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  Annulment... after 1 year. You can ask the courts for an annulment based on fraud if a spouse misrepresented themselves. You must provide concrete evidence (messages, documents) proving you wouldn't have married them otherwise.

  *Podcast episode from earlier this week... *** Additional information regarding seeking citizenship in Canada... while battling chronic illness/cancer/etc

  Seeking a mother figure, not a wife... These men start resisting the marriage, because it begins to require a higher level of commitment that they do feel ready for... responsibility. However... still following through with marriage, but for "mother-role" benefits. They avoid treating their partner as a spouse, "wife" because they associate it with deep emotional exposure, that feels risky or exhausting. The "Mothering" Dynamics that these men look for in a new partner is in order for the woman to be their life-long-cook, maid/cleaner, and personal accountant... managing their affairs/bills. This, instead of marrying a life-time partner/wife/spouse.. There is no true equal partnership, when men marry for a mother-role.

  This second podcast episode really has to do with both... trying to find a home, while battling cancer. I did make that mistake. Driving by the place, I used to call... home. It still looked the same. Minus, they sadly took out the beautiful Floridan tree we planted in the front yard, years ago. Also, all the fruit trees I planted in the back of the property. Maybe... not wise to had tortured my soul, while driving by the area to pick up Snoreo's medical records. They never did place the house up for sale. I doubt they ever will, not in this lifetime, anyways. For the same circle of people/ now strangers. Yep, little old "poor me" (making fun of me years ago, for not being rich like all of you) did a HUGE thing and I'm darn PROUD for it! ❤️

  At least Blue had a super nice 3rd birthday party! Unicorn theme

  Food For Thought: Leaving elderly individuals living alone, particularly those with dementia or mobility issues, poses significant risks including falls, medical neglect, isolation, and dangerous accidents. While some seniors thrive independently, others require regular supervision and support to manage daily tasks, nutrition, medication, and mental well-being.  *** Picture of the fur kiddo I found yesterday evening at the dog park... now safe, sound at a local org/shelter... all thanks to a friendly officer and others who helped

  Snoreo... 10 years ago, back at the place we called our

  I forgot to add this photo from yesterday's podcast

It's really hard to imagine that this was taken 12 years ago

  Just because someone beats their estimated prognosis. Doesn't mean they are not suffering. Actually, it's quite the contrary!  They continue to live because they are fighting HARDER than ever before! They have something to prove. Or, in my case... someones. You pick and choose your battles in life. This, I learned the hard way. CHOOSE WISELY!.

  This has to be some of the most BIZARRE stuff... I have EVER seen

  Understanding NPD/Narcissistic Personality Disorder from a different angle.

  Another new fruity shake

  I always got tongue-tied when extremely passionate about something. That's okay, because what I am expressing... is that important to me. Firm/Fern. Selfish/Selfless. I also learned that spell-check police. They are teachers in real life, that are just as passionate about something. Their job, and enough so... that they carry it around like a coat of armor. *** How I used to be... never worked

  Narcissistic Charmer

  Ovarian Remnant Syndrome has been as-big-as a great myth to some medical professionals as is Santa Claus is to mankind!

  No one... Could ever prepare themselves for this or that. I regret not going in with a "pessimistic" frame of mind. That was my mistake. Lesson learned, the hard way. To be able to allow oneself the ability to feel. It is the greatest gift of all❣️ ❤️

  These were my beloved Grandmother's. The ones that I mentioned about in this podcast❤️

  (Correction on prior podcast) "Tammy was married and her spouse passed away. Not divorced." *** Words of wisdom, and strong advice: Hurt People. Hurt People. Heal your demons within and past traumas. You do NOT take that out on another human being. PERIOD.

  Cancer Progression When cancer progresses, it involves a multi-step accumulation of genetic mutations. This alone... allowing cells to grow uncontrollably. Evading the immune system, developing their own blood supply. Lastly, invading issues and spreading to other organs... widespread stage 4. Metastasis ends up in most cases being the primary cause of cancer mortality. ⏳️

  Confidence isn't found through cosmetic surgery. "It's found within". True confidence means bridging the gap between how you feel... comfort in your own skin. The source of confidence itself. True confidence can be achieved through small habits, mindset shifts, and actions.  Cultivating POSITIVE energy❣️ One must begin first by addressing specific insecurities, not creating perfection... because let's face it. No one is "perfect".

  When the IRS and DOJ do a thorough investigation and realize that there has been identity theft/tax fraud. Using your social security number, without your knowledge. You now must use a identifier barcode. This is your new TIN/social security number. *Consider it, a way of protecting you now... and in the future* No. None of this should have happened. This is unnecessary stress, brought on by the same people. Those who made really poor/horrible/horrific decisions over many, many years.  If lessons, haven't been learned by those involved, by now... Then they never will.

