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Joining us on this episode is New York Times bestselling author, speaker, and philanthropist Bob Goff, who continues his mission of inspiring people to step boldly into the lives they were meant to live—before fear, doubt, or someone else's opinion told them otherwise.   Bob, known as an “encourager to millions,” is the creator of the popular Dream Big framework and conferences, where he helps people turn their wildest aspirations into reality. He's also the bestselling author of Love Does, Everybody, Always, Dream Big, and his latest book, Undistracted: Capture Your Purpose. Rediscover Your Joy.   Beyond writing and speaking, Bob is actively involved in humanitarian work through his nonprofit, Love Does, which has been impacting lives around the world for over two decades. Whether he's teaching at Pepperdine Law School, skydiving on a whim, or answering every phone call from strangers who find his number in his books, Bob lives by his belief that whimsy, love, and action can change the world.  

1-3-25 Morning Rush - Ronn Owens Gofundme Update - Wife Responds To Scam Concerns & Ali Fedotowsky Spills Tea On Kaitlyn Bristowe's Off The Vine Podcast! January 3rd 2025 Former Bachelorette Ali Fedotowsky spills some tea on Kaitlyn Bristowe's Off The Vine podcast about her experience with Ellen Degeneres, I'll share what she had to say A New source verifies that Ryan Reynolds was angry but never berated Justin Baldoni, this after Justin claims he was screamed at in his new quarter billion dollar lawsuit. Also we've got updates on the timeline of the New Orleans new year's day attack Plus we've got Laura Owens mother Jan Black responding in an interview to those questioning if Ronn Owens Gofundme is a scam. Plus the heartbreaking moment a walk on player for Georgia cost his team a touchdown. Its a viral moment but for all the wrong reasons.go to patreon.com/daveneal for more bonus content!

Dr. Dale Hull was an OBGYN in the middle of a successful career when he failed to complete a backflip on his backyard trampoline  this resulted in neck-down paralysis and a four month hospital stay  during this time, he was fortunate to have a significant amount of neurological recovery  however, despite this progress he still had very little functional ability, remained wheelchair-dependent, and needed assistance for almost all activities  Spoiler alert... He learned to walk again.  In the process, he and his business partner, therapist Jan Black, pushed the known boundaries of neuroplasticity and founded Neuroworx, a 501C3 providing specialized physical therapy for individuals with spinal cord injuries  charitable donors make it possible for paralyzed adults and children to receive the prolonged care that insurers refuse  In this episode Dr. Hull talks about dealing with the mental and spiritual paralysis that  must be overcome if someone is to experience physical progress Dale's thought process was pragmatic, patient, and effective  "what's the next step?" and "I'm willing to work hard"  Today Neuroworx and Dr. Hull effect thousands of lives including injured individuals and everyone involved in their lives          https://neuroworx.org/

Your Core Brilliance is That Thing under everything else about you. It's a really helpful piece of information, so Jan is on a mission to make knowing it accessible to everyone. Meet Jan Black, a seasoned creative powerhouse who's moved through a vibrant career in writing, poetry, art, teaching, speaking, composing, and branding. While her books have sold nearly a million copies, some of her finest writing has been for the eyes of a very few. Her career has been a series of yeses to projects in fields where she had no experience but a decent amount of impact. She's all about the soul of things, yet unless it works on the street, she's not satisfied. She was building brands long before she called it that. The process of defining people's Core Brilliance and building it out into their work has held her attention for over twenty years. Today, her attention has turned to a project called ‘Only While I'm Human' that enriches your turn at being human. She sees us all as The Darlings of What Will Be and devotes herself to creating enrichments for us as we take our turn at being human. First on the roster of enrichments? Core Brilliance, of course. “Only while I'm human can I, so I do.” -- We journey through… Understanding Core Brilliance Miles' Core Brilliance example Jan's Journey and Lessons Learned Lessons from Failure and Hiring the Right People Surrender experiment Saying Yes and Saying No Trusting Yourself and Energetic Posturing How to take up space Embracing the Joy of Sharing with Others Guest pass vs. full access on life Branding Practice Getting clear on the soul then taking it to the Street -- Connect with Jan: https://www.onlywhileimhuman.com/ -- This podcast is your weekly Creative Companion helping you master the inner game, finish what you start, ship your work, and build a brand without yelling; because it's not the thunder that grows flowers, but the rain. -- Support & Connecthttps://subtleartofnotyelling.com⁠ Join⁠ https://theboxcommunity.com -- To celebrate 100 episodes of our podcast, we're opening up the box for all of February. Join for free, try it out, no credit card required, no pressure, just coworking :) Come see what happens on the other side of finished. Use code '100' at checkout. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/artofnotyelling/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/artofnotyelling/support

