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In this episode of Quah (Q & A), Sal, Adam & Justin answer four Pump Head questions drawn from last Sunday's Quah post on the @mindpumpmedia Instagram page.  Mind Pump Fit Tip: Protein is the magic macronutrient! Seek it out if you want better insulin sensitivity, the ability to build more muscle, speed up recovery, and improve satiety. (1:54) Cows with names produce more milk. (9:38) Arby's accidental death? (16:34) What would be in Mind Pump's neighborhood? (24:23) Updating the current educational system. (28:50) Dad Life Updates: Asking your kids, rather than telling and everything being your fault as a parent. (33:28) An MRI gone horribly wrong. (42:55) Mind Pump's new logo. (47:52) Would your 12-year-old self be happy with you? (49:17) Increasing your sodium levels to combat dehydration and cramps. (55:57) Shout out to Daily Dose Meals. (57:42) #Quah question #1 - What can I do to feel my chest more than my front delts during incline benches? (1:01:54) #Quah question #2 - What should I do if I want to train hard, but still be healthy hormonally and have a healthy menstrual cycle? (1:05:42) #Quah question #3 - What are the best lifts when introducing younger kids to lifting? My 8- and 7-year-olds have begun to workout with me in the garage. I have started with weighted step ups, dumbbell rows, dumbbell chest & shoulder presses but was not sure if there are more appropriate exercises. (1:10:26) #Quah question #4 - What should you do in Anabolic if your hip flexors are hurting while doing sit ups? (1:13:10) Related Links/Products Mentioned Visit Magic Spoon for an exclusive offer for Mind Pump listeners! For a limited time only, Mind Pump listeners get a free LMNT Sample Pack with any purchase: Visit DrinkLMNT.com/MindPump May Promotion: MAPS Prime or MAPS Prime Pro or the Prime Bundle 50% off! **Code MAY50 at checkout** Cows with Names Make More Milk | Live Science Employee found dead in freezer at Louisiana Arby's - NBC News MrBeast lives in modest $318K house, buys out neighborhood for employees Home - Daily Dose Life **Coupon code MINDPUMP20 at checkout** Visit Butcher Box for this month's exclusive Mind Pump offer! How To Properly Do The Seated Cable Row (IT MATTERS!) Mind Pump # 1142: Nine Signs You Are Overtraining MAPS Suspension Training Hip Flexor Deactivators- Do these first to maximize your Ab development – Mind Pump TV Mind Pump Podcast – YouTube Mind Pump Free Resources People Mentioned Dr. Becky Kennedy | Parenting (@drbeckyatgoodinside) Instagram DON SALADINO (@donsaladino) Instagram  

Welcome back to Liberation! In this episode, Autumn wanted to explore the complexities of what trauma is and create a resource that can help you learn more about yourself and hopefully bring you closer to yourself through curious and compassionate observation. She shares why she wanted to do this episode, the misconceptions people have about trauma and why it's so hard to identify when you have it, what trauma actually is, the three main types of trauma, the emotional, psychological and physical symptoms of unprocessed trauma, how we respond to conflict, overwhelm and uncertainty as a result of these wounds (the 4 trauma responses), She also shares ways and examples of how ruptures could have been formed that you may have never previously considered, and much much more... including how to live beyond it WHILE still healing and unwinding yourself from these learned patterns, protection mechanisms and coping tendencies. With so much love, enjoy! - AB xxx To connect further, you can find me on Instagram at @autumnbensette, email me at hello@autumnbensette.com or visit autumnbensette.com.

Chris Rose and Trevor Plouffe discuss the hottest topics in baseball Monday through Friday: For a free one year supply of Vitamin D and 5 free travel packs with your first purchase go to: https://athleticgreens.com/baseballtoday  Find the game's future stars at https://www.topps.com  Enjoy baseball around the clock with the start of the new season. Download and play MLB 9 Innings 23 https://bit.ly/MLB_9I_Jomboy_2023   00:00 INTRO 03:00 Carlos Correa off to a bad start 08:37 Braves hold the largest division lead in baseball 14:32 Are other owners happy about the struggling Mets? 19:04 Pirates have lost 8 of their last 9 25:25 Giants rookie homers in his 2nd AB! 28:22 OUTRO

Windows 11 Patch Tuesday: Windows 11 gets that one new feature that Microsoft was awfully quiet about. New builds last week across Canary, Dev, and Beta - Nothing in Canary, lots in Dev, two changes to Beta. Beta channel: Photos app gets new slideshow and spot fixing tool. Beta channel: No features for consumers, one feature for IT pros, a Windows Local Administrator Password Solution (LAPS) fix. Widgets might be coming to the desktop because it's 2009 again. Related: Qualcomm revenues cough up a lung too. Microsoft 365 Bing chatbot is available to all, Edge is about to get a makeover. Microsoft 365 Copilot launches in early access. Microsoft is partnering with AMD on Project Athena, no it isn't. Microsoft starts throttling traffic from legacy Exchange servers. Xbox Report: EU will approve Microsoft's acquisition of Activision Blizzard soon - it worked for the UK! Phil Spencer does what Phil Spencer does and speaks plainly about AB and Redfall troubles. Redfall proves that Xbox Game Pass makes sense. The Xbox May update brings Discord integration. Halo Infinite May update adds Super Fiesta Mode because seriously WTF. Xbox storage expansion cards finally get a price reduction. Nintendo Switch sales are officially on the decline, but 125m sold so far. Tips and Picks Tip of the week: Know your screenshot keyboard shortcuts. And then get a real screenshot program. I recommend Greenshot. Stardock Groupy 2 is now in beta, adds tabs to almost any app, groups them on the taskbar, $6.99 on sale. Firefox 113 fixes a million-year-old bug! RunAs Radio this week: Azure Virtual Desktop Accelerator with Jen Sheerin. Brown liquor pick of the week: Bus Whisky. Hosts: Leo Laporte, Paul Thurrott, and Richard Campbell Download or subscribe to this show at https://twit.tv/shows/windows-weekly Get episodes ad-free with Club TWiT at https://twit.tv/clubtwit Check out Paul's blog at thurrott.com The Windows Weekly theme music is courtesy of Carl Franklin. Sponsors: CDW.com/LenovoClient kolide.com/ww AWS Insiders - WW

Windows 11 Patch Tuesday: Windows 11 gets that one new feature that Microsoft was awfully quiet about. New builds last week across Canary, Dev, and Beta - Nothing in Canary, lots in Dev, two changes to Beta. Beta channel: Photos app gets new slideshow and spot fixing tool. Beta channel: No features for consumers, one feature for IT pros, a Windows Local Administrator Password Solution (LAPS) fix. Widgets might be coming to the desktop because it's 2009 again. Related: Qualcomm revenues cough up a lung too. Microsoft 365 Bing chatbot is available to all, Edge is about to get a makeover. Microsoft 365 Copilot launches in early access. Microsoft is partnering with AMD on Project Athena, no it isn't. Microsoft starts throttling traffic from legacy Exchange servers. Xbox Report: EU will approve Microsoft's acquisition of Activision Blizzard soon - it worked for the UK! Phil Spencer does what Phil Spencer does and speaks plainly about AB and Redfall troubles. Redfall proves that Xbox Game Pass makes sense. The Xbox May update brings Discord integration. Halo Infinite May update adds Super Fiesta Mode because seriously WTF. Xbox storage expansion cards finally get a price reduction. Nintendo Switch sales are officially on the decline, but 125m sold so far. Tips and Picks Tip of the week: Know your screenshot keyboard shortcuts. And then get a real screenshot program. I recommend Greenshot. Stardock Groupy 2 is now in beta, adds tabs to almost any app, groups them on the taskbar, $6.99 on sale. Firefox 113 fixes a million-year-old bug! RunAs Radio this week: Azure Virtual Desktop Accelerator with Jen Sheerin. Brown liquor pick of the week: Bus Whisky. Hosts: Leo Laporte, Paul Thurrott, and Richard Campbell Download or subscribe to this show at https://twit.tv/shows/windows-weekly Get episodes ad-free with Club TWiT at https://twit.tv/clubtwit Check out Paul's blog at thurrott.com The Windows Weekly theme music is courtesy of Carl Franklin. Sponsors: CDW.com/LenovoClient kolide.com/ww AWS Insiders - WW

Windows 11 Patch Tuesday: Windows 11 gets that one new feature that Microsoft was awfully quiet about. New builds last week across Canary, Dev, and Beta - Nothing in Canary, lots in Dev, two changes to Beta. Beta channel: Photos app gets new slideshow and spot fixing tool. Beta channel: No features for consumers, one feature for IT pros, a Windows Local Administrator Password Solution (LAPS) fix. Widgets might be coming to the desktop because it's 2009 again. Related: Qualcomm revenues cough up a lung too. Microsoft 365 Bing chatbot is available to all, Edge is about to get a makeover. Microsoft 365 Copilot launches in early access. Microsoft is partnering with AMD on Project Athena, no it isn't. Microsoft starts throttling traffic from legacy Exchange servers. Xbox Report: EU will approve Microsoft's acquisition of Activision Blizzard soon - it worked for the UK! Phil Spencer does what Phil Spencer does and speaks plainly about AB and Redfall troubles. Redfall proves that Xbox Game Pass makes sense. The Xbox May update brings Discord integration. Halo Infinite May update adds Super Fiesta Mode because seriously WTF. Xbox storage expansion cards finally get a price reduction. Nintendo Switch sales are officially on the decline, but 125m sold so far. Tips and Picks Tip of the week: Know your screenshot keyboard shortcuts. And then get a real screenshot program. I recommend Greenshot. Stardock Groupy 2 is now in beta, adds tabs to almost any app, groups them on the taskbar, $6.99 on sale. Firefox 113 fixes a million-year-old bug! RunAs Radio this week: Azure Virtual Desktop Accelerator with Jen Sheerin. Brown liquor pick of the week: Bus Whisky. Hosts: Leo Laporte, Paul Thurrott, and Richard Campbell Download or subscribe to this show at https://twit.tv/shows/windows-weekly Get episodes ad-free with Club TWiT at https://twit.tv/clubtwit Check out Paul's blog at thurrott.com The Windows Weekly theme music is courtesy of Carl Franklin. Sponsors: CDW.com/LenovoClient kolide.com/ww AWS Insiders - WW

