crying in my jacuzzi

What if breaking the rules isn't just about random acts of rebellion, but a sacred, messy practice essential for personal and collective liberation? Let's explore the nuances of disobedience, how it (and obedience) lives in our bodies, and plunge into why we must regularly practice breaking smaller rules to prepare ourselves for breaking bigger rules when it truly matters–AKA right friggin' now!From dealing with homophobic lighting™, to reclaiming our attention by fondling plants as our to-do lists (and our collective productivity-shame) try to kill us, small rebellions build our "rule-breaking muscles." As the systems around us create increasingly narrow parameters for living, we must resist being groomed into compliance and reconnect with our deepest inner knowing.This episode is a love note to all the small and spontaneous rebellions...we also throw open the doors to the Church of Plantfondling, a sacred space of disobedient prayer, cultivating more-than-human relationships, dancing with the layers of reality and our aliveness, and calling in divine guidance along the way. Let's get in some good trouble together, crybabies!Subscribe, share with friends, and leave a review. Join Dana every Friday at 10 am PT on IG @danablix for a live guided grounding meditation (and #plantfondling). ~ RESOURCES ~Cy blocking the NG convoy on its way to LA!New report on undocumented immigrants paying higher tax rate than billionaires and corps (by Americans for Tax Fairness)Know Your Rights (re ICE) from National Lawyers Guild LAFollow the Global March to Gaza Free guided grounding meditation—a practice of calling your energy back/nervous system tending/reclaiming your attention) ~ (http://bit.ly/grounding-now)Beautiful Trouble — your troublemaker toolbox for effervescent rebellion!Enter to win a free coaching session ~ leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, to be entered in a monthly drawing for a free coaching session. Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name to enter. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month.// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller //Support the show@danablix on ig

What if we approach dating (and LIFE!) with genuine curiosity rather than the calculated performance and feigned ambivalence? With a commitment to compassionate relating rather than just detached, dehumanizing game-playing? Join Dana and her dear friend Leah Garza—Akashic Records practitioner/teacher, decolonial scholar, and tender menace in the dating world—to unpack how to practice (naive) rebellion in our relationships and create new, much-needed pathways of connection. Leah shares how she's indestructible (and you are, too!), follows resonance over rules, strives for satisfaction over happiness, and tends to ghosting, disappointment, unmet needs, and more.~ RESOURCES FROM THE JACUZZI-VERSE ~Apply for Living Systems! New cohort starts July 13 (https://www.wearelivingsystems.com/livingsystems)Find Leah on ig @crystalsofaltamiraGet info for Dana & Leah's Fall Equinox retreat in Joshua Tree! (https://bit.ly/leah-dana-retreat)Free grounding meditation with Dana—a practice of calling your energy back/nervous system tending/reclaiming your attention) ~ (http://bit.ly/grounding-now)wondervalley! go to bit.ly/wondervalleycry + use discount code CRYBABY one of Dana's favorite poems on risk Enter to win a free coaching session ~ leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, to be entered in a monthly drawing for a free coaching session. Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name to enter. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month.// sound-editing/design ~ Rose Blakelock, theme song ~ Kat Ottosen, podcast art ~ Natalee Miller///Support the show@danablix on ig

In this *spell* of an episode, magic, penetration, entanglement, and love emerge as steps toward understanding and willingness to be changed by others (sometimes oh-so awkwardly).We enter with the Buddhist concept of PENETRATION (via some bibliomancy!)—not just observing from a distance, but entering deeply into experiences and relationships to truly understand them—where Dana shares a recent evolutionary discomfort experience with group work that involved Palestine, mentorship, and unexpectedly opened space for profound connection and transformation.Magic and synchronicity can bring you to the observation deck of reality, but one must risk and leap to get to true understanding. What's on the other side? Let's find out and embrace both the joy and struggle of humaning together!~ RESOURCES FROM THE JACUZZI-VERSE ~Free grounding meditation with Dana (a practice of calling your energy back/nervous system tending/reclaiming your attention) ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowRad apothecary alert > milkthistleyuccavalley.com ~ use code jacuzzi15 for a 15% discountEnter to win a free coaching session ~ leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, to be entered in a monthly drawing for a free coaching session. Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name to enter. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month.// sound-editing/design ~ Rose Blakelock, theme song ~ Kat Ottosen, podcast art ~ Natalee Miller///Support the show

