Behindleweyes: The Podcast

Tricia and I chat all things about her pre and post natal journey throughout her three pregnancies. Tricia is a mom of three, a physical therapist and specializes in pre and post natal care. She has quite the pre and post natal fitness journey herself!We talk about the similarities and differences between each of her three pregnancies, her experiences with postpartum depression and not understanding it at the time, and the general trials and tribulations of being a new mom.You can find Tricia on instagram @burpeesandburpcloths. You can follow her fitness journey as well as learn a lot of helpful information about how to stay strong during and after pregnancy!As always, follow along with our daily podcast shenanigans on instgram @behindleweyes, and be sure to check out our new MERCH! A great way to support the podcast! https://behindleweyes.creator-spring.comSee you in 2 weeks!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast, where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, I am joined by my friend, Tiffany Callahan, who is a creative strategist, host of The Drinks After Work Podcast, a mom and truly one powerhouse of a woman! Tiff and I are podcast BFFs where we are constantly cheering each other on, chatting on the back end all day long and I often have to stop in my tracks and remind myself that Tiff has a child!She immediately expresses gratitude for the village that surrounds her, helping with her 6 month old boy. It truly does take a village. Tiffany also exceeds in compartmentalizing the different facets of her life- mom life, full time work for a startup, podcast host, wife, friend, daughter, etc. She's able to devote different aspects of herself to the different aspects of her life. When Tiff is in mom mode, Tiff is full force in mom mode and nothing else.Tiff gets vulnerable about her experiences with postpartum anxiety and how much it consumed her immediately after the birth of her son. We get to hear about her pregnancy journey, specifically with her gestational diabetes, and she then goes into telling us her birth story, which I know my listeners will appreciate.It's refreshing to hear all these stories of my guests, in order to help those who could be struggling in silence, having a similar story and experiences- it makes them feel seen and heard and it's so important during this special and important and fragile time of your life, to know you're not alone in dealing with these different things.I give Tiff, and all my other guests, a lot of credit for getting so vulnerable with me because while I can;'t relate personally, I can understand some of these things, aren't easy to talk about.In Tiff's case, she had to be induced, her epidural failed, she was in a lot of pain, for an extended period of time- 36 hours. Opted for a C-section, had to be put under general anesthesia and was not awake for the birth of her son; husband wasn't in the room and Tiffany wasn't able to meet her son until she woke up after surgery.Similarly to my previous episode with Stef, Tiffany didn't feel an immediate connection with her son. And in making this connection, you have to wonder if having the C-section directly correlates to these feelings.We also chat about Tiff's experiences with postpartum anxiety; how this affected her and what she was able to do to overcome these different feelings, amongst having her first born during the pandemic.Tune into today's episode to hear about the struggles Tiff had whilst being pregnant, the things she didn't enjoy about being pregnant and a hysterical gender reveal mix up that I'm sure her family will laugh about for years!Check out Tiff's podcast: The Drinks After Work PodcastYou can find her on instagram https://www.instagram.com/drinksafterwork_podcastBe sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast, where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, I am joined by my friend Stefanie, to chat about motherhood and all things postpartum , including anxiety and depression. We also touch on turning 30 and how we both feel about the exciting milestone and how Lauren is finally experiencing a little bit of baby fever.Stefanie gets vulnerable about her breastfeeding journey and how she struggled with having an oversupply of breast milk and how the overabundance weighed on her physical and mental health. She felt as though she was running on fumes and it wasn't until her lactation consultant heard her struggles with what she was going through, and validated her decision to stop breastfeeding after a month of absolute exhaustion.The pressure that mother's endure surrounding breastfeeding is so unfair. It's so hard, even with a supply; it hurts and it's an added layer that we assume is natural and easy, because society has conditioned us to think this way.As first time moms, it's so easy to feel alone. There seems to be a lack of education in what exactly our bodies are going through and what exactly goes into being a mother. We can blame our middle school health classes, for know knowing or expecting what exactly is happening to our bodies during pregnancy and after giving birth.It's so important for mothers like Stefanie, to share their stories during pregnancy, giving birth, but most importantly, what's going on with your body after giving birth. Because sometimes, the people around us, make it seem like it's easy. Some who might be experiencing the "baby blues" and postpartum anxiety and postpartum depression, are forced to feel like there's something wrong with them,  not realizing that others are feeling the exact same way.Stefanie also gets vulnerable (and again, thank you for sharing your story, Stef) about sleep deprivation, mental struggles, crying it out, seeking therapy and medical attention, questioning your role as a mother/parent, lack of immediate bond, advocating for yourself, mom support groups, asking for help, the terrible twos and so much more.We wrapped today's episode up with a fun Taylor Swift segment! We each drafted our ultimate Top 10 Taylor Swift songs! Be sure to listen for lots of laughs!