420 Reasons WHY I Quit Drinking

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking, I explore the fear of not having enough—that anxious urge to over-prepare, especially when it comes to alcohol. I share a memory from a friend's wedding, where we packed our own roadies and backup booze, just in case. And good thing (or so we thought), because there was only one bottle of wine per table of eight—barely enough for one of us, let alone the whole group.That moment made me reflect on a deeper pattern. Even now, I catch myself doing the same thing—overpacking my car for work trips, bringing way more than I need, driven by that old fear of what if I don't have enough?This episode is about recognizing those lingering mindsets, how they show up in unexpected ways, and how choosing trust over fear has opened the door to true freedom and peace.

It's truly remarkable to be here, celebrating the start of Season 4 of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking. I'm filled with deep gratitude for all of you who continue to listen, support, and walk this journey with me.In this season, I continue to share the raw truth—my stories of drinking, partying, and living a life I eventually realized I no longer wanted. By opening up about my past, my secrets, and the lessons I've learned, I've found healing, transformation, and a new way of living.Through God's light and guidance, I'm now fully awake, choosing to live my best life for the rest of my life. I've come to truly understand the impact alcohol and weed had on my mind, my spirit, and my potential—and what freedom looks like on the other side.Thank you for coming back week after week. Your support makes all of this possible. I love you all! Let's keep growing, healing, and living vibrantly—together.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking, I take a deep dive into the difference between resting and recovering. Back when I was drinking, I told myself I was taking a day to “rest” after a night out—but really, I was just trying to survive the hangover. As James Corden put it, “we're borrowing from tomorrow,” and I was overdrawing the account.Anxiety, nausea, and guilt would keep me glued to the couch, mindlessly scrolling and waiting to feel human again—wasting entire days I'd never get back.Since quitting, I've discovered what true rest and real living feel like. Now I start my mornings with prayer, movement, nourishment, gratitude, and inspiration. I'm no longer running on empty—I'm building momentum.So I'll ask you: What percent of your potential are you living in today?

Podcast Summary: The Fake ID FiascoIn this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking, I take you back to my college days—where my determination to buy alcohol led me down a risky path I barely even thought twice about.Borrowing my sister's Michigan driver's license? No big deal… or so I thought. Turns out, that little stunt could've landed me up to 3 years in prison and some hefty fines. But back then, all I cared about was getting my hands on drinks—and I even roped my unsuspecting parents into my scheme.So, how did I pull it off? And more importantly, what did I learn from it? Tune in for the full story, a few laughs, and a lesson in hindsight I'll never forget.

In the sweltering summer of 1986, boredom and a thirst for booze led me to a ridiculous idea—pretending it was my birthday just so my friend would throw a party. And oh, what a party it was—flowers, decorations, endless shots… and everyone in on the joke. Well, almost everyone.One person didn't know the truth, and when he finally found out, let's just say he wasn't exactly celebrating. Looking back, it's wild to think of the lengths we went to just to drink—never considering the consequences, only the next excuse to party.Tune in for the full story, a few laughs, and another reason why I finally left drinking behind.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking, I reflect on a time in my life when I felt completely broken—wondering if all my shattered pieces would ever come back together. But looking back now, I see that those broken pieces didn't just heal; they transformed into something greater.I'm not broken—I am a masterpiece. A radiant, vibrant disco ball of love and energy, spinning in the light of my faith and gratitude. I've learned to seek out glimmers—those small moments of joy, peace, and gratitude that remind me how far I've come. And the more I look for them, the more they appear.Join me as I share this journey of healing, hope, and the beauty of embracing life's glimmers.

Welcome to another episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking!Back in my Ludington days, while running my family's restaurant, I met a handsome, charming man whose family's contracting business worked with mine. It felt like fate—two people with similar stories, both returning home to run the family business.That night, we talked for hours, and for a moment, it felt real. Magical, even. I thought I had seen a ring, but when I asked, he denied it. I let myself believe in the possibility.The next day, still buzzing with excitement, I shared the story with my best friend—only to have my bubble completely burst. Turns out, there was a whole truth I hadn't seen coming…Tune in for the full story—because sometimes, the reality check is the real lesson.

