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What do we do when, despite every tactic we can think of, our child refuses to eat dinner? Margaret puts a mom's anxieties around missed meals into perspective. Jillian asks: "What do you do when your two-and-a-half-year-old absolutely refuses to put a lick of dinner in her mouth? Night after night I offer multiple items. We've tried eating on the couch and in front of theTV, hoping the mindless eating scenario might happen. None of it has worked. At my wit's end!" Margaret recommends buying the book Child of Mine: Feeding with Love and Good Sense by Ellen Satter. Satter explains that the parent decides what to serve, and the child decides what to eat. It's not our job to force feed our kids when they would rather be doing anything else. They may simply not be hungry, especially if they had a late afternoon snack. If you think there's something serious underlying this reluctance to eat, definitely reach out to your pediatrician. But if your child eats well at other meals, there is probably not reason for concern. Don't chase your child's behavior and bend over backwards to get them to eat at all costs. Even if they don't want to eat, they can sit quietly at the table while everyone else enjoys dinner. If they start throwing food or otherwise misbehaving, don't hesitate to end the meal for them or otherwise give appropriate consequences. And as Margaret can attest from the other side, it will get better as they get older! Special thanks to our sponsor, Pampers: For trusted protection, choose Pampers, the #1 Pediatrician Recommended Brand. Download the Pampers Club App today to start earning free diapers. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

JJ is best known for her roles on Shortland Street, Go Girls and theTV series Creamerie. Now, she plays the best friend of a woman who will try anything to get really healthy, really fast in a new Netflix series called Wellmania.

"The movie companies and theTV companies know that they are more likely to have a bigger audience if the cast is diverse but for some reason they won't do it." Despite Disney diversifying it's iconic Little Mermaid character, mainstream media still has a long way to go before content even comes close to representing its audience accurately. theGrio Daily is an original podcast by theGrio Black Podcast Network. #BlackCultureAmplifiedSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

What happens in Vegas will be recorded for a podcast – again! Once more, live from the Game Show Boot Camp in Las Vegas, Nevada, it's a new episode of Go Fact Yourself!Amy Schneider has a 40 game win streak on “Jeopardy!” It's the second-longest streak in the history of the show; and yet, she and her classmates in 8th grade predicted she would go on to appear on the show. Amy will tell us everything that went into her time as a trivia champion, including perfecting her buzzer technique. Brandon Blackwell is also a “Jeopardy!” winner. In fact, he's competed in trivia all around the world. What's the difference between winning a competition in the U.S. vs. winning one in the U.K.? It all comes down to the bottom line. Brandon will also tell us why understanding his physical limitations as a child led to his career in trivia. Our guests will compete to answer trivia about graduate-level science and high school-era TV shows.What's the Difference: Betting the FarmWhat's the difference between betting and gambling?What's the difference between a farm and a ranch?Areas of Expertise:Amy: The book Moby Dick, the Dutch war for independence, and theTV show “Daria”Brandon: The Periodic Table, winners of the Nobel Peace Prize, and things Paulie Walnuts has said on the TV show “The Sopranos.”Appearing in this episode:J. Keith van StraatenHelen HongAmy SchneiderBrandon BlackwellWith guest experts:Dr. Eric Scerri, UCLA professor and author of the book The Periodic Table: Its Story and its Significance.Susie Lewis, Co-creator of the MTV series “Daria” Tracy Grandstaff, voice of DariaGo Fact Yourself was devised and is produced by Jim Newman and J. Keith van Straaten, in collaboration with Maximum Fun. Theme Song by Jonathan Green.Live show engineer is Dave McKeever.Maximum Fun's Senior Producer is Laura Swisher.Associate Producer and Editor is Julian Burrell.Seeing our upcoming live shows in LA by YOU!

James Lott Jr ponders two plot points from theTv show Dallas. He also brings up a couple of other ones!

Momma Jacquie Paid For Food Prep   She had a lot of names: Her birth name was Jacqueline Thompson, but she wanted a middle name and gave herself one; Jean.  Her married name was Norris.  Her daughters called her Mother.  Most of you knew her as Jackie, unless you were kin and then it was Aunt Jack, Momma Jack or, as I called her, Momma Jacquie.  NO ONE called her Grandma, even though she had 8 grandchildren and I don't even know how many great grandchildren.   She insisted that I never call her Grandma and explained that it was because she was too young to be my grandmother.  Being a child, I took that literally and wondered who my grandmother was, in this huge family of ours, if it wasn't possible for her to be old enough.  There was the suspicious issue of my cousin Scott being born the same day as me.  In my young, conspiracy theory laden head, I thought maybe we were twins,  separated at birth and that Scott's mom, Mary, who was Momma Jacquie's sister, was my real mom and THAT's why Momma Jacquie wasn't old enough to be my grandmother.   I'd stare long and hard at Scott and his parents, but didn't see me in them.  I looked like my Dad and sounded like my Mom, so I grew up unsure of how the family tree really was rooted.  That uncertainty was compounded by the fact that I grew up with two sets of parents.  My own, Barbara and Vernon Stairs, and the people, who weren't old enough to be my grandparents, who had me call them BigDaddy and Momma Jacquie.   I'd heard stories about Momma Jacquie growing up in Arkansas,picking cotton, and how she'd married at the age of 16 to escape the hard life of being the eldest girl of 8 children who were all raised during the great depression.  But by the time she was 18 she had two daughters of her own, Carole (my aunt) and Bar-Jean (my mother.)   My mother was born first, in 1941, and named after most of her aunts.  Knowing the way this family loves to name their daughters after all their sisters, it was a good thing thatMomma Jacquie's youngest sister wasn't even born until after the birth of my mother, or else she would have ended up with a name like:  Mary Barbara Jean Trena Norris Stairs.   My Aunt Carole was born in 1942, just days before the death of a film star comedienne that must have captivated Momma Jacquie's imagination, because she was named after Carole Lombard, complete with the E at the end of her name, to be sure that she was not just any Carol, but rather named for the famous actress.  For those who aren't old enough to remember, Carole Lombard was married to Clark Gable and they were the Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie of their era.   Momma Jacquie's favorite actress was the comedienne, Lucille Ball, who rose to stardom in 1951 in the show with her husband, Desi Arnaz, in I Love Lucy.  What some of you may not remember, but I'm sure Momma Jacquie  did, was that Lucille Ball was the first woman to run a major television studio.  It was known for producing StarTrek and Mission Impossible.  Thankfully that didn't happen until a year after my birth or she may have insisted that my parents name me Lucy.   My mother tells me that despite the financial difficulties that must have been inherent in her family they had one of the first television sets.  As I think back about the timing, Momma Jacquie went straight from the depression era to being married with 2 children during World War II.  Big Daddy had been building orange crates for just pennies in California, and then a soldier and then a police officer while Momma Jacquie was doing her part for the war effort by working at Delco Remy which switched from manufacturing General Motors automobiles to military vehicles during the war.  She had done some modeling and even had a nose job done because she wanted to look like the perfect, all American girl, and thought her Indian nose might stereotype her.   I can imagine that during such hard and trying times she must have turned on that TV and felt the sort of escape that only Hollywood could provide;  a world where female comediennes were beautiful, happy and able to find the funny side of all of life's trials.  It was a world of make believe and I think it inspired Momma Jacquie to a lot of the behaviors that we observed in her.   I'm sure she fantasized about how different her life could have been if she had been rich, famous or of royal lineage.  What she never knew, because I didn't know it until last week thanks to Ancestry.com, was that she had married royalty.  Big Daddy, who you knew as Floyd Norris, had roots that went back to William I theLion, King of Scotland in the 1200's. Although she loved Big Daddy, I think she would have appreciated him more if his family had passed down that information, but they were a humble lot.   Momma Jacquie loved female comediennes, but was never funny.  Maybe she tried her hand at it early on, but by the time I came along, she had figured out that she was no comic.  She only finished the 6th grade, she had no secretarial skills and her handwriting was illegible.  In the 1960's my parents lived in Thonotosassa and Big Daddy and Momma Jacquie lived in Tampa.  Both of my parents worked, so they would drive into Tampa before work, drop me off for the day to be with Momma Jacquie, and then pick me up at night and drive back to Thonotosassa.   I thought Momma Jacquie and Big Daddy were rich!  Momma Jacquie didn't have to work so I thought that being a car salesman must be a very lucrative business.  He had trophies for his efforts and they were living the lifestyle of the rich and famous to my mind.  They always had a new car, the furniture was white, with satin pillows, gold gilded mirrors and everything was off limits, due to it all being a collection of untouchable treasures.  There was always a maid, but I thought that maybe she was just part of the décor because Momma Jacquie was always cleaning something and insisting that it would be great fun for me to clean stuff too.   They had a pool.  It was just one of those little plastic kiddie pools, but I can remember lounging in that pool, the sunlight warm on my face, a blue jay hopping around in the branches above and watching Momma Jacquie doing jumping jacks in front of theTV with Jack LaLanne.   I was glad that I was already wet and she wouldn't want me slinging water all over the house to join her in his TV exercise workout.   