Podcasts about Ranz

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 12, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 12 segment, Mark Henkel returned to make sure that one crucially important point was understood about UCAP, Unrelated Consenting Adult Polygamy. Marki Henkel explained that any man who wants to be a polygamist can only successfully do so as a caring, nurturing husband. After making the writer chuckle with the good logic of his argument, Mark Henkel concluded, "Dr. Joyce Brothers said in '94 [Dec. 22, 1994], ‘I would rather be the third wife of a good man than the only wife of a jerk.'" The writer positively affirmed, “No, that's just good sense right there.” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 11, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 11 segment, the writer re-phrased a re-iteration of her main question, "Why do you think that gay marriage is so much easier for people to accept than polygamy?" Henkel pulled no punches, saying, “The media.” Mark Henkel detailed how the media has taken control for the previous 30 years. "You have to use the language that they allow you, or they won't let you get published or they won't let you get heard. ...You have to use [the term] 'traditional marriage' to relate to 'one man, one woman' as opposed to [the term] 'marriage controllers.' So there is an Orwellian doublethink of language control in the media." Mark Henkel concluded that the media has "overwhelmingly pushed it and pushed it and pushed that agenda for the last 30 years to the point that there are now a generation of people that have grown up being promoted it and fully accepting it." Listeners will note that this comment about media pushing ideology and controlling language was stated in 2009, before the following decade of the next "new thing" called "social media" controlling what people are allowed to even see or hear under the misnomer of “censorship for protecting from misinformation.” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 10, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 10 segment, the Mark Henkel provided insights into how difficult it is for Christians to face the reality that the "one man, one woman" (OMOW) doctrine is simply not in the Bible. Mark Henkel also explained how the internet (to that point in history, before social media took over) had made it possible for the other Christians to see that they are not alone in seeing this, and that that is how the movement was able to grow with its different forms. He concluded, "You have to define polygamy based on the paradigm, of who's doing it, and how they're doing it, and why they're doing it, and not based on stereotypical misinformation." The writer responded by exclaiming, "Yeah!" The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 9, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 9 segment, the writer asked who Mark Henkel thought was the strongest opposition to UCAP, Unrelated Consenting Adult Polygamy, and their goal of freedom. He began his reply by explaining how it takes liberal arguments to persuade liberals and conservative arguments to persuade conservatives - especially Christian conservatives. Citing a quote from George Orwell's book, "1984,” Mark Henkel empathetically understood the psychological challenge for Christians when they are faced with this startling dilemma of having to realize that all the great Christians they knew in their life were wrong about polygamy and the Catholic-invented OMOW (one man, one woman) doctrine. Using the metaphor from the book by Hans Christian Andersen, Mark Henkel concluded his point, especially about OMOW doctrine, "The Emperor has no clothes. It is not in the Bible." The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 8, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 8 segment, Mark Henkel observed that the battle between supporters of “one man, one woman” (OMOW) and same sex marriage (SSM) “is only going to get worse and worse.” Noting that neither side will stop or give up, Mark Henkel stated that that those who call themselves “conservatives” would eventually have to realize that they are being marriage controllers “for big government” and that that would bring them to embrace “The Polygamy Rights Win-Win Solution.” Mark Henkel also detailed how conservatives embracing the win-win solution would be similar to the historic statement that equally applies: “Only Nixon could go to China.” Mark Henkel noted that the win-win solution would bring “equality for all” to those who call themselves “liberals” too – noting that everyone would win; everyone would have freedom. Three times in three different ways, Mark Henkel said, “Americans will therefore thank polygamists for ending the marriage debate” with this win-win solution. The writer positively affirmed, “Ye-e-sss, Definitely!” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 7, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 7 segment, the writer asked Mark Henkel if his previous replies meant that he also supported polyandry (one woman, many husbands). Mark Henkel first explained that polyandry is not supported Biblically. Using his renowned "seed and garden" soundbite analogy, Mark Henkel then explained how, anthropologically (due to the natures of most men and women, and to what he called "libido match"), most people do not make the choice of polyandry. Mark Henkel wrapped up his point by concluding what he called is "really the heart of the matter: It doesn't matter whether I support what somebody else chooses or imagines. When government is limited, everybody has freedom." The writer enthusiastically exclaimed, “Well, that makes a lot of sense!” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 6, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 6 segment, the writer asked, “So you WOULD be in favor of same sex marriage?” Mark Henkel explained that they simply have a right to an imagination and to contract with whomever they choose as consenting adults. Providing further clarity, Mark Henkel detailed how it does not matter whether one personally or religiously supports or does not support same sex marriage when government has no authority to license, define, or control the contractual arrangements of consenting adults anyway. The writer enthusiastically exclaimed, “Very interesting!” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 5, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 5 segment, the writer asked whether the fight for rights for unrelated consenting adult polygamy was either a religious issue or a civil rights issue. Mark Henkel showed how it is both and matters to both. After providing many powerful soundbites on the issue, Mark Henkel concluded, “Government has no business controlling religious doctrines OR the contractual arrangements of consenting adults.” The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

José Antonio Rodríguez Ranz, viceconsejero de Derechos humanos, Memoria y Cooperación, asegura que en La ventana Euskadi que el Gobierno vasco no tiene definida una hoja de ruta política para el documento presentado en este Día de la Memoria. Esperará primero a ver cómo lo acoge la sociedad y los políticos. Rodríguez Ranz define las Bases para la construcción social de la memoria como un ejercicio valiente de reflexión 

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 4, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 4 segment, Mark Henkel answered the question of the difference between Muslim Polygamy and Christian Polygamy. In doing so, Mark Henkel detailed the standard of “love-not-force.” The writer exclaimed, “That's a very good point,” and she later positively laughed with Mark Henkel's humor. The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 3, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 3 segment, Mark Henkel explained how the new movement of Christian Polygamy arose, based on evangelical Christians deeply studying the Bible (as "sola scriptura") and therteby coming to see how polygamy was absolutely never declared to be a in anywhere in the Scriptures. He then explained how that new Christian Polygamy movement made it possible for the even larger movement for Unrelated Consenting Adult Polygamy (UCAP). Regarding Christian Polygamy, Mark Henkel quickly listed some of the key arguments and examples of polygamist heroes from the Bible, even how Jesus Christ told a parable that described Himself as a Polygamist Bridegroom. The writer even positively jumped in to note how she had learned that one of the famous Biblical polygamists had had hundreds of wives. Mark Henkel confirmed that she was referring to King Solomon. While certainly not exhaustive, this Part 3 of this interview provides a helpful, quick rundown of these exegetical argumentations from the Bible about polygamy. The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 2, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 2 segment, Mark Henkel explained how the US Supreme Court's 1878 Reynolds v. United States court precedent was actually anti-Mormon rather than anti-polygamy. He also used repeated hjis famous sound-bite of how "a neutral noun is not modified by a smissing adjective," using the sunny day vs. rainy day analogy. Mark Henkel explained how the media, in order to generate ad-revenues, are more about manufacturing stories than reporting actual news. The writer repsonded, "That's a very good point." The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

Moin Leute, in der heutigen Folge reden wir unter anderem über unser kleines Küchendesaster der lestzen paar Tage, wie unser erster Clubbesuch in der Großstadt war und welcher Bär schon wieder ganz Alaska erstaunt hat. Viel Spaß!Unsere allgemeinen Datenschutzrichtlinien finden Sie unter https://art19.com/privacy. Die Datenschutzrichtlinien für Kalifornien sind unter https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info abrufbar.

National Polygamy Advocate ™ Mark Henkel was interviewed by Elizabeth Ranz for UCSD, on May 28, 2009, Part 1, for an essay she was writing, "Polygamy in Contradistinction to Gay Marriage." The student writer from University of California San Diego was seeking to learn how and why polygamy was not having the same level of political popularity as same sex marriage. In this Part 1 segment of the positive, educational interview, in order to build a foundation for his set of comprehensive answers to that main question, Mark Henkel opened by detailing the US Supreme Court's decision of Reynolds V. United States in 1878. He established four background points under which he would make his arguments. Anti-polygamy laws are unconstitutional in the States under the Tenth Amendment. The Reynolds case was only affirming an 1862 law where the federal government is only allowed authority under the "jurisdictional management" clause for non-State territories (Article 4, Section, 3, Paragraph 2). Would-be conservatives fall into hypocrisy to rely on that case under which "those 1878 liberal activist judges" concocted a nationwide precedent using a law that was limited only to non-State territories. For this Part 1 segment, Mark Henkel concluded his opening foundation, "The Reynolds case can not survive under a State's challenge to it. If a State was to allow polygamy, the federal anti-polygamy case of Reynolds would absolutely crumble in a heartbeat." The remaining parts of this interview will be aired in the next coming episodes of this podcast. http://www.NationalPolygamyAdvocate.com --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/nationalpolygamyadvocate/support

Programa completo de Julia en la Onda con Julia Otero y todo el equipo. Hablamos sobre la importancia de la buiatría con el doctor Joaquín Ranz. David Martos nos trae la actualidad del mundo del cine y las series y los chicos de El Orden Mundial nos explican lo que podría suponer la muerte de Isabel II para la Commonwealth. Además, celebramos el 50 cumpleaños de la Reina Letizia en Personas Físicas y en El Gabinete debatimos sobre esa década en la que no se es ni joven ni demasiado mayor. 

Hablamos con el doctor Joaquín Ranz, presente en el Congreso Mundial de Buiatría celebrado estos últimos días en Madrid.

En el programa 'Mundo Rural' del 5 de septiembre hablamos del riesgo de incendios, de la aprobación definitiva del plan estratégico de España para la aplicación de la nueva Política Agraria Común entre 2023 y 2027 y también conversamos con el director del comité organizador del 31 Congreso Mundial de Buiatría, Joaquín Ranz.   Escuchar audio

Achtung, die Kannibalen kommen! Wir starten unser neues Horror-Segment mit feinstem Ranz aus Italien. Wenn es nach Daniel geht, kann es gar nicht abartig genug sein. Unterste Schublade? Hat er noch nicht gefunden. Und glaubt uns: er hat wirklich gesucht! Wir hätten es selbst nicht zu träumen gewagt, aber Tom spricht doch tatsächlich von "Grenzerfahrung"? Ist das wirklich wahr oder nur ein blutiger Fiebertraum? Hört rein, wenn ihr euch traut.

Ce matin, épisode un peu spécial, au blason blanc et noir, au pays où les bus sont rouge et blanc et les sacs poubelle sont bleus… Le Short est à Fribourg ! L'occasion de te faire une idée de la musique qui s'y joue, avec, non pas le Ranz des vaches, mais Dirty Sound Magnet, Muddy Monk, Baron·e et B77. Tu pourras entendre, aussi, des Fribourgeoises et des Fribourgeois te conseiller les meilleurs spots pour faire la chenoye et découvrir l'une des spécialités du coin… le basket. L'occasion, aussi, de parler de l'autre actu sportive du jour, la qualif de Jil Teichmann pour les ½ finales du tournoi de tennis de Madrid et celle de Madrid pour la finale de la Champions League. Le Real a arraché son ticket des mains de Manchester City en prolongations, encore une fois grâce à Benzema qui devient un peu plus une légende… un peu comme Maradona, dont un des maillots a été vendu, hier, aux enchères, à 9 millions de dollars. Soit à peu près ce que vont nous coûter nos pleins d'essence et nos primes maladie, au train où vont les choses…

In which Swiss mercenaries will desert their post if you whistle a folk song about cows, and John wishes you many goods and cheese. Certficate #26419.

