Is My Crazy Showing Podcast

Have you heard of Imposter Syndrome? Even if you don’t have it, some of us may be able to relate to the thoughts and feelings it causes. Listen in this week as talk about what it is and how to get help.     Trigger Warning:  Imposter Syndrome, Self Doubt, Self Shame.

Have you ever been Gaslighted? We didn’t think so either until doing research for this episode. Listen in as Cindy and Sarah learn more about Gaslighting and how it runs hand in hand with abuse.   Trigger Warnings: Domestic Abuse, Rape, Gaslighting.

I was recently told to stop seeing myself as a victim and to view myself as a hero. In the stories of our lives, we all tend to be the harshest critic. Maybe its not the story that's the problem, but view of it. This week Cindy and Sarah start to Re-Write their scripts. Trigger Warning: Bi-Polar, Eating Disorders, Rape, Self Shame and Cats.

Well, Its been a rough month. Cindy went back into inpatient. Sarah shut down. So we really needed to take time to care for ourselves mentally. Thank you all for your kind words and patience!! This episode we fill you in on where we are at.   Trigger Warnings: Suicidal Ideation, Suicidal Actions, Rape, Victim Blaming.

Keeping things light hearted this week, we decided to talk about the Cringe Factor. Those behaviors you had in the past that you may not have understood, but now know came from a pain or mental illness. The ones that you donut blame yourself for, but still make you cringe a little bit. Trigger Warnings: Brief Mention of Suicide Thoughts

There is no doubt that going through trauma sucks, but can there be a light at the end of the trauma tunnel? Would we be better people without it or does life without trauma truly exist? This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the light at the end of their tunnels. Trigger Warnings: Rape, Abuse, Domestic Violence, Parent Death.

Mental Health recovery truly is a journey that doesn’t happen over night. Sometimes it helps to reflect on the progress you’ve made and give yourself a pat on the back. So this week, Cindy and Sarah revisit some previous topics and talk about the changes they have seen in themselves. 

To start the New Year off with a bang, Cindy and Sarah open up about what is going on in their lives right now. They look back at the healing they have done this past year and share how they hope to heal in the coming year. Trigger Warning: Eating disorder, Self Harm, Cindy’s Dead Mom

Last year we where pretty Bah Humbug about the holidays. So this year, we decided go down memory lane and talk about our happy memories of holidays past. With mental illness it is not always easy to remember the positive, but sometimes, it is a great form of self care.

Social Media has become a huge part of our everyday lives. Bringing both positive and negative effects. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the effects it has and can have on mental health.   Trigger Warning: Mention of Dead Mom and Eating Disorders

To fault is to be human. As much as we may not want to admit it. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about coming to terms with their faults and how accepting them as helped from not repeating them in the future.   Triggers:  Mention of Dead Mom and Domestic Abuse

This week, both Cindy and Sarah needed to take a much needed mental break. We didn't want to leave you hanging though. So here is a recording of us performing live at the Blue Box Cafe in Elgin, IL. We will be back next week with our regularly scheduled program.

We all have internal voices, some of us more that others. Some of those voices are a-holes. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the voices in their heads and re-programming them to be nicer.   Trigger Warnings: Bullying and Shaming from Self and others.

We made it a whole year!! The last year has flown by and we couldn’t thank you all enough for your support. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about how this podcast has changed them and we answer some questions from our listeners.   Trigger Warnings: Rape, PTSD, Mental Health Issues.

Part of coming to terms with any kind of illness is acceptance. But what happens when acceptance becomes identity. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about struggling to find their identity beyond mental and physical illness.   Trigger Warnings: Sickness as Identity, Mental and Physical Illnesses, Bulimia, Bi-Polar, MS.

Are you afraid of the dark? Or spiders? Or maybe even clowns? Whether they are rational or irrational, we all seem to have fears. In honor of Halloween, Cindy and Sarah talk about the fears they have.   Trigger Warnings: Talk of death and all things creepy, crawly and spooky.