SummaryOver 5 million people in the US live with paralysis, caused by injury, stroke, or disease. Recovery is incredibly hard because nerve damage is difficult and sometimes impossible to heal. Moreover, our medical and insurance systems are inadequate, designed to help people live with their injuries rather than heal from them. A pioneering therapy clinic called Neuroworx is leading the way into life-changing treatment for people with paralysis. In this episode, we'll learn from Dr. Dale Hull, an OBGYN doctor who became suddenly paralyzed more than 20 years ago. Now, not only can he walk again, but he and his co-founder Jan Black have aided thousands of patients to live happier and more active lives. About Our GuestDale is the cofounder and Executive Director of Neuroworx. He graduated from the University of Utah School of Medicine in 1985. Following graduation, he completed a residency in obstetrics and gynecology at the University of Utah Medical Center. He practiced general obstetrics and gynecology for ten years in the south portion of the Salt Lake metropolitan area. In 1999, he suffered a spinal-cord injury that resulted in paralysis from the neck down. This life-altering event, which prevented him from returning to active practice, required Dr. Hull to devote approximately three years to his rehabilitation. He joined his therapist in forming a non-profit organization and opening Neuroworx in 2004. During 2002, Dale had the opportunity to be an Olympic torchbearer for the Salt Lake Winter Olympics. In 2009, he completed an underwater marathon in the Neuroworx pool to commemorate the ten-year mark of his injury. He returned to school and in 2012, completed a Master's of Public Administration degree from the Romney Institute of BYU. Dr. Hull is married and has four sons. Useful LinksNeuroworx: https://www.neuroworx.org/ (https://www.neuroworx.org/) News coverage of Dr. Hull's work: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NIGMtMJbiE (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NIGMtMJbiE) Dr. Hull's Tedx Talk: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgfT0OyASrU (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgfT0OyASrU) Pleasant Pictures MusicJoin the https://pleasantpictures.club (Pleasant Pictures Music Club) to get unlimited access to high-quality, royalty-free music for all of your projects. Use the discount code HOWTOHELP15 for 15% off your first year.

Welcome to Nobody Told Me! I'm Jan Black and I'm Laura Owens. Here's a question for you to think about. Do you practice self-compassion? Do you give yourself the same kindness and care that you'd give to a good friend? If not, why not? Our guest on this episode, Dr. Kristin Neff, is one of the world's experts on self-compassion. She's the author of several books on the topic including the latest, which is called, FIERCE SELF-COMPASSION: How Women Can Harness Kindness to Speak Up, Claim Their Power, and Thrive.  Her website is self-compassion.org. ***** Thanks to our sponsors of this episode! --> Unidragon: check out the most beautiful wooden puzzles for adults and kids! Go to unidragon.com and use promo code 'nobody10' for 10% off! --> Apple Vacations: for a limited time, take $75 off your all-inclusive stay at Iberostar Hotels! Go to applevacations.com/nobody-told-me and use code 'SUN75'. --> Stuff That Works: share your experience with any health condition and discover what works best for you. Go to stuffthatworks.health to check it out. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to Nobody Told Me!  I’m Jan Black and I’m Laura Owens.  If you’re a fan of the Full House or Fuller House television shows, then you’re very familiar with our guest on this episode, Andrea Barber.  She plays the character “Kimmy Gibbler” on those shows and in doing so, she endeared herself to millions of fans around the world.   But, Andrea’s life hasn’t been all laughs.  She’s struggled with depression and anxiety, among other things…and she openly writes about it in her new book, Full Circle:  From Hollywood to Real Life and Back Again. Note: this episode originally aired in February 2020 and is part of our 'Best Of' series. ****** Thanks to our sponsor of this episode! --> AirMedCare: If you're ever in need of emergency medical transport, AirMedCare Network provides members with world class air transport services to the nearest appropriate hospital with no out of pocket expenses. Go to airmedcarenetwork.com/nobody and use offer code 'NOBODY' to sign up and choose up to a $50 eGift Card gift card with a new membership! ****** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to Nobody Told Me!    I’m Jan Black and I’m Laura Owens.  When you feel inspired, you feel great, right?  You may feel like you can do anything!  But in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic, you may be find it hard to feel inspired.  That’s why we invited Allison Holzer back to our show.  Allison has spent the past few years studying the science of inspiration to understand how it can be “summoned” through different actions.     Allison is a consultant, entrepreneur and coach who is the cofounder of InspireCorps and previously was director of coaching for the Yale Center for Emotional Intelligence.  Allison is also the co-author of the new book, Dare to Inspire: Sustain the Fire of Inspiration in Work and Life. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to Nobody Told Me!  I’m Jan Black and I’m Laura Owens.  If you’re a fan of the Full House or Fuller House television shows, then you’re very familiar with our guest on this episode, Andrea Barber.  She plays the character “Kimmy Gibbler” on those shows and in doing so, she endeared herself to millions of fans around the world.     But, Andrea’s life hasn’t been all laughs.  She’s struggled with depression and anxiety, among other things…and she openly writes about it in her new book, Full Circle:  From Hollywood to Real Life and Back Again. ++++ In case you missed the promo codes from our sponsors: 1) AirMedCare: for a $10 Visa Gift Card with a new one year membership, go to airmedcarenetwork.com/nobody and use offer code "nobody" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

An edition of the KCBS Radio newsmagazine program "Jan Black's Journal" broadcast from San Jose's Fairmont Hotel on April 27, 1988. The guest host Jan Hutchins, himself the host of a regular evening interview program on KCBS Radio, discussed San Jose's history and role in the Bay Area with two guests: longtime San Jose Mercury reporter and political writer Harry Farrell and Bob Haulman, a longtime Bay Area broadcast journalist then serving as KCBS Radio morning traffic and weather anchor. Our thanks to the San Jose Historical Museum Association for preserving this audio file. Jan Black, by the way, was away from her show because she was on maternity leave.

