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Why Do Vintage Investors Hate CRYPTO? (Ep 1410) Part 1 - Clever Talks about Crypto and its origin from the 2008 financial crisis. He talks about how older investors are out of touch and just don't get crypto. Clever reviews an old interview with Warren Buffett and shows how out of touch he is with modern day investing with crypto. Fun times, take a listen and don't forget to follow us! Thanks for listening. Part 2- This weeks top news stories! World News- French President gets SMACKED! Canada Reducing COVID Restrictions. India's Government Offers Free Covid Shots Tech News- Apple anounces new privacy features China and others excluded? Sports- Logan Paul Vs Floyd Mayweather. Don't forget to follow our podcast! You will get notified of the latest episodes, bonus content, and our random merchandise and prize giveaways! Of course we love coffee... https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tooclevermafia Support our show here: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/support Paypal: https://paypal.me/2clevermafia?locale.x=en_US Grab a T-Shirt! https://merch.streamelements.com/tooclevermafia Grab a Mask! https://teespring.com/tooclevermafia This is our empire! Click Here: https://linktr.ee/tooclevermafia www.tooclevermafia.com Follow us @TooCleverMafia on all the majors of social media "That's all I have to say about that.” The Too Clever Mafia Podcast owns the rights to all originally created content and audio files. Any third-party audio files that may be used within are used for educational, demonstrative, and/or transformative purposes only. All fair use standards and practices are strictly adhered to. Our hashtags keep growing every time we add a new show! You are welcome Mafians. #Wow #beinspired #StayAlpha #tooclevermafia #freedom #america #fridaymorning #fridaymotivation #volcano #vaccine #amazon #google #cyptocurrency #MLBShow2021 #MLB #bitcoin #dogecoin #tothemoon #elonmusk #coinbase jeffbezos #jimkrammer #spacex #theboringcompany #tothemoon #toppodcast#coinbase jeffbezos #jimkrammer #spacex #theboringcompany #tothemoon #toppodcast #bitcoin #dogecoin #tothemoon #elonmusk #fridaymorning #snl#doge #mileycyrus #fridaymotivation #dogelife #dogeforlife #onedogeequalsonedoge #billgates #microsoft #google #googlephotos #cloudstorage #loganpaul #mayweather #Apple --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/support
Why Do Vintage Investors Hate CRYPTO? (Ep 1410) Part 1 - Clever Talks about Crypto and its origin from the 2008 financial crisis. He talks about how older investors are out of touch and just don't get crypto. Clever reviews an old interview with Warren Buffett and shows how out of touch he is with modern day investing with crypto. Fun times, take a listen and don't forget to follow us! Thanks for listening. Part 2- This weeks top news stories! World News- French President gets SMACKED! Canada Reducing COVID Restrictions. India's Government Offers Free Covid Shots Tech News- Apple anounces new privacy features China and others excluded? Sports- Logan Paul Vs Floyd Mayweather Don't forget to follow our podcast! You will get notified of the latest episodes, bonus content, and our random merchandise and prize giveaways! Of course we love coffee... https://www.buymeacoffee.com/tooclevermafia Support our show here: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/support Paypal: https://paypal.me/2clevermafia?locale.x=en_US Grab a T-Shirt! https://merch.streamelements.com/tooclevermafia Grab a Mask! https://teespring.com/tooclevermafia This is our empire! Click Here: https://linktr.ee/tooclevermafia www.tooclevermafia.com Follow us @TooCleverMafia on all the majors of social media "That's all I have to say about that.” The Too Clever Mafia Podcast owns the rights to all originally created content and audio files. Any third-party audio files that may be used within are used for educational, demonstrative, and/or transformative purposes only. All fair use standards and practices are strictly adhered to. Our hashtags keep growing every time we add a new show! You are welcome Mafians. #Wow #beinspired #StayAlpha #tooclevermafia #freedom #america #fridaymorning #fridaymotivation #volcano #vaccine #amazon #google #cyptocurrency #MLBShow2021 #MLB #bitcoin #dogecoin #tothemoon #elonmusk #coinbase jeffbezos #jimkrammer #spacex #theboringcompany #tothemoon #toppodcast#coinbase jeffbezos #jimkrammer #spacex #theboringcompany #tothemoon #toppodcast #bitcoin #dogecoin #tothemoon #elonmusk #fridaymorning #snl#doge #mileycyrus #fridaymotivation #dogelife #dogeforlife #onedogeequalsonedoge #billgates #microsoft #google #googlephotos #cloudstorage #loganpaul #mayweather #Apple --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/tooclevermafia/support
Picking up where we last left off, it's time to learn about Marvel's second attempt at comics for Christian audiences. Highlights include comic adaptations of "classic" Christian stories and the creation of an evangelical superhero, but the results were decidedly less impressive than the "Saint Series" from the early 80s. ----more---- Episode 8 Transcription [00:00:00] Jessika: Good, I can see, perfect. No sneaking up on me, Jesus. Mike: Welcome to Ten Cent Takes, the podcast where we partake in comics' forbidden fruit, one issue at a time. My name is Mike Thompson and I'm joined by my cohost, the muffin of mayhem herself, Jessika Frazer. Jessika: Hello. Mike: How's it going? Jessika: Oh, pretty good. Even better, now that you're calling me a muffin. I love it. Mike: I mean, it was either that or the scone of scorn and I liked muffin of mayhem better. Jessika: Oh, either way. I mean, it's very close. I do have a cupcake on my shoulder as you know. Mike: Yes. [00:01:00] Well, as always, the purpose of this podcast is to perform deep dives on comic books in ways that are both fun and informative. We want to look at their coolest, weirdest and silliest moments, as well as examine how they're woven into the larger fabric of pop culture and history. Today, we're picking up where we left off with our last episode and concluding our look at Marvel's short-lived run of Christian comics. Are you ready? Jessika: Yeehaw. Mike: Well, I'm going to give you a quick break before we actually get into that. What is one cool thing that you have read or watched since we last recorded? Jessika: I started reading the Princeless series by Jeremy Whitley. Mike: Nice. Jessika: Yeah. The art for the first book was by M Goodwin, but there are other artists involved, including Emily Martin, who is local to our area, which is super neat. Mike: Yeah. I met her at Luma [00:02:00] Con a couple of years ago. Jessika: Oh, that's rad as heck. Nice, nice. So, the story follows a princess, Adrienne, who from a young age, is not at all on board with the conventional helpless role she's expected to take as a princess, and is not happy about being locked in a tower alone. So she decides that she doesn't need to continue this path that has been chosen for her and escapes to help others. She's also a person of color and her hair care routines and style reflect that, which is wonderful. And I'm only one issue into the first book, but I'm so excited to see what destiny Adrienne writes for herself. Mike: I think I read the first volume a couple of years ago and I really enjoyed it. It was a really fresh feeling story. Jessika: That's how I felt about it, it was very refreshing. Well, what about [00:03:00] you? Whatcha been reading? Mike: So, one of the series that I have on my pull list at Brian's comics up in Petaluma is We Only Find Them When They're Dead from Boom. It's about six issues. And now it's this really cool sci-fi fantasy sort of series by Al Ewing who has really gotten big while he's been writing the Immortal Hulk, which I also highly recommend because that takes the incredible Hulk storyline and turns it into pretty much a horror story. Jessika: Oh, cool. Mike: It's really neat. And it's really unnerving and, he's been writing it for over 30 issues now, I think, but it's really solid. And the whole idea is that the Hulk is effectively an immortal being and he can't die. But how that comes into play is genuinely terrifying at times. But Al Ewing did this new series called We Only Find Them When They're Dead. The series is just incredible. And it's set in this weird dystopian future where [00:04:00] the bodies of these giant space gods, for lack of a better term appear out of nowhere. And then humanity is so stretched thin for resources that, that what they've started doing is they have these spaceships that will harvest the bodies for parts. And nobody knows where these gods come from until the crew of one of these harvesting ships decides to solve the mystery. It's this really tight kind of small scale story so far, but it's set against this really insane, massive cosmic backdrop. And it's also very queer, so, I think you would probably enjoy it more so than usual. Jessika: Very nice. Very nice. Mike: All right. Let's turn back to Marvel's Christian Comics. Would you be so kind as to give us a quick recap of where we left off after the last episode? Jessika: Sure. Last week we went [00:05:00] through the first years of the Marvel Catholic comics, how it got its start printing religious material, cue the power of asking that we keep discussing on this show, and who was involved in making these particular Comics. Our focal comics were the Saint series, comprised of the stories of St. Francis in Francis Brother of the Universe, Pope John Paul. I can't not do it that way. Mike: It's so good. Jessika: Pope John Paul II, and Mother Teresa. Oh man. Do we want to take a quick second and talk about the recent news? It was so timely about Mother Teresa. You wanna? You want to talk a little bit about that, Mike? I just had to talk about it. It was so freaking timely. Mike: Oh, absolutely. I think this happened a day or two after we recorded the article. So over the past couple of days there's been a number of stories that have come out, basically highlighting that [00:06:00] Mother Teresa was running a cult and I think the headline that I sent you was, “Are there still people who didn't know Mother Teresa was running an alleged cult?” And. Jessika: Cue. Mike: I think. Jessika: Cue me raising my hand. Mike: Yeah, I think this was a day or two after, after you and I had recorded and it just felt ridiculously timely. It was really funny. Jessika: Oh, serendipitous. Mike: No, she was not a good person by the increasingly numerous accounts that I've been seeing. She was quote unquote good by a very narrow definition that unfortunately it was kind of like what the media presented her as back then in the eighties. And since then, I mean, if she was operating today, there's no way that she would have received the Nobel Peace Prize. But. Jessika: Oh, no, absolutely not. Mike: But you know, we're talking, she received that 40 years [00:07:00] ago, so. Jessika: Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Oh gosh. Well, back to what we were talking about last week. After the St. series, after all of that wrapped up, Marvel seemed to decide to walk away from religious content after these winning Comics, we did however, land on a bit of a cliffhanger because Mike, you teased that they took another swing at religious comics in 1992. Mike: That is correct. So, to set the stage, the late eighties and early nineties were a massive boom for the comic book market. There was this huge speculation bubble that was going on, and as a result, Marvel and DC and other imprints were just seeing an unprecedented amount of success. On average, a lot of major books were seeing over a million issues in circulation, which, even today, they don't see. I think in 1991, X-Men number one, the new series that was [00:08:00] drawn by Jim Lee and written by Chris Claremont had something like 12 million issues move for the. Jessika: Oh. Mike: For - yeah. It's bonkers. And then shortly thereafter, the rug basically got pulled out from under Marvel's feet. So the early nineties really went from being awesome to really rough in almost no time flat. And that was because the company's top artists were freelancers and they weren't happy with Marvel's compensation plan. So they left and they founded Image Comics back in early '92. And that was essentially the top artists from really well-performing comics, like X-Men, Spiderman, Guardians of the Galaxy, and X-Force just to name a few, became Marvel's competition overnight. And DC was having some major commercial successes at the same time with events like the death of Superman, and Batman Knightfall, which is when he got his back broken. [00:09:00] So Marvel was suddenly scrambling to keep their share of the market in that light Christian book, publisher, Thomas Nelson, reaching out to former commercial partnership must have seemed like a, uh, well, for lack of a better term, a godsend. And up until that point, Evangelical Christian audiences were a largely untapped demographic outside of their specialty markets. Now that said, I haven't been able to find any old press releases from when this deal was announced. It honestly seems like both. Marvel and Thomas Nelson, would just like to have everyone forget about this whole venture since neither company mentions the partnerships on their sites. I can't even find them on archive or anything like that. Jessika: Oh, wow. Mike: That said - Yeah. It's, it's like buried pretty deep, but that said, I did find an article from Christianity Today, of all places, that fills in some of the details. So, it's kind of a long-winded meandering puff [00:10:00] piece, but there are a couple of relevant details. Would you do me a favor and read the first bit explaining why this deal came to be? Jessika: Sure. Some Thomas Nelson staff, whose young children were drawn to comics noticed there was little available from a Christian viewpoint. Realizing they did not have the resources in house, the publisher struck a deal with Marvel comics to produce a series of comics