There's room for personal growth in collective liberation—in fact, it's a critical component! Join Dana and her long-time teacher of nearly 13 years, Julia Frodahl, as they lean in and explore where our inner rebels come from, how we can show up for the consciousness revolution, the role of inner work as part of the Great Turning, self-compassion as a practice not a destination, cultivating vision when systems are unraveling, and how the mature rebel is actually the visionary—anchored in deep wisdom while remaining responsive to external realities.Julia Frodahl's next live online group course on nature-based parts work starts May 25th, learn more & sign up (https://bit.ly/julia-group). You can also connect with Julia on IG @juliafrodahl + through her app (https://www.juliafrodahl.com/app)Free grounding meditation with Dana ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowGet your copy of How Your Story Sets You FreeEnter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-minute coaching session with Dana. Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month.// sound-editing/design ~ Rose Blakelock, theme song ~ Kat Ottosen, podcast art ~ Natalee Miller///Support the show

Our attention is constantly being hijacked by systems training us to see ourselves as problems needing to be fixed. Let's play with the phenomena of ‘perception drift' (when you can't see changes in/on you— grace à Courtney Cox) and ‘change blindness' (when you can no longer see change around you) to explore how we're perpetuating coloniality rather than tending to collective issues + why reclaiming our attention and moving beyond pathologizing ourselves is revolutionary.This ep is full of ways to practice expanding your capacity for empathy & connection, resisting anti-intellectualism, tending to your nervous system resilience and reclaiming your attention as the act of graceful rebellion that it is!~ resources & more ~ Free grounding meditation ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowAttention & Will All the book recs from this episodeCOMET ☄️CORN

What sparks of guidance illuminate your path through uncertain times? When chaos swirls around us, where do we turn for direction?This episode takes us on a magical journey down a wishing well (!!) to meet artist and oracle Mary Evans (Spirit Speak), who offers a revelatory tarot reading addressing three vital questions: How can we use our creativity to support ourselves and the collective?What specifically do we, as individuals, need to focus on in uncertainty?  And what helps conjure the courage to challenge systems both within and around us?The cards reveal wisdom about pacing, perseverance, and the power of wishes. Wands appear repeatedly, signaling the centrality of creative fire to our current moment. We're reminded that finding courage begins in small alignments with our deepest truths, and that acknowledging when we're overwhelmed and need help isn't weakness but wisdom. Through it all runs the thread of "slow down medicine" – the subversive act of attending to unseen realms in a materialistic world.Mary Evans is a tarot reader, artist, and creator of six self-published tarot and oracle decks. With over a decade of experience, she blends tarot, spirituality, hypnosis, and art to explore the subconscious and navigate change. In this episode, she reads tarot for the collective, offering insight and reflection to help process the times at hand with clarity and resilience. Her work has been recognized by Vogue, Oprah Magazine, and the Whitney Museum.~ resources & more ~Photo of card drawingBeautiful Trouble — your troublemaker toolbox for effervescent rebellion!Connect with Mary + her most treasured things: www.spirit-speak.com for her deckson IG @m.a.r.y.e.v.a.n.swhen you can't find a wishing well IRLBespoke Meditation, soul-guidance tailor-made just for you! Free grounding meditation ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowEnter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-min coaching session with dana (value of $388). Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month./// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the show