This is a “telescoped” reel of audio from the period between 5pm and 6pm on October 17, 1989 as KCBS Radio swings into gear after the Loma Prieta Earthquake—the first hour of coverage following the 5:03 pm quake. Jan Black is the studio anchor. Stan Bunger and Mike Woodley are at Candlestick Park.Of note: a pre-recorded safety announcement, which urged listeners to consult the front of their phone books for detailed information. The first reports of the destruction of the elevated Cypress Freeway came 32 minutes after the quake struck. The first magnitude readings were broadcast nearly 40 minutes after the quake hit (originally referred to as 6.9 in Hollister area). The first reports of the failure of a portion of the eastern span of the Bay Bridge came more than 45 minutes after the quake.

Please remember to visit our show sponsor: https://www.nobodytoldmeshow.com/When mother-daughter duo Jan Black and Laura Owens first conceptualized their two-generational talk show, nobody told them they’d snag the title of #1 self-help podcast for months on end! But that’s exactly what they’ve done, delving into topics as far-flung as network building, the importance of failure, finding hope after being kidnapped, and how the principles of brain surgery can help us work through everyday problems. Featuring interviews with extraordinary individuals, Nobody Told Me! shines light on the shared human experiences that bring us together, and the challenges that serve as catalysts for our greatest growth. Nobody Told Me! combines Jan’s impressive broadcast journalism background with Laura’s unique, millennial perspective. Driven by a genuine desire to educate and empower, their pioneering platform gives insight into the strategies and secrets of people in all walks of life. Equal parts information and inspiration, Nobody Told Me! brings a personal touch to the interview process. Together, Jan and Laura are asking the questions that help their listeners get through life’s toughest times.Welcome to Unsolved Mysteries of the World Season Six Episode Six - What Happened to Charles Horvath?Charles KJ Horvath was an adventurous young man who was visiting Canada, making his way from Ontario, where he met with his father and godfather and then travelling solo by hitchhiking highway One all the way across the prairies, into Alberta and finally into British Columbia.He was in Swift Current, Sask. in March 1989 and cashed a check at the Royal Bank.In April he had moved on to Banff, Alberta working at The Rimrock Hotel.He arrived on May 3rd 1989 in Kelowna and set up camp in a campground across from a prospective employer – the small tourist theme park then known as Bedrock City – a 70s era tourist trap.Charles registered for work at several student employment agencies to help him along on his backpacking and hitchhiking adventure.On May 26th of 1989, Charles cashed a small check at a Royal Bank. He was to make arrangements with his mother to meet up in Hong Kong via Vancouver to celebrate his 21st and her 40th birthday. But he would never make it to Hong Kong and the grainy security footage at the bank was all that remained of Charles Horvath. He simply vanished into thin air.Denise Horvath-Allan, Charles' mother, telephoned the Kelowna Detachment of the RCMP asking for their help in locating her son as she was anxious as she had not received an expected call from him in May 1989. The RCMP were reluctant to file a missing persons case as Charles was an adult and at the time did not suspect foul play.Denise phoned the RCMP several more time, getting anxious with each proceeding call.It wasn't until August 10th 1989 that an official missing persons report was taken, over two months later.A year later, in July of 1990 the RCMP launched a search of the area inside the campsite where Charles had been staying. It appears that after Charles had gone missing several other residents took advantage of his property and stole valuables and used his equipment and gear.The Royal Canadian Mounted Police launched a search of the area inside the campsite in July 1990, after Denise advised them that she learned Charles had been camping at the campground. The RCMP retrieved some of Charles' clothing and a shaving bag from a 1989 Tiny Town resident.During her many, many visits to Canada in search of her son, Denise met up with the campground caretaker and was given items belonging to Charles – a a rosary, a tiny red paper Bible and a leather strap from Charles' boot which had been kept in the shed for more than a year.The manager said that Charles' tent, other belongings, personal photographs and his ID had been thrown away in the Spring of 1990.Constable Kris Clark then said "There's obviously concern after so many years of not being in contact with somebody, whether it's a recovery at this point or not."But upon retrieving the clothing and shaving bag they are said to have told Denise they believe Charles is deceased and most likely from foul play. No further details were provided. However, in an official RCMP statement they indicated that the statement was unfortunate and that the sediments were most likely simply a personal opinion and not one that the RCMP held at the time.On a trip to Canada in March 1992, Denise received two anonymous letters delivered by taxi whilst staying at The Pandosy Inn Motel, detailing how her son had been partying at Tiny Tent Town with locals and had gotten into a fight where he was subsequently killed. His body was then dumped into Lake Okanagan.This led local volunteer divers to go into Lake Okanagan and search for three days. Vancouver based 'International Sea Search' (ISS) aided with a submersible camera and its volunteer team to search beneath the old Floating Bridge for a further three days.The RCMP joined the search on day five of the six day search.On Friday 3 April 1992 while the RCMP Divers were not present, ISS located a male body and the police were called. The RCMP attended the scene later and their divers went into the lake, recovered the body and brought it to the surface. It was