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In "Anxiety Medication Strategy Session," changing opinions on music, bouts of anxiety, recent publication in Identity Theory and Disturb the Universe, family life changes, increased mobility, and resumption of some duties. Last Old Guy Or First New Guy? Recently, I read a tweet by flea, and I was forced to reconsider: https://twitter.com/flea333/status/1774601328502898936 https://youtu.be/QEgalcH_-b4?si=q7ZD6rdC4ZhfnwbY&t=1762 Pat Matheny on German jazz critics Pat Matheny was a jazz guitarist that my stepfather really admired. For that reason, in my youth I stayed away from it. In general, I mind it less now that I am older, but I generally don't seek it out. Sometimes, a random tweet by flea will turn decades of tradition on its head, and I'll be forced to reconsider. In an interview with Rick Beato, Pat Metheny had this to say about musical invention: German jazz critics are great. They'll come right out and say the most direct thing. I had a guy say to me-- you know, not that long ago, maybe 10 years ago-- "Are you the last old guy, or are you the first new guy?" and the thing is, I bet you know what he means too, right? Yeah, of course.. I mean, for me, both. Well, I don't know, I mean, you know, it's hard to be objective about your own thing, but what I will say is that, for me, there was no option other than trying to invent stuff, yeah. Anxious feelings I had a bout of anxious feelings and panic. I reached out to my care team and spoke over video and in-person at the office with my doctor the next day. We think it could be related to switching off of nerve-pain medication post-surgery. Marinated Spicy Chicken Thighs Recipe Over at Hoppin Hot Sauce, there's a new recipe for Marinated Spicy Chicken Thighs marinated in yogurt, salt, and Hoppin Hot Sauce. "Vern" published in Identity Theory I'm happy to announce the publication of “Vern” in Identity Theory, selected by Micro Editor Vic Nogay. Many thanks to the publisher Matt Borondy. “Vern” is a 50-word story about the workplace injury sustained by my great grandfather, T. Vernon Smithson, at the cotton gin in Mount Juliet, Tennessee. Identity Theory is an online magazine of literature and culture publishing interviews, prose, poetry, art, commentary, and other inventive explorations of humanity since 2000. "Vern" published https://twitter.com/IdentityTheory/status/1783167798942023891 Reading "Vern" for Identity Theory "Hot Day" published in Disturb The Universe I'm happy to announce the publication of my eco-disaster poem, “Hot Day” in Disturb The Universe Magazine, April 23, 2024. The poem takes place in a decomposing world in thrall to “inevitable circumstances/ That can't be avoided.” According to their website, “Disturb the Universe aims to share writing on the edge from writers strongly inhabiting their voice.” Many thanks to Editor in Chief Skaja Evens. "Hot Day" published Non-stop publication action Is disguising the inevitable sinking feeling but it has to be in there, somewhere. Domestic Emptiness For the first time since 2020, my wife is back to the office four days a week. It's probably a big change for her. She comes home bursting with stories of her new gig. She seems very stimulated, and I think that's a good thing. Our home is empty during the day for the first time since we moved from San Jose. More walking I'm in my wheelchair less and less, and walking more. This week I went to the library on my own, walking in and out from the parking lot, trying to build stamina. I went to the doctor without the chair. I use it when we go to the market, any time when I'll have to do extended walking or to carry things. Resuming Some Duties Last week, I picked up the kids from school and picked up the vegetable box - something that I haven't done more than once or twice in the past year. I made an appointment to get a hair cut in a couple weeks,

Featuring updates on Hoppin Hot Sauce inventory, newly published writing, recuperation from surgery, the year's first barbecue, and a new family pet. Sandman Knows Kale Shout outs to the Sandman, who wrote in about kale and he knows more about kale than I ever will. He works with kale as a kaleologist. Extra Hot Shortage Buy Extra Hot Hoppin Hot Sauce from Amazon as we will be out of stock on Extra Hot in the near term, and once Amazon runs out, we're out. Publication Instant Noodles published my 50-word story "CYBERTRUCK DENTAL, S. DE R.L." The link to the stuff that is published, along with what's upcoming is on the Publications page of my author site jwh.whatsthematterwithme.org The sinking feeling you have after publication is the same one you have after you have an art opening. Everything returns to normal. Banal, mundane, normal. But in fact, I did accomplish something. What I set out to do: become a published writer. The thing rolls on, even: a second 50-word story will be published in a different publication next week. I recorded myself reading it in a video at the request of the editor. Surgery Update Looking at the calendar, it's been about 4 weeks since I had surgery. I've reduced my medication down to the pointt where I'm almost completely titrated off of the pain medications I've been taking for months. New New Cat We've got a new cat at the house. It's a two-month-old kitten that's part-lynx. It's in quarantine for the next 10 days, maybe more. Barbecue I lit the barbecue for the first time this year. Now that my meds are reduced, I feel like not as scary to grill. For the first go-around, I made skirt steak and eggplantLast night, I grilled a pork tenderloin with whole grain mustard, brown sugar and Shaoxing wine. We ate it with steamed new potatoes and boiled carrots. Hollywood We ordered a new juniper tree, a 'Hollywood Juniper' juniperus chinensis var. kaizuka. Remodeling After launching my writer's website, I'm remaking the whatsthematterwithme.org website with the same theme. If it all goes well, I could see myself redoing HoppinHotSauce.com the same way. Gary in the press Installation view of Gary Cannone's Manet/Degas at Compound Yellow, Oak Park, Illinois (photo Jonas Müller-Ahlheim) Past WTMWM? interview subject Gary Cannone got a great write-up by Lori Waxman in hyperallergic about his solo show at Compound Yellow in Oak Park, IL. Check out the Gary Cannone Interview Special here. Gaining equilibrium For the first time in months, I got up from the couch by myself. A couple of times Selfie Publication Barbecue selfie 00:00:00 - Intro 00:01:03 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:01:20 - Shout outs 00:02:01 - Instant Noodles Publishes "CYBERTRUCK DENTAL, S. DE R.L." 00:02:34 - The feeling you have after publication is the same one you have after you have an art opening 00:03:17 - another story will publish next week 00:03:35 - Writing site at jwh.whatsthematterwithme.org 00:04:03 - RF Rhizotomy recovery update 00:06:05 - Tapering off habit-forming medications 00:07:08 - We have a new cat 00:09:03 - First barbecue this year 00:10:15 - The Way I Grill Charred Eggplant 00:12:42 - New Juniper Tree 00:13:43 - Remaking whatsthematterwithme.org 00:13:55 - gary cannone hyperallergic writeup by lri waxman 00:14:35 - getting up by myself 00:16:11 - Outro

Period of Change Undergoing a period of change: I had surgery, I got published and I went on vacation. Plenty of new music reviews in this episode. A word What's The Matter With Me? Podcast is sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce. Order it on Amazon. JWH Live! Writings By John Winfield Hoppin is live, because my editor said I needed a writer's website. I think it's pretty nifty.. Selfie Edict Subscribers get the selfie for as long as we all live. It's a lifetime subscription Shout outs https://twitter.com/MarchandsPetRat/status/1779926937177358503 Shout outs to Marchandspetrat, hockey s-poster living with MS Shout outs to Rocky, Cousin Eric Gotta write up questions Nerve Bumps (A Queer Divine Dissatisfaction) by Dax Pierson Upcoming interview subject Dax Pierson Shout outs to the Sandman who turned me on to James Wavey Snowy Beach, which was added recently at KFJC. Psychedelic hip-hop from San Francisco James Wavey Snowy Beach by James Wavey Publication Dream Comes True I was accepted on a piece of writing, and for the first time I made a signed agreement. Follow JWH Live! to hear more about the writing. In the days before surgery In the run-up to surgery, in a lot of trigeminal neuralgia pain, I increased my dosage and I felt like it was too much. Trying to even things out, I reduced by 25% overall, and it helped return me to the land of the living. No coffee, no ibuprofen. On a day when I would usually be recording, I went to the hospital to have surgery, my third RF Rhizotomy and fifth neurosurgery on my trigeminal nerve overall. I had two MVD (microvascular decompression) surgeries to begin with. Recovery is much easier with rhizotomy. MVD literally bores a hole in your skull, and it takes a lot of recuperation to heal. Hospital stay from rhizotomy can be as short as a few hours. New tunes In advance of surgery, maybe to take my mind off it, or to give myself something to look forward to, I bought some tunes. Opera Glossolalia Spontaneous Musical Invention by Thomas Buckner sings Robert Ashley Robert Ashley is a composer of 1980s opera. There's a lot of talking in the libretto. The gatefold record comes with a cool book with photos. I really like the Recital label because they have interesting packaging. The record is one of 350. Instructions? Whiplash by Asha Sheshadri This record is like sound art, but at the same time it's a record. I'Layered, specific, related to site. Like getting a bunch of jumbled-up instructions for a treasure hunt, cryptic. Edition of 200. Chewing Gqom The Gqom Trilogy by DJ Scriby // DJ Marillo // DJ Skothan // Gqom is known for its beats which have a minimal, raw and repetitive sound with heavy bass. It is mainly described as having a dark and hypnotic club sound. The style of beats does not use the four-on-the-floor rhythm pattern which is often heard in other house music. "Gqom" Wikipedia article Digging this record - I'm new to Gqom, but I like it. The release is by three different DJs, a triple EP. Drunk in Love by Elvin Brandhi & Lord Spikeheart This is far out. File under extreme vocal performances. The feeling is metal, but the sound is electronic. Tense, spastic. Questionable in a good way, challenging material. Numb Now I'm back from surgery and my face feels different. Talking and eating and I'm sure other things that I'm not noticing are affected. Familiar disassociation after surgery. It's a matter of deciding how I feel about the things that are different. First, I have to accept them. Updating the map After surgery, it takes time for my body to properly calculate changes in sensation, and adjust the body's size map accordingly. In tune The piano is tuned Out on my own Drove to Oakland by myself and went to a couple of friend's houses for about 3 and 1/2 hours. It was the first time in 16 months.

