Sad Boy Radio

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Artist, Demetri Wiley, visits PVTSTCK to discuss his early love for music, becoming a cultural voice with his "Lost Loverboy," podcast, the experiences he's dealt with when searching for love from others & himself, and overcoming the darkest period in his life. In the song, "Lost Loverboy," Demetri says, "“I think it's time I finally try find myself / I been running from love / just trynna hide Fromm all this pain I felt." Demetri often searched for love from others, due to the lack of love he felt for himself. Constantly pouring into others from a cup that was more than half empty. It wasn't until he was questioning his purpose in life; when he truly searched for the love he needed, and found it from himself. Also discussed, the importance of becoming a father, a 10+ year love story that left him heartbroken, and learning to let go of relationships that don't serve him.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago rapper, Gado 2x, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss the highs & lows of his journey. From receiving features from G Herbo & Valee, to getting locked up for a weekend and being forced to reflect. Gado has faced many of his own struggles, but has continued to look for ways to elevate throughout his life. In the song, "First Day Out," Gado says, “Ain't no criminal, I'm just misunderstood." A feeling that is consistently discussed for many creatives; for Gado, this feeling runs deeper than the surface. Gado allows his music to tell the stories he usually keeps silent about. Also discussed, Impact of Father's Incarceration, Losing A Child, and Reflecting On What Could've Been had he stayed in Chicago.

Sad Boys For Real! Interscope signed recording artist, Big Kay Beezy, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss overcoming a murder charge, singing to Interscope, becoming a dad, and being the role model that he never had. In the song, "Set The Record Straight," Beezy raps, "Screaming what's up now / but deep inside I'm breaking down / and they not trynna see me smile." Beezy has endured more than most in this lifetime. From fighting for his life, losing close friends, and reaching the lowest point of his life at what should've been the highest. Often, people are forced to put on a smile when all they want to do is stop and breakdown. Through it all, Beezy has embodied the definition of resilience; not allowing anything to stop him from being the role model he didn't have growing up. Also discussed, impact of parents' divorce, why he continued to pursue street life, working with Polo G, and maintaining mental health even at his lowest.

Sad Boys For Real! No More Heroes Videographer, Sergio Esparza, slides to PVTSTCK to talk about his decision to quit school & pursue videography, Regrets from past decisions, and working with some of the biggest artists in Hip-Hop at this moment! In the song, "Eastside," Halsey says, "Seventeen and we got a dream to have a family / A house and everything in between / And then, oh, suddenly we turned twenty-three / Now we got pressure for taking our life more seriously." A feeling that every young 20 year old goes through. There becomes a pressure to succeed, and make sacrifices in your personal life. Sometimes, these sacrifices aren't even worth your happiness. Fortunately Sergio has been blessed to work with No More Heroes, and shoot for artists such as Sexxy Red, Mello Buckz, DCG Bros & MORE! Also discussed, MISSING dad's birthday, Trying to Sneak Into G Herbo Show, Building Community In Chicago.

Sad Boys For Real. R&B Singer, Jaas, slides to PVTSCK, to discuss her hiatus from music after her Debut EP, non-traditional view on cheating, toxic relationships, and learning & practicing self-love. In the song, "Unavailable," Jaas sings, "Pain is love, you know you taught me first / So I think I'll wash my hands with." A feeling that is all too familiar to everyone; even those who are too prideful to admit it. Through this experience, we learn what we will accept from love, as well as reject from it. For Jaas, she realized that her self-worth comes from more than just relationships & wholeness won't come from solely another individual. Jaas explores the concept of love through her music, and allows it to tell her story to a T. She chases her passion to the very end, and won't let anybody stop her from being the star she's meant to be. Also discussed, working with Chris Classick, Briefly living in Atlanta, Influence of growing up around males, and Finding her Purpose in Chicago.