Crybabies, welcome back to the jacuzzi-verse! In episode 2, let's explore the boundaries between security and insecurity, safety and unsafety. You're invited to embrace security as an illusion—a product sold to us, someone else's imagination of a limited version of ourselves, a way to keep us obedient and clinging to comfort—because then we can start to create our own definitions. Life-affirming, collective, nourishing, weird, radically caring, self-trusting, connective, uncomfortable, desirous, resilient, and adaptive! And look, security's weaponization has real consequences for many individuals and communities under threat from people & systems that use safety and security as mechanisms for control, which means that dismantling those systems by releasing ourselves from their definitions is more important than ever. Whew! Hop in, crybabies and let's take a quick spin around the insecurity block and see where we end up!Please share this episode with friends & community, and subscribe wherever you're listening!~ RESOURCES ~Free guided grounding meditation & get on Dana's weekly email list ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowWhen you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-minute coaching session. Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name — winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month. Subscribing is awesome, too!Weekly live grounding meditations with Dana on IG, Fridays at 10 am PT.milkthistleyuccavalley.com ~ use code jacuzzi15 at checkout!/// sound-editing/design ~ Rose Blakelock, theme song ~ Kat Ottosen, podcast art ~ Natalee Miller ///Support the show

Welcome back, crybabies! Season 3 is here and we're kicking it off with the brilliant relational astrologer, tarot reader, writer, and educator, Diana Rose (currently residing and thriving on the planet Venus). In episode 1, we explore rebellion as an act of maturing aka radical adulting aka self-trusting in an era of systemic oppression, rising fascism, and huge planetary shifts. Just a few tidbits from our entirely un-casual and truly delightful convo about humaning...• Clinging to control versus cultivating presence and trust in ourselves and life• How the rejection of death drives control-seeking behavior and fascist tendencies• Becoming a "grown-up" rebel through developing self-trust and accepting reality• The myth of Isis and Osiris as a metaphor for destruction, reassembly, and transformation• The importance of developing nervous system resilience to navigate intense times• How healing increases our ability to be in relation with ourselves and others• Why evacuating the need to be superior/hierarchy is one of the most rebellious acts possible• The distinction between rebellion as disruption versus revolution as total transformation~ resources ~Find Diana: ddamascenaa.com ddamascenaa.podia.com/radical-no-bundle (recordings of teachings & lectures, this one will surely be a crybaby fave)patreon.com/ddamascenaa for access to sessions & other contentsee Diana at LA Astrofest on 4/26-7Free grounding meditation ~ bit.ly/grounding-nowEnter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-min coaching session with dana (value of $388). Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month./// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the show

This is a special solstice, holiday slowdown medicine, between-season, late-stage capitalism-sucking-your-life-juice-dry, you-might-need-support episode full of practical guidance and self-warmth tips! Baba Ram Dass said, “If you think you are enlightened, go and spend a week with your family.” Whatever you may or may not be celebrating, this episode explores the importance of acceptance, a few quick energetic/emotional/nervous system grounding & resilience techniques, and the power of warm curiosity to foster understanding and connection with yourself and those in your world.~ resources mentioned ~Free grounding meditation ~ https://bit.ly/grounding-nowBespoke Meditation, a 1:1 coaching session + a personalized guided meditation ~ book yours now, https://bit.ly/bespoke-meditationEnter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-min coaching session with dana (value of $388). Email dana@danabalicki.com the review title + your review name. Winner announcements will be made across platforms mid-month./// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the show

Falling apart is hard work, crybabies. But you know what's even harder? NOT falling apart and using all of your precious energy and attention to hold your sh*t together in some configuration based on someone else's polycrisis-inducing imagination for your life! In the LAST EPISODE OF SEASON 2, we'll be looking at why falling apart is a useful technology for these times, how to recognize it when it's at your door, and how to make friends with it. We wrap with a group fondle (of plants, you dirty bird) with the whole existential team over here at crybaby HQ, broadcasting from the center of the jacuzzi-verse. So tune in and let go. We got you.

