Rolandesperspective

This episode is the same as the one on my Youtube channel. It touches on a new diagnosis, how I feel about it, medication I take, and where I want to go. FUN FACTS Age: 22 (boutta be 23!) Signs: Virgo, Leo, Capricorn --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

The Fear of Being Seen and Perceived. There are lots of big mistakes that have been made.  Even with all this unknown, all you can do is be brave. Some of the greatest moments in history were not planned.  You have to do it scared. You have to be brave.   We think we're gonna die when we're authentic - we're not. We think the world is gonna end - it's not. It's gonna move on. we're not. Humans have an amazing way of adjusting themselves. Make people make room for you.  Nothing happens before you are ready for it. You are built to succeed in the moment where you have the option to be honest, true, and authentic. You have what you need. You just need to believe that.  Your subconscious fears are holding you back from what you want!! Labor is painful. Give birth to yourself. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

ROLANDE is bringing you niggas STATS for the holidays!!!! She talks Demystifying research the harms of not doing your research a short intro to descriptive research and correlations, y'know? so you can stay educated about the world around you being (begrudgingly) grateful for Emory feelings vs. logic (intuition vs. science & evidence & proof) The importance of Black research!!!! WOMANISM I LOVE YOU MY BLACK WOMEN! STAY EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY, AND SPIRITUALLY SAFE! REFERENCES Jasmine A. Abrams, Ashley Hill, & Morgan Maxwell; Underneath the Mask of the Strong Black Woman Schema: Disentangling Influences of Strength and Self-Silencing on Depressive Symptoms among U.S. Black Women. Sex Roles 80, 517–526 (2019). https://doi.org/10.1007/s11199-018-0956-y --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

ROLANDE was in a pinch, and learned a lot about herself. Lots of little nuggets of encouragements.  Lots more growing up. The light of fairytales I grew up with dimming Listening to your spirit and following your desires. Sacrificing your desire for “supposed” or “should”. Grind and hustle culture might just have a point. STORY UPDATE: I had so much fun at the friendsgiving!! I am so glad I went. I made amazing memories and ate some really good food. 10/10, it is always such a vibe with Evolve and friends!!! Shout out to host ASIA, friend DAVENA, and funny bitch LIANA!!!!! THAT SOUFFLÉ WAS HITTING! ALSO TO MAKAYLA MOMMA FOR THAT DRESSING!!!! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

ROLANDE discusses feeling grounded in my body validation and freedom reminding myself of my why religion as an oppressive tool individualism AND perfectionism??? as a sin EBSUxSJP Parallels Discussion Recap demystifying activism and politics being (a certain) Black at Emory pushing the responsibility onto the privileged. LINKS: Learn about the genocide happening in Palestine @thestorydoula's referenced instagram post. Men Aren't Trash they're Traumatized - RK Hulu's The Other Black Girl --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

my talk proposal was denied im in a good mood the world is on fire own your feelings own dat shit do your work you're almost there. be you - people can either get with it or get lost. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

happy 2nd birthday to my baby; you have been a great help to me. "The paradox of education is that as one begins to become conscious one begins to examine the society in which [she] is being educated." - James Baldwin own your feelings stand on that shit allow yourself to be proved wrong --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

THEMES: Solar Eclipse in Libra New Moon Songs I'm internalizing Energy capacity Discipline and consistency, choosing yourself consistently The starting and stopping of change Giving yourself grace - what that actually means What I'm learning in my research methods course The only thing you're afraid of is your potential. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

This week on Rolandesperspective ROLANDE sits down with her boyfriend DEMI, and the two discuss questions surrounding buying a home, investing, wealth, and tradition. Things talked about in this episode: Buying a home as the first step to being wealthy (and how our opinions differ) Homeownership vs. renting forever Lifestyle when wanting to be wealthy. What is wealthy to you? Allowing yourself to receive and to be treated like a queen in a healthy relationship The importance of surrounding yourself with like-minded people, and support! Us just being cute!

