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We're finally doing it — an episode dedicated to all things demisexuality!Understanding demisexuality was the lightbulb I needed in fully understanding myself and how/why my attraction has looked like the way it has. I always felt … weird. Different. And I didn't understand why I didn't experience that initial intense physical attraction towards someone, ever. In todays episode, we dive into my personal flavor of demisexuality, how I've adapted my dating practices to align with my unique needs and all about the lightbulb switch that has everything to do with my attraction needs.THINGS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Episode 160 The Podcast InstagramWORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsJoin her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inboxDM or email Amanda for current somatic/embodiment coaching opportunities

One of the most common things I get asked by you all is how I'm really doing post / during my divorce, and I get it. I haven't really talked about how I'm doing in a direct way regarding this particular piece of my story and while that's been intentional — I realized that not doing so was also a disservice to all of you and to this process.If there's anything I've realized through this experience, it's that there are not a lot of blueprints out there on how to navigate the process of a divorce. What you might expect. Shit you might face. I thought I could have predicted what the last year and half would look like. And I was wrong. It's been a rollercoaster. One that I'm finally sharing more about on todays episode. If you are going through a divorce or a de-escalation, please give yourself some grace. This shit is hard. Complicated. Messy. And if you know someone going through either, reach out to them and tell them you're there. PS: my neighbors downstairs were having what sounded like a rave during the only time I had to record this so, enjoy the weird ambient music LOLWORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsJoin her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inboxDM or email Amanda for current somatic/embodiment coaching opportunities

Did I ever think I'd have a former partner, a queer platonic partner and a platonic life partner together for an in depth conversation around all things queerness? If you had told me a few years ago, I would have been like hell no. I didn't even know platonic partnership could be a thing back then. AND to have former partners of mine want to participate in my world and be willing to navigate the nuance and intricacies of de-escalation alongside of me while also witnessing me in partnership? I imagined it — hoped for it — but to have it realized is such a gift.I love these humans. They are some of my most treasured folks in my inner constellation of loved ones. I have learned so much from being in partnership and in sphere with Rach (she/her), Kels (they/them) and Kristen (she/her). And I am just so f*cking excited to share this conversation with one of you.It might just be my favorite episode to date. Things we talk about in todays episode: queer-ness as a celebration of anti-normative living and being the idea of hierarchy and the variety of what commitment can look like in relationshipsromantic, platonic relationships internalized homophobia the difference between bisexuality and pansexualityhow the patriarchy and comp het impacts queer dynamicsand a shit ton of goofy energy and personal stories CONNECT WITH KRISTEN, RACH & KELS:Instagram: Kristen | Rach | Kels LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off Episode 100: This Is Pride (We're Here And We're Queer)Rachels previous episodes: Episode 148: Platonic Intimacy & Why We Really Went On A Break | Episode 86 | Episode 64: How Fluid id Sexuality Anyways? | Episode 51: Breaking the Stigma of Therapy | Episode 37: The Truth About Anxiety | Episode 9WORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Snag one of Amanda's June somatic embodiment coaching pop up sessions : 60 mins | 90 mins Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsJoin her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

This is my fifth pride out as a queer person, and I would be lying if I said that I haven't felt at a loss on how to being to find queer community. Part of queer-ness isn't just going from thinking you're straight to knowing you're queer and then voila, you've got the queer life of your dreams. It's a whirlwind of unpacking comp het, going through queer puberty (I used to scoff at the idea of this but it's a thing), and finding where you feel the most at home and yourself in your queerness.Not to mention getting your brain unf*cked from the patriarchy.These are conversations I have in my own circles, often, and I'm so grateful to have someone like Rainn in my own life to learn from and converse with. And I'm even more stoked that they agreed to come on the pod for us to have one of these conversations with all of you.If you aren't familiar with Rainn (She/They), she is a Black lesbian artist and writer living in Chicago. She's the Host and Co-Organizer of Fruit Salad, a monthly queer open mic. Her writing has appeared in several online publications, and her second poetry chapbook, “In our hands, citrus” will be released later this year. Her artwork has appeared at Co-Prosperity Sphere, The Whistler, The Robin in the Martin, and The Franklin.Things we talk about in todays episode:how the fuck to make queer friendstheir queer timeline and how she's navigated all things non monogamy, internalized homophobia and de-escalations in their relationships why lesbianism means so much to her how to know where you belong local artist & queer community, and the way she's personally contributing to it with Fruit Saladall things chosen family, sapphic love, power dynamics in relationships and beyond

CW: sexual assault, harassment“Something is wrong with me.” Words I used to think and say out loud all the damn time when I wasn't feeling turned on enough or when I felt pain during sex or when I started having sex with vulva owners and had no idea what the fuck I was doing. If only I'd known about how trauma and living in a culture rooted in the patriarchy can impact our own body's (and thus selves) ability to access our own needs for consent, our own voice and access our own desires. In todays very raw and incredibly important episode, I'm so honored to be joined by Mariah Freya (she/her), co-founder and CEO of Beducated — the worlds leading online shame free sex education platform — to deep dive into all of this and more.Things we talk about in todays episode:our shared experience with sexual trauma and how that has impacted our sex lives and capacity for pleasure cultivating safety in sex Mariah's dangerous experience in the tantric communityhow big tech is intentionally getting in the way of shame free sex education dissociation and PTSD responses during / around sex ways to deepen into your pleasure with intention navigating low libido, pelvic floor pain, cults, punk culture and beyond ALL THINGS BEDUCATED:Get 50% off yearly pass for Beducated — use code: fuckyes Best part? You can try ALL Beducated courses for 1 Day FREE! You won't get charged for the first 24 hours so if it's not for you, you can cancel :) ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Mariah's Instagram | Beducated's Instagram — use code “fuckyes”NXIVM documentary the Vow Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off WORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsPatreon to support the pod Join her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inboxFucking Queer Merch — 100% of proceeds from now through the end of Pride Month will go towards the LGBTQ+ charity/organization the community chooses