Momma Jacquie used to take care of my cousin Matt too, while Aunt Carole worked.  She always treated me like I was her favorite grandchild, but I figured it was because I was the only girl, and the only one she could model into the life that she thought she had missed…or maybe because when Matt was just a toddler he managed to drive her car into the side of the house.  He not only wrecked the car, but wrecked any chance of boys being allowed to play in the house.   I lived two simultaneous lives.  During the week I lived with Momma Jacquie and was groomed to fulfill her ambition of being a famous movie star.  I was taught to read, and sing but dancing was forbidden, and was reminded constantly not to slouch, to stand up straight and to address adults as if I were one. I was coached in how to hold my pinkie out when sipping from a cup, keep direct eye contact when speaking, to shake a person's hand firmly and spent much of my time walking with books balanced on my head.  Shoes were not allowed in the house, so I became quite stealthy, as well as seeming to float across the room.  Most importantly though, I was instructed not to talk to people and animals “who weren't there” because people would think I was crazy.   On the weekends I lived with my parents in Thonotosassa, which in the 60's may as well have been the wild, wild west.  My cousin Scott and I climbed trees, hiked for miles, rode bikes, roller skated in the streets, chased lizards and snakes and would come home so filthy that his mom, Mary, who also kept an immaculate house, with baby blue shag carpet, wouldn't even let us come inside.  My house was made for living though, so we could go there.  I had a dog, a cat and a bird and that bird would just spit seeds everywhere.   Living that double standard was confusing.  I remember my mother just being mortified one day to see me cleaning out the birdcage with a hose.  Not wanting to make a mess of my clothes, which would have been a sin at Momma Jacquie's I had decided to wash the cage out, naked, in the front yard.  Thinking back on this, half a century later, I wonder how confusing it must have been for my mother, wondering what on earth would possess me to be concerned about a little dirt.   When I started school Momma Jacquie no longer had me to groom every day, for that film career she was determined that I have, and had to find a way to fill her days.  She discovered Amway and quickly rose through the ranks because she was a natural born sales person.  There are two kinds of successful sales people; those that are so nice you just want to buy from them and those that won't take no for an answer.  Big Daddy was the first kind.  Momma Jacquie was the second type.  She showed me a gaudy, gold gilded glass coffee table that she didn't want any more one day and said, “Do you like it?”  I didn't want to be rude, so I said “yes.”  She responded by saying,“Good. That will be $150.”  I would never have paid $150 for a coffee table, but I paid her, because I wouldn't dare tell her, “no.”  I didn't even have a couch because I worked all the time and didn't have time to be sitting around.   Momma Jacquie and Big Daddy built their Amway business to Ruby level and purchased a building on N. Florida Avenue to stock their supplies and hold their meetings to recruit and train.  By the time I was 7 my family had moved to Panama City and then to West Virginia, so Momma Jacquie threw herself entirely into building an empire via Amway.   She visited us in West Virginia when I was about 8 and chided me for being fat.  I remember the day and the photo that was taken that day, of my brother on a trike and me posing, as the loving sister, for the photo, behind him.  I wasn't fat, but it was the 60's and women were now all supposed to look like the supermodel, Twiggy who was 5 foot 6 and weighed only 112 lbs.  Momma Jacquie was doing her part to try and meet that ridiculous standard and was insistent that I do so too.   Momma Jacquie also got it in her head that my grey cat was not a fitting pet for someone who would someday be a star and that I should get a poodle. I was never a “dog” person and didn't want a poodle.  I got a cat breed book out and tried to convince her that Smokey was surely either a purebred Korat or a Russian Blue, due to her solid grey coat, but she wasn't buying it.  Smokey didn't have a pedigree and that just wouldn't do.  We finally compromised with a purebred Siamese cat.   The part of this compromise that I did not fully comprehend was that my beloved Smokey would be dumped at the county shelter.  Momma Jacquie assured me that someone else would adopt Smokey and she would be fine. This was a low point in our relationship, but a turning point as well.  I believe that every choice we make happens for a reason, and ultimately was meant to be.   It was a while before I would learn about what happens to cats who are abandoned.  When I could do something about it I did, largely because of the guilt I felt for Smokey.   Despite never being an animal person, when it came time for my daughter to go to college, Momma Jacquie offered to pay her tuition. Jamie had been working with me, taking care of the big cats since she was 12, and she said that she'd rather the money go to a Food Prep building.  I'm sure it was hard for Momma Jacquie to give up on the thought of Jamie getting a college education, like she had provided for others in her latter life, but she put Jamie's desires ahead of her own and funded the building that feeds our 100 lions, tigers and other wild cats.  A plaque on that building commemorates her gift.   My family moved back to Tampa when I was 11 in 1972  and my dual family role resumed.  After school my father would pick Chuck and I up and drive us to Momma Jacquie and Big Daddy's storefront business on N. Florida Av.  I liked to paint, write poetry, make jewelry and read.  While other kids were reading Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys, Momma Jacquie kept me stocked with books like, Psycho Cybernetics, Think and Grow Rich, and How to Win Friends and Influence People.  I thought everybody read that stuff.   The storefront had 3 little stores in front and then the huge warehouse area for the Amway.  I couldn't make enough jewelry to stock one of the little stores, so Big Daddy gave me catalogs for glassware and I shopped for carnival glass, crystal and other fine glassware to stock the shop. After school, I manned the store. There wasn't a lot of traffic, so I got a lot of reading done, and all of it would help shape my future.   During her Amway meetings, Momma Jacquie would trot me up onstage to show them how lovely my hair was thanks to Amway's LOC, dish detergent.  She'd ask me to talk about how great the products were and sometimes to sing.  I don't think she needed my help selling.  Who would tell her “no?”  I think she was always hoping that I'd be“discovered” by someone in the crowd.   I'm sure I was a disappointment to her when I got married at 17, had a baby at 19 and got too fat to model. Like her, I obsessed over my weight, only ate dietetic sweets and colas and exercised a ridiculous amount of hours in a day, but I didn't look likeTwiggy.  I was hungry all the time, so I chain smoked, secretly, as I knew my family would worry if they knew.   By the time I was 30, in 1991, I had built up a real estate business that still supports me today.  I owe that success to Momma Jacquie‘s inspiration to dream big and my mother's constant encouragement that I could do whatever I set my mind to do.  Despite having plenty of money, I shopped at yard sales and just love getting a deal.   One of those turning points came right about that time.  I'd taken to using those long cigarette holders, like you'd see in the 1950's movies, because the nicotine was turning my knuckles orange, and I didn't want anyone to know I smoked.  I'd gone to a yard sale and bought a brand new, white, fuzzy bath robe, that still had the tags on it for fifty cents.  I'd bleached my hair that night, but the old house that I'd recently bought out of foreclosure had a bad well, and was sputtering rusty water all over my hair as I tried to wash out the bleach.  Exhausted, I went to bed with wet hair and figured I'd assess the damage the next day.   The next morning I slipped on the new, floor length, white faux fur robe and stumbled to the bathroom. I was aghast to see that my hair was bright red from the rusty water that had colored the bleached out shafts. Needing my morning dose of nicotine, I lit a cigarette, fastened it into the long holder and walked out on the balcony that overlooked my back yard.  I was standing there, watching the birds and squirrels, wondering how I was going to fix this mess I'd made of my hair when the phone rang.   I could count on one hand the number of times Momma Jacquie ever called me.  Everyone always said I was her favorite, but we just weren't demonstrative that way.  No hugging, kissing or calling for no good reason.  When I answered the phone it was Momma Jacquie and she said, “I just woke up from the most realistic dream and I just had to tell you…”   “You were a movie star, with flaming red hair, and you were wearing a long, white fur coat, and smoking one of those long cigarettes, like they did on the silver screen, and you were holding court with all your fans from a balcony above them.  It seemed so real.  Isn't that just the oddest thing?”   This was before portable phones, so I spun around to see how she could possibly be watching me to make this prank call.  I quickly realized that she hadn't seen me in a physical sense, but in her dream had seen me in stunning detail.   This was a turning point because it reminded me of First Corinthians 13: 12 “For now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; but then shall I know, even as also I am known.”   This was one of those rips in the fabric of what we think we know, that illuminates who and what we really are.  The woman who had tried to convince me that the invisible people and animals that I could see and talk with weren't really there had just revealed that you don't have to believe something is possible to experience it.   I fessed up to every part of her vision (except the cigarette) but I don't know if she believed me. I hadn't begun learning about remote vision, lucid dreaming or other paranormal activities yet, so I couldn't explain how she could have seen me in such amazing detail from miles away.  I gave up smoking that year.  That moment did open up my mind to learning more about how the universe works.  The more I learn, the more amazed I am at our capacity and our Creator.   Those who have gone on before us may be obscured from our vision, like “in a mirror darkly,” but I think that is largely due to our self-limiting beliefs.  If there is anything I am sure of, it is that we are eternal; we are all connected, because we are all ONE.