under Nelson's editorial direction. Using Marvel artists and writers that resulting comics would be marketed in Christian markets by Thomas Nelson and in comic bookstores by Marvel. Mike: Yeah, so, honestly, it sounds more like Thomas Nelson hired Marvel rather than the two were in a legit partnership. Thomas Nelson was even setting the price point for the books, which wasn't cheap. For reference the average Marvel comic cost $1.25 in 1993. The least expensive [00:11:00] Nelson comic, for its single issue Life Christ books, that we'll talk about a little bit, and each of those was going for $2.99, a pop. So that's almost $6 in today's money. Illuminator, which we're really going to talk about for a bit, was going for $4.99 a book, which means Thomas Nelson was expecting kids to shell out the equivalent of $10 bucks per issue for a comic with like zero name recognition. Jessika: Right. Mike: Yeah, and that's actually called out in the same article. Like Christianity today couldn't even give them a complete puff piece, they actually called out how maybe Thomas Nelson was a little bit high on their own fumes. If you'd be so kind to read that section as well. Jessika: The primary difficulty in selling the Illuminator to the secular comic book market is not the subject matter, but the price. As a book publisher, Thomas Nelson wants the comics to look as high quality and [00:12:00] book-like as possible. They have more pages than standard comics, carrying no advertising, and are printed using higher quality paper and ink than standard comics. Thomas Nelson likes to call them illustrated novels, a variation of the comic industry term graphic novel. Because of this, the 48-page Illuminator sells for $4.99. As one comic store owner put it, “that's a pretty stiff price for a comic with no well-known characters, artists or writers”. Yikes. Mike: When you can't even get to pull its punches for an article like this, that kinda says a lot. I feel, yeah, so I don't know what kind of marketing was done, but I haven't been able to find any ads for the Nelson comics in any of my Marvel issues from 1992 to 94, nor have I been able to track down [00:13:00] anything on the web. I mean, absence of evidence isn't evidence of absence, but it certainly seems like the partnership got rolling and then nobody really wanted to draw the attention to the end results. Which, based on what we've seen of the end result of the product, uh, maybe, maybe that's kind of understandable. Jessika: Big sigh. Mike: Yeah, that said, I do have the Illuminator comics in my collection and they are definitely higher quality in terms of production. Like, you know, the colors still pop they're definitely thicker. But, if I had seen this in the comic store, I would have blown right past it when I was kid. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: So speaking of Illuminator, do you want to give us an elevator pitch for that comic? Jessika: Oh my, well, if you insist. I mean, other than calling it a hot mess? Mike: Other than calling it a hot mess. Jessika: Okay. So this high school-aged [00:14:00] kid named Andy Prentiss goes to summer camp, is bullied a lot, and gets tricked into going into the forest in the middle of the night where he is abducted? Mike: It's pretty vague. Jessika: By a beam of light? Yeah. Mike: It's super vague. Like, they don't ever actually, we'll get into that. Okay. Jessika: It's very strange. And he, he somehow becomes the light? And has powers for no explicable reason? I know there are a lot of question marks behind my, my sentences, because that's how it feels. He gets semi-brainwashed by a local reverend and convinced that his powers are from God himself. Mike: Was he actually a reverend was, I thought that dude was just like a… Jessika: I don't know. Or maybe he was just a janitor. I don't know what he was. Mike: It's never really explained. Like. Jessika: I'm giving him a lot of credit. Mike: Yeah. Sorry. I derailed it. Jessika: That's okay. Well, he [00:15:00] convinced him that his power, whoever this dude was who worked at this church. He was always sweeping, he was probably a janitor you're right. Convince him that his powers are from God himself and that he is acting because God directed him to. But like slippery slope my dude. Thus, the Illuminator was created after that all of the villains are supposed to represent really obvious, evil being demon-like creatures, trying, and being mostly successful at tempting the public into acting sinfully. There isn't a great explanation as to why any of this happened, like we said, or is being aimed at Prentiss himself, who didn't seem to be very religious in the first place when this thing started? Mike: No, he was just kind of like an earnest, sort of naive teenager. Jessika: Yeah. But I'll tell you what there is, there is a healthy amount of [00:16:00] slut-shaming. So that's certainly exciting for me because, you know, I hate that bullshit. So. Mike: Yeah. It's definitely uncomfortable to read. Also, I wanna note that his superhero design for the Illuminator persona feels like a rip off of Long Shot, who was this popular character in the eighties who palled around with the X-Men for awhile. Like, here's what he looked like. Take a look, tell me what you think. Jessika: Oh, he even has the little star. Okay. This does look really similar to the other comic we read. He's wearing like a black kind of jumpsuit, but it could, it really could be a motorcycle jacket and pants. He's got boots on. He has a little bullet necklace or a bullet sash? Mike: I believe the term is a bandolier. Jessika: A bandolier, thank you. He has a bandolier, I'm cutting all of that bullshit out. He has a bandolier [00:17:00] and he's throwing, like, I don't know, a little, are those knives? Mike: Knives. Jessika: Oh, okay. Mike: He, like that's Long Shot's thing, is that his power is he's super lucky. He has slightly enhanced strength and hollow bones, which makes him a better acrobat. Jessika: Got it. Mike: And then his weapon of choice is he throws knives that basically he just can hit anything with. Jessika: The problem is they kind of look like sharp popsicles. Mike: Kind of yeah. Jessika: So. Mike: But yeah, I mean like Long Shot is one of my favorite characters. Jessika: Nice. Mike: And I was reading this book again and I was just going, oh my God, they added a helmet and then kind of removed the bandolier and added some extra padding and called it a day. He's even got the mullet. It's just a different color. Andy's a dirty blonde and. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: And Long Shot is platinum. Jessika: It's like three shades off, real close. Mike: So you gave a pretty solid summary of the comic itself. I gotta say [00:18:00] the comic series felt very unfocused. It doesn't feel like it really conveys much of a Christian message. Andy's powers are so vaguely delivered, as you called out, and there's no real specific link to Jesus or Christianity at that point. He only becomes the Christian super hero when he retreats into a church to escape, apparently a demonic opponent? Bu, the only reason that we know that he's demonic is because he doesn't want to go in the church. And then he gets a pep talk from this one-armed wise man who lives there, apparently. I feel like he still approached things in a very standard superhero way: punch first ask questions later. Did you notice that there was no trying to solve problems in a way that would result in anything other than a fist fight with powers? Jessika: Oh, no, it was just like, oh, there's a problem, I need to go beat someone up. That was absolutely the vibe. Mike: Yeah, I was genuinely surprised by that. I would have expected a little [00:19:00] more Jesus-inspired approaches such as turning the other cheek, or lifting people up who are suffering, things like that. But no, it was just a superhero fights with people or things that were designated as evil from an evangelical point of view. And I mean, we should talk about that. Like, each of the comics comes across a super victim-blamey. Like, there's that party where Nightfire, the first demonic entity, shows up and starts draining victims, and it shows they're all drinking or doing drugs or being slutty. Jessika: Yeah. They're at a party and there are girls on guys' laps and apparently, that's not good. Mike: Apparently, but then they all become Nightfire's sort of undead army. So it's that implication that sinful behavior leads to damnation later on. Um. Jessika: Okay. Mike: And then [00:20:00] in the second issue, the story paints college campuses out as godless places, full of temptation and being devoid of morality. So, they're susceptible to this mad scientist, who's splicing together weird animal human hybrids, which, I mean, that felt like something that was written by someone who has never actually been on a college campus. Jessika: Yes. Mike: And then the third issue was absolutely trying to link Satanism and Wiccan beliefs. I'm not crazy, right? Like that actually, that's how it felt. Like, Satanism and crystals, that they're just hand in hand. Jessika: Yeah, it was super gross. Mike: Yeah, it was really bad. I mean, the book only had three issues or illustrated novels or whatever they want to call it before it was canceled. So, I personally think that the probable lack of marketing that we discussed really hurt it, but it also seems like there were some production problems that caused it to be [00:21:00] delayed because the third volume has a cover date of August, 1993, but it turns out it didn't actually hit the shelves until February of 1994. I could not find sales figures for the months that the first two volumes came out, but the third issue doesn't even crack the top 100 issues being sold in the market when it actually hit the shelves. You brought up the slut-shamey aspect to it. And in the end of the third issue, it really felt uncomfortable where Andy was, these days it would be incel kind of logic, where he's really mad that the girl he saved didn't go to him. Jessika: That is so how it felt. I was just like pointing at you viciously right now, like, really aggressively. Mike: Yeah. When you were doing that, I was like, what did I do wrong? Jessika: Ya know that's exactly how it felt. It felt like he's like, well, I saved her and I'm the better guy. So she should just be with me. Mike: Yeah. And then. Jessika: He just expected it. It was gross. Mike: And then they kind of have a teaching moment where they're like, well, you know, that's not always how it works, [00:22:00] blah, blah, blah. And then she shows up to be another disciple of Christ or whatever, and blah. Jessika: Yeah. She's like, I broke up with that other guy. Mike: Oh yeah. That. Jessika: She's wearing a knee length skirt and like. Mike: Yeah. And before that she'd been wearing kind of form-fitting jeans and tank tops and. Well, the other guy, I can't even remember his name, but he was at the party. That's the only time we saw him. And he was basically trying to make it okay that everyone was drinking. So, you know. Jessika: Yeah. And then he was in the mall scene and he was like, trying to convince her like something stupid, something else stupid. Mike: Yeah. That was after they got returned to their bodies. That's right. I, I actually thought that she was the mom of one of the other characters originally because she had such a mom haircut and it was like, oh, it's kind of the sexy mom. And then oops. It was, the ages of those characters was very [00:23:00] ill-defined. Jessika: Agreed. Mike: And then, like I said, like this was clearly written by someone who had not experienced really anything of the real world, it felt. Nightfire is a drug dealer who just hangs out outside of high schools and tries to randomly sell drugs to kids? Like, my dude. Do you not understand how drug dealing works? Jessika: That's not how that works. Yeah. Your kids don't have enough money for drug dealers to be interested in them. And they're definitely not giving your kids free drugs. Like I know I say that a lot, but it's because I believe it a lot. They're not just going to get rid of their revenue. Mike: It was the same thing with that college campus, with the mad scientist professor who was, he was in a wheelchair for no really defined reason, he just was. And then apparently he's just creating an army of [00:24:00] man-animal hybrids. Which, again, I was sitting there and I'm like, man, I took biology classes in college and they were never this cool, like, are you creating an army of mutant supermen at your college? Yeah, sign me up. I'll pay that tuition. I'll take out a loan. Jessika: Well, and it was happening in this way that wasn't really logical, to where they were kind of meshing into this larger, like alligator with massive arms and walks around like a human, but then I don't know. It was strange. He was making them come apart with his, God-light. Like they could become two separate things. Again, it wasn't like he was chopping things up and sticking them back together or making a new creature. I don't really understand how this was supposed to be happening, from a scientific aspect. Mike: His powers were really, ill-defined like he, he could fly and he could shoot light. And then I guess, theoretically add super strength, but. Yeah, that whole, like God-light separating the things out, but then it turned out it killed them because they'd been bonded too long to get, I don't know, whatever [00:25:00] it was, it was fucking dumb. Yeah. So that was the thing was Trisha goes to a crystal store where it's apparently a front for a demon cult. And again, I'm like, I don't know, man, if I went to a crystal store and they told me that I could traffic with demons, I'd be much more likely to buy one of their ridiculously expensive geodes. Because I've been taken on a date to a crystal shop, because I was sick and my date wanted to buy me a healing crystal and I was. Oh, God, Jessika: That's, that is very sweet. Mike: I did not respond well to this. Jessika: I'm sure you did not. Mike: Which. I'm sure does not surprise you, but. Jessika: No. Mike: I'm just saying if he'd instead offered to induct me into a cult where they hung out with demons, I might've actually gone out for a second date with him. Hmm. [00:26:00] Do you have any more thoughts on Illuminator before we move on to our next entry? Jessika: I mean, I didn't care for this comic. Other than the first one that was establishing his origin story, it felt like the same story in each of the three issues. It was some demon character sucking the life out of people that were making bad choices. It was literally the same story each time, not even well masked. Mike: Yeah, exactly. Jessika: And, it was hard to follow and it was hard to figure out the incredibly vague, read not there, ties to Christianity that this character and his actions and powers were supposed to have, like we were talking about. It felt like a stretch at best. Mike: Yeah. They were just trying to shoehorn it in at the end where he would go talk to, the guy's name was George, I think, where he would go and talk to his mentor at the church. It felt like a very kind of vague, well, if you look at it this way, this could be your lesson from Jesus. [00:27:00] Jessika: Yeah, exactly. And you were bringing up another point that I also didn't like, they were just making fun of other religions, for example, naming someone Chakra, and mocking other spiritual practices with crystals, it was really disrespectful and in poor taste. Mike: Which, I mean, I can't say I'm really surprised given how evangelical culture typically goes these days. Jessika: Christianity, isn't the only religion and I'm tired of mainstream society being okay with Jesus-washing everything, and then being offended when any other religion is given any space. It's deplorable. Mike: Yeah. And then also, these stories just felt very lazy and dumb. The big one that I keep on thinking about is, again, that second issue where he's at a college campus and there's the mad scientist and it's revealed the mad scientist kidnapped a football player, like the star football player from the university's team, and then [00:28:00] turned him into, I think, the alligator hybrid that we were talking about. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: I was sitting there going my dude. You're mad that they pulled your funding. What do you think they're going to do to you when you remove their giant cash cow of college football from the campus? Jessika: Yeah, exactly. And like, do you not know the cardinal rule of picking people who don't have people looking for them? Mike: Right? Jessika: But, like, I'm not planning on doing anything bad and even I know that. Yeah. So, yeah. And other than just the audacity that Andy has making assumptions that he and Trisha are gonna get together based on the fact that he saves her from what he perceives as a bad situation. Mike: He's a nice guy. He is that proverbial nice guy trope. Jessika: Hint to everyone out there: Don't you ever slide into my DMS and say you're a nice guy, because you will be [00:29:00] blocked so quickly. Mike: On that note, what do you say? We move on to the next books in our discussion. Jessika: Let's mosey. Mike: So, I mentioned the Life of Christ comics that were single issues. These are the two issues that were put out to retail; the Christmas and Easter stories. They were both written by Louise Simonson and illustrated by Mary Wilshire, as well as Eisner award winner Coleen Doran, she apparently helped with the Easter issue. Simonson is a major name in comics alongside her husband, Walt. She co-created the character, Cable, from the X-Men; she helped launch the long running series, Superman, the Man of Steel; and she was one of the major stakeholders in the death of Superman storyline. And she also helped out, if I remember right, I might be wrong, but I'm pretty sure that she was a major [00:30:00] part of Walt Simonson's really acclaimed run on Thor, to the point where both of them appear in cameos in the original Thor movie. Like I think, I think they're both featured at the end when they're celebrating at the hall of heroes, or whatever it is. But it was a nice little nod because they created a lot of stuff like Thor: Frog of Thunder, and, Beta Ray bill, if I remember right. Likewise, Mary Wilshire did a ton of stuff for Marvel in the eighties and nineties. She was best known for her work on Red Sonja and Firestar. And then Colleen Doran, goddamn, she's this incredible illustrator who's worked on a ton of properties. I always associate her with Neil Gaiman's Sandman. So. Jessika: I just started reading that. Mike: Yeah, like all three of these women are Legit Big Deals, like capital letters at the start of each of those words. And that's why it's so weird to see their names in these issues. I can't believe how bland and [00:31:00] boring everything about them felt. Like, is that mean? Am I going out of line? Jessika: No. No. I'm surprised to hear about the acclaim that these illustrators have, because it felt very elementary. Am I supposed to have received this as a coloring book? Mike: Yeah, it's really flat, like, okay. So for comparison, here is a painting that Colleen Duran did for Sandman. Check it out. Jessika: Oh, wow. This is cool. Mike: Right? Jessika: Wow. Okay. There's a lot going on. So I'll just describe this really quick. There's a ton going on. So at the very top, there's a Swan couple swans, a swan and a, some sort of a harp, maybe a harpsichord thing. And you've got some planets and moons and a dude gargling some blood, it looks like. Mike: I [00:32:00] think that's supposed to be Orpheus. Cause he, if I remember right, he was Dream's son and then Orpheus is eventually ripped apart by the Bach the Bachinal. I dunno, whatever there. Jessika: And then there is a legit goth lady who has this amazing, I'm not too far into it, obviously, as you can tell. Mike: Right. So that is death. That is Dreams sister. I mean, Jessika: That's great. Mike: Yeah. If, if you're not too familiar with it, I don't want to spoil all the elements for this, but this painting features a ton of major characters from throughout the Sandman series, which she provided a lot of illustration for. And it's a beautiful piece of work. Jessika: It's a feast for the eyes, honestly. I mean, there's so many different elements, I mean, part of it looks like it's supposed to look like stained glass and other parts of it, don't look that same way. It's very interesting. Mike: Yeah. So it's very [00:33:00] much not what we got. Likewise, I want you to look at some of Mary Wiltshire's art, here. Jessika: Oh, wow. See, that's fun. Mike: Right? Jessika: Red Sonia. See, I want to read some Red Sonia. Mike: Yeah. The 80's series is fun. I think Marvel might have the rights back, because it's part of the Conan properties. Oh no, wait, I think Dynamite has Red Sonia. I don't know. You can probably find some books on Hoopla if nothing else. Jessika: This is great. I mean, the color vibe is great. There's all this shading, which there really wasn't in that other one at all. Mike: Yeah, I noticed that, too. It was just flat color, other than they used some crosshatching within the illustration, but that was kind of all they did, except for Jesus's hair. That was such a, like, it was a choice, I guess, they just, the only thing that had any sort of shading was, like, Jesus's hair looked like it was a tie dye masterpiece, so, [00:34:00] oh, wow. Mike: Both of these books feel very, for lack of a better term, very paint by numbers. Jessika: Yes, very much. So. Mike: I mean, we've all heard these stories before, too. There wasn't really anything new. The most exciting artwork for both of these books was on the cover. And, the one weird thing that really stood out to me, was that the Easter book felt kind of anti-Semitic, I don't know if I was just reading a little too much into that. Jessika: No, you you're. I've I read that too. Yes. Mike: I feel like there was an abnormal focus on making Pontius Pilate into not being the bad guy. And instead of keeping the blame on the Jewish elders, it felt very weird and very gross. Jessika: It did. Mike: And it's, I know that is an argument that is somewhat popular with certain extreme right-wing sectors of evangelical Christianity, too, is that the Jews killed Jesus, [00:35:00] which, I don't know how to respond to that. Like it, it just, just. Jessika: It felt very much like they were saying, yes, we know the Romans did it, but it's your fault, Jews. And it's like, what? No, no, no, no. Mike: Yeah. It was very uncomfortable to read. Jessika: Absolutely. Yeah. I agree. A hundred percent. The other thing that bothered me from the birth issue was the angels. Like, I've read what angels are supposed to look like. If it's not some beautiful human woman with wings floating down gracefully from the clouds. It is a terrifying multi-eyed creature that shows up in some really jarring way. The whole situation seemed way too peaceful for what I've read from the actual Bible. Like, I have read the Bible in its entirety. I was bored at [00:36:00] 13, don't ask, but yeah. So, but that's not the vibe. Like, people are always really terrified when angels come down and there is a reason. Mike: Yeah. And that's something that I remember is that when I was growing up, you know, I was presented with the very, kind of Renaissance style angels. And so I never understood when I was reading as a kid or having the stories read to me, why are people scared of the angels? Because you know, they're just glowing people with wings. And then later on it was, oh, oh, they're fucking monsters. They are, they are straight out of HP Lovecraft. Okay. I get it now. Jessika: Yeah. Because technically the humans are supposed to be the ones that are like, what? In God's image. There's nothing about angels being so. Mike: Nope. We're the, we're the mud people. Jessika: Yes. Mike: Well, moving on from that, aside from those aforementioned single issues, Nelson Comics published, [00:37:00] what was dubbed the Christian Classic Series, which are comic adaptations of kind of big name Christian literature. I was able to track down digital copies of the Pilgrim's Progress and In His Steps; What Would Jesus Do? Let's talk about that one first. I had actually heard of iIn His Steps before this, because it took that titular phrase and it kind of brought it into the popular culture. It was originally written in the late 19th century. It's basically about a reverend who is moved to challenge his congregation to use the question when making life decisions. It's a dry book and the comic was super dry as well. It just, it felt like a lot of expository dialogue set in late 19th century settings with a bunch of very prim and proper white people who, for the most part feel pretty monied and pretty privileged. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: There's occasionally some sort of [00:38:00] over-the-top situations where our Christian heroes are facing persecution, but it's like, it's made up persecution. It's that idea where Christians are like, we're the victims, people don't like us. And I think maybe because you're assholes, I don't know how to respond to that otherwise. Jessika: Yeah. Maybe it's not about your religion. Maybe it's just you. Mike: Yeah. If everyone's telling you you're an asshole, maybe it's not anything else, maybe it's just you. I agree. But yeah, it's just, it's a boring slog and it took me way longer than it should've to get through this. Jessika: They were awful. I'm not gonna lie. I read them, but I skimmed them because I couldn't sit there and like, let that infest my brain. Mike: No. There's also a sequel novel that they didn't adapt. Jessika: No. Mike: But basically, I think if I remember right, the sequel novel has Jesus actually showing up, like, it's like the second coming of Jesus. If I remember right. I Jessika: Man, they already got so close to that in this one, because they had that one [00:39:00] dude show up who is a scraggly stranger. And then the reverend has a dream that Jesus is actually lying in the bed and he's like, oh my God, it was Jesus all along. Mike: Yeah. Oh God, that was. Jessika: So heavy handed. Smacked me across the face with that message. Jeez. Mike: Oh, and what is it? The tramp has a daughter who the reverend and his wife take in to raise as their own. Jessika: Oh yeah. Mike: On what planet…? Jessika: Because apparently. Mike: Ugh. Jessika: No, it's awful. No, we all know that Christians don't care about the children once they're born. Mike: We, there are so many signs around my town, at least in our area because we live right near a Catholic church where it's the pregnancy crisis centers. And I keep on, resisting the urge to go spray, paint them or something, they're so gross. Jessika: Oh, we have the ones up that have a picture of a baby that say my eyes are formed after blah, [00:40:00] blah, blah days or whatever. Mike: Gross. Jessika: Yeah, I know they're awful. And every once in a while they do get spray painted. Mike: Good. Jessika: Obviously I have nothing to do with that, but I walk past and I go, okay. Yep. Yep. Yeah. Mike: Side tangent, completely unrelated to comics, but there was a Reddit post within the last year, I think, from some guy who was really upset about how his girlfriend would go and deface, the local pro-life billboards that would go up near their house. She would add things like citation needed for some of the claims, or just cross them out, or whatever. And he was saying, would I be justified in breaking up with her? Because I feel like, she's putting herself at legal risk doing all this. And literally every response was yo dude, you should break up with her and then give her my number because she sounds fucking rad. Jessika: Seriously. Oh my gosh. That's great. Mike: Anyway. Jessika: Hero of heroes. Mike: Yeah, the hero we need. [00:41:00] So, turning to the Pilgrim's Progress. This is a Christian allegory novel from the 1600's that's extremely surreal. I'd actually never heard of this book before