That's So F****d Up

The usual TSFU content is back in full swing over on Patreon! They're more than TWO weeks ahead- Patrons got episode 175 this week!In this episode Ash and Kristen give you a little breather from the heavy topics they've had on deck recently - check out the Patreon to see what you've been missing! The gals talk about how the kids in different religions beat around the bush so Jesus doesn't see. Make sure to follow along with the lyrics in this post on our FREE Patreon (must sign up to view)! And watch the music videos in the show notes if you have time, they're hilarious!The Loophole by Garfunkel and OatesCatholic Girls by Frank ZappaLoophole by Noel MillerSoakin' USA by Zelph on the Shelf-Audio editing by Gaytrice Perdue.

WANT AD-FREE, EARLY RELEASE EPISODES (THIS HAS BEEN ON PATREON FOR TWO WEEKS ALREADY)... AND TO JOIN IN ON THE BIBLICAL SHENANIGANS? CHECK OUT OUR PATREON!Ash and Erin wrap up the shit show that is The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG) with episodes 3 and 4- The Hell Loop and Breaking the Chains!S3 E3- The Hell Loop: "Natalia moves in with the DePauls, yet Cynthia and Antwon's grip tightens from afar; Natalia's presence ignites chaos, driving a wedge between Nicole and Vince and pushing Vince to the brink of leaving." - IMDbS3 E4- Breaking the Chains: "Natalia fights to break free from the suffocating grip of her manipulative parents, Cynthia and Antwon; as their deceit unravels, she reclaims her life with a new, loving family." - IMDb

WHY WAIT UNTIL NEXT FRIDAY TO HEAR RECAPS OF THE LAST EPISODES, EPS 3 AND 4, WHEN YOU LISTEN TO THEM AD FREE ON PATREON RIGHT NOW?!Ash and research assistant Erin Collins finish recapping the second episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Natalia escapes her controlling parents, but she must face a dark past of lies and alleged abuse, uncertain if freedom is truly within reach." - IMDb

They're BAAA-AACCKKK! And so are we with a re-release on one of the wildest cults we've covered yet!Have you seen the colorful ads enticing you to come experience "China before Communism" through the art of song and dance at a Shen Yun performance? What about the far-right wing newspaper "The Epoch Times" that preaches misogynistic, racist, homophobic and prejudiced views? They're both owned by the dangerous cult of Falun Gong which Ash tells Caitlyn and Lindsey about this week!Caitlyn co-hosts PNW Haunts & Homicides, a podcast about true crime, the paranormal, and all kinds of spooky sh*t in the Pacific Northwest! Lindsey is the co-host of Ye Olde Crime, a podcast about spooky, strange, and surreal stories of the past. Support your local indie podcaster and check them both out today, wherever you listen to podcasts!✨If you want to hear the rest of this season of TSFU Presents, with episodes on THE CULT OF KUNDALINI YOGA and HOW I FOUND A CULT WHILE LOOKING FOR A CO-WORKING SPACE, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! ✨

Ash and research assistant Erin Collins recap the first half of the second episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Natalia escapes her controlling parents, but she must face a dark past of lies and alleged abuse, uncertain if freedom is truly within reach." - IMDb

SEASON 3, EP 2 IS ALREADY OUT - COMMERCIAL FREE - ON PATREON, JOIN US FOR AS LITTLE AS $5 A MONTH! YOUR SUPPORT MEANS THE WOOOOORLLLDDDD TO US!Ash and research assistant Erin Collins recap the FIRST episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Desperate to escape her controlling adoptive parents, Natalia turns to Vince and Nicole DePaul, her last hope for freedom." - IMDb

SEASON 3, EPS 1 AND 2 ALREADY OUT ON PATREON, JOIN US FOR AS LITTLE AS $5 A MONTH! YOUR SUPPORT MEANS THE WOOOOORLLLDDDD TO US!Season 2 of The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)- 'Binge or Bust?' episodes 5 and 6 are finally here! Recap of season 3, episode 1 coming out on Friday! Make sure to listen to the episodes below first!TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 1 (part 1)TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 1 (part 2)TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 2

