survived my childhood. I wasn't raised, you know, I didn't have parents that, that looked out for me. I didn't have somebody who wanted to govern my experiences or, or was an advocate for me. So I, I really just kind of survived my childhood and one of the casualties of that. Was my education. Uh, it was the early seventies, so I think there was a lot going on with sight reading and some different kind of philosophies of teaching. So here I was in a broken home with a learning disability. I [00:24:00] was being bullied at school because the way I felt about myself and, you know, so yeah, reading has always been a chore for me. It still is a chore today. But again, the lord, he helps and he, he brings me through and he gave me a brilliant wife. Uh, she is a, a teacher by education. And my children love to read. My son will walk into walls. He reads books this thick. I mean, and I remember holding him the moment he was born, praying, Lord, give him just a heart for reading. And he does. I mean, my son 15 says, dad, can we go to the library? Love the library. Oh, he, yeah, we're friends with the librarian. Uh, if they need somebody to help him out, move books and they call him. But yes, reading has always been a chore and I, believe it or not, I'm in the midst of writing a book. Oh, I was just gonna ask that if you had a book out or not. We are just started to speak to a publisher, it's self-publishing company. Uh, so we're definitely in [00:25:00] conversations. We have written, just kind of let it pour out of me. It's been there for 50 years, so just kind of. And, uh, now we've kind of put it in front of people who really know what they're doing. I tell everybody, I wrote it my ways, I handed it to my wife and she interpreted it and made it legible. And, uh, we have some local friends who have done some basic editing, so they're kind of editing for us, and now we're sending it to the publisher who knows how to edit in a professional way. So, so, you know, the Lord told me years ago that this testimony would be written down. I remember I chuckled when he told me that because I said, Lord, I can barely read or write. And I remember saying to the Lord, Lord, if you want this written down, what am I gonna call it? He said, you'll call it Forgiving the Nightmare. So that's why the name of the ministry, the name of the book, the name of the website is called Forgiving the Nightmare. I think everybody uh, regardless of [00:26:00] how one came, you know, yours and I came in by probably hands of other people's, but sometimes nightmares come in by all different ways. Loss, regrets pains, hurts. And we all have to kind of say, Lord, how do we go through that? And I know as Christians, we want it instant, you know, we wanna stand on the word, we wanna claim it, we wanna save. Lord, give it to me. But I think sometimes we have to, uh, go through the process. I think of Jacob and how he wrestled with God, or he wrestled with the angel and they wrestled all night long. And, and God, the angel touched his hip and then he said, what do you want? And Jacob said, I want a new. And he became Israel, the promise. Mm-hmm. So he left deceiver, as you know, and he became Israel promise. And I think sometimes in that journey of forgiveness as much as Christians and people, we want it and we want it so true and so earnestly, [00:27:00] but sometimes we have to wrestle. We have to wrestle with the past. We have to wrestle with ourselves, we have to wrestle with the fears, and wrestling doesn't make us bad, doesn't make us sinners, doesn't mean God has left us. I think God's working with us, the process as a pastor, I've seen so many people who are unwilling to go through the process. And they get stuck. They get stuck in the cycle, in the the hurts and the pains of life. Just kind of build up on them. And I know God wants to set 'em free, but again, it, you have to learn to die to self crucify the old man, you know, tame the tongue. And it's hard. It's hard, especially when everything in the, especially when everything in the world tells you you're okay to have that. It's okay for you to hate. It's okay for you to be angry. It's okay for you to, when God says, for us to let him go first, let Him lead us. And God is, if we forgive those who trespass against us, he'll be faithful and just to forgive us. [00:28:00] And that scripture boy haunted me for a long time because I said, Lord, I'm not ready to begin. I'm sorry I'm preaching. No, you're awesome. I'm enjoying this. Um, I'm curious how you read your Bible. Do you use an audio bible or do you, um, do use an actual written Bible? Well, I do read Bible. I like the ESV, I like the NIV, I like those verses. I do read it. I do listen to audio at times. What happened was, is about 20, I was in my early twenties and a woman at church asked me to read the Christmas story out of Luke in front of the youth group. Now, when I say youth group, we had about a hundred youth in our youth group, maybe even 150. It was a large youth group and she was the kind of woman who would not take no for an answer. You know, the church lady? Yeah. I think every church has one of those. Yeah. And you know, I tried to give her every excuse in the [00:29:00] book, I lost my glasses. I was too embarrassed to say that I couldn't read. So I got up in front of the youth group and I read out of Luke chapter two and I. Stumbled over my words and I read slowly and I read broken up. And people were very kind to me that day. The youth pastor and the youth group, they were not cruel. And after service, that woman came back to me and said that she homeschooled her children and she would like to homeschool me if I'd want to. Now I was, I was a grownup. I was 23 and I went back to her house and there I sat with her 6-year-old, five-year old as she was teaching her 5-year-old, 6-year-old how to read. She was also teaching me phonics. I never learned phonics. I tell everybody, when I learned TION and Sean and not ion, it changed my life. Unbeknownst to me that church lady had an older daughter [00:30:00] and that older daughter watched me. Watch me struggle over my words, watch me go to the house and sit with her five-year-old sister and learn ae IOU and learn the rules of bowels and phonics. Well, years later, that older daughter would become my wife. Oh. Oh. So, yep. So, you know, she told me that she fell in love with me and she watched me there. And so that, that's a little bit of our love story. But yeah, she watched me from afar and, and now today we have four kids together and she still helps me read. So I do read. I a much stronger reader than I ever was. Uh mm-hmm. So I, I can read a much better than I could then. Well, I certainly can see looking back that you had so many people in your corner to that God sent to help you, and what a blessing. Now, did you go to college? I did. I [00:31:00] graduated from what's now called North Point Bible College. At the time, it was called Zion Bible College. It was in Barrington, Rhode Island. It was a very focused school for ministry only. Uh, so I did go there. I didn't wanna go there. I'm a New Englander. I knew about the school. It was in my backyard. I wanted to go to Southeastern to Florida. I wanted to go to pennsylvania and go to Valley Forge. Uh, those doors were not open to me. I remember saying, the Lord, I'm done. Lord, I've tried. Everybody's rejecting me because of my education. And he said, go to Zion. I went in and I met with the Dean of students. In that meeting, the dean of students said to me, mark, do you have a call? I said, yes, I believe I do have a call. He got up from his desk and he went to a big picture window, a woman who was walking in front of his picture window, and he tapped onto the window and he called this woman in. As she came [00:32:00] into his office, he introduced me to a woman named Jan Kruger. He let me know that Jan was led by God to go to school, to go to Zion the week earlier than me to start a learning center. And Jan and I became our first student in the learning center and we worked hard. The first year, most of my, classes were uncredited 'cause I had to learn how to be a student. I didn't know what a syllabi was. I didn't know how to take tests. Uh, we sat in that learning center. I cried, I complained. She was a mom. She hugged me sometimes and she told me to. To suck it up sometimes. And, uh, that was the best advice I could get. So yeah, i'm a proud graduate of Zion Bible College, and I'm ordained with the Assembly of God. So when did you get called into the ministry? Well, pretty much after, it was about my 17th year, 16 years old, I got saved and 17 years old, I was [00:33:00] at a Youth convention, and I pretty much felt like the Lord called me then. Now, I ran from that call for a long time because of my insecurities, my fears, my inabilities. See, when I walked into the room, I always felt like I was junk. Like I was dirt. Like I could offer nobody, nothing. And I was, no, you know, I, that's how I felt about myself. So who would let me be that pastor? What do I have to offer? I could barely read. Look what happened to me. So. For many years I wrestled with it and about 24, 25 years old, I had a brand new truck, little S 10 pickup truck. They called it Bernie because it was purple. I was listening to Petra, remember a Petra? I love Petra. And I was, I was listening to Petra from the seventies not the nineties. Petra and I remember I was listening to Petra and the Holy Spirit filled with the cab of that car and that truck I had to [00:34:00] pull over. I was on old post road. I'll never forget tears coming down my face. The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, mark, choose this day whom you'll serve. I've called you and I will equip you. And I said, God, I want you. That's when the journey of. Colleges, and I wish I could tell you it was all roses and cherries after that. It wasn't, you know, there's still a lot of growing up and a lot of overcoming, and a lot of dying to self. And, and there still is. But yeah, that's how I got called and I went to that school and they loved me. They were honest to me. You sound like you had a lot , in coming with Moses with his speech impediment. He was, exiled to be a goat and a sheep herder. They're not gonna listen to me, Lord. You know? Did you feel like that? Oh, sure. I sure did. Like I said, I, for most of my life, I felt like what can I offer? So what I did is I put a facade on myself or I, I lived up to the role that I [00:35:00] thought people wanted from me, or a role to, to find acceptance or protection. So, if I had to be the clown, I was the clown. If I had to be the fool, I was the fool. If I had to be the weak, I was the weak because I felt those things about me. Recently in this weight loss journey and this giving, God has given me confidence. And I say that with much humility because I know it's not my confidence, it's confidence in him. But I've never had confidence before. I feel like a carpenter with a new tool. I feel like, you know, a businessman with a new suit that I've never had confidence before. Now again, it's not confidence in what I have. Because I'm still weak, but it's a confidence going, my Abba father makes a way for me. My Abba father heals me and, and goes before me. So it's, it's a kind of a new season for me to be confident and say, you know what? I can live a healthy life. People ask me why I lost the weight. [00:36:00] And I remember I was reading the scripture, and you're probably familiar with it, is when the Pharisee comes to the Lord or it says to him, Lord, how does one enter the kingdom of heaven? And the Lord says, well, what is written? He says, Lord, love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your strength, and with all your spirit, and love your neighbor as yourself. I've read that a million times. I've preached on it. I've studied it. One day I was reading it, he said, Lord, I know you love me, mark, but you don't love your neighbor, and you don't love yourself, so you can't love your neighbor. And I realized because I didn't love myself, I wasn't taking care of myself. I love my children. I love my wife. I wanna take care of 'em. They don't need me. I wife can, but I want to. I wanna do things for, I wanna take care of 'em. I wanna help 'em be better and stronger and smarter and wiser, and love the Lord. And I realized I didn't love myself. So the weight loss journey, forgiving the nightmare, forgiving my mom, forgiving the abusers, forgiving those [00:37:00] who betrayed me as a child, helped me begin to love myself again. No visions of grander. I'm still a just a normal guy saved by grace. Uh, I still put my big foot in my mouth, my wife can come in and tell you all the stories, but, uh, but you know, I started to love myself and. It sounds like, you found your self worth in the Lord Jesus because Jesus sees you as his child. You are a child of God, and that's where your worth is. So it sounds like your healing journey brought you to that place. Yeah. It's not self-confidence like the world says it is. It's how God sees you. You're precious and you're loved. Amen. And you're valuable. He died for you. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. You're gonna get me going now. Hallelujah. Hallelujah, hallelujah. I want others to [00:38:00] experience this. You know, I, my whole ministry, I've been surrounded by hurting people and hurting churches. I've worked with people that have had major traumas in their life. Not that I ever sought it. I can't. I think the Lord just led me to it. And as I've worked with people, people say that I've been able to bring comfort. I'm easy to talk to. I thought, well, okay, Lord. And I want people to find that freedom that I have. I understand being shackled to pain in the past. I understand allowing those things to form the way you think about and believe about yourself, and never truly being set free. Waking up with that numbing feeling of brokenness all the time. All the time, just constantly. But God truly set me free. He set me free. And because he set me free, I'm nobody special. And being a pastor, I see so many people that have a [00:39:00] form of this and they don't. They haven't gone through it. So they're still living with a confession in Christ, but still the hurts of the past. Blame them. I don't, I'm not putting fingers, I'm not taking the log out on my own eye before I take the twig from their eye. But I'm saying the freedom that God has for his people. Uh, and again, do we still stumble? Yeah. Do we still need refining? Sure. Are we still the clay? And he's still the potter of court, but there's a freedom that we find as a pastor. I've just met so many people who will say, pastor, I'm killed. I'm delivered. And you realize it's, it's only an inch deep. It's, you know, as soon as they get tested, as soon as they get, get bothered, it just spills out. It pulls out of them in, in a defense or in, in a rejection or in a way they, they have a self view of the world or of themselves. Now God's consent is free. God can set [00:40:00] us free. So, what's the difference between being a victim and being victorious? Hallelujah. Well, in my humble opinion, a victim is somebody who always sees themselves broken, sees themselves in a way that, that that allows them to stay in their victimhood. For a long time, my victimhood became my identity. I remember one day when the Lord brought me to the altar and he said those words to me. He said, mark, I want you to give this up. And I literally said, in an audible voice, Lord, if I'm not a victim, then what am I? Because all I knew was the, the role of being a victim. Oh, my victimhood was good. I could manipulate with it. I could win every argument with it. Oh, when I was 16 years old, my mom, who was a single mom with not much money she bought me a car. I had a phone in my room. I had cable on my own [00:41:00] tv. She made me breakfast in bed. Why she owed that to me. Why? Because I was a victim. And I got to see how I could win every argument at school. I could put my head down and I could lift up my head and go, well, who here else was molested? I was, and no one would say anything. And the Lord rebuked me at that and said, said, yeah, that's what victims do. At least that's what I did. He said, I wanna make you victorious. And I remember him saying, me saying to the Lord, if I'm not a victim, what am I? And he said, you're victorious in me. I had to learn what it meant to be victorious. Amen. I had to learn to let that facade go. Let that personality go, let that old man die and let the new man of Christ rise up inside him. That is awesome. I just love that. I've never heard anybody describe it like that. Now, I prefer the, word survivor instead of victim. But I think you took [00:42:00] it up another notch. We are, victorious in the Lord. Well, my victimhood, you know, as much as I was a victim, but I used it for my own gain. Mm-hmm. Which made me just as not guilty of what happened to me, but made me not a healthy place. It put me in a Right. But it's all I knew, you know, I could manipulate, I could win the argument. Right. I was the guy. Who else here was stabbed and burnt and abused? I could show you my scars where they stabbed me. I could show you the burn marks. I was prostituted for other men to abuse me. Boy, you know, I could really win the, the argument. But that was wrong. Yeah, it was wrong. It was wrong to put that on my mother, it's wrong to put that on my family. It was wrong to put that on others. And the Lord had to rebuke me and, uh, wow. And he did, because he loves, he rebukes the ones he loves, so he rebuked you. I just so appreciate your raw [00:43:00] and honest, telling of your story. Because, you've heard stories where they just put the fluff or they put the stuff that's gonna, bring up the ratings or whatever. But you really, kept it real. And I think you're a great pastor because people see that you're a real person. You're not some fake up there that can't relate to your congregation's problems, do you feel that way? Oh, definitely. You know, my congregation, as you know, like we talked earlier, I wrestle with dyslexia and every once in a while I'll stumble over a word while I'm reading the Bible and in front of my congregation. And, and that really bothered me for a long time. My Lord, I'm a pastor. How can I not read this and now. When I stumble over a word, my congregation yells it up to me. So I'll be on the platform. And you know what? They'll see me stumbling and you know, they'll yell it up to me and it's just a term of endearment. [00:44:00] It's not been one of rejection or shame, and I say, you know what? I'm doing that just to make sure you're in the Bible. That's what I tell 'em. But I'll be reading the scripture and, and my dyslexia kick in, or, or the word will be all scrambled. And, and they're the kind voices. Oh, pastor, that's, that means this. And, and it's kind of a nice direction. I tell people the church I pastor is a real church with real people serving a real God. Wow. So, wow. Fancy fluff. Church don't come to us because, you know, we're real and we cry together, we do life together. We step on each other's toes. We don't always agree, but we always love God. That is so awesome. Pastor of Christian is Alia Scott. That's right. I didn't announce your church name. I wanted to ask you to tell another story about. You said that you met your birth father at one point. What happened during that reunion Union? [00:45:00] Well, I was 45 years old and I wanted to reach, I wanted to know, I tell people my birth father and I met at the right place in life. I think if I would've met him younger, I would've still been angry. Rejected Kyle, but I was 45. I was the father of four. I've made my own mistakes, my own problems. I learned to mature a little bit. To be really frank, my father's wife passed on, so he was more ready to meet me. So his wife that he had the affair on to si me, if you would, she passed. So he was more open to meet me and uh, I just didn't meet him, but the whole family met him together. We met in a restaurant, we met in Cape Cod, Massachusetts, and the family came in and the kids instantly. Started to call him grandpa. I thought, I don't know if I'm okay with that. And he never rejected it. So the last few years of [00:46:00] life, we just lost him. I, I had him for about four years. It wasn't warm and fuzzy, daddy and son, but it was something, we had a relationship. We'd talk about sports, we'd talk about life. He was a snowbird from Massachusetts to Florida and he just kind of let me know. So I'm very thankful for the four years I had. Again, it wasn't, Hey buddy, I'm proud of you kind of moment, but I got to find out a little bit about. Who my dad was and who some of my relatives are on my father's side. I got to learn about some of the health conditions of, of my father. And you know, he said he was pretty, he made it to 84. He liked to drink and he liked ladies, I like Jesus, I like one lady, Wow. That's an incredible story. I tell people it was the right time. Again, if I would've met him at 25, I would've been angry. I would've said, you know, why did you abandon me? 45 was a good time because. You know what, by that [00:47:00] time I, I stepped in enough life of my own to, to not, to be slow to judge, oh, God does have the perfect timing. I haven't spoken much about my story at all on here, but my husband and I talk about, boy, I wish that we had met, long time ago, you know, and skipped all the pain because we were both victims of abuse from our previous spouses. I'm sorry. And, um, but we thought about it and we thought we were different people. If we met at that time, I don't think I would've been interested in you and you wouldn't have been interested in me. And, I think that God brought us together this time of our life. No, we've been married 11 years. Congratulations. Thank you. So, God brought us together at our time of life because that was the perfect time and Sure. We're best friends. We never even have had a real fight. We didn't disagree, of course, but now you should write a book [00:48:00] about that. Okay. I mean, we disagree and, um, get on each other's nerves, but the Lord has just, you're normal. Just blessed us. Yeah, we're definitely normal. Um, especially during pandemic. It's like you learn about your spouse when you're stuck with them 24 7. Right? That's true. That's true. Yeah, we had to make some adjustments. Amen. And, um, we still love each other, and that it's great when you're talking about times of life, you know, for such a time as this, and I think for me, the Lord spoke to me years ago about forgiving the nightmare ministry. He actually spoke to me when I was in college about this. I didn't know it was gonna, uh, blossom or what it was gonna look like, but he spoke to me years ago about writing it down and it was always inside me. And I kept, my wife knew about it. We would always think, how's the, what's the Lord gonna do with this? Is it distant inside me to guide me through life? Is it more for others? Is it, Lord, how's it, how's it [00:49:00] gonna? Blossom if you would manifest. And we lost my mom and I have to tell you that, not immediately, but pretty quick. After losing my mom, I felt like this ministry could just launch. And it has launched. God has brought, brought a web designer into our life. He's brought some, um, producers into our life to help me tell the story. We're talking with a, an editor and a publisher. All this has happened fairly quickly. And I think, Lord, why now? And I think, to be honest with you, and this is just my opinion, I, I don't know if I have chapter and verse to back this up, but my mom was so embarrassed. She was so full of shame because of my upbringing every time for the last 20 years of my life, every time me and my mom were alone together, she would just apologize. And I don't just mean say, sorry. She would grovel and I would say, mom, I forgive you. I forgive you, [00:50:00] Marky. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. And if my mom knew that I was speaking to podcasts or writing a book, she would've been so, so embarrassed. So she may, it would've just troubled her so much. So I think outta the grace of God, and again, don't have chapter and verse, but I think upon her passing released me to be able to share this story, to be able to bring others into it, to just think God was being merciful to my mom on her journey. And again, it was almost pretty instant after her, uh, her own passing that I remember being on the treadmill one morning and the Lord just kind of. Just impressing upon me by giving the nightmare. Remember those words? I spoke to you. This is where it's gonna take place. And since then, we've made a couple videos, uh, we've launched a website. I'm talking to wonderful people like yourself and just trying to get the [00:51:00] story out of forgiving the Nightmare and trying to say to people whatever that nightmare was. Was it physical and sexual abuse like mine? Was it a tragedy in your life? Is it regrets? Is it fears? Is it the loss of a child or a loved one? Whatever that pain is that your nightmare. I want you to know that God can help you forgive it and overcome it and break the shackles so we don't have to be the man or the person. The hurt tried to make us. We no longer have to be Jacob. We can become Israel. Your mom would be so proud of you. And I think that, thank you. If, the Lord's probably told her, you know, the good things that have come out of a terrible situation, she said she had, you said she had some shame. Oh. I think if she was looking down at you now that, that shame would be gone. [00:52:00] That shame is no longer there. Look how God's using my son, my, my wonderful son to spread the gospel and to help people. And so Well, thank you. I'm so thankful for you, brother. Thank you for saying those words, sister. It's very kind of you. I used to say to my mom, even up to her last days, I would say, mom, who's your favorite? And she would say, I love you all, all the same. And I'd say, mom, stop lying to my siblings. I'm the youngest of three. My older brother and my older sister never made me feel like a step or a half brother. Uh, we just kind of always lived in the same house. We got real family problems and just life, but they've never left, never met me, felt, never let me feel like I was less than even to today. So I'm very thankful. My oldest sister, who is, a second mom to me, my oldest sister, she is my second mom and I'm thankful for her. So. Wow. Well, we [00:53:00] just had just a great time tonight. When your book comes out, please contact me. I would love to have you on the show again, to promote your book because obviously you, your story is so powerful and we wanna get it out to as many people as we can. So, tell the folks how to connect with you. Well, the best way to connect with me is@forgivingthenightmare.com. Forgiving the nightmare.com. Forgiving the nightmare.com is the best way to connect with me. If you go there, you'll find a email, it's called mark@forgivingthenightmare.com. That comes directly to me, right on my phone. So that's the best way to connect with me. Also you can go to our Facebook page called, forgiving the Nightmare. For giving Nightmare Facebook page. I try to put up pictures and little devotions there and stories there. So that's the two. Best way through Facebook, after Giving the Nightmare, after giving the Nightmare do [00:54:00] com, those are the best ways to connect with me. And I hope to get so Arizona someday. You have an open invitation. Wow. I'll be a tour guide for you. I know that Arizona like the back of my hand. Wow. Wow. Now my children could hear you in the background, so they're gonna be pretty excited about that invitation. There's so much stuff for, for their Edge group as well. So, we will hook you guys up. So thanks for being patient with the tech stuff and I'm glad we pushed through and didn't let the devil get the victory tonight. We found a way to get you on here. That's right. May I pray for you as we close. Oh yes, please. Thank you. Father God, we just come to you tonight and we thank you again for your son, Jesus Christ. Lord, we thank you for the sacrifice that he gave to us upon the cross, Lord. And we pay the price we could not pray, Lord. And we thank you for the gift of life [00:55:00] and life more abundant. Lord, we thank you for the promises. It says in this life there will be many troubles, but fear not because you are with us always. And Lord, tonight I pray for my sister. Father, I thank you that you're using her Lord. To spread the gospel to share, hope to be a light and a dark place. But Father, now, I pray that you come beside her father as she's shared that she's lost her brother this week, Lord. And I pray you comfort her. Lord, you said you had to go so the comforter could come. I pray, the comfort of the Holy Spirit will come beside my sister and be with her and her family as they grieve their loved one, their family member, their friend, Lord. So Lord I pray peace upon my sister. I pray Lord that you use her, continue to bless her. I thank you for the testimony of her and her husband, 11 years that you've brought together for such a time as this. I pray, Lord God, that they grow closer to you so they can grow closer to each other. And Lord, we thank you tonight [00:56:00] that Lord, we're no longer Jacob. You've made us Israel Father, no longer do we have to be shaped by our past, but now we can hold on to the promises. Lord, no longer does, we have to be shackled by somebody else's abuse, and we can be set free by your word. So, Lord, I pray that you fill us. You lead us, and may we be the light and may we be the salt, and may we lift up your name. We pray for a unity across our nation. We pray for a healing across our land, and we pray, Lord, for a revival of your salvation to come to our our country again, in Jesus name, amen. Thank you so much, brother. God bless, sister. Thank you. Take care yourself. Bye now. Bye. Thank you for listening to the Wounds of the Faithful Podcast. If this episode has been helpful to you, please hit the subscribe button and tell a friend. You could connect with us at [00:57:00] DSW Ministries dot org where you'll find our blog, along with our Facebook, Twitter, and our YouTube channel links. Hope to see you next week.

