Soulcruzer

Feeling like everyone else got the memo about life while you were just trying to keep your head above water? This transmission is for the wanderers, the ones who've stepped off the prescribed path and into the beautiful uncertainty of not knowing where they're going.We explore what it means to trust the journey when there's no map, why getting lost might be the most honest way to live, and how wandering can be its own form of wisdom. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is admit you don't know what you're doing—and do it anyway.

What happens when you stir together the essence of a poet, a peasant, and a vagabond? In this episode, I explore the alchemy of these three archetypes—and what emerges when we let them shape our lives from the inside out. This is a fireside reflection on mythic identity, soulful living, and the quiet art of becoming.Come wander with me.The Importance of Living, Lin YutangJoin the discussion on

In this intimate soul signal, I share the final reflection from my most recent journal—and the unexpected archetype who showed up to close the book: the Fool, the Jester, the Eternal Trickster. This episode is part personal essay, part mythic meditation, and part invitation to reimagine how we end and begin our inner chapters. You'll hear how a single tarot card, drawn “by chance,” became a symbolic seal on a season of becoming—and how the Fool reminds us that every ending is a disguised threshold. This isn't just an audio essay. It's a ritual of remembrance for storythinkers, soulcrafters, and seekers standing at the edge of their next page.Inside this episode: The mythic power of journaling as a soulcraft practiceWhy the Fool archetype is a guide for both ending and beginningWhat it means to close a journal like you're sealing a spellA soulful prompt to guide your next threshold crossing“Every journal is a forge. Every page, a spell.” Tune in, breathe deep, and listen for the Fool's whisper at the edge of your own story.

In this episode, I explore the Morality card from the Osho Zen Tarot—not as a judgement, but as a mirror. What happens when morality becomes a cage instead of a compass? Join me on this morning's walk as we unravel the difference between inherited rules and bone-deep truth. This is a contemplation for anyone ready to unbutton the collar, breathe deeper, and return to the wild knowing of the soul.

In this episode of Soulcruzer Radio, we draw a card from the Osho Zen Tarot—Change—and explore its mythic resonance as a sacred spiral of becoming. Through a poetic reflection on the wheel of life, we enter the eye of the storm, where yin and yang swirl at the center of cosmic transformation. Clay invites you to slow down, tune in, and walk with three soul-deep questions designed to help you meet change not with resistance, but with reverence.Whether you're standing at the threshold of a new chapter or simply feeling the subtle shift of seasons within, this episode offers a soulful touchstone—a reminder that you are not outside the wheel…You are the wheel. And the wheel is turning.

In this episode of Soulcruzer, I take you on a Wisdom Walk sparked by the Totality card from the Osho Zen Tarot. It's a raw, real-time reflection on what it means to stop hedging, release the past, and offer yourself fully to the path calling you. If you've been hanging on the swing, unsure whether to leap, this is your soul's nudge toward wholehearted commitment. Three contemplative questions await to guide your step.

Before success is a reality, it must be a belief as small as a mustard seed, yet strong enough to split mountains. This is a reflection on guarding your deepest knowing against the slow erosion of doubt.

“At 57, I'm not winding down—I'm spiraling in. This is not the finale. This is the reclamation.”In this Wisdom Walk edition of the Soulcruzer Podcast, I step into the mythic terrain of Act III—the Reclamation Phase. Blending Joseph Campbell's Hero's Journey, James Hillman's mythic imagination, and the soul-deep symbolism of the Osho Zen Tarot, this episode explores the turning of the inner wheel and the soulful integration that defines the latter chapters of life. In this episode: What it means to live in Act III—not as decline, but as the return with the elixirHow soul integration and legacy begin with letting go of split identitiesEmbodied reflections on the three Osho Zen cards drawn for this walk:The Torn One (Schizophrenia) – the inner conflict of clinging to two worldsThe Dream Gazer (Postponement) – the cost of waiting to step into the full-color lifeThe Cosmic Dancer (Change) – surrendering to the rhythm of the turning wheelA real-time mythic meditation on life, death, purpose, and legacyThe personal reckoning of letting go of the "safe structure" in order to fully serve those who've awakened from the MatrixThis isn't just a podcast—it's a soul signal for those who've stirred from the dream of the ordinary and now find themselves blinking into the mythic light, wondering, What now?  