Windows 11 Patch Tuesday: Windows 11 gets that one new feature that Microsoft was awfully quiet about. New builds last week across Canary, Dev, and Beta - Nothing in Canary, lots in Dev, two changes to Beta. Beta channel: Photos app gets new slideshow and spot fixing tool. Beta channel: No features for consumers, one feature for IT pros, a Windows Local Administrator Password Solution (LAPS) fix. Widgets might be coming to the desktop because it's 2009 again. Related: Qualcomm revenues cough up a lung too. Microsoft 365 Bing chatbot is available to all, Edge is about to get a makeover. Microsoft 365 Copilot launches in early access. Microsoft is partnering with AMD on Project Athena, no it isn't. Microsoft starts throttling traffic from legacy Exchange servers. Xbox Report: EU will approve Microsoft's acquisition of Activision Blizzard soon - it worked for the UK! Phil Spencer does what Phil Spencer does and speaks plainly about AB and Redfall troubles. Redfall proves that Xbox Game Pass makes sense. The Xbox May update brings Discord integration. Halo Infinite May update adds Super Fiesta Mode because seriously WTF. Xbox storage expansion cards finally get a price reduction. Nintendo Switch sales are officially on the decline, but 125m sold so far. Tips and Picks Tip of the week: Know your screenshot keyboard shortcuts. And then get a real screenshot program. I recommend Greenshot. Stardock Groupy 2 is now in beta, adds tabs to almost any app, groups them on the taskbar, $6.99 on sale. Firefox 113 fixes a million-year-old bug! RunAs Radio this week: Azure Virtual Desktop Accelerator with Jen Sheerin. Brown liquor pick of the week: Bus Whisky. Hosts: Leo Laporte, Paul Thurrott, and Richard Campbell Download or subscribe to this show at https://twit.tv/shows/windows-weekly Get episodes ad-free with Club TWiT at https://twit.tv/clubtwit Check out Paul's blog at thurrott.com The Windows Weekly theme music is courtesy of Carl Franklin. Sponsors: CDW.com/LenovoClient kolide.com/ww AWS Insiders - WW

Welcome to Jazz Piano Skills; it's time to discover, learn, and play Jazz Piano!Every Jazz Piano Skills weekly podcast episode introduces aspiring jazz pianists to essential Jazz Piano Skills. Each Podcast episode explores a specific Jazz Piano Skill in depth. Today you will discover, learn, play Jazz Improvisation Exercises for 'Ab' Sounds. In this Jazz Piano Lesson, you will:DiscoverJazz Improvisation ExercisesLearnDevelopmental Arpeggio and Scale Patterns for 'Ab' SoundsPlayFive Arpeggio and Scale Patterns for the primary 'Ab' Sounds of music (Major, Dominant, Minor, Half Diminished, Diminished)Use the Jazz Piano Podcast Packets for this Jazz Piano Lesson for maximum musical growth. All three Podcast Packets are designed to help you gain insight and command of a specific Jazz Piano Skill. The Podcast Packets are invaluable educational tools to have at your fingertips while doing the Jazz Improvisation Exercises for 'Ab' Sounds.Open Podcast PacketsIllustrations(detailed graphics of the jazz piano skill)Lead Sheets(beautifully notated music lead sheets)Play Alongs(ensemble assistance and practice tips)Educational SupportCommunity ForumSpeakPipeEpisode OutlineIntroductionDiscover, Learn, PlayInvite to Join Jazz Piano SkillsLesson RationaleExploration of Jazz Piano SkillsConclusionClosing CommentsVisit Jazz Piano Skills for more educational resources that include a sequential curriculum with comprehensive Jazz Piano Courses, private and group online Jazz Piano Classes, a private jazz piano community hosting a variety of Jazz Piano Forums, an interactive Jazz Fake Book, plus unlimited professional educational jazz piano support.If you wish to donate to JazzPianoSkills, you can do so easily through the Jazz Piano Skills Paypal Account.Thank you for being a Jazz Piano Skills listener. It is my pleasure to help you discover, learn, and play jazz piano!Support the show

“One Pill Can Kill” Awareness Campaign and Legislation to address Fentanyl Crisis  SACRAMENTO ---- Today,Assemblywoman Cottie Petrie-Norris (D-Irvine), along with Assemblywoman Liz Ortega (D-Alameda), Assemblywoman Esmeralda Soria, (D-Fresno), and Senator Dave Cortese, (D-Santa Clara), held a press conference to discuss their legislative priorities to address the fentanyl crisis and announce the statewide rollout of the DEA's “One Pill Can Kill” campaign. Fentanyl is one of the most dangerous and deadly drugs circulating on the illegal drug market - just 2 milligrams is enough to kill. According to the California Department of Public Health, statewide fentanyl deaths increased from 239 deaths in 2016 to 3,946 in 2020. In California, 71% of all opioid related deaths in 2020 were a result of fentanyl poisoning.  “My colleagues and I are working with urgency to address this crisis in a meaningful way and enact policies to keep our families safe,” said Assemblywoman Petrie-Norris. “This drug is ravaging our communities every day. Kids are dying. We need a comprehensive approach that includes more money for drug treatment, stronger enforcement of our laws, and better partnerships with stakeholders – including law enforcement, social media companies, schools, and local governments.”  Assemblywoman Petrie-Norris has introduced two bills to help address this deadly trend.  AB 1027 aims to prevent fentanyl poisoning by enacting more stringent data collection and storage requirements for social media companies. AB 955 would increase penalties applied to those convicted of fentanyl sales by imprisonment in a county jail for a period of 3, 6, or 9 years.  The Assemblywoman also launched the statewide rollout of the DEA's fentanyl awareness campaign, “One Pill Can Kill” to educate the public about the dangers of fentanyl.  Elements will include how to recognize fentanyl, how get help in the event of an overdose, and highlight the severity of ingesting even a miniscule amount.  The awareness campaign can be found at https://a73.asmdc.org/end-fentanyl-poisoning.  “Many legislators are trying to address this crisis by closing all policy loopholes to ensure that our public safety entities have every tool they need to fight this epidemic.  It is my hope that we can continue this important conversation as these bills move through the legislature.  It is clear that this crisis is urgent and immediate action is vital.”  What people are saying Assemblywoman Cottie Petrie-Norris (D-Irvine), Author of AB 1027 and AB 955 said, “My colleagues and I are working with urgency to address this crisis in a meaningful way and enact policies to keep our communities safe. This drug is ravaging our communities every day. Kids are dying. We need a comprehensive approach that includes more money for drug treatment, stronger enforcement of our laws, and better partnerships with stakeholders – including law enforcement, social media companies, schools, and local governments.”  Senator Thomas J. Umberg, (D-Santa Ana), Author of SB 44, SB 250, and SB 60said, “As lawmakers, we have a moral, ethical, and legal obligation to protect lives in California.  The scourge of fentanyl and specifically, fentanyl poisonings, is unlike anything we have ever seen. We absolutely must do everything we can to save lives and put tools into the hands of those on the ground who are fighting this epidemic: families, nurses, doctors, teachers, and law enforcement alike. I'm proud to stand with my colleagues in both houses as we prioritize this issue in 2023.” Senator Dave Cortese (D-San Jose), Author of SB 10said, “Fentanyl is responsible for an astounding one in five deaths of young people in California. We cannot continue to allow more young people to die,” said Senator Dave Cortese, D-San Jose. “My SB 10 would create opioid prevention and education programs in schools. We want to give school staff, students, and their families' information about the danger of this lethal drug, and we want to arm educators with the knowledge and tools to save children who overdose on campus. I join my colleagues in meeting this crisis with urgency and sweeping action.” 

Dr. Megan McElheran is a Clinical Psychologist and the Chief Executive Officer of Wayfound Mental Health Group, practicing in Calgary, AB. Her work over the last 16 years has been exclusively in the assessment, diagnosis and treatment of Operational Stress Injuries (OSI) in active-duty military, Veterans, and public safety personnel (e.g., police, firefighters, paramedics, corrections, etc.). Megan does extremely important work in the world, and I was very happy for her to sit down and chat with me, this time face-to-face, as she was visiting Halifax at the time. In this episode, which is one of my longest yet seemed to fly by, Megan and I talk about working hard but not too hard, exercise as a catalyst for learning Stoicism, mental strength, intimacy and vulnerability in relationships, and much more. I hope you enjoy this conversation just as much as I did. Without further ado, please welcome Dr. Megan McElheran. You can find Megan at: https://wayfound.ca/leadership_team/dr-megan-mcelheran/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

We ask AB about the Swifties taking over Nashville last weekend, the gambling stories in college sports right now, and the difference between the NBA & NHL playoffs

Does Sharon have single cougar friends? + Who ruined Antonio Brown? + Connor Bedard sweepstakes are tonight

Millet İttifakı'nın Cumhurbaşkanı Adayı Kemal Kılıçdaroğlu'nun seçim vaadi olarak dile getirdiği “üç ay içinde vize sorununu bitireceğiz. Türkiye'de her vatandaş artık AB'ye vizesiz girecek…” sözleri üzerine Türkiye-AB ilişkileri tekrar gündeme geldi. Kısa Dalga'dan Yeşim Özdemir, seçimle birlikte tekrar gündeme gelen Türkiye'nin Avrupa Birliği üyelik sürecini tartışmaya açıyor, ,konun uzmanlarıyla görüşüyor.   Uzmanlara göre vize sorunu üç ayda çözülür mü? Türkiye-AB ilişkisi nasıl başladı, şimdi hangi noktada? Ve tabii, bu seçim Türkiye-AB ilişkileri için bir dönüm noktası olabilir mi?

Tarrasque na Bota apresenta: TnB Especial: Damocles Consequências Epílogos 2023 - A Ruína do Leste parte 2 | RPG GURPS 4e Aqui você encontra mais uma gravação sonorizada de uma partida de RPG usando a mesa virtual Foundry Agora você pode ter em casa a caneca do Klank, o velho guerreiro anão em sua casa. Confira a coleção completa dos personagens da Mina Perdida de Phandelver e corra para garantir a sua com valor promocional por tempo limitado: https://www.mundofan.com.br/caneca-klank.     A espera acabou. A investida de Gusmão fez com que o Grande Mal Ancestral perdesse a contenção de seu corpo. Os heróis, após a transfiguração de Arum, seguem de volta para as terras humanas, trazendo esperanças e dores, arrependimentos e poder. A destruição de Upanishads parece ser, apenas, um prenúncio de um grande conflito que se forma. Conseguirão os heróis lidar com as consequências de seus atos? Nesses epílogos, nos preparamos para o final que se seguirá. Calendário de Damocles: Época do ano: Inverno Dia: 22 Mês: 07 Mês de Concur Ano: 1917 AB (anos de Bragança) ou 11004 CI (contagem Imperial) Calendário da aventura: Algumas semanas após os últimos acontecimentos.  Contagem dos anos: Os reinos de Damocles contam os anos de maneira diferente: Império conta os anos desde a chegada dos humanos a Damocles. A história se passa desde o ano de 10999, pela contagem Imperial Estando, agora, cinco anos depois em 11004. Bragança conta os anos desde sua independência de Império, estando hoje no ano de 1917. Upanishads conseguiu a sua independência cinco anos depois e, pelo seu calendário inicial, o ano seria o de 1912. Mas a cidade agora usa alternativamente o calendário Bragantino, o que muito irrita o xá. Referência Bibliográfica: Damocles: O início ← clique para comprar   Antes de assinar como um JOGADOR  envie um e-mail para contato@rpgnext.com.br e consulte sobre as vagas. Elas têm número limitado.  ATENÇÃO: Esse podcast é recomendado para maiores de 16 anos. Com a participação de: Vinicius Watzl; Heitor Fraga Dressler Hérica Freitas Hita Luis Beber Edição de: Luís Beber. Uma produção RPG Next. The following music was used for this media project: Music: Simplex by Kevin MacLeod Free download: https://filmmusic.io/song/4367-simplex License (CC BY 4.0): https://filmmusic.io/standard-license   Indicações Fabulosas APP das Cartas Críticas para D&D 5e APOIE NOSSA CAUSA! Nossa Campanha do PADRIM está no AR! Acesse e veja nossas Metas e Recompensas para os Padrinhos e Madrinhas. padrim.com.br/rpgnext   Se você preferir nos apoiar pelo PICPAY, acesse e veja nossas recompensas: picpay.me/rpgnext   https://rpgnext.com.br/doadores/   COMPARTILHE! Se você gostou desse Podcast de RPG, então não se esqueça de compartilhar! Nosso site é https://rpgnext.com.br, Nossa Campanha do PADRIM: https://www.padrim.com.br/rpgnext Nossa Campanha no PICPAY: https://picpay.me/rpgnext Facebook RpgNextPage, Grupo do Facebook RPGNext Group, Instagram RPG Next Oficial, Twitter @RPG_Next,  Canal do YouTube,  Vote no iTunes do Tarrasque na Bota e no iTunes do RPG Next Podcast com 5 estrelas para também ajudar na divulgação! DEIXE SEU FEEDBACK! Se quiser deixar seu feedback, nos envie um e-mail em contato@rpgnext.com.br ou faça um comentário nesse post logo abaixo. Seu comentário é muito importante para a melhoria dos próximos episódios. Beleza? Muito obrigado pelo suporte, pessoal! Links para MÚSICAS e SFX sob a licença Creative Commons Freesounds.org – https://www.freesound.org/ Tabletop Audio – http://tabletopaudio.com/ Kevin MacLeod em Incompetech – http://incompetech.com/music/royalty-free Free PD - https://freepd.com/ Alexander Nakarada - https://alexandernakarada.bandcamp.com/