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Chris Williams breaks down the big dispute between Disney and Google regarding ESPN and YouTubeTV. It's another example of how only the fans get screwed. Also, did Nebraska really need to increase Matt Rhule's contract buyout to $71 million last week? A lot of sports business this week on the CW Pod, courtesy of Steeple Ridge Bourbon. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Stephen Crean, a victim of the knife attack on a train in Cambridgeshire on Saturday evening, describes his experience.

Send us a textAaron's had enough. This solo Ones Ready episode is a straight-up demolition of every anonymous Air Force wannabe crying about the new Zulu Course. For years, the same crowd begged for tougher, more legit ground training — and now that it's here, they're hiding behind meme pages and bad takes.Aaron lights them up. He defends the cadre who built the course from scratch, calls out the soft culture infecting the pipeline, and drops a masterclass in what real readiness looks like. This isn't motivation — it's a correction. You don't have to like it, but you damn sure need to hear it.If you've ever said “they're changing too much,” or thought your opinion outweighed experience, this one's going to sting. Aaron brings the truth, the fire, and the leadership the community forgot it needed.⏱️ Timestamps: 00:00 – Ones Ready Goes Live: Aaron Solo and Unfiltered 02:40 – The Zulu Course Meltdown 04:20 – Chair Force Myths and Real Tactical Gaps 07:45 – Meme Lords vs. Mission Standards 10:10 – The Instructors Who Built Zulu From Nothing 12:30 – Passionate, Not Emotional — The Fine Line 14:20 – Victim vs. Victor: The Divide That Defines You 19:00 – The New Fitness Standard and Why It Matters 21:00 – Internet Experts, Meet Reality 24:30 – The Real Story Behind Zulu's Creation 28:00 – Holding Court in Public: Aaron vs. the Cowards 32:00 – Culture Reset: Ones Ready Goes Full Accountability 35:00 – Vegas, Mentorship, and Building the Next Gen 39:00 – “You'll Never Feel Ready” — The Hard Truth 42:00 – Chapman, Pitsenbarger, and the Meaning of Service 47:00 – Operator Mindset: You're Either In or In the Way 52:00 – Cross-Training, Quitters, and Excuses 59:00 – Pipeline Changes, PJU Evolution, and What's Next 1:05:00 – Final Word: Stop Talking. Start Training.