October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. Abuse comes in many different forms and happens more than you realize. To honor this, Cindy and Sarah share their experience with domestic abuse. Trigger Warning: Detailed accounts of verbal, mental and physical abuse. Please listen with caution.

In this world, one can often be made to feel wrong for marching to the beat of their own drum. With the pressure to fit in, in can be come easy to lose who you are. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about ditching the haters and finding their authentic selves.   Trigger Warnings: Bullying, Insecurities, Low Self-Worth.

It’s become trendy for people to say they have O.C.D. when they are talking about liking things clean or organized. But that’s just not how any of this works. So listen in as Sarah talks about life and recovery from her O.C.D.. Trigger Warnings: Detailed talk of O.C.D behaviors, obsessions and compulsions. Anxiety.

Anybody else dealing with loss? Yeah we thought so. Grief can come in all different forms. Whether it is loss of a parent or loss of identity, we all deal with grief. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the grief that they have dealt with in their lives.  Trigger Warnings: Parent Death, Sexual Assault, E.D. Recovery, Depression.

This week we talk about fat shaming and the effects it has had on our lives. Which was brought about when a certain public figure made a call to action to bring back fat shaming. Thank you James Corden for your elegant response!!   Trigger Warnings: Fat Shaming, Bullying. Mentions of Abusive Relationships, Sexual Assault, Parent Death.

This week, Sarah and Cindy tackle the difficult subject of Suicide. September is National Suicide Prevention Month. We tell our stories, thoughts and feelings that went into our attempts. Listen with care.   Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 1-800-273-8255   Trigger Warnings: We go into extreme detail of our suicide attempts and suicidal ideation. Unhealthy relationships, Parent Death, Family Resentment, Rape, Trauma, Abuse.

So we are trying something a little different this week. Instead of a topical episode, we just extended our Check-In’s and just talked about what we are emotionally dealing with in life right now. Let us know what you think!   Trigger Warnings: Relationship Issues, Self Sabotage, Parent Death, Issues with Vulnerability, Loneliness, Relationships with Others.

As Humans, we like to think that we understand everything about Human emotions and behaviors. When in reality, we really don’t understand them like we think we do. This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the emotions underneath the surface and where they come from.   Trigger Warnings: Mentions of Addiction, Suicide, Mourning, Parent Death, Emotional Shaming, PTSD, Rape, Slut Shaming, Abusive Relationships.

Our emotions are important, yes even the negative ones. This week we talk about the “Stay Positive” movement and how it can be damaging and why it is so important to allow yourself to feel ALL of your emotions.  Side Note: We were a bit spacey during recording, but stick with us, we get there!! Haha   Trigger Warnings: Invalidation of Feelings, Shaming for who you are, Societal Pressure of Emotions. Victorian Medical Practices towards woman.

We are programmed throughout our lives to think certain ways. This is influenced by the good, the bad and the ugly that happens to us, unfortunately. But part of healing means you get to  deprogram the bad parts. Listen in as Cindy and Sarah talk about their deprogramming processes.    Trigger Warnings: Need for Validation, Insecurities, Feeling Unloved, Mommy Issues, Divorce.

What’s the motto with me, what’s the motto with you??   Have you ever wondered where our sign-offs come from? This week we discuss our personal mottos that we end every episode with, where they came from and what they mean to us. We also throw in a bonus one that you have probably heard us say before. 

Please listen to the following episode with extreme caution!!   Medically, Self Harm is defined to only be done through a few specific actions. But what about all the other behaviors that cause physical harm indirectly? Shouldn’t all behaviors that cause harm to ourselves mental and physically be considered under the Umbrella of Self Harm? Listen in as Cindy and Sarah discuss these questions and share their self harm behaviors.   Trigger Warnings: This week we go into explicit detail about the thoughts and behaviors of Self Harm. Please listen with extreme caution. We also talk about Rape, Negative Coping Mechanisms, Suicide Attempts, and Abuse.

"We're all living in each others paranoia"- Mr. Robot Have you ever been left asking yourself, "Am I being Paranoid or is this just my anxiety talking?" This week, Cindy and Sarah try to navigate their thoughts and behaviors and do their best to distinguish what is paranoia and what is just anxiety. Trigger Warnings: Bullying, Dating, Family Issues, Paranoid and Anxiety driven thoughts and actions.