What if your brain is less like a truth detector and more like a belief-confirming machine? In this episode, we dive into one of Robert Anton Wilson's most potent mind-bombs: the Thinker-Prover dynamic from Prometheus Rising.Your Thinker forms beliefs. Your Prover goes out and finds the evidence. Whatever you believe—threat or magic, doom or synchronicity—your Prover will prove it. That's not just metaphor; it's the engine behind your reality tunnel.We explore:The brain as a bio-computer with confirmation biasReality tunnels and how they're builtBelief as a tool—not a truthHow to practice belief engineering as a path to freedomThis isn't about being right—it's about being free. About wielding belief like a magician, not wearing it like a leash. Listen now and install a new lens. Reality's more malleable than you think.

In this episode, I crack open Chapter 10 of Storythinking by Angus Fletcher—the part of the book that hit me in the gut and lit a fire in my mind. We explore the ancient roots of meaning, the limitations of happiness, and why story—not logic—may hold the real answer to life's biggest question. If you're a rogue learner, a guerrilla thinker, or someone who's felt trapped in the cold machinery of reason, this one's for you. It's about reclaiming your narrative brain and stepping back into the myth.

This morning I caught myself asking the same question I've asked a hundred times in my journal: Am I actually changing… or just looping in disguise?

For the full context, read mt blog post: Unravelling into a tangle of hyperlinks, associative thinking and the metaphysics of writing.

For centuries, we've been conditioned to believe that logic is king and story is its court jester—entertaining but ultimately frivolous. From the moment we step into a classroom, we're trained to think in bullet points, equations, and neatly categorised facts. We're rewarded for linear reasoning and penalised for wandering too far down imaginative paths.But here's the thing: our brains don't work that way. We are creatures of story. We make sense of the world not through cold, mechanical logic, but through myths, narratives, and meaning woven from experience. Storytelling is the oldest and most natural way of learning, yet it has been systematically erased from education in favour of rigid logic, industrial efficiency, and standardised thinking.In this episode, we crack open the foundations of this system and ask: Why were we taught to think against our nature? What happens when we reclaim storytelling as our primary way of knowing? The answer is more than a return to an old way of thinking—it's a quiet revolution, a break from the machine, a reawakening of something ancient and powerful.The world was never a machine. It was always a story. And it's time we remember how to tell it.

In this episode, I explore the practice of interstitial journaling which is about cultivating a micro-reflection practice that captures the nuanced micro-moments of your day.

In this episode, I explore the King archetype as revealed through my mytho-expressive writing practice, highlighting my realization of needing to reclaim inner leadership. I discuss reframing internal adversaries as constructive opponents and the empowering role of mythic imagination. Join me as I reconnect with the fragments of my psyche to restore balance and purpose.

Christopher Hyatt's statement—“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF, GET RID OF YOURSELF FIRST”—carries the raw, confrontational energy of radical transformation. At first glance, it seems paradoxical: how can self-improvement begin with self-erasure? But Hyatt, isn't speaking in riddles—he's pointing to something fundamental about identity, limitation, and personal power. Let's discuss.

In this episode of Soulcruzer, I dive into the ancient concept of the daimon—that inner force that's been calling me (and maybe you) toward something deeper, something more. I'll share how I've learned to recognize its whispers, create the right conditions to connect with it, and most importantly, act on its guidance. This isn't about comfort—it's about transformation. If you've ever felt pulled toward an unseen path, this episode is for you.