believed to be that of an elderly gentleman who had committed suicide at the lake seven years earlier and not Charles.Police have dismissed the notes as some sort of practical joke, according to the CBC.Denise believes her son died in May of 1989. "How and by what means I don't know but something terrible happened to him that prevented him from calling home," she said. "I want to know where his remains are. I want him to be laid to rest with his beloved Nana in Cambridge, England.”In September of 1995, the police found a decomposed body in the logging country around Kelowna. Horvath-Allan's family waited for six weeks to be told that the body found was not of their son. At that time, the police hadn't contacted Mrs. Allan or any family member about the find of the dead body; the family were informed via friends and relatives who had seen reports in the local press.Denise has made frequent trips to Kelowna to search for her son Charles, meet with police, hand out posters, talk with employers and residents in the city and across Canada. She sold her hair and beauty salon to finance the ongoing search and air fares to Canada and in 2010, she rented billboard space with posters appealing for information. Since Charles' disappearance, his father, godfathers and grandparents have died and each year, Denise feels time slipping away.Denise was doing her own investigating as she felt there was no movement with the police on the file.In 2013 Denise met with police and pleaded with them to assign the case to a cold case unit. They did not provide an official answer and Denise created a petition as she believes it is the only way the case will be resolved.In 2015, the RCMP officially claimed that Charles was deceased. But they were no closer to finding where his remains are, what had happened to him, or who did what to him.In 2018, Denise, along side RCMP presented a press conference in reference to Charles's disappearance.“It was a struggle to get back here for me but things have changed and I’ll be back. A few people have given me the courage and adrenaline to not stop coming back so I will until the day I die,” Denise told reporters.Seven years ago police told her that there were six areas in which they would be looking for Charles, but she learned that police had not fulfilled their promise. They had not even investigated one of the six. But during her trip in 2018 a new case worker told Denise that these would be followed up on and it is unclear if they have. Police asked Denise to stop her own investigating and to let them handle it from here on out.A reminder: it is going on past 30 years...Because this is an open investigation, there is very little details the police have provided besides what was presented here. We do know that Charles attended a late night party that evening at the campground and eye-witnesses place him there. They also state that in the morning, they found he was no longer at the campground, but left all his belongings including his personal items and valuables.The campground has been known to attract a criminal element and the dregs of society with drug addiction very prevalent. It is speculated that Charles may have gotten into a fight with someone or he was misled by someone that ended his life.The mysterious note that was provided anonymously, which the police dismiss, is interesting, however. How did this scribe know that Charles was at this campground, that there was perhaps a fight and he was knocked out. Did the assailants mention they were going to toss his body in the lake, but then changed their mind and buried him in the forested area?Without a body, we will never know.If you know anything about what happened to Charles Horvath, call Sgt. Paul Gosling of the Kelowna Serious Crime Unit at (250) 762-3300.If you want to remain anonymous, you can call Crime Stoppers at 1-800-222-8477, or leave an online tip at www.crimestoppers.netYou can also visit our Facebook Page for photos and information. Denise also runs a Facebook page specifically for finding Charles and we will provide that link in the show notes.If you know anything at all, send in an anonymous tip and let's end the nightmare for this mom. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

This dynamic trio generates lively conversation that takes us through generational differences and how they’re affecting our society. Jordan reveals some true beliefs about depression, social media, millennials, homelessness, and much more!  Jan Black & Laura Owens are true experts in the self-help field and possess true understanding of how to help people through deep and meaningful dialogue. This is a must listen for anyone who is intrigued by quality banter about serious current issues that affect us all.Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Dr. Hull graduated from University of Utah School of Medicine in 1985. He practiced medicine as in obstetrics and gynecology for a decade before suffering a spinal cord injury resulting in paralysis. After this life-altering event, he could not return to his medical practice. He devoted three and a half years to rehabilitation, working with Jan Black as his physical therapist. Fortunately, Dr. Hull experienced an early return of neurological function. With a combination of Black’s expert guidance and hard work, he was able to take advantage of that return to make significant progress. He and Jan realized there was an unmet need to provide others an opportunity to have access to the extraordinary rehabilitation he had experienced. The two of them founded a non-profit organization called Neuroworx. He currently serves as the Executive Director of Neuroworx. In this episode, we talk to Dr. Dale Hull about overcoming hardship, treating individuals as a whole, and the importance of "non-task touching." Dr. Hull tells his personal story of spinal cord injury rehabilitation as well as the founding of Neuroworx. We also talk about the value of a Masters in Public Administration, learning how to run a non-profit, and what physcians can learn from being a patient.