In the latest Beyond the Bank, Brad visits with his colleague and friend, AB&T Chief Credit Officer Joe Pierce, to learn more about growing up in Southwest Georgia, making his way into banking and credit, and the immense joy he finds in working behind the scenes to help bring deals to fruition, while taking care of those around him and supporting the local community he cherishes. 

Hello, hello everyone and welcome to a contentious episode of AAD. Katana gets some love, Atro gets banned from Siege, and did Arkiss stat boost make him better? What about Bleez? Where is Twatville? We talk about the Flash Trailer, and yeah…we talk about you know what. Buy some Amway toothpaste and settle in for a ride on this brand-new episode of Double A-D.

Are You 'STRETCHING' Yourself? One of the biggest lessons I learned when I began my 'better physical health' journey about 2 years ago...was that STRETCHING is a critical part of my daily workouts. And how did I learn this? By sustaining an injury while using my Ab Roller...because I did NOT stretch first ...(not the Ab roller's fault)! As my workouts continued, stretching became a very important part, every day. Here's the cool part: In the rest of our lives, stretching can be a critical part of our Personal Development. I look back on where my life was, years ago...and can show you exactly where things began to improve...because I was willing to stretch my imagination, confidence, etc. Your results can get MUCH BETTER...when you Stretch!

INTRODUCTION: In this bonus episode I read four dreams I had in the early morning hours of May 4th2023 and go over the interpretation.  INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to): ·      Dream Revelation·      Dream Interpretation CONNECT WITH DE'VANNON: Website: https://www.SexDrugsAndJesus.comWebsite: https://www.DownUnderApparel.comTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@sexdrugsandjesusYouTube: https://bit.ly/3daTqCMFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/SexDrugsAndJesus/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sexdrugsandjesuspodcast/Twitter: https://twitter.com/TabooTopixLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/devannonPinterest: https://www.pinterest.es/SexDrugsAndJesus/_saved/Email: DeVannon@SDJPodcast.com  DE'VANNON'S RECOMMENDATIONS:·      Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse & Codependency Support Groups (Virtual) - https://www.meetup.com/pittsburgh-narcissism-survivor-meetup-group/·      COSA – 12 Step Recovery For Victims Of Compulsive Sexual Behavior - https://cosa-recovery.org·      A Recommended Reading To Help Heal From Narcissism - https://amzn.to/41sg6FO·      Sex Addicts Anonymous: HTTPS://WWW.SAA.ORG ·      Pray Away Documentary (NETFLIX)o  https://www.netflix.com/title/81040370o  TRAILER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk_CqGVfxEs ·      OverviewBible (Jeffrey Kranz)o  https://overviewbible.como  https://www.youtube.com/c/OverviewBible ·      Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed (Documentary)o  https://press.discoveryplus.com/lifestyle/discovery-announces-key-participants-featured-in-upcoming-expose-of-the-hillsong-church-controversy-hillsong-a-megachurch-exposed/ ·      Leaving Hillsong Podcast With Tanya Levino  https://leavinghillsong.podbean.com  ·      Upwork: https://www.upwork.com·      FreeUp: https://freeup.net VETERAN'S SERVICE ORGANIZATIONS ·      Disabled American Veterans (DAV): https://www.dav.org·      American Legion: https://www.legion.org ·      What The World Needs Now (Dionne Warwick): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfHAs9cdTqg  INTERESTED IN PODCASTING OR BEING A GUEST?: ·      PodMatch is awesome! This application streamlines the process of finding guests for your show and also helps you find shows to be a guest on. The PodMatch Community is a part of this and that is where you can ask questions and get help from an entire network of people so that you save both money and time on your podcasting journey.https://podmatch.com/signup/devannon  TRANSCRIPT: De'Vannon: [00:00:00] Hello everyone and welcome to the Sex Drugs in Jesus podcast. I'm your Hoston and I'm here with another bonus episode for you called What Dreams May Come Now. The book of Jeremiah, let me see, chapter 23 and verse eight, I'm sorry. Chapter 23 and verse 28 says, the prophet that has a dream, let him tell a dream.And he, that has my word. Let him speak my word faithfully. And so I had a dream. Early this morning, and this is the 4th of May in the year 2023. And I wanted to read this dream to you and, and kind of go through it. I'm here in Port Bay right now and have, you've been following me on social media. You know, I've been doing hella drugs, [00:01:00] you know, I started with Ayaka, I moved over to some L S D this weekend I'm scheduled to do me, you know, little something different, you know, that would.You know, that we'll be talking about, you know, all in an attempt to try to heal myself or to, you know, to, to get healed. Totally invited God into all of this. From, from not just a breakup, from, from Ethan. My, my former boyfriend, the covert narcissist who you know, who I found out on Christmas morning was running around with all these men cheating when he had covid, didn't care who he was out there killing or whatever.But as my hypnotherapist, Elaine Perils was explaining this experience with, with Ethan, with the ex, you know, has cleansed me of all the narcissists that have ever impacted me in my life. And I, I went back and started counting 'em. We're working on at least like seven. These are not all people I've dated.You know, you're talking siblings, parents, [00:02:00] you know, different people I've worked with, and both of my parents are not narcissists, just my dad. And hell, it is what it is. And so, and so I've posted you know, a blog about this. I've put resources on there. There's meetup groups, there's different groups online if you've been affected by a sex addict you know, at everything like that.And so, at any rate, I'm gonna read this dream from my dream journal and we'll go back and kind of. Talk through it. I know I'm not the only person God speaks to and dreams, and I want y'all to know that you're not crazy. You don't have a hurt mind. There's nothing wrong with you. If you see things in your sleep, if you have waking visions, you know you can go on the website onto the internet.I recommend the website called dream moods.com. That's Dream moods.com. To help you sort through the interpretation of these things. You can always reach out to me through my website, sex Drugs, and jesus.com, and I can help you try to find. The meaning of what it is you've been shown. Let [00:03:00] us not discount our dreams as the Lord speaks to us in various ways.For me, it's a whole lot of dreams, but I know a lot of people dream too because I've talked about it and many of you have told me. So let me get on right into this. So this morning as I lay in my bed in Mexico, I smelled a foul spirit. My dreams. I saw Ethan and it's like maybe he was with a guy at a public event.I entered the room and was part of this event's a lineup. I was wearing all black and was singing the line from Taylor Swift's song style, which says, so it goes, he can't keep his wild eyes on the road. As I sing this, it's like I glanced with minimal effort to look over at Ethan. What I'm thankful for is [00:04:00] that my emotions remain level and calm.This was done and stated more in a matter of fact way, and I felt a sense of acceptance for the current state of things. The next paragraph, Because I had about, I had about three, four dreams, you know, you know, in rapid succession. This morning, you know, in this same morning I saw myself in like an optometrist or some other type of doctor's office.I heard my name called the first time, and I believe I went into, into speak, speak to someone. My name was called again and no assistance came. I felt like they were playing a game with me. As I stood in the hall, there were two halls on two separate sides of this doctor's office building. As I stood in the left side, I [00:05:00] hollered out loud enough for both sides to hear me asking who called davanon?It's like I wasn't going to be played with Kip. Next paragraph, I think. I think in this same office there was an older lady reading a newspaper and waiting with her older husband who seemed to be disabled. Like he wasn't moving or talking. I think the lady who plays Tina Turner's mother in, in the movie What's Love Got to do with It, with a Worker there and came out.And asked this old lady a question. She questioned the lady in a complicated way and the old lady responded the best she could and stayed calm. The worker, the lady who plays Tina Turner's mother, and what's love got to do with it, [00:06:00] told this older woman that the older woman's response was complicated and did not have to be.After this woman who plays Tina Turner's mother left us, the older woman who was hanging out with her older, even even older husband, she turned to me and said that, said that she didn't feel that she had been complicated. She didn't feel that she had complicated that conversation, that I confirmed that she had not.Tina Tina's mom had projected her complicated nature onto this older lady because she thought this older lady was a weak in feeble and that she could get away with doing it. Skip a paragraph. In the same morning I saw like I was running late. For returning to a class or group of some sort. I was called [00:07:00] to come along with some, some of the other rebels who weren't exactly back on time.But once we got to the door, I stood in front of the reception podium. They did not tell us what to do nor bring us into the room. I stood for a little bit then, then I broke ranks in in order to challenge them on playing with us like that. I'm happy to see that I am no longer willing to let anyone play games with me.So, and then these conclude the dreams that I recorded from this morning. And I'm really, really praying that the Lord begins to open many of y'all's third eyes. You know your eyes so you can see what's, what's what's happening to you like in a spiritual sense. The Lord speaks to us through dreams. So I pray and speak to y'all's vision become open, and that the Lord speaks to you in unique ways, that you're gonna know that it's him because the Lord be speaking.Just [00:08:00] gotta want to hear and see.So, so Christianity, you know, in God comes from like the Middle East O over there. Like when you're reading something in like the ancient languages Hebrew era make and different things like that. If something's doubled, then that means that it's like a sure thing. That's why Jesus would say something like, verily, verily, truly, truly, I say unto you.They don't necessarily use the word very, a certain adverbs to emphasize something. If something's emphasized, they might just say it back to back or twice. In the Bible when, when the Dreamer Joseph was interpreting Pharaoh's dreams, the one about the plagues that were going to hit, really the whole earth, you know, He Pharaoh had to dream about the, the cows and the corn.The skinny cows come about. The Nile gobble up the fat [00:09:00] cows and the cows, the skinny cows, you know, are still just as skinny as they were before. Then you have the seven ears of corn. The, the, the blasted corns, the, you know, the, you know, the, the fucked up corn, you know, eats the good corn. And then they still, they look like they eat anything at all.And so that's how Joseph knew that Famine was coming to the land and he said, because the dream was double. That means the thing is, sure. Well, this here was four dreams. Okay, so, so this thing here is doubly sure and this, this all has to do with the process the Lord has been putting me through, with unraveling me from the power of narcissistic people in my life.And I'm gonna tell y'all, I looked up statistics on narcissism, and I'm not even gonna bother to tell you the bullshit because. The numbers are not high enough. There's far too many people. I was just talking to a lady today, you know, I was out on a tour at like a timeshare thing and [00:10:00] you know, she, she had to break up with, with, with a narcissist.It, they lay everywhere. They all over the fucking planet. I don't see how anybody could have a kid and, and let them start in dating. And I teach them about narcissistic personality disorder. It's, it's just everywhere. And But God doesn't God a process. You know, the Lord knew exactly who my ex was. That's why he warned me against this in the beginning. But there was a process that, that, you know, in the beginning of the relationship. But there was a process that I still had to go through, and I'm happy that this has happened.So I can share this with you. So, So the first line that I said was talking about smelling of foul spirit. A spirit, is that issue forth from Lucifer, from the devil, Satan, you know, whatever you wanna call him. I am going to be calling him Lucifer in a lot of [00:11:00] episodes moving forward because the, you know, you gotta name something what it is, and I really wanna drive home the personhood of the devil.I know a lot of people don't believe in hell. I don't believe in the devil. Okay, that's up to you. But you, but, but, but naming him for me reminds me that he is a sentient being with an individual will who likes to go out and hurt people. I. I view people with narcissistic personality disorder. We have this fancy term psychology has given them, I don't know, care if you wanna call them, sociopaths, assigned to them, istic tendencies, whatever.You know, spiritually speaking, they as is, are just evil period. Okay. Whatever the hell you want to call it. It's just fucking evil. And So when you, but, but there is a way in the spirit, like you can smell like a demonic force that comes around you and it's, it's like a wave, you know, [00:12:00] comes over you, different things can be smelled.You know, when Evangelist Nelson would, would preach in church, she could smell, you know, new life. To my knowledge, I've never smelled that before. But she could smell, you know, spiritually if like a woman was pregnant. You know, you can see in the spirit, you can sense in the spirit. You can taste in the spirit.You can smell in the spirit. There's a lot you can do in the spirit. And the Lord works in mysterious ways. So I smell this foul spirit. You and you got anything like that hanging around you. You gotta banish it and dismiss it, and it got to go. What I think it is, is I'm smelling that, that that demonic force, that possessed, or that is in possession of my ex, that was, that was controlling me through him and this whole time, and now that I've started to break away from him, that thing is acting up because it don't want to turn me loose.