In "Spring Concert," an incidental return to Dry Marchuary, a chapbook's worth of poetry and the school's Spring Concert. From chaos comes order One way to enjoy Hoppin Hot Sauce is "On Pasta". In the midst of near-total chaos, small rituals ground us, nourishing both body and soul. "On Pasta" at HoppinHotSauce.com Shout outs Shout outs to schwabino kickin fatal aikido kung fu karate they bout to find your body you better ask somebody mymedia designer.com tell a friend to tell a friend about my media designer See for yourself Spring Concert Selfie My hair is long as it's been since 2009! See for yourself above. Subscribers get the selfie e-mailed to them, they don't even have to do anything, just lay there. It's an NFT, it's collectible, it's a blockchain. Blockchain sounds like a necklace to me Lost Weekend Here I Come The wine delivery is coming tomorrow. In the meantime, we've been back to "One Or Two Beers Dry January-February-Marchuary" mode, just for the past few days. Long live one or two beers Dry January To go in your chaps Hippie chapbooks A chapbook is a small publication of up to about 40 pages, sometimes bound with a saddle stitch. "Chapbook," Wikipedia I collected what poetry I have written since I moved here in 2021. It's over 45 pages, and Wikipedia says it's enough to make a chapbook. Let my children play music Once upon a time in the auditorium I went to the San Leandro Unified School District Spring Concert in my wheelchair, to see my son play trumpet in the spring concert. Once upon a time in the auditorium Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:02:47 - From chaos comes order 00:03:21 - Shout outs 00:04:10 - Long Hair 00:05:23 - Wine delivery 00:05:58 - Poetry Collection 00:06:57 - Chapbook 00:09:04 - Writing in Google Keep 00:09:43 - Spring Concert 00:14:27 - Attending The Concert

In “I Drove,” getting reacquainted with driving, where did kale come from and borscht out the wazoo. Iconic trio At Breakfast is a great time to have Hoppin Hot Sauce. Just like the iconic trios of Larry, Curly, and Moe, or black, white, and grey, or even the Roman numerals I, II and III, eggs, English muffins and Hoppin Hot Sauce form an unforgettable trio that's sure to become a favorite in your kitchen. Shout outs Shout out to Jersey Girl and Max LevelWe're going to broadcast a game show in MayI'll be the score No matter what Selfie Selfie or no selfie the email is going out - grab it while you are still living, go to whatsthematterwithme.org and click subscribe I drove Two lane blacktop I drove my van. First, around the block. Next, to the library, where I saw men with nowhere else to go walking around the library grounds in the rain an hour before opening. Finally, I drove to Oakland, up 580 and to Piedmont Avenue, to Cato's Ale House. I photographed it from my parking space and texted it to my buddy, lamenting that it was too early for beer. He replied, "It's never too early for beer." It's good to have friends. Shout out to Matt. Turning around, I drove back home. Where did kale come from? According to the "kale" page of Wikipedia, Kale came to America in the 19th century from Croatia, brought by USDA botanist David Fairchild, who did not eat it, who detested cabbages of all sorts. Borscht We have a freezer full of borscht. Chock full of borscht, we have borscht coming out the wazoo. My aunt and uncle were in town and we had them over for lunch. We ate borscht. Two lane blacktop Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:00:42 - At Breakfast 00:01:55 - Shout outs 00:02:56 - Selfie or no selfie 00:03:20 - I drove my car 00:04:38 - Fear of driving 00:05:41 - Men with nowhere else to go 00:08:16 - Slash at the Oscars "I'm Just Ken" 00:09:41 - Where did kale come from? 00:12:11 - Dax Pierson interview upcoming 00:13:07 - Borscht 00:13:35 - Aunt and Uncle ate borscht 00:14:09 - Losing 00:14:34 - Outro

In "Buying A Used Wheelchair," breaking my wheelchair and buying a new one on Craigslist, more record shopping, cooking borscht and getting accepted for publication. Every week we order pizza from the place in town. On the day after, for lunch I eat cold pizza with Hoppin Hot Sauce on it.(Hoppin Hot Sauce jingle) Those who say don't know & who know don't say Buying a used wheelchair selfie Subscribers get the selfie and the show notes e mailed to them, and I don't know what they do with them Record shopping I went record shopping at Amoeba and it turned out to be a pretty good score: Something Is Wrong (Vintage Recordings From East Africa) Fiona Apple, "Tidal" Black Top Blues-a-rama, Volume 2 Live at Tipitina's, New Orleans J Dilla, "Donuts" The record store person gave me "the nod" Terminal Event I broke the arm off of my wheelchair, with a bang. The manufacturer was out of stock, but I needed to find a replacement. I got on my computer and I searched eBay and sfbay.craigslist.org. craigslist came through for me Cooking While Disabled We made borscht. For the second year in a row, we used this Serious Eats recipe for Hot Ukrainian Borscht (With Beets, Beef, Pork, and More) Accepted After an uninterrupted months-long streak of many rejections, a few different editors wrote me to let me know that my writing was accepted. All in all, a piece of microfiction (in this case, a story of exactly 50 words) and two poems. It's very exciting to turn the corner on this project and move from submission to publication. Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:05:04 - Subscribers get the selfie 00:06:01 - Record shopping 00:13:36 - Terminal event 00:21:08 - Borscht 00:27:58 - P.T. 00:29:30 - Outro

In "Swift Correction," Taylor Swift wrote all the songs, hoping everything's okay, and a sprained knee. But first, I'm programming robots to do my bidding! I can feel it-- success is near at hand. Automaton I I spent all day working on an automation to send posts created on the Hoppin Hot Sauce blog out to the mailing list automatically. Automations help multiply my actions which is important so I can conserve energy and avoid fatigue that comes with MS. Hopefully, I can stay in better touch with the hot sauce audience. Automaton II Swift Correction selfie Previously, another automation I made sends new episodes to our What's The Matter With Me? Podcast mailing list. Subscribe today. Subscribers get the selfie along with show notes. Cool thing Hoppin Hot Sauce is a disabled owned & operated business Shoppers at our Amazon store support disabled-owned business Hope everything's okay About the time when we were driving and we saw two fire trucks and an ambulance. My wife said. "I hope everything's okay." To which I replied, "Clearly, it isn't." Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs My wife texted: "The standard edition of 1989 (Taylor's Version) comprises 21 tracks: re-recordings of the 13 songs from the standard edition of 1989, re-recordings of the three bonus tracks from the original deluxe edition, and five previously unreleased "From the Vault" songs that were written for the 2014 album but excluded from the final track list. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1989_(album) I don't think the Taylor's version are covers." Of course, she was right. I tried to explain it in the episode, but it's really very complicated. Path of pain The path of pain began when I sprained my knee. Unfortunately, I fell in my bathroom, and bent it the wrong way. After that, I was leaning heavily on my cane, which caused soreness in my left pectoral area. The pain traveled from there down my arm, stopping in my bicep, forearm, wrist and hand. It was painful, like sitting cross-legged but the heel goes outward instead of inward. The bruise was on the inside of my knee. Recovery proceeds, slowly, haltingly; I'm trying to stay off of it as much as I can. Bueller... Bueller... I'm practicing for the CBEST California substitute teacher exam. Correction: Taylor Swift wrote all the songs Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:01:43 - Subscribe to get the selfie 00:02:27 - Taking the selfie 00:03:18 - I created some automatons 00:06:22 - Conserving energy 00:07:06 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:07:24 - Hope everything's OK 00:08:49 - Taylor Swift Correction 00:14:31 - It happens every night 00:18:28 - The Path Of Pain 00:19:26 - Substitute teacher exam 00:21:43 - Outro Taylor SwiftAutomatonHoppin Hot SauceMS (Multiple Sclerosis)Trigeminal NeuralgiaPodcastAutomationPain ManagementDisabilitySubstitute Teacher Exam (CBEST)

In "The Music Episode:" "Let's Paint TV," Ludacris color story meme, and keeping the kids in their rooms by tuning in to Day Of Noise on KZSU. When life gives you shoes.. make shoeanade The new shoes that I got in the last episode are working out. They're made by a company called Drew I swear it's true Semi-transparent guitarist playing a record store "in store" gig with red paint scrawled all over its face This is the music episode Spicy Roasted Pistachio Nuts The Spicy Roasted Pistachios with Hoppin Hot Sauce Extra Hot came out but there was one problem - i couldn't stop eating them - we'll eat them at the Super Bowl, if they last that long I'm writing an email blast about them, and I made some cool collages, like this one, of the guy who coined the term 'umami' Umami means "delicious taste." in Japanese. The Struggle Is Real If Sisyphus was alive today, he could have a podcast about going up the hill and rolling the boulder over and AI would say it was a multi-faceted discourse. Chairpiphany It helps when I search for stuff using my wheelchair not walking around. BC then I actually look around, instead of focusing on walking, trying not to fall, as usual. Berkeley Rock Stars https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnQ8N1KacJc I got a fragment of The time of your life Green Day song stuck in my head, but only the title, and even that I got wrong. Not Like The Others If you're like, "This certainly isn't like another podcast," make sure to subscribe to get the selfie. Here Be The River Of Pain Changes in the weather: the atmospheric river pointed at California is screwing with my face a bit. Stinging me, stabbing me - out of nowhere. Ultimately Very Listenable https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFEY7Aw7S7s&t=1848s Thiis is from "Let's Paint TV," hosted by the Los Angeles artist John Kilduff. Once the novelty of his multidisciplinary multitasking wore off, which, I admit, took a while, I found it soothing and ultimately very listenable. He has an etsy store, with lots of items for sale at a very reasonable prices considering the obvious talent involved. For real - I mean, could you do this? I couldn't, and I appreciate him for what he has done. Appealing Color Story Hip Hop Rap Ludacris Meme I created the Ludacris meme "Mauve birch" My Children Were On Lockdown It was the day of noise on KZSU. The 24-hour live marathon of noise and experimental sounds kept the kids out of the main room of the house, in their rooms with the doors firmly shut, pretty much all day. Keeping It Going On the day after Day Of Noise, my daughter had a playdate. While it was going on, I put on Escalo Frio by Otto Von Shirach which was more of the same. Escalo frio means shiver in Spanish. The record features an appearance by Matmos. Before putting it on I told my wife it was dance music and I admit, that was misleading. No Test Drive Abilities expo isn't happening in the bay area this year but it is happening in Los Angeles in mid March. I can get another of the same wheelchair that I already have, however I would like to have a chance to look at the options in a hands-on way. The Music Episode Selfie The Music Episode Selfie One More Time This is the music episode. Semi-transparent guitarist playing a record store "in store" gig with red paint scrawled all over its face Chapter List 00:00:00 - Funeral song 00:00:52 - ATMOSPhERIC RIVER TRIGEMINAL NEURALGIA 00:01:13 - New Drew Shoes 00:03:05 - This is the music episode 00:03:59 - Ikeda who coined the term 'umami' 00:05:13 - HOPPIN HOT SAUCE jingle 00:05:14 - If Sisyphus was alive today 00:05:44 - Search by wheelchair 00:06:54 - "Good Riddance" Green Day 00:08:05 - Get the selfie 00:10:10 - John Kilduff / Let's Paint TV 00:13:44 - Ludacris meme "Mauve birch" 00:14:44 - KZSU Day Of Noise 2024

