Podcasts about unexpected loss

Special Patreon Re-Release: Love and Loss with James Jetton   James 1:2-4 (NIV) "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."   **Transcription Below**   James Jetton's Bio: My name is James Jetton. I have and still do live a crazy beautiful, challenging, and blessed life. I am blessed to get to raise 4 beautiful children, and I have spent time getting to serve a fantastic community as a Recreation Minister, where I got to combine my love of Jesus, sports, and people. I served in this role for 13 years before my bride Kaetlin was diagnosed with Leukemia in 2020. Unfortunately, after an awe-inspiring journey with cancer, Kaetlin went to meet her Savior in January of 2022.   Clearly, this changed so much of my life trajectory. Currently, I'm working towards obtaining a Masters in Social Work to take the pain and experiences I have had to help others through their pain. Kaet and I were married in 2009 and built a beautiful life; we taught each other so much. So, I deeply desire to take everything we learned together and the lessons the Lord has taught me to help others.   I mentioned earlier that I have 4 exceptional children, Laken, 9, Isla Kaet, 7, Hattie, 6, and Ryder, 4. Laken is my go-getter; she is fearless, strong, and tough. Sweet Isla Kaet is a quiet thinker and planner and is often referred to as little Kaet. She cares deeply and is always looking for ways where she can help and take care of her family. Hattie is our child with special needs and has been diagnosed with GNB-1 Syndrome (a rare genetic disorder). Hattie will light up any room she is in; it's incredible that a child who only has a few words, uses a wheelchair, and is “limited” by our world's standards, can bring joy to people in a way that I never knew was possible. Ryder the caboose is a maniac, and his sisters affectionately call him “Wreck it Ryder” he has no fear and is a super extrovert; he keeps us all on our toes. He is what some would say, “all boy.”   This is a brief bio of me and our circus; through everything, we have found joy in all circumstances. Although there are exceptionally hard days as we have endured much grief, God has always provided, and I am thankful for the life God has given us.   Questions we discuss: Life took an unexpected twist in 2016. Will you catch us up on your discoveries that year? While many of us were in the midst of changing schedules and suddenly homeschooling children in May of 2020, your family was receiving even more news. Will you share that with us now? What is life like for your family these days, as grief likely comes at unexpected times?   Thank You to Our Sponsors: Chick-fil-A East Peoria and The Savvy Sauce Charities (and donate online here)   Connect with The Savvy Sauce on Facebook or Instagram or Our Website   Please help us out by sharing this episode with a friend, leaving a 5-star rating and review, and subscribing to this podcast!   Other Episodes from The Savvy Sauce of God's Faithfulness: 17 Being on Both Sides of Forgiveness with Adelle Dickie 18 Clinging to Jesus as I lived Through My Worst Nightmare with Angela Braker 19 Grief and Triumph and God's Pursuit Though it All with Julie Locke Moore 20 Joy in the Lord Even Through Tremendous Loss…Twice with Rachel Faulkner Brown 62 Unexpected Grief and What Helped Me Through It Can Help You Too with Singer and Blogger, Brittany Price Brooker 78 Parenting the Prodigal Child And God's Desire For Redemption With Mother-Daughter Duo, Claire Stanfill and Tindell Baldwin 79 Radical Business and Radical Parenting with Gary & Marla Ringger, Founders of Lifesong for Orphans 83 Miracles of God with Founder of Midwest Food Bank, David Kieser 120 Our Story for His Glory with Mercedes Cotchery 134 Fashion Meets Faith with Shari Braendel 141 Rescued from Poverty with Norah Birungi 143 Prodigal Story: Sexuality, Drugs, and Scripture with Dr. Christopher Yuan 160 Unleash This Generation with the Power of the Gospel with Greg Stier 161 God Redeems with Hettie Brittz 162 Healing from Spouse's Sexual Addiction with Jennifer Roush 174 Stories of God's Upside Down Economy with Kristen Welch 208 Tremendous Testimony and Adding Spark into Your Marriage with David & Teri Sumlin 223 Journey and Learnings as Former Second Lady of the United States with Karen Pence 229 Escape from Modern Day Sex Slavery with Rachel Timothy Special Patreon 28 Re-Release: What to Do When You Don't Like Your Story with Sharon Jaynes 231 Stories Series: Faith Building Miracles with Dave Pridemore 232 Stories Series: Testify to Glorify with Richard Gamble 233 Stories Series: Surprises from God with Tiffany Noel Special Patreon Re-Release: Patreon 30 Story of Perseverance with Jenny Boyett 234 Stories Series: Redemption From Sexual Sin in Marriage with Garrett and Brenna Naufel 235 Stories Series: Ever-Present Help in Trouble with Kent Heimer 236 Stories Series: God's Power and Light with Jaime Farrell 237 Stories Series: Prodigal and Redemption with Renee Endress Special Patreon Re-Release: Patreon 31 Unexpected Story of Trauma, Anxiety, Adoption, and Hope with Bettina Stevens 238 Stories Series: God Delights in His Children with Brad Habegger 239 Stories Series: Experiencing the Supernatural with Jackie Coleman 240 Stories Series: God's Rescue and Covering in Parenting with Brenda Dugger 241 Stories Series: From the Mission Field, Experiencing God in the Little and the Big with Patty Sommer 242 Stories Series: He Gives and Takes Away with Joyce Hodel 243 Stories Series: Angel Encounter and Hearing from God with Mary Beth Zimmerman 244 Stories Series: Medical Marvels with Carolyn Henricks 245 Stories Series: Miracles Big and Small with Dr. Rob Rienow 246 Stories Series: Experiencing God's Tangible Love with Jen Moore 247 Stories Series: Exciting Adventures Follow Radical Obedience with Susan Zobrist 248 Stories Series: Discipline of Celebration in the Midst of Unexpected Loss and Grief with Jonathan Pitts Special Patreon Re-Release: Patreon 49: Story of Healing from Sexual Betrayal in Marriage: An Interview with Bonny Burns 249 Stories Series Conclusion: Now What? Living as Global Christians with Todd Ahrend of The Traveling Team   Gospel Scripture: (all NIV)   Romans 3:23 “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,”   Romans 3:24 “and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”   Romans 3:25 (a) “God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood.”    Hebrews 9:22 (b) “without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness.”    Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”    Romans 5:11 “Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.”    John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”   Romans 10:9 “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”    Luke 15:10 says “In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”   Romans 8:1 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”   Ephesians 1:13–14 “And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession- to the praise of his glory.”   Ephesians 1:15–23 “For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.”   Ephesians 2:8–10 “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God‘s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.“   Ephesians 2:13 “But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.“   Philippians 1:6 “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”   **Transcription**   Music: (0:00 – 0:09)   Laura Dugger: (0:09 - 2:07) Welcome to The Savvy Sauce, where we have practical chats for intentional living. I'm your host, Laura Dugger, and I'm so glad you're here. I'm grateful for today's sponsor, Chick-fil-A East Peoria.   Check them out online to place your order for dining or catering, or to fill out an application to join their friendly team. Visit cfaeastpeoria.com. If you've been with us long, you know this podcast is only one piece of our nonprofit, which is The Savvy Sauce Charities.   Don't miss out on our other resources. We have questions and content to inspire you to have your own practical chats for intentional living. And I also hope you don't miss out on the opportunity to financially support us through your tax-deductible donations.   All this information can be found on our recently updated website, thesavvysauce.com. And now, I'm pleased to share this episode with you that used to only be available to paying patrons.    My guest for today is James Jetton.   Mark and I attended the same family camp as James in 2022. I observed a father who was very devoted to his children, and one of his precious daughters was in a wheelchair, which was always by his side. He was so tender with his children, and I just assumed his wife was resting while he was attending to the family.   I did not learn of his full story until after camp, and it was through a mutual friend, April Siervo. But then, after she shared a bit more of their story, I immediately reached out to James to request that he share his faith and testimony with us today. Here's our chat.   Welcome to The Savvy Sauce, James.   James Jetton: (2:07 - 2:15) I'm happy to be here. I'm looking forward to talking to you and just kind of sharing how God has moved in our lives the past few years.   Laura Dugger: (2:15 - 2:24) You have already lived through so much, but let's just start here. When did Jesus initially draw you to himself?   James Jetton: (2:26 - 3:25) Yeah, I think that's like, you know, it's a big question, right? But also, it shouldn't be. I think the first time I really just kind of came to know the Lord, I was in the eighth grade.   I had a retreat, and in that moment, for me, it was a situation of— it wasn't necessarily for me, but also just trying to do the right thing. I grew up in Birmingham, Alabama, so I was in the Bible Belt. I was like, this is what we're supposed to do.   We're supposed to give our lives to Jesus. But I would say probably going into my senior year of high school, I had some moments just kind of alone at a beach, actually. I was like, what am I doing with my life?   And I believe that that was kind of the first one real moment in my life where I decided, I think I'm going to actually follow the Lord now and not just do this, just to say I'm doing it. And so that was really the first time I really felt the Lord draw me to him. And then, of course, as time goes on, there's all these other little moments throughout where he's continually staying close and bringing me back to him when I feel like I'm drifting away and that sort of thing.   Laura Dugger: (3:27 - 3:39) Thank you for sharing that. And you've written before on your blog that, I'll quote, one of the best decisions I have ever made was when I persuaded Kaetlin to marry me, end quote.   James Jetton: (3:39 - 3:40) Yeah.   Laura Dugger: (3:40 - 3:43) James, how did the two of you meet and fall in love?   James Jetton: (3:44 - 5:30) Yeah, so we went to college together. We went to Troy University. I vividly remember a time where she was getting out of her car, and she didn't know me at this time.   But I remember seeing her. I think I met her maybe once or twice through some mutual friends. I remember seeing her get out of the car and literally, I'll never forget this moment.   I was like, man, if I could just have a girl like that. And it stuck with me. And I think the first time we met, I think I made some comments that she wasn't happy about, about some fraternity guys that were in a different fraternity than me that I didn't think too highly of.   But I didn't realize in that moment that she was actually the sweetheart of that fraternity. And so, we kind of got off to a little bad step there. But I remember she broke up with another boyfriend.   That was part of the reason I saw her. And I was like, I could never have a girl like that. All the girls like that are taken.   And so, she broke up with her boyfriend. I remember her best friend called me and was like, “Hey, can I bring her over to y'all's house? Because she just needs to laugh”.   I was like, “Well, we can do that. We can make sure she laughs”. And so, I think from there, we just kind of, I don't know, just we continued to talk.   And for some reason, she liked me a little bit and I liked her a whole lot. And we dated for about three years in college. And when we got out of college, we got married in May of 2009.   And so that was kind of where life began to speed up a lot at that point. But that was the first time I'll never forget those moments. And then there's other things throughout.   But I remember seeing her in the parking lot like that girl.   Laura Dugger: (5:31 - 5:43) So, I love that. And OK, so married in 2009 and then children came a little while later. So how many children did you add to your family?   James Jetton: (5:44 - 6:28) Yeah, we have four kids. Our first child was born in 2013. So, after we got married, we lived back here in Niceville for a little bit but then ended up moving.   She wanted to go to PA school, and I was working a job I didn't care too much for. So, I was like, how quickly can we go to school? And so, we moved to West Tennessee where she went to PA school.   And I ended up going to school there, too, because she studied all the time, and I was bored. And I was like, I guess I should do something productive as well. So that was 2009 and we had a lot of fun.   We love to travel, did a lot of fun things. And then in 2013, we had our first child, Laken.   Laura Dugger: (6:28 - 6:39) And then if you fast forward, life took an unexpected twist in 2016. So, will you catch us up on your discoveries that year?   James Jetton: (6:40 - 13:07) Yeah. So, we, you know, so we had Laken in 2013. Then, we had another part of our - we did have a miscarriage between Laken and Isla who was born in 2015. But then we had Hattie who was born in 2016.   And Hattie's our child with special needs. And she was born in - all of our pregnancies where we used to joke with people that could have babies and just bounce right back and have these beautiful, wonderful pregnancies. And they loved it.   That was not us. Every single one of our pregnancies brought some challenge within it. And so with Hattie, my wife started swelling a lot and kind of found out she had some clotting in her legs.   And so, we ended up having to induce labor for her with that happening. And, you know, when she my wife was also a PA in the ER. So, she understood medical things way better than I did.   I was kind of oblivious to a lot of things. So, she would probably say it was a little bit more scary than I realized it was when she was giving birth. But when Hattie came, like in some accounts, it just kind of seemed normal.   But she was having some trouble breathing. And so, she was in our hospital. In order to go to the NICU, you have to kind of get transferred out to a smaller hospital.   And so, they were keeping her under observation that night. And her breathing wasn't really getting a whole lot better. And they did x-rays and stuff like that, but couldn't really find much.   And then there was a morning where we were about ready to load up and send her to the NICU. And Kaetlin went and held her. And when she went and held her, she started breathing better.   And she calmed down. And it was kind of crazy. It was genuinely like the love of a mother.   Just like this connection seemed to just calm Hattie down. But we ended up finding out later, one of the nurses was amazing. And was like, I think that she has a broken collarbone.   They didn't see it on the x-ray at first because of the way her chin was turned. And so, when they went back and looked, they did another one. And sure enough, she did have a broken collarbone.   