Sad Boys For Real! Washington Wizards Forward, Richaun Holmes, invites us to discuss the struggles he's overcome to make it to the NBA, mental impact of being traded mid-season, and maintaining professionalism while dealing with adversity. In the song, "Soul Right," Femdot says, "Understand that in this world put your joy first / I seen a lot of things, but never a trailer on a hearst / so yes, build some, get some for the lineage / but doing so without living life is ridiculous." This is a sentiment that most people chasing their passion can relate to. For Richaun, this goes back to the fear of failing, and not being enough for what his family needs. Not only that, but not being everything he thought he could be. Also discussed, Getting Benched After Welcome To The NBA Moment From Lebron, Being Traded For "Cash Considerations," Definition of Being A Man.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago singer, Munna Ikee, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss his recent visit to No Jumper, the influence from growing up in O'Block, and the mental impact of losing close friends. Munna Ikee sings in his song, "Hope In My Hood," "I been tryna find hope, but I'm the hope in my hood," Ikee has witnessed the many phases his community has gone through. From the peaks of Chief Keef & King Von, to the losses of some of the people closest to him & his neighborhood. Ikee talks about feeling like all hope has been lost, but with love & leadership he can be the one to bring hope back to O'Block. Also discussed, relationship with Shoebox Baby, being forced to grow up fast/losing his childhood, and feeling misunderstood by those closest to him.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Rapper, Juwon, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss the formation of OG music group, growing up with immigrant parents, and the significance of being able to blend into both corporate & street life. Finding your voice & your purpose is sometimes the hardest thing to do; especially once you've finished school during a pandemic. In the song "Feeling Lucky," Juwon says, "Ever hear a rap before? Cause them lil boys ain't ****** with me." It wasn't long ago that Juwon was strictly focused on throwing parties; however, he's is quickly rising in them music scene & showing the world that he belongs. Also discussed, QUITTING basketball in college, self-expression through music, being pushed to pursue music, and figuring out purpose in life.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago DJ/Activist/Creator, HotRod, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss his recent move to WGCI, importance of building creative community in Chicago, mental health struggles after losing father, and more! In the song, "Turn To You," Justin Bieber says, "when you're lost and you're tired / When you're broken in two / Let my love take you higher/ 'Cause I still turn to you..." Even at the peak of his father's sickness Hotrod turned to his father for guidance. His father set the standard for who he hoped he could be, and it has shown through his value in being a parent. Hotrod has turned his grind up knowing he has to provide for his family, and has established himself as not only a pillar in Chicago, but the music community. Breaking countless records (Yung MA "OOOUUU," Jack Harlow "What's Poppin") & starting his own company, Peprally Takeover. Also discussed, starting playlists, helping artists breakthrough, and growing as a person/creative.

Sad Boys For Real! Detroit artist, Eddy Mack, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss ongoing controversy in Palestine, his battle with depression, and completely quitting music. Eddy Mack says in his VIRAL song, "The Sound of War," "News telling lies check the facts that they cover / Cuz my people out here crying or they dying or they suffer," touching on the current controversy taking place in Palestine. This song became a turning point for Eddy's career & gave him a greater purpose. A purpose to speak out for his people & who are facing immense turmoil. Eddy has become a voice for the voiceless & has taken the lead in executive producing a whole album dedicated to the country. This album has revitalized Eddy's career, and brought him back after he initially gave up on a dream that was proven to be a fantasy. Also discussed, having his music STOLEN, dependency in relationships, losing football career to injuries.

Sad Boys For Real! Numbers on The Board host, Pierre "Peeweedaplug" Andresen, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss leaving House of Highlights, giving up making music to manage Flex Sinatra, and finding his purpose in life. In the song, "Heavily Flawed," Pierre says, "You won't see a blemish or gimmick / I'm real / I'm authentic / Can't do it unless my heart in it," Something that he lives by to this day. Pierre keeps three things close to him: his faith, basketball, and music. In two of those things, he had to adapt & find his true purpose. Although Pierre gave up playing a sport that's in his DNA he found a way to keep it in his life through his podcast "Through The Wire." Pierre's story truly demonstrates to never give up, and that your purpose will find you. Also discussed, origin of RichVision, lessons from his mother, how being born in the city but raised in the suburbs helped shape him, signing to ESPN through Peyton Manning's production company "OMAHA"

Sad Boys For Real. OTF artist/director/entrepreneur, Hypno Carlito, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss his journey within the music industry, and the changes that have taken place throughout his life. From signing to JIVE at 15, to touring with Lil Durk & finding his second family; Hypno has experienced massive success in many avenues. Although he was successful, Hypno continued to forge a new path by starting his own businesses & even directing his own film, "Primary Position." In the song, "My Life," Hypno says, "I dealt with the pain with a smile / I never lived life as a child / I gotta give a better life to my child." Hypno's form of self-expression had always been music from early on, and the lack of stability in his child-hood has pushed him to go 10x harder for his own family. Thus forcing him to "never settle." Also discussed, losing his mom at 5 years old, meetings with Netflix & Hulu, working with Nick Cannon & Spike Lee.

Sad Boys For Real! UK drill rapper, Workrate, slides to PVTSTCK, to discuss working on album for Palesteine, contradictions between lifestyle & religion, traumas, and being an imperfect human. In the song, "Ridiculous," Workrate says, “We going through **** but we don't say niche / just pray to allah cause we need his help." Workrate believes that the only person he can truly confide in is Allah; that "a man cannot show his emotional side." These are the circumstances that are created by people's environments; unfortunately, Workrate has been through more than most. Thus, instilling a numbness that has yet to be healed. Workrate uses his faith to navigate his real life issues, and looks toward Allah in times of trouble. Also discussed, disconnect with family, self-realization, and being sober for 3 years.