[00:13:00] While I've been here, not only have I been doing hallucinogenics to untie myself from Ethan, but also, but also there's a, a lady who I've met who is super powerful, super helpful. I'm gonna be listing her information on my social media later on. You know, and she's, and we, she and I started working together yesterday and consulting with the Seven Arc Angels, you know, and a few other things that Ethan and his demons won't be able to stand against.Okay. Because I realized that I was under a spiritual attack because I'll be sitting down somewhere. Just doing whatever, you know, coloring, working on whatever, writing or whatever. And it's like, it's like there's a dark force will, were used to walk up to me and try to make me sad about him. You know, sad about the relationship ending or sad about, you know, whatever, and try to make me think about, you know, who he's with or what [00:14:00] he's doing.And I was like, Uhuh. You know, I've been happy all day. This is not something that's on my mind like this. Like I could tell it was something walking up and trying to force me to not be happy. And I said, I'm glad about this in a way, because the devil cannot come and try to take away what you don't have.So Satan sees that I'm actually happy that I've been relieved and I've been free, and he's not pleased about that. You know, but I could tell that I was actually under a psychic attack with this and I was like, oh hell no. You know, we, we got to change this. I was not the one sexually insecure in the relationship to begin with, you know?And I was totally okay with us being open and working on that, you know? So whatever, you know, Ethan May or may not be doing didn't bother me when we were together. It's not gonna bother me now. You know, it was him with the issue, him with the insecurities, him with the secrecy, him with the line. I'm like, I'm not about to be bothered about this now.You know? It's not gonna happen that way. I got my own life to live [00:15:00] and so, and so, I've been really, really battling this and so I, I smell this falmer, and if you ever smell a devil, you gonna know it's like, It just is like, it just like wraps around you and it doesn't, it smells, it just smells like decay.Not like any, it does, it doesn't smell like a rotten egg or anything like that. It just, it stands out and it's just like, it, it is almost like a premonition type of feeling where it just takes your mind away from the conscious moment. Mm-hmm. And and so, so when you're in the dream space, understanding works, you know, works differently.You know why? So in my dreams, I saw, you know, my ex with another guy. These are the things people tend to worry about. You know, Ethan projected his fear and anxiety on me, and I took that shit on, and I should not have. When you're in a relationship with somebody, you can take on their characteristics, [00:16:00] oh, and they can seep into you over time.Especially if you're having unprotected sex, there are spiritual qualities that come along with like say, vaginal fluids, semen blood, sweat, urine, your hair, your skin cells, D n A, and different things like that. You know, whether you wanna believe it or not, but I'm gonna tell you, you know, witchcraft and things like that are real.If you let somebody get a hold of anything that has your particular d n A in it, fingernails, eyelashes, anything like that, your tears, anything that's just unique to you. Honey, they can cast a spell on you and do a work on you that you're not gonna be able to get out of unless you filled with the Holy Ghost.Or unless you know somebody who is, who cares that to struggle and fight that battle, you know, on your behalf because you don't have a time getting away from those people. You know, because the, the, these things carry our essence. You know, I know people go around squirting com all over [00:17:00] the place, you know, and sucking it up and swallowing up.Like it's just, you know, 10 cents a, you know, a gallon or whatever the case may be. But from the beginning it was not. So, you know,and so when you're in a relationship with somebody and you're constantly coming, coming, exposed to things that carry their essence, that's another way that you take on. Them. And if you think sex is just a physical act, you fooling yourself. I don't care if you know the person or not. Every time you cross ORs with somebody or spirit spiritually, you get that.You get that close to somebody. You take on a bit of them every time. This is a huge reason why highly promiscuous people are not happy, because they're super confused energetically. I just met somebody down here the other day trying the bone and no, I didn't let him. You know who, who has a husband, who has kids who was just suicidal a few months ago, who has all these things and [00:18:00] has had so much sex there in Puerto Erta.He's almost sick of it. And yet he has that neurological path in his head that he can't get out of it, you know? And I said, no, and I haven't gone through all, I've been through. Could just have cheap sex with people, you know? And now I didn't meet him on an app or anything like that, you know, sex flows in the streets here in Port Bay.Just expected. And I, and I'm like, I'm not doing it. But so, so why was Ethan at a public event? Mm-hmm. You know, he never really was the type to, to, to, to go out in public anywhere we went, you know, was my idea. Now look, not everything within the dream space. Is going to necessarily carry, meaning some things are just like fillers. Sometimes we don't have a dream and it's just a play dream.So you're gonna have to kind of sense could be public because that's all the exposure that has come to this rela to our, to our former relationship. I don't know. I [00:19:00] haven't had time to really look up the exact meaning of why I was wearing all black, but I know that it has to do with, you know, deep consciousness and things like that.Also, spiritually speaking, working with the color black is not necessarily evil. Black has a tendency, especially when you use it in like candles and things like that to consume evil, you know, so the color black is actually a powerful color to help to protect you. You know, not, not like, not, not necessarily like how Hollywood would portray it.Black is not bad. Now why was I singing Taylor Swift? Because the, the bitch is bad. You know, I, I mean, I like her. I didn't really pay too much attention to her until after all of this, you know, stuff happened here. Now when I go back and listen to songs, they make more sense, you know? I've been jamming the hell outta Miley Tyrus as flowers.Yes, baby. Today I bought myself some flowers. I had myself a nice sunset dinner out on the beach. Yes. And I [00:20:00] got my fucking life. And I didn't feel alone. I didn't feel lonely. I miss my ex. I was fucking happy and all, all I sensed was peace. Peace that I hadn't had in five years. That that's what I sensed, you know.So that line from Taylor Swift's song style when she says, so it goes, he can't keep his wild eyes on the road. I mean, I mean, I mean that, that is why our relationship ended was because, you know, because my ex could not control his sex addiction and his in his promiscuity period. Why, you know, then I look over at him, you know, in the dream with minimal effort, you know, it used to You know, all of this used to upset me, and this doesn't anymore.You know, I, I've, I've learned to, I mean, I've forgiven him. I mean, I had a dream the other week and the, and the spirit was telling me, you know, I have to, you know, it's time to move on. You know, I had a dream the other day about like how I was loading dishes and a dishwasher. A huge [00:21:00]dishwasher larger than anyone I've ever dealt with.And in the dream world, when you dream about, you know, washing dishes, that's, that's, that's you moving on to a new phase. That, that's what that means. So, so the spirit keeps telling me to just move on and to move forward and to move forward. The, the reading I had yesterday with my, with the Shaman, the girl, the, the Lil D who consults with the seven Arc angels, you know, she was one of the assistant shamans at the ayahuasca ceremony that I went to, you know, and that's what came up on the cards.I think those were tarot cards, you know, that she had showed me. I have Another reading with her tomorrow to follow up with this. And it was all about forgiveness. Opening my heart, letting go of the past, being present in the moment and not worrying about none of the nonsense that, that, that Ethan did, or more to the point that the devil did through him.Cause I'm gonna tell you something about narcissistic people, narcissistic personality disorder, whatever the hell you want to call it. Them [00:22:00] people like I'm a light worker. I work with light. I'm a very empathetic person. Narcissistic people are dark workers. If you have light workers, you have dark workers.I need y'all to learn that and to just accept it and understand it, cuz it is what it is. It's time for us to stop being naive, you know, and open up our eyes to the truth of the way that the world works and what goes on in it. These people are conduits of the devil. Their nexus points for, for, for, for all.That is evil. Satan was the first dark worker. He was the first arrogant one, the first narcissist, and the first person to think themselves so high, you know, is to think that they could overthrow God. And you imagine, you mean as mad as I was about Ethan running around with these men and looking me in the face every day and not telling me, Can you imagine how God felt, even though he knows everything, he still has feelings.I tell y'all this all the time. Talk to God like a hu, like he has feelings. Not just somebody you want to get [00:23:00] shit from all the time. Ask him how his days going, you know, and things like that. Make it personal, but can you imagine, you know, Lucifer rallying the angels together to try to overthrow, you know, you know heaven, and then coming to serve God and his presence and smiling like he wasn't doing that.And just to be clear, the devil is not God's equal. If you were to try to rank something, he might be the art angel saying, Michael equal, but there is no debating with God. You know, in the Bible we see the devil arguing with Michael over the body of Moses. I think that has something to do with an ancient Hebrew tradition.But there is no devil trying to, to argue with God. Now, we see the devil asking God's permission for things like in the Book of Job, but, but there is no debating with God. And so, but, but, and then Jesus calls Lucifer, the father of lies, narcissistic people. [00:24:00] Are also people who don't mind lying. So when they go forth in their strength and their evil strength, these people are, are perfect conduits for, for Lucifer himself.Anybody who can tell a lie and be totally okay with it are in league with the devil, and that is all the the is to it. Okay. I look at them like Emperor P Team from Star Wars. You know what it is? May the fourth. May the, may the fourth be with you. And tomorrow we gonna have some revenge of the fifth Hall, Lou.But you know, you know, when I look at movies and things like that, I don't just look at it for entertainment. I wanna talk about what it means. What is God saying to us here? Can we get a little bit more out of it than entertainment and popcorn people? Please? Can we take it a step further? So let us examine emperor pa.This feeble looking fucking old man. Somebody who you would not think was a ringleader of all that is evil in the galaxy. Okay? Somewhere along he was a politician, a senator, and all that shit. [00:25:00] Somewhere along the way he met, I think it was a Darth Plaus, was his master who taught him the ways