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Host: Akanksha Sharma, MD Interviewee: Shannon Thomas, RN, MSN   Podcast Description: Dr Sharma has a candid, reflective conversation with Shannon Thomas, CEO of Eden Medical Center in Castro Valley, CA, and the wife of Dr. Ronnie Mimran – a beloved physician and highly skilled neurosurgeon known for his patient care and bedside manner. Dr Mimran is living with glioblastoma; he was diagnosed almost 3 years ago. We discuss her perspective as not only a caregiver but a nurse and healthcare executive, and what they have learned on this journey.

The votes are in, and the June Primary election results are already reshaping East Bay politics. This week, Steve Tavares, Trishala Vinnakota, and Justin Berton break down the surprising defeat of Oakland's Measure E parcel tax, the outcomes of revenue measures in Hayward and Castro Valley, and what the results could mean for future tax and bond proposals across Alameda County. In congressional politics, Aisha Wahab emerged as the clear frontrunner in the crowded 14th Congressional District race. We also analyzes Scott Sakakihara's strong performance in the 10th State Senate District contest, the latest developments in the Alameda County District Attorney race between Ursula Jones Dickson and Pamela Price, and what California voters signaled in the governor's race. Plus, what these results reveal about the political mood of East Bay voters heading into November—and an introduction to the newest member of the East Bay Insiders team.

On this week's East Bay Insiders, we're giving listeners a preview of After Hours—our subscriber-only deep dive where the conversation gets a little looser and a lot more insidey. Steve Tavares and Jason Teramoto chop it up on Castro Valley's recurring push for incorporation, what it was like growing up there in the '80s and '90s, and—yes—the possible existence of Stranger Things-style creatures lurking in the hills. Plus, a must-hear segment with Lee Thomas and Mike Hutchinson, who walks through his surreal 2022 school board race, when the Alameda County registrar certified the wrong winner—forcing him to go to court to secure a victory he had already earned. And in the main episode, Steve Tavares, Trishala Vinnakota, and Justin Berton break down Rep. Ro Khanna's comments about a potential 2028 presidential run—and why his vision for a multiracial, economic-forward America may be more politically savvy than it sounds. Subscribe to unlock the full After Hours episode and get the complete conversation.

Today, we're joined by MB2 Doctor Partner Dr. Kiran Khemani, owner of Valley View Dental in Castro Valley, California, for a conversation about what continues to motivate her in dentistry. Dr. Khemani shares how a painful experience as a teenager first led her toward the profession and how that memory still influences the way she approaches patient care today. The episode highlights the difference dentistry can make in an individuals life, the importance of maintaining balance while running a practice, and great advice on leading a team.  ------------------------------------------------------------------------  Subscribe & Listen: Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69Dz26hgC9D6YqwN8JMDBV Apple Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mb2-underground/id1747349567 ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Follow MB2 Dental on Social: MB2 Dental: mb2dental.com Instagram: instagram.com/mb2dental Facebook: facebook.com/mb2dental YouTube: youtube.com/@mb2dental LinkedIn: linkedin.com/mb2-dental  

The Morning Breeze Person of the Week: Michelle S. in Castro Valley

Welcome to Good Morning Maxwell! Your Premier Event Spaces in the Bay Area​Nestled in the heart of Northern California,Good Morning Maxwell offers inspiring event venues in Livermore, Pleasanton, Brentwood, and Castro Valley. Our spaces are designed to connect families, friends, creatives, local artists, and the community, making every occasion truly special.In this episode, we are joined by owner Joanne Tan of GMM as she takes us through her journey of life and small business ownership. For about the past year no,w Joanne has been a TTG partner in helping us bring to life our fresh R.I.S.E. movement here in Livermore. Tune in now for a great episode with a business you definetley want to know about!

HE CAME TO BELIEVE (12 Stepper Ricky Wade from Castro Valley, CA). The Montyman welcomes Ricky Wade, who shares his powerful journey of recovery from addiction. The conversation explores the importance of personal testimony, moments of clarity, and spiritual awakening in the recovery process. They discuss concerns about modern recovery practices, particularly the normalization of relapse, and emphasize the significance of community support and the original principles of Alcoholics Anonymous. Ricky's insights highlight the transformative power of identifying as 'recovered' and the role of faith in maintaining sobriety. Closing Song: We're Glad You're Here by Conley Ray White.#higherpower #aa #na #alcoholicsanonymous #recovery #recovered #alcoholic #twelvesteps #wedorecover #narcoticsanonymous #addiction #bigbook

Looking for modern, commuter-friendly living in the Bay Area? The Chapter by KB Home in Castro Valley offers stylish townhome-style condos designed for comfort and convenience. Located within walking distance to the Castro Valley BART station and with easy access to I-580, this community is perfect for professionals and families alike.

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Writer Steve Abramson talks about his project the Night of the Living Dead Fotonovel. If you are unfamiliar with fotonovels, think of them like live-action comic books. They're a fun way to revisit stories in visual form. Join us for this lively discussion.In other news, The Grim and Bloody Podcast will be attending the premiere of Bears on a Ship Saturday April 27th at the Chabot Theater in Castro Valley. The full cast will be on hand., among them, Krystal Shay who talked with us last year at Sinister Creature Con. Hope to see you there!

This is Episode 15 of Season 2 of The RUN TMC Podcast. In this special preview episode, Dave, Duffy and their team of correspondents preview the North Coast Section basketball playoffs and discuss the merits and challenges of the new "competitive equity" based seeding system.  Player Control Clarification: On the Boys Side, Castro Valley is a #15 seed Show Notes: Musical intro credit to Stroke 9//Logo credit to Katie Levine Content and opinions are those of Dave, Duffy and their guests and not of affiliated organizations or sponsors. email us at: theruntmcpodcast@gmail.com check out our website at: theruntmcpodcast.com Thank you to our sponsors: West End Nursery and Batiste Rhum and San Domenico Nike Summer Basketball Camps and The Hub in San Anselmo AI Summery Welcome to the latest episode of the Run TMC Podcast, where host Duffy Ballard dives into the excitement of basketball in Marin County, supported by local businesses such as West End Nursery and Batiste Rum. This episode focuses on the North Coast Section (NCS) playoffs, offering listeners a comprehensive preview of the Marin teams as they embark on this intense journey. Join Duffy and special guest Dave as they analyze the girls' and boys' brackets, featuring insights from coaches and correspondents. Discover how local favorites like San Rafael, Marin Catholic, and San Domenico are poised to compete, and hear about the anticipated matchups that promise to deliver thrilling basketball action. The episode also takes a closer look at the challenges posed by the new NCS competitive equity format, the impact of algorithms on team seedings, and the debate between public and private school dynamics. Tune in for a thoughtful critique and gain valuable perspectives as Marin's basketball scene gears up for postseason excitement.

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The East Bay Insiders Podcast hits the road with a live recording in Castro Valley. Thank you to the Castro Valley/Eden Area Chamber of Commerce and the Moose Lodge for having us. There's a lot to talk about: The FBI raid in San Leandro, impending indictments, seven D.A. applicants move ahead to the interview stage of the appointment process, the Oakland special mayoral election, and the pending sale of the Oakland Coliseum. We also take a look at the issue of incorporation in Castro Valley.

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Today, we meet a young Oakland woman from Sudan is digitizing old music cassettes for a new diaspora generation. Then, we meet a Castro Valley teen that's living his acting dream.