Welcome to the Convention Of Inventions For Tomorrow Today!Things are looking up for Amazing Labs as Josh finally invents something that works (!) while Agnes and Frankie go on an adorable date to a genetically-engineered petting zoo. But Ethel and Nature's Children are about to drop the bombshell of the century…Website | Transcript | Merch Sign up for a free Audible trial at www.audibletrial.com/dearearth and check out our Bookshop.org shop at https://bookshop.org/shop/dearearth.And check out the art of Robin Eisenberg!CREDITS:Created and produced by Amy Thorstenson. Sound design by Amy Thorstenson. Directed by Erin Austin. Episode 6 was written by Shannon Pritchard.With performances by Jesse Abbott Chin, Kimberly Alexander, Vivi Thai, Chloe McLeod, Katie Self, Chad Eschman, Alaina McManus, Clinton Roper Elledge, Tomo Lekovic, and Michael Faulkner.Theme song is by Casey Bushmaker. Additional music from Melodie (“Down To Business” by Chris Raggatt, “The Plot Thickens” by Russell Thornton, “The Achievement” by Marcos Manuel Hernandez Bolanos, “Single Fin” by Alain Antoine De Carne, and “Long Way Up” by Joel Charlton Woolf)  and Kevin McLeod (“Lobby Time” - Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/3986-lobby-time License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license; “Ranz des Vaches” - Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/4263-ranz-des-vaches License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license; “Aquarium” - Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/5738-aquarium; and “Professor Umlaut” - Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/4243-professor-umlaut License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license.)Foley by Vince Burnard and Amy Thorstenson. Full sfx credits can be found here.

Episode 10 des Podcasts von Sascha Fast und Joseph Bartz.Thema: Adel, Ranz und als Tourist durch's eigene Leben.In diesem Podcasts unterhalten sich Sascha und Joseph wöchentlich über Themen die sie beschäftigen. Dieses mal geht es um die Frage ob man sich eher edles oder ranziges anschaffen sollte und wie man verhindert als Tourist durch's eigene Leben zu gehenSaschas Arbeit:Me Improved: https://me-improved.de​​Zettelkasten: https://zettelkasten.de​​Donner und Pflicht: https://www.donnerundpflicht.de​​Josephs Arbeit:https://josephbartz.de​

Entrevista con Eduardo Ranz, abogado, en la que nos explica la petición de Juventudes Socialistas al obispado de Segovia para que retire de varias iglesias segovianas símbolos de exaltación de la guerra civil y la dictadura

Cast in order of appearanceMariah KossJames FittonP. Cullen Ryan And Dana Szarzynski  as the Game MasterStory by Dana SzarzynskiProduced by P. Cullen Ryan, Mariah Koss, Bryson David Hoff, Ross David Christian, Timothy Swaim, Michael Keating, Justin Oliver Lance, and Corn ProductionsEdited by P. Cullen RyanMusic in part by Alexander Nakarada of serpentsoundstudios.com. Special thanks to all those who help make this podcast happen"Angevin" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/"Chase Pulse Faster" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/"For Originz" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Guess Who” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Heart of Nowhere” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Heavy Heart” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Hidden Past” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Night Vigil” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“On the Shore” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“Ranz des Vaches” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“River Flute” Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/“The Pyre”Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/

Ranz is someone I hold close to me even though we've only hung out a few times. I always feel calmer and wiser after talking to him. Come listen to chapter three of our journey together it's a great listen

Heute reden wir darüber wie unerträglich das normale Fernsehen für uns geworden ist. Von Hirnlosen Magermodells bis hin zu alten weißen Männern, die keine Ahnung von Nichts haben und trotzdem reden.  Aber wir haben natürlich auch andere Themen,  wie auch Brand neue Rubrik die wir einmal vorstellen wollen. Zudem stellen wir uns einem Broquiz und ermitteln damit, wer wen eigentlich am besten kennt.

Cast in order of appearanceAndre J. ColinDana SzarzynskiOlivia SieckRoss ChristianAnd Timothy Swaim as the Game MasterStory by Timothy SwaimProduced by P. Cullen Ryan, Mariah Koss, Justin Oliver Lance, Timothy Swaim, and Corn ProductionsEdited by P. Cullen RyanSpecial thanks to all those who help make this podcast happen "Ranz de Vaches" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ “Autumn Walk” by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Battle of the Creek" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Blood Eagle" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Dark Hollows" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Fjeld" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Hymn to the Gods" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Marked" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Mountain Walk" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Prepare for War" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Silly Villain" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Sorrow" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Tavern Loop One" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "The Northern Path" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Through the Mist" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Unforgettable Journey" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ "Wild West Vikings" by Alexander Nakarada (www.serpentsoundstudios.com)Licensed under Creative Commons BY Attribution 4.0 Licensehttps://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/

Release Info – Various Artists – Save our HOME - Lehmann Musik 005 Artists: Abstract Divison – Ackermann – Ben Sims – Boxia – Cari Lekebusch – David Löhlein Deep Dimension – Dj Emerson – Inhalt der Nacht – Ignøranz – Marcel Fengler – Matrixxman Nikk – Oliver Deutschmann – Raphael Dincsoy - The Advent – Thomas P Heckmann – Truncate Zakari&Blange Title: 005 Cat.number: 005 Format: Digital Releasedate: July 2020 Mastering: Dj Emerson Distribution: Triple Vision (NL) Tracklist: 01. Raphael Dincsoy – Isolation (Original) 02. The Advent – See Tek (Original) 03. Truncate – Reach (Original) 04. Ackermann – Liniarität (Original) 05. Abstract Division – Untitled 1 (Original) 06. Dj Emerson – Exchange Home (Original) 07. Cari Lekebusch – Sticky Fingers (Original) 08. Matrixxman – Cybersex (Original) 09. Ben Sims – Last Call (Original) 10 Marcel Fengler – Skyline (Original) 11. David Löhlein – Jaleysa (Original) 12. Oliver Deutschmann – Hypnofront (Original) 13. Ignøranz - #009 (Original) 14. Zakari&Blange – Decimator (Original) 15. Thomas P. Heckmann – Dimension Disco (Original) 16. Nikk – Flexx (Original) 17. Deep Dimension – Brainwash (Original) 18. Boxia – Binary (Original) 19. Inhalt der Nacht – Mein Leib (Original) Info: After being a techno institution in Germany for 10 years now, the renowned Lehmann Club finally starts his own label called “Lehmann Musik“. The label aswell as the Stuttgart based club represents a wide range of techno music. The philosophy of Lehmann Musik is to show a cross section of the Lehmann agency artists plus of course guests and friends of the club. Dark days actually for our scene and culture. We are guessing everybody is going through a lot of struggles and mixed emotions at the moment. As for the most in our industry and scene - we as Lehmann Club - looking into an uncertain future. Depending on how long this crisis will last, we not really know how it will go on afterwards. So we called some of our dearest „old“ and „new“ friends, past guests and our residents to create these „Save our HOME“ compilation. Were very thankful for the support and appreciate this a lot. The 005 reflects again several vibes and moods of the current techno zeitgeist – plus some excursions through the fields of non typical 4-to-the-floor club sound.

This is a deep and inspiring conversation with Raniera Rewiri aka Plant Based Maori. We discuss mindset, self-belief, gratitude, pursuing your dreams, and what it means to truly be yourself & find your unique truth.  Raniera has a unique perspective on life and incredible self-awareness and wisdom. He shares the routines he implements on a daily basis to help him feel more grounded and alive. We discuss his journey in life and more recently his transition into business, and Raniera shares his thoughts on finding true happiness and living your best life. This really is a powerful conversation. I was blown away by Raniera's ability to articulate his thoughts and the depth of wisdom he has. He is an amazing man, with a real desire to add value to people's lives and make a positive impact.  I highly recommend following Ranz on social media and taking some time out to digest this amazing conversation.   Follow Raniera on IG: https://www.instagram.com/plantbasedmaori/ Follow Raniera on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/PlantBasedMaori/ Follow Raniera on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/c/RanieraRewiri   Follow Jamie on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jamieodonnell.me/ Follow Jamie on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/imjamieodonnell/  

This Kelis album made a big impact in my heart. Flesh Tone is a part of my life that always will remind me great memories. I did this Mash-Up with songs from Breno Barreto and Ranz, two producers that I admire a lot and I hope they will like it like I do (and you will like it too). Free Download!

Show Notes This week, we recap, review, and provide analysis of Mobile Suit Zeta Gundam (機動戦士Ζガンダム) episode 44 - "The Gate of Zedan" (ゼダンの門), discuss our first impressions, and provide commentary and research on the inspiration for Haman Karn's name. - Japanese Wikipedia pages for Haman Karn and Herman Kahn.- English Wikipedia page for Herman Kahn. - A profile of Herman Kahn in the New Yorker, written as part of a review of a biography of the man:Louis Menand, Fat Man, for New Yorker. June 20, 2005. Available at https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2005/06/27/fat-man - New York Times article from Tokyo correspondent about the reaction in Japan to Herman Kahn's work:Takashi Oka, The Emerging Japanese Superstate, for the New York Times. December 13, 1970. https://www.nytimes.com/1970/12/13/archives/the-emerging-japanese-superstate.html- Article published by Kahn about Japan, around the same time as his first book about Japan:Kahn, Herman, and Max Singer. “Japan and Pacific Asia in the 1970s.” Asian Survey, vol. 11, no. 4, 1971, pp. 399–412. JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/2642697. Accessed 15 May 2020.- Audio of an interview with Herman Kahn from circa 1967 about his book The Year 2000. CONTENT WARNING: VERY 1960s ERA DISCUSSIONS OF RACE AND RACIAL TENSIONS. Interview by Patricia Marx for WNYC. - New York Times obituary of Herman Kahn:Joseph B. Treaster, HERMAN KAHN DIES; FUTURIST AND THINKER ON NUCLEAR STRATEGY, for the New York Times. July 8, 1983. Available at https://www.nytimes.com/1983/07/08/obituaries/herman-kahn-dies-futurist-and-thinker-on-nuclear-strategy.html- New York Times book review comparing several recently-published books about the Japanese economy by Kahn and others:Frank B. Gibney, Success Story, for the New York Times. June 10, 1979. Available at https://www.nytimes.com/1979/06/10/archives/success-story-japan.html- The TNN includes the following music:Ranz des Vaches by Kevin MacLeod Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/4263-ranz-des-vaches License: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/Funky Chunk by Kevin MacLeod Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/3789-funky-chunk License: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ You can subscribe to Mobile Suit Breakdown for free! on fine Podcast services everywhere and on YouTube, follow us on twitter @gundampodcast, check us out at gundampodcast.com, email your questions, comments, and complaints to gundampodcast@gmail.com.Mobile Suit Breakdown wouldn't exist without the support of our fans and Patrons! You can join our Patreon to support the podcast and enjoy bonus episodes, extra out-takes, behind-the-scenes photo and video, MSB gear, and much more!The intro music is WASP by Misha Dioxin, and the outro is Long Way Home by Spinning Ratio, both licensed under Creative Commons CC BY 4.0 license. Both have been edited for length. Mobile Suit Breakdown provides critical commentary and is protected by the Fair Use clause of the United States Copyright law. Gundam content is copyright and/or trademark of Sunrise Inc., Bandai, Sotsu Agency, or its original creator. Mobile Suit Breakdown is in no way affiliated with or endorsed by Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu, or any of their subsidiaries, employees, or associates and makes no claim to own Gundam or any of the copyrights or trademarks related to it. Copyrighted content used in Mobile Suit Breakdown is used in accordance with the Fair Use clause of the United States Copyright law. Any queries should be directed to gundampodcast@gmail.comFind out more at http://gundampodcast.com

PART 1 AUDIO FROM FRIDAYS LIVE LOCKDOWN SHOW

PART 2 FROM FRIDAYS LOCKDOWN SHOW LOST PART 3

Sones indígenas del Sotavento. Esta semana los investigadores Camilo Camacho y Francisco García Ranz nos llevan por un recorrido musical por la región del Sotavento. No te lo puedes perder.

