That's So F****d Up

Join Ashley and Fallon as they reconnect after a break, catching us up on life's latest ups and downs—housing insecurity, mental health struggles, and some serious community love. Fallon shares news about stepping back from co-hosting, and the gals dive headfirst into the spine-chilling tale of the Amityville Horror.From the tragic DeFeo murders to the Lutz family's eerie encounters, they cover paranormal scares, family drama, and the infamous investigations by Ed and Lorraine Warren. It's a mix of personal updates, ghostly thrills, and supernatural skepticism! To hear all 25 episodes of Ash Learns the Bible, plus early access to regular content, and ad-free versions of all 600 episodes in our catalog, visit our Patreon!If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)Edited by Ryan Truby.

Ash is joined by long time Guru and research assistant Celi Riojas as they wrap up the Devious Dolls season!Ash tells Celi about one of the word's most infamous dolls, Annabelle. But the real Annabelle isn't like the scary one in the Conjuring movies, she's just an innocent looking Raggedy Anne doll... with very sinister intentions. Ashley also denounces her love of Ed and Lorraine Warren after finding out that Ed was allegedly sleeping with a 15 year old while married to Lorraine (which she apparently knew about), and that he was physically abusive towards Lorraine... Make sure to listen to TSFU Ep. 185- SPOOKY: The Smurl Haunting, The True Story Behind "The Conjuring: Last Rites" for all of the deets on THAT!-Crave more stories involving hauntings, ghosts, demons, aliens, cryptids, conspiracies, curses and lore? Check out these episodes!Episode 10- Vampires: Vlad the Impaler and The Blood Countess Elizabeth BathoryDexter's Conjectures 1- The Curse of King Tut's War TrumpetsDexter's Conjectures 2- All About AliensDexter's Conjectures 4- Cattle MutilationsDexter's Conjectures 7- Crop CirclesEpisode 36- Cursed Movies: The Exorcist and Dementia 13Episode 50- Aliens and Cryptids: The Abduction of Antonio Villas Boas and the Mothman of Point PleasantEpisode 58- Demonic Possession: The Devil Made Me Do It, the True Story Behind The Conjuring 3Episode 63- Conspiracy Theories: The Reptilian Illuminati and the Philadelphia ExperimentEpisode 86- Murder by Exorcism: The Death of Janet MosesEpisode 103- Real Urban Legend: Cropsey and Willowbrook State SchoolBinge or Bust?- Episode 8: Beware the SlendermanEpisode 113- Vampire Panic: The Highgate Cemetery VampireTSFU Halloween Spookysode- "Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark"Binge or Bust?- Episode 10: Devil's Road- The True Story of Ed and Lorraine WarrenEpisode 122- Haunting: The True Story Behind "The Conjuring"Feisty Festivals- Episode 3: Fun Religious FestivitiesPatreon Exclusive: Ash and Michelle Do the Bible- Episode 1: Genesis- The Garden of EdenIf you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  Audio engineering by Gaytrice Perdue.Research assistance by Ryan Pregent.

"Ed and Lorraine Warren battled demons, devils and poltergeists for over 50 years, influencing today's ghost hunters and spawning a blockbuster movie franchise. Exclusive interviews and a stunning archive charts their rise as a paranormal power couple."- Discovery+If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  Audio editing by Nicole Peek.

The Conjuring/Warrens/Demonic/Haunting fun continues with a June 2021 throwback to a very special Listenersode where Ash and Cam shared their own spooky experiences... but this version has a twist because Kristen shares her own personal story with the paranormal as well!The gals read Meg's listener story about the Black Bear Inn spree killings in Bethel, Maine. Ash tells a personal ghost story from her childhood... and Cam one-ups her with her own terrifying tale of demonic possession! Good Golly!If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  Audio engineering by Evette Darensbourg.