Welcome to Nobody Told Me!  I’m Jan Black and I’m Laura Owens.  Joining us on this episode is Greg Behrendt, who’s a comedian, a consultant on Sex and the City, and the author of several books that have earned him the title of “relationship expert” as well.  You may be familiar with his books,  He's Just Not That into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys,  It's Just a Date: How to Get 'em, How to Read 'em, and How to Rock 'em,  and It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken: The Smart Girl's Break-Up Buddy.  Greg’s latest book, co-authored with his wife, Amiira, is called, How to Keep Your Marriage From Sucking: The Keys to Keep Your Wedlock Out of Deadlock. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

What do you wish someone had told you when you were starting out on your journey? "Nobody Told Me!" is a two-generational podcast with legendary broadcaster, Jan Black, and her millennial daughter, Laura Owens, where we answer those questions. We interview inspiring, successful people from all walks of life and focus on how they got through the tough times. Raw. Real. Motivating. *** Jan & Laura discuss the impact of change on your life at any age. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

"My deep emotional struggle has been a secret, hidden behind the façade of dependability. I’ve been busy making sadness wrong and I was not sure how to talk about it." Exposing the Cracks that the Light May Come In Hey guys this Sarah Mastriani-Levi and I wanted to take a few minutes to speak to you from my heart about what's been happening with me, about what's been going on with my podcast and what’s been occurring in my business over the past few months. I usually don't share a lot of personal stuff on this platform. Although, most of you know that I will share personal anecdotes from time to time to support your processes. But this time, I wanted to let you know a little bit about the authentic and human side of what's been going on lately. I hope it will encourage you and give you support that you're not alone in what you're going through. These past few months have been tough for me emotionally, psychologically, physically and spiritually. I have felt like I’ve gone through some challenges that have happened, if for no other reason, then to slow down my pace. For all of you, who personally know me, being an extremely driven, overachiever has been a trademark of my personality for the majority of my life. But something has happened… maybe lots of some things…that have begun to shift my perspective. In October 2016, Hurricane Matthew did some massive damage to my community, and much of the Southern East Coast. We caught the brunt of the storm. We were evacuated from our homes and forced into a “Hurri-cation mode”. Much of my business is online, so fortunately I could operate it from “the cloud” and the hotel where we were staying. However, while we were away there was a massive energy shift that happened in this area. For me, trees are like souls, and coming back to the storm damaged area was shocking, to say the least. Now nearly five months later, we are still seeing FEMA collecting fallout debris from the storm. As you may imagine, hundreds of thousands of trees were erased from the natural landscape. It felt like a spiritual emptying out, almost as if there were volunteer souls that bowed out, in order to allow space and light, for new energy, to come into the area. All in all, that would be a really positive thing, but simultaneously there seems to be a grieving process, both of the people and of the land for the changes that have happened and continue to evolve here. There's a heavy energy, and what feels like opposition to a lot of the new energy that is flowing in. Being an empath, I'm very sensitive to this. Honestly, it has caused me to lose my rhythm a little. It has toyed with my productive abilities for my business, and otherwise. All of this has challenged me spiritually and emotionally throughout these past several months. It has caused me to question my relationships and whether I am in the right location or not. The election season has been overwhelming, surprising and divisive. So much of what I never believed could happen, has…everyday seems like a new surprise, a new twist, a new turn. I feel constant fear and unease in the current political environment. I feel like I’m walking on egg-shells not to accidentally mention my opinion in the “wrong company.” Much of what’s around me believes differently, and I can’t for the life of me wrap my mind around it or support it. I keep asking myself, “is there a chance I could be wrong?” but cannot seem to understand how I could ever think or feel the opposite of what I do. I can’t understand what others are supporting. Strangely, nearly every project that I had started before October has not come to fruition. That is totally unlike me because I love efficiently finishing projects, more than just about anything else. In addition to all of that, every single project that I tried to launch over the past few months has sent me mixed messages with constant snafus and delays. Nearly every lecture that I was invited to speak at, has had a great reaction online, only to be followed by people who don't show up. That was after the fact that they told me personally that the message and topic I was sharing were excellent and important. My podcast, which has brought me so much joy, suddenly went through a shift too. The recording software stopped working for all PCs. I shifted to another recording software to record four important and powerful conversations with Jay Wong, Selena Delesie, Kelly Harrell and Toku McCree, only to discover on each one that my voice was barely audible (in spite