Are You standing quietly by as our children slip into the grip of epidemic proportions of bullying? Of course not. That's the reason why you need to learn WHO Toley Ranz is and WHAT it job is in helping yOUR children to live withou fear.

Samuel Ranz, who officiates in Spain's fourth and fifth tiers, gives us some rare insight into the life (and mind) of a referee in the last episode of the series. How does somebody decide that refereeing is for them? How difficult is it for match officials to get over mistakes? Should referees be allowed to speak to the media after making controversial decisions? And, of course, what do they really think about VAR? Samuel answers all of these questions and plenty more in what was a really interesting chat from a totally different footballing perspective. The Team On Tour's Real Football Stories does exactly what it says on the tin - real people telling real football stories. Follow @theteamontour on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook and search for the Team On Tour on YouTube.

This Podcast is preparing you for the big launch of the TR program in November; the two previous discussed WHO is Toley Ranz; WHAT is Toley Ranz's job; WHY do you and your child need Toley Ranz? Get your FREE training at https://www.toleyranz.com/register- "Be a Toley Ranz Kid"

Toley Ranz, that whimsical character represents the small inner voice of your Child. It’s that tiny voice that can tell Kids wrong and right, that let’s them know ‘when something is up’, and this little inner voice can sound the inner alarm – usually by showing up with that queasy tummy feeling telling mom that he or she can’t go to school—right? Let your Child learn to listen to Toley Ranz!

This unprecedented anti-bullying Project TOLEY RANZSTOPS BULLYING finds it's core teachings in art and mindfulness, gentleness for the soul, thoughtfulness for each other, etc.

Focusing on HOW to stop bullying at home and at school by implementing the Mindful Meditation Moment, a segment of the entire Toley Ranz Stops Bullying project featured prominently on NBC, CBS, ABC Fox. Host and creator of Toley Ranz details HOW to help kids overcoming fear and gathering inner strength.

1. Wo trifft man heiße, gut verdienende Piloten (für Langstreckenflüge)? 2. Wie sähe euer Traumhaus aus, wenn ihr unendlich viel Geld hättet? 3. Was war das coolste Gerät auf dem Spielplatz? 4. Denken Krebse, dass Fische fliegen? Ranz schön cooles Ding der Woche: Von deiner Nachbarin vom Balkon gerettet werden, weil deine Mitbewohner dich ausgesperrt haben.

Release Info – Various Artists – 004 -Lehmann Musik 004 Artists: Vinicius Honorio - Dj Emerson – Raphael Dincsoy – David Löhlein - Ignøranz Title: 004 Cat.number: 004 Format: Digital Releasedate: September 2019 Mastering: Dj Emerson Distribution: Triple Vision (NL) Tracklist: 01. Vinicius Honorio feat. Leo Dos Reis & MC Paulinho – Strenght in Numbers (Original) 02. Dj Emerson – Humboldt Organics (Original) 03. Raphael Dincsoy – Body 2 Body (Original) 04. David Löhlein – Sveta (Original) 05. Ignøranz - #016 (Original) Info: After being a techno institution in Germany for 10 years now, the renowned Lehmann Club finally starts his own label called “Lehmann Musik“. The label aswell as the Stuttgart based club represents a wide range of techno music. The philosophy of Lehmann Musik is to show a cross section of the Lehmann agency artists plus of course guests and friends of the club. The fourth Lehmann Musik compilation is out. The 004 reflects again several vibes and moods of the current techno zeitgeist. Vinicius Honorio gives his debut at the Lehmann label with his very unique track, „Strenght in numbers“. He features also two artists from Brazil and they bringing on some favela vibes. Berlin´s Dj Emerson delivers with „Humboldt Organics“ another hypnotic roller. Lehmann resident Raphael Dincsoy fires out „Body 2 Body“, a pretty banging and stomping tune. The yougstar and super talented David Löhlein is also back on Lehmann Musik with „Sveta“. A rolling drum monster with nice vocal cuts, made for the dancefloor. Last but not least the „ghost“ Ignøranz with his third track on the label. „#016“ is typcial Ignøranz. Kind of stripped down, minimalistic but pumpy and hypnotic.

1. Warum schauen sich Menschen Morning-Routines von anderen an? 2. Haben alle Dorfimbiss-Köche vom selben Koch gelernt? 3. Was ist das perfekte Alter? 4. Ist Asexualität erstrebenswert? Ranz schön cooles Ding: Im Car-to-go nur einen quickie haben, weil’s sonst zu teuer wird.

Ihr seid bei der ersten Folge von Ranz Schön Cool gelandet! Das finden wir ranz schön cool muaha. Mit dabei ist übrigens immer unser Fragenglas. Da landen eure Fragen drin, die Google nicht beantworten kann und die ihr uns über die Website geschickt habt. Diese Fragen sind in dieser Folge mit dabei: - Wenn man Apfelbäume mit Apfelsaft gießen würde, wäre das dann Kannibalismus? - In der Dusche oder außerhalb der Dusche abtrocknen? - Glaubt ihr an außerirdisches Leben? - Welche Modetrends sagt ihr für die nächsten Jahre voraus? Ach ja und wir haben die Kategorie "Ranz schön cooles Ding der Woche" ins Leben gerufen. Für diese Woche wäre das: Als 3er-WG einen Podcast starten! Viel Spaß mit unserer ersten Folge und schickt uns eure Frage über www.ranzschoencool.de/frage

this press release depicts in detail how Toley Rranz is able to go into schools and support childen during their emotional difficulties in the aftermath of gun violence. Isn't anyone paying attention to the children?

Jenny erklärt euch jetzt noch mal kurz wie es weiter geht! Hier ist nämlich nix vorbei.. Butter bei die Fische: Unser Podcast wurde wegen des Namens gesperrt und wir kamen nicht drumherum ihn umzubenennen. Weiter geht es also mit unserem neuen Podcast "Ranz Schön Cool". Also, sofort in die Suche eingeben, den neuen Podcast abonnieren und bitte unterstütze uns mit einer positiven Bewertung!! Wir freuen uns auf neue Folgen mit euch :-)

Ja wir legen bald los. Bis dahin könnt ihr euch schon mal unser wunderschönes Intro anhören. Ach ja... wir hatten übrigens schon mal einen Podcast. Er hieß Deeper S**t. Sucht doch mal danach ;-) Besuchen könnt ihr uns auch unter www.ranzschoencool.de

Today Anke speaks about how Toley Ranz can give kids support of love and security in these insanely hostile times. Children's fear, anxiety, and feelings of horror are all too real at present; so, join Toley Ranz in providing joy, honesty, inner peace and skills to our kids that will strengthen them agains bullying and negative influence. Parents, Grrandparents, and Teachers- let's do it together!

Toley Ranz goes to School! Introduction and details of the Toley Ranz Foundation's work for schools; implementation methods, and the how-to approach in getting children to participate in the Toley Ranz teachings. A brief repeat of the 3-step Mindful-Meditaion-Moment practice at shool, and at home.

STOP BULLYING WITH TOLEY RANZ - hi KIDS, this episode is for YOU! We share a very special story about a boy who loves a purple pencil and how he learns to stand-up for himself when all the other kids are laughing at him. With the help of Toley Ranz Sammie conquers his fear; will he?

A la fête des Vignerons, pour la première fois le fameux Ranz des vaches sera chanté par 11 chanteurs

Let's stand up to this Bullying Epidemic! Let's learn HOW to. Your host Anke Otto-Wolf, provides an insight to the Toley Ranz Foundation project which is free of charge to schools evrywhere. Contact the Foundation at www.toleyranz.com

Stop Bullying with Toley Ranz is our topic today and what it actually means, and how we can achieve it together with our kids, grandparents, teachers and parents. Creating our communities as a bully-free zone. This show is only the beginning!

Introducing the Toley Ranz Foundation and its work so children can learn to stand up to bullying at school, at home, at play

Release Info – Various Artists – 003 -Lehmann Musik 003 Artists: Dj Emerson – Raphael Dincsoy – Thomas Hoffknecht – David Löhlein - Ignøranz Title: 003 Cat.number: 003 Format: Digital Releasedate: April 2019 Mastering: Dj Emerson Distribution: Triple Vision (NL) Tracklist: 01. Dj Emerson – Special Reflection(Original) 02. Raphael Dincsoy – Farewell Note (Original) 03. Thomas Hoffknecht – Interplanetary Civilization (Original) 04. David Löhlein – Jane (Original) 05. Ignøranz - #020 (Original) Info: After being a techno institution in Germany for 10 years now, the renowned Lehmann Club finally starts his own label called “Lehmann Musik“. The label aswell as the Stuttgart based club represents a wide range of techno music. The philosophy of Lehmann Musik is to show a cross section of the Lehmann agency artists plus of course guests and friends of the club. The third Lehmann Musik complation is out. The 003 has the focus on the label´s inner circle. Dj Emerson, Raphael Dincsoy, Thomas Hoffknecht and Ignøranz delivering as usual. New on the label is Lehmann Club´s team member David Löhlein. A young and very talented guy from Stuttgart. He is pretty much into producing and sound – keep your eyes and ears open!

Release Info – Various Artists – 002 -Lehmann Musik 002 Artists: Gayle San, Dj Emerson, Raphael Dincsoy, Zakari&Blange, Ignøranz Title: 002 Cat.number: 002 Format: Digital Releasedate: 30.11.2018 Mastering: Sanhaji Mastering Distribution: Triple Vision (NL) Tracklist: 01. Gayle San – Tunnel Vision (Original) 02. Dj Emerson – Gotham (Original) 03. Raphael Dincsoy – Stay high (Original) 04. Zakari&Blange - Energy (Original) 05. Ignøranz - #017 (Original) Info: After being a techno institution in Germany for more than 9 years now, the renowned Lehmann Club finally starts his own label called “Lehmann Musik“. The label aswell as the Stuttgart based club represents a wide range of techno music. The philosophy of Lehmann Musik is to show a cross section of the Lehmann agency artists plus of course guests and friends of the club. After one comes two. The 002 includes five originals from the techno icon Gayle San, Berlin´s „“dopest dj on planet“ Dj Emerson, Lehmann resident Raphael Dincsoy, the brothers from other mothers Zakari&Blange and the „ghost“ Ignøranz.

La Fête des Vignerons 2019 choisit un collectif de 11 chanteur pour interpréter le mythique Ranz des vaches

Potts celebrates the return of Spider-Man to the MCU while Kirk just feels whatever. The sweet raspberry melody was: "Ranz des Vaches" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/

Siblings Ranz and Niana stop by the studio for an exclusive interview, where they share everything from their favorite music to how they (sometimes) get along.

Dale and Mark Ranz talk about the premier method of travel in the music business: PRIVATE JETS. 

Die winterliche Lockjagd auf den Fuchs ist einer der Höhepunkte des Jagdjahres. Hierzu spreche mit dem Büchsenmacher und passionierten Raubwildjäger Klaus Weisskirchen über seine über 60-jährige Erfahrung beim Locken von Wild und seine Tips und Tricks für die Jagd vor- während und nach der Ranz.