In this episode, I reflect on how God has blessed my mess—turning life's challenges into opportunities for growth and transformation. I share how this podcast has changed me, giving me a platform to transcribe my experiences and help others on their own journeys. I also open up about the struggle of wanting to cling to the life I once lived and grieving the friendships I've had, while knowing that what's best for me is maintaining my peace and boundaries. While some may not be ready to receive this message, I put it out there for those who are—and for those who may be one day. Sending love to all my friends and listeners.

In this milestone episode, I reflect on a trip that should have been about adventure, culture, and connection—but instead, drinking took center stage. Back when I was between jobs, I traveled to visit friends in Granada, Spain. From drinking at the airport to getting drunk while waiting for a delayed train, and then keeping the party going once we arrived, alcohol became the main attraction rather than the stunning beauty of Granada itself.Sure, we had fun—but how much of that fun was real, and how much was just numbing the experience? Looking back, I see how much of the trip was a blur and how I prioritized drinking over truly being present. In this episode, I break down what that trip meant to me then, what it means to me now, and how my perspective on travel (and life) has completely changed since quitting drinking.Tune in for a deep dive into the contrast between travel fueled by alcohol and the joy of fully experiencing a place with clarity and presence.

In this episode, I dedicate time to honor a dear friend who lost his lifelong battle with alcohol. He was a creative, a father, a son, and a friend who fought hard against his demons, wanting more for his life. Despite his struggles, past trauma made the fight too heavy to bear. This is a heartfelt tribute to him and a reminder of why these conversations matter.

Stuck in Nice – Part 2" In this follow-up episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, we're still in Nice, feeling like locals at our favorite bar and meeting new people every night. We kept saying we were leaving… but then my cousin sprained her ankle, the trains went on strike, and suddenly, getting out of there seemed impossible. Were we ever going to make it out alive? Tune in to hear how it all unfolded.

Episode Summary: "Backpacking & Booze – Nice, 1991" In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I take a trip down memory lane to 1991, when my cousin and I spent three months traveling across Europe. One month in, we found ourselves on the French Riviera in Nice—soaking up the sun, meeting incredible people, and living on bread, crackers, and cheese just to stretch our budget… so we could drink every night. Join me as I share journal entries from the journey and reflect on how alcohol shaped the experience.

The Spring of '89 – Borrowed Keg & Sorority Shenanigans In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I take you back to the spring of 1989—my junior year at MSU, living in the Alpha Phi sorority house as the house manager. It was peak party season, and when a planned celebration on our sorority sundeck didn't materialize, my friend and I took matters into our own hands—by “borrowing” a keg from our favorite fraternity. What happened next? Well, you'll have to tune in to find out.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I explore what it truly means to be brave. Are you brave enough to look back, reflect, and learn from your past? Brave enough to admit the truth and make a change? For me, courage meant making the decision to save myself from the treacherous cycle of drowning in alcohol. Tune in as I share my journey of facing hard truths and choosing a better path.

In this episode, I share a raw and personal story about showing up to work hungover, throwing up five times while taking orders and serving guests, and how I thought this behavior was acceptable. I reflect on how partying took priority in my life over being a better person, and the toll it took on my health, career, and self-worth. Join me as I unpack this experience and what it revealed about the changes I needed to make.

In this episode, we dive into the complicated relationship between food and alcohol. From skipping meals to get drunk faster, to the late-night scramble to eat something to avoid blacking out, and finally to the so-called "hangover cures" we rely on the next day, we explore how food plays a role before, during, and after drinking. Join me as we unpack these patterns, share stories, and reflect on how these habits shape our drinking experiences.

Welcome to 2025!As we step into the new year, let me ask—do you set intentions, goals, or resolutions? For me, I like to focus on a word of the year, and this year, my word is MOVEMENT—mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I'm feeling great about how I've kicked things off! Today, I want to share a memory from 2003 during my time at Marshall Fields—my biggest and best customer. Those were special days filled with meaningful connections with the chefs, managers, and staff. I truly cherished the deep relationships I built with so many of them. We also had a tradition—a Wednesday ritual that started with a full day at the store and ended with happy hour at the Renaissance Hotel Lobby Lounge. This was every week for several years. It was drink after drink, laugh after laugh, and story after story. At the time, it felt like fun. But looking back, it was also drink after drunk, topped off with the dangerous and reckless choice of drunk driving home. This memory is a reminder of how far I've come on my journey. It's moments like these that shaped my decision to quit drinking and embrace a life of clarity and purpose.