Mark Gerson's Book, God Was Right: amazon.com/God-Was-Right-Modern-Science/dp/1637746172Subscribe to Inside Call me Back: https://inside.arkmedia.orgGift a subscription of Inside Call me Back: http://inside.arkmedia.org/giftsSubscribe to Amit Segal's newsletter ‘It's Noon in Israel': https://arkmedia.org/amitsegal/Watch Call me Back on YouTube: youtube.com/@CallMeBackPodcastCheck out Ark Media's other podcasts: For Heaven's Sake: https://lnk.to/rfGlrA‘What's Your Number?': https://lnk.to/rfGlrAFor sponsorship inquiries, please contact: callmeback@arkmedia.orgTo contact us, sign up for updates, and access transcripts, visit: https://arkmedia.org/Ark Media on Instagram: https://instagram.com/arkmediaorgDan on X: https://x.com/dansenorDan on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dansenorTo order Dan Senor & Saul Singer's book, The Genius of Israel: https://tinyurl.com/bdeyjsdnToday's Episode: In a less news-bound episode than usual, Dan was joined by Mark Gerson to discuss his new book God Was Right: How Modern Social Science Proves the Torah is True. Mark is a Jewish-American investor and philanthropist. He is also the co-founder of African Mission Healthcare Foundation and United Hatzallah. He and Dan talked about how the Torah can be seen as a self-help guide, answering life's perennial questions, including how to find the right spouse, how to combat loneliness, how to dress up for success, and why we should embrace resilience and dignity over victimhood and honor culture.CREDITS:ILAN BENATAR - Producer & EditorADAAM JAMES LEVIN-AREDDY - Executive ProducerMARTIN HUERGO - Sound EditorMARIANGELES BURGOS - Additional EditingMAYA RACKOFF - Operations DirectorGABE SILVERSTEIN - ResearchYUVAL SEMO - Music Composer

