InseQueer: The Podcast

I was almost killed. Discussion mattersAssault Sexual AssaultRapeTrauma Support the show

Y'all. I've never felt like this. Ever. And somehow that's become the problem. ...Being of sound mind and body, I can declare that I am not of sound mind and body LOL. Support the show

For some reason I wanted to share "The Mask" by Dr. Maya Angelou which she penned in response to Paul Laurence Dunbar's we wear the mask. I don't remember it having a huge place in this episode, but I have been talking a great deal about removing masks and telling my truth which is what I hope Season 4 will allow. Either way, I am continuing to unpack my way to peace. This one didn't have tears, I promise. Anyway,  Dr. Angelou's poem can be seen here.  I am grieving and I am growing. I am okay.Support the show

Dear God,I know you have given me the ability to be vulnerable and the gift for wanting to share my story and most authentically my truth.  I am so grateful for this season in my life God. I have to thank you. I am so grateful that you've ordered my steps to a therapist that I trust. To not just talking about being a vulnerable person but actually being vulnerable.Thank you for this project as it has become my therapy and my salvation. I'm grateful for what is in season 4 of InseQueer: The Podcast. I know I need this space. My own safe space. A place where I can be me authentically. I won't run from my nudge this time. Thanks Oprah. ***To my listeners, I am trusting myself to know that my story is to connect us with  a safe space to lean into honesty, vulnerability and authenticity.      My voice. My vulnerability. My vessel.  Support the show

I have to take accountability for my actions. Learning to listen. Support the show

My growth is on the other side of this truth,...You are not alone. ...Consent is necessaryGod, Growth and Beyoncé Support the show

I dance now. Support the show

I am grateful to be alive. Thank you, Beyonce.  Support the show

I found out I was bipolar about two months ago and well these are just my thoughts on my diagnosis. 

It felt beyond freeing to record a more streamlined and honest episode. I only edited one tangent out and removed about 8-10 mins of a poignant but not succinct attempt at trying to also observe Dr. King, I've spent a day researching him for another assignment and accidentally got invigorated to want to revisit him, I also accidentally got inspired too, I'm grateful...This episode was also inspired by Brené Brown's recent conversation with Oprah on Super Soul Podcast. The conversation centered on Brené's book,  Atlas of the heart.  She talks about the power of choosing the word that BEST describes what you're feeling. This unlocked some new things for me, please take a listen and I'd love to hear what you think in however you choose to share with me. I personally appreciate comments, reviews, DMs and for some of you, text me!…

In this episode, Chloe revisits her depression download and discusses how covid has called her into quite a career conundrum.InseQuestion: What's one thing that you love as much as she loves New York City?Want a conversation with Chloe?Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comYoutube:  https://www.youtube.com/c/InseQueerThePodcast/vid

In this episode, Chloe offers a disclaimer on something mentioned in the episode pre the heinous shootings that occurred in Atlanta. Chloe stands against #AAPI hate. Stop Asian Hate. Stop POC hate. Stop Brown Hate. Stop Black hate, Stop. Hate. Chloe's depression came to the microphone and spoke directly about Chloe's #insequeerity around life starting over "post covid".  Please know that while this episode is honest, vulnerable, and at times heartbreaking, Chloe is in therapy and is happily navigating these very conversations with a trained professional.  If you are looking for a therapist please see options that Chloe endorses: https://www.nycaffirmativepsychotherapy.com (LGBTQ sliding scale therapy accepts most insurance) or  Devin Niecy-https://www.instagram.com/back.talk.services/?hl=en. (Decolonized Therapy, backtalksevices@gmail.com). No matter what, seeking help is always the answer. ...InseQuestion(s): What does your depression feel like? How has ...Want a conversation with Chloe?Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comYoutube:  https://www.youtube.com/c/InseQueerThePodcast/vid

In this episode, Chloe discusses how not having a relationship with her father has manifested into her everyday understanding of her connections with the "dominant" men in her life. As a note, this episode mentions sexual trauma, rape, sexual assault, molestation, and Bill Cosby. #MeTooInseQuestion:  What would your dream relationship with your dad look like?  If my "dream dad"  was a movie what would look like? #UnFALCONbelievable #FalconPride 

In this episode, Chloe talks about what it feels like to be in the "middle" of two defining generations and the cure or curse that came along with being a millennial as it relates to work, passion, and what "being professional" does to one's creativity.  In the words of Chloe, "they sell us the dream but don't tell us how to go to sleep", with that said, listen as Chloe continues to "WAKE UP". ...No InseQuestion for this episode, but if you have a question for Chloe chat with her below!...Want a conversation with Chloe?Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comYoutube:  https://www.youtube.com/c/InseQueerThePodcast/videos