in this penultimate episode of season 2, we explore the essential role of DISRUPTION as a catalyst for inner & outer transformation.from protest movements to your own deepest inner work, let's open up to disruption as responsibility, as intervention, and as disorientation from cultural conditioning toward a new personal and collective alignment.~show notes~uncommitted movement (@uncommittedmvmt)CODEPINK (@codepinkalert)wonder valley olive oil (welcometowondervalley.com)enter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-min coaching session with dana (value of $388). DM (@danablix ig) or email (dana@danabalicki.com) a screenshot of your submission—take it right before you hit submit—along with the review name/title. winner announcements will be made across platforms!have a question for advice dom? call in and SUBMIT (your own question) --> 760-820-9070/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the Show.

it's ADVICE DOM time, crybabies. to the dungeon we go! this listener's SUBMISSION is a juicy one because it's about a reoccurring theme in season 2 + a reoccurring theme in HUMANING and just being alive on the planet right now in our "apocalypse era"—how do we live with all the anger!?how do we understand and tend to what's beneath it?is there a way to be with it and not be wholly consumed?can it be a beacon for personal growth?what does a healthy relationship with anger look like?our caller shares his courageous exploration, guiding us to lift the cultural and personal veils and explore new ways to be in a relationship with anger.ADVICE DOM's got some thoughts (and thots), as always.c'mon down to the cave for some spanky, slappy, advice-giving. BECAUSE SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO.™️call in and SUBMIT (your own question) --> 760-820-9070~show notes~ lama rod owens, "Love & Rage: The Path of Liberation Through Anger"how does our anger serve us? sarah peyton (youtube) list of needs nvc (also meenadchi's work, decolonizing non-violence + her group practice offerings 10/10 recommend)enter to win a free coaching session ~ when you leave a 5-star rating (only) and a written review, you'll be entered into a monthly drawing for a free 90-min coaching session with dana (value of $388). DM (@danablix instagram) or email a screenshot of your submission—take it right before you hit submit—along with the review name/title. winner announcements will be made across platforms!/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, cover art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

broadcasting straight from the heart of the jacuzzi-verse (in a quantum overlap with the heart of the western imperialist, death-cult empire!), let's talk about death, baby. but death and uncertainty as secret core drivers of our lives via the unconscious decisions we make, the people we gravitate towards, and the ways we feel about ourselves. so, let's take a cosmically unhinged journey through the twisty relationship between death awareness, collective death anxiety, and self-esteem. AND THEN, we'll explore what's on the other side—the hope, the compassion, the binary-dissolving, the power of mutualism! dana also shares about her time in post-Katrina New Orleans and more. we truly hope you enjoy this episode of crying in my jacuzzi, where we live, laugh, love in the anthropocene.~show notes (aka a reading list you really need)~"worm at the core: on the role of death in life" by sheldon solomon"foundations of violence" by grace jantzen"this mortal coil" article in SUN magazine"a paradise built in hell: the extraordinary communities that arise in disaster" by rebecca solnit"mutual aid: an illuminated factor of evolution" ak press"solidarity: the past, present and future of a world-changing idea" by astra taylor and leah hunt-hendrix/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the Show.

it's another trip to the magical library for some BIBLIOMANCY divination! let's  explore the transformative power of rage, drawing connections between our big (sometimes scary) feelings and the boundless potential they hold when tended to with curiosity and compassion.as per always, you're invited to take any divine messages received or needs met and carry them back into your daily lives. /// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the Show.

holy jacuzzi, crybabies! what if the critique we experience (in our relationships, incl with ourselves) is masking unmet needs as well as our deepest desires? in this jacuzzi-verse layer, we tend to our inner critics with curiosity and compassion—unlocking a potential for more profound inner-allyship & understanding. we also untangle some tired-ass stories linking self-criticism and being a high performer. byeeeee! and as per yooj, we wrap with a nourishing and simple guided exercise! c'mon down and join the tub club

welcome back, ever-evolving souls—it's ADVICE DOM time. to the dungeon we go! today's listener SUBMISSION is a two-fer. TWO Qs, ONE CUP full of As. one question about what to do when you're trying and not getting what you want + another about what to do when you're getting everything.believe it or not, there's a common answer to both.ADVICE DOM's got questions and answers!c'mon down to the cave for some spanky, slappy, advice-giving. BECAUSE SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO.™️call in and SUBMIT (your own question) --> 760-820-9070/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller///Support the Show.

