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Rebecca is a therapist, artist, yoga instructor and all around beautiful soul who sits down with us and we discuss and try to solve all the worlds problems.  haha It's a great conversation and you will appreciate her insight!

We had a great time hanging with Derek Zanetti of The Homeless Gospel Choir.  We chat about everything from punk rock, faith, touring and everything in between.  Mostly we just had a really good time and we think you will as well!  

We sit down and have some real talks with Anna.  She talks about growing up in the Appalachian Mountains and dealing with mental illness.

***WARNING*** There may be some stories in this episode that you're not ready for.  Stories of abuse and trauma creep into this fun time as some of our group really wanted to share something that was meaning and powerful for them.  What this has done is made this an incredible epsiode of about 20 or so different stories from about 15 different people.  Many are lighthearted and fun while some are carrying a little more weight.  Overall we had a great time and you are invited to join us for this fun hang around a roaring fire on a cold night in November 2022.

Part 2 with Levi the Poet, first of all this episode starts with a real effin treat as levi brings us a poem not before recorded called Holy Ghost Campfire.  Its beautiful as well as this conversation as we introduce you to Levi a little more and see how he thinks and hear some of his story!

We had a ton of fun with our bud Levi Macallister, aka Levi The Poet with a 2 part in studio interview! This first half we talk about meditation and get into a brief introduction to Levi and where he is in his work these days.  We had a great time and you will too so dive in fuckers!

Jason Marsden has been the voice of Max on the "Goofy Movies" from the 90's, Binx the cat on the original Hocus Pocus movie and a plethora of other tv shows and movies since then either as actor or voice actor.  We sit and talk about all of that as well as a few of the struggles that come along with that.  At very least this episode was a ton of fun to record and I think you will enjoy listening!

Jason Strong was wrongfully convicted of a murder in 1999.  He served 15 years in prison for a crime he was in no way connected with.  We hear his amazing story of arrest, release and everything in between as well as where is is now in life.  You do not want to miss this.  We are releasing this today on Sunday October 2 for Wrongful Conviction Day to honor all those who have been wrongfully convicted.

After an unexplained 3 month hiatus we're back to chat and give some explanation behind our sudden vanishing! But WE ARE BACK! And we have some crazy stories coming your way!

Old friend in the music scene Moses Campos, a member of the pop punk band "Thirtyseven" of Blood and Ink Records.  we talk with Moses about everything from music and faith to relationships and personalities.  We had a really fun time with Moses and we think yall will too.

We catch up with the bassist of the band "Close Your Eyes" and host of the podcast "It's Always Sonny Podcast" Sonny Vega!  We talk about everything from the rise and fall of Close Your Eyes, to Sonnys walk away from faith and how he is dealing with all of that.  We also chat about the upcoming Close Your Eyes reunion show at South By So What music fest!

We just had so much fun hanging out and laughing with Tiffany! We talk about music, and tattoos, and body image as well as a plethora of other stuff.  Tiffany is a 10 year tattoo artist and owner of Balm Tattooing as well as a member of the Grand Rapids based band Heartside Hooligans https://www.balmtattooing.com https://open.spotify.com/artist/0Ot0xCQ23aPgWleiRA6axD?si=IcJHNaPoSu-wDHqaWYHJyg   https://heartsidehooligans.bandcamp.com/     She is @tiffytuffington on IG

Hal Crossno is a vocalist, musician and straight up DIY Punk, (and we mean that in all the ways you can think of, good or bad, haha) we talk through a lot of things with Hal including "Straight Edge" growing up in a small town and growing up.  Its a great conversation and Hal is a phenomenal guy so dive in!

We know this episode is super long but honestly we just had a good time talking about everything to beer, trauma, growing up in poverty, church, to how to love people without enabling them!  Its long but its a full episode with lots of laughs.  Matt is an artist with music on Spotify, Apple Music and Itunes

Welcome to what is essentially part 2 of our last episode with Alex Miller! On this episode you get to meet the new cohost and Production Manager of IFU! Its going to be awesome and I can't wait for you to meet them!

We have a bomb to drop on you in this episode, but its really good and there are some stories shared by some of our best friends in this one!  So thanks for being here lets dive head first into 2022~!

PART 2 with Daniel Hawkins of the late great hardcore band Take It Back!, and current owner and operator of The Digital Armoury talks to us about all things!  We talk about his story, his faith, his work and his newest endeavor which you'll just have to listen to find out!

