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I'm opening up today about the not-so-linear path of healing—what I've tried, what's helped, and what's still a big ol' work in progress. From talk therapy to ketamine, psilocybin, and SSRIs, I've dabbled in a little bit of everything… and I've got thoughts. I'm also sharing a recent EMDR breakthrough that cracked something open for me—one that's got me (begrudgingly?) learning how to actually ~love myself~. If you're in the thick of it too, or just curious what this kind of work looks like, consider this your peek into the messy middle. Ketamine therapy deep-dive episode (Thorn Brothers) Kyle Thorn & Tucker Thorn You Are Here by Thich Nhat Hanh Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you know me, you know I love a good evening scroll on Reddit. In this episode, I've rounded up some of the most fascinating threads from my favorite subreddits—r/todayilearned, r/AITAH, r/unresolvedmysteries, and (of course) r/exmormon. We're covering everything from the Japanese government to undercover Mormons to peanut allergies on a plane. This episode's got range. I'm also sharing my own not-so-great run-in with a certain corner of Reddit—let's just say I'm nursing a bit of a vulnerability hangover. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. REFERENCES: Tom Sizemore/Saving Private Ryan Mel Blanc/Bugs Bunny Woman trapped in elevator Peanut allergies Japanese Prime Ministers Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I've had some LDS garment-related rage simmering lately—especially with the new  tank top design and the attempt to rewrite history about what garments are actually for. So today, we're doing a quick rundown of how garments have evolved, then diving into the recent wave of pro-garment content popping up online. And to close it out, I'm reading some thoughts and feelings about the garment stuff from the Patreon crew

We're keeping it light this week with an episode full of funny, weird, and very Mormon mission stories. Think: a raw chicken casserole for lunch, an Elder who got an unexpected nude surprise, and a Southern Baptist vs. Mormon missionary face-off that felt more WWE than WWJD. Come for the chaos, stay for the laughs! Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week I'm joined by Samantha Dalton—therapist, co-host of the Nuance Needed podcast, and the voice behind @sam.the.therapistt on Instagram. Our conversation centers loosely on community and friendship after leaving high-demand religion, but we cover a lot of ground: the misuse of therapy-speak (including how “trauma dumping” gets weaponized), emotional immaturity among women raised in sheltered religious environments like Mormonism, and even a little analysis of Secret Lives of Mormon Wives. It's one of those episodes that left me thinking long after we stopped recording. REFERENCES  Nuance Needed episode Not Everything is “Trauma Dumping” Nuance Needed episode You Do Owe People Things: The Myth of Zero Obligations Samantha Dalton on IG @sam.the.therapistt Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I'm letting you peek inside the very tortured brain of my former self: Sister Walker of the Berlin, Germany mission. After reading some dramatic (and slightly unhinged) excerpts from my missionary journal, I dive into your wild mission stories—featuring everything from being held up at gunpoint to someone putting a toilet seat in the dishwasher. Yep. Strap in. You can listen to the rest of the episode on the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

As many of us rethink what spring means outside the framework of Easter, may I suggest a new holiday to center: Earth Day.

Do Mormons really believe the Catholic Church is the “great and abominable church” that the Book of Mormon prophet Nephi warned about?