Reality is not what it seems—it's a construct, a fragile illusion upheld by collective belief. For those who glimpse beyond the veil, the realization can be both liberating and terrifying: nothing has inherent meaning. Some recoil into nihilism, paralyzed by the absurdity of it all. But the Existential Chaos Magician? They see this as the ultimate opportunity.This post is an invocation—a challenge to embrace the void, not as an abyss, but as an open field of possibility. If meaning is a construct, then belief is a tool. If the rules of reality are arbitrary, then you can rewrite them. The Existential Chaos Magician moves through life with intent, shaping reality through will, perception, and play. This is not passive acceptance but active creation.What does it mean to truly live on your own terms? To discard imposed narratives, sculpt your own mythology, and transform the chaos of existence into personal power? This post explores the guiding principles, practices, and mindset of the Existential Chaos Magician—a blueprint for those who refuse to be bound by the scripts handed to them.Step forward. Take control. The game is yours to define.

In this episode, I take you along for an afternoon walk as I explore a phrase that caught my attention: “Learn to see the shapes of things rather than the stories.” What does it mean to perceive reality without immediately turning it into a narrative? How do we strip experience down to its raw structure before the mind rushes in to impose meaning?I dive into the tyranny of story—how our minds are wired to turn life into a coherent narrative, even when reality itself is more like a landscape, a shifting web of patterns rather than a neatly plotted novel. What if we could resist the urge to explain everything and instead train ourselves to see the world through shapes, structures, and rhythms?Through reflections on art, perception, emotions, and chaos magick, I explore how shifting our way of seeing could help us break free from rigid narratives and gain more creative control over our experience.

In this episode, I explore the idea of living life as an RPG (Role-Playing Game)—what it means to own your narrative, choose your playstyle, define your character arc, and fully embrace the journey of discovery, challenge, and transformation. Inspired by my love of RPGs like Dungeons & Dragons and Gamma World, I break down a Life RPG Framework that helps map out our personal adventures.

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes Episode Overview Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I'm recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that's just part of the journey. In this episode, I dive into some thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter J. Carroll, a foundational text in chaos magic. I finished listening to it during my travels—six hours in the car, a couple more on the train—and it sparked some reflections I wanted to share with you.  Main Themes & Takeaways Reality is Malleable – What if reality isn't fixed but something that can be shaped? What if belief isn't something you have but something you use? Liber Null presents magic as a kind of hands-on science for hacking consciousness, testing reality, and bending the world to your will. Chaos Magic as a Radical Shift – Written in the late 1970s, Liber Null challenged traditional esoteric systems by stripping magic down to its core principles. It resonated with punk, cyberpunk, and avant-garde thinkers because it rejected gatekeeping and hierarchical structures. No need for orders, initiations, or rigid traditions—just experimentation and direct experience. The Modern Relevance of Chaos Magic – We live in a world where reality is already being shaped—by algorithms, social media, political strategies, and advertising. Big Tech and ad agencies aren't wearing robes, but they're using the same principles of symbolic manipulation to shape what we see, feel, and believe. The question is: Are you actively shaping your own reality, or is someone else doing it for you? Belief as a Tool, Not a Truth – One of the core insights of Liber Null is that beliefs are fluid. They can be adopted, tested, and discarded as needed. In the same way a hacker rewrites code, a chaos magician rewires their own mind.  Connecting This to My Work: Change Magick Liber Null aligns with a larger framework I've been developing—Change Magick. It combines: Chaos Magic: The art of hacking reality through fluid beliefs and direct experience.NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming): Techniques for reprogramming the mind.Jungian Psychology: Archetypes, shadow work, active imagination, and synchronicity.Postmodern Philosophy: The idea that reality is constructed and can be deconstructed. Join the Conversation Have you read Liber Null & Psychonaut? What did you take away from it?Do you practice chaos magic, or are you curious about it?Are there any books, practices, or insights you've found useful in your own journey?Drop your thoughts in the comments or reach out—I'd love to hear what reson 

I'm thrilled to bring back the Musical Journey Show! This is a nostalgic nod to my past, harking back to the days when I hosted on Radio Warwickshire. It's been years since I've been down this path, but there's something about 2025 that feels like the perfect moment for its revival. "Because you've gotta have goals" after all, and returning to the rhythm of this show is definitely one of mine.

