WISE WOMEN DIARIES

Most of us live with a victim mentality towards our BODY: cancer, viruses, candida, or toxic food "attack" our body, making us the victim. Then we need a savior, a rescuer: a healer, doctor, supplements, or pills. Are you ready to break free from this cycle?! 

-What is the difference between a hope vs expectation? -Can we still Trust God if we don't get anything we WANT and only what we NEED?!?!? 

After 11 years of not eating animal products..... my mind shifted. Changing your mind about something is a humbling process.

The truth of life is that its constant change. Highs and lows. We ebb and flow from feeling our Light to experiencing our Darkness. I was faced with my Shadow Self recently.......here are my thoughts on that experience. 

I recorded this a few weeks ago and didn't have the courage to post it until now....because.... its a lot of crying:) 

I am posting this raw, vulnerable inner voice recording in the hopes that it will inspire you to do it yourself:) We do not ever NEED to seek external opinions or advice because we have an endless stream of wisdom within us, all of us, because we are from The Divine, we are the Divine! 

A real and honest talk about what I notice about myself in my marriage. I quote my favorite book A Return To Love by Marriane Williamson: “The special love relationship is the ego's chief weapon for keeping you from Heaven on Earth." **Special note: As I listened to the episode, I definitely laughed at HOW narcissistic the ego is when I said: "when people only post their happiness and gratitude on Instagram, it doesnt help me. It brings me no value." Of course the ego takes the situation of someone posting on Instagram, to make it personal!!!! Oh man! haha! People do NOT have to post on Instagram to help me or my ego. BUT, there is an undeniable truth that when an Instagram influencer uses their platform to share their struggles and not just their pretty hair and outfits, our suffering seems to lessen a bit, or we simply don't feel alone

I have a new theory....... and it might be radical.... but it's new, so it may not be perfect, but-- it has helped me gain greater clarity in my body with what my intuition REALLY is, versus my fear!

Many mothers outsource their power to doctors..... but also to Instagram influencer moms. This is a disempowered energy state. This is a Mother operating from Maiden energy, the energy of not trusting inner intuition and instead wanting permission and validation from anywhere else, besides yourself. Mothers, its time to take your power back! This begins with learning your Inner Voice and Intuition! 

Being an Enneagram Eight, I use my voice to defend the innocent: children. I truly believe they are Masters in so many ways, yet our culture is so conditioned to view children as "less than" or on a lower pedestal, simply because are new to Earth so they don't have a fully developed adult brain and are not yet conditioned into robots! 

FAM: Fertility Awareness Method is a method of birth control that does not involve hormones or devices! Its all about learning the signs of ovulation from your wise, beautiful body to detect when ovulation is happening, to either prevent or achieve pregnancy (using basal body temperature, cervical fluid and/or cervical position). Learning about FAM this year has been the MOST empowering experience for me!!! 

We try to control situations/people to try to prevent our worst fears from happening. Example: people pleasing is the attempt to control someone's perception of you, with the fear of someone thinking badly about you! Control is Fear. 

The body whispers before it tantrums. Most humans ignore their body's signals until they are in their mid-60's diagnosed with cancer or a disease.... THEN they may start supporting, loving, or listening to their body. But our free will allows to to learn from others and not wait until a diagnosis to take our body's signals seriously! Our body sends us messages every single day in the form of feelings, body discomfort, or pain, but are we pausing and listening to what our body may be trying to tell us? 

Continuing with the Trust vs Fear series, western medicine birth is rooted in FEAR. So what would pregnancy and birth look like if you truly trusted your body and baby!?!?  And trusted the Supreme Wisdom (God) that intelligently created your body and baby!?   Free Birth Society podcast and birth stories gets 100% credit for the inspiration behind this episode! 

The sequel to “If You Trusted the Universe, How Would You Act or Think Today?” which talked about how fear rules us in marriage and parenthood. Every choice we have, we are faced with choosing from TRUST in God or FEAR, concocted from our human mind. This episode covers the fear in the early stages of romantic dating.

We are always choosing between Fear or Trust, whether we realize it or not. This podcast explains how romantic relationships and parenthood is usually ruled by.......... FEAR.

Why does the ego love victimhood?!? When we are triggered, we often blame someone else for making us feel triggered, THIS is victimhood. Also discussed: how our society is steeped in victim-savior dynamic and that the victimhood of infertility is not the ONLY choice available!!