Well, fuck, this episode means the world to me and I am just so damn grateful to get to introduce you all beyond the gram to my queer platonic partner, Kels (they/them). I've loved cultivating this partnership over the last year of my life. They mean the absolute world to me, and finding our way into what we are today has been a journey — one that I'm very proud of, and one that we get into the nitty gritty of in this conversation.Relationships don't have to be sexual to be partnerships. Period. Our relationship continues to show me the depth and epic nature of platonic intimacy. And how epic and nuanced queer love is. How our queer love is. And I'm so deeply honored to get to share a little big piece of this love of mine with all of you. Things we talk about in todays episode:the story of our love and how we've evolved into what we are todaythe different types of attractionthe fear/complexities of building the blueprint of non-traditional relationships like oursthe overlap of the non monogamous and queer communities what our queer platonic partnership looks like in practice queer-ing your relationships, identity, top surgery, queer/gender expression & beyond LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off / proceeds go to the Brave Space Alliance WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsPatreon — donate to support the pod, content etc. Join her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

You probably know them as the trio that started the Multiamory podcast, and I'm so honored to know them as peers, friends and colleagues. When they reached out to let me know that their book was getting ready to be released and that they wanted to come on the podcast to share, it was an easy f*ck yes. If you are new to these incredible humans, Jase, Emily, and Dedeker have spent the last decade raising awareness, providing approachable resources, and combat the stigma faced by people in non-traditional relationships. Today, with hundreds of episodes, millions of downloads around the world, and a rapidly growing community, they are dedicated to offering practical advice and communication tools, grounded in the latest relationship research, guest experts, and years of professional experience. I'm so grateful for them and their commitment to this work. And if you happen to be experiencing them for the first time via this podcast, I'm so stoked to introduce you to all things Multiamory. Things we talk about in todays episode:what their work in the relationship sphere has taught them most about their own experience in relationshipswhy there's been a surge of folks stepping into non monogamy the last few yearswhat tools in the book that they personally use the most how it's okay to breakup navigating conflict, PTSD and somatic support, praise kinks, fighting for visibility & beyond!CONNECT WITH EMILY, JASE & DEDEKER:Get the Multiamory book - preorder today, available 5/23/23Multiamory's Instagram | Tik Tok ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Dedeker's original episode Ambiamory Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off WORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Fucking Queer Merch — 100% of proceeds from now through the end of Pride Month will go towards the LGBTQ+ charity/organization the community chooses Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsPatreon to support the pod Join her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

Is hierarchy in relationships ethical? A very important question that folks in non monogamous and monogamous relationships alike have been asking and unpacking and holy balls, do we have a lot to say about this subject. I've had a WILD ride when it comes to hierarchy in relationships since I was in high school. Although I didn't have the language at the time (and internal knowing and understanding that I could exist in any other ways), I've always been a queer, ambiamorous, demisexual relationship anarchist. AND I also externally looked like I was existing in and choosing a wildly heteronormative, “traditional” relationship that appeared very hierarchical. And yet, it wasn't that at all. Today, we talk about, simply, if hierarchical relationships are ethical. Hint: (you guessed it), my answer is clear and also nuanced, ‘cause there are so many systems and structures in place in western society that makes this answer much more complicated than a hard YES or NO. And, as always, I share what experiences I navigated in rectifying with these things in my own personal unlearning process around all things toxic monogamy culture, the patriarchy, heteronormativity and beyond. Let's get the f*ck into it. LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Episode 134: I'm Addicted To You Don't You Know That You're Toxic Monogamy Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off / proceeds go to the Brave Space Alliance WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsPatreon — donate to support the pod, content etc. Join her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

SHE'S BACK!!! And holy balls is this conversation juicy AF.If you're newer to the pod, Jordan Shomer (she/her) is a friend, colleague and our very own resident astrologer. Jordan is a Queer Jewish intuitive astrologer who recognizes the patterns and puzzles of astrology and synthesizes them into stories that land on your heart. She believes that within the map of the stars lives a blueprint to healing and guidebook to growth. She is passionate about holding space for you to greet yourself in all your cosmic glory. And f*ck me, is she pure magic. Every time we have Jordan on, I get full body chills. And in preparation for todays episode, I listened back to the episode we last did in December 2021 and when I tell you every. thing. that. she. predicated. came. true. And in true to form of our previous episodes, I got hella fucking emotional and am brimming with gratitude for this conversation, and I know you will feel it too. And learn SO much about what's to come and where we're moving from as a collective, so you can come home to yourself as the uniquely beautiful individual you are.Things we talk about in todays episode:owning and embodying our intuitive witchy selvesyour sun, moon and rising signs in astrologysetting boundaries and navigating the patriarchal culture in our intimate relationshipssaturn returns, what to expect, and how Amanda's coincided with the downfall of her marriagestanding in your power and coming home to your wholehearted selfanti-capitalism, what to expect astrologically speaking in 2023, finding the magic in the mess, breaking the binary, some personal updates & beyond CONNECT WITH JORDAN:Jordans Instagram | Newsletter Book a reading with JordanMoon gatherings ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off Jordans previous episodes: episode 76, episode 111 The 7 spiritual laws of success by Deepak Choprah Alok V MenonAll About love Thousand Miles (feat. Brandi Carlisle) by Miley Cyrus WORK, SUPPORT & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Fucking Queer Merch — 100% of proceeds from now through the end of Pride Month will go towards the LGBTQ+ charity/organization the community chooses Amanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsPatreon to support the pod Join her email list for free curated playlists and very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

I dropped the “I don't identify as polyamorous anymore” bomb a few months ago & I'm finally sharing the behind the scenes of why I arrived there. I promise you, it's not what many folks think. So let's get the fuck into it, bbs. Some things I talk about in todays episode:The mess and the magic of sifting through identity markers to figure out who the fuck you areMy own process of feeling seen within the label of ambiamory and what it means The collective cry around breaking the binary, and what that has looked like for my own journeyMy unique timeline of queer liberation, relationship anarchy, demisexuality, divorce & coming home to my deepest knowingCritical thinking & navigating the nuance of humanity Sifting through the balance of rejecting, at my core, the patriarchy & capitalism while finding ways to flow within the structures we currently have to operate withinWitchy astrology queer shit, somatic healing, trauma and nervous system recovery, gender fluidity & expression and beyond. LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Who I am Updated Instagram post Ambiamory definition Episode 151: Let's Talk Relationship Anarchy Episode 134: I'm Addicted To You Don't You Know That You're Toxic Monogamy WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - support the pod & join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik Tok Join email list for occasional nudges, offerings and love.