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast, where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, I am joined by my friend, Megan Clokey. Megan is a mom, a certified personal trainer and nutrition coach. She is the co-founder of girls guide and she advocates for pregnancy loss awareness and postpartum care.As a quick trigger warning for this episode, we do chat about miscarriage and Megan's experience in pregnancy after loss.Megan tells her story in a very raw and vulnerable way, as she truly believes there is power in sharing your story. We don't talk about these things enough, what happens after a miscarriage, more specifically, what happens and how someone might feel becoming pregnant after a loss.We chat about her trials and tribulations being a new mom, in what feels like a world lacking in useful information for first time mothers. From what happens to our bodies, to our sleep cycles, or should I say lack there of- we cover all the nitty gritty details in this episode.Megan also tells us about her journey into pre & post natal care, and how she seeks to specialize in pelvic floor care.You can find Megan @meganclokey and @vibrantmamawellness on instagram and be sure to check out her website  https://vibrantmamawellness.comBe sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, our first solo episode in a whole month, I just wanted to let you guys know what's going on in my personal life, a lot of exciting things happening, and wanted to give an update of what's happening on the pod for the month of May!May is postpartum awareness month and we have 4 special guests coming on to the pod to talk about their journies with motherhood, postpartum, etc. Giving moms an opportunity to share their story in a way to help those who could be silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard. So I hope you enjoy May's theme!30 has been really great to me! I can finally, officially tell you guys that I am being promoted. As you know, I was recently transferred to the North Shore of Massachusetts, after having been stationed, some days, over an hour away from where I live. I highly value the 11 years that I've spent with the company I'm with. So it was really discouraging the past couple years, feeling so burned out. Because normally I have a very strong work ethic. It's why I love the podcast hustle, and why I think I'm able to make it work while working full time, because I have the will to do so, to make it work.I got the call that I was getting the position and felt so incredibly proud of myself! Because I had worked really hard for the position! So moving forward, I'll be working in southern New Hampshire and I truly love it. It feels new, it feels challenging and I really love that stuff, I love being out of my comfort zone!Although this promotion is occupying a lot of my time lately, the podcast is still going strong. We've had some really amazing guests the past few weeks so make sure to check back on those!Another thing I talk a lot about in this episode, is 10 months without alcohol! Which is such a wild concept to me. I wasn't sure I'd actually get this far. 300 days is a long time! I'm super proud of myself because it hasn't been easy in the very least. There have been a few times where I've questioned my sobriety.My WHY has been so important for me to hold on to. The holidays were a really hard time for me and when the whether switched from winter to spring; wanting a cold beer or a patio drink or a spiked seltzer. Alcohol-free options really help me! I understand those who are in recovery may not be able to drink alcohol free products.I have successfully fought every urge that I've had to drink and it always goes back to that original why. I go a little bit deeper in this episode than I have in the past; I take pride in my sobriety. I'm very proud of the will I have to stick to something that feels right in my gut. When I stopped drinking, I had made the decision that I was never going to drink again.I was listening to a podcast recently where Trent Shelton was talking about making the decision to just be better. It all starts with us. No one else can make you do anything. It has to start with you. He used the analogy of burning that bridge behind you, leaving that old life behind. I don't have room in my life for alcohol so that was a bridge I made the decision to burn.I go into detail about the things that have helped me the most: surrounding myself with other people who also don't drink, changing environmental variables around me, in order to live into the higher version of myself I know I'm meant to live, and having conversations with those closest to me so they are able to understand WHY I'm alcohol-free.For all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview epi

