Digging Through Dominoes

In this conversation, Teri Anderson shares her personal journey with tattoos, detailing the stories behind each piece, the significance of cover-ups, and how tattoos have served as a form of therapy and self-expression throughout her life. She discusses her experiences with trauma and healing, emphasizing the role of art in her recovery and identity. In this conversation, Teri Anderson shares her personal journey through tattoos, exploring how they serve as a form of self-expression and connection to her family. She discusses the significance of each tattoo, particularly those that commemorate her grandchildren and her late son, Joshua. Teri reflects on the healing power of art and the emotional stories behind her tattoos, emphasizing the love and memories they represent. As she prepares for a birthday celebration in Europe, she expresses gratitude for her supportive community and looks forward to future adventures.

In this conversation, Teri Anderson explores the profound connection between trauma and tattoos, discussing how individuals use body art as a means of self-expression and healing. She highlights the common experiences of trauma survivors and the various ways they cope, including the use of tattoos to tell their stories. The discussion delves into the symbolism behind popular tattoo designs, the significance of memorial tattoos, and the transformative power of art in the healing process. Teri emphasizes the importance of understanding the narratives behind tattoos, encouraging listeners to see them as expressions of resilience and recovery. In this conversation, Teri Anderson explores the profound connection between tattoos and personal healing. She shares various stories behind tattoos that symbolize resilience, trauma, and recovery. The discussion emphasizes the importance of vulnerability, community, and self-expression in the healing journey. Teri highlights how tattoos serve as reminders of strength and transformation, while also addressing the emotional weight of personal experiences and the significance of shared narratives among trauma survivors. Takeaways Tattoos can represent deep, unspoken trauma. Not all tattoos are linked to pain; some celebrate joy. Art on the body can be a powerful storytelling tool. Coping mechanisms for trauma have evolved over time. There is one thing that the tattoos of trauma survivors have in common. And that is a deep.That is a deep, soul crushing pain that's either known or unknown, spoken or unspoken. Maya Angelou said, up from a past that's rooted in pain, I rise. And I think that's very true with what we see in today's culture of trauma survivors telling their stories and letting others see exactly. how they're feeling. We're reclaiming our bodies. We're reclaiming our thoughts. We are reclaiming our identities. Before I go any further, I want to say that not all tattoos are rooted in pain. Not all tattoos are rooted in trauma. but for those of us that have chosen to wear our stories. That's the case. In past decades, the survivors of trauma dealt with their trauma. through a lot of different coping mechanisms, including avoidance, substance abuse, seeking social support, religious practices, rituals, creative outlets, sometimes therapy, but therapy wasn't always. Therapy was pretty much a stigma in past decades. In today's culture, with tattoos being more prevalent, and the stigma of self-harm. being so heavy. Many of us have chosen to tell our stories. through the art on our bodies.   Teri Anderson (05:10.688) And I wanted in the past, the past episode, we talked a lot about the correlation between trauma. We spoke a lot about the core. I spoke a lot. I spoke a lot about the correlations there are between trauma and tattoos. Here we are in 2025. My traumas started in 1962, the year I was born. A lot of them were seared into my soul and I didn't know what they were. I had no idea what they were. But I wanted to go through in this episode here and kind of show you some of these. So you'll be aware if you see someone with some of these tattoos, you're be able to put it together and you're gonna be able to say, oh my gosh, I know what that means instead of, oh my gosh, that's trash. That was totally stupid. It might give you a little better understanding at some of the pain and some of the situations that we've gone through that have really been bigger and heavier than we have been able to carry alone. I think in some instances we do tell our story. in some instances, in some instances, in some situations. We are using tattooing. so we don't harm. so we don't do anything that will harm our bodies and leave a scar filled with stigma. So I'm gonna go through several resources here. I've got some pages pulled up here on the web that I'm gonna try and screen share with you guys. Some of the stories that people have that have survived their traumas. how they chose to represent themselves. and the meaning of the symbols that we see inked into the skin of people all around us. I guess first I wanted to read something to you from this incredible book that I found and I'll link it in the show notes below. It is called Tattoo Monologues Indelible Marks on the Body and Soul. I'll put the author's names in the show notes as well as the photographer's name. I'm not sure if I'll use any of these filters or not to make a point, but there are a lot of things that I would like to. touch on in this book. Teri Anderson (09:02.08) And one of the reasons I think if you're contemplating If you're trying to put your trauma together with your ink. I think this book might be very helpful, especially for women. Teri Anderson (09:23.509) One of the things in here. for praise for tattoo monologues is tattoo monologue sends a powerful message to tattoo trauma survivors like me, like you. We don't have to cover or we don't have to cower in the shame of our trauma. We don't have to hide our ink. They are a part of our stories. I find that very, very true. And as I said in the last episode, I don't see trauma or I don't see people with tattoos and think, my God. I see trauma. Sometimes I see beautiful art and I have some that are just beautiful art. But the ones that you see mainly on me that are the black and gray, those are trauma. I didn't know it at the time. I was trying to survive a horrible, horrible situation, horrible memories. But I wanted to go through some of the different, as I said, some of the different tattoos that we see. Teri Anderson (10:40.192) in Trauma survivors. Let me see if I can share this screen. Teri Anderson (11:08.928) Okay, this screen is from themighty.com. 23 tattoos that represent healing from childhood trauma. Now, of course, here we have the beautiful Phoenix. Teri Anderson (11:31.766) And I think that that pretty much relates with what my Angela was speaking about rising. from a pain, from a. rising up from a pain that's rising up from a past that's rooted in pain Teri Anderson (11:56.718) From Maya Angelou's quote that I read earlier, up from a past that's rooted in pain, I rise. You're gonna see a lot of phoenixes. I know many people that have a phoenix. I considered one myself. And this tattoo right here that we have, this young woman, is a beautiful colorful phoenix. We can only see it in part there on her back. Teri Anderson (12:28.183) in what she has. All right, let's go into this next one, this black and white. Teri Anderson (12:39.5) or black and gray, my phoenix still in progress is a symbol of my strength, of how many times I've risen from the absolutely horrible medical circumstances that have both altered the course of my life and nearly taken my life. But I survived because of the fire inside. The fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me. I think a lot of you might be able to identify with that. Now she says that this tattoo is still in progress. I will put this link in the show notes and it, like I said, it's the mighty.com, mental health, childhood trauma and tattoos. So she went full out back piece. I don't know, it's not saying if this was her first tattoo. But generally, I have found, it's not always the case, when someone goes in, go big or go home, there's trauma, there's a story there. And sometimes, you know, a little tiny space the size of a quarter can't really fill, in my case, 62 years. of dealing with trauma and this discovery of trauma. Teri Anderson (14:10.062) All right, the next one that we come to is a semicolon. Teri Anderson (14:31.264) is a semicolon. And the semicolon I think is pretty unique. I had considered one. Teri Anderson (14:43.084) And I still might do that. I'm going to have to find a unique way to deal to do that. But the semi-colon basically says, my story is not over. This woman is saying, it seems odd, but I distinctly remember reading a book about. What the hell? That's a totally different one. Teri Anderson (15:06.082) the semicolon, a lot of times is saying to remember every time I wanted to give up. Teri Anderson (15:16.852) every time I almost gave up and even when I tried to that I got through everything that had happened. Not only was it difficult but I experienced it as a child. It's a constant reminder to keep fighting and never forget what's brought me where I am now. Teri Anderson (15:45.55) And that is the semicolon. Teri Anderson (16:00.696) The semicolon. And you're going to see that on a lot, mainly women. I've seen it on women more than I have seen it on men. There are a lot of different tattoos that symbolize trauma or what people have gone through in their lives and trying to be the better person, trying to understand, trying to... Teri Anderson (16:32.916) Almost we have felt invisible for so long. We're not going to be invisible anymore. We felt forgotten. Teri Anderson (16:45.056) in ways that think few people can understand. Teri Anderson (16:53.262) So this person was talking about, they remembered reading a book about forests and forest fires when they were a child and learning how the ecosystem recovered after a fire. I read that some trees' would only successfully plant and germinate after a large fire hot enough to open whatever structure the tree used to contain its seeds. Teri Anderson (17:34.4) And as a little bit of a, you know, that just reminded me of something. I was on a motorcycle one day with, we do this run. My friend Brian holds it every year. It's the St. Helens Memorial Motorcycle Run. And one thing that really struck me on the first time, one of the first times I went up was the devastation. that was caused in 1980 by this volcanic eruption that took many lives and left miles and miles of damage. In between the burnt trees, they're still out there charred 40 something years later. There's new growth. There are flowers. There's beauty. And I think that really speaks to why some people choose to get forests, trees. Teri Anderson (18:41.516) because there is that regrowth after a fire that has burned us to the ground. Teri Anderson (19:22.796) And I think we see that here in this person's tattoo. I'm trying to move this to see and it's not quite doing it right. It's a bear tree, but the roots are deep and there are new branches on it, which is such a symbol of hope and recovery. I think it's really beautiful. I had never really thought of that before with forests and trees. I think I'll be looking at them in much different way now. Now this one is very unique and I like the way this woman put this and I just lost my screen. Okay. Teri Anderson (20:18.498) She has a birdcage. The birdcage directly over my heart represents the trauma I suffered as a child. It's all in gray tone, representing a lack of joy. The bird holding her own key in her beak and the colors of purple and blue has escaped the cage. She flies freely away from her prison. The lettering says, love gives her wings, which means that only love can heal the pain of childhood trauma. Self-love. I wear this tattoo proudly because it reminds me of what I have endured. Teri Anderson (21:13.098) and how I not only survived and how I not only survived, but I learned to thrive. Teri Anderson (21:31.768) So here we have her tattoo. And I think it's interesting, the cage that she has is on gray, gray and black. And the bird does indeed have the key in its beak. This is very unique. and it reminds me of things that I too. I've written about. Teri Anderson (22:04.152) That's, that's, well, that's really putting yourself out there and telling that story, isn't it? Teri Anderson (22:19.916) And there's, there, a lot of people use script, a passage. From a favorite book, from a movie, something that you've written, something someone else has written, a friend of mine. Teri Anderson (22:38.85) had a tattoo that I think was one of the most meaningful tattoos I've ever seen. She was on her way. I may not remember the story correctly, but she and her sister who had cancer were on the way to the doctor. And the sister took a pen, the sister that had the cancer, and wrote a little smiley face, drew a smiley face on my friend's hand. I think it's like right in here. Immediately, she knew she was, she already knew she was losing her sister. They went to a tattoo salon, a tattoo shop, tattoo parlor. I don't know what they're called now. Studio, tattoo studio. And she had that smiley face that her sister had drawn, tattooed. So she's carrying a piece of her sister wherever she goes. And that's a reminder of their relationship and how strong it was. Teri Anderson (23:44.364) Now this tattoo is a reminder for all of their... Attempts not to live, their father's death for the same reason, and many years of sexual abuse. She says, I'm still here because I have purpose. I'm still living despite all that was done to me. Teri Anderson (24:21.646) and this is a bit hard to read, and there you are living despite it all. Teri Anderson (24:33.016) So if you see people, if you see a passage, if you see script, they are really trying to invade this message. They are very aware of what they're saying. When I first started with My Ink, I was not aware of what I was saying. I was not aware that what I was doing was speaking to something that was buried deep inside of me. Teri Anderson (24:59.416) So if you see script, you'll know exactly. what that is. Teri Anderson (25:09.984) This is another one I think is really unique and Teri Anderson (25:19.502) I think this is just really such a cool idea. Teri Anderson (25:32.096) of the balloons, the girl, the little girl holding a bunch of balloons with some drifting away. My tattoo symbolizes the hold my past has on me every so often, though I managed to let go a little, is the balloons that are floating off. At the same time, I wouldn't want to let go of everything because my past is my life lessons, my life story, my personality, which keeps me floating. Wow, you know, this is crazy because... I am pretty much feeling, I'm looking at these incredible realizations that these people have made. And I'm sort of feeling like. Whoa, I didn't put that much thought into a lot of my trauma tattoos that these people have. I'm assuming they had gone through some type of therapy before and really had a vision of what they were wanting to convey and what they wanted to tell the world. Memorial tattoos, I think, are very common. My son, my eldest son, when... My second grandson died, went and got an absolutely beautiful tattoo that had the date of his birth, the date of his death and his name. Teri Anderson (27:11.104) So this one, this girl is speaking of, no, it's not a girl. Teri Anderson (27:18.36) This person is speaking. Teri Anderson (27:38.072) See? This person is saying, telling the story when their dad was killed when they were a child. And a few years ago, I had initially had a rose tattoo in loving memory of my father on my shoulder. Then I had a full sleeve and added roses with the quote, death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal. And it's a great reminder, he says about his father, but also to others that have. that he is lost that have been close to him. So I think, you know, out of all of the trauma surviving tattoos. Teri Anderson (28:29.332) The memorial ones are the ones that are most easily understood by, you know, I don't know how to say it, like maybe the unsuspecting or the unknowledgeable public at large. They don't have tattoos that haven't gone through trauma or have dealt with trauma in different manners. And what I'm seeing with this tattoo is he first, he's saying this was done in pieces. He had first had a rose and in loving memory. And then he went on. which is telling me he was still in the grieving process. The first part of it was probably that initial shock. My dad is gone. I know many of you, as well as myself, know that feeling. My dad is gone and it is overwhelming. And then it seems like he continued the tattoo because his grieving when he got this wasn't yet complete. I don't know if we ever really complete. Teri Anderson (29:36.428) Was I even sharing that? Teri Anderson (29:47.414) and loving memory of my father. 1958 to 1993. Yeah, I don't know if the healing from the trauma that we've gone through has ever really complete the grief of losing people we love. I just, you know, that's a hard topic. Teri Anderson (30:14.638) We'll go on to the next one. this woman is saying, growing up in a toxic environment, I've been having to adapt to all of my surroundings. The lotus flower represents someone who is able to thrive in every environment they're put in. Even if it's deep in the mud, I will still thrive. Teri Anderson (30:44.694) It's really a beautiful tattoo. It's a very beautiful tattoo. Teri Anderson (31:00.574) Let me share the screen with you for this one as I read it. This woman, Amanda, says it's almost done. I still have to add color. This tattoo represents the three main characters I created to survive abuse and oppression. The female night. Teri Anderson (31:28.864) Leonie and the horse's bay and the dragon. I'm currently working on writing the novels of their adventures. So she really has gone into this. Teri Anderson (31:44.522) and has a lot invested in telling her story. And I don't know if you can see, there's another one right here. I wish I could see what it was, but whoa, that's some pain to get through. that's a conversation starter, which is also very healing for us when people ask us, what does that mean? Teri Anderson (32:09.526) Now this girl got Celine Dion's autograph on her arm. She met her and this was her actual autograph, sort of like my friend, I think. Teri Anderson (32:31.79) Celine has been my safe place since I was bullied, a bullied teen in high school. Now on my healing journey from trauma and PTSD, she's what I end every session of EMDR with. She's the only thing that calms me and brings me joy. So that is, she's saying is Celine Dion's actual autograph. Teri Anderson (33:13.614) Then we have, this one's very unusual. I really like the concept of this. This person has a tattered open door on each wrist. when the thunderstorms of life come rolling in your front and back doors open so your troubles cannot find a home. Teri Anderson (33:41.782) I have a tattered open door on each of my wrists. When the thunderstorms of life come rolling in, keep your front and back doors open so that your troubles cannot find a home. Christopher says, Teri Anderson (34:03.2) It's a daily reminder to him that he doesn't have to take on everyone's problems as his own and that this as well as everything and that this as with everything too shall pass. Teri Anderson (34:22.88) I really like the meaning of a lot of these. They're, like I said, these people put a lot of thought into, no, do have some, I'm feeling, got to be a little defensive here. I do have some tattoos that are very thought out and very, very meaningful. And we're going to go into that in the next episode. but I just wanted to give you guys some symbols in this one of things that people, things that you'll be able to, I guess understand if you see them on someone, obviously these are very unique. So when you look at tattoos, some of us, mean, I don't have a lot of real estate left. And. But there