Special guest Ranz drops in this week alongside resident mix by Bad Syntax for a Neurofunk b2b meltdown. Make sure to check this, chare, and most important of all, rate and review on iTunes! PS- All subscribers to us on iTunes get the download hours before the Soundcloud upload, so make sure to hit that [...]The post Podcast #092 – Bad Syntax + Ranz appeared first on Best Drum and Bass. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

This is chapter 7 from New Century Book 5: The Princess Thieves If you want to hear more it is available on Bandcamp in full audiobook form.  A swashbuckling comedy fantasy adventure from the creator of Tiger's Eye and Arlington. In 1873 an enormous doorway between realms opened up in the north of London and on the other side was a parallel British Isles named Britannica. This place was home to two new races, the short, stubborn, Duart and the hulking, green-skinned Akka. What they brought with them when they stepped through to aid us and settle in our damaged country was an army of tough firecasters to see off our monster problem and a class system that humans fit roughly in the middle of. In the week this story takes place, Gwendoline, the last remaining family member of Britain's royal Saxe-Coburg bloodline is preparing to be married to the Duart lord; Aaron of Britannica. Before that happens the young princess will be going on the adventure of a lifetime, through the dangerous, filthy streets of London, through the doorway between worlds and beyond. Part of the New Century Multiverse, a saga set across many worlds with each story constituting a piece of the grand mosaic. The first six stories in New Century Phase 1 can be listened to in any order... The Cartographer's Handbook Secret Rooms Tiger's Eye Arlington The Princess Thieves SteamHeart credits Credits Released March 2, 2017 Vocal performances by Theo Leigh, Alexander Shaw, Laureta Sela, Matt Wardle, Spencer Leeb, Sharon Shaw, Maureen Foley, Lyra Shaw, Matt Ramsey, Paul Davies, Alasdair Stuart, and James Batchelor. The Princess Thieves theme was Arrival by I, Sazonov of Shockwave-Sound. Olympus, Rapture and Welcome to Chaos composed by Ross Bugden. London Town composed and performed by Gavin Dunne, AKA Miracle of Sound. The Phoenix composed by Mattia Cupelli. Ancient Heroes performed by Clynos. Dance of the Sugar-Plum Fairy originally composed by Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Brandenberg Concerto by Johan Sebastian Bach. Egmont Overture by Ludwig Van Beethoven. Ranz des Vaches is an old Swiss folk tune that features in Rossini's William Tell. Canon in D Major composed by Johann Pachelbel. All other music composed and performed by Kevin MacLeod. Many soundscapes by Tabletop Audio. Album artwork by Antonio Torresan. Written, directed, edited and produced by Alexander Shaw.

La mélodie est "le lieu où on prend conscience du temps et de son unité", mais elle est aussi le "lieu de concentration des émotions les plus profondes". A l'aide de plusieurs exemples, comme l'adagio du Quintette en ut majeur de Schubert pour deux violoncelles (D 956, 1828), le Chant pastoral après l'orage dans la 6ème Symphonie de Beethoven ou encore la mélodie du film "India Song", Violaine Anger explique à quel point la mélodie illustre en quoi la musique est la "science du bon mouvement" (Saint-Augustin), qui constitue l'auditeur comme "unité écoutante". Autre exemple tiré de Rousseau : "le fameux Ranz des Vaches, cet Air si chéri des Suisses qu’il fut défendu sous peine de mort de le jouer dans leurs Troupes, parce qu’il faisoit fondre en larmes, déserter ou mourir ceux qui l’entendaient, tant il excitait en eux l’ardent desir de revoir leur pays (...). Ces effets, qui n’ont aucun lieu sur les étrangers, ne viennent que de l’habitude, des souvenirs, de mille circonstances qui, retracées par cet air à ceux qui l’entendent, et leur rappellant leur pays, leurs anciens plaisirs, leur jeunesse et toutes leurs façons de vivre, excitent en eux une douleur amere d’avoir perdu tout cela. La musique alors n’agit point précisément comme musique, mais comme signe mémoratif" (Jean-Jacques Rousseau, Dictionnaire de la musique). Violaine Anger est musicologue, maître de confé­rence à l’Université d’Evry Val d’Essonne, maître de confé­rence asso­ciée à l’Ecole poly­tech­ni­que. Plus de conférences : podcast.ifm-paris.com/

El baile de los Satiros es una adaptación a AudioSerie realizada por Agencia ROM de un relato creado por Román Pinazo, Shepiroth. El Baile de los Sátiros es una historia, en cierta manera, de zombis. Digo “en cierta manera” porque ni por asomo se trata de los zombis romerianos al uso tipo The Walking Dead. ¿De qué va entonces? Aaaah… Tendréis que escucharlo para saberlo. Sólo diré que es lo bastante bizarro como para que merezca llevar el sello de “supervisión paterna (contenido explícito)” que véis en la portada diseñada por el ilustrador Oscar Silvestre. En la web del autor podéis encontrar una entrada hablando de El Baile de los Sátiros: www.rpsephiroth.com Ana / Mujer herida - Debora Palop Anciano - Ray Jaen Andrea - Noelia Guijarro Chelo - Esther Villanueva Cristian ATS - Raul Lacasa Don Alfonso - Jose Meco Gustavo Robles - Jose Vicent Jorge - Alvaro Laviana Juaquin Pereira - Paco Cremades Locutora - Silvia Benloch Mari - Tamara Suarez Niño - Adrián Ranz Padre Andrea/Jorge - Abraham Magan Policía - Sergio Perez Simon - Oscar Silvestre Vecino - Miguel Cardona IDEA ORIGINAL Roman Pinazo GUION Roman Pinazo/Ruben Hernando DISEÑO Oscar Silvestre EDICION Manuel Serrano

Äventyrarna anländer till berget Ranz där några av deras djupaste hemligheter blottas.

Äventyrarna anländer till berget Ranz där några av deras djupaste hemligheter blottas.

Äventyrarna anländer till berget Ranz där några av deras djupaste hemligheter blottas.

"משחקי הכס" מגיעים לחיפה, ההיסטוריה של העיר חיפה, הצלבנים צרים על חומות חיפה, חיפאים אמיצים במגננה, מדוע נסוגים הצלבנים, "שקמונה של היהודים", מדוע נקראה חיפה "עיר השטן",המדור לחיפוש קרובים, היישוב היהודי לאחר מסע הצלב הראשון, בנימין מטודלה "מרקו פולו" היהודי, הרמב"ם, השליט הערבי שהזמין יהודים לעלות לארץ ישראל, הגיבור צלאח א-דין וה- CIA מגיע לביקור. מוזיקה הבלדה על חסן שוקרי - עידו מינקובסקי, ערן מיכאל ושר סנדה (דוברות עיריית חיפה) להקת חיל הים - חיפה, חיפה Kevin Macleod- Trio for Piano Violin and Viola Hayfa Wehbe -Ana Hayfa חיפה – דיויד ברוזה (יהונתן גפן) Ranz des Vaches- Kevin Macleod Comic Hero- Kevin Macleod   טנקרד נסיך הגליל אירועים קרובים 26.1.2015 – ההיסטוריה של הדיבוק – הרצאה פתוחה במסגרת ספקנים בפאב בירושלים. "ההיסטוריה של הדיבוק ויצורים אחרים במיתולוגיה היהודית" https://www.facebook.com/events/1523923654546349/?ref=29&ref_notif_type=plan_mall_activity&source=1   27.2.2015 – יאנוש קורצ'ק וביקורו בארץ ישראל. סיור של חצי יום למאזיני התכנית עם מנור דביר. איך התרשם קורצ'אק מהחינוך הקיבוצי?  מה הייתה דעתו על המפעל הציוני? איזו חוויה מיסטית חוה בבית העלמין של עין חרוד? להרשמה - manor.dv@gmail.com   http://yuval.podbean.com/mf/web/cfbq5x/APieceofHistory-Episode124-Haifa2.mp3    

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Ranz reviews Mass Effect 2. Be sure to check out our bi-weekly show on www.youtube.com/openfiregaming.