So, at the time, we kind of thought that was kind of the reason for her distressed breathing and that sort of thing. And she had trouble latching and sucking. And what we kind of came to find out later is she had what would be called hypotonia.   Which is basically where the best way to describe it in layman's terms is like a floppy baby. Like you hold her up and everything just kind of flops. And I remember Kaitlyn going to her four-month appointment.   And her being very concerned like, “Hey, Hattie's not meeting milestones. And I think that this isn't going to be a good appointment”. And sure enough, the doctor agreed.   We've always had amazing doctors around us. And so, he agreed. And so, we got referred to neurology.   And another just cool story about how God just provides. One of my best friends growing up, his dad was a neurologist in Birmingham. And so, I called him.   And he's like, all right, I got it. You're going to be here next Thursday. I'm like, oh, okay.   When we were kind of told like it's going to be like three or four months before we can even get you into a neurologist. And so, like God just kind of provided that. And we started that journey of trying to figure out what's going on.   And anyone who's ever had a special needs child, especially when you don't know what it is. Because there was nothing we could have done to foresee this happening. What Hattie had was called DeNovo, like just completely her.   Didn't come from me. Didn't come from Kaylin. And there's no other kids with special needs in our family.   It was just something we couldn't have expected or planned or could have even seen or anything like that. And so just kind of going through a lot of different doctors and tests and eventually getting referred to Johns Hopkins in Baltimore. Because at the time they thought it might be a neuromuscular thing.   And so, from there, they're like, oh, we don't think that's what it is. But then we ran a whole bunch of genetic panels. And like you're just going through all of that.   It definitely there's waves, right? Like it's like you want an answer, but at some level you're afraid of the answer. So, like each time we would do testing stuff before nothing would ever come back.   And so, it was like a relief. Okay, well, good. It's not that one.   Okay. Not that one. But then you're still like, well, what is it?   And so, after we went to Baltimore, they did much more extensive genetic testing. We found out she had this genetic disorder, or syndrome is what they're calling it now called GNV1. And it's crazy rare.   Like at the time, there were only 64 known cases. It was discovered in 2016. So, there's chances that there's other kids out there with it.   I think now there's a little over 100 that they know of. We're part of like a Facebook group where there's some of them in there. And so that's what we got the diagnosis for Hattie.   And so, what that means, I guess, probably no one knows what GNV1 is. Not even doctors. We go to doctors like, oh, can you tell us what this is?   We'll do our best. But it just starts out as hypotonia and global delay, which means every aspect of her is delayed from speech to gross and fine motor movements and all that kind of stuff. And also like with kids with special needs, it doesn't seem to affect any one of them the exact same way.   And so, but the thing about Hattie is like she has an infectious smile. She has this joy that is unreal. Like anybody that meets her just can't get enough of her.   And that is true in so many ways. Hattie uses a wheelchair to get around and Hattie's expressive language. So, her ways to communicate is behind.   But she understands everything. I mean, everything, which is pretty amazing, is my understanding. Not all the kids have that ability to receive and understand things as well as she does.   But she is an absolute joy. We used to always say and still do that Hattie's going to change the world. And we know the fact she's changed my world for sure.   And we know she's changed many others. But yeah, I could keep going on and on. But where we are today, like genuinely that she is a purpose and a reason why I've got to get up every single day.   Yeah. So, she's pretty amazing. Like I'm just yeah, I could go on and on about her.   Laura Dugger: (13:08 - 18:15) I think you described her so well with an infectious smile and joy is the word that comes to mind when you see her. Yeah. And now a brief message from our sponsors.   I want to say thank you to our longtime sponsor Chick-fil-A East Peoria. I hope that you've already downloaded the Chick-fil-A app. Because did you know that with the app you can skip the line and have food ready for you when you arrive?   This is one of my favorite options when I'm taking my four daughters to Chick-fil-A East Peoria. Download the Chick-fil-A app today and start earning points toward free rewards that are fully customized to your preferences and tastes. Chick-fil-A was named as one of Glassdoor's best places to work in the nation.   That's a huge honor. And one team member even wrote, no comparison. 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But we had him, and we were like, okay, we're broke. We're done.   No more. But he's awesome. But yeah, the move forward to then, you know, that COVID stuff was really hard.   It was really hard. I was working for a church, and I do sports and rec ministry, and also I was doing student ministry at the time. And so, for me personally, like, things just kind of got shut down.   No one was doing sports leagues, and student ministry looked weirder than ever. And then my wife, she was working in the emergency room as a PA, and so she was facing everything head on. And so, I guess that kind of started in March.   It's funny, just to kind of back up a little bit. We felt prior to that, probably February or March of that 2020, when things were kind of like exploding, we just felt the Lord doing something in our lives. We felt like He was preparing us for something.   We felt like it was going to be something just amazing. But then as we moved forward to try to understand what God is doing, what He was telling us, in May, my 4-year-old, she had her preschool graduation. And I'll never forget this day.   My wife was a go-getter. She's tough. She's strong.   And we had a super weird COVID graduation for Isla, my 4-year-old. And it was weird because it was a drive-through graduation, so we had to get up there early and go do it. So, my wife also, she would do work night shifts so that she could be home with the kids when I couldn't be there.   And so, it wasn't uncommon for her to have to sleep in some. But this was like she hadn't worked the night before, and she hadn't worked. And so, we'd been off for two days, but she was just so exhausted.   She had this terrible headache that morning. And for her to say, like, I can't go to the graduation, that was like, there's something significant here. And I told her, like, she had gone to the doctor about a week before and got on some antibiotics, but it wasn't doing anything.   And I was just like, hey, I think it's time to go back to the doctor because you're not any better. And I've got to take these kids to this graduation. So, I loaded up all the kids.   We went to the drive-through graduation. While I was there, she called and said that her sister was going to take her to the emergency room. So that was a long day.   At that time, COVID was full on, so she couldn't have visitors. No one could come in with her. She had to be dropped off and go inside.   One huge plus in that for our specific situation is that she was taken to her own emergency room. So, she still had her friends and what she would call family there as well. And so, she dropped her off.   My sister-in-law dropped her off and just kind of waited in the parking lot until we figured out what was going on. So, it kind of went throughout that whole day. And I remember that night, the school was doing another virtual graduation where they showed pictures and that sort of thing.   And she texted me and said, I need to talk to you now. I was like, okay, like right now? Because I'm home alone with all four of the kids.   She's like, yeah, and I need you to get away from the kids. I was like, this doesn't sound good. What could this be?   And so, we FaceTimed, and that's where she told me they think I have leukemia. And so then as things started speeding up, we sent out a message to our church asking for prayers. From there, I put the kids to bed.   I drove to Pensacola. She got transferred to Pensacola, and we started treatment there for leukemia. So that was what happened.   That was the big moment in May. And then from there, there's a whole lot more. And so, I'll share as you wish.   Laura Dugger: (22:37 - 22:54) Wow. Thank you for catching us up to that point, James. I can't even imagine the initial devastation that comes.   And as your journey unfolds, I remember seeing a post about leaving your light on.   James Jetton: (22:54 - 24:24) Yeah. Like I said earlier, my wife always did the night shift. And so, I always left the light on for her when she was at work and then turned it off when she came home.   And so, yeah, so early on, I said that I'm not turning the light off until you come home. And so, during that time, the first treatment, it doesn't seem like a lot now because she was in the hospital so much. We didn't know how long she'd be in there.   But the first initial treatment, they're like, you're going to be in for three weeks. And so, I knew that she wouldn't be home for three weeks. And I guess this is me just kind of realizing that was a long time for the kids.   I remember talking to a friend of mine who was leading a small group of high school boys. And I remember him telling them, like, how hard do you think it would be if your mom was gone for three weeks? I was like, yeah, it's not easy.   But so. So, yeah, so that was that was the reason. Just like my wife, one, she was a light in the midst of all the darkness that she was having to face.   And I just wanted to make a point that like, hey, we're leaving this light on for you until you come home. And in a lot of respects, you know, she did go home. Long, long story.   But, yeah, that that was the reason for the light.   Laura Dugger: (24:25 - 24:34) So, well, and the way that you describe her, it sounds like our mutual friend April said her joy was just out of this world.   James Jetton: (24:34 - 24:36) Yeah, that's true.   Laura Dugger: (24:36 - 24:49) It sounds like maybe the both of you share that, but you were not entering into a joyful season. So, what did the next few months and year even look like?   James Jetton: (24:49 - 30:47) Yeah. So initially, when things went down, my wife and I agreed that we would not let our kids lose both their parents. And so, I tried to make it a point to be home at night.   So, when we were in Pensacola, like I would stay with her some nights, but I would also be home at night to put the kids to bed or I would put the kids to bed and I'd drive over that night and come back in the morning or be with her during the day. Like, you know, it was just crazy stuff. One, you know, it happened at the end of the school year.   So, we have all the kids at home. We didn't get to send them off to school. We were blessed to have an amazing college student.   It was one of Kaetlin's girls that she got to mentor when she was in high school. She was an amazing girl. She decided she would be like our nanny that summer.   And so, she was with our kids all day, every day. So, I could go and be with Kaetlin during the day and come home at night. And so, we went through that.   We were here and we did the treatment in Pensacola. It didn't work. And so, the next step at that point was like, well, what are we doing now?   And on a Thursday, the doctor was like, I think we need to go to MD Anderson. We'll see if there's a spot. And then on a Friday, they had a spot.   And then on Monday, we were in Houston at MD Anderson. I went to MD Anderson with her. You know, COVID protocol there still.   I could only be with her for 14 days and inpatient. And then I had to leave as an inpatient. So, I can only go with her for 14 days in that initial time.   And so, we went there. She started a treatment plan. We found an apartment.   And then I left. And then her dad came. And her dad was huge in a lot of this stuff and was able to allow us to do things like me and be with the kids.   And so, I think I stayed there for 10 days. And then he came over to stay with Kaetlin to take her back and forth to the hospital, just receiving treatment. And then I came home, and I came back to Niceville.   And that was during the summer. July, we were at home. We stayed in Niceville just kind of waiting to see, like, is Kaet going to be there longer?   Or is she going to be coming back here? And that was a wild summer. And this is what I think I would tell a lot of people that are going through hard things.   Like just because you're going through hard things doesn't mean there's other hard things. They're just a part of life. And, you know, when you have four kids, stuff happens.   You know, like we had one of my daughters, Isla, she had to have eye surgery that summer. While Kaet was in Houston. So that was an interesting thing.   My four-year-old son, he busted his head open on the back of a step going outside. So, he had to have some stitches in his head. He's the second that has had stitches in our family.   And he was the youngest. So, then the treatment, the goal was to get her to a place where she could do a bone marrow transplant. And so, we got, they got her to that point.   Her leukemia cell counts were low enough that we're ready to do a bone marrow transplant. And at that point, you know, we decided we're going to move to Houston. Everything was virtual at that time.   And I just couldn't see any reason why we couldn't all be together in Houston. And so, we found an apartment, we hunkered down. It's a two-bedroom apartment.   We built some makeshift bunk beds. And so, we moved there in August. And the community we have here was unreal.   The support that we have. Like I didn't, we didn't have to make a meal for, I felt like six months, I think. Like it was just crazy.   And people were allowing it and giving us money. So, we didn't have to worry about these kinds of things and what we're doing. And from moving packing boxes, like, I mean, I can't, it's just unfathomable.   All the different things that were put in place for us to do, to do what we did. And I don't think it would have happened without the community that came around us and our church here was great, but I've got to see The Big-C Church. And, and, and it was, it was amazing.   And so, we ended up, we all moved to Houston, and we lived in a two-bedroom apartment. Part of that story is like, you know, it's like, all right, we're doing this. And then talk about kids.   My four-year-old, the one that had also had the eye surgery, she had broken her ankle on a scooter. Like a week before we're going, it was like, are you kidding me? How is this happening right now?   But we had some great friends like, you know, when your wife is involved in the middle of the medical world, it makes access to doctors and stuff a lot easier when you're in a small town, like we are. So, they got it taken care of, got her in a cast. I was like, yeah, but we can't return with this hard cast.   We're going to Houston. He's like, all right, we'll get her in a hard cast. And we'll put her in a boot for the rest of the time.   So, we moved there. And you know, the dreams of like riding scooters around downtown Houston and doing all this kind of stuff kind of went away a little bit with the kid. And so, he, but there was a pool there.   