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Tapasya Loading, is a safe space to attempt honest, raw and authentic conversation in homage to the ancient act of stoking a sacred fire. Hosted by Musician/Inter-diciplinary artist T.L.Mazumdar, it pays proverbial homage to the ancient act of burning fear away with love and joy by inviting raw and authentic conversations and exchanges with fellow artists and path-breakers.

T.L. Mazumdar


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    Backstage Truths: My Artist Business-Unedited (Ft. Chris Prestia)

    Play Episode Listen Later May 24, 2025 56:16


    This episode wasn't meant for an audience. No script, no mic check, no “audience in mind.” Just a raw Zoom session between me and my weekly business accountability partner Chris Prestia, founder of the Well-Practiced Musician—one artist/educator to another, pulling back the curtain on what it really means to build a creative life that's sustainable, soul-aligned, and functional. From emotional burnout to business bottlenecks, doubts around business partners and platforms to choose with, and the friction between art and commerce—this is an unfiltered window into the backstage of the Holistic Musician Academy and my own journey as an independent musician. We talk about the things that don't usually make it into polished podcasts or curated newsletters. Things like identity, masculinity, and the quiet pressure of always having to “perform.” The creeping role of AI in creative work. And whether building an artistic career part-time is a compromise or a legitimate survival strategy. I also speak candidly about the personal: My obsession with location independence and how it connects to childhood trauma. The complexity of familial ties. And how Rocco helped me finally face a decision I've been circling for over three years. If you've ever wondered what the real conversations sound like behind the coaching, the music, the launches—this is it.   Warning: This episode contains unpolished language, vulnerable moments, and a whole lot of truth. Any tools, services, or platforms mentioned in this episode are shared solely based on personal experience. We are not affiliated with, sponsored by, or officially endorsing any brands or companies discussed. Find out more about Chris Prestia  Free Training Self-Study Course. Group Coaching 1 on 1 Mentorship Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    What is Martyr Syndrome? An Artist Speaks

    Play Episode Listen Later May 13, 2025 12:42


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/musicians-and-martyr-syndrome Free Training Self-Study Course. Group Coaching 1 on 1 Mentorship Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com

    Paid vs Free Coaching

    Play Episode Listen Later May 7, 2025 40:23


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/macro-vs-micro Free Training Self-Study Course. Group Coaching 1 on 1 Mentorship Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com

    Macro vs Micro and the Flow State: An Artist's Perspective

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 29, 2025 14:53


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/macro-vs-micro Get my Free Training. Waiting list for Group Coaching Music and Audio Production:  www.everynowheremusic.com

    People-Pleasing: An Artist's Perspective

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 21, 2025 29:06


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/what-is-peoplepleasing Get my Free Training. Waiting list for Group Coaching Music and Audio Production:  www.everynowheremusic.com

    What is Imposter Syndrome: Busting Myths and Building Bridges

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 15, 2025 16:32


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/artists-and-imposter-syndrome Get my Free Training. Waiting list for Group Coaching Music and Audio Production:  www.everynowheremusic.com  

    What Is an Information Diet and Why Is It Important for an Artist?

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 8, 2025 17:52


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/information-diet Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Strings Attached: Love and Music—Sustaining Both w/ Kiran Ahluwalia & Rez Abbasi