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  A weekly magazine-style radio show featuring the voices and stories of Asians and Pacific Islanders from all corners of our community. The show is produced by a collective of media makers, deejays, and activists.   In this episode of APEX Express, host Cheryl shares Part 1 of a powerful intergenerational conversation featuring the OG organizers of Chinese for Affirmative Action (CAA) and young leaders from Hmong Innovating Politics (HIP). The discussion highlights the challenges and inspirations that drove CAA's founders to join the Asian American Movement of the '60s and '70s, offering valuable lessons for sustaining activism across generations. Important Links: Chinese for Affirmative Action: Website  |  Instagram Hmong Innovating Politics: Website  |  Instagram Transcript   Cheryl Truong: good evening and welcome to tonight's episode of apex express. I'm your host, Cheryl Truong and tonight is an AACRE night. Now you might be wondering what is AACRE. AACRE stands for the Asian Americans for civil rights and Equality network, which is made up of 11 grassroots, social justice groups. Together leverage the power of our network to focus on longterm movement, building and support for Asian-Americans committed to social justice. And speaking of AACRE groups. APEX express is proud to be a part of the AACRE network.  For tonight's show, I'm thrilled to share a really special and intimate recording from a panel discussion we hosted here at the AACRE network that bridges generations of organizing. This panel brought together the OGs– originals– who helped build chinese for Affirmative Action or CAA into the esteemed 50 year old civil rights organization it is today. Alongside young organizers from Hmong Innovating Politics, also known as HIP, who are paving the way for Hmong Americans in Sacramento and Fresno. Both hip and CAA are vital groups within the AACRE network. The purpose of this exchange. To spark an intergenerational dialogue between seasoned CAA leaders and current hip staff and exploring how their roles in the movement have evolved over time.  Together, they delve into the strategies they've employed to sustain their impact over decades of organizing. However, this is only part one of what is and was a much longer conversation. So for tonight's episode, we'll focus on getting to know some of the CAA OGs. You'll hear them introduce themselves. Share some of the hardships they faced as pivotal organizers during the Asian-American movement of the tumultuous sixties and seventies. And reflect on what catalyze them to get involved in the movement. Through the stories we hope to uncover lessons from the past that can guide us in sustaining and evolving the fight for justice today. So stay tuned. It's going to be an inspiring and reflective journey into the heart of activism.  So I'm pleased to introduce. The panel facilitator, Miko Lee who is AACRE's director of programs. And CAA OGs Germaine Wong Henry Der Laureen Chew Stephen Owyang and Yvonne Yim-Hung Lee  Miko: Yvonne,  what was a kind of chrysalis moment for you in terms of social justice? Yvonne Yim-Hung Lee: First of all, when I got the email, I didn't know what O. G. was, so I said “Oh Geezer!” That's how I interpret it. I said “Oh, I'm there!” This is going to be a really honest and frank family gathering so thank you inviting me and I'm really excited to be here with my, peers and colleagues and more importantly to really hear from you, your experience. I am a first generation immigrant. My parents were very well to do business people in Hong Kong. They decided to immigrate to this country with three young kids. My father when he was young, he was the richest boy in his village. Overnight, people came and forced his father to give up 98 acres of their 99 acre farm. So from being the richest boy in town, in his village, to have to go to Hong Kong to live with this uncle. My mom was from a rich family in China also. Her father was one of the few merchants who came to the U.S. after the Chinese Exclusion Act, he went to New York, opened up a pastry shop, but he found his goal. He won second prize of a New York lotto. So he decided to go back to China because even though he was a merchant, he experienced a lot of discrimination. He never talked about his experience in America. But my mom was a little princess. You know, we used to call her , and her friends, the little Paris Hilton of the group, because that's what they did. They went to school as ABC's, never had to work a day in their life. But one thing, She and my father, because they were both from richest families in different villages, they were supposed to be matched up. But by the time they were at marriage age, he was already a poor kid. But my mom told the father, said, a promise is a promise.. So she married this poor guy, moved to Hong Kong, and he did quite well for himself. So we were brought up, ” money is not what should drive you in your life. You can lose it in one day. The most important thing is to have a good heart, to make sure that everything in this world, you have to make a difference. Whether it's to your family, or to others. You cannot be angry, because someone else is going to make you angry. When we came, it was a really tough time for him. You know, we lived really well in Hong Kong. Coming here to live in Chinatown back in the 60s really wasn't that pleasant. But, we made do based on the three principles. We came here for freedom. We came here for knowledge. And knowledge doesn't mean just college. So we were lucky. We never were forced to study certain fields so that we can make money because for him, it was always experience to really, really take in the nourishment for yourself, but give out whatever you have to others. So based on the guidance and that's how, that's my North Star. That's what's driven me. So I went to Davis. Yay Davis and the Cows! They're still there. What really got me to community activism was when I was 16, I was in the hospital. And They put this, at the time I thought she was elderly, but thinking back she was probably in her 30s. But when she was 16, anyway over 20 is elderly. And she could not speak English. And they could not communicate with her. And half of the hospital staff was making fun of her. And that was in, 70? 1970? It wasn't that long ago. It was still in my our lifetime. So, I was young but I acted as her translator. It was very difficult because she has women issues. And I didn't know her. And her husband was standing there. And she had to tell me her most intimate thing. And all the room of doctors, nurses and everything– they were very dismissive of her because of the fact that she did not speak their language. So because of that I felt that that's wrong. Because prior to that, even when we were living in Chinatown, I still felt I was privileged. You know, we weren't poor. We were still doing well. But after seeing that experience, it really taught me that even though we came to America for freedom, freedom is only for those who could really stand for themselves. And there are some who, if they cannot, send someone else in to fight with them. Not for them, but with them. So that's how I started my career, and I jumped from place to place. I'm not the CAA member, but I'm the honorary member of CAA because I had the privilege of working with Henry. All the meetings that we had back in the 70s, 80s, and 90s and everything with Ted and Steve on redistricting, immigration reform, census, welfare reform, everything that we today take granted. We don't even think about it. Came from here. This room. Before this room, it was another room. It was a little less, little place. We, we moved up by, by moving here in the 90s. So, thank you so much for this privilege and I look forward to our conversation. Miko: Thank you, Yvonne. And I just, OG, just so you know, does not mean OG. Does anybody want to explain what OG means? Hmong Innovating Politics (HIP) Staff: Old Gangster   Miko: It's actually a hip hop terminology for gangster, but it actually means the original. Who's the original, the source of the knowledge, the source of the power. So it's, we use it with love and honor.  Yvonne Yim-Hung Lee: Intergenerational communication.  Miko: I'm sorry I did  Henry Derr: I have to say, I never liked the term O. G. when I first heard it. Because I thought it meant an old guy, Even though I'm old, I didn't want to admit that I was old. , one thing I have to say straight away is, you all are happy about this weather, I'm very unhappy about this weather, because I, even though I'm a native of San Francisco, Chinatown, at the age of seven, my family moved into Stockton. I went through all my schooling till I graduated from Franklin High School on the east side of Highway 99. Some of you may have, your high schools may have competed against Franklin High School. When we moved into Stockton for the longest time, We could never figure out why in the hell our father moved us into Stockton, because we were the only one or two Chinese family on the east side of Stockton right there on Main Street. And then over time, and actually very recently when I think about it, there was, he probably had a good reason for moving us into Stockton. Because my father was actually quite clever in terms of circumventing the discriminatory impact of the Chinese Exclusion Act. As some of you may know, a lot of Chinese men who came here to the United States after the Exclusion Act had to lie about who they were. They would claim that they were sons of U. S. citizens in order to enter the United States. Well, it turned out that my father and my mother on paper had 17 children. And in our family, there were really only just eight of us who were born from our parents and my oldest brother who was adopted. The rest were actually paper sons. So my father moved the family into Stockton because I remember very clearly when I was less than five years old, my mom said to us, children, don't say anything about the family when you go out the streets and I could never understand why don't say anything about that. Well, it turned out that. There were a lot of immigration agents prowling around Chinatown during the fifties, during the confession program. So, I think my father made the right choice to move the family into Stockton. And we always longed about coming back to San Francisco. But also looking back at it, it was actually a blessing in disguise. Because I actually grew up, as some of you may know, from Fresno, Sacramento, Visalia, Ceres, Modesto, then, not now. It was actually, I lived in a very diverse neighborhood. There were blacks, there were Mexicans and there were whites and the whites were not rich. They were like the rest of us. They were poor from Oklahoma. So probably the first social, I would consider this first social justice consciousness that I developed during the 19 50s and 60s when I was growing up. In addition to following what was going on and unfolding with the Black Civil Rights Movement in the South, was that Stockton Unified was impacted by school desegregation and there was busing. So there was a lot of talk that kids from our high school in Franklin were going to be bused to Stagg High School. And at that time, in the 50s and 60s, Stagg was all white, they were all wealthy, and we basically protested, said, we are not going to go, that we're not, we don't need those rich white folks. We're okay by ourselves. So that kind of built a consciousness in me. And I would say the other big social justice consciousness was really actually during college, when many of us protested against the war in Vietnam. We marched to the Oakland Army Induction Center in Oakland. We had a sleep in, in the old student union on the college campus. We didn't get arrested like the kids are being arrested today who are protesting the atrocities in Gaza. During my last year in college, There wasn't anything known as Asian American Studies, but there were enough black students who wanted black studies on the campus. So, we just joined in and helped protest that there was an absence of black studies on the college campus. After I graduated from college, I knew that I was going to go into Peace Corps because I was inspired by President Kennedy. And it didn't make, truth be told, it made no difference what college I was going to go to. I knew I was going to go into Peace Corps, and that's what I did, because the last year I was in college, they offered Swahili, and I said, oh, that's perfect, I'm going to enroll in Swahili, and I end up going to Kenya for two years. And after two years of service in Kenya, you know, it kind of made sense for me to say, you know, if I can go halfway around the world to do public service work, I can certainly come back to Chinatown and do community work. And that's how I end up coming back to San Francisco in 1970. And then, The rest is whatever I did.  Female speaker: The rest is history.  Female Speaker 2: The rest is documented history.  Miko: We'll get into that a little bit more. Steve, what about you? What was your first kind of experience of recognizing social justice?  Stephen Owyang: Okay, so, Both sides of my family came to the U. S. a long time ago in the 1870s from Southern China. And they were in San Francisco until the big earthquake in 1906, after which point most of the family went into the Sacramento Valley. So I was born in Sacramento. I was raised in, down the river in the Delta. I'm really excited to meet you because my father had a small business back then and we went up and down Highway 99 all the time. So, Stockton, Lodi, Modesto, Merced, Kingsburg, Fresno, Hanford, Ripon, Visalia. And my father's business was basically delivering stuff to little mom and pop grocery stores run by Chinese families, mainly from one little county in Guangdong province. There was no I 5 back then, just 99, and you know, in the summer, as you know, it gets really hot. So it was a treat for me to go along with my father because I always got free sodas at every store, so I would go out with him and you know after six or seven sodas It was like, it was a great day. My first glimmers about social justice were just growing up in the Delta and I'll give you three stories.  It's the town of Walnut Grove, and the town of Walnut Grove on Highway 160 is one of the few delta towns that are on both sides of the river. There's a bridge that connects it. And on one side of the river, it's middle class and upper middle class and wealthy white families. Our side of the river, you had the folks from the Dust Bowl days, as Henry mentioned, people from Oklahoma and Texas who came out during the Depression. You also had a small Chinatown, a small J Town, a small Filipino area, a small Mexican area. And that just reflected the social conditions of California agriculture, because each one of those communities at one time was the main source of farm workers. And in fact, my own family, because of the alien land laws, they were farmers, but they couldn't own farmland, right? And so they were sharecroppers. Just, you hear about sharecropping happening in the South, but it also happened in California. So when I was growing up, three things. On the rich side of town, the white side of town, there's a swimming pool that was only open to white families. It was a private pool. You could only go there if you were a member. You could only be a member if you were white. The only way I could go there is if a friend who's a white, from a white family, who's a member, takes you there as a guest. So that's number one. Number two. My best friend was from one of these landed white families, and we were, we were very close. We were good students in elementary school. And then one day in the seventh grade, he, he takes me aside and he says, You know, I can't hang out with you anymore because my mom says I need to have more white friends. So he just cut it off like that. And I, that's the, that's, that's the truth. That's just how it happened. I guess the other thing that affected me back then was I used to go to a little American Baptist church and we had, I guess visits to black churches. And I remember going up to Sacramento on one of these visits and one of the kids there did Martin Luther King's, I have a dream speech from memory. And, it's like amazing oration. And I thought, wow, there's something. going on here that you sort of opened up my eyes to the situation in this country.  So basically until high school, I was a country kid, you know, but then we moved out to San Francisco and it was a big culture shock, big shock. So I was in, I basically came out for high school and this was in the late 60s and I remember it was 1968 when Laureen was on strike for, uh, Ethnic Studies and the Third World Strike in SF State. My high school was literally a few blocks away. I was at Lowell High. And students from SF State were coming over and leafleting us. I started reading that stuff and that's when I really got interested in what was going on at State and later on when I was at Berkeley, you know, in Ethnic Studies. So I think my grounding came from Ethnic Studies, the anti war movement, and, you know, I would love to talk to you about the whole thing about the Vietnam War because, You know, I'm guessing maybe your parents or grandparents were involved in the secret war in Laos, a war that the U. S. wouldn't even acknowledge happened even though we were bombing Laos. So it was ethnic studies, the civil rights movement, and the anti war movement that got me involved. In Berkeley, I was involved in some of the ethnic studies stuff. Even though I'm a fourth generation Chinese American, it's always been very important to me to try to learn the language so I was in the Cantonese working group. So I helped put together the curriculum stuff that was going on in Asian American Studies. I think before Germaine was there, or maybe around the same time. Yeah, I've known these folks for literally 50 years. It's kind of scary. So, um, I was inspired by what was going on at CAA, what Laureen was doing at SF State. So I joined CAA. Biggest mistake of my life. Because I saw this little ad in East West newspaper, used to be this community newspaper, and there was literally a coupon that you would clip out. And I sent in the coupon with a 5 check. It's like the most expensive 5 I've spent in my whole life. And then I went to law school, and I was involved in the law caucus and a number of other things, but my first job out of law school was Right here at CAA. Well, not here, but up on Stockton Street. Henry was my boss. You know, I feel like I would have been less burned out had we done some of this stuff. But we didn't do any of this. I remember my first desk had literally a door on top of like cardboard boxes. That was our office back then. And in one form or another, I've been involved in CAA ever since. I've been in a couple of organizations. Other organizations, but CAA is the one that's closest to my heart, and I'll tell you why. One, I met my wife here. And number two, I feel like the great thing about CAA is it's never lost its real community roots. I feel like other organizations do great work, don't get me wrong, but I feel like CAA has always maintained a real close connection to the community, and that's why everybody. I wrote that 5 check and, and several others. So yeah, that's, that's my story.  Miko: Thanks, Steve. Laureen, what about you?  