It's that time of year again! Welcome to the first annual Girlscamp General Conference, where we reflect on the craziest and most problematic moments from General Conferences past. If you don't come for all the terrible Russell M. Nelson quotes, at least stay for David A. Bednar's pickle analogy. You can listen to the whole episode on the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Marisa was adopted as a baby into a strict, conservative Mormon family in Mesa, Arizona. Growing up, she faced a tumultuous upbringing marked by religiously justified discipline, all while navigating life as a Black woman in a predominantly white LDS culture. In this episode, she opens up about her childhood, the challenges she faced, and her journey of healing. TW: Brief mention of self-harm Patriarchal Blessing description Mimosa TikTok “What radicalized me” IG post Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Did something about the world of Severance (Apple TV+) feel eerily familiar? That might be because there's a surprising amount of Mormon overlap. Today, we're breaking down the striking similarities between Mormonism and Severance—and trust me, it's a gift that keeps on giving. Praise to the man? Praise Kier? Yeah… maybe not! REFERENCES r/ExMormon Reddit thread r/SeveranceAppleTVPlus Reddit thread Crazy Stupid Podcast @storytellersyd @_relationscapes Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Once you step away from the strict rules of a high-demand religion, you've got to reassess where you stand on a lot of things. Today, we're diving into my current standards around sex, drugs, and media—plus, taking a scary trip down memory lane with some wild Mormon quotes on all of the above. You can listen to the whole episode on the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Aspyn Ovard comes to Girlscamp to talk about growing up in Utah surrounded by Mormon culture and her brief stint in the LDS church. We dive into the "Mormon-adjacent" milestones of her life and the ways church influence showed up along the way. Then, Aspyn shares what she believes now, a recent experience with a medium that left her questioning some things, and how she's navigating the grief of losing her dad. Aspyn on Instagram Aspyn on YouTube Alyssa Grenfell episode Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Jaci Marie Smith returns! We dive into the case that's on everyone's minds following Hulu's Devil in the Family: The Fall of Ruby Franke. Jaci shares her thoughts on the case's deep ties to Mormonism and how she navigates having an online presence as a mom. Devil in the Family: The Fall of Ruby Franke Jaci's dad's episode on Youtube Jaci's dad's episode on Spotify Jaci's Instagram Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welp, starting therapy again is exposing just how much the Mormon church messed with my brain! In this episode, I'm unpacking the ways Mormonism has shaped my mental health and fed into some classic cognitive distortions. Plus, a catch-up on my recent LA interviews and some thoughts on the Ruby Franke documentary. You can listen to the full episode on the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welp, starting therapy again is exposing just how much the Mormon church messed with my brain! In this episode, I'm unpacking the ways Mormonism has shaped my mental health and fed into some classic cognitive distortions. Plus, a catch-up on my recent LA interviews and some thoughts on the Ruby Franke documentary. You can listen to the full episode on the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Today, we're diving into the nature of God—just girly things! I'll share my journey deconstructing the 'traditional' idea of God, we'll explore the Mormon conception of God, take a quick look at how views of God have evolved throughout history, and then I'll read your submissions about how you've reimagined God after leaving high-demand religion. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

It's time to get a little rage out! I asked you to tell me about the most infuriating thing a man has ever said or done to you- be it a bishop, ex-boyfriend or boss. And unfortunately, we've all got some anger-inducing stories to tell. At least we get to vent together.  REFERENCES: Monster Mormon In-Law episode  Male loneliness epidemic infographic Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Public Enemy #1 at BYU? Today's guest, Robert Carpenter! He's the man behind the viral TikToks exposing the quirks of BYU Mormons. We dive into how he first encountered Mormonism, his thoughts on the religion now, the wildest answers he's ever gotten, and how he'd respond to his own go-to questions. Listen to the whole episode here at Girlscamp: After Dark. Robert's TikTok Robert's Instagram Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

In this episode, I dive into a collection of listener-submitted high thoughts—the kind that range from absurd to awe-inspiring. We're talking everything from the meaning of life to thigh-high Crocs and baby doppelgängers. Plus, I throw in a few of my own for good measure. Whether you're a stoner or just someone who loves a good mind-bending musing, I think you'll enjoy the trip. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Alyssa's breaking point with Mormonism came when she realized she should have trusted her own reasoning instead of blindly following 'revelation.' Since then, she has been rebuilding her life and has even authored a book about the reconstruction process. We discuss how she overcame severe depression and self-harm, ultimately finding peace and meaning as an optimistic nihilist. REFERENCES: "How to Leave the Mormon Church" by Alyssa Grenfell Alyssa's YouTube Alyssa Instagram Wife No.19 "Not yet a human" photo Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I asked for your spiciest takes on sex, dating, marriage, and relationships—and you delivered. On the list? Polyamory, pornography, knowing if you picked the right partner, and surviving Mormon family parties as a single woman. And that's just the beginning. REFERENCES: Abstinence only education research Aimee Heffernan on Girlscamp "Let's talk about (ex-religious) sex!" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Rosie Card, a well-known progressive Mormon influencer and founder of the LDS temple dress company Q.Noor, spent years pushing for change from within the faith. Now, she's stepping away from Mormonism and diving into a new chapter, following her own path and exploring endless possibilities. REFERENCES: Rosie's op-ed Rosie's Instagram Jeffrey R. Holland “musket fire” talk Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