  Rule of life. Respect others, same as you would want to be respected. Gaslighting me, once again. Making me feel that your actions, behavior and decisions were of my fault. You both made the choices to use helping me... as a mere weapon of choice. Throwing the act of kindness right back in my face. Kindness should never be a business transaction. It should be an extension of care, and kindness of the heart. Walking out of my first of a few appointments this morning. With that high sense of self-awareness... self-respect that got loss by the same circumstances-circle of people for over a decade. Redemption.

  Narcs will push and push and push until you have a response. "Reactive Response" Don't blame yourself. You weren't crazy.  You were... PUSHED.

  Not only did I make Heavenly Hash... an old recipe that my Grandmother's used to make. I also made a new creation/dessert for Christmas:

  Narcissistic Gaslighting (How They Connect) *** Control & Power: Narcissists gaslight to maintain dominance and make others reliant on their version of reality.  Ego Protection: They deny wrongdoing to protect their fragile self-image and avoid accountability.  Manipulation: It's a tool to hurt, manipulate, and keep victims from leaving.    ***   Common Gaslighting Phrases (Used by Narcissists)   "You're crazy/overreacting/too sensitive"   "I never said that; you're imagining things"   "You made me do it" or "It's all your fault". *** Why Narcissists Gaslight   *Insecurity: Low self-esteem masked by grandiosity.   *Fear of Exposure: To prevent others from seeing their flaws.   *Power Dynamics: To feel superior and in charge.   *** Recognizing Narcissistic Gaslighting   *They present a different persona in public. *They deny events that clearly happened, or twist the narrative. *They make you feel constantly confused and doubt yourself. 

  Finale. Finished Finito Over. Closed.  Single-handed. The greatest Christmas gift. That I will ever receive in this lifetime.  I got my answers, unexpectedly.  And the last of the masks fell off. There was nothing further left to question or to see. But the person standing there... who I never anticipated, thought or ever imagined it to be. Free Yourself...My Journey

  For patients, it is very normal to have fluctuating energy levels, with "up and down" days, during late-stage cancer. The term is (CRF) cancer-related fatigue. This unpredictable tiredness is a common side effect of the disease. Differing from normal fatigue and impacting physical, mental and emotional well-being, so communicating these energy shifts with your healthcare team is crucial for managing them as best as possible. ***

  Plan B... for selling the house and getting into a mortgage on my own has been a tremendous amount of work! However.... patience is FINALLY paying off and everything continues to move in the right direction.

  Interesting...

  Dubai Chocolate Cake

  Finding an old treasure is literally priceless! Especially when it not only charged RIGHT UP! As well... it actually still works like a charm! As far as remembering my attempts earlier this year... I never could get back on my bike. At least the bell still works, along with wishful thinking

  2 different veterinarian groups.. BOTH were unfortunately, wrong. Never assume anything when it comes to health... unless the proper steps are performed FIRST. At least, we now have the right course of pain medication which should mean better sleep. Overall a happier fur kiddo! Just in time to hopefully be able to enjoy a few more days of all the beautiful snow! ♡Thank you to Tina and family for the cute-super-comfy awareness sweatshirt♡

  *Podcast correction-Trent is Amber's husbands name and Anna was adopted from an orphanage in Russia. *** Holidays are finally back to feeling, "normal." Creating new traditions with a few old ones.  Like... Remembering what family dinners used to be like... look like during Thanksgiving. First of many years gone by so quickly. Finally being able to cook ALL of the holiday traditions and happy for the compliments too! I always enjoyed cooking. Something I greatly missed due to all of the petty family dysfunction.  2 days of cooking and enjoying dinner with new faces from in town. And those who came in from out of town. I couldn't had asked for a better Thanksgiving!

  Taking ownership is a fundamental part of apologizing because it involves verbally acknowledging your responsibility for a mistake or hurtful action without making excuses. A sincere apology requires not only saying "I'm sorry" but also clearly stating what you did wrong and accepting personal responsibility for it. ... People see what they see... Absence. ...

  Maybe, they don't tell you about what to expect on your personal journey with cancer. All because in actuality... it is a very unique and extremely personal journey. We never could get the extreme fatigue under control. Cancer fatigue isn't like normal fatigue. There isn't a pill or quick fix. There isn't a fix at all.  You just continue to sleep more and more often. There was never a miracle pill or food to gain weight. Or keep your current weight under control. Cancer will always take center chair at the table. People will always fear death, when it's not their death. Don't expect otherwise. I wish, I knew the half of what to anticipate or expect. The longer you push a tired body. The harder it becomes to continue fighting. Sleep isn't an option anymore. It is a requirement and that is where... I have pretty much been over the past few weeks. Sleeping.  Thank you for all the birthday sentiments, gifts and even just to say, "Hi!" Halloween was a blur as I slept right through it. Only a mere security cam video with the laughter of children in the distance. I was however, able to enjoy a very nice birthday. Making up for years of what birthdays should be... memorable. God must had been listening this year. Because all I asked for was some snow.  I will catch up on the rest later... after I get some rest.