Season 2 of The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)- 'Binge or Bust?' episodes 3 and 4 are here! Recaps of season 2, episodes 5 and 6, as well as season 3, episode 1, coming this week! SEASON 3 RECAPS OF EPISODES 1 AND 2 ALREADY ON PATREON!!Ash is joined by former co-host Fallon Morey to give you the DL on what Common Sense Media's Stephen Morgan called, an "unbalanced portrayal" that "may leave viewers with more questions than answers". Check out the trailer for Good American Family and get fired tf up with us! Full versions of these episodes below!"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 3: By Any Means Necessary"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 4: Houses of HorrorGood American Family trailer✨Please consider joining us on Patreon for as little as $5 a month- your support means the world!

THIS IS THE SECOND HALF OF A 2 PART MEGASODE THAT'S PACKED WITH 3 EPISODES! LISTEN TO PART 1 FIRST!We've compiled all 7 Natalia episodes into 3 more compact episodes, for your listening pleasure. Starting with Ash and Megan from Give Us Morgue ! Unfortunately the file is too long for the public feed so we had to break it into 2 parts. And in the next section of this mega-sode, we have former co-host Ali and cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts!Good American Family trailerNatalia Grace Backstory and Update"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 1: Age, Rage & the Big Lie"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 2: For the Love of Money (YouTube Live)

Ash Here! We asked our wonderful PATRONS, if they wanted us to wrap up what Common Sense Media's Stephen Morgan called, an "unbalanced portrayal" that "may leave viewers with more questions than answers," The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG).Six and a half of them said yes, and when I saw the trailer for Hulu's upcoming HIT PIECE, ahem, "mini-series" Good American Family, I voted the other 3.5, and you all, in! Recaps of the FINAL (honestly tho TBD with ID, because it's them... ammirite??) episodes coming next week! And in the meantime, recap yourself on Natalia's whole story from birth, until where we left her at the end of season 2!We've compiled all 7 Natalia episodes into 3 more compact episodes, for your listening pleasure. Starting with Ash and Megan from Give Us Morgue ! Unfortunately the file is too long for the public feed so we had to break it into 2 parts. And in the next section of this mega-sode, we have former co-host Ali and cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts!Good American Family trailerNatalia Grace Backstory and Update"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 1: Age, Rage & the Big Lie"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 2: For the Love of Money (YouTube Live)

Ash and Kristen wrap up "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera", wtith the most intense episode yet!Ash talks about Dahlia's allegations that she was sex trafficked by her mother and law enforcement corruption. They discuss blurred lines between care and control in addiction and mental health and and when the rights to privacy of information should and should not be respected. And Ash freaks tf out as we finally see Dia, who hasn't not been seen in public or on the internet in years."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - IDMake sure to listen to 'BINGE OR BUST?' Ep. 19- The Curious Case of... Bam Margera part I and 'BINGE OR BUST?' Ep. 19- The Curious Case of... Bam Margera part II first!

Make sure to listen to part I first! ✨PART III AVAILABLE ON PATREON NOW! Ash continues to breakdown "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera". In this episode we meet photographer and owner of popular YouTube channel Soft White Underbelly, Mark Laita. Amanda Rabb's story is introduced, as well as YouTuber and leader of the #freebam movement, BJ Courville aka BJ Investigates aka That Surprise Witness, who brought Amanda's story to light."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - ID