In a less news-bound episode than usual, Dan was joined by Mark Gerson to discuss his new book God Was Right: How Modern Social Science Proves the Torah is True. Mark is a Jewish-American investor and philanthropist. He is also the co-founder of African Mission Healthcare Foundation and United Hatzallah. He and Dan talked about […]

Kada Scott should still be alive. But under Philadelphia District Attorney Larry Krasner, justice isn't blind — it's asleep. In this in-depth investigation, Tony Brueski breaks down the horrific chain of failures that allowed Keon King, a man already charged with kidnapping and strangulation, to walk free on low bail… and allegedly kill Kada Scott just months later. This episode exposes how Larry Krasner's so-called “progressive reform” has turned Philadelphia's justice system into a revolving door — where violent offenders walk, victims die, and the DA's office hides behind slogans about compassion and root causes. We follow the trail from the earlier dropped case against King, to the bail “error” that Krasner now calls “probably incorrect,” to the chilling truth: this death was preventable. And Kada Scott isn't the only casualty. From the slaying of Philadelphia Police Corporal James O'Connor by another released gun offender, to the hundreds of violent cases dismissed or lost, the pattern is clear — ideology has replaced accountability. Philadelphia deserves a DA who protects the innocent, not excuses the guilty.  If you believe in justice, in public safety, in the idea that compassion means protecting the next victim before it's too late — then listen to this. Larry Krasner's record isn't about reform. It's about failure. And if you live in Philadelphia, the power to stop it is in your hands. Vote. Demand better. Because Kada Scott deserved better.

Kada Scott should still be alive. But under Philadelphia District Attorney Larry Krasner, justice isn't blind — it's asleep. In this in-depth investigation, Tony Brueski breaks down the horrific chain of failures that allowed Keon King, a man already charged with kidnapping and strangulation, to walk free on low bail… and allegedly kill Kada Scott just months later. This episode exposes how Larry Krasner's so-called “progressive reform” has turned Philadelphia's justice system into a revolving door — where violent offenders walk, victims die, and the DA's office hides behind slogans about compassion and root causes. We follow the trail from the earlier dropped case against King, to the bail “error” that Krasner now calls “probably incorrect,” to the chilling truth: this death was preventable. And Kada Scott isn't the only casualty. From the slaying of Philadelphia Police Corporal James O'Connor by another released gun offender, to the hundreds of violent cases dismissed or lost, the pattern is clear — ideology has replaced accountability. Philadelphia deserves a DA who protects the innocent, not excuses the guilty.  If you believe in justice, in public safety, in the idea that compassion means protecting the next victim before it's too late — then listen to this. Larry Krasner's record isn't about reform. It's about failure. And if you live in Philadelphia, the power to stop it is in your hands. Vote. Demand better. Because Kada Scott deserved better.

Hosts Josh and Jamie and special guest author Megan Abbott kick off Noirvember with two dreamlike, expressionist and nihilistic 1940s B-noirs: Edgar G. Ulmer's dirty, depressed, intensely psychologically subjective murderous hitchhiking noir DETOUR (1945) and Mark Robson's bleak, satanic Gothic-horror conspiracy-mystery noir THE SEVENTH VICTIM (1943). Next week's episode is a patron-exclusive bonus episode on our buddy Robert Mitchum: OUT OF THE PAST (1947) + THE FRIENDS OF EDDIE COYLE (1973), you can get access to that episode (and all past + future bonus episodes) by subscribing to our $5 tier on Patreon: www.patreon.com/sleazoidspodcast Intro // 00:00-14:30 DETOUR // 14:30-1:10:46 THE 7th VICTIM // 1:10:46-2:08:04 Outro // 2:08:04-2:10:50 All things Megan can be found at: https://www.meganabbott.com/ NEW SLEAZOIDS SHIRT + HAT: https://blackbeltcinema.ca/search?q=sleazoids&options%5Bprefix%5D=last WEBSITE: www.sleazoidspodcast.com/ Pod Twitter: twitter.com/sleazoidspod Pod Letterboxd: letterboxd.com/SLEAZOIDS/ Josh's Twitter: twitter.com/thejoshl Josh's Letterboxd: letterboxd.com/thejoshl Jamie's Twitter: twitter.com/jamiemilleracas Jamie's Letterboxd: letterboxd.com/jamiemiller