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Ashley joins us today from Australia sharing her three birth stories and how she learned to truly trust herself. Driven out of the hospital due to discrimination and not being able to find support from home birth midwives, Ashley decided to go for a free birth. With a special scar, two previous Cesarean surgeries, a big baby, a high BMI, and a history of gestational diabetes, Ashley accepted all of the risks and was able to reap the beautiful benefits of undisturbed home delivery. Ashley shares with us her journey to acceptance when things didn't go the way she planned, but also how to persevere through to fight for the story she wanted. She now hosts The VBAC Homebirth Stories podcast and is a Homebirth/Freebirth Mindset Coach inspiring other women to have the courage to take back control of their birth stories!Additional LinksAshley's InstagramThe VBAC Homebirth Stories podcastHow to VBAC: The Ultimate Prep Course for ParentsFull Transcript under Episode DetailsFull TranscriptMeagan: Hello, hello. Welcome to The VBAC Link. This is Meagan Heaton and we have Ashley here with you. Can I just tell you? She is amazing and you're going to want to listen to this episode 5 million times and then when you're done listening to it 5 million times, you're going to want to check out her Instagram and watch her videos 5 million more times because she is amazing and such a wealth of knowledge. We reached out and said, “Hey, we want to share your story on the podcast. We think it's going to be an amazing episode.” I don't think. I know it's going to be an amazing episode. Review of the WeekBefore we do that, I'm going to get a review per usual and remind you that if you would like to leave a review, we are on Google and Apple Podcasts. You can email us. Shoot us a message on Instagram. We love to add your reviews to the queue and read them on the podcast. This specific review is from Ana Neves and it says, “I've been preparing for my VBAC ever since my C-section, and listening to the stories in this podcast has not only taught and informed me all about the different options, but also inspired me. I know that when the time comes, I will be prepared and feel the power of the great and courageous people who shared their stories here.” Oh, I love that. “The great and courageous people.” Oh, I love that. I love that so much. Thank you so much for sharing your review and like I said, if you have a review to share and you want us to know how you feel about the podcast and all of these great and courageous people, please leave us a review. Ashley's StoriesMeagan: Okay, Ashley. I am so excited that you are here. It's been interesting from now in recording, we've had Australian people on the podcast a lot. It warms my heart and makes me so happy and makes me feel like I probably need to go to Australia now because one, I am obsessed with all of the knowledge you guys have on birth and I actually really like the way that birth is in Australia in a lot of ways. But I am just so honored to have you here with us. Ashley: Thank you. I am so excited to be here. That was such a beautiful, warm welcome so thank you very much for having me. Meagan: Yes, oh my gosh. I'm serious. I just love listening to you too. I just love your guys' accents. My Utah accent is pretty lame, but yeah. So let's turn the time over to you. I am so excited because I feel like I've heard little things, but I'm excited to just hear it right now with you. Go ahead. Ashley: Okay. So let's start from the first babe then. Basically, I went into that one expecting that I was going to have a vaginal birth because my mum had vaginal births, and all of the women before me did too. My mum had me in 7 hours. I was the first baby. My sister is two, so mum said, “If you have medication, you're weak. You've just got to suck it up.” So I had this, “If she could do it, I can do it.” I had this, “I'll have the epidural if I need it” sort of vibe. A lot of my friends had babies before me. They had children when they were 17-18. By the time I had mine, I was 28. I was newly married and I had watched all of my friends. They told me all of their birth stories and things. They had all had vaginal births. I thought that Cesarean birth was really for celebrities basically because when I was in high school, it was Posh Spice who was having this C-section and things like that. It was a trendy thing to do. It wasn't something that normal people did. It was an expensive thing that rich people did. Meagan: Like in Brazil. That's how it's viewed in Brazil. You are high-class if you have Cesareans. Ashley: Yeah. I mean, I went to the GP before I got pregnant and checked on my levels to make sure. I have always had a high BMI, so the doctor said to me, “The only thing I recommend is that you lose some weight because you might struggle to conceive,” so I went in knowing that there may be a hardship there. Some of the women in my workplace at the time had multiple miscarriages. My mother-in-law had 7 before my husband, so I went in with that kind of, “We'll see what happens, but it could take a while.” So I conceived within the first month of trying so that was a shock, but also so exciting. Super exciting. It was a month before my wedding, so I got sick just after my wedding for my honeymoon and all of the fun games and after that, I was just like a sloth dying because I got HG. I got HG and it was just 20 weeks of basically a challenge. Meagan: Yeah, miserable. Ashley: It was hard. I was so excited to be a mom. I couldn't wait from the time I conceived to birth the baby and have the baby in my arms. That's all I wanted. I went to the hospital and there was a bit of a mix-up between when I went to the GP and had the GTT, the test for gestational diabetes. The doctor told me that I didn't have it. I went to a hospital because that's what they do. You go to a GP and they just send you to the local public hospital and that's the one that you are allowed to go to, but they didn't really discuss any of the other avenues like private, or midwives, or homebirths or anything like that. So I went excitedly to my first appointment. I waited for over an hour and I saw some random gyno-obstetrician and they said to me, “You've got gestational diabetes so you'll be seeing us.” I was like, “No I don't. I don't have gestational diabetes.” “Yes you do,” she said and I burst out crying. It was this big thing. Basically, the difference was if I had birthed or if I had gone to the hospital in Brisbane which is the next suburb over, I wouldn't have had gestational diabetes but in the hospital that I went to, they were up with the times with the lower numbers because that was cycling at the moment. It was 2014. I had gestational diabetes and that meant that I had so many more appointments. It meant that I was only with obstetricians. It meant that I had to go to nutrition or a dietician. It was just so many appointments. It was out of control. From a very early stage, I was told, “You're going to be induced and you're going to be on insulin.” As soon as I was diagnosed, I was told, “You're going to be on medication.” Meagan: No talking about it. Ashley: “Yeah, let's see how this unravels and we're not going to start you on the pill, we're just going to go straight to insulin for you,” so it was kind of like they had already decided my fate. I was really excited to have an induction. It meant that I got a date for my baby and I was going to have my baby early. When I spoke to the other ladies in the GD who were getting induced, the lady said to me, “It's all good. I was induced and I had my baby in 5 hours.” I was like, “Awesome. Awesome.” I don't know what number baby that was for her because when it comes to induction, I know now that it really matters whether it's your second or if you've had a vaginal birth before, then an induction probably isn't going to land you with a C-section. I ended up getting my date, coming into hospital, and having no discussion. I kept asking, “Can we have a birth discussion?” It was always, “Next week. Next week. Next week.” There was no discussion about what happens at birth or really what to expect or any niceties or anything. It always felt quite cold. It was like the people didn't even want to be there, the junior obstetricians, it was like they were doing their time so to speak. It just wasn't a pleasant experience. I was expecting my first baby and I just felt like another number. Meagan: Yeah. It wasn't warm and fuzzy at all. That's for sure. Ashley: No. I just felt like it didn't feel right. It just felt really not nice. Meagan: Yeah, impersonal. Ashley: Yeah, exactly. I basically went in for my induction and my husband came in with me. That was a couple of days of having gels and people putting their fingers up and continued monitoring and just very uncomfortable. I found after they had done all of that process that my cervix was right shut up. It wouldn't open up. They said, “Okay. We are going to try and put the balloon in there.” That was the most excruciating pain. Meagan: Especially when you're not dilated. Ashley: It was excruciating and I was in so much pain. The doctor and midwife made out that I was making a big fuss because I was responding that it was painful, so they gave me a lot of gas and I was pretty much tripping out. It was really trippy. Meagan: Like nitrous oxide?Ashley: Yeah. I just felt like if this is how painful it is to put this thing in, how painful is labor going to be? How am I going to handle that if I've just been through two days of this? I think that I had a cannula in my hand as well because I couldn't really go to the bathroom without assistance from my husband. It was really getting uncomfortable. I had something up inside me. Meagan: Or poking you or something all of the time. Ashley: Yeah, exactly. So another night in the hospital we slept and then they said, “If it doesn't open and it doesn't drop out by the morning, then we'll talk about it.” I wasn't allowed to eat. I had to fast. Meagan: That's going to serve your body well. Ashley: I know. It's really cool. It's like they give you so much amazing care in the hospital to set you up for this amazing birth, and I woke up and it was still in there and nothing had changed. I felt really defeated and I felt like my body was broken like there was something wrong with me. Nobody had ever discussed or told me that there is a high failure rate to this or that this procedure can fail or that you may not be a great candidate for this procedure. Meagan: Or more time. More time can make you a different candidate statistically and raise your BISHOP score. Ashley: Yeah, they obviously did the BISHOP score and they would have seen that I wasn't a good candidate for this. They would have known that when they did all of these things to me. Now I see that as my body is so amazing that you tried to do all of this stuff to my body and my body was like, “Hell no.” Meagan: Nope. I'm keeping this baby in. Ashley: Clam shut, yeah. The junior doctor came in and she said, “Look. We recommend that you come in tomorrow for more monitoring. Go home and come back on Monday and we'll start the process again.” I was like, “What do you mean you're going to start the process again? This was really torturous.” I said, “What's the difference between a day or two? My body's not going to respond any differently. Can I just come back in two weeks?” I'm 38 weeks at this point and I'm like, “I'm not even 40 weeks. Can I come back in 2 weeks when I'm in labor?” Meagan: And a first-time mom.Ashley: Yeah, because my mom had me and my sisters right on 40 weeks, so I'm just expecting the same. She said, “No. You can't.” I was like, “Oh, okay.” She said, “No, you can't do that.” I said, “Okay.” She said, “You know what? We're just about to have an obstetrician meeting, so I'll go in there and I'll ask the consultants what they think and I'll come back with a plan.” “Okay,” I said because she also did talk about my option of being a Cesarean on the Monday and I said to her, “Look. I'm going to be honest with you. There's no way in hell that you're going to get me to come in for elective surgery. It's just not going to happen. I never wanted to birth like that and I don't want to.” She came back and she said– they obviously spoke about what I had said and they made for me later a plan to push me in the way they thought that I was going to bend the most, so they said, “Look. We've bumped all of the surgeries for the day and we're going to book you in as priority because we feel like you should be having this baby now.” I was kind of like, “Okay.” So they were bumping all of these surgeries. There were people sitting out in the waiting room waiting to have their babies, but they were going to bump me to have my baby first. I had my sister in the room who was a surgery nurse who had been pushing me to have surgery the whole time because she was traumatized. I'd been fighting her the way through like, “No. I don't want to do that. I want to have a vaginal birth.” I was so exhausted and my husband only had 5 days off of work, so he had to return in a couple of days. I had my in-laws at my house babysitting my dog and I was promised a baby. I feel like at that point, I was just like, “Okay, well if that's what you think, then okay. I'll do it.” I signed this 3-page waiver form by the way, which I was really scared of. I was like–Meagan: What am I doing? What am I signing?Ashley: My sister is getting me prepared. She just finished a shift from working upstairs in nursing and she organized for herself to get in there, so it was going to be my husband and her. They never allowed a third person, but because she worked there and knew people, she was able to weasel in. She's getting me ready like a good nurse. She's so excited. She gets to be a part of it and I'm just recording a video of, “If I die, tell my baby I love my baby.” I am so petrified. I've got video and photos and I just look at the photo and it's like me trying to look excited, but actually, I'm like, “Holy crap. This is really scary and I don't want to do this.” Meagan: Why is everybody so excited and I'm terrified? And why is no one talking to me about this? Ashley: Because I'm giving up control. They're not getting the knife, but I am. It's really scary if you've never had surgery. It's not something that we do every day and it's not something that I had ever gone through before. So off I go into surgery and it's really good that my sister was there because she got to take a lot of photos and she got to be a part of it. Meagan: That would bring some comfort maybe. Ashley: Yeah, I felt like they would step up a bit as well because they knew that it was one of their own in there and I was one of their own. She took a lot of photos and things like that, but when they were doing the spinal, no one can be in the room. I just remember feeling so petrified and shaking and looking into this big man's eyes who was holding me and thinking, “You look like a nice man. Keep me safe.” This midwife came around and she was like, “You look like a deer in headlights” because it was like all of these lights shining down at me. I'm in this crazy room with surgery stuff. I'm really scared. I'm petrified, but I went through the whole process and the obstetrician and everyone, it was Christmastime. It was early Christmas. It was December 5th and they were all having their Christmas party that night, so they were all very happy talking about the Christmas party. “You're going to the Christmas party? I'm going to the Christmas party.” I thought, “Well, they're not fast. They're not stressed. They're very happy. They're starting their day. I'm the first one. They're excited about the Christmas party.” It didn't feel very personal. I definitely didn't feel included in the process. They were just talking among colleagues. Meagan: I can so relate. So relate. Ashley: It's horrible. Meagan: Yeah. They were talking about the snow outside and how depressing it was because the one just gotten