ID is back at their shenanigans and so are we! We asked our PATRONS what they missed and they said 'Binge or Bust'?... which yay, so did we! And wouldn't you know that journalistic juggernauts Investigation Discovery and Beth Karas released another intensely factual and unbiased docu-series at just the right time.We kicked off the start of 2024 with a full breakdown of all six episodes of "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" and now we're back with another curious case from ID, but one of a very different nature. It's "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera"."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - IDStrap in because Ash has A LOT to say!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In this episode Ash and Kristen dive into the cringe-worthy, and often kinda creepy af, world of TikTok FuckBois. From thirst traps to weird skits and personas, the gals tackle trends like mewing, "horny chefs", and bad advice from "dating coaches"—while touching on the unsettling rise of known human trafficker Andrew Tate.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In this episode of TSFU Interviews, Fallon chats with Erin Riley, author of "A Dark Force: 20 Years with a Covert Narcissist". They talk about recognizing narcissistic abuse and ways to process and deal with it, as well as her adventures in and around the music business"!Celebrated music maven Erin Riley looked like she had it all: a 1960s Mad Men–style upbringing on Manhattan's Upper West Side, then an escape to “find herself” in glamorous 1970s Hollywood, where she landed some of the most influential positions of the 1980s music industry. She hung out with rock stars like Keith Richards, Steven Tyler, James Taylor, and Jon Bon Jovi and chose the hit records for America's #1 rock & roll radio station, WMMR-FM. But her colorful, raucous, rock & roll life hid dark secrets.An emotionally neglected child with a generational legacy of stoicism and hiding painful truths, Erin had no real experience with love and healthy relationships. The marriage she thought would be her happily-ever-after led to 20 years of confusion, heartbreak, anger, and betrayal, all fueled by a malignant covert narcissist.Erin's honest, searing memoir recounts her self-discovery journey through a series of life's traumas and tragedies, her many bad decisions, and two toxic marriages. Her story will bring insight and guidance to survivors of narcissistic abuse and those questioning their relationships, and the hope that they, like Erin, can find a joyous rock & roll redemption." - AmazonPlease check out Erin's website! You can purchase Erin's book on Amazon! Follow her on Instagram and Facebook!

This week Ash is joined by Alecia Watson from Twisted and Uncorked! Alecia tells Ash about the murder of 15 year old Elyse Pahler at the hands of three teenaged boys who wanted to be more successful with their metal band. Don't tell us that Satanic Panic didn't exist!Check out Alecia's podcast Twisted and Uncorked here and follow the pod on IG- they actually post stuff!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

This episode dives into the infamous case of Mary Bell, an English ten year old who killed two pre-school aged boys in the '60s. From her troubled past to the tragic crimes and their aftermath, Ash and Kristen explore the familial and societal failures and lasting impact of her story.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

Ash and research assistant Erin wrap up the Menendez brothers saga, as they delve into the wild twists and turns of the Menendez Brothers' case, from explosive family drama to courtroom chaos. Further allegations of abuse by a client of Jose's, shocking trials, media frenzy, and those jaw-dropping verdicts. Plus, the brothers' prison lives, their unexpected TikTok fame, and fresh legal bombshells.Make sure to listen to part I first!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In case you didn't get enough of the Memendez Brother's story at the end of 2024, we thought we'd do a deep dive into it anyway!Ash is joined by research assistant Erin Collins as they look at themes of abuse, mental health, and privilege. They explore the dark side of wealth, parenting gone wrong, and the psychological scars of a toxic family dynamic. This episode delves into the brothers' abusive upbringing, the brutal killings of Jose and Kitty Menendez, and the aftermath—from confessions to legal battles.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

It's finally here folks, the intro to Ash's obsession for the last seven+ months... the case of Amanda Rabb.Amanda Rabb, a young Black woman experiencing homelessness and drug addiction on the streets of Skid Row in Los Angeles, California, appeared on the hit YouTube channel, Soft White Underbelly, in December of 2019. She was heavily featured on the channel and became someone that the audience was heavily invested in. "Mental health expert" Lima Jevremovic came on the channel in August of 2020 touting a new virtual reality therapy that she had come up with that could cure addiction, mental health issues, homelessness and more... and it seemed that her and Mark Laita, owner of the Soft White Underbelly channel, already had a "guinea pig" in mind.This is the introduction to Amanda's story and the insane web surrounding her tragic death.Ash also discusses addiction and suicide stats post election and her journey through the different phases of relapse.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