Sad Boys For Real! PVTSTCK studio owners (Herson, Jason, & Luis), sit down with me to discuss their ten year journey & the importance behind the studio they've built from the ground up. This unique group has been a staple for the Chicago community over their last 10 years; helping artists such as Saba & The Hxliday gain early success. In addition to their early work with the artists above, PVTSTCK has opened its doors to countless creatives to hone their craft & build relationships. Thus, establishing the studio as a powerhouse in the Chicago scene. In the song "6PM in New York," Drake says, "Longevity, wonder how long they'll check for me / Prolly forever if I stay in my zone / I speak on this generation but can't change it alone," PVTSTCK has remained true to their one goal, and that is to empower the next generation. However, for as much adapting they've had to do as professionals they've done the same as people. Leading us to this conversation of, "10 years later..." Also discussed, giving back to their communities, balancing life & work, finding themselves as people.

Sad Boys For Reall! Chicago artist, Shoebox Baby, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss growing up in O'Block, how his early success impacted his mindset, and learning how to cope with the loss of those closest to him. In the song, “Recovery Mode” by FEMDOT he says, “So what you when you look in my eyes? / All the trauma I hide / All the hurt I disguise / So what you see when you think about our lives? / And all the times that I've tried and feel guilty that we alive.” This concept has followed Shoebox as he's become the man he is today. Dealing with the repercussions of “survivor's guilt” & the idea that it could've been him. Box has been shaped by the home he's known his whole life. For better & for worse. Living with the traumas that have been instilled, but using those as motivation for his next chapter. Also discussed, "Make O'Block Great Again," memories with King Von, influence that Chief Keef had on the community, appearing on No Jumper & On The Radar.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, D2X, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss his album "Hotel 1105", giving up basketball and pursuing music, healing from previous marriage, and forgiving his parents & himself. In the song, "Route Paradise," D2X says, "I'm getting older, I release resentment from my shoulder / forgiving my dad, myself, my mama, I was chosen." Often, instability while growing up instills feelings of anger and resent. D2X is reflective of his past-experiences, and the things that have instilled both positive & negative qualities within him. He soon realized these negative qualities were impacting his mental health; thus, impacting the people around him. D2X had to learn to forgive his parents, so that he can begin to forgive himself. Also discussed, changes from "The Color Blue" to "Hotel 1105," starting to write "Hotel 1105" as a celebration and ending in tragedy, and understanding that he doesn't have to have all the answers.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, Senite, visits PVTSTCK to discuss learning to love music, growing up fast after the loss of her brother, failed friendships/relationships, and healing from past traumas. In the song, "Billionaire," Senite sings, "If I charged for how much I loved / I'd be a billionaire right now." A regret that most people carry nowadays is trying to save a relationship for longer than we should have, or even just giving more love than a person deserved out of us. Senite is a person driven by love, whether that be for her family, friends, or whomever she is in a relationship with. Due to carrying her heart on her sleeve, she's had to heal herself & pick up the broken pieces that were left behind from each heart shattering experience. Also discussed, performing with The Roots in 2009, concept behind her EP titles, hating music school, and growing up as the odd one out in her family.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, LaSalle Grandeur, slides to studio to discuss his latest album, losing both his parents, letting go of the pain from his past, and learning to live his truth. In the song, "Trusted Angels," Lasalle says, "imma leave when things get too affectionate / believe me, I don't wanna runaway / yet everyone love fades away," LaSalle has experiences loss from an early age, and has been forced to accept everything in life is temporary. At points, this pain has dictated the way he crafts & develops new relationships. We've all faced trauma, but the difference is the way we respond when facing our triggers. At some point we have to let go of these "ghosts" that haunt us; even if they're ones that lie within us. Also discussed, pressure of living up to others' expectations, definition of a "man," what happiness looks like, importance of voicemails from Saba & Ausar.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago rapper, Pronto Spazzout, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss creating Jiggy Music, the influence of street life, importance of parental figures, and healing from the loss of his cousin. In the remix of "Back in Blood," Pronto says, "I never rat / even on the opps / how you do that to your blood?" Maintaining your integrity & never switching up on those closest to you are values Pronto has carried throughout his life. Especially since these are the circumstances that caused his father to be reincarcerated. Pronto's father has always remained connected to him; even through circumstances that were meant to tear them apart. Through this, Pronto has learned the meaning of being a father to his own kids. Making sure to always be present & teach them to never switch up Also discussed, being falsely accused of being a dad, impact of his father being in jail for most of his life, where Pronto's trust issues originated from.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Rapper, Prez Harris, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss touring off his album, "Hourglass," pressure to succeed, feeling like time is passing him by, and balancing relationships & music. In the song, "Emotionless," Drake says, "I always hear people complain about the place that they live / That all the people here are fake and they got nothin' to give / 'Cause they been starin' at somebody else's version of ****." Drake touches on a feeling that everybody knows all too well. Harris mentions how watching the way other people's lives advanced made him feel like time was passing him by. However, it's easy to feel left behind when all you're doing is focusing on what others have. Harris allowed himself to be taken away from music multiple times, and even contemplating giving it up altogether at one point. The feeling of time stopping for no one started to creep up, and he realized he had a choice ti make. Also discussed, getting cheated on, falling in love with music at a young age, and how has changed over the years.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago actor & singer, Barton Fitzpatrick, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss working on "The Chi," learning to navigate fame, growing as a leader through the actor's strike, and the importance of becoming a father. G Eazy says in the song, "Time," "It's only a dream until it happens to you / But no one ever told me these things would be happening too." The song discusses the amazing things that we dream of in life, but that doesn't mean all of the bad things stop. Bartón's life is very much similar to the theme of the movie "Everything Is Both," as well as this song, because for all the blessings he's received he's overcome just as much hardship. From the highs of becoming a renowned actor, to losing a child that was on the way. Each of these experiences have shaped Bartón into the man we see today. Also discussed: visiting The Breakfast Club, being guided by DuShon M Brown & Jason Mitchell, & the importance of your parents' influence.