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, I am joined by my friend Gigi of Fashology, whose mission is to empower women to harness their magic through the way they dress. Fashology is an online boutique, a blog, and offers styling services.Gigi and I caught up like the old friends that we are; we talked about how WE met, how she met her husband, my cousin, and some of the crazy shenanigans we used to get into! We are much more reformed now, Gigi has a baby on the way and is launching her online clothing boutique MAY 7!We chat about how important it is to buy clothes that fit you, and not worry about fitting into clothes. How sizing and numbers, are fabricated out of thin air, how different fabrics will fit different, and how a number absolutely does not define your worth.We cover everything in this episode from the trails and tribulations of coordinating a clothing launch to what it means to dress to empower.You can find Gigi @fashology on instagram and be sure to check out her website (blog & shop can be found here!) https://www.fash-ology.comBe sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.In today's episode, I am joined by my friend Kaleigh Bishop. Kale is making health your main piece, not your side piece, and owner and creator of SOUL FOOD CLOTHING. Shop can be found at kaleyoufeelit.com/shopWe chat a lot about her shop and how it's come to be. Kale launched a few months ago and tells us about how she's enjoying the process of failing forward with her new business, similarly to what we're doing here on the podcast. We chat about all the things we know and love about personal development and some of the books that have best served us: You Are A Badass, The Slight Edge, and the 5AM Club, to name a few.You can find her @_kaleyoufeelit & @soulfoodclothingco on Instagram to connect and chat about any questions you may have about anything we talked and be sure to stop by kaleyoufeelit.com/shop to purchase some sporty chic loungwear!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.We are joined today by Kristen Sundberg. Kristen is a Social Media Manager who makes boring tech brands more lovable. Kristen's passions include personal brand, crafts, and the power of makeup. She struggles daily with chronic illness, eczema and idiopathic urticaria.Kristen breaks down her makeup and skincare routine for us that best helps her overcome the skin troubles she's been experiencing her entire life. From Fenty, all the way to Charlotte Tillbury and everything in between., including some small business support of Salt Cellar, found in small downtowns such as Newburyport and Portland, Maine.You can find her @thisiskris.s on Instagram to connect and chat about any questions you may have about anything we talked about today or to just have a friend to listen to anything you're going through.Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.Today I am joined by, Maddie Albano. She is a SoulCycle enthusiast and an animal lover here to chat with us about how she's overcome her struggles with eczema. Maddie gets vulnerable with us and shares her negative experiences with eczema her entire life. But not before we swoon over/nerd out over the nostalgia that SoulCycle Outside has. The two of us avid riders at home, we both look forward to the light at the end of the tunnel as we enter warmer months and are able to ride outside in the very near future!Based in Boston, Maddie has struggled with eczema her whole life. And this past year, these struggles had put her in a very dark and depressive state in the dead of quarantine last summer. She explains how helpless she felt, who she was able to lean on during these tough times, and more importantly, the medication that finally brought her a sense of relief months later.Tune in to here how badly Maddie was feeling and how she was able to overcome this dark season of her life. We also get into a really great back & forth about how society feels fulling transitioned into COVID life and we wonder just what it will take for us all the transition back. As a majority of us humans, may not be susceptible to change.You can find her @madalbo on instagram to connect and chat about any questions you may have about anything we talked about today or to just have a friend to listen to anything you're going through.Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.Today I'm joined by my friend, Kristin, of @boozeless. She's actually been a huge inspiration in my decision to quit the sauce. Kristen is everyone's sober BFF. She's boozeless for the health of it, a healthy hair guru, and an Instagram expert.Kristin and I dive deep into each of our relationships with alcohol, how and when we decided to quit drinking, and the trials and tribulations throughout each of our journies.Kristin, from Worcester MA, has been sober for 5 years, since 2016. When she stopped drinking, she was married at the time and her last drink was at Disney on her one (and only) wedding anniversary. She felt miserable in her life and new she needed to stop drinking.We chat about the differences between not drinking and then being an active non-drinker. One is the goal and the other is all the work put into this kind of journey. And not an easy journey by any means but when we are putting the work and the effort into bettering ourselves in any which way, that's where your own personal growth is going to happen.Tune in to today's episode to hear all kinds of stories between the two of us from skiing for the first time, to the kinds of activities the two of us can now enjoy without alcohol holding us back, to just not feeling like we're living on auto pilot anymore.You can find Kristin at https://www.instagram.com/boozeless/ on instagram. She just launched a brand new program, PARTY ON PAUSE. Be sure to head on over to her instagram to learn more!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello & welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those who are silently struggling with similar things, feel seen & heard.Today I am joined by, Alisha Brown is from Calgary, Alberta, and is a mental health advocate and Ms. Tourism, Canada.Alisha and I chat about what it takes to compete in a pageant, how she originally got into this, what her talent is, and how she represents Canada across the world during these pageants. Miss Tourism 2021 is incredibly lucky to have her this year!Alisha educates us on the science behind how beneficial music is for our minds and we dive deep into a conversation about how important it is to take care of our mental health, how our brains are a muscle, that need to be exercised, and fed good and positive things.You can find her at https://www.instagram.com/alisha.m.brown/ & alisha.m.brown on all other social media platforms. Every Sunday, Alisha hosts a guest on instagram live as part of her Coffee Talks segment!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com or visit my website behindleweyes.comI am also accepting donations via https://www.buymeacoffee.com/behindleweyesThanks for listening and we will catch you next WEDNESDAY with a brand new interview episode!