are stories and all of the tattoos that I have seen that are just so incredible. This person's tattoo represents their childhood sexual, their, okay, let's share the screen because I can't see that. Teri Anderson (35:33.646) Theresa says, my tattoo represents my childhood essay and healing from that. I was always mocked for being an emotional kid, hence the crybaby. Also the Melanie Martinez song resonates with me. And the semicolon for many years of self-harm. Teri Anderson (36:03.963) guys this is real stuff I tell you this is legit trauma is legit Teri Anderson (36:16.174) Then you're see a lot of people that have a compass. And this person is saying that this compass, let's get back to screen share. Teri Anderson (36:32.162) This compass from the album art for the song invincible by Headley. I got this tattoo on my 18th birthday. I struggled a lot at first. I struggled a lot with at first physical abuse. Then as I got older, it turned into mental and verbal abuse. I had a lot of pressure placed on me through my school years. Or I had to be the highest academic. I had to excel in sports and get the student of the year every year. On top of that, I had to be strong because I have four younger siblings. I've made a lot of mistakes by letting them take away my power. I've lost parts of myself, but as I get older, I regained all my missing pieces and mended my broken pieces. So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness. When all your nights are starless, you're running out of hope. But I found the strength inside to see. Found the better part of me, and I'll never let it go. Teri Anderson (37:58.126) You know, I see compasses on a lot of people and I had never really put that together with being that, with that meaning. Teri Anderson (38:11.596) I know we're gonna get back to the Phoenix, the girl, she says her tattoo is impossible to take a photo of a hole, but it's a phoenix hugging me with its wings. Teri Anderson (38:30.86) I went through a lot from early childhood. The phoenix stands for always getting up and being reborn more strongly after every failure or every bad experience and learning from it. I made it pink to symbolize the girl power and women being strong with getting out of toxic or violent situations. Teri Anderson (39:02.508) Now there's a woman that is in the trauma. There's an author in the trauma world, Brene Brown. in one of her books is called Daring Greatly. Daring Greatly means the courage to be vulnerable. It means to show up and be seen, to ask for what you need, to talk about how you're feeling, to have the hard conversations. Teri Anderson (39:41.024) It's a quote from Brene Brown. My tattoo also has a semicolon as a reminder that I survived. I'm here and I need to keep going. It's not over. So I will dare greatly. That's really sweet. Teri Anderson (40:08.376) This next one is Text as Well script set free because I am set free. Teri Anderson (40:26.082) because I am set free from the struggles I had in the past. I am in no way fully recovered, but I'm set free from what held me back. Teri Anderson (40:46.914) Here's a very, there one, this one I find very interesting. It's it's, this person got a molecule of serotonin. I got a serotonin molecule because it's released in the act of. Teri Anderson (41:10.572) this right there, which I can't say. I got this as a reminder that I don't have to hurt myself to be happy. There has been a major lack of stability in my life growing up. So I turned to some pretty unfortunate coping mechanisms. That word always gets me, but I'm trying so hard to move forward and focus on being a victor and not a victim. I think that's really cool. Man, you know, these people put some thought into their stuff and I'm just like giving my arm to my tattoo artist saying, here, help. I got to hand it to these people. This is pretty cool. All right, this tattoo that this girl named Brittany got is what keeps her grounded when times get tough. I've gone through what I've gone through and I've come out on the other side with a badge of resilience. Teri Anderson (42:19.84) I am a survivor, a witness, a warrior. My experiences have changed me, but that doesn't mean they have to define me. I like that. My experiences change me, but that doesn't mean they have to define me. Wow. I'm learning every single day. Good for her. That is pretty awesome. This next one is, I got this to remind me that I have the power to be free by doing the thing I love most. I'm a screenwriter because I've always felt trapped because of the essay right there. I never told anyone, but now I can face it. Good for them, I wrote my own deliverance. I like that. Teri Anderson (43:13.602) This one is absolutely beautiful. Teri Anderson (43:19.138) This person, Allison, was physically and mentally abused by sisters growing up. That is hard for me to read. because of my son Joshua. He was physically and mentally abused by his siblings. I found out and that just crushes me. But she says because of what she went through, she grew up with no self-esteem, no confidence, depression, general anxiety, social anxiety disorder, body dysmorphia, and panic disorder. It's been a long road to recovery. I do what I have to for my peace of mind. Okay, she got that on her foot. I have to tell you from experience, you get tattoo on your foot, you're going to feel it. That hurts. That was probably one of my most, that was probably my second most painful tattoo. Teri Anderson (44:25.1) This person has script on her arms. It's really, it's actually very beautiful. My tattoo says now I am a warrior. This reminds me how far I've come. Teri Anderson (44:40.384) in my mental health journey. It also gives me strength. It reminds me that I'll continue to get through this journey. I've been through a lot, but I've always come out a warrior in the end. nice Teri Anderson (45:08.598) I hope this is screen sharing. My thing says it's... Teri Anderson (45:22.606) You know, computers. Teri Anderson (45:29.422) Let's see if there's some more on here I wanted to share with you. Teri Anderson (45:39.214) All right, and I'm glad that that's the end of this article and I'm glad that they put this at the end. Teri Anderson (45:53.07) If you or a loved one is affected by sexual abuse or assault and need help, call the hotline at 1-800-656-4673 to be connected with a trained staff member. service provider in your area. You know, it's, it's, it's for each of these stories I hurt for these people. Teri Anderson (46:22.638) I can identify with them, we're like a group, we're a community. But each story is so painful on its own. I think being in the situation that I am in and knowing the pain that I went through, the things that I went through and how I coped and did not cope with them well, these have all the more. significance to me. So here's one I've seen a couple of times and it is Teri Anderson (46:59.775) This is self-love basically. The heart with self-love. Teri Anderson (47:22.284) All right, before we get back into this, I'm going to share a few things from the tattoo monologues, but tattoos are a creative way of expressing yourself. They allow you, as I said earlier, to reclaim your body, to make it truly yours again. Every time you look at your tattoo, you're reminded of your strength, your resilience, and your victory over trauma. It's like a motivational speech. without the cheesy lines and the overly enthusiastic speaker. Teri Anderson (48:02.382) It's really funny. Teri Anderson (48:11.774) know, anchor tattoos show that they're anchored, that they're safe from the storm. Then you have the butterfly tattoos. that I can identify with and I do have a butterfly or two on me. They're pretty, they're graceful. and they're the ultimate symbol of transformation. A butterfly tattoo is like a tribute to your personal metamorphosis, your journey from caterpillar pre-trauma to a butterfly post-trauma. It's like saying, yeah, I went through some tough times, but look at me now, I'm flying high. It's really kind of cool. I don't think I shared that. Teri Anderson (49:11.256) There are those beautiful, very delicate little butterflies. A heartbeat tattoo because you're a survivor. Yes. Teri Anderson (49:28.3) The dragon tattoo unleashed your inner fire. The feather tattoo, fly high, free spirit. I don't have any feathers. I'm not really sure why. The rose, this was really hard for me to look at. I do have roses on me. Teri Anderson (49:50.954) Some of you know, probably a lot of you don't know the story of my son that I lost to the city of Portland and his mental illnesses. Joshua always had a fascination with long-stemmed roses. Generally, in his drawings, in his writings, he was speaking of one rose. I couldn't really figure out what that meaning was to him, why he was so fascinated with roses. Teri Anderson (50:24.589) And I think this sort of says it. Roses are beautiful, but they come with thorns. Sounds a lot like life, doesn't it? A rose tattoo can represent love, hope and new beginnings. It's a reminder that you bloom despite the thorns and that you found beauty in adversity. So I think with Joshua, with his interest his fascination with roses his was more along the terms of I know I'm a beautiful delicate creation. But don't get too close because I have thorns and he did. It was really, it was difficult. Teri Anderson (51:36.886) Okay. I wanted to tell you a little bit about this, what things that I found in this book that I found really interesting. And I, I really suggest you getting this book. Teri Anderson (51:58.754) Ladylike tattoo monologues. it again. You can see I have places marked in here and I don't want to Teri Anderson (52:13.41) do anything but really sort of let you know some of the quotes that I found in here. Teri Anderson (52:22.966) And I like, I like this, the way it's stated because, you know, sometimes I can say things in a way that makes sense. Sometimes they don't quite make sense, but this, how do tattoos relate to trauma? Trauma leaves a sudden irrevocable. Teri Anderson (52:44.212) It leaves sudden, irrevocable marks on the brain, body, mind, and spirit. These permanent traumatic imprints create a profound sense of loneliness. They cause the trauma survivor to feel detached and alienated from themselves and from others. They shatter the individual fundamental understanding of safety. If you're a trauma survivor, I think you could probably identify with that because we do, we feel alone. Nothing around us is safe. It's almost, you know, I I don't want to say it's like walking on eggshells because it's not, it's to me, it's sort of like walking blindfolded through a field of glass and you don't know where to step because things come at you from every way and you really can't. It's really, it's a hard walk. It's a hard walk. And this person was talking about, and again, this is from Tattoo Monologues. And I feel this a lot. The artist poured into a small plastic cup, removed a clean needle from a sealed package, and turned on the tattoo machine. The incessant buzzing instantly provoked fear, excitement, and anticipation. He pressed the needle into my skin. It hurt. But I knew after the pain had subsided, a symbolic piece of my narrative would be left behind and the symbol would forever be a part of me. Teri Anderson (54:39.202) This book's just amazing. There's one. A quote about motherless daughters. To all the motherless daughters out there, may your heartache serve you in the best of ways. May your grief give you a better understanding of yourself. May your sentiment allow you to express and create, and may your love expand beyond what you ever thought was possible. And that's a quote by Keiko. to Maki. This book is so cool because it goes to a lot of, it goes to a lot of feelings that I think most of us as trauma survivors have felt. Betrayal. my gosh, betrayal is just, it's so ingrained and it's so, it's so real. It's so real. Teri Anderson (55:44.972) dejection. Teri Anderson (55:53.602) This is a quote by Judith Lewis Herman, the conflict between the will to deny horrible events and the will to proclaim them out loud. is a central dialect of psychological trauma. Teri Anderson (56:14.796) Well. Yeah. I think a lot of the things that we feel and a of things that happened to us, we're ashamed of. People either talked us into being ashamed or it was just this natural shame that comes with a lot of things that happened to you. And you're like, why wasn't I strong enough? But what we have to remember is we're speaking as that five or six year old child. Would you expect a five or six year old child, seven, eight, nine year old child to be able to stand up to authority or anyone for that matter and take care of themselves? I... I think that is what. Teri Anderson (57:06.72) is so profound about this quote. The conflict between the will to deny horrible events and the will to proclaim them aloud is essential dialect of psychological trauma. Teri Anderson (57:29.869) You Teri Anderson (57:38.368) I'm not gonna do this book justice. I'm going to read to you some of the feelings here, the chapters. Maybe you can get a little bit of an idea of some of the things that trauma survivors deal with and some of the ways we're trying to either say, this is my body, I'll do what I want. Some of it is a very stubbornness to say, stay away from me. Stay away from me. Some of it is to reclaim control over our own lives when we feel we have no control at all. some of it's to commemorate, some of it's to inspire. I have, I don't know if you're gonna be able to see it here or not. This script here, I tried to it the other day and it didn't show, but I went in and I remember it was at the time where my life was just falling to pieces. It was completely falling apart. Teri Anderson (58:52.384) I had been put on some really horrible medication for a very wrong diagnosis that really spun me out of control. And all I wanted to do is what this says, live, laugh, love, and dream. But this book, it hurts to look at this as a trauma survivor and know that there are other people. That's kind of hard to say. It hurts to know that there are other people out there, but it also is sort of comforting to know that I am not alone in a lot of the struggles that I had. But the contents here, against all odds, betrayal, dejection. Reclaimed the gift guardian angel recovering rescues rescued. She's got my back. The slide hope in a dragonfly. love dragonfly tattoos. I would love to have one forgiveness pink dress tic tac motherless. That stings. That stings. Protection abandoned. Teri Anderson (01:00:11.116) and teardrops. Teri Anderson (01:00:16.408) So guess really the purpose of this episode... Teri Anderson (01:00:35.298) I guess the purpose of this episode was for those of you. Teri Anderson (01:00:43.96) to see people and immediately judge. to give you a little understanding that a lot of us are crying out. And for those of you that are tattooed to realize you're not alone, you're not alone. I now know that the sleeves, they did several things for me, but I think... one of the things, look, they're black and gray. One of the things I think now that I'm coming to understand is to stay away, to keep your distance. Because in my life to be close to anyone means devastation is going to occur. Teri Anderson (01:01:40.396) And I'm not really sure how. Teri Anderson (01:01:47.054) Other people see me. I've only had one derogatory comment Teri Anderson (01:01:53.902) Oh, you know what I wanted to do? Teri Anderson (01:01:59.596) I want to do an unofficial, this is not sponsored, but I wanted to tell you about this girl. She's in Portland, her name is Haley, and the name of her company is Nightwork Candle. I don't think you can see the candle that I have back there burning, but she has the most beautiful candles. This one I just ordered. It's a new fragrance that she has, a new aroma. It's called Gigi Moved to Paris, Texas. I love that because as a Texan, I know where Paris, Texas is. The smell is delightful. I I met her a couple of years ago and I have bought probably close to to 100 candles of hers. They're unique, they're beautiful. And they're just like Hailey. So I'm gonna leave her link in the show notes below as well because I just wanna give her a shout out. This girl, she's just, she's awesome. She's absolutely awesome. Teri Anderson (01:03:29.41) The saying beauty is only skin deep. Teri Anderson (01:03:38.232) comes to mind here. Teri Anderson (01:03:42.732) I think there's a lot of beauty within us that has had to be closed off for one reason or another. And it seems like with every discovery that we make along the way, every box that's opened, sometimes we can deal with it and sometimes we can't. Sometimes we cope. I am really thankful that I no longer use anything sharp. that I am, that part of me is gone. I have been through so much therapy and my tattoos were a big part of my therapy. So I just want to encourage you when you see someone that's tattooed. Teri Anderson (01:04:28.098) Look at their tattoo and think, what have they been through? What have they been through? And maybe give them a little grace. Teri Anderson (01:04:44.632) So let me say goodbye. on that note and I am going to hopefully get you guys leave some comments. I, I was so, I was so blown away by the comments you all left and the messages I received from the last episode of the tattoos and trauma. I was blown away. it Teri Anderson (01:05:23.118) people were so encouraging. I think they were coming together as they had found a group. Teri Anderson (01:05:32.746) And there's, it's just, to me, it was very meaningful that I was able to touch upon a topic that people really could resonate with and say, my gosh. my gosh. That makes sense. All right guys, so with that thought, I'll see you real soon. Esoteric Tattoo: https://g.co/kgs/nE2RkWk https://themighty.com/topic/mental-health/childhood-trauma-tattoos/ Tattoo Monologues: https://www.amazon.com/Tattoo-Monologues-Indelible-Marks-Body-Soul/dp/1647423112/ref=sr_1_1?crid=NOPE2BQP1ZQ9&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.-GUKXnebwUZFCcDMI3Qbsw.IsCsmLyQ5H3bN9J6-Lb1jXE5ge5vtyKyKrIBzl7nVxM&dib_tag=se&keywords=tattoo+monologues&qid=1745033350&sprefix=tattoo+mono%2Caps%2C215&sr=8-1 Teri Anderson The Tattooed Biker Chick Digging Through Dominoes Tattoos as Expressions of Trauma: Many trauma survivors use tattoos to reclaim their bodies, identities, and narratives, turning pain into visible, meaningful art. Not All Tattoos Stem from Trauma: While not every tattoo is rooted in pain, those discussed in this episode specifically represent survival, healing, and emotional resilience. Symbolic Tattoo Themes: Common motifs among trauma tattoos include the phoenix (rebirth), semicolon (survival and continuation), forests/trees (regrowth), birdcages (freedom from abuse), and balloons (letting go). Script and Personal Messages: Words, quotes, and phrases are often tattooed to serve as affirmations or reminders of a survivor's strength and journey. Memorial Tattoos: Many people honor lost loved ones with tattoos that symbolize grief, love, and remembrance—these are some of the most universally understood trauma tattoos. Creative Representations: Survivors sometimes invent characters or stories—like fantasy figures or symbolic animals—to express their inner struggles and healing journeys. Celebrities and Healing Anchors: Tattoos can also commemorate people or influences, like a celebrity or song, that brought comfort during hard times (e.g., Celine Dion's autograph as a source of peace). Awareness Through Design: Designs like serotonin molecules, anchors, butterflies, roses, hearts, and compasses are often chosen for their deeper psychological and emotional meanings. Tattoos and Therapeutic Growth: Many trauma tattoos reflect a personal evolution, often tied to therapy, self-love, empowerment, and the desire to be seen and validated. The Book “Tattoo Monologues”: The host references and recommends this book, emphasizing how trauma leaves lasting mental and emotional marks, and tattoos can serve as a powerful tool in processing and expressing those wounds.                  