Chicago artist, Lil Blessin, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss working with Travis Scott & Zona Man, beating cancer twice, losing his grandma, and how his perspective on life has changed throughout the years. In the song, "Boat" Ed Sheeran says, "They say that all scars will heal but I know / Maybe I won't / But the waves won't break my boat." Blessin has been through more than most: not only battling cancer twice, but experiencing the loss of some of the closest people in his life. Through this, Blessin has pushed himself farther than most ever could; realizing that life's a blessin. Blessin understands the mission he's on, and continues to move past the pain on his way to being the biggest ever. Also discussed, hiatus from music, how he maintains his mental health nowadays, hitting lows even at his highest points.

Sad boys For Real! Chicago artist, KAMI, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss his recent album, "Its OK Loverrr," being raised by his grandma, reshaped view of death, and learning to let go as he grows to understand himself better. In the song, "Runaway," KAMI says, "You know what you just had did/ I had to learn to forgive/ right after all off these years, here I am / numbing my pain." Although the song was made 5 years ago, KAMI sees his music relating to him more & more as of recent; learning to let go of not only the pain & anger he's held onto for years, but the unhealthy coping mechanisms used to suppress his issues. KAMI has used music, fashion, and therapy as ways to express himself; learning more about the things he needs to change. Learning to let go being the most important... Also discussed, living in Ghana, the way Save Money counterparts Vic Mensa & Joey Purp have influenced him, and being scared of love.

Sad Boys For Real! Flawless Entertainment/Def Jam recording artist, Flex Sinatra, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss signing his recent deal, remaining a positive role model, how his childhood shaped him, and finding a new version of himself through every step of life. In the song, "Valuable," Flex Sinatra says, "You gotta give yourself forgiveness you can't right every wrong,” Flex reflects on the mistakes he's made, and realizes that they don't define him. Allowing him to focus on his growth & find ways to elevate to a new level. Although Flex says most of his life revolves around music, it was the moments outside that shaped him. From growing up in the "Plex," to his grandma telling him "you're gonna be somebody," Flex was always destined for greatness; he just had to find the next version of himself that was ready to step into that. Also discussed, almost having a kid at 21, pressure to succeed after reaching goals, experiences forcing us to relearn who we are.

Sad Boys For Real! Owner of Classick studios, Chris Classick, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss managing Smino & Monte Booker, starting Classick studios, losing his mom at 18, and learning to let go of things that no longer serve a purpose. In the song, "End Of Youth," Ed Sheeran says, "Is this the ending of our youth when pain starts taking over? / I just don't know if I can ever just let it go / Everything's falling apart, when love is real, there's never closure / I guess it's all part of life, but I can't help but feel low," and this was the reality for Chris. The moment his mother left this earth, his world was turned upside down & sent him into a deep depression. However, throughout this time, there was one thing that saved him & helped him find his reason... music. Music was the thing that healed Chris, and allowed him to express the pain he was going through. Chris' form of expression helped build a reputation that precedes him, and allowed him to help countless artists achieve their own goals. Chris took the darkest moment in his life and found his reason. Also discussed, working on SZA's CTRL album, learning to be a father, music community in Chicago, and