To support this ministry financially, visit: https://www.oneplace.com/donate/172/29 There are times when we must shut out thenoiseswe’vegrownso accustomed to. Turn off theTV andput down your smartphone. Draw near to God in the silence, and you’ll find that what remains is the still, small voice of God.

Host James LottJr talks about the 80s Hit Soap Falcon Crest in relation to its ranking inthe US TV ratings! it was a Top 10 hit for 3 seasons and ranked higher than some of the other soaps but still didnt get the huge recognition. James explores why that may be!

Find your voice - Episode 5 - Look up by Ashley Nixon #5Tagline: “So you sort of look at the victories of the past, and you rely on them for victories in the future"https://arendeu.com/podcastFind your voice - Episode 5Ashley Nixon grew up with rage, that would spiral his life into turmoil. Drug abuse, prison, fighting both in and out of the ring, dealing with well known drug cartels and gangs he often found himself living a life destined for jail or death. Fortunately it was the former and through his time in prison, Ashley had a realisation towards a better life. His purpose almost became apparent and with hard work, the right mindset and devoting himself to a larger cause Ashley is now on his path to serving others and making a massive difference in the world.His genuine personality, of wanting to serve and now his love for himself having been accepted by the lord, as he puts it, has given him a new life. Born again, is how he describes it and shows that anyone, despite their past mistakes or actions can truly turn their life around.Follow it below:Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100010604051898#JustDeuIt & #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and I am the host of theshow so today's episode is one of hopeand one which really does capture yourimagination on what is possible thisindividual has been at rock bottom and Imean rock bottom where he's had thesupport he's had the community and he'shad the people around him to really tryand lift him up but it just wasn'tenough until something changed and I'mnot gonna tell you what that thing isbut I'm gonna let him explain it becauseI think this is such an important storyabout how we so often try and do thingsto please other people we try and fitinto places where we just know we don'tbelong and thankfully for not onlyhimself did he realize this but also forthe community he is now having such amassive positive impact on so I hopeyou're all having a fantastic day and Ihope this interview really does give yousome insight in terms of what's possibleand more importantly just give you asense of hope that people can changefirstly I'm gonna welcome back to theshow so how you doing today my friendyeah I'm doing good thank you yeahreally good thank you privilege to bethere so thank you well I'm verygrateful that you've taken time out yourday to come on so obviously you've heardthe introduction as listeners but Ithink it's more important we hear alittle bit more about Ashley himself andI've heard snapshots and highlightsabout how your world is transformedbasically since I last seen you in thegym so it's gonna be interesting for meas well as you guys is the listener soactually if you wouldn't mind if youcould just give us a run through alittle bit about your life from themoment you can remember basically upuntil where you are right now my rightokay yeahand it's looking back on your life andI'm 30 years old now so as you canimagine I've lived quite a bit for 30yearslisten try and give a bit of a snapshotof my life it's it's when you're readyto start so suppose looking back towhere we met we first met at the boxingclub leading up to that I'd been livingwith my family in Coventry they're agroup of Coventry we had my mom my manand a sister as well never really had adive growing up and then was about 10years old my mum met my now stepdad andbeing a 10 year old lad being the lifeof the family the man of the house andthen certainly having this new man inthe house it kind of I think from therethings began to disrupt in my house myworld was kind of turned upside down alittle bit and to add to that I supposewe moved them from Commons we'destablished when I was about 11 yearsold and so I'm moving to a new area theaccents were funny funny which is I'mreally but I'm sorry no new area Itrying to make new friendsangry and upset with my home situationand so as you can imagine I began tomeet with and get to know other kidsthat were like myself really just angryupset at the world and from there as youcan imagine paint up in school excitedto describe lessons and to get suspendedand get into fights him in there forlong smoking smoking cannabis regulagetting drunk on the weekendsoccasionally was ecstasy involved orcocaine and life for me quite early onin the years began to spiral really Idon't know what it was just one of thosekids that you know I weren't reallyscared of the police instead of schooland my family at home and we and upsetand trying to find a way to expressemotions I didn't quite understand andso through crime and getting intotrouble and I've been involved withyoung offenders and team stuff I andthey put me to trick all connections itwas back in the day connections withsomething that work with young kids totry and provide positive activities forthem so they sent me to the Lions BoxingClub and so that's how I found myself atthe box we talked when I was probablyabout 15 16 years old oh wow yeah yeahyes that's probably my first my hewasn't about that it was yeah my briefmemory of yourself was so I always hadthis thing in my head where I was at themost talented but I would always try andoutwork everyone in the gymand there's probably I'd say a handfulof people that I remember obviously youhad Connor who was like you know one ofthe best boxes in the gym there's a guygood friend of mine called Andy who usedto work really really hard on hisfitness and I remember yourself andthat's pretty much my only memory of youas somebody who when he came in hepretty much gave ease or so in terms oflike work ethic and stuff I fullyunderstand that I just want to quicklytouch on something though that youmentioned that you when you were growingup and you were angry and upset with theworld and stuff was that solely becauseyou had no father growing up or yeah hisighs beautiful thing in it and thenlook looking back I I try now to try andwork out and organize and think what itwas but the time it's hard when you'rein the middle of something and yourlife's a mess in these turmoil sometimesit's hard to put your finger on what itwas I suppose looking back it was diyosI was a little kid in Coventry and I wasten years old had my first girlfriendand things were going while I played forthe football team in my primary schooland then my mom meets my stepdad thisman's in my house and we move so youknow an hour away from my home having tomake new friends and I didn't want thatand I suppose it was just rebellionagainst that really I mean looking backnow I recognize my mom you know she hadme at a very young age and she gave upher youth to be my mom and she had ashot at being happy you know and Iwasn't happy about us being selfish andsuppose there's been a kid notunderstanding the world around you'resuppose absolutely absolutely and Ithink you touched on the point therehindsight's a wonderful thing wesometimes even myself I mean I was neverinvolved with the police or anything butthis stuff I did as a kid or at schooland you cringe when you think back andthink yeah I was are that guy but Isuppose we all know lessons from it andthat's kind of what I'm trying to getfrom this podcast and fun this interviewwith yourself so you've touched onbriefly obviously you got into boxingthen so how did that kind of transformyour life because I know that had amassive impact yeah so this is this isthe first time boxing and so there'sanother second occasion which is afterthis occasion I was there for a whileand it provided that stability and itprovided routine provided disciplinethat sort of thing and I remember thethe Rob this went back when I was a kidsball Marines came in and they didn'tlike a little demonstration in theboxing club and that was me so I thoughtthe rule means I'm gonna become asoldier and I went to the the careersoffice and I told him look I want to bea soldier I want to come and serve andthey asked me about my criminal recordand they basically said look paveyourself a couple years and we'll acceptthat so I tried my best to behave asI've always been a Jacqueline so it'smore a case of not getting caughtexcept for couple years continue to boxcontinue to get fit get healthy and wentdown to limp stone in Devon I've done afour-day selection course for the wrongreasons and which I passed that and alsosets means of the wrong reasons and thenI go into a phone a pub and I've donefor a BH I'd leave that witnessintimidation and as you can imagine thatwas the wrong Marines was my way out myway out of the brokenness my way out ofthe mess it was my way of trying to fixmyself and blooby only stay after thatthe door closed and my life justspiraled from there and things got realbut from then on I went back to the onlything that I really knew other than thatand that was selling drugs so from a kidfrom a young age or worked out you knowthe best way to fund any drug habit thatI'd have would be to sell drugs myselfand along with all the states that cometo that all of the reputation the moneyand the people thinking you're the big Iam and I really started a little kids Iwas an idiot and more Pitt and I've gotcaught up in a world that was massiveway bigger than myself and so that waslike 19 I think that was I startedspiraling and really spiraling in thatcontrol and over the next four years 19to the age of sort of 23 involve wrigleyinvolved in drug dealing and gang lifethat sort of thing I got noticed by someproper thugs like some proper likeorganized crime and I start selling forthese guys and these guys were likeI mean we were selling to likestreet-level lads and then we send tothose that are selling to them on thestreets but occasionally buying from thelocals like the Albanian mafia andselling the