who really belongs in your support system? maybe not everyone who's there right now!! in this episode, we'll peel back layers and layers of your relationship to your relationships, explore what might be holding you in old patterns and feeeeel into support in our own miraculous bodies with some gentle somatic resonance practices! big work, tenderly. we get bewildered, dance with the necessity of self-warmth and true understanding, expand into the pluriverse, and look at how the whole wide world can be your mommy (it'll make more sense-ation when you get to that part). tune in to soak up the warmth and resonance that this episode offers + get hydrated with the world's first SUPPORT SYSTEM DRINKING GAME™ hosted by our beloved robot cohost alex and robot producer janet.~ show notes ~use the interwebs to find:sarah peyton's "your resonant self workbook"want to dive deeper into pluriversality and decolonial ontologies? > arturo escobar's "designs for the pluriverse" + the effervescent leah garza and her living systems course & akashic mentorship (10/10 recommend)rha goddess and move the crowd entrepreneurial training (+ we got issues book)/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, cover art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

it's time for season 2's first field trip to the magical library, where we engage in the ancient wisdom of bibliomancy—using texts as tools for divination. join dana, CONNIE the quantum (book) worm, and THE LIBRARIAN as the library serves up another oracular text so we can explore our relationship to cycles of life and death, beauty and tragedy, heartbreak and hope, grief and existence and non-being. set an intention and make space for the divine to deliver a message and meaning just for you. enjoy another super chill day in the jacuzzi-verse!~show notes~ etel adnan, the spring flowers own & the manifestations of the voyage/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, cover art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

what if brokenheartedness wasn't something to get through, but an honored & trusted guide toward interconnectedness, courage, and grief as catalyst for heartfelt action? in this episode we explore the wild paradox of love and sorrow, and the transformative power of embracing both…love in the time of broken hearts. dana shares her own personal heartbreak stories—including her biggest—plus, some reminder practices for how to slowdown and tune into the tender life experience of grief AKA the risk of living & loving!~show notes~Living by the Word: a collection of essays, Alice Walker (“Nobody Was Supposed to Survive”—referenced MOVE Bombing essay)/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, cover art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

welcome back, ever-evolving souls—it's ADVICE DOM time. to the dungeon we go! today's listener SUBMISSION is all about navigating honesty, transparency, and intimacy when running an online presence & business. we explore oversharing and vulnerability, authenticity and digital intimacy, and entertaining the possibility that saying the damn thing could get you more of what you want, not less. ADVICE DOM's got questions and answers!c'mon down to the cave for some spanky, slappy, advice-giving. BECAUSE SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO.™️call in and SUBMIT (your own question) --> 760-820-9070/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

wonder & awe, the keys to belonging and connection! or at least that's how we see it here at crybaby HQ in the bubbling cauldron center of the jacuzzi-verse! yes, being human is complex. so much so, that we can forget we have agency—even under violence & oppressive systems—to choose how we show up. so let's swan dive into the wondrous nature of existence by opening ourselves to wonder & awe. to flirting with the world BECAUSE SHE ALWAYS FLIRTS BACK. big-point-alert >> when we open ourselves to relationality, we practice unraveling the painful knots of coloniality. so flirting = liberation (see what we did there?)!also, in this episode we'll have our first *special guest*—a real squishy, cosmic surprise! so tune in, turn on, and get into flirt-the-world mode with dana and all the crybabies.~ show notes ~karen barad, meeting the universe halfway (quantum physics and the entanglement of matter and meaning) ~ https://smartnightreadingroom.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/05/meeting-the-universe-halfway.pdf// sound design & editing by rose blakelock, theme song by kat ottosen, cover art by natalee miller // Support the Show.