Hoping you're all having a wonderful or at least tolerable holiday season lovelies, we finally bring you the Finale of the Saga of Russ...In the final part of this deep dive series, Ash and research assistant Kristen wrap up with how a couple of YouTubers infiltrated the Manor and Russ' inner circle, wrecking havoc in some pretty insane and hilarious ways, how Russ handled that and what he's up to now.... it's not good.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In the third installment of our four part series, Ash and research assistant Kristen talk about everything from the ethics of extreme haunted experiences and the psychological impact of such traumatic experiences. They also talk about red rooms, rumors of military connections, and McKamey's lack of legal repercussions despite numerous allegations surrounding the troubling nature of his relationships with women and children. Tune in for this juicy one!THE FOURTH AND FINAL PART IS COMING OUT TOMORROW!!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

One of Ash's amazing and incredibily varied co-hosts, Fallon Morey sits down with criminal defense attorney McCracken Poston Jr., who represented Alvin Ridley—a reclusive man at the center of a gripping murder trial. Alvin, often misunderstood due to his eccentricities and autism, was accused of killing his wife, though the story turned out to be far more complex. McCracken shares the wild twists of the case, the challenges of defending a misunderstood client, and the importance of autism awareness in navigating the legal system.McCracken King Poston Jr. is an American criminal defense attorney and part-time juvenile court judge. He gained national attention for several notable cases which were featured on TV series specials such as CNN Presents, Dateline NBC, A&E's American Justice and Forensic Files!Find out more about Poston and his work on his website!✨Support us on Patreon, and get tons of bonuses and goodies, for as little as $5 a month! 

In part 2 of our 4 part deep dive, Ash and Kristen explore the psychological manipulation that victims of Russ endure, they uncover the shocking practices and cult-like dynamics at play. Tune in for a deep dive into horror, exploitation, and society's obsession with the macabre!✨PART 3 IS OUT NOW ON PATREON! Support us on Patreon, and get tons of bonuses and goodies, for as little as $5 a month! 

Ash and research assistant Kristen dive into the dark world of McKamey Manor, the "extreme haunt" infamous for its torturous experiences. They explore the psychology behind seeking fear, the shady practices of Russ McKamey, and the blurred lines between consent and abuse. From participant trauma to media exploitation, this episode tackles the ethics of extreme entertainment and the dangers of unchecked thrill-seeking.Ash has been obsessed with this case for a decade, and this is just the start!✨Support us on Patreon, and get tons of bonuses and goodies, for as little as $5 a month! 

This week Ash is joined by podcaster and sur-thrivor Terra Newell to talk about the murder of Reena Virk, the subject of Hulu's series Under the Bridge. You may know Terra from the podcast and/or tv series Dirty John, so the gals obviously discuss the ethics of true crime entertainment in this important episode.Fourteen year old Reena was bullied throughout her youth and after finding a group of teens she thought were her friends, she was beaten to death under a bridge in Saanich, Canada in the the 90's. This case has been integral in shedding light on the dangers of bullying, and Ash and Terra highlight how this topic is more important than ever with the addition of cyberbullying.Check out Terra's pod Terra's Baddy Club here, follow her on IG here, and find everything Terra on her website!✨Support us on Patreon, and get tons of bonuses and goodies, for as little as $5 a month! 

Join Ashley and Fallon as they reconnect after a break, catching us up on life's latest ups and downs—housing insecurity, mental health struggles, and some serious community love. Fallon shares news about stepping back from co-hosting, and the gals dive headfirst into the spine-chilling tale of the Amityville Horror.From the tragic DeFeo murders to the Lutz family's eerie encounters, they cover paranormal scares, family drama, and the infamous investigations by Ed and Lorraine Warren. It's a mix of personal updates, ghostly thrills, and supernatural skepticism for Spooky Season!Note: If you missed the initial updates (as this is sort of a follow up), check out the first one in our episode of UnFck Yourself with TSFU about accessible healthcare!✨Support us on Patreon, and get tons of bonuses and goodies, for as little as $5 a month! 

