Being told that you have CPTSD and then a year later learning you also have ADHD, is not what I wanted to hear. My life felt like a mess and nothing seemed to go right. With relationship issues, work issues, and family problems, it all felt like I had zer
Never Before Release Episode - created July 14th, 2022 Not your typical material when it comes to discussing CPTSD but I had a thought and I realized that there are songs out there I listen to that really does help me! It gives me motivation, inspires me to see things different, helps ease my mind and can stir up emotions that can be very helpful when it comes to processing and identifying your trauma and improve the healing you're going through. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Never Before Released Episode - created June 22nd, 2022 I don't think anyone who hasn't experienced Childhood Trauma in their life can really grasp how hard life can be for a person dealing with CPTSD. The triggers, the flashbacks, the pain and suffering it creates! All the anxiety and stress not to mention what it will do to their relationships, careers, family, ability to enjoy the things many people take for granted. Accepting the reality of what having CPTSD means for themselves is such a big part of the healing process, without that you will likely fail to make much progress. Yes it's hard and yes you will face setbacks and days where you don't want to do anymore but know that you will be ok! Stay strong and keep making the hard choices, you will benefit later on. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Never Before Released Episode - created June 4th, 2022 My CPTSD, along with my ADHD and Autism and now Anxiety has always played a role in my relationship with my GF. We have had a lot of struggles in the nearly 3 1/2 years being together and it may unfortunately end up coming to an end because of it. Even if I manage to get this under control and can heal it might be too late and this is very sad but it possibly could be for the better? I don't want it to end, it's too good when things are good but lately there hasn't been a lot of good to experience... Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Never Before Released Episode - created on May 10th, 2022 I do step 3 for my Fear part Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Never Before Released Episode - created on May 27th, 2022 Doing the 4 Step Process with my Anxiety Part - needs some love and care today. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) For more Episodes based on the 4 Step Process please check out these: CPTSD Special - Doing a 4 Step Process With a Part (Episode 1)CPTSD Special - Doing a 4 Step Process With a Part (Episode 2)CPTSD Special - Doing a 4 Step Process With a Part (Episode 3)CPTSD Special - Doing a 4 Step Process With a Part (Episode 4) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Deciding to move forward from a traumatic past is a monumental endeavor that demands immense courage, resilience, and self-awareness. Trauma, in its myriad forms, inflicts profound emotional wounds that permeate every aspect of an individual's life, shaping their thoughts, emotions, and behaviors. Each person's journey toward healing is uniquely nuanced, influenced by their personal experiences, coping mechanisms, and the support systems they have access to. In this podcast, we embark on a comprehensive exploration of this journey, delving into its multifaceted challenges, remarkable triumphs, and the enduring transformations it catalyzes. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
It started 10 months ago with the first episode of this new podcast, trying my best to talk about the struggles and pain I have faced with my past relationship. All the ups and downs, just like a rollercoaster! There is a lot of progress that I've made since that time, definitely has not been easy and there have been a lot of triggers and set backs. When you begin to see the truth and feel what respect, dignity, compassion is like again it doesn't take long to become happy, safe and willing to take on the uncertainty of life. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
When we finally break free from the chains of our abuse we often want to try and find ways to heal in order to have a chance to feel normal, to feel happy and trust someone again. We all struggle and fail many times along the way, but when we experience growth as a human being after our battle with trauma it truly is an amazing and uplifting feeling, an experience that we truly do not want to let go of! It's so important for us as people who have suffered from CPTSD (Traumatic abuse) to grow and once again find out how true happiness, love, trust feels like inside of us! Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Self worth is very important in a person's confidence! Without it you always struggle to do anything really, especially if you desire a relationship. You never feel like you belong. I don't feel like it's real! I've had many a situation where the inner voice inside rears its ugly head and tells me I don't deserve to be happy, I don't deserve love! And its not like you can just turn it off and ignore that voice, it dictates your decisions and runs err... ruins your life! Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