Summary This conversation delves into the intricate relationship between tattoos and trauma, exploring how body art serves as a form of self-expression, coping mechanism, and cultural identity. Teri Anderson shares personal anecdotes and research findings that highlight the prevalence of tattoos among individuals with traumatic experiences, particularly childhood abuse. The discussion emphasizes the significance of tattoos in narrating personal stories and fostering connections within communities. Takeaways * Tattoos have been used for various reasons throughout history, including cultural and religious significance. * There is a notable correlation between tattoos and trauma, particularly among individuals with mental health issues. * Tattoos can serve as a coping mechanism for emotional pain, providing a sense of control and relief. * The resurgence of tattoos in modern culture reflects changing societal attitudes towards body modification. * Many individuals with tattoos report them as symbols of survival and resilience against past traumas. * Research indicates that tattoos are more common among those who have experienced childhood abuse and neglect. * Tattoos can help redefine one's identity and serve as a visual reminder of personal growth and healing. * The motivations for getting tattoos can vary widely, from personal expression to social resistance. * Tattoos can be a way to narrate one's story and foster connections with others who have similar experiences. * Understanding the significance of tattoos can help reduce stigma and promote acceptance of body art. Sound Bites * "Tattoos can give us clues to psychiatric conditions." * "Tattoos and trauma are deeply connected." * "Tattoos tell a story of identity and belonging." * "Tattoos can be a form of social resistance." * "Tattoos are often linked to lower self-esteem." * "The prevalence of tattoos is higher among trauma survivors." * "Tattoos can help redefine oneself after trauma." * "Tattoos are a visual reminder of survival." * "Tattoos can serve as a coping mechanism." * "Tattoos are a mark of survival and resilience." Chapters 00:00 Exploring Tattoos and Trauma 12:01 Cultural Significance of Tattoos 24:44 Tattoos as a Coping Mechanism 36:31 Childhood Trauma and Body Modification