Daniel Hawkins of the late great hardcore band Take It Back!, and current owner and operator of The Digital Armory talks to us about all things!  We talk about his story, his faith, his work and his newest endeavor which you'll just have to listen to find out!

Special guest co-host Joshua Stump of the Catacomb Podcast joins as we have a great conversation with Pastor Timoth! Timoth has an incredible story to share with you so dive in!

Dave Darr owner and founder of Walrus Oil a really rad company that gives back.  He shares his story of a childhood disease that was supposed to kill him and didn't, his conversion to Orthodox Christianity and a little more from his crazy life story. 

We sit and chat with Lauren Gardenbelle who is an entrepreneur and artist who lives in a school bus with her partner Joe and their 5 dogs annnd she has over 1 million followers on TikTok!!  Her story is moving and inspiring as she seeks to get the most out of life despite the struggles she has endured.   www.laurengardenbelle.com/links to connect with her!  

Luke Sheafer front man (or "Head Singer" as his band refers to him, haha) of indy rock band Me Like Bees joins us for a conversation about "the church". We discuss all sorts of our and Luke's cynicism and frustration with the modern American church and discuss the importance of motive and drive as well as what our efforts toward helping homeless people should look like. It is a challenging conversation.

The guys sit and chat with mental health professional Mandy Middleton a marriage and family therapist about all things mental health.  Conversations around healing and connection abound in this episode.  Def something you're going to want to listen to more than once, so buckle up! 

Oh wow! such a cool guy! Nick is one of those guys that you meet who you actually feel Gives a Damn!  hah! Nick Laparra of the Lets Give a Damn podcast comes on and talks to us about everything!  Wait to you hear how this guy takes the edge off, its something NOONE else does! ;-)

We chat with @thatabbeysmith of TikTok fame (find all her socials under that handle) and the queer pastor of Church In the Wild www.wildcovington.com We talk what it looks like to minister to the LGBTQ+ community, as well as past trauma and healing and even a whole bunch of laughs!  Abbey is a lot of fun as you will see! 

Wow! Guest Alex Meraki is a true Renaissance Woman!! Talk about someone who has done it all already and is still looking to the future!  She shares her heartbreaking story of struggle and where she is finding hope and healing in her life today.  

Josh and Alex sit and talk with rapper GalleryCat aka Angelo Gonzales about growing up as a christian rapper who was also living in gang culture from a very young age.  We also talk about laying down ourselves for the uplifting and reviving of others, and lots more! This is a big convo, so dive in!

Back for round 2 with our good bud and yours the man bun himself Seth Webster!  Seth is the bass player for bands Oh Sleeper and To Speak Of Wolves, and formerly of the band Before There Was Rosalyn.  Just dive in its a big episode of Catching up with Seth you wont be disappointed! @solacejosh @alexandermillermusic @websterhappens

Luke and Torey 2 of the 3 members of the band Granger (formerly Of Course Not) sit down with us for an entertaining and heart warming chat about tour life for small bands, trauma and recovery.  We also talk through their entire album "Dear Sam" where they give us a play by play of each track!  Very different and fun episode!

Author, poet, and former front man of the Victory Records band "Before There Was Rosalyn" Carlos Salazar comes on and talks about his immigration from Honduras to the US, family, success, music and how adulthood is a scam!  Great episode check it out!

Paul is a pastor in California with a big heart and a big brain! We talk deconstruction and what Paul's ministry looks like since leaving the church, as well as finding healing amidst all the mess.  

Josh and Alex effed up their calendar and planned to record an episode but gave their guest another date . . . whoops.  So instead of a normal episode they just sat on the front porch with some cigars and whiskey to talk about life, this podcast and whatever else popped into their minds. It super meta bruh.

Artist, entrepreneur, musician, family man & more.  Biaka talks w/ us about the complexities of being AAPI and how that has become more difficult over the past year, also sharing his personal story of coming to the US & growing up as a "missionaries kid" (MK) in Tawian.

Artist, entrepreneur, musician, family man and so much more.  Biaka talks with us about the complexities of being AAPI and how that has become more difficult over the past year, as well as sharing part of his personal story of coming to the US.

Josh and Alex sit down AGAIN w/ Gallen Pierce Lackey and discuss standing up to people in authority.  Gallen is an artist and musician formerly of the band Sound the Ruin, he resides in Oregon with his wife Cassi and their 2 beautiful sons.  

