Me Being Me

The secret of the green smoothie is more than I have one for breakfast everyday.  It is part of a process or ritual that I do to feed both my mind and body.  My daily scale, you may have heard me refer to it as the ladder, is a morning process that I do to set my mind and body for upcoming day.  It is not complicated, but it takes disciple to be committed to getting up at 5 am to work out.Many of the listeners and followers on social media drink a version every day as well. I am happy that you are giving yourself green love every day.  For those who have not made one before, I will tell how to make the perfect smoothie.  I may say perfect because my sister Jenn,  who has been having her own green smoothie almost every day for breakfast this year, said mine was better than hers.I challenge you to take action  - go make a green smoothie right now. If you do not love it, message me so we can talk about what you did possibly could not like.

Why do you refuse to let go of the thing that hurts or disempowers you?Recently Jenn and I were at dinner where I ran into a friend who experienced a very emotional loss - her infant son died soon after childbirth. She started down a path to distract herself from her pain.We all do that somewhere in our lives.  We are holding on to this belief - which may cause us pain or suffering and is not giving you what you want because we are committed to it. It is preventing us from taking action to get results in our lives. With her and others, I have seen people just sit with pain and WANT a something different. WANTING will not change the situation.We are arguing with reality. For my friend, she is arguing her son should be here and that she wants him here. It is very easy for us to be become stuck and not aware there is another choice?  Today I want you to write down what is the source or cause of your pain? Where are you fighting against reality? Can you see where the opposite belief and evidence agrees more with reality?Awareness gives us the choice to stop believing in something that is hurting us.

Have you used the power of language to distinguish what others can not see?I was doing the morning process with my declared sister working on spinal waves.  Off in the distance she sees a mountain and tells me that she can see the face of an Indian Woman.  I could not see anything. With language she distinguished exactly what she saw: a feather, her nose, her chin, her eyes.  We do that with ourselves and our own lives. There are versions of us in the distance - seemingly so far away that we do not see it.  There is a version of you that you want to create more powerfully. A version of you that is strong across the board.  You got stop and slow down a second. Take that version of YOU that is out there and break it down in categories. Ask yourself what precisely is success in those categories that would allow you to ideally SEE this version of you.I challenge you to take ten minutes today to write down the various areas of your life and where you MUST be in 90 days out.  What are you committed to and willing to track?

If you are listening to this podcast, you are serious from going from 10K to 20K to a month.  I am talking to those who have hit 20K a month, but it is not your standard. You now are at your minimum standard. As I called you to action in the last podcast, look at what you are committed to right now - your home, your car, your salary.  To achieve 20K a month could require more work and struggle.  Part of the issue is the way you are going about is not working. The other part is that you may be lost and have no idea what you do not know.  Now is the time when you need to make a clear decision.  Are you ready to have an awareness where you are coming from in every conversation?  I am talking about speaking things out loud, saying what you choose as an outcome. Does this sound obvious? Maybe but so many are not making that choice.Once you have this awareness, everyone wins. Your customers win. You win. Your kids and spouse win because you are present. Your church wins. Even the guy who mows your lawn wins.If this podcast speaks to you, go over to Me Being Me Live on Instagram or Facebook to leave me a message.  You can also reach me at mebeingmelive@gmail.com

There are two kinds of writing that you can do, especially if you are attending a seminar, conference, journaling or writing down your thoughts. The first is to make you feel good.  It is very intellectual.  It could be ideas you already know or things that make you feel good.  In Jenn's case, she will be using the color blue. It was calming and passive.  This type of writing is mostly a waste of time. Nothing wrong with it, just acknowledge it. Think consumption mode.The second type of writing are things you MUST do. These will have numbers, dates, actions and typically have a check box next to them. Very simple did it happen or not.  These are things you are committed to changing or implementing.  For Jenn she decided to use the color red - writing them in blood. Think action mode.If I had these pens and this distinction of what color I was writing in, that alone would allow me to move powerfully forward. What are you committed to in the next 90 days? To help you visualize this activity, go stand outside your home, your workplace, your car or anywhere that represents your life. No shame or guilt - look at what you have been committed to in your life. Where is this compared to last year? Two years ago?  Are you committed to making course corrections today to do this exercise next year but with a different view next year?What color will you write down these commitments?

Stop projecting your own ideas onto other people in your life!I had a podcast listener reach out to me.  It was great to see his own awareness of this topic.  As we go through life we are basically making stuff up and projecting our conclusions and ideas onto other people (our boss, our clients, our kids, our spouse, strangers, etc).  Most of the time it is not even true.  And then what happens is we hold back because we're coming to the interaction with that preframe already set in our minds.  Most of the time we don't even know that we're doing that. What we think is that's just how it is.Anywhere you find a sting where someone or something makes you really angry, sad or with pain -- right there that is your ego. You are not distinguishing it as your ego. As this podcast listener and I spoke, he asked how does one get rid of this disempowering reality?  My answer was 80% of it is just being able to notice and distinguish it -- just like he did.My invitation to you as you move about your life today notice where this is happening in your life.  Share a struggle or a problem that is very expensive in your life with someone you trust.  Open up. My guess is that they will see what you could not see.  Once you have awareness, you have the ability to make a new choice. Send me a message (parker@mebeingme.live), a text via Instagram or Facebook or call.  I would love to hear what you noticed in your life.

As promised, here is a version of Sting's "Shape of My Heart" but with lyrics that are more line with Me Being Me as a Key Player. He plays the keys as meditation and those he plays for never suspect. He does not play for the money he wins.  He does not play for respect...He plays the keys to find the answers and knows in life it is not in chance. Delivering a probable outcome his fingers lead a dance....To me what it means, someone can be paid to pay the way how they to play. Be who they want to Be. Say what they want to say.  And see themselves as who they want to be.  We can exchange more value by being more of the real us.  This is the whole message of Me Being Me.  What does this song mean to you? I would love to hear your thoughts on what those chords and new words mean to you.  Look forward to talking to you soon.Reach out to me below, on Instagram or Facebook (MeBeingMe.live) or at parker@mebeingme.live               