Summary In this deeply personal podcast episode, Teri Anderson shares her journey of healing and self-discovery following a traumatic motorcycle accident. She reflects on the emotional and physical challenges she faced, the impact of her injuries on her identity, and the importance of family and writing in her recovery process. Teri's candid exploration of her struggles with mental health, loss, and the search for self-love offers listeners a powerful message of resilience and hope. Takeaways Teri started her podcast to help others with her experiences. She faced a significant emotional crash after her podcast journey began. Listening to her body became crucial for her healing process. The motorcycle accident led to a traumatic brain injury that changed her life. Teri experienced disassociation during her recovery, feeling disconnected from herself. Writing became a therapeutic outlet for her emotions and experiences. Family connections played a vital role in her healing journey. Teri battled feelings of anger and helplessness after her accident. She learned to embrace her identity and self-love through adversity. Teri's journey emphasizes the importance of sharing one's story for healing. Chapters 00:00 The Journey Begins: A Personal Reflection 03:00 The Impact of Trauma: A Life Altered 06:01 Memories of the Accident: A Fractured Reality 12:10 The Aftermath: Struggles with Recovery 18:05 Emotional Turmoil: Anger and Healing 24:07 Family Dynamics: Relationships in Crisis 29:56 Finding Strength: The Path to Self-Discovery 35:55 The Role of Writing: A Therapeutic Outlet 42:06 Lessons Learned: Embracing Change and Growth 48:01 Looking Forward: Hope and Resilience   Keywords trauma, healing, mental health, motorcycle accident, personal growth, family, identity, writing, resilience, self-love, podcast, Ter Anderson, traumatic brain injury,  

In this conversation, Teri Anderson and Julie Ryan McGue discuss their experiences with adoption and the search for birth families. They explore topics such as gratitude and fear, the challenges of closed adoptions, the impact of adoption on family dynamics, the importance of access to medical history, and the need for understanding and support from society. They also touch on the role of social media and DNA testing in connecting adoptees with their birth families. Overall, the conversation highlights the complexity and individuality of the adoption experience. Teri Anderson and Julie Ryan McGue discuss their experiences with adoption and reunion. Teri shares her journey of reconnecting with her birth family and the challenges she faced along the way. She talks about her adoptive mother's initial resistance to her search and the pressure she felt to maintain their relationship. Julie discusses her own reunion with her birth family and the immediate connection they felt due to their shared connections. They also touch on the importance of knowing one's medical history and the need for adoptees to have access to their original birth records. Both Teri and Julie emphasize the importance of support and understanding within the adoption community. Find out more about Julie, or purchase her books, with this link: https://juliemcgueauthor.com/ Takeaways: Gratitude and fear cannot coexist in the brain. Closed adoptions can present challenges in accessing information and medical history. Adoption can have a significant impact on family dynamics. Access to medical history is important for adoptees and their children. Social media and DNA testing have facilitated connections between adoptees and their birth families. Society should strive to understand and support individuals involved in the adoption process. Reconnecting with birth family can be a challenging and emotional journey, but it can also bring healing and a sense of belonging. Adoptees have the right to know their medical history and have access to their original birth records. Support and understanding within the adoption community are crucial for adoptees and their families. Setting boundaries and prioritizing one's own well-being is important when navigating relationships with both birth and adoptive families. Sharing personal stories and experiences can provide comfort and validation to others in similar situations. adoption story adoption search, adoption journey, finding birth parents stories, identical twins digging through dominoes, podcast, mothers day, transracial adoption, catholic adoption, internal family systems, foster care adoption, mental health tattooed biker chick,inner child work, mental health awareness month intergenerational trauma, abandonment issues, emotional abuse, reparenting, cancer scare, personal growth, anxiety, 60 something #JulieRyanMcGue #adoptionsearch #joy  #heartache  #reunion  #terianderson  #DiggingThroughDominoes #mentalhealth  #mothersday  #reality

In this episode, Teri reflects on the year 2023 and realizes that despite some negative experiences, there were many positive moments and personal growth. She shares various highlights, including speaking about her son Joshua's story on a news special, joining the Cascade Blues Association, traveling to Greece, attending concerts, and taking a Caribbean cruise. Teri also discusses her progress in therapy and how she has matured in handling family drama. She encourages listeners to focus on the positive moments in their own lives and embrace personal growth. Takeaways Focus on the positive moments and personal growth in your life, even during challenging times. Reflect on the highlights and accomplishments of each year to gain a more balanced perspective. Embrace personal growth and celebrate progress in therapy or self-improvement. Learn to handle family drama with maturity and not let it affect your self-worth. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Reflecting on 2023 03:22 Positive Experiences in 2023 09:15 Progress in Therapy and Personal Growth 16:13 Celebrating the Lives of Loved Ones 17:26 Mother-Daughter Trip to Las Vegas 19:02 Getting a New German Shepherd Puppy 21:47 Meeting Tim Story and Joining World Shakers for Women 23:29 Caribbean Cruise and Photography 25:26 RSV Illness and Breaking Ribs 27:38 Maturity and Handling Family Drama 32:37 Reflecting on Personal Growth and Looking Forward Special Reports Oregon's mental health approach ‘as crazy as my son' https://www.koin.com/news/special-reports/oregons-mental-health-approach-as-crazy-as-my-son/ KOIN 6 Town Hall: A State of Pain, Oregon's drug crisis https://www.koin.com/news/oregon/koin-6-town-hall-a-state-of-pain-oregons-drug-crisis/ Unveiling Why "Healing Is Not Linear"  -with Saskia Hostetler Lippy! Digging Through Dominoes Podcast https://youtu.be/VDgL2Tp57HM Divine Radiance with VANESSA GRACE! S2 E9 https://youtu.be/8BdB3SrOwg8 Tim Storey https://www.timstorey.com/ Teri's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ Teri's photo Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/falcongirlproductions/ changing your mindset,how to be positive,how to change your life,positive thinking,motivational video,self improvement,self development,personal growth,positive attitude,stop negative thinking,habits to change your life,positive mindset,2024 motivation,podcast,Teri Anderson,Digging Through Dominoes,ptsd,internal family systems,the power of positive thinking,believe in yourself,mental health awareness,lifelong learning,adverse childhood experiences

In this conversation, Teri Anderson explores the impact of memories on healing and personal growth. She reflects on her recent visit to family members and the memories that resurfaced. Teri discusses the power of childhood memories and the need to evaluate whether they are helping or hindering healing. She shares her encounter with motivational speaker Tim Storey and the insights she gained from his teachings. Teri emphasizes the importance of choosing the right memories and letting go of expectations. She encourages listeners to observe the company they keep and to prioritize self-care. Takeaways: Memories can hold us captive and prevent healing if we constantly revisit them. It is important to evaluate whether childhood memories are helping or hindering our healing process. Choosing the right memories and letting go of expectations can lead to personal growth and healing. Observing the company we keep and prioritizing self-care are essential for our well-being. Chapters 00:00 Introduction: Memories and Healing 01:24 Visiting the Past 03:24 Revisiting Childhood Memories 05:08 Meeting Tim Storey 06:43 The Impact of Memories 08:29 The Power of Memories 09:16 Choosing the Right Memories 10:04 The Dangers of Holding onto Memories 11:02 The Burden of Painful Memories 12:08 The Healing Power of Positive Memories 13:02 The Importance of Clear Vision 14:08 Reconnecting with Family 15:07 Reevaluating Childhood Memories 16:28 The Impact of Other People's Perspectives 18:00 Letting Go of Expectations 19:19 Recognizing the Truth 20:56 Observing the Company We Keep 23:14 The Power of Education and Observation 26:15 Getting Tired of Being Tired 27:20 Breaking Free from the Never-Ending Loop 27:44 Using Wisdom to Overcome Battles 28:53 Choosing the Right Memories 29:59 Identifying and Eliminating Distractions30:34 Guarding Ourselves from Giving Too Much 36:26 Taking Care of Ourselves 37:29 Encouraging Others through Sharing Stories 37:59 Conclusion: Tim Storey's website: https://www.timstorey.com/ Tim Storey's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/timstoreyofficial/ Tim Storey YouTube:  @TimStoreyOfficial  Digging Through Dominoes YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/@UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Digging Through Dominoes FB: email: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com Peace and Healing #Teri Anderson #Memories #adversechildhoodexperiences #TimStorey #steveharvey #healing #expectations #podcast #Diggingthroughdominoes #terianderson brain,mental health, depression memory psychology post traumatic stress disorder ptsd behavioral health anxiety disorder post traumatic stress disorder mental health awareness trauma mental health matters complex trauma

Teri Anderson was discussing the evolving meanings of certain words and expressions, notably emphasizing the overuse and potentially diminishing impact of terms like "trigger" and "safe spaces." Teri also introduced the concept of "glimmers," contrasting them with triggers as moments that bring joy, peace, or gratitude. This idea seems to be about focusing on positive moments or memories in one's life, offering a counterbalance to negative or triggering experiences. She shared personal stories about triggers, reliving traumatic events, and the significance of addressing triggering language thoughtfully, especially concerning those actually dealing with trauma versus those just experiencing discomfort. Additionally, Teri encouraged self-love and kindness and mentioned plans for future discussions on handling memories and their impact. If you have any questions or thoughts about what was discussed, feel free to share or inquire further! Follow along on the journey:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ 
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Step over Miss M....We have the Divine Vanessa Grace! This episode was SO much fun. Vanessa is amazing. She radiates energy, joy, knowledge, and confidence.  *please note this was taped before my unplanned hiatus Vanessa Grace is helping women steep in their innate Divine Feminine.  She is a Radiance Coach and Licensed Social Worker who transformed through the fires of becoming UnCodependent and having a Spiritual Awakening.  She loves to talk about epigenetics, chakras, and why your menstrual cycle is the secret to everything.  Her expertise, kind heart and a dash of light humor help her clients heal the life experiences and trauma that created their heartache to begin with.  Vanessa joins mental health, spiritual practices, and life aspirations to help women create the lives they really want for themselves.  Her private coaching, group coaching and retreats help you truly transform from the inside.  If you want to heal your soul to become a strong self, she's got you covered! VANESSA'S INFO: Sign up by texting the word PEACE to 877-338-0875 or visit this web site:  https://slkt.io/xlBe Website:  Soulamplified.org Instagram:  @SoulAmplified e-mail:  Vanessa@soulamplified.org Soul Amplified Podcast on all major podcast platforms her latest episode: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-soul-amplified-podcast/id1444274043 TERI'S INFO: IG: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ IG: https://www.instagram.com/falcongirlproductions/ IG: https://www.instagram.com/thetattooedbikerchick/ FB: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ AUDIO PODCAST: Digging Through Dominoes on all major podcast platforms THINGS FOR PODCAST The couple that teaches about Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine are: @ryanyokome  @krisbritton The woman who is extra good at the science parts of the women's menstrual cycle and hormones is: Kayla Osterhoff, MPH, PhDc @biocurious_kayla She was on a podcast and talked all about it, episode # 415 The Life Stylist Podcast with Like Storey Book I mentioned: It didn't Start with you: How Inherited family trauma shapes who we are and how to end the cycle by Mark Wolynn  Radiance Recipe Circle Starts Tuesday July 13th at 11am - 12:30pm pacific on zoom (hey, thats tomorrow!) 3 months (through September), 9 calls total 900 Pay up front + bonus journaling videos https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=64EUJJ3FH6UMJ  333/mo, pay over 3 months https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=H59L587GJGMKJ  167/mo, pay over 6 months https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=J7KRFZFXR3BS4 email list sign up https://soulamplified.activehosted.com/f/21 Text messages sign up https://slkt.io/xlBe Teri Anderson Vanessa Grace divine feminine divine masculine ACEs therapist social worker radiance coach fun talk Soul Amplified Digging Through Dominoes podcast internal family systems