of the dark side.After Tine got tired of his ass, he cut him down and his sleep one night and then move the hell on, and we see him do this. Accountant DKU was his apprentice and he used him till, till he found Anakin and then he had Anakin chop his head off, you know, and he just moved on to the next. That's how narcissists are.They just go on to the next, they go on to the next, they go on to the next. And speaking of going on to the next, y'all, when y'all break up with these narcissists, they will move on quickly to, to another person. It is not about you. Narcissistic people will always move on quickly for two reasons at least.One cause they never fully showed up to your relationship anyway. You know, two, they, they were never invested in it like you were. It would be coldhearted and in, in a state of denialism for me to not act like I wasn't impacted by, you [00:26:00] know, the five year relationship or it ending and just, you know, to already just, you know, just be moved on.But a narcissist will, you know, I've heard y'all tell me. You know, you broke up with somebody and then you see them out with somebody else or whatever, and it hurts you. That ain't got nothing to do with you. There's nothing more you could have done. It's a reflection of them and how fake that they can be.Cuz narcissists have masks and things like that. They know how to just pull a different mask out, tuck their feelings away and act like they weren't there and they may not have been there, who the hell knows, and then they just shuffle on down the road. That ain't nothing to do with you. That, that, that, that's just a testament to just how shallow they are and how unwilling to face, face themselves that they, that they are.So the sy like, like tine, how he really looked was how he looked when. Mace wind redirected the forest. Lightning [00:27:00] at him and burned him. He didn't really burn him. Okay. When you read the books and get into like the Cannon and Star Wars lore, the Maca Mace window with a Black Jedi, he was bald. He had a purple lightsaber.And y'all, have y'all ever seen me play a Jedi in a movie? Yes. And bitch, I won a motherfucking purple lightsaber. And I wanted to have motherfucking zebra handle with motherfucking diamond shit around the fucking handle. Yes. Give me the motherfucking purple lifesaver bitch. Yes. Okay. Ab fucking lly. And and so and so, it makes the wind is strong enough to redirect the force lightning.And the force lightning is electricity that comes out of the emperor's hands. You know, back at his ass. He didn't actually hurt him. What he did was burn off the mask that Emperor Tine had on because the CTH had the ability to use the force to create a [00:28:00] mask. So when, so when the tine was running around there being friendly with yo and OB one and attending like GaN Gin's funeral though he was laughing and ha happy that Darth Mall had cut him down.You know, he was just being a fake ass bitch at the whole damn time for all of those years. And it wasn't until Mace Wendy redirected that mask that it burned off and we could see the regular STH yellow eyes and everything like that. Yes, Papa lied and said that he was injured in the vicious attack by the Jedi, when really it was him.Well, I wonder who could tell a lie like that. Oh, I know a narcissist. So, you know, he just spun his own version of reality. And everybody believed him and so and so, so the galaxy went into, into darkness for, I think 20 years until Luke, you know, was strong enough to, to do something about it. So I look at every narcissist, like another motherfucking tine.They, they look like, [00:29:00] at least in the covert narcissist case, they look, they look like these fever, little unassuming people who really sitting there smiling and smiling in your face while they're plotting against you the whole time until you know, until all the shit comes out. And you imagine how Yoda and Obi one Kenobi felt dealing with this damn dude.I mean, thisor did the most, he would hire people to come try to assassinate him, quote unquote, so he could pretend to be weak and make, and, and have the Jedi come and rescue him from the assassin he sent just to play this whole game with him or to distract them. I wonder who could play a game with somebody in order to I don't know, just fucking be entertained and narcissist can, so as they say in that Sullivan King song, someone else, you know, the games that you play are just sickening.You know, that's my favorite line from that song. The games that you played, just sickening. As, as Jenin as the Gin Blossom said in their song, [00:30:00] found out about you. You know, the things you said and did to me seemed to come so easily. The love I thought I won. You gave for free. You know, I. You would think that if somebody really, really loved you or liked you would be a little bit harder for them to twist your mind and play games with you, but not for a narcissist.You think it'd be a little bit harder for somebody to go out and sleep with people they barely know, but not for a narcissistic sex addict. These things are par for the course with them. They can go out and do all those things and come home and have a bowl of cereal like they ain't done shit wrong and go on about their life.I love that I was singing in this dream, cuz whenever you hear, you know, Concord music and song, it's, it's healing. Whenever you hear music and your dream is healing, unless it the music is fucked up, then you got some issues on your hand. So I took this microphone, honey, I walked up on that stage. I barely glanced over, you know, at my ex and whatever he was there with.[00:31:00] And I gave him to zero fucks. And I went on about my performance and it was simple as that.Now, why was I in an optometrist office? This has to do with my opening vision and how I'm starting to see things more clearly. And I'm happy, you know, and I was standing in the, in the middle of two halls. You know, when you're in a relationship with a narcissist, they pull you in two different directions.You don't know whether you come in or going. Okay, are you up here or you back there? You don't know. But what I'm, what I'm proud of and thankful for is I was having none of this shit no more. You know, they called me then they didn't say any damn thing and I was like, who the fuck called my name? Nah, we're not having this.You all gonna either do some shit or I'm leav, you know, it is going be one way or the other, but I'm gonna go sit here and be in this purgatory or this limbo. Okay? A narcissist will have you neither here nor there because they are neither here nor there. They don't want to be here nor there. One thing with, you know, with my ex, the way the devil had [00:32:00] him, and, and I, I would imagine still has him, you know, he did not like, I would say, you need to either be black or white, hot or cold in or out.That was too much. He considered it to be a restriction when really he liked, he liked the gray area so that he can manipulate. But it was a Lord himself who said that you gotta need to be hot or cold, and if you're lukewarm, he's gonna spit you out. He said, A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.He said, let your yes be yes and your no be no anything more that comes of evil. And so I. This whole two hallway thing where somebody called me and they don't, nobody's answering. See that? That's a game playing. You call me, you know what you did, and now why the fuck you not saying nothing else? Nope. I'm happy that I started standing up for myself, you know, in this, you know, in this dream I.Now in this same office, you got this old lady reading the newspaper and her much, her much older husband sitting [00:33:00] there in need of her assistance. Now why the mother of the, the person who of Tina Turner from What's Love Got to do with it? So if y'all are not familiar with Tina Turner's story, Angela Bassett plays Tina Turner and the movie, what's Love got to do with it?Okay, if you break up with a, with somebody who's physically abusive, verbally abusive, narcissistically abusive, You know, I'll recommend three movies for you. A Diary of a Mad Black Woman. Yes. A Diary of a Mad Black Woman Waiting to Exhale. And what's the love got to do with it? Them are your three movies.I don't recommend you to Burn. They shit up. Well, you know what I. You do whatever you need to do. That's what I'm gonna say and pray about it because sometimes the bitches have it coming. But be smart about it. Don't go to jail. Be sure you somewhere where you can do that shit. Not, not get in trouble, but sometimes they shit do need to get torched.But be smart about it. Be sure that you're not get in a damn trouble. [00:34:00] But and definitely get rid of all this shit one way or another cuz they can't be leaving with no spoils. Oh hell no, hell no. So in it, but, but in what's Love got to do with it? So, anime Bullock is Tina Turner's real name in real life.Her stage name is Tina Turner. She's from the country. Her mother in this movie is a very manipulative woman, totally fucking narcissistic as is Ike Turner. You know, Tina Turner's husband. Ike Turner is beating the fuck outta Tina and everything like that. And her mama is like literally telling Ike Turner her, where the fuck to go find, you know, she find Tina, she sold her own daughter out when she tried to get away from Ike.I know far too many people who tried to leave Narcissist and then they go back. You know, I left Ethan once, you know, for three weeks, and then I went back. I didn't know he was a fucking narcissist and, and there was a name for the shit that I was observing. But once I realized that I piece the D, fuck out.But, but some people don't do that. You know, they have [00:35:00] kids, you have all these business interests, but honey, when you're with a narcissist, this is literally life or death. I have known of them to like shoot the, their significant other, the people are unstable and whether they're gonna shoot you at point blank range like happened with this one lady, or they're just gonna kill you slowly and siphon the life force out of you.Like what my ex did to me is still a death sentence. I mean, Damn. You know, I was thinking about, you know, Dexter the other day that you know that that hot ass serial killer from Jo Time, I think he showed more compassion and balance thinking than a narcissist because he just killed the people. You know, a narcissist will dangle you like a fucking rat in front of a cat and let them just slice you and cut you down and shit, and just not really quite let you die because they get off on the fucking torture again.The games that they play are just sickening.So Tina Turner's mom represents a manipulative force. [00:36:00] Somebody who don't wanna embrace the truth, somebody who seeks advantages for themselves, you know, you know, you'd have to watch the movie, the full sense of just how fucked up this woman was. And so for her to present in this dream is somebody who wants to come out.And you've seen this before, maybe you dealt with this type of Karen or whatever, where you would just be having a regular conversation and the bitch finds a way to make shit all complicated and then gonna turn around and act like you're the one who complicated it. Ethan did this all the time, you know, would project his confusion and shit, you know, onto me and everything like that.In hypnotherapy, we call these dreams. Like what? I had an early morning dream and what happens is you, besides, besides it being God speaking, you invent, you're venting out problems. So me seeing this is, is that pain and that consternation that he put into me, leaving me and going back to his ass and going back to the pits of hell from when it came.Because, [00:37:00] excuse me, because from the beginning I was not so, I don't argue with people. I don't have fights. I don't do that. He was the only person in my life I ever raised my voice with. And after I would argue with him, he would have this sixth sense of satisfaction that would come over his face cuz he got off on the shit and I would feel so unhuman, you know?And so unlike myself and just feel dirty and filthy because I came, I'm arguing, why the fuck am I arguing? I'm healthy. You know, I can walk across the room. I can go to the bathroom and pee by myself. I can take a shit. I can fucking go to school if I want to. I can learn. I can go out in the sun. I can feed myself.I don't have to eat through a goddamn tube. If I got a car, I got healthy cats. I got a house, you know, I can travel. I got a million things going on right in my life. Why in the fuck would I be having an argument with somebody over what you know? The only time you are gonna have an argument is when you lose perspective and you are not a thankful person because we have a lot [00:38:00] that God has done for us.And so for me to be in a point that I let my vibration get low enough to stoop to his level, all that did was hurt me. And I hated doing that, but I'm so thankful that I don't do that anymore. Now he's gone. There's nobody to argue with now that he's gonna have total fucking peace. That's suddenly when the sun makes you free, you are free indeed.And Jesus has set me free from darkness. I didn't realize I was the in. And so this has been vented out because you know, Tina Turner's