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 1, 2025 65:35


    What does it take to sustain both a marriage and a creative partnership—without one overshadowing the other? In this long-awaited conversation, we sit down with returning guests Kiran Ahluwalia & Rez Abbasi, a powerhouse couple who have built extraordinary solo careers while seamlessly collaborating as partners in both life and music. From navigating creative differences to maintaining individuality within a shared artistic vision, Kiran and Rez open up about the complexities of working side by side in an industry that often blurs the line between personal and professional. We explore how they challenge traditions, support each other's artistic evolution, and continue to create a sound that is both deeply personal and globally resonant. We also dive into the challenges of navigating social media as artists—how they balance authenticity with the pressures of visibility, and the impact it has on their creative process and well-being. Additionally, we discuss the risks artists take in pursuit of their craft. Kiran shares her experience of suffering a major accident while filming a music video, highlighting the dedication and sacrifices that often go unseen in an artist's journey. About Our Guests: Kiran Ahluwalia is a two-time Juno Award-winning vocalist known for her contemporary take on the great vocal traditions of India and Pakistan. With roots in Sufi, Qawwali, Ghazal, and Punjabi folk, she masterfully weaves influences from Mali, rock, R&B, and jazz into a sound that defies boundaries. Leading a dynamic 6-piece ensemble, she crafts music that is at once reflective, groovy, and deeply human—what the Seattle Times calls “a transnational sound as fresh as tomorrow.” Rez Abbasi is a Guggenheim Fellowship-winning guitarist and composer, widely regarded as one of the most original voices in modern jazz. Voted #1 Rising-Star Guitarist in the DownBeat Critics Poll, he has been ranked alongside greats like Bill Frisell and Pat Metheny. Born in Karachi, Pakistan, raised in Southern California, and deeply influenced by jazz, classical, and Indian music, Rez creates a sonic landscape that is as intellectually profound as it is emotionally stirring. Together, Kiran and Rez embody the beauty and challenge of being hyphenated global artists—shaping their own artistic identities while constantly inspiring each other. Tune in for a heartfelt, insightful discussion on love, music, and the delicate dance of sustaining both. (Want more? The full, unedited version of this conversation—including behind-the-scenes moments—is available exclusively to our members. Membership is free! Sign up here to get access).   Connect with Rez Abbasi:  Website: www.reztone.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Rez-Abbasi-71229228740 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/reztone/    Connect with Kiran :  www.KiranMusic.com Facebook YouTube Instagram Spotify    

    Morning Routines: Ryan Hurst on Movement, Mindset & Starting Your Day Right

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 19, 2025 23:57


    Morning routines are everywhere—CEOs, athletes, and high performers swear by them. But musicians? Not so much. In this special guest solocast, Ryan Hurst of GMB Fitness shares his personal morning routine and the mindset behind it. Originally recorded when he was living in Osaka, this episode was previously only available to my private community. Now, I'm bringing it to the podcast because I believe these insights are just as valuable for musicians and creatives as they are for athletes and trainers. Ryan takes a grounded, holistic approach to training—his routine is about more than just movement; it's about setting the right tone for the day, staying consistent, and cultivating the right mindset. I've personally had a morning routine for over 10 years, and I can tell you—it's a game-changer, especially when you're constantly on the move. While I'm currently on tour, I've noticed how having even a loose framework helps me stay focused and energized despite time zones, deadlines, and performances. This episode isn't just about fitness—it's about how structure and routine can help you show up better in whatever you do. Links & Resources:

    Artistry vs. Craftsmanship: (Why Technique Alone Will Never Make You a True Musician)

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 11, 2025 24:26


    Read the blog post below: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/artistry-vs-craftsmanship Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com

    Why Art is Not a Sport

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 4, 2025 25:08


    Read the blog post here. Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com

    Why Friends Cannot Be Our Coaches: Artists and 'Emotional Labor'

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 25, 2025 22:23


    Read the blog post here. Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com  

    Coaching vs Therapy: A Creative's Perspective

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 18, 2025 30:28


    Read the blog post here. Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com

    What is an Artist Coach? A Guide for Independent Artists

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 11, 2025 34:52


    Read the blog post here. Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist Get my Free Training. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com

    What is Critical Thinking and Why Artists Need It

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 4, 2025 24:50


    Read the blog post:   https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/what-is-critical-thinking   Get on the waiting list for my artist mastermind   https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist

    Relationship-building, personality development & being a supportive collaborator as a musician w/ Ferenc Nemeth