SEASON 8 EPISODE 4"NEW SHOES 2KXXIV" In “NEW SHOES 2KXXIV,” I get new shoes for the first time in years, piece together a classy color scheme of colors with gross-sounding names and austerity in the UK impacts people with disabilities. Through this episode, I invite you to join me in unraveling the complexities of this multifaceted experience. Hoppin Hot Sauce Toasted Pistachios 1 cup pistachios, 2 teaspoon whole cumin seed, 1 teaspoon aji-no-moto, 1 Tablespoon Hoppin Hot Sauce, salt, olive oil. Stir together and lay out on a baking sheet lined with a silicone or parchment baking sheet. Place in a 350 degree oven for 3 to 4 minutes. Stir, and return to the oven for 3 or 4 minutes, until the cumin is fragraant. Let them cool for a few hours. Once I got going, I was unable to stop eating them even for a sip of beer. Shout outs Shout out to Matt who was into the blood episode - we watched the playoffs with our families Geographical Shout outs Shout outs to the cities, towns and countries that listen to this podcast Green Kitchens Sicken Millions Color scheme made up of Gross sounding colors like taupe and puce Mauve birch get out the way Don't Pull The Trigger On A Face Tattoo Reminder to the listeners as an alternative to getting the facial tattoo is to subscribe to the newsletter If I were ever to have an advertiser maybe a good one would be tattoo removal Cursing For Kids Swearing nursery rhymes like Little Miss muffet sat on her motherfucking tuppet eating her curds and way shit Stompin' in my Drew Force V I got new shoes - at walk rite for life who set me up with a custom fit, which I need to fit my AFO inside Less than total teetotaling "one or two beers half-january" is finally over Putting us all together Due to budget shortfalls, city councils in the United Kingdom are considering cutting assisted living programs and forcing disabled people to move into state-run facilities. If you want a symbol of this country's shredded safety net, look no further than Mark in Bristol. For the past 30 years Mark, who has cerebral palsy, has lived in his accessible bungalow with the support of personal assistants. That care package has enabled the 58-year-old to build a life at the heart of his community: from being a governor at the local school and training as a social worker, to holding a season ticket for his beloved Bristol City football club, “It's more despair than joy,” he smiles. From next week, that life could start to disappear. As the latest local authority to strain under growing social care costs and dwindling resources – the city faces a budget hole of £17m next year, expected to rise to £32m in the years to come – Bristol council is proposing a “cost-effective” solution: if a disabled person's in-home care is not considered “best value”, they could be told to live in a care home instead. It is the stuff of a domestic horror movie: a bureaucrat deems your life too expensive, and you're forced to pack your bags and spend the rest of your days in an institution. Frances Ryan, "Think of this: a plan to ‘warehouse' disabled people. What kind of nation is Britain becoming?" Thu 25 Jan 2024 Laughing Fools We had our friends over to watch the football game I undercooked the beans again but it didn't matter, we had a good time Afterwards, my wife and I laughed so much at bedtime, being goofy "New Shoes 2KXXIV" Selfie Chapter list Chapter List 00:00:00 - Intro 00:00:48 - Subscribe to get the selfie 00:01:20 - Young Albert Einstein vs. old Albert Einstein 00:03:32 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:03:51 - Hoppin Hot Sauce toasted pistachios recipe 00:06:11 - Shout outs 00:07:06 - Geographical shout outs 00:09:44 - A gross-sounding color scheme 00:10:51 - Alternative to the facial tattoo 00:11:45 - If I had an advertiser

Welcome to the Season 8 Premiere, "New Pie Cutter" In this episode, "New Pie Cutter" which is a kind of smorgasbord episode, we celebrate the new year, the new season, the new theme song. People get ready, the new episode is here and ready for liftoff. Shout outs s Shout out to the sandman Contact me on the contact form to get a shout out Maybe the best shout out you'll ever have, or that anyone'll ever have New Pie Cutter To avoid a repeat of this year's thanksgiving gorefest, I ordered a metal pie cutter on ebay, with a stainless steel blade and a silver handle - it's here and it's beautiful and sturdy Dinner a la GoGo GoGo has limitations as a dating service an awkward seating arrangement at least they got a name change TV burial bought a big new tv bc mine crapped out after 15 years What's causing it Dad butt dialed me again and he was like well. what happens is,I keep my phone in my back pocket, i think i butt dialed you Maxims I will try to eat cheese no matter how old it is just to see A pint is a pound the world around Correct Technique correct and incorrect swallowing techniques Swallow while staring at your sternum I learned it from Koko Wheelchair Fake News With my son parts on my wheelchair broke in airline baggage "jazzy passport is discontinued" and other lies the wheelchair salesman told me Notes making memes yogurt marinade Mix 1 cup yogurt, 2 tsp Hoppin Hot Sauce, and 1.5 tsp salt Pour over 8 boneless chicken thighs and rest for at least four and up to twentyfour hours Grill and eat over rice with some white sauce and extra hot sauce to taste AI Guy I posted a picture of myself that was made by AI and I put it as my story and a lot of people haven't heard from in a long time contacted me and maybe didn't realize the picture was not of me but it was a hallucination by AI Admission the triage nurse at the hospital asked me if i used to be a wrestler Chapters 00:02:37 - shoutouts 00:03:02 - I ordered a metal pie cutter on ebay 00:04:43 - GoGo has limitations as a dating service 00:07:55 - bought a tv bc mine crapped out after 15 yr 00:09:33 - Dad butt dialed me again and he was like well. what happens is,I keep my phone in my back pocket, i think i butt dialed you 00:10:01 - I will try to eat cheese no matter how old it is just to see 00:10:25 - A pint is a pound the world around 00:12:38 - Swallowing while staring at your sternum 00:15:53 - parts on my wheelchair broke in airline baggage 00:21:22 - jazzy passport is discontinued (and other lies the salesman told me) 00:21:58 - maxims 00:22:19 - Hoppin Hot Sauce Jingle 00:22:28 - cooking yogurt chicken (with recipe) 00:23:27 - I posted a picture of myself that was made by AI 00:24:35 - i've been bleeding all from my head 00:25:43 - the triage nurse at the hospital asked me if i used to be a wrestler 00:28:57 - pus head experience / pus head the artist

In "What's Really Going On", John discusses the challenges he's been facing with his children, particularly their lack of cooperation He shares the stress and difficulty he experiences in trying to handle this situation, about the frustration of dealing with his son's behavior and the impact it has on their daily routines. He expresses his hope for a resolution and mentions that it's the 30th episode of his podcast this year. The episode discusses various topics, including John's family life, his children's behavior, his creative work with Hoppin Hot Sauce, and his experiences at a drum and bass show. Forming a rock band What I meant when I said that the fans of What's The Matter With Me? Podcast could change the course of history is that there's enough of them to form a rock band Coffee Annual Deep Cleaning We took the coffee machine in to get serviced Pile of Sticks All of my walking sticks are bent or otherwise unusable and I have them in a pile in the corner. I called in the warranty for one of them, and the replacement will come on Monday. Drum and bass I went to the drum and bass show at the Golden Gate Park Bandshell in my wheelchair Submission Kind of a milestone: I submitted poetry to ten publications. It's probably just the beginning. Hot Sauce Check Out Hoppin Hot Sauce On Amazon Making a new production of Hoppin Hot Sauce, getting everything ready What's really going on My son is driving me wild, and my daughter is watching and learning John discusses the challenges he's been facing with his children, their lack of cooperation in doing homework. He shares the stress and difficulty he experiences in trying to handle this situation, and the frustration of dealing with their behavior and the impact it has on their daily routines. He expresses his hope for resolution and a good night's sleep.

Welcome to "New Van" on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, I get a new van that accommodates a chair lift, host a friend from out of town, and start to plan the heavy metal concert at my burial. News Smash News flash news smash breaking news update chyron Hoppin Hot Sauce is for sale on Amazon Shout outs Sand Man's idea Shout out to Rocky and the Sand Man Burial Music Terrible Cemetery A terrible cemetery would have no benches Metal changes tempo You can only slam dance to it The dancing people stay away You can't dance to it Nami replied, "and maybe that's the point." A metal thing to say No Police Escort little league baseball season was a disaster The police escort didn't show up and the parade was canceled In the middle the A's decided to move to Vegas Visitor Buddy came from out of town New van New car smell They picked up the old van for donation We purchased a 2020 Toyota Sienna. Its coming on Saturday Pick Me Up https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO50hC5WgYc AL6000 Finally, we are going to get a wheelchair lift in the trunk. I am trying not to get too excited On The Contrary Admittedly, I can be a contrarian, so when KFJC got a little too carried away playing an all-vinyl marathon that extended to almost a week, I proposed an all compact-disc marathon, called The Plastication. This week's selfie: New Van selfie