mom wanted to tell this fever old lady that she was the one with the prong, but when really it was Tina's, Tina's mom who came out there with the issue and you know, Why a fever old lady?Because narcissists view the people who they prey on as a weaker than them. They view them as somebody they can take advantage of because you're not gonna see two narcissists in a relationship. It's not gonna work. Mm-hmm. Because they're always calculating and seeing, they, they, they look for empathetic, nice people.They feel like they can get [00:39:00] over on. If they can't do that, they're not gonna be hanging around long. Okay. But, but the Bible says that, In our weakness, God's strength is made perfect and that the Lord will take the weak things of the world and confound the supposed strong things of the world and talking to foolish people.The Lord said that professing themselves become to become wise. They became fools. You know, my message to narcissists out there while you, while you think you're laughing at us, people who are nice enough for you to steal from siphon energy off of, take advantage of and all of that. You know, while you sitting there laughing at us, God and the devil are both laughing at you.God is laughing at you because he sees that your payback is coming and the devil is laughing at you because he's made you foolish enough to be like him, which is what got him kicked out of heaven. And he knows that you're going to end up with him when you die too, because you're not gonna be able to take advantage of people in this life and mess over them and think that you're gonna part this plane of existence and have a [00:40:00] peaceful afterlife whether you believe in hell or not.You are not going to have a peaceful afterlife if you fuck over people in your current life. It don't go that way. It does not go that way.Let me sing. So when these people come trying to project their evil on you and their chaos, look at it spiritually. These people are filled with all kinds of demons and devils and negative energies and negative forces that they do not have in check. Those things have full controls of them, and they're gonna tell you, you know, my ex used to tell me that I was controlling.And I said, how That doesn't make sense. I'm usually like submissive and things like that, you know, in a relationship. So how, how would I be controlling that, that that would throw off the whole kink for me? That was just one of the dumbest things he ever said. And then, He said a lot of dumb shit because narcist, the things they say don't have to make sense.It just has to serve them in the [00:41:00] moment. Look at Trump on TV from, or fucking damn they're any Republican at this point. From one sentence to the next. You know, this is, this is this, this, this, this, this shit. Don't even balance out because, because they just saying whatever the fuck in the moment. That's exactly how fucking narcissist is.You know, Ethan would call me controlling. When we went to counseling, I'd be like, okay, tell me exactly when I was controlling and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Just feeding into the energy. You don't, don't ever engage a narcissist cause that's what they want you to do. They saying that crazy shit that they know is bullshit just to get more energy outta you.He couldn't answer the question, you know, hollering all up and down the street in New Orleans, you know, calling me controlling out of nowhere and, and get in front of a counselor and can't even much render a reason. You know, for the hate, the raise, the resentment. You know, if that ain't bullshit, I don't know what is, you know, but this is how narcissistic people work because their brains are not developed in terms of rationale [00:42:00] and empathy.That part didn't grow. I don't, it's not there. It's not even dad, just don't exist in them. I'm trying to get empathy. In love out of a narcissistic person. It's like trying to ask a two year old to understand astrophysics. Okay? You, you come to, to a two year old or a one-year-old with some complex calculus equation or some shit, they're just gonna blink their eyes.It stare at you like they don't know what the fuck you're talking about. A narcissist is no different because they're basically like a two year old. It's trapped in an adult's body that never grew. That's why you'll see them pout and throw their hands up and down and stump across the room, you know, with a heavy foot stumping and things like that.And they follow you. You follow behind you. I can't tell you how many times Ethan stepped on my goddamn hills, you know, and I'm trying to get him to walk next to me. He was always walking behind me, you know? And of course then wanted to complain that he wasn't an equal in a relationship. Well, I don't know what else I can do.You know, I've done everything I can to, to show you that I considered you an equal, but if you don't [00:43:00] accept it, then there's not, not nothing do. You know, I'm saying Ethan, but this is, as I've talked to people as I've traveled this world since all this has happened, it's the same damn shit in different countries, in different places, y'all.It's the same fucking thing. It is all over the goddamn world. It is everywhere. It is everywhere. It's not just him. It's so fucking common, you know? And every time I talk to a girl and they're like, yeah, my man did this. I'm like, yeah, my ex did the same shit too. It's like they just don't grow up. It's like they, like itty bitty children still just running around, you know?You know, unfortunately they can fucking procreate and make more of their little asses. You know, I personally think they need to be locked up in mental hospitals, and I'm not for incarceration, but it doesn't make any sense to me while you have people locked up for having, I don't know, $50 worth of dope on them, and they just wanted to go home and get high.And you got narcissistic people out here who can do, [00:44:00] like my ex did and literally go give someone when covid and then maybe kill them. Who knows? You know? And that shit is not illegal, but, but home, he can't go buy $50 worth of crack or coke or whatever the fuck and go turn up, you know, with his girl or whatever.At home. The United States is a fucked up country. Narcissists should not be running free, in my opinion out here, devastating people like they do to just go move on and do it again. The only good thing about it is that the Lord will use wicked people like that to do like what he's done for me and sharpen and strengthen me because the Lord, the Bible describes wicked people as tools in the hands of God to sharpen the saints and to sharpen those of us who are like workers and who gives a fuck about the welfare of humanity.Now that much I would have them stay free for so that the Lord can continue to use them to help people who are actually of God, even though they are not. And most of them never will be cause they don't have the courage.[00:45:00]And then the last one, you know how, how I'm yet again called by someone? You know, and I'm standing in front of that reception podium, and then it's not like they're not doing anything with me. You know? That's still another a way of playing games, you know? And what I'm proud of and thankful for is that I wasn't having this shit no more.I'm like, you bitches called me up here. He said I wasn't here on time. All right, then let's do the damn thing. Mm-hmm. People in this world like to go and, and arrest control over people when they have no control over themselves. You've seen these insecure people be you in a doctor's office at the grocery store.You know that we, that one bitter bitch who ain't got no control in her life, who just sitting there toying with you and just playing games because finally somebody has to listen to her. You know, that's how narcissistic people are. So y'all. When y'all have these dreams and yes, this is my a beautiful dream journal.Ain't she cute [00:46:00] though? Mm-hmm. Honey. Yes. I saw this. I was like, this reminds me of the stars, darling. The stars. Yes. I must have it. So let's go ahead and rewrite some stars, like from The Greatest Showman. Yes. Let's, let's, let's, let's live a new life. Let's dream a new dream. Let's do a new doom. So all of you have been impacted by whatever kind of hurtful relationship, whether it's what's a narcissistic asshole or some physically abusive person, or whatever the hell the case may be.I, I pray you come out of it. I'm gonna be praying for you greatly. Reach out to me with your dreams and I'll see what I can do to help you with them. But, but, but don't stay in a relationship with a narcissist. They will not change. The only thing you can do is change your position if they ever are, or to have any sort of hope of redemption.They're not going to truly seek it. If they're in a relationship with anyone, they would have to. You know, completely detached themselves from all people, [00:47:00] however long it takes for them to, I mean, not like their friends and stuff like that, but they cannot be, and then maybe depend on how bad the case is.But they can't be in any kind of situation where they're gonna be tempted to take advantage of somebody, which is their natural nature. They've gotta get away from people and get in front of a counselor by themselves, because couples counseling is count, is contraindicated for a narcissist. I didn't fucking know this until like a couple of weeks ago.If you're in a relationship with a narcissist, do not go to couples counseling with him. I'm gonna repeat. If you are in a relationship with a narcissist, do not go to couples counseling. Do not go. The shit will not work. I tried it twice, you know, over a span of. It's about, we're about like a year and a half in our relationship when we tried the first couple's counselor, and the other one just ended last year when I realized he was lying to the damn I'm counselor.All the [00:48:00] narcis are gonna do is manipulate the session and, and, and turn the counselor against you. That's what they gonna try to do. Our counselor had to take a whole one hour session one time to prove to Ethan why she wasn't working against him. Girl, bye bye. You know, no matter what the woman said or did, all he heard was you and Devana are against me because he wanted to go in there and put on a show, which is exactly what he did.So all you're doing is wasting your time and your money, and you're giving that damn narcissist another audience to perform in front of. And remember, y'all are going to counseling for two damn different reasons. They are going to reinforce their agenda. You empathetic, nice person who needs to leave this narcissist are going for the same reason.I went to be transparent, to tell the truth, to be upfront and honest, to work towards building a better relationship and to grow [00:49:00] personally and to have it all out there so you couldn't forge for and. Doesn't give a fuck about none of that. They go in there for themselves and, and then they're also laboring under the damn delusion that just by going to sit in front of a counselor checks the box of, Hey, I went to a counselor.Cuz Ethan would say that all the time. Like, look at these accomplishments. I've gone to the counselor, I've done this, I've done this. And I was like, yeah bitch. But if you go to the counselor and you all don't know, lie. Well, then that doesn't do anything. So you have to be, so, you have to be careful with these people because anything that they do, they gonna try to just wave it around as a trophy of metal, but they're, there's still quality to what they've done.Basically, what Ethan was saying is, my gift to you is me sitting here in this office. Whether I sit here and contribute to the energy in the room, or actually tell the truth or not, because narcissists think a hell of a lot of themselves, and this is why they're so twisted. They hate themselves. At the same time.They think a [00:50:00] lot about themselves, yet they don't fully accept themselves, and then they wanna go and be with somebody. And then a lot of times they wanna be with somebody who they know is better than them, but then they want to get, they don't wanna give that person credit for being better than them.Now, who could have said something like this? Jesus, when he said a double minded man is unstable in all his ways, you can't be back and forth, in and out, left and right, up and down at the same time. It's not gonna work. You know, so that is my message to y'all, to my message to narcissistic people. You can be helped, but you're gonna have to humble yourself before almighty God.And because you, because you, because you, you, you, you need a serious exorcism. If you have been consumed with the sort of devils that make you a narcissist, you have a, you have a, hold on, you. But it's not like it can't be broken because there's nothing too hard for the Lord. But you gonna have to sacrifice the things that you like and you think you can't go it without and show, and show that true sacrifice in order to get God to move on your behalf.[00:51:00]Anyway, I'm about to go up in here and watch me some Star Wars. I'm gonna say a little prayer for y'all. May the fourth be with you. Happy revenge of the fifth tomorrow, and just remember that everything is gonna be all right. 