Laureen Chew: Wow, this is amazing. Listening to everybody else's story, really. I guess I'll start pretty much how, my family was. My grandfather came in 1870s. I think I found out when I went to the roots program, which is only like five years ago, that was an adventure. so my parent, my father and his whole family was born here and born during Chinese exclusion. And so obviously they lived in Chinatown and nowhere else to go, even though they, my father and especially his, younger siblings. They all spoke English. Interestingly, his first two sisters were born here too. They didn't speak a lick of English because they never went to school. So what was really interesting for me, so I was born and raised in Chinatown. Okay. I wasn't born in Chinese Hospital. I was born in Children's Hospital, which everybody thinks is odd. But that's another story. My mother is actually an immigrant. She's a first generation, but she didn't come until 1947. So what's interesting is that I'm always kind of stuck between generations, like one and a half. But having a very strong mother who spoke only Chinese and my father's side, who's mostly English speaking. But a lot of them, my cousins or whatever, they were a lot older. They did speak Chinese also. But what's really stark to me is because growing up in Chinatown, you go to school with basically majority Chinese kids, right? And so you live in this community that on the one hand is very nurturing, very safe. Very intimate in a lot of ways. All my cousins and whatever are here. I mean, to show you how large my father's side was, when my aunt, the oldest aunt had her 50th anniversary wedding anniversary, she married when she was 14 because otherwise women, people forget. I I'm probably the first generation of women that either had a choice to not get married and I was still able to eat because I made my own money. Okay, my mother's generation, no, all her friends, no, you know, so don't take that one for granted either as women. So what was interesting was the fact that because she is very strong in being Chinese and then my father's side are total assimilationists, mainly, which was really interesting because many of them who grew up during Chinese exclusion. It was horrific, but you would never, I never heard one story. His family must have had over 300 people because his sister had 13 kids. Okay, then they had all had kids, one at 10, one of her daughter in law. So it was like huge. Growing up in this area, I just never felt I was different than anyone else because you don't come in contact with anyone that's really different until I went to high school. My mother is the immigrant. She wanted to send me to a school that was not a public school that a lot of the Chinatown kids went to, which was Galileo, because she somehow felt that I would be the kind of kid that would go not the straight and narrow, but more towards the the More naughty kids, to put it mildly, she knew that. So what she did was that she sent me to a Catholic school, okay, because she, God knows, oh yeah, she went to school for two years in Hong Kong. She's another story, she didn't have any money, and so she was given to an aunt to be raised. So she married to get out of Hong Kong because At twenty, she told me the only thing she told me was at twenty seven, I was considered an old maid. And then my father, who was, didn't have, there weren't very many women here because of Chinese exclusion, and he had to marry Chinese, actually saw my mom, and my mom's a picture bride, so they didn't even know each other when they got married. But she took over. My mom is like the queen of the family and the decision maker. And my father made the money and she spent it however little she had. Okay. And going to Catholic school was one thing that she felt that would help me become a good girl, except that I had never been to a where there were white kids. And so this school Was not only Catholic, but it was also a school that was considered kind of the, the best girls, Catholic high school. It was at the end of Chinatown. And that's the only reason why she wanted me to go there because I didn't have to take the bus. I can walk home. It's, it's a French school called Notre Dame de Victoire. So I went there and I thought I would have a really good time, just like all, all the high school. My problem was, was that. I was different, but never to know that you're different until you're in high school. Because you know, you know how mean girls can be in high school. And then they're all, it's an all girls school and it's a small school. And so my mom told me very clearly, you know, it's $150 a year. We really don't have that money, but. You know, we'll scrape and do whatever we can to send you through that. I said, Oh, okay, cool. Right. Except I had no friends. I mean, I was one of three Chinese girls in the school and I never knew how different I was until I got there because I used to get home perms, you know, permanence. And all the other girls had money. They were at least middle class, if not richer, and they all went to beauty parlors. My mom cut my hair and gave me the home perms, and she was into saving money, like I said, so she always kept the perm on longer than you should have it. I swore one year it came out like I had an afro, and I was so embarrassed. I made her cut it just to make it look straighter, but it was horrible. I don't have a picture. No, first of all, pictures aren't that common back then, you know, it costs money to have film and a camera. You didn't even have a camera. Yeah. So anyway, plus another thing is that because I wasn't the smartest Chinese girl either. Okay, the other two Chinese girls did pretty well. They were smart, and they were good in sports. I was neither. And I looked like a dork. Then what would made it even worse was that my mother spoke no English. My father did, but he might as well be absent because he slept during the day and worked at night. So we have things called mother daughter fashion shows. Mother, daughter breakfast. And I saw the way those mothers were dressed and I saw the way everybody acted and my way of dealing with it was I had no mom. I never brought her to the school. Any mother, daughter thing, I didn't go to. You didn't have to. I mean, that made me even less part of the school. And it was very painful because I didn't understand why I would be treated that way. Just because I looked, but I spoke English, it didn't matter. I did look a little weird, you know, so to this, I think it influenced me a couple of ways. One, whenever I had money, clothes was going to be my big deal. It still is, you know, it's kind of psychological. And then secondly, then that was a time that I figured out like, how come I don't, I hate myself and my family versus versus hating those girls. Right. I mean, that's how I dealt with it. It was, I call it a form of self hatred and it's, it's done by schooling. It's done by not only schooling in terms of omission about who we were as a people here, but omission about racism. Omission about discrimination and just about our histories here. But I didn't have a label for it in high school. I just, I really thought there was something wrong with me and my family. And that's the greatest danger about racism, is this form of internalizing it and not having a vehicle to deal with it. And there was nothing in our schools that dealt with it, you know, and I think what I came out of there realizing was that. Oh, another thing, I had mixed messages about what was happening because Martin Luther King was already on TV, and I was trying to watch it, and then I was still in high school, and my mom would, and my cousins, American boys, don't watch the black people. They're troublemakers. You know, all they do is make trouble, you know, they don't, they should be like us. We don't complain, right? We don't make trouble. And that's how you succeed. You succeed, I think, in my, what I was raised with, with the older generation of American born who had to go through this horrific history, you know, one, you don't get a job in Chinatown. You should get a job outside of Chinatown because it means that you're working for white folks and working for white folks is better than working for your own. So self hatred doesn't just run in yourself. It kind of permeates how we feel. feel as, as a group of people, right? And so, my whole thing was that I was looking for answers as to why, why I felt the way I did. And not only that, I wasn't the only one. That's what was interesting. And I didn't realize that until I went to San Francisco state, you know, because I was told, my mom said, you want to go to college, you're going to have to You know, find your way up to court because she, you know, she spent that on my fabulous high school education, which I came up miserable and, and I would tell her I want to go to Galileo. I want to go there. She said, no, you're not going to go. I said, she goes, what is wrong with you? Because I started crying certain times and she would just say, well, you're going to school to learn, not to make friends, so forget about it. I'm giving you the best with best intentions. But then when I went to college, this one girl who grew up in South City, similar experience because South City was all white back then. So she said to me one day, she was, she's Chinese too. And she says, you know, there's a meeting there that's huge. The people are talking about all this stuff. We talk about how we were mistreated in high school and how people are blah, blah. There's a name for it. It's called racism. I was called what racism. Okay. She goes, you want to go? I said, well, who's there? She said, black people. But I said, Oh, my mom would kill me. I mean, I was really worried because my mom doesn't even know what I do at state. So I went. I think that time we had some pretty interesting people. One time there was Eldridge Cleaver, who was the head of the Black Panther Party. Um, there were people like Carlton Goodlett, who was from the Bayview Hunters Point, who had certain people from the mission. They were all kind of leaders of different communities. There was Yuri Wada, who was a Japanese American. He was very prominent in dealing with civil rights. Chinatown, I, George Woo, George Woo is an infamous person also. He was the spokesperson for gang kids in Chinatown. He was very, very, very alive and took over in terms of the whole thing about the youth problems in Chinatown. So he was not part of this group, but just hearing the stories of these other ethnic groups that were very similar, not the same, but this whole thing of like just being dissed for the way you look, the way you speak, and supposedly your values. And my whole thing is that, that thing opened my eyes to the extent that helped me to release a lot of my anger towards something I didn't know who to be angry at, right? So you have to, I felt that the San Francisco State Strike, I mean, I was all in and with a small group of Chinese that were there, including Mason, all these people. And we had to really open our eyes to working with other people that were not like us. And what was more interesting for me to see was that every single group said that if we're ever going to have classes on ethnic studies, a key part of those classes should be why we are getting an education. And why we're getting an education primarily is to serve our communities. So there is a real strong component to ethnic studies that was community based. And because of that, during my college years, I actually came back, I mean came back, I was still living in Chinatown, but I actually placed myself in the Chinatown that I knew nothing about, which is our issues, our problems. And during my time, it was mainly about youth problems. We had a gang problem. We had girls that were on drugs. We had immigrant kids that didn't speak any English and just thrown into schools nilly willy without anybody helping them. So I was lucky enough for three years or four years during college that I worked as a house parent for runaway girls. I worked trying to tutor immigrant kids, you know, and I was trying to become a teacher. So those formative years, in terms of just having my feet in different things really showed me that, you know what, I don't want next generations of people who kind of look like me to have to go through the struggle of hating myself. Because of things that are my home, that are based home base, you know, this country, this is what I feel that very strongly about the United States, that I think people are losing sight of, especially now that we're all in very ethnic silos. This country is very different in the sense of just the whole fact of different groups mixing, you know, you go to China or whatever it's still basically you. you're Chinese, even in my north, south, pink, whatever direction you are. It's still basically Chinese, but in this country you can come from different areas and different places of the world and still have a vision that ties you together. That should be a singular vision, which is a democracy at this point. And then also this very simple statement of justice. And equality for all. We sometimes forget about the all, if we're just kind of in our little silos. But I think that's the reason why, from state on, and reacquainting to my community, it was life changing. Whatever job I took after that, whether I was a teacher, a faculty, associate dean, chair of the department. My main focus was that I'm here for the students and the people, quote unquote, who are here with me that have this similar vision, that we all have a place here. And in order to, for us to really respect others, we have to respect ourselves. And that includes what we're raised with in terms of our values and also our history here. Miko: Thanks, Laureen. Germaine?  Germaine Wong: Oh. well, my experience is similar to many of yours and a little bit different. I grew up in Oakland, Chinatown, and Went to a school that was only three blocks from where I live. And the school was Mexicans, blacks, as well as Chinese. Although I would say maybe half the school, at least half the school was Chinese. And I didn't, I didn't speak any English until I went to school, so I had that experience too. And then, my father was always very upwardly mobile, wanted to live the white middle class life. And I didn't know it at the time, but, he managed to buy property in Castro Valley, Southeast of Oakland. At the time, they wouldn't sell to Chinese. So he got somebody at work to buy the property for him. And then sold it to my father. That's how we got to move there. So I started high school in Castro Valley. I was the only non white in the whole school. The janitors, the cafeteria workers, everybody was white. I was the only one in that school who was not white. But I'm a little bit more dense than all of you, so I was not aware of whatever racism there was. At that time Castro Valley was really white. And also very affluent. So most of my classmates. It's unlike in Oakland, Chinatown, these classmates, they were children of doctors and lawyers and engineers and dentists and most of the people in my high school, they, the kids either had horses or cars. At that time, Castro Valley was not the suburb it is today. Our neighbors, for example, our next door neighbors had chickens and goats So it was really different. So it was all so different from Oakland Chinatown. And then I finally experienced some racism the following year when a black family moved in and somebody really literally did burn a cross in their front lawn. Wow. Yeah. And she was in the same grade I was in, one of the daughters. And then another Chinese girl moved in. And I recognized her, but we were never friends in Oakland Chinatown. And that's where I first experienced reverse discrimination. Because I met the stereotype of an Asian student, right? So I did well in math and all the classes. Well, she was definitely a C student and the teachers treated her as if she was an F student. Teachers just expect us to excel in our classes. So that was my first, really, where it hit home for me. And then in the 50s, in Oakland, Chinatown, I experienced what Henry did during the confession program. So my mother was going through all these things. These are your aunts and uncles and these are not your aunts and uncles. And so if any white person comes and starts asking you about your family, just remember these people are not related to you because all of us had paper names. Like I'm not really a Wong. My family's really a Kwan. But in my situation, I had a great grandfather who was here legitimately. And then the next generation, when they went back, they decided we're never coming back to the United States. So they sold their papers. So then when the next generation decided to come back, they had to buy papers. So my family went through that situation. I had jobs where I lived in, during college, I, I had live in jobs, I lived with a family first when I was going to UC Berkeley, and then later on when I transferred over to San Francisco State, I worked for an older white woman, and so I, I got to see what upper white middle class families lived like, and then with this older woman that I lived in with here in San Francisco, what the rich people lived like, so that was kind a different world. And then somebody asked me to work at the Chinatown YWCA here. And I got to experience San Francisco Chinatown then. I was assigned to work in a pilot program where I worked with third grade Chinatown girls. One group were immigrant girls who lived in the SROs here. They literally are eight by eight rooms with a whole family lives in them. And the kitchen and the bathrooms are down the hall. So that was the first time I had ever seen people living like that, in such crowded digits. And the other group of girls I worked with, again, were middle class, upper middle class Chinese girls whose parents were doctors and dentists and like that. And the woman who was the executive director was a Korean American woman named Hannah Sir. And this was all when I went to college when President Kennedy was assassinated and then Lyndon Johnson became president. And so it was during this time that this Korean American woman said to me, you have to apply for this program because right now, President Lyndon Johnson only thought about blacks and Hispanics who needed help. And we really need to get Asian Americans in. So she convinced me to apply for program and some miracle happened and I got into the program. After I went to that summer training program, I came back here to San Francisco and I was assigned to work in the Bayview, Hunters Point, and Fillmore areas of San Francisco working with black gang kids. That was a new experience for me too. Then from there, then I went to grad school, then when I came back, I got assigned to working here in Chinatown, where I worked mainly with immigrant adults looking for jobs as well as the gang kids, both English speaking as well as Chinese speaking. And, from there, I met people like Ling Chi Wong and Eileen Dong. who were already working in Chinatown before I was. And that's when we got together and Ling Chi was actually the organizer, the lead person. And, we started CAA. So all of us had other jobs. We had full time jobs and so we were doing this kind of on the side. I think Ling Chi was the only one who didn't have a job. He was a graduate student. And I want to tell you, he was a graduate student in Middle Eastern ancient languages. That's what he was studying at UC Berkeley at the time. And, uh, but all the rest of us had full time jobs. We started CAA as a volunteer organization. We had no office, no staff, no money. And that's how we started. And eventually I first met Laureen, who really helped us out with one of our first major projects. Teaching English on television, remember? You and Helen, yes. You and Helen Chin really helped us out. Laureen Chew: Okay, nice to know.  Germaine Wong: And then I remember meeting, and then when Henry came to Chinatown and his Swahili was better than his Cantonese. Wow. Yes. Wow. Anyway, and I met all of these good people and CAA continued to grow. And there still is. Yep. Amazing, amazing story.  And that wraps up part one of this incredible intergenerational conversation. Between the OGs of Chinese for affirmative action. And the young organizers of mung innovating politics. Tonight. We got a glimpse into the powerful stories of CAS.  Of CA's founders.  Their hardships resilience and what drove them to commit their lives to the movement. Their reflections, remind us that the fight for justice is not just about the moments of triumph and the victories, but also about the struggles, the sacrifices. And perhaps most importantly, the. Vital importance of being grounded in our communities and our values. Be sure to join us next time for part two, where we'll dive into the dialogue between. Seasoned OJI leaders and today's. Today's youth Changemakers from Monday innovating politics. Together, they'll explore strategies, how strategies have shifted over the decades and how we can sustain our work for social justice in the longterm. As always thank you for tuning into apex express. For more about Chinese for affirmative action and mung innovating politics.  Please do check them out on their websites, which will be linked in the show notes. At apex express. At kpfa.org/apex express. Until next time. Apex express is produced by Miko Lee, Paige Chung, Jalena Keane-Lee, Preeti Mangala Shekar. Shekar, Anuj Vaidya, Kiki Rivera, Swati Rayasam, Nate Tan, Hien Nguyen, Nikki Chan, and Cheryl Truong  Cheryl Truong: Tonight's show was produced by me, cheryl. Thanks to the team at KPFA for all of their support. And thank you for listening!  The post APEX Express – December 19, 2024 – Bridging Generations appeared first on KPFA.