I feel fortunate that in my life I am someone who is very resilient avoiding the downfalls, the cracks, losing my way in life. I never gave into the crutches, the vices that many people who suffer from painful trauma use to help mask their hurt and the pain they've experienced. I am tougher than many, but the big question I have is, When does being resilient start to hurt you? Take away the opportunities that come in life that you can never get back? What if being so bloody resilient ultimately leads to me being alone for the rest of my life? What if I wake up one day, 80 years old and realize that my life is nearly over and I never experienced anything special, no cherished memories to look back on? It scares the shit out of me! Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Empathy is the ability to recognise another person's thoughts and feelings, and experience an appropriate emotion in response. It's a fundamental part of the human experience that lays the foundations for social skills and positive relationships with others. Childhood trauma can have a big impact on the emotional and social development of a young person. During childhood, young people are growing both psychologically and biologically. When distressing events happen in this time, the consequences can be far-reaching, staying with a young person into their adult life. Want to Contact Me? Twitter - (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon - (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads - (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky - (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
It is incredible what having someone who you trust 100% in your life while you're attempting to heal from your trauma, whether it is a very dear friend of yours that you've known forever or a close family member who you trust and will listen to you any time, any day. A lot of people out there who are suffering from CPTSD and are alone really have nobody to turn to when they need help! They just need to have the ability to say anything to them but when there is no one they can turn to bad alternatives like drugs, alcohol, prostitution or they just suffer alone and never ever make progress to heal. That one person can be a life saver!.. Want to Contact Me? Twitter (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
In essence, the emotional abuse I endured from my former girlfriend significantly undermined the intimacy within our relationship, and this erosion began at an early stage. Her persistent inclination to pass judgment and criticize me whenever things deviated from the ideal gradually eradicated any opportunity for an intimate connection. The fear of making mistakes and potentially disappointing her, even in unforeseen ways, became so overwhelming that it hindered the possibility of fostering genuine intimacy. When one is subjected to trauma by the very person with whom intimacy is desired, the result is a conspicuous absence of genuine intimacy. Want to Contact Me? Twitter (www.twitter.com/traumatizedpc) Mastodon (https://mastodon.world/@TRAUMATIZED) Threads (https://www.threads.net/@traumatizedpodcast23) BlueSky (https://bsky.app/profile/traumatizedpc.bsky.social) Email Me - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website - (www.traumatizedpc.link) YouTube - (https://www.youtube.com/@TRAUMATIZEDpc) - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! (https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/subscribe) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Through your journey with your trauma and the times you become triggered, at some point in your healing and the work you are doing you have to begin to take ownership of your trauma instead of falling back on being a victim! You have to learn to recognize the symptoms, the signs of becoming triggered and what it does to you. There are tools you can use that will help you along the way to healing but without owning your triggers and admitting to yourself and others that you are struggling, they won't work. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
The United States faces a silent crisis in mental health care. Despite being a leading nation in many aspects, millions struggle silently with mental health issues, grappling with a system that often fails to provide adequate support. Financial barriers, insurance limitations, and societal stigma contribute to this crisis. Geographic disparities limit access, while systemic failures, such as chronic underfunding and a shortage of mental health professionals, further strain the already overwhelmed system. Trauma survivors face additional hurdles, navigating a culture that often emphasizes resilience at the expense of acknowledging emotional distress. This silent crisis requires urgent attention, with calls for policy reforms, destigmatization efforts, and increased access to comprehensive mental health care to address the profound impact on individuals, communities, and the nation as a whole. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Yes, I have some regrets about what happened in my relationship and what I failed to do when I should have. If I had known what I knew after it ended a year ago I would have definitely ended things long before we had moved in together. But knowing and actually doing anything different, (assuming we could go back in time and do this.. which we cannot of course!) are two very different, opposite realities. Even if I had been better aware of my reality in 2020 and seen what was really happening in the moment, would I have been capable of making the tough decision to end this relationship? We all have extremely tough choices to make, ones that have deep impacts on our present day lives and affect a lot going on in the future, so saying to ourselves, "I would have done things differently" is easy but would you have? Honestly? Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
We all try but struggle to be positive! our past life, the trauma, abuse has really taken its toll on us and whether we have put in the hard work every day or are just beginning our healing journey, our ability to maintain a positive outlook is extremely difficult and challenging for all of us. Many mask our true selves, hide from everyone in our lives that we are having a very tough day, we pretend that we are happy and doing well but once we are alone the reality comes out. Yes, being positive takes a lot of energy and is very exhausting! but please, don't fake it.. if you really aren't in a good place and having a positive outlook is not possible, don't go on pretending! Get help, talk to someone in your life that you trust! or if anything, reach out to a help line and get someone to listen to you. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Each Wednesday during the month of January there'll be a bonus ten minute "Min-Podcast" all about Trauma, CPTSD, Abuse Narcissists, Domestic Violence, Anxiety and so on.. Come check them out! First Episode January 3rd, 2024. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