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 28, 2025 43:37


    NYC-based Hungarian drummer Ferenc Nemeth is a Grammy-award-winning musician and educator who continues to push the boundaries of jazz drumming, composition and education with his unique approach of self-development and artistry. Nemeth has been one of the most sought after drummers both, in Europe and the United States with a lineage from a musical family, lending him a unique dynamism and versatility fostered from a very early age.     From his early days at the Berklee College of Music in Boston and the Thelonius Monk Insitute of Jazz in Los Angeles, Nemeth has learned from and worked with the world's finest jazz musicians and groups including Herbie Hancock, Wayne Shorter, Terence Blanchard, Kenny Werner, the Billy Childs Trio, Bob Sheppard, Dave Carpenter, John Clayton, Jimmy Heath, The Henry Mancini Orchestra amongst others.  An ever-present thirst for exploration and experimentation has seen Nemeth travel widely and play with musicians from a stunning variety of backgrounds and countries. This occupation in turn, has also resulted in Nemeth's regular participation in workshops and teaching programs around the world.   We catch up in this informal chat after our artist residency at the Bimbache openART Festival to unpack some serious themes revolving around the challenges musicians face today in an ever-growing and confusing industry that threatens the authentic growth and integrity of artists at various phases of their careers with a strong focus on goals, personality development, and intentionality.   Watch the extended, unedited taping session here (includes additional footage and transcripts).    

    What is Perfectionism and How Does It Affect Artists?

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 21, 2025 16:55


    Read the blog post: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/artists-and-perfectionism   Free Workshop:  http://www.artistmindmap.com/   My self-paced artist-development course: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/ciar   Waiting list for my artist mastermind & group coaching:  https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist   Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    What Are Limiting Beliefs (And How Do They Affect Artists)?

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 14, 2025 24:48


    Read the blog post:  https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/limiting-beliefs   Free Workshop:  http://www.artistmindmap.com/   My self-paced artist-development course: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/ciar   Waiting list for my artist mastermind & group coaching:  https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist

    What is Social Circle Auditing? And How It Can Help You Overcome Artist Burnout

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 7, 2025 20:41


    Read the blog post: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/blog/social-auditing Free Workshop at: http://www.artistmindmap.com/ My self-paced artist-development course: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/ciar Waiting list for my artist mastermind & group coaching: https://www.holisticmusicianacademy.com/communitywaitinglist

    Classical vs Jazz Piano Production, Mastering the Inner Metronome and Building a Sustainable Music Business with Charles Szczepanek

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 10, 2024 47:18


    Details on tapasyaloading.com/charles-sz Watch the extended, unedited taping session here (includes additional footage and transcripts).  

    Burnout: The Artist's Achilles Heel

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 26, 2024 22:08


    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A masterclass to help prevent burnout and nurture a sustainable career for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Content vs Art: The Modern Musician's Biggest Conundrum

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 19, 2024 28:30


    Read the blog post here: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/content-vs-art Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for in

    Ambiguity vs. Non-Commitment: Overcoming the Artist's Dilemma

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 12, 2024 26:03


    Read the Blog Post below. https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/ambiguity-vs-noncommitment Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Musicians vs Audiences

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 5, 2024 26:32


    Read the blog post on  https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/musicians-vs-audience Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Self Development for Artists: Why We Need It Urgently

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 29, 2024 18:13


    Read the blog post here: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/self-development

    Lost and Found in Berlin & Defining Success and Failure in the Artist's Practice w/ Kavall

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 21, 2024 25:11


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/kavall   Get free access to the complete episode, additional footage with transcripts, and exclusive content HERE.   Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians.

    Musicians and Codependency

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 15, 2024 16:32


    Read The Blog Post here. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com  Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    The Fear of Irrelevance (Solocast)

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 7, 2024 28:24


    Read the blog post here. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com  Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com

    Leadership: Why It's a Buzzword and How It Affects Musicians

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 1, 2024 32:55


    Read The Blog Post here. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com 

    Balancing Power and Vulnerability As a Performing Artist w/ Johannes Stange

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 24, 2024 46:27


    Episode Details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/johannes-stange Get free access to the complete episode, additional footage with transcripts, and exclusive content HERE.  

    How to Set Healthy Boundaries As an Artist (Solocast)

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 17, 2024 41:11


    Read the blog post below. https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/setting-boundaries Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com 

    Redefining the Role of a Global South Asian Vocalist w/ Shruti Ramani

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 9, 2024 50:47


    Episode details on: www.tapasyaloading.com/shruti-ramani Get free access to the complete episode, additional footage with transcripts, and exclusive content HERE.