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Norman and I just finished recording our first live podcast - at the beautiful Camp Monologa in Castro Valley! We hosted a panel of directors, to talk about "How to Nail Your Next Acting Gig", with guests Wynne Chan, John Maio, Kimberly Ridgeway and Salim Rizawi. Wynne Chan has worked all over the bay area, most recently with The Pear Theatre, directing The Chinese Lady this past spring; John Maio is a veteran director in the bay, having worked at Altarena, Hillbarn Theatre, Douglas Morrison Theatre and many others; Kim Ridgeway, who has been on the Yay many times, is currently directing Pat Milton's play The Accused, playing now until August 11; and Salim Rizawi is the casting director at Shotgun Players and has directed for many companies in the bay area. We touched on: mistakes made during auditions; doing your homework as an actor (know the play and the company you're auditioning for); and being realistic - knowing who you are as an actor and what you can and can't do. Since this was a live show, we didn't touch at all on current events or birthdays or upcoming shows (speaking of which, please check out Inventory: Baldwin Abroad, playing at Playground SF August 1-4 and at the BAM House August 22 - Sept 1st). Our focus is to help Plethos Productions, a company that means so much to Norman and I. Karin Richey has done a tremendous job in the 7 years of Plethos' existence, creating wonderful stories and creating opportunities for new actors and directors. Having a residence in Hayward is the next step for Plethos and we want to help them achieve that goal. You can help! Please go to https://givebutter.com/letsplethos and help Plethos continue to create wonderful theatre.

