Holding the Light

Jennifer Oldham lived through a moment no parent ever imagines—when an ordinary day turned tragic, in the blink of an eye. A sudden storm. A fallen tree. And the heartbreaking loss of her daughter, Hallie.In the quiet, in the pain, and in the love that endures, she has found the strength to speak—about what happened, how she's still standing, and holding on to memories while learning to live again. How she is Keeping Kindness for Hallie. And sharing her powerful story of survival after child loss.Links to our conversation with Jennifer:Kindness Keepers for Hallie: https://kindnesskeepersforhallie.org/Keeping Kindness for Hallie FB Page: https://www.facebook.com/groups/383574890577429Emily Graham (Grief Recovery Method Specialist): https://kindnesskeepersforhallie.org/Faith's Lodge: https://www.childlossfoundation.org/What did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!We want to hear from YOU. Leave us a voicemail! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, we invite you to leave us a message. We will listen to every one. Some might even be used in a future episode. You can also let us know what you think of our podcast, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call and leave us a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!Love what you heard? leave us...

Austin Ashmore's spirit continues to impact the world, long after his life was tragically cut short by an accidental drug overdose. This podcast is the story of a mother's plea to have others remember her son for how he lived, not how he died. He deserves that, and so does she. We uncover the legacy Austin left behind, in conversations, and the quiet strength of a mother's love. To join the Facebook Group "Austin's Legacy" email: austinslegacy2016@gmail.comWhat did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!We want to hear from YOU. Leave us a voicemail! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, we invite you to leave us a message. We will listen to every one. Some might even be used in a future episode. You can also let us know what you think of our podcast, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call and leave us a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!Love what you heard? leave us...

“It was the worst day of my life, but I've always been grateful for having him for 33 years.” Reaching the 10-year milestone since the passing of her 33-year-old son Wayne, Lena  is finding solace in helping others embrace their grief journeys through a national network called The Compassionate Friends. But along the way, she's also discovered she is helping herself live more fully, and more intentionally every day, for herself, and for her son.Links to resources from our interview with Lena Hann: The Compassionate Friends grief support groups: https://www.compassionatefriends.org/Lena Hann, The Compassionate Friends Facilitator in  Lewiston, Maine.              Email Lena: lenahann33@gmail.comGrief Educator David Kessler: https://grief.comWhat did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!We want to hear from YOU. Leave us a voicemail! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, we invite you to leave us a message. We will listen to every one. Some might even be used in a future episode. You can also let us know what you think of our podcast, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call and leave us a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!Love what you heard? leave us...

Losing a child, on it's own, is more than enough to bear in one lifetime. But imagine losing three brothers before that and witnessing your mother's unimaginable grief while navigating sibling loss. Then, in a 17-month span, watching both of your parents die. And two years later, hearing the news that your only child, at just 22 years of age, was killed in a car accident. Darlene Sforza calls this layered grief. As she searches for her purpose in life, along the way, she is finding hope in sharing her story of survival, and grace, in honoring her son Matthew. Links to episode content:www.griefshare.orgWhat did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!We want to hear from YOU. Leave us a voicemail! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, we invite you to leave us a message. We will listen to every one. Some might even be used in a future episode. You can also let us know what you think of our podcast, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call and leave us a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!Love what you heard? leave us...

Sibling relationships often have a unique dynamic, shaped by shared experiences and a deep, sometimes, unspoken bond. Margaret was just 13 when her older sister and best friend Maiah, died in a tragic accident. Adolescent grief can have a profound impact on your life. Five years later, and now just 18 years old, you'll be inspired by her mature, charming, real, and insightful perspective on sibling loss. We have opened a listener line! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, leave us a voicemail message. Some of your comments might even be used in a future Holding the Light podcast episode. You are also welcome to let us know what you think of the episode, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call the listener line and leave a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!What did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!We want to hear from YOU. Leave us a voicemail! If there is something you've learned in your grief journey that might be helpful for others, we invite you to leave us a message. We will listen to every one. Some might even be used in a future episode. You can also let us know what you think of our podcast, suggest a topic, or request to be a guest. The number to call and leave us a voicemail is: 617-302-7373. We can't wait to hear from you!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would li...