now, and I had to do some basic research just to see how close they mirrored the plot. And I'm really bummed that actually, the comic is a pretty faithful adaptation of the source material. Which means there is a giant prose novel that is just this dumb and insane, but without at least the somewhat arresting visuals that we got. Jessika: It's basically Pinocchio. Mike: Yeah, I mean, it's not far off, except there's a second act where the dude's sinful family follows him, which. Jessika: Oh my God. They just kind of get abducted into the nether though. They don't do anything. [00:42:00] He's the one that does everything and then they're suddenly just there. Mike: Before we get into this discussion. It's about a protagonist named Christian, on his pilgrimage across this metaphorical landscape, where he confronts temptation and he learns, I don't know, moral lessons, I guess. I wasn't entirely certain about a lot of those, but whatever. And then after he makes it to heaven, his wife and kids follow him, because he couldn't convince them to come with him originally. This was written in the late 1600's, originally it is updated and adapted to what's supposed to be modern day, New York. And there's a lot of like really thinly veiled criticism being leveled at environmentalists for some reason, which I did not understand. Jessika: It was really strange. I don't know where that came from. I read that, too. Mike: Yeah. And then in the novel, after he makes it to heaven, confronting all these challenges, [00:43:00] his wife and his kids follow him. And then they have a sort of angelic guardian, who helps protect them along the way, who she shows up in the comic book, it's whatever, the kids, and this was actually kind of a weird diversion from the novel in the novel. The kids become adults throughout the journey, cause it's a long journey and they get married and they have families of their own. And so at the very end, they don't go with the wife, but they stay behind. And, basically they're living Christian lifestyles. And in the comic book for some reason, and it's not really explained well, they're left behind with their aunt who was also on the journey with them. And then the mom was just like, okay, bye. I'm going to go off to heaven now with your dad. Jessika: Yeah, he just like sticky handed her up there or something, like you earn the right to snatch your wife from earth. Maybe that was the rapture. Mike: Yeah, maybe. Well, and then at the very end, his friend, who was like, oh no, [00:44:00] you know, we're, we're doing our part. We're recycling and taking care of the planet. He's denied access to heaven by St. Peter for some reason, that's not really explained. Jessika: Which was so strange. Like, yeah, please, don't recycle friends. What, what a strange takeaway from this whole thing. Mike: It just, it feels kind of like this religious acid trip with occasional detours into misogyny and racism. Correct me if I'm wrong. Jessika: Not at all. Very, very same page as you. Mike: The one piece of praise that I can offer these books is that they definitely have the best art of the Nelson comics line. Jessika: It was decent. Yeah. So I found for both of these comics, both In His Steps and the Pilgrim's Progress, unsurprisingly, they keep replaying the same messages that have been consistent with these comics: be faithful against these huge temptations that are supposed to bombard you every day. I would expect there to be women and men of loose morals [00:45:00] falling at my feet to tempt me constantly is all I'm saying, like, let's make it happen. Disappointment. Mike: I'm, I always see these things talking about like women have loose morals or, or ill-repute, I clearly was not hanging out in the right neighborhoods. Jessika: That's what I'm saying. Mike: Yeah. Bums me out, man. Jessika: There's always some messages about staying on the path of God, which is always very vague and sometimes literally a path, which come on. And Beelzebub constantly shows up, because the only real villains are the devil and your inability to resist temptation, apparently. Once again, though, didn't see any queer people, which is fine because the Bible really doesn't say anything about them anyway. And I guess God didn't really start hating us in mainstream media until later on then. Huh? Mike: Man, I don't know. I mean, [00:46:00] like, there's that whole thing about Sodom and Gomorrah, and how we're all sodomized or whatever, but I don't know when, when it became really okay for Christian people to hate on the gays. Jessika: Yeah. I don't know. They need to step back. Oh, did I say that out loud? Mike: Yeah. Jessika: They're right behind me, aren't they? Mike: Not yet, at least. Jessika: And also, why is it such a theme that these main characters, low key become cult leaders every single time Mike: Right? Jessika: It's like, yikes, Catholicism, have some awareness about what a cult-vibe you give off, just like, generally. All in all, the religion is so forced in there that the plot lines of these stories rarely made any sense. It felt like the comics were a game of tug of war, trying unsuccessfully to write a cohesive storyline while still shoehorning in religion, which ultimately caused the comics to feel frenzied and disorganized. Mike: Yeah. On top of that, these are just [00:47:00] so dry. They're so dry. I get the Thomas Nelson was trying to adapt, quote unquote, major works of Christian literature. But, I can't think of anyone who really reads these books, let alone kids. I'm not really familiar with the whole Christian allegory genre of fiction, but there's gotta be better stuff out there than these books. I know the Thomas Nelson for this line, they also had CS Lewis' Screwtape Letters turned into a comic, I couldn't find it to read, but I'm kind of wondering why they didn't try adapting some of his other work, like the Lion, the Witch, the Wardrobe, you know, Aslan is very much a Jesus' allegory and - Jessika: Yeah. Mike: It just, it doesn't make a lot of sense not to do something with more name recognition. I mean, hell, Thomas Nelson has an entire collection of fictional books in their catalog. I just scoped out their website today, and I don't understand why they didn't do a comic adaptation of something from there. But, [00:48:00] don't know, I guess that probably would have required extra effort involving research and the author's permission. And it seems - Jessika: Oh no. Mike: Like no, I mean, that, honestly, that seems like more work than the publisher really was interested in committing to this whole endeavor. Jessika: Fair. Mike: You know, and unsurprisingly, the Nelson comics imprint wasn't long for this world. And it was abandoned by 1994, reportedly due to low sales. Between the quality and the apparent lack of marketing and also the high price points, I can't say I'm surprised. I did find it really funny when I was looking at their website, they have some limited edition of Dracula on their website and Shakespeare, and I'm like, those things are not Catholic friendly, or evangelical friendly. Are these edited, are these just like, did he just decide to do like limited edition reprints? I don't know. Jessika: That's interesting. Mike: Weirdly though, Thomas Nelson's recently gotten [00:49:00] back into comic books with Bible Force, which was a comic or a graphic novel that went on sale this year. Here, take a look at this cover, just check it out and tell me and me what you think. Jessika: Yeah, let's see. Oh, oh, wow. Mike: Right? Jessika: Okay. So, who's supposed to be the dude in the middle? Mike: I don't know. I don't Jessika: Okay. So there's like some dude, there's some dude in the middle, he's got a sword, and it's thrusting out towards the viewer. There's. What is it? Joseph and his Technicolor coat, I'm assuming that's what that was. Um, Mike: That's what it looks like. Jessika: Uh, it's what it looks like. It's a color, her coat there's there's Noah's Ark. There's definitely Jesus with arms outstretched. Although, of course, white Jesus, because why be historically accurate? All of these people are Caucasian. I might add in this entire comic, all of these people were Caucasian, except for a very few in the Jesus [00:50:00] episodes. And those were just people from far away, quote unquote, everyone else was very, very light-skinned. Mike: Also, if you're going to give us white Jesus, can you at least give a shirtless white Jesus? I want to see some washboard abs. Jessika: That's what I'm saying. Mike: Right? Jessika: That's what I'm saying. So yes, this is just, it's very exciting. Says, Bible Force, the First Heroes Bible. I think that's Probably. Mary as well on the front. It's a woman also Caucasian, and she's got a head scarf of some sort on, it's pink, which they absolutely had magenta back in Bible days. I am sure, absolutely feasible. I'm there. Believe it. Isaac Mizrahi's in there like designing, designing Mary's outfit. Oh honey, you're going to look great in this. Mike: He is all about the [00:51:00] timeless looks, isn't he? Jessika: Yes. Mike: So, I mean, that's the Nelson comics. Short-lived imprint. Do you have any final thoughts? Jessika: Well, can't say I'm surprised that these didn't continue on. I can't imagine that they were really keeping kids' attention, or giving them any type of cohesive and thoughtful messages. Mike: No. I mean, probably not. I don't think many comic retailers were carrying them either because this was right at the height of my teenage collecting years, and I don't remember seeing any of this stuff in any of the shops that I frequented. Jessika: Yeah, it was pretty much like here: look at the colors. Oh, and have some antisemitism, enjoy. Mike: And some casual misogyny. It's fine. Jessika: Yes. Yes, exactly. Mike: If you could sum up the titles from this imprint [00:52:00] in one word, what would you use? Jessika: Confused. Mike: I was going to go soulless, but that's also good. Jessika: Oh, yours is better. Mike: Now is the time of the show where we discuss our Brain Wrinkles, which is the one thing comics or comics-adjacent that has been just stuck in our head for the last couple of days that we just want to talk about. I guess we should talk about the recent Highlander casting news. Would you like to take that away? Jessika: Oh, oh certainly. Certainly. Oh my goodness. So, during our Highlander episode, Mike, you mentioned that there has been a Highlander reboot in the works since 2008 Mike: Yep. Jessika: And we were speculating on who would be good to cast. Well, there is a reboot in the works, but we were both incorrect about casting, and sorry about that, Chris Pine and Channing Tatum, because either of you [00:53:00] would have been most fabulous in this role, but it landed and it turned out to be Henry Cavill who will be our new next Highlander. And I'm sure he'll have a new name because that's kind of how we trend with the Highlander series, which is good. Mike: Yeah, they haven't announced the actual role that he's playing yet, but it's assumed that he's going to be the MacLeod who's the main character. Jessika: I would think so. Wouldn't it be interesting if he was like the Kurgan or something that would be really funny. Mike: Yeah. I think I mentioned this, supposedly Bautista is going to be the Kurgan, but that he'd signed on, I think back in 2015. So it's been six years since then? Jessika: Well, I have to say though, I'm not all that upset about this turn of events. What about you, Mike? Mike: No, not at all. I just tore through the Witcher series on Netflix last week, over the course of a couple of days while I was working, I had it on in the background. And it was really nice to see Cavill in a role that wasn't [00:54:00] Superman, which is, you know, I use the term, unfortunately, he is just so associated with that role right now. And, honestly, I like him as Superman, I just wish they gave him better scripts and movies to work with. Jessika: Yeah. And it's hard to feel typecast as well. You don't, you know, you don't want to be Daniel Radcliffe, you know, playing Harry Potter for 20 years and then not being able to do anything else, although he's done very well. So I, can't say that. Mike: I was going to say I actually really - Jessika: You know, not a good example, I suppose. Mike: I love the choices that the Daniel Radcliffe has made since Harry Potter, Jessika: Yeah, me too. Mike: He has chosen so many insane roles. It's great. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: Um, yeah, no, like, you know, honestly, Cavill. First of all, I just, I really like Henry Cavill, like, he's given the interviews where he's talked about how playing Superman makes him want to be a better person, because he is portraying this character who is a role model for so many, especially the little kids. And that just [00:55:00] makes me really fond of the dude. Jessika: That's so sweet. Mike: He seems like another Chris Evans, and I'm, fine with that. That said, he is fucking grumpy in the Witcher, and it's really fun. He basically just has this very surly charisma throughout the entire show. And he's still jacked, but he's not as yoked as he is for the Superman rules. Like he doesn't look like a bodybuilder, he just looks like an incredibly fit dude, and I'm fine with that. Also, he does action scenes really well. The guy who's handling the reboot is Chad Stahelski, who did the John Wick movies. Dude knows his way around an action scene. And if you ever want to see an example of Henry Cavill in good action scenes, watch the Witcher or the Mission Impossible movie that he was in, where he literally does that thing where he reloads his arms and then puts up his Dukes. I can watch that scene on repeat for hours. It's great. Jessika: Nice. I'll have to watch that. I haven't seen the Witcher [00:56:00] yet. Mike: Yeah. It's fun. We'll talk about that later on, but it's good. I really liked it even coming into it without having any real familiarity with the games or the books that it's based on. Also, I got to say that Highlander heart group that we were in, some of those people were grumpy at the casting. Jessika: Yes. Some people were very grumpy. It was, it was a mixed bag. Some people were very excited and some people were very, very, very grumpy. Mike: And even - Jessika: Okay. Mike: To their credit, even the people who were unhappy, weren't toxic, like in some other groups we've seen. Jessika: Oh, correct. Yes. That was very refreshing, cause, you know. Mike: Yeah. the backstory to your listeners is that we have been a part of other Facebook groups that are just heinously toxic nerd culture groups. And we swipe left pretty quick when we're in there. Jessika: Yeah, I don't want to feel like I can't like things or I don't want somebody telling me the amount of a fan. I am the type of fan I am. Mike: Exactly. Jessika: Gatekeeping is awful. Don't do it. Mike: Yeah, don't be a jerk, [00:57:00] I have to say the news that has been coming out about the reboot for Highlander sounds pretty promising. So fingers crossed that it doesn't suck but, we'll see. Jessika: Yeah. Mike: I believe that's it for this episode, so we'll be back in two weeks, and until then, we'll see y'all in the stacks. Thanks for listening to Ten Cent Takes. Accessibility is important to us; text transcriptions of each of our published episodes can be found on our website. This episode was hosted by Jessika Frazer and Mike Thompson, written by Mike Thompson and edited by Jessika Frazer. Our intro theme was written and performed by Jared Emerson-Johnson of Bay Area Sound. Our credits and transition music is Pursuit of Life by Evan MacDonald and it was purchased with a standard license from PremiumBeat. Our banner graphics were designed by Sarah Frank, who goes by cut_thistles on Instagram. Jessika: If you'd [00:58:00] like to get in touch with us, ask us questions or tell us about how we got something wrong, please head over to tencenttakes.com or shoot an email to email@example.com. You can also find us on Twitter, the official podcast account is @tencenttakes. 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Like many people, Eilene Zimmerman believed drug addiction lived in another world, far from her family. That was until her ex-husband, the father of her children, died of an overdose and she discovered his body. How had everyone missed the signs of an ever increasing relationship to substances that was robbing him of his health, his career and his capacity to focus on the important relationships in his life? Eilene became intent on answering her questions about how a brilliant, high powered attorney went down this path, what prevented him from reaching out for the help he clearly needed and what education is needed so that the signs of addiction in a loved one are more easily identified. As a journalist, her search for answers accompanied her through her own (and her childrens') grief, indistinguishable from one another. Her memoir, Smacked, illuminates her own process and what she learned along the way.
The legal profession is the only field where a negativity mindset is an advantage. This constant negativity and stress can lead to depression, anxiety, suicide, and addiction. As a former lawyer in recovery from alcoholism and addiction, this episode speaks to the experiences of many in my community. Today I am bringing you an interview that I did over the summer with Eilene Zimmerman who I first discovered after reading her viral article in the New York Times called, “The Lawyer, The Addict.” I actually was doing my own research on this intersection between lawyers and addiction and this was a fascinating story about Eilene and her husband Peter, a high-powered attorney who died of a drug overdose, without her even knowing he had an addiction. What is interesting to me about this story is the many ways that our cultural representations of addiction and drug and alcohol use mask the reality that these problems happen at every level of society and this rise of white collar addiction is actually a testament to some of the systemic issues arising from materialism, wealth, spiritual or emotional detachment and the pressure of career or financial success. This interview is actually a conversation about her story and her book Smacked, which is currently being optioned for film by Elizabeth Moss and her film company Love & Squalor, who you might know from Madmen and The Handmaid’s Tale. We talk about why attorneys have a propensity for addiction, co-dependency and marriage to an addict, and why the competition and conditioning of the legal profession is killing lawyers. Eilene also shares about her own trauma recovery, and how writing a memoir and her story helped her overcome grief, loss, and reclaim her sense of self. Email: firstname.lastname@example.org @restorya on Instagram Facebook: Kate Marlena-Restorya Restorya is a member of Bear Radio, the premier English speaking podcast network of Berlin Our theme music is the song JEANNE by KENICHI & THE SUN from album White Fire which you can find here.
In Episode 71, Susie Boutry (@NovelVisits) and I share our favorite 2020 books (overall and by genre) and our picks for tons of bookish superlatives. This post contains affiliate links, through which I make a small commission when you make a purchase (at no cost to you!). Announcements Sarah’s 2020 Holiday Gift Guide 2021 Rock Your Reading Tracker Highlights 2020 Podcast Overview (including favorite and most downloaded episodes) Overview of our reading years (including the impact of COVID-19) Favorite books of 2020 (trends, overall, by genre) 2020 Superlative Awards Our Favorite Books of 2020 (Overall and by Genre) [19:31] Sarah Saving Ruby King by Catherine Adel West (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [20:00] Untamed by Glennon Doyle (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [22:30] The Familiar Dark by Amy Engel (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [24:15] The Heir Affair by Heather Cocks and Jessica Morgan (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [25:36] The Knockout Queen by Rufi Thorpe (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [27:19] Saving Ruby King by Catherine Adel West (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [29:34] One to Watch by Kate Stayman-London (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [30:07] Long Bright River by Liz Moore (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [32:17] The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [33:27] Craigslist Confessional by Helena Dea Bala (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [34:42] We Keep the Dead Close by Becky Cooper (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [34:42] Memorial Drive by Natasha Trethewey | Buy from Amazon [39:02] Smacked by Eilene Zimmerman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon (My Review) [39:18] This is My America by Kim Johnson | Buy from Amazon [40:23] Susie The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab | Buy from Amazon [20:41] A Knock at Midnight by Brittany K. Barnett | Buy from Amazon [23:26] The Night Swim by Megan Goldin (Susie’s Spoiler Discussion) | Buy from Amazon [24:43] Godshot by Chelsea Bieker | Buy from Amazon [26:18] The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [27:56] Writers and Lovers by Lily King (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [28:45] The Happy Ever After Playlist by Abby Jimenez | Buy from Amazon [31:16] Greenwood by Michael Christie | Buy from Amazon [34:48] Stamped by Jason Reynolds and Ibram X. Kendi (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [36:55] Open Book by Jessica Simpson (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [39:42] Majesty by Katharine McGee | Buy from Amazon [41:52] A Children’s Bible by Lydia Millet | Buy from Amazon [43:39] Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam | Buy from Amazon [44:37] 2020 Superlatives [45:01] Sarah The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [45:16] Running by Natalia Sylvester (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [45:55] We Wish You Luck by Caroline Zancan (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [47:01] The Searcher by Tana French (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [48:58] Sea Wife by Amity Gaige (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [50:27] Saving Ruby King by Catherine Adel West (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [53:01] The Knockout Queen by Rufi Thorpe (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [53:32] Deacon King Kong by James McBride | Buy from Amazon [54:27] Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia | Buy from Amazon [54:27] A Good Neighborhood by Therese Anne Fowler (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [54:27] Darling Rose Gold by Stephanie Wrobel | Buy from Amazon [54:27] Eat a Peach by David Chang | Buy from Amazon [56:18] Stray by Stephanie Danler (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [57:32] Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam | Buy from Amazon [57:32] The Glass Hotel by Emily St. John Mandel (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [58:37] Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia | Buy from Amazon [58:37] The Boys’ Club by Erica Katz (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:00:03] The Death of Vivek Oji by Akwaeke Emezi (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:01:33] The Office by Andy Greene (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:02:06] A Knock at Midnight by Brittany K. Barnett | Buy from Amazon [01:06:15] The Last Story of Mina Lee by Nancy Jooyoun Kim | Buy from Amazon [01:06:25] Caste by Isabel Wilkerson | Buy from Amazon [01:06:38] Susie Perfect Tunes by Emily Gould (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [45:27] 28 Summers by Elin Hilderbrand | Buy from Amazon [46:25] Valentine by Elizabeth Wetmore | Buy from Amazon [47:29] Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam | Buy from Amazon [48:23] Anxious People by Fredrick Backman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [49:38] Last Couple Standing by Matthew Norman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [51:52] Want by Lynn Steger Strong (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [52:19] Valentine by Elizabeth Wetmore | Buy from Amazon [53:21] Writers and Lovers by Lily King (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [54:09] The Guest List by Lucy Foley | Buy from Amazon [55:17] Pretty Things by Janelle Brown | Buy from Amazon [55:17] When No One is Watching by Alyssa Cole | Buy from Amazon [55:17] 28 Summers by Elin Hilderbrand | Buy from Amazon [55:47] Rodham by Curtis Sittenfeld (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [57:38] Memorial by Bryan Washington (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [58:11] The Knockout Queen by Rufi Thorpe (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [58:11] Smacked by Eilene Zimmerman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [59:39] The Death of Vivek Oji by Akwaeke Emezi (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:01:33] The Happy Ever After Playlist by Abby Jimenez | Buy from Amazon [01:02:59] A Good Marriage by Kimberly McCreight (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:03:11] Transcendent Kingdom by Yaa Gyasi (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:03:46] Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo | Buy from Amazon [01:04:58] Other Books Mentioned Beach Read by Emily Henry | Buy from Amazon [14:36] The Roanoke Girls by Amy Engel (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [24:26] The Royal We by Heather Cocks and Jessica Morgan (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [25:50] The Mothers by Brit Bennett (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [28:34] In Cold Blood by Truman Capote | Buy from Amazon [36:18] The Devil in the White City by Erik Larsen | Buy from Amazon [36:18] Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil by John Berendt | Buy from Amazon [36:18] Stamped from the Beginning by Ibram X. Kendi | Buy from Amazon [37:05] American Royals by Katharine McGee | Buy from Amazon [42:19] The Witch Elm by Tana French (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [49:06] Beartown by Fredrick Backman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [50:00] The Girls of Corona del Mar by Rufi Thorpe (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [53:54] Reconstructing Amelia by Kimberly McCreight (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [01:03:11] Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi | Buy from Amazon [01:03:46] Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle | Buy from Amazon [01:04:45] Blacktop Wasteland by S.A. Cosby | Buy from Amazon [01:05:40] Hamnet by Maggie O’Farrell | Buy from Amazon [01:05:46] Other Links Podcast Ep. 43: Jordon Moblo (@jordys.book.club) Podcast Ep. 63: Helena dea Bala (author of Craigslist Confessional) Podcast Mini Ep. 59: Alyssa Hertzig Podcast Ep. 56: Holly Root (the Rise of the Rom-Com & Publishing in the COVID Era) Podcast Ep. 66: Kate Stayman-London (author of One to Watch) Podcast Ep. 64: Catherine Adel West (author of Saving Ruby King) Susie’s “Reading in the Midst of a Global Pandemic” blog post About Susie Blog | Facebook | Twitter | Instagram Susie has loved reading for as long as she can remember. Some of her fondest childhood memories involve long afternoons at the library and then reading late into the night. More than ten years ago, she began journaling about the books I read and turned that passion into writing about books. Her first forays were as a guest reviewer on a friend’s blog, but she soon realized she wanted to be reviewing and talking about books on a blog of my own. From there, Novel Visits was born. That was in 2016 and, though the learning curve was steep, she loves being a part of the book community. Novel Visits focuses on new novel reviews (print and audio), previews of upcoming releases, and musings on all things bookish.