One of Ash's ALL TIME FAVES for suuuuure, that didn't quite make it onto "TSFU's 12 Faves of Christmas", but definitely deserved a spot there! This was the first episode about the Warrens and their cases that TSFU covered, way back in June 2021.Make sure to listen to last week's episode TSFU Ep. 185- SPOOKY: The Smurl Haunting, The True Story Behind "The Conjuring: Last Rites" first!Still to come this month:TSFU Listenersode 11 - Updated version with Kristen's own haunting story! (June 2021)Binge or Bust?- Ep. 10: Devil's Road- The True Story of Ed and Lorraine Warren (Dec 2022)TSFU Presents Devious Dolls- Ep. 4: Annabelle (Jan 2023)TSFU Ep. 165- The Amityville Murders and Haunting (Nov 2024)Ash and Cam talk about the true story behind The Conjuring: The Devil Made Me Do It! Jeepers Creepers!⁠Arne Johnson claimed that he was possessed by the devil when he stabbed his friend and landlord Alan Bono to death on February 16, 1981 in the sleepy town of Brookfield, CT. Prior to that, the affable 19 year old had been present at several exorcisms performed on his fiancé's little brother, David Glatzl. At the last exorcism performed on David, Arne challenged the demon that was terrorizing David to come into him and take him instead. The night ended in peace, with David and Arne seemingly free from the demon's grasp, but famous Catholic paranormal investigators Ed and Lorraine Warren told Arne what a terrible idea this had been and warned him, and the Brookfield police, that there would certainly be more trouble ahead...If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  Audio engineering by Evette Darensbourg.

Ash tells a story (besides her own - "TSFU Ep. 180- MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE: The Ashley Love Richards Story (Parts I-III) available now on Patreon) for the first time in 6-8 months, digging back into her obsession with the Warrens and The Conjuring franchise! She unearths a lot of very unsavory facts about the previously beloved Warrens... and tells the true story behind the fourth and "final" Conjuring movie, The Conjuring: Last Rites, about The Smurl family, who was viciously haunted and attacked in their home in West Pittston, Pennsylvania for over a decade.-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Audio editing by Tina Lukic.

LISTEN TO PART I AND PART II FIRST!Sean Moon is the youngest son of Sun Myung Moon, founder of the Unification Church (aka the Moonies), and his wife Hak Ja Han. He's a far-right extremist, Trump-loving rapper, and leader of the Rod of Iron Ministries. Sean loves AR-15s and bullet crowns, and hates his mother, who he refers to as the Whore of Babylon. Strap in, because the finale of this three part episode is a super wild ride!-Check out our Patreon for pics of Sean sporting his camo gear and bullet crown, along with links to some of his uhhh very interesting music videos... as well as a playlist of Ash and Kristen's fave country songs mentioned in the episode!-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Researched and co-hosted by Kristen Jones.-Audio editing by Tina Lukic.

LISTEN TO PART I FIRST!PART III, OUT NOW ON PATREON!Kristen finishes setting the stage for Sean Moon's gun-toting, far-right extremist, antigovernment and anti-LBGTQAI+, Pennsylvania-based World Peace and Unification Sanctuary Church (aka Rod of Iron Ministries), by telling Ash all about Sean's dad... leader of The Unification Church (aka The Moonies)!-To hear all 25 episodes of Ash Learns the Bible, plus early access to regular content, and ad-free versions of all 600 episodes in our catalog, visit our Patreon!-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Researched and co-hosted by Kristen Jones.-Audio editing by Tina Lukic.

Kristen sets the stage for Sean Moon's gun-toting, far-right extremist, antigovernment and anti-LBGTQAI+, Pennsylvania-based World Peace and Unification Sanctuary Church (aka Rod of Iron Ministries), by telling Ash all about Sean's dad... leader of The Unification Church (aka The Moonies)!-To hear all 25 episodes of Ash Learns the Bible, plus early access to regular content, and ad-free versions of all 600 episodes in our catalog, visit our Patreon!-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Audio editing by Tina Lukic.-Researched and co-hosted by Kristen Jones.

Anonymous chaos, gore galore, and the darkest side of the surface web. Ash and Erin continue their deep dive into some of the worst that the internet and society has to offer. From the Manosphere, 4Chan's rebrand to 8Chan... and beyond.Recommended listening order for max context on this insane rollercoaster of a rabbit hole:ASH GOES DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE: Ep. 1- Looksmaxxing into the ManosphereTSFU Ep. 175- 4CHAN: Incels, Trolls and WTF ScrollsTHIS EPISODE!!TSFU Ep. 179- GOVERNMENT FCKERY: QAnon (Part I)- Maybe They're Not So Qrazy After-AllTSFU Ep. 179- GOVERNMENT FCKERY: QAnon (Part II)- Maybe They're Not So Qrazy After-All-To hear all 25 episodes of Ash Learns the Bible, plus early access to regular content, and ad-free versions of all 600 episodes in our catalog, visit our Patreon!-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Audio editing by Gaytrice Perdue.-Ready for a virtual game night?! Head over to our Discord!