  Is this the 3rd Halloween in a row where it has been incredibly rainy, wet and blah for the kiddies? I'm still ALL FOR welcoming an Adult Trick or Treat holiday in October! Candy, candles, clothing, office supplies... you name it! Adulting in my opinion, requires some fun to still be part of one's life. The big kid's version of Halloween at it's finest! I've been working on new recipes for T, and his daughter's food truck. Possibly... also a new theme! However, for now here are a few newbie creations during my own cancer/ORS cravings. Smoreos

  Last night it was the traditional... "It's The Great Pumpkin

  When you have those who walk beside you during the journey... The suffering becomes something that you endure, together.  They quickly scrambled to get all my prescriptions maxed out, if all possible. I still have no word or letter as promised on insurance. I assume next month, we find out the hard way. The individual who started all the false rumors. Then had others attempting to run with it over the years, causing me a great deal of problems. Not to mention, an overwhelming amount of stress. I had that conversation of the inevitable, face-to-face. They couldn't run from the truth, a diagnosis looking straight at them. Rule of life? Never listen to one-sided stories... without knowing the other side. Especially when there is truth to be had, that you have yet to see or understand. *** Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Narcissistic repetition behavior from the narc often focuses on the cyclical nature of the abuse. The narcissist's lack of accountability, and the victim's struggle to escape. A common theme is the expectation that past hurts should be forgotten without change, leading to the repetition of painful patterns, as seen in quotes like, "Narcissists expect everything to go back to normal, as if their actions left no scars" and "They want peace without accountability. Forgiveness without change.

  *Podcast correction-Pessimistic, not Optimistic *** Even while not feeling well. Still try to incorporate the things that make you happy. On your good days, enjoy them to the best of your ability! Cancer will make you fight like never before... doing everything to help get you through the toughest of days. Yet, I remember when the good days...lasted more than 24 or even 48-hours. Cancer pain is the toughest pain to treat. That constant pain goes absolutely nowhere, but worse. I used my time over the years, during my good days, to create memories. Even if you realize some times it means pushing yourself. For me, it was always worth embracing those good, positive moments. The path of progression with cancer is as real as it gets. However, no one wants to be in pain either. The crazy sleep or lack of. Not being able to eat the things that once you used to crave. It really puts life into perspective. As well being aware of who is or isn't around you. THAT is MOST IMPORTANT. Life truly goes by in an instant! What really matters most is all that happiness you created for yourself and your own family of your choosing. It will help you in remembering how hard you fought.. for so long. Amen.

  You can't go back. You can only go forward. It's strange how death, can make you realize that what is behind you... Will never be again. Sad reality, isn't it?.

  Undoing the lies... for the liars. Be thankful, if you were not one who got fooled... by the fools.

  Finally! Over 3 more hours on the phone this morning, making sure the rest of the mess is cleared up. The not-so-great, lack of "United" States was already a mess... now the continued government shutdown, has only made things a far BIGGER mess. Get ready for housing in 2026 to be split between 50/50... *Residential housing *Residential vehicle/house on 4 wheels #Sad Reality

  Truth.

  In some parts... aspects are true. In others... I don't think anyone would understand, unless running a marathon in my shoes for a lifetime. I'm thankful to still get out and enjoy life. The best of my abilities.  I'm glad to have lived life as my younger self... to the absolute FULLEST.

  Maybe getting the last of emotions out now... Will make for a better upcoming holiday season? Why, anger? As the last emotion?...

  In order to know how to address your parents who want to continue watching, caring for their grandchild, grandchildren can be a tricky task. A challenge or sometimes a great feat! Especially when met with feelings of hurt by the grandparent, grandparents. All because it's time for the child or children to come home. You must set clear boundaries by first expressing your wants, needs and most importantly, your feelings when it comes to your child or children. You must also express to the grandparents that a child or children's stay is not a permanent one. You should as well address their feelings and insecurities, and work on a plan for future visits that satisfies everyone.  Many adults, don't do well when it comes to aging. It's far better to blend in with the younger counterparts... than to be the older, odd ones out. Over-stepping boundaries as a grandparent or grandparents, can end up causing It's own host of family problems. Dysfunction.

  Finally... Watching years, when there was a bit of some normalcy around the holidays. When home... Felt like, home. The love that welcomed you. Having that taken away by both of you is a feeling that honestly... never leaves you. There will always be triggers, and that is your right, and time to feel. The same holiday decorations and trees that every year... I looked forward to decorating. Are now still sitting in boxes, because that same feeling is no longer. Etched forever in time, found among VHS tapes.

  How can you go into foreclosure on a 0 balance?

  Veterinarian Groups/Hospitals/Specialized Care *** Invoices contain information about procedures, treatments, and costs, which are part of your pet's medical record. Therefore, they fall under the same rules of confidentiality as other patient information.  Get consent first and foremost!