Kristle Delihanty shares her heartbreaking, and inspiring, story of abuse, drug addiction to full recovery and using her life to help others do the same.   In this episode of the podcast, Digging Through Dominoes, I'm talking with Kristle Delihanty founder of PDX Saints Love in Portland, Oregon about how she fought addiction, is thriving, and used her peer status to help change the lives of others facing addiction, being homeless, and the hopelessness that accompanies these issues.   Kristle is a powerful advocate for hope, resilience, and recovery. She's sharing her story with us and we're excited to share it with you. If you're struggling, this video will give you a few tools to help you overcome the obstacles in your life and reach your goals.   Kristle Delihanty PDX Saints Love Teri Anderson Digging Through Dominoes drug addiction homeless crisis Portland Oregon trauma awareness recovery hope help portland homeless   PDX Saints Love contact info: https://pdxsaintslove.org/   PDX Saints Love IG: https://www.instagram.com/pdxsaintslove/ PDX Saints Love FB: https://www.facebook.com/pdxSaintsLove/   Digging Through Dominoes YT Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw   DTD IG:  https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ DTD FB: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/

What IS the difference between true self care and numbing or running?  I speak of the difference for me, in my life, as I am beginning the journey of true self care and self development.  Having never being celebrated for me, as a child or as an adult, I've decided to celebrate myself and learn the ins and outs of true self care.  I'll be in a country far away doing who knows what when this airs. Self care is learned, it's nurtured, it's intentional. It's not escapism, in my opinion, it's celebrating yourself during the times you need it most and in the times of maintenance. It's being self aware, and, I feel, is the beginning of true self love.  60 something it's my time travel self care behavioral health ptsd internal family systems trauma awareness teri anderson digging through dominoes

In this episode, Digging Through Dominoes, Teri Anderson's special guest is a mom named Sharon T. Sharon is a childhood friend of Teri's with a difficult, SHOCKING, story. She speaks of her traumatic childhood that led to a traumatic marriage.  Sharon reveals some  some difficult memories of her past, in delves into the situation with her struggling daughter. She does all this while being open to help others facing similar situations. We explore her trauma awareness and PTSD awareness, as well as her lifelong learning and her internal family systems.She has to do a mental inventory every time she leaves the house in the hopes of protecting her daughter that has suffered her entire life.  adverse childhood experiences digging through dominoes teri anderson trauma mental illness mental illness awareness not alone mental health awareness month tbi traumatic brain injury feeling alone adult child

Is your life being affected by toxic parenting? This episode with the author of the book, "Overcoming Toxic Parenting," with author Rick Johnson is for you.  Rick, a sought after motivational speaker and the bestselling author of 12 books on parenting, marriage, relationships, and masculinity. Rick founded the nonprofit Better Dads on the urgent need to empower men to lead and serve in their families and communities.  Rick's resources, methods, and personal approach have been transforming the lives of men, women, and their families for over 16 years.  Rick's work with men and fathers was recognized when he was invited to the White House as part of the Champions of Change ceremony in 2012.  Rick's website Better Dads: https://betterdads.net/ Overcoming Toxic Parenting: https://a.co/d/0TvSihE Digging Through Dominoes FB: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ Digging Through Dominoes Twitter: https://twitter.com/DiggingDominoes Digging Through Dominoes IG: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Audio podcast episodes available on all major podcasting platforms.  teri anderson digging through dominoes Rick Johnson Overcoming toxic parenting emotional well being personal growth healing recovery relationship marriage parenting Better Dads internal family systems intergenerational trauma

In this episode of Digging Through Dominoes I'm joined by Saskia Hostetler Lippy. Saskia is a psychiatrist and wounded healer. Saskia Hostetler Lippy is a psychiatrist and wounded healer. She's a mental health activist and  has over eighteen years of clinical practice, and has honed a deep understanding of the human psyche and of the forces which shape all of us from a young age. Saskia is also a  volunteer  as Clinical Trainer at Vibrant Emotional Health! This episode is a great way to explore topics like healing from childhood trauma and trauma in general. Saskia is an expert on the subject, and her insights will help you to understand and heal from your own pain. Listen in to learn more! Saskia Hostetler Lippy Teri Anderson mental health awareness Vibrant Emotional health healing is not linear Digging Through Dominoes ptsd cpmplex ptsd misdiagnosd bipolar houseless homeless Portland Oregon https://www.koin.com/news/oregon/koin-6-town-hall-a-state-of-pain-oregons-drug-crisis/ https://www.koin.com/news/special-reports/oregons-mental-health-approach-as-crazy-as-my-son/ https://youtube.com/watch?v=Utc0OZZfDW8&feature=shares   VIDEO VERSION: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC98DsM_8iIpvYXSYC4YmtSQ    

It's not broken. It's the system we built." - Jeff Woodward. Join me in welcoming my first guest on this podcast, Jeff Woodward. Jeff is the program manager and Outreach & Navigation Program Manager at  Mental Health & Addiction Association of Oregon.  Jeff Woodward was very candid with me about what led him from the corporate world to the world of homelessness, the suicide of his wife in 2009. Our discussion takes us through the emotional state people can find themselves in after a tragedy, to life on the streets, our perceived perception of mismanagement in Oregon that has led to the homeless crisis, the current state of Portland, Oregon. Jeff also speaks of Apple in downtown Portland hiring a peer specialist to help with the homeless situation near the Downtown Portland Apple Store. We continue on speaking of our sons' mental illnesses, Wapato, now known as Bybee Lakes, non profits in Oregon, greed, dirty money, passions, and then throw in a bit about Harley Davidsons and we have an episode that is gripping, tragic, hopeful and is filled with twists and turns. I offer my thoughts on TPI, also known as Transition Projects that, I feel, gave me false hope concerning my son that led up to his untimely death. Jeff's FB page, Portland Homeless: https://www.facebook.com/groups/pdxhomeless Digging Through Dominoes FB: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/     affiliate links: COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu DD Social media links Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/   

If you're struggling with relationships or you know someone who is, then you need to watch this episode. It will help you understand the dynamics of the toxic family system. This girl is getting worked up! Maybe it will burn some calories.  Evidently I have some whack family members, IMO. Toxic tweets, defamation, libel, slander, the list goes on and on.  Some how they seem to make their way through life with eyes wide shut. I feel for my brother having to deal with all this.  Measure 110 triangulation narcissist triangulation blame shifting projecting flying monkeys adult children of toxic families adult children of dysfunctional families scapegoat child autism schizophrenia bipolar abuse by proxy boundaries ptsd cptsd Portland Oregon https://www.koin.com/news/oregon/koin-6-town-hall-a-state-of-pain-oregons-drug-crisis/ https://www.koin.com/news/special-reports/oregons-mental-health-approach-as-crazy-as-my-son/ https://youtube.com/watch?v=Utc0OZZfDW8&feature=shares      

Today, for some reason, I actually had another another topic to discuss, but I really felt strongly that I needed to do an episode on taking accountability for my actions. It's no longer scary to me today. It used to be really scary to take accountability, but I think it's just another step in growth. And I know many of you may be thinking, Oh gosh, I don't want to admit everything I've done. Well, you know, it's part of who you are now. It's part of who I am now. Everything this happened to me, everything I allowed to happen, everything I did, I have chosen to work for the best and to benefit me so I can grow. I don't want to stay stuck like where I was. I don't want to stay is broken as I was when I first broke. I have a secondary text line now where you can text me your ideas, if you think you might want to be a guest on Digging Through Dominoes, or perhaps, a member of a live panel. That number is : 503-770-8699 My social media links and books that helped me are below: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com   Viola Davis: Finding Me https://amzn.to/3V8Gv8j COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu Social Media links: Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  

In this season finale, Teri discusses the benefits of solo travel and how it can help reduce anxiety and stress. She also discusses trauma awareness and mental health awareness and how they relate to solo travel. Travel is a great way to reduce anxiety and stress. In this season finale, Teri explores the benefits of solo travel and how it can help reduce anxiety and stress. She also discusses trauma awareness and mental health awareness and how they relate to solo travel. Tune in to learn more about how to travel safely and with sensitivity to the mental health of others! In this season finale, Teri discusses the benefits of solo travel and how it can help reduce anxiety and stress. She also discusses trauma awareness and mental health awareness and how they relate to solo travel.Travel is a great way to reduce anxiety and stress. In this season finale, Teri explores the benefits of solo travel and how it can help reduce anxiety and stress. She also discusses trauma awareness and mental health awareness and how they relate to solo travel. Tune in to learn more about how to travel safely and with sensitivity to the mental health of others! diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com   Viola Davis: Finding Me https://amzn.to/3V8Gv8j COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu Social Media links: Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Twitter: @DiggingDominoes

In this episode of Digging Through Dominoes, I'll be talking about panic attacks and complex PTSD - CPTSD. If you're experiencing panic attacks and/or complex PTSD, then this video is for you. I'll talk about my experience with panic attacks and complex PTSD . I'll also talk about the effects of panic attacks and complex PTSD on self-worth, gaslighting, and overall mental health. Viola Davis: Finding Me https://amzn.to/3V8Gv8j COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu Social Media links: Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  

Do you struggle with feelings of emotional neglect and/or narcissistic abuse? In this shocking and eye-opening podcast episode, we discuss the fact that many people struggle with these dynamic and destructive relationships. Although it's difficult to admit, many people are affected by emotional neglect and/or narcissistic abuse. If you're one of these individuals, don't despair. In this episode of Digging Through Dominoes, we discuss the fact that you can actually heal from these abusive relationships. It takes work and the courage to face the past.  Thanks for watching! If you've found this podcast helpful, please share it with your friends and family. Together, we can help raise awareness about the serious mental health issues that affect so many people.   Dr. Les Carter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdlFfCtSO9o&feature=share&si=ELPmzJkDCLju2KnD5oyZMQ COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother by Jasmin Lee Cori: https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu DD Social media links Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Twitter: @DiggingDominoes Tell Mama lyrics: You thought you'd found a good girl One to love you and give you the world Now you find that you've been misused Talk to me, I'll do what you choose, I want you to Tell Mama, all about it Tell Mama, what you need Tell Mama, what you want And I'll make everything alright That girl you had didn't have no sense She wasn't worth all the time that you spent She had another man throw you outdoors Now the same man is wearing your clothes, I want you to Tell Mama, all about it Tell Mama, what you need Tell Mama, what you want And I'll make everything alright Tell me, tell me now She would embarrass you anywhere She'd let everybody know she didn't care Give me a chance I've been beggin' you And I just want to take care of you, I want you to Tell Mama, all about it Tell Mama, what you need Tell Mama, what you want Tell Mama, what you want right now Tell me, tell your mom I'm your Mama Tell me what you want Mastermind Lyrics: https://tinyurl.com/2dhx5t9a