back from Hawaii. He was like, “Oh, I came back to snow.” I was like, “I'm right here. Can we talk about my baby? Can we talk about me?” Ashley: Yeah, it's very impersonal. I mean, it's one thing at the dentist to be chatting it up. I don't mind it at the dentist if they're chatting or something, or the orthodontist or something, but yes. I thought, “At least they're calm.” The baby was born in no time and then announced, “It's a baby girl.” I just thought, “Oh, can I go to sleep now? I'm not really interested in this. I'm very time. I'm shaking. This is not a great experience.” I just turned around and said, “Can I go to sleep? I don't want to hold the baby.” It's uncomfortable anyways, but I can't really hold the baby. I'm shaking. I've never really had that many drugs in my system before and off to recovery we go basically. That's a new experience as well. Yeah, it wasn't a great postpartum experience in the hospital. It was quite a negative experience with the night midwives, so I was really excited to get out. I left a day early because I just did not want to have to put up with the night staff. My husband wasn't allowed to stay. Meagan: Oh, why? Ashley: So in our hospital in the public system, some of them have got 4 or 5 to a room, so I was in a 4 or 5 to a room. They don't allow husbands to stay. I couldn't get out of bed. Meagan: I didn't know that. That's like old school.Ashley: It is old school. A lot of them are getting upgraded now because obviously, it's better to have your own room and stuff, but that's where I was lumped. No one wants to birth there because no one wants to share a room, but if you're in the catchment, that's where you get stuck unless you go private. So he got booted out at 10:00 at night, and then I was left with this witch of a midwife who every time my baby cried, she was like, “Oh, look. You're just going to have to sleep with the baby on your belly because I can't be coming back here to get the baby all of the time.” I was like, “But it's not guidelines. I'm not allowed to sleep with my baby with my chest. I can't sleep and it's stressing me out.” In my head, I'm saying those things, but yeah. It was horrific. The next morning, my husband came and I was letting loose at him. I was like, “Why weren't you here? The baby and I haven't slept.” I was so stressed. I mean, think about it. Being awake for 3 days, having been in the hospital for a long time, and then having gone and had major surgery, you're left on your own with this baby with barely any support. No one telling you what to do, trying to breastfeed with your nipples getting ripped by the way. Meagan: Pretty much abandoning you. Pretty much. Ashley: Basically. So the second night, I stayed and sorted that out, then I went home the next day. I did have a bit of a thing with the midwife. She was on again, so I ran down to the bathing room and I hid from her because– okay. One thing you should know about me is that I am a highly sensitive person, so something that someone might say to someone may not affect them as much as it would affect me. Meagan: It triggers you. Ashley: It really upsets me and being in a vulnerable position, I need someone who's gentle, nurturing, and loving. So I ran away and I hid in the bathing room with my baby. I was trying to work out why she was crying. I had fed her. I swaddled her. I changed her. I was really trying to work it out. She could hear the baby screaming and obviously thought that I was not looking after my baby. I said, “Look, I'm just trying to figure out what's happening here.” She's like, “You just need to hold her.” I was like, “No, I just need to figure out what's happening because I've got to go home with this baby and work this out.” She's like, “Why don't I take the baby and I'll look after the baby so you can get some sleep?” I'm like, “No. That's not happening.” I was so against this woman. She was like, “Here's your medication. Take your medication. I've been looking for you,” and then she sent another colleague down to come and check on me and try to convince me to give the baby up. But what I discovered by sticking to my guns and doing what I felt was intuitively right for me was that my baby was pulling her arms out of the swaddle and that was waking her up. So I put her in a little zip-up and from then on, she slept through the night. My husband came the next morning right on the dot. I had a shower. Baby was sleeping. He's like, “Where's the baby?” I'm like, “She's sleeping,” feeling like a million dollars. “I've got this. I've got this and we're checking out today.”Meagan: Yep. Get me out of here. Ashley: I went home and we struggled with breastfeeding. I got some really bad advice from one of the nurses that came to my house so I felt like a double failure. By 6 months time, I was mixed feeding to just formula feeding and I felt like a real failure. I let her down. I hadn't birthed her the way– I didn't feel like I birthed with, “When I had my baby,” or “When my baby was born.” I didn't say “When I birthed,” because I didn't feel a part of the experience. It happened to me. It wasn't inclusive to me. I just felt completely excluded. So I knew when I was going to have my second, I was having a VBAC for sure because I knew there was a thing possible. I knew about VBACs and I said to my GP, “What's the timeframe between babies?” She said, “24 months between birth and birth.” That was the thing then or whatever. I said, “Fine. I'm having 24 months.” I literally started trying within 24 months, whatever it was, 15, or whatever. I fell pregnant the second time. I was having a VBAC and I think I joined the VBAC group in Australia. I started learning all of the stuff, becoming informed and advocating. I knew that this time I wasn't having an induction because that's what caused me a C-section. I knew that I wanted to try to avoid GDM because that's what I thought was the lead-up for the induction rush. I didn't realize that my weight was obviously pushing against me so much. I didn't understand the reasons why or some of the discrimination that happened in the hospital at that point. I did the early GTT test and I passed that. I was like, “Yes. Maybe this is going to be different.” I'm going to show them. I'm educated. I know what I want. I'm informed. I'm also a people pleaser so I'm trying to get them on board with me. I'm trying to get them to agree with my decision. I'm trying to get them to be a part of my team and cheer me on and get excited.I'm just kind of getting met with obstetricians who were like, “VBAC is great and it's the best way to birth your baby.” I'm like, “Yes. This is amazing.” Meagan: You're like, “Thank you. This is what I want to hear.” Ashley: “But not for you.” I'm like, “What? Not for me?” “Well, for you, we recommend a planned Cesarean.” “Okay.” They never really spoke in plain language or explained it to me. It was only through digging and digging and digging and asking and asking and asking that I was finally able to get some answers. I essentially ended up getting gestational diabetes at 20 weeks, so then I wasn't allowed to see midwives because I had asked to see midwives and they said, “If you get GD, we won't release you.”Meagan: It disqualified you. Ashley: It disqualified me from seeing midwives. I said, “Look, you're a surgeon. Can I just see you if I need surgery?” The thing with GD is that there is a GD counselor and somebody that you report to outside of them, so why do I need to see you because you're not a GD expert or specialist? I actually see somebody. Why is a midwife not capable of looking after me? It doesn't make any sense. They're just trying to pull in all of the patients to keep their bellies full and make sure they've got jobs. I was gutted. I was absolutely gutted. I only failed by .1 on one of the tests and I wish I had known back then that I could have redone it and I probably would have passed it. It was really disappointing and I was like, “Oh, goodness me.” So I was diet-controlled through that time. I say diet-controlled because that's the readings that I gave them. I wasn't really diet-controlled but I was being a bit of a rebel because I was getting the same numbers as I was with my first baby and I was on insulin with her and insulin didn't do much. I thought, “Well, what's the difference going to be if they're the same numbers? She came out healthy and had no sugar problems or anything.” I kind of started to think, “Is this GD thing a bit overrated? If I was in a different hospital or a different country—”Meagan: I was going to say if you went somewhere else like last time, would it have been different or would it actually have been GD as well? Ashley: If I had gone somewhere different and I knew this because I was part of the GD community and I had friends that were birthing in Brisbane who were even having to keep below higher numbers than me. They had much higher numbers than me, so I thought, “You're with a private obstetrician and you're getting different information than me,” so I started to clue on that. And then also, when I was doing my readings on my fingers, I would get a different reading on this one to this one, so I started questioning, “If this one's .5 difference to this one, how accurate is this measuring?”Meagan: Yeah, interesting. Very interesting. Ashley: So it was very scary for me to do that because nobody's doing that and every time you're going there, they're like, “Dead baby. There was a woman who had gestational diabetes and her baby died.” And I was like–Meagan: You hear these and you're like, “What?” Ashley: I was like, “How did she die? How did the baby die?” They said, “Oh, we can't disclose that information. You're telling a room full of women with gestational diabetes that a baby died and the mum had gestational diabetes. She could have been hit by a car for all we know and you're using it to fearmonger us, but you're not willing to tell us how the baby died. It could have been negligence on the hospital's part. It may not have been GD related at all.” Meagan: Yeah, she just had it. Ashley: She just had it, so I found that quite disgusting and all of those things started to really add up. The more that I saw in the VBAC community, the more that I saw this was happening around Australia, the more I was determined to advocate and fight which is really hard for a highly sensitive person, but I got a student-midwife. I got the head midwife to come to my appointments. I had a student-doula who was a dear friend of mine and I started to grow a team around me. I refused to see one of the doctors at one point and wanted to speak to the best, most amazing doctor in the hospital, so the midwives set me up with the nicest obstetrician who still didn't support me to have a vaginal birth, but he was nicer to deal with. I mean, I had some crazy conversations with some of the obstetricians during that time. One of them was a junior and she said to me because I didn't want to have continuous monitoring. I just wanted to have the doppler. She said, “You know what my boss says? He says that if you don't have continuous monitoring, then you're basically free birthing in the hospital.” I looked at her and I was like, “You're crazy.” At this point, free birth to me was crazy and she was telling me that because I'm in a hospital and if I'm not doing that, then I'm free birthing. And I thought, “But I'm getting checked with a doppler by a midwife. I'm with obstetricians.” That is absolutely insane, but it goes to show the kind of mentality and the thought process that goes through the fact that they don't know how to be with women. They don't know how to observe and watch a woman. Now, my mindset is the complete opposite way. I see things in a different light than how they would see. They rely on machines whereas they don't rely on that connection. I'm the type of person that relies on human-to-human connection and I've listened to people and I love stories. That's how we learn. We don't learn about humans by watching machines. I started to learn about the inaccuracies of their machines and some of the equipment that they were using. It made no sense to me to have continuous monitoring when I knew that one obstetrician would send me to surgery for the reading whereas another one with maybe more experience who may be older and more chilled would be like, “Yeah, that's nothing.” If the results are at that rate, then that's not beneficial to me because then I'm putting my fate on whether I get a choppy-choppy obstetrician or a chilled, relaxed one on the day. So that was kind of my thinking. I didn't do growth scans this time. I didn't see the point in me having a growth scan to tell me that I was having a big baby. My first was 3.7 at 39 weeks. I knew this one was going to be 4 kilos and I said, “Look, I'm happy to birth a 4.5-kilo baby out of my vagina,” which is almost 10 pounds for your listeners and they just wanted to do Cesareans on 4-kilo babies as well as inductions. It was always about induction and I found out the reason why they wanted to do induction. They wanted to manage me. They weren't a tertiary hospital, one of the bigger ones, and so I found out that the junior obstetricians wouldn't be comfortable doing or maybe confident or capable of doing an emergency Cesarean on someone of my size, so I said, “That's fine. Just send me to that hospital or that hospital. Let's just do this. If it's a staffing issue, I don't want to stretch it out.” They just laughed at me. It can't be a big deal then, can it? If they're not willing to send me to a different hospital. We had so many conversations and it was anxiety-inducing. I would cry on the way to the hospital. I would cry on the way home. I'd have to get my fight on and I even had a conversation with an obstetrician that said to me, “We'll fight about that later.” I said, “That's exactly right though isn't it? It's a fight, the fight.” Meagan: Yeah, we'll fight about that later. That right there. Ashley: He goes, “Oh, I didn't mean fight. I don't mean fight.” I go, “Yeah, but no. You do.” Meagan: But you just said that. Ashley: But you do. Meagan: You're like, “Yeah, I can tell that you're not agreeing with me and you're telling me that if I want something else, I'm going to have to fight with you.” Ashley: And so I'm hearing about this informed consent and I'm like, “Informed consent.” I'm fixated on what would get them to be on my side. I've learned about informed consent. They legally have to support me, right? But that is just the fast in my opinion, in my experience, they wouldn't know what informed consent or working with a woman, it just blows my mind. I didn't realize that at the time, but there were a lot of conversations that were happening about my weight. “You're not going to be able to. It's harder for bigger women like you.” I would leave conversations thinking, “I'm not going to be able to birth my baby out of my vagina because I'm big.” Meagan: They were shaming you. Ashley: Yeah, basically I was told by an obstetrician that, “She's not a fatist, but—.” I was like, “I've never heard someone say ‘I'm not a fatist.'” I don't even know what that means. I had some really interesting conversations because I was asking questions and I was asking questions because I was asking so many questions. Every time I went to an appointment, the obstetrician would say to me, “Ah, I see you're having a repeat Cesarean,” and that would spike adrenaline. Read my book. Read my book. You would know that I'm having a VBAC and then, “Oh, well do you know the risks of VBAC?” Yes, I do. “Oh, you really do know the risks, but we still recommend that you have a repeat Cesarean,” and I would have to go through that every single time. Meagan: So discouraging. Ashley: It was a nightmare. By 36-37 weeks, I had received a phone call and they said, I could feel the smugness and a smile through the phone, “Oh, we're not willing to take the risk. You're going to have to go to a different hospital.” I was just horrified. I was so scared. I've just been kicked out of hospital because