After years of Trauma in my life I have dealt with and struggled with Anxiety! Ever since my health scare that started over 10 years ago, I notice how I become anxious quite quickly compared to before! It takes very little to have a bout of anxiety hit you and stay. I also discuss why people close in your life will often struggle when it comes to understanding your trauma and CPTSD, they'll likely accidentally say the wrong things like "I know how you feel, I can understand, etc" when it's impossible for them to really know when they have never experienced trauma and abuse. They will fail to know what to say and how to react when you become triggered, leading to losing your ability to trust them and it will end up causing you both to drift apart. You need to be direct with your partner or friend but also honest and just tell them what you need from them! How to act in front of you, the "right" things to say... It can be extremely hard on others in your life because they will struggle to show compassion and empathy but also be able to respect the boundaries you set. Just ask of them one thing... To be kind and know that they aren't the issue, you just need to get through this by yourself. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
This is a continuation of the previous episode to a degree.. I wanted to try and elaborate on how for those who are suffering from CPTSD and ADHD (or ADD) often have a very difficult time knowing the history of each diagnosis as well as did I have ADHD from my early childhood development? or do my ADHD symptoms actually come from the repetitive abuse, bullying, trauma during my years in school? It is well known from recent studies that CPTSD related trauma causes the same developmental problems in the pre-frontal cortex of the human brain, just like ADHD. What we believe to be ADHD could very well be from past trauma in our lives that just hasn't been really looked into by a professional. A million children each year are misdiagnosed with ADHD because there wasn't enough investigation into trauma and abuse in their earlier years of development. Still a lot of research needs to be done in order for us to really get a true understanding of what is really happening inside a brain while development is occurring. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
I present to my audience an episode that originally aired March 25, 2022. One of my most popular episodes in the 3+ years of this podcast. This theory, Structural Dissociation Theory in my opinion has the ability to be the most helpful and successful way of helping those who suffer from CPTSD and have multiple flashbacks and have child parts. Our brain has parts that develop personalities that are Child Parts who interact with Adult Parts when they become triggered due to a flashback from trauma we have experienced in our childhood or even adult years. The goal of this theory is to reconnect these parts with our adult, build a relationship with them and give them the ability to learn to trust again and allow us to heal and eventually no longer experience flashbacks to our trauma. If there was any episode of my podcasts you need to listen to this will be the one. I believe that this Model of therapy can be the most effective for a large majority of adults who suffer from CPTSD! The only issue is that because it is so new to the world of Psychology that not many therapists today use it for their clients. I recommend you do your research, find the right Therapist for you who does Structural Dissociation Theory as their therapy... many do remote connection therapy these days so you can find one if you look hard enough. Also and I want to point this out, there are forms of therapy that can do way more damage than good to someone who suffers from CPTSD. CBT therapy and other forms of therapy can create harm to child parts, trying to convince a part that they are bad, wrong, etc is never the way to go when it comes to healing as this only causes the part to trust you even less than it already does to begin with. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
I have ADD (a form of ADHD) and CPTSD. Most of the time the two are in conflict with one another, fighting inside my head and causing nothing but havoc emotionally and even physically at times. My ADD creates impulse issues, focus problems and tends to make me become extremely indecisive and become bored easily. However, it also allows me to be very creative, big imagination and can lead to some interesting times. Unfortunately at the same time, because of my CPTSD I become scared with feelings of dread, anxiety and paralyzing fear that will stop me from ever letting that amazing imagination come out for the rest of the world to see! Also makes starting a relationship extremely difficult out of fear of rejection and not wanting to be hurt again or taken advantage of. Unless you also are burdened with ADHD and CPTSD it is very difficult to properly explain it all to you so you can comprehend it. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Our world isn't exactly the greatest place to be today.. a lot of unnecessary death, political corruption, extremism (on both sides) and a lot of hate being tossed around like a salad. I have been noticing more so lately that all the shit happening today in our society is creating a lot of stress and I often feel on the verge of becoming triggered. Why you ask? First of all I have CPTSD of course.. but like some of you know I also have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) and my brain often gets easily distracted but I also often become obsessed about things that I find very interesting or fascinating. Unfortunately this often causes me to get triggered, allow the horrible thoughts to mix in with my personal abuse and experiences and within moments I am now stressing about myself and well..... it's extremely frustrating to say the least! The curse of having ADD and CPTSD, a nasty mix. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads BlueSky traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