We're back, baby! It's time for CES Letter Breakdown: Part 2. Along with some top-tier Brigham Young shit talk (the best kind), we're diving into the fallibility of prophets, issues with the Book of Mormon witnesses, and the glaring incongruencies between Mormonism and science. To listen to the rest of this episode, sign up here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Ever had a moment that felt like a glitch in the matrix? This episode is all about the simulation theory and the uncanny coincidences, eerie events and too-good-to-be-true moments that made you question reality.  Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

When it comes to reclaiming ourselves, body image often tops the list. Shannon Ricks joins us to explore why our relationships with our bodies became so complicated—and how we can work toward healthier ones. We dive into topics like food, weight, makeup, macro counting, cosmetic surgery, and even the impact of those middle school compliments we all remember. REFERENCES  Elder Ballard “put a little lipstick on” video Modern Eve Instagram Modern Eve website Glennon Doyle “Your Body is Not Your Masterpiece” Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I've dug into submissions past to bring you a smorgasbord of the wildest Mormon stories. We've got everything from patriarchal blessings and awkward dating tales to EFY mishaps, sacrament meeting chaos, and (my personal favorite) bizarre bishop stories. Warning: things get weird. Listen to the whole episode here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Today's the day! I've been sitting on something big about the direction of Girlscamp, and I can't wait to share it with you. In this episode, I'm breaking down the what and why of this shift. Plus, I'm sharing my tale of converting to (and quickly deconstructing) The Telepathy Tapes and why it was such an emotional journey. REFERENCES: Telepathy Tapes Telepathy Tapes article Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I'm recapping my 2024 favorites—and notable not-favorites—in books, movies, music, and TV. Plus, I'm sharing some lessons learned. My number one might surprise you!  Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Who knew the CES Letter could be this much fun? Today, I'm breaking down the first half of the infamous CES Letter—which details major concerns about the history and doctrine of the Mormon church. Don't worry, I've jazzed it up with a lot of commentary and plenty of snark aimed at Brother Joe.   Listen to the full episode here! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

My Christmas gift to you: round 2 of wild card Mormon/religious stories! This time, we're diving into a very weird LDS take on global warming, pregnancy complications turned Sunday School lesson, and the undeniable need for an “I have Mormon grandparents” support group. Happy Holidays!

We're reading and reacting to your wild card, off-the-wall Mormon stories, and I brought in Stacey Harkey to help me unpack the, well… chaos. And speaking of chaos, these stories deliver. From demonic possession (allegedly caused by questioning polygamy) to the “Three Nephites” saving a dog, to an evil hot chocolate maker—there's a little bit of everything in this one. References: Stacey Harkey on Mormon Stories Stacey Harkey on Black Menaces The “breast augmentation” reel Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Courtly is the leader in online marriage, offering a variety of services that make it possible for couples to get a U.S. marriage certificate without leaving the comfort of their home. Visit www.courtly.com for $100 of wedding packages or use code GIRLSCAMP for a FREE name change kit. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

We're starting off December's campfire chat with a rant about my brand new breast implants, and then we've got a lot of ground to cover: Mormon criminals, confronting nihilism, being a twin mom, and why so many Dancing with the Stars pros are LDS! FREE TOYS OR GIFT CARDS FOR TOYS! Everyone who signs up to my giveaway with Bellesa wins something! bboutique.co/vibe/girlscamp Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Courtly is the leader in online marriage, offering a variety of services that make it possible for couples to get a U.S. marriage certificate without leaving the comfort of their home. Visit www.courtly.com for $100 of wedding packages or use code GIRLSCAMP for a FREE name change kit. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