It is a reminder that it is possible to get paid more to be WHO you are being anyway.  Yes I am saying doing less things and creating more value. The things we want to do anyway.  It comes down to our relationship with work and money. It is a very intertwined relationship. I would associate the productive thing would occur as the thing I did not want to do.  Even as an adult, when I hear work, I do not want to do it.My message today is brought to you curiosity of my kids. We are outside picking up rocks. In one sense this could be a very drudgeries task, but it is actually a learning one where we are having fun.  Normally the kids are the ones who get the landscape rocks into the grass. Today I did not get mad at my son Bode as he was throwing them into the grass.  Who he is and what I created is that there is nothing about him is wrong, he is a perfect and innocent.  So when he did the thing I did not want to do, I let him without getting mad.  I did not let that sting of my ego get to me.Who I am committed to being it the most loving creative and daddy on the planet.  Who he is perfect.  I hold off watching him. I asked my son what he was doing.  I asked him if he could help me put the rocks back. Once he did, I showed him how grateful I was for his assistance.  Low and behold, my other child sees this and comes over to help him. No longer is this a chore but something fun.  With my son, I interacted with him as "he is" most perfect, lovable, angel human being. From his view, he would not try to do something wrong. He does not have a distinction of wrong. He is a blank slate and looking at rocks / grass.As a child, my dad had me move rocks as a punishment.  I knew I could do better, but it was work - not anything fun or playful.   It start this process of resistance of the grind of doing hard work.  To grind and sacrifice myself is love and it occurred as love.Work is not love.  Play is love.  For me, playing the piano is play.Reach out to me if you are interesting in playing and not working to be Paid More to Be You.

We all know too well that voice in our head can get so loud, filling us with self-doubt, telling us to play small, stay safe.  It left unchecked, that voice starts to feel real.  The story we tell ourselves is we are destined that this is my life -- to be sad, to be frustrated, to be depressed, to not apparently live the life we dream.In this podcast, I will talk about The Scale system that shows you this version of you that operates the way you always wanted to but NEVER gave yourself permission to be so successful across the board.  Me Being Me is living my life as an example of what is possible for others.  As you hit The Scales and living your life more powerfully with integrity and congruence, you shine bright. People notice and see how powerful it is when each area of your life is woven together properly. You can play inside the boundaries or be like a rock star and make music / life your very own.As part of the Keys or the Scale, there are secrets I have figured out but have not shared on these podcasts to help you play this game, the ability to put a rock star face lift on your life. For those who listen, who want that rock style life face lift, who are tired of listening to that voice, I can help you design out your thing. Once you have clarity, the momentum will build. It may be small and not noticeable that first week, but it builds upon itself.  Within 12 weeks, you will look around and see a mini following. People who were already in your life, but you did not see them in that way. For those that you are ready to add a Rock Star Spin on your life, reach out to me on Facebook, mebeingmelive@gmail.com Email, Me Being Me Live Instagram or www.mebeingme.live

Ever had that morning when you just could not get out of bed to face the tasks ahead of you?"i" did not want to get up -- not the real me.  I mean the me who I was thinking I was... the me who mis-identifies as himself as his body, his feelings and his thoughts. My body did NOT want to get up! The real me, the "I", wanted to get up, but my body hit snooze at 4:45 am without me even being conscious of it.In these moments where I find myself waking up late, judging myself, regretting the mistake of not getting up when I intended and then procrastinating further by thinking about how big the task was ahead of me, I do not do very well.We know what to do. We know what we ought to do. We know what is required. It is doing the action that puts youHere is another trick the saying “It is just what I do” or “It’s just who I am” does not give you enough strength.  We all have daily disciplines, but have you tried to break it down to smaller chunks? At times breaking it down hour to hour is great, but I am taking about really digging in when you may not have the capacity, the commitment or mental strength to do the next step.On this morning, lying on the floor procrastinating, I stopped the voices in my head. I took the next action to get out to do my morning routine in those two seconds.  I stood up!  I was grateful that I was able to stand up. Guess what? I had created momentum. Breaking it down into the small steps in the immediate 10 seconds instead of the whole process, I was able to fight resistance. I built momentum with gratitude.Remember the journey of Me Being Me is full of gems to accomplish what is required.What tasks do you find yourself without the mental capacity or strength to complete? Have you tried to break it down in what you need to do in the very next few seconds. Reach out to me or leave a comment below.

When was it that you started to talk so negatively about yourself? When did you start to be so critical toward yourself?There is a story from Jesse Elder that has stuck with me recently. He said that “haters” are always going to say that you are full of yourself.  Jesse’s response is who else should I be full of?  It is a great mantra to error on the side of too much positive reinforcement and belief in yourself..There is nothing wrong to say to yourself.... “I am an amazing legitimate human being with great intentions and a great heart doing the very best with that I can.  I am committed to doing better and actually giving myself full permission to believe that I am awesome.”Know that you can not go back in time to the past to change it.  You can only learn from any previous pain and experience. How I am doing this is creating 90-day commitments that a broken up into 30 day goals with weekly and daily targets.  It is this stacking or scales that keeps reminding me how awesome I am. As I have been over the past few weeks, I genuinely want you to leave a review on this or any other Me Being Me podcast.  I am not asking you to do something that I have not done myself.  Please reach out me to talk more if you are having trouble seeing yourself as the awesome person that is you.

My wife and I are attending a marriage class at the church. It seems a majority of the attendees seemed to be in this mindset that if one of them is connected to God and the other one isn't and is distancing themselves from God, then the two people really aren't going to be connected. I was confused by this.   What really has a usefulness to me is understanding that God is pure consciousness, pure choice and, and the way that that applies in our lives is God is the ability to change our own mind, our own perspective.  If the other one really is truly connected to God, then what is God? Let's say God is pure love, pure acceptance, pure understanding, nothing but pure forgiveness.Imagine the worst, the most evil, vile, hurtful thing that you would never want to reveal about yourself to Christ, the Christ consciousness, and when you do that, you know you're thinking. I know that Christ is ultra-forgiving, he's ultra-loving and just, unconditional. You may be thinking this is so wrong, so, so dark. I doubt that he'll actually love me.  I mean you are literally even doubting that if you did reveal that to Christ.  Know there was never even a potential thought of him not accepting you and forgiving you and not loving you.I'm committed for the rest of my life to live this perspective here, I'm committed to being connected with Christ consciousness and shifting how I see anyone else's actions around me, seeing it from a place of conditional forgiveness, understanding acceptance of how they are and how they're not and, and I need nothing from them in order for me to be happy or be anyway, and that is the best definition of being connected to God, that I can possibly imagine right now.Join me as discuss this in greater depth as I continue my journey of Me Being Me. 