In this episode, I dive into a question a friend recently asked me: “Is blacking out a real thing?” For me, it was not only real—it was a recurring part of my drinking journey for more than half of my drinking career. I share my personal experiences of getting so drunk that I would black out, staying awake and seemingly functioning, yet later having no memory of what happened. I talk about the aftermath of these episodes, like discovering the hurtful things I said to a friend and wondering why she wasn't speaking to me. It's an honest and vulnerable look at the impact of blackout drinking and how it played a major role in my decision to quit.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I dive into a sobering realization: the sheer amount of time alcohol took from my life. Over 31 years of drinking, I averaged two hangovers a month. When I did the math, it added up to 744 days—more than two full years lost to feeling miserable and unproductive. Alcohol didn't just take my energy or joy—it stole my time. Join me as I share why reclaiming your time is one of the most powerful reasons to let alcohol go for good.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I share the story of an all-expense-paid cruise to Mexico in 2000—a trip that started with a blizzard, airport screwdrivers, and high hopes for fun. But what began as excitement quickly turned into regret, as drinking left me too sick to enjoy the cruise. I reflect on how alcohol, which I thought added to my life, was actually taking away from it. I wish this experience had been my wake-up call, but it still took me years to fully understand and make the changes I needed.

In this deeply personal episode, I take you back to the early 2000s, sharing a confessional story about a pivotal relationship with a woman who had an undeniable coolness. Together, we navigated the exploration of a friendship, somewhere I had never been before, something I only acted on where alcohol was involved and wrestling with the impact of my drinking habits on our connection. It's a raw and honest look at how alcohol shaped—and ultimately strained—a relationship, paving the way for my journey to sobriety. Through this reflection, I uncover the lessons that guided me toward growth, healing, and a better understanding of myself.

In this episode, I reflect on a poignant memory tied to a beautiful white dress. Originally worn to a junior-senior dance, I also wore it for my senior picture. But what should have been a cherished keepsake became a symbol of my struggle with alcohol. While I remember the party before the dance, the events after remain a blackout blur, leaving me with a ripped dress and unanswered questions. This story highlights the pattern alcohol had on my life—a gateway to fun for many, but for me, it often led to blackouts and consequences I couldn't recall. For years, alcohol had a tight grip on me, distorting my sense of control and self. Today, I am profoundly grateful to have broken free from its hold, embracing a life of clarity, growth, and gratitude.

"The Thanksgiving That Changed My Perspective on Relationships" In this episode, I recount a Thanksgiving when I met someone who seemed full of potential—a man named John Wayne. We clicked, and I imagined a future where either he'd visit me in Chicago or I'd go to California to see him. But a conversation with my therapist shifted everything. She challenged me to reflect: What was I truly expecting from this relationship? Was I settling for less than I deserved? That dialogue became a turning point, helping me realize I wanted more than a surface-level connection—I deserved a partnership rooted in mutual respect and real commitment.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, I reflect on one of my most humbling walks of shame—waking up after a night of drinking at Johnny O'Hagan's. I had blacked out and found myself in bed with a young Irish guy, filled with shame and uncertainty about how I got there or how I'd get home. It was a painful reminder that alcohol had control over me, not the other way around. I challenge you to ask yourself: do you have control over alcohol, or does alcohol have control over you? If you believe you have control, I challenge you to prove it. Don't drink for a week, or skip that glass of wine at dinner, after a long day at work, or when you're out with friends. See for yourself who truly holds the power—because the answer might surprise you.

In 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking, I reflect on the "Seasons of My Life" and how alcohol once defined my youth. I used to believe that fun and fulfillment required drinking—my life, especially in high school, revolved around chasing boys and alcohol. It seemed impossible to do anything without it. But now, 13 years sober, I feel truly free in mind, heart, soul, and body, no longer drawn to the party scene. I find myself asking, "What's my favorite season of life?" and realize it's this one—where I feel at peace and complete just as I am.

This is the one from 1994 when I was out in Arizona visiting my friends and we got invited to her girlfriends house to drink some wine, and WINE we did plus a whole lot more. I specifically told her not to leave me there and make sure I left when she was ready since she had to work the next day. Oh boy, I was in for a real treat when I woke up still there. HELP! I had to get the hell out but how? I needed a ride but my friend was working, shit! Her hubby had to come and get me and found me pacing back on forth a what seemed like a busy 6 lane road at the crack of dawn. I felt like I had been run over and over and over.