You've asked for an entire episode on all things relationship anarchy and I'm so stoked to be kicking off the conversation and deep dive into all things relationship anarchy with the one person that's made me feel the most seen by sharing their lived experience as a demisexual relationship anarchist who has been in polyamorous and monogamous dynamics alike : Abby Rosmarin aka my mutual and friend on Tik Tok (and in real life) @notjennifergarner Abby (she/they) is a writer, content creator, mental health professional, trauma-informed yoga instructor, and former commercial model. She is the author of 7 books, including the Amazon Bestseller The Ballerina's Guide to Boxing. She is also known as NotJenniferGarner on TikTok, where she has amassed nearly half a million followers. Abby is also getting her Master's in Clinical Mental Health Counseling.This conversation felt like a warm hug to my heart, and I know it will feel that way for you too. So cozy up with us and let's fucking go baby!Things highlighted in todays episode:what relationship anarchy is / means to both Abby and Amandarelationship anarchy being occasionally equated to abuse autonomy being falsely equated with lack of accountabilitynuance is everything ways to tangibly live out relationship anarchist values platonic partners, hierarchy, comp het and comp monogamy, intention and beyondCONNECT WITH ABBY:Abby's Instagram | Tik Tok | Patreon Buy Abby's Books ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Relationship Anarchy ManifestoRelationship libertarian Episode 145 : Abuse in Non MonogamyCrony Capitalism Amanda's Fuck Yes Relationship Manifesto Multiamory WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelFucking Queer Merch Amanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik TokJoin her email list for very occasional gifts & announcements in your inbox

Welcome back to the pod my queer-dos, loves and everyone in between.It feels really fitting to be coming back to the pod at this time of year — not just post the first birthday I've had in years that wasn't surrounded by chaos and pain because of my personal life, but also because this marks the 5 year anniversary of the pod. Crazy balls.So much of the last six months since I saw you last here has been me healing post divorce (and all that came with leaving) and integrating the values I have into my day to day world. And, in that, so much of my focus has been on belonging — both to myself, and what I want belonging in community and in space to look and feel like, both within interpersonal relationships and as the artist and facilitator that I am. And in todays episode, we deep dive into all of that and more. LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Fucking Queer MerchEpisode 149 : Divorce Is Not A Dirty Word32 Things Instagram Post WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - support the pod & join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik Tok Join her email list for all the important things / future group coaching & teaching announcements

I wasn't sure that I was going to share this episode today, but it felt right, so here we are. And, in true Amanda fashion, we're getting wildly vulnerable and moving through the mess on our season finale of the podcast about something so many of you have been wondering for months:Divorce. Specifically my divorce.This episode is messy, because divorce is messy.This episode is filled with feels, because transitions and grief like this brings up a lot.This episode also tackles the notion that divorce, de-escalations and breakups don't have to be (and often rarely are) this cut and dry, black and white, good / bad thing.Sometimes, divorce is the very thing that sets you free. It is and was for me. Things Amanda talks about in todays episode:What this episode is not going to be about Boundaries with respect to when / what to share around this chapterThe 3 life events that are most disruptive to our nervous system / mental healthThe difference between a breakup and a de-escalationLeading with loveThe reason for the divorce had nothing to do with polyamoryBeing a big feeler, relationship anarchist values, the things she's been doing to support herself during this time & what's next LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Fucking Queer MerchAll About Love by Bell HooksSupport Amanda - Venmo: @amandakatherineloyWORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik Tok Join her email list for all the important things / future group coaching & teaching announcements

Today's episode is one I honestly wasn't sure would or could ever happen.If you've been around these parts for a while, you will know Rachel Wright not just as the incredible psychotherapist & sex educator, but as one of my dearest friends, collaborators & business partners. From the moment we met in 2018, we instantly knew we were kindred spirits. Meant to meet. And we spent the next few years being partners in the truest form of the word. Platonic partners, but partners. We were each others lifeline and person on all things coming out as bi/pan/queer, on all things non monogamy and, truly, just in everything in life. What you don't know is that we didn't talk for almost an entire year.And today, six months after we began the process of repairing our relationship, we sit down for an extended conversation about what really happened & where we are today — in our relationship, and in our individual selves as queer, non monogamous folks.Things we talk about in todays episode:The nitty gritty on the first time we met up after a year long, no contact break The intense grief that comes with losing a friendship & the fear/anxiety around attempting to rekindle it Codependency in platonic relationshipsWhere we are now in our relationship with each otherHow Rach's relationship with her three primary partners came to beWhere we both stand in our queer & non monogamous identities now Queer crushes, butt plugs, polyamorous breakups, play parties, relationship anarchy & beyondCONNECT WITH RACHEL:Rachels Website | Instagram Article Rach Wrote Where She Came Out As PolyamorousADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Get all your self pleasure & partnered play vibes with Dame pleasure products — AMANDA10Sexy safer sex practices for all my vulva ownin' baddies with My Lorals Undies - AMANDA10Episode 64: How Fluid Is Sexuality ReallyJohn RomanielloEpisode 142 on Different Relationship ModelsWORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsAmanda's Instagram | WebsiteJoin her email list for freebies, musings & first dibs on announcements/offers