Ok gang- I know this isn't a super sexy subject, but after having many listeners tell Ash that they were pretty sure they had some sort of mental health issue, or had been diagnosed with one but didn't have affordable access to doctors or medication, or are struggling with addiction but don't know where to turn, she thought this was a really important topic.Note from Ash: Since getting my ADHD diagnosis, and being medicated, my life has greatly improved in so many areas that I struggled with and had no idea were connected to ADHD.Fallon works in health care and in this episode we talk about how your or your loved ones may be able to access all sorts of resources for free or a reduced price. Like I said, not super sexy, but a very important episode!✨Check out our Patreon, there's even a FREE version to try before you buy!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll get TSFU episodes on 2-4 days before everyone else! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

Fallon tells Ash about the infamous unsolved quadruple homicide in Keddie, California in 1981. Four people were brutally murdered in Cabin 28 and over 40 years later, the Keddie Cabin Murders remain unsolved and full of eerie twists and turns. The gals dig into the disturbing details, the weird clues, and the frustrating lack of answers that still haunt this case. What really happened in that cabin? And why haven't the killers been caught?Note: This episode was recorded quite awhile ago, the episode that Ash references to on Serial Killer Allan Legere and Family Annihilators Frank & Herald Alexander can be found here!Make sure to check out today's sponsor MAGIC MIND- get up to 48% off your first subscription or 20% off one time purchases with code TSFU at checkout! You can claim it at: https://magicmind.com/tsfupod✨Check out our Patreon, there's even a FREE version to try before you buy!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

Mondays can have the tendency to suck. Here's a little surprise to brighten yours up!Previously Ash and Cam had the pleasure of speaking with ex-employee of cult leader Doc Antle, Barbara Fisher. Barbara worked for Antle at his Mytle Beach "safari" for eight years and was prominently featured in Tiger King and Tiger King: The Doc Antle Story. Breast augmentations and name changes under duress, the breaking of the spirits of both humans and animals, and so much more!✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

If you watched Tiger King on Netflix in 2020, you probably remember the a**hole with a long ponytail who constantly dresses like he's on safari and surrounds himself with skinny women who like like Jane from Tarzan, constantly toting tigers on leashes. That man was Doc Antle, owner of Myrtle Beach Safari, the "zoo" that inspired Joe Exotic to open The Greater Wynnewood Exotic Animal Park. Antle started off as a magician who got real tight with famous Guru Swami Satchidananda Saraswati, and became somewhat of a celebrity at Swami's Yogaville compound in Virginia. He began claiming to be a doctor and enlightened being, amassing followers and abusing teenage girls, and things only got crazier from there. Antle is a notorious abuser of big cats, but today's story more focuses on Antle himself and the cult that he runs, but calls a "wildlife preserve".TW: Animal abuse and severe maimingSPOILERS:Ash and Fallon also discuss Max's new docuseries Chimp Crazy and one of the most insane stories Ash has ever heard. "Former nurse-turned-exotic-animal-broker Tonia Haddix spends her days caring for animals in captivity, referring to herself as the "Dolly Parton of chimps." However, her limitless love for one chimpanzee spins into a wild cat-and-mouse game with authorities and an animal rights group. Through the experiences of Tonia and other "chimp moms," "Chimp Crazy" is a series that reveals the bonds between owners and their highly intelligent great ape pets, as well as the risks to the welfare of the animals themselves."- WikipediaPlay Bingo with us! Download your Murder Bingo sheet HERE and play along with today's episode!✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

If you're not new here, or even if you are, you're probably well aware of our passion behind the TTI (the Troubled (Tortured) Teen Industry). Ash had the incredible opportunity to speak with Katherine Kubler, executive producer and director of Netflix's hit docu-series "The Program: Cons, Cults and Kidnapping", this year at the True Crime and Paranormal Podcast Festival!✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