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, Daylight Tone, slides to PVTSTCK to discuss working with CB MIX, getting fired from apple, dealing with his anxiety, and running away from his past traumas. In the song "Still Yours," Big Sean says, "Sometimes you gotta break your heart to save your sould." Often, there's situations & people that it hurts us to let go of, but we need to in order to grow. Daylight was forced to do this with not only his job, but his relationships; leading to the person we see today. Daylight is on a mission to "bring the fun" back to music, but the "fun" can sometimes be a mask to cover the things he's been through. The traumas that have instilled a sense of anxiety and impostor syndrome. Through this all, Daylight is learning to not allow his past to define him... Also discussed, growing up in the shadow of his brother, being told not to pursue music, being scared of failure.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago DJ, Bae Wicked, slides to PVTSTCK to talk about being successful in a male dominated industry, finding herself as a person/mother after a nine-year relationship, prioritizing mental health, and the aftermath of her life-altering car accident. Big Sean said in the song, "Single Again," "I'm single again, blaming you is just so easy / But maybe the problem's me / I'm single again / Guess that's just the way it's gon' be / Maybe I should spend this time on me." Bae Wicked has gone on a journey of self-discovery after her car accident that left her with limited mobility. The situation left her with an abundance of anger being directed towards the wrong people, and a feeling of being "forgotten." This forced her to look inward & discover who she really is. Doing so, she realized that she needed to value herself & her time more, rather than being angry. Bae decided to take this as an opportunity to outgrow certain traits & situations she didn't like anymore. Thus, outgrowing the old her... Also discussed, running away from problems, being a role model for her daughter, creating the persona of Bae Wicked

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, KingTrey, slides to the studio to discuss his new album (The Southend Legend), being held at gunpoint as a kid, mental toll of living somewhere you're “not accepted,” and the decisions that have made KingTrey who he is today. KingTrey says in his song “How Tony Became Trey,” “in 8th grade, them dudes came up & put a gun in my back / RIP TONY.” In this moment, everything changed for Trey. This is the moment that sent him to a neighborhood he felt like he didn't belong in, the moment that set him on the path to pursue music, the moment that forced Trey to shed the first identity he ever knew. It only takes one thing in our life to change for everything to be completely different. Our stories aren't defined by a singular moment; however, the story changes if certain things never happened. Leaving us to ponder, “who I could've been?” Also discussed, working with Mick Jenkins, wanting more out of life, not going to college, and reflecting on own childhood after having a kid.

Sad Boys For Real! Pivot Gang member, Mfn Melo, slides to the studio to discuss the formation of Pivot Gang, moving through life without his best friends, having a daughter, and the experiences that have shaped him into the Melo we see today. Ed Sheeran says in the song Tides, "I have grown up, I am a father now /Everything has changed, but I am still the same somehow." Throughout life, we experience things that shape us as people; however, at the core we remain the same person we've always been. Our perspective shifts on how we see the people & the things around us, and we are cautious about those we let in. Melo has experienced the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, yet he remains grateful everyday for the things he has. From nationwide tours to losing his best friends five minutes after talking; these are all things he's had to navigate while coming to understand himself and his emotions. For Melo, everything has changed from when he was just a kid hanging out with his friends. Also discussed, becoming a father, influence of growing up in Chicago, & leaning on vices when struggling with emotions.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, SONNY, slides to the studio & discusses the inspiration behind his name change from hatesonny to SONNY, being forced to "accept" his reality due to where he grew up, and learning to make music based on real life experiences & how to grow through them. SONNY says in his song, "Trynna Heal," "Know all the mistakes I made just made me the man I am / always come through, try to play my part / I'm just trynna do everything I can / for me, my fam, my gang, my kin." Sonny accepts his past & realizes how he can be a better friend, son, and person for himself. We're all shaped by the wrongs we've done, but what separates us from each other is what we do to change or stay the same. SONNY is in a place where he's just "trynna heal." Also discussed, losing people close to you, having to accept growing up, working with Femdot & OG Stevo, and mental toll of being in public eye.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago videographer, Rick Dawg, slides to the studio to discuss his "Vaulted Bars" series, the strain being a creative has placed on his relationships, and always feeling like there's a constant need to work Ed Sheeran says in the song "2step." "'Cause we're living life at a different pace, stuck in a constant race / Keep the pressure on, you're bound to break / Something's got to change." Often, creatives find themselves in a never-ending race. We're racing to be the best at our craft & heavily criticizing ourselves at the same time. This pace creates a strain on not only our health, but the health of our relationships. Making us feel like we're outta time. Also discussed, being forced to grow up, identity outside of art, importance behind Vaulted Bars.

Sad Boys For Real! Pivot Gang Co-Founder, FRSH WATERS, slides to the studio to discuss starting Pivot Gang, being incarcerated early on, and how the losses of close family have impacted him both mentally & professionally. Frsh has faced adversity head on in many ways throughout his life; however, he's never been one to back down from the challenge. Instead, he's pivoted his life & turned his negative situations into positives. In the song, "Time" by G Eazy he says, "All the money in the world, I can't find where they selling time / Or a button that rewind, I'm just thinkin', sippin' this wine, let me catch you up." The idea that time is something you can't get back is something we're all familiar with, but the idea of not being able to get back time with family hurts even more. Frsh & I discuss the things he's learned from his late brother Squeak & what he would tell him if he were here today. Also discussed, relationship with Saba, watching Pivot Gang explode while incarcerated, the way his environment shaped him.