So, we went swimming, she could swim. And so, we, we just made the best of what we had. Like we, we had a lot of good memories in that little apartment, even though it was, it was tough.   I remember, we, Halloween wasn't too long ago. We had our own little Halloween party in that apartment where we all dressed up, even Kaet. Cause she ended up getting her bone marrow transplant that time.   And another aspect of where dad was so important is when you get in the bone marrow transplant, you cannot leave, and you can have one guest. And so, her dad came and he stayed with her. It was about 30 days of bone marrow transplant.   And so, he was there with her so I could be with the kids, doing the best I can with that virtual school and, and managing Ryder and Hattie in the midst of trying to do school work with the kids. It's nothing I ever want to go back to.   Laura Dugger: (30:48 - 31:03) Well, and not to mention you appreciate The Big-C Church, but Houston was not your long-term community. So, being here in this new place and all of these transitions, what were the results of her bone marrow transplant?   James Jetton: (31:04 - 40:17) Yeah. So, the bone marrow transplant, it ended up working. She went into remission and so we get to come home Thanksgiving of 2020.   We came home and that was awesome. It was like a huge homecoming. Finally got back home.   She's, she's in remission. We felt like we'd beaten this. We, you know, we got that Christmas here and we were back home.   We even, our family always loves to go, has always gone to North Carolina for vacation every year. And we didn't get to do that. But so, it was like, now we're going.   And so, in January we're like, all right, we're going kids. It was just me and the kids and Kaet and we wanted to go see snow. So, we went up there and we found a place to stay.   It was an awesome trip. Loved it so much. We, when we had to check out of our place, we found another house so we could stay in for a few more days.   And so, you know, at that time though, when we were doing that, she was kind of having these red bumps kind of popping up over her. We didn't really know what it was. It could have been a reaction.   We couldn't figure it out. Saw some doctors here locally. No one could really figure out what it was.   And I think fast forward, what we found out probably, I think it was February. She came out of remission and that was kind of the beginning signs of her coming out of remission. And so that's where, life sped up.   Like, I mean, if it wasn't already fast, it was, it was just unreal. It was like a whirlwind like it was because she had to fly to Houston to go and see her doctors. And so, she was in Houston by herself when she found out that she had come out of remission, and they were going to start immediately.   So, she stays, and she flies over on Friday and on Monday they got her back doing her treatment. And so, and I was like, well, it looks like we're moving to Houston. And I was like, but this time we're not staying in a two-bedroom apartment.   It's like we're going to make this a little bit more manageable for us. So, we had some great family. Kaetlin actually had a cousin who lived in Houston.   We found a house inside their neighborhood that we could rent. And this was, you know, more, more provision that he just continued to show. We found this house in like a week and we had people from our community boxing up everything in our house.   He's gotten a truck, and we thought that we'd all get everything in one truck. But we didn't get everything in one truck. We'd even hired the movers to load up the truck.   They couldn't get it all in there. So, I was like, y'all told me that it would all fit on this truck, but now it's not. And it's Friday at like 5 p.m. when we were supposed to leave tonight. So, we're not leaving. But my brother came down. I had another one of my best friends come down and they were like, we got to go, we're going to make this happen.   So that next morning, I'm not kidding. When there was like 20 to 30 guys in my house, a brother had gotten the truck. I hadn't even, they left early to go with the truck.   I'd come. And I was at the house with the kids at a friend's house. And when me and the kids showed up, these 30 guys had already loaded up the truck and we were ready to go.   Guy came and dropped off a big spread of McDonald's for everybody. We prayed over us and we headed out that morning. And so, it was just, I mean, just crazy that, you know, in one week we packed up a four-bedroom house, loaded up two trucks and drove to Houston and we're now unloading at a new house in Houston.   And, and that's where we were for a while. That was where Kaetlin, then we went back into the treatment more aggressively trying to get her back to remission. And so that was, when we moved there in March of 2021.   And that was kind of our place for a while. We actually thought we'd be there for a real long time. Kids had started school there, trying our best to get connected community there, but it's difficult, especially when you've come from a place where you feel so connected and then you're moving somewhere new where you don't really know anybody.   And then you're moving there in a time where the whole town shut down. It was tough, but we got the kids back in school. We tried to start getting them back into normalcy of life.   And there's all these new trials when you're going through this stuff every day, it seems like there's a new trial. MD Anderson is amazing. They treat each patient. It's like an individual.   So, every plan they have is just specifically for that patient. And so, they were going to try to do this CAR T-cell treatment. So, we'd kind of gone through the whole summer, and then we get to the point where she's going to do her CAR T-cell treatment.   Now, you know, we, we were hunkered down with this COVID stuff. Like we didn't, we didn't do much. We got really good at DoorDash and grocery delivery.   And we, you know, we masked up everywhere we could because Kaetlin's system was so immuno-compromised and we had done what we had thought was a very good job of keeping her safe, keeping everyone safe. Well, and then she got to the point where she was ready to start this new trial with CAR T-cell treatment. And she gets admitted that night and every time they go in and they give her a COVID test, well, that night she had COVID.   And it was, it was like, what? And she didn't feel bad. Her dad had gotten it too.   Like we, and I, so I remember getting that, it was like one o'clock in the morning. I was asleep. I remember it like blowing up my phone.   And I was like, I didn't realize it until later. And I talked to her. And that was definitely a tough conversation because she had to like get moved, packed up and moved out and moved to a different place and then treatment for the COVID stuff.   But the crazy part was, and it was kind of, you know, I wanted to get frustrated about things I could, but like, she had zero symptoms and she had just tested positive. And so, the next morning we all had to go get tested. And it was just the weirdest thing.   I know that COVID has been so devastating to so many people. But in that moment for us, it was like, we don't like, I was like, I ran nine miles yesterday and now I'm positive for COVID. I don't.   And so, but what it did was it kicked her out of the trial that she was on. And so, then she had to come home. The next process was just kind of getting her ready for that same thing.   Basically, what her doctor did was like, I'm not taking out, you're going to get kicked off the trial, but I'm just going to make you my own individual patient. We're going to do it that way. And so, we had some, we had some pretty high hopes for this.   Doctor seemed pretty optimistic about this plan. And so, we had been renting our house in, in Niceville. And with this new plan, I would have had Kaetlin there for like three years.   And so, we were like, you know, do we really want to rent our house anymore? It's like, no, we don't. All right, well let's sell our house.   So, we sold our house, and it sold in like less than 24 hours. And it's like $25,000 over asking price. It was like, well, okay, God, I feel like that's what we're supposed to do.   And so, she went in to get that treatment. And, and, uh, unfortunately, uh, we found out that didn't work. Uh, it was like, well, she can't remember coming home and saying like, well, I'm ready.   I want to go back home. I was like, what? We just sold our house.   We don't have a home right now. But God always makes a way and you always provide always. Um, and so we, you know, I was like, all right, we want to go home.   We're going to go home. And at first I was being very logical. I was like, well, let's let the kids finish out the semester.   Cause this was like around Halloween is when she realized it didn't work and we're going to come home. So, we were able to come home. We had some amazingly generous friends who they got us a private flight to come home for that Halloween.   And I guess when we were there, um, that's where we really just decided we need to be back. And, and so she, when we went back to talk to her doctors about managing her leukemia remotely. And so that was what the plan was.   So we, we moved back that Thanksgiving, uh, with all of our stuff and we were looking for a place to stay. It was actually kind of a fun month. We were living on the beach for a couple months or really from Thanksgiving to right before Christmas.   We had some pretty awesome things come available. We were able to live in a house on the beach. And so that was, that was mine and my wife's always kind of like a special place.   And so, we love the water, and we love the beach. And so that was an awesome place for us to be. And so, uh, coming back, it was tough.   She was getting out of the hospital a lot just with fevers and stuff like that. And then we got to have Christmas here that December. And then January 9th of this past year, she, she, uh, eventually passed away.   We weren't expecting, I mean, we knew that there would be an end, but I don't think we could have expected it to, um, happen then. And I think we kind of thought we'd have a little bit more time, but we didn't, but we were thankful. I'm thankful for my wife.   It was like we got to get back now because we knew that when an issue did pass that we needed to be in our hometown and not in Houston, where our community was much smaller.   Laura Dugger: (40:18 - 40:27) So, yeah. And so, you're together, you're celebrating Christmas. And then things suddenly turned unexpectedly.   James Jetton: (40:28 - 40:28) Yeah.   Laura Dugger: (40:28 - 40:31) And that led to losing her on January 9th.   James Jetton: (40:32 - 44:59) Yeah. You know, nothing really happened like, you know, in that leukemia world. And you know, a lot of cancers that give you like, you know, a prognosis like, you have three months, you have four months full, but blood cancer is very different.   And it kind of exacts you and, and there's no way to really know for sure, like, is this going to work or how long do we have and that sort of thing. And she was just in and out of the hospital so much. When we came back home, when you have leukemia, anytime you have a fever above a hundred point four, it's like you're immediately going to the doctor.   And so that's kind of how, you know, when she went in, like, there's still kind of an expectation that she would come home. But then those last few days, like, I just, I vividly remember as we're trying to figure out what to do, we're going to, are we going to go to a new treatment plan or we're going to try something else? Or, or is this kind of the end?   And her doctor here, he said, there was a plan that we possibly could have done, but he was like, they're saying this got a success rate of like, whatever, nine of 10 people went into remission with it. He's like, but when you look closer, they were only in remission for four weeks. And he was like, is this what we want to do?   Cause chemo just, it wipes you out. And it's like, there's no way to continue to live like this. But she, Kaetlin, she was, she just had a way of bringing a peace over everybody.   She had a way of like knowing exactly what everyone needed, I guess, in some respects. Cause I remember leaving the day we decided we would not do the treatment plan. And I came home, like I said, I always try to be home to put my kids to bed.   She said that the night before it kind of, she went downhill fast. She got up and walked around the hospital with her dad and told her dad like, “Hey, I think I'm going to do, I think I'm going to do it. I'm going to do the treatment plan.”   You know, I've talked to him about this, but I feel like that was almost like the piece he needed to go home. You know, when she passed, it was like, it was beautiful. Like it was, it was such a blessing that she was in her home hospital and that the doors, it was like a revolving door.   I remember Kaetlin told me once, she said, “when I pass or when I'm in the last days, don't tell anyone that they can't come see me.” And so, we were trying to figure out how we're going to do this. And I was like, well, she said that anybody who wants to come see me, let them come see me.   And so, we put a word out and there was like a revolving door of people just coming in and out of the room all day. Like the doctors, the ER told the front desk people, like, you know, technically, I guess you're only supposed to have like two visitors or something because of the COVID things. And she was like, anybody that comes in and says they want to see Kaetlin Jetton, you say, “Go on up”.   So it was, it was pretty awesome seeing all these people come in and see her. And we had already gotten to see the impact that she had made on so many people's lives for the past couple of years, but it was cool to see them all there doing that. And I remember the night she passed, I leaned over, I was heading home and two of my best friends since the ninth grade had come down and they were at the house with the kids and I was coming home to put the kids to bed.   And I leaned over and gave her a kiss and I said, don't wait on me. It's like, it's okay. It's time to go home.   And sure enough, that's, I left that night and I got a phone call about 11 from her dad and she had passed and that, and I think that, you know, in some respects, it's like, should I have been there? I was like, but I think that also was like, no, Kaet wanted you to be with your two guys. And Kayla knew that her family would be there with her.   And she did exactly what she wanted to do. You know, she always had a plan even from her like celebration service. She had everything written out.   Who's going to speak, what songs are playing, when are we doing this? And so it was, it was, you know, it was pretty cool seeing how many people just came in and out and how she just kind of felt like she knew what she was doing, even up in the last days. So.   Laura Dugger: (45:00 - 45:55) Do you love The Savvy Sauce? Do you gain anything when you listen? Did you know that the two ways we earn money to keep this podcast live is through generous contributions from listeners and from our paying sponsors.   That means we can promote your business and you're still supporting The Savvy Sauce. It's a win-win. Please email us today at info@thesavvysauce.com to inquire about pricing for sponsoring each episode. Thank you for your consideration.    Well, James, your perspective is incredible. And yet I'm so sorry, such a deep loss for your whole family.   