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This is a conversation about physician compensation, which is often oddly misaligned from the way that the whole physician or provider organization is getting paid. Now, first thing to point out: There are lots of different kinds of physicians doing all kinds of different things. As with most everything in healthcare, lumping everybody together and making general proclamations about what is best is a really cruddy idea. With that disclaimer, if you think about the main models of physician compensation, there are two; and this is oversimplified, but let's call one fee for service (FFS), which is really getting paid for generating RVUs (relative value units)—in short, getting paid for volume. The more you do (especially the more expensive things you do), the more you get paid. And then we have getting some kind of capitation payment. A capitated payment is some kind of per member per month-ish flat payment to ideally keep patients healthy, and you will make the most money if you can figure out how to have the least volume of expensive stuff. As an individual doc getting a salary to care for a patient panel of a certain size, let's just consider commensurate with that. These incentive models obviously have a big impact on any given doctor's ability to get paid to do things that they think they should be doing. For example, the current fee-for-service RVU fee schedule frequently rewards those doing the stuff a lot of specialists do much more than those doing primarily cognitive work, including those doing work for patients who aren't sitting in the exam room at the time—like a PCP arranging for a patient to go to hospice or answering patient portal questions. In my opinion, the goal here should be to pay docs and others fairly for providing high-value care. These payments also should actually be proven to actually incent that high-value care. Here's the obvious problem: Neither of these two things, either the quantifiable definition of high-value care and/or the best way to pay for it, has any kind of canon. There are no rules which are considered to be particularly authoritative and definitive here, really. So, what is the downside of not aligning physician compensation models to what good looks like, meaning to the kind of care that patients really need in that particular community? A couple of downsides for you: One is moral injury. Not the only reason, but a reason for moral injury is getting paid in misalignment with what is best for patients. That sucks. You want to help your patients as best you can, and then you can't earn a living and/or you get in trouble with the boss if you do what you think is right. This can cause real mental anguish for especially PCPs but also others who see the need to do anything that doesn't have a billing code. Here's another downside to not worrying about physician compensation, and it's for plan sponsors (employers, maybe) who are trying to get integrated care or a medical home for their employees. I was talking to Katy Talento about this. She was telling me that in ASO (administrative services only) contracts, there are often line items for value-based care and for capitated payments. So, good news? Well, let's follow the dollar here, because we wind up with a disconnect that doesn't help patients but certainly can earn a nice little kitty for those who can get away with it. Here's where that dollar goes: This VBC (value-based care) or capitated payment kitty may go to a health system that the ASO says is to be a medical home for employees or plan members. But the PCPs mainly who are treating members in those medical homes are getting paid, it often turns out, fee for service with maybe some quality kickers. So, the plan is paying a value-based care payment, but the PCPs are getting paid FFS. Is anyone shocked when the members report that they don't actually feel like they are getting integrated care, that they are getting rushed in and out because maximizing throughput becomes a thing when you're getting paid for volume? Dan O'Neill also talks about this at length in episode 359, because IPAs (independent physician associations) are doing kinda the same thing. Getting so-called value-based care contracts with MA (Medicare Advantage) plans or CMS or employer groups, I'd imagine, and then paying all the individual practices or the solo practitioners fee for service and scooping up the excess payments themselves, most docs manage to provide high-enough-quality care that the contract holder can scoop up the profit off the capitation without actually having to share the capitation to achieve this high-enough-quality care. In this healthcare podcast, I am digging into all of this physician compensation ballyhoo with Rachel Reid, MD, MS. She was an author on a study at the Center of Excellence on Health System Performance at RAND. This study specifically set out to look at how health systems and provider organizations (POs) affiliated with those health systems incentivize and compensate the physicians who work there. Short version: Yeah, it's confirmed. Most docs are paid using the classic RVU productivity measures representing a big chunk of their compensation, even PCPs. There's frequently some kickers or extra payments to achieve some kind of quality metric, but this is the icing, not the cake. The cake is still very fee for service-y. This is true regardless of how the physician organizations, the provider organizations themselves are getting paid by payers. I asked Dr. Rachel Reid a bunch of questions about this, but one of them was (this seems weird, a weird misalignment), Why is this happening? And Dr. Reid listed out five reasons beyond the macro existential question of what is value and do we even know how to change human behavior to get it. 1. The payment is not big enough from the payer for the physician organization to go through all the time and trouble and risk frankly of changing the whole comp model. 2. The value-based payment arrangements that do exist at the organizational level often have a fee-for-service chassis with an icing of quality payments or some kind of value payment on top of it. So, maybe there's actually more alignment than we might think. 3. It's hard to try to change comp models—it's a thing. And there is risk in messing it up. 4. Inertia. The ever-present inertia. 5. We know what we want to move from, but what exactly are we moving to? And this “What do we want to move to?” is going to change for PCPs and for every single different specialty and could even vary by patient population. I then also asked Dr. Reid what could be done by plan sponsors, for example, to pay docs in alignment with the goals of the contract; and she said, write physician comp expectations into the contract. Something to think about. We dig into all of this today. Shows that you should, for sure, listen to for additional insights include the one with Dan O'Neill (EP359) as aforementioned. Also the show with Brian Klepper, PhD (AEE16), where we dig into how the RUC is behind some of these FFS rates. Also episode 391 with Scott Conard, MD. My guest today is Rachel Reid, MD, MS. She is a physician policy researcher at RAND Corporation and a primary care physician at Brigham and Women's Hospital.   You can learn more about Dr. Reid, her publications, and the work she has done on the RAND Web site.     Rachel Reid, MD, MS, is a physician policy researcher at the RAND Corporation. Also a practicing primary care physician, her research focuses on measuring cost, quality, and value in healthcare. She has particular interest in the primary care delivery system, physician payment and compensation, and delivery and payment system reform. Dr. Reid has been engaged in the RAND Center of Excellence on Health System Performance, assessing health systems' compensation and incentives for physicians, leading work related to assessing low-value healthcare delivery, and measuring primary care spending. She is the principal investigator on an NIH-funded grant assessing novel Medicare billing codes for transitional care provided after hospital discharge. Prior to joining RAND, Dr. Reid worked in the Research and Rapid Cycle Evaluation Group at the Centers for Medicare & Medicaid Services' Innovation Center. Her clinical work has included ambulatory primary care and hospital-based internal medicine. She is an associate physician at Brigham and Women's Hospital and an instructor in medicine at Harvard Medical School. Dr. Reid received her AB in biochemical sciences from Harvard University and her MD and MS in clinical research from the University of Pittsburgh School of Medicine.   07:13 What did Dr. Reid's recent study show about how doctors are currently being paid and incentivized? 08:11 Why Dr. Reid decided to do the study in the first place. 09:49 What are the main foundations of what doctors are paid on? 10:31 Why is value-based compensation still just the “icing” on the cake? 13:08 What is the biggest value add for doctors, and does it vary between specialties? 14:32 Why wouldn't a physician organization change their comp models? 19:55 Are we at a moment of evolution? 20:20 “Tying dollars to measured quality gaps doesn't necessarily produce results.” 20:42 EP295 with Rebecca Etz, PhD. 22:04 “I don't think there's a current gold standard for how to pay doctors.” 25:37 Job one: What are we trying to incent? 31:28 From the payer or insurer perspective, what's the leverage they have to change doctor compensation?   You can learn more about Dr. Reid, her publications, and the work she has done on the RAND Web site.   Rachel Reid, MD, MS, of @RANDCorporation discusses on our #healthcarepodcast how doctors get paid. #healthcare #podcast   Recent past interviews: Click a guest's name for their latest RHV episode! 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INTRODUCTION: Award-winning health expert Nicole Kerr is the co-author of Eating the Rainbow: Lifelong Nutritional Wellness—Without Lies, Hype, or Calculus. She has appeared on CNN, PBS, CBS, ABC, the Food Channel, and a host of other TV and radio shows to share her unique perspective on wellness, lifestyle, and nutrition.   For the past 30 years, Nicole has worked in all sectors of society, including ingovernment (the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention), non-profit(American Cancer Society), military (United States Air Force Medical Operations),academia (University of Hawaii), healthcare institutions/hospitals (AdventistHealth Castle and Queens Medical Center), corporate settings (Sea Ties, LLC),and private consultation. Nicole's warm, engaging presentations have earned hera place in front of international audiences ranging from corporate foodproducers to health and medical associations. Throughout her career, she hasfocused on supporting people from every walk of life to make realistic,meaningful, happy choices for lifelong health and well-being.When she was a 19-year-old cadet at the United States Air Force Academy, Nicolewould be forced to learn how to live and love differently following aterrifying and transformative Near-Death Experience. Her memory of the crashcame back 20 years later, and it has taken Nicole almost another two decades toalign her soul, spirit, mind, and body, proving healing is certainly anon-linear process.A disabled veteran, Nicole now maintains a private practice primarily using NeuroEmotional Technique (NET) targeting the often overlooked domains of emotional,energy, and spiritual well-being.   INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to): ·      Spirits & Angels·      Second Chances·      Near Death Experiences (NDE's)·      Louisiana State University Nostalgia·      Religious Trauma·      Military Trauma·      Living With Fear·      PTSD·      Struggle Acquiring Veteran's Affairs Disability & Compensation·      Why Perspective Is Everything CONNECT WITH NICOLE: Website & Book: https://www.nicolekerr.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/nicole.a.kerrInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/nicole.angelique.kerr/LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-kerr-8920438/ CONNECT WITH DE'VANNON: Website: https://www.SexDrugsAndJesus.comWebsite: https://www.DownUnderApparel.comTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@sexdrugsandjesusYouTube: https://bit.ly/3daTqCMFacebook:    https://www.facebook.com/SexDrugsAndJesus/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sexdrugsandjesuspodcast/Twitter: https://twitter.com/TabooTopixLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/devannonPinterest: https://www.pinterest.es/SexDrugsAndJesus/_saved/Email: DeVannon@SDJPodcast.com  DE'VANNON'S RECOMMENDATIONS:·      Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse & Codependency Support Groups (Virtual) - https://www.meetup.com/pittsburgh-narcissism-survivor-meetup-group/·      COSA – 12 Step Recovery For Victims Of Compulsive Sexual Behavior - https://cosa-recovery.org·      A Recommended Reading To Help Heal From Narcissism - https://amzn.to/41sg6FO·      Sex Addicts Anonymous: HTTPS://WWW.SAA.ORG ·      Pray Away Documentary (NETFLIX)o  https://www.netflix.com/title/81040370o  TRAILER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk_CqGVfxEs ·      OverviewBible (Jeffrey Kranz)o  https://overviewbible.como  https://www.youtube.com/c/OverviewBible ·      Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed (Documentary)o  https://press.discoveryplus.com/lifestyle/discovery-announces-key-participants-featured-in-upcoming-expose-of-the-hillsong-church-controversy-hillsong-a-megachurch-exposed/ ·      Leaving Hillsong Podcast With Tanya Levino  https://leavinghillsong.podbean.com  ·      Upwork: https://www.upwork.com·      FreeUp: https://freeup.net VETERAN'S SERVICE ORGANIZATIONS ·      Disabled American Veterans (DAV): https://www.dav.org·      American Legion: https://www.legion.org ·      What The World Needs Now (Dionne Warwick): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfHAs9cdTqg  INTERESTED IN PODCASTING OR BEING A GUEST?: ·      PodMatch is awesome! This application streamlines the process of finding guests for your show and also helps you find shows to be a guest on. The PodMatch Community is a part of this and that is where you can ask