The holidays are here, and for those grieving the loss of someone they love, it can be so challenging. Our guest not only understands this as a grief support facilitator, but also as a widow, who lost her husband in her 20s, while raising their 3-year-old daughter. Lots to share in this special episode, including suggestions and resources to help your grieving hearts, and ways you can support bereaved friends and family this holiday season. If you or someone you love is struggling, there is help by dialing the National Suicide and Crisis Hotline at 988. Sarah Kilch Gaffney's website can be found at https://www.sarahkilchgaffney.comFor more information about Camp Ray of Hope: https://www.sarahkilchgaffney.com/news/camp-ray-of-hope-2024The ShineOnCass Blue Christmas Ceremony will be held Saturday, Dec. 21st at 4pm at the Oakland Gazebo. https://www.shineoncass.org/blue-christmas-ceremony.htmlTo have your loved one's name read aloud and receive a blue light, submit here:https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSeAZRPy4OKCbzPPx5F1TOe0A7Ss1k_UoZEEu9bFhDcvnelIow/viewform?vc=0&c=0&w=1&flr=0For local bereavement support groups offered through Hospice Volunteers Waterville Area: https://www.hvwa.org/What did you think? Share your feedback in a text message.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. You can Venmo @shineoncass noting Holding The Light Podcast, or Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple P...

Send us a textIn 2013 Samantha Banerjee was pregnant with her first child, she lovingly named, Alana. Nearing the end of a textbook pregnancy and just days away from meeting her baby girl, the unthinkable happened. Alana died from stillbirth. And thus began Samantha's empowering grief journey that has captured national attention through tireless advocacy for stillbirth awareness and prevention. Samantha, who lives in New York with her husband and two healthy children, is nationally-renowned within the loss community for her candid writing on grief and has been featured in The Washington Post, TODAY, ProPublica, and ABC News. To learn more about Samantha's advocacy work with PUSH for Empowered Pregnancy, visit pushpregnancy.org.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. You can Venmo @shineoncass noting Holding The Light Podcast, or Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple P...

Send us a textOctober 11, 2024 marks 10 long years since Cassidy died. She would be 27 this year. I never thought I'd still be here, but here I am. Not only have I survived, but I have learned to live again, just differently. I'm living WITH my grief. This episode is a personal reflection on my journey. I'm here to share 10 things I have learned about grief in 10 years, including the wealth of knowledge I have gained from bearing witness to other parents' grief in this podcast. Thank you for listening.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. You can Venmo @shineoncass noting Holding The Light Podcast, or Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple P...

Send us a text**This conversation includes references to violence, including experiences of a mass shooting, traumatic grief, and other details unsuitable for young children. This recording is prohibited from being copied or reproduced without permission.***Losing a loved one to murder creates unique and complicated grief like no other. Vicki Roy is here to talk about her traumatic bereavement following Maine's worst Mass Shooting that claimed the life of her brother Michael Deslauriers. She bravely shares how her grief unfolded amidst the public chaos, re-traumatization of the ongoing investigation, and the unexpected feelings of losing her only brother, to something else. We honor Mike, his family, and the many people affected by this tragedy who are now navigating their personal grief journeys.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. You can Venmo @shineoncass noting Holding The Light Podcast, or Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple P...

Send us a Text Message.There is something to be said about a mother's intuition. Sandy Fisher knew something was wrong the day her 18-year-old son, Scott Junior, died by suicide. He had just entered college. Now, after 18 years of grieving his loss, and even an attempted suicide herself, she is courageously sharing her experience and knowledge. Her mission? To help students, parents, friends, and educators recognize the warning signs, ask the right questions, and seek help. Dial 988: Suicide and Crisis LifelineSuicide prevention and educational resources shared in this podcast:Maine Suicide Prevention: NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness): namimaine.orgAmerican Foundation of Suicide Prevention: afsp.orgSuicide Prevention/Education in Maine Schools: namimaine.org/suicide-prevention/suicide-prevention-in-schoolsHolding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, edited and produced by Monica Charette, with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple Podcasts share our podcast with others

Send us a Text Message.Navigating life after child loss is hard enough without the gender-based stereotype that men must somehow be strong and overcome their grief. After the devastating loss of his daughter Lila to stillbirth, Rob Reider has created a space to help nurture bereaved fathers, in a club just for men. It's called the Sad Dads Club. A place to share  loss among others who can truly understand their journey. A voice for all grieving fathers. SAD DADS CLUB helps fellow bereaved fathers navigate life after loss by nurturing a supportive community and providing access to mental health services.For more information about the Sad Dads Club, visit https://saddadsclub.com/Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Monica Charette with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple Podcasts share our podcast with others

When your child dies, it's so hard to accept that every part of their existence is no longer possible. Mary Alexandra felt this deeply after her daughter Celina died, as life, inevitably, moves forward. This kind of grief, never goes away. But Mary shares how it IS possible to balance grief with her greatest joys. Like the wedding of her younger daughter and becoming a grandmother, all while keeping Celina's memory alive. A message for all who are grieving. It's okay to be sad, and happy.Celina Marie Alexandre Scholarship Fund https://www.celinasscholarshipfund.org/Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Monica Charette with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple Podcasts share our podcast with others

When faced with the possibility that her 34-year-old daughter Jessica might die from brain cancer, Julie Brown turned to her writing for solace, which, she says, has become part of her evolution. After Jessica's passing, this caregiving and courageous mother is now inspired to write the next chapter of her life in hopes of helping others.Resources mentioned in our podcast conversation:Building A Life: A Mother's Healing Journey of Self-Discovery by Julie Brown available at Amazon and at local book stores"Life with Julie Brown": www.lifewithjuliebrown.comCaring Bridge: www.caringbridge.orgThe Dempsey Center: https://www.dempseycenter.org/Brain Injury Association of Maine: https://www.biausa.org/National Brain Tumor Society: https://braintumor.org/Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Monica Charette with support from Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com. Love what you heard? leave us a review on Apple Podcasts share our podcast with others

When a horrific car accident suddenly claimed the lives of her teenage son Casey, and her husband Gus, Susan Cloutier had to dig deep to want to keep living. She shares her story of losing half of her family in an instant, parenting her angry, and deeply grieving 11-year-old son, finding love again, even contemplating ending her life. Yet through it all, she learned how to lean heavily into her faith to move forward with love and purpose. Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com.

While Debbie Reynolds would not, and should not, ever say she is childless, she is now navigating a life without her only two children, Michelle and Matthew.  How does a parent even begin to process the death of their young daughter, while helping an older son with sibling grief, and later, his own terminal illness?  The path of healing has been difficult, but also enlightening, as Debbie candidly tells the story of her family's unimaginable journey,  including what she has learned, how others can support bereaved parents, and how she is finding peace to continue her life, while always honoring her two children. Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy!If you appreciate our grief podcast and would like the opportunity to support what we are doing to give space for families to share their grief stories, you can make a listener's gift. Your kind support will help fund the host site, editing, and production. Email us at holdingthelightpodcast@gmail.com.

Suicide without warning is more common than we might think. Which is why Annette McCoy will never stop asking herself, “how did I not know?” Sometimes, even after years of searching, the answers just aren't there.  Instead of focusing on how her only child died, she is coming to terms with it, by sharing her story and her endless love for Evan.  Turning that grief, into so beautifully honoring her child.     Noted in this podcast is the project “Evans Rocks Around the World.” To learn more, follow their Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1242366296116297Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

Every day Dawn carries her heavy grief, alongside endless love for her son Krys, but she never carries the guilt or responsibility that often plague parents of child loss to suicide. In this podcast, this brave Mom candidly shares how the demons and drugs were bigger and stronger than her 30-year-old son.  Her peace comes in knowing he is safe, in loving the son he left behind, and helping others through life's greatest loss.  Colby and I are honored to Hold the Light with Dawn Prime Watson.   *Important Show Note: This interview was recorded in June, 2023. The Sibling to Sibling organization created for siblings of suicide loss that Dawn discusses in this podcast, has since been dissolved. Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

In a very special interview, Colby and I had the complete joy and honor of talking with Cidny Bullens, a Grammy-nominated singer-songwriter, who is known for being a backup vocalist for Elton John, singing lead vocals on the Grease soundtrack, and has nine critically-acclaimed solo albums. Cid humbly shares how the deep grief of child loss transformed his life, in more ways than one—including influencing his decision to publicly come out as a transgender man, and the creation of an album in his daughter's memory, that he says, is now his legacy. You won't want to miss this conversation, or his amazing podcast performance of our theme song, As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings). We were interviewed by WGME Fox Maine News reporter Adrienne Stein about our podcast “Holding the Light.” Watch for the airing soon!Cid's new memoir: TransElectric, My Life as a Cosmic Rockstar is available for purchase on Amazon and at local bookstores.Visit the Cidney Bullens Website: cidnybullens.com for upcoming book readings and performances!Cidny's Podcast: Cracking the Sky. A Conversation with Creatives is available wherever you listen to podcasts. Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

When your child dies by suicide, it presents unique circumstances that can intensify and sometimes prolong and complicate the grieving process for parents. Tom Howard is slowly reassembling the pieces of his own shattered life after the loss of his son, Eli.  He shares the mental health challenges his son  faced, as well as his personal reflection on how men and women grieve differently, and yet how we all have to accept the unacceptable. You'll also learn how he finds strength in a 12-Step Program for Grief Recovery. To learn more about Eli Howard:https://vtdigger.org/obituary/eli-howard-athlete-musician-friend-and-son/https://www.facebook.com/people/Remembering-Eli-Howard/100063588310525/Downeast 12-Step Bereavement Support GroupHeld weekly hybrid, both in-person and on zoom, Thursdays at Noonwww.paintedpepperfarm.me/mooscornerHolding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

It's so hard to move forward after the loss of a child. Hard for grieving parents to find their place in the world; to maintain their role as a parent, a daughter, son, or friend. Remembering who  they  are, and what makes them happy. Taryn Murray takes us back to the heart- wrenching moment when she was told her 21-year-old son Jakob had died in a motorcycle accident. She shares the challenges of balancing grief with parenting her daughter, and how she is finding peace in her own life.  To support the Jake Murray Memorial Scholarship: Mail checks to:Jake Murray Memorial Scholarship FundDowneast Federal Credit Union211 Main Street,  Machias, ME  04654 Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/jakemurraymemorialfoundationOr make a gift to the Jake Murray Go Fund Me: https://gofund.me/80cda563Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

When you are suffering with the most difficult grief of child loss, in your deepest despair, you sometimes question your mental well-being. But how do you know when grief becomes a mental health crisis? Kirstie Martin knew the difference one day, and sought help that saved her life.  We are humbled to share her brave story, and celebrate the love and legacy of her son, Brady. Kirstie is the founder of Maine Angel Moms, a private Facebook page for grieving Maine mothers. https://www.facebook.com/groups/440927923822597988 is the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline,  active across the United States. When people call, text, or chat 988, they will be connected to trained counselors who will listen, provide support, and connect people in crisis to resources if necessary.866-771-9276 is  the International Warm Line, referenced in this podcast. It is a mental health peer-to-peer phone support line for adults, aged 18 and older, offering mutual conversations with a trained peer specialist who has life experience with mental health recovery.Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

Is grief different for parents of only children?  Charlie Hartman's answer surprised us.  But what didn't, is the lifetime of grief she now bears after the death of her 30-year-old son, Alec. Her voice lights up when she says his name, as it brings her great joy to share his life and legacy. Charlie is very candid about Alec's challenges  with Aspberger's Syndrome, and the struggles he faced with crippling anxiety and depression. But what you will remember most is this mother's pride in sharing Alec's talent as a gifted photographer, and the captivating images that now tell his story.  We invite you to learn more about Alec and his talent by visiting his stunning collection of photography at www.alecphoto.com. You can also read Charlie and Alec's story "A Gifted Maine Photographer Gone Too Soon" published in DownEast Magazine (March, 2022) https://downeast.com/photography/alec-hartman-a-gifted-maine-photographer/ Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

When Lisa Reilich suddenly lost her 18-year-old daughter Maiah in a tragic accident in 2020, she dug deeper into the meaning of “transitioning” and discovered new ways to know her daughter, and, continue their relationship. Lisa shares the personal revelation of surrendering to her grief, and, how she holds her grief now, so that she might help others walking the same path. Her words, both in conversation, and in poetry, are thoughtful and inspiring. To learn more about Maiah and Moo's Corner, the sanctuary at Painted Pepper Farms in Steuben, Maine, visit their website: www.paintedpepperfarm.me/mooscorner and follow their active Facebook Page.Additional resources mentioned in this podcast:The Compassionate Friends National Chapter: https://www.compassionatefriends.org/Lewiston, Maine Chapter:  2nd Wednesday of each month 6:00 lenahann33@gmail.comPortland, Maine Chapter: 3rd Thursday of each month at 7:00 pm, tcfofportlandme@gmail.comMaine Angel Moms Facebook Group: www.facebook.com/groups/440927923822597Downeast 12-Step Bereavement Support GroupHeld weekly hybrid, both in-person and on zoom, Thursdays at Noonwww.paintedpepperfarm.me/mooscornerMaiah Alyssa Reilich- Godino Memorial Page http://paintedpepperfarm.me/tributes-to-maiah-moo/Holding the Light is an original, monthly podcast created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert. EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

Grieving the loss of your child is very personal—and private—until your loss becomes part of a national tragedy. Deb Roberts shared her grief with people around the country, as we held our collective breaths waiting to hear the fate of the 33 crew members aboard the SS Elfaro in 2015. Her son, Michael Holland, was among the heroes lost at sea. In this, our final podcast of 2022, Colby and I have a very moving conversation with Deb about her experiences with grief, knowing she can never bring her son home. She also shares where she is in her healing today, seven years later, as she works tirelessly to honor Michael's legacy.For information about the Holland Strong Community Foundation, we invite you to visit their website: hollandstrong.org.  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

Four words a parent never wants to hear: your child has cancer. How would you talk with your 11-year old child about his own mortality? We wondered, when you anticipate your child's death, when does the grief journey actually begin? Amber Poulin answers these questions and more, as she bravely shares her story, and the lifetime of love she will continue to have for her son, Jayden, since his passing from brain cancer two years ago. It's an inspiring story of one mother's quest to ensure her courageous son is never forgotten.   For more information about supporting children facing cancer who have beloved pets at home, visit Jayden's Warrior Pack Charity to apply for assistance, or make a donation.Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

The holidays are especially challenging for grieving families.  Colby and I were honored to talk with Mark Jose, a professional grief counselor, longtime Hospice volunteer, and grief support group facilitator.  In this episode, Mark helps shatter the myths of holiday grief, shares suggestions for surviving,  as well as the greatest lesson he has learned about just how strong and powerful grief really is. We hope something you hear helps you, or the grieving heart of someone you love.Grief support groups are available in many local communities through Hospice Volunteers. For local families in central Maine, visit Hospice Volunteers of Waterville Area. The 2022 Light the Night Blue Christmas Ceremony in Oakland, ME mentioned in this podcast, will be held Dec.  21st (Winter Solstice) at 6 pm. FMI visit the ShineOnCass Blue Christmas website page .Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

If you tuned into our most recent podcast, you had the opportunity to meet Amanda Garay, who bravely shared the loss of her younger brother Chris, to suicide. This week, we are joined by Amanda's and Chris's Mom, Cathy Langlais, who says, the only thing that comes close to the pain of hearing about the loss of her only son, was having to tell her only daughter. In this very personal interview, Cathy reflects upon the last seven years since Christopher's passing, the changes she has made in her life, and the special bond she now has with her daughter, Amanda.The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Call 9-8-8. Hospice Volunteers of Waterville Area: hvwa.org. Camp Kita, a tuition-free summer bereavement camp in Maine, for children ages 8-17, who are survivors of a loved-one's suicide:  campkita.com. Christopher Langlais Golf Tournament: langlais27@hotmail.com.Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

Siblings are your first friends, the keeper of your earliest childhood memories, the people you expect and plan to be part of your future. In this week's podcast, Amanda Garay shares her deep love, and the lifelong grief she now bears after her younger brother Christopher died by suicide 7 years ago. Chris, she says, was the perfect example of how "everything seemed perfect”-- all part of an important message she wants to share with others. You will be captivated by Amanda's story of perseverance, and you'll be inspired by her commitment to help others whose lives have been impacted by suicide. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 9-8-8.To learn more about bereavement support through Hospice Volunteers of Waterville Area, visit hvwa.org. Information about Camp Kita, a tuition-free summer bereavement camp in Maine, for children ages 8-17, who are survivors of a loved-one's suicide, can be found at campkita.com. To participate or sponsor the Christopher Langlais Golf Tournament, email langlais27@hotmail.com. Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

What is the grief season? For parents of child loss, it is often the days, weeks and months that surround the date their child died There is a distinct, time leading up to the moments of before, and the painful realization following the after. We walk beside grief every single day, but there is something so palpably different when your body and mind pass through that sacred space of time every year. As we near October 11th, on the eighth year marking the passing of Cassidy, I am here to share what I have learned about my own season of grief.Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

Imagine, for a moment, rushing to a hospital after learning your child has been in an accident, only to discover that there is no chance of survival. Helen Beesley has lived this nightmare, and shares the decision her family made to allow her 22-year-old daughter Candace to become an organ donor. Seventeen years later, Helen now shares her grief journey with us, which includes  honoring her daughter's legacy of giving, as it continues eternally through her final gift of life.  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

Losing a sibling often changes the way you view your existence in the world. Brothers and sisters are the keepers of childhood memories, and are expected to be part of your future. Holly MacKenzie lost her big sister, and only sibling, to suicide, 20 years ago. In this week's podcast, she returns to those early, difficult days as a teenager navigating grief, and shares what she has learned about the lifetime of healing that follows. She and Colby connect on a very personal level, as only surviving siblings can do.  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

Supporting a grieving friend who has lost a child doesn't, and shouldn't end. Ever. Because you don't "get over" it, or move on.  It is a lifelong journey. Which is why we're continuing our conversation in Part 2 of The Grief Secretary, with Dr. Stephanie Barthlolomew. Join us, as we discuss how grief changes the months and  years after loss, and how the ways you support a family can too. We acknowledge that everyone grieves and supports differently. Our hope is that by sharing our experience, you find something that helps you care for a friend, long after the funeral is over.We wish to express our love and gratitude to the many people who have carried us thus far. Everyone deserves a grief secretary.     Show Note: Maine Angel Moms Facebook Page https://www.facebook.com/groups/440927923822597 Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue and Sophia Speeckaert.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

This is our first of  a special two-episode interview, sharing our personal experiences of how friends and family can support a grieving family after child loss. Colby and I are joined by our longtime family friend, Dr. Stephanie Bartholomew, who bravely and immediately stepped in when Cassidy died, to become what I have lovingly termed, my Grief Secretary. In this week's podcast, we focus on the first hours, days and weeks after Cassidy's sudden passing, and the many ways friends carried us. We hope sharing our experience might help others who are supporting friends and families along the grief journey. We invite you to come back for Episode #2, released on August 15, 2022, when we continue our conversation with Stephanie about how grief changes over time, and how the support we need does too. We are grateful to Steph, our many friends and family, and our community, for their love and support.  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

When your baby dies prematurely from miscarriage, stillbirth, or soon after giving birth, for many, the hope of becoming a parent dies, too. In this week's podcast, I had the privilege of spending time with an insightful mother who, 36 years after losing her first child to stillbirth, vividly describes, how, she says, her  "heart bled and her soul wept" for the daughter she never got to know.   Jeanine Deas, a gifted writer, has journaled and written inspiring poetry about her child loss experience, one of which she reads at the end of the podcast. She is a published author of a children's grief book, called Anna's Little Buddy, available on Amazon and in book stores.    Jeanine also references two helpful resources in Maine for grieving families that we want to be sure to pass along to our listeners :The Center for Grieving Children: www.cgcmaine.orgHope's Place for Grieving Children: https://www.hvwa.org/hope-s-place-for-grieving-childrenHolding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999).

When your child has been gone from this Earth for almost as long as he had lived, you are a true survivor of child loss. In this week's episode, Ann Ryan remembers the sudden loss of her only son Ernie at the age of 24, while he was fulfilling his dream of becoming a US Marine. She recounts the lessons she has learned in her grief experience more than two decades later, and offers advice for hope to other parents.  Ann also shares how listening to a powerful collection of music helped her through her darkest hours. Inspired, we looked up the music after our interview and fell in love! Singer/songwriter Cindy Bullens (Cidny) wrote and produced the album after the devastating loss of her own young daughter, Jesse.  We loved the music so much, we adopted (with full blessing) the beautiful song As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) as our podcast theme song. This amazing artistry is available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Buy it for yourself, or to offer comfort for someone you love, and mention you heard about it on Holding the Light and receive a special signed copy!   Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (look for us the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US (shineoncass@gmail.com) with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass  (www.shineoncass.org) where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). 

Grief is a very personal journey, especially for couples grieving the loss of a child. Each person processes differently, each in their own way, and in their own time.  In this week's episode, Ed Gould shares how he and his wife Lynn reacted and coped very differently after the sudden loss of their son Matthew; and how they found common ground on which to walk together along their path to healing. This interview was recorded just before the 10th "anniversary" of Matthew's passing. Ed is very open about the cause of Matt's death, the last words he shared with his 22-year-old son, how he still talks to him every night, and the gratefulness he carries with him now, for the time they had together.  And he has a message for other grieving fathers.  You are not alone. You will be inspired to learn how this grieving father is honoring his son by supporting youth mentoring, and serving as a fierce advocate for mental health resources.  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.  

Surviving child loss seems insurmountable most days for grieving parents.  But what happens when the unimaginable happens to your family again?  Emily Bessey shares her heartbreaking journey of losing her son Ezra to a genetic and terminal disease called spinal muscular atrophy, and her family's focus to raise awareness and funding for a cure through their amazing foundation called Hearts for Ezra. Less than two years later, the family suffered a second tragedy with the death of their son, Leo, to stillbirth. Emily talks candidly about what she has learned about herself while walking beside grief. Her story will inspire you. Learn more about Spinal Muscular Atrophy,  and how you can be part of the cure at CURE SMA. And if you need a smile, follow Emily's delightful podcast called The Real Truth with Amy and Emily where, she says, she gets to be her silly self now and again!  Holding the Light is an original, twice-monthly podcast  (the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth, produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

Join us this week as we talk with Linda Hartkopf, who shares her very personal story about losing her 25-year-old son Dylan to the disease of addiction. Linda bravely recounts when her son's substance abuse began, their fight for Dylan's recovery, and how she has turned her grief into helping others.  Linda talks about her volunteer work with Operation Hope in Waterville, Maine, where she serves as an "angel" to help families find resources. She is also involved with the national organization The Partnership to End Addiction, where as an advocate, she connects with other parents, teaches important communication skills, and helps provide emotional support.   Holding the Light is an original,  twice monthly podcast  (the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is “s Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.

Welcome to a podcast created for grieving families of child loss, and the people who support us.  A place to share our stories of hope and healing.Our opening trailer will shed some light on who we are, and how a seemingly crazy idea, turned into a special bonding and healing experience between this mother and her (now) 22-year-old son. Then tune into each episode, as we interview guests who share their very personal stories. You will be inspired. And, hopefully, feel less alone. Find a quiet space to listen, stay to the end of this introduction, and be treated to the full version of our podcast theme song As Long as You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, in memory of her 11-year-old daughter, Jessie.  Together, we are Holding the Light. Let's get started.  ~ MonicaHolding the Light is an original, twice -monthly podcast  (the 1st and 15th of every month) created and hosted by Monica and Colby Charette, and produced by Julia Vigue.  EMAIL US with questions, comments, or a request to join us as a guest. We also welcome you to visit us at ShineOnCass where our family continues to Shine the Light of Cassidy.Our podcast's theme music is  As Long As You Love (Scarlet Wings) written and sung by Cindy Bullens, from the album Somewhere Between Heaven and Earth, produced by Blue Lobster Records (1999). Available on CD or download at www.cidnybullens.com. Mention Holding the Light Podcast and receive a signed copy.