To say the thing, you never want to say.If you asked folks close to me, they would tell you (most likely in secret) that I am a lazy, lying, fraudulent coach.  It is true.  We all say negative things about ourselves, but those words / thoughts / feelings have no power unless actually back that declaration up with integrity.  That is what gives it power.  But to acknowledge it, own it, see it, sit with it, so then you can let it go has no power.As you know, on my journey of Me Being Me, I have talked in my past about needing money, needing a certain outcome. Earlier this year, I needed money for a car payment.  I was committed to receiveing money - even from a person who might not be the best fit or someone that i really did not want to help.  I got a warm lead using my "sales" skills, to give me the money even though part of me did not feel I deserved it as I was posturing myself to her.Her vote of confidence in me, melted my heart and I was grateful for this trust. The next day she told me how she broke integrity with her husband, she partly regretted her decision and felt slimy because I duped her.  It hurt. My heart was broken from what I could say was the pain of recognition.  I was a coach that did not get into his personal feeling or open up about my own struggles.I owned my feelings with this client. I was open with her.  She saw the real me. I let the real me out. She was open with me. With no posturing, nothing to hide and nothing to prove we created a bond of friendship, partner, client and as family. Why do I share this with you and her? Listen to the rest of this podcast (E58) on my journey of Me Being Me to hear why it is important to say the things you never want to say. The thing that you would die if someone found out.For those of you who listened to this podcast today, please leave an honest review.  Good or Bad.  I am interested to learn what you are learning and how you are applying these practices in your life? 

As you have been listening to this podcast, I think you know that sometimes I find paradoxes on my journey of Me Being Me.  The things we want really bad guide us to take actions, but then we expend a lot of energy to the thing we have become attached to obtaining. For me when that thing is right in front of my grasp, that is where i have screwed up and missed it.Today I was being super present with my wife as she was getting ready for our daughter's birthday party.   At the end of the night I just wanted to have sex and I knew from the beginning that was my game plan starting the day.  The kids were in bed. We were in our bedroom.  Tonight I had gas.  I am not going to lie, it was pretty stinky farts.  My wife walks into the room and basically told me "if you're wanting to have sex tonight, uh, that's probably not going to happen because you stink so bad."I was so mad. I had made it this far only to be stopped by my farts. Tonight I did something different.  I decided to give her love and connection and just give her my presence and just be cool. Just be playful. Just be. Just be fun. Not be offended. Apologize for the smell.  I totally let go of that thing I was so attached to having all day. I let the idea of sex with my wife. Every time we fail, we just keep pointing to us right where we were wrong, or our intention was weak. I believe that our attachment was too strong.  In this podcast, I will continue my Me Being Me journey and how I let go my attachment tonight created space for my wife and I to be connected.On your own journey, identify what's the result that you want in any area of your life. What's the intention that you would need to have? Write that down. What's the intention I would need to have, and then what's the attachment to it? Where is that in your body? Feel it. Notice it, let it go, drop it, and then go and operate from that space.As always, leave a comment below or find me on Facebook / Instagram (Me Being Me Live) or send an email at mebeingmelive@gmail.com.  I look forward to hearing what thing you wanted to grab and what attachment you let go.   

Welcome to another piano lesson with Me Being Me.  As I mentioned in a previous podcast, somehow Sting's Shape of Your Heart came across my path. I really enjoyed this song and decided it was time to learn it.In fact, I want to share with you how I learned to play this song.  Listen along as I teach you how to pull out the baseline, find the notes on the keyboard and play along with the music.Bonus Time:  I will share with you how to play Maroon 5's Girls Like You song.  For beginners, this song is much easier to get the hang of the notes.  Not to mention it is a fun song.As you listen to this podcast, I would love to have a review of this type of music lesson.  For those who have reached out, thank you.  I am curious to see what songs folks want to learn how to play. Please leave a comment for potential future Music Lessons.

Do you have a relationship that is not where you see it? Have you noticed in that relationship there are moments of angst and you just don't know how to get rid of it?  The key is to be clear that you are completely responsible for and willing to take full responsibility of that relationship.WARNING: If you want to be a victim or say that I can not create that relationship because THEY will not change, STOP.  If you ever see me or anyone in this Me Being Me or Key Player Community call us out.  You will never be a version of yourself that creates and exchanges more value with that attitude.This episode is about my love language. Love for me, it typically is in the form of sex.  Any love language is that validation from your significant other.  Well for me when sex is in doubt, it can create a potentially angst dynamic where in the back of your mind you're wanting the sex and you're hoping for it, but you've been maybe rejected so many times that you don't have the confidence to just be super direct about it and you don't want to get rejected again.  It can start a downward spiral.I caught myself in that spiral. On the journey of Me Being Me, everyday there are lessons to learn. What I have learned is that the more angsty I get, the less attractive I am which means the less likely to get laid.  It is both you want to have sex and the you also need to let go of having sex.  I am saying you have to let go of needing anything from them and you have to create getting laid from a place of not needing it. And when you do. And what's required to do that is to say the thing you can't say is to overcome your own ego and let it go.  Join me on the podcast today as I open you up to another personal side of Parker.We would love to hear from you and maybe even meet you.  Please leave a review or comment below. As much as it is my journey of Me Being Be, it is also yours of You Being You.P.S. No frogs were injured in this podcast. It was only a metaphor that I used to make a point.

For those of you who have been on this journey with me, you have heard me say this is the show where everything is made up and the points do not matter.  We can play the game from this new perspective and a new perspective is constantly reinforced because it's extremely powerful, but the way to constantly reinforced this new and powerful perspective is to call the bluff, call bs on the ego and do it every day. Do it every day.How? You say the thing that you couldn't say, you do the thing that you couldn't do. I am here to tell you that you can. I have done it and my clients have done it. Time for you, the Me Being Me Community, to do it as well.To accomplish this is my inner stance. That's my I am. That's where I'm coming from. That is the stance that I've intentionally created and embodied and operated from and operate from. That's in my control, is my total choice. It is where an affirmation may be made out of it.I want to be clear as well that who I am to YOU has nothing to do with me. What I see exists in me. One the easiest and hardest thing to call BS on is in a personal relationship.  If you have any personal relationship that's breaking down right now, it's pointing you right at the work that you've got to do. The reason why it's breaking down, the reason why it's got you angry, frustrated, triggered, depressed, sad, anything, any uncomfortable emotion. The reason why it's got you feeling that way is because it's pointing you right at a lie that you are believing that is underneath your conscious awareness. The work is the willingness to look at it and see it and sit with it and be with it and and find that part in yourself that you just haven't been able to accept and sit with that lie that you've been taught. You made it up.Today I would appreciate honest feedback on this podcast.  Please leave a comment below.  What value are you getting from listening to me.  Are you learning to be You Being You?  Reach out to me. I am curious to see how your journey has been for you being your own version of Me Being Me?