aaaaand…we're back! season 2 of crying in my jacuzzi is upon us, BUT FIRST, we need a warm-up. so let's start with a little drunk history rendition of the buddha's enlightenment and ride that all the way to the student encampment movement…along the way, we'll explore the “immovable spot” of inherent power within ourselves and this collective moment, navigate the middle path between spiritual bypass and extremism, and call in the guidance of descending power. ~show notes~The Buddha's Path (https://www.lionsroar.com/buddha-path-to-awakening/)Bayo Akómoláfé on fugitivity (https://www.bayoakomolafe.net/post/coming-down-to-earth)Inside the Student Movement  (https://theintercept.com/2024/05/08/intercepted-student-protests-gaza-columbia/)Interactive map of solidarity encampments worldwide (https://www.palestineiseverywhere.com/)Student interview on police violence ~ a must watch (https://bit.ly/3UN770g)A tribute to Dr. Refaat Alareer (https://lareviewofbooks.org/article/palestine-is-a-story-away-a-tribute-to-refaat-alareer/)// sound design & editing by rose blakelock, theme song by kat ottosen, cover art by natalee miller // Support the Show.

message of support from dana in these complex times: "this is a simple guided meditation/visualization that i've used for years in my own energetic practices, with clients to support their presence, and i'm honored to share this with you. use when you're feeling scattered, overwhelmed, spread-thin, depleted, uncertain, dissociated, or any other time of day you need a dose of slowdown medicine to ground, realign, and reenergize. this one small practice that will support each of us in embracing AND SHAPING our changing world."ceasefire now ♡ end the occupation /// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock //Support the Show.

in this last episode of season 1, meet the love of dana's life. no, not her husband (sorry, ray ray). and not baby honey biscuits the cat (like she cares). but slowdown medicine, the entity that chose her so many years ago and continues to radically guide her (and now you) through our world saturated with urgency, pathologizing, and unhinged hustling. gather 'round! and hear the tale of how a UTI transformed our dear dana's life, slowed her the eff down, and introduced a more resonant, compassionate, and awe-filled existence. and you can have this, too.can the entirety of slowdown medicine be contained in one episode? ABSOLUTELY NOT. could another 100 episodes be dedicated to this? FRIGGIN YES. is crying in my jacuzzi steeped in slowdown medicine, so we'll always be diving in deeper? 1000%**warning: this episode is a spell. you may experience a desire to slow down, reclaim your attention, and get a little (or a lot) weirder.**~shownotes~báyò akómoláfé, essay, a slower urgencysimone weil, essay, attention and will & human personality have a big burning question for advice dom? leave a voice message at 760-820-9070grounding meditation (for dana's clients and now for you!) /// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock //Support the Show.

in this episode, infused with the sweetness of desire, abundance, and huzzah!, we're going to dig into CELEBRATION AS THE SERIOUS FRIGGIN' BUSINESS THAT IT IS. in our dominant (westernized) culture, CELEBRATION gets a bad/twisty wrap. it's the thing that you have to hold out for, only do on very special occasions, only do at the end of a journey, and only have if you've won or achieved the intended goal. this model is full of withholding, scarcity, and longing. it's also not encouraging of true, deep, and sustained joy. so let's look at why we gotta honor our journeys along the way, how a whole social justice movement really lost the plot, and what we can do to infuse our lives with more appreciation and joy along the way. context warning: dana does not believe that joy is at the highest end of the emotional spectrum and should be prioritized above other feelings...this is just an episode on CELEBRATION, and joy is a key part of that.~shownotes~want to send me your list of "accomplishments"? please do! dana at danabalicki dot com[book] dopamine nation by dr anne lembke[book] in the realm of hungry ghosts by dr gabor mate[book] the molecule of more by dr daniel liebrman and michael long/// podcast art excellence ~ natalee miller, theme song brilliance ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design genius ~ rose blakelock ///Support the Show.