Welcome Back! Welcome to Season 2 of InseQueer: The Podcast, right out the gate, Chloe is back with new #Insequeerities and the same energy to work through or at least acknowledge them! In this episode, Chloe talks about what turning 34 feels like and why it's only right that she reclaim her 20s. This episode is dedicated to Uncle James. Happy Birthday to Chloe and Happy Birthday to Season 2 of InseQueer the Podcast! InseQuestion(s): What's your favorite birthday moment? A birthday moment you won't forget? What's a dream birthday experience you'd like to have?Want a conversation with Chloe?Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/c/InseQueerThePodcast/videos

In this episode, Chloe opens up about what it feels like to be a Patriotic Black Gay Woman in America after witnessing the Racist Domestic Attacks on the American Democracy at the hands of 45 “years to Life”, Donald Trump....A Break-Up Letter to America.

On the 1st day of #Podmas my #InseQueerity gave to me, AN IMPOSTER SYNDROME and a slight Hangover! That's right, on this episode, Chloe discusses her most "present" insequeerity, of having a newly defined understanding of what it means to be an Imposter in her life and in her creativity. ...This is the end of #Podmas2020 but just the beginning for InseQueer: The Podcast. Happy Holidays and stay insequeer into this new year! Until Next time! So much love from your insequeer as fuck ass host, Chloe! ...Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRlr_vCH3PHwVJ_LeADp7Qg?view_as=subscriberInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com

On the 2nd Day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me, 2 Much Shit-IDK, Look 12 episodes was a committment and honestly, I am just here so I don't get fined. This episode was supposed to discuss Chloe's "2 Chapped Lips" but after reflecting on the episodes of #Podmas, it didn't feel right, so in true Chloe, interrupting, fucking outlines fashion, this episode discusses the fact that there are 2 MANY THINGS that Chloe "just doesn't know". ...Of all the things that Chloe doesn't know, one thing that she knows for sure, is that she is grateful for your listens, likes, ratings and for you riding along with her on her #InseQueerAF journey.

On the 3rd day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me...3 EXPENSIVE ADDICTIONS. In this episode, Chloe talks about her addictions and the price she has had to pay for her relationships with food, drinking, and caring too much about what people who don't matter think of her. This episode is dedicated to everyone who has fallen victim to believing other people's truth about them and not their own. #ItDoesGetBetter and you will get the last #Laugh ____________________________________Want a Conversation with Chloe?_____________________________________Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRlr_vCH3PHwVJ_LeADp7Qg?view_as=subscriberInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: Insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com

On the 4th day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me... 400 pounds! That's right, 400 of them thangs! In this episode, Chloe discusses so many factors that contributed to her weight gain and weight loss surgery. This episode only scratches the surface of Chloe's battle of her bulge. Stay Tuned, and if you get nothing from this episode, please begin to love yourself at whatever size you currently are, because that's the start to any successful lifestyle change. W E I G H T L O S S D O E S N T M A K E Y O U H A P P Y, O N L Y Y O U C A N D O T H A TConsidering Weight Loss Surgery? Listen to my experience on my podcast hosted by WJMS Radio entitled Worth the Weight, Episodes can be found---> www.wjmsradio.com/zoraknows______________________________________Want a Conversation with Chloe?______________________________________Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com

On the 5th day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me...5 FAILED FRIENDSHIPS!... That's right in this episode, Chloe talks about the failed 5 friendships that used to feel like "5 Golden Rings" in her life. She chronicles the break-ups, breakthroughs, and the role she played in each of the 5 breakdowns. While these 5 didn't necessarily fail over the holiday season, Chloe is beyond grateful for the gifts she's been given by each and every person discussed and wishes them the gift of a friendship that suites each of their biggest wish list. ...Friends, how many of us have them?...Want a conversation/connection with Chloe?Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com

On the 6th Day of #Podmas my InseQueerity gave to me, 6 YEARS OF DEPRESSION.In this episode, Chloe discusses what it feels like to accept, acknowledge, and begin to unpack what her relationship is with her depression. This is one that focuses on the 6 years of Chloe's life after she owned her what HER depression looks like. Nothing says 'tis the season' like discussing the seasons of your #Depression. ...Social MediaInstagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRlr_vCH3PHwVJ_LeADp7Qg?view_as=subscriberInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackWant a Conversation or Collaboration with Chloe---> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