We've got Good Time Girl Heather Gay at Girlscamp! Heather—New York Times bestselling author of Bad Mormon and star of The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City—joins us to talk about her new book, Good Time Girl. We chat about what being a "good time girl" means to her, navigating disappointment from Mormon loved ones, and facing beauty standards in the public eye. We also dig into the shame tied to ambition as Mormon women. As a fellow Mormon-born gal who never quite fit the mold, I found so much to relate to in our conversation. References: Good Time Girl Heather Gay Instagram Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week on the Patreon, we're talking boobs! Specifically, my decision to get a breast augmentation. I get into the how, what, when, and why—plus all the baggage that came up around Mormonism, patriarchy, and beauty standards. But before the boob talk, I share my thoughts on Wicked, some behind-the-scenes details about my upcoming interview with Heather Gay, and a parenting plea for help. You can listen to the full episode by signing up here for Girlscamp: After Dark! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Madi is finally back—with a new last name and lots of life updates about hitting Mormon milestones in a very non-Mormon way. We discuss how sitting with uncertainty weaves through leaving Mormonism, navigating motherhood, and making sense of death. References: Aurora TikTok Drew Barrymore TikTok Glennon Doyle quote: Madi on Girlscamp (March 2023) Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. FREE TOYS OR GIFT CARDS FOR TOYS! Everyone who signs up to my giveaway with Bellesa wins something! bboutique.co/vibe/girlscamp I have been loving Earlybird gummies and right now is their BIGGEST SALE of the year- the more you spend the more you save! Stock up or try Earlybird gummies at EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags give you an easy way to make room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Take advantage of Packd's only sale of the year - $15 off a single bag with code GIRLSCAMP at packdbags.com - the perfect way to give it a try! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Courtly is the leader in online marriage, offering a variety of services that make it possible for couples to get a U.S. marriage certificate without leaving the comfort of their home. Visit www.courtly.com for $100 of wedding packages or use code GIRLSCAMP for a FREE name change kit. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

How lucky are we ex-Mormons to have Maddy Mitchell take an interest in our unique upbringing? She brings her own fascinating religious background to the conversation, and we dive into it in depth. Along the way, we discuss finding spirituality outside of religion, managing existential fears, and her fresh take on The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives. To top it all off, Maddy takes on a little Mormon trivia game I created—because why not have some fun with it? Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. FREE TOYS OR GIFT CARDS FOR TOYS! Everyone who signs up to my giveaway with Bellesa wins something! bboutique.co/vibe/girlscamp PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags give you an easy way to make room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Take advantage of Packd's only sale of the year - $15 off a single bag with code GIRLSCAMP at packdbags.com - the perfect way to give it a try! I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Courtly is the leader in online marriage, offering a variety of services that make it possible for couples to get a U.S. marriage certificate without leaving the comfort of their home. Visit www.courtly.com for $100 of wedding packages or use code GIRLSCAMP for a FREE name change kit. SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

What happens when two ex-Mormon women watch A24's Heretic, the horror film about sister missionaries and faith deconstruction? A Girlscamp deep-dive! Chelsea Homer joins me to unpack our thoughts and reactions—trust us, there's a lot to discuss. TRIGGER WARNING: Discussion of violence and suicide References: Chelsea's Girlscamp episode Sophie Thatcher article on Mormonism Lost & Found club Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy way to make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Take advantage of Packd's only sale of the year - $15 off a single bag with code GIRLSCAMP - the perfect way to give it a try! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags Courtly is the leader in online marriage, offering a variety of services that make it possible for couples to get a U.S. marriage certificate without leaving the comfort of their home. Visit www.courtly.com for $100 of wedding packages or use code GIRLSCAMP for a FREE name change kit. SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I asked for the scariest things you did or said as Mormons, and you all DELIVERED. We dive into converting friends, spouting homophobic rhetoric, getting married freaky fast, and much more. And I share plenty of my own haunting Mormon moments along the way. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Round 2 of scary religious stories is even spookier than the first! Bentley and I cozied up after dark to read and react to your chilling tales. This round covers haunted pioneer chapels, disembodied hands, a mysterious hair collector, and a late-night sleep paralysis demon who calls himself the "enemy of all righteousness." Happy (and haunted) Halloween! Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week on the Patreon, we're diving into the big question: I'll walk you through my take on it, break down the academic consensus, and read some of your thoughts and feelings on the matter too. Plus, a fun update—a certain email from A24 just landed in my inbox

What's better than scary stories? Religious scary stories! Today we're diving into some wild tales: ghosts guarding sacred stuff, a stake president moonlighting as an exorcist, mission apartments with major paranormal vibes, and a spirit buddy named Michael. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