We always know what we need to do. We know that we should do that thing.  Somehow we find ways to not do tasks, even sabotage the process of getting them done. The key is becoming consistent.When that happens you are faced with a choice. You can go down the rabbit hole of "What is Wrong With Me?"or choose a different path.  I am tired of the rabbit hole.  Let me share with you 5 words, a powerful mindset fix my friend shared with me.Get yourself as close as you can to doing the thing, but not actually doing it. Closer. To the edge. Then say those 5 little words, non-nonchalantly, shrug your shoulders.  It is not a big deal.Do I live this and use this tool? Yes!! I was lying in bed. It was dark. It was early. I knew I had this grueling workout ahead of me, so I said those 5 words. Guess What? I got up and had an amazing work out.Want to know what I said?  Join me on my journey of Me Being Me and listen to this podcast.If you have any questions, please reach out to me with a comment below or on the various social media platforms.  Tell me how you used this 5 word phrase to cure your own inconsistency.

Yep! I said it. I have watched porn. I am saying the thing I could never say to the person I could never say it to: You and Me.I was taught so firmly. I was warned so strongly. I was told about the stern judgment. I would never even let the idea of pornography crossed my mind. I just wouldn't, I just couldn't. It literally never even occurred to me to like look at it or indulgent it and enjoy it.Let me take you on a journey as a young man on his mission for his church, using the family computer to discover online imagine and videos, and my relationship with my dad and my wife.Why am I telling you? Hiding and not admitting is not the me that I am. Here is where I am calling my set out and letting go of this secret.  When I say Me Being Me being paid to be me, I am talking about the Me or You who create more value just for being you Us.  Value is not in the Ego. My journey of Me Being Me has been full of discovery and insights. I am Parker --  unapologetically owning the truth of whatever's there.  I have nothing to hide, nothing to prove, nothing I am ashamed of that can be brought us to where I want to hide or hold back.  In my past, I watched porn because it just felt sooo good.I invite you to leave a comment if you have something you that have hide behind and want to let it go. 

Have you ever been in a situation where you are out in public and see someone you just do not want to see or talk with? What is it that we would rather hide than walk into that conversation? For me it has typically been the FEAR of what person will think of me.On my journey of Me Being Me, it has not always been easy to honor my word and my commitment over the feelings and thoughts I have.  I preach and teach on how my morning routine sets my day - it stacks it in my favor.  Man, there are times I have credible, I dare say incredible excuses, that I was up with my little kids so I do not get up to do what I know I am committed to doing.  I am embarrassed that I am not honoring my word, but my feelings or thoughts that sleep is more important to what I know I need to do.  Here is another situation where I would hide or avoid those I have taught.With any situation or I guess setback, there is a lesson to be learned.  I ask myself how can I live what I'm teaching so that I can bring more integrity to my own message? Along this Me Being Me journey, I reference Mentors who have helped me.  I guess you can say, I curate what as worked for me to help you on your path to You Being You and Being Paid More to Be You!  There is resistance to what many of you may think of me as I launch this brand Me Being Me and Key Player. My feelings and thoughts are at odds with my belief, my word to myself, to be honestly be Me Being Me.  I know that I am not alone.  Many of us struggle and do hide.  Join me today as we agree no more hiding from others or ourselves.If you listen today and you feel this message is speaking to you, reach out to me on email (mebeingmelive@gmail.com), comments below or direct message on MeBeingMe.Live (Instagram) or Facebook.  You have heard my perfect average day and I want to hear yours.    

Today I am going to be very personal. It hits pretty close to home.  I am sharing something from my journal to help those who genuinely want to learn and do The Work.  This is a very open and vulnerable episode.On this journey of Me Being Me on my 50th episode, I am going to walk you through how to correctly, efficiently, and effectively use Byron Katie's The Work on a relationship that  I am still working through. Let me be very clear. The names have been changed to protect out of respect and love for those people.  I am going to read some statements today that are basically my judgements I wrote down.  To be very clear, my judgements about this person have nothing to do with this person.  These judgements exist in me. So, as you listen, you may think ill of John. Do NOT think it - it is not true. This is all part of the work of Byron Katie. Do I love John? Am I willing to become him? Am I willing to see it his way? I willing to see it the way he sees it? Am I willing to see it through his eyes? Am I willing to get myself out of the way for long enough and well enough to see a clear picture of how he sees it?This podcast is dedicated to that question - Am I willing to become you? It is part of my journey as Me Being Me to become Paid More to Be Me!  I invite you today to listen and look at your own life. Is there a relationship that could be better? Can you do The Work?Reach out to me if you need help or have questions at the MeBeingMe.Live on Instagram or Facebook or email mebeingmelive@gmail.com.  This journey is not an easy one, but being committed to doing the daily Work / Ladder / Scale will yield the fast growth in my own development. 

If this is your first time joining me, Welcome to my journey of Me Being Me.  As we travel on our paths, we all have relationships that may need work. It is in those relationships, where you may not have complete love towards that person, that you have an opportunity to do some work.  It brings up a very important question, What Is Love?  It is more than words.In these relationships I need to work on, the key is to remember is not about them, it is all about you or in my case me. In E50 I will dive in real depth on how I am doing the work on some of those relationships.  It is something that I do every day. EVERY DAY on my journey of Me Being Me.  This is not a quick fix and it is going to take time to repair relationships. Today's podcast is about getting ready to work on those relationships.I am tipping my hat to Byron Katie and The Work. If you have not familiar with her, after you listen to me, go to You Tube.  