Sad Boy For Real! Music video producer, Remi Momson, visits the studio to discuss working with No More Heroes, producing the video for "Point Me 2" by Fendi & Cardi B, and managing one of Chicago's hottest rappers Mello Buckz. Remi has stacked her resume in the entertainment industry; however, choosing this path didn't come easy. Remi quit her corporate job to pursue her dream & has made the most of each & every opportunity. With that being said, there's still days where it feels like everything is falling apart; whether that be because of failed relationships, strained friendships, or simply self-doubt. Drake says in The Remorse, "All these IOUs, it's hard for me to be keeping track / Friends that dedicated they life to just keepin' me intact / I mean, even with his salary, you can't put no prices on that." Something that is prevalent throughout the industry, and for Remi even more so since she has to be the one backing everyone. Although doubt looms overhead, Remi still chooses everyday to follow her path. Also discussed, most toxic tale, secret Remi song, working with G Herbo, leading women in the hip hop industry.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago rapper, Femdot., visits the studio to discuss his journey as not only an artist, but as a person. Femdot's projects are all connected to one another, and It's a concept that seems to follow Fem throughout everything he does. In this interview, we unpack the reasons behind why Femdot. is the person he is & the thing's he's learned about himself through his experiences. In the song, "Happy Breakup Song," Femdot. says, "This ain't no / if you hear this can I get you back song / this is a thank you for loving me, even when you were loving too long / this a thank you for helping me find myself song," We all learn things about ourselves through relationships whether it be romantic or not. For Fem he realized his inability to communicate emotions, and learned that somethings are not meant for you at a certain time, even if you want it. Sometimes you just have to close certain chapters. Also discussed, Jimmy Butler shoutout, wrapping up 10-year project series, being on tour, and pressure to succeed.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, Ausar, slides to the studio to discuss his upcoming album, "I Now Know," and the experiences necessary to get to this point. Ausar has had traction behind his name since his first drop; however, with that traction comes unrealistic expectations that take a mental toll. Through this, he's had to navigate failed label deals, relationships, and even a concept album he worked on for five years. In the past, Ausar let fear control everything he did. Inspiring his song Ghosted where he says, "Said I didn't care that was a lie / all of my surroundings salt & pride / Know I made a mess I'm mortified was adding to my own demise," This forced Ausar to look inward & make a choice to fix what's broken or continue to be haunted by the reasons he runs away. Also discussed, traumas from relationships, being on Netflix's "Rhythm and Flow", and going to school with Taylor Bennett.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago bartender, Bowtender, slides to the studio to discuss starting his own business (Dat Slush), breaking up his family, healing his inability to love, and separating his persona from the actual person. Drake says in Karaoke, "I know they say the first love is the sweetest/ But that first cut is the deepest," This concept often rings true for anyone who has experienced love. You carry the good & bad into the next relationship; while being mindful to not repeat the same mistakes. However, there's a piece of you that questions, "can I love the same?" from that first love. For Bowtender, he's lost it all due to his own faults, and is set on correcting his wrongs. Also discussed, relationship with daughter, not being home enough for family, viewing money as end all be all, and talking to a therapist.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago rapper, Kayo, slides to the studio & discusses the moments that helped him create his debut album, "It Was fun While It Lasted." Kayo uses this album to journal not only the highs in life, but the lows as well. From having a video shot by Cole Bennett, to his volatile battle with depression, losing the girl of his dreams, and having business ruin close family relationships. Kayo says in his song, "No Way Home," "eyes red, don't want be dead no more/ I mean I might, I just can't say it no more / maybe it's attention seeking, why I think that leaving from this earth get me a boost of streams or something more conducive even?" Kayo wears his heart on his sleeve in not only the song, but this interview. Discussing the turmoil he faced within & reflecting on the experiences that made him feel self-hatred. Often, we look back on the moments that shaped us for better or for worse. The moments that put us in a depressive episode & those that made us feel euphoric... We look back & say, "it was fun while it lasted..." Also discussed, relationship with Cole Bennett, people's expectations not being met, taking criticism, changing your perspective.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago DJ, Dj Enigma, slides to the studio & discusses the moments that have helped make him a staple in Chicago. From being Sicko Mobb's official DJ to opening for artists like Future, Enigma has established his name in not only Chicago, but across the US by creating his own lane & not being scared to take risks. In the song "Monster," Justin Bieber sings, "But what if I, what if I trip?/ What if I, what if I fall? / Then am I the monster?" This is something that Enigma & I found common ground on. Often, we would be mislabled due to the way we carry ourselves. Enigma talks about feeling a sense of being misunderstood; whether this came from strangers, friends or family. Since then, Enigma has aligned himself with the view of a villain; not because of a harmful nature, but because he does as he pleases & doesn't worry about what others may say. Also discussed, regrets in life, perks of touring, best DJs in Chicago, guiding the next generation