On the 7th day of #Podmas my #InseQueerity gave to me, 7 FUCKED UP HABITS. In this episode, Chloe discusses 7 of her most fucked up habits that she would like to leave in 2020 or unpack in what she calls the "Boo Year". InseQuestion: What is one "fucked up habit" you'd like to leave in 2020?...Social MediaInstagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRlr_vCH3PHwVJ_LeADp7Qg?view_as=subscriberInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackWant a conversation or collaboration with Chloe--> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

On the 8th day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me, 8 PODCASTS TO ENVY/INSPIRE ME. In this episode, Chloe speaks truthfully about peer pods that she has secretly been envious of and inspired by. Thank you so much to every podcast mentioned, your work motivates me, terrifies me, inspires me, and reminds me that it's okay, to be honest, open, dedicated, and committed to your work. Staying in my lane while admiring each of you in yours! #Podernfamily Chloe's 8 Podcasts to Envy 8- Black Girl Film Club 7- 2 Homos Podcast6- That Wasn't In My Textbook5- Another Word for Lesbian4- Happy Munkey Podcast/Potcast3. Tea with Q and J2. The Read1. Overqualified and Drunk ---Pay Per Play coming soon (if you want it, DM me!)Want a Conversation or Collaboration with Chloe?---> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

On the 9th day of #Podmas, my #InseQueerity gave to me, 9 NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS! And what faith is telling Chloe is 1 tragically induced Breakthrough. This episode was supposed to focus on how "seasonal" my depression typically is during the Christmas Season, but after a tragic 6 alarm fire that destroyed a historic yet revolutionary staple in my life and in my community @MiddleChurch has made this episode more about reflecting on what has helped me during my times of crisis. This Christmas season many of us are mourning the loss of loved ones due to COVID, many of us are still mourning those we've lost years before COVID and this is the season to be kind to ourselves, each other, and our mental health. How can one of your breakdowns be seen as a breakthrough? ...Want a conversation with Chloe? ---> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpodTIS THE SEASON TO SUPPORT MIDDLE COLLEGIATE CHURCH Article About Middle Church---> https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/05/nyregion/church-fire-nyc.htmlWant to Donate to Middle Chuch---> https://www.middlechurch.org/donateMusic at the end of this episode is from Middle Church ---> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qb9ukuexp4M

10- TOO MANY TATTOOS-On the 10th Day of #Podmas Chloe discusses her #InseQueerity surrounding her love for the art that adorns her ever-changing body as it relates to work, weight loss, and the lack of colored ink for People of Color (POC). Are tattoos still taboo in 2020?Want a conversation with Chloe? ---> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

11 Ls on SNKRs APP- On the 11th day of Podmas Chloe's #InseQueerity gave to her - cool Grey 11s -no actually it didn’t, Chloe discusses from her understanding the SNKRs (sneakers app) and what it means for her as she becomes insecure about aging out of the shoe game while being super InseQueer about one of her holy grail sneakers that usually drops every "10 years", the cool grey 11 drops and the overall hysteria around the next big release. How many "L"s are you taking in your shoe game?Also huge shoutout to my shoe plug who you can find on Instagram @unbreakablekicks and on youtube where he discusses all of the best drops and even gives tips on how to take a few less "L"s as a sneaker community ---> https://www.youtube.com/results?sp=mAEB&search_query=unbreakable+kicksWant a conversation with Chloe? --->https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

$12,000 IN CREDIT CARD DEBT- On the 12th day of Podmas, Chloe's #InseQueerity gave to her- $12,000 Worth of Credit Card Debt- After paying her monthly bills for December and seeing just how much money she had left, Chloe decided to give you all the gift that keeps on giving, herself! That's right, for 12 days leading up until December 25th, Chloe will be dropping one podcast as part of what she thinks she's coined as "#Podmas" outlining all the things that she's received "for Christmas" thanks to her #InseQueerity ...Doesn't it feel like #PODMAS? ...Want a conversation with Chloe? ---> https://linktr.ee/insequeerpod

In this bonus episode (you're welcome) Chloe reminds us with the help of @hebontheweb that the "Pandemic isn't over, just because you're over it", and gives a David Letterman style Top 10 account of all the things she's been InseQueer about since starting InseQueer the podcast.#InseQuestion- What's one thing you're #Insequeer about?Pages mentioned in the podcast@twospoileddogsnyc if you want to meet Chloe's not so InseQueer dogs Duncan and Phinnaeus@Theplantstemmes - if you want to follow Chloe's plant page@Theplantkween - For plant inspiration and a true example of "trailblazing in your lane"Don't forget to Like, Rate, Share, Write a Review and find your lane!See you Next Season and until then follow Chloe here:Instagram: @insequeer_thepodcastTwitter: @insequeerpodInsequeer AF Host: @back_too_blackEmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com