After receiving an education in biology and at seminary, Dr. Alan Weissenbacher worked for the Denver Rescue Mission as a chaplain to the homeless. He helped move homeless and addicted people out of an urban setting to a one-hundred-acre farm, giving them opportunities to help run the farm, care for animals, and receive therapy tailored to their individual needs: counseling, addiction therapy, job training, and more. Inspired by the struggles of his clients and filled with the desire to improve Christian rehabilitation, Alan resigned from his position at the Denver Rescue Mission and enrolled in a doctorate program. He studied neuroscience and spiritual formation at the Center for Theology and the Natural Sciences in Berkeley and engaged with the question of how to improve addiction recovery, church practices, and spiritual formation using the scientific knowledge of the brain. Alan serves as the managing editor for the academic journal Theology and Science and has published works with Johns Hopkins University Press, Vernon Press, and ATF Press on the subjects of science, religion, and ethics. He authored the chapter on neuroscience and the human person in the second edition of the college textbook Science and Religion: A Historical Introduction in addition to articles in several journals, including Theology and Science, Dialog, Wesleyan Theological Journal, and Zygon. Originally from Fort Collins, Colorado, Alan currently resides in Castro Valley, California, where he's a full-time dad to two young boys and enjoys speaking at churches and organizations. Learn more about Alan and his book at www.BrainChangeProgram.com, on Facebook @alan.weissenbacher, and on X/Twitter @acweissen.

Speaker: Michael Chung Scripture: John 14:15-26 Date: May 26, 2024 Michael is pastor of Imago Dei Church in Castro Valley. He grew up in Los Angeles, but knew the Bay Area was home when he met his wife, Christina, at Cal, and experienced the unique blend of bohemian and nerd culture of the East Bay. His greatest joy is seeing spiritual life blossom in people as they discover Christ in the Scriptures. He and Christina have two boys, Judah and Noah. Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/revivepreschurch/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/revivepreschurch/ Website: https://www.revivepres.church

Good morning! Yesterday was nice! But tomorrow and Friday will be wet.40% of us have a container of Cool Whip in our fridge or freezers!The Brighter Side.Oakland International Aiport wants to change it's name... to San Francisco Bay Oakland International Airport.  What do you think?Michael in Hayward won tickets to the California's Great America!Cort wants to install a backup camera on his daughter's car... and do it himself! Carolyn says no.Mike in Castro Valley won Air Supply tickets!

Good morning!This weekend was... WET!Cort quizzes Carolyn!The Brighter Side.Cort wonders if his teenage daughter is TOO busy.Hilary Swank is a new mom and says she will no longer do "dangerous" things (like fly planes and skydive).Did you give up something when you became a parent? Or have you seen others do it?Mike in Castro Valley won Lauren Daigle concert tickets!

Elections in the Alameda County Board of Supervisor race for District 4 are taking place on March 5th. The Board of Supervisors is made up of five elected non-partisan leaders who work as a regional governing body. The board's work includes appointing county officials, adopting an annual budget and awarding all public works contracts, among other duties. The District 4 supervisor will represent portions of Pleasanton, Oakland, Castro Valley and various unincorporated areas of the county. We hear from the two candidates in the race starting with the incumbent Nate Miley who was first elected to the seat in 2000. Running against Nate Miley is Jennifer Esteen, a psychiatric nurse, single mother and community activist. —- Subscribe to this podcast: https://plinkhq.com/i/1637968343?to=page Get in touch: lawanddisorder@kpfa.org Follow us on socials @LawAndDis: https://twitter.com/LawAndDis; https://www.instagram.com/lawanddis/ The post Alameda County D4 Candidates Go Back to Back w/ Nate Miley and Jennifer Esteen appeared first on KPFA.

  Asm. Liz Ortega (D-San Leandro) Announces Governor Signed New Law to Prevent Child Labor ExploitationSACRAMENTO ― California high school students will learn about their rights at work and how to defend themselves against workplace abuses under a first-of-its-kind law just signed by Governor Gavin Newsom over the weekend.AB 800, authored by Assemblymember Liz Ortega (D-San Leandro), creates a Workplace Readiness Week at all public high schools to teach students about their workplace rights, protections for minors on the job, and how to join or start a union. The Governor announced the law's passage on Saturday.“I am so proud to announce the passage of this first-of-its-kind law requiring schools to teach our kids about their workplace rights,” said Assemblymember Ortega. “We are seeing headlines about children abused at workplaces across the country―wage theft, violations of labor law, and even serious life-changing injuries. As Republicans in other states are working hard to put our children in harm's way, California is giving kids the tools to stand up for themselves.”Despite an uptick in reports of serious workplace injuries and abuse involving minors, a number of Republican-controlled states have passed laws loosening protections for minors. Arkansas and Iowa recently lowered the age at which minors can legally work. In those states, children as young as 14 can now legally work in meat coolers and industrial laundries, and 15-year-olds may work on assembly lines.About 55% of US teens are employed. They are more concentrated in fields where wage theft is common and are more likely to be seriously injured while working with machinery. In 2021, 109 teenagers died from work-related injuries in the United States. That same year, over 33,000 teens suffered workplace injuries so severe that they needed to go to the emergency room.“Youth are having their wages stolen and being seriously injured at work because they don't know that they have a right to demand safety and hold their employers accountable,” continued Asm. Ortega. “Teaching our youth about their rights at work is essential education―and it could save their lives.”“Too often, young workers face wage theft, unsafe conditions, sexual harassment or other abuses at work,” said Lorena Gonzalez Fletcher, chief officer of the California Labor Federation. “By requiring that high school students be taught their rights as employees, AB 800 empowers young people with the information and tools they need to understand their rights as workers and protects them against workplace abuses.”In 2021, California workers filed nearly 19,000 claims for unpaid wages totaling more than $338 million in stolen wages. The fields in which young people tend to be concentrated – food service, retail, childcare, office support – account for almost half (44.2%) of those wage theft claims. These jobs also have high rates of sexual harassment, abuse from management or clientele, discrimination, and serious injury.Assemblymember Liz Ortega is a member of the Assembly Committees on Higher Education, Insurance, Labor and Employment, Public Safety and Rules. She represents the 20th Assembly District, encompassing all or a portion of the cities of Hayward, San Leandro, Union City, Dublin, Pleasanton and the unincorporated areas of Ashland, Cherryland, Fairview, San Lorenzo, and Castro Valley

A U.S. Senate appointment could shake up the East Bay's primary election in several ways. Castro Valley school boardmember Mike Kusiak makes a cameo appearance while bearing empanadas, and Lee Thomas returns a co-host. We discuss Sen. Dianne Feinstein's passing, the epic rant by Hayward Mayor Mark Salinas, and how DA Pamela Price should handle the recall threatening her first-year administration.

Wife of Pastor Jamie Hawkin's Funeral Service at Redwood Chapel in Castro Valley, California on, September 21, at 11-AM.

Wife of Pastor Jamie Hawkin's Funeral Service at Redwood Chapel in Castro Valley, California on, September 21, at 11:AM.

Join us this week for a special interview with Robert Lopez, AJ's director from middle school days. Robert is most recently starring in TMC's production of Bright Star the musical in Castro Valley. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/broadwaywithajandsarah/message

Donna Renay Patrick is serious about walking in her unique purpose, and helping others walk in theirs.  She is an Award-Winning Author of two praise and worship-themed Devotionals - At All Times, and It's In Your Praise. She also co-authored four anthologies entitled, The Perfect 7, Stories of Roaring Faith (Vol. 4), Be Refreshed, and most recently No More Unclaimed Promises, which gained Best-Seller status.She has been a musician and choir director most of her life, and serves as a powerful Worship Leader.  She is a regular presenter at the Bay Area Church Workers Convention in Castro Valley, California, has had a Commentary published with The African American Lectionary, and serves on the faculty of The National Convention of Gospel Choirs and Choruses.  Donna also serves on the Executive Board of the Northeastern District Baptist Association, and is a certified instructor with the National Baptist Convention, USA, Inc.  As the Award-Winning Radio Host of The Donna Patrick Show, where "we talk all things praise and worship," she coaches and trains music ministry personnel and church leaders on how to give God the kind of worship He wants, rather than just what we choose to give Him.For more information and to follow Donna. Please visit:https://donnarenaypatrick.com/https://www.facebook.com/donna.r.patrickhttps://www.linkedin.com/in/donna-renay-patrick-m-a-b9746a29For more information and other valuable resources, make sure to subscribe, follow and visit our sites.  Website: https://www.thevoiceofmany.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theevoiceofmany/?hl=en Twitter: https://twitter.com/TheVoiceofMany3 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/The-Voice-of-Many LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/the-voice-of-many-podcast-1417a81b7 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMmouE4IqrsPG2gnaERlY-ASupport the show

In 1992, Eddie Chacon broke out as one-half of Charles & Eddie, his soul music duo with Charles Pettigrew. Their single "Would I Lie to You?” was a major international hit. Chacon was just a kid growing up in Castro Valley, California, when he decided he would be a music star. Before meeting Pettigrew, Eddie had played in a teenage band with Cliff Burton and Mike Bordin, later of Metallica and Faith No More. He had an alliance with Luther Campbell of the infamous 2 Live Crew, worked with the Dust Brothers. These days, he's making oracular, synth driven soul music that draws equally on the mile deep grooves of Sly Stone's drum machine and the cosmic synth hymns of Alice Coltrane. His latest album is called Sundown, out now from Stones Throw. This week on Transmissions, Eddie joins host Jason P. Woodbury to discuss his partnership with producer John Carroll Kirby, his fascinating years in the music industry, and his collaborative work with his wife, Sissy Chacon.  Support Aquarium Drunkard on Patreon. Transmissions is a part of the Talkhouse Podcast Network. Next week on Transmissions? A conversation with Surya Botofasina about his incredible synth meditations and growing up on Alice Coltrane's Ashram.

Topher Delaney in conversation with David Duskin, Public Artists, and co-founder of Petaluma River Park http://www.davidduskin.com/ https://www.petalumariverpark.org/ Publicly accessible collaborative works: Teaching Stones, Almaden Library and Community Center, San Jose, CA Norman Lear Monument, Emerson College, Boston, MA Castro Valley Creek Daylighting Project, Castro Valley Library, Castro Valley, CA Thousand Ways, Luther Burbank Center for the Arts, Santa Rosa, CA Books that have inspired David: The Hero with a Thousand Faces, Joseph Campbell Tao Te Ching, Lao-tzu, translation by Stephen Mitchell  Women Who Run with the Wolves, Clarissa Pinkola Estes Finnegans Wake, James Joyce Body Watching, Desmond Morris Moby Dick, Herman Melville Paintings that have inspired David: Annunciation, Cortona, Fra Angelico  Annunciation, San Marco, Fra Angelico 