How the f*ck do we even begin to feel at home in our queerness, let alone cultivate queer community when we're starting to come out and own our sexuality? When I first came out four years ago (this month!), I felt SO damn confused. And SO damn alone. And, to be honest, I often still struggle to feel connected to my queerness beyond my individual self. Learning from Kiana and, honestly, just watching them live their life so damn connected to her queerness and authenticity has been so liberating for me — and I knew you would all resonate SO strongly with and learn so much from their energy, her story and their lived experience as a queer, and former non monogamous, person.If you're new to all things Healing Is Imperfect, Kiana (she/they) is a Black queer twenty something in love with her partner, her friends and her cat. She is a sex educator, pleasure mentor and sex work advocate. They believe in the past, present and future liberation of all people through fighting anti-Blackness, centering the queer and trans community, and connecting to whatever one considers spiritual. Kiana has learned from and is fueled by pleasure activism. She loves dancing, being by bodies of water, analyzing too many things and quoting their favorite TV shows and movies.Things she highlights and what we talk about in todays episode:their journey doing sex worktaking nudes & the safety/fears around sharing our bodieshonoring our lineages through the work we do & the way we show up in the worldthe multiple phases of our coming out journeyshow they began to cultivate their local queer community & where you can start with your own journey going from 5 years of non monogamy to monogamy in their current relationshipthe struggle of dating cis men, navigating the patriarchy, gender expression, identity politics and beyondCONNECT/WORK WITH KIANA:Their Instagram @healingisimperfect1:1 Pleasure Mentoring via The Expansive GroupADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Get all your self pleasure & partnered play vibes with Dame pleasure products — AMANDA10Sexy safer sex practices for all my vulva ownin' baddies with My Lorals Undies - AMANDA10@_sagetheflame @queersextherapyInventing AnnaIt's About Damn Time

We all have scars. The physical ones that we see, and all of the ones that are there that we can't.But we feel them. We know them. And, sometimes, we discover we have them years into our adult lives and the shame, the guilt, the overwhelm of processing it all can be all consuming and incredibly fucking daunting to face.TW: self loathing, body image, medical procedures/needlesIn todays episode and in honor of mental health awareness month, Amanda talks about her journey with scars — both physical and beyond. And shares some truth bombs & support around how you can start your own journey in detaching yourself from the shame and guilt of the scars you keep.LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Episode 144Amanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsWORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Patreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik Tok Join her email list for all the important things / future group coaching & teaching announcements

Coming into queerness later in life. Kink dynamics. Going from monogamy to non monogamy. Abusive relationships. Sex parties & beyond.All of that, and so much more, is explored in Rachel Krantz's book: Open, and I'm not lying when I tell you I devoured this book in the span of 24 hours and immediately reached out to have Rachel (she/her) on the podcast to get into the nitty gritty of it all — and this conversation does not disappoint. TW: emotional & psychological abuse, manipulation, gaslighting & self gaslighting, power dynamicsIf you're unfamiliar with Rachel's work — she's a journalist and one of the founding editors of Bustle, where she served as senior features editor for three years. Her work has been featured on NPR, The Guardian, Vox, Vice, and many other outlets. She's the recipient of the Robert F. Kennedy Journalism Award, the Investigative Reporters and Editors Radio Award, the Edward R. Murrow Award, and the Peabody Award for her work as an investigative reporter with YR Media. Open is her first book.And I imagine not her last — or at least, I certainly hope not ‘cause damn, it's pretty fucking incredible, and from a personally selfish perspective, so damn refreshing to have a first person, tell all memoir around the rollercoaster that is navigating the early days of queer liberation and non monogamy. I know so many of you have been waiting for this episode so let's get the fuck to it.CONNECT WITH RACHEL / READ OPEN:Snag your copy of Open: An Uncensored Memoir of Love, Liberation, and Non-Monogamy Rachels Website | Instagram | TwitterLook out for Rachels future podcast: Help Existing ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:Donate/Support to Abortion Funds Sign petition to defend Roe V. Wade Greedy by Jen WinstonWORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Peer support sessionsPatreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsAmanda's Instagram | WebsiteJoin her email list for all the important things / monthly announcements

Todays episode is all about the “growth mindset” mentality vs. the process of unbecoming, unlearning and coming home to ourselves that so many of you asked Amanda for after her instagram stories last week. As someone who lives her life outside of many of the traditional norm boxes that our society is rooted in, this has been on her heart big time, lately, and it's clearly been on yours too. We're surely a unique bunch and the Live Your F*ck Yes Life community wouldn't be what it is without all of you — my fellow people pleasing, trauma navigating, queer and/or non monogamous humans (and beyond!) So pop in your headphones, snag something yummy and cozy if it feels good to you & let's dive in. TW: eating disorder cycles, diet culture, trauma, panic attacks Things she talks about in todays episode:The desperation for true belonging The environment of the “fit in” mentality to thrive and be enough The good and the harmful pillars around the growth mindset & pop culture “hustle & grind” mentality Her experience moving from Canada to the US at nineteen and how growing up in and around immigrant families has impacted her experience living in the US Moving through the “starving artist” trope for the last decade as an actor & performer The impact of capitalism, the patriarchy & white supremacy on her choices, paths & perspectives Navigating feelings of broken-ness, fear, lack of purpose, panic & beyond LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:Atlas Of The Heart Past episode highlight round up: non monogamy, queer liberation, body neutrality, brca & people pleasing/trauma WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Peer support sessionsPatreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsAmanda's Instagram | Website | Tik Tok Join her email list for all the important things / future group coaching & teaching announcements

After our last episode on the various relationship models, it felt only fitting to expand on the relationship model that I know most folks are usually either very intrigued and excited by or absolutely terrified about considering — and that is: solo polyamory. I am not a solo polyamorous person. Never have been, and given my personal values and needs (and inherent biases and privileges), I likely will never choose to intentionally step into that path. But I know that it resonates HARD for many folks, and I knew this conversation that I had with Jayda in May 2021 for a workshop, that she consented to sharing on todays episode of the podcast with all of you, was gonna rock your world as much as it did.Jayda Shuavarnnnasri (she/they) is a queer Southeast Asian sexuality & relationship educator and trauma-sensitive facilitator. Also known as Sex Positive Asian Auntie, she works to liberate folks from sexual shame by creating space for authentic conversations about sexuality, relationships, identity and healing. The topics that excite her most are sexual exploration, identity, transformative justice, and non-conventional relationships. Things she highlights & talks about in todays episode:Curiosity & exploration of self in juxtaposition of societal normsTheir experience of being cheated on 4 years ago and how that led into research re: non monogamyNobody really knows what the fuck they're doing in any relationship styleThe false perception that non monogamy is the same as being “single & dating”Jayda's solo polyamory journeyThe relationship galaxy modelApproaching non monogamy from a lens of possibility vs. RigidityThe importance of being trauma informed in opening up your relationshipNavigating life as the caregiver/oldest child, choosing to be child free, astrology shiz, core values, shame and beyondCONNECT/WORK WITH JAYDA:Jaydas Instagram Jumping Off The Relationship Escalator self paced workshop Poetry collection: “From A Place of Love”