For much of my life I have felt unworthy of people's attention, am not allowed to look at them in the eyes, speak before spoken to. I believe that they'll get angry at me for looking at them! I often feel unwelcome at group events, whether I know them or not. This has me often feeling alone and desperately craving acceptance and feeling wanted. Most of this has come from years of bullying and abuse from my classmates in school, suffering traumatic and horrible rejection, being laughed at or scolded! "How Dare You?!?" So many times and so harsh that I just became programmed to expect it or to avoid it all together to feel safe and avoid becoming triggered. It has presented me to others as Anti-Social, awkward, shy, uninterested, a loner. How does this change? Lot's of therapy, that's for sure! Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Everyone who suffers from CPTSD will go through the pain, the discouraging sadness of CPTSD's hard reality, that we just are not there yet! We have not healed nearly enough to be able to get up on our feet after being knocked down numerous times and try one more time! Sure, stubbornly we do believe we are ready and often ignore the helping hand given by those who care very much for us. Why? because we ironically feel safe with someone who be firmly think is going to be different "this time" until different ends up being just like everyone else. It's extremely difficult and usually emotionally scarring to admit to ourselves that we need to face reality, that we need to stop and find help before we even begin to think about trying again... CPTSD is a bitch, we often go back to what is familiar to us because it is all we know. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
So my therapist and I recently discussed how I am thinking way too much about trying to find pieces to fit into a situation in order to come up with an answer to a problem that is never really answered. I analyze every detail and obsess about the details hoping to find something that will tell me "Yes this is a good idea!" or that will also say "No that is not a good idea.." It is extremely stressful and creates a lot of anxious feelings inside me! The therapist says that being a confidence person who is very secure with themselves does not mean they will be able to come up with a resolution that is solid and unbreakable! Amazingly enough they create just as much stress and anxiety as well! When you are living with the effects of trauma all the effort you put into coming up with answers or the fix is way more stressful and can often cause being re-triggered when you are incapable of facing those fears that are holding you hostage. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
You know how after being single for a while you feel that urge to once again start dating? You that that feeling of such strong fear that you aren't good enough for anyone?, that you'll just keep screwing it up again and be right back at square one? Loads of anxiety and that obvious insecurity inside yourself that prevents you from making anything out of something? Welcome to my world everyone! I am so afraid of becoming a repeating record time and time again that It's now to the point where I'm not sure I'll ever have a successful relationship... Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
When you have suffered from CPTSD it's often impossible to do what's best for you. Your childhood taught you that everyone else comes before yours. And that your needs, wants and experiences don't matter. One can go through life this way, but if you are a person who desires something bigger and better in life something will have to change. And that change often means breaking through fears you didn't even know we're there. It can be terrifying and usually full of identity bending meltdowns. Genea Barnes (Level Up Coach for Entrepreneurs and host of Be the Wolf: be who you were born to be) had two choices, break through or give up her business and her dreams. Join us to hear her story and learn what it takes to breakthrough Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! To contact Genea go to www.geneabarnes.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Children throughout the US and the world suffer child abuse or neglect enabled by religious belief every day. The impacts of this maltreatment can have serious long term effects and can even be fatal. Whether a child is raised Christian, Jewish, Muslim, or of any other faith, he or she is at risk, particularly if the adults responsible for their wellbeing are part of an authoritarian culture. Often people in society who are suffering from Mental Illness due to Trauma, child abuse, domestic abuse and such in Families that follow a faith are afraid to speak up and get help or report their abuser to either their local pastor, minister because they believe they'll be persecuted and made to feel that they are at fault and not their abuser. Please join me as I discuss Trauma, Abuse and Religion in this bonus (Mid-Week) episode! Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
When you have suffered from CPTSD it's often impossible to do what's best for you. Your childhood taught you that everyone else comes before yours. And that your needs, wants and experiences don't matter. One can go through life this way, but if you are a person who desires something bigger and better in life something will have to change. And that change often means breaking through fears you didn't even know we're there. It can be terrifying and usually full of identity bending meltdowns. Genea Barnes (Level Up Coach for Entrepreneurs and host of Be the Wolf: be who you were born to be) had two choices, break through or give up her business and her dreams. Join us to hear her story and learn what it takes to breakthrough Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! To contact Genea go to www.geneabarnes.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