Alphas, Chads, Mogging to up your SMV, jelqing... wtf does this all mean? Ash tells you alll about it in ASH GOES DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE! Hang out with her one on one as she explains the manosphere, and a popular trend amongst young men on TikTok and in incel forums in the manosphere, looksmaxxing. Recommended listening order for max context on this insane rollercoaster of a rabbit hole:THIS EPISODE!!TSFU Ep. 175- 4CHAN: Incels, Trolls and WTF ScrollsTSFU Ep. 183- 8CHAN: Incels, Trolls and WTF Scrolls, Continued... (COMING TOMORROW)TSFU Ep. 179- GOVERNMENT FCKERY: QAnon (Part I)- Maybe They're Not So Qrazy After-AllTSFU Ep. 179- GOVERNMENT FCKERY: QAnon (Part II)- Maybe They're Not So Qrazy After-All-To hear all 25 episodes of Ash Learns the Bible, plus early access to regular content, and ad-free versions of all 600 episodes in our catalog, visit our Patreon!-If you'd like to support my escape to Indonesia, check out the GOFUNDME :)  -Audio editing by Dallas Hernandez.-Ready for a virtual game night?! Head over to our Discord!

Welcome to a festive rewind through 5.5 years of chaos, cults and crime!

Welcome to a festive rewind through 5.5 years of chaos, cults and crime!

Happy early Thanksgiving y'all... we've got a doozy for you this week! Kristen tells Ash the insane story of Omaima Nelson, who murdered her partner Bill Nelson on Thanksgiving Day in 1991...Trigger warning: this episode is loaded with mutilation, bondage, decapitation and cannibalism... ummm, Happy Turkey Day?Episodes 180 & 181 available NOW on Patreon! Join us over there for early ad-free access, Patreon exclusive episodes and updates and all of the behind the scenes deets! We've also just introduced a new Parasocial Bestie tier that's only $2.50 a month!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!☕️Buy us a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tsfuthepodcast

QAnon has been on Ash's "those mofos are crazy" list for a long time, but after this episode... we're not so sure!Join our Patreon for all of the behind the scenes deets! We've just introduced a new Parasocial Bestie tier that's only $2.50 a month!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!☕️Buy us a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tsfuthepodcast

QAnon has been on Ash's "those mofos are crazy" list for a long time, but after this episode... we're not so sure! Part II out now on Patreon! Join our Patreon for all of the behind the scenes deets! We've just introduced a new Parasocial Bestie tier that's only $2.50 a month!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!☕️Buy us a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tsfuthepodcast

Yes, that's right, after half a decade of trying to piss people off, TSFU got a bite back... and by a pretty big fish! Ash is officially a Suppressive Person or SP, someone that the church of Scientology finds threatening. Lil' ol' TSFU?! A threat?! We feel incredibly validated, thanks for the publicity gang- Read the hit piece here!Join our Patreon for all of the behind the scenes deets! We've just introduced a new Parasocial Bestie tier that's only $2.50 a month!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!☕️Buy us a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tsfuthepodcast

Ash and Erin each present half a dozen songs that totally stabbed us in the back... most of the songs mentioned sound cheery and fun- and are very much NOT. If you have Spotify, add them to your spooky season playlist, Happy Halloween y'all!Note: Episode 176 was a video update and is only available on Patreon, along with a ton of other exclusive content! Check it out, there's even a FREE version to try before you buy!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!

Anonymous chaos, gore galore, and the darkest side of the surface web. Ash and Erin tackle online harassment, from 4chan's early days to the Gamergate mess and beyond. Be careful online y'all, it's the goddamn wild west. And don't go to 4chandotcom because it's apparently become a porn site since we recorded

Ash and Kristen dive into the case of Sharon Lapotka: murder, sex, consent, and the dark side of online fantasies. WTF is going on online?! From BDSM to 90s internet rabbit holes... this one is wild!LINK TO GOFUNDME AS I AM NOW SURVIVING IN INDONESIA, AFTER ESCAPING THE POLITICAL LANDSCAPE OF 1930'S NAZI GERMANY... OOPS, SORRY, I MEAN 2025 GOOD OL' U.S. OF A!✨Check out our Patreon, there's even a FREE version to try before you buy!  (You get access to over 300 episodes that aren't on the regular feed and more!)