Motivational Quotes, can’t live with them can’t live without them.   This week we tried something a little different. If you are like us, your Photo Gallery and Pinterest boards are filled with  Motivational Memes. So we decided to read through them and talk about why they caught our eye and opened our minds.    Trigger Warnings: This week we didn’t talk about the usual triggering subject matter, but some of these quotes can definitely stir up some strong emotions.

Far too often, Desperation is used by society to be an insult . But what’s wrong with feeling that way and what drives it? We have all been desperate a time or two, so listen in as Cindy and Sarah talk about their times of desperation, what drove it and how others treated them for it.   Trigger Warnings: Slut Shaming, Bullying, Unhealthy Dating Habits, Unhealthy Sexual Behaviors, Societal  Pressures, Hypo Manic thoughts.

At first, Cindy and Sarah talk about how emotions feel physically and where they manifest in the body.  Then we went rogue and we talk Cindy through her break-up and start to tackle Sarah’s fear of love. Buckle up, this episode’s definitely rollercoaster.   Trigger Warning: Mentions of Rape, Trauma, Self Harming Behaviors, Coping Mechanisms, Breakups, Depression, Anxiety.

Happy Pride Month! This Week, Cindy and Sarah go over the long history of the gay agenda. Spoiler alert we just want to be accepted as we are. We also read listener stories of coming out, being accepted, and how it affects mental health.  Trigger Warnings: History of Pride and Coming our stories, that can be triggers since they do include violence and bulling toward members of the LGBTQA+ community.

Lettuce talk about what’s just under the surface. Emotions can be much like icebergs. They may seem small on the surface, but can be hiding something much larger underneath. And just like the Titanic, they may cause you to sink.   Trigger warning: Mentions of fat shaming, domestic violence, abuse, self harm, anxiety, panic attacks and shaming.

If we had a nickel for every time we heard this phrase…   “Just get over it” is a term that many with mental illness here on a regular basis. But it is not that simple,  or is it? Listen in as Cindy and Sarah discuss this phrase, what it means to them and how it can be both harmful and helpful.    Trigger Warning:  Talk about being judged or insulted for having mental illness. Mention of parent death.

Are you a fixer or a helper? Do you even know the difference? Listen in to Cindy and Sarah as they discover who they are and how they have learned to cope during their healing. Trigger warnings: Mentions of domestic abuse, Rape, Assault, O.C.D, In-patient Treatment, Sexual Humor.

Changes, nobody likes them but we all need to except them.  This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about the biggest changes they have had to deal with, the toll it took on their mental health, and how they learned to cope. Trigger Warnings: Divorce, Domestic Abuse, Body Shaming, Eating Disorders, Weight Gain, Unhealthy use of Alcohol. Mentions Of: Parent Death, Rape, and Suicide.

Nope, the weather is not Bi-Polar. Much of the vocabulary around mental illness is used incorrectly on a day to day basis. So join Cindy and Sarah as they give a little vocal lesson, Mental Health edition.   Trigger Warnings: Talk of Depression, Anxiety, Bi-Polar Disorder, Eating Disorders, PTSD, Triggers, O.C.D. And Psychosis.

We Have Mommy Issues, Yes We Do! We Have Mommy Issues, How ‘Bout You? This week we talk about our relationships with our Moms. So buckle up its going to be a long one.   Trigger Warnings: Parent Death, Moment of Death, Childhood Abuse, Trauma.

Is your shame dumpster full? Then let the aliens take it away. We all carry so much shame that doesn't belong to us. So join in as Cindy and Sarah dump theirs and send it back to where it came from. Trigger Warnings: Mentioningsof Childhood Abuse. Domestic Abuse, Sexual Assault, Fat Shaming, Mental Illness Shaming, LGBTQ+ Shaming.