of successful test runs). This really shook me up, not just on the technical level of why did this only work great in the test run, but also it was a huge embarrassment considering I had been waiting for months to talk with each of these people. It sent me spiraling…trying to find technical solutions. I also sunk deep into an energetic rabbit hole of questions regarding the value of my voice and why the universe was stopping it from being shared, on what seemed like every front. Was my antenna aimed at the wrong audience? Was I sharing a message that wasn't welcome? Was what I have to share not of value? During the following 2 months, I worked to create a program to launch during the last two weeks of December, along with a mastermind course. I designed it so people could read more and sign up on line, on my website. During the third week of December my website “white screened,” so not only  no launch…no one had access to my website for 10 days, as I gathered all of the parts. Essentially, I was invisible. I scheduled lectures to do an in-person of these programs. Again, tons of interest…and no one showed up. I have lost my mojo and my desire to explain myself to people, locally. Especially those who are not willing to pay $30 for a workshop that could create a healthy lifestyle change and heal what they are suffering from…but alas… that doesn’t come in a bottle or pill. I feel like I’m always swimming upstream and I’m tired. Tons of questioning and self-doubt ensued, as I pushed forward in my creative process. Perhaps I just needed to wait for the stars to fall into alignment for my message to be clear? What did I need to change? How could I possibly feel so connected on some levels and so utterly unheard? It even brought into question the worthiness of the work that I am doing. Although I know that this is a common phenomenon creators go through in the creative process (a.k.a. “the thrash”). I still was full of questions. I felt stuck in the rubble and not sure how to begin to rebuild. I have gone through a very difficult and depressed couple of months. My deep emotional struggle has been a secret, hidden behind the façade of dependability. I’ve been busy making sadness wrong and I was not sure how to talk about it. I am so thankful for the joy my kids and my work bring me in the moments between my relentless questioning. I have felt alone on my journey. I have been in the sad state grieving, within my soul, that may not be so different than the trees that were broken and uprooted. I have felt extremely challenged as a single-mother. My kids see their father 1-2 times a year for 10 days. He lives abroad. I do my best to be the support system of two parents, but it’s just me. I attempt to hold it all together and be what my kids need: physically, mentally and spiritually. They are my number one priority. I feel so happy when they are happy…but lately they have been sad too. Lonely and feeling unconnected to their peers on different levels. I try to hold space for their processes. I feel guilty for feeling jealous of happy families that have two active and loving parents. There is a strangeness in the foreign realization that there are actually couples that enjoy spending time with their partners and families. I feel ashamed to admit that every picture I see of others participating Father/daughter dances tears my heart in two, and brings tears to my eyes. There is no one to play with them on the weekends like their peers’ fathers do. There is no one else around to sign permission slips or to stay home with them should they need to. There is no one else to spilt the driving with when all four kids have activities in four different locations, all at the same time. Who do stay to cheer on…how do you divide yourself? This parenting thing is a one woman show…My commitment and intensity haven’t really left space for anyone else to join me on this journey. Not that I wouldn’t want it. However, no one seems to be able to dependably show up or keep up, as I would need for them to, to be a part of our lives. This too has been a generator of sadness and solitude. I can’t just will myself out of the situation. This past weekend I had a strange wake-up call. I was tired. It was 22:00 and the kids were doing their thing, as I was starting to wind down for the night. I went upstairs to say goodnight only to find a big mess, primarily from one of my kids. It was not just in the bedroom, also in the shared family room. There was a box under the craft table that had a couple hundred crayons dumped on the floor. A clear message that it didn’t matter to whomever dropped it. I was annoyed they had fallen and not been collected…I decided I would bend down and pick them up and not escalate with my volume and discourse on the subject. What followed was the most asinine, unintentionally self-inflicted injury that I have encountered to date. Generally, I have awesome spatial perception and orientation, but this night was definitely different. I bent down quickly, focusing my gaze on the dumped crayons and swiftly caught my forehead on the blunt of a straight back wooden chair. I heard my skull crack from the intensity. I found myself on the floor with the kids all around me, scared and wanting to be helpful. At first I saw stars, and then realized that I couldn’t see out of my right eye. I was worried and in pain. I questioned how this happened and what it symbolized… What am I not seeing that’s right in front of me? Where am I banging my energy because I am trying too hard or too fast?  