An explanation of the many voices in our head: the ego, the inner child… and the soul!

Part 2 explains the emotional and intuitive part of my gut-healing journey. When I say I used my intuition, what does that mean? My approach may not be for everyone and that's okay.  The modalities and info I reference are: I highly recommend seeing a functional medicine doctor/naturopath or NTP & RWP certified. I had a GI Map stool test to see what was actually going on in my gut. I did the Medical Medium protocol for 1 .5 years, used Ion Biome from Dr Zac Bush, TRS zeolite spray by Coseva but another option is ACZ Nano zeolite spray, "Designs for Health" Hepatatone Plus (liver supplement), U.S. enzymes (digestive enzymes), probiotics, "Designs for Health" magnesium, B vitamins, Thyroid Synergy (herbs), Glutathione, CellCore full moon parasite kit, CellCore CT Minerals, CellCore Bio Toxin Binder Or BlackOxygen fulvic acid, aloe vera juice, beet juice, "ATP" Estro Control, Barley Grass Juice Extract, Spirulina, Ashwaganda, Inositol, Kion goat colostrum  These supplements were not taken all at the same time! I added them at different times and rotate between them. 

Dysregulated nervous system = fight or flight = sympathetic nervous system = survival mode Regulated nervous system = rest and digest = parasympathetic nervous system = healing mode Cortisol and adrenaline= stress hormones the body outputs when in fight or flight YOU have control of your nervous system from your mind/thoughts and your daily habits!

Conscious Parenting/Marriage isn't common for a reason: it takes radical responsibility. It is a shift from blaming your child or your partner for your unhappiness and resentment, to full responsibility for your actions, reactions, habits, communication, wounds, etc. Children and partners are our teachers: they shine a light onto ALL OF OUR SH*T. Being conscious means that you are aware of your ego, how you act and react, and how it all stems from your past experiences, fears, programming, and childhood. 

I share my healing journey in this episode! I had to learn to listen and treat my body with respect and reverence when my body whispered at me, instead of waiting for it to tantrum through body pains or sickness! I discuss my year and a half on celery juice, PARASITES!, why a body may not be conceiving, how learning to shift your body from fight or flight mode to rest and digest is critical for body healing, and how blood sugar regulation is so important in regulating hormones.

We all worry and we all are fearful but you CAN control and manage fear! Take responsibility for your mind and start learning how to become its Master!

Our ego constantly worries… it tells us to make decisions so that we feel safe… so that the fear can lessen…. Until, the next fear shows up. If fear rules our life, we are not truly FREE. We are shackled. The only way out is FACING the uncomfortable truths of life!

This episode is especially important for women who are like me and are not mothers yet! I discuss why the Maiden to Mother transition is SO important, how The Pill keeps us disconnected from our body, how the medical system makes BILLIONS of dollars from our Fear of birth and our bodies, and that you can absolutely choose to have a powerful, peaceful birth for your first child.   *Of course the "TED talk" tagline does not mean this is a real TED Talk*

A real life story of how uncomfortable I was with someone else's big emotions and what I learned from that moment! Also discussed: you are not your judgements!! Our judgements are the proof that our brain is programmed by society! Thats it! 

Why do people lie? How creating a safe space is the most important factor in helping people be transparent and lying is a normal and natural brain development stage in children!

I am hoping couples will listen to this episode together. I explain why women are tired of being the sole emotional manager of their relationship and what men can do to help.

Explaining how the first seven years of life is the most important in regards to brain programming and how my brain is familiar with a system of Right vs Wrong and a list of black and white rules!

I have been studying manifestation for about 17 years, so here’s a recap of everything I have learned and discovered about attracting your dream life! What do you have control over? Or not? I believe we are here on Earth to be co-creators WITH God!

Relationships constantly change between feeling connected to your partner and then feeling disconnected. When we feel connected, we WANT to cooperate and act as a team with our partner. We want to help them! We’re loving in every way. But then when we feel disconnected, we don’t want to cooperate. We don’t feel loving; we feel quite the opposite. We want to tantrum, or nag, or criticize. Well, children feel the same way when they feel disconnected with their parent! The root of cooperation is a connected, loving bond! Our responsibility is learning how to foster connection with our partner or child! 