Tuesday, May 27, 1994, is just two days after Jenny Lin's 14th birthday. She comes home from school to an empty house in Castro Valley, California. Like a lot of kids, both of her parents work, and Jenny is expected to get her chores and homework done before they get home. But also, like a lot of kids, especially a lot of teenagers, Jenny decides that before she gets to work on those tasks, she will talk to some friends on the phone. Jenny's last call ends just after 5 pm. About 30 minutes later, her father, John Lin, calls home to check on her, but there's no answer. He doesn't immediately panic; Jenny is a very responsible kid, and she's used to this routine. She's probably just doing something and didn't hear the phone.   Around 7 pm, John walks into a quiet house. He doesn't see Jenny anywhere. But it's clear that Jenny had been there. The back door is unlocked, the TV is on, and Jenny's microwave dinner is sitting on the kitchen counter. After John doesn't see Jenny on the first floor of the house, he then walks upstairs and notices that the bathroom door in his room is closed.   When he opens the door, the scene John walks into is inconceivable. Jenny is lying face down, covered in blood. Nearly 30 years later, the case is still unsolved, and the Lin family and investigators struggle to make sense of why Jenny was targeted.   If you have any information about her case, please contact the Alameda County Sheriff's Office at 510-667-3636. For more information about the Jenny Lin foundation, visit https://jennylinfoundation.org/ Thank you to our sponsor ZocDoc. Go to Zocdoc.com/Justice and download the Zocdoc app for free. Then find and book a top-rated doctor today. Many are available within 24 hours. For more information about the podcast and the cases discussed, visit VoicesforJusticePodcast.com   Don't forget to follow me on social media under Voices for Justice Podcast & SarahETurney   Join the Patreon family to get instant access to a library of extra content, support the show, and support these cases https://www.patreon.com/VoicesforJustice   Voices for Justice is a podcast that uses adult language and discusses sensitive and potentially triggering topics including violence, abuse, and murder. This podcast may not be appropriate for younger audiences. All parties are innocent until proven guilty in a court of law. Some names have been changed or omitted per their request or for safety purposes. Listener discretion is advised.   The introduction music used in Voices for Justice is Thread of Clouds by Blue Dot Sessions. Outro music is Melancholic Ending by Soft and Furious. The track used for ad transitions is Pinky by Blue Dot Sessions. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Donna Renay Patrick is serious about walking in her unique purpose and helping others walk in theirs. She is an Award-Winning Author of two praise and worship - themed Devotionals-At All Times, and It's In Your Praise. She also co-authored four anthologies entitled, The Perfect 7, Stories of Roaring Faith (Vol. 4), Be Refreshed, and most recently No More Unclaimed Promises, which gained Best-Seller status. She has been a musician and choir director most of her life and serves as a powerful Worship Leader. She is a regular presenter at the Bay Area Church Workers Convention in Castro Valley, California, has had a Commentary published with The African American Lectionary, and serves on the faculty of the National Convention of Gospel Choirs and Choruses. Donna also serves on the Executive Board of the Northeastern District Baptist Association and is a certified instructor with the National Baptist Convention, USA, Inc. As the Award-Winning Radio Host of The Donna Patrick Show, where "we talk all things praise and worship," she coaches and trains music ministry personnel and church leaders on how to give God the kind of worship He wants, rather than what we choose to give Him. Donna earned a Bachelor of Science degree from Bishop College in Dallas, Texas, as well as a Master of Arts in Christian Education from Dallas Baptist University. Contact Info: https://donnaraypatrick.com Please subscribe to the enVision Together podcast to be notified of each episode. To connect with Pamela online to discuss her weekly topics or to spread the word about the enVision Together: Going to Your Next Level of Best podcast, please follow her on social media or on her website: Facebook: @Pamela Mshana Instagram: @pamela.mshana.37 Twitter: @PamelaMshana Website: http://www.pamelamshana.com/ (www.pamelamshana.com) (Contact page). Support the Show: https://www.paypal.com/donate?hosted_button_id=TD6PCE7G83GNY (https://www.paypal.com/donate?hosted_button_id=TD6PCE7G83GNY)

Mike Matthews discusses his trip North and the tragic experience recently in Castro Valley. Join Mike as he podcasts live from Cafe Anyway with Madame Rootabega, Valentino, and Bison Bentley. Next show it's Chely Shoehart, Floyd the Floorman, and John Deer the Engineer.

Mike Matthews discusses his trip North and the tragic experience recently in Castro Valley. Join Mike as he podcasts live from Cafe Anyway with Madame Rootabega, Valentino, and Bison Bentley. Next show it's Chely Shoehart, Floyd the Floorman, and John Deer the Engineer.

Six people were injured in a school shooting Wednesday in Oakland's Eastmont Hills, police said. Oakland police officials said the shooting took place at the King Estate campus on Fontaine Street, which houses multiple schools. Officers are looking for at least one shooter, but add other suspects might be involved. The school has since been cleared by police. Highland Hospital in Oakland confirms it is treating three of the victims, who all are in critical condition with gunshot wounds. The other three victims were transported to Eden Medical Center in Castro Valley, according to the hospital. Police in a late afternoon briefing said all victims are adults affiliated with the school and provided the following updates on their conditions: two are suffering from life-threatening injuries one victim has been released from the hospital two victims are pending release from the hospital one victim has injuries that are non-life threatening See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Six people were injured in a school shooting Wednesday in Oakland's Eastmont Hills, police said. Oakland police officials said the shooting took place at the King Estate campus on Fontaine Street, which houses multiple schools. Officers are looking for at least one shooter, but add other suspects might be involved. The school has since been cleared by police. Highland Hospital in Oakland confirms it is treating three of the victims, who all are in critical condition with gunshot wounds. The other three victims were transported to Eden Medical Center in Castro Valley, according to the hospital. Police in a late afternoon briefing said all victims are adults affiliated with the school and provided the following updates on their conditions: two are suffering from life-threatening injuries one victim has been released from the hospital two victims are pending release from the hospital one victim has injuries that are non-life threatening See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Opposing sides came out to rally outside the offices of the Castro Valley Unified School District Wednesday. The cause? A series of progress pride flag murals that are being painted on the grounds of every school in the district. "All this project is about is creating a safer school environment for every kid," said Austin Brucker of Castro Valley Pride. The idea for the murals began as a student-led initiative - and the school board approved the plan earlier this year. Supporters say they'll be a sign that the district is an inclusive and safe place for everyone. Especially during a time when many in the LGBTQ community feel like they're under political attack. "I'd say 80% of the school is supportive. Like, very supportive," said student, Nolan Stoneburner. The murals have gained national attention in recent days after the story got picked up by multiple right wing outlets. "For the past week, the school district as well as Castro Valley Pride, have been the direct targets of hundreds and hundreds of hateful comments and emails and calls," said Bruckner. Pride flag murals at Castro Valley schools cause opposing rallies, gain national attention.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Opposing sides came out to rally outside the offices of the Castro Valley Unified School District Wednesday. The cause? A series of progress pride flag murals that are being painted on the grounds of every school in the district. "All this project is about is creating a safer school environment for every kid," said Austin Brucker of Castro Valley Pride. The idea for the murals began as a student-led initiative - and the school board approved the plan earlier this year. Supporters say they'll be a sign that the district is an inclusive and safe place for everyone. Especially during a time when many in the LGBTQ community feel like they're under political attack. "I'd say 80% of the school is supportive. Like, very supportive," said student, Nolan Stoneburner. The murals have gained national attention in recent days after the story got picked up by multiple right wing outlets. "For the past week, the school district as well as Castro Valley Pride, have been the direct targets of hundreds and hundreds of hateful comments and emails and calls," said Bruckner. Pride flag murals at Castro Valley schools cause opposing rallies, gain national attention.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Cameron Mai is an Austin-based, stand-up comedian from Castro Valley, CA.

Instagram: www.instagram.com/soldbydaleFacebook: www.fb.com/soldbydaleWith more than 18 years in real estate and finance, Dale Corpus #soldbydale has built his career reputation on superior service, vast broker experience, an impressive sales record and consistent repeat business. Dale started his career on the finance side of real estate as a mortgage banker with Fortune 500 companies Wells Fargo, JPMorgan Chase, and Bank of America, where he was awarded Leader's Club status. After a successful career in lending, he transitioned into listing and selling properties working with homeowners, first time homebuyers, investors, and developers, and providing financial insight into home purchases that no other agent can offer.As a Broker Associate Realtor, Certified Investor Agent Specialist (CIAS), and Certified Distressed Property Expert (CDPE), he has become a highly respected and trusted real estate and marketing professional serving the Tri-Valley region, including Dublin, Danville, Pleasanton and Castro Valley. The lifelong Bay Area resident also brings an entrepreneurial spirit to his in-depth understanding of the local market, utilizing the latest technology to give buyers a competitive advantage; while for sellers, Dale provides distinctive representation, employing strategic marketing to sell for top dollar.Dale has a passion for real estate and takes pride in the personal connections that come with assisting clients, whether they are buying or selling. His talents in negotiation, finance, and marketing drew him to real estate initially, but getting positive results for his clients is what makes his career in this industry truly rewarding.

You down to pay $6000 to take a cruise to Stockton? Plus, Sana really wants a golf cart to mob around Castro Valley, but she ain't gonna drink Jack and take it on the freeway like today's clown of the day.