Confused AF about what kind of relationship model you actually want because all you've ever been taught is monogamy or bust? And even THEN, monogamy has soooo much variability from person to person around expectations, needs, what the relationship feels like/looks like, boundaries etc?Amanda was too. We aren't taught this shit. We're just thrown into the world to figure it out by the seat of our pants, so she's popping into your earbuds today to talk about just what your options really are, so you can move through your relationships and life decisions from a place that is rooted in your unique values, desires and needs.Things she talks about in todays episode: A breakdown of the different relationship models, from Monogamy to Relationship Anarchy (all along her Fuck Yes Relationship Model scale) — go to @amandkatherineloy on Instagram for the visual to follow alongWhat model she feels most particularly aligned withThe importance of knowing your values How to communicate with your partners so you can have aligned expectations RESOURCES:Polysecure by Jessica Fern122: Breaking Down Attachment Styles with Jessica Fern134: I'm Addicted To You Don't You Know That You're Toxic Monogamy Culture WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:Peer support sessionsPatreon - join her “close friends” list on Instagram at the $5+ levelAmanda's book, I Chopped Off My TitsAmanda's Instagram | WebsiteJoin her email list for all the important things / monthly announcements

After a short unforseen intermission, we're back for the rest of the season and Amanda is kicking off this post hiatus with a solo episode sharing about what she's been navigating and how she's really doing. Hint: it's been really f*cking hard. Things she talks about in todays episode: the intense losses she's experienced the last 2 years the excavation process of owning identities and navigating change grief, and the beast it is navigating depression for the first time in her life the 3 practices that have allowed me not to lose myself amidst this time

Okay I know the title is cliche but I did that for a reason ‘cause as we get into people pleasing season around these parts and what causes so much harm to so many of us, I wanted to get into something important we've never explicitly talked about on the podcast: expectations. In todays episode, Amanda dives into how expectations have caused a lot of pain in her life, and her system for identifying if expectations we have a rooted in our knowing or a false sense of self, and then how to communicate and interact with our own expectations and the expectations of others. If you've ever had someone not meet your expectations or had someone be upset with you for not meeting theirs, this episode is for you.

Happy 2022 loves. Or should I say, WTF am I doing with my life continued. Anyone else feeling this way? I know I am. I always have lots of feelings about new years resolutions, goal setting and beyond. But this year, it's different in a profound way. And I'm coming at you hot with a solo episode from my heart to yours sharing all about my struggles entering a new year — and I'm guessing you can relate. So grab a cup of coffee and join me as we kick off the new year with a change in perspective on some tried and true rituals that just don't MF serve us anymore.

And just like that, we've gone a whole entire year around the sun and it's time for our yearly astrology recap with the Live Your F*ck Yes Lifes resident astrologer — the one and only Jordan Shomer (she/her). She's an astrologer, intuitive, cosmic coach, and an Aquarius passionate about leading the charge into the future armed with cosmic consciousness and radical, unapologetic authenticity. Jordan sees our personal astrology and a blueprint to healing and guidebook to growth. In a world that expects us to be one thing, Jordan aims to illuminate and affirm all of your beautiful complexities. And on todays episode, we dive deep into everything that went down astrologically in 2021 and unpack what the stars say is to come as we head into 2022. Things we talk about in todays episode: a step by step astrological look at the year 2021 The two main energies we've been navigating as a society this year and how that's led to our individual experiences the intensity of Venus as of 12/17/21 and how our relationships are going to be impacted over the next few months the shifting of the nodes and what the next 18 months or so have in store for us the collective movement towards breaking away from the traditional norm we've been grounded in over the last 200 years liberation, our relationship to change, navigating through the f*cking mess and beyond.

Last week, I went to a doctors appointment that I've been putting off for a couple of years out of fear. And the appointment brought up some stuff I've been pushing to the side to tackle head on since I found out I had the BRCA 1 gene mutation 3 years ago. All of you know that having the BRCA 1 mutation is linked to my risk to breast cancer, but what many of you probably don't know is that it's also linked to ovarian cancer — which means that if any family planning is involved in my world, it HAS to happen before I turn 35. I've been unpacking this part of my story a lot behind closed doors, but I've never done it with all of you so, in true Amanda in the mess fashion, I'm opening the door to this conversation in todays episode. Things I talk about in todays episode: how to know if we're supposed to be a parent choosing to have kids in the climate we live in the different tenants of the relationship escalator how 3 years ago, I went from knowing I wanted kids no matter what to not wanting them overnight the ethics around having kids with a genetic mutation of this nature the nuclear family polyamory, ovarian cancer, the BRCA gene and beyond

You loved her the last time she was here and she's BACK! Gabrielle Stone (she/her), a fan favorite on the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, makes no secret about her past with toxic relationships & a cheating MF of an ex husband. And she's shared it all in her best selling books and on her podcast and beyond. I've been having a lot of conversations in my DMs and with friends about the expectations and needs we place on our partners and, given that I am polyamorous and inherently bring that bias and lens to any conversation around relationships, I wanted to bring on someone who consciously chooses monogamy to have this conversation with and knew that Gabrielle was the gal to call upon. Things we talk about on this episode: conversations we've had with our friends around the important things in relationships our shared need to be seen, loved and championed for who we are how societal norms have informed our paths in relationship dynamics & choices the importance of communication the BS narrative that healing can only happen when we're single the lessons we can take from the relationships we've had and have the idea “soulmate” or “the one” Amanda's constellation way of viewing her relationships the needs & expectations we have in our romantic partnerships