    The Power of the 'Why-What-How' Framework for Musicians

    Play Episode Listen Later Sep 2, 2024 24:40


    Read the blog post below. https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/why-what-how-framework Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text: www.tlwrites.com   

    Navigating Self-doubt, Addiction and Virtuosity as an Independent Musician w/ Rebecca Mardal

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 26, 2024 43:21


    Episode details on: www.tapasyaloading.com/rebecca-mardal Listen to complete episode HERE.  

    What is Negative Bias and How It Affects Musicians (Solocast)

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 20, 2024 31:40


    Read the blog post here: https://www.holisticpianoacademy.com/blog/what-is-negative-bias Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com 

    What is Toxic Pedagogy?

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 13, 2024 17:41


    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Read the blog post here: https://www.tapasyaloading.com/blog/what-is-toxic-pedagogy/ Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    The Hidden Costs of Free Work: A Musician's Perspective

    Play Episode Listen Later Aug 6, 2024 20:03


    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Read the blog post here: https://www.tapasyaloading.com/blog/sensitivity-vs-fragility/ Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Sensitivity vs. Fragility: An Artist's Perspective

    Play Episode Listen Later Jul 30, 2024 12:21


    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Read the blog post here: https://www.tapasyaloading.com/blog/sensitivity-vs-fragility/ Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com

    Internalizing Our Haters (Solocast)

    Play Episode Listen Later Jul 22, 2024 20:32


    Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes / Text : www.tlwrites.com Read the blog post here: https://www.tapasyaloading.com/blog/internalizing-our-haters/

    4-Year Anniversary: A Message for our Listeners

    Play Episode Listen Later Jul 16, 2024 4:22


    Thoughts on the 4-year anniversary of Tapasya Loading. Download my FREE 'Artist Mindmap'. A one-page mini-masterclass for independent musicians. www.holisticmusicianacademy.com Music and Audio Production: www.everynowheremusic.com Episode Notes : www.tlwrites.com

    Showing up Authentically and Reclaiming Identity in a Multicultural world as a TCK w/ Marie Suazo (Swapcast)

    Play Episode Listen Later May 29, 2024 68:07


    Details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/marie-suazo

    Reading Between the Lines as a Blind Musician in the 21st Century w/ Jens Gebel (Ft. Veronica Reiff)

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 30, 2024 62:50


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/jens-gebel

    Riding Passion and Unity To Reach the 'Seventh Sky' w/ Jonathan Ihlenfeld Cuñado

    Play Episode Listen Later Apr 13, 2024 80:59


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/jonathan-ihlenfeld-c

    Unpacking Performance, the 'Hang', Vulnerability, and Solopreneurship in Online Spaces as a Musician w/ Corey Congilio

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 28, 2024 67:25


    Details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/corey-congilio 

    Theoretical Physics and the Internal Integrity of Music w/ John Matthias

    Play Episode Listen Later Mar 7, 2024 66:32


    Episode Details: https://www.tapasyaloading.com/john-matthias

    Merging Engineering, and Artist Mindsets as a Multi-cultural Multi-hyphenate w/ Rajesh Mehta

    Play Episode Listen Later Feb 14, 2024 57:18


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/rajesh-k-mehta 

    Self-care, Self-integration and Self-talk as Musicians w/ Hannah Murray

    Play Episode Listen Later Jan 23, 2024 77:02


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/hannah-murray

    An American in India: Busting Myths, The Indian Music Industry & Music Education, Safe Spaces and Vocal Health w/ Zachary Ray

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 21, 2023 73:32


    The Anatomy of a Global Third-Generation Indonesian Jazz & Contemporary Musician w/ Nikita Dompas.

    Play Episode Listen Later Dec 4, 2023 31:02


    All details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/nikita-dompas

    Maritius to London and Finding Your True Artistic Voice Between Islands w/ Rouhangeze Baichoo

    Play Episode Listen Later Nov 7, 2023 83:56


    Episode details on https://tapasyaloading.com/rouhangeze-baichoo

    Strong for Life with Conor O Shea

    Play Episode Listen Later Oct 12, 2023 73:07


    All episode details on https://www.tapasyaloading.com/conor-o-shea

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