Welcome to "Chew On That", an episode about new music, barbecues, and the cultural differences between cafes and diners Best Sauce Check it out: Hoppin Hot Sauce is on Amazon News flash:It's the best sauce In the world SHOP Big Up Listener Shoutouts to Rocky Shout outs to the people who listen to every episode Boom Roasted We needed to order another Filter for the ice Maker and bang i did it Trip to the Cathedral Right around the corner This is a podcast about nothing because i'm from the Seinfeld era Ritual Hazing Absent Father I had Dad drink cucumber skin juice He grimaced. and we laughed and pointed at him First Detroit Based Art Gallery And Studio For Disabled Artists Progressive Art Studio Collective (PASC), a program of Services to Enhance Potential,  is seeking funding to complete the build out of our future Detroit Gallery and Studio in LANTERN. If PASC raises $50,000 by August 5, we will win a matching grant through MEDC's Public Spaces Community Places initiative. SUPPORT https://vimeo.com/840505686 Sausages On Display We hosted BBQs on July 4th & 5th I'm an extrovert and my wife is an introvert For the 4th we had sausages and ssteak On the fifth, we ate hamburgers MUSIC RUNDOWN https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCaD6GAQmjA Sonny Rollins & Leonard Cohen https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oou1_mWFtig Ghast "O Akhea Rheon" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFM2yBy6GUA Kids are into this Purchased the catalogue $0.15/release Constellation Tatsu all for $20 This Week's Selfie Chew on that selfie GET THE SELFIE Every time we release an episode Sign up S

Welcome to “Five Nights of Sweating” on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast A fever that doesn't seem to want to go away; new music around the house; some terrible food. Maybe we can make the time pass quicker if we go to a grind core festival. Is not wanted I've got a fever that kept coming back Word What's The Matter With Me? Podcast is sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce-- it's the best sauce in the world! hoppin hot sauce is on amazon so anyone can eat it with hash browns and and English muffin-egg sandwiches with or without cheese but definitely with Hoppin Hot Sauce Feeling feverish For the first 3 nights it was up around 102-103 F In addition to Tylenol, I started taking Advil as a fever reducer, then I woke up covered in sweat with a normal temperature Then the next day it would began again I had an epiphany to drink Gatorade Catching up with Sonny Sonny Rollins has got a mohawk, where i'm at in Saxophone Colossus At his shows, he came out with the cowboy hat, then he would take that off and had the mohawk underneath Burnin' Up I sweat through the sheets for the 4th night in a row Disgusting: I smelled like a case of unwashed grapefruit with a sour whiff of spoilage or maybe more than that As if someone left me in the back hall, not in the fridge. by the dumpster near some unnamed liquid. I need a clean up New Music New music rundown this week is pretty much from bandcamp bc that's the only place I have been able to access recently Fake Fruit Terry Jennings Nine Dog Dick Dhol Tasha Sound System On the fifth night I sweat through the bed on the fifth night and woke up drenched yet again Grim In frustration at not being able to cook for myself, I took the reins at dinner I ended up making fried gnocchi with spinach, Garlic, tomato, cream, a can of sardines It could have used acid like lemon juice or vinegar to offset the tinned fish. There was a lot of cream though It was terrible. the kids wouldn't eat it. I thought to myself, "It is making your nails stronger and increasing your hair's tensile ability" Made it through On the sixth night the fever evaporated and I woke up mostly dry Grind core for the whole family Gilman is hosting the Fast, Wierd and Freaky Festival this weekend It's all ages I might still be a little too tired plus John John is maybe not ready Maybe he's not even ready to hear the band lineup read aloud Dad Butt Dials Me Dad is butt dialing me again We watched John Voight & Jane Fonda in Coming Home This Week's Selfie After Five Nights Of Sweating

Welcome to “I Got My Teeth Back” on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast I went to the dentist, and he attached some teeth to the posts the periodontist implanted in my jaw. It's been almost two years since I had buck teeth in my mouth, and it is a big change. I made a lot of squash soup, adapting the method for one hand, and I've included the recipe in this post. Shout outs Shout outs to Klaudhopper, who asked about Hoppin Hot Sauce stickers Shout outs to Tall John who called me up after I tweeted about not going to Japan https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1632793064740880384 Teeth These are the images I gave to the lab that fabricated my new teeth when they asked for pictures of what my old teeth used to look like. I have buck teeth again! It's been 2 years since I had my Teeth Knocked Out Goes By Cam Scam Likely probably goes by Cam He calls everyone and no one takes his calls, on the answering machine he's like hey it's me, Cam- Cam Likely Brain Lesions & Disease Progression ‘Usual Suspect' Lesions Appear Not to Cause Most Severe Disability in Multiple Sclerosis Patients Slow I had infusion which is a really long slow injection Roasted Squash Soup Recipe by John Hoppin Roasting winter squashes face up concentrates flavor, and using convection during the roast increases tasty browning reactions. Using an immersion blender makes it easier to puree using only one hand. We eat leftovers for lunch with a grilled cheese sandwich and Hoppin Hot Sauce. Servings8 Servings Cooking Time75 minutes Ingredients 3lbs winter squash, cut in half, seeds taken out 4T unsalted butter Yellow onion, chopped 1/2 teaspoon nutmeg 1/2 teaspoon cinnamon 1/4 cup maple syrup salt and pepper, to taste 4 cups stock Instructions Preheat oven to 350 F {or 325 if using convection). Roast pumpkins until easily pierced with a fork, at least 1 hour. Let cool, then scoop out the flesh. Melt the butter in a large, heavy-bottomed pot over medium heat and once it is foamy, add the onion. Cook 5 minutes until soft. Stir nutmeg & cinnamon into the onions. When the smell permeates the room, add the stock. Add squash flesh, bring to a good simmer, stirring. Remove from heat. Leave to steam for a couple of minutes. Puree thoroughly with the immersion blender, using a stirring motion. Be extra-thorough to find any chunks of squash or onion that may be hiding under the surface.. It should be thick. I don't do any extra sieving, so I want to take my time and be sure it is well-pureed. Add maple syrup, and season to taste with salt and pepper. Sonny At Rikers Sonny Rollins got 1-3 years for having a gun. He was searched without cause. In 1952 he was at Riker's Island. He arranged hymns for a hip chaplain at the Protestant Mission House, and he was paroled September 11, 1952 Theme Song The theme song candidate for this month is less jazz & more industrial I am considering whether it might have lyrics, maybe it'll sing the intro part Tiny Tooth Wrench When they reattached them, the radio played Lionel Richie's 80-s smash hit "Hello". Neither the dentist nor his assistant knew the song. Turned out that the dentist was born in 1987. The dentist used a little mini Allen wrench to attach them to the bases. there was pressure, it made my eyes water I have teeth now, so I ate Ramen and spaghetti for the first time since my bridge broke and took my front teeth with it in August 2021 My Gumbo History Cousin Emily came over for gumbo on Saturday I made gumbo at the Rockridge Fish in Market Hall in 2003-4 Last night for dinner i made red sauce italian sausage with leeks This Week's Selfie I Got My Teeth Back

Disabled Owned & Operated Welcome to “Disabled Business Owner” on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, I'm going through the books and wrapping up 2022 for my business when I discover that I've totally spaced and forgot to bill for the biggest order of the year. It happened last year, right around when I was about to go into surgery. Shout Outs Shout outs to KFJC's Klaud hopper who was on the air on kfjc filling in for lucky j Sunday morning 6-9 Kid's Game I'm obsesssed with World Chase Tag On The Flipside I got a fully automatic turntable: AT-LP-3 Big Tunes American Cream Band, Plastic Flame LP Brooklyn vegan: big joanie announces first US tour playing in SF at rickshaw stop on 3.28. play ing union poolk on 5.25 Sold out & babys all right 5/26 Wierdo Stuff Dynasty handbag weirdo night shirt Handling Business During acute periods it is hard to manage things. Case in point: I forgot to invoice my customer for the biggest purchase of Hoppin Hot Sauce this year. Hey Dear What's up with Spam that begins, Hey dear The scam of the 1890s. Is a Hoppin Hot Sauce Association If you can't steal from your friends Cooking While Disabled I made pulled pork with mojo &chiles last night we had meatloaf, and that was not an easy recipe

A reporter for KCBS News reached out and interviewed me about supply chain, multiple sclerosis, and Hoppin Hot Sauce.

We son some awards. Bad news first: the kids are bad, they run away. Hoppin Hot Sauce won some awards. We're still buying a house. This week's episode takes place in a cable car.

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This is our Munchie May series on food documentaries. We watched Les Blank’s 1980 classic film Garlic Is As Good As Ten Mothers. Blank celebrates the virtues of garlic from Berkeley's Chez Panisse to the Gilroy Garlic festival. It’s a short but thorough look at the cultural stereotypes and medicinal qualities of the stinking rose, down the supply chain of farm workers. You can watch the film on the Criterion Channel.This doc was picked by our guest, Richard Parks the Third, a James Beard Award-nominated writer, filmmaker, cookbook author, and the host of Richard’s Famous Food Podcast.Richard is the co-author of the Guerrilla Tacos cookbook and The Boba Book. He’s written for Lucky Peach, the New York Times, the Los Angeles Times, and produced radio stories for Snap Judgement, KCRW’s Lost Notes, and McSweeney’s, where he collaborated with The Flaming Lips’ Wayne Coyne.Richard also teaches us how to Spatchcock a chicken!This episode we shout out our friends at Hoppin Hot Sauce! Follow Richard on:Twitter: @reechardparksInstagram: @reechardparksFollow us on:Twitter: @supdocpodcastInstagram: @supdocpodcastFacebook: @supdocpodcastsign up for our mailing listAnd you can show your support to Sup Doc by donating on Patreon.