Demisexual sluts unite. Okay, all jokes aside for a minute, today on the podcast, we're deep diving into all things demisexuality. Whether you identify as a slut or not, you're gonna LOVE this conversation where my friend and fellow polyamorous creator & educator Jess deep dive into our personal experiences coming into our demisexuality — and so much more. Who is Jess? Jessica Levity (she/her) is a digital media and live entertainment producer and entertainer livin' in Reno, Nevada. Pre-panny you could find her on stage in a variety of touring shows through her company Homeslice Productions. After the pandemic killed her industry, she finally launched a "back-burner" project called "Remodeled Love", whose mission is to "expand the cultural narrative on healthy relationships and polyamory". It is now her most successful (and global) project! She's a white, cis woman, who identifies as a queer, polyamorous, demisexual slut. She's also a mama, an anti-capitalist, and witchy as fuck. If you don't know her, get ready to fall in love with her energy, her real-ness and the hilarity that ensues in this conversation. Things we talk about in todays episode: Woo practices & outlining the most important pieces of our dating profiles The definition of demisexuality What being demisexual has meant for us Our group chat of polyamorous creators How things plays into our individual journeys with kink How we both feel about being demisexual and how it impacts our polyamorous journeys Power, expectations, flirting, body dysmorphia and beyond

TW: eating disorder cycles, bullying, queer shame, the holocaust, rapeWhen I was thinking about how I wanted to start this season, I knew I couldn't get into any conversation and bring anyone on before speaking to the deepest thread of my personal life these last few months and since the end of season 5. Which is why I am so excited to share this conversation and human with you. Dana Christy (they/she) — to me — is before anything, one of my deepest personal healers & someone I am grateful to call a friend. To the rest of the world, they are a queer and trauma informed certified Shiatsu practitioner, licensed Massage Therapist, and therapeutic yoga practitioner under the umbrella of her wellness practice WellSpring Healing Arts. Dana studied bodywork and East Asian Medicine at Zen Shiatsu Chicago and earned yoga teaching certifications for children and adults with Global Family Yoga and Yogaview. Dana specializes in working with trauma, autoimmune conditions, chronic illness, and the LGBTQIAP+ community.Things we talk about in todays episode:The various roles we play in our day to day lifeWhat I've been navigating within my own healing journey the last yearChronic pain / symptoms How to even begin to come home to your bodyThe bullshit narrative of healing in our culture todayThe “healed people heal people” trend on Tik tok and why we hate itWTF trauma even isYeast infections, queer shame, recovery, simple & accessible healing tools and beyond

Happy start to season 6, my Live Your F*ck Yes Lifers. It always brings up so much gratitude for me when I kick off a new season of the podcast, and this one is no different. As always, on this podcast, we tackle taboo subjects that aren't spoken to very often. And we're going in that space this season, DEEP. And I ask that you come in, as always, with an open heart and mind. Create space in yourself to learn and be curious. This is how we grow beyond our wildest dreams, my loves. Let's do the damn thing. Things I cover in today's episode: The mess of being a MF human The light & the darkness and everything in between Where the podcast is moving from now on / what to expect moving forward The things I've navigated over the course of the last 3 years Coming home to yourself Change & evolution & full circles and beyond

And just like that, we've come full circle and are at the end of this season of the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast. Which feels incredibly fitting to be ending at the beginning of Pride month since Amanda started this season with coming out as polyamorous. What. A. Season. On todays episode, Amanda reflects on the last two years of her life. On what coming into her queerness, and coming out has done for her. On what navigating the waters of polyamory has given her. And so much more. Pull up a chair, some headphones, or a cup of coffee and join her as we close out this season with an emotionally heartfelt heart to heart.

Todays episode is a little different & fun — I’m answering some incredible community based questions around all things sexuality, polyamory and beyond. I haven’t done a q&a episode in a while, and while I answer questions all of the time on Instagram and Tik Tok, it’s really tough to really peel back the curtain and answer with any level of depth on those platforms. So today, we’re getting down and dirty in the goods. Pull up your headphones and press play to laugh alongside of me and rock out this special episode!

Has anyone else experienced weight gain during the pandemic? It’s something that I’ve been personally navigating and, as a human in recovery from eating disorder cycles and body dysmorphia, I have a lot of things to say on the subject. Check out todays episode for a deep behind the scenes dive into the struggles with loving our bodies and the experiences that Amanda has faced recently and the major takeaways they have given her. If you’ve navigated any kind of eating disorder cycle, body dysmorphia or disdain for your body , this episode is for you, love.

What is MRKH syndrome? Until I met Kylie, I had no idea either. When Kylie found out she had MRKH, she felt completely alone. And while it’s rare (1 in 5000 women have it), it’s something that many of us can relate to — whether we’ve had our own experiences around unexpected diagnosis that change our lives, any struggles when it comes to sex or infertility. Kylie is from Toronto, Ontario. She’s an inspired creator, a deep feeler, and a performer at heart. She’s a human of many passions: people, dogs, music, movement, self-discovery, mental health, craft beer, Italian food, coffee, tattoos, true crime, and writing. And she’s turned all of these passions into getting her own story of living with MRKH syndrome into the world, and developing awareness of it so others feel less alone. Things we talk about in todays episode: How Kylie discovered she had MRKH The ins and outs and MRKH Navigating shame Her journey with sex and not feeling “normal” How the diagnosis impacted her mental health Normalizing the lack of desire to have children What she would tell her twenty something year old self Infertility, partnered sex, all things taboo and beyond

On todays solo episode of the podcast, Amanda deep dives into her journey through heartbreak and grief over the last year of her life. Grief is a beast. And the last year has been a year where collectively and individually, we’ve been grieving in a deeper way than ever before. Friendships have shifted. Longterm partnerships have ended. And dating? Don’t even get her started on it. Check out todays episode for a deep behind the scenes dive into the struggles with heartbreak and grief that Amanda has faced recently and the major takeaways they have given her. If you’ve navigated heartbreak and the end of relationships in your life, this episode is for you, love.