After years of searching, Teri Anderson speaks of how she was able to recognize what the hole in her heart was and how it may have come to be. Listen to Teri's story and perhaps you may find some of the answers you've been searching for your entire life. By reading Jasmin Lee Cori's book, The Emotionally Absent Mother, Teri made realizations, looked further into her childhood, and is beginning to understand how impacted she was by her mother inability to be emotionally available. In this episode, The Holes Left By Our Mothers, we explore the topic of PTSD and how to identify and deal with the holes left by our mothers. We also discuss the importance of lifelong learning and how to overcome obstacles through internal family systems. PTSD affects everyone differently, so it's important that everyone knows about it and recognizes the signs and symptoms. This awareness month is a perfect opportunity to discuss PTSD and its effects with your loved ones. By working together, we can help to create a healthy and supportive environment for all affected by PTSD. In the podcast, Digging Through Dominoes, Teri shares her story of healing complex PTSD. Teri talks about the holes that were actually left by our mothers, how these holes led to C--PTSD, and how healing complex PTSD can be done. She shares her experiences, insights and advice on how to heal from PTSD and live a life of freedom and joy. If you're struggling with PTSD or any other mental health condition, be sure to subscribe to Digging Through Dominoes so you can learn from the experiences of others like Teri Anderson.   affiliate links: COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu DD Social media links Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Mastermind lyrics by Taylor Swift: https://genius.com/Taylor-swift-mastermind-lyrics

WOW! I didn't expect this one but it came at the right time and correlated nicely with Chapter 7 of The Emotionally Absent Mother by Jasmin Lee Cori on neglect and abuse. Listen to what happened when a family member opened up her can of abuse with me. The video version on the YouTube version of Digging Through Dominoes should be up tomorrow with her scathing, self centered, remarks, that I took screen shots of, inserted. We don't want any miscommunication, as I've noticed as common in my mother's family. I'm grateful though. Her attitude showed me the complexity of the environment my mother had grown up in. This video does not diagnose anyone with any disorder, only points out similarities with Jasmin Lee Cori's book, The Emotionally Absent Mother. It made me see the situation my Mother grew up in differently and how she, and her sisters, in my opinion, were scarred. Healthy people just don't do this. affiliate links: COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu DD Social media links Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/   

A recent event shook me so much I wondered if a person can have too much therapy? A recent event shook me so much I wondered if a person can have too much therapy? After the events unfolded I was in a near panic attack, searching for answers and wishing for normal, whatever normal is.  I felt the emotion, the body memories, from decades past enveloping me. Had I taken my therapy too far? Affiliate links to books that have greatly helped me: COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3KNfUtu Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/  Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966  Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b  iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/  Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw  Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6  Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes  You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml  YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J  Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw  Digging Through Dominoes Social Media:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  Twitter: @DiggingDominoes

It was a lazy morning as I scrolled through my YouTube feed. There were three videos that caught my attention. One was entitled, "Weird Things Only Narcissists Do," by Rebecca Zung. The next was, "When Narcissists Paint You As Unhinged," by Dr. Ramani. The last,  feel was a true gem. I thought about it all day. It was by Jordi Universe and entitled, "To You, A Year From Now." Jordi's message hit me hard and stayed with me throughout the day. It was compelling, beautifully done and asked the one question that leads to many more, "What if?" Here are links to the videos: Rebecca Zung: https://youtube.com/watch?v=VKfRME7omPY&feature=share&si=EMSIkaIECMiOmarE6JChQQ Dr. Ramani: https://youtube.com/watch?v=SZaRMnqBGyk&feature=share&si=EMSIkaIECMiOmarE6JChQQ Jordi Universe: https://youtube.com/watch?v=HWaZgAGMsc8&feature=share&si=EMSIkaIECMiOmarE6JChQQ   Below are the affiliate links to some of the books I've spoken of thus far in this podcast. They are ones that have greatly aided in my healing and I highly recommend them. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD  The Emotionally Absent Mother https://amzn.to/3BLezQY    

I wasn't prepared for this.   The Emotionally Absent Mother: audio: https://amzn.to/3efBAlT paperback: https://amzn.to/3Qd6NTZ Kindle: https://amzn.to/3AFcjsM

What began as an episode about scapegoating turned into the story of my encounter with an extremely toxic narcissist and the friend that quashed it all. These are the messages the narcissist sent my friend in the attempt to destroy me and was surprised when my friend told her she knew her game. Lipstick and Butch Wax playlist on YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH4L6s_uOT0toP0fzGM5DN7j

Abuse steals out identity. This episode focuses on how abuse changes us and how we can begin the journey to healing and recovery.   COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO https://liveboldandbloom.com/08/emotional-abuse/healing-from-emotional-abuse

It's Fragmented Friday! Fragmented Fridays are bonus episodes where I find quotes, encouragement, affirmations, off the internet and bring them to you for inspiration, perhaps a laugh, and to let you know you are not alone! Live Stream on Beyond The Rider with Bry The Biker and me: https://youtu.be/0nJv-zVkaYQ COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO

Doing this ONE thing can CHANGE your life forever! Judgement, haters, bikers, and prison ankle bracelets are behind this  post.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  Email: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com Teri Anderson Digging Through Dominoes  stranded motorist  multidimensional  heat exhaustion  bessel van der kolk Jordan Peterson  judgemental people

People living with PTSD or Complex PTSD often time have a difficult time finding the right therapist, the right psychiatrist. In this episode of Digging Through Dominoes, I give you some ideas of how to choose a provider for yourself and weave it into my experiences.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO

What Is Fear? Fear is a natural, powerful, and primitive human emotion. It involves a universal biochemical response as well as a high individual emotional response. Fear alerts us to the presence of danger or the threat of harm, whether that danger is physical or psychological. Traumatized people generally have their lives ruled by fear. Here's where I am at this stage of the game and how fears have controlled me.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  email: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com  lifelong learning  teri anderson  mental health awareness  60 something  social anxiety

I Traumatized My Kids By Trying Not To Do What Was Done To Me. Trauma, especially CPTSD, is a journey of many discoveries. I thought they would mostly be about what happened to me. It turns out I discovered how I traumatized my kids by trying to do the right thing. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO  

Fragmented Friday, an episode woven together with the gentle words written by various individuals that want to encourage us to heal and conquer. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  Email: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com

I Traumatized My Kids By Trying Not To Do What Was Done To Me. Trauma, especially CPTSD, is a journey of many discoveries. I thought they would mostly be about what happened to me. It turns out I discovered how I traumatized my kids by trying to do the right thing.  Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes email: diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com  teri anderson  stop the stigma  mental health awareness  dysregulation  bessel van der kolk

What is your trauma response? Fight? Flight? Freeze? Fawn? What are trauma responses and how do we figure out what ours is? How are they made? What can we do about them? Adverse childhood experiences, abuse, neglect, and traumas train our brain from pre verbal ages to the time our personality is set. Our entire lives are being affected by hidden traumas, remembered traumas, and a myriad of other not so good for us experiences. It's not to late to have a better future! COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO

This is the introductory episode for thee full episode that will publish June 29, at 5AM. Sometimes life gets in the way of things and it has been doing that for the last couple of weeks. This mini episode explains a bit of that and some of the foundation for healthy 4 F responses. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  email Teri at diggingthroughdominoes@gmail.com  https://www.facebook.com/groups/tattooedbikerchicks.bikersforbikers  YouTube: https://youtube.com/c/TeriAnderson Facebook https://www.facebook.com/thetattooedbikerchick https://www.facebook.com/BohemianReflection https://www.thetattooedbikerchick.com/ InstaGram:  https://www.instagram.com/thetattooedbikerchick/ https://www.instagram.com/bohemian_reflection/  Snapchat: @inkedbikerchick Redbubble: BohoReflection.redbubble.com Peloton: #TeriAnderson   Teri Anderson  trauma awareness  reparenting  post traumatic growth  the fawn response  fawning trauma response  trauma response fawning  fawn trauma response  complex ptsd

I had no idea what an emotional flashback was, much less how to manage them. I now realize the most difficult times of my adult life have been filled with emotional flashbacks and just how they were controlling my life. Listen along as I explain what emotional flashbacks are and how I am now learning to manage them. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO  