And what is life like now for all of your family these days? Cause it's still very recent. And I'm wondering if grief still comes up at unexpected times.   James Jetton: (45:56 - 50:49) Yeah. You know, it's, you know, it's a day-to-day thing, I believe. I don't, and grief is certainly something that sometimes you don't see it coming.   And I'll say, I love bragging on this community. I love bragging on this town so much. So, my kids, they're all in school, you know, and I'm bragging on my kids too.   After she passed, the kids got to stay home for a couple of weeks, but then it was time to go back to school. My two girls go to one school where actually Kaetlin went to school from kindergarten all through. So, I felt like that was a very special thing for her and the kids could go to the same school that their mom went to.   But then Hattie goes to a different school because of her special needs. And then Ryder goes to a different school. He's in preschool.   And so, after she passed, like, so it was complicated in the sense of, I've got to get Hattie to school at 7:30. I've got to get Lincoln out of school by like 8:45 and then Ryder can go in before 9:00 a.m. So, I would usually drop him off on the way. But I say, I'd say like, what does life look like?   Well, after she passed, I knew like, how am I going to make this work? And that semester, there was somebody in my house every morning at 7:00 a.m. to sit with the kids, help with breakfast, and help finish getting them ready while I could take Hattie to school at 7:30. And then I would come back home and after they finished getting ready, then I would take them to school. So, I had someone in my house every morning at 7:00 a.m. after she passed, which was, you know, they were doing it for the kids, but they were doing it for me too. I knew that I couldn't just lay in my bed and let people just come on in and take care of my kids. Like I had to get up, take a shower, look like I'm somewhat presentable and go on. And that's kind of how that last semester was, just community and people with meals and then through all that, trying to get them engaged, get them back into doing some things that they love to do.   And yeah, I like to brag on my kids in a lot of ways, this perspective kind of dawned on me in the past couple of weeks of like, I sent them back into a new school where they know very many people. Everybody knows them. Not everyone.   I don't know everybody. And they had to go and do that a few weeks after their mom passed. Here I am trying to stay away from people and not have a whole bunch of conversations, but yet the kids are stepping up and doing their thing.   And man, it's just, it's pretty inspiring when I think of it in that respect as well. Nowadays we are blessed that we get to have a nanny and it's, that's a whole cool story in itself. And that she worked with me in student ministry, and I'd actually left to go be a nanny for some other people in Nashville.   And I was texting her trying to figure out, “Hey, I need some help. You got any friends down here that want to be a nanny? Cause it's hard to find.”   And she's like, “Actually, I would love to come back and do it.” And that was just a huge blessing. Cause it was like, at the time of us having all these new things, I was able to be able to have somebody that the kids already knew come in and be there.   And so, she helps in so many ways and allows the kids to do their tennis and their soccer and gymnastics or whatever it may be. And it allows me to get to, coach them and be a part of that, those aspects of life, which I love doing so much. And so, she's really helped.   So, in our day to day now, like it, it's a lot of moving pieces. I mean, just last week, we got to go to a widower's retreat and there was never a worry, never worry about who's taking care of the kids, that they're getting to where they need to be. So, it's a genuine, like I get to see how a village truly takes care of the kids.   And yes, there are days and it's hard. And some days it just kind of sucks and it sucks for them. It sucks for me.   But I have gotten to see how God still shows out through the difficult moments and how he still provides no matter how far away I am or how close I am. He still continually provides. And I know that, and I know that he will not let us down.   It's one day at a time. And as we approach these new seasons, there's always new seasons. You talk about grief and things pop up.   I think that holidays will bring up stuff they already have in some respects and my wife, you know, she was a medical professional. So, when kids get sick, it's different now. We go to the doctor more often because mom's not here to take care of them and call in medicine.   But I think that we do sense a void in that when kids are sick and that sort of thing. But, today, like things are okay. We're doing all right.   Laura Dugger: (50:50 - 51:07) Well, and James, you were a journalism major and you're a very gifted writer. So where would you direct us to get to read more about your family and stay current and hopefully find ways that we can further support you?   James Jetton: (51:08 - 52:18) Well, my wife and I, we started a blog called Our Hands Go Up, and it's OurHandsGoUp.com. And that's formed out of, started with Hattie. That's where the blog started because Hattie, we talked about that joy that she has, but our hands will always go up.   Like her hands go up all the time and it just seems so appropriate. And the picture of hands going up, there's so many things that go to that with our praise to God, our vulnerability and our sides. And there's just a lot that comes through that anyway.   But yeah, Kaetlin started writing on that and I wrote some in that. She spearheaded it because she's way more organized and detailed than I am. So, it looks a lot prettier than what I would have done, but here recently, like I've felt a calling to bring it back and revitalize it.   So as of right now, like there's, my wife wrote a lot, and she still has writings that she never shared with anybody. So, I've started revitalizing it by sharing some of her writings, but I will be writing in there as well. So that would probably be a good place or even, and then my, just my social media, James Jetton, you can always see some crazy stories of my kids.   Laura Dugger: (52:21 - 52:34) Oh, wonderful. We will link to both of those in our show notes. And are there any practical needs that you do have at this time or any specific prayer requests you would like to share with us?   James Jetton: (52:35 - 53:26) You know, I think the specific prayer requests are just for me and for my kids. So, things are going to look different for them for sure. And I know there's going to be some hard moments.   So, I guess the prayer would just be, you know, provision as God's always provided. And, you know, when I say that, I don't just talk about it in like a material way, but like He seems to provide us with feelings, emotions, people, support, all of that. And so just provision for my kids and just encouragement and support for them as we've kind of walked through these, these new firsts for the kids and, and that it will just, they will still have, find the joy that we always talk about choosing and, and that my wife did so well that we will continue to find that joy through these more difficult days ahead for sure.   Laura Dugger: (53:26 - 53:58) Yes, Lord may it be so. Well, James, you clearly just have so much wisdom to share and I appreciate you walking through so much of your personal journey. And I know that you also do have a lighthearted personality and we're going to end on a lighter note because you may know that we're called The Savvy Sauce because Savvy is synonymous with practical knowledge.   And so, as my final question for you today, what is your Savvy Sauce?   James Jetton: (54:01 - 54:51) You know, my Savvy Sauce, it's just, it's one day at a time. I think that we get overwhelmed with, you know, I joke with people, like it's a stupid joke. But hey, if God wanted to give us more than one day at a time, He would. So, we only get one day, and He doesn't give us two days at one time.   You know, just taking things as they come one day at a time. We all have our goals. We all have our plans, our dreams and aspirations, but leaving space for the Holy Spirit and how God moves is critical.   And when you're walking through grief and you're walking through hard stuff, like thinking about too much out there in front of you can be debilitating. And so just focus on what your next step, just take one more step. We can always take one more step.   And so just kind of day at a time and just take one more step.   Laura Dugger: (54:52 - 55:08) James, thank you for your faithfulness to Kaet, your faithfulness to our Lord, your faithfulness to your children. And we will all be praying for each of you in this coming season and beyond. And just really grateful for you being my guest today.   James Jetton: (55:09 - 55:26) Well, I'm really grateful to be here. This is great. I'm thankful for the chance to just share her story and share our story.   I feel God has just moved and worked through us in so many amazing ways. And anytime I can get a chance to share how God has moved and worked, I'm thankful. So, thank you for having me.   Laura Dugger: (55:26 - 58:42) It's been an honor. One more thing before you go. Have you heard the term gospel before?   It simply means good news. And I want to share the best news with you. But it starts with the bad news.   Every single one of us were born sinners, but Christ desires to rescue us from our sin, which is something we cannot do for ourselves. This means there is absolutely no chance we can make it to heaven on our own. So, for you and for me, it means we deserve death and we can never pay back the sacrifice we owe to be saved.   We need a savior. But God loved us so much, he made a way for his only son to willingly die in our place as the perfect substitute. This gives us hope of life forever in right relationship with him.   That is good news. Jesus lived the perfect life we could never live and died in our place for our sin. This was God's plan to make a way to reconcile with us so that God can look at us and see Jesus.   We can be covered and justified through the work Jesus finished if we choose to receive what He has done for us. Romans 10:9 says, “That if you confess with your mouth Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” So, would you pray with me now?   Heavenly Father, thank you for sending Jesus to take our place. I pray someone today right now is touched and chooses to turn their life over to you. Will you clearly guide them and help them take their next step in faith to declare you as Lord of their life?   We trust you to work and change lives now for eternity. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.   If you prayed that prayer, you are declaring him for me, so me for him. You get the opportunity to live your life for him. And at this podcast, we're called The Savvy Sauce for a reason.   We want to give you practical tools to implement the knowledge you have learned. So, you ready to get started? First, tell someone.   Say it out loud. Get a Bible. The first day I made this decision, my parents took me to Barnes & Noble and let me choose my own Bible.   I selected the Quest NIV Bible and I love it. You can start by reading the book of John. Also, get connected locally, which just means tell someone who's a part of a church in your community that you made a decision to follow Christ.   I'm assuming they will be thrilled to talk with you about further steps, such as going to church and getting connected to other believers to encourage you. We wa

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In this episode of "Tennis Traverse," host Ivy Zhang delves into recent tennis tournaments, including the Qatar Open, Argentina Open, Rio Open, and Dubai Open. She analyzes surprising outcomes, such as Amanda Anisimova's victory over Jelena Ostapenko and Andrey Rublev's win in Qatar. Ivy also highlights Joao Fonseca's performance in Argentina and discusses the unpredictability of the Rio Open. She addresses broader issues like player safety and coaching controversies, emphasizing the importance of open dialogue. Timestamps:Qatar Open Women's Singles (00:01:19)Qatar Open Men's Singles Overview (00:02:47)Carlos Alcaraz's Performance (00:04:08)Unexpected Loss of Novak Djokovic (00:05:20)Final Match of Qatar Open (00:06:29)Argentina Open Highlights (00:08:56)Rio Open Expectations (00:10:12)Dubai Open Women's Singles Results (00:11:33)Clara Tauson vs. Mira Andreeva Final (00:18:01)Emma Raducanu's Emotional Situation (00:19:08)Rybakina's Coach Controversy (00:20:14)Conclusion of the Episode (00:21:46)Links mentioned:Joao Fonseca vs. Francisco Cerundolo: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zO3uw4baqeMJack Draper vs. Andrey Rublev: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_ZszGc-u2gClara Tauson vs. Mirra Andreeva: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nPc_qP1fwbUEmma Raducanu Article: https://www.cnn.com/2025/02/20/sport/emma-raducanu-dubai-tennis-update-spt-intl/index.htmlElena Rybakina Article: https://www.nytimes.com/athletic/6035283/2025/02/11/stefano-vukov-wta-ban-report-elena-rybakina-coach/Social Media:Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/tennistraverse/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Twitter:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://twitter.com/tennistraverse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Youtube:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/@TennisTraverse/videos⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Linktree: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://linktr.ee/tennistraverse⁠⁠⁠⁠SUBSCRIBE TO MY NEWSLETTER:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://ivannazhang428.substack.com/

In this deeply personal episode of the Miko Love Podcast, host Kumiko Love shares her journey through grief following the unexpected loss of her mother. She discusses the challenges faced in navigating the autopsy process, the lack of information provided by hospitals, and the emotional turmoil that ensued.Kumiko advocates for legislative change through 'Shirley's Law,' aimed at ensuring families are informed of their rights and options regarding autopsies. The episode emphasizes the need for transparency and compassion in healthcare, especially during times of loss.SIGN & SHARE THE PETITIONhttps://chng.it/ZHYFSQqjv8EPISODE CHAPTERS00:00 Introduction to a Personal Journey01:30 The Unexpected Loss of a Loved One06:15 Navigating Grief and Autopsy Decision12:20 Advocating for Autopsy Rights15:50 Call to Action and Legislative ChangeAbout Kumiko:Kumiko Love is the creator of The Budget Mom, LLC, a national bestselling author of the book "My Money My Way," and an Accredited Financial Counselor.She is a dedicated mom of two boys, a passionate sourdough baker, and the proud owner of Pine Manor Naturals. With over 2 million followers across social media, Kumiko's expertise and approachable style have been featured in major media outlets such as Forbes, The New York Times, and Good Morning America. As the host of The Miko Love Podcast, Kumiko dives into the exploration of her own passions and a range of captivating topics, offering fresh perspectives and engaging discussions about life. She inspires millions to take control of their financial lives while embracing passionate living and life fulfillment. Thank you for being a part of our community! Contact The Miko Love Podcast Follow me on Instagram @mikolovepodcast Email me at kumiko@mikolovepodcast.com Thanks for listening & keep feeding your curiosity!