This gal? She’s Eat, Pray, Love but with all the real talk and vulnerability and delicious messiness that is real life. She’s been through it all — a massive divorce post affair, heartbreak, a solo adventure trip to find herself. All of which led to her writing her book Eat, Pray, #FML — and in todays episode, we deep dive into all things love, heartbreak, grief, self love and beyond. Gabrielle Stone is no stranger to the world of entertainment. Growing up on set with her legendary scream-queen mother, Dee Wallace (Cujo, E.T.), she had days of licking off mommy’s fake blood and watching behind the scenes movie magic. Seeing the world with mom and dad gave her the travel bug at an early age—until Gabrielle experienced a real-life horror when she lost her father suddenly at age seven. After many years in the industry herself, Stone transitioned from meaty acting roles to writing and directing. Her award-winning films It Happened Again Last Night and After Emma gained her awards for writing, directing, and acting—but she had a bigger role in life that would soon present itself: freaking badass.  After the rug was vigorously pulled out from under her when her husband’s affair came to light, she found herself falling into the arms of another man. After a second failed attempt at love and a massive heartbreak, she decided that instead of landing flat on her ass—she’d make a career out of it. Things we talk about in todays episode: The journey that led her to write her book Her experience of and perspective around grief and heartbreak The biggest thing she’s learned on her journey Patterns in relationships and where they come from Love bombing What her next book is about Red flags to look out for when dating, some never before shared truths about the characters in her book and beyond

Vaginal Health. Pain With Sex. STI stigmas.As vulva owners, it can be incredibly frustrating to know what’s normal. From the moment we start menstruating, there are so many things to figure out — and little to no education around it. And it’s frustrating as f*ck. Finding a gynecologist that has been a true advocate for my health, and that I trust deeply, was a very important part of my own health story, and I am so thrilled to welcome my very own to the podcast.Dr. Sameena Rahman is a practicing gynecologist with a solo practice in downtown Chicago specializing in female sexual dysfunction, menopause care, vulvar dermatosis , and pelvic pain as well as 4th trimester care. She has an academic affiliation with Northwestern Feinberg School of Medicine as a Clinical Assistant Professor where she teaches medical students and residents. She grew up down south in North Carolina and attended undergrad at Duke university and medical school at the University of NC at Chapel Hill and completed residency up north in Massachusetts. She worked in Southern California for years at USC prior to moving to Chicago and getting married . She loves to teach, peloton, and spend time with her kids and family. Things we talk about in todays episodePainful sex — is it normal?Pelvic floor dysfunctionHPV and the likelihood of getting an abnormal papBirth control pillsBeing an advocate for yourselfWeird discharge and what it means The science behind how to really treat our vulvas and vaginas with love

In todays solo episode, Amanda candidly shares about her pattern of hiding — something she’s been actively working on in therapy for the past few years. She deep dives into the ways in which she’s hidden in her life — via her years of eating disorder cycles, hiding her goofy self because of her years of being bullied all the way to hiding her sexuality and propensity to polyamory. Wanna know how to fully embody your fuck yes self? Breaking the pattern of hiding is a crucial step. So let’s deep dive into this emotionally raw episode and bring the tissues — you may need them. She certainly did.

I’ve been wanting to have a conversation around attachment theory and the various attachment styles on the podcast for a long time, and I knew as soon as I started reading Polysecure that I needed to have Jessica on to break it all down. Jessica Fern is a Psychotherapist, Certified Clinical Trauma Professional, and author of the book Polysecure: Attachment, Trauma, and Non Monogamy. In her international private practice, Jessica works with individuals, couples, and people in multiple-partner relationships who no longer want to be limited by their reactive patterns, cultural conditioning, insecure attachment styles, and past traumas, helping them to embody new possibilities in life and love. Learn more at JessicaFern.com. Things we talk about in todays episode: Her work as a psychotherapist and what led her to focusing on attachment styles and polyamory The four different types of attachment Her perspective around identifying with our attachment styles versus the way to approach the path to building secure attachments Ethical non monogamy and polyamory How we develop our individual attachment styles How to develop secure attachments in ethically non monogamous relationships The difference between a secure base and a safe haven The HEARTS action steps, stepping off the relationship escalator, evolution & growth and beyond

In todays episode of our “Let’s Talk Polyamory” series of the podcast, we close out this mini series by talking about all of the benefits that polyamory has brought to our lives. Polyamory can bring up a lot of challenging things to the surface, but the rewards are amazing. So today, for our final episode of this polyamory series, we deep dive into the gifts that polyamory has given us, individually and as a couple. Feeling heaps of gratitude and I hope you all love this episode as much as I loved recording it and reflecting on the last two and a half years of my life.

In todays episode of our “Let’s Talk Polyamory” series of the podcast, we deep dive into all things fear of abandonment and replacement. Todays topic really hits close to home for both of us, in very different ways. And it seems to hit close to home to many of you as well — next to jealousy, this has been our most requested conversation! Tune in to todays episode to hear all about: how we’ve navigated these fears pre polyamory specifics around how we’ve struggled with these fears in wildly unique ways how attachment theory plays into this where this fear really stems from Amanda gets vulnerable AF about some of her experiences that have led to her feeling more of these feelings in the last year why we attract people into our lives that amplify our fears tools that have supported us while navigating fear of being replaced or abandoned and beyond

In todays episode of our “Let’s Talk Polyamory” series of the podcast, we deep dive into all things perception. I get asked about this all of the time and I get it — I was wildly concerned about how I would be perceived / the reactions my friends and family would have before coming out as polyamorous. Not to mention how it would impact my online presence and beyond. So we deep dive into all of that. Tune in to todays episode to hear all about: how we both felt about how we would be perceived before we came out as poly the reactions of our friends and family the mis-perceptions around ethical non monogamy & polyamory how our own perceptions and biases around the things we are pulled towards can produce massive feelings of fear and shame the root of why fear of perception has impacted us individually and beyond

Ever since coming out as polyamorous, I’ve gotten SO many DMs and messages with really incredible questions from all of you. So I decided to do a special polyamory series of the podcast, and bring on my husband Kevan every week to talk about the biggest questions, fears & beyond that we receive to speak to these topics in a deeper way. The number one question I get? How do you navigate jealousy? So today, Kev and I break down our personal experiences around jealousy, what’s worked for us and the biggest tools that have supported us in navigating jealousy when moving from a monogamous framework to a polyamorous one. This episode is a deep one (and one for you no matter how you choose to do relationships ‘cause we all experience jealousy to a certain degree, eh?) So buckle up and let’s f*cking go!