So many thoughts in my twenties…I'm only 21. Let's talk about the Spring 2023 semester. semester reflection, hard work, discipline, responsibility, life, death, devil, and despair, pushing yourself, building your dreams, LEVELS, womanhood, (the personal expense of) femininity Rolande Kangnigan ™️ RP ™️ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

This one's for all my people shrinking their own naturally human selves to hold space for someone else's reaction. You deserve better. You deserve more. I also talk about shitty friends, having faith, and letting go. Also, why is Emory charging me a fee for moving out after 12?!? Themes include: co-dependency, apologizing when you are sick, true love. mental resilience, trust (is built, not given) Rolande Kangnigan ™️ RP ™️ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Rolande sits down with her movement improvisation group to talk about commmunity, how it has grown in the class, and how it has grown within the indivisuals themselves in the classroom. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Things that change when you move out alone... How I come up with my episodes! Acceptance and letting the divine alter your courses Things you don't realize/talk about until you move out. THEMES: acceptance, going with the flow, improv, nuances with moving out, nuances with life, responsibility with life. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

I have stopped at a checkpoint on the not giving a fuck about people's thoughts and opinions journey, and have adopted a more centralized and egocentric role in my life —and not in a bad way. This episode is about how painting you own canvas tangibly shows up in your life. No longer over-explaining myself, no longer giving too much energy and explanation to pre-exonerate myself, no more trying to fix someones skewed and WRONG perception of me—accepting that they're wrong in the first place! I've come a long way and a lot of these little things have been so important and big in my life. I know it can seem silly to finally allow and accept and designate a “wrong” stamp on somebody, but my reality has been called into question all my life! It's very hard separating myself from everyone's views about me, especially my parents as I was growing up. I'm getting farther away from that age now, and as I do so I strive to make the rest of my life one that is detached from the story that was prescribed to me and that I accepted for myself: that I'm wrong and mean for telling someone what I don't like, that I haven't done my due diligence of reading in between the lines and fixing adult issues as a child, taking responsibility for other people's thoughts and emotions, being so torn up that people aren't seeing me the way I really am…I'm done!  So, if you struggle with creating and sticking with the rules of your own reality, and you love funny sexy pretty intelligent super smart baddie bitches, then this episode is for you

Join Cayla and me for a pointed conversation about confidence, UNDERconsempation, and all things deep sisterhood. We talk about the yearn for intentional sisterhood, getting clear about it, and how to call it in.  Finding Cayla! @cosmic.cayla @yr.media Kali Uchi's Red Moon in Venus Rolande Kangnigan ™️ RP ™️ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Hello! My very good friend Edmund journey through a (thoroughly well) made up story about war, finding community, and how other people see the choices you've made through the lens of their suffering...and how they're valid for it. This is after having a conversation on confidence, being a big brother, and how one sees themselves through the eyes of others. We talk video games, storytelling, fear of confidence and believing in yourself, fear of success, and identity. Listen in to see just how far the imagination can go... THEMES: Nuance, choices, social psychology, groups, financial disparity, wealth gap, perspective, origin story, personal realities, things are never what they seem --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Spring break is over, we are back in classes, and my body and brain are STILL IN BED. So, what do you do? You have classes to go to and a whole lot of "fuck it" to give in return. Updates on my journey of self trust, retuning back to school after being out for 2 years, and identity shifts along the way. Let's start a conversation in the comments. I'd love to hear from you. Check out all of my creations below! https://linktr.ee/rolande5 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Life can be sweet when you've changed your perspective. What is the lens with which you be looking at life? At rejection and opportunities? At triggers and at shadows? This week's episode is all about adopting an attitude that glides you through the seas of life and the storms that come about them. Please enjoy! THEMES: AGE, REJECTION AS PROTECTION AND OPPORTUNITY, GUIDANCE Follow me and my art work here!: Rolande's Perspective --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Priorities, priorities, priorities….as a college student or as a student of life that is living the experience of being working class.. do you prioritize sleep, your art, your body, or academics, work, pouring into others? Why? Do you wish you were prioritizing other things? Well, how can you get there? That's what this episode is all about. I have a link to a class survey I would LOVE for you to do! It's all about your priorities, I want to learn more about my immediate and farther out community. How can I help raise awareness of our priorities and help guide us towards living a more peaceful life? Wellness and Priorities Survey --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Hey y'all I'm sorry it took me so long to get y'all these affirmations. I am doing my absolute best! :) I affirm that these affirmations nourish your soul with cool water. Also meet Ezla~ Affirmations include: I am just that bitch, y'know? I no longer judge or criticize myself, I am free to love who I am. There is no struggle to be better. All I need to do is love myself more today than yesterday and treat myself as someone who is deeply loved. I affirm that I am willing to release the causes and patterns in consciousness that are creating any negative conditions in my life. I am a beloved child of the universe and have been given everything I need for every experience I will ever have - it is nice to keep that in mind, man. My current thinking shapes my future. If I hear myself using negative or limiting words, I change them. The moment I say positive affirmations, I step out of the victim role. I am no longer helpless. I acknowledge my own power. Trees are so abundant. I am as loved as all the baby trees on Mother Earth. Trust the Mother Earth. You weren't made wrong. Different is not bad. You are beautifully crafted and created and only You understand you best. The power of my mind will reflect this: Don't resist, feel, and fall. And get back up. Also, I had a banana and some water :) --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

thanks for listening to Rolandesperspective. Finding it very hard to keep going....but there is no other option. idk. Affirmations coming soon. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