The usual TSFU content is back in full swing over on Patreon! They're more than TWO weeks ahead- Patrons got episode 175 this week!In this episode Ash and Kristen give you a little breather from the heavy topics they've had on deck recently - check out the Patreon to see what you've been missing! The gals talk about how the kids in different religions beat around the bush so Jesus doesn't see. Make sure to follow along with the lyrics in this post on our FREE Patreon (must sign up to view)! And watch the music videos in the show notes if you have time, they're hilarious!The Loophole by Garfunkel and OatesCatholic Girls by Frank ZappaLoophole by Noel MillerSoakin' USA by Zelph on the Shelf-Audio editing by Gaytrice Perdue.

WANT AD-FREE, EARLY RELEASE EPISODES (THIS HAS BEEN ON PATREON FOR TWO WEEKS ALREADY)... AND TO JOIN IN ON THE BIBLICAL SHENANIGANS? CHECK OUT OUR PATREON!Ash and Erin wrap up the shit show that is The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG) with episodes 3 and 4- The Hell Loop and Breaking the Chains!S3 E3- The Hell Loop: "Natalia moves in with the DePauls, yet Cynthia and Antwon's grip tightens from afar; Natalia's presence ignites chaos, driving a wedge between Nicole and Vince and pushing Vince to the brink of leaving." - IMDbS3 E4- Breaking the Chains: "Natalia fights to break free from the suffocating grip of her manipulative parents, Cynthia and Antwon; as their deceit unravels, she reclaims her life with a new, loving family." - IMDb

WHY WAIT UNTIL NEXT FRIDAY TO HEAR RECAPS OF THE LAST EPISODES, EPS 3 AND 4, WHEN YOU LISTEN TO THEM AD FREE ON PATREON RIGHT NOW?!Ash and research assistant Erin Collins finish recapping the second episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Natalia escapes her controlling parents, but she must face a dark past of lies and alleged abuse, uncertain if freedom is truly within reach." - IMDb

They're BAAA-AACCKKK! And so are we with a re-release on one of the wildest cults we've covered yet!Have you seen the colorful ads enticing you to come experience "China before Communism" through the art of song and dance at a Shen Yun performance? What about the far-right wing newspaper "The Epoch Times" that preaches misogynistic, racist, homophobic and prejudiced views? They're both owned by the dangerous cult of Falun Gong which Ash tells Caitlyn and Lindsey about this week!Caitlyn co-hosts PNW Haunts & Homicides, a podcast about true crime, the paranormal, and all kinds of spooky sh*t in the Pacific Northwest! Lindsey is the co-host of Ye Olde Crime, a podcast about spooky, strange, and surreal stories of the past. Support your local indie podcaster and check them both out today, wherever you listen to podcasts!✨If you want to hear the rest of this season of TSFU Presents, with episodes on THE CULT OF KUNDALINI YOGA and HOW I FOUND A CULT WHILE LOOKING FOR A CO-WORKING SPACE, join our Patreon for as little as $5 a month! ✨

Ash and research assistant Erin Collins recap the first half of the second episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Natalia escapes her controlling parents, but she must face a dark past of lies and alleged abuse, uncertain if freedom is truly within reach." - IMDb

SEASON 3, EP 2 IS ALREADY OUT - COMMERCIAL FREE - ON PATREON, JOIN US FOR AS LITTLE AS $5 A MONTH! YOUR SUPPORT MEANS THE WOOOOORLLLDDDD TO US!Ash and research assistant Erin Collins recap the FIRST episode of the FINAL SEASON The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)!"Desperate to escape her controlling adoptive parents, Natalia turns to Vince and Nicole DePaul, her last hope for freedom." - IMDb