So many of you have been sharing with me that you’ve been having a global case of the “meh”s. Feeling constantly exhausted and not sure how to be/do/behave and beyond. I had another episode planned for today but after so many of you responded that you were also feeling this way, I decided to hop on the podcast and share a quickie episode about why it’s never been more normal for these feelings to exist — for us to not be okay. And yeah — I get candid AF about my own experience with this shit and into it with my nerdery around neuroscience. You know I can’t help myself. Want twenty minutes of feeling better about why you’re feeling the way you’re feeling (or not feeling much of anything these days) and it’s exhausting? This episode is for you.

I am so excited to share this conversation with one of my favorite humans who advocates for all things ethical non monogamy: the one and only Gabrielle Smith. Gabrielle Smith (she/her) is a Brooklyn-based sex and relationship writer. She specializes in looking at ethical non-monogamy, LGBTQ+ topics, mental health and sex-positivity from an intersectional standpoint. Her work has appeared in publications like SELF, Cosmopolitan, Greatist, Insider, Bitch Media and various others. She provides resources about ethical non-monogamy on her Instagram @bygabriellesmith. Things we talk about in todays episode: Gabrielles journey to ethical non monogamy The importance of non sexual life partners Why capitalism and the nuclear family has created a problematic foundation Solo polyamory The joy of the “choose your own adventure” way of doing relationships Dating anecdotes as a bisexual woman Her experience of being a black woman in the polyamorous/ENM space Kink, sexual liberation, emotional intelligence and beyond

…and the list goes ON on todays very special episode of the podcast when I celebrate turning 30 by sharing thirty things I would tell my twenty something year old self. I’ve been doing an episode like this since I started the podcast and it’s always my favorite way to celebrate my birthday and take stock of the lessons I’ve learned so I can share them with all of you. Writing these out, I got really in my feels — le duh, it’s me. My twenties were a bumpy AF ride — and everything I’ve learned have come from so much: The moments of celebration, alignment and fierce confidence….from coming out as bi & poly and owning my unique way of loving to publishing a book to getting my preventative double mastectomy to creating a life & businesses that I love and beyond. And, of course, the moments of shame, overwhelm & not-enoughness…from my eating disorder cycle to navigating panic attacks to having my heart broken…and so many more things that I dive into and share on todays episode of the podcast. Sending so much love to my younger self and to all of you — we’re all simply doing our best, eh? Let’s keep showing up through all the fears, the feels and, of course, the fucks.

I’ve been getting a lot of questions around what the ins and outs of me coming into my bisexuality, and I realized I’ve never dedicated an entire episode to this very important topic — and that changes today! In todays episode, I dig deeper into: the three big reasons why I didn’t own my sexuality until my late twenties the timeline of me coming into my sexuality why I didn’t have an intimate experience with a woman until I was 28 years old why I believe we’re seeing such an upswing in people coming out as part of the LGBTQ+ community and as gender fluid the last few years why I started owning my bisexuality and propensity for polyamory at the same time … and so much more We’re breaking the stigma around bisexuality once and for all — so let’s dive into this magic. You ready? Here we go.

The “I Don’t Give A F*ck” mentality that everyone tells you you need to achieve in order to be a badass, confident goddess? It’s Bullsh*t. For the longest time, I have self identified as a people pleaser. At first it was seen pretty exclusively through a negative lens — and in many ways, it was something I *really* struggled with.  I gave so much of myself to everyone else that there was nothing left to give myself and I would walk around every day feeling so burnt out & irritated. I unknowingly practiced co-dependency in many of my relationships and rarely got any of my needs or desires met — which led to heartache, resentment and beyond.  And I was SO focused on what everyone else thought about me that it led me to years of eating disorder cycles, staying in toxic relationships, staying in the closet around my queerness and my polyamory and beyond. ...just to name a few. In todays episode of the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, I break down what people pleasing really is all about and how it CAN be a superpower of yours — you just have to know what tools to implement so you can fully step out of the darkness and into your unique magic.

Anyone else feel overwhelmed AF this time of year? We’re already bombarded with messaging about “try this thing and you’ll magically be happy and healthy and madly in love with yourself” throughout the year, and this time of year, it comes out in MF intensity. I know your heart is endlessly seeking growth. Self awareness. Self Love. Healing. I’m right there with you, love. But I also know where the magic of that path lies…and it’s NOT in that new diet, workout program, business coach, new career path, meditation app and beyond. In todays episode, I’m sharing with you my tried & true practices as I step into a new year/season with intention in the way that nobody wants to talk about because it’s not gonna sell the big bucks and isn’t easily marketable. The inner reflection work that ACTUALLY sets you up to step into your unique magic and embody YOUR f*ck yes self. ‘Cause you MF deserve to feel true self acceptance, health, joy, and wholeness. Let’s f*cking go, shall we?

I can’t tell you how much I needed this conversation for my own spirit — and I know it’s going to shed so much light on your own unique experience of this year, and bring hope to your heart around what’s to come. When I was thinking about how I wanted to round up this wild and exhausting year, I knew that I needed to bring my favorite astrologer friend, Jordan Shomer, back onto the pod and do a deep dive into this year and what’s to come. If you missed her on episode 76, here’s some info about the magic that is Jordan Shomer — Your Astrologer Friend! Or, as she likes to say: a cloud of cosmic space dust zipped into a human suit! She’s an astrologer, intuitive, cosmic coach, and an Aquarius passionate about leading the charge into the future armed with cosmic consciousness and radical, unapologetic authenticity. Jordan sees our personal astrology and a blueprint to healing and guidebook to growth. In a world that expects us to be one thing, Jordan aims to illuminate and affirm all of your beautiful complexities. Things we talk about in todays episode: all things Saturn return and the astrological wildness of your late twenties/early thirties the pressure to have everything figured out in our twenties, and why astrology teaches us differently how the stars have reflected the oppression, capitalism & suffering that has been so prominent leading up to this year a step by step astrological look at the year 2020 — and why it’s no surprise that this year has been massively transformative on a collective (and individual) level what we’ve witnessed as a result of these cosmic shifts in our own lives and on a collective level the divide in the American culture The importance of the date: December 21st, 2020 liberation, inner knowing, navigating through the f*cking mess and beyond.