we admitted: the recovering us project

where is home? what is home? who is home?  is home the apartment or house we create for ourselves or with loved ones? is it our bodies? is it not a physical space but a felt sense of belonging and being loved for who we truly are? in this episode we explore what the concept of 'home' has, does, and might mean to us.   art: Cait: Atlanta from FX The Unofficial Bridgerton Musical by Abigail Barlow & Emily Bear cat: Vikings of Valhalla from Netflix connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: rewilding/embodiment coaching for radical self love @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!  

your presence is your power. your presence is your freedom. your presence is your happiness. in this episode cat shares how she is practicing being with what is now, and in doing so how it's transforming her experience of this mysterious and tender transition time between winter and spring.  this one is all about trusting the universe!  connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: rewilding/embodiment coaching for radical self love @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!  

in this mini Cait considers the art of doing nothing and the undervalued powers of nurturance and maintenance. she shares some beautiful wisdom from loved ones that is touching her now, and invites us to take our time with it--because in her experience, no matter how great the advice, we've all gotta figure it out for ourselves.    mentioned in this episode: How to Do Nothing by Jenny Odell connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: rewilding/embodiment coaching for radical self love @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!  

cat wrestled w/this episode until she let herself express what is true for her in this moment: her heart is breaking open. again.  instead of trying to "get it together", cat admits she's struggling, and been struggling. she shares how she sometimes colludes in her own pain, and how she is practicing being with it instead. she reveals how all her feelings--whether she's in pain or in love, are helping her find her way to the modes of expression within her that are building more resilience and hope, inside and out.    if you're struggling too, we understand. please rest a while in this space. as long as you need. we see you. we feel you. we love you. x mentioned in this episode: An Evening I Will Not Forget/Furthest Thing by Dermot Kennedy connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: rewilding/embodiment coaching for radical self love @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!  

in this solo, Cait ties a few of our previous joint conversations together to get honest about how she overfills her schedule to avoid sitting with herself and her deepest feelings. she also bravely declares her intention to slow down enough to allow a day to unfold by itself. could she allow and create space for more mystery? could she open to pleasure for pleasure's sake?   connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: coaching @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

we admitted we were powerless over music and our lives had become--ok, so maybe we're not quite there. but we are here to concede: notes + lyric= a force that can swing our emotions in directions we don't always want to go.  in this episode we remember the music that holds each one of our broken hearts, and give thanks for the poetry that has put us back together over and over again.  BONUS!  we made playlists to share with you, full of songs that transport each of us back to very specific places and times in our lives: Cait's Controlled Substance cat's INSANELY random controlled substances art picks: Cait: You're Welcome . Song, Dwayne Johnson Joyjulwrites , an IG account from writer, Joy Bullen cat: Yellow . Song, Emmit Fenn Fleabag from Phoebe Waller-Bridge via Prime Video connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: coaching @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

after about a year of trying to convince herself she could align with the people who claim "sex doesn't have to be a big deal", cat finally admits that for her, it is. she shares how the vulnerability she feels in opening her own body to others has moved her to do the work to embody herself as home, over and over again.  connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: coaching @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

can we be "in love" with our friends? we say, certainly! in this episode we discuss how our love lives have grown, supported, and expanded us when we've opened to the experience of non-sexual romantic love.  art picks: Cait: Real Estate by Deborah Levy How Should a Person Be by Sheila Heti My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh Fake Accounts by Lauren Oyler the books above were recommended as a response to watching Yellowstone from Paramount cat: Atlas of the Heart by Brené Brown also mentioned in this episode: Stef Streb: Goddess Photographer Extraordinaire (located in Columbus, OH)  connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: coaching @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

happy New Year! With resolutions and hopes for change abound, Cait opens up about the experience of her own mental and physical health inside her body at different sizes, and how we can never assume someone is well or unwell based on what their body looks like.   connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: web: caitweissorcutt.com ig: @caitcameraface cat: coaching @ cathbradley.com   + more audio stories at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

we reflect. we rant. we laugh. and of course cat cries--just a little. we bid adieu to 2021 and look forward to the magic and mystery of a new year! art picks: Cait: Ted Lasso from AppleTV 'Pilgrim Bell' poems from Kaveh Akbar Sky Above Clouds paintings by Georgia O'Keeffe cat: communion & all about love, from our beloved bell hooks (if you haven't read bell hooks, start with all about love

in this solo, cat wonders aloud if it's possible for romantic love to feel as free and soul expanding as her friendships with her girlfriends feel. she also talks about what made her start questioning not just her marriage, but marriage as a system and its function in our culture as the objective and container of love.  connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: caitweissorcutt.com , IG: @caitcameraface cat: cathbradley.com   + more written & audio stories happening at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