The Weekly Blitz is brought to you by our friends over at Shop Marketing Pros. If you want to take your shop to the next level, you need great marketing. Shop Marketing Pros does top-tier marketing for top-tier shops. I'd like to give another shoutout to our sponsor, Shop Marketing Pros. They are the only marketing company I recommend, and they handle all of the marketing for my own shop as well. If you're serious about growth, you need strategies that actually work: better websites, higher Google rankings, and ads that bring real customers through your doors.Visit ShopMarketingPros.com/chris to partner with a team that understands your business. Because every great shop deserves marketing that's just as great.Check out their podcast here: https://autorepairmarketing.captivate.fm/If you would like to join their private Facebook group go here: https://www.facebook.com/groups/autorepairmarketingmastermindIn this episode of "The Weekly Blitz," host Coach Chris Cotton opens up about his deeply personal journey with grief following the passing of his beloved wife Kimberly's mother on New Year's Eve. With heartfelt sincerity, he delves into the complex and often overwhelming stages of grief, sharing insights and reflections from his own experience. Chris emphasizes the crucial importance of being prepared for the inevitable reality of loss, introducing listeners to the "red envelope yellow envelope" concept. This thoughtful approach involves meticulously documenting essential information and end-of-life plans, ensuring that loved ones are not left in the dark during times of emotional turmoil.Chris underscores the necessity of having those often uncomfortable yet vital conversations about end-of-life wishes and preparations. By addressing these topics head-on, individuals can significantly ease the burden on their families and friends, allowing them to focus on healing and remembrance rather than logistical challenges. Throughout the episode, Chris also touches on the emotional and spiritual dimensions of grief, offering guidance and support to those navigating similar paths.He encourages listeners to prioritize self-care and preparedness, not only in their personal lives but also within their business endeavors. By fostering a mindset of readiness and resilience, individuals can better cope with the unpredictable nature of life and loss. Through his candid storytelling and practical advice, Coach Chris Cotton provides a compassionate and empowering message, reminding us all of the strength found in vulnerability and the peace that comes from being prepared.Introduction to the Episode (00:00:01)Coach Chris Cotton introduces the podcast and its focus on auto repair business insights.Happy New Year Message (00:01:13)Chris shares a New Year greeting and hints at personal challenges faced recently.Discussion of Loss (00:02:29)Chris reflects on the passing of Kimberly's mother and the impact on their family.Red Envelope Yellow Envelope Concept (00:03:46)Importance of planning for unexpected events is emphasized through personal experiences.The Emotional Toll of Grief (00:06:50)Chris describes the emotional reactions and support needed during grief.Organizing Affairs for Loved Ones (00:08:18)Advice on preparing personal and business affairs to ease burdens on family.The Stages of Grief (00:10:27)Chris outlines the stages of grief observed in Kimberly's reactions to loss.Denial and Anger Stages (00:11:38)Discussion of denial and anger stages in the grieving...

The Weekly Blitz is brought to you by our friends over at Shop Marketing Pros. If you want to take your shop to the next level, you need great marketing. Shop Marketing Pros does top-tier marketing for top-tier shops. I'd like to give another shoutout to our sponsor, Shop Marketing Pros. They are the only marketing company I recommend, and they handle all of the marketing for my own shop as well. If you're serious about growth, you need strategies that actually work: better websites, higher Google rankings, and ads that bring real customers through your doors.Visit ShopMarketingPros.com/chris to partner with a team that understands your business. Because every great shop deserves marketing that's just as great.Check out their podcast here: https://autorepairmarketing.captivate.fm/If you would like to join their private Facebook group go here: https://www.facebook.com/groups/autorepairmarketingmastermindIn this episode of "The Weekly Blitz," host Coach Chris Cotton opens up about his deeply personal journey with grief following the passing of his beloved wife Kimberly's mother on New Year's Eve. With heartfelt sincerity, he delves into the complex and often overwhelming stages of grief, sharing insights and reflections from his own experience. Chris emphasizes the crucial importance of being prepared for the inevitable reality of loss, introducing listeners to the "red envelope yellow envelope" concept. This thoughtful approach involves meticulously documenting essential information and end-of-life plans, ensuring that loved ones are not left in the dark during times of emotional turmoil.Chris underscores the necessity of having those often uncomfortable yet vital conversations about end-of-life wishes and preparations. By addressing these topics head-on, individuals can significantly ease the burden on their families and friends, allowing them to focus on healing and remembrance rather than logistical challenges. Throughout the episode, Chris also touches on the emotional and spiritual dimensions of grief, offering guidance and support to those navigating similar paths.He encourages listeners to prioritize self-care and preparedness, not only in their personal lives but also within their business endeavors. By fostering a mindset of readiness and resilience, individuals can better cope with the unpredictable nature of life and loss. Through his candid storytelling and practical advice, Coach Chris Cotton provides a compassionate and empowering message, reminding us all of the strength found in vulnerability and the peace that comes from being prepared.Introduction to the Episode (00:00:01)Coach Chris Cotton introduces the podcast and its focus on auto repair business insights.Happy New Year Message (00:01:13)Chris shares a New Year greeting and hints at personal challenges faced recently.Discussion of Loss (00:02:29)Chris reflects on the passing of Kimberly's mother and the impact on their family.Red Envelope Yellow Envelope Concept (00:03:46)Importance of planning for unexpected events is emphasized through personal experiences.The Emotional Toll of Grief (00:06:50)Chris describes the emotional reactions and support needed during grief.Organizing Affairs for Loved Ones (00:08:18)Advice on preparing personal and business affairs to ease burdens on family.The Stages of Grief (00:10:27)Chris outlines the stages of grief observed in Kimberly's reactions to loss.Denial and Anger Stages (00:11:38)Discussion of denial and anger stages in the grieving...

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EVEN MORE about this episode!Join us for a powerful and transformative episode as Diane Calderon shares her journey from grief to spiritual awakening after the tragic loss of her son, Matthew. Discover how this event led her from a career in government to becoming an evidential medium, finding comfort and purpose through messages from the spirit world.Diane explores the healing power of mediumship, especially for bereaved parents, and shares moving stories, like that of a father who found peace after his son's passing. Learn how spirits communicate, how to recognize signs from loved ones, and the profound connection we share with those who have passed.Whether you're grieving or curious about spiritual connections, Diane's story offers inspiration, comfort, and guidance for anyone seeking healing and understanding.Guest Biography:Diane Calderon is a certified Medium, Reiki Master, and Author with a Master's in Sociology from Arizona State University. After retiring from government service in 2009, a profound After Death Communication from her son Matthew in 2014 inspired her spiritual journey.Her memoir, Living & Loving Life All Day Every Day, shares her experiences connecting with the afterlife. Diane has trained with top spiritual teachers and appeared in Psychic News Magazine, podcasts, and the Amazon documentary Life to Afterlife: I Want to Talk to the Dead. She now works with Susanne Wilson, supporting classes on psychic development and afterlife studies.Episode Chapters:(0:00:01) - Discovering Spirituality and Healing Through Tragedy(0:04:06) - Unexpected Loss and Signs From Beyond(0:17:45) - Exploring Spiritual Shifts and Influences(0:28:39) - Finding Peace and Closure Through Mediumship(0:36:12) - Healing Through Mediumship and Spirituality(0:40:58) - Communicating With Spirits and Signs(0:52:27) - Connecting With Spirits(1:00:54) - Embracing Grief and Finding LovePlease join Julie next week with your question.Thursdays at 8pm ET, 7pm CT, 5pm PT.https://askjulieryanshow.comAnd, please leave a five-star review and subscribe so you can hear all the new episodes.Sponsors & RecommendationsDisclaimer: This show is for informational purposes only. It is not intended to be medical, psychological, financial or legal advice. Please contact a licensed professional. The Ask Julie Ryan show, Julie Ryan, and all parties involved in producing, recording and distributing it assume no responsibility for listener's actions based on any information heard on this or any Ask Julie Ryan shows or podcasts.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

248. Stories Series: Discipline of Celebration in the Midst of Unexpected Loss and Grief with Jonathan Pitts   Psalm 37:4 (ESV) "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart."   Questions We Discuss: How did your magazine, For Girls Like You, originate? How did life unexpectedly change during this season of your life? Will you catch us up to speed on what God had planned for you next?   Other Episode Mentioned from The Savvy Sauce: Unexpected Grief and What Helped Me Through It Can Help You Too with Singer and Blogger, Brittany Price Brooker   Jonathan Pitts is a pastor and author. Since the passing of our founder and his late wife, Wynter, in 2018, Jonathan Pitts has been steering the ship at For Girls Like You. A ministry executive for almost 20 years, Jonathan is a pastor and a relationship-minded visionary leader who is passionate about reaching girls with the hope of Jesus and how the hope that He gives shapes their identity and purpose.   Jonathan is the father of the four girls that have inspired the ministry from the very beginning, Alena, Kaitlyn Camryn & Olivia, and a son, Jonathan Joshua Arrow Pitts. He is married to his best friend, Peta, and an avid golfer.   Follow Jonathan on Instagram For Girls Like You Website Church of the City Website   Thank You to Our Sponsor: Leman Property Management Company   Connect with The Savvy Sauce through Our Website   Gospel Scripture: (all NIV)   Romans 3:23 “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,”   Romans 3:24 “and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”   Romans 3:25 (a) “God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood.”    Hebrews 9:22 (b) “without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness.”    Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”    Romans 5:11 “Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.”    John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”   Romans 10:9 “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”    Luke 15:10 says “In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”   Romans 8:1 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”   Ephesians 1:13–14 “And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession- to the praise of his glory.”   Ephesians 1:15–23 “For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.”   Ephesians 2:8–10 “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God‘s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.“   Ephesians 2:13 “But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.“   Philippians 1:6 “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”

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In this episode of the Let's Get Real Podcast we talk with a new friend, Daniel Brooker. Daniel shares about the tragic loss of his wife, the healing he's found in Jesus, and the passion he has to help other widowers find healing. You can follow Daniel on Instagram by CLICKING HERE You can find information about Refuge Widowers by CLICKING HERE If you've had trust broken in your marriage, join us for a free marriage master class called: Restoring Broken Trust on Tuesday, November 19th at 8PM EST or on Wednesday, November 20, at 12 PM EST. You can register for free, by CLICKING HERE.