nothing has changed with me.”Meagan: But because I won't do what they want me to do and I'm being stern in following my heart. Ashley: Yeah, because I won't submit. I've told you from day one what I'm going to do, but I suppose the rate of success with that tactic is probably 99%, I'm probably the 1% of women who actually says, “No. I actually will not fall for your trickery.”Meagan: Yeah, okay fine. I'll leave. Ashley: I was so determined, so then I went to a different hospital and it was a newer hospital. They had birthing pools. I was hopeful that I might get in a birthing pool. You get your own room in the postpartum. I was excited. They had informed consent signs. The receptionists weren't fighting each other. This first one that I went to was pretty rough down there. They were lovely and polite. I thought, “Oh, this feels nice. Maybe I'm going to have a different response,” and I did. I saw an amazing midwife on entry. She was like, “If they're not going to allow you to do this, you advocate and you can make a complaint. That's disgusting how you were treated.” I thought, “Oh, wow. This is the best thing.” I saw an obstetrician. They were supportive. They wanted to do some of the same things, but they respected me. I felt like I was seen as a human. They would ask me questions and they would go and ask a consultant and the consultant would agree with me. I was like, “Wow, I am ticking boxes here.” I made some compromises because I was vulnerable. I did a growth scan and they found out that baby was about 4 kilos. Meagan: Like you already guessed. Ashley: I knew that at 39 weeks. I said, “That's fine.” “Oh, we recommend induction.” I said, “Yeah, I know you do. I'm not doing it.” That's what caused me the C-section last time. I'm not doing it. We went through the study at 39 weeks. I said, “That doesn't apply to me. It doesn't apply to me. I'm not in that study. It doesn't mean anything to me.” I don't know how you can have a study saying that it's going to work better on someone at 39-41 because you're not doing the same people. You're not doing induction on someone at 39 weeks and then going, “Hey, let's try it again at 41 or whatever it is.” You're doing different people. I don't want to know about it. I don't care about it. They said, “Okay, well I'll talk to the consultant. We'll look at the scan,” and then she came back and said, “Yep, you're fine. There's no fat on the shoulders, so yep. That's fine.” But if I hadn't said that, I would have been booked in for an induction, right? I would have just said, “Let's go, yep.” I sat there on the weekend with my husband shaking like a leaf again having to advocate for myself. It isn't an easy thing to do. Every time I have to raise my voice, I'm putting adrenaline into my body. I'm not raising like screaming, but I'm having to raise my voice. My baby would have been under attack the whole pregnancy essentially. I eventually get to the due date. A week before my due date– it was a couple of days before my due date– my midwife turns to me at the last appointment. She was training in the hospital last time, so I was really grateful that she was willing to come with me and support me even though she wasn't going to get her book signed off for this birth. And on that appointment, she said to me, “Look, my daughter's booked a holiday for me, so I'm going away on your due date. Are you going to have this baby soon now?” I was like, “Oh my goodness. You've just fought with me the whole time and now you've turned into them trying to get me to have my baby before my due date because it suits you.” Yes. I was heartbroken and I was so angry. I decided then and there I was not going to invite her into my birth space even if it was sooner because she had betrayed me on every level. I went into that appointment and the obstetrician didn't recommend it, she said, “Do you want to do a cervical stretch?” A sweep and I said, “No, I don't.” I turned to the midwife and said, “What do you think?” She was like, “Yeah, why not?” Of course, she said that because it gets the baby out quicker. So again, you've got to be careful about who you're with because if you're relying on people who've got a different agenda, you've got to take their advice or their opinion with a grain of salt. But I was a little bit interested myself. I'd never had a stretch or a sweep like that before. I was a bit interested. I was worried that I was going to go over due dates and I was willing to wait for 40+10 and I was getting a bit stressed like, “Oh, what if it goes longer?” You start to freak out at that point. There's a bit of pressure and with what I'd been through, I had the stretch and sweep. She said, “You're 3 centimeters and you're stretchy.” I was like, “Wow. Wow. Last time, they couldn't even– I was closed up.” Meagan: Get a Foley in. Ashley: Yeah. So I was so excited. I started to get some niggles and lose some mucus and a bit of blood and things like that. Two days later, I went into labor. She said to me, “If it does nothing in the next couple of days, then the baby wasn't ready to come. If it happens, then the baby was always going to come,” sort of thing. Now, obviously, what's the point in doing them if the baby is going to come and it does nothing but disturb? I mean, my complete mindset changed and flipped. But yeah, I went into straight labor. I was so excited and so proud of myself. I'm in labor this time. I never knew if my body was broken after all of the fearmongering and talk. I was just so proud of myself. It was exciting. I had adrenaline pumping through me. I was shaking with fear and excitement. I was going to wait the whole day to go in. I was going to essentially go to hospital when my baby's head was coming out. As soon as I went into labor, I was like, “Yeah. I think I should go to the hospital.” I was adamant the whole time I wasn't going in until I was ready to push and as soon as I was in labor, I was like, “Yep. Okay, it's time.” Meagan: Let's go. It's exciting. You're like, “Okay, let's go have this baby.” Ashley: Yeah, and it was fast and hard. When I go into labor, it's not any prelabor, it's just that this is on. I dilate pretty quickly. When I got to the hospital, I was 5 centimeters. They were really surprised at how I was doing because I was quite calm and quiet. They were like, “Oh.” I got eventually into the birthing suite. My doula came and set up the room really pretty. I went into the shower and had a midwife assigned to us. She just sat down and read my birth plan and was happy with everything. She wouldn't let me in the birthing pool of course because I was over 100 kilos even though they've got a hoist for bigger people if they need to. They're just not comfortable with bigger people in the birthing pool. I just did my thing and I said, “I don't any doctors to come in. I don't want anyone annoying me or harassing me.” And I just labored for a few hours until I felt like there were some waters or something I could smell and feel. The midwife said, “Do you want me to check you?” I said, “Yeah. Yeah, we'll see if the waters have gone.” She said, “Yeah, the waters have gone and yeah, this is a little fore bag so would you like me to break that?” I said, “Well, if you think so, okay.” At this point, my education had gone to the point of getting past the induction. If I had gotten into spontaneous labor and I saw a midwife because everything was raving about midwives, I'm going to be fine. This baby's going to come out of my vagina okay. I didn't know anything about birth really. I just knew what not to do. I'm probably not going to have an epidural, but I'm open to it. You shouldn't break the waters, but I don't really understand why. But I wasn't having my waters broken. I was just having a little bit of my waters broken. And then came the tsunami and it was my entire waters. It was all over the bed and it was all warm. I was like, “What is happening?” She had either–Meagan: So your bag never really did break until then. Ashley: No, yeah. Yeah. Yes. And there's some other information. She's like, “Oh, we'll put the screw on the baby's head.Meagan: The FSC, fetal scalp electrode? Ashley: We call it the clip. Meagan: A clip. Ashley: Yeah, some call it the screw. I call it the screw. It's a little clip and it barely hurts. That was one of my compromises from not having continuous monitoring. I said, “If I have that, then I can be mobile.” That was the compromise and negotiation. Then, I found myself locked to a machine by the way because it wasn't mobile at this point. Then as soon as I got off the bed, there was a decel, so I was back on the bed. I was in excruciating pain at this point. I come out of my nest in the shower where I was able to breathe through everything and I was standing upright. Now there was a bit of fear happening because there was a decel that she didn't recover from quickly enough, so then the obstetricians and everyone had to come in. They were kind of like, “Oh, C-section,” talking about it already. I said, “No. I don't want to talk about it. The baby's fine. Just let me do my thing.” “Okay, okay,” and then they hounded me to get a catheter in my arm even though I didn't want one. I said, “No, I don't want one.” It's really painful and I don't want it. She said, “Oh, come on. We'll just get one in.” I said, “Okay, fine. Just do it then. Just leave me alone.” So she put it in and I'm walking around with this thing coming out of my vagina, this thing in my hand and I'm out of the zone and really finding it hard to get back into how I was feeling. Meagan: Your space. Ashley: Yeah, my space. I must have been in there for an hour or two, maybe a bit longer. By this point, they've told me that I'm 10 centimeters on one side, 8 centimeters on the other and there were a couple more decels and maybe one more and they were saying things to me that I don't understand. They were like, “You've got an anterior lip. It's swollen. You're 10 centimeters on this side and 8 centimeters on that side. Your baby's asynclitic. Your baby's up high.” They're looking at me and I'm like, “I don't know.” Meagan: You don't know what any of that means. Ashley: I'm 10 centimeters. The baby is going to come out right any minute. I'm just like, “Is the baby's going to come out soon?” I was starting to feel some pushy pains as well, so my body was pushing a little bit too and then I think I went back into the shower and I called in my husband because he was a weak link and I knew he would do what I said. I was like, “I want an epidural.” And the epidural was there within 10 minutes. I knew that would happen. They wanted me to have an epidural on arrival because of my said. I went to the anesthesiologist appointment and they looked at my back and said, “No, you've got a fine back.” What they're worried about with bigger people is that there can be fat over the spine. I said, “Okay, well I've got a fine back,” which I thought would be fine because I never had any problems with the C-section. They said, “But we still recommend an epidural on arrival.” I was like, “Okay. Well, at least I understand why.” The thing is that I'm trying to get information from them so I can make informed choices, so if it's in my best interest, then I will say yes and I will do it. But if it's in the best interest of you to make your life easier, then I'm not going to do it. I'm not going to put myself or my baby at risk to make your life easier. I understood that an emergency C-section was a higher risk than a planned C-section. I understood that induction was a higher risk. I knew all of the before things and the choices. What I got stuck with is I didn't understand physiological birth. I hadn't done any research on that. So they were talking to me gobbledygook, all of these things were happening. I just never thought that this could happen. I never ever thought this would happen to me. My mom had me in 7 hours. What is happening? What are these things that are happening? Now I'm on the bed. I'm stuck on the bed because I've chosen to have an epidural and now I've negotiated because we have had a couple of decels. I've negotiated for myself what I think is a pretty sweet deal which I realize is actually a really bad deal of vaginal examinations every hour. The normal standard practice is about every 4 hours and I'm like, “Okay. How about if we just check every hour and see if there is any progress?” They're like, “Yeah, that sounds great.” Every hour, they come into me and they're saying, “No change. Baby's up high. No change. We recommend C-section. These are the risks if you wait.” They were talking to me about the risks that would happen in a Cesarean, not about the risks that would happen in a vaginal birth if I wait. So it was very biased. I was like, “Okay, so what happens if I wait to have a vaginal birth?” They were like, “Well, we just recommend a Cesarean.” I feel like I'm in a room stuck with the enemy. I said to my doula, “I don't trust them. I feel like they know what they're talking about, but I don't know any different either.” My doula was a student doula and it's not like I came in there with a midwife who is on my team. I'm looking at the midwife and I'm like, “Are you going to help me?” I'm realizing that she's team obstetrician. I mean, I've never met her before. She was just working there. I'm thinking, “This is not what was sold to me in the VBAC group if I see a midwife. Midwives are amazing, blah blah blah blah.” What I actually missed was that independent midwives that are not working in hospital have more free reign are the midwives that everyone's raving about. I'm thinking it's just random midwives, any midwives are awesome. And not every midwife's awesome because you've got different personalities. You've got different experiences. You've got different passions and every person is different just like you can find an amazing obstetrician. You can find an amazing personal trainer, but they're not going to suit everybody or everyone's needs. And they have a bias against different people based on color, based on gender, based on size, based on the way that you look. If they can identify with you, they are going to be more attached to the story and fight and advocate a bit more. If they're not really into you, they're going to be like, “Oh well. I'm not going to lose my job over this,” sort of thing. I've learned all of these things since. Eventually, after about 6 hours, I had another decel. I think I had about 3 in total. It wasn't a huge amount. Meagan: Yeah, and how low were they? Do you remember? Ashley: I don't remember. The problem was that she wasn't coming back as quickly as they would have liked. Meagan: Prolonged. Ashley: Yeah, it was prolonged. I also didn't know at the time that the epidural also slowed down my contractions too. I only know this from getting the hospital notes which is quite common with epidurals as well. Eventually, I just said, “Okay, fine. I'm fine. I'll go.” After the last one, it felt like my baby was at risk. If someone is coming to you every hour saying, “This is the risk. We recommend that,” eventually, you just give up. I think I had been in labor for a total of 12 hours at that point. The first labor I had ever had and off I went. As I was going out, the midwife said to me, “It's okay. I had a home birth planned, but I ended up in a Cesarean. You'll be okay.” I was like, “See? You never would have been on my team because you hadn't even had a vaginal birth yourself.” I looked at her and I was like, “That was the worst thing you could have ever said to me at that point.” I was like, “Just because you had one and you're okay with it doesn't mean that I'm okay with it.” It was the worst thing. She obviously thought it was really supportive, but I felt so betrayed. So off I went and I had my surgery. Everything started to go downhill. My husband got rushed out of the surgery with my baby and you could just feel that it was intense. I said to my husband, “I love you. Look after the baby. I think I'm either going to lose my uterus or I'm going to die.” Meagan: Were you hemorrhaging? Ashley: Basically, the story that they tell me, I'm not sure if I believe it, but even if it is true, it is what it is at the end of the day. One of the risks that they were worried about is when a baby descends too much, there's a– you know this yourself– there's always a risk of a special scar happening because there's more risk of a tear or them having to cut more. So that's what they were informing me about the whole time. They knew about the risk and they were trying to stop– Meagan: But they kept saying that baby was high, right? Ashley: They told me that baby was high. They said that when the baby came out, she flung her arm up and ripped it down to my cervix. Meagan: Oh, okay. Ashley: Now, how does that happen when a baby is up high? If she's up high, how is she ripping down to my cervix? Now I think about that. How does that happen? Because my cervix was fully dilated. Meagan: Yeah, except on that one side. Did it ever finish? That swelling, that edema, did it go down? Ashley: Not that I know of. What they told me was nothing had changed positioning in that. Then when I looked at the notes when I got the notes, he laid out, “I saw that the positioning had changed.” She had come down a station, but they never communicated that to me. I have a feeling that she was probably down a bit further than they had put because, on the paperwork, they also said I was only 7 centimeters. There was no mention of an anterior lip, so they fudged the papers a little bit and weren't honest. I mean, if you're going to make a few little changes, then obviously, there's a reason for that. It obviously looks better on paper. Meagan: That's what happens all of the time. The patient will hear one thing, then on the op reports, it's a little different. So we always encourage you to get your op reports. It's sometimes hard to read but get your op reports. Ashley: It is hard to read. You know, they put it on the board too here in Australia what you are and at what time, so the information is there for me to look at the whole time while I'm in labor, so it's not that one person just said it, it's literally on the board for you to see. I was quite upset when I saw some of the notes. I went through the notes. I've been through them multiple times now and I was just trying to learn. I was Googling, “What does this mean and what does that mean?” because I don't know the medical jargon. I'm learning all of the things and I'm looking at Spinning Babies. I'm looking at everything and trying to learn after the fact, but essentially what had happened was apparently, she had flung around there, tore my uterus down to the cervix and then they needed to call in a specialized team to come in and resolve that problem that they had created. The surgery went on for a number of hours and it was a very challenging surgery. I wanted to crawl out of my body essentially because I had been laying there for so long. It was just a horrible experience. I was reunited with my baby. She was born at 6:30. I was reunited with them at about 12:00 at night, so I had been in labor from 4:00 in the morning and then I was breastfeeding her because my husband advocated for her to be breastfed. So that meant that she had her sugars checked. They were fine, so they were happy for her to wait for me. I was really, really glad that my husband advocated for me. I was so tired when I got out of surgery and I was back in this hot room. I was sweating profusely. There was no aircon. Some of the rooms, even though it was new, didn't have aircon. I ended up in a room with no aircon and it was so hot. I had to have a midwife stay with me and do observations every 15 minutes to check me. I didn't end up in the ICU, but I lost 3.1 liters of blood. I had blood transfusions in the surgery, all of the stuff in the surgery to keep me awake, and all of that. I really wanted to go under, but they wouldn't put me under because I had been eating. It wasn't a great experience and I came out very traumatized from that experience. I ended up having PTSD with flashbacks. I was crying for months. I felt broken. They told me to never have a vaginal birth again, and that I could have two more babies so that was amazing. I was like, “Well, you must have done a good job if you think I could have two more,” but they must be born Cesarean. I was like, “Okay, no problems.” I was so grateful to be alive after that experience. I was trying to make sense of what had happened. The next few years, that was my mission to try to make sense because I've gone from a space of you're not allowed to have a vaginal birth to what happened, trying to understand what happened, and then planning our future because we wanted four children total. So I almost never had any more children. For 6-12 months, I was done. I was never going to go through that again. I was a broken person. I was really struggling, but I trained as a postpartum doula and I started to want to help women in breastfeeding and the things that I knew that I could support because I ended up breastfeeding that baby for 12 months and I felt like a success at that regard. I learned a lot about breastfeeding. I wanted to share my voice and help women, but I wasn't well enough to help women in the birth space because I felt like a failure. I was trying to learn and I wanted to be in a space where I felt safe. This was trauma and challenges were happening and this was me being able to help people and make a positive out of a negative essentially. And then I found you guys. I found your podcast and I was like, “This is amazing,” because you were the first place that was promoting VBAC after two Cesareans. Back then, nobody was having VBAC after two Cesareans let alone multiple now that we see happening. I think a lot of it has to do with your podcast because when you hear women's stories and you hear the statistics and you can actually hear other women doing it, that was the start of me getting hope and realizing that there was another way. Meagan: Oh, that just gave me the chills. Ashley: Thank you so much for your podcast. Meagan: I have a sweater on right now, but literally it just went up my arm. Ashley: Awesome. It is really nice to know that if I didn't come across your podcast, I probably wouldn't have taken that next step, so it is life-changing to hear other women's stories and have that resource. The fact that you guys had the stats and everything, I was very much in the stats trying to move through special scars. I eventually had gone onto Special Scars, Special Hope. Meagan: Such a good group. Ashley: Yeah, so amazing and started to connect with other women who were having worse scars than me. They were birthing on classical scars. I was like, holy moly. I think it was ACOG or maybe RANZ of New Zealand and Australia. They said it was okay to labor on a scar like mine because I had a vertical scar down to my cervix. That's the low-risk special scar. I was like, “If it's good enough for them, it's good enough for me.” Look at these people saying that. All of the obstetricians that I had spoken to because I had a meeting with an obstetrician. I had met with so many midwives who knew about the system. They said to me, “Look. They are going to be petrified of you coming to the system.” It was really good to get that feedback and from my own experience, they wouldn't allow me to have a VBAC let alone a VBAC after two Cesareans with a special scar and high BMI. I started to really try to uncover, so I met with an obstetrician from that hospital and she basically said to me, “Look, you're a square peg trying to fit in a round hole or a round peg in a square hole.” I looked at her. I didn't understand that. I had never that and I have never been referred to as that kind of person. I quite like doing what normal people do. I was looking at her. I'm like, “What are you talking about?” She just said to me, “Basically, I ended up with this surgery because the surgery who was working had decided that because of my weight, that that was all that I was capable of or that was the path that I was going through.” That was really the first time that I've felt like my weight has actually held me back or I've been discriminated against. When I look back at the fact of how I was treated and the conversations I was having, it was obvious that it was happening the whole way through, I just was so naive to it that it was happening in my face and I didn't even realize it because the thing is that I understand that being of high weight can put you at risk for all of these things. I'm looking at it from their point of view, but I'm not actually sometimes looking at it from Ashley's point of view. I understand their concern and I understood all of the medical stuff because I had listened to them. I had asked questions. I had read their policies for obese people. I understood that it was discrimination. I didn't understand it at the time. I didn't understand that they probably weren't seeing me as a human as maybe they would have if I was a skinny version of myself. We probably would have had a different conversation. They probably would have been cheering me on and holding my hand and saying, “You're an amazing VBAC candidate. We support you. We probably still want to do all of these things to you, but we're not going to kick you out of hospital.” That's the difference when I hear women's stories. Oh, she's allowed to get in the water bath and she's allowed to have a beautiful birth. She doesn't have to bend over backward and do a cartwheel and it's because she looks a certain way or she was really lucky because she got an obstetrician that was amazing. There are all of these things that have to line up. That's what has propelled me on my journey to find home birth as an option. Meagan: Home birth, home birth. So you talked about stats. You were on this mission of stats, so you went out and you found the stats about VBAC after multiple Cesareans, two Cesareans, special scars, found some stuff, said, “Okay, this seems acceptable,” and then you started a home birth. Based off of your own research, for you, you felt completely comfortable starting this journey. Ashley: No, I didn't. Meagan: Okay. Ashley: I didn't. I mean, I had to work through the fears with the stats and I was comfortable with home birth and the idea of home birth. I understood that home birth was as safe as birthing in a hospital and I understood that if I was birthing with a midwife I would have a medical person with me. Now, the next challenge that came for me was that I couldn't find a home birth midwife who would support me. I feel like I leveled up. I was leveling up the whole time. It was like, now you've got a VBA2C. Now you've got a special scar. Let's work through this. What do I feel comfortable with? What am I willing to take on? Okay, okay. That's doable. That's doable. I can work through that. What's the next thing? Oh yeah, the next thing is this. Okay, what am I going to do with that? A home birth. Okay, a home birth feels like a safe option. I can do this. I can do that. I can do that. Okay, that's going to be the best thing for me. I'm not going to go back to hospital. Meagan: I love that you said that. I can do this. I'm comfortable with this. You kind of have to go through that with anything. In life in general, but especially with this birth, you went through it and you were like, “Okay, yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Okay. Now, here I am.” Ashley: Yeah and I was seeing a psychologist at the time for all of the things to help me lose weight actually. My GP, I wanted to lose weight. I've been overweight my whole life. I wanted to lose weight. I went to a nutritionist and she was like, “You know everything. I think it's emotional.” I've got childhood stuff going on. I worked with him and I said, “The way that I feel about the hospital system, is this right?” He's normalizing my experience for me and saying, “You're perfectly normal.” I'm trying to say, “Am I having a trauma response here? I don't want to go into a home birth because I'm having a trauma response,” because the obstetrician said to me, one of them, she's like– she wasn't the best obstetrician for the debrief. She said to me, “You've got a risk of special scar, a 7% rupture rate.” I said, “That's a little bit different from what I found in Special Scars, Special Hope where they are looking at women.” I said, “Have you got any statistics?” She's like, “No.” I'm like, “So how can I trust that what you're saying is correct then?”Meagan: Well then, where'd you get 7%?Ashley: Exactly. She's like, “Look, if you find any doctor who's willing to support you, then they're not the doctor for you. I'm telling you what is the safest thing for you.” I was challenging her because at this point, I'm angry. I'm so done. I'm so done. I've just been through hell because of you people and I want to get information. I don't want to hear your judgments. She said to me, “If you find a doctor, then basically they're not right. They're doing the wrong thing.” I said, “So you're the best doctor in the whole world? You know everything right? You're the best and you know the best then? So if I find another doctor who says yes then they're wrong and you're right, that's what you're saying?” She was just looking at me. She was like, “I just feel like what you're going to do is you're going to keep looking until you're going to find someone and then you're going to put yourself at risk.”I'm like, “That is exactly what I'm going to do.” Meagan: You're like, “Well, I'm glad you feel that way.” Ashley: I should have sent her a postcard after my free birth and said, “I freebirthed. Thank you for driving me to this.” It is amazing the conversations you have when you really do have conversations. You can see where they're coming from and how very different their views are. Some of the fears and worries that they have are not about you and your baby. They are about themselves and their career, but the information I didn't know about her was that she was actually the head of obstetrics and she just lost her title and her job. She'd been bumped down. The reason why I went to her was because she supported breech birth in hospital and she was very vaginal friendly. She did support me. She was the consultant I saw on the paperwork that supported me to have a vaginal birth, but in the timeframe of me organizing to meet up with her, the information that I didn't know that I found out later was that she lost her job because she had supported somebody to have a breech and there was a poor outcome that the parents accepted, but somebody else had basically complained about. The only thing is that breech is so risky they say even though it's not. She's one of the radical obstetricians so she had been punished and so she was coming from a space of where she was. It's really important to know that information. You never know where they are in their career or how they are feeling, so she might have been really bitter at the time and negative and feeling like there was doom and gloom in the world. It was really shameful when I was speaking to my doula friends and they were like, “Oh really? She was so amazing.” I'm like, “Yeah, well maybe she is amazing but not for people like me. Maybe she supports this person because they've got a thin body and because of me, she's like, ‘No. I wouldn't touch you with a 10-foot pole,'” because it's too risky for her and for her job also. They are up against it as well in the system and that's something I have learned. My next mission was that I needed to find a midwife who was going to bat for me, not somebody who was going to be worried about losing their career because they come after the midwives too that are home birthing. So I had gone to the free birth podcast as well and I was listening to their stories. I was like, “They're a bit out there for me. I'm not brave enough to do that. That's a bit radical.” Eventually, my husband was the one that talked me into a free birth when we couldn't have a midwife to support me. It