one of us wanted to name this episode "we admitted: we became our worst nightmare". so that's where we start. where we end up is a bit more tender, personal, and unexpected for each of us. this is a conversation about opening to the unexpected desires we find when we dig deep, and accepting that the only thing we can really rely upon in this life is that it, and we, will change.  art picks: Cait: the Chani App cat: Begin Again available on Netflix connect: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: @caitcameraface cat: cathbradley.com   + more audio stories available at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

in Cait's first solo episode she takes back something she said about white people and comfort in a previous eps...sort of.  she also explains why feeling bad isn't "the work", how important it's been for her to experience her own anger, and she generously divulges her strict rules for candle purchases.  connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: @caitcameraface cat: cathbradley.com   + more written & audio stories available at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

everyone knows you're not supposed to admit you want to be perfect--but we do here!  while we were both surprised at first at where this conversation took us, we aren't anymore since the roots of perfectionism are so clearly tied to hierarchy and all the other "isms" currently poisoning our cultural soil. as always, we comment on that culture and we make it personal.  art picks: Cait: Squid Game from Netflix cat: What It Means to Be Human by Hayden Calnin also mentioned in this episode:  The Body is Not an Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor Money Heist from Netflix connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod Cait: @caitcameraface cat: cathbradley.com   + more written & audio stories available at chBeing   questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

this is REadmitted, your mini-companion to we admitted. every other week one of us flies solo for just a few minutes to go deeper into our last conversation or flip the script completely to reveal what's most present, pressing, or important to us right now. cat takes the first solo episode! connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod cat: cathbradley.com Cait: @caitcameraface questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!

welcome to season 2 of we admitted, a production of the recovering us project! we are so glad to be back and to be with you. in this episode we catch you up on a few gigantic things that happened during our break and look forward to what we hope will be a mind-expanding, heart opening new season of admissions.  #artheals picks: Cait: Astrology for the Soul by Jan Spiller cat: Miss Sloane available on Netflix also mentioned in this episode: You Were Born For This by Chani Nicholas communion: the female search for love by bell hooks Molly's Game available to rent on Amazon & Apple connect w/us: team: @weadmittedpod cat: cathbradley.com Cait: @caitcameraface questions, show ideas? you can go to weadmittedpod.com and drop them there. better yet, share your thoughts and become a part of our growing community on Patreon. there are some great new benefits to joining us there this season. be sure to check them out!  

in this last episode of our first season as podcasters we ask and answer allll the questions. what did we love? is there anything we regret? what are we hoping for our personal futures and the future of the we admitted pod?  we are are so grateful to you all, our listeners. while we take a short summer hiatus to rest, recharge, enjoy, and embody the true spirit of the pleasurable lives we want to live, we hope you'll join us on patreon where you'll find more personal content and updates on all things we admitted. also, we'd be so delighted if you'd share the show with those you think might enjoy our antics this summer. tell them to get caught up and ready for season 2 to drop in the fall! thanks. and we love you. x c & C #artheals picks: Cait: The Atmospherians by Alex McElroy cat: Anne with an E from Netflix also mentioned in this episode: For: Your Mood Podcast & Playlists by Adam Himmel connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

love takes creativity. creativity takes love.  in this episode we talk head vs. heart, heart leading head, and every other mind/body/spirit integration or separation that we've experienced or hope to.  we also discuss what we think and feel "it" (meaning, purpose) is and isn't. and we share what we love about the relationship between humanity and the creation of art--regardless of our judgment of it as "good" or "bad".  #artheals picks: Cait: Parakeet by Marie-Helene Bertino cat: Little Voice from Apple TV also mentioned in this episode: The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron The Kissing Booth from Netflix connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

this episode's gestation period was longer than others. we are glad to let it be birthed and hope it creates more room for all of us to accept our fullest, most whole human selves.  with love and gratitude, cat, Cait, & the we admitted team #artheals picks: cat: Pussy: A Reclamation by Regena Thomashauer Cait: You Miss it When it's Gone by Bryan Washington connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

in this episode we admit that money definitely IS a thang and that it's been mixed up in our sense of self-worth in more ways than one. in order to understand our relationship to earning, security, and productivity now, we press on some old childhood wounds. we share stories that in their telling we realize have trapped and held beliefs about money that did not originate with us, and that we don't have to force ourselves to keep carrying. in gratitude, we discuss the conversations in our lives that are giving us hope and allowing us to live more fully as ourselves. this conversation about money fits right in there! #artheals picks: cat: Never Have I Ever from Netflix Cait: Noble Blood (podcast w/ Dana Schwartz) also mentioned in this episode: Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