Hi hello and welcome to Behindleweyes The Podcast!Where we are transparently chatting about the messy parts of life in order to help those silently struggling with similar things, feel seen and heard.I'm your host, Lauren Williams.You can follow me on all social media platforms @behindleweyes, I do live in my instagram stories so be sure to follow along with my daily shenanigans over there and check out our brand new website, www.behindleweyes.comIf you like what you hear in today's episode, there are a few ways to support the podcast! You can share this episode on your instagram story, and be sure to tag me again, @behindleweyesAnd as always, rate review and subscribe over on apple podcasts; I am eternally grateful for all of your support.YOU GUYS! This is the FINAL episode of season 1 which means my final solo episode for the forseeable future.This does not mean this will be my last solo episode by any means BUT we are launching SEASON 2 of Behindleweyes The Podcast next Wednesday, April 7th! Season 2 will be completely interview based and on the 7th I will be dropping 3 episodes for you guys!ALSO, the night of the 7th, I will be hosting a virtual launch event/30th birthday party/vision board making event! Head to www.behindleweyes.com and be sure to join our email list for updates!Today's episode is a fun bonus episode to celebrate 30 years on this earth. I rank the top 30, happiest moments in my life and break them down into the following categories:1. Moments I often feel nostalgic for2. Growing experiences/pivotal moments3. Quirky relationships4. Moments that took my breath away5. Overall happiest days/moments of pure blissBe sure to tune in to hear stories from being on Plymouth Rock, to Martha's Vineyard and Nantucket trips, to road trips into Canada and across the United States, to making speeches and failing forward, to graduating high school, to failing out of college and all of the proudest moments I've experienced in between!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesPEEP my brand new website:www.behindleweyes.comFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com 