One of our all-time favorite guests is back this week! Dr. Josh Smith @drj.smith — psychologist and expert in narcissistic abuse — joins us to break down the victim complex of narcissists. It all starts with a real situation that happened with Mac, and unfolds into a powerful talk about how toxic people twist communication, flip the script, and play the victim… and how you can protect your peace.Click ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to join us on Patreon!For all things DTG, visit

https://podawful.com/posts/2604 HAPPY AWFULWEEN! The only prank slasher flick franchise, The Red Rooms, is back, and this time it's with a surprise twist! A real feature-length Halloween horror movie starring an unwitting Final T-Girl-- The Comedy Shaman. The DARK WEB'S most mysterious, and CURSED website is now online, and it is looking for its first VICTIM. Shaman has fallen in love with his CATFISH, the enigmatic "Feds," again. Now they must team up to take down an EVIL CULT. When Mr. Burgers is kidnapped and taken to the bloodsoaked cyber dungeon, Comedy Shaman makes it his mission to MAN UP with Feds, and destroy THE RED ROOMS once and for all! The only thing standing in his way? The leader of the Cult and mastermind behind the Red Rooms, the completely unstoppable monster known as JESSE P-S. Jesse is watching Shaman's every single move, and it all culminates in the most TWISTED gender reveal party of all time. What happens when you've run completely out of "It is what it is?" Well, it's the end of the day, so you're about to find out-- FOR THE LAST TIME. Get the DIRECTOR'S CUT, DELETED SCENES, COMMENTARY, AND MORE only in the PIZZA FUND: https://podawful.pizza VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/live/FS4Heu5gfMU  Buy A Shirt: http://awful.tech PODAWFUL is an anti-podcast hosted by Jesse P-S

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For decades, the FBI sat on a mountain of evidence implicating Jeffrey Epstein in the trafficking and abuse of underage girls—evidence that could have led to his prosecution long before his 2019 arrest. Victim statements, flight logs, financial records, photographs, and corroborating witnesses were all available in various forms as early as the mid-1990s. Multiple law enforcement agencies, including local police in Palm Beach, had already compiled damaging information and flagged Epstein's pattern of recruiting minors for sex acts. Despite this, federal authorities consistently failed to act, allowing him to maintain his wealth, freedom, and influence while continuing to victimize girls with impunity.The inaction wasn't due to a lack of evidence—it was a deliberate choice. The FBI not only delayed meaningful investigation, but in some cases appeared to retreat altogether, especially after Epstein's 2008 sweetheart plea deal in Florida. Rather than pursuing the obvious interstate and international dimensions of his crimes, the Bureau allowed the case to go cold, even as new allegations emerged. Whether out of institutional cowardice, political interference, or worse, the result was the same: the most powerful federal law enforcement agency in the country turned a blind eye to one of the most prolific sex traffickers of the modern era while survivors were left unheard, and Epstein's network remained intact.to contact me:bobbycapucci@protonmail.comsource:https://lawandcrime.com/high-profile/fbi-had-dirt-that-could-have-unraveled-jeffrey-epsteins-entire-network-more-than-a-decade-ago/Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-moscow-murders-and-more--5852883/support.

https://podawful.com/posts/2604 HAPPY AWFULWEEN! The only prank slasher flick franchise, The Red Rooms, is back, and this time it's with a surprise twist! A real feature-length Halloween horror movie starring an unwitting Final T-Girl-- The Comedy Shaman. The DARK WEB'S most mysterious, and CURSED website is now online, and it is looking for its first VICTIM. Shaman has fallen in love with his CATFISH, the enigmatic "Feds," again. Now they must team up to take down an EVIL CULT. When Mr. Burgers is kidnapped and taken to the bloodsoaked cyber dungeon, Comedy Shaman makes it his mission to MAN UP with Feds, and destroy THE RED ROOMS once and for all! The only thing standing in his way? The leader of the Cult and mastermind behind the Red Rooms, the completely unstoppable monster known as JESSE P-S. Jesse is watching Shaman's every single move, and it all culminates in the most TWISTED gender reveal party of all time. What happens when you've run completely out of "It is what it is?" Well, it's the end of the day, so you're about to find out-- FOR THE LAST TIME. Get the DIRECTOR'S CUT, DELETED SCENES, COMMENTARY, AND MORE only in the PIZZA FUND: https://podawful.pizza VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/live/FS4Heu5gfMU  Buy A Shirt: http://awful.tech PODAWFUL is an anti-podcast hosted by Jesse P-S

Send us a textIf you ever find yourself stuck in the same old arguments, playing out like a bad soap opera then that might be the Drama Triangle at work. Where we slip into roles of Victim, Rescuer, or Persecutor without even realising. So, today I'll explain how the cycle works, why we get caught in it, and how to step out of the drama by choosing healthier roles instead.Support the showJoin our Evolve to Thrive 6 month programme https://therapynatters.comJoin the Patreon community https://www.patreon.com/richardnicholls Social Media Links Bluesky https://bsky.app/profile/richardnicholls.net Threads https://www.threads.net/@richardnichollsreal Instagram https://www.instagram.com/richardnichollsreal Facebook https://www.facebook.com/RichardNichollsAuthor Youtube https://www.youtube.com/richardnicholls TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@richardnichollsauthor X https://x.com/richardnicholls

Marty speaks with the best friend of Acrisure Stadium fall victim Keith Keller

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Hour 2: Stefanski not a victim of Browns mess + Could the Browns offense be worse? full 2173 Thu, 30 Oct 2025 14:29:49 +0000 wWOzBM0DCFylCNJqWvkokMV9dKkm3ZSI sports The Ken Carman Show with Anthony Lima sports Hour 2: Stefanski not a victim of Browns mess + Could the Browns offense be worse? The only place to talk about the Cleveland sports scene is with Ken Carman and Anthony Lima. The two guide listeners through the ups and downs of being a fan of the Browns, Cavaliers, Guardians and Ohio State Buckeyes in Northeast Ohio. They'll help you stay informed with breaking news, game coverage, and interviews with top personalities.Catch The Ken Carman Show with Anthony Lima live Monday through Friday (6 a.m. - 10 a.m ET) on 92.3 The Fan, the exclusive audio home of the Browns, or on the Audacy app. For more, follow the show on X @KenCarmanShow. 2024 © 2021 Audacy, Inc. Sports False https://pl

Ken Carman and Anthony Lima discuss the relationship between Andrew Berry and Kevin Stefanski and how Cleveland Browns fans are weighing the blame between their team's front office and coaching staff for the team's struggles.