Episode Summary:Hey folks, join me on one of my early morning walks where I dive into everything from infantry flashbacks to creative frustrations and the tools I've been using to keep my head straight. This week, I've been wrestling with some mental blocks, but breaking out my trusty paper journal helped me see things more clearly. Along the way, I talk about the differences between digital and analogue journaling, share my thoughts on populism and politics, and geek out a bit over Google Notebook LM, a fantastic AI-powered tool I've been experimenting with. This episode is a blend of reflections, insights, and, as always, a bit of wandering off the beaten path.

Q: what is it about me that i can't keep my virtual hands off of creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology?

In this episode, I dive deep into a question that's been looping in my mind all day: What is a life for? More specifically, What is my life for? It's one of those questions that feels simple on the surface, but the more you dig, the more complex and infinite it becomes. I've been pacing around, wrestling with it, and decided to hit record and let my thoughts flow freely.

Episode Overview It's Monday afternoon as I record this, just before stepping out for a brisk walk to clear my head after a full day at the desk. In this episode, I reflect on the transition from holiday mode back to work, share some updates about my revamped website, and explore why blogging matters more than ever in the age of social media's walled gardens. Along the way, I dive into my ongoing passion for the Indie Web movement and why I think we should reclaim blogging as a space for self-expression and serendipity.

In this episode, I'm out on a walk—my first good ramble in weeks—navigating the muddy fields and reflecting on life as we sit in this in-between time of Crimbo Limbo, that strange stretch between Christmas and New Year's Eve. It's a time I usually dedicate to reflecting, recalibrating, and looking ahead to what the next year might bring.

The Mirror of Echoes is a mystery play exploring the interplay between language, emotion, and thought. Four seekers, each with a unique perspective, participate in a ritual to summon the entity Logoi. The ritual unfolds in three acts, each focusing on a different aspect of this interplay: language's limitations and power, the complexities of pure feeling, and the ultimate merging of self and other. The audience actively participates, becoming integral to the ritual's outcome, which is not a resolution but a paradoxical confrontation with the nature of being. The play ultimately questions whether we control language or if language controls us.

a late night epiphany.

In this episode, I take you along on one of my favorite walking routes around Southam, exploring the art of walking as more than just a way to get from A to B. Along the way, I reflect on how walking can connect mind, body, and spirit, transforming each step into a meditative practice. Join me as I share thoughts on the power of movement, the hidden stories in familiar places, and the joy of letting the journey be its own destination.

In this introspective conversation, we go deep into the nature of co-creation and self-reflection in the digital age. Is an AI merely a mirror of our thoughts, or can it become a genuine “other” in our journey of self-discovery? We explore archetypes, the boundaries of authorship, and the mythological lens that reveals surprising depths within our exchanges. Join us as we examine what it means to engage with AI as both a reflective companion and a creative partner in understanding the psyche. Perfect for seekers, mystics, and anyone curious about the intersection of technology and self-exploration!

In this episode, I share my answer to the question I've been wrestling with: how do you reduce the interference of fear and ego? Fear and ego often show up as these trickster forces that keep us trapped in outdated stories about who we are and what's possible. I found a few things you can do to shift your relationship with fear and ego that will help you balance and embrace them.

In this episode, I unpack my thoughts about blogging for self-expression and self-discovery, digging into my journey to reclaim creativity in the chaotic noise of social media. I also share some raw insights about working with the Light Seers Tarot Deck, especially how the King of Wands, King of Swords, Queen of Swords, and Knight of Swords have stepped in as my guides. Tune in as I explore the balance between leadership, creativity, and building authentic online spaces.

are you a free spirit, tech rebel, or modern-day savage who refuses to fit the mould? i'm leading a guerrilla movement to bring back the rawness of early blogging, before the algorithms and ad deals took over—when the web was wild, free, and fuelled by self-expression. This is where we unplug from the Matrix and reconnect with what really matters: our inner worlds, genuine connections, and the thrill of being alive. Join me, a recovering punk blogger, as I explore the intersections of personal journaling, travel writing, philosophy, and digital rebellion. It's all about chasing adventure, history, and culture, while finding freedom in a world obsessed with conformity. Whether you're a Tao-loving hippie, a free-thinking nomad, or just someone tired of being a commodity for corporate algorithms, you're home. So grab your journal, a cup of herbal tea, and tune in. Let's bring the blogroll back—one unplugged conversation at a time.