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"Stories are my art, and I'm enthusiastic about sharing them," says Erik Slangerup. Erik is a children's book author, app maker, and storyteller. "Plucked" is his debut middle grade novel, due for release Summer 2022 by Aladdin Books (Simon & Schuster). "Smacked" is the planned sequel to follow in 2023. Eric's previously published picture books include "https://www.amazon.com/Dirt-Boy-Erik-Jon-Slangerup/dp/0807516171 (Dirt Boy)," "https://www.amazon.com/Monsterlicious-Erik-Jon-Slangerup/dp/1577684214/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=monsterlicious&qid=1599583929&s=books&sr=1-1 (Monsterlicious)," and "https://www.amazon.com/Santa-Me-Erik-Jon-Slangerup/dp/1577684117/ref=sr_1_5?dchild=1&keywords=slangerup&qid=1599583992&s=books&sr=1-5 (Santa and Me)." Erik is also co-creator of http://www.storysnacker.com/ (StorySnacker), the award-winning read-aloud app for parents on the go, https://apps.apple.com/us/app/storysnacker-1-minute-stories/id1117622094 (available on the App Store). In 2019, it was ranked http://%22top%205%20in%20the%20world%20for%20family%20%26%20kids%22%20by%20the%20webby%20awards/ ("Top 5 in the World for Family & Kids" by the Webby Awards). It features a library of snack-size stories, and has collected 8 international awards. Keep track of Erik and his stories on Twitter at https://twitter.com/erikslangerup (@erikslangerup) Thanks to you for being among the first listeners of our new podcast. Connect with me on LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/stinsonmark/ (www.linkedin.com/in/stinsonmark) Follow me on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/markstinsonauthor (www.facebook.com/markstinsonauthor) And visit my website at https://my.captivate.fm/www.mark-stinson.com (www.mark-stinson.com) (I host my podcast with Captivate, the world's only growth-oriented podcast host™ - you can too, and get your first 7-days on me! https://www.captivate.fm/signup?ref=markstinson (www.captivate.fm/signup) )
In Episode 68, Eilene Zimmerman (author of Smacked) shares how she decided to go public with her experience discovering her ex-husband was addicted to drugs, her research into addiction in the legal profession, and how Peter’s death shaped Eilene’s life now. This post contains affiliate links, through which I make a small commission when you make a purchase (at no cost to you!). Highlights How Eilene went from not divulging the real reason Peter died beyond a very small circle of friends and family to writing a memoir about her experience. How her kids have been doing since Smacked was published. How Peter’s law firm reacted to the NYT article and the book’s publication. When Eilene believes Peter first started using. What it was like for Eilene to go through this as Peter’s ex-wife (rather than as his wife). Why she started missing Peter after he passed away (even though they’d been split up for quite awhile). Addiction in the legal profession and the toxic culture of BigLaw. Eilene’s journalism career and how Peter’s addiction and death shaped her journalism career moving forward. Smacked being optioned for film by Elisabeth Moss’ production company. Eilene’s Book Recommendations [30:38] Two OLD Books She Loves Less by Andrew Sean Greer | Buy from Amazon [31:07] Circe by Madeline Miller (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [32:37] Two NEW Books She Loves The Gifted School by Bruce Holsinger | Buy from Amazon [37:17] The Testaments by Margaret Atwood (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [39:10] One Book She DIDN’T LOVE Dear Edward by Ann Napolitano (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [42:31] One NEW RELEASE She’s Excited About Magic Lessons by Alice Hoffman (Release Date: October 6, 2020) | Buy from Amazon [45:01] Last 5 Star Book Eilene Read [46:54] The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead | Buy from Amazon [46:54] Other Books Mentioned Smacked by Eilene Zimmerman | Buy from Amazon [0:54] The Boys’ Club by Erika Katz (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [22:55] Ask Again, Yes by Mary Beth Keane (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [35:58] The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [35:58] Wild Game by Adrienne Brodeur (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [36:02] The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [39:10] The Rules of Magic by Alice Hoffman | Buy from Amazon [45:01] Practical Magic by Alice Hoffman | Buy from Amazon [45:01] The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [46:25] Other Links “The Lawyer, the Addict” by Eilene Zimmerman, The New York Times About Eilene Website | Instagram Eilene Zimmerman is a journalist and social worker. For three decades, she has written about business, technology and social issues for a wide array of national magazines and newspapers. She was a columnist for The New York Times Sunday Business section for six years and since 2004 has been a regular contributor to the newspaper. In September 2020, Zimmerman completed a masters degree in social work. Next Episode There will not be a new episode next week since the podcast is on a bi-weekly schedule. The following week, there will be a full length episode featuring Peace Adzo Medie, author of His Only Wife (airing October 28).
Catherine and I share our most anticipated books coming out August – December 2020. This post contains affiliate links, through which I make a small commission when you make a purchase (at no cost to you!). Highlights Catherine and my success rate for books we shared in our Summer 2020 Preview episode. Why our ability to pick books feels off right now. Our Best and Worst picks from the Summer 2020 Preview episode. An inadvertent running theme in this episode. Sarah’s and Catherine’s #1 Fall book picks. Fall 2020 Book Preview [8:04] August Sarah’s Picks: A Traveler at the Gates of Wisdomby John Boyne (August 11) | Buy from Amazon [8:41] Catherine’s Picks: When These Mountains Burn by David Joy (August 18) | Buy from Amazon [13:46] September Sarah’s Picks: Transcendent Kingdom by Yaa Gyasi (September 1) | Buy from Amazon [16:12] Majesty by Katharine McGee (September 1) | Buy from Amazon [21:57] His Only Wife by Peace Adzo Medie (September 1) | Buy from Amazon [32:41] Good Morning, Monster by Catherine Gildiner (September 22) | Buy from Amazon [32:49] Catherine’s Picks: The Last Story of Mina Lee by Nancy Jooyoun Kim (September 1) | Buy from Amazon [19:43] A Knock at Midnight by Brittany Barnett (September 1) | Buy from Amazon [24:24] Anxious People by Fredrick Backman (September 8) | Buy from Amazon [29:54] October Sarah’s Picks: The Searcher by Tana French (October 6) | Buy from Amazon [37:09] Group by Christie Tate (October 6) | Buy from Amazon [42:02] Catherine’s Picks: Earthlings by Sayaka Murata (October 6) | Buy from Amazon [35:18] Magic Lessons by Alice Hoffman (October 6) | Buy from Amazon [39:38] No Heaven for Good Boys by Keisha Bush (October 13) | Buy from Amazon [44:43] Memorial by Bryan Washington (October 27) | Buy from Amazon [51:31] November Sarah’s Picks: White Ivy by Susie Yang (November 3) | Buy from Amazon [46:25] Other Books Mentioned Craigslist Confessional by Helena Dea Bala (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [4:07] What’s Left of Me is Yours by Stephanie Scott (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [5:50] The Loyalties by Delphine de Vigan (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [6:36] Based on a True Story by Delphine de Vigan (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [6:44] Parakeet by Marie-Helene Bertino | Buy from Amazon [7:10] The Heart’s Invisible Furies by John Boyne (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [11:25] Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell | Buy from Amazon [13:20] The Line That Held Us by David Joy (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [13:50] Where All Light Tends to Go by David Joy (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [15:35] Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi | Buy from Amazon [16:31] Dopesick by Beth Macy (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [17:22] Smacked by Eilene Zimmerman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [18:14] Long Bright River by Liz Moore (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [18:21] Girl in Translation by Jean Kwok | Buy from Amazon [21:00] Saving Ruby King by Catherine Adel West (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [21:17] American Royals by Katharine McGee | Buy from Amazon [22:17] Just Mercy by Bryan Stevenson | Buy from Amazon [25:35] Americanah by Chimamonda Ngozi Adichie | Buy from Amazon [29:12] Queenie by Candice Carty-Williams | Buy from Amazon [29:12] Beartown by Fredrick Backman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [30:11] Us Against Them by Fredrick Backman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [30:11] A Man Called Ove by Fredrick Backman | Buy from Amazon [32:26] Maybe You Should Talk to Someone by Lori Gottlieb | Buy from Amazon [33:19] Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata | Buy from Amazon [35:18] The Witch Elm by Tana French (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [37:48] The Secret Place by Tana French (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [38:51] In the Woods by Tana French | Buy from Amazon [39:05] Practical Magic by Alice Hoffman | Buy from Amazon [39:57] The Rules of Magic by Alice Hoffman (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [39:57] Stray by Stephanie Danler (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [43:36] Untamed by Glennon Doyle (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [43:36] Social Creature by Tara Isabella Burton (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [50:14] Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [50:14] Luckiest Girl Alive by Jessica Knoll | Buy from Amazon [50:14] Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [50:14] Lot: Stories by Bryan Washington | Buy from Amazon [53:09] One to Watch by Kate Stayman-London (My Review) | Buy from Amazon [55:02] Other Links Spring 2020 Book Preview About Catherine Gilmore Blog | Facebook | Twitter | Instagram Catherine started The Gilmore Guide to Books over 6 years ago after wrapping up a career as a corporate librarian. She loves books and reading (surprise!) and currently lives in Ann Arbor, MI. Next Episode There will not be a new episode next week since the podcast is on its bi-weekly summer schedule. The following week, there will be a full length episode featuring Kate Stayman-London, author of One to Watch (airing September 16).