house a like it sounds crazywe've seen out loud sometimes I mean Isometimes I get to show this he's notsaying it sometimes I share this throughit sounds like something you see almoston a netflix program like narcos or itmight sound like that but i'll be honestlike this sort of thing happensthroughout the country you know I meanevery town every neighborhood everycouncil estatehave somebody who's involved in thiskind of a lifestyle it's they I'm sureas you know yourself maybe this kind ofthings it's widespread throughout thiscountry and I got caught up in it youknow I'm 1920 from a life away and I canown money really quickly and I'm goingto house parties and people know who Iam and about reputation and peoplerespect me and I'll be honest - they'rescared little kid if a woman's justtrying to vent that anger thatfrustration and finding drugs to maskproblems and issues and it may is just amess man absolute mess but yeah Isuppose you can imagine from that andended up in prison eventually which wasabsolutely the best place for me exactlywhere I belong and looking back nowprison mate was the best thing that everhappened to me just to touch on that soI've previously worked in a prison forabout six months it was part of mysocial work I was doing a master's atthe time and when I went there it wasone of the scariest places I've everbeen personally so I am afraid of thepolice I am afraid of like silly thingsbut when I was there you've seen how howlittle these people have interactionwith their kids or with you know thecommunity will be able to just do stuffI mean you were getting that one hourfreedom a day where they're allowed towalk in like the park kind of area theyhad and I was looking at that and I usedto go work there so obviously I'm therefrom like 9:00 to 5:00 in a I'm so happyto get back home and I used to alwayssay I just come home to the missus and Iwas like because I've had a couple ofscraps here and there and sometimesyou've hit someone the wrong way andthey're falling down and they're notgetting up and you kind of panic and youthink shit this could go in thatabsolutely different way and I literallysat back and I think having experiencedthat from the outside for six months itwas it was eye-opening for me to makesure that I never ever used my hands orgot into an altercation in the wrong wayso if you wouldn't mind like just forthem at listeners here because I thinkit'd be quite interesting a day in thelife of being someone as sort of aprisoner and how long would youtherefore as well yeah okay so I was Iwas quite fortunate and being involvedin the life that was involved you knowand regularly carried firearms and thatwe've you know tens of thousands ofpounds of cocaine transporting it in mycar I could have been given you knowseven ten fifteen you know however manyyearsbut in the end that abh thousand I gotthem for I got given a suspendedsentence at the end of the spin is insmessed up again got given communityorder or whatever it was basically likemy old sentence was just hanging over myhead because I never managed to behavelong enough for it to disappear and inthe end I got caught with about two orthree grams of cocaine which isbasically enough for personal amountthat basically invoked the suspendedsentence and I was given 6 months and 14days so I was well you say six months islike for me I mean I'm not like I coulddo a weekend in there oh yeah I thinkprison ultimately I mean as long asyou're willing to go there behaveyourself get your head down you're gonnabe okay but the reason you're in thereis because that's not something that youdo too easilyabsolutely for this occasion a tourismthe game and so you're okay and thenbeing allowed that's always trying toprove himself always trying to you knowpresent this person you know long okayI've got it together okay and so I findmyself in this prison and in prison is acurrency which is like tobacco andtobacco you're buying drugs you buy ashoe by that and it's the only addictionthat you're allowed and so people cravethe nicotine in animes in prison if youwant to borrow some tobacco from saylike the loan sharks in there they'llgive you however big the pouch is oneweek the next week they want to put theamount back my Gran's this prisonand I thought you know I'm gonna startborrowing tobacco because I wanna smokeaside borrowing some I didn't reallythink about the repayments at all theguy that was borrowed from was only ascrawny looking lad so I didn't reallyfeel too much about it he came on to meone day said Let Me In and pay me backwhat you owe me I basically told him Itold him where to go something on me I'ma painter which is you can imagine was apretty stupid idea and I didn't dobecause I was a tough guy no I don'tknow I wouldn't tell anybody I was a bighard man you know me big toughness justmore pickup in this crazy world but thisguy anyway he goes down and he says manI'm gonna go get my clothes my foot yeahwhatever jog on like you went to go getithis cousin was huge meimagine a massive Commodore basicallycorridors on the sideI mean there's a little central bit andthen another block on either side sortof things so kind of what you see on theTV rooms so I'm on the fifth floor thefifth I'm in the top floor and I'm justHank like basically my hands on therailings just looking over and then thisbig huge guy comes around the corner andhe goes right if that can't be iscausing this guy was huge and so I we'renew in prison if you guys didn't have astrap normally go into a pad one of theprison ward like the cells in thatyou'll have it off of a strap and twoguys will stand outside and keep tryingtill the guards come sort of thing asyou can imagine that's a prettyintimidating prospect when a guy thatthis guy was hugebut he came towards me anyway and sortof like he put himself in the browser aswell and I don't know if used for theproven point to the rest of the windbecause he ended up being the biggestloan shark on the wind load and he's puthis arms over the side I'm over to signhis turn and he goes what are you gonnapay me back and as I turned to talk tohim he just hit me at the side of thehead as hard as he couldI've sort of staggered back I ended uphaving local marks on the side made fourto three weeks because he's doing it onthe landing on the wing the securityguards nearby and so we strapped inflashing 30-second twenty seconds whenAllah and screwy guys jumped on himpinned him to the floor I've turned todecide the scrawny cousins had a go atme then as well and so I won't have anyscraps on the land and the securityguards got involved and and throughbasically the street lighting involvedwas the last one standing but as you canimagine again reputation starts good forthe roof people saying he is not a liaryou know I'm not paying attention to thesystem playing by the prison's ruleslike I said me I was in Indiawhoopee and I got myself into all kindsof trouble but um see ya these guysended up there getting removed off theprison wing moves to another part topresent and tobacco size tutorialbecause that last the ones who weresupplying tobacco they put a price on myhead so that if anyone gave me a hickeyand or a beam or whatever or you knowyou're in prison with a price on you andit's mostly you know stabbed a stickerand so this is the position I foundmyself in all over the game makingthings absolutely the worst I possiblycould for myself really I want to say Iadmire your honesty for for coming upand and sharing this story and I thinkwhat we need to take away from isprobably the most important bits is thatwhile you were doing all this and I'veseen you you're a big lad you yourstrong lad but you just mentioned acouple of things there where you've saidthat you were scared and you know youhad a mask on and you were you were kindof you almost trying to be somebody thatyou maybe you weren't deep down I'm notsure I'm not sure if that's the rightwords but I just feel like you've shownsome vulnerability there and I thinkthere's probably a lot of kids and I'vegot I've got a couple of extended familymembers or friends who are doing similarthings to yourself and it and it's itworries me because I'm always trying totell them but like whose reputation areyou really trying to get and what isthis reputation that you want to beknown for and I want to kind of justspin this a little bit because I don'twant people just thinking that you'reright they're just crap over the worldand going absolutely crazy because thereis light at the end of the tunnel withyour story which is why I find it sofascinating I know recently you've had amassive transformation in your life andI I can tell from your intelligence thatone you realize that you wereaccountable for everything you've takenresponsibility you've accepted that yeahit was your fault so if you wouldn'tmind just just for the listeners as welljust kind of how your life started totransform or what measures you took yeahokay so I think from what you've heardfrom my story already there's a coupleof times I've tried to sort myself outboxing was one and which in the endbecame so incredible at the time I thinktoo young and too stupid to take theopportunity given to me the secondHolmes the rule means trying to solve aself out through the wrong reasonsmany times I've tried and I knew my lifewas a mess I knew I needed help and youI needed a way out but I think with theanger and the frustration and I'll be onlet things go I was trapped you know asI was trapped you know I think I was inprison within my own mind long beforeeverything prison itself and so I thinkpersonally I was at a point of not beingable to help myself at all it's funnybecause I this apart the storyline Ilove this part of story it's not alwaysa part the story that people can alwaystruly grasp time in this prison mylife's in danger there's a price on myhead I'm looking over my shoulderconstantly waiting to get a kick in andit is at this point another prisoner whowas who was in the cell opposite me hecame to me he said may I I think youneed God and then one thing he got inyour life and I for me you want totaking the mick yeah and I'm in prisonmy life's in danger I need you knowbaseball bat or a couple of mates Idon't know and you know that's crazy butI think it's