A week ago I went on a road trip with my parents to Saskatchewan, which is about a 5 hour or so drive from home. Like the title says, I became triggered a few times over the course of 2 1/2 days. It had been nearly 7 years since the last time we all went together and stayed together, usually this is not something I enjoy. With my parents aging and my mother having some health issues making life much harder, my father doesn't always know how to handle things in a constructive and healthy manner. My extended Family also caused me to become triggered, which really sucks because I had not seen many of them since before the pandemic started and I was looking toward to it. Watching Football and discussing politics 99% of the time will lead to conflict and tempers rising, which of course is one sure way to make me become triggered and ruin the experience. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
As humans, we all yearn for companionship in various forms. Some seek love, loyalty, and family, while others desire physical connections devoid of intimacy. Some prefer a wide circle of surface-level friends, while some cherish a few close, meaningful friendships akin to family. Our early years at school shape our social skills, but for many, it's marred by various challenges, like shyness or even abuse. These early experiences can affect our self-worth and ability to trust in love. My own journey, marked by ADHD and bullying, led me to question the nature of love and trauma. Now, I find myself grappling with feelings for a close friend, torn between love and fear, wondering if it's genuine or a response to past trauma. Love is never simple, and I'm on a quest for understanding, balancing the risk of losing something precious with the possibility of finding true love. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
When you grow up, or even in adulthood, and you're confronted with traumatic events, especially those linked to Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder or CPTSD, it can feel like you're navigating through a never-ending storm. Whether it's an abusive partner, a toxic parent, or just an ordinary person who inflicts harm, the scars they leave behind can run deep. Imagine being trapped in a relationship with a narcissist, someone who slowly chips away at your self-worth until you begin to believe every cruel word they utter. It's a journey many have embarked on, and some have managed to escape, while others have been discarded once they've served their purpose. Often, especially if you haven't sought professional help yet, or you're in the early stages of your recovery, you find yourself facing triggers. These triggers can reawaken the horrors you've endured, causing you to relive the pain over and over again. The insidious consequence of this is a pervasive sense of self-doubt. You begin to question your own abilities, your decisions, and your self-confidence wanes. It's as if the trauma has cast a long shadow over your life, and it feels impossible to break free from its grip. In this episode I talk about how stressful trying to live my life is when becoming triggered feels so natural, so normal for me that trying anything new or interacting with a woman or stranger is not an option as it feels safer to stay at home by myself than out there taking risks. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Throughout my healing journey, I had a dedicated therapist who guided me through the darkness of my trauma. However, this path was marred by a unique challenge—my ex-girlfriend, who believed she knew what was best for me, often conflicting with my therapist's approach. Her strong influence during therapy sessions complicated my healing process. Realizing the need for unbiased healing, I made a significant decision—to change therapists. This marked a fresh start, prioritizing my well-being away from external voices. In this episode, I invite you to explore the reasons behind my decision, the challenges it presents, and the hopes it holds. We'll delve into the complexities of relationships, trauma, and healing, as I share my personal journey of resilience and transformation. My previous therapist played a vital role in helping me uncover buried wounds, but the dissonance between him and my ex-girlfriend created obstacles. But there's hope—my new therapist, specializing in trauma therapy and other techniques, represents a beacon guiding me toward the healing I deeply desire. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Enjoy this Encore presentation of a Season 2 Episode 31 of my Podcast! CPTSD triggers arise from past trauma, when safety was absent and danger loomed. To feel secure, our inner parts merge with the adult, striving for safety amid peril. A must for CPTSD sufferers: unwavering safety, be it in people or places, as lack thereof triggers flashbacks and yearnings for refuge. This quest for safety can breed isolation, urging us to seek solace in the outside world. Tune in to my podcast, exploring the crucial role of safety in a CPTSD-afflicted world. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
I had a rough week, starting with seeing my Ex looking at my profile on a dating site to feeling discouraged and lost to having all the built up tension almost come out on a friend. It did show me however that Fear is really holding me back! I am so afraid of being rejected and also afraid of being in another relationship with someone who is abusive! I don't feel like I am strong enough, brave enough to say "no this isn't going to work, I'm sorry" to the next woman I date if she doesn't work out. The only real course of action that will help me is therapy and a new therapist is the best way to start! Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! Support the show - become a Subscriber! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