As far as effed up people go Kelley has a way to go!  haha.  Her genuine empathy, love, and grace that she has for the world around her is contagious and humbling.  This show will challenge and encourage you to see God in the world and people around you!

Myra and Jason Hess share their heartbreaking story of Myra's double life she was leading for years.  As heartbreaking as this story is the hope and redemption that it lands on is even more moving.  Just listen to this inspiring story on your favorite podcast I'm Fucked Up.  

April Dawn recently released her first book which is a beautiful collection of poetry sharing the story of a lot of the effed up moments of her life.  Her book "Lungs Like Elephants" is a beautifully, transparent and moving collection of poetry.  She shares with us the story behind the stanzas and the joy, pain and tragedy that has existed thru her life so far. @lemondropinkshop @lungslikeelephants @artofapril

We sit down (in person!!! it felt so good to have another human in the studio) with a longtime friend of Josh's, Pete.  Pete is an incredible dude with a rough story.  But this episode will move you.  This episode is the very heart of what we are looking for at IFU, a tragic story of brokenness but as we come into it we meet Pete who is the beautiful product of the brokenness.  He is finding healing daily, and still dealing with a lot of his past (as you will hear) but his outlook and hope for the future is a contagious thing you will want to grasp onto.  This ones a little longer but we had a lot of fun and there is a ton of story so buckle up and get going

We sit down with Catholic Priest Father Trevor Buster and discuss details of his life and why he see Priests as some of the most "effed up people there are".  This is a beautiful conversation with lots of laughs thrown in because Father Trevor is such a fun guy!  

A friend of Josh's from High School comes to share her story of recently escaping an increasingly abusive relationship.  We discuss her story, her escape, some resources for others in this situation and where Samantha is now and how she is starting to move forward.   Here are a list of resources she shared with us. YouTube: Dr. Ramani, Dr. Les Carter (Surviving Narcissism) BOOKS:  "Power: Surviving and Thriving after Narcissistic Abuse" by Shahide Arabi "The Christians Guide to No Contact" by Sister Renee Pittelli "Healing From Hidden Abuse" by Shannon Thomas "No Contact" by H.G. Tudor

This episode was recorded in early December 2020 but because Josh is lazy it is just going up in January of 2021.  We talk about what a year 2020 was.  Enjoy.  Sorry its late , deal with it. ;)  ~josh

Alex and Josh sit down with and old friend of Josh's, Seth Webster!  Seth is the bass player for the band Oh Sleeper as well as several other bands we talk about.  We talk with Seth about brokenness and healing.  We talk about forgiveness and his struggles growing up as a human on planet Earth.  

Josh and Alex sit down with long time friend of Josh's Gallen Pierce Lackey and discuss brokenness and the role it plays in our faith journey.  As well as faith in the current political climate and the struggle that exists in that space.  Gallen is an artist and musician formerly of the band Sound the Ruin, he resides in Oregon with his wife Cassi and their 2 beautiful sons.  

Solacejosh and Alexander Miller sit down with guest Alex 'Animal' Vestal of Joplin, Missouri.  Animal is a skateboarder, entrepreneur, musician, entertainer and so much more.  We have a candid conversation about his decision to stop drinking alcohol despite owning and running a bar.

Co-Host Solacejosh recounts his story from being a part of the May 22, 2011 F5 Tornado that cut a mile wide path of destruction through the town of Joplin, Missouri.  

Celebrity podcaster Jordan Johanson of the hit podcast Notable Nashville (which we barely mention, haha)  shares his story of coming to terms with his own sexuality and dealing with mental illness! Jordan is effed up and we love the crap out of this dude!  Give it a listen it's lots of fun!

Shawn was born into a life of struggle.  His story is heart-breaking, up lifting and ongoing.  He is regularly speaking to people about the stigma around AIDS and helping to find resources and relief for those struggling through it.  Give a listen!  He is definitely an effed up individual and we love him!

Such a good conversation and unfortunately the audio on this recording is as effed up as we are! Oh Well. crank it up to 11 and listen close!!

We sit down and talk to Pastor, Spiritual Director, Podcaster, Cigar Shop Owner, Councelor, Husband, Father and one of @Solacejosh's best friends for this fun and encouraging episode! Joshua talks about all the roles he operates in, his own life and the 7 stages of faith.  

Solacejosh sits down with Alex Miller musician and former producer of IFU to share his story as he also dives into being the new co-host!  While our buddy Shawn Mark becomes our new producer!  Alex is pretty fucked up make sure you check this out!