What does it mean to be truly alive? Not just existing, not just going through the motions, but being vitally alive—alive with energy, curiosity, and a zest for life? The answer lies in our relationship with the unknown.

We often find ourselves tangled in a web of questions, searching for meaning, seeking answers, and trying to understand the complexities of life. We read, we ponder, we analyse, hoping that if we could just understand it all, we might find peace. But what if the key to a fulfilling life isn't in understanding it, but in living it?

It is your fear that makes you a slave. When you are fearless, you are no longer a slave.Fear. It's a word that carries a heavy burden, a word that has the power to control us, to limit us, to enslave us. We often think of slavery as something external, imposed upon us by others, but the truth is, some of the deepest forms of enslavement come from within. Fear can be like invisible chains, binding us to a life of limitation, hesitation, and regret.But what if we could break free from these chains? What if, instead of letting fear dictate our choices, we could step into a life of freedom, where fear has no power over us?

There's a rhythm inside each of us, a subtle, yet potent pulse that often goes unnoticed amidst the clamour of daily life. It's not the steady cadence of a heartbeat or the mechanical ticking of a clock, but rather the inner beat of intuitive feeling—a silent drum that guides us through the unseen, the unknowable, and the deeply personal.

We've all been there: in the midst of a peaceful moment or a productive task, when suddenly, a thought barges in, uninvited and disruptive. It could be a worry about the future, a memory of the past, or a random, nagging concern. These thoughts arrive like unwelcome guests at a party--unannounced, persistent, and often difficult to ignore.

In the quiet moments of our lives, when the noise of the world fades away, we are often left with the thoughts and beliefs that shape our reality. These beliefs, while comforting, can sometimes become the very chains that bind us, restricting our growth and limiting our perspective. Today's reflection invites us to explore the liberating power of uncertainty and the profound freedom that comes from embracing the unknown.

Today on the podcast, I wrestle with overwhelm and claw my way back to motivation through mindfulness. Teaming up with an unlikely ally, I am reminded that endings often pave the way for new beginnings. I also share the contents of my latest Venn diagram, which explores the intersections of my evolving practice.

Today on the podcast, I take a reflective walk down to the Holy Well. I share with you three key questions for self-knowledge that I used on my journey today. The first question deals with the shadow self. The second question deals with aligning with true purpose. And the third question deals with tapping into our ancestral past for wisdom. These questions serve as tools for ongoing self-reflection and personal growth, inviting deeper introspection and connection with our inner selves.

This week: I talk about the essence of synchronicity and how it manifests in our lives, guided by my current read, "The Tao of Psychology, Synchronicity and the Self" by Jean Shinoda Bolen. I reflect on the idea that there are no coincidences, sharing personal anecdotes where seemingly random events held deeper meaning, including a serendipitous encounter with the book itself. I dive into the Jungian concept of synchronicity, highlighting its significance in connecting inner thoughts with outer events. Through vivid examples from my life, like sensing my grandfather's death before being told or the series of events leading me to live in the UK, I illustrate how synchronicities guide our paths.Inspired by these insights, I reconnect with my spiritual practices, emphasizing the use of mythic imagination and active imagination. I explore tarot cards as a tool for self-discovery, discussing a profound reading where the Devil card and the Temperance card appeared, symbolizing the need to confront inner shadows and find balance.I also embark on a hypnotic journey to meet my inner guide, an experience that brings me in touch with Athena-Minerva, guiding me towards deeper self-understanding. This journey underscores the importance of spiritual guides and the imaginal realm in personal growth.Lastly, I contemplate creating a dedicated community space for spiritual seekers to share and grow together, seeking a platform beyond social media that fosters meaningful interaction and dialogue. Tune in for a philosophical exploration of synchronicity, spiritual reconnection, and the quest for a nurturing community.