This week if you want to be an artist every day but the business of life gets in your way, I can relate. I went through that struggle this week but luckily I develop some practices that keep me creative even in busy weeks like this one. As a result, I am able to share three pieces in this episode. I have a question for you, which one would you write to? Or Which one would you like me to continue to develop? I like all three but school is starting and you know how it is. We have to learn to prioritize. I like episodes like this one where we get to work together as a community of artists to grow our creative flow. If you can just let me know in the comments: Which one would you write to? What comes to your mind and heart for you with this piece? Here are the pieces: 1 Strike a match to the daylight burns Treating night like the ash on scorch earth Running blaze the essence of the second Pressure place to make time worth the weight 2 Dodge dirty a look more than a right hook but can't dodge the book thrown at my jaw being booked before a break in law No breaking spines No folded corner creases on my pages Just scuffs on the cover. Scoff at a brother from the others' mothers Left us to fend in gutters Defend their shutters on windows eyes closed You safe in here as the storms blow Deny your ears when the rattles grow Stones to pebbles trunk debris on concrete on broken streets 3 Flash from the past. Task from the class. Back of the facts. Flask under mask Whack on the track. Stock falling flat. Pack up them caps. Smacked for the flack. If you can just let me know in the comments: Which one would you write to? What comes to your mind and heart for you with this piece? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app
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In today’s delicate world, laden with the horrors of the Covid19 pandemic and racial injustices hitting fever pitch, other systemic problems have been temporarily swept aside. In this episode, Dr. Judy meets New York Times’ Best-Selling author Eilene Zimmerman, who talks about her new memoir “Smacked,” and the opioid epidemic that shattered her family and caused her to deeply examine her life. Eilene, a decorated journalist of more than 30 years, recounts the day she found her ex-husband Peter dead in his $2 million home from a drug overdose and the devastation he left behind. To Eilene and her children, it seemed almost impossible that Peter, an Ivy League educated, high-functioning senior partner at a prestigious law firm, was secretly wasting away for years due to his severe opioid addiction. After this startling discovery, Eilene made it her life’s mission to find out everything she could about the epidemic of addiction and transformed her career to help others who are struggling. In this profound, soul-searching episode, Dr. Judy discusses the signs of addiction, co-dependency, insecurity and the common preconceived notions of what drug addicts “look” like. If you, or someone you know, struggle with any form of codependency or addiction, this episode will arm you with five lifesaving tips to fix blurred boundaries, reconfigure childhood attachment issues, enhance low self-esteem and heal deep seated grief. You will be moved by Eilene’s stories of brutal self-examination and how she and her family have taken the valuable lessons learned to move on and inspire others to rebuild and live their best lives. In this episode, we discuss: 1. The day that changed Eilene’s life forever (5:50) 2. The myths of the opioid epidemic (11:30) 3. The Gateway Hypothesis and progression of substance use (19:20) 4. Early attachment and how it affects our romantic lives as adults (24:45) 5. The power of the father-child relationship in shaping who we are (30:00) 6. When people don’t believe in unconditional love (36:30) 7. The slippery slope of enabling in a codependent relationship (40:45) 8. Working through family trauma after an untimely loss (48:00) 9. Eilene’s career transformation and overcoming negative self-talk (55:00) 10. SuperCharged Tips of the Day (62:00) Drjudyho.com Instagram.com/drjudyho Twitter.com/drjudyho Facebook.com/doctorjudyho Instagram.com/stage29podcasts Twitter.com/stage29podcasts Facebook.com/Stage29Podcasts Eilenezimmerman.com Twitter.com/eilenez Instagram.com/eilenezwriter Facebook.com/eilene.zimmerman Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
What they'll cover: “Smacked”- a book about Eilene's personal experience dealing the with the impact of addiction after discovering the secret life that led to her now late ex-husband's death. What it was that helped her make the brave decision to go public with her story. What jobs Eilene believes make people more vulnerable to addiction issues. And yes, financial service jobs are high on the list. What signs you should be aware of to help spot issues amongst coworkers or employees, as well as what steps to take if you do suspect addiction is a problem for one of them. How Eilene believes the pandemic is affecting those currently struggling with addiction issues. Come learn more from CRMNEXT: www.crmnext.com
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Our very own Vince is joined by the OG's of the Smacked raw Podcast Kyle and Rob Rude!Join them as they discuss and predict this Sunday's Takeover: In you House PPV! Let us know your predictions in the comment section!! #SmackedNXT https://linktr.ee/SmackedRawPod Join our Discord - https://discord.gg/TP8S6sc LIKE and SUBSCRIBE to https://www.youtube.com/SmackedRawPod... Follow us on Twitter @SmackedRawPodKyle @TheKyTyShowRob @TwoWordsCantCMeVince @SESvinceJay @JayThunder2009Seb @Rasslin_SportsRN @Mister8984Kevin @KevinKrazy316
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The 100th Episode Has Come... It's Been A Long Time Coming. We Discussing A lot Here, Men Getting Their Nipples Licked, & BThe 100th Episode Has Come... It's Been A Long Time Coming. We Discussing A lot Here, Men Getting Their Nipples Licked, & Butts Smacked. Our Thoughts On Covid 19.How Men Piss On Themselves. What Are The Rules Of Dating With A Roommate & More....butts Smacked. Our Thoughts On Covid 19.How Men Piss On Themselves. What Are The Rules Of Dating With A Roommate & More....
The 100th Episode Has Come... It's Been A Long Time Coming. We Discussing A lot Here, Men Getting Their Nipples Licked, & BThe 100th Episode Has Come... It's Been A Long Time Coming. We Discussing A lot Here, Men Getting Their Nipples Licked, & Butts Smacked. Our Thoughts On Covid 19.How Men Piss On Themselves. What Are The Rules Of Dating With A Roommate & More....butts Smacked. Our Thoughts On Covid 19.How Men Piss On Themselves. What Are The Rules Of Dating With A Roommate & More....
S5 E11: In this episode meet Eilene Zimmerman, Conor Dougherty, and Sierra Crane Murdoch. Go behind the mic with these authors and hear what it was like for them to bring their intensely researched, timely, and thought-provoking works to their audiobooks. Smacked by Eilene Zimmerman: https://www.penguinrandomhouseaudio.com/book/574587/smacked/ Golden Gates by Conor Dougherty: https://www.penguinrandomhouseaudio.com/book/585765/golden-gates/ Yellow Bird by Sierra Crane Murdoch: https://www.penguinrandomhouseaudio.com/book/545014/yellow-bird/
-It's World War 3 in this motherfucker -Memes not war -Chad VS IDKJEFFERY -COPING -Good ass cheeses -Kaine's a new year new me ass bitch -Dr. Chicago (the pedophile) -Art teachers smoke gas -Buying legal mids -Public School bullies -Baltimore -Atlanta -Getting punked for your sidekick -BARS -Joe Pesci is that guy -Smacked off the @dab.ber cheese caker -Punk Stories with Tony -Gettin stiffed at a church show -LISTENER QUESTIONS!- Outro song: King Yosef - "Pity Case" Chad = @TXTBOOK on IG and @CHADTXTBOOK on twitter Tony = @DOOGNUKEM on IG and @SWEATARD on twitter Kaine = @FATHERKAINE on IG and Twitter --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pusskast/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pusskast/support
This episode deals with some SHIT! And SO DO WE!! Alice gets the life SMACKED out of her, Jughead stalks a bunch of kids and gets them to rat out Dilton, and oh boy, we get our first glimpse of dark Betty! Will Chuck get justice for what he's done? Will Archie be able to see his song be played? Will Ethel regain normalcy? Yes, yes, and NO OF COURSE NOT! Follow us on: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/riverdalerd Twitter: https://twitter.com/RDriverdale Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riverdalerudedudes/ SUPPORT US ON PATREON: https://www.patreon.com/RDriverdale You can also email us at RiverdaleRudeDudes@gmail.com
WELCOME to the Religion Of Hockey Podcast, Episode 7! With 2 Weeks to go in the Regular Season & Until the Start of the Playoffs, Grav, Niko & Jay Discuss the Western Conference Playoff Seeding and Playoff Race, the Latest NHL News & Rumors, and Why Patrick Kane has Given Up! Recorded March 26th On This Episode, we Discuss our Life's in the Past week in the 2nd Edition of the Pre Game Skate! (1:25) Lightning Head Coach Jon Cooper EXTENDED! (5:30) Zdeno Chara EXTENDED! (14:20) Drew Doughty & Matthew Tkachuk Drama Exchange (15:04) Calgary Flames & James Neal sucks (18:20) Kyle Connor is Great & Patrik Laine SUCKS (34:10) The Nashville Predators and why they'll get Smacked vs the Blues (36:20) the Dallas Stars, Arizona Coyotes, Colorado Avalanche, Minnesota Wild, Chicago Blackhawks, and the CRAZY Western Conference Playoff Race! (43:20) Patrick Kane has Fallen Off, According to Blackhawks fan Niko (46:35) Jay's Actually Good Gameshow! (51:30) Go Follow Us on Twitter! Grav: @NathanGraviteh Youtube: Graviteh Niko: @NikoFromTheTO Jay: @FourOneSixJay Podcast Twitter: @ROHPodcasts NEW Podcast Episodes Come out each Week, Tell your Friends and Look Out for it! Make Sure to Subscribe & Rate us on iTunes! #ReligionOfHockey
Today we're shouting out to Vote Save America, AND the NY Times podcast from last weekend, The Last "Year of the Woman". Our first guest is Judy Linn, photographer and Vassar professor, best known for her book Patti Smith 1969-1976 : Photographs by Judy Linn. Judy talks about her relationship to photography which started out quite rocky and quickly becomes the thing that she needs to try and figure out leading her to a lifelong relationship with the art form, and a very successful career. Judy has had portfolios published in Artforum and BOMB magazine, and her photographs are included in the collections of the Museum of Modern Art, the Whitney Museum of American Art, the Detroit Art Institute, the Dallas Museum of Art, and the Getty Collection, among others. She has received an award from the American Academy of Arts and Letters and grants from the Louis Comfort Tiffany Foundation, Anonymous Was A Woman, and the Peter S. Reed Foundation. Judy shares so honestly about her life and her unique perspectives including her belief that all photographs lie. She's working on another book of photography taken in the early 70's from her time in Detroit working for a local paper. Can't wait for this...hint, bouffant hair and pointy collars. Our second guest is Jessica Vecchione, videographer and documentarian. Her company is Vecc Videography, she's been an accomplished videographer in the Hudson Valley for over 20 years. She recently released SMACKED, her new documentary film about the opiate crisis. This 69 minute film was her way of truly uncovering all that is happening with the police, the health care system, and those who struggle with the addiction. Jessica shares how she really broke through in film by making a documentary about the town of Fleischmans. She works with many nonprofits in the Hudson Valley and across New York State. Jessica's advice to aspiring videographers/filmmakers, just do it, follow your passion, and be kind along the way Self care! Be KIND!!! Move from the heart space. Don't fall into the patriarchal trap of operating from the analytical mind. Vote Save America: | NY Times Podcast "Year of the Woman: Today's show was engineered by Manuel Blas of Radio Kingston, www.radiokingston.org. We heard music from Shana Falana, http://www.shanafalana.com/, and audio from the film, She's Beautiful When She's Angry, http://www.shesbeautifulwhenshesangry.com ** Please: SUBSCRIBE to our pod and leave a REVIEW wherever you are listening, it helps other users FIND US :) Follow Us: INSTAGRAM * https://www.instagram.com/iwantwhatshehaspodcast/ FACEBOOK * https://www.facebook.com/iwantwhatshehaspodcast TWITTER * https://twitter.com/wantwhatshehas
Come get SMACKED with your hosts Porsha Sade and Rap Nerd Mal! On today's episode we discuss what we've been doing on our hiatus, lies told in music, and accepting drinks while in relationships. Rap Nerd Mal's Song Of The Week: 112 "Without You" -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mmo1a3-Wz4o Porsha Sade's Song Of The Week: Chris Brown "Hope You Do" -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v5DTiKFgZM
On this episode of Sol’d Out!…A Sol Call to Carson Wilder; a recap of the shoot we did with Michael Matthis for his player profile; Flatball and Nice D start a Jason Best chant; Wham-O tries to talk about a team other than the Sol and gets SMACKED down; plus….Sol’d Out helps deliver DJ and Shelby Loskorn’s new baby!