This week on Rolandesperspective it's sick i'm sick we're all sick. life's sick. and i feel like really coughing right now... Rolande Kangnigan ™️ RP ™️ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

But Wait, Healing Don't Pay the Bills. Manifestation, healing and feeling good, vs. Realism, hard work, and long-term sacrifices. Currently writing this as I wonder how to balance school and life. This shit is not my life, but if I don't make it a good chunk of my life, I will not succeed. Where is the balance? Can I trust myself to do what I can, listen to my body, and take my ass to sleep? Even when I'm not done studying and if I stop now, I won't be able to finish it tomorrow, because tomorrow has its own things and work to do? I don't mind working every day, but working for HOURS every day, is a stretch. On my mental and physical. It's insane that if I decide to hang and play uno with my friends, I'll be up to do my work and going to sleep at 2....no. But what'll happen when I stop trying to do it all? When I intentionally say fuck it, I've done all that I can do, and intentionally not set myself up well for quizzes, exams, etc? Every day there is something to do. Something to learn. When do I rest? When do I spend more than 2 hours with my friends? Maybe that's just a sacrifice I have to make. And I be thinking to myself, is this an Emory problem or a college problem? Lowkey, I want it to be an Emory problem so I can at least feel good about going here. If this is an everywhere problem, the value in going here feels a little less. But it sucks that things being harder means they're more worth it. But this is a tricky balance because the big dreams that you want do not always come with ease and believing fully that they do and MUST, takes you out of reality and into delusion. Yes, you create your own reality, but you are not going to get that car without coming up with a way to make the money to pay for it. If it was easy, EVERYBODY WOULD DO IT. I have never felt this to be more true. I have been JUDGING people who "choose" to have jobs. I have been JUDGING people who have "chosen" to be in debt. I have been JUDGING people who say life is hard. It is. If it was easy, who would say it's hard? Why must they be wrong? This is the issue with constantly saying "I do not want to be strong." "I don't chase, I attract." "When I spend it, it comes right back." You do not have a job. There is nothing 100% wrong with saying "be realistic" and I'm starting to see it now. Or is it my thinking making life hard? Lol.....There is nothing 100% wrong with saying those affirmation either, but when they blind you to where you no longer put in work other people have had to, make sacrifices that other people have had to for MILLENNIA, then JUDGE those people?...you indeed delude yourself. Find the balance, and put in the work. No one wants to work. God is not going to pay the bills every month. You aren't just going to do nothing and never work again. My parents worked their ASSES off to get us the house we have today. They didn't WANT to work! Who does??? How do I DO that????? I literally cannot stand the idea of doing something I do not want to do for money. BUT WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I CANT SIT HERE AND HOPE MONEY COMES OUT THE SKY THEN JUDGE PEOPLE WHO TAKE CONTROL AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT THEIR LIVES.....I will not shame myself or berate or judge myself. I have done a lot of work. But man, healing don't pay the bills... Idk.. I believe I deserve a life of ease, but maybe it's just not right now. Why is it so hard for me to do what my parents did? Am I just entitled as hell? Well how do I get through that? How do I not invalidate my very real feelings here? My capacity? How much of this is even my fault? Maybe I won't always be able to hang out with friends, and that will just have to be my balance. But the present is all that exists, isn't it? What if I die tomorrow? Then I guess I'll die knowing I was building for myself a beautiful future. Anyway, this episode is about not overdoing (school) work so you can still keep your sanity. Letting go of doing the extra. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Part one of all the illusions I'm running into on and off campus (in my mind, online, etc...) I love you, and you are good. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

This episode is about alignment, school, fear, and judgement. I finally was able to put my first two weeks of college again into words. This is the space where I did that. Please enjoy! And Don't forget to share