And yes, I realize that I’m addicted to understanding why? but the message was there: Slow down. Rest. Zoom out. Go into the quiet. Soften up the process. Stop pushing so damn hard. Drop the harshness of the drive. It’s not helping you to move forward. Listen to the Universe’s rhythm, rather than trying overpower it. Take care of yourself. There is no one else who will take care of them. Parenting has been and always will be my top priority. Second to that is serving others and creating impact through my work. I have been struggling to know how and when to share about what I’ve been processing for a couple of reasons. The first is that, as a coach, it is not a great feeling to be totally vulnerable and to talk about personal difficulties. The second is the realization that life is series of cyclical hero’s journeys that you may or may not choose to embark upon…and it’s grueling and emotionally difficult to describe the most difficult part of the process while you are in the midst of it. You can see a diagram of the stages of the hero’s journey in the show notes, if you are not familiar with Joseph Campbell’s work. Diagram of the hero’s journey  It is so much easier to share when you are on the other side of an endeavor and you can be encouraging and remind others the arduous tasks of personal development are indeed, worthwhile. When you are at the bottom, lonely, and deep in inaccessible solitude, it is often difficult to see the end. If you’ve been through it or something like it before, then you probably know that there will be an end, but the inability to be more than a player and a witness to your process becomes overwhelming. There is no set timeline. I often think of the TED talk by Jill Bolte Taylor, wherein she describes going through a stroke, as a neurological and stroke researcher. She talks about recognizing all of the steps of what was going on…she understood it all, yet she still had a stroke and had to deal with the ramifications of it.  Click here to listen to the TED talk with Jill Bolte Taylor I also know… that when you choose to play the game…this game of personal growth and development… you are the one in the arena, subject to anything and everything that may come up…everything you could or couldn’t predict. I am reminded of this excerpt of Theodore Roosevelt’s speech "Citizenship In A Republic" delivered in Paris, France on 23 April, 1910. It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.  I am voluntarily in the arena…I choose to remain there. It’s not easy. I signed up for the advanced course. I’m here to make a difference…I’m here to create impact. I push forward…not knowing where it will take me. I recall the words of Zig Zigler, “Go as far as you can see; When you get there, you’ll see further.” From a spiritual perspective, I know that everything is as it should be. I know that timing is just a human illusion. Yet, from a very human perspective…I often struggle. I know that I do not have to give up on my dream to create impact, to generously give back, to have a voice that matters. I just have to relinquish the timeline that I have connected to the process. I know that I cannot truly accept the “call to adventure” if I have placed my own timeline on the journey. Albert Einstein’s words remind us that “The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.” I have realized that everything I want to create and share couldn’t possibly come to fruition on the timeline that I created months, years…or even decades ago. Everything has shifted with divine timing that was and is beyond my control or comprehension at times. The strangeness of the past few months has also brought a different level of podcasts and expression due to my partially inaudible recordings. Over the next four episodes you will hear a different vibe than you may have become accustomed to. As my voice, either wasn’t recorded, or was recorded in limited capacity, I will be featuring excerpts from the greatness of conversations with Jay Wong, Selena Delesie, Kelly Harrell and Toku McCree. I have been waiting to bring them to refinement and release, until I was clear on how to explain what had happened. The goal of my podcast is multi-faceted and remains the same. As a coach, I want others to hear these amazing conversations that I get to experience. I believe that they are valuable, impactful and important. I honor every one of the guests that I have had on, and will have on in the future, for sharing their amazing stories and messages. I think the second and primary reason for the podcast’s creation was to give a platform for the voices that are often heard only in private conversations… to show that emotional intimacy is not only an achievable goal… it can happen in one conversation…in one moment…in one synchronized breath. I feel like I would be robbing others of the opportunity of learning something great, along with me, if I did not share these messages. I wanted to offer them my gratitude for the work they are putting out in the world, inspired by Thich Nhat Hahn’s quote of “How can I love you more?”. As well as the question of how can I help others to love what you are doing as much as I do? I questioned whether I needed to redefine my business and brand identity, knowing that on some level I wanted to redefine my hustle. I have had numerous conversations trying to gain clarity. Tons of things are in the works and I have had to call on my coaches and guides to help keep me moving forward. I’m clear that 2017 is the year I desire to become completely location independent. I do deep work with inspired and creative leaders who are invested in their own spiritual hero’s journey. I provide coaching, as well as create courses and services to support their spiritual and physical health and wellness. I have five courses in the works that are launching soon including: Food and the Heroes Journey-How to Fuel Greatness (thank you Jan Black for helping me refine the concept) The Hero’s Journey Backpack