SEASON 3, EPS 1 AND 2 ALREADY OUT ON PATREON, JOIN US FOR AS LITTLE AS $5 A MONTH! YOUR SUPPORT MEANS THE WOOOOORLLLDDDD TO US!Season 2 of The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)- 'Binge or Bust?' episodes 5 and 6 are finally here! Recap of season 3, episode 1 coming out on Friday! Make sure to listen to the episodes below first!TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 1 (part 1)TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 1 (part 2)TRENDING: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" is Back- Mega Mix Recap: Ep 2

Season 2 of The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG)- 'Binge or Bust?' episodes 3 and 4 are here! Recaps of season 2, episodes 5 and 6, as well as season 3, episode 1, coming this week! SEASON 3 RECAPS OF EPISODES 1 AND 2 ALREADY ON PATREON!!Ash is joined by former co-host Fallon Morey to give you the DL on what Common Sense Media's Stephen Morgan called, an "unbalanced portrayal" that "may leave viewers with more questions than answers". Check out the trailer for Good American Family and get fired tf up with us! Full versions of these episodes below!"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 3: By Any Means Necessary"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 4: Houses of HorrorGood American Family trailer✨Please consider joining us on Patreon for as little as $5 a month- your support means the world!

THIS IS THE SECOND HALF OF A 2 PART MEGASODE THAT'S PACKED WITH 3 EPISODES! LISTEN TO PART 1 FIRST!We've compiled all 7 Natalia episodes into 3 more compact episodes, for your listening pleasure. Starting with Ash and Megan from Give Us Morgue ! Unfortunately the file is too long for the public feed so we had to break it into 2 parts. And in the next section of this mega-sode, we have former co-host Ali and cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts!Good American Family trailerNatalia Grace Backstory and Update"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 1: Age, Rage & the Big Lie"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 2: For the Love of Money (YouTube Live)

Ash Here! We asked our wonderful PATRONS, if they wanted us to wrap up what Common Sense Media's Stephen Morgan called, an "unbalanced portrayal" that "may leave viewers with more questions than answers," The Curious Case of Natalia Grace (TCCoNG).Six and a half of them said yes, and when I saw the trailer for Hulu's upcoming HIT PIECE, ahem, "mini-series" Good American Family, I voted the other 3.5, and you all, in! Recaps of the FINAL (honestly tho TBD with ID, because it's them... ammirite??) episodes coming next week! And in the meantime, recap yourself on Natalia's whole story from birth, until where we left her at the end of season 2!We've compiled all 7 Natalia episodes into 3 more compact episodes, for your listening pleasure. Starting with Ash and Megan from Give Us Morgue ! Unfortunately the file is too long for the public feed so we had to break it into 2 parts. And in the next section of this mega-sode, we have former co-host Ali and cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts!Good American Family trailerNatalia Grace Backstory and Update"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 1: Age, Rage & the Big Lie"The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 2: For the Love of Money (YouTube Live)

Ash and Kristen wrap up "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera", wtith the most intense episode yet!Ash talks about Dahlia's allegations that she was sex trafficked by her mother and law enforcement corruption. They discuss blurred lines between care and control in addiction and mental health and and when the rights to privacy of information should and should not be respected. And Ash freaks tf out as we finally see Dia, who hasn't not been seen in public or on the internet in years."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - IDMake sure to listen to 'BINGE OR BUST?' Ep. 19- The Curious Case of... Bam Margera part I and 'BINGE OR BUST?' Ep. 19- The Curious Case of... Bam Margera part II first!

Make sure to listen to part I first! ✨PART III AVAILABLE ON PATREON NOW! Ash continues to breakdown "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera". In this episode we meet photographer and owner of popular YouTube channel Soft White Underbelly, Mark Laita. Amanda Rabb's story is introduced, as well as YouTuber and leader of the #freebam movement, BJ Courville aka BJ Investigates aka That Surprise Witness, who brought Amanda's story to light."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - ID