Listen to me decide what to do with my life. As a multi passionate and outgoing extroverted bubbly people loving being, I'm ironically finding it hard to change and to be myself in the new spaces I find myself occupying. I took my Sounds of Human Language linguistics class and kinda hated it. I notice the differences in who I am now vs who I was in 2020-2021. I also notice the cycles I brought back from that time, by being on this same campus. I talk about my fears of being back and how I feel about myself vs how other people view me. I also talk about my peers graduating and leaving me! Oh Emory my Emory…. I can only pray and wait. Themes: Authenticity, change, peace, discretions and sensitivities, tact, college majors, psychology, linguistics (ish), NOT KNOWING WHAT YOURE DOING. OK thanks, byeeeeee. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Reframing Consistency and Motivation: It's just One endless Present Moment. I had such a good time engaging in this conversation. Join me and musician Namire on a conversation on listening to your body, the present moment, and how those things intertwine with discipline and consistency!!! Where to find Namire! IG: https://instagram.com/namire_mbe?igshid=YWJhMjlhZTc= Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/74vRHn6ANeOtntQHRX113T?si=AG3btUrwRgussR62KGVgkA Here Comes A Thought: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dHg50mdODFM --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

Happy New Year #2022 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

This episode is about… Knowing who you are. If you know you're a star, there's always gonna be someone calling you arrogant. They don't know where you've come from though. Making your decisions and sticking to them The right people will see your artistry for what it is. Your identity is yours and only you know what you've been through to get here. No need for others to understand or to be understand, especially when those who do, simply will. No explanation needed. People are doing what they think is best You gotta be willing to look stupid to get better Making the ultimate space for weird ass feelings. Ifykyk It's ok to not know what you want; sometimes it's enough to know what you don't. Links Emotionally online celibacy video; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ih11okCTag IG Post about the Comfort Zone; https://www.instagram.com/p/Cls7AQpur91/?igshid=YWJhMjlhZTc= Auralign Digital Planner - https://www.auralignshop.com/products/2023-digital-astrology-planner My Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@atiglinyi Where are you in the comfort zone circle? Comment on this week's episode post on Instagram

#40. HEAVY THROAT CHAKRA CONTENT ALERTTTT meaning I speak my truth with the intent to express and not the intent to hurt feelings and take no responsibility for your hurt feelings

This episode is a compilation of thoughts I had during the week of December 4th, 2022. Thoughts include: being a mirror and how that can be a GOOD thing, Berleezy, and the Sims 4, God and (vs) women, ADHD in women & girls, situationships and double standards, valuing yourself when your dad wasn't emotionally there, and not letting the sorrows of today bleed into tomorrow. Links: https://www.auralignshop.com/products/2023-auralign-astrology-planner --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#38. This episode is about…celibacy and sexual energy, traits and balanced manifestations of their energies, despair and hopelessness, the “Devil”, Christianity and trauma, honoring high school Rolande, letting numbers and analytics define your worth, prioritizing yourself and being selfish, and women historically being people pleasers, intention vs. perception, social media distorting the process, Christianity and Islam, and gratitude for my brain...among other things hehe Links: Girl, Get Up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3k8VEN13a0 HINDZ Celibacy Pt. 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vy0PTDRlrs&t=1s Divine Feminine & Masculine Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Gpa-ivcjYI Secrets of Divine Love by A. Helwa: https://secretsofdivinelove.com/ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#37. I did find the note the next day ha! Join me this week for a moment of prayer. This is how I pray! Big themes include: Sitting & sulking vs. feeling your feelings, entitlement, pride, HYPOCRISY LMAOOO, who or what is God?, giving yourself pep talks, DETACHMENT TO OUTCOME! Trust that what you want is heard and will come back to you, trusting your intentions. We discuss trust and love, divine time, and FURTHER untangling yourself from the eyes of others, humbleness and ego, Refs: How to keep your heart open in hell: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ym4Rpd72tq8 21 day Gratitude transmission: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEDGFaXYIX8&t=1484s Draw my life Chief Keef: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LK97d4A94KQ&list=FLyswGVxF9WVaZTuqRphoT4Q&index=14 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#36. This episode is about victim mindset, groupthink, accepting and choosing beliefs, demonizing the coping mechanisms that helped you survive, balance in expansion, the complexity of a human, and my discovery of Christ consciousness rather than the christian religion… links for more art: https://linktr.ee/rolande5 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#35 This week's episode starts off with a simple examination of two seemingly opposing thoughts. “If you want to do something, you can. Simple.” Vs. “Some people want to do things and they simply can't.” Join me and Teiona for an honest and deep conversation about the systems put in place to keep Black people down and how to balance your own thinking in this world as a Black person, to meet and reach your goals and dreams. I'm so unaware of it all…we talk and discuss about the impersonal nature of privileged people telling others to “take your responsibility for your life and manifest it.” We discuss Blackness and the Nature of it, the articles of confederation & the US government, where to buy Planets from (Lil Uzi Vert), football and slavery, capitalism, american holidays, & tradition…among other things Links: -Theory Teiona was talking about: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1V9lAJ27zOvth-HWr60mZYKi0Hg9yaRm80OXrSPLq0Mc/edit?usp=sharing -Linktree with my instagram and tiktok, for more of my thoughts: https://linktr.ee/rolande5 subscribe even! ok byeeeeeee --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#34. I'm dealing with sinus problems y'all I'm sorry! This episode is about caring about yourself and making sacrifices for your future. 2 steps forward, 10 steps back. Transitioning from having a problem solution mindset to a solution focused mindset, mindfulness as a sense of detachment from your problems…defining what you want and making choices that are worth it, and trusting that the healthiest changes are serving you and your body is leading you in the right direction, among other things.... Do you think you're your mistakes? Do you think it's healthy to think so? Affirmation of the week, Sponsored by The Body is Not an Apology (not actually sponsored, but just where I got it from): Progress is not linear. It's normal for me to go forward and then backward, and then forward again. Links