The truth is that when we are beaming with Joy, we project Joy onto our loved ones... and then when we are overwhelmed, we project overwhelm onto our loved ones. We need to take responsibility for our feelings because our loved ones did not ask to be our punching bag!

The Feminine is the healing balm to the world! The Compassionate Mother!

Explaining the difference between feminine and masculine energy, how our society suppresses and dishonors feminine energy and how that effects men (especially in parenthood), and how our society approaches parenthood in a very logical, masculine way, filled with schedules and structure! Also, I relay information from The MotherSpirit from Instagram: new mothers may deeply struggle because they are still operating from wounded maiden energy instead of stepping into empowered mother (wise woman) energy! Lastly, I get a little heated in the beginning, oops! Passion takes over!

Triggers are not bad! They are a communication tactic from our body! I explain my tips and tricks for deconstructing the root of my triggers, which ranges from simply being hormonal, to being triggered by someone who may behave or believe the opposite of me.

Discussing ego “gains and losses”: what the ego gains from giving unsolicited advice and being a devils advocate, holding onto resentment, how children are a threat to their parents ego, and the role of the ego in relationship disagreements. 

Identifying the ego stories you learned in childhood that are effecting your current relationship (I discuss my own ego stories), how a parent with inconsistent emotions may lead a person to be addicted to their own stress hormones, and how you may be recreating the same energetic pattern from childhood in your romantic relationship. Book referenced: How To Do The Work by Dr Nicole LePera

Whenever our partner hurts us in some way, usually our ego wants to hurt them back, sometimes through the silent treatment, or calling them a name, or shaming them. Our ego loves to pass its pain onto someone else. Change begins when we can start observing “the revenge voice” and eventually, not following through. Included are examples of the revenge voice and how our childhood is connected to our adult reactions.

This episode is especially for anyone that struggles with meditation or is in a tough season of life so gratitude is hard to muster. This “Thank you Body” script is what I personally use! Nothing fancy, so you can do it on your own, adjusted to your own unique body after you listen!

This is the most important episode so far. I discuss what I learned in therapy which includes the information in Dr Sue Johnson’s book “Hold Me Tight.” It is the BEST relationship book! My hope is that you can pinpoint the communication patterns in your relationship that creates emotional discord and lack of connection!

This episode is for anyone in any season of “waiting” like me! How to get out of “poor me” victim mentality and instead realize all of the gifts the “waiting” is providing, why I DO NOT call myself "infertile," why you need to stop comparing your journey to other people's, all the lessons and blessings I have gained from this waiting, and so much more!!

Explaining my spiritual journey that all started from my dads death: what comforted me in grief, the impact Wayne Dyer had on me as a young adult, learning the role Jesus has in my life (without “religion”) and currently, my fascination with the transition of Maiden to Mother feminine energy in women’s lives! Quotes by: Wayne Dyer, Daniel Schmachtenberger, Sarah Durham Wilson (TheMotherSpirit)

Part 2! Uncovering how different personalities deal with control (using the Enneagram), how most relationships typically have one person that loves having the control while the other person is passive, and how control shows up in relationships, miscarriage, conceiving, pregnancy, and parenthood. Books quoted: The Conscious Parent and The Awakened Family

Part 1! Why do we feel we need to control everything!?! Deep diving into why we want control so badly, my personal control issues, control in relationships, and how unanswered prayers can show us that maybe we don’t want the control anyways!

Exploring the potential emotional and spiritual causes of anxiety. This episode glitched and then something unexpected happened! It is a reminder that when things glitch or fall through, it is Spirit recalibrating the situation and everything is for our benefit! People quoted in this episode: Jewel, Dr Kelly Brogan, Medical Intuitive Patty Markham Peterson, and Dr Mark Hyman

The million dollar question! Intuition and fear DO differ! Listen in to learn the difference, how to handle fear spirals, and tactics to tap into your intuition!

You can truly be, do, and have anything you desire in this world, so why don’t you have it all? This episode explains the most common glitch we face when trying to manifest our dreams! But don’t worry, you can surely smooth out this glitch all on your own, because that is the power of YOU! Quotes referenced: Wayne Dyer, Abraham Hicks

Attraction to other people doesn’t go away just because you get married! It’s normal! BUT there are very important steps to take so that boundaries are not crossed with the “crush” and your relationship/marriage can thrive!

Waking up to the truth that your partner is your biggest teacher for your soul growth!