Can y'all believe it's almost October?!? As a little taste of spooky season, we're pulling this extra creepy, extra horrific episode from the vaults. Ash and Cam talk about some of the most fucked up murders that they've ever heard of- listener discretion is advised for this one y'all!  Yowzers!Cam uncovers the shocking murders committed by Canadian serial killer Allan Legere, AKA The Monster of the Miramichi, who stalked, prowled, and terrorized this area of the remote Canadian countryside for more than a decade.Ashley goes over the horrific Alexander Family murders, in which 16 year old Frank AKA "the Prophet" kills his mother and three sisters when "the Hour of the Great Killing was upon them", while his father played the organ and read hymns. Yep.Play Bingo with us! Download your Murder Bingo sheet HERE and play along with today's episode!✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

Welcome back lovelies! We have another unsolved case that's sure to suck you in!!Today Ash and Fallon are talking about the disappearance of the Beaumont children - one of the most famous unsolved cases in Australia.On a sunny day in 1966, Jane, Arnna, and Grant Beaumont went to the beach to play and were never seen again. The missing children sparked a massive search, but no trace of them was ever found. Despite numerous suspects, no one was ever definitively linked to the case. Grant and Nancy Beaumont lived the rest of their lives with the heartbreak of never having an answer to their biggest question - what happened to the Beaumont children?The case remains unsolved to this day.If you have any information about this case, or any unsolved crime, then you can share what you know with Crime Stoppers without saying who you are or getting involved. Rewards are available. Call 1800 333 000 or go to  www.crimestoppers.com.au  ✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

TW: SA, Domestic ViolenceWe are back with Part 2 of the chilling Pike County Massacre.April 21, 2016; Pike County, Ohio. Eight family members are brutally murdered in their homes—shocking, calculated, and still shrouded in mystery. A quiet Ohio town turned upside down by one of the most gruesome crimes in recent history. Today, Fallon is telling Ash about the sinister motives, hidden secrets, and dark twists that has become known as the Pike County Massacre.✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

This was originally released as a Patreon exclusive and now we're sharing with everyone!Don't forget, you can access episodes 1-15 of Ash Learns The Bible on Patreon RIGHT NOW!In our third episode, Kristal continues our journey with Exodus. Plagues and Passover and the Desert, Oh My! Kristal also makes some compelling arguments about how God is sort of like Cardi B.Kristal Adams is a Black woman who was raised Christian on the West Coast. She is a hilarious, well-respected and award winning comedian, writer and more... she's kind of a big deal. Find Kristal on her Linktree, check her out on TheGram, and find more info about and tickets to for her live stand-up shows here.Ryan Pregent is a Caucasian man who grew up Catholic on the East Coast, and is a former TSFU team member. ✨If you wanna get twice as many Ash Learns the Bible episodes each month, check out our Patreon! You immediately get access to all ALTB episodes that aren't on the regular feed, PLUS over 200 regular episodes, all ad-free! All for just $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

TW: SA, Domestic ViolenceApril 21, 2016; Pike County, Ohio. Eight family members are brutally murdered in their homes—shocking, calculated, and still shrouded in mystery. A quiet Ohio town turned upside down by one of the most gruesome crimes in recent history. Today, Fallon is telling Ash about the sinister motives, hidden secrets, and dark twists that has become known as the Pike County Massacre.✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

This week for our Summer Fun Faves series, we go back to Ash and former co-host Michelle for their take on the dumpster fire called the Fyre Festival.Models on yachts sipping champaign on what was once Pablo Escobar's island... influencers, delicious food, luxury accommodations, beautiful art and amazing music in the Bahamas. That's what was promised if you bought a ticket to 2017's Fyre Festival, tickets that went for well into the thousands to tens of thousands of dollars. What festival goers got was the opposite of the experience that they had dreamed of and been promised- basically 24 hours in hell.✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

Ashley and former co-host Cam team up to tell the story of the infamous Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh (AKA the sex guru, aka the Rolls-Royce guru, aka Osho), his advisor Sheela, and their unimaginably intricate Oregonian scandal. Ashley covers Bhagwan's background and how he earned his nickname, the "sex guru", as well as what eventually happened to the commune and its wild, wild leaders. Cam talks about Bhagwan's laughing gas addiction, Sheela's attempt to poison an entire Oregon County, and the rest of the crazy shenanigans that these hoodlums got up to! ✨Check out our Patreon. There is a FREE version!   https://www.patreon.com/TSFUYou get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed (ad-free for $5 and up members), AND you'll getTSFU episodes Tuesdays instead of Fridays! We have awesome welcome packages for new members at the $5 tier and above. 