humans have never been very good at uncertainty — the impermanence of existence is uncomfortable for us. so while we can't actually do anything about the groundless nature of reality we've learned to do some things about the discomfort. namely avoid, conflate comfort with safety and a bevy of other ineffectual approaches to living in the world! there are costs too — creativity, vision, curiosity, acceptance, and DESIRE.so climb into bed with dana (her makeshift recording studio) and get cozy and uncomfortable as you dive into how she upended her marriage, questioned her reality and identity, and then found her way closer and closer to her deep desires...which is how CRYING IN MY JACUZZI was born!~ show notes ~tema okun's essaypema chödrön's taking the leapmartha beck's episode on discomfortepisode 7 of crying in my jacuzzi "feeling YOURSELF: a practical exercise for (self) centering"/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

welcome back, brave souls — to the cave we go! with ADVICE DOM leading the way! in today's journey we explore the complexity of embarking on bold, new ventures, while tending to heavy, old patterns. where's the real growth happening? what do you do when you inevitably fall back into the old patterns? who are you becoming as you emerge through the uncertainty? we talk about the super power of softness, the life lube™ of compassion, care bear stares, being a bad btch, and more. c'mon down to the cave for some spanky, slappy advice-giving. BECAUSE SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO.shownotes ~listen to episode 7 for a practical exercise on self-prioritization/// sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock, theme song ~ kat ottosen, podcast art ~ natalee miller ///Support the Show.

as a rebellious girl-child of the '80s, dana had zero dreams of marriage. and yet, a surprise(ish) marriage proposal from her long-time no-marriage sweetheart became a portal of profound transformation in her relationship with herself, to change — oh, and him too.  we live in a relational world, we change each other all the time! in this ep we explore discomfort, clinging to identities, getting in our own way of change, and how to be PRESENT with the ever-changing nature of reality. so WDYD when change sits on your face and proposes marriage? let's go find out!++ we wrap our time together with some big guiding questions to help you relate to change, as well as a quickie guided meditation to let it land in your body.~shownotes~summer coaching special with danawomancode, bookon harm reduction, essay by dr. gabor mate my intergalactic mermaid ringorigins of the bechdel test /// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

buckle up, buttercup! join dana on another trip to the magical library, where we engage in the ancient wisdom of bibliomancy -- using texts as tools for divination. the library (and THE LIBRARIAN OMGGGG)  serves up a well-worn copy of Rebecca Solnit's, "a field guide to getting lost," a reflection on curiosity, mystery, desire, and exploring all our relationship to the unknown. so, get ready for a field trip like no other!Support the Show.

this episode is part 2 on self-centeredness. and it's a coaching exercise! in these 30 minutes, we'll look at your relationship to your relationships, your patterns of stretching yourself too thin in efforts to maintain connections at your own expense, and how to come back to (or visit for the first time!) your healthy middle and cultivate relationships without sacrificing your own well-being. ta-dah!let's explore the complexities of your relationships with curiosity and compassion!listening to episode 6 isn't critical to understanding this exercise (but also, it's great, so why not have a listen if you haven't already?)the cherry on top - a very summer-friendly coaching offer, uniquely curated to help you cultivate radical clarity and courage for your own needs/wants/desires in your life, love, leadership, and work. ~ shownotes ~julia frodahlfierce conversations, by susan scottleave dana a voice message about how your healthy-middle exploration is going! 760-820-9070healthy-middle FANCY diagram/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound-editing/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