ID is back at their shenanigans and so are we! We asked our PATRONS what they missed and they said 'Binge or Bust'?... which yay, so did we! And wouldn't you know that journalistic juggernauts Investigation Discovery and Beth Karas released another intensely factual and unbiased docu-series at just the right time.We kicked off the start of 2024 with a full breakdown of all six episodes of "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" and now we're back with another curious case from ID, but one of a very different nature. It's "The Curious Case of... Bam Margera"."Jackass star Bam grapples with addiction and Lima takes over his treatment. Online advocate BJ attacks Lima's motives and a vicious battle ensues." - IDStrap in because Ash has A LOT to say!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In this episode Ash and Kristen dive into the cringe-worthy, and often kinda creepy af, world of TikTok FuckBois. From thirst traps to weird skits and personas, the gals tackle trends like mewing, "horny chefs", and bad advice from "dating coaches"—while touching on the unsettling rise of known human trafficker Andrew Tate.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In this episode of TSFU Interviews, Fallon chats with Erin Riley, author of "A Dark Force: 20 Years with a Covert Narcissist". They talk about recognizing narcissistic abuse and ways to process and deal with it, as well as her adventures in and around the music business"!Celebrated music maven Erin Riley looked like she had it all: a 1960s Mad Men–style upbringing on Manhattan's Upper West Side, then an escape to “find herself” in glamorous 1970s Hollywood, where she landed some of the most influential positions of the 1980s music industry. She hung out with rock stars like Keith Richards, Steven Tyler, James Taylor, and Jon Bon Jovi and chose the hit records for America's #1 rock & roll radio station, WMMR-FM. But her colorful, raucous, rock & roll life hid dark secrets.An emotionally neglected child with a generational legacy of stoicism and hiding painful truths, Erin had no real experience with love and healthy relationships. The marriage she thought would be her happily-ever-after led to 20 years of confusion, heartbreak, anger, and betrayal, all fueled by a malignant covert narcissist.Erin's honest, searing memoir recounts her self-discovery journey through a series of life's traumas and tragedies, her many bad decisions, and two toxic marriages. Her story will bring insight and guidance to survivors of narcissistic abuse and those questioning their relationships, and the hope that they, like Erin, can find a joyous rock & roll redemption." - AmazonPlease check out Erin's website! You can purchase Erin's book on Amazon! Follow her on Instagram and Facebook!

This week Ash is joined by Alecia Watson from Twisted and Uncorked! Alecia tells Ash about the murder of 15 year old Elyse Pahler at the hands of three teenaged boys who wanted to be more successful with their metal band. Don't tell us that Satanic Panic didn't exist!Check out Alecia's podcast Twisted and Uncorked here and follow the pod on IG- they actually post stuff!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

This episode dives into the infamous case of Mary Bell, an English ten year old who killed two pre-school aged boys in the '60s. From her troubled past to the tragic crimes and their aftermath, Ash and Kristen explore the familial and societal failures and lasting impact of her story.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

Ash and research assistant Erin wrap up the Menendez brothers saga, as they delve into the wild twists and turns of the Menendez Brothers' case, from explosive family drama to courtroom chaos. Further allegations of abuse by a client of Jose's, shocking trials, media frenzy, and those jaw-dropping verdicts. Plus, the brothers' prison lives, their unexpected TikTok fame, and fresh legal bombshells.Make sure to listen to part I first!✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

In case you didn't get enough of the Memendez Brother's story at the end of 2024, we thought we'd do a deep dive into it anyway!Ash is joined by research assistant Erin Collins as they look at themes of abuse, mental health, and privilege. They explore the dark side of wealth, parenting gone wrong, and the psychological scars of a toxic family dynamic. This episode delves into the brothers' abusive upbringing, the brutal killings of Jose and Kitty Menendez, and the aftermath—from confessions to legal battles.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month! 

It's finally here folks, the intro to Ash's obsession for the last seven+ months... the case of Amanda Rabb.Amanda Rabb, a young Black woman experiencing homelessness and drug addiction on the streets of Skid Row in Los Angeles, California, appeared on the hit YouTube channel, Soft White Underbelly, in December of 2019. She was heavily featured on the channel and became someone that the audience was heavily invested in. "Mental health expert" Lima Jevremovic came on the channel in August of 2020 touting a new virtual reality therapy that she had come up with that could cure addiction, mental health issues, homelessness and more... and it seemed that her and Mark Laita, owner of the Soft White Underbelly channel, already had a "guinea pig" in mind.This is the introduction to Amanda's story and the insane web surrounding her tragic death.Ash also discusses addiction and suicide stats post election and her journey through the different phases of relapse.✨Please consider supporting us on Patreon, for early ad-free content and so much more for as little as $5 a month!