A large percentage of people in society struggle with handling stress and anxiety while in their work environment. It often causes break downs, burnouts, stress leave and can lead to health problems that affect their lives. Now imagine what that must all feel like to someone who ALSO has CPTSD and has gone through abuse during their childhood or a violent relationship! add that into the equation! Stress in the work environment will definitely make us more susceptible to becoming triggered but we don't know how to or are afraid to speak up about it to someone at work, mostly due to the stigmas and stereotypes created at work. Want to contact me? Twitter Mastodon Threads traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com Podcast Website YouTube - NEW! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
For many of us who have been through trauma, especially through our childhood or teenage years, we will struggle with many areas of our Social life. One area that really is difficult for myself is my self confidence, which in turn affects my ability to advocate for my own needs and enforce my personal boundaries, both in relationships and in life. I am really scared of falling into the same routine of meeting someone, getting into a romantic relationship and then learning later that they're not a healthy person but I do not fight to have my needs met and I allow them to walk all over me. So I must learn to advocate for my needs and if a situation presents itself where I need to walk away that I will not fall into the same trap as before. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc Mastodon - @TRAUMATIZED Threads - @traumatizedpodcast23 traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Healing from your Trauma is long and difficult, never an easy task with so many steps involved. It can be painful but it does eventually bring you a feeling of strength, power and such a happy emotional explosion. However, YOU have to do the work required to get there! Not your therapist, not your friends... YOU. Once you are making progress, putting in the hard work and time you will begin to feel what healing truly feels like. Just keep at it and soon you too will feel the power of healing! Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc Mastodon - @TRAUMATIZED Threads - @traumatizedpodcast23 traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Part 2 of this 2 episode Podcast. My ex is a prime of example of a person who grew up being abused who turned it around and re-lived her trauma in a relationship, abusing her partner just like how her parents abused her. She was verbally and physically abusive, manipulative, judgmental among other traits. She displayed classic signs of Narcissism as well a Borderline Personality Disorder. This 2 part episode describes the beginning of our relationship, the start of the abuse and how it progressed to the point where she was in complete control and had me believing I was unworthy of anyone's love. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc Mastodon - @TRAUMATIZED Threads - @traumatizedpodcast23 traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
My ex is a prime of example of a person who grew up being abused who turned it around and re-lived her trauma in a relationship, abusing her partner just like how her parents abused her. She was verbally and physically abusive, manipulative, judgmental among other traits. She displayed classic signs of Narcissism as well a Borderline Personality Disorder. This 2 part episode describes the beginning of our relationship, the start of the abuse and how it progressed to the point where she was in complete control and had me believing I was unworthy of anyone's love. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc Mastodon - @TRAUMATIZED Threads - @traumatizedpodcast23 traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Today I have Dr. Gillian O'Shea Brown on my podcast as my Guest! she's a very educated, caring and understanding Psychotherapist who specializes in CPTSD and EMDR therapy. Together we discuss a lot of my past trauma and the reality behind it all, doing some deep evaluation of my past relationship and what I eventually learned about what having it end did for me and gave me the strength to grow wiser and learn so much more about my Trauma and its real background. Please take a look at her Instagram and check out her book! Dr. Gillian O'Shea Brown - https://www.instagram.com/dr.gillianosheabrown/ you can reach me at: Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
After all the time apart from my past abuser, my Ex Girlfriend.. no longer having to hear her attack me, tell me lies and abuse me and manipulate me, I am seeing it all in my dreams at night! She arrives just like when I lived with her 4 months ago and it looks and feels so real! I try with all I can to fight back, to say what I couldn't say when I was there but the words just don't come and once again am re-traumatized and I am triggered. Just now its in my Subconscious... I haven't seen her since March 1st but that doesn't matter, she now has control of me in my dreams. When I look at it from a broader perspective it just means there is still work ahead of me... that's ok! Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc Email - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpc.link also go find me on Mastodon. Next week I interview Dr. Gillian O'Shea Brown - https://socialwork.nyu.edu/profiles/gillian-o-shea-brown.html --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