The orthotist came up with a second brace concept, and I went back for a fitting that left me feeling a bit dejected. She took a video of me walking in the examination room. She showed it to me after. It was framed from the knee down. Looking at it made me feel really disabled. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt sorry for myself. it was kind of nauseating. I looked at myself as an object. I felt disgusted.I apologized to her for walking so poorly. She was surprised. Raising an eyebrow, she told me I had nothing to apologize for. begin transcript John Hoppin: Yes! You are tuned in to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast. My name is John. I'm 40 years old, and I have multiple sclerosis. I made this podcast to share what I'm going through. In this episode, New Brace, Part Two, they rethought the whole thing. They fit me for a new type of ankle brace. It's new, and different, and I'm scared of change like anyone, but the energy is still high. What's The Matter With Me? Podcast sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce, the best sauce in the world. What up? (singing). Right. Hoppin Hot Sauce, best in the world. Surf it on over to hoppinhotsauce.com. People love Hoppin Hot Sauce. Man, people love it. Shoutouts Yo, shout-outs to Joe. He said he loved all the different theme songs. Check it out. Send an email via the Contact page.. I will give you a shout-out. You don't even have to compliment me, but it helps. Don't become another statistic Last week in the show called Statistics, we took a systematic, numerical, statistical, analytic analysis of the podcasts. And did you know in February we had the most listeners ever? It goes back now a few years, so that's like people almost care about this. So check it out, the episode Statistics. It has all the numbers. New Brace Part 2 Two weeks ago, I was talking about getting a new ankle brace, and it got emotional then. This week, I had a second brace fitting appointment because the orthotist came up with a new concept. She thought about what I needed. She thought, "Maybe you need a brace that can help you walk more." She thought up this carbon fiber brace that may help me walk easier. Upsetting Video While she was fitting me, she took a video of me walking in the examination room. She showed it to me after. I mean, she asked me, "Do you want to see it?" I looked at it. And she had kind of shot it framed from my knee down, looking at it to see how I walked. But watching it for me made me feel kind of really disabled. I know that wasn't her intention at all. It was me. It was self-talk here, but looking at it was tough. It was only a few steps, and I was holding the railing in the exam room. My knee was hyperextended, and my ankle twisting, and my muscles looked atrophied. And instead of stepping forward, my foot would swing out to the side and I would kind of stumble forward slowly, awkwardly, and it was painful-looking. I felt ashamed of myself when I watched it. I felt sorry for myself. It was kind of gross because I was looking at myself as an object. I felt some disgust, and really a lot of judgment on myself. I even turned to the orthotist-- we talked about her before. She's a disabled woman. I apologized to her for walking so poorly while we were watching it together. She was surprised. She raised an eyebrow and told me I had nothing to apologize for. And really, I was freaking out about this. I made a lot of notes for this episode at 3:00 AM the night after I have the appointment because I'm trying to sleep. I wrote, "I'm trying to sleep, and I keep thinking of the video." So you know, it caused some sleepless night or whatever. It upset me. I can't believe I apologized to her though. I mean, come on. Get real. Trust in the process I'm afraid though. I'm afraid the new brace won't work, even though she took extra time and thought about it. She thought more after our original fitting. She thought about it,

People are listening People are listening to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast. I even found some podcast statistics to prove it. More people listened than ever last month. They come from a lot of places around the world, and different places in the US. We'll cover all of our podcast statistics in this episode of What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, "Podcast Statistics." Click below to read the transcript. begin transcript Yes! You are tuned in to the What's the Matter With Me? Podcast. I'm John. Thanks for tuning in. This episode, we're going to talk about who listens to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, where they come from, metro areas, and all kinds of analytics and data. That's what runs the world, man. Wake up. Get with it. Hoppin Hot Sauce But first, I want to let you know What's The Matter With Me? Podcast sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce, the best sauce in the world. What up? (singing) Right, Hoppin Hot Sauce, best in the world. Surf it on over to hoppinhotsauce.com. I went to the ranch by myself I went to the ranch over the weekend with a couple of friends, but I went by myself. I left the wife, the family here, and it was kind of a dad's thing. I went out there. It was mostly notable because I went by myself. It was kind of a win. I drove myself. I did my little thing. It kind of worked. I had help from my friends. But anyway, I want to give shout-outs to Joe. He said he's been listening to the podcast. So shout-out to Joe. Thank you for listening. You can send a email via the contact form. I'll give you a shout-out. Recap. "New AFO Brace" Recap. Last week I was talking about getting a new ankle brace, and it's kind of emotional. The old one has helped me walk for years. I've walked a lot leaning on this brace, and I'm going to get a new one. So I got kind of emotional, and I'm processing it. I'm still going through it. Check it out. Check it out. It's on the website. It's on the streamers and on the beamers. Podcast Statistics Freak-Out This week I want to talk about podcast statistics. I guess analytics, I mean. It sounds horrible. I hate the whole idea. I'm very freaked out about computing in general. But something cool came of it. More people listening to What's the Matter With Me? last month than ever before. And I thought, "Wow, this is cool." So I looked a little more at it just to be like, "What are these people?" I'm sure about half of it is fake, right? Because everything is fake on here. But, I'm real. Trust me, I'm real. I'm real. Anyway, people always ask me like, "Do people listen to your podcasts?" And I always say like, "Not really." But some people do. I don't fake the shout-outs. Email me via the contact form. I'll give you a shout-out. Come on, I had to plug the shout-outs there. There Are Thousands Of Listeners You know, thousands of people have listened to this, more than 1,000, more than 2,000, and more than 3,000. And I'm not going to tell you any more than that, but thousands of people have listened to this. I've started putting transcripts up on the website, on the posts, and I think that's helping people find it so they know this is a podcast about multiple sclerosis, a podcast about MS, about trigeminal neuralgia, about being a father, entrepreneur, all that stuff, about being over 40. Can't forget KFJC. Got to give a shout-out. I'm a college radio DJ. I waste time for no pay, and I love it. I like records, so I hang out at the college radio station. I think that probably makes sense. Faraway Places So let's get back to these analytics and talk about countries. Obviously U.S. and big shout-outs to Canada, but some surprises down the list. We got Spain, UK, New Zealand, Taiwan, Sweden, Mexico, Australia. So we kind of are getting around the world in a crazy way, right? Selling Myself Too Short I mean, I'm just like, "I'm a sick person. Hear me talk". I guess it might be more than that. Come on,

In this episode, I went to get a new ankle-foot-orthotic (AFO) brace. basically, a rigid ankle brace. Things got emotional. BEGIN TRANSCRIPT Yeah! You are tuned in to the What's The Matter With Me? podcast, "New AFO Brace." What up! What's The Matter With Me? In this episode, I went to get a new ankle-foot-orthotic AFO brace. Basically, it's a rigid ankle brace. Things got emotional. But first, the What's The Matter With Me? podcast is sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce, the best sauce in the world. (sings the Hoppin Hot Sauce jingle) All right. Hoppin Hot Sauce. Best in the world. Surf it on over to hoppinhotsauce.com. Recap Last week we talked about the new format and recovering from microvascular decompression surgery, again. I went to get a new AFO brace. I went to the same disabled practitioner that was featured way back in Season 2, in an episode called It's Fall: "He came to get the doctor right away. Something was different. It was my first time working with a disabled care provider. It was great. I thought that was great and I told her so. I said, 'Hey man, it's cool. What you're doing is cool to see someone disabled that's a care provider. I really like it.' She had a disability you could see right away." Cool. It's cool to listen to the old episodes. Cool when they come back around. Being treated by a disabled practitioner is a good thing I came into the office, it was cool to see her again and she told me she even listened to the podcast. She asked me about it and whatever. So shout out! And that was so cool. I enjoy being treated by a disabled practitioner. I think it's a good thing. That was great. But what happened next was more complicated. We did the exam and she wanted to fit me for a new AFO brace. My old brace was cracked. I knew I needed a new one, but she wanted to fit me for a new style. I know I have problems with the style I have. It's making a big callus on the arch of my foot where my ankle bangs into it. It's uncomfortable. I've had the same style for many years. I've had three or four of the same model. So she said, "Hey, the shape of your foot has changed. Your heel doesn't contact the ground. That makes you unstable." I was like, "Yeah." So she was like, "I think you might need a new one." Fitting a new AFO brace So to fit you for a brace, what they do, more or less, is put your ankle in a cast. I mean, there's different ways, but this way is, they put your ankle in a cast, cut you out of the cast and then use it to make the brace. Emotional attachment to my old AFO She left the exam room to get all the stuff, like the plaster stuff, and whatever. To be honest with you, I feel an emotional attachment to my brace because it helped me walk for the past several years, like five years, seven years, a long time. I've walked a lot in that time and I couldn't have done any of it without my brace. I'm attached to it. I think it makes sense. My previous experience was difficult Before I got the brace I'm in now, I was fit for a different brace the same way, at the same place. And it didn't work. They misread the prescription. It wasn't what the doctor had asked for and it didn't fit in my shoe. And worse, I wasn't ready to accept it. I wasn't ready to accept myself with this thing. I limped home with the brace in one hand and the walking stick in the other, and it felt like no one can help me. It was a super lonely feeling. I felt very alone. I felt like there just was no way to make it better and it made me very sad. I have never really told anyone about it. Naming the feeling So back to the doctor's office, she was off getting stuff to fit me for a brace and meanwhile I'm thinking of that sad story I just told you about last time. I have brain damage in my brain stem and it causes me difficulty regulating my emotions. I get angry, I cry and I'm sad, really easy and it's a lot of work for everyone.