Listen to ASCO's Journal of Clinical Oncology Art of Oncology article, "The Holiday Card” by Dr. Laura Vater, who is a gastrointestinal oncologist at Indiana University Simon Comprehensive Cancer Center. The article is followed by an interview with Vater and host Dr. Lidia Schapira. Dr Vater shares how she processed the unexpected loss of a patient and how a colleague unknowingly helped her cope. TRANSCRIPT Narrator: The Holiday Card, by Laura B. Vater, MD, MPH  I kept her family holiday card tucked into the side pocket of my black briefcase for a year and 3 months after she died. I carried it back and forth to the office each day, never viewing it but with a deep awareness of its presence. It was a transitional object, my therapist said. I took it with me for reasons that were not logical or even fully clear to me—perhaps part of me thought if I kept it in that dark space, then maybe her death was not real, after all. Death is not new to me. Much of my work as a GI oncologist is palliating my patient's symptoms and helping them navigate the end of life. But she was not supposed to die. She was a vibrant, kind person, and I was treating her for a potentially curable condition. A team was assembled, a tumor board discussion was held, and a comprehensive plan was derived from published clinical trials and national guidelines. She was on track to finish chemotherapy and recover. She was meant to have decades more with her husband and teenage children.  This is what gnawed at me—death out of place. It was during a nap on a normal day, months into her treatment course. There were no proceeding symptoms or perceptible changes. The autopsy showed no apparent cause of death. Amid it all, her family was kind and expressed thanks. “She was grateful for your investment in her,” they said. “She felt cared for.” Rechanneling my distress, I rechecked the dose of every chemotherapy agent she received, along with each supportive medication. It was all per protocol, verified by pharmacy teams, and infused without adverse reactions. Yet, the questions remained. I continued to carry the weight of responsibility, along with the holiday card. In clinic the next week, I met a patient with the same diagnosis. Again, there was a multidisciplinary discussion, and we planned to give him the same drug regimen. After reviewing the more common side effects with him, a lump formed in my throat. “In exceedingly rare cases,” I said, “cancer treatment may lead to death.” My eyes began to water, and I pushed back the tears to answer his remaining questions. He completed the treatment and, over time, had no sign of recurrence. Many more patients followed with the same diagnosis and positive outcomes. And the card remained in the bag.  Over a year later, a senior mentor and I had a shared patient with two malignancies. We carefully discussed and managed her care, but she unfortunately had a rapid clinical decline and was admitted to the intensive care unit. Her family elected for comfort care, and she died soon after. We saw each other in the hallway the following week. “Just awful, wasn't it?” he said. I exhaled and nodded.  Perhaps he could see the invisible burden I carried, and he sighed. “We do the best we can with the data we have, but we're treating terrible diseases. Sometimes, bad things happen that we cannot predict or prevent. We did everything we could for her.” Something deep inside me released in that moment. Often, mentors do not realize how healing their words can be—even brief ones shared in passing on a busy clinical day. Eventually, on a quiet afternoon at home, these words gave me the courage to reach into the side pocket of my work bag and remove the white envelope. My name was written and underlined in royal blue ink. Slowly opening the card, I saw once again a snapshot of life: a beaming family with arms around each other amid a blanket of paradise-green trees. They were huddled so close that there was no space between them. I imagined how she might have felt at that moment, the warmth of her children pressing on either side and the joy spreading across her face. Perhaps someone had told a joke just moments before. My face crumpled, and I began to sob. How badly I wanted to cure her, to restore her to health, to see her year after year for follow-up, and hear about her children's unfolding lives. And now, they were navigating the world without their mother. One of the most challenging aspects of practicing oncology is the uncertainty of it all. Even when the variables are the same—diagnosis, staging, and treatment—the outcomes are unpredictable. We, of course, know and rationally accept this as physicians. It is the nature of our work to care for diverse and varied human beings. But even so, when devastation occurs unexpectedly and without apparent reason, the toll of grief can be crushing.  It is often the support we receive from one another that helps us heal. We must remind our mentees that despite our greatest efforts in a field of extensive data, unpredictable outcomes still happen. We will have questions that may never have answers. Our minds may try to cope with this randomness in ways that are not always logical. Our grief may linger like an open wound for months or even years to come. Caring words shaped by time and experience can help us process, cope, and continue on. I am not typically a person who holds onto holiday cards, but I have a tray in the bottom drawer of my home desk with about a dozen meaningful ones. This card now lives among them. I still often think about my patient and her family, and I even look at the card from time to time. However, it is no longer in that liminal space within the side compartment of my bag. It has become integrated into my life and remains part of me—her story forever interwoven with my own. Dr. Lidia Schapira: Hello, and welcome to JCO's Cancer Stories: The Art of Oncology, which features essays and personal reflections from authors exploring their experience in the oncology field. I'm your host, Dr. Lidia Schapira, Professor of Medicine at Stanford University. Today we're joined by Dr. Laura Vater, a gastrointestinal oncologist at the Indiana University Simon Comprehensive Cancer center. In this episode, we'll be discussing her Art of Oncology article, “The Holiday Card.”   Our guest disclosures will be linked in the transcript.   Laura, welcome to our podcast, and thank you for joining us.  Dr. Laura Vater: Hi, Lidia. Thank you so much for having me today. Dr. Lidia Schapira: It's our pleasure. So let's start by just asking you a general question that I think our authors like to share with listeners. And that is, why do you write? When do you write? When did you start writing? Dr. Laura Vater: Yeah, so I started writing, actually, during my first few years of medical school as a way to process and cope through many of the challenges and the difficulties and the emotional ups and downs of training. When I was a third year medical student, I was pregnant, and I was rotating through the high risk maternal fetal medicine rotation, and I witnessed a stillborn child, and that child was about the same gestational age that I was pregnant at that time. And I thought about that family. Had they picked out a crib, and had they chosen the color of paint for their walls? And anticipating this life and having it end in this just grief. And participating in that ritual of loss really evoked a deep emotional chord in me that I remember walking out right after that shift was about 2:00 in the morning and it was freezing cold in February. As I was walking in the parking lot, I just started crying. And I thought, I need a way to process and cope with the challenges that I'm witnessing in my training that served me very well. I always journaled through medical school and residency as an internal medicine resident, as an oncology fellow, and now during my gastrointestinal oncology practice. And sometimes I go a week or two without journaling, sometimes I'm writing every day and it kind of depends on the week, but it is truly something that helps me process and cope.  Dr. Lidia Schapira: So it's good to know that you are so comfortable with words and writing as a way of processing. But I'm curious to have you address the next layer, which is then to go back and turn it into a piece of art, turn it into a piece of writing that you want to share with others. Can you talk a little bit about that process and the role that's played in your professional development? Dr. Laura Vater: For a long time, writing was something very informal in my life, and then I started really enjoying spending time writing, and so I started participating in different writing groups. I participate in a Gold Humanism Writing Group with Judith Hannan. I did the Fall Narrative Medicine Workshop at Columbia, part of the Pegasus Physician Writers at Stanford University, where we meet every month to go over our writing. We've created a Writing for Wellness program on campus. And so this went from something very informal then something that I really was drawn to and loved, and that, really working with my peers, participating in writing prompts, reading both fiction, medical related nonfiction, and narrative stories, that's really crafted my ability as a writer to turn something that's just a reflection into something more, into something that I hope will help others. I think we all feel that way, right? If we share something that is perhaps a bit vulnerable, sometimes shrouded in shame, that perhaps it might help another trainee or early career physician through what they're going through.  Dr. Lidia Schapira: Well, maybe you're the best person that I can think of to answer this question, but tell me a little bit about how you see this narrative in oncology and narrative medicine applied to practice to training. Dr. Laura Vater: I think that it's something that is necessary. It's something that helps me to pause, to slow down, to see the humanity in my patients, and also to hold on to my own humanity. And so it's truly something that allows me to continue to practice, and I hope to practice well through paying attention to the nuances of my patients and their stories. Sometimes, I'll be sitting in a room with a person, and I'll notice the color of their glasses, or I will be moved by something, a direct quote that they say. And I think that both reading narrative essays and writing helps me to slow down and to pay more attention. I think it helps, hopefully helps me to be a better clinician, but also allows me to have more meaning in what I do. Dr. Lidia Schapira: Yeah, perhaps even we can use the word ‘joy'. It's more interesting if you're curious and open and you see these things. Can I ask you how you deal with the emotional labor and the emotional investment in your patients? You seem to be somebody who has no difficulty engaging at a very deep level. But how do you work that through and fit it into the rest of your life? Dr. Laura Vater: You know, it's interesting that you asked me that question, because over the last two weeks, that has been the question in my mind that I've been coming back to. I've been covering for a partner that's been out of town and another partner on maternity leave. And so I found that my clinical work has been a bit busier and that I've hit that point in my early career where I know my patients very well. But as a gastrointestinal oncologist, many of my patients, I'm walking through devastating recurrences of what we thought was curable pancreatic cancer is now stage 4. So I've found that even over the last two weeks, I had a few days last week where I came home after the clinic and I had nothing left in the tank. I have my husband and my eight year old daughter, and I just had a few days last week where I actually asked myself, I said, “How am I going to continue to do this work, both clinically, physically, intellectually, and emotionally exhausting days, right?” Our clinics can be all of those. Our clinical work can be all of those.  And so I actually took some time over the weekend. I've been intentional for a very long time about how can I connect with patients deeply to know them as human beings, help them to walk through really awful things, but then be able to have both health and wellbeing and joy in my own life. Because I think we deserve that. We deserve the health that we strive so hard to give to others. It's something that I'm still processing through. Things that help me cope? Of course, I regularly go to therapy. I think that really helps because I have a lot of patients who do pass from their cancers. And I also write. Writing is a tool that I come to, and sometimes it's even writing, “I'm emotionally exhausted today. And this and this, and this happened.” And sometimes it's being in nature, sometimes it's listening to music, sometimes it's just doing nothing. Reading a book I've read before or watching a show I've read before.   But I keep coming back to this idea of, there's this thought of we all develop some emotional calluses. The things that evoke emotion in us when we are first learning medicine, when we're medical students, are not the same things that may evoke emotion in us as we progress through our careers. For me now, it's often a person that I have a deep connection with that I've known over time. And in that moment when something really devastating happens, I'm finding that that is probably the most emotionally difficult thing, especially if that person is particularly young or has young children. And so I'm increasingly trying to find ways to cope with that, because we need to do that to protect our longevity, to be able to do this work.  Dr. Lidia Schapira: Yeah. And to stay fresh for our patients as well. I think that we are a culture that is immersed in grief, and we volunteered for this work. But I think we volunteered perhaps when we didn't quite understand all of the areas that this grief and the sorrow and this immersion into that culture can really deeply penetrate. It sounds like you have used all of the possible resources, and you're incredibly open and frank about it. I wonder if in your institution, people talk about it as frankly as you do. Dr. Laura Vater: I have had mentors who have talked with me. I have the benefit of being trained through residency and fellowship at the same institution where I work. So I've known some of my mentors for almost 10 years, more than that. And so sometimes I will ask them, “How do you cope with this?” Some of my peers are incredibly funny and, not in a- sometimes sarcastic, yes, but not in a demeaning way towards patients, but they just bring a lightness to the clinic. Especially in the world of gastrointestinal oncology, where a mentor once told me that eight out of ten of my patients will not live long term. And so a lot of what I do is palliative care and end of life care. And I think we knew that. Like you said, we know what we sign up for. But sometimes the reality of that can be much, much different than that.  I do reach out to my mentors. I try not to burden them. But sometimes if we're in a clinic and I notice that we have a down moment, I might say, “Wow, I'm dealing with this.” And they'll sometimes share an experience from their early career or even recent and I think that's healing. There is something about being vulnerable with your peers, whether that's through writing and formally publishing a story and reading a story of someone you've never met, or even in those moments in the clinic or in the hospital where you share something with your residency team or your colleague that can be very healing. Dr. Lidia Schapira: And even being able to open yourself up and be vulnerable together, or cry with somebody, or cry reading somebody else's story. There are some essays that have been published in The Art of Oncology that make me cry every single time I read them. And it's a way of feeling that I'm sort of in solidarity with a colleague's pain, or that I feel sort of understood, or that I have a community of peers, people who are also drawn to these very tense, emotionally intense situations, but find meaning in it and find meaning and keep going back to it on a very intentional basis. And I think you're probably one of the club.  So let's talk a little bit about your essay, this beautiful essay about this holiday card that you kept tucked in your briefcase until it was the right moment when you could process something that was deeply, deeply painful to you because it was a death that was out of place, that wasn't supposed to happen. Tell us a little bit about how this became a story for you. Dr. Laura Vater: I still remember the moment that I woke up to an email from this patient's husband, unfolding that this patient had unexpectedly died the night before. And that was the first email that I read that morning. It was early, and I remember pacing in my office until it was late enough that I could call him. And, of course, then came all of the questions and all of the uncertainty and unfortunately, without answers ever being found. And just like before, when I was a medical student, I needed somewhere for this to go. I needed somewhere for this to go. And so this became even that day, journaling about this experience, in a way, of course, that protected my patient's identity. And as things unfolded over the next few months, I kind of came back to the same word document. And just anything that came into my mind as I was processing through this went there because I knew it needed a safe place to go.  And then months later, this was something I talked about through therapy over many, many months, actually, and then eventually to this encounter I had with this mentor who provided very healing words in a moment when he had no idea that I was processing all of this about a different patient. And how that eventually led me to be able to pull the card from my bag and really grieve, really allow myself to grieve in that moment. You don't stop grieving, but it helps you to find a healthy way to process through something very difficult and be able to cope and continue on and hopefully share with others that these things we go through in medicine, we're not isolated in our experience. You're not alone in what you go through when something like this happens early in your career. These are normal things that you're going to think, and it may take months or even years to process through. Dr. Lidia Schapira: Yeah, I think the healing intention of your mentor's words or of a senior colleague or somebody just willing to sort of stand with you or be with you and share that is something that is so incredibly valuable. Maybe some of our listeners can think of moments where somebody has been there for them or where they have been there for somebody else. Laura, I think that there's one or two books there hidden in your files. Maybe that's next. I mean, just the evolution of the process and the formation of your professional identity, your clinical persona, and the intention and attention you bring to the work. Is there a book in the making? Dr. Laura Vater: Thank you, Lidia. That's very kind of you. I'm hopeful that at some point there may be a nonfiction book. I didn't share this with you yet, but I also write fiction. I've actually completed one novel, and I'm working on my second novel. Writing has become something that I never anticipated myself spending much of my time doing in my non clinical space, but much of what my fiction writing is really about the mental health of clinicians and well being, and also many of these challenges that we face. And so hopefully more to come in the next few years with those, yes. Dr. Lidia Schapira: Yeah. I look forward to another conversation and to reading more of your work. Laura, this has been a lovely conversation. Thank you. Dr. Laura Vater: Thank you, Lidia. Dr. Lidia Schapira: And to our listeners, until next time, thank you for listening to JCO's Cancer Stories: The Art of Oncology. Don't forget to give us a rating or review, and be sure to subscribe so you never miss an episode. You can find all of the ASCO shows at asco.org/podcasts.   The purpose of this podcast is to educate and to inform. This is not a substitute for professional medical care and is not intended for use in the diagnosis or treatment of individual conditions. Guests on this podcast express their own opinions, experience, and conclusions. Guest statements on the podcast do not express the opinions of ASCO. The mention of any product, service, organization, activity, or therapy should not be construed as an ASCO endorsement.   Show Notes:  Like, share and subscribe so you never miss an episode and leave a rating or review.     Guest Bio: Dr. Laura Vater is a gastrointestinal oncologist at the Indiana University Simon Comprehensive Cancer Center.