In this episode of Louisiana Unfiltered, Kiran Chawla sits down with Ellie Kousoulas, a survivor of domestic violence who shares her story of Courage, Growth and redemption during this Domestic Violence Awareness Month.Chapters02:00 Introducing Ellie: A Survivor's Journey04:00 The Beginning of Domestic Violence07:38 The Turning Point in Their Relationship11:08 A Controlling Environment15:43 Understanding the Victim's Profile18:16 The Road to Isolation21:08 Escalating Abuse and Control23:59 The Realization of Danger29:15 The Impact on the Children32:45 The Breaking Point44:02 Finding the Strength to Leave50:20 A New Beginning with Support56:09 The Role of Iris in Recovery

When a homeowner unknowingly signs away their property, the consequences can be devastating. and all too common. On The Steve Gruber Show, Natalie Dominguez of Home Title Lock explains the mechanics behind these predatory scams, shares tips for safeguarding homes, and discusses how services like Home Title Lock's Triple Lock Protection can alert families immediately and help restore ownership before scammers strike. Go to HomeTitleLock.com and Use promo code GRUBER

Domestic Violence Awareness Month is in October, but the conversation should never stop. Host Ramon Sanchez, LCSW, sits down for a critical and profoundly moving conversation with survivor and advocate Katie Valenzuela.Katie courageously shares her personal journey through the complexities of Domestic Violence, moving from a place of isolation to powerful advocacy to provide hope and destigmatization to listeners who are currently struggling.This episode delves into the often-overlooked aspects of abuse, beyond the physical, including: the damaging effects of emotional, financial, and psychological control. Katie discusses the immense internal barriers to seeking help, the process of safety planning, and the long-term mental health impact on survivors.Resources for Intimate Partner Violence: https://www.thehotline.org/; National Center for Victims of Crime 855-4-VICTIM (855-484-2846); & StrongHearts Native Helpline 844-762-8483

Send us a textIn part one, we're discussing Houston's most notorious serial killer, Dean Corll, aka The Candyman or The Candyman Killer. Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/badactspodPodMoth: https://podmoth.network/Ad: Haunted Tales — https://linktr.ee/hauntedtales Help Identify Dean Corll's Potential 28th Victim: https://www.missingkids.org/blog/2023/candy-man-victim Episode Source List:The Candy Man — Dean CorllThe Serial Killer's Apprentice. Investigation Discovery. 2025.https://law.justia.com/cases/texas/court-of-criminal-appeals/1978/53561-53566-3.html https://law.justia.com/cases/texas/court-of-criminal-appeals/1979/56288-3.html https://abc13.com/post/dean-corll-houston-candyman-serial-killer-1970s-murders-boathouse-killings-new-details-elmer-wayne-henley-david-brooks/16368766/ https://abc13.com/post/texas-equusearch-elmer-wayne-henley-dean-corll-serial-killer/11222228/?userab=kfsn_web_player-447*variant_b_kfsn_dmp-1861https://abc13.com/post/candy-man-murders-pasadena-texas-dean-corll-home-demolition-elmer-wayne-henley/12875230/?userab=kfsn_web_player-447*variant_b_kfsn_dmp-1861 https://people.com/where-is-elmer-wayne-henley-now-11792024 https://www.missingkids.org/blog/2023/candy-man-victim https://www.aetv.com/articles/candy-man-killer-victims https://www.texasmonthly.com/true-crime/the-lost-boys/ https://trove.nla.gov.au/newspaper/article/110743429https://www.houstonpress.com/news/the-girl-on-the-torture-board-rhonda-williams-opens-up-about-being-attacked-by-dean-corll-6736780/?storyPage=4 https://texasarchive.org/2022_00177 https://www.aetv.com/articles/elmer-wayne-henleyhttps://www.click2houston.com/news/investigates/2025/06/19/parents-fight-against-release-of-houston-serial-killers-accomplice/ https://www.houstonpress.com/news/killer-art-6571167/ 

Kada Scott should still be alive. But under Philadelphia District Attorney Larry Krasner, justice isn't blind — it's asleep. In this in-depth investigation, Tony Brueski breaks down the horrific chain of failures that allowed Keon King, a man already charged with kidnapping and strangulation, to walk free on low bail… and allegedly kill Kada Scott just months later. This episode exposes how Larry Krasner's so-called “progressive reform” has turned Philadelphia's justice system into a revolving door — where violent offenders walk, victims die, and the DA's office hides behind slogans about compassion and root causes. We follow the trail from the earlier dropped case against King, to the bail “error” that Krasner now calls “probably incorrect,” to the chilling truth: this death was preventable. And Kada Scott isn't the only casualty. From the slaying of Philadelphia Police Corporal James O'Connor by another released gun offender, to the hundreds of violent cases dismissed or lost, the pattern is clear — ideology has replaced accountability. Philadelphia deserves a DA who protects the innocent, not excuses the guilty.  If you believe in justice, in public safety, in the idea that compassion means protecting the next victim before it's too late — then listen to this. Larry Krasner's record isn't about reform. It's about failure. And if you live in Philadelphia, the power to stop it is in your hands. Vote. Demand better. Because Kada Scott deserved better.

Kada Scott should still be alive. But under Philadelphia District Attorney Larry Krasner, justice isn't blind — it's asleep. In this in-depth investigation, Tony Brueski breaks down the horrific chain of failures that allowed Keon King, a man already charged with kidnapping and strangulation, to walk free on low bail… and allegedly kill Kada Scott just months later. This episode exposes how Larry Krasner's so-called “progressive reform” has turned Philadelphia's justice system into a revolving door — where violent offenders walk, victims die, and the DA's office hides behind slogans about compassion and root causes. We follow the trail from the earlier dropped case against King, to the bail “error” that Krasner now calls “probably incorrect,” to the chilling truth: this death was preventable. And Kada Scott isn't the only casualty. From the slaying of Philadelphia Police Corporal James O'Connor by another released gun offender, to the hundreds of violent cases dismissed or lost, the pattern is clear — ideology has replaced accountability. Philadelphia deserves a DA who protects the innocent, not excuses the guilty.  If you believe in justice, in public safety, in the idea that compassion means protecting the next victim before it's too late — then listen to this. Larry Krasner's record isn't about reform. It's about failure. And if you live in Philadelphia, the power to stop it is in your hands. Vote. Demand better. Because Kada Scott deserved better.

This month, we read every John Silence story. • ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Weird (ed. Ann & Jeff VanderMeer)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠• ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Dangerous Visions (ed. Harlan Ellison)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ • ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Complete John Silence (by Algernon Blackwood)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ • ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Patreon (Free Bonus Episodes)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ • Email us at genrepodcast@gmail.com

Chantal Marx from FNB Wealth & Investments unpacks Balwin's upbeat results as lower rates lift sales. Dylan Govender from Investec Business Banking discusses local ports as they steadily get back on track. Sihle Tuta from PrimeXBT South Africa discusses regulation and rebuilding trust in the crypto and trading space.

Michaela tells Opinion Line Producer Paul Byrne about what happened during yesterday's robbery. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Investigative journalists Mandy Matney and Liz Farrell have a long list of questions for South Carolina's 1st Circuit Solicitor David Pascoe and they aren't afraid to ask them. Pascoe, who is running to replace state attorney general Alan Wilson in next year's election has a well-known history of being the only top law enforcement officer in the state who is calling out corruption and seeking accountability for public officials who cross the line. Our Questions: Why is the unhinged (now former) Beaufort County deputy Billy Squires STILL not arrested? Is someone sitting on the case? Why are lawyer-legislators making hundreds of thousands of dollars of taxpayer money under Attorney General Alan Wilson? Wait. What? They are?!? Is there really a separate, better door for wealthy and politically connected defendants when it comes to the justice system? And what's going on with Judge Carmen Mullen? Plus a special Premium-Only conversation about Grand Juries and why some charges are routed there. ☕ Cups Up! ⚖️Episode References David Pascoe for SC AG Website 

34 Months ago, Rob was given 18 months to live as part of a devastating diagnosis with cancer. 2 years ago, Rob shared his story of choices he made to choose life and the results that followed. So many people have reached out and thanked us for sharing this story once again, we're re-releasing it. And this story about intentionally changing your DNA applies to every leader. Because if we change our leadership DNA…we can have a greater influence with our teams than we may have ever imagined. So as you approach new leadership challenges…our hope is this episode helps you choose to lean in. To change your leadership DNA. To throw away the victim card and choose abundance over scarcity and your future over your fears. We hope you are inspired by this story and choose to share it with your friends and colleagues. Elite leadership always has and always will start with how you think. We hope this episode helps you re-think your approach to mindset. You can connect with Rob on LinkedIn here (https://www.linkedin.com/in/robjeppsen/). You can learn more about the Jeppsen Performance Group here. (https://jeppg.com/)

Ever notice how the people who never mess up also never win big? Frank Dick, the legendary British Olympic coach who led Team GB through its golden era, calls this "the risk of winning." For over 50 years, Frank coached Olympic champions like Daley Thompson and Sebastian Coe. His growth mindset framework reveals a counterintuitive truth about mental strength: failure isn't falling off your bike—it's refusing to get back on. This episode unpacks the hidden psychology behind mistakes, character formation, and why vulnerability might be your greatest competitive advantage in self-improvement.​ You'll discover: Why making zero mistakes means you're not dreaming big enough (the science behind mental models for personal development) The exact moment your character forms—hint: it's before you act (behavioural psychology meets emotional intelligence) Frank's "Four Rs" framework for extracting wisdom from both wins and losses (cool psychology for mindset improvement) Listen now to master the mental health strategies Olympic athletes use to build unshakeable self-discipline. NEW SHOW - ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠How to Change the World: The History and Future of Innovation⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn about the evolving story of the human species and our ideas told in chronological order. The podcast is full of fun facts, surprising stories and philosophical insights. Found on all major podcast players: Spotify - ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/show/1Fj3eFjEoAEKF5lWQxPJyT⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Apple - ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/how-to-change-the-world-the-history-of-innovation/id1815282649⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ YouTube - ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/@HowToChangeTheWorldPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ RSS feed - ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://feeds.acast.com/public/shows/682b3b86696b5d1232d698a8⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ --- UPGRADE to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Premium⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠:

Epstein victim drops a BOMBSHELL about George Clooney's connection in memoir!

Anu Verma is the author, coach, and creator of Victim to Victor, a movement empowering survivors of abuse to reclaim their power and rebuild their lives.After overcoming years of psychological and domestic abuse, Anu transformed her pain into purpose by writing her book, launching her podcast, and guiding others through their own healing journeys.Her story has reached over a billion people worldwide, inspiring both women and men to rise above fear and step into their strength.In this episode of Business Innovators Radio, Anu shares how facing her fears, finding her voice, and embracing visibility changed everything, and how you can do the same.You can find more about Anu Verma at:victim2victor.netsilentscreamsdramafeaturefilm.com11plussuccess.co.ukhttps://www.instagram.com/victim2victor_anuverma/https://www.linkedin.com/in/anuvermav2vhttps://www.tiktok.com/@victim_2_victorhttps://web.facebook.com/anuvermaV2Vhttps://www.youtube.com/c/Victim2VictorHealingJourney/videosSource: https://businessinnovatorsradio.com/anu-verma-of-victim-to-victor-on-turning-pain-into-power

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In early 2021, the Maxwell family launched a website called RealGhislaine.com, which they described as a factual information hub designed to counter what they called “media distortions” about their sister. The family positioned the site as a defense against “character assassination,” featuring photos, statements, and claims that Ghislaine Maxwell was being unfairly treated in U.S. custody. The website portrayed her as a wrongfully targeted woman enduring “cruel and unusual” prison conditions, denied fair bail, and vilified because of her association with Jeffrey Epstein. The site also included a section where her siblings—most vocally Ian and Kevin Maxwell—asserted that she was being used as a scapegoat for the failures of U.S. authorities to properly monitor Epstein before his death. It was a deliberate PR strategy meant to shift attention away from the charges of sex trafficking and conspiracy that had already led to her conviction, reframing her image from enabler to victim.The family's broader campaign extended far beyond the website. They conducted coordinated interviews, published op-eds, and gave statements to outlets like the BBC, The Independent, and The Telegraph, all echoing similar talking points: that Ghislaine's trial was “tainted by media bias,” that she was “denied due process,” and that she was “paying the price for Epstein's crimes.” Critics, including lawyers for Epstein's victims, slammed the PR campaign as tone-deaf and manipulative, accusing the family of whitewashing her crimes and retraumatizing survivors by trying to rewrite the narrative. Victim advocates said the site and interviews were an attempt to maintain Maxwell's social reputation and influence elite opinion, especially in Britain, where the family retained connections in media and politics. Even after her conviction, the family kept the site active and continued issuing statements insisting that her appeal would “expose systemic injustice” rather than re-examine her crimes.to contact me:bobbycapucci@Protonmail.com

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