I had microvascular decompression surgery to alleviate trigeminal neuralgia, and now I'm in recovery again. BEGIN TRANSCRIPT Thank you for tuning in to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast "I'm recovering again". It's pretty windy. I am recovering from surgery again. I'm here at the back of my house. You can hear the chimes and the wind going through the Yuzu tree in my backyard. I'm recovering from microvascular decompression surgery again. They went in through the back of my skull and adjusted the trigeminal nerve. I'm not really sure what they did because I haven't had my followup. I'll have that in the beginning of March, which is still three weeks away or more, and but the bottom line is once again, I'm free from pain. I'm very traumatized from last time because I was free from pain last time and then pain came back… I had a relapse. I had a recurrence that hurt me. so I'm scared. I'm traumatized about it. Although the procedure I underwent is not a temporary procedure, it does have a risk of failure or risk of relapse. So what I'm hoping is that a lot going to relapse. That's kind of my focus and I don't know if that's getting to be true. I'm not really sure what kind of conceptual framework to put around it. I probably should talk to my therapist about this directly, my talk therapist, and maybe the surgeon and his nurse may have some suggestions. So the bottom line is I can talk, I can eat, I can brush my teeth, I can take a shower, I can have wind on my face. Everything good. Everything is operating 100%. If I touch my cheek by my cheekbone, it's a little bit different on the right cheek to the left cheek, but the difference is so minute it's difficult to put into words. I don't really want to talk about it anyway. I just want to never think about it again. I'm sure you can understand. I will talk about it though. I'm sure you can probably guess that though, because I talk about everything. All right. Anyway, I'm recovering. I'm still taking Tylenol, but I think that I will stop doing that sooner rather than later and I'm taking less Tylenol from that they prescribed me at the beginning. I probably should stop taking it. Anyhow, Tylenol. I'm going to get my stitches out on Thursday. Today's Tuesday, so in a couple days. I'll get them out. That would be good. I'll hit up Big Elvis and I'd go to the barbershop, shout to the barber, Big Elvis. Yeah, I'm recovering from surgery again. They removed, I guess I have a titanium mesh holding the bone in in the back of my skull or something and that seems about right. There's nothing mushy back there. But I'm not in a rush to palpate the area because it's recovering. I really hope I don't get visited by horrible anxiety. I want to avoid that. Maybe I'll get into March Madness so I'll make a bracket. I'll just copy president Obama's bracket because he knows more than I do. I'll change something. I'll put San Jose State in there. I'm recovering. I have cut my intake of pain medications by about a quarter. I cut one by a quarter, and the other one that's very narcotic by one-third. So I'm getting there. They didn't instruct me to cut that narcotic one, but I had to because it was giving me double vision and it was too much. So I had to come down off the drug dosage. So I'm down from surgery, not all the way. We'll see what happens with that. My doctor told me they'd do that. We'll talk about that again in a couple days. But she'll tell me what's up and it'll be moving forward. A good thing is I can talk to you A good thing is I can talk to you, I can talk to my family. I can talk to whoever I want to. It's great. So that's great. Thankful for that. Now I'm going to go. Thank you for listening to What's The Matter With me? Podcast. Straight up and down, it's Hoppin Hot Sauce every time. (singing) Yeah. HoppinHotSauce.com. Check it out. Thank you for listening to the What's The Matter With me? Podcast. Recovering from surgery again.

I'm changing the format. Plus, listen to the new theme song for season 4! begin transcript All right. Thanks for tuning into the What's the Matter With Me? Podcast, "Format Change." This is the first episode. I guess you'd call it an episode. I have in the past. The first episode of the fourth season. For the last few years, I've been restarting the season at the beginning of the year, so I guess this is the fourth year of What's the Matter With Me? Podcast. I'm restarting a season, season four, but I have got some kind of news, I guess. I'm going to change the format of What's the Matter With Me? Podcast. I don't really know what it's going to eventually become or how it's going to work. I'm just starting, right now, an experimental phase. I started What's the Matter With Me? Podcast because I felt like I needed support having MS. I wanted to share that. I also wanted to grow my disability consciousness. But now it's season four. I want to connect more directly with my listeners. I want you guys to all email me and say what's up. I'm changing the format. I'm not going to have big episodes like I had before where I stitch a bunch of segments together. Instead, I'm just going to make a segment about something, and this segment is about that I'm changing the format and that I'm entering into an experimental phase of What's the Matter With Me? Podcast that I hope it's going to be exciting and fun to listen to and take part in. I think it's going to make it easier for me to post episodes. I'm changing the format. I'll be back soon with a new episode. I got a lot of new stuff to tell you. I had surgery again. I'm recovering again. So I'll be back about that. A lot of things that have happened. I even made new music for this season. Maybe I'll put it in here at the end. Hoppin Hot Sauce And as always though, before we get into that, this is the What's the Matter With Me? Podcast sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce. If you want to eat the best hot sauce in the world, try Hoppin Hot Sauce because that is the best hot sauce in the world. (singing) All right. Check it out, hoppinhotsauce.com. And without further ado, here is the season four theme song. Thank you for tuning in to the What's the Matter With Me? Podcast.

In this episode I have the pleasure of specking with John from San Jose, California. He is a: MS Warrior, Husband, Father, Fellow Podcaster, Business Owner, DJ, and the creator of, “Hoppin Hot Sauce.” His energy and positivity are infectious and I 100% recommend checking out his, “Whats the Matter With Me?” podcast. The post YEG MS Ep. 52, “John Hoppin Hot Sauce.” appeared first on Own Multiple Sclerosis.

I've been off the air for a few weeks, I took Hoppin Hot Sauce to a Harvest Fair. I've started a Hoppin Hot Sauce Youtube channel,

WTMWM? – S2, E8: The Disability Trap Welcome to the Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 2, Episode 8: The Disability Trap My name is John, I’m 39 years old, husband and father of two, small business owner, radio DJ, podcaster and I have multiple sclerosis (MS), so I made this podcast to share what I’m going through. The Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast is an MS podcast and it’s also about other things. I’m not a medical professional and you should not take this for medical advice. If you need medical advice, ask your healthcare provider. Find us on Facebook and please rate us. Download the Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast from Apple podcasts and Whatsthematterwithme.org Episode 7 Recap Last episode, I took MS medicine by infusion and it knocked me out and burned me up, complained about reddit, new brace, I can zip up my own fly, for now. Shoutouts Shout out to Patrick-- it turns out he found out about this podcast from the time I posted it on Reddit so in fact even though I thought it was disappointing, I got through to people even though I didn't see it at first. Patrick is a young father with MS like me. He told me that he was inspired by What's the Matter With Me? and started his own Ms blog on Facebook called Taking It Day By Day- Patrick's MS Story. Check it out and many thanks and shout outs to Patrick. I'm just going to keep it rollin' with the shout outs so shoutouts to Rocky. I know she listens because she responds to the episodes in text messages. She is a librarian and she is trying to get the American Library Association to divest from fossil fuels. She has started to reach out to divestment experts to help amplify her argument from an environmental as well as a financial viewpoint. It's very persuasive and I will put a link to it in the post on this episode on whatsthematterwithme.org. Shoutouts and thanks for listening Rocky. Click here to listen to her interview. The Disability Trap I watched an interesting short film called The Disability Trap by Jason DaSilva, the director of When I Walk, probably the foremost disabled filmmaker. He wrote an op ed in New York Times and as part of it included The Disability Trap, which raised some important questions. Before I get to that I noticed that the movie is about 13 minutes long, I think MS people make stuff that is about 13 minutes long and that's about right I guess. That's how I do it too. The film tells how in some states like New York, where Jason lives, the state provides one-on-one in-home care, so he live at home, be more independent and studies show he will have a longer life expectancy. His son lives in Texas, and in order for Jason to move there he will have to live in a home and he will lose a considerable amount of Independence and freedom. The point of his op-ed is that this creates an impossible choice whereby in order to gain proximity to his son he must relinquish his life as he knows it. It's from the New York Times June 24th edition, called The Disability Trap by Jason DaSilva. John's Birthday / Swimming It is so important tor me to be present as a father to my son, and I can’t imagine what Jason is going through. It's John John’s 5th birthday tomorrow and we are going to go to Santa Rosa to be with my parents. We will all go swimming in the pool. I might try and get into the pool it's kind of hard and I stubbed my toes a lot but I think I will try. I hope it is not too dangerous. Maybe I will try getting in on the deep end. I hope I can still swim. Hoppin Hot Sauce Movie https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1NqIaC1w_s I made the Hoppin Hot Sauce movie where I spoke about how I have MS but I didn't let it stop me from cooking. I put it on my Youtube channel, and my customer email, where this month it was the top item. I was nervous about it, but the response has been uniformly positive. The gears are spinning and I am working on a few more videos already. Hoppin Hot Sauce is good sauce and social entrepreneurship and I ...

WTMWM? – S2, E6: Awaker Welcome to the Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 2, Episode 6: Awaker My name is John, I’m 39 years old, husband and father of two, small business owner, radio DJ, podcaster and I have multiple sclerosis (MS), so I made this podcast to share what I’m going through The Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast is an MS podcast and it’s also about other things. I’m not a medical professional and you should not take this for medical advice.  If you need medical advice, ask your healthcare provider. Find us on Facebook and for goodness sake please rate us.  Download the Whats The Matter With Me? Podcast from Apple podcasts and Whatsthematterwithme.org Shoutouts to my Mom Mom listened to the podcast, and she told me, "I listened to your pod."  Isn't it funny how parents do that?  They get creative with the lingo.  She used to say, Intendo instead of Nintendo, and nowadays she does the same thing with text messages.  She calls them tweets.  "Tweet me," shje'll say.  Or, "I tweeted you.  Didn't you get my tweet?"  Shoutouts to Mom, love you Mom.  Email me using the contact form on the site, and I'll shout you out. Recap Writhing In Pain, Crunked Up or Crunked Out?, Coaches jackets, living in a hair gel air bubble, making music with my old compadre, accessible instruments, its good to be alive.  It's all in the last episode, check it out. Drool "AAA!!" John John shouted as I bent over to brush his teeth, pointing frantically.  I tried to look where he was pointing, but he moved whenever I turned my head to look.  "Papa, you're drooling," he said, and laughed.  I looked in the mirror, he was right, I had drool on my chin.  The way things have been going, it was the least of my problems, but its a phobia I have -- to become a vegetable.  It's just fear -- my drooling scared John John when I was brushing his teeth, it is what it is.  If I can keep my mouth shut and stay focused, I'll be all right.  Through the fence My most major fall since the last episode occurred in the backyard while I was gardening. First off, I am unhurt.  I fell through the fence when I was trimming the garrya elliptica wavyleaf silktassel bushes. Completely through the fence, I ended up in my neighbor Tim's yard. The garrya bushes are low-growing and dense, and they were covering my feet.  I reached out a hand to steady myself on the fence, it moved and I fell right through it. Nami helped me put it back together. The posts are cracked and rotting, it seems like the next strong wind will bring it down, but then in the morning it's still standing. Video I shot a video for Hoppin Hot Sauce wearing my new coaches jacket that I got screen printed in Oakland. It felt great and I think it might have looked great, fingers crossed. I read the following script: My name is John Hoppin and I created Hoppin Hot Sauce from chiles, Meyer lemon, garlic and spices.. I've worked in food all my life. I put hot sauce on everything, grilled cheese, lunch leftovers. It gives it a certain Tang that I prefer. I have multiple sclerosis and it makes it difficult to work in the kitchen environment. I didn't let it stop me from cooking. I made Hoppin Hot Sauce to share the taste of my table with yours. It’s all natural with no preservatives, and all good stuff inside. For people who want their food to taste the best, nothing beats Hoppin Hot Sauce. It made me feel powerful to write and deliver those lines. I hope it will turn out, I'll share it with you when I get it out of editing. Less sedation I'm on less sedation and it's feeling pretty good to be more alert. Maybe 'alert' is a stretch.  I'm afraid of more pain, that the pain will wake up and rear its ugly head.  For the time being, I am relatively awaker. Live in the present Live in the present moment..  I had this more-or-less standard revelation listening to music on the way to the farmer's market.  There were a lot of wonderful fruits and vegetables that deserved my attent...