something at that point Idon't know if she's been triggering mesomething caught my attention I don'tknow what it was but a couple of dayslater I'm walking down a prison wing inthe corridor and there's a sign-up sheeton the wall for chapel and I see thisfunctional chapel and and somethingabout it just it just caught myattention it's all about it he just drewme towards it I was like okay what'sthis all aboutI looked at it and I read this timemachine afore it's not for me and I meanI'm not interested I don't care whatthis guy's saying about God I don't wantto know I don't care and I went to walkaway and something is showing me it'sthe strangest thing about it just feltlike there's something tugging at mesomething within was just pulling at meand I look back now and I've got wordsto try and describe what was going on itwas just crazyit was like it was weird it was crazy soit was pulling me towards this song shedoes something more about it than what Iread about it yeah in the end of I'vesort of gone back and as I'm going backtowards it there's like a sense ofexcitement growing I mean almost like asense of adrenalin groaning me know Iwas training some crazy drugs in thisworld but what was going on at thatmoment was it was surreal it's weird andso I thought you know what can I loselet's go and check out what thischappals all about and so I signed up myname and basically what this feat wasabout is if you sign up my name on aSunday a prison guard will come to youso they'd release you from prison theytake you to Chapel I thought okay coolI'll get myself out there so let's goI sign my name a million and the momentI found my name of a centerpiece itmeans I'd never experienced before in mylife well you know I was here I was inprison I was a broken-down scumbag andexactly what I deservedmy life was in danger and if I got me akicked in and I said oh I deserve buthere I was feeling peace feeling asthough there's more to life than whatcurrently experienced more than anypeople as well and that was crazy me totry and for me to look back and likesometimes I catch myself saying now it'stelling this storyabsolutely crazy really yeah I think Ithink this is such a fascinating storybecause it's literally from one extremeto the complete opposite end of thespectrum it's not like you've made amistake you made it the second time andthen you you've kind of sorted yourselfat through whatever means it is you'veliterally I mean I'm listening to thatstory initially and if I didn't know youand say for instance you had alreadytold me half the story I would be likeokay there's no hope for this guy and Isay that because like I said I knowpeople who are who have had a similarlife and I've tried my best to help thempersonally and I tried to kind of changetheir circle of friends their influencetry and change their mindset make themread more do more and sometimes I'll behonest I feel helpless but what you'vejust given me there which you may notrealize is you've given me a sense ofhope that actually ok might not be Godbut there there is a way that we can tapinto people say for instance likeyourself and I'm I'm using your wordshere I'm not calling you this by the wayper say Prince is somebody exactly likea scumbag for example I really sort oftransform their lives so oh yeah that ispowerful powerful stuff so yeah so youstarted you started in prison in termsof so you go to this chapel and then howdid that kind of accelerate afterwardsyeah yeah so I mean I'm in prison andlearned the chapel week-in week-out andI'm trying to study this bad persontrying to get more groups the Bible andstuff like that and hearing about a Godwho who loves me and God he wants thevery best for me a God of second chancesa god of redemption a lot of forgivenessand these are all the things I knew thatI needed so desperately and I remembergoing back to my son and tried my firstever prayer and I'm sort of saying Godyou know if you're out there and you arewho these people say well look I needhelp and I really really need to knowplease how many way the week's all go byI'm coming towards a moment where I likethe opposite gangs in honor these ladsare involved with these little guys okayhere comes to kicking I'm waiting for analarm would go off or a cigar would justturn on the corner you know I mean andlike almost like you leave coincidencesyeah yeah looking at them on the surfacelike this just a coincidence you knowthe main burner like it felt like I wasprotecting me I felt renewed it's nothope was there like I had hope you knownever excusedlike tomorrow's gonna be okay it's gonnabe all right you know me like no matterhow dark and how broken how messed up mysituation was you know what there is away out and things can change and it'sbeautiful me just having that hope justit stirs you online I love that I lovethat message and that's kind of amessage I always try and preach myselves and it's actually something thatkeV it's fantastic and he talks aboutbelief and whether you believe in God orwhether you believe in anything like healways says worst case just believe inyourself because we all need thatotherwise we're lost and I suppose youyou were I think it's fair to say youwere lost for so long and oh yeah youfound your calling and I think that'sfantastic mate it's one it's nice tohear that your life had turned aroundfrom that yes I imagined that youropinion of yourself changed so ratherthan see yourself as this scumbag forexample will keep just using that wordyes how did you start seeing yourselfhow would you explain yourself you okayI'd love to say that instantly BAM mychange completely yes does this newsense of hope there was this sense ofper person of death meaning that my lifehad value and meaning you know I mean itwasn't just some random mess that wasdoomed to fall apart with her but likeprisoners to flying yes I've got thisBible in my hands now I'm trying tolearn to pray but then I'm back in myown neighborhood of I tackle my uncleand my old gang mates who are only myold influences are they're my oldreputation goes before mold you knowknow made all this temptations around melooking I remember the first night comeout of prison you know this Bible in meunder mana going back home and we makecomes running and I'm sniffing coke withhim and I'm wondering why I can't sleepat night you know my doings myself and Ithink the 10-month period be kind ofjust completely wrestling between theidentity that I used to haveand this new identity that I'veexperienced and wanted so much more uhand so does this season of uh you knowat growl bit on the weekend and I'll getinto fights and I've got my jaw brokenbetween I throw my prison before Istarted boxing just a flat-out into afight go out and take drugs then comehome and read my Bible and pray andbelieve in this God that was gonna saveme and set me free it was just a weirdseason of things happening but in thisperiod again like I spoke aboutcoincidences in the prison I believecoincidences we had to start takingplace outside of prison as well so thegang that I was involved in and I said Iwas on tag so I had to be in by sevenfucking line eight o'clock at nightthere was caught in the drugs bust rightat one point four million pounds of drugbust and they're caught with like largeamounts of cocaine large amounts of cashshotguns and literally a big bust it wasacross the news everywhere so they wereremoved from the streets I found out mybest friend was Steven my girlfriend wasin prison so they all removed from mylife and through another series ofcomplete coincidences I was leftisolated and all alone and with nothingmore than the Bible and trying to learnto pray and I believe God removed thebaggage from my life and the brokennessfor my life to really be able to work onmyself and so for me when when you readsome of the things in the bite the biobassoonist stuff the bio says about it'sbeautiful like it's beautifully likesays that every hair that's on your headis numbered God knows you that well andthat intimately in you are of thatimportance and that value in your hairis numb but you don't mean like stufflike it's beautiful and she decided toread this stuff and he starts to tospeak value into your life I think oneof the most powerful things that thatcan happen with things like depressionyou'll have these thoughts that go overand over and over in your head and theycompletely compoundingthe ideas so if you think that you'renothing any worthless and you'rethinking that constantly every singleday you're gonna think you're worthlessand nothing I know it's gonna spiral oras if someone starts to speak words arepositive words are encouragingI think words and words that we believeand the things that we believe aboutourselves are so powerful you've tookthe words right out of my mouth and Iwas gonna say this literally I was gonnasay this later on because how you speakto yourself will determine your life inyour story and your level of happinessmassively in terms of so even myselfI've gone through like anxiety and allthat sort of stuff in my life and interms of like my business for example ifjust use it as an example it's gone muchbetter in the last six months than itwas previously but because my state ofmind and my self-worth and love andeverything was always at its best Isuppose I've always managed to be happyin the moment and happy in the now soirrespective of whether I have morezeros in the end of my bank account atthe end of the day or I have a fanciercar outside on my driveway my level ofhappiness doesn't really change becauseit's an inside job and I think peopleare always trying to personal thingsmaterialistic things whereby they'retrying to get some sort of validationfrom the public or external factors butwhat you really need to do is lookwithin yourselves and until you canstart loving yourself and start lookingafter yourself so how you look afteryourself in the gym or with your dietyou need to look after yourself withyour thoughts so you know massively Iappreciate you saying that mate becauseI'm you did take the words out my mouthI was saving that for later it'simportant we live in a world now whichis so media driven Facebook we've goteverything there are fingertips but themessage of the world is saying to us isyou're