Sad Boys For Real! Atlanta artist, Trub, comes through & discusses his recent single with Project Pat hitting 3 million views, working with Juicy J, his struggles with anxiety, and the fear of the things he'll be missing being 100 percent locked in on music. In the song, "Rich," August Alsina sings, "Am I wrong for wanting better / Should I just settle forever? / Ooh, I swear it feels like / This is as good as it gets." These are questions we all ask as not only creatives, but as people. We strive to have the things we've never had; however, in the midst of it all we lose sight of what's important. Unfortunately, we forget to cherish what we do have in our families & current living situations... TRUB reflects on this by discussing how he can potentially miss out on having a family. However, the reverse being possibly missing out on sharign his story with the world by stopping music early. Leading us to reflect on, "the things we'll never have..." Also discussed, building relationship with Andre Williams (grammy award winning A&R), where his anxiety stems from, how Project Pat has taught him to be a better man.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Rapper, Arigon, comes to the studio to discuss his new album (F.H.L) & the experiences that helped him form this new body of work. From facing unresolved trauma, to understanding coping mechanisms, and finding alternative ways to change after a medical diagnosis. The most significant being giving up alcohol. Arigon says in his new song "Drowning," "Feel something inside me dying/ I know it's time to roll / this weight on my shoulder / I know it's time to let it go." Often, people reflect on their lives & are scared to let go of the things that prevent them from being their best selves. We find ways to bury our traumas either through money, love, alcohol, drugs, etc... Sometimes the best thing we can do is let it go & grow. Also discussed: trying to save everybody & losing yourself, using mental health as a crutch, changing the way you think

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago artist, Saint Millie, visits the studio to discuss his days helping build Jugrnaut, being a member of Treated Crew, and his transition from being a full-time artist to being a full time artist manager. Millie established himself as a disruptor within the industry & helped establish a culture for Chicago music. Bringing together the sounds of old Chicago & new Chicago. From Chance The Rapper, Mano, Saba, and many more! OG Stevo said in his song, "Fear of God," "I may seem happy, but that's just an appearance/ God is the one & only thing that i'm fearing / I put my heart & soul in these lyrics..." Saint Millie's story is one that he laid on wax & allowed to be his escape. From his father being in & out of his life, his mother being incarcerated, and growing up in a neighborhood where he felt out of place & unsafe; forcing him to adopt the moniker Saint Millie, wanting to be a savior through music. Also discussed: mental toll of losing a part of you, resentment towards music, losing family, and accepting change

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago DJ, Yaya The Base, slides through the studio after opening her first residency (Club Yaya). Yaya & I discuss her inspiration to pursue neuroscience and Doing; as well as, the traumas that have impacted her everyday since she was a child. From loss of loved ones to toxic patterns within relationships. Ed Sheeran says in the song Runaway, "I've never seen my dad cry / Cold as stone in the kitchen light / I'll tell you it's about time / But I was raised to keep quiet / This is what I'm gonna do / Gonna run away, gonna make that move" Something that many individuals growing up in a Latin household can relate to. Due to this, Yaya has used music as her form of self-expression & a way to heal from her past wounds. Unfortunately, there's some scars that we'll never heal from... Also discussed, breaking toxic patterns, learning about relationships from parents, importance of therapy, being mindful of others mental health journey.

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Rapper, OG Denzo, slides to the studio & discusses his new outlook on life since leaving prison. Denzo has been featured on IHeartRadio & collaborated with countless Chicago rappers, OG Stevo being one of them; however, it all came to a halt when he had to serve 3 months in prison... Denzo reflects on his experience in prison & discusses the impact it's had on his mental health, relationships with family, & his music career. Akon said in Locked Up, "Cause visitation no longer comes by / Seems like they forgot about me / Commissary is getting empty / My cell mates eating food without me / Can't wait to get out and move forward with my life / Got a family that loves me and wants me to do right," Denzo experienced this first hand and realized he needed to change from the only ways to life he's known... Listen & find out how Denzo's mindset was shaped by where he's from. Also discussed, celebrating lost loved ones, impact of environment you're raised in, what Denzo wants to accomplish moving forward.

Sad Boys For Real! National photographer, Gualo Hawes, pops out to discuss shooting at Dreamvile festival with Drake, the want for people's validation, changing his direction in life & the impact of his environment growing up. Gualo talks about growing up on the Southside of Chicago; being forced to earn every opportunity he was given due to a lack of resources or doubts from the people around him. Big Sean says in Sunday Morning Jetpack, "And you taught me I'm a product of everything I go through / And you and grandma went broke so we would never get bruised," giving praise to his mom, but revealing the deeper message of each moment creates the person you become. For Gualo, he's been shaped into an observant & hungry photographer who forced himself into the industry. He's accomplished more than most in the industyr; however, behind it all he's still just trying to prove his worth... Also discussed, sneaking into Summer Smash, shooting for Drake U Justin Bieber, and being personally requested by Lil Uzi Vert