The divine feminine is not about being submissive to a man. And it's NOT heteronormative relationship only. Everyone has it. #33 THANK Y'ALL! for tuning in to this week's episode of Rolande's Perspective! This video/podcast ep. was a LONG time coming. I'm grateful and thankful to Jah, for my ancestors who have brought me this for, and for my guides that have led me on this path and to these energies. I am blessed, highly favored, and grateful. Please please please share this episode to your friends and the males in your life who might need a little kick off their chauvinistic horse. Tag Akon. Leave a review or comment below! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#32. This episode focuses on your relationship with food and body. In the last 2 weeks, what are you most proud of yourself for? Responding to a situation vs. Reacting - Sitting in the Space of the Unknown being slow to warm up (temperament) and what it means for creating new unknown and unexplored realities, flirting with the idea of a new reality~ Instant gratification, talking to and reparenting your inner child

#31 ! Talking to the Trees and Finding Beauty in Both of our Transitions I wish sexual healing, womb health, and sexual health on all who listen to this episode. Join me in natural prayer and communion with the Earth as we both discuss: Being a gift to this world, FEELings, my inner baby child my love, seasonal depression and the transition of fall, being a warrior, 2 year transitions; the transition from 19-21, “grand rising, trees, your truth and being responsible for others'…. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#30. Daniella joins me this week as we talk about: Being black enough, the healing of my tattoos, giving people the choice to love you, and all eyez (perceived to be) on me! Thank you for listening

#29. Join me with Kyle Alexander Truevillian as we talk about living life outside of college (but like still in it cuz, grad school), faith in God, an attitude of gratitude, heavy water bottles around campus, tattoos, hip hop, and more… Kyle's Instagram to find his tats: k.alexander_24 His shoutouts: Mic Jenkins Saba Freshwater Chance the Rapper Vic Free Nation (Rebel Soldier song is good af) Pivot Gang …we was semi drunk…. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#28. This sound like some early 2000s shit. In this episode, we talk about sex. among -the sacral chakra -sacredness -christianity and abstinence -permission -“two things can be true at once” -obsession and love -pick-me energy -the music you consume matters -looking @ challenges differently -becoming universal -what I'm gonna continue doing Extra resources -The Dance of Intimacy: A woman's guide to courageous acts of change in key relationships by Harriet Goldhor Lerner, Ph.D. -Self-acceptance vs. Self-fixing; knowing yourself vs. fixing yourself https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRUv5rmT/?k=1 -Zanna Keithly Affirmations and Stuff https://zannakeithley.com/ -Everything is Love- Sham's Newsletter Also, those feelings did indeed come back. Continuously working through these deep fears and feelings --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#27. Apologies about the audio! My regular mic is out of commission so I used headphones….but I didn't realize moving the mic around made so much noiseeee! Thank you for bearing with me and witness to me