not good enough unless you havethis have something to sell they've gota product to get rid off so they canconvince you that you're not good enoughwithout their product that's whatthey're gonna do and if we've seen thesemessages day in and day outno wonder the half of all things were nogood with nothing we're worthlessbecause that's what the world is tellingus that's so powerful it's horrible me Imean it makes people feel inferior and Ithink one of the things I've alwaystried to do so I used to be personaltraining previously a long time ago andI see a lot of personal trainers orthey're not even personal trainers itpeople on Instagram who you've got sixpacks for example and what they're doingis those they'll sell this kind ofcourse or they'll just keep constantlyshowing forwards of their abs and then Iwas getting a lot of people come in withinsecurities because I happens is you goon Instagram everyone's live in theirbest life everyone's got a careveryone's going on holiday a month theyread it to all friends in the middle ofthe night and they doing all this crazystuff and I'm thinking you saying thetruth another reason for this podcast isto give people the the cold hard truththat you're gonna have shit days youknow you're gonna you're gonna have gooddays but it's about trying to work onyour mindset trying to understand thepeople out there like like yourselveswho are going through this as well butthey're coming out on the other sidebasically and they're coming out with itwhether it's theconnection to God or whether it's theirdaily habits or the way they theenvironment we're in in the words for meI find that in the Bible I found that inmy relations with God I find out how hewas guiding me and leading me but thenat the same time then another powerfulpart was the boxing club hmm so I knew Ineeded a good community around me Ineeded friends I needed help you knowand for me as much as I've experiencedGod and his power in prison as much as Iwas now reading the Bible and prayingthe idea of going to church was wasforeign you know me but I rememberedfrom when I was a kid that I had a placewhere I was welcomed I had a place whereI was loved I had a place where I wasaccepted that was my boxing club so Iremember rather sheepishly driving backto my boxing club knowing I left therebecause I've got caught up in drugs andstuff knowing that I'd probably let themall down and wondering how they treat mewant to come back and I member pullingup in there in the carpark in there andthen so keV came out for the doors likeI lost one even recognized me and hesaid come in man we went in and like helet one of the other coaches carry onwith the class and stuff and went up andsign the classrooms upstairsit just checked me like you just heardmy story heard how old my life'sreturning to you know complete hustleyeah yeah except me like and you knowhe's not Christian himself but thevalues that he betrays their godly madethe beautiful and I mean the guy'sincredible May he was my first episodeand the reason he was my first episodeis because the world needs more of keVDylan and I don't think because he'snature and his job and stuff he's notaware of the whole selling himself formarketing himself and I'm kind of I wantto be his advocate because I just feelthat if people spend mine with himmay I mentioned on the podcast the bestyears of my life was when keV wastraining me on a one-to-one basis Iloved him I loved spending time with himI'm similar to keV I'm not a religiousperson but we share the same values andethics and I feel that whatever you findyour power through or your level of Hopethrough hold that tight I've never letgo because that's gonna that's gonna getyou through this world because and justhis way of thinking I mean he could sitthere and feel sorry for himself all thetime or he could judge youthere and I think it takes a big manlike yourself to come out and think okayI've let these people down many timesbefore can I step back in the reason soFairplay for dropping your ego therebecause I think that's another thing hehas we have a big sense of ego growingup yeah and if you can if you can getrid of the ego within yourself I justthink you live a much more fulfillinglifeno absolutely it's a blessing stillbeing a mop it still reading this Bibleand praying and still had these crazyexperiences may his cradles just in acrazy time but I start with the box in abox it becomes a place of stabilitybecomes a place of discipline and aplace where I'm accepted and then let meeven given the privilege of now to coachas well and I'm like somebody's puttingvalue in tomorrow if you see somethingit mean it's calling the help from me aswe've gotten more relation with God thesame things happening and I ended upthen going back to church I start goingto church I'll be honest because a girlinvited me and so I find myself inchurch against trying to buy anothercommunity of people that just love meand accept me for who I amand and then I heard the Gospel messagewhich is the central message ofChristianity that God loves you nomatter what you've done he wants toforgive you for no matter how muchbrokenness and how much pain you'vebrought into this world and wants togive you a second chance and so I sortof accepted that message and I believethrough the boxing and the community hadtheir through the valley the cave wasgiven me through the Bible through myexperience of God something in me justboldly changed and I had a new sense ofwho I was as a person and for me I wasstill taking drugs I never had anytroops counseling no referral workers nodrug dependency no no help or medicationjust gonna show us how we can justsaying this is one going to live for thenext week drugs just went has noaddiction as new need for it there'slike the void that was being filled withthe drugs or the void that has beenfilled with white say was darkness whichis full of light no best hope and it wasjust boom I'm free and you made justthat I just want to touch time thatsorry just before you carry on you makewhat you did there you made a decisionwhen you make a decision like you justmade there with convictionin the church saying listen you knowwhat this is me now this is my newidentity this is the new actually mixinI am no longer that person you've kindof ridding yourself of that past it'sjust powerful mate and I just want toelaborate on that thank you thank youyeah there's a beautiful passage in thebio leases and you must be born again soyou must have your whole life completedand he's set free from stuff so for meI've always wanted to be free the drugsI always knew it was wrong but there'slike something that just held me in itlike I don't know ever just like I saiddidn't have the conviction didn't havinga beliefdidn't have the sense of shrimp to getmyself out but now that moment standingin my church and I message your footmight not believe this is really trueit's almost as if BAM was born again youknow no man all right I felt likesomething just changed like it's crazy Ilove it's a massive change fromobviously where you fit first where wejust touch on that now so you you'reborn again it's your day like now thenbecause I'm hoping and I've got my handscrossed here that you're not on thestreets at any stage selling anythingdoing anything god you made so what'syour kind of like daily routine thatyou're doing that God the drumsdisappeared on peon they don't say onlyonly like you and you're kind of dante'syou're you're downplaying theachievements listen my biggest claim tofame was keV was gonna select me fornovice Nationals and I'd only had onefight previous to that and I took aninjury outside which is a story foranother day but I was so proud of thatbecause I know how hard it is to trainmate so fantastic mate well done forthat so thank you yeah so yeah I've donethe Box in than that and then I wascoaching the club and you know you justshrimp dish shrimp and then I've I wentto my church I was doing like aninternship at the same time trying toget my head into what the hell is thiscrazy Christian world all about why isthe truth a bit as opposed to the theChristianity of this portrayed in themedia what's the real story behind allthen my church said look we want to fundyou and pay for you to go to BibleCollege which is basically University soI went to university degree in thepriorities in church leadershipshe's the first class on this as wellrelations lady who's been in prisonhe's quite yeah massive massiveturnaround I love that from their churchso about six hundred churches in Britainand about three thousand around theworld as well they want to they'verecognized that my life changed Irecognized that there's something of Godin me and something's going on in mylife so they've probably now on to atraining program which is for the nextthree years become an ordained reverenta minister so I'm currently training tobecome a minister and church matebelieve or not may you're giving megoosebumps I contact you see you rightnowI promise you the hairs of light raisedOmaha from drugs to a degree to nowyou're going to be spreading the messageof what you believe in the future and Ibless my little boy and be there for himin an amazing life radically changed meI love the privilege that I have toshare this story because every time Ishare it I'm a I'm so grateful as wellmyself to be able to sit here and speakwith you as well whether honestly thisis this is fantastic and this is this iswhat it's all about spreading this kindof message as well your son's very luckybecause sometimes I feel in a wayyou have an advantage over other peoplebecause you've been you've been in thedark side mate you've been rock bottomand use this in it and you're not you'renot reading a book about somebody who'sbeen on the dark side and then trying tofabricate a story you've lived it youknow not on the other side and it givespeople hope and like likely touched onearlier hope is like one of the mostimportant things in the world cuz ifyou've nothing to hope for and nothingto wish for then life kind of becomesmeaningless you know a powerful man I'mreally happy for you you give megoosebumps mate it's the first timewe've really so I'm looking forward toobviously keeping this friendship goingin the future as well