***First*** Beyonce, Parkwood, and crew, don't sue me, ya'll got it, I just needed a few minutes of "Best I Never Had" from the best to ever do it! Also, I bought a full outfit from both AdidasxIvyPark lines, I am a STAN and I do not own the rights to any songs on this episode. In this SEASON 1 FINALE (MAMA WE MADE IT), Chloe finishes out her long overdue coming out story, chronicles what happens when you avoid red flags, don't fully know your worth, and what happens when you have a trauma bond be broken by the one who created it. Even while addressing all the relived and unacknowledged hurt, Chloe simply just laughs, and that friends, is why she's "ONE TOUGH TITTY".Question of the Episode: How do you remotely begin to accept an apology that you never received? Make sure to email your response or any commentary to insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comFollow, Like, Share and Rate this podcast on whichever platform you listen too and be sure to follow Insequeer the podcast on Instagram @insequeer_thepodcast and on Twitter @Insequeerpod Stay Tuned for Season

In this SEASON FINALE, Chloe finally explains why she's been so inseQUEER her whole out life and leaves you wanting more...stay tuned. Music: Jay Z Encore (Please don't sue or cease and desist me) Note from Chloe: Thank you all so much for supporting me in this new venture. Insequeer has been a long time coming and has been nothing short of a pleasure to record. I told myself if I made it to 10 episodes, I could then post on social media. 10 episodes made it real. Well today, you can find me at:Twitter: @InseQueerPodInstagram: @insequeer_thepodcastGmail: insequeerthepodcast@gmail.comIt's only just begun.

In this episode, Chloe tries her hand at novice editing while realizing that her anger for a canceled show is deeply rooted in the lack of representation she has experienced her whole life. Be introduced to a show you've probably never seen, a name you should know, and another alarming example of the inequity at play when it comes to all things media. #HighFidelity InseQuestions:How many of you are the Cherise's of your life?What's one show that represents you? If it doesn't exist, what would it look like?What is F.R.I.E.N.D.S. really even about? Make sure to have a #ConversationWithChloe and email her insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com and as always, rate, like, share and subscribe!Song: I believe (when I fall in love it will be forever) performed by Da’Vine Joy Randolph Disclaimer: I own NONE of the rights to any of the music or audio borrowed for the making of this podcast.

In this episode, Chloe talks about the best of both worlds she lives in New York City, what being a college graduate/dropout means to her, the detours of her dreams, and the consequences of chasing them as a 30 something. Kanye the prophet who became for-profit and conversations about is college worth it?Thank you to all of you that listen from all over the world (literally). Want to have a "conversation with Chloe"? Email her at insequeerthepodcast@gmail.com and tell her how you found her.InseQueer Question: What is one "shoulda" you should've ignored?

In this episode, Chloe "the bald head scallywag" rambles on about being InseQueer about this podcast, her seat at the creative table, what outlines she's followed in the past to the ones she's following in order to build tables for the next generation of insecure creatives. Chloe's Barber: @larryhighprofileConversations with Chloe: What “outlines” have you been following in life? What are you doing to “own” your masters? What outside dreams do you have to feed your inside truths? Or whatever she was talking about? Debbie Millman’s podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/design-matters-with-debbie-millman/id328074695

In this episode, Chloe connects to her hair herstory and makes peace with cutting her locs of love.

Boundaries, Friends, Hurt Homes, Insecurities, HOW MANY OF US HAVE THEM? In this episode Chloe questions friendships, her family and how we heal our hurt. Black Owned QWOC company Txturatees that Chloe shouted out and butchered their names #SOSORRY can be found on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter @txturatees and on their website: www.txturatees.com "because texture is a lifestyle".

Nothing brings up things you thought you laid to rest, like having to lay someone to rest. In this podcast, Chloe discusses the insecurities that come along with making it and the burdens of the family that "used" to be.

With a name like Chloe "Zora" Beck, it has to be good. In this episode, Chloe discusses, well, Chloe. What it's meant to have this name and why Zora Knows.

Hi, my name is Chloe, and I am creatively constipated. In this episode, I learn that in order to let the shit flow, I had to let some shit go. Rest in Peace to what was, while welcoming the rebirth of me.

Welcome to the #InseQueer world of one black queer woman living in New York City. In this episode, I was honestly just testing some shit out, and I liked it. In the words of the greatest to ever do it, "keep in mind, I'm an artist and I am sensitive about my shit".