Drummer Lars Ulrich was born into an upper-middle-class family in Gentofte, Denmark, on December 26, 1963. The son of Lone and tennis player Torben Ulrich. In February of 1973, Lars' father obtained passes for five of his friends to check out a Deep Purple (Smoke On the Water) concert held in the same stadium in Copenhagen as one of his tennis tournaments. When one of the dad's friends couldn't go, they gave their ticket to the nine-year-old Lars, who fell in love with the band and ran out and bought their album Fireball the next day. The concert and album greatly impacted Lars, inspiring the start of his music career. He received his first drum kit, a Ludwig, from his grandmother around 12 or 13. Lars initially intended to follow in his father's footsteps and become a badass tennis player, so he moved to Newport Beach, California, in the summer of 1980. Despite being ranked in the top ten tennis players of his age group in Denmark, Lars failed to make it into the seven-man Corona del Mar High School tennis team, solidifying his decision to focus on music.    So, while living in Los Angeles in late 1981, Lars placed an ad in the L.A. newspaper, The Recycler, which read, "Drummer looking for other metal musicians to jam with. Tygers of Pan Tang, Diamond Head and Iron Maiden."    Guitarists James Hetfield and Hugh Tanner of Leather Charm answered the advertisement.    James Alan Hetfield was born on August 3, 1963, in Downey, California, the son of Cynthia Bassett, a light opera singer, and Virgil Lee Hetfield, a truck driver. James was nine years old when he first began piano lessons. He then started jamming on his half-brother David's drums, and finally, at 14, he began to play guitar with Robert Okner. He was also in a few bands as a teenager – one was "Leather Charm" with Hugh Tanner, and another was "Obsession." James said that Aerosmith was his primary musical influence as a child and that they were why he wanted to play guitar. His parents divorced in 1976 when he was 13. They were devout Christian Scientists, and following their beliefs, they strongly disapproved of medicine or any other medical treatment and remained loyal to their faith, even as James' mother, Cynthia, was dying from cancer. This lifestyle inspired many of his lyrics during his career with Metallica. For example, the songs "Dyers Eve" and "The God That Failed" from the albums "...And Justice for All" and "Metallica" touch on those topics. His mother, Cynthia, died of cancer in 1979 when Hetfield was 16 years old. After her death, James went to live with his older half-brother David.   Although he had not formed a band, Lars asked Metal Blade Records founder Brian Slagel if he could record a song for the label's upcoming compilation album, Metal Massacre. Slagel accepted, and Ulrich recruited Hetfield to sing and play rhythm guitar. Lars and James officially formed the band known as "Metallica" on October 28, 1981, five months after they first met.   A funny story; James' and Lars' first encounter was anything but promising. As Mick Wall wrote in his biography of the band "Enter Night", "neither James nor Hugh had anything good to say about [Lars]. The kid was 'weird' and 'smelled funny' [and] he couldn't even really play drums." Deeming the entire encounter something of a waste, James later recalled (in Wall's bio) that "we ate McDonald's, he ate herring. [Lars'] father was famous. He was very well off. Spoiled – that's why he's got his mouth. He know what he wants, he goes for it and he's gotten it his whole life."   When asked what Lars remembers about their first meet up, in a Blabbemouth.com interview, he said:   "I remember connecting with him," Lars responded. "I could see that, even though he was painfully shy or whatever, that there were some distinctive similarities. I spent six months talking to people about heavy metal, and they'd mention STYX, JOURNEY, KISS or whatever. I'd talk about ANGEL WITCH, DIAMOND HEAD or TYGERS OF PAN TANG. He had a connection to the music and the things I was throwing out there that seemed a little more authentic or trustworthy. Not much happened during that first meeting because he was kind of the wing man, or the plus one, for a guy named Hugh. If James was sitting here, he'd tell you that the drum kit I showed up with was in such bad shape that every time I hit the cymbal, it kept falling over — which is accurate. Hetfield and I ended up staying in touch, and when I came back from travelling in Europe a few months later, I called him up and said, 'Hey, do you want to play and see what happens?' And he was up for it."   The band name, "Metallica," came from Lars' friend Ron Quintana, who was brainstorming names for a fanzine and was considering MetalMania or Metallica. After hearing the two monikers, Lars wanted Metallica for his band, so he suggested Quintana use MetalMania instead. That magazine wound up being a U.S. monthly magazine focusing on heavy metal music, which was published between 1985 and 1991   Guitarist Dave Mustaine replied to an advertisement for a lead guitarist where Lars and James asked him to join after seeing his expensive guitar equipment. In early 1982, Metallica recorded its first original song, "Hit the Lights," for the Metal Massacre I compilation. James Hetfield played bass, and rhythm guitar and sang, while Lloyd Grant was credited with a guitar solo and Lars Ulrich played drums. Lloyd was a Jamaican guitarist who was never officially in the band. Lloyd has said:   "Me and Lars was jammin' down there in Orange County, California and we jam with a few people and we lookin' other people to jam with..." they met through The Recycler. "We were playing for a long time and he came down to my place my apartment once and he says and he keep asking me to come jam with the band, but I was really busy doing other stuff and I went down and play with them-me and him and James. That's three of us. James was playing bass, I was playing guitar and Lars was playing drums and we rehearse that "Hit The Lights" song, but way before that Lars had let me hear that song. We were hanging out watching soccer and he says "hey I met this guy blah blah blah and he's exactly what we want to jam with and he played this one song and it was great and that's how I was first was introduced to "Hit The Lights." After that I went over and jam a few times and he called me and say they gonna be in this compilation album and he brought over a tape of "Hit The Lights" recording on a four track asked me to play some solo for that and they were going to bring the four track down and they were going to bring it down and dump it on the compilation album."   Metal Massacre I was released on June 14, 1982. The early pressings listed the band incorrectly as "Mettallica," pissing the band off. However, the song "Hit The Lights," generated a buzz, and Metallica played their first live performance on March 14, 1982, at Radio City in Anaheim, California. The lineup consisted of James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, Dave Mustaine, and newly recruited bassist Ron McGovney, who had been in James' previous band, "Leather Charm." Their first live success happened as they were chosen to open for British heavy metal band Saxon at one gig of their 1982 U.S. tour. This show was Metallica's second gig. In addition, Metallica recorded its first demo, Power Metal, whose name was inspired by Quintana's early business cards in early 1982.   In late 1982, Ulrich and Hetfield attended a show at the West Hollywood nightclub Whisky a Go Go, which featured bassist Cliff Burton in the band Trauma.  Clifford Lee Burton was born on February 10, 1962, in Castro Valley, California, to Ray and Jan Burton. Cliff's interest in music began when his father introduced him to classical music, and he began taking piano lessons. In his teenage years, he developed an interest in Rock, classical, country, and heavy metal. He began playing the bass at 13, after the death of his brother. His parents quoted him as saying, "I'm going to be the best bassist for my brother." He practiced up to six hours daily (even after joining Metallica). Besides classical and jazz, Burton's other early influences varied from Southern Rock and country to the blues. Cliff has cited Geddy Lee, Geezer Butler, Stanley Clarke, Lemmy Kilmister, and Phil Lynott as significant influences on his style of bass playing.   James and Lars were "blown away" by Cliff's use of a wah-wah pedal and asked him to join Metallica. The two leaders wanted Ron McGovney to leave because they thought he "didn't contribute anything, he just followed."  According to McGovney, his time in Metallica was reportedly tumultuous, as he often clashed with Ulrich and Mustaine. In addition, he felt that, aside from using the connections he made as an amateur photographer, his role was that of a money man and transportation provider rather than a respected band member. He ultimately quit on December 10, 1982, due to growing tensions. After leaving Metallica, McGovney became uninterested in playing music and sold most of his equipment.   Although Cliff Burton initially declined the offer to join Metallica, by the end of the year, he had accepted on the condition that the band moves to El Cerrito in the San Francisco Bay Area of California. Metallica's first live performance with Cliff was at the nightclub "The Stone" in March 1983, and the first recording to feature Burton was the Megaforce demo (1983).   Metallica was ready to record their debut album, but they began looking for other options when Metal Blade could not cover the cost. Concert promoter Jonathan "Jonny Z" Zazula, who had heard the demo No Life 'til Leather (1982), offered to broker a record deal between Metallica and New York City-based record labels. After those record labels showed no interest, Zazula borrowed enough money to cover the recording budget and signed Metallica to his label, Megaforce Records.   In May 1983, Metallica traveled to Rochester, New York, to record its debut album, Metal Up Your Ass, which Paul Curcio produced. Unfortunately, the other members of Metallica decided to eject Mustaine from the band because of his drug and alcohol abuse and violent behavior just before the recording sessions on April 11, 1983. About this time, Mustaine told Loudwire magazine:   "When you're around a lot of people that like to drink and get silly, they just want to have fun," Mustaine explains. "I would drink and have fun until someone would refute something I had said. And then that was war, baby. I'd be aggressive and confrontational because I was a violent drunk. I lost all inhibitions when I was drinking, and that didn't go over to well in the end." The end came on April 11, 1983, and it came without warning for Mustaine. Metallica had already hired Kirk Hammett as their new lead guitarist.  At around 9AM that morning, James, Lars, and Cliff woke up Mustaine, suffering from a tremendous hangover, and told him he was out of the band. "The thing that really upset me was that they never gave me a warning and I never got a second chance," Mustaine says. "It was just, 'Hey man. You're out. See ya later."   When Mustaine asked when his flight back to California was, he was told he wasn't flying. He was taking a four-day bus ride. Even worse, the bus was scheduled to leave one hour after he was fired. Mustaine scrambled to pack a travel bag, and James drove him from the Music Building in Queens to 42nd Street and Eighth Avenue in Manhattan.   During the seemingly endless bus ride, according to Livewire.com, he was rightfully pissed for a while and then decided to write some new lyrics. Since he didn't have any paper, he wrote on the back of a handbill from Senator Alan Cranston. A message on the front of the card referred to the stockpiling of nuclear weapons that read, "The arsenal of megadeath can't be rid." After considerable thought, Mustaine decided the term megadeath would make a cool name for a metal band, especially if it were misspelled as Megadeth.   Kirk Lee Hammett was born on November 18, 1962, in San Francisco, California, and raised in the town of El Sobrante. He is the son of Teofila "Chefela" and Dennis L. Hammett, a Merchant Mariner. While attending De Anza High School, he met Les Claypool of Primus, and they remain close friends. Kirk began showing an interest in music after listening to his brother Rick's extensive record collection (which included Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, and UFO). In addition, he was a huge horror movie fan but began selling his horror magazines to buy albums. This infatuation led him to pick up the guitar at fifteen. His first guitar was (in his own words) a "wholly unglamorous" Montgomery Ward catalog special that came with a shoebox with a 4-inch speaker for an amp. After purchasing a 1978 Fender Strat copy, Kirk attempted to customize his sound with various guitar parts before eventually buying a 1974 Gibson Flying V.   Guitarist Kirk Hammett replaced Dave Mustaine the same afternoon. Metallica's first live performance with Kirk was on April 16, 1983, at a nightclub in Dover, New Jersey, called "The Showplace."    Mustaine has expressed his dislike for Kirk in interviews, saying he "stole" his job. Mustaine was "pissed off" because he believed Hammett became popular by playing guitar leads that Mustaine had written. In a 1985 interview with Metal Forces, Mustaine said, "it's real funny how Kirk Hammett ripped off every lead break I'd played on that No Life 'til Leather tape and got voted No. 1 guitarist in your magazine".    Because of conflicts with its record label and the distributors' refusal to release an album titled Metal Up Your Ass, the album was renamed "Kill' Em All." It was released on Megaforce Records in the U.S. and on Music for Nations in Europe and peaked at number 155 on the Billboard 200 in 1986. Pretty cool, considering their top ten that year was: 1. That's What Friends Are For - Dionne Warwick, Elton John, and Gladys Knight 2. Say You, Say Me - Lionel Richie 3. I Miss You - Klymaxx 4. On My Own - Patti Labelle and Michael McDonald 5. Broken Wings - Mr. Mister 6. How Will I Know - Whitney Houston 7. Party All the Time - Eddie Murphy 8. Burning Heart - Survivor 9. Kyrie - Mr. Mister 10. Addicted to Love - Robert Palmer Although the album was not initially a financial success, it earned Metallica a growing fan base in the underground metal scene. The band embarked on the "Kill' Em All for One" tour with Raven to support the release. In February 1984, Metallica supported Venom on the "Seven Dates of Hell" tour, during which the bands performed in front of 7,000 people at the Aardschok Festival in Zwolle, Netherlands.    Metallica recorded the album in only two weeks on a shoestring budget. Initially, the band printed 1,500 copies. Since its release, "Kill 'Em All" has been certified 3x platinum. Metallica then recorded their second studio album, Ride the Lightning, at Sweet Silence Studios in Copenhagen, Denmark, from February to March 1984. It was released in August 1984 and reached number 100 on the Billboard 200. Unfortunately, a French printing press mistakenly printed green covers for the album, which are now considered collectors' items. Mustaine received writing credit for "Ride the Lightning" and "The Call of Ktulu."   Elektra Records A&R director Michael Alago, and co-founder of Q-Prime Management Cliff Burnstein, attended a Metallica concert in September 1984. They were impressed with their performance and signed Metallica to Elektra. They also made them a Q-Prime Management artist. Metallica's growing success was such that the band's British label Music for Nations released "Creeping Death" as a limited-edition single, which sold 40,000 copies as an import in the U.S.  Two of the three songs on the record—cover versions of Diamond Head's "Am I Evil?" and Blitzkrieg's "Blitzkrieg"—appeared on the 1988 Elektra reissue of "Kill' Em All."  With unforgettable songs like "For Whom The Bell Tolls," "Creeping Death," and "Fade To Black", "Ride The Lightning" has sold over 5 million copies in the U.S. and has been certified 5x Platinum by the RIAA.   That bell in the beginning of "For Whom The Bell Tolls", isn't really a bell at all. As producer Flemming Rasmussen recalled: “We had an anvil in the studio, and Lars had to bang that; it could've been that or from a record of sound effects. But there was a really heavy, cast-iron anvil and a metal hammer, and we stuck them in an all-concrete room. He'd just go wang.”  If you've ever tried to play along with the studio album version of "For Whom, The Bell Tolls, " you've probably had some guitar tuning issues. That's because the song is a quarter step above standard tuning. Why? As the Metallica Wiki says, there are two theories. The first is that the band intentionally sped up the recording, pitch shifting it in the process. The second is that the guitars are tuned up a quarter step to match the pitch of the "tolling bells." I mean anvil... now that's "metal AF". Metallica embarked on its first major European tour with Tank to an average crowd of 1,300. Returning to the U.S., it embarked upon a tour co-headlining with W.A.S.P. and supported by Armored Saint, featuring John Bush on vocals, who later went on to front Anthrax. Metallica played its largest show at the Monsters of Rock fest at Donington Park, England, on August 17, 1985, with Bon Jovi and Ratt, playing to 70,000 people. Then, at the "Day on the Green" festival in Oakland, California, the band played to a crowd of 60,000. Metallica's third studio album, Master of Puppets, was recorded at Sweet Silence Studios in Denmark from September to December 1985 and was released in March 1986. The album reached number 29 on the Billboard 200 and spent 72 weeks on the chart. It was the band's first album to be certified gold on November 4, 1986 and has sold over 6 million copies.    In 2015, Master of Puppets became the first ever metal album in history to be selected by the Library of Congress for preservation in the National Recording Registry.   Following the album's release, Metallica supported Ozzy Osbourne on a U.S. tour. During this time, James Hetfield broke his wrist while skateboarding; he continued with the tour, performing vocals, with guitar technician John Marshall playing rhythm guitar.   On the night of Sept. 26, 1986, Metallica was traveling between tour dates in Sweden when Burton and guitarist Kirk Hammett drew cards to decide who would get to choose a bunk. The bassist drew the Ace of Spades and chose the bunk Hammett had been occupying. "I said fine, take my bunk," the guitarist recalled in VH1's Behind the Music. "I'll sleep up front; it's probably better anyway." In the early morning of Sept. 27, 1986, shortly before 7 AM, the band members were awakened abruptly when the bus began to sway from side to side. The driver later told authorities that he lost control of the bus after hitting a patch of black ice. The bus left the road and flipped over on its side, and Cliff Burton – asleep in the top bunk – was thrown through the window. As the bus came down, it landed on top of him. He was only 24 years old. Reportedly, attempts were made to rescue him from underneath the bus by lifting it with a crane, but the crane slipped, and the bus crashed down on top of Burton a second time. Band members and onlookers have given different accounts of whether Burton died upon the first impact or when the bus came down again. Whichever way it happened, Cliff Burton died at the scene.   Hetfield said: "I saw the bus lying right on him. I saw his legs sticking out. I freaked. The bus driver, I recall, was trying to yank the blanket out from under him to use for other people. I just went, 'Don't fucking do that!' I already wanted to kill the bus driver. I don't know if he was drunk or if he hit some ice. All I knew was, he was driving and Cliff wasn't alive anymore."   James has said he walked up and down the road in his socks and underwear looking for black ice and found none. The band has speculated over the years if drinking or drugs could have played a role in the accident or if the driver fell asleep at the wheel. An investigation cleared the driver of any wrongdoing. Burton was cremated, and his ashes were scattered at the Maxwell Ranch in California. Metallica's "Orion" was played at the ceremony, and lyrics from "To Live Is to Die" are engraved upon his memorial stone: "Cannot the Kingdom of Salvation take me home."   In an interview with Gibson TV, Kirk Hammet, who could have been the one in that unlucky bunk said: "The last show that we played with Cliff was a spectacular show," Kirk recalls in the interview. "It was the first show after maybe six or seven weeks when James was back on guitar because he had broken his arm during the Ozzy tour. His arms was healed enough so he was able to play guitar and it was the first show where we had James back… and it was the night that Cliff died. "Everyone was just so happy James was back and to have James's guitar fuelling everything again, rather than me and John Marshall [tech and stand-in guitarist] sharing that duty. We played really, really well and felt like we were back 100%… so that last show was one of the best shows we'd played all fucking year and in retrospect I'm glad Cliff's last show was special in that regard. It really was, in all respects, one of the best shows we'd played and Cliff was very, very happy. So knowing that is a good thing." "It' didn't really, truly sink in until about three weeks or so [afterwards]," Hammett remembers. "As a tribute to Cliff's memory it was important for us to go on [but for] those first two weeks it was up and down, we had no idea what we were going to do. I was taking guitar lessons, the old standby for musicians who can't find any gigs or band. That's what I was actually thinking."