Hi, Hello and welcome to Behindleweyes, the podcast! Where we are transparently chatting about the things in life that we don't normally talk about, in order to help those who could be silently struggling with the same things, feel seen and heard. I'm your host, Lauren! You can find me on all social media platforms, @behindlewyes. I'm on instagram, TikTok and Clubhouse most frequently! I do live in my instagram stories so be sure to follow along for daily shenanigans!I also recently launched my website, www.behindleweys.com.If you like what you heard in today's episode, there are a few ways to support the podcast:You can share today's episode on your instagram story, be sure to tag me @behindleweyes.And as always, rate, review, and subscribe over on apple podcasts; I am eternally grateful for all of the support!REVIEW OF THE WEEK!"Lauren keeps it real with the listener. You can tell as she goes she opens herself up to being vulnerable and honest with everyone. She’s never off the mark either! She makes wonderful content with extreme humility and truly makes it a fun experience! Podcasts can be a drag but 30 mins isnt 30 mins with Lauren! Well done! Keep doing awesome stuff!" -thatguy1496Good to know we have some men in the audience, that makes my heart smile!Today's episode is episode 15! Fun little milestone to note and we are also coming up on 1K downloads which is AMAZING! Thank you all for the support; it means the absolute world to me.A couple shoutouts today:Happy birthday to my dear friend, Krista! Love you!Happy belated International Women's Day to all my female listeners!Today also marks 2 years since I've met Patrick! HeheHumble shoutout to myself for going viral for the first time on TikTok last week! WOO!DAILY AFFIRMATION:"I can feel it rising within me. I was made to feel love, to give love, to search for beauty in our every day."In today's episode, we chat about:- turning 30 next month & the comparison game- showing your highlight *real* on social media vs. a highlight *reel*- giving ourselves more grace than we are- listening to what your gut is telling you- the path we're on is the path we're meant to be onBe sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesPEEP my brand new website:www.behindleweyes.comFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com

Hi, Hello and welcome to Behindleweyes, the podcast, where we are transparently chatting about the things in life that we don't normally talk about, in order to help those who could be silently struggling with the same things, feel seen and heard. I'm your host, Lauren. You can find me on all social media platforms, @behindlewyes. I do live in my Instagram stories and you can also find me on tik tok. Those are the two platforms that I am on the most. If what you hear today resonates with you, if you really like what you hear, please share this episode to your Instagram story. Make sure to tag me. And as always rate review and subscribe. This is take 21!! And I finally got through that! I tried so hard the other night to record that intro and I could not get it. I just did the same thing for, I wish you could see my screen right now it says recording number 21. This has never happened to me before. Normally things come natural. I am switching up my intro a little bit. So maybe that's what it is. But Hi, hello, how are we? It is Monday evening, I had a stellar Monday, I haven't had like a really good Monday in a really long time. I rode on my SoulCycle bike. For the first time in over a month, I did not get on that bike once in the month of February. I mean, I did have COVID and I'm still fatigued. I think it also has to do with me just not moving my body. And I think I'm just tired. And also I was out of the loop for three weeks. So getting back into work is kind of taking taking a lot out of me. So let's get into the meat and potatoes of this episode! Today I want to talk about my feelings and where I'm at in my health and wellness journey. Mostly because- I took up a lot of space on social media in the health coaching realm for a while. And I feel like I'm finally completely transitioned out of that. I mean, not 100% because I do share some things. I've always shared my journey as an accountability tool. I share things now because I'm constantly starting all over; I'll fall off and then I'm constantly starting over. And I'll share that start-over. And that momentum again. I say this all the time, motivation doesn't grow on trees, you have to create the motivation. And that's starting with you, that first workout you know, today I got on the bike for the first time in over a month. That's momentum towards something that's going to build that's going to snowball into something bigger. I shared something on my Instagram stories recently also about where I was a couple years ago and I've been been doing a lot of reflecting on my behaviors and the habits that I had at that time. And I want to tell the story. I hate the word journey. Just using the word journey for everything, I roll my eyes at myself. So when I was in the thick of my fitness "journey", I called it my fitness revolution. And I really liked that because it was, it was very fitness heavy for me.Make sure to tune into this episode to hear all about how I went from fitness obsessed, to loving my body exactly how it is and how I've empowered by the life it gets me through!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesPEEP my brand new website:www.behindleweyes.comFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com