and whenever youdown at the gym is are trying to stuffmy boxing gloves on I love it okay soI'm gonna just switch it a little bitnow and I was gonna ask him at adversitybut I think pretty much hit like so manyaspects of your life in terms ofadversity but if I just put you on thespot a little bit here now for thelisteners he has an only chance to kindof prepare himself for this so let'sjust point to him but I'm sure you'lland you'll on the right answer me interms of adversity so now you've beenborn again and things are going well foryou you've got hmm I mean new missusyou're with your son now you're spendingtime with him things are going well foryou you've got your degree in everythingif let's just say now in the last coupleof months or the last year could youthink of a time where you've hadadversity again but knowing what youknow now and obviously finding the lighthow do you handle it now because I thinkit's really important for people torealize that life can still try andthrow you a curveball and then it's howyou react to it so just give you a bitof a back to do something I'm marriednow and my wife is an incredible womanyou know sometimes I think there must bea god because she's great obviously likeme my wife both came from Bergerbackgrounds she's also got quite a storyof hope and transformation zone andbhavish thing you come from a brokenback ground and that baggage doesn'tjust go away you know I mean they're allmindsets yes I'm a Christian now yes ibelieve in christian principles andmorals but still I'm on a journey untilI see journey and you don't just changejust is it a change that happens overand so the Christian Way obviously wedon't obviously try not to have sexbefore marriage and that's probably oneof the big Christian teachings and stuffI know the sex is a sacred thing savedfor marriage and which for me was veryforeign to the way I used to think andso obviously my wife struggled with thata little bit anyway but we decided thatwe was gonna wait until he's married andwe believe highly in the sanctity ofmarriage the marriage is an incrediblething that it should be entered intolightly and as opposed to our culturetoday is that if something's not workingif you had to throw it away start againand we're in a consumeristic culture soonce you've used something you justthrow it away if something's not workingproperly anymore you get rid of it get anew one and I think sometimes that kindof mentality especially in the 21stcentury carries forward into ourrelationships and so we're not always Idon't think you got to work on arelationship it starts to go wrong wejust think let's chop her out let's geta new model sort of thing and so for aChristian to not have the whole sectorfor marriage and then to get married andto believe that we're married in theeyes of God that we've been broughttogether because you know God wants thevery best for us and you have our veryhigh expectation of marriage and a highview of marriage but as you can imaginesee people that don't live together andthen they start to live together itcauses frictionyeah any two people coming together anytwo people with two different lifestyles and different ways of livingfriction and so I don't know if we hadan idealistic view of what life would belike I think for me I'm away from thefirst years of our marriage I supposewe've struggled a little bit just withthe whole being different people comingfrom broken backgrounds differentexpectations and stuff I did thebeautiful thing of having such a highview on the moment was that rather thanme thinking I'm gonna chop her and get anew one it was like I'm gonna dig inI've been through brokenness before I'vebeen through darkness before I've seenhow bad life from get you ain't gonnaget that bad again and I'm gonna pressthrough and say you saw look at thevictories from the past and you sort ofrely on them for victories in the futureand so me my wife worked out ourdifferences in just a flatironwe're stronger now and more in love nowthan we'd ever be if we hadn't have gonethrough what we went through I'll behonest mate sometimes you come humblywere going on that woman she doesmulatto it and I'm sure if she was inthis room she'd say exactly the samething about me but I love it to bits manand I thinkwithout going through what we wentthrough we won't have what we have nowand suppose yeah I loved that mayor Ithink it's remembering past victories tobelieve that they'll be presentvictories written victories of the pastas a sword not because I want toelaborate on that in a second but justbefore that you were making me smallwhile you were saying that and I waskind of so I put my vulnerability hereI'm a very emotional person so I kind ofget emotional when I hear stuff let upbecause the way I view my wife and mymarriage is the same as you it's it's avery very important thing for me I was abit of a dad back at Union I always madea promise at the moment I get married Iwill do everything in my power to be thebest man that I can be and I so oftensee people who maybe stray or just dojust do things that I don't necessarilyagree with so for me at man-to-manhearing somebody who has that sense oflove and the way you look at your wifemay I hold my heart of team because it'simportant because behind every monthgood man there's a good woman and I'mdoing the stuff that I am fortunate todo now I mean as we speak now and werecord this my wife's at work bless herand my aim is to get her out of workvery soon but if I couldn't have done alot of the stuff I've done in my life ifit wasn't for my wife and I'm verygrateful I love just hearing yourtransformation because although you weredoing all those things in the past thisperson this genuinely amazing person wasalways in there and I'm just glad thatyou managed to find it just to touch onthe victories of the past so what I findthat so powerful was because there's aguy called David Goggins I'm not sure ifyou follow him but he's somebody who Ifollow quite quite a lot religiouslybasically but he mentioned somethingcalled a cookie jar and what he does isall of these he calls it like a jar offuck what he does is every time he'sbeen through shit in his life he puts itinto this imaginary jar of fuck rightand he calls it like the cookie jar andthen what happens is when he's facedwith adversity in life he thinks back tothat Johnny's at hold on a minute I'mthat same guy who's been through all ofthis and I can get visit and goingthrough now and I think you've you'vedone it in your own way you've said thevictories of the past will help yousecure victories of the future which ithink is just as powerful lesson so mayit's fantastic that I mean you don'teven argue there guys and yet you'repreaching the same stuff as this guywho's in millions which is why I sayeveryone's story matters because yourstory matters and it's gonna it's gonnainspire lots of people sothat's fantastic man I wish you and yourwife all the best it'd be great to gether on the show as well which means I'mvery interested yeah I'm sure she wouldbe yeah yeah yeah definitely I'll put itto anywhere she says definitely meyeah she's got great story I love itmate I'm just gonna switch gears againI'm just conscious obviously I'm therunning time as well so where you arecurrently now in your life and I knowyou from like a physical aspect in termsof like your boxing and stuff and beingon the streets you're not really afraidof much or at least it doesn't seem likeyou're afraidbut let me ask you the question right inthis moment right now what is yourbiggest fear hmm okayI mean so fear is also a vulnerablething because we put high value one onfaith I suppose the ante that would befearing it so the opposite of faith isfear so fear for me would be that I'vebeen giving this incredibly beautifullife and I make an absolute mess of it Idon't use every single day to do all Ican to give back to the garden and tothe communities that have built so muchinto me so my fear would be that I mightjust make a mess of things you know Ilove thatso it's a great message and I'mconfident knowing where you are now Iwouldn't have been confident secure togo up I'm confident that you'll do thatmate and you've got a good communityaround you you've got mutual friends andafter this you know I consider you afriend and if you ever need any helpfrom me by all these new reach I am morethan happy to sort it on my hand so onthe basis of that and obviously now youfound your calling and you just touchthat you want to make an impact or justdo the best you can basically would yousay that's your main motivation orinspiration that kind of keeps you keepsyou going every morning or isn'tanything else other than your wife yeahyeah there's a couple of things Isuppose I suppose having a fear issomething to kind of drag you down or itcan propel you forward yeah so like fearis faithful it's believed in theopposite to the lies that we sauce andtell ourselves and for me a great sourceof hope for the future and a drive is isreading the Bible the Word of God andthere's some things in there may youread anything in there for 2,000 yearsnow and like so there's a passion systemall things work together for good forthe good of those who love God andthat's like everyone's thought I've seenpeople with tattoos if it sayseverything happens for a reason it'ssomething that was written in the Bible2,000 years ago some of the stuff that'swritten in there about you know she'smight be transformed by the renewal ofyour mind think on things are abovethink on things that are holy and goodand pure and just training your mind tothink positively to think the best of anegative situation is so powerful so andso yes but for me like in the morningjust haven't you know 20 minutes half anhour an hour even just reading thatcrazy book that inspires you knowbillions of people the world around itthat's a real motivator for me and thenthere's those moments where you seesomeone else they get it and the lightcomes on absolutely and I'm in you can II now work from a Christian company wework with kids that care system okay Imean you think my life's but these kidsmight day something like child sexualexploitation backgrounds and severe drugabuses from young age all kinds ofdomestic abuse and violence