Welcome to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, Season 2, Episode 2 “Cafeteria” My name is John I'm 39 years old husband father of two small business owner radio DJ podcaster and I have multiple sclerosis so I made this podcast to share what I'm going through. What's The Matter With Me? is an MS podcast and it's also about other things I'm not a medical professional and you should not take this for medical advice if you need medical advice ask your healthcare provider Download the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast on Apple Podcasts and whatsthematterwithme.org Contacts Shoutouts to Rocky and Pat and some other people who contacted me to say they were digging this season premiere and looking forward to more. You can contact me using the contact page. Great new life activity A very validating new life activity that I have is answering Hoppin Hot Sauce fan mail.  I am so glad to get Hoppin Hot Sauce out in the world. Take a seat in the cafeteria I went to John John's school orientation. It was in the cafeteria. I had to figure out where to sit. One of the teachers couldn't work a microphone. They passed out a handout that listed the topics they would discuss but no useful information about them.  The principal talked about rules for a long time like the uniform and punctuality. I'm very excited, I'm just traumatized having gone to school already I didn't consider going back. Neverending jaw pain story I increased my dosage of Gabapentin because I was having jaw pain. It made the pain go away but it made me sleep all day. I have reduced my dosage and I feel some pain but very low on the scale like one or two out of 10. I'm not too sleepy or sedated. I'm taking 300 extra milligrams right now. A couple of days ago I was taking 900 extra milligrams. Something like that.  I think I should get some guidance from the nurse. Keeping track One of the coolest things about this podcast is that when they listen to old episodes like from a year ago I can gauge how I feel now versus how I felt then and it is useful. I am doing a lot better than I was a year ago. Recording the voiceless I'm doing a special on KFJC about the musicologist Ian Brennan called Recording The Voiceless. He travels around the world recording prisoners, albinos, victims of genocide poverty and war. He's recorded in Vietnam and Cambodia. Rwandan refugees. Albinos who are stigmatized and even killed for the a white color of their skin which is considered to have special properties. The albinos have a tune called "Disability is not a crime". That's how I got into it. The way he records voiceless people is kind of similar to the way disabled people aren't given a voice, and I am concerned with that. I'll play my interview with Ian on Thursday May 24th from noon to 2 p.m. Pacific Time on kfjc 89.7 FM and kfjc.Org where there will be an archive of it for 2 weeks. Hoppin Hot Sauce is real Hoppin Hot Sauce is real and is produced and it's for sale at hoppinhotsauce.com. I'll discuss it in more detail in an upcoming episode. If you end up as a customer, maybe you will end up writing me some fan mail.

This episode is sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce!On today's episode, George talks Los Angeles and food adventures with comedian and foodie Karl Hess. George eulogizes Genova Deli and berates Bakesale Betty, and Karl evangelizes LA. Check out Karl's food podcast, Yelling About Pâté.Jonathan Gold is an American food critic who currently writes for the Los Angeles Times and has previously written for LA Weekly and Gourmet. He is also a regular on KCRW's Good Food radio program. Gold often chooses small, ethnic restaurants for his reviews, although he covers all types of cuisine. CITY OF GOLD also explores the rigor, knowledge and compassion that makes Jonathan’s style of criticism stand apart. Jonathan Gold maps Los Angeles through his Odyssey-like quests for new food experiences so that we too can discover and understand our city.Featured in the film are Roy Choi, David Chang, and Ludo Lefebvre, as well as the chefs and owners behind some of Gold’s favorites: Jitlada (Southern Thai), Guelaguetza (Oaxacan), Meals by Genet (Ethiopian), and Chengdu Taste (Sichuan). City of Gold is directed by Laura Gabbert (who also worked on the Netflix series Ugly Delicious)(Bonus restaurant talk between George & Karl for Patreon patrons)Follow Karl on:Twitter: @karlhessInstagram: @karlhessFollow us on:Twitter: @supdocpodcastInstagram: @supdocpodcastFacebook: @supdocpodcastsign up for our mailing listAnd you can show your support to Sup Doc by donating on Patreon.

Doctor Visit In this episode my wife's mom was visiting, I fall out of the shower, I visit the my doctor at the Stanford multiple sclerosis clinic, and play Episode 1 which is a really validating experience, because many of the themes still resonate. Episode 30 Recap Last episode, I exhibited at the Winter Fancy Food Show which was a big step forward for my business. Fulfillment, sales and following up arer ongoing. Getting it together was a lot of work and I experienced some cognitive slowness as a result, and in the episode I told a little story about that. I played Episode 2 in which I shared my intention to get better. Feeling Better My wife's mom Yoko just flew back to Tokyo after staying with us here in San Jose for a couple weeks, and while she was here she told me that I looked better. She said that I seemed sharper and more with it and better in my eyes. I guess I did get better, because I feel better, like I am recovering and getting better. Thanks for listening to my podcast, because it helps and supports me. I Fell I fell out of the shower covered in soap. I dropped the soapy puff, and some soap got on the ground and flew out of the shower. Somehow, I emerged unscathed. Doctor Appointment My doctor said that my current MS medication was probably working OK enough not to change it, that my past medication probably hadn't worked, which led me to experience greater symptoms and lose functionality. He said he thought that my disease activity could be too microscopic to detect, and that was how nothing showed up on my MRI. Good To Be Young He told me that it is good I am young, because I had time to heal. I told him the blanket analogy that I use to understand MS: that it is like being under a blanket with no edges, impossible to escape. Sometimes heavy and other times lighter, you are always under the blanket. Episode 1 Without further ado, it's time to go back to the beginning: Episode 1.  Only a few people ever got this, over e-mail.  In this episode, it's the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and I go to in for an Occupational Therapist Visit, where I share about Hot Sauce R&D and my Workforce Vision. Droll It's the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and DJs do special programs all month long. Droll pre-empted my show to do a special about music in odd time signatures. Occupational Therapist Julie I went to Stanford to visit the occupational therapist. We talked about my business Hoppin Hot Sauce and R&D, recipe development and production bottlenecks. I told her about my vision of a workforce with disabled, vets, and ex-cons, working together in a supportive environment. I got on a tangent and had to flush the segment down the toilet. I start over again. I ask Julie if I should be on disability. She showed me how it could help me. I got approved for disability in Episode 20 and I went through further feelings about it in Episode 21. Improbably, I told her the blanket analogy! I told her about how I believe in trying. Going for it It was great to hear so many familiar themes: the struggle, endeavoring to try, and cultivating positive healing intentions. I'm very happy with the way things are going.

What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 30 My name is John, I'm 38 years old, husband and father of two, small business owner, radio DJ, podcaster, and I have multiple sclerosis.  I made this podcast to share what I'm going through. Disabled entrepreneur Episode 30 of the What's The Matter With Me? podcast revolves around promoting my brand at a trade show as a disabled entrepreneur with MS. It was really fun and a major step forward for my business. Check out the episode for more. Transcript: Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 30: "Disabled Entrepreneur." My name is John. I'm 38 years old, husband and father of two, small business owner, radio DJ, podcaster. And I have MS. I made this podcast to share what I'm going through. Recap last episode. I was talking about shoelaces, and some listeners wrote me back on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Facebook page. That was cool. Thanks for hitting me up. I'm going to check out your suggestions. And then steroids. I took my MS drug Rituxan, and I had to take steroids. We had a little discussion about MS drug fatality risk. I talked about that I was going to the Winter Fancy Food Show. We'll talk about it in a minute. It was cool. And then I played episode 3, the throwback episode. Check whatsthematterwithme.org. I went to the Winter Fancy Food Show yesterday. It was a massive deal for Hoppin Hot Sauce first and foremost. But it was a big physical challenge for me as a person with MS. I had a lot of anxiety about it, leading up to it. I was also just doing a lot of work, so it was pretty stressful. I'm glad it's over. I'm still decompressing. It was just yesterday. In fact, I'm kind of still in work mode. I'm sending invoices and filing stuff and getting ready to reach out again. So I guess it never ends, but Winter Fancy Food Show was great. We were set up in a row of young entrepreneurs. The guy on the right to me made a bunch of different kinds of hummus and interesting … he was Persian, interesting Persian products. The partners on the other side were a man and a woman, and they made cookies out of tofu production secondary stream products. Which means stuff that's usually a byproduct or a throwaway product. They used … they made it into flour, like some residue from soybean into flour. They wanted to make tortillas and all kinds of other bread products. But they make at this time cookies. That was cool to be next to them. There were a lot of attendees walking by, thousands, throughout the day. We were in between Moscone North and South, kind of at the entrance of the hall in this kind of corridor, outside the elevator. Anyway, it had lots of people. It was a good location, because many people passed by and you could get them to sample the products. And so I'm a natural hawker. I'm like, "Hey, you." Make eyes at people. They love me. I say stupid things. I'm great if you like a stupid hawker. I'm bad if you're, like, wanting a highbrow afternoon. I'm not going to give it to you. I'm like to people … I'm like, "Hey, you know. I think you should probably try Hoppin Hot Sauce. It'll change you." I just say … I think other people don't say weird enough stuff, or they say boring thing. "Would you like to try?" I didn't want to do that. I mean, how could I say that? I'm not that kind of guy. "Would you like to try a sample? Sample?" No, no. No. I'm just like, "Hoppin Hot Sauce will change you." You know what I mean? If I don't get them the first time, I'll just be a little firmer. I didn't hector or harangue anyone. I made a note beforehand, "Do not harass anyone walking by the way you know that you are just liable to do. No potshots. Highbrow only. Keep it clean." Yeah, I did it. It was good. There were some folks there, though. You know what I mean? A big old conference in San Francisco has some people looking of some type of way at the conference. It is great. There was a guy with crabs on his pants.