A vital part of staying on top of recovering from trauma is knowing what the signs are that it's time to take care of you. Self care is something we sometimes think can be put off. As soon as you recognize your triggers and you feel you're about to spiral, taking care of yourself is your top priority,  We were neglected and abandoned as children so it's natural to think we don't matter. However, it's imperative we get to know ourselves and listen to the signs of your inner child crying for help.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Teri Anderson trauma care  childhood trauma  recognizing signs  heal yourself childhood trauma adverse childhood experiences reparenting  mental health  awareness risk factors  ptsd  abandonment issues mental health awareness Digging Through Dominoes   0:00 hello everyone and welcome back to 0:02 digging through dominoes where we 0:05 examine the dominoes in our past 0:09 so we can change the game of our future 0:16 welcome to digging through dominoes a 0:19 podcast that looks at mental physical 0:22 and emotional trauma through real and 0:24 inspiring conversations 0:27 this is your safe haven that welcomes 0:29 you in but also isn't afraid to talk 0:32 about what hurts the most 0:34 and now here's your host teri anderson 0:42 today's episode's gonna be shorter than 0:45 the others because 0:46 i'm not doing so great 0:48 i've got some things 0:50 shingles internal shingles what the heck 0:53 who ever thought about something like 0:54 that 0:55 not feeling so good plus 0:59 therapy last week i have therapy every 1:02 friday 1:03 every friday for years 1:07 and i love my therapist 1:09 i think a lot of people shy away from 1:11 therapy because they cannot find a 1:14 therapist that they can connect to and 1:16 that happened to me it took me years to 1:20 find the right therapist 1:21 and the right psychiatrist and i 1:25 you know i've got a team you know the 1:28 three of us we really work at this hard 1:30 we work at keeping me healthy 1:33 and 1:34 above above the surface of the water 1:36 when there are a lot of times that i 1:38 wanted to be nothing but below the 1:40 surface of the water 1:42 well this week in therapy we talked 1:44 about some things that brought some 1:45 things up emotionally for me 1:48 that really 1:51 are affecting me 1:53 and you know i want to be really blatant 1:54 really transparent really clear with 1:56 everyone 1:58 i am still very affected by the things 2:01 that happened to me when i was a kid and 2:03 i'm going to tell you about some of that 2:05 but it 2:06 with the forewarning that this is going 2:08 to be a shorter episode this week 2:11 for that very reason i'm trying to still 2:14 work through these things and on the 2:16 surface they may not seem that 2:25 crucial 2:26 but to me what it did it brought back 2:30 those feelings i had in full 2:34 force 2:36 we were talking about the death 2:40 of the one person in my life 2:43 i knew loved me 2:45 beyond 2:46 measure 2:49 that was my grandmother 2:51 i mean i want you to picture this okay 2:54 here i am this this little kid i was 2:57 probably 2:58 four or five years old 3:01 my grandmother 3:03 had a farm 3:04 that she rented out 3:06 she was very cosmopolitan very chic and 3:09 you know way cool 3:12 she was born on the farm she hated it 3:14 she was always embarrassed that she was 3:17 had been born on a farm and she didn't 3:18 have shoes and she didn't have a horse 3:20 to ride to school that she had to ride 3:23 to school on a mule 3:25 so she really pushed and pushed and she 3:28 got herself out of that town but she 3:31 kept that farm 3:33 and we were at the farm one time i don't 3:36 know doing farm business or whatever she 3:38 took me with her 3:40 a lot 3:41 and there was i don't remember what it 3:43 was called it was sort of like a 3:45 reservoir 3:46 it was like 3:48 you know the beverly hillbillies they 3:49 call the swimming pool the concrete pond 3:51 well this to the best of my recollection 3:54 it was a 3:56 a concrete 3:58 pond but it was above ground i don't 4:00 know i don't know how big it was it had 4:02 some fish in it and there was one 4:04 particular fish i wanted 4:08 and i'm watching this woman dress to the 4:10 nines 4:12 take her shoes off roll her pants up 4:15 climb into that reservoir whatever it 4:18 was to catch the only fish i wanted i 4:22 didn't want any other fish i wanted that 4:24 one blue fish 4:26 and i'm watching her with a jar 4:29 walk around 4:31 trying to catch that damn fish 4:34 if that doesn't say i love you 4:39 and i 4:40 want you to know i love you 4:43 i don't know what does 4:46 but she did it 4:48 my parents never would have done that 4:50 never never never 4:54 but we were talking about her and the 4:56 things that she had done that really 4:58 made me feel wanted accepted 5:03 and 5:05 cherished 5:08 and then what her death did to me 5:13 being the age i was i was almost 16 5:16 years old i had had 5:18 i was blessed i had a much longer time 5:20 with my grandmother than my my cousins 5:23 did 5:25 and i was also the first grandchild 5:28 for i was a girl 5:30 first grandchild and therefore i held 5:34 the crown 5:36 in the 5:39 grandchild arena according to my 5:42 grandmother 5:44 and 5:45 i have to say that my aunts 5:48 i think they gave me a little bit of 5:50 grace in that i think 5:53 with me i would have a little bit of 5:54 trouble with my p with my mother 5:58 indulging one grandchild over another 6:01 but i think they may have had a little 6:02 grace with me 6:04 because they did see 6:06 what i went through with my parents 6:10 being you know almost 16 there are some 6:12 things that they told me there were a 6:14 lot of things that they didn't tell me 6:18 we did some wonderful wonderful things 6:21 before she died and when she died 6:24 it was the strangest thing 6:26 i was 6:28 i was in bed i was asleep and my mother 6:31 came into my room and woke me up 6:36 and 6:38 she said terry deena just died 6:41 i said i know 6:44 and my mother just collapsed crying on 6:46 me 6:48 which was for me very uncomfortable and 6:50 very unusual because my mother my 6:52 parents did not touch me they did not 6:56 hug me and i can remember looking back 6:58 at 7:00 christmas photos 7:03 with my mother and her sisters and their 7:04 families and we always get a picture 7:06 every 7:07 every christmas 7:09 and 7:10 in my aunt's families they're laying on 7:12 each other they're hugging each other 7:14 they're 7:14 you know being all lovey-dovey 7:18 but in the fan the pictures with my 7:20 family 7:21 we were about six inches apart 7:23 everyone's arms were crossed and no one 7:25 was touching 7:27 that i think was the first time i 7:29 realized there was a real legitimate 7:32 problem with my family 7:34 and i don't know how i got off on that 7:35 track talking i guess because i didn't 7:37 want to really 7:38 have to talk about the death of my 7:40 grandmother 7:42 but my mother came in and she said terry 7:44 had her dina had died 7:47 and i knew 7:48 because i had just had a dream 7:51 if you could call it a dream or was it 7:53 not a dream did i actually travel there 7:55 did she beckon me to her 7:58 in her final moments 8:00 i remember being in the bedroom that she 8:03 was in 8:04 and we were talking i had been out and 8:07 bought a dress that day for a school 8:09 dance 8:10 and there was a sandstorm which was very 8:12 unusual in dfw 8:14 but back on the farm it wasn't unusual 8:17 at all they were all the time 8:20 and i remember telling her we talked for 8:22 a bit she told me how much she loved me 8:25 i was telling her you know she asked me 8:27 about my day i told her about the 8:30 sandstorm it was just like the 8:31 sandstorms back in big spring and it 8:34 hurt it would sting your legs when you 8:36 would walk in it would sting your face 8:38 it was horrible 8:40 and i don't know how how long i i 8:43 felt i was there seems like i was there 8:45 long enough to have a pretty good 8:47 conversation with her and then 8:50 at one point she told me she loved me 8:52 again and she said you need to go now 8:56 because sandy will be here in a minute 8:59 sandy was my aunt and my grandmother was 9:02 at that time staying with my aunt 9:07 while she was sick 9:09 and the next thing i knew my mother was 9:12 tapping me on the shoulder telling me 9:14 that she had died and my answer to her 9:16 was i i know 9:20 i was telling this to my therapist and 9:24 we 9:25 or he asked me a question he said terry 9:27 how long did it take you 9:29 to really come to terms with the death 9:31 of your grandmother you speak about her 9:33 a lot 9:36 you you let me know she was really your 9:38 only 9:39 trusted caregiver besides your your 9:42 other aunts 9:44 how long did it take you to process her 9:46 death 9:48 and i sat back because that was a 9:50 question 9:52 i've thought of before 9:54 i know for about five or six years i 9:57 didn't think about it it was actually 9:58 seven years after she died and went to 10:00 the cemetery and i just fell apart 10:03 in the cemetery 10:04 on her grave and i spent the entire day 10:07 there 10:09 but i would 10:12 i told him something that i hadn't 10:13 really thought of before and that was 10:17 that i pretended that she wasn't dead 10:20 here i am almost 16 years old and i'm 10:22 saying 10:24 to myself you know logically i knew my 10:26 grandmother was dead i was at the 10:28 funeral i saw the whole thing i was 10:29 there i knew it but in my heart of 10:32 hearts 10:35 i 10:36 would tell myself she was going to 10:38 another country to get treatment 10:41 she was going to get well and she was 10:43 going to come back for me she wasn't 10:45 going to leave me 10:47 in this situation that i was in she was 10:49 going to surprise us all she was going 10:51 to come back her hair was going to be 10:53 back it was raven black 10:56 she was gorgeous 10:59 and she was going to be healthy and 11:01 whole and everything would be just like 11:03 it was when she was there 11:06 or at the times when i was with her 11:09 and i he said really you 11:12 you had this fantasy it was like yeah it 11:14 was really you know i thought about it a 11:16 lot i thought about it it seems like 11:18 almost every day 11:20 you know is she gonna come back today is 11:22 she gonna be 11:23 here today i wonder what country she's 11:25 in today i wonder what treatment she's 11:27 trying today 11:28 so i was really 11:30 trying to convince myself i guess that 11:32 my grandmother had not died 11:36 and 11:37 then he asked me if i had 11:40 ever had 11:43 any other 11:45 um similar situation 11:48 and i thought for a second i looked at 11:51 him 11:52 virtually 11:54 and said yeah 11:56 when i was a little girl 11:59 i had a pretend family 12:02 and i knew they were a pretend family it 12:04 wasn't like i was telling myself my 12:07 grandmother was coming 12:08 home but i kind of created my own family 12:12 where i was safe i had even a nanny 12:16 and her main job 12:19 was to make sure that no one 12:22 hurt me my mom and dad in that fantasy 12:25 world had hired her 12:28 basically for my protection and you know 12:31 when i look back at it now i almost 12:33 wonder if 12:35 it was my grandmother that i had in that 12:37 role 12:39 but i did i had this pretend 12:43 fantasy family 12:45 it was perfect i would do things with my 12:47 mom we would go places we would have 12:50 fun she would cook which she didn't cook 12:54 and she was teaching me these things 12:58 and my dad was always really my real dad 13:01 but he was home 13:03 he was always home he wasn't flying he 13:06 wasn't with other clients he was home 13:09 like the rest of the dads were 13:11 but i had a different mom and i had this 13:14 nanny and so we sort of talked through 13:16 that and that brought up this huge rush 13:19 of emotion 13:20 in just how abandoned i felt as a child 13:26 you know my parents made sure i had 13:28 everything i needed 13:30 and i know when i was little 13:33 and my dad was going to school and he 13:35 was doing these things my mother stayed 13:37 home with us 13:38 i know that my grandmother did pay for a 13:41 lot of things she paid for my dance 13:43 lesson she paid for my christmas present 13:45 she bought me clothes 13:47 she paid for a lot of things and 13:50 as my dad's career took off 13:54 they they did make sure that we had the 13:56 necessities that we needed but nothing 13:59 else 14:02 at least my mom my dad was gone mom came 14:05 home she'd go to bed she would close the 14:07 door she would lock us out 14:09 but in my pretend family that didn't 14:12 happen and you know 14:14 at the time that my mother went back to 14:15 work i was probably 12 years old maybe 14:19 13 years old 14:21 heck i could have been older than that 14:23 but i still had this pretend family 14:25 where i was protected and i would 14:28 retreat into that family 14:32 i wouldn't be hurt 14:34 i wouldn't be trying to get my mother's 14:35 attention that i was really there 14:38 we wouldn't get into fist fights 14:41 i mean my mother and i and i had some 14:43 very physical altercations when i was 14:47 young 14:48 and 14:50 i really don't know why i know 14:53 a lot of them i 14:57 had said something 14:59 about wanting to be with my aunt or 15:02 wanting to be with my grandmother or 15:04 when i was going to see them and i think 15:06 that set her off i think it provoked her 15:10 and 15:12 now looking back on it you know at 60 or 15:15 60 years old and seeing the trauma that 15:17 my mother had gone through 15:20 not having her mother there and then her 15:23 daughter is crying out for her sister 15:26 and her mother and not her 15:28 i think that 15:30 really 15:32 put more of a divide in there 15:35 and i take blame for that and i really 15:37 shouldn't 15:38 because i was young and those were the 15:40 only people that had protected me and if 15:43 i cried out for them 15:46 and was beaten like i was 15:49 or i wouldn't be spoken to 15:52 or i would have to stay in my room for 15:54 however many weeks it was 15:57 you know the only safe place to be was 15:59 in a fantasy world 16:02 and i think that i kept that fantasy 16:04 world up for quite some time 16:07 you know i know 16:08 until my 16:10 into my adulthood 16:12 on the outside i could be somebody 16:14 completely different 16:16 i was 16:16 i appeared confident and self-assured 16:20 but i wasn't i was scared i was scared i 16:23 was gonna lose something i was afraid 16:26 that i was gonna die in a car accident 16:32 i was afraid i had all of these fears 16:37 within me 16:38 but i was putting on this brave face 16:41 this different face 16:44 so no one could see how horrible i was 16:47 that my mother didn't love me the way 16:50 she loved my brothers 16:52 and 16:54 that i wasn't 16:55 so horrible that my dad chose a 16:57 profession 16:59 that would take him away from me all the 17:01 time 17:03 and i know that's not what happened i 17:05 know that's not why my dad decided to 17:07 become a pilot 17:09 he loved flying 17:13 but flying was really the other woman in 17:16 his life or was the woman in his life 17:20 flying took him away from my mother took 17:22 him away from us and my dad and i had 17:25 always been very close 17:30 as close as we could be i guess 17:33 it's really weird i just said that 17:35 and then i realized but wait a minute 17:37 terry your dad never hugged you your dad 17:39 never told you he loved you 17:42 but he showed me in ways he bought me 17:44 toys he made toys for us 17:48 he did things that he would interact 17:51 with us my mother would never 17:53 never do that 17:56 so 17:56 that's the way i knew my dad loved me 18:00 and what's really weird is i don't ever 18:02 really remember being hit by by my dad i 18:04 do by my mother and i know my brothers 18:07 were hit by my father because i 18:09 witnessed it and it scared me to death 18:12 to think that that could come toward me 18:15 and i always tried to be really good 18:17 when my dad was home because i didn't 18:20 want what i saw my brothers 18:22 get 18:25 but at the same time my gosh being so 18:28 lost 18:29 and 18:31 not realizing a lot of this until i was 18:34 about 58 years old is when i felt safe 18:36 enough to start letting this come out 18:40 that says a lot 18:41 that says how much damage and how much 18:44 fear was there 18:47 and to think of everything that i've 18:49 lost 18:51 because i imploded 18:55 in 2008 when my dad died or he died in 18:58 2007 my mother in 2006 2008 i fell apart 19:03 and i think i've told you that's because 19:04 i thought it was safe to do so then 19:08 and 19:10 i really 19:13 went to rock bottom 19:16 i had to rebuild every part of myself 19:20 and i don't think it was until the last 19:22 two years 19:24 you know 2020 2019 2020 that i really 19:28 made a lot of 19:32 connections 19:34 and realized 19:36 i wasn't the bad kid 19:38 my aunts were telling me i was a 19:40 delightful child my grandmother loved me 19:44 my dad started talking to me a whole lot 19:46 more after he died 19:49 about how important it was to let your 19:51 kids know they you loved them 19:54 and he you know he still he was still 19:56 very uncomfortable with with anything 19:58 like that he was 19:59 basically left in a playpen 20:02 um 20:03 all day long while his mother worked and 20:05 the neighbor would come up and feed and 20:07 change him 20:09 so my dad 20:11 had 20:14 my parents had traumas of their own to 20:15 deal with 20:20 and last friday talking to my i think 20:23 texas just came out of my mouth when i 20:24 said friday 20:26 talking to my therapist it 20:29 it's made for a really long really hard 20:31 weekend i've slept most of it i went to 20:34 a couple of 20:38 i went to see friends perform 20:40 they're jazz musicians 20:42 i went to you know some 20:44 a couple of things this weekend and it 20:47 helped but it it it really um 20:52 it distracted me 20:53 and it reminds me how i would distract 20:55 myself before i knew what was going on 20:59 before i knew i had cptsd before i knew 21:02 that there was really 21:04 an emotional problem that i needed to 21:06 work on 21:08 and i would escape 21:10 and i feel that's what's happening right 21:12 now 21:14 and i 21:15 i really did a lot of research this week 21:17 and i was okay i was okay during the 21:20 doing the research i was okay putting 21:22 everything together 21:24 but 21:28 friday 21:29 with therapy 21:33 it put everything in a new light a new 21:35 picture for me 21:37 it brought the past alive it brought it 21:40 back full force 21:43 and i'm i mean 21:45 i'm struggling right now 21:48 vander 21:50 um 21:51 where is that let me find it here 21:54 bessel vander kulk 21:57 many of you if you've if you read a lot 21:59 on 22:00 ptsd trauma neglect 22:04 abuse such things such as that you'll 22:06 you'll know that name vessel vanderkult 22:09 he said 22:10 people talk about trauma as an event 22:12 that happened a long time ago 22:16 but what trauma is 22:18 is the imprints that event has left on 22:22 your mind and in your sensations 22:26 the discomfort 22:28 you feel and the agitation you feel and 22:31 the rage and the helplessness you feel 22:35 right now 22:37 that's where i am right now i'm not in 22:40 the in in the 22:42 in the present i'm fine 22:45 not really 22:47 i'm not talking about you know present 22:49 day 22:49 day problems 22:51 it really resurrected 22:55 flashbacks for me 22:58 of when i was a child and some of the 23:00 things that had went on had gone on 23:03 and so i'm having a difficult time so 23:05 i'm going to ask you to forgive me but i 23:07 am going to cut this short because 23:10 i need to focus on me right now 23:13 for the next couple of days at least and 23:16 hopefully have a 23:18 full-length podcast episode up 23:21 next tuesday 23:23 but i need to be aware 23:25 as you do of what your triggers are 23:28 what you need to do to bring them down 23:32 and sometimes when we push through we 23:33 push through so far 23:36 that we fall 23:38 face first because there's something 23:40 emotionally we need to deal with 23:42 at that time at that moment 23:46 and i know for me it comes when i start 23:48 sleeping as much as i've been sleeping 23:51 so i need to do some soul searching i 23:53 need to figure this out i need to sort 23:56 out this fantasy family and the fantasy 23:59 that my grandmother had never died you 24:01 know those are things that i held and i 24:04 think i put them in a box and put them 24:06 away but they're really quite disturbing 24:09 right now and i don't think it's 24:11 i really don't feel it's like in 24:13 anyone's best interest for me to go on 24:17 and do 24:19 more of an episode 24:22 on trauma on ptsd on cptsd at the moment 24:27 because right now i feel like a broken 24:29 jar 24:31 and i know that it has been put together 24:35 but what bessel vanderkolk said about 24:39 the 24:39 imprint 24:41 it's still there 24:45 i need to take that seriously because i 24:48 need you guys to take it seriously 24:51 and i need to be 24:54 in this position 24:56 if i'm going to be doing a podcast on 24:59 mental health 25:00 overcoming 25:01 cptsd and trauma 25:04 and i find myself in a position where i 25:06 need help i need to be able to be 25:10 real with you and say 25:12 hey i'm sorry this has to be a short 25:15 kind of 25:17 on the fly 25:18 episode because i need to recognize 25:23 what my inner child is crying out for 25:26 and that's weird trying to re-parent 25:28 your inner child the first time i did 25:30 that it was like way weird 25:33 and i was in the i was in a flashback 25:37 and 25:38 i realized i was in a flashback and i 25:40 realized what i was feeling at that time 25:42 no was nowhere near 25:45 what the moment called for 25:47 i realized i was feeling what i was 25:49 feeling when i was a little kid in the 25:51 same thing it happened to me 25:56 and so what i did was 25:59 i'm talking to myself i'm talking to 26:00 like little terry there saying it's okay 26:04 you're safe with me 26:05 i'm gonna take care of you 26:07 i'm not not gonna let anything happen to 26:09 you 26:10 you are safe 26:12 i mean she was just three four five six 26:14 years old i'm 60. i think i can 26:17 take care and protect 26:19 a little child especially if that little 26:22 child dwells within me 26:25 so i need to heed that calling and i 26:27 need to do that i hope you'll forgive me 26:30 for that 26:31 hopefully next week we'll be back with a 26:36 revelatory 26:38 episode of 26:41 grand proportions 26:43 and that everyone will be able to learn 26:45 something 26:47 but 26:48 look at me and look at yourself 26:50 if you're feeling your triggers 26:53 you're walking through your triggers and 26:54 you know what your triggers are listen 26:57 to them 26:58 and take care of yourself 27:00 so that's what i'm going to do 27:02 i'm going to say bye for now 27:04 and i will see you 27:06 next week 27:12 thank you for listening to digging 27:14 through dominoes 27:15 make sure you subscribe so you don't 27:17 miss any future episodes in the meantime 27:20 connect with terry on facebook and 27:22 instagram at digging through dominoes on 27:25 twitter at digging dominoes and online 27:29 at digging through dominos.com 27:32 until next time thank you for listening 27:36 [Music]  