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago DJ, Gato The DJ, visits the studio to discuss his early success as a DJ, DJing for artists such as Miky Woodz & El Alfa; however, this early success leads to self-doubt when hard times come along. There have been many ups & downs in the industry for Gato (COVID being a huge one). Being a part of night life brings a high in of itself; however, when everything is done at the end of the night it's yourself you have to face the next day. Gato discusses the impact nightlife has had on not only his mental health, but his relationships with family & friends. Trying to establish a secure foundation while weeding out those who only use you for their benefit. Bruno Mars says in Grenade, " I would go through all this pain / Take a bullet straight through my brain / Yes, I would die for ya, baby / But you won't do the same." A common occurence that makes you question, "who's really got me?" Also discussed, impact of substances on mental health, finding purpose in life, groqing relationships with creatives, misperception from family.

Sad Boys For Real! For our 100th episode we have Chicago DJ, Simmy, slide through the studio to discuss her journey as a creative. More importantly, we discuss the lessons she's learned through being a DJ, producer, entrepreneur, and more importantly a human.As creatives, we're doubted & viewed as selfish due to the unique lifestyle we choose to live. Our job is more often viewed as a hobby rather than work, even when the success is at an all-time high. Unfortunately, the higher we get, it feels like the people around us seem to care less & less as time goes on. The lifestyle becomes lonely, and we forget to cherish those we love most.Ed sheeran sings in Nina, "And time's the only reason that we could break up/ 'Cause you would always tell me I'm away too much / Distance is relative to the time that it takes / To get on a plane or make a mistake, so say it again." There are sacrifices required to reach the heights we dream of, and time for others is scarce let alone ourselves. That's when we sit back & realize, "I'm only human..."Also discussed, performing at summer smash & Sway in The Morning, battle with depression, music influences

Sad Boys For Real! Miami DJ, DJ PEEWEE, slides to Chicago to discuss her 10 year career & the events that have shaped her into the woman she is today. PEEWEE has played at Coachella, Rolling Loud, and even Paris; however, it's the things that happened behind the scenes that have had the biggest impact.PEEWEE has faced countless hardships throughout life that made her question, "why was I put in these positions?" It wasn't until recently where she's started to find the silver lining & own her experiences to help others. From finding a new identity due to a career ending injury, to being placed in rooms with people with bad intentions. PEEWEE is a survivor of both mental & physical struggles.Also discussed, faith in God, most toxic relationship story, Girls Make Beats, & importance of mental wellness.

Sad Boys For Real! No More Heroes A&R, Danielle Casel, slides to the studio to discuss her transition from teaching into the music industry, working with top acts such as Fly Nari, OG Stevo & DCG Bros, and the way in which her mental health struggles have continuously impacted her.Hailey Williams sings in the song Fake Happy, "I been doing a good job of / makin' 'em think / I'm quite alright / But I hope I don't blink/ you see its easy when I'm stomping on a beat / But no one sees me when I crawl back underneath," Often, we create a a front that prevents people from truly understanding what we may be going through. We're afraid to let people know that sometimes we're not okay... Sometimes the best we are doing is hoping to be okayAlso discussed, impact of anxiety, depression & OCD, learning from Laka Films & mental health advice.

Sad Boys For Real! Two years later & we're still at it! We invite former guest & close friend Equan back to discuss the journey throughout the past year. This year taught us the value of our time on this earth, but also refocused us on the importance of treasuring the people around us.Over the two years we've talked to the biggest artists in Chicago about their mental & personal struggle; thus, creating a conversation that helps them connect with their fans on a deeper level. This episode helps viewers understand where we are at in our journeyEquan & I discuss the disconnect we feel with our families due to our passion dragging us away. Similar to artists such as G-Eazy & Ed Sheeran who were forced to leave behind the people they care about most.Also discussed: lost relationships, honoring loved ones through actions, importance of supporting one another...

Sad Boys For Real! This episode is a quick reminder to appreciate those around you & the positions you're currently in. Everyday isn't perfect, but with everyday comes new opportunities for success.Ed sheeran says, "I just get caught up in the rat race I'm running / Chasing a moment, I'm hoping is coming / If I stopped and took a look around/ It's in front of my eyes." Recently, I've found myself with zero motivation, and I'm not the only one... Make sure you take that break for yourself...

Sad Boys For Real! Chicago Rapper, Patrick Sun, visits the studio & discusses how growing up with uncertaintanty & instability shaped him into the person he is today. Pat has found himself in unusual positions based solely on feeling that his purpose in life was missing. Pat tried his hand at comedy, and even enlisted in the military at one point.In his song TNT he says, "I got scares/ I got holes in my soul / I was lost / I ain't know where to go," Pat's lack of purpose prevented him from growing a both an individual & professional; eventually realizing, he's not only hurting himself, but those who claim to love him. Thus, forcing him to change for the better.Also discussed in this episode, fear of attachment, losing people close to you, & changing your mindset to find the silver lining.