This episode was originally released as a Patreon-only episode, but it was so good we had to share with everyone!Today, Ash teams up with friend of TSFU, Trevin from the podcast Live, Laugh, Larceny. Ash dives into the dark side of Kundalini Yoga - from the shady beginnings with Yogi Bhajan to the drama following the death of its second leader, Guru Jagat (aka Katie Griggs from Colorado). Once again, "it's not just yoga you guys!"(Wait, what? You don't have the Not Just Yoga shirt? Quick, get yours here!)✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

Welcome to the PREMIER episode of Unfcking Yourself with TSFU!!Over the years we have told you about a lot of fcked up stuff, and we know that's why you're here. But we also want to give our wonderful listeners a little positive energy for balance.In our first episode, Ash is joined by Nikki Salt, fashion content creator and personal stylist. Their conversation covers a wide range of topics - creating and creativity, talking to people, mental health, and cults (you really didn't think we could stray that far, did you?!?) - all working toward the end result of being your best self.You can find Nikki Salt (@nikkiesu) and all of her socials here.✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

In this blast from the past, former podcast co-host, Michelle Mosher, tells Ash a story about summer fun gone wrong.Michelle takes us to Kentucky's biggest and most famous party, the Redneck Rave (yes, we know that term is derogatory but we didn't name the festival)! The rave promises "mud, music and mayhem" and boy does it deliver! In June 2021 the rave resulted in a man having his throat slit, a woman being choked in a fight over a blanket and another man being impaled by a log, along with multiple lost appendages. No age restrictions and lots of Confederate flags, wooooo!✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

This week Fallon tells Ash about David McMillan, the notorious drug smuggler who made headlines with his daring escape from a Thai prison in 1996, where he was facing the death penalty for drug trafficking. Known for his passion for smuggling and his multimillion-dollar operation with partner Michael Sullivan, McMillan slipped past guards, made crucial calls, and arranged a flight out of Thailand...✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

This was originally released as a Patreon exclusive and now we're sharing with everyone!Don't forget, you can access episodes 1-14 of Ash Learns The Bible on Patreon RIGHT NOW!The Bible is back, babies! Ash still knows very little about the #1 best-selling book in the world, of all time... and this time she is joined by friends Kristal and Ryan, who come from very different religious backgrounds (see below).  In our second episode, Kristal dives into the second book of the Old Testament, Exodus. She talks about the plagues brought upon Egypt by God, who seemed to be on both Joseph and Pharaoh's side, it's very confusing. Then, the Israelites finally make it out of Egypt only to wander around the desert for years, following God, who generally took the shape of a pillar of smoke. The "chosen people" are not stoked.Kristal Adams is a Black woman who was raised Christian on the West Coast. She is a hilarious, well-respected and award winning comedian, writer and more... she's kind of a big deal. Find Kristal on her Linktree, check her out on TheGram, and find more info about and tickets to for her live stand-up shows here.Ryan Pregent is a Caucasian man who grew up Catholic on the East Coast, and is a former TSFU team member. ✨If you wanna get twice as many Ash Learns the Bible episodes each month, check out our Patreon! You immediately get access to 16 ALTB episodes that aren't on the regular feed, over 200 regular episodes, all ad-free! All for just $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