2017 Smacked us right in the face, didn't see that coming!!! And so the struggle to plan out the next year begins. Josh and Ty talk about their plans to hunt Elk, Mule Deer and the possibility of hunting sheep on a poor man's budget. They tell the story of nearly drowning in a canoe on the Bitterroot river in Montana while hunting geese. Hope you enjoy this episode and if you did please subscribe, leave a review, find us on social media and share with all your friends and family. Happy New Year!!! Facebook Instagram
What do Kenny Chesney, Miranda Lambert, Old Dominion, Walker Hayes, Shane McAnally, Jo Smith and many more have in common? They’ve worked in some facet with SmackSongs. Whether it be management, publishing, or timing it perfectly to walk in on a cowrite they’ve all had a conversation with the man of business mystery...Michael McAnally Baum. Everybody knows that you have to have a creative team to create songs, but it takes a strong, keen business mind to land such monstrous deals like Michael has. Michael handles all the business affairs of SmackSongs. SmackSongs is an all encompassing music production team that handles artist management, publishing, and production. Every dollar, every deal, every conversation goes through Michael. In this episode we get to hear Michael’s story and how he landed in the music business from working in a completely unrelated field. Then we discover what makes the culture of SmackSongs dictate what music you should be listening to. We even get a sneak peak into what's to come out of Smack. Michael has a unique perspective, not only as an artist manager but also a man of business. So he gives his step-by-step advice for songwriters and artists to achieve their goals in music. Survivors, prepare yourself to get SMACKED with some advice bombs with this one.
Parina Subba Limbu first tried drugs as a teenager. Expelled from nine schools, she eventually ran away from home. After a decade of escalating addiction, and many disastrous love affairs with other addicts, Parina finally got help to get clean, and now runs Dristi Nepal, a charity she founded to care for drug-addicted women in Kathmandu, a group she says who are harshly judged by her society. Melinda Ferguson, who grew up in Apartheid-era South Africa, started stealing her mother's brandy aged 10, and was soon experimenting with drugs. In 1993 she tried heroin, which led to a downward spiral that saw her losing her kids, and selling her body for the next hit. Melinda's journey to recovery began in 1999, and has since published two addiction memoirs, Smacked and Crashed. [Picture: Parina Subba Limbu (Left) and Melinda Ferguson(Right) Melinda Ferguson picture credit: Aubrey Johnson ]
My name is Jonathan, and I am a tobacco addict. Life goes on without smoking, but for now I fight for life. I don't write off a thing. It feels like hell, but I know it is peace—and strength. Overall, the symptoms are temporary, so far. I am nowhere near the end of the addiction, but I am on my way. I think: Help! I am kicking the habit. They are not going away, these withdrawals. The nicotine and the smoke itself. The real hardcore heavy chain smoker and tobacco fiend. A friend of the enemy. I befriend my fear. My fear of not knocking this off my bucket list before the bucket has its first and perhaps last heart attack. Cancer, COPD, chronic obstructive pulmonary disease.The severity of depression. Jumbled thoughts. Life goes on. I need this. I need my life. I crave life. No false hopes. The real deal. Quit. Win. Stay in the now. Stay alive. Mental illness aside, physical disabilities too, my body. I forgot about my body. For decades. It finally hit me. Something more profound than life itself. No assumptions. No projections. I am still figuring it out. Some are the smoke. The habit. The destructive behavior and serious issues of smoke. It might now take away my other issues. Just no more puffs. Slow and long steps to this slow and legal suicide. I am stronger than my mind. I can deal with life. I just need to preserve it as lovingly as I can. If I had resolved this earlier, sure, different story. I didn't, but I am now. I have been offline and on my way, in combat with my mind, my schizophrenia, but now also with my body, sensations, my second nature, smoke. Heavy smoke. Smoking is easy. Death is inevitable. But smoke. It is all I have needed to feel its effects. 100 clouds of smoke and puffs per day. 100 cigarettes. I can deal with schizophrenia and with mental illness. I am ready to quit the smoke soon and to live with life. Life is hard enough. I had an epiphany. I couldn't even walk 100 steps to smoke without being out of breath. For 10 minutes. Years of lies I told myself. It was my second nature. I needed to smoke and d¬¬rink caffeine. Smoking, quitting smoking, rather—this is a battlefield I must fight peacefully. I am a warrior. A survivor. A realist. I am still wrapped up in the ringer, but I am doing it, I am quitting. I have been quitting. I have been offline and in detox. A slow detox mixed with the detox of yesterday's psychotic episode from schizophrenia and the crazy mess I left behind yesterday. That was a symptom of life. I let it go. Just quit. Just do it. Commit to something not by doing but by not doing. These heavyweight headaches, all of it. And I haven't even kicked the habit 100%. Not yet. I am, however, on my way. Well on my way. Five packs of the six per day. I tossed them. I gave them to my medical team to dispense for me, one a day, and with a plan. I have quit, of course, 30 times, honestly quit. But I never had a plan. I never outline. I just do what I do, and I still smoke. 80 cigarettes less now. 20 to go—day by day. I am stronger than my mind. I am stronger than my depression, my anger, my withdrawal symptoms due to letting go of four-fifths of my everyday life. Of my addiction to death by smoke. How do I sound? Raspy. How does this writing therapy session help? Who cares? It helps, that is all, it helps. I have help from others, and I use electronic cigarettes and lozenges. Thoughts bombard my head, my psyche, my mind. They erase and delete. They change. They return. They are just there. Time to live life is available. It's been waiting for me. Time hones in, creeping closer to death. I knock out another puff. Lord help me. I can almost hear Him saying. I have been here all this time. I was waiting for you. Flight of ideas, racing thoughts, then they slow down. But they won't stop. There is no easy way for anything, anything worthwhile maybe. It sounds easy to quit. Just don't do anything. Smoke? Then don't smoke. Sounds good. Easier said than done. I would light a cigarette now because I wouldn't care. So I choose to take a breath, not to take away ten breaths—because I care. Nicotine replacement. Every ache and pain that exists. I fight a private war. A common war. It doesn't feel common. It is worse than kicking crack cocaine. A war of fear. The thing I fear will soon vanish because I now know that I am stronger than my mind. I can and I will defeat this. You are stronger than you think, and the strongest people are not those who show strength in front of the world but those who battle and win the battles that others do not know anything about. Maybe they do. Maybe they don't. I rid my body of fear, of addiction, of hatred, because that hatred is fear. I battle fear. I recently wrote about how the world suffers greatly because of the silence of good people. I have been silent because I fight a private war, a war of fear, of addiction, and of life. This thing I fear will soon leave because I now know that I am stronger than my mind. I can and I will defeat this. As the fear lifts, a freedom I never knew will mesmerize me. I can see it now; I can see it already. I am ready. I am ready now. Can you see my face, with my eyes that speak, that drip tears and sweat, draining out the chaos of phlegm, of disgust, screaming with pure energy? They circle around. They see, sort of, dyslexic, legally blind, bestselling author bull. No. I can't either. Cancer eats at me. I take the Dallas Buyer's Club route. I take in and absorb my religion, my creed. Readjusting to a new and improved lifestyle that will benefit me medically and emotionally. Have I quit the smoking habit? No. I have not. On Thursday, no. Tuesday, no, I can't remember. Blame schizophrenia, blame confusion, blame nothing, and not myself. Creativity keeps me alive. Music, too. I kicked the crack cocaine, PCP, and hard liquor kick a dozen years ago. That is mine. It's easy. I am aware of how it will be. I used to be a non-smoker, a person who didn't reap his body, and the people around him, nor his health, I mean, his life. 25 years ago? I couldn't fathom the thought of smoke. Schizophrenia and smoke, comfortable with schizophrenia and cigarettes—they often go hand in hand. I used that excuse. I heard quitting tobacco can be harder than kicking heroin, I was on everything, and I would eat drugs out of the toilet. That was how stinging and demanding that fear embraced me. It overcame me; rather, I let it. Five packs per day, five tins of smokeless tobacco. Something like that. I'd just use and abuse, abuse myself, my mind, my body, my spirit, my world, myself, my self-esteem. My pride. I didn't know. I carried a case of bottled water, cases of caffeine, to my office just to get through 6:00 in the morning. "I'm an artist, a bohemian, I am allowed to smoke.” Old Hollywood is now long gone when smoking was glamorous. It was cool, to me. Now, looking back? Guess what. And it's astounding now. Excuses. One case of bottled water, walking with it for 20 yards, on the flat flagstone. 5 minutes pass. The phone rang. It was important. I.D. theft or something. Stupid stuff. I was out of breath. The case of water, and the 20 years, not on my mind. "Hi, I just came back from a rigorous run, you know, a quickie 5-mile jog…." Former New England Champion, 1993. Semi-Pro in '94. Graduation day. High school. I am cool. I lit my first, just celebrating with the others. I just graduated from the best school in the country. Easy. One hour later, one pack, addictive personality. I was an adult. An adult! Big time baby! Smacked with suicide, a failure, hospitalized, music saved me. I called 911. That was mental illness, depression, that was 1995. That was LSD. The next day ecstasy, PCP, junk, booze, malt liquor, fake I.D. Liar, liar, a friend of mine, where has he gone? I loved me. Next up at bat. Hospital. "You have schizophrenia. Here is your script.” The head doc meant my script for medication, not life. I was set. I was rich. I paid for friends. I paid for everything with Ben Franklins to spare. $25,000 per day, nothing illegal, no criminal record, no STDs, just some guys' stuff, some promiscuity, some garbage. Some things burying in me, my body bearing the burden. Smoke. Caffeine, too, and smokeless tobacco, dip. I knew how to pack that. To be cool. I didn't say it, I just rolled with it. I knew cancer, death—all that comes later. I remain in the moment. I was sick. Bottomed out. Quit everything. Square one. Just cigarettes. Let me stay sober for a year and then I'll just knock out the smoke. Dip? My teeth are fine, for now, I am a good kisser. The best. Big, sweet, sick, pure ego. No. I mean fear. Literary word jumble. To cope. On Day 3 or 4. Something like that. No, I didn't quit. Here it comes. I am doing it right. Right now. Getting help. More help. As much as I can get. I want to live and not die. Much less to die a painful death. Leaving others behind. Not many but maybe many more than I think. I have a plan. Have I a plan? Is this a joke? Tapering off. Starting with knocking out 5 of the 6 packs instantly. Is it hard? I'll write 1,000 pages next time to explain how hard. One pack left. Caffeine? My last two vices? That's all. Wait is that all? Yes. And I am already on my way. It is either swiping the smoke or letting my life go. Choice point. Keep going. I am stronger than my mind. To be continued through Christmas at least, maybe not on paper but for the documentary I have been making to capture these times of change. It's nothing. Something just hit me. Maybe it was—what's it called? God? I can work with that. Stay in the now, just for today, stay in the now. Let this sink in. Stay aware. Scan the body, in the name of God, and for the life of me, the life that awaits, the freedom, for crying out loud, my body wailing just relax. Just relax. Just relax. What lies ahead—it is miraculous. Freedom. I can choose. I can. I can. I can. I am still on board. Turbulence expected. I'll get there. I turn 40 soon. I need this. I have this. Just for today. Just for right this bloody second. I march on. Always, continuing to surprise myself every day. I am my hero sometimes. Often. Quitting smoke is my war, my body, my mind, my fear, my fuel, my life, and ultimately my death. But I am still around. Being silent doesn't necessarily mean being forgotten. Thank you for your support—Jonathan Harnisch.