We're back! I did drop off the face of the earth there for a while. After being quarantined for 3 whole weeks and having an absolute shitty time with COVID, I am slowly getting back to life. Despite all efforts, I was exposed to COVID here at home, before we knew my roommate was positive. I was a little bit in denial at the beginning- like, there's no way this is actually happening, is it?? Well, it did. I originally tested negative and was fine for about a week.Week 1 of quarantine was filled with productive moments for the pod's future! I had so many podcast ideas; I was spending a lot of time on clubhouse and my creative juices were flowing. And I was being so productive with all the things that I've gained momentum with the past couple months, with the podcast, kind of like putting those future goals and plans into place. And it felt really good. I mean, I didn't feel the greatest being confined to my room. But I was getting like a lot of stuff done. After originally testing negative, I felt fine up until a certain point so I scheduled another test and the morning of the test felt like i got hit by a truck. I was so congested and woke up with a splitting headache. Ended up testing positive and again, was in complete disbelief.I had nasty congestion & headache for an entire week straight. Completely fatigued & had no motivation. Spent the second week sick & in bed watching Grey's Anatomy, which I've since finally finished. I had very mild symptoms but was still super miserable for an entire week. Despite that, I am so very grateful my symptoms weren't any worse because I would have been the most dramatic, biggest baby.But we're back in action! Or at least, doing my best to be back in action, physically & mentally. The first week was fine. Obviously I just said I was super productive. And on the second week, I was just actively sick. And so it was mostly just like sitting around doing nothing. But that third week just also straight up sucked. I wasn't as sick but I was still in quarantine. We had heating AND plumbing issues in the apartment, like didn't have heat for a couple days. So 2/3 weeks I was quarantined was just straight up not a good time hahaLots of time spent on Clubhouse, networking & learning how to scale the podcast a bit more. If you're unfamiliar with Clubhouse (and you're around my age) think back to the AOL days & chat rooms, but Clubhouse is audio based. If you're interested, I get about 3-6 invites a week, as it is an invite-only platform right now, so if you want one, hit a sister up!I really love the smaller rooms because I'm very, y'all know me, I'm very into cultivating relationships with different kinds of people. So if you can get up on stage, and you start having these conversations with different people, it's a really great networking opportunity. And it's where my creative flow that I've had going on with the podcast lately is coming from; I'm really trying to scale the podcast. Which isn't the most important thing for me, right now. My podcast is very therapeutic. I really enjoy it. You know, if I'm touching one life, that's all that really matters to me. But I would like to scale it a little bit. And so I've just been working on things like, I made a website today. I kind of want a general hub of where all things podcast is. Because right now, I'm obviously promoting the podcast on just my social media platforms.Make sure to tune into this episode to learn about the direction the podcast is heading in!Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on Instagram: www.instagram.com/behindleweyesPEEP my brand new website:www.behindleweyes.comFor all podcast inquiries, questions, comments, concerns & collaborations shoot an email to:lauren@behindleweyes.com