let's dive into the unexpected power of self-centeredness. seeing it not as a negative trait — dominant culture narrative be damned! — but as a liberatory tool that can help dissolve (and uphold! oh, the brilliant paradox!) personal boundaries and cultivate deeper connections.  introspection as a catalyst for personal and collective transformation. dana shares her story as a burned-out activist, full up with punk damage, and how she found a healing portal through the self...and ultimately others, and trees, too.we talk about deepening your relationships, living systems ontologies, animism, burnout and brain drain, the power of agency, dissolving the self while honoring the self, releasing the cultural binary of 'right' and 'wrong', and how you can connect with the desires of trees!leah garza's living systems (http://crystalsofaltamira.com/classes)"sustainable activism" by dana b for ravenous zine (https://danabalicki.com/sustainable-activism/)we got issues (the book)centering practice (strozzi institute)/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, soundediting/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

in ep #5, we (dana, with help from the lesson minions) dig into the weird world of therapeutic service that can pressure us to transform every life experience into a marketable service offering. health & wellness or wealth & hellness?let's play with mindfulness, gender socialization, perfectionism, the specter of neoliberalism, self-trust vs self-sacrifice, boundary-setting, cultural programming around "helpfulness," and more.  AND ARE YOU READY TO GO TO THE ADVICE DOM CAVE?? perhaps a little more pinchy and bossy than the magical library, but a worthy trip to the liminal realms indeed. sometimes people just want to be told what to do!** wanna leave a question for advice dom (or a message for dana)? >> drop a VM at ‪(760) 820-9070‬ **/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, soundediting/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

like a magic schoolbus for grownups ~ ~ join dana on a little adventure from your daily hustle & flow into the wonder & mystery of living! we've got oracular books, divination, sea creatures, slowdown medicine, the art of knowing your heart, and more./// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound editing/design ~ rose blakelock,  podcast support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

not your typical "how-to" in easy peasy steps... more of a how-to-feel-and-trust-your-desires-in-order-to-create-a-life-of-resonance. here's a guide to making your biggest life decisions through the story of dana and ryan's move from nyc to the mojave desert (almost 9 years ago, eeep!). we'll discuss owning your desires, connecting with your intuition, and the realities of wanting in late-stage capitalism. there's also #PLANTFONDLING (a whole guided fondle at the end of the episode!) and of course, cohost robot alex & producer robot janet make appearances. so yes, there are steps. and missteps. ebbs and flows. as per yooj. let's go.transcript/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, sound editing/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

in episode #2, dana explores a universal experience — your oldest, most painful pattern shows up...so what the heck do you do? you'll get an insight into dana's recent dance with one of her oldest and stickiest core patterns and how she worked her way through it. dana shares step-by-step practices that she teaches all of her clients, along with compassion practices that you can use with any of your "go eat worms" moments! plus, robot cohost alex & robot producer janet really mix it up. transcript (via google doc)/// podcast art ~ natalee miller, theme song ~ kat ottosen, soundediting/design ~ rose blakelock,  production support ~ softer sounds studio ///Support the Show.

welcome, welcome, to crying in my jacuzzi: the ebbs and flows of living an examined life! in this first episode, you'll:meet dana, your reverently irreverent host & guide (+ seasoned life coach & former radical political organizer), as well as robot cohost alex, robot co-producer janet, and the advice dom (it's a real party over here); learn why we're in a jacuzzi and why we're crying in it; figure out what kind of weirdo you are (or just delightfully weirdo-adjacent!) and why this is the podcast to satisfy your weird and wonderful desires; and discover what's in store on this magic-schoolbus-for-adults podcast ride.(no hotdog eating is actually necessary! no hotdogs were harmed in the recording of this episode!)/// podcast art by the brilliant natalee miller, theme song by the ever-talented kat ottosen, soundediting/design by the effervescent rose blakelock, and production support from softer sounds studio ///~ SHOWNOTES ~dana eating the transcendent hotdog; some of dana's beloved teachers: rha goddess; gail straub & david gershon; julia frodahl; the anthropocene as explained by the brilliant folx at the natural history museum;alok and their beautiful work;transcript (via google doc)Support the Show.