Crash Course-helping others to understand what they need to have in their spiritual backpack to embark on a true spiritual journey (Riley Temple, Brian Musial and Paul Nattoli, you guys talked me through this one) I have a mastermind in the works for people who are suffering from the loneliness and isolation that often comes from being spiritual and creative entrepreneurs (Liz Scully, your guidance is unmatched on this subject) I have a year-long program called Your year of Transformation that I've been slowly building. (Peter Rossetti, thank you for your patience and helping me to realize that everything in life is just a design problem that needs a spiritual solution) I have updated my Creating a Better You program to be in alignment with the kinds of people who are a good fit for me to work with. As many of you may or may not know, all good coaches have other coaches and advisors, because they know their value and are willing to pay for good coaching. So, I turned to MY support team of coaches and friends to really try and dig deep to figure out what I needed to shift within me to create my greatest message in the world. Amongst the others, on my support team I would like to show appreciation for: Soness Stevens, my TED speaker coach, for guiding me to connect with ease and grace as I prepare my speech. Karen Wright, you have been encouraging and helped me to remember that you can't take on as much as I have as a single parent without it being hard… That it is supposed to be hard. Marika Tomkins you have reminded me that I need to continue sharing the human side of my spiritual struggles and to allow it to come out authentically. Without you, I wouldn’t have considered sharing publicly what has been going on in my life. Deborah Williams, you have kept me returning to look at the spiritual brilliance of shifting and changing money mindsets. Anthony Mattis, you continue to remind me how to lose judgment where I didn't even realize it existed, to always consider that “it's an interesting point of view that I have that point of view” and not wrap any conclusions around that. Chris Suddeth, your Energy work has been pivotal in helping me, reminding me that it's OK to express my humor and wit, as well as my sweet side. Jacqueline Friel Smith, thanks for helping me to see myself as others see me and capturing that, even when it is difficult for me to see it. Laura Petersen, your reminder that “only good will come from this” has been reassuring. Also, bringing up the question of “what am I not willing to see, that if I was willing to see would change all realities?” has be extremely helpful. Diana Babauta, thank you for your support and believing in what I do. Thank you for helping me to keep my body in a strong and functional condition. Ifetayo White, your loving grandmother energy and powerful spiritual work continues to be an inspiration. Nick Snapp, your encouragement and understanding has helped me to connect to the very pragmatic and functional side of getting things done. Your program Real Accountable is a phenomenal resource and I want to see you succeed in serving others through this amazing gift you have created. Anna Cragin your positivity and accountability have shown up and allowed me to acknowledge the achievements that I have made. In spite of the fact that my desire to accomplish things is in constant overdrive; You have helped me to celebrate the small wins. Moshe Dekel, thank you for helping to keep me healthy, seeing value in my approach to holistic medicine and guiding me when and where necessary. There have been so many others who have shown up and offered an ear, a word of encouragement, a word of advice. For all of you, I am thankful. My focus has shifted to the questions of: What if everything I’m doing and going through is exactly right? How would I approach my work differently? I lean on the words of one of my heroes Maya Angelou who said, “Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” I’ve been trying to be even more attuned to messages from the universe, through opportunities that present themselves. I’ve been examining where, within my spirit I have blocked the appearance of ease and grace from an outdated, limiting belief pattern that everything good needs to come through very hard work (a.k.a. the workaholics constant “fix” of validation). I am a creator and I won’t stop creating powerful tools and transformations for the amazing clients I have the privilege to work with. I am working and writing all the time, often single-handedly. I actively silence the negative self-talk, daily, to push forward while listening to the cosmic timing. Some days I flow with ease, others I feel like I must power through. But I show up. Every. Damn. Day. In fact, I’ve been sleeping in the “arena” for years. I recognize the need for surrender and I am allowing the light into the cracks. I continue from a place of deep knowing and intuitive inspiration. Rumi tells us, “the wound is where the light enters you.”   And Leonard Cohen reminds us: Ring the bells that still can ring Forget your perfect offering There is a crack in everything That’s how the light gets in… This is Sarah Mastriani-Levi of Mannafest Living signing off from a riff on Simple Change- Creating Impact One Conversation at a Time. Thanks for taking the time to listen.   Connect and Follow Sarah Email Website Facebook Personal Facebook Business Twitter Instagram LinkedIn     Never miss an episode of weekly inspiration from Simple Change. Subscribe now through iTunes, or Stitcher, or listen to an episode here. Simple Change Theme Music by Hani’el Mastriani-Levi Simple Change Logo by Eden Mastriani-Levi This podcast was edited by Mannafest Living

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