Have you ever been made to feel like an outsider? Well, join the club and listen in as Cindy and Sarah talk about the times in life they were made to feel less then. As well as all they ways they changed themselves in order to fit in and what they think of it now. Trigger Warnings- Mentions of Eating Disorders, Bullying, and LGBTQ+ Bullying.

This week, Cindy and Sarah talk about distractions. Life with mental illness can be rough, so distractions are the things that help you balance out the bad with a little bit of good. Trigger Warning: Generalized conversation about anxiety, depression and life with mental illness.

In our first bonus episode, Sarah shares her story with the intentions of bringing awareness to victim blaming and the long term effects rape has on its victims. She also takes this step to further her healing from her past assault. Please listen with caution. Extreme Trigger Warning: This is a detailed account of rape. Victim Blaming/Shaming. Self Blame, Physical Harm. 

April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month.  This episode is to recognize all those that have suffered sexual assault and the aftermath it has on survivors lives. Join Cindy and Sarah as they have a very open, honest and uncensored conversation. Please listen with caution. Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault, Rape, Consent, Suicide, Domestic Abuse, PTSD, Shame, and Mental Breakdown.

Are you medicated? Come join the conversation as we play Devils Advocate about Psychotropic Medications. Cindy talks about being medicated and Sarah talks about unmedicated recovery.  Trigger Warnings: Psychotropic Drug use; being prescribed, side effects, misuse, and abuse. Suicidal Methodology. Anxiety/Panic attacks, Depression, Bi-Polar Disorder, Eating Disorder Behaviors. PTSD.

Embrace the High Highs and the Low Lows, Ride the wave!! Bi-Polar awareness may only get one day of recognition nationally, but here at the IMCS podcast we are giving it 2 whole weeks. This week Cindy shares her personal story of life with Bi-Polar.  Trigger Warmings- Depression, Anxiety, Suicidal Thoughts and Actions, Self Harm, Manic/ Depressive Episodes, Bi-Polar Thoughts and Behaviors, Unhealthy Relationship Behaviors. Self Hatred and Blame.

Did you know March 30th is World Bi-Polar Day? This week, Cindy teaches us all about Bi-Polar to bring awareness to this misunderstood disorder. She also asks the tough question of "Why do we only get a day and not a month?" Also, come back next week to hear Cindys personal story of living with Bi-Polar.   Trigger Warnings-  Hypo Manic/ Depressive episodes, Suicidal Thoughts, Drug Use/Abuse, Insomnia, Death, Unhealthy Sexual Behaviors, Behaviors that can lead to being harmed by others.

Have you been diagnosed lately? This week is all about getting diagnosed. Cindy and Sarah talk about their experiences. How it happened, our reactions, friends and families reactions and so on. Plus we share listeners stories about their own diagnosis.   Trigger Warnings: Mentions of childhood abuse, sexual assault, suicidal thoughts and actions. Mental Health diagnosis.

No need to be surprised, let Cindy be your guide. Cindy goes over what to expect while checking in and out of Inpatient Treatment. Procedures, practices and how to find the right place for you.  Trigger Warnings: Talk of suicidal thoughts and actions. Body inspections, Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, Medication and Alcohol abuse, Family Turmoil, Loss of a parent.

"You're a Dragon, be a Dragon"- Lady Olenna Tyrell Cindy talks about her time on the inside, of impatient treatment that is. Listen in as she discusses what led her to enter and what she learned while she was there. Lets celebrate Cindy for getting help and discovering her inner Dragon. TRIGGER WARNINGS: Suicidal thought and actions, self harming behaviors, Bi-Polar related behaviors, medication abuse, domestic abuse, sexual assault, detailed inpatient treatment, mention of patients with addictions/eating disorders.

It’s National Eating Disorder Week! And what else is there to do but to share your E.D. story. So this week, Sarah shares her experiences of developing, living with and recovering from  her Eating Disorders.  If you yourself have an eating order or history of, please listen with care. This episode could be very triggering. TRIGGER WARNINGS: Eating Disorder behaviors, loss/gaining of weight, use of the word fat, distorted body image, domestic abuse, sexual assault, self harming behaviors, bullying, abuse.