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Episode 6 of Digging Through Dominoes explores the origins of and causes of Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) with examples of how my early childhood affected and shaped my entire adult life.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO   Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD   podcast urls: Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  teri anderson  mental health awareness  mental health awareness month  mental awareness month  mental health awareness may trauma PTSD Complex PTSD

In this episode Teri's guest, Jeff, discusses with Teri how her night in the behavioral unit, misdiagnosis with biploar disorder affected us both in unexpected ways.  His experience of watching Teri in a situation he could do nothing about. His mistrust of the medical system and doctors that only check boxes.  He also gives a glimpse of how, and when, he realized the extent of animosity in Teri's family of origin. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO   Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD    teri anderson  mental health awareness  psychotherapy  60 something  teri anderson  mental health awareness therapy sessions uncomfortable psychiatrist social worker unconditional love devastation no trust referral to a psychiatrist second opinion screening for bipolar disorder judgemental personality tests misdiagnosis paranoia bipolar misdiagnosis self doubt Digging Through Dominoes introspective C-PTSD  Complex PTSD Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder disassociation escape numb isolate Teri Anderson  60 something  mental health awareness  

The symptoms of Bipolar disorder, C-PTSD and how they overlap.  The medications they put me on for bipolar disorder and how they destroyed my life.  The side effects, the destruction, my reactions. Future podcasts will be published on Tuesdays at 5 AM Pacific time. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO   Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD    60 something  teri anderson  mental health awareness therapy sessions uncomfortable psychiatrist social worker unconditional love devastation no trust referral to a psychiatrist second opinion screening for bipolar disorder judgemental personality tests misdiagnosis paranoia bipolar misdiagnosis self doubt Digging Through Dominoes introspective C-PTSD  Complex PTSD Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder disassociation escape numb isolate Teri Anderson  60 something  mental health awareness  lcsw

How Teri Was Misdiagnosed With Bipolar Disorder.  So many people tout the benefits of therapy, but few discuss the feelings of anxiety, doubt, paranoia, and even fear that arise before pouring you soul out to a licensed professional.  In this episode, Teri discusses her journey through therapy and relives her experiences of transitioning though different therapists.   She opens up about the doubts and discomfort that she experienced leading up to her sessions, including questions like: How do you open up when you've never been able to trust anyone before?  What does my hair/posture/mannerisms say about me?  She discusses the good, bad and the ugly of transitioning through therapy. From her initial therapist, who invoked feeling of distrust and judgement, to a better therapist that unfortunately prescribed an incorrect diagnosis.  Finally, Teri describes how she landed with her current psychiatrist and how his dedication has led to a more clear and accurate diagnosis.  If you've ever experienced doubts about therapy or received less than ideal therapy, you will be able to relate to this episode, but still leave with a  sense of encouragement to keep going until you find someone who sees you, understands your story and will work to help you be the person who wish to be.  Follow Digging Through Dominoes here for more inspiration, encouragement and hope: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/  YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Twitter: @DiggingDominoes How doctors checked boxes and misdiagnosed me with a mental disorder, bipolar disorder 2. They didn't know me, they didn't know my history, I was only a case file at that point of my life.  They got it wrong. That misdiagnosis destroyed my life.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO   Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD   therapy sessions uncomfortable psychiatrist social worker unconditional love devastation no trust referral to a psychiatrist second opinion screening for bipolar disorder judgemental personality tests misdiagnosis paranoia bipolar misdiagnosis self doubt Digging Through Dominoes introspective C-PTSD  Complex PTSD Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder disassociation escape numb isolate Teri Anderson  60 something  mental health awareness  lcsw

Teri's experience in a behavioral unit in Portland, Oregon.  One morning she found herself in the behavioral unit of Adventist Hospital in Portland, Oregon.  To illustrate, Teri tells her personal story of how a series of traumatic events packed into a short amount of time led her to a breaking point that ended up with her in a behavioral unit. Her story details the how the desire to have control and find a moment of peace in a chaotic life led her to having a feeling of not having any control and the fear that accompanied it.  This is a story that mirrors so many of the experiences that people face on the daily basis but don't get talked about. Teri's hope is that her sharing her personal story will allow you to see that you are not alone in your struggles.    The night before she had just wanted to sleep, to get off the merry-go-round of her life.  When she awoke she had no idea where she was and when she realized she was in the behavioral unit, she had no idea how she was going to get out.  This began Teri's journey to understanding, being misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder 2, and finding her true diagnosis of C-PTSD.  It's not easy living anxiety, PTSD, depression, or trauma of any kind. It's even more difficult doing it alone. This podcast is here to show you that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO   Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://amzn.to/3epY0RD   Follow along on the journey:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ 
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ 
 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw 
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It's not easy living anxiety, PTSD, C-PTSD, depression, or trauma of any kind. It's even more difficult doing it alone. This podcast is here to show you that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! INTRODUCING: Digging Through Dominoes hosted by Teri Anderson! This mental health podcast is set to launch Saturday, May 7, 2022 at 8AM! To illustrate, Teri tells her personal story of how a series of traumatic events packed into a short amount of time led her to a breaking point that ended up with her in a behavioral unit. Her story details the how the desire to have control and find a moment of peace in a chaotic life led her to having a feeling of not having any control and the fear that accompanied it.  This is a story that mirrors so many of the experiences that people face on the daily basis but don't get talked about. Teri's hope is that her sharing her personal story will allow you to see that you are not alone in your struggles.  Follow along on the journey:  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes/ 
 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ 
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw 
 Twitter: @DiggingDominoes