For this season of TSFU Presents, we are highlighting some of the worst of the worst of Yucky Yogis.  This episode is a throwback from way back when in Season 2, in 2020...  we were such babies!!Ash and Cam dive into two different cults for your listening pleasure! Ash talks about the Buddhafield cult and its leader Jaime Gomez aka Michel aka Andreas aka Reyji (or God King), who started off as a small time gay porn actor. And Cam covers Order of the Solar Temple, a super secret society whose founders drew inspiration from different UFO, Doomsday and New Age cults, making sure they hit all the bases.The gals also discuss some of the very relatable reasons that people join cults, and how the leaders control members.TW: sexual assault✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

The erratic behavior, public antics, allegations of trafficking and sexual abuse; grooming and cults, and generally abhorrent personal conduct continue. Make sure to listen to part I first!✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

Ash and former co-host Cam talk about the nuts-o shenanigans that went down on the Galapagos island of Floreana in the early 1930s in the last episode of season 4 from 2021! Jeepers Creepers!⁠Ash covers nudist, Nietzsche obsessed, metal denture sharing, German couple Dr. Friedrich Ritter and his younger lover Dore Strauch, and what happened on the small, desolate island of Floreana shortly after their arrival. Arriving to a deserted and barren island, the pair quickly became internationally known as "the modern day Adam and Eve". They were enjoying their privacy until two unwanted parties arrived: the Wittmers, a German family of four, and a gunslinging, self-proclaimed Austrian Baroness, accompanied by her two adoring lovers/servants who, at her behest, battled daily for her affection. Everyone hated each other and madness ensued.Cameron Dexter and Ashley had an amazing two year run of hosting the show together (if you're wondering where the first 2 seasons are, episodes 1-24, they're available on Patreon, along with 30 amazing guest interviews and more)!  You can follow Cam and find out about her latest projects on IG @cameronhollydexter. And if you're not new to the show, but somehow missed this gem, you're welcome!⁠✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

Today Fallon tells Ash about the disturbing world of Ezra Miller, the once-celebrated actor now known for a series of grotesque controversies. Fallon covers Ezra's erratic behavior, public antics, allegations of trafficking and sexual abuse; grooming and cults, and generally abhorrent personal conduct. The gals also discuss how Ezra's introduction to Hollyweird at a young age could have affected this, and the "toddler to train wreck" pipeline. Tune in next week for part II!✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

For our big finale on 2024's Shark Month, we reach back into the 2021 vaults and bring you a Patreon exclusive. This week Ash and Cam tell you about The Worst Shark Attack In History. This is a big one guys!The sinking of the USS Indianapolis on July 30, 1945, is still the U.S. Navy's greatest loss of life at sea. Roughly 300 men went down with the ship and the other 900 were left to survive adrift in the open, shark infested, Philippine Sea for the next five agonizing days. Only 317 of those men would survive, against all odds- dehydration, starvation, exhaustion, delirium and of course... sharks.✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!

We have covered many aspects of Amish life, but in today's episode of TSFU Interviews, Fallon gets an insider perspective from Mary Byler, Amish abuse survivor and CEO and founder of The Misfit Amish, LLC, a group that works to "bridge the gaps between English and Amish culture." Mary is also the author of "Reflections and Memories of An Amish Misfit: "My therapist says that's not true, but I digress". AND, as if that wasn't enough, they also host the podcast, The Misfit Amish and appeared in the Peacock docuseries, "Sins of the Amish", which we discussed in Episode 155- Amish Cults: Beneath the Bonnet.Mary was born Old Order Amish but escaped in 2004 after being sexually abused most of their life. Now Mary works to bring visibility to LGBTQ Amish and advocate for Amish children suffering abuse.Please check out Mary's website, The Misfit Amish. You can purchase Mary's book on Amazon!Support independent podcasters! Subscribe to and follow Mary's podcast on Apple, Spotify, Patreon, or your favorite podcast app.Follow Mary on Instagram , Facebook, and YouTube.*TRIGGER WARNING - SA✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 200 episodes that aren't on the regular feed, and you'd like them all ad free, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! There is actually now a new FREE version that you can try with no commitment!