It's about time we got another therapist around here. Ashley shares her expertise on all things religious trauma and faith transitions. After getting the lowdown on her mixed-faith upbringing, we dive into what religious trauma really is, how Mormonism operates as a traumatized organization, and—most importantly—how to heal. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. REFERENCES: Ashley Buckner on Instagram Ashley Buckner's email: ashleybucknerlmft@gmail.com Ashley Buckner's podcast Sunflower Movement Information on brainspotting How to find a brainspotting therapist near you When Religion Hurts You book  I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week on the Patreon, I'm sharing some thoughts, feelings, and lessons learned about a friendship fallout I went through this year. Turns out, 65% of people have gone through something like this, and that shit ain't easy. So let's talk about it! Sign up on the Patreon Girlscamp: After Dark to listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Yes, you read that right! At just 16, today's guest, Josie Van Dyke, faced the threat of a Mormon disciplinary council. We dive into what led to that moment and the journey that followed, all the way to Josie's decision to leave Mormonism. Since Josie hosts a podcast where she speaks with people across the Mormon and ex-Mormon spectrum, I also pick her brain about the patterns and insights she's gained from her work. TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation & attempt Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I went on the Dr. Phil show to talk about being ex-religious, and I've got THOUGHTS! After a quick rundown of my experience (plus responding to all the drama from those who are upset I even went on), we dive into this month's campfire chat. We're tackling tough questions like, 'What should I do if I realize I'm in a toxic marriage?' and 'How do I handle feeling like the token ex-Mormon in my friend group?' It's a fiery one, so grab a seat by the campfire! Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account here. For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. I love traveling with PACKD's pre-paid, pre-labeled mailer bags that give you an easy, no-hassle way to send clothes home so that you can make plenty of room in your luggage for new purchases, or just to lighten your load for that return flight! Learn more at packdbags.com or on Instagram at @packd.bags SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Today I'm telling your Mormon funeral stories as we talk through all things grief, death and funerals in the Mormon context. While I attempt to maintain some light-heartedness about this often somber topic, I do end up bawling my eyes out toward the end. You've been warned! TRIGGER WARNING: child & infant loss For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

In response to the big Mormon pop culture moment that is The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, I'm putting my missionary hat back on to break down the fundamentals of Mormon doctrine! Because before really diving into soaking, ketamine treatments, soda shops, garments, and patriarchal marriages, you've got to understand the basics. My husband Bentley joins me to help unpack it all and keep me honest. Warning: I get a little heated. References: Bentley's intro episode Mormon temple episode Modesty episode Last Podcast on the Left episode on Mormonism Preach My Gospel manual For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! I have been loving Earlybird gummies and tinctures! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

That's right! We got Jessi Ngatikaura from the current number one show on Hulu “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives.” Jessi shares about her Mormon upbringing, what led her out of the church and what it was like being the only ex-Mormon cast member on the show. We get into all the Mormon moments including the infamous flask in the hot tub, the baby shower un-invite and the Chippendales fiasco.  For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you don't know Emily yet, you're welcome for the intro! She's an expert in all things names and where they overlap with Utah/Mormon influencer culture. Today we're chatting about the Utah name stereotypes (think McKinzleigh), the wild world of Book of Mormon names and what's going on with the secret temple names. You're going to love it. She also gives an original theory on why so many influencers are Mormon and gives me a new (new) name!  For more Girlscamp content follow along on Instagram, TikTok and YouTube. For ad inquiries please email girlscamp@58ember.com. All other emails to girlscamppodcast@gmail.com. Emily's TikTok  Emily's Instagram Zelph episode  The HydroJug Traveler is always by my side and are game changers for anyone on the go! Use code GIRLSCAMP at www.THEhydroJug.com to get 10% off today and start hydrating today! I have been loving Earlybird gummies! Use my single-use discount code GIRLSCAMP20 for 20% Off on EarlybirdCBD.com. These gummies are for those 21+ and ship to all 50 states! Try BetterGreens and BetterHormones by BetterDays Co! Use code GIRLSCAMP at betterdaysco.com for 15% off your order, this includes subscriptions and locks you in at the discounted price! SpearmintLOVE has a fresh and modern take on the baby space. Check out their clothing and accessories and use code GIRLSCAMP for 25% off sitewide at spearmintlove.com, or browse on Instagram at @spearmintbaby. Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices