Holy Cannoli

I like to think Mary and Joseph (and Jesus) had as many frustrations, doubts and wonderings about what the heck God was doing, as we do. You feel me? Let me know what you think. DM me at: And if you can, please support my work at: https://bravemaker.com/donate/ Monthly donations really help me continue to this work and sustain my nonprofit! I really appreciate it. https://www.instagram.com/tonygapastione/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Jay wrote a book and Jay is an open book. He shares his life and thoughts through his church, REVOLUTION GATHERING and his socials. Find him here: https://twitter.com/jaybakker https://www.instagram.com/jaybakker/ https://revolutionchurch.com To support me and this podcast work go to: https://bravemaker.com/donate/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Who inspires gratitude in you? Why not tell them so. Got ideas for me to chat about? email me at podcast@bravemaker.com Want to support me and my work? Go to https://bravemaker.com/donate/ and become a tax deductible donor. You can give any amount it all helps. $5, $25, $100 a month supports me, my family and this ministry of storytelling and encouragement. Give me a shout on Instagram if you're there: https://www.instagram.com/tonygapastione/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Thanks to to the REV Meg Biddle for this conversation. https://www.facebook.com/megbiddleministry If you want to become a BraveMaker donor: please go here: https://secure.givelively.org/donate/brave-maker --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Tony dissects and RELATES to Jonathon Larson of Tick...Tick...Boom! --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Hello! I'm back. Been a minute. Two years of minutes. Why am I back? Take a listen. And then watch SAINT VINCENT on Netflix (or watch first then listen). Let me know what you think. https://www.instagram.com/tonygapastione/ https://bravemaker.com My Church I refer to in Marin County: http://www.wearethequest.org --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

INVEST IN THE FILM https://wefunder.com/33.days Roger's site: https://www.rogerhuangsf.com/ Roger's Instagram https://www.instagram.com/rogerhuangsf/ CHASING GOD BOOK --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Make sure you listen to episodes 56 and 59 before you listen to this one so you are all caught up as Tony talks about his thoughts on the Bible. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Miscarriages, infertility, adoption and being a mixed race family in the South with MFT Cathie Quillet. Cathie is a long time friend of ours who now lives in Nashville, Tennessee and works as a licensed Marriage & Family Therapist. In her work she specializes in serving women ( and their partners ) to help them through the stress of infertility. Her and her husband adopted two boys from Ethiopia. In this podcast she shares transparently about the pain of miscarriages, infertility, raising a child with special needs and the beauty and challenge of becoming a mixed race family in the South. https://thequilletinstitute.com/ Follow her on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thequilletinstitute/ Her books: https://thequilletinstitute.com/resources/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Tony is back. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Joy Elizabeth Hoover wife + mama founder + ceo | @cupcakegirlsorg @localforall podcast | @humanswhogiveashit ambassador | @lululemon social impact coach

https://www.valleypreschurch.org/ Jenny Warner Find her + her blog here: https://www.jennywarner.com/ SoulCARE https://wellspringca.org/leading/soulcare/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Tony shares a message with his church, THE QUEST in Novato California. Is the Bible all divinely inspired by God or is it human interpretation. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Forgiveness is NOT a weapon. Tony's college friend Jelani Greenidge talks about his article on the now viral hug + forgiveness of Brandt Jean + Amber Guyger. Connect with Jelani here: https://www.facebook.com/jelani.greenidge IG: https://www.instagram.com/jelanignatural/ https://jelanigreenidge.com/ Listen to his music here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqXTZG-tlWY Read his article here: https://medium.com/@jelanigreenidge/forgiveness-is-a-gift-dont-turn-it-into-a-weapon-982a82a8e42e --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Tony + Wendy COMMUNE on the present issues. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

It's midnight and Wendy wanted to record an episode, a podcast on pastoral confessions. Uh.... Why not? What could go wrong? Well, Tony could talk about his BUTT CHEEKS (again) and could offend people with his opinions on SPEAKING IN TONGUES,. So there's that. Oh, well. It's real, opinionated and the stories of just one pastor. But he still loves Jesus, the Bible and the church (no matter what anyone says!). We can't speak for everyone's experience but hope in some way you can relate... and laugh. Anyone have any church stories that you want to share? Looking for all sorts of topics: Money, relationships, Sunday School, sermons, awkward interactions. If that's you...give us an email podcast@bravemaker.com Never forget God loves you. He...She does! (And we know that might offend someone, but...just think about it. And please subscribe, rate us and share with a friend. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Let's do this. Tony starts off a new series of conversations, or CONFESSIONS: sharing real issues, anecdotes, doubts, questions and frustrations about being a pastor. Submit your ideas, questions, and stories. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Angie Ibarra shares her story of finding her purpose for empathy and compassion in the midst of pain. Feeling alone and voiceless growing up in a large family---she longed for a mentor and a place she could dream and learn...but had a difficult time finding one. Now, her story is one that gives voice to those who don't---recognizing that every child deserves love, value and the ability to learn and imagine. In 2007 she created her organization GENERATIONS UNITED, in the same year of the biggest devastation of her life. Take a listen to her story and see how you might relate. Want to VOLUNTEER? It only takes ONE HOUR a week to impact a child. Contact: angie@generations-united.com http://generations-united.com/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Nifty Fifty. Tony talks about his teeth, broken systems and why we need to keep seeking JUSTICE. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Big news! I (Tony) took a part time job serving as a pastor with my friend MATT NIGHTINGALE. http://www.questnovato.com/ Two days a week I'll be driving up north over the Golden Gate Bridge to serve as a co-pastor. This is Matt's spiritual direction community: https://www.thechristiancloset.com --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Are we willing to sacrifice what we might lose? Message by Tony Gapastione from Trinity Presbyterian Church in San Carlos. June 30th, 2019. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

We fTony + Wendy) are back after our Hiatus.  Happy Summer! Consider DOUBLING your DONATIONS to BraveMaker with our MATCHING CAMPAIGN from a very generous donor! https://www.bravemaker.com/donate --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Wendy interviews & Tony MANSPLAINS the BRAVEMAKER film fest. https://www.bravemaker.com/filmfest May 31st, June 1-2, 2019! --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

It's been a wild week to think about. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

This one is all me. Solo. (Tony). I just saw AVENGERS End Game last night. No spoilers here but I did have my own personal encounter with someone who seemed to be my personal Thanos for thirty minutes. Why did I let a jerk get the best of me? How can I learn to let go of the toxicity spewed out by others? These words that came from the cross, from a humble man being murdered. "Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing." Life Changing. Villainizing people is easy but not letting them affect you is not. But even villains are complex humans with fears and pains. And most times it's not about you. --Tony --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Judy Peterson is a force to be reckoned with. She's a storyteller, pastor and a deep thinker who practices what she preaches until the point of no return...And it's safe to say she'd go even farther than whatever point was drawn in the sand if it meant walking with Jesus where he walked. She's not your typical pastor (and neither was Jesus). She shares her deep pains, great joys and love of God and scripture in this podcast! Judy gave me (Tony) permission to share her personal email with Holy Cannoli listeners who wanted to be in touch with her (in kindness). If you'd like to contact her I'm happy to hear you out tony@bravemaker.com. Otherwise: From the MISSION FRIENDS FOR INCLUSION WEBSITE: … If you would like to communicate with Judy, Better Together will be fielding those messages and sharing them with her. bettertogethercov@gmail.com Judy was the campus pastor of my alma mater North Park University from 2006-2018 and shares her journey on this podcast and in detail here: An Open Letter to My Church, by Pastor Judy Peterson --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Clarity is reasonable and ambiguity is harmful. That is the mission of Sarah Ngu + George Mekhail. To cause less harm for women and the LGBTQ+ community. They promote honesty and transparent communications for churches on their websites and more! https://www.churchclarity.org/ Follow them on Instagram! https://www.instagram.com/churchclarity/ Connection with Sarah https://twitter.com/sarahngu and George on Twitter https://twitter.com/gmekhail --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Garrett Brown was a church planter, pastor on staff for a church for years and now serves some of the most elite young thinkers in the world. A discussion on scripture and Stanford. Here's the group he leads: Christian Union Connect with him on Twitter. https://twitter.com/GarrettBrown2 --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Anti-racist educator, writer, and activist ANDRE HENRY joins the HOLY CANNOLI PODCAST. Find him on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theandrehenry/ Dig in, listen and get activated. Want to sign up for Andre's HOPE AND HARD PILLS? http://www.andrerhenry.com/ Want to become a patron of his work and financially support him? https://www.patreon.com/hopeandhardpills --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Questions we hate to ask--but--What needs to end? or die? Who needs to be fired? Dr. Henry Cloud's book NECESSARY ENDINGS inspired this 10 minute podcast reflection by Tony. @tonygapastione --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Corinne (from Ep 27) is back to give us an update about her recent surrogacy experience, her response to Nathan Phillips and the Washington DC right to life protest, as well as her experience at the Grammys! We had to get her back on since she's packing up and moving out of California! Enjoy this interview! https://www.instagram.com/misscorinne86/ https://www.powwows.com/young-spirit-singers-rocks-the-red-carpet-of-the-grammys/ Up & Coming with BraveMaker Monday March 25th, 2019 Bias film & Discussion at Century 20 in Redwood City Ca https://www.bravemaker.com/events/ Take the ILLICIT BIAS ASSESSMENT https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/takeatest.html Tuesday April 30th --Fox Theater Criminal Justice Reform film & discussion (more info TBA) with our new corporate sponsor TBA! Tuesday May 13th Fight Cancer with Film --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

David Hayward is a living example of someone embracing the sacred and strange of life. Living in New Brunswick Canada, David is a self proclaimed graffiti artist (on the walls of religion) who goes by "The Naked Pastor." You'll have to listen to find out why. David uses his own stories of pastoring a church in Canada to connect with thousands world-wide online with his personal experience of reconstructing his faith. After leaving his official church pastor position he became self-employed (after some difficult years of learning) and he now curates online communities and enjoys provocative and interactive discussions. His art and cartoons say it all. Follow him here: https://www.instagram.com/nakedpastor/ https://www.nakedpastor.com/ UPCOMING MARCH 2019 EVENTS. Sunday March 10th Sexuality & Scripture discussion https://www.spark.church/sexualityscripturesoul Monday 3/25 7pm BIAS FILM screening and discussion https://www.eventbrite.com/e/bias-film-screening-discussion-on-race-gender-tickets-54815477569 --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

We normally put out our episodes on Monday but since our friend Matt is in town for the Friday 2/22/19 BraveMaker event we recorded a conversation on creating art, church (of course) and culture. http://mattnightingale.com/ https://www.instagram.com/mattnightingale/ Enjoy! --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Author, speaker, wife, & mom. Cara's illuminating memoir paints a beautiful path from white privilege toward racial healing, from ignorance toward seeing the image of God in everyone she meets. Her book on Amazon is here. https://www.carameredith.com/ https://twitter.com/caramac54 https://www.instagram.com/carameredithwrites/ https://www.facebook.com/carameredithwrites --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

After a week of being at Sundance for a week, Tony's feeling a bit nostalgic and reflective around what it means to be a leader (and maybe a bit introspective on the last nine months). --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

From the snowy mountains of Park City, Utah, home of the Sundance Film Festival comes the story of Lamonte White. Knowing he had been adopted from six months old, Lamonte was curious to learn more about this biological family in his adult life. So he filed some official paperwork with the State of New Jersey where he lived. He quickly found himself in a new story discovering a whole family that was closer than he ever could have imagined. Something very similar was in a recent documentary called: Three Identical Strangers. (Lamonte was adopted from the SAME agency) https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/three-identical-strangers-most-watched-200947933.html Family is a sacred and strange thing but this story reminds us that DNA is not the only thing that ties us together, but it does help define us. Follow Lamonte, AKA Monty on IG https://www.instagram.com/montyshots/ Take a look at his company https://kumbregear.com/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

He was a PAID pastor, now... he's not paid anymore. He's STILL a pastor (at large) and figuring things out about what it means to be a person of faith and a part of the church (or not), like us all. He's got a lot to say and it's fun. Artist, friend, co-owner of our turtle, CHIP in college. Meet my friend from college Dave Diller. https://www.instagram.com/davidcdiller/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Dan is a pastor, teacher and community leader in Minneapolis Minnesota. Dan seeks to affirm and include the LGBTQ+ community in his congregation despite pressure and threats that he could lose ministry credentials, his reputation and maybe even the church in which he leads. Take a listen with an open mind and heart. Links to give you more background on Dan. https://www.linkedin.com/in/dan-collison-47b0087/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=8&v=e2yCPBcARy8 http://mf4i.org/rev-dan-collison-suspended/ BraveMaker LGBTQ+ film, music and live podcast event https://bravemakerfeb2019.eventbrite.com --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Our last conversation of the year is with a pastor, church leader and a theologian who loves the scriptures. The way he thinks about following Jesus will challenge, inspire and potentially rattle you. Take a risk and listen to Kevin Neuner of Palo Alto's Spark Church and see how you might also live the sacred and strange way of living by values instead of belief statements. https://www.facebook.com/kevin.neuner https://www.spark.church/ Sunday March 10th, 2019 event: https://www.spark.church/sexualityscripturesoul --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Hope you love film! In this podcast you'll get a sneak peak of a whole new podcast where we interview creators and talk about film and all things creative! --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Estefania Hermosillo has her own immigrant story. With a 4.1 GPA in high school she had high hopes of going to a University in California but she was told (by a misinformed guidance counselor) that she wouldn't be eligible for scholarships because she was an undocumented immigrant. So she didn't apply and went to community college... but she soon learned information that would change her life and the lives of many others in which she now supports. This is her story and thousands of others who are a part of IMMIGRANTS RISING, educating students to seek their collegiate dreams. https://immigrantsrising.org/ If you'd like to meet Estafania she will be on the panel discussion at the screening of feature film COLLISIONS on Monday December 17th, 7pm at Century 20 in Redwood City. Tickets can be purchased here: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/bravemaker-special-feature-film-screening-tickets-52881858061 --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Corinne is a proud Native American advocating and educating anyone who will listen. She speaks, she writes and she also carries babies...in her womb...for other people...because she's a surrogate mother. Just in time for the Christmas season listen to the story of a woman giving birth for the benefit of others. Corinne is occupied Muwekma Ohlone Territory Oglala/Mohawk/Swiss/Indo, Phenomenally Indigenous, and writer for Powwows.com. Founder of Buffalo Project. Find out more on her Instagram page. https://www.instagram.com/misscorinne86/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

If you have a STRANGE/SACRED holiday STORY to share email: podcast@bravemaker.com or shoot us a message on the Facebook page and we'll put it to music and/or Tony will dramatically re-enact it on the podcast. https://www.facebook.com/holycannolipodcast/ Remember us for your GIVING TUESDAY donations and end of year tax deductible contributions https://www.bravemaker.com/donate Wendy recommends podcaster Jen Hatmaker's "favorite things" if you want ideas for good gifts that are ethically sourced. http://jenhatmaker.com/fall-and-holidays-favorite-things-gift-guide.htm http://jenhatmaker.com/episode-01-2018-holiday-gift-guide --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

She's known as many things. Writer, wife, new mom...but in some circles she's known as a "christian culture enthusiast" . Laura Turner made her way in the world as a pastor's kid and somehow survived. Her parents are John and Nancy Ortberg and she is the oldest child of three. She's faced crippling anxiety most of her life which has become a major cornerstone to her writing. She endeavors to make the often shameful and secretive pains we hide, like the difficult journey to motherhood, stories in which her readers can relate. With grace, humility and candor she shares her sacred and strange life of prank calling from her Dad's mega-church office, crying in the car with her newborn son Chance, celebrating a sister who became a brother, and her new fave binge-worthy Netflix show who's title will make you giggle. Episode 25 is a gift that will keep on giving. Her Twitter https://twitter.com/lkoturner The Why Christian conference in San Francisco April 2019 https://whychristian.net/ On her miscarriage: https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/lauraturner/i-was-pregnant-and-then-i-wasnt Other books referenced in our conversation Henri Nouwen https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0046A9JA2/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1 Brother Lawrence https://www.amazon.com/Practice-Presence-God-Brother-Lawrence-ebook/dp/B002BH3NN6/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1542616305&sr=1-1&keywords=practicing+the+presence+of+god+by+brother+lawrence http://www.lkoturner.com/ (Oh and JERKY BOYS is the prank calling guys that I was referencing). --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

You asked. We answered and we didn't hold back. This episode includes Game of Throne spoilers, potty talk and TMI about Tony's most embarrassing moment. Sorry. Send your complaints to podcast@bravemaker.com Adult language advisory. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Jesus taught his disciples to pray: Give us this day our DAILY BREAD. What if it meant more than just asking God for our needs and waiting for provision to fall from the sky? What if it included asking and seeking provision from each other? Think about it and give us your thoughts on the Facebook page. https://www.facebook.com/holycannolipodcast Also---apologies in advance--Tony sings on this episode...and he sings CHER ...but it's Jack from Will and Grace's fault. Listen for the story. If you want to donate financially or through our AMAZON wishlist click here: https://www.bravemaker.com/donate If you have AIRLINE or CAR RENTAL MILES to donate to get Tony to Sundance Film Fest in January 2019 email: tony@bravemaker.com Your generosity would be greatly appreciated. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

She's known as a comedienne who makes people laugh but she has a heart for justice and truth...and wants you to know there are TWO THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER DO if you meet her at one of her shows. So watch out or she will CUT you...but she LOVES Jesus so it's all good. Follow her on her socials https://twitter.com/anjelahjohnson https://www.instagram.com/anjelahjohnson/ Get tickets to her shows & check out her tour and swag here: http://anjelah.com/ Watch NEIGHBOR on Amazon and see Anjelah in Tony's short film. http://www.neighborfilm.com/ Oh and don't forget to follow HER DOG https://www.instagram.com/banzobeanreyes/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Good friend of Matt Nightingale---Jerron Hess tells his story of growing up in a small German Baptist Community that sought to steer clear of any influence from the world in order to preserve their faith and christian community. He realized he needed to come out with his sexuality, leave the community, and step out into the world to both find and accept himself. He's quite the creative artist and tells a compelling narrative of his coming out experience that reminds us how life is both sacred and strange. Follow his life and art at www.instagram.com/gaygermanbaptist --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

Friend of the podcast MATT NIGHTINGALE (Ep 9 & 10) received a lot of feedback and questions from his story. He gracefully responded to one earnest podcast listener's inquiries with a personal audio recording and gave us permission to share it here! Here are the 5: 1) Is homosexuality a sin? How do we know? 2) Can we share some resources? 3) Since it appears that God's design is heterosexuality (penises and vaginas, babies, etc.), how is homosexuality OK? 4) How can an ally be an ally without seeming to support all the brokenness in the LGBTQ community too? 5) How does early childhood trauma play into the development of homosexuality? Follow Matt on Socials www.twitter.com/mattnightingale www.instagram.com/mattnightingale Rescources http://www.theliturgists.com/podcast/2015/5/18/episode-20-lgbtq https://www.amazon.com/Changing-Our-Mind-Definitive-Christians/dp/1942011849 Matt's Message with THE QUEST https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVehPfU4pN8 https://www.qchristian.org/ https://www.reformationproject.org/ https://www.bluebabiespink.com/ http://mf4i.org/resources/bibliography/ --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

The whole conversation started when Wendy asked me (Tony) why I post certain things on social media and we ended up just talking and recording the whole thing as a podcast! In addition we had a great time digesting this week's craziness in our country (Supreme Court nomination) as well as responding to last week's episode 18 on suicide. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support

A brave, in-depth and honest discussion with a mother who lost her son to suicide in the same year her husband suffered through cancer yet found hope through the most unthinkable journey of pain. Great tips about how to understand grief as well as insight for parents who care for children with depression and/or mental illness. Listeners should be advised: This discussion may trigger strong emotions. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/holycannoli/support