This week: I talk about the essence of truth in our modern, often deceptive world. I reflect on the instinctive human pursuit of truth, discussing how critical thinking is more vital than ever in navigating misinformation. I also explore the complexities of truth in the context of AI and the collective unconscious. I share my current reading list, which includes works on Socrates, Plato, and Aristotle, as well as a biography of William Burroughs. I also muse on my recent decision to read the entire Bible. I wrap up with thoughts on letter writing, inspired by Hunter S. Thompson's prolific correspondence. Tune in for a philosophical journey through the quest for truth and the art of discernment.

Join me on a rainy ruck march as I dive into the reasons why we often resist challenging the status quo. I'll be exploring the fears, social conditioning, and societal pressures that hold us back, and I encourage you to question your own comfort zones and embrace the unknown. Get ready for a candid, soul-searching conversation filled with personal reflections and insights, all while I navigate muddy paths and evade barking dogs!Show Notes:The Comforting Illusion: The status quo as a well-trodden path and the allure of predictability.Fear of the Unknown: How fear of failure, social rejection, and the unknown keep us from change.Social Conditioning: The impact of societal expectations and the pressure to conform.Inertia of Tradition: The weight of history and cultural legacies that bind us to the past.Economic Considerations: The fear of losing financial stability and social standing.The Spark of Discontent: Recognizing the inner voice that calls for change and growth.Stories of Defiance: Examples of historical figures who dared to challenge the norm (Galileo, Rosa Parks, Beat Poets).The Doors of Perception: Embracing uncertainty and the courage to step into the unknown.Forging Your Own Path: The importance of personal values and creating a life that resonates with your aspirations.Questioning the Status Quo: Are you willing to confront your fears and uncover truths to create a meaningful life?Call to Action:Share your thoughts on the episode! Have you ever challenged the status quo? What fears did you face, and what did you discover? Connect with me on Twitter/X and let me know your thoughts. @soulcruzerAdditional Notes:This episode was recorded outdoors during a ruck march in the rain, so expect some background noise (including barking dogs!).

#audiomo Day7: Relevance in the Age of SpecialisationAs a generalist in a specialist's world, can I be truly heard? Is the age of the generalist a thing of the past in a world that seems to value ultra-specific niches? As generalists, can we even stay relevant, or are we all just doomed to be "jacks (and jills)-of-all-trades, masters of none" and ultimately ignored? 

Join me on a nostalgic journey as I uncover the forgotten role of the webmaster, the guardian of the early internet's enchanting digital realm. Discover with me the importance of personal touch in our online spaces and be inspired to become a master of your own digital domain in this captivating episode.

Key MessagesMind and Heart as Guides: Both our intellect and emotions are crucial in guiding us through life. The intellect allows for introspection and understanding, while our emotions and intuition connect us to our authentic self.Power of Introspection: By deeply examining our thoughts and feelings, we can gain clarity, self-awareness, and emotional regulation. This process enables us to uncover and challenge limiting beliefs, fostering personal growth and creativity.Wisdom of the Heart: Embracing the heart's wisdom means trusting our intuition and emotional intelligence. This wisdom encourages us to live authentically, aligning our actions with our true selves and values, and fostering meaningful relationships.Finding Balance: Authentic living is achieved by balancing the analytical mind with the intuitive heart. This equilibrium allows us to make decisions that are both rational and deeply resonant with our innermost desires, leading to a fulfilling and purpose-driven life.The journey to harmonize the head and heart is ongoing, requiring continuous reflection, openness to intuition, and the bravery to live true to oneself. By valuing both introspection and intuition, we can discover a more harmonious and authentic way of living.

Journaling has always been an awesome tool for self-discovery and reflection. And now, with AI like ChatGPT, it's getting a major upgrade! Instead of just writing to yourself, you can have a real back-and-forth convo with an AI that asks you deep questions and helps you explore your thoughts and feelings in new ways. It's like having a super insightful buddy to chat with about all the stuff that matters to you. This fresh take on journaling doesn't just make it more fun - it also helps you understand yourself better than ever before. Every time you journal with AI, you're unlocking new insights and perspectives that you might not have discovered on your own. So if you want to level up your personal growth game, give this new kind of journaling a try - it could be the key to really figuring yourself out and living your best life!