Is there something you are holding onto that you do not want people to know? You would die if anyone found out this secret?If you really thought about it, deep down you have just accepted yourself for it because of FEAR. Have you changed? Will you change? Fear tells you that you are afraid of judgement that others will give you if they find out. Worse you are afraid of what they will say to you and the feelings that will follow inside of you. So, what do you do? You hide it inside of you. Your mind may ignore it, but that secret you are holding on it is there. You bump into it occasionally.  Not today! Grab some paper and write down ONE THING you are holding onto a secret.  It is the thing that if she / he / they found out you would die. WRITE IT DOWN.  If you find yourself saying "I Can't" that is your ego.Call the bluff on the universe, your ego. It may be painful for a little bit. If you sit with the pain and let it hurt, it will not be long before you will have freedom, clarity and abundance from surrendering.On this journey of Me Being Me you will find not every day is easy. 

Money. Money. Money. What is it but the agreement of value.  You pay exchange currency for items or services, like coaching.Man, my relationship with money has not always been the best. There were times, as a coach, I needed client's money to survive. To be in that constant state of survival, money could cloud my vision.  I would posture and position myself as this individual who had it all figured out.  Being this inauthentic self-affected my value, abundance and clarity.What I have learned is that my subconscious mind does not believe I'm worth the money.  It was always trying to find ways to sabotage any success.  Of course, I would find a way to make it more complex.  Until I'm willing to really confront how I truly feel about it, I'm just going to continue to go in circles and be stuck.Today I had a conversation with someone that I owe money to. I had been avoiding the conversation. It was uncomfortable.  My ego and this feeling was robbing me of the valuable time that I could go and create something of value. I just opened up the conversation and went straight for it!I invite you to listen to this podcast to hear how that conversation went.If you found value in today's episode, please exchange that for a comment below or forwarding this on to others. Of course you can reach me at mebeingmelive@gmail.com or visit me on Instagram.

As humans we have the ability to expand our capacity for how much energy we bring to the table and embody.  When I was learning door to door sales with Adam Schanz, what I witnesses was how much love and passion energy he had.  If you come to a door with total love that matches the aggressiveness to sell, people will like you and you will become a very powerful influential person.Of course, self-doubt and my ego would kick in saying I was cut from the same cloth as Adam. I could not see myself as being like him.  It did not take long for me to realize the only difference in our energy levels was that Adam was committed to creating that energy.  He has trained himself day after day and year after year.  His commitment is building momentum.That is what I am doing on this journey of Me Being Me.  I am stepping through my ego, my thoughts and feelings, and my natural way to become that all-encompassing each day.  To be more of the real me is to create energy on a daily basis more than I did the day before. Remember each day be a little better than the day before so that soon you see slow is really fast.My challenge for you today is if you enjoyed this message, leave a comment below or email me (mebeingmelive@gmail.com) or even share this podcast with others.

If you are not familiar with Frank Kern’s Core Influence video, I HIGHLY recommend you watch this 2-hour video.  He will walk you through an exercise called the Perfect Average Day. If you had to live one day over and over again and it would never get boring and there was no limitations and it was the day you were stuck with for the rest of your life and you were going to live a perfectly happy life. What does that day look like?  I bet you can guess on my day there would be time playing a piano.As I am on this journey of Me Being Me, to be a Key Player in my own life, I question the amount of my influence, my purpose, the beliefs I have grown up with to achieve my perfect average day.  What I am clear about is that Me Being Me is that my ideal life is to play the piano and harness that creative energy.  Those listening to this, this  brand is more like a partnership with you or actually more like a declared family.   You know from previous podcasts that we can create family simply by declaring it and then living that way. The bigger lesson is that what you declare and live becomes the truth. What would be your perfect average day? What are your core influences that would provide you the ability to live that perfect average day? Reach out to me at mebeingmelive@gmail.com, mebeingme.live, Instagram.  I want to hear what is your perfect average day?

If you have ever flown on a plane, the flight attendant will always tell you to put the oxygen mask on first. You need to be operating from a strong position to assist those with around you.  As in life, we need to be operating from a position of joy, happiness, content without fear and anxieties in all our relationships around us.A major pillar of life is understanding the perspective of about our ego and our personal and professional relationship.  If comes down to developing a more sensitive awareness of our feelings and what this moment is teaching us. The kicker is ego functions on survival mode and flourishes with words like reacting, scarcity, non-powerful while the opposite is love, connection and abundance. Have you ever had a conversation with your spouse or significant other and notice the language of separation appears? One says "What are WE going to do?" and the other says "I plan on doing this"Whenever there is separation between the two of you and the words "I" and "you", not "WE", are used, it is the context where fights or disagreements are created. There is no energy or creativity created. On my journey of Me Being Me, I am learning so much. One of the biggest things is to call out my ego's bluff.  By saying or doing the thing that I do not want to do or fear, I notice ego's hold over me diminishes. The idea of separation turns into connection and love.  On this podcast, my ego said I was not ready. You can not help others, your oxygen mask is not on. Ha Ha I am breathing just fine.Please reach out to me or better yet share this podcast with others. I want the lessons I am learning along this journey to save you frustration, scarcity, and of course, putting your oxygen mask on first. 

For those who know me, Me Being Me and being Paid More for creating and exchanging more value includes music.  There is a vibe that comes with music, as well as a leadership component to music.Today I am going to share a little music lesson with you.  It was a request from my niece who was going to a T Swift concert. The song does not matter.  The instrument does not matter. You are having fun and You Being You matters. Where in your life is there an identify level shift that is clocking you from getting the results you want? On my journey, I have mentioned how I had trouble learning piano the traditional method.  I created a shifted identify, "I am a piano player," and it occurred to me that I was a piano player.Where are you wanting certain results?   Can you see what you need to be? Act and create an appropriate affirmation.I would love feedback on my first music lesson podcast.  Please reach out to me at  mebeingme.live,  Instagram or mebeingmelive@gmail.com.  Look forward to hearing how your first music lesson went.Love P

As I was sitting doing my morning routine, I realized I need to get those negative stories and disempowering thoughts out of my head and down on paper.  The feeling of being depressed triggered a story in my head. The story was that there was something deep inside of me that prevents me from living in financial abundance and I can not break through it. What I needed to do was uncover the story underneath the real problem. The answer has to come from me. I need to look deeply inward and not listen to another person.  It does not matter who that other person is because he or she will limit the actual truth you are able to uncover. For me, I became victim to myself, my own story in my head that I can not live the lifestyle that I truly desire to live.  As I work on the process I call the "Ladder", I find myself climbing up and away from those negative thoughts and stories.  How did I do that? You are going to have to listen to this episode.If you enjoyed learning about my ladder process, can you take your own action? Can you write a review of this podcast? Can you share it with someone? Can you reach out to me to work on your own ladder process?  Change will not happen without action.  Visit me at mebeingme.live,  Instagram  or email me at  mebeingmelive@gmail.com to talk more about what you heard on this podcast.