and stufflike kids that have been rejected bytheir families and their parents theirloan Society and they come through thesystem and it's basically teaching themat the one end to tidy a bedroom and tocook and clean and the other end tofunction in society and to see them justtake little steps it's beautiful and tobe involved in that kind of a processit's it's beautiful to do that sort ofthing is great it's goodyeah the motivator ultimately it'sliving not for yourself or for othersthere's a great power in buying intoyourself and when you know you no longerneed to let society think your yourwritten you've got it and you don't needto prove you accept yourself then youcan live for others and that's beautifulme Wow it is may may be may beabsolutely and you know I don't discountanything but I just worked so whatreally hit me there was a you might notknow this but I've got siblings who havebeen in the foster care so three mysiblings are whiteJosh Coyle and Kelsey and they camethrough the foster care system but thenwe went through guardianship so theybasicallythe family and my younger sister Illyais adopted as well so that was one ofthe reasons where why I personally wentinto social it because I want you to bethe best damn social worker in the worldand change the world because the life wehave made is a million times better thanthe life these kids have had in killyeah and for you to be doing such agreat thing now I'm just I'm so gratefulthat one you found like however youfound it but two you're also giving backbecause you're gonna be a massivepositive influence on these dude I loveit mate we've got a lot more in commonthan I thought other than boxing yeahwhat thing is I went into social work tocut a long story short because I was thebreaking as a project manager in LondonI was only more money than I knew whatto do it but there comes a time whereyou need something more than money toget you out of bed in the morning and itwas always I just want to help peopleand I send my siblings go through somuch shit that I was like I'm gonnachange the world but then when I gotinto social is the one thing that let medown was there's so much bureaucracythat you can't really change it thatmuch so what I've done is thought okaylet me use my presence and my brand andmy marketing and influences and let'stry and change the worldholistic Lee so reaching out to peoplelike you you've got a community reachingout to community centres and I'm tryingto make an impact where nobody say to meoh you've got a gold do some paperwork9205 I'm I'm doing this on my own and Iwant to kind of change the world as keyshares that sounds my own way but Ican't do it by myself which is why Ineed people like yourselves and othersto share this you'll really get togetherso I love it mate and just on that notethe buzzer has gone off so this is thepart of the show where we getinterrupted we change the script wechange the pattern and we're just goingto go into a quick five 60 secondsQ&A if you're ready yeah sounds good inthree two oneokay buddy the ability to fly or beinvisible or invisible for money or fame[Music]Netflix on YouTube YouTube Coke or Pepsioh would you rather know how you willdie or when you were dying when love ormoney love summer or winter summer yourfavorite place in the whole wideright here and right now love itwould you rather speak all of the actlanguages in the world will be able tospeak to animals all the languages ifyou could abolish one thing in the worldwhat would it be darkness your favoritesong ever oh man Christmas is aChristian song called how great howgreat is our God not for me volumes readminds or predict the future predict thefuture okay okay but time is up so soyou work with money didn't you at theend rather than fame the money or fame Ithink I went from money in the endbecause yeah with money you can do somuch for other people I love it and Ithink sometimes Fame can get in the wayKlein it because means is something thatdrives parade and elegance for me personyou know something I have to check on alot absolutely I love it me I love itokay so we're gonna go back into theinterview style of the questions againnow like I said you keep taking thewords out of my mouth at the minute soin relation to a reflection I always sayhindsight's a wonderful thing and uponreflecting we can always think of wayswhere we can do things quicker or get toa certain place earlier or easier but Ialways say the journey teaches us a lotas well and yeah it's something that Ifeel everything happens for a reasonwhich is kind of what you touch them onso if you can go back to say one momentin your life where maybe you werestruggling or you really found a turningpoint and you could fast track all yourprogress knowing exactly what you knownow what would that time be and whatwould you actually say okay um I thinkthis is difficult is fun I think becauseyou said you put a lot of emphasis onthe journey already I think it's thejourney that makes you who you areand so I mean I think I had to go topresent I won't want to not I've gone toprison because I think that was suchcrucial integral part of my journey toexperience what I experienced I wouldn'twant to stop myself and go in there so Idon't think I would be Who I am todaybut I think it's just something so it'simpolite I mean we always look inward sooften and when we look in words when Ihave people upset and his diet is brokenthen we look out but everything else Ilook so much better I think just lookingup just the words look up I love that Imean personally I've obviously been aman of faith I'd say just look up mm-hmmbut the journey they say it's crewit's hard it is may it molds you intothe person that you are mice well Isuppose it's more for the fact that thereason I always ask this question isbecause I wouldn't change your journey Iwish you suffered less pain in your lifepersonally but at the same time I'mgrateful that you've been through yourjourney and you come out the other sidebecause mate you're gonna do amazingthings in the world and I truly believethat but I just feel that if say forinstance there was another carbon copyof yourself but we can just take away alittle bit of their pain maybe and alittle bit of their hardship if therewas something that we could necessarilysay for I take your own I take youranswer on board I think it's fantasticanswer so thank you thank you so there'sonly really one more question that Ialways like to ask my guests for thelisteners and that is basically if sayfor instance in 150 years time we are nolonger about and you know here's a bookon the table and this book is about youso what would that book be called andwhat would the blurb at the back of ittell us about Ashley Nixon I stuffed methat what would the book be Colin yeahlet's go from the blimp cuz I've thrownthat in myself here from darkness tolight no matter how dark has been thisjourney of darkness will turn to I don'tknow it's hard to think of a blurb on itbecause blows becoming like trying tocapture all of what we've said orparagraph it's I think no matter howdark and how broken things can get thereis always a way outand this story will show you the way outwill help you to be inspired to as wellI love it something along them lines Idon't know I have to pee I love it Ilove that and just thinking out loudwhat I would call it just on this Iwould call it that's coming fromsomebody who does it necessarily followGod but I just think the lessons thatyou just taught me today the lesson thatI live by anyway so it's kind of you'resaying stuff dumb like hold on a minuteis that in the Biblereally and that's fascinating for melike I'm always eager to learn more andtry and become a better person so Iappreciate you for that I just want toend this now because I think it'simportant May and I know you're notalways on social media selling yourstory I always try and get people tosell their stories rather than you knowhaving to see people who are sellingcourses andall that shit on social media I thinkit's more important people sellthemselves and they sell their truestory and what they can offer to theworld and I think you've got somethingto offer so if there's one place thatpeople can connect with you what wouldbe the best way that people can reachout to you I suppose Facebook he's theone for me like I wasn't always onsocial media was always into that sortof thing but I recognized it is a placewhere people connect so powerfully soyou know I mean and people share so muchof themselves on there and so I've got aFacebook account on mine avid post thereis a bit more of my story on there forpeople to recap over if they want to aswell so yeah it suppose Facebookdefinitely and I don't mind peoplesaying formal questions the one okayfantastic so for anyone listening pleasedo reach out it's actually mixing onFacebook I'll put all the links andeverything in the show notes so you canliterally download it what I would justsay and again I'm not trying to add workor anything it's just the kind ofthought off the top of my head is youcould potentially and maybe this issomething in the future mate is maybestart a community it could be called alittle company could be called whateveryou want to call it right and I think ifyou can get people who may be Christiansmay be believers or people that havesinned such a dark place because I'lltell you something there's there's ahell of a lot more people than justyourself you have company thistransformation or or need thistransformation I feel that like you saidFacebook's very powerful maybe thinksomewhere you create this a nice safehaven for people where they feel safeand I just think you've got a greatmessage mate it's been an absolutepleasure speaking to you and yourselveslooting honestly it's been brilliant Ilove to get you back on the podcastagain maybe with your missus or yourmissus on a separate one because I feellike everyone's got a story and I justwant to thank everyone for tuning in asalways thanks for listening and rememberthis podcast is absolutely free so allwe ask in return is for you to sharethis with a friend and drop us a 5-starreview over on iTuneshave an awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

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