This is a necessary step along our journey to healing from our trauma and moving forward with our lives. If we do not find a way to create, hold and spread out the positive energy day to day the healing process will be a lot more difficult, stressful and decreased our chances of truly finding peace with our past. Yes, this is difficult to achieve and healing from the abuse we suffered at the hands of our Abuser, the narcissist, the psychopath, the one we continue to fall back on instead of changing our patterns. In order to get to our goal of healing, recovery and finding our peace with our past we have to find that positive energy!, create our own destiny! Take care of ourselves, do what is best for us and never waver! create our boundaries and make sure people respect and abide by them. We are the only ones who can truly decide if we really want to heal from our Trauma, our CPTSD! you need to make the tough choices and start the positive vibe now! otherwise you'll keep failing and falling deeper down that hole. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
I tell you today, life is not that much fun even though I am no longer with my Ex and I love on my own! Always little things, experiences and memories or reminders that happen during my day that causes a great deal of pain and anxiety, not to mention emotionally beating myself up! I know this is just one trigger on top of another and I realize I am safe from her abuse but my fragile mind, my parts can't see my reality as they only see what they still fear. It's so mentally defeating and it hurts each time I am reminded of what she did to me! I can beat this! but likely not on my own... Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
As simple as it sounds, I kid you not... Recovery is far from it with many twists and turns, set backs and joy our road to recovery is going to be very stressful and hard to deal with, even at the best of times! Everyone will begin to recover once they have come to the self conclusion that they must get the help they deserve! Don't be surprised if you at times feel overwhelmed, sad, discouraged and angry at yourself! But the fight is worth it when you finally get to where you're meant to be but there is no clear answer. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
When you become triggered and your CPTSD becomes active, the fear inside you is strong! So damn strong that your body reacts in such a way that you are frozen, you feel sick and it paralyzes you! Fear is really the main piece of our Trauma, our CPTSD. But Feelings, our emotions aren't that simple, never that straight forward. WE all know that. Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com www.traumatizedpodcast.link --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Some people don't realize that getting a diagnosis, whether it's for CPTSD, ADHD, Autism or other Mental illnesses and disabilities is far from a simple procedure. We often face the difficult task in our lives of determining just exactly the issue and many symptoms can mirror CPTSD and ADHD or Autism and CPTSD. You feel like a lot of your symptoms indicate that you are on the Autism spectrum but perhaps there hasn't been enough work done with your therapist? Because a lot of what you think sounds like Autism is also prevalent in CPTSD! Many ADHD symptoms also are caused by suffering from extensive repetitive trauma but unless you get the proper help from a specialist it's difficult to know and even then, unless you have done a lot of your work and processing, you still may not be sure about it. www.traumatizedpodcast.link Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Trauma is difficult for all who experience it and the complicated journey along the way to healing can be just as scary and not everyone gets there! In this episode I interview Motivational Speaker Dolphin Kasper - https://www.instagram.com/dolphinkasper/?hl=en where we discuss Trauma, CPTSD and its affect on people, their relationships and just how difficult the steps of healing can be. Please join me and listen to this interview on the Podcast "TRAUMATIZED" www.TRAUMATIZEDpodcast.link Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Many of us at some point in our lives experience trauma with a lot of us that never even realize that it has ever happened. Complex Post Trauma Stress Disorder (CPTSD) can occur at many different stages of life, most commonly during our childhood or adolescent years. If you are aware of other people who you are around every day you will often see many either openly display the symptoms of their trauma or will mask the fear and trauma, pretending that everything is just fine! A lot of people in today's society are not very good at hiding their suffering and pain and it shows in numerous ways. Social interaction, personality traits, anger, frustration and even physical traits that to some are difficult to really see unless they know what they're looking for. Sadly when most people see someone struggling daily or are having issues that often get them in trouble their first impression or reaction is a negative one! They believe that they must be lazy or stupid or anti-social. Some even think they're just born to be trouble makers. The truth is for many of them is they have been through a lot and they just can't get the help they so desperately need or they feel lost and are too afraid to reach out for help for fear of even more trauma and it is just too much! www.TRAUMATIZEDpodcast.link Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message
Introducing a new Podcast... from the one who brought you "Living With ADHD and CPTSD", this podcast will dive deep into the areas where discussions about Trauma and CPTSD have never gone before! I will have very honest and real conversations about the harsh reality about CPTSD and Trauma and everything that happens in this world that leads to you, me and millions of undiagnosed people that have experienced repetitive Traumatic events. Also I'll tell the stories from those out there willing to reveal and express their own horrible traumatic experiences in their lives so that we all can see and feel what it is like to grow up with fear and anxiety every day. This will not be a nice and playful podcast but a very honest and open but blunt voyage into the lives of those affected by Trauma! www.traumatizedpodcast.link Twitter - @TRAUMATIZEDpc email - traumatizedpodcast2023@gmail.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/traumatized/message