The most frustrating part about any journey from Point A to Point B is when you look up and it feels like you are moving backwards. Notice I said FEEL. It appears that you are turned around and are not heading where you need to go.  This week that is how I felt and for a moment it was my perspective.  I would describe it as coming up out of a valley, not being able to see that Point B, on a switchback trail to find myself staring back at where I started. I am sure you have felt that in your career or life as well. It did not feel like your current income matched the known value you could provide to others.In that moment, slow down but do not stop.  For me, I kept walking on that switchback trail, my perspective is changing as the path is now taking me in to a new direction higher up that mountain to Point B.  Remember this journey of Me Being Me is one where I am falling in love with the uncertainty of growth.  I know pain and discomfort are associated with great growth. On today's podcast I want to hit home again why Slow is the Fastest way for Great Transformation to capture the most possible value of yourself.  As always please feel free to leave a comment below the value you received or reach me at mebeingme.live,  Instagram , mebeingmelive@gmail.com. 

Take a walk with me on this 40th episode as I tell you why the points do not matter, the work of  Bryon Katie, understanding perspective (especially from a sleeping dog named Lassie), the power of living a declaration and how you occur to yourself, how relationship correlates to how you occur to others, the defintion of me vs Me, and a few other topics over the next 90 minutes.Tonight a bit of jealous reared it's ugly head as I compared myself to another's podcast. There were times when I would personally get triggered.  When I'm being an immature version of myself (being the me with a lowercase m), I am all up in my ego.  I am the me that is immature, selfish, egotistical, wanting to be right, wanting to be right, wanting to look good, wanting to make my ego be gratified and feel good.  I am the version of me that is NOT paid more to just be me.  I don't want to put more of my energy into lowercase me. That's the me, I want to identify with less and less and less and the me that I want to be because I can be who I want to be. I can create the version of me that has the capital M. The same is true for you. Be the You that is Paid More.The end result of this podcast is that nothing I say will matter unless I take action. The same is true for you listening to this podcast.  You must take actions to get results in your life. We both have the power to be versions of ourselves that get PAID MORE.My call to action for all of those who listened to my 40th episode; please send me a comment on the value you obtained or forward this on to others if you found value.  You can reach me at mebeingme.live,  Instagram or mebeingmelive@gmail.com.Thank you for being on this journey with me.  There is more to come. Love P

On my journey of Me Being Me, I am striving to thrive in the moment. To find the gems and be in wonder of every moment. It is not always easy, but the more I do this, the easier I find them.My wife had been working on her business late, so I was letting her sleep in. As a parent of FIVE kids, you never know what you could walk into with all of them together. I walked into the kitchen to find milk spilled everywhere, bread crumbs all over, and kids in poopy diapers.  OMG it was a mess!At that moment, many parents would have gotten very angry at the mess. I took this as a learning opportunity.  The gap between stimulus and response allows for more awareness to choose meaning and perspective to transform yourself into the version you create.  What was the gem? What was the story I was telling myself? What was the perspective from my children's point of view.  In those few moments, it was up to me on how I chose to see them.  This story is just a simple example on how you can apply this to every aspect of your life.  Join me today on this podcast as I explain how I found the gem and created a space to see this situation from their perspective.  If you want to learn more on how to do this in your own life or join us on the 14 day challenge, head over to mebeingme.live  to reach out.Love P

I could say who is Parker? Who is Jenn? Who is Chase? Who is [insert your name]?What if who you really are at your essence and your total essence is nothing except this present moment, this moment right now, right here.  You are not your past. You are not your future. You are the awareness of this moment that allows you to connect at extremely deep levels with other people.Join me today as I talk about how you can start to Practice Loving This Moment. Once you have listened, for the next 24 hours, I want you to bring that same unconditional loving acceptance to everything inside and outside of your body.  It is not going to be easy. It could be really challenging.  For those of you who accept this call to action, reach out to me at mebeingme.live,  Instagram  or email / text to let me know about your experience. Remember I am sharing my journey of Me Being Me and at this moment, I am grateful you decided to join me. 

My journey has taken me back from Texas, back to my home of Utah.  As you have listened, you know I had learned a lot and found many hidden gems working on my sales process. There is ONE thing I've noticed is that whenever I'm in the presence of truth or I'm learning some concept that's true, there's always a paradoxical opposite in it.To be a great and amazing leader that makes a difference you also must at the same time make no darn bit of difference at all.  Yes, I said a leader who never will make a difference. The other factor to pay attention as a leader, is to perspective. You can talk to your mom, your friend, and your sister and all three will say something different about this very podcast. Here is the lesson. I, nor you, can allow our certainty to come from how others see the world, how they think about the world or for that matter us.  To learn this lesson, to use my “ladder” process and to help you find the gems, you cannot cut corners to find the answers. I have learned and am living a new gospel truth on my journey; fast is slow and slow is fast. For those who listen today, I would love feedback on the podcast.  If you like what you hear, please leave a comment.  If you received value from it, please share this podcast.  Of course, if you ever want to talk to me or learn more, please reach out to me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

I will say to right now I am falling in love with this journey I am on.  I am embracing and leaning into the pain as I will honestly tell you 2018 has been the hardest year of my life.Those who have been listening to this podcast know that currently I am down in Texas working on door to door sales. It is hard to go back to where I started. To some it may represent a step back, I see it as the way to take 5 steps forward. Being here reminds me of my journey on how I got to this exact moment. The emotions. The thoughts. The feelings.  The lessons I learned and still must learn.Many folks I know have suffered from some form of imposter syndrome. I am one of them.  Let me tell you it has robbed me of my power and my confidence in so many aspects of my life. I am climbing out of the pit and scarcity. One of my lessons I am learning is that there is nothing wrong with me or you. I can feel there is something bigger waiting for me and you.  I am not giving up nor will I quit.  I am falling in love with journey and the pain as I become Me Being Me.  I invite you to share my journey to a badass coach and leader with others.  If you ever want to talk to me or learn more, please reach out to me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