are you one of those super evolved humans that doesn't try to control everything in your life and is able to let go of things when the universe subtly nudges you to? teach us your ways! in this episode we admit our resistance to change, or even just reality has gotten us dragged through some pretty rough waters (or streets, or jungles, or any other terrain where things get dirty and you come out a little wrecked on the other side!) rest assured. there is hope. we also talk about how we are learning, growing, and being transformed from past and current experiences that are asking us to let go of someplace, something, or even someone.  whatever your current grip on outcomes is, join us! #artheals picks: cat: Wanderlust from Netlflix and BBC One Cait: 90 Day Fiancé from Discovery + and also available on Hulu connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

are you kissing or cursing social media lately? admittedly...we are doing both, often on the same day!  in this episode we run down the many ways Instagram expands our lives AND sucks away our souls. we explore what we think it takes to stay in right relationship with this significant power and we even admit a few things we are not so proud of ; ) . #artheals picks: cat: The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo Cait: Engine Empire by Cathy Park Hong Soft Science by Franny Choi OBIT by Victoria Chang Barbie Chang by Victoria Chang connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

this episode is what happened while we were busy making other plans… with lots of big heavy stuff going on in both of our lives, we grabbed our editor Sasha like a life raft (as we often do) and asked her to join us for a fun, lighter than our usual fare, ask us anything episode. we hope you enjoy getting to know Sasha and us a little better. we are grateful for the agency and the desire to produce this podcast in a spacious way that prioritizes our humanity—our feelings, our state of being, over our productivity. our songs of the day: cat: 'tis the damn season by Taylor Swift Cait: The Final Countdown by Europe Sasha: Oh No by Kreepa #artheals picks: cat: Felicity available on Hulu Cait: Ramy from Hulu Sasha: The Only Way is Essex available on Hulu and H is for Hawk by Helen Macdonald connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Sasha: @sashiepashie Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

this episode was made with much strength, resilience, love, and compassion--for each other and ourselves. there is tenderness here. it was not easy for us to record and so we know it may also not be easy to listen to. we offer this... TW: In perhaps our most intimate episode yet we talk about disordered eating, anorexia, bulimia, self-harm behaviors, and the toxic thinking that diet culture, white supremacy, and the cis-hetero patriarchy feed on. We believe in recovery; we believe in a kind of survival filled with thriving, but we know it can be hell to get there. Please take care of yourselves as you listen and take time to be gentle afterwards.    #artheals picks: cat- Ginny & Georgia From Netflix Cait- Her Body and Other Parties by Carmen Maria Machado connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

In this episode we admit some BIG ones: We judge you. We judge culture. Most of all, we judge ourselves. And we can't lie...it hurts sometimes! Can we have compassion for other people if we don't have it for ourselves? How do we get it for ourselves if there are things inside us we cannot accept or do not even dare to face? All this and much more, including some art we feel is inextricably linked to this episode's topic, and some that's informing the art we hope to create ourselves.  #artheals picks: cat- The Count of Monte Cristo Cait: Make it Scream, Make it Burn, by Leslie Jamison also mentioned in this episode: Insights on the Edge w/Tami Simon  Alcoholic's Anonymous   connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

Do you load up your schedule on purpose, hoping for little to no space to feel your feelings? Perhaps you feel pressure to make your life busier? You sense your worthiness is measured by your productivity.  In this episode we discuss where we've been and where we are at now in work, overwork, self-love, and slowing down enough to hear ourselves.  In what art's inspiring us now, we swoon over the gazes in PBS Masterpiece's Sanditon, and shout out the Midwest brilliance of FX's Fargo. #artheals picks: cat- Sanditon from PBS Masterpiece Cait- Fargo S4, from FX, available on Hulu also mentioned in this episode: Dismantling Racism Web Workbook by Kenneth Jones & Tema Okun all about love by bell hooks The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown Bad Feminist by Roxane Gay Headspace meditation app connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon  

In our debut episode we introduce ourselves; we share how we came together and describe the space we each hope to create through this podcast. We touch on sobriety, what it's taken to be able to call ourselves writers, and the self-limiting narratives we sometimes rehash when we're trying to do hard things. In what art's inspiring us now, we discuss the surprisingly heartfelt Apple series Ted Lasso and the vision-expanding podcast, Ologies, with Alie Ward. #artheals picks: cat- Ted Lasso on Apple TV Cait- Ologies with Alie Ward connect w/us on IG: team: @weadmittedpod cat: @_c.h.b._ Cait: @caitcameraface Connect with us further at weadmittedpod.com and Support our show on Patreon          

we admitted  ---  Recovering our humanity and creating connection one bold admission at a time. Two intersectional feminist writers, one mixed, one white, each with a decade plus in recovery from alcohol, drugs, eating disorders, and the racist capitalist heteropatriarchy that raised us, radically and honestly explore how curiosity, community, and art are the powers that heal.  You can't save your ass and your face at the same time. We're here for the asses.