In this episode, I share the story of how I moved from FOMO to JOMO. Back in college, I was so eager not to miss out on a party that I lied to get out of my shift at my family's restaurant—only for it to backfire when my mom, my boss, found out. All that for a night of boozing! Now, I choose differently. I actually prefer not getting invited to those parties, so I don't have to say no. Letting go hasn't been easy, but it's better for me. Let them not invite me, let them judge, let them drift away. I'm embracing JOMO—the Joy of Missing Out—and finding peace in a life that truly fulfills me. Letting go and letting others live their lives as I do mine has been one of my best choices. XO

"Welcome to another episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol. Today, I'm going to tell you about the night I woke up on the fire escape—horrified, cold, and locked out of my own apartment, not safe. It was one of those moments that made me question everything about my relationship with alcohol." "It was the middle of the night, and I wasn't in my bed. I wasn't even in my apartment. Instead, I woke up on a rusty fire escape outside, still drunk, disoriented, and terrified. I had no idea how I got there. All I knew was that I wasn't safe, I couldn't get back inside, and this wasn't the first time alcohol had put me in danger. But it was a moment that changed things for me." "So I want to ask you something: When you look at your relationship with alcohol, how does it affect your life? Have you ever paused to really think about it?" "I know I did. I tried to list the positive things alcohol contributed to my life, but I couldn't find five things. Could you?" "Here's the truth: I never could. For me, alcohol took more than it ever gave. It stole my safety, my peace of mind, and my sense of control. So, if you're struggling with alcohol, I challenge you to make your own list. Does it really bring value to your life? If so, what are those five positive things?" "Sometimes we try to rationalize our drinking by telling ourselves it helps us relax, have fun, or fit in. But for me, the negatives always outweighed the positives. If you've ever felt the same way—whether you've woken up somewhere you shouldn't be, or just regretted a night of drinking—know that you're not alone."

In this episode, I reflect on a pivotal moment from my sister's wedding in 1986, where my life revolved around partying. At the time, I was underage but drinking heavily, which led to some pretty rough consequences the following day. It's fascinating how, in the moment, we often don't care about how we'll feel tomorrow as long as we "party hardy" today. I challenge you to take a look at how you celebrate—can you enjoy an occasion without alcohol and still have fun? I'm here to tell you that it is absolutely possible. Tune in for more insights and lessons from my journey to sobriety!

I recently made a heartfelt request to my friends for something deeply important to me—hosting a sober dinner party, marking the first time I've ever asked this of them. When they refused, I was hit with a wave of disappointment. It wasn't just about the party; it was a moment of vulnerability where I hoped for their understanding and support of my sobriety. This refusal forced me to reflect on my relationships and the challenges of navigating friendships while staying true to my journey. Though it was a painful experience, it also led to valuable insights about setting boundaries and the importance of surrounding myself with people who truly respect my choices.

In this episode of 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol, titled "Grand Haven Beach Party: Big Sis, Little Sis, and Spiked Punch," I share a story from my freshman year in high school when my sister, a senior, and her best friend became our "acting big sisters," looking out for us and making sure we had fun. The story takes place at Grand Haven Beach, where we attended a big sister/little sister beach party. It was a day filled with fun, sun, and beach punch—alcohol included. Through it all, my admiration for my sister shines as I reflect on how much I've always looked up to her.

In this episode, I share 13 invaluable lessons I've learned over my 13-year journey of sobriety. These insights reflect my personal growth, the power of maintaining a positive mindset, and how spiritual guidance has shaped my life. I talk about how gratitude has transformed my outlook, embracing the Joy of Missing Out (JOMO), and the importance of surrounding myself with wise, supportive individuals. I also discuss how making intentional choices leads to meaningful change and how the Bible has been a guiding light for me. Alcohol once drained my energy and focus, but sobriety has given me control of my life. Practices like Mel Robbins' "High Five" technique have boosted my confidence, and I've learned to accept that not everyone will be comfortable with the changes I've made. Most importantly, I emphasize focusing on personal growth rather than just goals, and how nurturing my relationship with God and myself has been my greatest strategy for staying sober and fulfilled.

In this episode of "420 Reasons WHY I Quit Drinking Alcohol," I'm sharing my experience with the "Freshman 15," a common phenomenon where college freshmen gain weight. I talk about what caused it in my own life and offer tips on how to prevent it—even if you're past your freshman year.

In the latest episode of the 420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol podcast, I reflect on significant milestones, particularly September, which holds many anniversaries for me. One of the highlights is the story of how I accidentally spent my first night in my incredible new condo, which offers breathtaking views. Even though it was still under construction, with no bed or furniture, I chose to sleep there rather than risk driving back to my apartment wasted. This unplanned sleepover turned out to be a wise and creative decision, reminding me of the positive changes in my life since quitting alcohol—a true "room with a view" in more ways than one.

I share my personal journey of feeling the distance grow in friendships as I embraced sobriety. Drawing on Mel Robbins' insight, I explore how positive change and growth can sometimes confront others, forcing them to reflect on their own lives. This reflection can lead to a widening gap between us and our friends as they may not be ready or willing to change. Despite the distance, I discuss the importance of still loving them, even if it's from afar.

In this episode of "420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking," I share the story of a road trip to Hillsdale, Michigan, to see one of my favorite bands, The Fiddler and the Sun Mountain Band. What was supposed to be a night of fun, dancing, and a few drinks turned into a full-blown binge. I drank myself into oblivion and ended up drunk for days, unable to shake the hangover or the regret. Join me as I recount the details of that night and how it became one of the many reasons I finally decided to quit drinking.

In this episode of "420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol," we take a nostalgic trip back to the summer of 1982. Join me as I reminisce about an unforgettable day spent with my cool older sister and cousin, exploring a hidden gem of a waterfall surrounded by exhilarating rapids. Eager to fit in and embrace the adventure, I gave in to a bit of peer pressure and decided to crack open a beer with them—even though the taste was far from appealing. We'll delve into the warmth of family bonds, the innocence of youthful choices, and how these cherished memories intertwine with my journey towards sobriety. Tune in for a heartfelt reflection on love, laughter, and the lessons learned along the way.

This episode continues the story of my tumultuous relationship with Rack the Reck, which I somehow kept going until I realized I needed out. The breakup turned out to be far more complicated and intense than I ever imagined. This was, without a doubt, the worst romantic relationship of my life. Tune in to hear how the breakup backfired, pushing the boundaries of what I thought I could endure.

In this gripping continuation of my tumultuous relationship with Rack the Reck, things have gone from bad to worse. The verbal gaslighting and paranoid questioning have escalated, and now, physical abuse has entered the picture. Rack has begun physically restraining me, pushing me to the brink and causing me to lash out. I'm witnessing my own self-destruction, morphing into someone I no longer recognize. The physical toll is undeniable, and I'm starting to take physical action myself, leading to self-inflicted injuries. It's a critical turning point—it's time to get out and reclaim my life!

This is the horrifying story of one of my worst relationships with a Scotsman. I have shared about him before how we got together, how he started to show me his true colors within 3 months and I should have known better and ran then but I stayed. This is the trip to Rhode Island, a place he had once lived, had friends, his local bar and good memories. This trip turned into a nightmare for me after an all day drink session we had been on, going back to the hotel to rest up late afternoon and not making it out again. But I made it out unbeknownst to me when I went sleep walking. Here's the story, sad and pathetic as it was I still stayed with this horrible wretched man. What was it that kept me with him?

In the latest episode of "420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking," I reflect on the numerous attempts I've made to quit drinking over the years. Despite my efforts, I often found myself returning to alcohol, with my longest stint of sobriety lasting about six weeks. Although I loved the sober life, it never lasted, and alcohol always won in the end. This time, however, I approached my journey differently. When I recently decided to quit smoking weed on April 1st, I made sure to write down my reasons why. This effort led to a four-month period of sobriety, which was a significant achievement for me. In this episode, I share the story of what triggered me to start smoking again, how I ended up eating a Doobie Ball, and the side effects that followed. These experiences made me realize that I was done with chasing substances, as I always ended up losing—losing my inhibition, self-control, and the feeling of genuine well-being. As of July 20th, I have a new sobriety date and a renewed commitment to staying sober

Are you the type to light up a room? Does your mood affect those around you? In this episode, I share a personal story about my time with my family and how alcohol impacted my mood and interactions. Sometimes, things were pleasant, but other times, not so much. I realized I couldn't let alcohol control how I behaved and reacted. There are better ways to handle emotions, and getting intoxicated wasn't the answer for me. Tune in to learn more about my journey and how I found healthier ways to manage my emotions.

This is a story that goes back the July of 1984 listen as I share my story of the time I bought my first bag of weed. My reflections and appreciation of where I am now. Interested in talking to me DM me on IG at dianeegibbs. Thanks and God Bless

In this episode of "Letting Go of Those Who No Longer Serve You," we explore the challenging yet necessary task of setting boundaries in friendships, especially when dealing with self-destructive behaviors. I share a personal story of how I mishandled a friendship with someone who was drinking uncontrollably. Instead of communicating openly, I abruptly stopped spending time with her, taking a year to explain my actions due to fear of hurting her feelings. Reflecting on another friendship where I was cut off, I now see the favor done for me, as that person was also on a path of destruction. This episode highlights the importance of consciously moving away from friendships centered around unhealthy behaviors and finding the strength to make positive changes in our social circles.

The little things that trigger us. The memories that are filled with shame. The things we did when we drank so many we would never do if we were sober. The reasons I hate alcohol... the lives it has taken so many lately it breaks my heart but not my spirit to continue to tell my real, raw and relatable stories. I am hear if you need to talk. Reach out dianeegibbs IG DM me. Love and God bless

In this riveting episode, we journey back to June 1984 for my best friend's dad's unforgettable 40th birthday party. It was a night filled with laughter, joy, and celebration for the adults, and we 16-year-olds decided to dive into the festivities. However, things quickly spiraled out of control for me. Enthralled by the excitement, I got carried away, proving I couldn't handle the fun. Join me as I recount how I became the ultimate party pooper and why this wild night became one of the 420 reasons I quit drinking alcohol.

This story is a reflection of what happens tomorrow? How many times have you made grand plans to do something productive but unable to function. Let's talk more about it and what we need is willpower. What is willpower, how do we increase it and tips for better willpower.

This is a quick story from my high school days. Please join me as I recount a wild lunchtime adventure with my friends. We were on the hunt for a spot to smoke pot, unaware of the trouble that awaited us. From sneaking around to the unexpected consequences of our actions, this story reveals who ended up paying the price for our behavior. Don't miss this candid and eye-opening episode where I share the highs and lows of that unforgettable day.

In the latest episode of "420 Reasons Why I Quit Drinking Alcohol," I recount a harrowing experience from August 1983. As a teenager, I attended a party with upperclassmen, hoping to impress a boy I liked. I brought a bottle of gin, which led to a two-day bender, resulting in alcohol poisoning and significant physical harm. Despite this traumatic experience, I continued drinking for many years, believing it was necessary for fun. I want you to know that true freedom and enjoyment in life come without alcohol, and there are countless fulfilling activities that don't involve drinking. I want to offer to anyone who is looking for accountability my support I will be there for you listening, connecting, supporting you step by step and day by day. I was so grateful I had a couple people on my journey who I could turn to during my early years of sobriety. I want to be that person for you. Reach out to my cell 773-817-3446 for support. If I could do it so can you!

This is a reflection back on “the LIST” I had of the guys that I had hooked up with and was so proud of it at one time. Reflecting back now I understand better why I continued to choose the wrong guy, wanting the wrong relationship, excepting the little I got thinking it was cool to have another notch in my belt. Really it was just another hole in my heart leaving me more empty then ever. My heart is now full, full of love, respect, confidence and adoration for myself. Knowing what I deserve, loving the Lord, myself and who I really am. I am fucking cool, awesome, vibrant and full of life. My energy is my super power and it's contagious and not available for the wrong reasons or souls.

This story I wanted to share felt hard because it had to do with my family's restaurant where I worked for 11 years. It felt hard because I was afraid of the shame I felt for how I felt I disrespected my position. So listen up and hear how today I realized it was time to practice self forgiveness. The unacknowledged guilt lead to the unconscious worry and self punishment. Being aware and acknowledging is the foundation to the continued healing in my life on this incredible journey. So grateful to share! I want to offer to anyone who is looking for accountability my support I will be there for you listening, connecting, supporting you step by step and day by day. I was so grateful I had a couple people on my journey who I could turn to during my early years of sobriety. I want to be that person for you. Reach out to my cell 773-817-3446 for support. If I could do it so can you!