I want to share with you a story of Betty and Al who helped me polish what I like to call strategic seduction during an enrollment conversation.  It was one of those interactions where I was being compared to previous other salesmen who stopped at their house before I even knocked on their door that day. In my time talking with Al, truly listening to Betty's concerns, and pulling an alarm system out of my binder, I was able to make a human connection with them.  This sale represented one that I worked hard at to earn. What made it such a success? It was the open space I created for both my listening and speaking.  It is a necessary action to prevent myself or yourself from speaking to a brick wall.  You do not make sales when your words do not resonate with homeowners.Sit back, listen and then be ready to take action to clarify your own stance.  This podcast is free, but there is some expectation that you want to be paid more to be you. As I am being paid more for Me Being Me.If you ever want to talk more, reach out to me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.     

Early in my career, I had the exceptional opportunity and experience to work with Adam Schanz.  Basically, I had the world's best door to door salesman shadowing me or should I say I was shadowing him. On that first door, I could feel Adam behind me, nudging me to take that stronger stance.  Before I could even think about which was the next house, Adam was already knocking on that door.As I watched and listened to Adam, it was clear on who he was being.  Over the course of those hours, not every door was a sale.  During these conversations, he was so willing to confront people on the saying "smart people learn from their own mistakes while wise people learn from the mistakes of others."Be wise and join me at mebeingme.live or Instagram. to learn more after listening to this podcast.  I am curious to hear what you have learned to be wiser and You Being You.Love P

Welcome to the only podcast where everything is made up and the points do not matter. There is something about improvisational, made up and on the fly way of producing value that I liked about the TV show "Who's Line is It?!"In this podcast, I am being me and I do not have to be any other way for you and those listening. What I mean about made up. Guess what? There is so much of our lives that are made up - the stories that we tell ourselves, the personality you have adopted to and who you are in this world. Some of the stories were told by you, other stories were imposed upon you and some you are not aware that were placed upon you.Me Being Me and this podcast is to help you develop an awareness and how to implement that level of commitment.  Yes you can adopt a position of power to get more of what you want or less of what you do not want. If you need a visual, think of dominos that can continue to fall and push the next tile over. Momentum.If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

Ever wanted access to deep insights that could get you to a version of you that you love? The version of you that you look forward to every morning?  This is the eposide where I ask you to commit to doing work with me to get to that version of yourself.Yes i am asking you to go all in or take a back seat. We have work to do! I have work to do! The first question you ask is NOT how do I. I am not asking you to search for more information.  I am asking you to committ to a process, to a way of life that I am living.If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

It was late. I was hungry and hot.  There was a choice between going to a Jack In The Box for dinner or going back to knock on doors.  I knew there was only one real choice, one decision to make.  Althought there was no capacity in me to keep working for several more hours, the alternative was not acceptable.  Instead I had to break it down into little steps. What actions could I complete in that moment to move me forward to that door, any door to knock upon.Listen to this podcast to hear how I took steps to change my mindset, which changed my body. Before I knew it, I was knocking on that first door. Yes I said first door.  Before I knew it, I had talked to several more individuals. There was momentum building.The outcome was from outlining and articulating a process, I was able to turn things around and make great human connections. There is something amazing about being ON and CONNECTED with another human being.  It is hard to describe. Have you ever had a task that seemed too big to complete? What is the story that you tell yourself that prevents you from taking action? This is me, Parker on my journey of Me Being Me.  I know all the tricks that you could be using to stop yourself.  Reach out to me at mebeingmelive@gmail or direct message me on Instagram.  We can work together to help you define the game you are committed to play.Love P

Me Being Me is really You Being You as well.  It is the version of you which is the most effective and valuable version of yourself.  Althought this may look the most effortless for those looking in, it is an intentionally created you that is either turned ON or turned OFF.ON is where the magic happens. When you are on, you are connected, tuned in, in harmony with the universe and to see outcomes throught. When you are OFF you are in your own way. It is where your life really does not change, you resort back to comfort and that cuts off and blocks your energy.Let's work together to identify those next steps you need to take action on to be fully ON.  I want you to be operating with love and in your gifts. Visit me at mebeingme.live to drop me a line,If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.   

I am knocking on doors is what will take my business, my brand, my ability to the next level. The bottom line is the connection I create with people I meet.Any transaction is based upon that interaction and value exchanged between those two people.Long days, hot temperatures, high humidity, lots of walking are obstacles that can grind on person everyday.  It was on such a day I had an interaction with a gentleman that reminded me what a real connection is when my ego is not involved.This is my journey of Me Being Me and how to be ON to have those human connections. If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.   I would love to talk more about my experience and how I can help you on your journey.   

Self Love.  It is getting alot of play lately.  Knowing and Applying it successfully are not the same thing. How do you apply it?  What does it mean?What is the difference between little s and big S; which self is that? Are you willing to become your own best friend? It may not be easy, but it makes the difference on You Being You, Me Being Me and getting paid more to be you!If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.  

Can you answer yes to any one of these questions?Ever feel as you should be giving your family more? Have you ever been with your family or friends and acted as the stressed out one unable to relax?Finally, have you ever looked back on your career or life and felt you wasted so much time looking and searching for something that never materialized?If you did answer yes it means one your five core relationships is out of alignment.  The five are: body, mind, spouse or significant other, your family and money.  There is a way to simply align all of those five areas together into one clear outcome, one clear direction.All of us want more value flowing through our lives. Imagine it's like a pipe, like a conduit, right? Easiest way to visualize this if you wanted to expand the pipe for a sprinkler to a fire hose. Imagine how much more water can run through it now. What if I said that for yourself and all of the area different type of relationships.Do not get frustrated at thinking back on the time lost or wasted. Do not feel you are missing out on life.  Join me on the 14 Day Challenge to put those five relationships back in alignment.Live with no regrets.If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.  