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00:00 - Good Morning00:22 - MDYshabbos.com01:22 - Emails04:26 - Guests05:55 - Emails Con.10:27 - MDYsponsor.com12:43 - Amud Beis13:37 - Amud Aleph34:32 - Amud Beis35:37 - Zoom Guests37:24 - Amud Beis Con.51:02 - Amud Aleph51:15 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&Ofishel Mitzvah Motivators: In Memory of Reb Yaakov Shlomo ben Yechiel, A"H, Father of R Elchonon and Morah Toby and Zaide of Mrs Friedland and YECHIEL Elchonon Hefter​&רפואה שלימה - speedy recovery from a heart surgery - דוד בן רבקה​&Yisroel Helprin: ז"נ my father's 30th Yohrtzeit אלחנן בן זאב דוב He was a בעל קורא a גבאי, a בעל תפלה​​&Ervin Feldman: Pini & Rivky, chodesh ellul, 46 years together b"h​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good MorningQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&Ofishel Mitzvah Motivators: In Memory of Reb Yaakov Shlomo ben Yechiel, A"H, Father of R Elchonon and Morah Toby and Zaide of Mrs Friedland and YECHIEL Elchonon Hefter​&Simon Zelman: 5th Yartzeit of my father ליבל בן שמעון הלוי כ״ט מנחם אב, a Holocaust survivor&Joe Sharp: Shkoyach to the MDY team for working harder than ever to bring us the Daf over בּה״ז&Hatzlacha in parnasah & refua Sheleima for yosef nissim ben shalom eliyah vcholei A"Y​&Ira Greenstein: l'iluy nishmat Osna Malka bat R' Zvi Hirsch, a"h--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&Tani Pollak: In memory of my son, Ezra Toviah Yaakov ben Netanel Yitzchak on his 2nd yarhtzeit today. ​There will be a minyan at his kever, #718, @6PM @ Eretz hachaim.​&Peretz Chaim Levin: לע"נ הרב אברהם יעקב בן הרב מאיר הכהן זצ"ל ​Rav Pam זצ"ל He made a huge impact on my life and the Kesher I had with him will be treasured forever.​& Happy Anniversary to Rebbe U'Mori and his אשת חיל without whom there would be no Shiurlearning​​&Ofishel Mitzvah Motivators: In Memory of Reb Yaakov Shlomo ben Yechiel, A"H, Father of R Elchonon and Morah Toby and Zaide of Mrs Friedland and YECHIEL Elchonon Hefter​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

Daf Yomi Bava Basra Daf 67 by R' Eli Stefansky-00:00 - Singing00:23 - Good Voch00:33 - Guests04:41 - Emails10:00 - MDYsponsor.com11:38 - Introduction12:11 - Amud Aleph30:21 - Amud Beis46:36 - Amud Aleph47:05 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&Danny Kelaty: In memory of my late father Levy Ben Moshe Kelaty whose 37th yahrzeit was today​​&Dr. Marc berkson: In honor of my father Jerry Berkson's' 88th birthday​​&Happy 70th, Barry Schleifer! Love, your family. We're proud of your Torah learning​​&Campers at Aguda Midwest: In honor of Eli Gluck, in appreciation for giving the kids a great summer!​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

Daf Yomi Bava Basra Daf 66 by R' Eli Stefansky-00:00 - Good Morning01:37 - Good Morning #202:06 - Warm Welcome Back06:05 - Guests08:16 - Hakoras HaTov Trip08:48 - Emails11:58 - MDYsponsor.com14:12 - Keeping Up During Bein Hazmanim15:10 - Introduction17:02 - Amud Beis30:53 - Amud Aleph42:47 - Amud Beis51:56 - Amud Aleph52:37 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&Mazal Tov to Avi and Rosalie Hauptman on the engagement of their grandaughter Michal Eckstein to Avi Bursztyn a former lone soldier both of Teaneck NJ​​&In Honor of Ruties Birthday​​&In memory of Eliezer Aryeh ben Shmuel Tzvi Shoop by his children​​&Refua Sheleima for Shira bas Chemda and lchol cholei am yisrael. And for parnasah​​&יוסף שלמה בן רישא​​&Yanki Grosz, Cote St Luc, Montreal: upon the birth of his daughter, Ruchel, 8 years after their twin boys, with hakaras hatov to R' Eli for his brocha at the MDY Shabbos 9 months ago!​&Kidnovations LLC: liluy nishmas Reb Yaakov Shlomo ben Yechiel, father of Reb Elchanan Pressman, who was just niftar overnight. He was a true role model of a mechaneich for many decades, helping shape and guide thousands of talmidim to become bnei Torah--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Where am I?00:51 - Journey Back Home 02:05 - Emails08:11 - MDYsponsor.com09:29 - Hakoras HaTov Trip12:35 - Amud Beis12:45 - Amud Aleph38:54 - Amud Beis50:18 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Ari and Atara Stawis: In honor of our 15th year wedding anniversary and coming up on 2 years doing the daf!​&לע״נ ריזל בת משה אהרן נ״י - נפטרה כ״ה אב תשע״ה​​&Rickey Cohen: in memory of my father Bernard Morris Cohen Dov Ber Moshe ben Yaakov​--​#1 Art Month ​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Where am I?00:28 - Guests01:34 - Emails07:18 - MDYsponsor.com08:32 - Introduction11:51 - Amud Beis12:42 - Amud Aleph27:04 - Amud Beis42:06 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&*URGENT TEHILLIM REQUEST:* Rav Avrohom Zucker, the Rosh Yeshiva of Yeshiva Gedola Ohr Yisroel in Flatbush is in dire need of Rachmei Shomayim, following an incident on Sunday afternoon. He has been taken into emergency surgery with a serious head injury. *His name for Tehillim is Refoel Avrohom Nesanel ben Masha Leeba רפאל אברהם נתנאל בן מאשא לייבא.*​​&Eliyahu Kaufman: לע''נ אבי מרי הרב שלמה זלמן בן ישעיה יאר צייט היום כג מנחם אב​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:15 - Where am I?01:20 - Emails05:10 - MDYsponsor.com07:23 - MDYshabbos.com09:25 - Introduction10:00 - Amud Beis14:42 - Guests15:04 - Amud Beis Con.16:38 - Amud Aleph33:57 - Amud Beis48:33 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Avrohom Mayer Farkovits: L'ilui Nishmas My Neice,Miriam Rochel bas R' Daniel Shlomo - Miri Farkovits&Amir Farivar: In honor of Shlomo Lalezarian on his Birthday!! (was meant for daf 62)&Mordechai Sapoznick: Lzaicher Nishmas his Great Grandfather's yartzeit,R' Avrohom Yeshayahu ben R' Yechiel Michoel Sapoznick z""l. May his neshama have a aliyah!&Michael Gordon: In honour of yartzeit of Zev Ben zundel hacohenWalter Gordon, Melbourne Australia--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Where am I?01:30 - Emails03:27 - MDYshabbos.com07:39 - MDYsponsor.com09:06 - Introduction10:10 - Amud Beis12:12 - Amud Aleph21:40 - Amud Beis31:03 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Yosef Billyack: 300 Week (which is 68 months or 2098 days) of learning the Daf with R'Eli (I started Chullin Daf ב, November 29th 2018), thank you&Aaron Koslowitz: Harav Nota Tzvi Ben Eliyahu Koslowitz who's yarztat is today​&Mordechai Sapoznick: Yasher Koach R' Eli for making the Perek Chezkas HaBatim Geshmak!​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:16 - Where am I?00:51 - Emails06:04 - MDYsponsor.com06:55 - Introduction07:21 - Amud Aleph18:56 - Amud Beis28:46 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Voch00:14 - Where am I?00:39 - Emails11:02 - MDYsponsor.com12:25 - Introduction13:22 - Amud Aleph33:53 - Amud Beis01:02:26 - Hadren01:03:53 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: Ty for your תפילותבחסדי השםיהונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכלwas granted bail to his home in the UK&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Anonymous: Yosef Ben Rachamim--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Where am I?00:48 - MDYsponsor.com01:42 - Emails03:02 - Amud Aleph21:47 - Amud Beis34:56 - Amud Aleph35:30 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Anonymous: Yosef Ben Rachamim--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:12 - Where am I?00:27 - Emails00:53 - MDYsponsor.com02:03 - Introduction02:43 - Amud Beis02:48 - Amud Aleph27:30 - Amud Beis40:24 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Anonymous: Hakaras Hatov to Hakadosh Baruch Hu--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Bein Hazmanim Vibes00:35 - Emails02:06 - MDYsponsor.com03:28 - Amud Beis04:35 - Amud Aleph15:21 - Amud Beis29:49 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Avrohom Mayer Farkovits: L'ilui Nishmas My Grandmother,Chava Shoretz - Chava bas R' Yehoshua&Israela & Stephen Perlitsh: Yorzeit of Binyomin Perlitsh, AKA Ben Perlitsh--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Where am I?00:37 - MDYsponsor.com01:52 - Keeping Up The Daf02:30 - Emails03:35 - Introduction04:20 - Amud Beis07:58 - Amud Aleph21:45 - Amud Beis32:50 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Yoni Weiss: לע''נ מרים בת אשר&In loving memory of my father Reb Shmuel ben Chayim HaCohen on his 25th yahrzeit--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:12 - Where am I?00:36 - MDYsponsor.com01:40 - Introduction01:55 - Amud Beis03:35 - Amud Aleph25:25 - Amud Beis32:19 - Amud Aleph32:46 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה&O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah ShelaimaYakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah PressmanFather of MDYer Elchanan PressmanZaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter&Mark Ricklis: L'Zecher Nishmas Henach b'r Chaim Yitzchok--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning 00:24 - Where am I? 00:33 - Guests 00:59 - Why am I here? 06:33 - 1st Speaker 17:25 - 2nd Speaker 21:32 - Singing 25:14 - Emails 26:53 - MDYsponsor.com 30:31 - Amud Beis 30:48 - Amud Aleph 01:05:30 - Amud Beis 01:21:07 - Have a Wonderful Week Quiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com -- Today's shiur is sponsored Anonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages & לע״נ זכריה בן משה לע״נ חיה בת יוסף & Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland & Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com & For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה & O'Fishel Mitzvah Motivators: L'zechus Refuah Shelaima Yakov Shlomo ben Rochel Leah Pressman Father of MDYer Elchanan Pressman Zaidy of MDYer Yechiel Elchanan Hefter & לזכר נשמת חיה פיסל בת יצחק משה Who's yartzeit is today & Moshe Kinsbursky: R Eli Welcome to the Valley Thank you 4 making Torah enjoyable & accesible to so many & Lzecher nishmas my grandfather Yakov Ben Naftali Hertz (Jack Schnell) my grandfather​ -- Turning of the daf: Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss & Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה _________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:33 - Where am I?00:39 - Last Shiur02:23 - Emails04:33 - Guests04:54 - Emails Con.05:50 - Mazal Tov06:20 - MDYsponsor.com08:02 - Amud Beis09:12 - Amud Aleph32:04 - Amud Beis55:45 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Mr. Lee Margulies: In Honor of My English Birthday on Shabbat Nachamu and as a רפואה שלמה to Parents&the Austein grandchildren: ‏לעילוי נשמת משה יצחק בן אליהו הכהןOur Zeidy whose 17th yartzeit is י״ג אב--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:17 - Where am I?00:53 - Thank You's03:31 - MDY Los Angeles13:18 - 1st Speaker21:10 - 2nd Speaker27:40 - Singing30:58 - "Good Morning Ah!"33:18 - MDYsponsor.com34:45 - Upcoming Shiurim35:36 - Amud Beis37:42 - Amud Aleph01:04:11 - Amud Beis01:18:51 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה&Binyomin Rosenfeld: With gratitude to Reb Biderman, Reb Eli, Gedale Fenster for his podcasts, & Michael Safdie for DailyBitachon.com&Joshua Herschberg: לעילוי נשמת his mother, Yehudis bas Rav Yaakov HaKohain&Daniel Kahane: In honor of Jacob Kahane's 16th birthday!