Welcome to Episode 29 of the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast: "Rituximab Infusion" In this episode we'll take a look at: no-tie shoelaces last week's rituximab infusion (my multiple sclerosis medication) Hoppin Hot Sauce's inclusion in the Winter Fancy Food Show Pre-history throwback pilot Episode 3, in which I have a hard time asking for help NOTE: Most of the early episodes are offline for maintenance, and I'll put them back as soon as I can get around to it.  Thanks for understanding. No-Tie Shoelaces In What's The Matter With Me? Episode 29, I spoke about moving on from shoe laces, and soon after I recorded it, I was looking for new shoes. I bought Asics Gel Nimbus shoes with no-tie shoelaces and they are working out for me. They are black Asics running shoes with white soles.They look pretty much like regular shoes but the laces are made of elastic so they function more like slip-on shoes. They are kind of stretchy to move in and it takes some getting used to. At first I felt self-conscious wearing them but now I like the way they look. They ran me $160 on Zappos which is pricier than I'm used to but the shoe is a lot easier to use than New Balance 574 Classics which run around $75. They are so much easier to get on and off, and that saves a lot of time and energy, things in short supply. Rituximab infusion Last Tuesday I got my infusion of rituximab which is my primary multiple sclerosis medication. My appointment was for 1:30 p.m. but I had to take Benadryl and Solu-Medrol as precursors. Because it was the afternoon and I was taking powerful steroids like Solu-Medrol, I had trouble sleeping that night. Rituximab is a prophylactic-type medication and I don't usually feel a difference right away. I think it is helping me but I am continuing to have multiple sclerosis. It is not healing me for sure. It's hard to tell, maybe it is protecting me from getting worse. That is a hard situation for multiple sclerosis patients like myself, because you can't tell whether your medication is working or not. I'm getting older for sure and that is no easy ride. So there are challenges for everyone always across the board.  I have a lot on my plate and I have to stay focused.  I'm glad rituximab infusion isn't causing me any major problems. Talk less, act more Remember last episode I told you that my New Year's resolution was: "Talk less, act more."  I spoke about wanting to get my brand out there.  Well, things are happening, and fast!  It's exciting. Hoppin Hot Sauce will take part in the the Winter Fancy Foods Show as a part of KitchenTown's Incubator Alley booth at Moscone Center on Tuesday, January 23. I have been given an opportunity to jump-start my brand, to move from prototypes to orders, and to make my brand real. The time line is very tight and showtime is 8 days away.  It is taking all my time and fatigue is tough to manage.  I am intimidated by my workload and I need support to avoid getting into an emergency. I am reaching out- it is working. Letting people know about the challenge I face is getting them on my side.  I need the discipline to delegate and manage properly. Baby chives Baby chives are growing in the winter garden.  I can find peace and hope in the natural cycle of renewal and the good, right energy of growing plants. Pre-history throwback Episode 3 Episode 3 revolves around having to ask for help, and the complicated feelings that go with that.  I need help, but I don't want to ask.  It's cool to hear old episodes, because of slight differences in the way I approach my disability.  Nowadays, I feel a lot less hemming and hawing asking for help.  This podcast has given me the strength to ask for help, and to be comfortable with myself.  That is a good thing.

What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 24: Hole Recovering from Multiple Sclerosis and moving my small hot sauce business forward "Hole in the wall", A fall story I tripped over myself  in my bedroom and punched a hole in the wall.  It was klutzy and embarrassing, but at least the wall took the worst of it and I came through okay. I'm in recovery My Nurse Practitioner told me I was in recovery from MS and that changed my perspective.  I have been in a defensive stance, and I can begin to makje positive steps forward. Hoppin Hot Sauce -- Extra Hot I'm spending all of my time creating a new flavor of Hoppin Hot Sauce, Extra Hot. Positive vibes Keep things positive and moving forward in a good direction, and everything will be all right.

Welcome back to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast for Episode 5: Gallows Humor In this episode, I have bad reaction to an MRI, suffering fever and headaches for days.  I come through it with the help of my wife. Recap Ep. 4 Recap - last episode, I tried to wrap my head around the idea of asking for and receiving help.  A listener wrote in to tell me that asking for help increases effectiveness.  We talked about the determination to continue despite the demoralizing nature of the therapy process. Bad MRI I had bad reaction to an MRI last week.  I reacted to the contrast dye injection.  I had a headache and fever for a couple days.  It took a lot out of me.  I was bedridden. Gallows humor If you ever see me flapping my arms and making fart noises, it means someone close to me has died.  I am inappropriate. I've been feeling very down since the MRI. New Lemon Flavor In some sign of normalcy, I cooked Hoppin Hot Sauce, trying out a new Meyer lemon ingredient that my co-packer sent.  The results are promising. Plants are growing in my garden - see you next time Begin Transcript JOHN HOPPIN: What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, Episode five. Yeah. What's The Matter With Me,? episode five, back to business. Not really back to business. I'll get to that later. Last episode, let's recap. I talked about I wasn't going to quit doing this podcast no matter what. I admitted that I was a product of the eighties California life. I was born in… I'm a Californian, Okay? I said, "Dude." I say, "Dude." I admitted it, and we talked about therapy's hard. They make you do things that you can't really do. That's why it's therapy. It's demoralizing, but you've got to do it and it gets easier. That's the cool part about therapy. I got to admit something. I had a bad reaction to an MRI last week. It was really difficult. If you don't know MRI machines, it's a big giant thing that you get your head stuck into this hole with light coming out. It's creepy. It's like a science fiction movie. You stick your head inside this giant machine and it scans your head, and actually they sucked me further into this machine and they scanned my spinal column, and that's even worse. It's like a punishing noise concert where you get stuffed in the amplifier. You can't move for 45 minutes, an hour and a half. You can Google "what does the MRI sound like," and you can get some idea. I've learned to fall asleep during this thing because I think my body shuts down to avoid the experience, and sometimes I snore too much and it messes up the scan, and they have to stop doing it and redo some parts, and it takes longer because I snore so much, because it's terrible. They inject me with contrast dye to see if there are any bleeding lesions in my brain and brainstem, and to tell whether I'm having disease activity or not, because if there's stuff happening live, that means I'm undergoing neurological degeneration. The name of the game, I guess. I had the MRI on Wednesday, and I had a headache that night, and I started to get a fever above a hundred degrees. Got to 102 until Sunday morning, it broke. And it made all my symptoms worse. I fell down a lot, had to lay in bed all day, and I couldn't move, and I have a really painful zit on my ass. And I stressed out a lot. It was very stressful, and I gave myself a hemorrhoid even, which is rare, which is ironic, because I have a radio show and my DJ name is Hemroid the Leader, but I came up with that name when I was 14 and I didn't know a thing about a hemorrhoid. And this is kind of joking, I guess. I get nervous. If you ever see me making fart noise and flapping my arms, you know somebody very close to me has died. I try and distract with stupid sense of humor to cover up how bad I'm feeling. And I couldn't really do anything this whole week. I couldn't turn. I was in bed, it was hard for me to sit up, turn over. It was hard, and it made my wife scared, and she cried by herself, man.

Trying What's The Matter With Me? is a podcast about Multiple Sclerosis and many other things.  In this episode, it's the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and I go to in for an Occupational Therapist Visit, where I share about Hot Sauce R&D and my Workforce Vision. Droll It's the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and DJs do special programs all month long. Droll pre-empted my show to do a special about music in odd time signatures. Occupational Therapist Julie I went to Stanford to visit the occupational therapist. We talked about my business Hoppin Hot Sauce and R&D, recipe development and production bottlenecks. I told her about my vision of a workforce with disabled, vets, and ex-cons, working together in a supportive environment. I got on a tangent and had to flush the segment down the toilet. I start over again. I ask Julie if I should be on disability. She explains how it could help me, and my business..  I tell her the blanket analogy - that MS is a heavy blanket. I tell her about how I believe in trying, and that is why I made this podcast: to try. Transcript JOHN HOPPIN: What's the Matter With Me? Episode one. What is the matter with me? My name is John. I'm disabled. I'm developing my disability consciousness, so I made this podcast. I have multiple sclerosis, and I walk with a cane, and I do all this stuff. And so I made this podcast to say I have multiple sclerosis, check out my podcast. Man, what's the matter with me? They always say Ronald Reagan was a great speaker because he opened with a joke, and so I … I mean, I wish I had a joke to tell about that. Ronald Reagan, he was President twice. What's the matter with me today? I'm going to go see Dr. Julie at Stanford. And after that at 7:30 is the radio station meeting, but I'm not going to be on the radio tomorrow because it is the month of mayhem, and my compatriot Droll is going to be on the air tomorrow from 10:00 am to 2:00 pm. Check it out at KFJC.org. So anyway, Dr. Julie, she is an occupational therapist. We talk a lot about … I run a hot sauce business, and we talk … I'm trying to manufacture my hot sauce, so I can sell it all up and down the west coast. But right now, I just make it with my mom and very small batches. And I have a couple clients, and people like it; but I need to make a lot more of it in order to really make a go at it. I'm having trouble, because in the recipe, I use Meyer lemons, and those are kind of a special type of lemon. It has a certain taste, though. Makes the hot sauce taste good. So that's why I use it. And then there's also a certain type of chile, where I use a special kind. This guy imports it in Texas. I buy it from him. It's whole. In order to make a big batch, I need a big amount of ground powder. What's the matter with me? So, episode one. We are getting to the harder things. I started this podcast to kind of share what I'm going through, which is that I have multiple sclerosis and it's brought me to be a disabled person. I've been singled out for the fact I'm disabled. I've had lots of people come up to me and say things to me, and some of them are great, and some of them aren't so great. And I have all kinds of experiences, same thing: some are great and some aren't so great. So I started this podcast to just share that. And so today, I'm going to go see Dr. Julie at Stanford. She's an occupational therapist, and we'll talk about what I need to get out of life. What I want to ask her today is, should I be on disability? This is something certain people say I should be on … I'm disabled. I can't work. Some people say I shouldn't be on disability, because if I can avoid it … But the thing is, it's like working my wife to the bone. She has all the pressure. I need to come up with some cash. I have this business, but like I just shared with you, it's in the R&D mode. It's going to take some time. At this point, it's just barely cracking four figures. It's going to … It needs to be up there.