Have you ever thought you were holding yourself back but could not figure out how to jump to the next level? It felt like something is missing but you could not put your finger on it.  The key is perspective, inner stance and alignment.  The question is are you willing to try it?  I have a 14 day process that allows you to get started on that jump to the next level. The start to your journey of You Being You as I am Me Being Me.Listen today to learn more on why a defined process is so important to help shift your perspective.If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

Do you remember learning how to ride a bike. At first you needed training wheels and a lot of practice to keep the bike upright. As you graduated to a bike with gears, you have to learn how to shift.  At first it is easy in first gear and it is really easy.  If you shift a gear, boom it pops into second gear, there's a little more resistance on that tire.In the Me Being Me Stack, Process of Daily Ladder, is a system that is dialed in and created for you. There are five distinct small, simple core actions to do each day, and if you just hit three of them, you are in positive momentum. Just like learning how to ride a bike, when a action becomes easy, it is time to move up into a higher gear.  As I said yesterday, the first action is that Green Smoothie.  So.. did you have one today? If not go make yourself one right now. You need a handful of greens (I like kale and spinach) with almond milk, banana, and oatmeal. Awesome!  The benefits are huge and this is the first act of self love!Of course this game to be paid more to be you stems around the trunk of this tree which is self love. It a tree's core is not strong, the tree can not support all the branches and other aspects of your life.  Self Love is at the core.  I know you hear alot about it, but can you really say you practice it?If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.

Of course Paid More To Be You is a great tagline. Who would like it?I am sure some of you are already thinking Parker every single human being in the world would like that tagline.  Of course, who doesn't want to be paid to just be you?Here is the step that most are afraid to do. Take that ideal brand that represents WHO you are instead of who they think they are supposed to be. Take that idea, that thing, that scares you and imagine it 10 years from now if you just did little bit each day. If 10 year is too much, try it for a year. Play a game with me.  Inside Me Being Me, we look at five different areas of your life.  What I have learned in order to win the game, you do not have to hit a single on all five every day.  With just three out of five you have tipped the scale and have momentum to win the game.To start you on this journey, I challenge you to join me to have a green smoothie for breakfast for the next 30 days! Are you in?I invite you to be Paid More to Be You, as You Being You. If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram.  

You heard how excited I was to tell you about my experience with Camico, but what I should have done was tell you about the time leading up to that wonderful experience.Prior to this wonderful experience, I had fallen in a trap of feeling discouraged which allowed for  judgemental thoughts to enter my mind.   Have you ever experience  a moment when those thoughts are so strong that it feel like it is taking all your energy? It feels like the thoughts have control over your ability to take action. It is what you do in those moments can give you energy you are seeking.  When I thought I had no more energy to give, I ran into my new friend Camico who, in our interaction, created so much energy. It is a simple truth. You have so much value, are more valuable that you know when you give your self permission to be yourself.  Yes it is You Being You.  When you are being present with someone, being authentic - a genuine human connection is created. With that so much value. The sign of the strength of this connections as we laughed back and forth, we lost track of time.Camico is an amazing woman who I will have back on this podcast as a guest.  Remember that simple truth that you are more valuable You Being You which allows for great value and energy to be created.  I am excited to introduce you to her as she is living that simple truth.Look on www.mebeingme.live or email us at mebeingmelive@gmail.com to learn more how you to can start to have the powerful authentic human connections.Peace Parker 

Today I was talking with my friend Camico. It was one of those moments when you are talking to someone and they have the same idea or train of thought.  Not to give anything away, but I stood there saying, "you are not going to believe this", as I was laughing. What our conversation showed me is that the truth is everyone has a source of money that is being paid to them.  It does not matter if it is coming to you weeking, biweekly, monthly or any manner.  The truth is that you are being paid for who you are, a certain way of being.  As we all know, with this way of being, there are certain expectations by those paying you to be you. Last night when what I was saying resonated with Camico, it started to create this connection. Authenticity creates things.  We were tuned into WHO we were.  For me, I spoke knowing that in my essence I am no different than Camico or you listening to this podcast. It does not take long to know how I feel around you.  As you interact with others, do you notice your own level of authentcity? When you do not have a high level of authencity, you have to work harder and grind it out more to make that connection. Of course going door to door, that in a connection, money is exchanged for that product.You may be asking, how do I develop this approach or interaction with others? It starts with yourself and a discipline to start your day on the right path.  If you are curious and want to learn more send me an email at mebeingmelive@gmail.com, visit us at mebeingme.live or instatgram @mebeingme.liveThe great connection with another human being, Camico, made my day.  It is something everyone should experience daily.  Look forward to talking to you tomorrow.Love P What may appear different to you and me is the story. or my personality. 

Continuing on from yesterday about going back into the trenchs to do something that I really do not want to do. It was this voice telling me that I would develop a deeper sense of emotional mastery, to practice, to live and teach at this deeper level. Of course as you dig deeper, there will be greater resistance.Did I mention to you that this is tough for me?This battle reminds me of an old story where this man who said he had two wolves in him. One represented the light, joy, service and creativity while the other presented weakness, selfishness, and deadness. When asked who would win this battle, he said the one I feed the most. This is where I am right now and what I share with you today.  What wolf do I feed? Which wolf have you been feeding?As part of my journey of Me Being Me, I invite you to come along and learn about this battle I am fighting and how I learned "thinking" and "trying" do not translate into action. Doing what I say I will do is so powerful. You to can experience this power as You Being You. If you want more information, stop by mebeingme.live website or follow us on Instagram @mebeingme.live. I look forward to hearing which wolf or Me that you have been feeding. Were you even aware you were doing it?  Maybe you even hear that howl.....As Always, Peace and Love Parker.If you ever want to talk more, you can reach me at mebeingme.live or Instagram. 

In your career or relationships have you ever felt that took steps backwards to actual go forward? Go back to the thing that gave you all that momentum back in the beginning and revisit those basics.For me it is the psychology of recreating yourself everyday, reinventing yourself, being able to be Me. These next few weeks, I am going back to the trenches rather than sit in the comfortable coaching perch. I am coming back to play one of the hardest games, door to door sales.The old me or should I say the current me, does not want to relearn to be more conscious, more powerful, more created, more authentic, more valuable. What I am living is a new way of seeing myself and seeing others and as I connect with them in a different way, that's the way that will allow me to spend less time working and more time getting to the result.It's always going to have to do more with how quickly can you get in and connect with someone and create rapport. How authentic can you be? How real and raw can you be and how valuable can you make yourself to them?  It will not be easy.Join me Parker as invite you along on my journey of Me Being Me.