#26. In this episode, we explore discipline vs inspiration — Just realized I need to strike while the iron is hot but also strike when it isn't. Not only wait for inspiration, but to take and utilize it as it comes! — finding balance (in traditional astrology) people pleasing still finding the most minute ways to show up in one's life, letting people make their own decisions and judgements, a lil codependency, Expressing yourself for the sake of doing so. Manipulation, Being afraid of your own power, Misunderstandings, which were immediately taken very personally in my household. Laughter as a way healthy emotional processing expresses itself, Actively creating your reality… And SO MUCH MORE. *Somewhat* Related Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRDne53P/?k=1 --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#25. This is taken directly from my recent youtube video: July 4 You Part Two | Trusting Self and Trusting Others I talk more about what February had in store for me this year, and how that is now mirroring my July. Some things I talk about: Self trust (journaling challenge) Rewriting old internal stories Aura portrait photography Gaslighting and the perception of your reality/relationship to your self trust. Fear of rejection (and of closeness and love) Miscommunication on social medias Worth in relation to productivity Cultivating and Living in conjunction to your values Creating your own reality: Is it your fault? BOUNDARIESSSS : https://medium.com/@rolande.kan --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#24. This turned into a very vulnerable episode. Lol, do you hear how i started this as an idea note….hahaha. Welcome back to another episode, or hello if you are new here. Welcome to Rolandesperspective. In this episode, friends, I go a little deeper into the idea of letting go of things that don't serve you. In episode 22 and a little bit of 23, I talked about how I struggled with eating and how I finally learned to let it go. After going through and doing that, a new habit became noticed: my mindset! More on this coming soon! Other things mentioned in this episode: people pleasing and how it can affect your self concept, physical insecurities and the power to choose to get over them, being worthy of your own love, staying consistent w little habits vs. big radical changes we are programmed to chase and validate, doing things for yourself out of love vs. fear, adventure time, affirming your own existence ❤️ Also shoutout to Isatou!!!! I love you

#23. Are you strong enough to take people staring at you? In this episode, I talk about having a deep foundation of trust built deep within you, your lake, a bit about your physical cells/physical things defining your character and how that's NOT true, attaching attributes to physical things, Umi's Forest in the City, my awesome instagram, the relationships to food since I've been back home in togo, loving myself a little more than before. Everything will be alright. Thank you for listening to my podcast

#22. TW; suicide, disordered eating I pray this finds exactly those it's supposed to. This *very* vulnerable episode delves into a time where I was going through very deep soul and shadow work, healing a lot of trauma, some of which was not entirely mine. The glimmer of light was so small in this darkness, and to date it's the hardest thing I've ever gone through. I've felt conflicted about sharing, but now seems like the right time. Please listen as I process letting go of what no longer serves you, and how it is a grieving death cycle. It was so hard. But, I'm better now.. DISORDERED/ EMOTIONAL/ ADDICTIVE EATING; having dislikes, being your own person, childhood (and puppyhood) trauma, dogs, healing in the place traumas took (and continually perpetuated) take place, presence and doing what you know you need to do, drinking more water (lol!!), I also talk about the 5 kinds of growth, according to me. Follow up episode on this next week! I dive into things I talked about this episode with the fresher perspective of where I'm at now, a couple months later. Thank you so much for listening. Everything is understandable, and you don't always have to understand. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#21. I'm back! And truly better than before. In this shorter episode, I talk about the quote “Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly” and why I've been away. I talk about comparison, lessons coming back around, feeling worthy, doing enough…all of the things I've talked about before but deeper, with a fresher, newer, Rolande's Perspective. Hehe I also talk about Derry Girls if you watch it! Also Everything, everywhere, all at once. Thank you to everyone who listens to my podcast and, further, takes something away from it. You make my heart smile. Thank you for being a reminder that this feeling in my heart isn't in vain. That the way I feel, others feel it too, and I am never alone. Thank you to my ancestors and my spirit guides, I love you so much. Thank you for pushing me and being honest with me and guiding and loving and protecting and guiding and supporting me. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support

#20. Be confident with what you got in this present moment. Go forth, and do all you can. Give it ALL YOU GOT. ps apologies for the sick sounds...we are healing! poetry, joy, confidence, presence, no matter who is watching, authenticity...among some other things

#19. Idk what this one is about... I just know it's meant to be listened to in silence and stillness. Think these thoughts out loud with me. Comparison The Matrix Enough Nature, flowing free, flowing far far far away. But still here. Words Thoughts --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/rolande5/support