Today's episode we talked about all things morning routines & what the audience's favorite things to do when they first wake up:Lindsay & Kat drink water immediately! We love to hear this!Nicolette drinks lemon & ginger water, feels like this is a great cleansing way to wake up!Maureen (and myself) love a good hearty breakfast to wake us up in the morning! I'm a huge breakfast gal- I know a lot of people love waking up & working up on an empty stomach (fasted cardio??) but it is not my thing! Your girl loves all da food to fuel her workout!Liz opens the blinds! I don't sleep with my blinds down because I'm a weirdo but we love this one!Kelly crushes her skincare routine while dance partying to her girl power playlist and we are LIVING for this one! Also a huge shoutout to my girl Kelly for getting into Vermont's #1 nursing program! YGG you go girl!!Anna, Melissa & Melissa (hi hello all the Melissa's!!) drink COFFEE! I'm not a huge coffee drinker (I love me some preworkout though)Angela gets a gold star for her morning routine. I see her waking up at the ass crack of dawn every single day with her daily gratitude practice & meditations. Shoutout to Angela for being the BOSS we all wish we could be- or at least I wish I could be- don't want to speak for anyone here, especially my fellow night owls!Speaking of gratitude practices, they are SO important! I've been following Rachel Hollis for YEARS and when she came out with her START TODAY journal I was all over that shit. Listing 5 things you're grateful for THAT day, is so so great for your mental health. So are positive affirmations. Look at yourself in the mirror every morning and SAY SOMETHING NICE TO YOURSELF.YOU ARE A BOSS ASS BITCH AND YOU'RE GOING TO CRUSH THIS DAY. Do it, I triple dog dare you.I'm not crushing my morning routine like Angela lately. I'm actually not crushing any kind of morning routine that doesn't look like rolling over, chugging water & scrolling TikTok. I'm not proud to admit it but I'm also not ashamed because this is the season of life I'm in right now and I won't apologize for it. Do I want to be better? Yes, of course. But I'm also in a season where I'm allowing myself the grace my body & soul need at this time, as life just hasn't been very easy.I had an anxiety attack the other night. A full blown anxiety attack. I let the mean girl in my head get the best of me. She was asking my questions like, "what is wrong with you? What are you even doing with your life? Why do you keep making the same mistakes? Girl really, what is wrong with you." And i just had to positively self talk my way out it. Because that's what we do to grow. We overcome the shit the universe throws our way.It's throwing it our way because it knows we can handle it. The universe isn't going to give you anything you can't deal with. I truly believe that. So we must continue to push against the resistance of life, push ourselves outside that comfort zone that we're so used to.Don't settle. Keep going.Be sure to FOLLOW & tune in to my daily stories on instagram:https://www.instagram.com/behindleweyes/

An infamous FIRED UP episode encouraging you to be your most authentic, TRUEST self, unapologetically because anything that anyone has to say about your or your appearance, does not define your WORTH. Our experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly, shape us into who we are and THAT'S what makes us resilient.

On June 3rd, I woke up from a sound sleep after a nightmare that felt like a warning sign. In that moment, I made the decision to stop my consumption of alcohol moving forward. Since then, I've evaluated my relationship with alcohol and in this episode, I share a lot of vulnerable thoughts that cross my mind & may cross yours as well, through your own journey.

I talk about how Taylor's relatable & vulnerable lyrics & music leave me feeling heard and HAPPY. I relive tour moments & my favorites from her albums. Thanks Tay Tay for being such an amazing role model & creative artist to look up to for over a decade xo

Thanks for joining me in this bonus episode! I open up about my journey & experience with BPES and how it's shaped me as a human, embracing what makes me unique!

In today's short episode, I talk about how important community is while COVID cases rise and we enter a colder, more isolated season.

I talk through a lot of things I've been sitting with lately while staying grateful for all that I have, including this supportive community. Xo

I'm back! Just a little life update! Breakups, election madness, sobriety, new froomies, COVID scares and a look into what the future looks like AKA let's go hard with 75 HARD! Tune in as I speak freely about the way things make me feel! If you enjoyed this episode, be sure to share and tag me on instagram @behindleweyesXO

TW: suicide, self harm.In honor of Suicide Prevention day, week & month, I wanted to talk about breaking the mental health stigma. The biggest obstacle in preventing suicide, is silence. If you are silently struggling & are having thoughts of suicide/self harm, please call the National Suicide Prevention Line 800-273-8255.You are not alone.This episode is in remembrance of Adam Downey, Shirley Leoncini and Ryan Newell. You are all missed so dearly.

ADK week update! I survived one whole week sleeping in a tent in the woods in Upstate NY, so far outside my comfort zone! Camping, hiking, waterfalls, mountain views & more!

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Hi hello & welcome to episode 1 of many to come! I talk about a new sober journey, past sober journeys, my fitness ~revolution~, pre-quarantine, quarantine depression, navigating through the ups & downs of life & along the way, changing the world one good vibe at a time.