Pattern Stalker

Is it possible to rewrite your story? In this final interview with Grif, we discuss the voice inside our heads and perception vs reality.  We also discuss his career path, how he solves problems, and his thoughts on the pandemic. Photo: Grif Von Holst Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

My next guest is my good friend Grif. He is an expert in 3-D product innovation and is currently the Senior Product Manager for Centric Software. Centric Software is the number one fashion PLM(product lifecycle management) solution for the industry and are based out of Silicon Valley. In this interview, we talk about his intimate and tortuous battle with imposter syndrome, his career path, and if he thinks fashion companies really care about sustainability. Photo: Grif Von Holst Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third and final episode with Boris, we explore his views on religion, relationships, and personal development. Photo: "Perception" by Boris PelcerCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In this episode, Boris talks about his profound experience with magic mushrooms in Amsterdam and his complicated relationship with social media as an artist.Photo: Boris Pelcer (self portrait)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

Imagine waking up one day and finding out you're going to have to leave your whole world behind. Your friends, your relatives, your home, and all of your belongings.In this next series, I interview my friend Boris who shares his story of how he and his family became refugees of the Bosnian War.  We explore how this event has shaped his artwork, relationships, and health.Photo: Boris Pelcer (self portrait)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third and final episode with Alicia, we talk about COVID-19 and it's impact. We also talk about drugs, psychedelics and how to become more self aware.Photo: Alicia HardestyCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In this episode, Alicia and I talk about the fashion industry and the role we play in it. Photo: Alicia HardestyCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In this series, I interview my friend Alicia who some of you might know or remember from season 10 of Project Runway. A natural born rebel raised in rural Kentucky, you can't help but to be lured in by her raw, authentic, unapologetic style. In this first episode, we talk about her personal transformation and life growing up as a tomboy in Kentucky. We also go into great depth about identity, labels, and coming out.Photo: Alicia HardestyCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third and final episode with my Aunt Claire, it becomes quite clear to me how much my family and I struggle with boundaries, codependency, and addiction to work. Is this just a common thing amongst blue-collar families or is it something that runs deeper than that?Photo: Aunt ClaireCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

“As the ACE study has shown, child abuse and neglect is the single most preventable cause of mental illness, the single most common cause of drug and alcohol abuse, and a significant contributor to leading causes of death such as diabetes, heart disease, cancer, stroke, and suicide.” - Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of TraumaPhoto: Aunt Claire with her sons Kenny and Joe.Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third series, I interview my beloved Aunt Claire; mother to all and backbone of the Cameron family. In this first episode, we cover the sudden loss of her father at an early age and the complicated relationship she had with her mother and her mother's addiction. Photo: Aunt Claire (top), her sister Carolyn (middle), her brother Bob (bottom). Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third and final episode with my Uncle Rocky, we talk more about his bar and why that time period is still full of darkness for him.  Photo: Uncle Rocky (left), Aunt Claire (right) both holding the sign.Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings 

What does it take to beat years or even generations of addiction? In this episode, Uncle Rocky shares his long and complicated battle with alcohol and more family stories.Photo: Uncle Rocky (Victor), his son Joe (left), his son Kenny (right)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings 

In the second series, I interview my Uncle Rocky (who I was named after).  He is my Mom's only living brother and one of the very few in the family to beat his addiction to alcohol and cigarettes. In this first episode, we talk a bit about his life growing up in southeastern Ohio and the death of my grandparents. He also shares stories from his time working in the salt mines, coal mines, and as the owner of his own bar. Photo: Uncle Rocky (Victor) and meCredits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In the third and final episode with my Mom, the realization that a change is needed begins to sink in. So where do we go from here? And is change even possible?Photo: Mom (Vicki) and my brother (Derek)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In this episode, Mom and I talk through Dad's health issues, his new found sense of purpose, and my struggles as a first generation college student. Photo: Dad (Kirk)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings

In this first episode, I interview my Mom in order to find out more about her childhood and life story. We explore her experiences of being the youngest and only girl in her family, a young Mom in an abusive relationship, and life growing up in rural Ohio. Photo: Mom (Vicki)Credits:Podcast Intro/OutroSong: I Will Never Let You Die Artist: An Autumn for Crippled Children© 2016  Wickerman Recordings