TRANSCRIPTDerrick: Hey everyone, and welcome back to Deeper Roots! If you're listening to this podcast, you'll be well aware and acquainted with the fact that we have lots of decisions to make throughout, the span of our lifetimes. Some of these decisions can be relatively small, but a lot of these decisions are potentially life-changing, but more often than not these decisions aren't good at versus bad, they can be nuanced and difficult to decipher the listener that submitted this week's question is facing that sort of decision they ask, how do I desern between what my heart wants and what God has planned for me, we're back from our new year hiatus. We took a little bit longer than we had expected, but we're getting right back into it with our listener submitted questions. If you want to submit your own question for the podcast, you can submit it on our form found at www.ibbvn.org/deeperroots on the website. You can find the form as well as the rest of our episodes and the stream platforms that we're on. If you liked this podcast. And please share it with your friends, your family, your church, and whoever else you want to. So that way they can enjoy it as well, and they can ask their own questions.Thank you for joining us today. Let's get to the conversation.Welcome back to Deeper Roots. We want to thank everyone for joining us again. We're back from our hiatus. We have myself, we have Ester here and we also have Pastor Luis joining us again in the new year. Today, we have a question that was submitted online, uh, by one of our lists. And the question is how do I discern between what my heart wants and what God's plan is for me, the listener also submitted their own question, their own message, which says, I constantly feel like I'm at a crossroads between things and paths in my life or I feel like either way could be what God has in store for me, like serving as a missionary or serving at my local church. How do I figure out what God wants for me without making the wrong decision? Pastor? Pastor Luis: Good, good question. Um, first of all, just wanted wanting to welcome everyone back here to Deeper Roots.I want to thank Derrick and Ester for continuing this ministry as well. And, um, also I know during our hiatus, some people contacted me asking me when we were going to return. So that's good to hear. That's good to hear, to get the there, you're hoping to hear from us again. So I hope that this year as we start 2022, that we're able to be a blessing to your lives as we continue answering questions that, um, you have in your heart. Uh, and also just right now, as we record, we're also going through the midst again of the COVID, uh, surge so just wanna wish everybody's health, uh, that you guys are taking care of yourselves that you guys are, uh, able to heal if you have it and be able to get through this surge real quick in our communities as well. So I'm praying for each of you. All right. So let's get to the question. Uh, the question is how can I discern in my heart? And this is a great question, because especially with the follow up, uh, what you just read? Um, this is a person that's asking about, you know, there's sometimes there's two doors that seem to be just as good, you know, they're both, um, viable doors to walk through, uh, and you're wondering how can I make sure I make the right decision without making a mistake? And I think first of all, that's great, uh, for you to actually stop and ask this question, whoever's asked it is a great step because a lot of people today, they will make decisions, and don't even stop to wonder what God's will is.So just want to encourage you first and foremost, by saying that I'm glad you are asking this question and that you care about not about, uh, making a mistake because a lot of people don't, and that's why they make mistakes. They don't, they don't really care about those things, but when it comes to the word heart, um, What, what are we talking about?There's a couple of verses that come to mind, first of all, but I'll share those in a bit, but I want you guys to contribute Ester when we're thinking about heart. Right? Cause she says, uh, he or she, um, how can I discern between God's will and what my heart wants? What's the heart? Ester: Well, I'm going to talk personally. That's what I can do with my experience. And I being a girl with a lot of emotions, it's big. I've been trained really well to be careful with my emotions, because just because you feel, it doesn't mean it's the right thing. Right? A lot of us, if we felt, you know, we went with what we felt, we'd be eating chocolate and ice cream all the time 'cause we love it. But it's not healthy for us. So I think for me, with my personality and who I am, um, I'm always cautious with my feelings because I don't just, I don't want them to take reign and take over. I've learned with time and with my personality, with who I am, I need to be careful with that and take a step back and really see what the Bible says, and, and then, you know, God's will for me. So when I think when I hear the word heart, I think of emotions that's for me. Um, but just because you feel, it doesn't mean it's the right thing. So that's my, that's my first response to that. Pastor Luis: Yeah, it's a that you hit it right on the nail emotions. Uh, it's the center of our emotions of what we feel and everything. In the Bible, it's interesting because today we have a lot of, um, terminologies that is being, uh, used and thrown around there. You know, like I was teaching the young people on Friday about, uh, mental health and, and emotional wellbeing, you know, in the Bible, it's all wrapped up into one, which is called the inner man, right? So it's the inner man. Um, but the heart, when it refers to the heart, it's, we're talking about that emotional part of our inner man, our, our feelings, but also the inner man is the thoughts, which is the mental part as well, and our thought life and how that relates to the word and the promises and belief and unbelief and stuff like that.So when it talks about heart talking about emotions, right? Emotions, Derrick, um, can emotions lead us astray?Derrick: 100 percent. Pastor Luis: All right. Why would Derrick: 100 percent. Pastor Luis: The question might be obvious, but, uh, just develop that for us. Why? Derrick: When we are using our emotions to lead us, to guide our decision-making and what we want, it can definitely just make us stumble. When, uh, for example, like you use your emotions when you are seeking after a person, right? Uh, let's say the romantic interests, right? And, uh this person might not be the best person for you but your emotions get in the way and then you make, you end up making the wrong decision and it could potentially be that you let this person go because your emotions say you're scared to even make the first move or you end up being with this person and then they cause you a lot of turmoil because they weren't the right person for you. Both of which case were led by emotions. Obviously like your emotions do start off the decision-making process when it comes to this kind of stuff, but eventually you're going to have to move past your emotions and into seeing a God's will, into seeing a compatibility and more of those kinds of things, but emotions might be a good jumping off point, but you need to move, you need to start looking further than your emotions if you're going to start making the decisions. Pastor Luis: Yeah. I think like what you just said as well, so again, uh, there can be both sides of the spectrum also when it comes to the emotions, uh, to making decisions. So like you said, fear is one an emotion. Uh, as well as uh spontaneity and not carelessness is also something just led because I want this I'll do it. It doesn't matter whether I think about or not. And either one is, again, going back to the horse, the first horse of 2022, it doesn't matter which side of the horse you fall off. It's still wrong of you're being led by emotions, whether it's fear or whether it's, uh, not even thinking about what you're going to do and just doing it off of impulse and your emotions. Uh, so let me share a couple of verses. When I think of the word heart immediately, two verses come to mind. First of all, uh, Jeremiah 17:9, um, says "The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked who can know it?" and, and when you talk about unflattering language, I mean, that's pretty unflattering, you know, and the Bible says that we, our heart is deceitful when you know that it is trained in being able to lead us the wrong way to lie to us, to trick us, to make us see things that are not there, believe things that are not true. And then it says desperately wicked and that word "wicked", right, it's just corrupt that it's not able to lead us right. It's not just talking about being deceitful in the sense that okay "it leads us astray" but it's uncapable of actually leading us right, if we're led by, by our heart. And then it says who can know it. And that question is sort of a, sort of like a facetious in a way, because it's saying who can know. It was like, nobody can know it except one person, which is God. And that's why we desperately need his help. Proverbs 4:23 has the other verse. It says, "Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it springs, the issues of life". So there, and it sort of goes with that other verse that if, if our heart is wicked,. If our heart is deceitful, then we have to be very careful in guarding it and guarding it in the sense of not just protecting what goes into it, because it also has to do, sometimes we would make the worst of decisions because we're because of the stuff we're watching on YouTube or online, what we're listening to the music we're exposing ourselves to, and it sort of, we were trained ourselves to be more and more led by emotions, by what we see and what we feel and not by what is true. And that's why it says we have to keep it. But it's also the idea of making sure that we deal with it. "Keep your heart with all diligence for out of it springs, the issues of life". If you don't guard it, if you don't, uh, have it under control or what's the other word, when you harness it. If you don't harness your heart, that's where all the issues are going to come out of. Whether good or bad, it's going to be whether it's harnessed or not. So just to start off, then we, the first thing is that we can't trust our emotions. We can't trust our heart to lead us. So then we must trust who?Ester: GodPastor Luis: God. So Esther, what would you advise this person? This young person I'm guessing. Ester: Mhmm. Pastor Luis: What's the first step then if we don't, we can't, we can't trust our heart. We can't be led by emotions. And what should we do?Ester: I think first of all, um, is God's word is number one. I don't know, depending on this decision that they're making out a note, they're making life decisions, like who are they going to marry or they're thinking of what they're going to study or whatever it may be. I think one of the first things I personally do is, you know, look for verses in the Bible that will help me and then prayer is number one after that one, like prayer for God to open or shut doors, especially if there's already two choices. I feel those are a lot easier ones rather than the open-ended like, what am I going to do with my life? It's very different from when you have two choices, but you know, for gone to shut doors, if that's not the right thing for you, even though maybe your heart says, "yes, I want this really badly". Uh, but for him to, to shut those doors and make it very clear what the right choice is. Pastor Luis: And Derrick, you have to, yeah. You have to give a, you have to stop the preacher in me. Because if not, I could take up the whole hour. Derrick: I feel like I, I need to hear the question one more time.Pastor Luis: So basically when we go, when we're talking about the hardest deceitful, we can't trust it. So then the question is what, where do we start off then if we know we can't trust. What's the first thing we should then do when we're facing a very difficult question. Okay. Number one, don't trust my heart, but then what should I do?Derrick: I think that among, I think there are two things that you can do, and both of them are the very usual building blocks that church always tells you, which is to read the Bible and pray. We hear that so often, because like I said, they're the building blocks. You don't get a house without wood or concrete or bricks or whatever you want, you choose to use. You're going to need to pray. And you're going to need to read the Bible because both of those ways are the ways that you both calm yourself down and to get, and detach yourself from the emotions, the prayer, and also learn more about what God actually wants from, from you and your life, the Bible.Pastor Luis: Okay. Very good. I'm going to share two verses and I, and I want you to sort of look at the patterns with any of these verses. That sort of will help our listeners to understand this is, this is a good process to go through when you're facing a decision that you don't know what to do. And especially the one that they propose there where it's two, that seemed good things. I mean, there's, there's not nothing sinful to either one, but you just don't know whether it's God's will or not. So the first one is Proverbs 3: 5-6. We all know those. It says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean, not unto your own understanding in all your ways, acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths". So. You were there, I think on Friday, but I'm not sure if I mentioned on Friday, but anyways, uh, there's two things there, the trusting part and the leaning part. So what's the difference between those two, because that's the "trust in the Lord with all your heart" and "lean, not unto your own understanding". So what does it mean "trust" and "lean"? One is you should trust God and we should stop leaning on our own understanding. Are they the same thing, the opposites of the same thing? Or are, is there a different connotation or Derrick: I think that, Pastor Luis: significance to both?Derrick: One is a very active thing that you can do to trust something, to trust someone, and the leaning is very passive is a trust is something that you need to actively do in order to, uh, uh, to put it into action. Uh, to trust if you're going to trust someone, or if you decide that you trust someone, you're going to let them into something that belongs to you, like, uh, your money or your, your life, right? Uh, whereas when you lean, it's kind of a, it's very passive, it's a lazy thing. It's, it's less effort to lean on something than it is to trust it like I'm going to lean on a wall,Pastor Luis: Which of the two is the action though, the trusting or the leaning? An actual action, not just a thought or an exclamation of something like, uh, I could say, right. I trust someone. Derrick: Well, Pastor Luis: Right? Derrick: I mean, if you lean, you can physically lean on something. That's the action. Pastor Luis: So the is which one is, which is the action? The leaning, right? Derrick: I'm talking about like the more active thing. That's trust and passive is leaning. Pastor Luis: Maybe the cause and effect of what you're saying, right? Because if you trust yeah. If you trust someone, then you will lean on it. Right? So the trust is the trust. The trust is something you say or you feel, or you say I trust someone and trust is also something that you earned through experience. Right? For example, um, I've driven in your car before. Okay. So I know you can drive. Derrick: Yes.Pastor Luis: So I've had enough trust. I trust you that I can, if you had tell me, pastor, do you need a ride? I probably getting your car and I'll make me do the action of actually leaning on you to drive me because I need you, I need to get from point A to point B and I lean on you because I trust that you can drive. Right? And that trust is based off of past experience. And then I know you're a responsible guy and everything. You're not, you're not as speedster. So, uh, because of my, Derrick: You don't know me Pastor Luis: Or at least the times I've been, I've been in your car. Um, so the, the trusting part is more of an inner thing. The the, the, what's it called? The lean, that lean is the action that comes from it. Derrick: When I was saying I kinda got it flipped, but okay. I got it. I got it. Pastor Luis: And, and, and, and my, my question is then let's see Ester, when it comes to, when it comes to the leaning and the trusting part. Um, why is it so important for us to make that difference? Differentiation, I can't say that word in that verse? It says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean, not unto your own understanding" Ester: I think from what you were connecting to what you're saying, just because you know what the right thing is, doesn't mean you're going to do it. And that's the thing, that's the step, right? Like, you know, but that doesn't mean you're going to take the action and do what is right. And that's where I feel. Pastor Luis: And then you could also argue then is it really trust? Sorta like a, the, the argument that Peter, I mean, yeah. Peter says, no, sorry. James says faith without works is dead. Is it really faith? If you are not have no works to accompany it. So is it really trust if you're not willing to lean on it? All right. That kind of thing. Right? So it's like, um, that's important for us as human beings to sort of look at, because it's so easy to say. I trust God, I it's so easy. I trust him. I trust him, but the question that's better served for us is to see our actions and see if my actions really show a dependence on God. That I am truly depending on him. And I'm truly believing that he will show me the path and that says so trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean, not unto your own understanding. Uh, and then in all our ways acknowledge him. So that's the sort of part where we have to examine our lives and seeing is my life really one that honors God in, in trust, in my financial life, in my love life, in my marriage if your married, in my uh studies and my work ethic in my, uh, ministries at church. Derrick: And that kind of, uh, refers to the verse that talks about in everything that you do, do for the Lord. Pastor Luis: Do it for the Lord. Amen. And, and, and, and so when we do that, and if we're trusting and we're really learning to trust and lean on on God, then that's where the promise comes in is this, and he shall direct thy path because yeah, I agree. There's decisions that they're like, whoa, Lord, which one is it for me? And either one could be good, but you just like, like our listener said, I share that I fear, and I think it's a good thing. It's a good fear to have of making a mistake. You don't want to make a mistake. Uh, so that's where you start. And then the other passage is Romans 12: 1-2, and you sort of see the same kind of pattern there of surrendering of making sure that trust is established in God before you, then he's able to show you his will, could you read it for us, Ester? Ester: Romans 12: 1-2 " And beseech you, therefore brethren by the mercies of God that you present your bodies, a living sacrifice. Holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service and do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God". Pastor Luis: So again, there's an element of surrender of saying, you know, surrender your whole life, give it all as a lifted living sacrifice. And then. it says: do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. There's the leaning part where I say, look, I'm not going to lean on what my, my friends say, I'm not going to lean on what society thinks I should do. I'm not going to lean even on maybe your best friends say, uh, I'm going to lean on you. And I want to you to transform my thinking to be whatever it isn't. It, it takes a lot of, uh, a lot of courage to say, Lord, um, Please change my thinking, if I'm wrong about this, change my thinking about that. That's a good prayer to start and say, show me your path. Cause that's the promise at the end, it says: and so that you may prove what is good and perfect with the good and perfect will of God. And that's worth mentioning right there that God's will, is always going to be good. And it's always going to be perfect. And, even if the things let's be honest, uh, Derrick I'll ask you, even in the things that we know to be God's will, do we always obey?Derrick: No, we don't. Pastor Luis: Why? Why don't we obey them? If we know it's like, for example, there's some things we don't even have to pray about. Like, for example, should I tithe? Should I forgive my offender? Derrick: I think we don't have, because we don't want to. Pastor Luis: Exactly. So we don't want to, why don't we want to? Derrick: Because it either we either don't trust it or, uh, we, uh, is not within, uh, the desires of our own hearts to do so.Pastor Luis: Let's use the let's use, let's use the example of forgiveness. I know I should forgive, but I choose not to. We used to, like you said, I don't want to, right? Derrick: YeahPastor Luis: I don't want to, but if God's will is perfect and God's will is good. What is my disobedience claiming or what is my disobedience manifesting about me? Derrick: What I want is more important than what God wants. Pastor Luis: What do we always want, what is more important to us? Do we want harm? Do we wantDerrick: No. Pastor Luis: bad? So what we're really saying at the end of the day is I don't think God is right. And if I obey him, I'm going to end up on the losing end. Derrick: Yeah. Pastor Luis: If I obey him, I'm not, it's not going to be good for me and it's not going to be perfect. So my way is going to be, what's going to bring me what I want, right? Which is good and perfect. According to me. So we have to trust and lean completely for him to then guide us, for him to be able to show us the things. So this is where I would also give this very practical advice to our listeners, uh, when you're facing a decision like. Our person who asked the question is going through right now. Um, make sure you are in obedience in all the known will of God. Make sure you are living a life of obedience and the things you know God is wanting you already to do, that you don't have to pray about these things that are obvious in the word of God. And then he will guide you in the specifics will of God. Then there's the revealed one, and then theres the specific one, which is different for everyone. Derrick: And you don't need to be a, uh, like a Bible scholar in order to do this, like in the, all the known will of God. It's what you know, and you know what, you know, uh, you're not going to, uh, if there is something like in the Bible that you haven't read yet, and you didn't know that this was a sin, that's obviously something different, but that is also your responsibility to know as much as you can, but yeah.Ester: I also believe that if it's a big decision or maybe it's your first time, you know, taking these steps, I also advise checking in with your leader because there are, hold your hand through it, like baby steps. There'll be like, okay, did you get. And you pray about it. And did you and and they'll hold your hand as you go through it and help you maybe ask the questions you need, so you can reflect and take it to prayer, you know, in your studies, whatever you're studying. I think that that could also be support for you as you make a decision.Pastor Luis: I love that advice. It's a practical advice, um, include people to pray for you as you're making that decision. Um, and ask them to remind you of truth in those scriptures that will maybe lean you one way or another, right? And it's, it's very important to take that step, I think, to share decisions with other people so that they can pray with you and help you know exactly what God's will is for your life. Another practical thing I would also add is you mentioned open doors and closed doors. Uh, you and. There's two other elements. I would say too, when, when trying to discern God's will, if you're already leaning on him, trusting him in all your ways, you're letting him renew your, your mind according to his will. And then now you're facing this decision. Look for two things, like you said, open and closed doors, number one, and then peace. Peace in your heart about the decision. Um, when it comes to open and closed doors. My advice always is this, when you're facing choice A and choice B, be honest with yourself and ask yourself, is there one that my heart is leaning towards? You know? And that means is there one that I desire more than the other? And be honest about it, maybe it's do I go to this school or do I go to this school, which is God's will for me. And maybe you say, well, "I'd really like to go to this one because of the friends and blah, blah, but this one has this" But, and you have this decision and maybe you already know which one your heart wants, but you want to make sure that God approves, right? So then my advice is start praying against that one. And what I mean by that is just saying, Lord, you know, I want this one. For example, I want to go to Yale, but Stanford's here too, you know, but at Yale is really the one I want, but God, if it's not your will, please block it. Please do something. Show me something that will show me that this is not for me, even though I want it. I ask you Lord to please block it. I, maybe some people use the word I give you permission God, you know, that sounds weird. But what you're saying is God, please, I'm asking you to interfere. I'm asking you to interfere some way or somehow just show me, this is not the place for me. And that takes guts because we don't like to pray against things we want. We we'd like to pray for the things we want. Right. But it's a good, healthy habit to do. And then the second thing when it comes to, uh, peace, um, that's another thing that you can say, "Lord, please take away my piece about one of the other". You know, don't give me peace. Even if it's the one I want and things keep going, but there's no peace. Maybe that's the way God is leaning. And those are two very good indicators at where God is leading you. Derrick: I did want to address a couple of things that I noticed about the question. So this person was also talking about specifically, like, missionary or serving at my local church. This is something that I've actually been dealing with a lot myself, because I've been thinking, do I want to stay here at my local church? Or do I want to go serve at Wolf mountain? Right. It's not necessarily the same thing as missionary work, but it does involve going away for a mission field. So one of the things I do want to bring up is, is there other parts of your life that are affecting this decision? Like, is it your home life that makes you want to go away? Or is it your comfort here that makes you want to stay? Is it the fear of leaving home or leaving your home church that prevents you from going to the mission field? Or is it the fact that you're comfortable here at home? Uh, or, yeah. So are you comfortable here at home, and you don't want to go out to the mission field or the other way around. I can't come up with the opposite of that situation, but I think you understand what I mean, analyze it your life, you know, your life. I don't know your life. We don't know your life, but take a look and take a good, honest, look at yourself and see, is there something else in my life that is affecting this decision? And can I isolate this decision on its own? It's much easier said than done. You're going, if you're anything like me, you're going to start saying, oh, I want this. Oh no, but this, but this, but this, but this, I mean, you can say that about both sides and it's something that I'm actually still struggling with myself. So this question actually really resonates with me too. So just remember that you, you're not as simple as this decision. You have a whole bunch of things going on in your life that you in your best interest need to address, and God is going to be there. And he's going to be the one guiding that decision and opening the doors and closing those doors. And if you really want to go to be in the mission field, pray against it. If you really want to stay home, pray against it. And then God will open and close those doors as He sees fit. Pastor Luis: Yeah. And that's, um, there's one more point I want to touch on, but what you're saying there is true. That's why we don't, we can't lean on our feelings.Right? Cause it's like, uh, everything you mentioned, fear of leaving home or comfort. It's all centered in the emotions. It's all centered to that. And that's why we can't lean on them. We have to surrender that to the Lord. When it comes to, to that specific question that she's saying, I think there's one more point worth mentioning because you don't try to answer it a very broader sense for so that it would apply to most listeners. But there's one more thing I would add. If God is calling you to a missionary to be a missionary, to be a pastor, a youth pastor to be a, something in the full-time ministry. Let me tell you something. It's a calling. It's not a choice. So for our listeners specifically, let me tell you one advice that when it's God calling, it's not going to go away. It's only going to grow. When it's really God calling you to a ministry. It's not something that's just gonna be a momentary feeling and fleeting, fleeting emotion that, oh, I wish I, maybe this is something I want to do. It's going to be something that's going to be nagging at you and nagging at you and nagging at you. And you going to, that's going to be part of how you're going to know it's God's will for you because it won't go away no matter what your home life is going through. No matter what changing seasons come. It's kind of keep coming up and keep coming up, keep coming up because it's God, won't leave you alone. And then this is another thing I wanted to throw out there. I don't know if all the ministers listening might agree, but when normally when someone approaches a Pastor, which to Ester's point, you know, we need to ask someone to walk with us. When it comes to ministry most times pastors will try to discourage you from it. And the reason is because of that, cause that's sort of like, if it's not for you, you should not be in it. And if it is for you, no matter what the pastor says, you're still going to have that nagging feeling of wanting to give yourself over to that ministry. Because it's very important that when it comes to being a pastor, a missionary, a full-time, whatever thing in ministry, it's not a profession choice, it's a calling. And then you have to make sure it's God's will, or else you're going to be miserable in the ministry. Ester: I just wanted to add really quick. I don't know the situation of this person, but if they're saying serving in the local church or missionary, you should be serving in the local church. I don't know if that's, if that's a situation or not, because then usually, you know, connected to what Pastor was saying, God uses pastors to be like, Hey, so-and-so part of the calling, right? Uh, to use other people. If this person is not connected to their local church, that's like the bootcamp sort of, right. Like that's where you develop your gifts and talents and you know, other people around you the leaders may see the calling before you do sometimes.Pastor Luis: But that's a great observation right there. Cause you're mentioning something that we really well, something that we know for sure everybody should be serving in the local church, but what this person might be struggling with is if God, did God called me to serve to this passion, I feel for serving the Lord, is it meant to be in the local church as a lay person, as a Sunday school teacher, as a youth worker or whatever, or is God calling me to be a missionary, you know that's the part where that's a specific will part, you know, that not everyone's called to missions field, and that's has to be something that, you know, for, for sure God is calling you. And, and like I said, most of the time, that's how God will do it in your life. Um, for me, that's how it's been. God always calls me to things I don't want, but then he doesn't leave me alone about them. So then that's where I know, okay, that's that's as. Will you know? And I know it's it's his calling on, on me and, and usually that's how then he will prove to your, your obedience, your trust in him. And then he will guide you to match your feelings, to, to match his, his will for you. Cause feelings do count. I mean, they do count, but they just have to be surrendered to the Lord so he can change them so that then you can enjoy what he's calling you to. So you can be happy in what you're doing, you know, and, and not the other way around when you're just being led by what you think is going to make you happy and then just to find out it's empty, a void, or like Solomon would say vanity of vanities, you know, like air trying to capture the wind. So that's my, my advice. And I thank you so much to the listener for this awesome question. Derrick: Yeah, I agree. Thank you for this awesome question. It's uh, it's something I can definitely look into for myself. It's definitely something that more people, definitely more people are out there who are trying to figure out this question. So, yeah, we'd like to thank you again. And if you have, if any other listeners they have your own, you have your own question that you want to ask. Please go ahead and ask it. We have a website and we have a form on the website. The website is www.ibbvn.org/deeperroots. There, you can find a form and you can also find where else we also are streaming our podcast, whether it's YouTube or Spotify or Apple Podcasts, just take a look there see which one is most convenient for you wherever you want it, go ahead and listen. So we want to thank you again. We hopefully can, hopefully you'll hear from us next next week. And the next, next episode. Thank you.Thank you for listening to Deeper Roots. 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