&לע"נ לאה בת ר' משה מרדכיon her yurtzeitNo one can replace a mother--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Where am I?00:38 - Upcoming Shiurim01:30 - Emails04:19 - MDYshabbos.com06:15 - MDYsponsor.com07:14 - Introduction07:58 - Amud Aleph31:34 - Amud Beis47:10 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - When am I?01:21 - Back at MDY01:32 - Emails02:00 - Upcoming Shiurim03:02 - More Emails08:57 - MDYsponsor.com09:45 - Introduction12:36 - Amud Beis17:46 - Amud Aleph36:42 - Amud Beis51:40 - Amud Aleph53:26 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com --Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Saul Stepner: For my mother's yarzheit, שרה עלקא בת שאול זעליג, May her neshoma have an Aliyah​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - When am I?00:43 - Back at MDY00:56 - Emails01:35 - Upcoming Shiurim03:15 - More Emails05:08 - MDYsponsor.com06:02 - Tisha B'Av shiurim06:20 - Introduction06:41 - Amud Beis09:36 - Amud Aleph25:08 - Amud Beis44:07 - Amud Aleph45:16 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Your Agudah Midwest Cousins: In honor wedding Yaakov Steg 2 Shevy Han. They should b zocha 2 build בית נאמן בישראל--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:19 - Emails01:39 - MDYshabbos.com03:08 - Tisha B'Av shiurim03:25 - MDYsponsor.com05:36 - Introduction06:11 - Amud Beis11:31 - Amud Aleph28:45 - Amud Beis45:38 - Have a Meaningful FastQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Mendy Schmerling: In honor of my fathers yahrzeit, 8 Av, Levi Yitzchok ben Boruch Bendit Schmerling​&in zachus of אברהם דוב בן ביילא שרה who's having a major operation on the 12 Aug 2024​&For complete Refuah for ברכה אביגיל בת רחל גיטה​&Epstein & Kamionski Family: in memory of Rita Epstein - Raziel Gittel Bas Zeav​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Where am I?00:52 - MDYshabbos.com02:21 - Emails07:35 - MDYsponsor.com08:17 - Introduction09:03 - Amud Beis16:17 - Amud Aleph36:13 - Amud Beis44:39 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com --Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&The Schachters: My sons third yarteit, Habocher Chaim Yisroel Yitzchok Ben Ahron ני--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Gutten Eruv Shabbos?00:34 - Good Voch!00:48 - Back at MDY01:12 - Emails02:49 - Gemara Sponsorships05:01 - Upcoming Shiurim05:56 - MDYsponsor.com07:44 - Introduction09:16 - Amud Beis21:10 - Amud Aleph33:47 - Amud Beis44:57 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Sruly Bernstein: Liulu Nishamas Fraida Raziel bas Avrahom Yitzchock&Avi Steinberg: Bzchus my dear friend B202, שמואל יואל בן אלטע פייגא, who made me join MDY 2 years ago&Your proud Parents: In honor of camp Aguda Midwest winning team neighborhood day Lieutenant Ali Steg--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:15 - Where am I?02:14 - Emails07:06 - MDYsponsor.com09:07 - Introduction09:49 - Amud Beis12:28 - Amud Aleph31:23 - Amud Beis43:23 - Have a Wonderful ShabbosQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Y.M. Stahler: hatzlacha in bais medrish&Anonymous from Lakewood: Hakors hatov 2 R' Eli for the past 3 years Iyh should b zocha 2 finish shas together&Jeffrey Goldstein: לע׳נ אבי מורי ישראל אברהם אבא בן שלמה זלמן ז׳ל, Alter A. Goldstein OB'M&Philip Birn: The Shiur in Skokie in memory of Sheldon Schaffel - Shmuel Ben David Hacohen Z"L&George & Julie Lennon: In memory of: פארל קראנדל בת יעקב, Pearl Nathan, ה מנחם אב&Leiluy nishama for R Yakov Bree - יעקב יצחק יונה בן בצלאל&Arya Checkanow: רפו"ש מרדכה בן יוכבד טעמא, Thanks for making my Gemora my Best friend--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:22 - Guests05:03 - Emails10:55 - Gemara Sponsorships11:57 - MDYsponsor.com13:12 - Introduction14:18 - Amud Beis14:30 - Amud Aleph48:19 - Amud Beis59:26 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Happy Bday Yitz, We R so proud of your dedication to the shiur. Love The Friedman Fam&Yosef Ezra: In honor of my friends joining in Daf! You know who you are. It's geshmak to do daf&L'refuah shleima גילה ברכה בת נתניה--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:19 - Back at MDY02:11 - Emails06:34 - Come visit me in L.A.07:33 - Emails cont.09:05 - Gemara Sponsorships11:09 - MDYsponsor.com12:22 - Introduction13:26 - Amud Beis15:33 - Amud Aleph39:28 - Amud Beis54:15 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Yedidya Pereira: PLEASE Daven! פדיון שבויים יונתן אשר יהודה בן מיכל Incarcerated, denied bail-Ireland&Yoni Weiss: לע"נ אלימלך צבי בן משה ע"ה--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Guests00:36 - Schedule01:07 - Back at MDY01:49 - Emails05:24 - Introduction06:20 - MDYsponsor.com07:34 - Amud Aleph28:44 - Amud Beis55:09 - Gemara Sponsorships56:43 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&לעילוי נשמת רבקה בת חיים משה ע"ה&Eric Taieb: For the protection and success of my children Liran, Orel & Eden. Amen!&In Honor of MOURAD NAKASH&Loren and Sora Deetza Spigelman in honor of 20 years living in Eretz Yisrael.​(Pause) AND for the birth of their first grandchild, a girl, born to Devorah and Ariel Markus in Yrslm.​--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Guests00:40 - Emails05:19 - Amud Beis06:58 - MDYsponsor.com09:33 - Introduction10:38 - Amud Beis cont.12:11 - Amud Aleph25:19 - Amud Beis46:40 - Amud Aleph47:25 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Joe Sharp: l'iluy nishmas Etya bas R' Avrohom Yisroel, a"h on her yartzeit&Koby Mozes: My Daf-aversary-3 years! Succah Daf 2. Sponsoring the day plus 3 Gemaras one per year&Peretz Chaim Levin: Yasher Koach to Morei V'Rabi Reb Eli Shlita and to Michael Rothschild and Rabbi Neuberger for making the MDY Chofetz Chaim Moment a reality. Celebrating, today, my 3rd MDY Daf-Anniversary (סוכה דף ב)&L'iluy nishmat Shalom ben Chaim&Dovid Feinberg: li"n Rochel bas Yosef, a"h on her yahrtzeit--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Voch00:13 - Where am I?00:46 - 30 years!01:23 - Emails04:16 - Back at MDY04:54 - MDYsponsor.com05:14 - Introduction08:19 - Amud Beis09:15 - Amud Aleph30:34 - Amud Beis42:37 - Have a Wonderful WeekQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&in honor of Yosef Masalaton--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Where am I?02:12 - Back at MDY03:49 - Emails10:56 - MDYsponsor.com13 16: - Introduction13:39 - Amud Beis15:49 - Amud Aleph37:44 - Amud Beis51:23 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&בריאותיהודית בת חנה גאלדאא-ל נא רפא נא להא-ל נא רפא נא להא-ל נא רפא נא לה&Joe Sharp: הצלחה to R' Eli in his travels & יישׁר כּח to those staying on the wagon when he's away&Alissa Kovacs: Happy 40th Birthday to Mayer Kovacs! Continue to learn and grow through MDY. So Proud&For hatzlacha in parnasah and refua sheleima lchol cholei am yisrael&Menachem Scher: In memory of the best zady Yitzchok ben Dovid Yakov, his Neshama should have an aliyah&Pinkhas Akilov: Thank you for gamara succah siyum being uploaded to YouTube, Really appreciate it&Ari Sytner: Thank you HaShem for the many Nisim of our son's refuah: Akiva Shalom Ben Chana Zisel&To the eventual finishing of Shas!!&Yehudit and Michael Joshua London: for Hashem's great honour--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:13 - Where am I?02:34 - Emails05:59 - MDYsponsor.com06:40 - Introduction08:22 - Amud Beis11:50 - Amud Aleph28:57 - Amud Beis39:19 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&בריאותיהודית בת חנה גאלדאא-ל נא רפא נא להא-ל נא רפא נא להא-ל נא רפא נא לה&Joe Sharp: הצלחה to R' Eli in his travels & יישׁר כּח to those staying on the wagon when he's away&Alissa Kovacs: Happy 40th Birthday to Mayer Kovacs! Continue to learn and grow through MDY. So Proud&For hatzlacha in parnasah and refua sheleima lchol cholei am yisrael&Willie Balk: Englewood MDY IMO Judge Ira Robinson and IHO Raviv Gailor on his upcoming move to FL--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning00:14 - Where am I?00:18 - Guests03:27 - Emails04:57 - MDYsponsor.com05:36 - Amud Beis07:31 - Amud Aleph38:41 - Amud Beis52:47 - Have a Wonderful DayQuiz - http://Kahoot.MDYdaf.com--Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&As הכרת טוב for the נסים I received from רבש״ע&Pinchas Kleerekoper: לעי״נ אבי מורי זאב שמואל בן הרב יוסף מישאלWhose Yahzeit is today&Neal Shapiro Aka Sabba Nee on his birthday today. We love you. Keep up the good work--Turning of the daf:Sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman, Fishel and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

00:00 - Good Morning --Today's shiur is sponsoredAnonymous - For the safe and speedy return of all the hostages&Ahron Fraiman: l'zechus to R Eli for continued siyadta dishmaya in teaching torah to klal yisroel​&L'refuah shleima נפתלי הערץ בן העניא לאה A Hidden tzaddik in our generations&לע״נ זכריה בן משהלע״נ חיה בת יוסף&Zevi Fliegman: In honor of our dear, beloved daughter Riki's 21st birthday: רבקה בת דבורה Wishing you success and nachas--Turning of the daf:Proudly sponsored by Yisroel Sherer, Construction Management and Supervision, and Lifeshare.community/MDY Protecting Families Today, BEFORE Tomorrow's Unexpected Loss&Kidnovations LLC: in honor of my Uncle Reb Elchanan Pressman and as a zechus for Akiva Simcha Ben Fayga and רבקה יהודית בת יפה חיה_________________________________

In this emotionally charged episode of Your Biggest Breakthrough, we sit down with Brian Chrisagis, one-half of the dynamic twin duo known as the Chrisagis Brothers. The episode serves as a continuation of a previous episode featuring Brian and his twin brother, Shawn, who tragically passed away a year prior to this recording.The episode delves deep into Brian's journey of grief, anger, and ultimately, healing after the unexpected loss of his identical twin brother, Shawn. Brian shares the profound bond he shared with Shawn, detailing their miraculous survival story from their premature birth to their impactful ministry work in Hollywood.As you listen to Brian recount the events leading up to Shawn's passing, you'll feel the shock and devastation he experienced and understand the struggles he faced in coming to terms with his loss. Brian's raw honesty about his anger towards God, suicidal thoughts, and search for meaning amid profound grief will resonate with you. By tuning in, you'll gain a deeper understanding of navigating loss, finding hope in the darkest times, and ultimately discovering a path to healing.Chapters[00:00] Podcast Preview[00:55] Podcast Introduction[01:27] Topic and Guest's Introduction[05:12] The Deep Bond of Twin Brothers[07:00]The Miracle Story of Chrisagis Brothers[13:20] The Ministry Journey and Outreach to Celebrities[17:34] The Unexpected Loss of Shawn[24:38] Struggling with Anger and Identity[30:36] Seeking Answers and Comfort[34:45] Discovering Hope through a Deeper Understanding of Heaven[41:00] Sign from a Butterfly[45:32] A Call for Christlike Living in the Church[49:34] Encouragement to Keep Moving Toward God[52:09] Moving Forward with a New Identity and Purpose[55:40] GratitudeResources mentioned:Episode 30: Twin Brothers Escape Death, Share Laughter With Millions and Faith With Hollywood EliteFREE Unstoppable Ebook and AudiobookGuest's bio and social handles:FacebookBrian Chrisagis was a cofounder of Chrisagis Brothers Ministries for 40 years. He and his twin brother Shawn traveled the world with 14 CDs of music to their long list of credits and their amazing life-changing testimony. Nominated for numerous awards and winning Duo of the Year from Extraordinary People Awards, plus a preGrammy nomination for Ransom. They were on MTV, Candid Camera A & E for a TV pilot. The brothers appeared on every Christian Network and had their own variety of specials, radio shows, and huge events that won Hollywood stars to the Lord. The brothers were both movers and shakers for the kingdom of God as authors, creators, and having children's toy lines. The twins performed with the top and elite stars in both Hollywood and Christian Contemporary music. In 2023 Shawn passed off a blood clot and now Brian shares his journey of overcoming struggles with depression, suicidal thoughts, and finding his own identity. Brian is cohosting a new series called The Vision and working to help others who struggle with depression and grief on their journey.