questions and get help from an entire network of people so that you save both money and time on your podcasting journey.https://podmatch.com/signup/devannon  TRANSCRIPT: [00:00:00]De'Vannon: You're listening to the sex drugs and Jesus podcast, where we discuss whatever the fuck we want to! And yes, we can put sex and drugs and Jesus all in the same bed and still be all right at the end of the day. My name is De'Vannon and I'll be interviewing guests from every corner of this world as we dig into topics that are too risqué for the morning show, as we strive to help you understand what's really going on in your life.There is nothing off the table and we've got a lot to talk about. So let's dive right into this episode.Have you had a near death experience? Have you felt that feeling where your life was either slipping away from you or you did actually slip away from this plane of existence and stepped into that white light? Saw your ancestors, spoke with angels. Well, if you have, you're not alone. My guest today, Nicole Kerr, has written a book called You Are Deathless, and in this book she details her experience being 19 years old, the cadet at the Air Force Academy in [00:01:00] Colorado, flying through the window of a convertible. Well, let's just say, I'll leaveall the gory details of what happened after that for you to listen to in this episode. She died, she came back to life, and now she's dedicated her life to helping other people live free of fear in this episode. We'll talk about everything from Angels to Louisiana State University to P T S D, to Veterans Affairs, drama, religious Trauma. You name it, we got it . So listen in, pay close attention and know that I love you.Hello everyone and welcome back to the Sex Drugs in Jesus podcast. I'm your host Devon, and it is so lovely to see you as always. My guest today, her name is Nicole krs. She's an author and she has a bunch of acronyms. She's gonna explain to us what they mean in a minute, but their mph, h and r d n and b t d t [00:02:00] and n d e and all of these beautiful things.And she's an award-winning health expert. She's also a disabled Air force veteran like I am. Thank you for your service girl, and thank you. She has appeared on C N N P B S C B S A B C P Y T, all the different networks, the food channel, and a host of other TV and radio shows. And we're gonna talk about second and third chances today in health and wellness.How are you, Nicole? Nicole: I'm doing great. I am just delighted, excited, and grateful to be on your podcast today. So thank you very much, De'Vannon: Amsterdam Lutely, thank you for setting aside an hour of your life. Time is one of the resources that we cannot create more of as you well know. And so I don't take for granted what you choose to do with a whole hour.This, this is very, very special to me, so I appreciate the fuck out Nicole: of it. Aw, thank you. Likewise. De'Vannon: [00:03:00] Okay, so are y'all, Nicole like we, like we were just saying, was in the Air Force. There was a bad car accident. She died, she came back and this is kind of what set her story into motion. And so we'll be talking a lot about that.Many of us have had near death experiences, as have I. And so we'll chat, chat, chat, chat, chat. But before we get into that, let's talk a little bit about your education. You, you were saying that you went to L S U. I'm here in Baton Rouge. I go over to Lssu all the time. I, you see it, I party up there, tailgate up there and everything.So tell me about LSU for you. Nicole: I. L s u That was a stop for me where I got my dietetics certification and my brother also graduated from there. And we lived in Jackson, Mississippi for a long time and then moved down to Baton Rouge with my dad and brother's company called Yasu, the big Will mowing machines.So [00:04:00] that was the family business. And so I lived down there for several years while I was getting my Like I said, my nutrition and diet dietetics degree because I had developed an eating do eating disorder binge eating. It was called compulsive eating back in 1980 something when I first got it.But I did not get any mental health after my traumatic experience. My parents told the doctor when they said, Nicole needs to see a psychologist that Jesus and God was my psychologist. And needless to say, shortly after that I developed an eating disorder because I didn't know what to do with the pain and I didn't even know it was pain.So that lasted almost 40 years until I got married at 40. And then I've, I've worked hard. I've been in therapy. You name it, I've done it. And It just, you know, Jesus never came down and sat across from me and tried to help me, you [00:05:00] know, either talk therapy or any of these other modalities. And that's just not true.And it was really a disservice to me to not get the mental health. I had to pursue that on my own. And it was, it was challenging. De'Vannon: They used to say and damn, I'm so sorry that that happened to you. They're. You know, you already have like this near death trauma, now you've got religious trauma being pumped upon you too.They used to tell us in church to not be so heavenly minded that you're not so earthly good.It look. Nicole: Yeah, yeah, yeah. But that's what you get, get when now my parents, I call 'em religious addicts, but I did my formative years in Jackson, Mississippi and then I'm a people recovering people pleaser and I was pleasing. My dad, he was in the military. He was one of the first classes to go through the Air Force Academy and at that time [00:06:00] they had opened it, just opened it up to women to come to go into the service academy.So I was the sixth class of women. He was so proud of me that I got in. I was shocked that I did cuz I absolutely had no interest in the military. All of my background in high school and junior high was. Modeling junior achievement team boards nothing related to flying planes or going into this space program.So clearly I did it just for him. And let me tell you, that was the wrong reason. Cuz as soon as they dropped me off and closed the door and I went through that, bring me men wrap. My life changed and all of a sudden fear was the emotion and terror that dominated me. And my emotional state for at least the next year and a half until my crash happened.Because I was in constant fear that I was gonna fail, that I wasn't keeping [00:07:00] up. I was keeping my squadron, I was holding them back because I would fall outta runs. They sent me to remedial training. You know, I just didn't have that killer instinct. And I understand the reason we have a military, you know, to protect and defend, but every soul that goes into the military, in my opinion, is going to be fractured at some level.Because when you experience the theater or war and people being killed, or you know, You suffering parts of your soul fracture in order to preserve yourself. And so that's why we have so many injuries mentally, I think, and so many suicides with veterans especially, is because of that soul piece that just can't reconcile what they have seen and what they have done.So I knew in basic training that this was not for me, but I didn't know how to [00:08:00] quit. I didn't know how to say no to my father. Feel like a failure. The shame, the judgment, the condemnation. Cuz it takes a hell of a lot of work to get into academy. You gotta get a congressional rep nomination. You gotta pass all these tests.You, you know. And and I did it. And then I got there and I, I, three weeks into bootcamp, they gave us one phone call, three minutes. And I heard my mother pick up and she said, hello, and I hyperventilated and cried for three minutes. Then the commander comes in there and says, that's the end of your phone call.Go sit over there and get yourself together ke. And I was just like, I needed my parents to tell me I had permission to quit if I was, if this was not the place for me, I needed. To get out and I couldn't do it. And my mother turned to my father later and told me, what have we done to her? And he's like, ah, she'll be fine.And I [00:09:00] wasn't fine. I went from there to remedial, which is one-on-one, which is even worse, you know, because you're separated from your, your squadron. So it was that was the first panic attack I had. I didn't realize it until later, but I clearly lived with that level of fear and panic and pending doom dread.And it starts to just operate your system after a while. And it was really, I, I don't know. I, I don't know how I made it the first year, and then I knew the second year it was only gonna get tougher. And then that's when the crash happened. And I was getting a ride back with a fellow cadet who was a senior, didn't know him, but my dad had three rules, don't smoke, don't drink, and don't date upper cadets.Now I'm in a school with 4,000 guys. I'm now a sophomore. I actually can date you can't as a freshman, but I have never been on a date in my life. My dad did not. He was very conservative. He did not think dating [00:10:00] would do any good for me or spending the night with others. That was one of his commandments.There's the 10 commandments and there's my dad's 10 commandments. And spending the night with others was number one on, you do not do this. And even in church you don't sit with your friends, you have to sit with mom and dad. You can't fall asleep even though my dad fell asleep, you can't fall asleep.You know, it was, there was just a lot of rules. And having a Southern Baptist upbringing on my father's side and a Lutheran bringing on my mother's side living in the Bible belt, which is, as you know, the foundation of that area. I just got a lot of. Church thrown at me. And it was contradictory because the Lutherans were saying, this is the way to God.And the Baptists were saying this way. And, you know, it was just, I'm sure God was [00:11:00]confused, you know, about what, what he supposedly said. But that's when my car crash happened. And I know at a sole level that that is what got me out of the academy saving face because you, you know I couldn't go back. I, my injuries were so severe.I was in the hospital for four months, seven weeks in I c u two code Blues. And then 19 years later, I remembered my near death accident. I was working at the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention and went to Starbucks, got my coffee, and boom, the memory of how I was sitting in the Corvette convertible came back and And then the rest of the memory came back.So people said, well, why did it take 19 years? And I'm like, the only thing I can say to that is when your body feels safe enough, repressed memories as what they're known as will come up. [00:12:00]And that's what happened. And I got the complete story. And so I've been able now, 40 years later to finally publish my book.It's called You Are Deathless. And a near death experience taught me how to fully live and not fear death. It's taken me that long to first of all 20 years, had no memory, just the white lights. And then the next 20 was aligning myself and my search for body, soul, spirit, and mind to all come together.And it's been a journey, a healing journey, and it's not linear. A plus B does not equal C and the healing journey. That was a lot I just gave you.De'Vannon: Well, you know what, it sounded like you needed to get that out. I just, I'm happy to, to allow you to Nicole: do that. Plus southern girls, we can talk. De'Vannon: So, so take, [00:13:00] take me back though. Tell me what the, the MPH, H C R D and the B T D T stand Nicole: for. Okay. Master's in Public Health and, and I had an emphasis in nutrition and then R D N is registered dietician nutrition.So I've worked in hospitals. I was an oncology dietician, a wellness director B T D T I invented that or took it from somebody else, actually. Been there, done that. And that actually is my proudest letters of the alphabet after my name. Because experience trump's theory in any any day for me because it allows a person to have compassion sympathy and empathy.De'Vannon: Right. Ab a Absolutely. Absolutely. Absolutely. And that's why I say I wish this, this country in a, i I, I do not feel like the United States is the greatest country on the world, you know, in the world or nothing like that due to, due to the lack of like, character, you know, and, and the [00:14:00] lack of love that prevails here.And I don't care how much money, how rich it's supposed to be like this, this is a deplorable country and I, I really wish that people had to go to the military and or had to wait tables or had to be a janitor or had to do something like that for like some amount of time. And there are countries that have those requirements because then more people, then everyone would have some version of been there, done that as opposed to standing over here and judging from a distance.Yes. So so, so the title of her book y'all is called You Are Deathless. And and it, and it. You know, talks about, like a lot of, you know, what she's talking about right now, her website. I just wanna tell everyone, you know, it's nicole kerr.com that we'll be going in the show notes that she has a great blog on there and all kinds of information and everything like that too.So take me back to this car accident. You said you're in a a [00:15:00] convertible Corvette. Yeah. Nicole: I don't know if you can see it. De'Vannon: Okay. Yeah, I can see it. Okay. Nicole: That's August 8th 19. That's afterwards. De'Vannon: Okay. So, so, so after they untangled you, so y you just showed a picture of the Corvette for those of you who are not watching on YouTube, and it's basically, it's like somebody like Godzilla took this car, picked it up, twisted it around, and then like tried to.Fold it together, so, yeah. Yeah. So it almost looks like, almost looks like a square, like a, like a block rather than a, a motor vehicle. And so they were able to, to open up that can, I guess they, they had to have gotten the jaws of life or something out for that. So we Nicole: actually flew out of it cuz it was a convertible and we didn't have seat.The, the car didn't even have seat belts back then. And so when he hit the side of a boulder, okay, I was getting a ride back with a senior cadet, didn't know him. We had [00:16:00] been in an Air force function. They had provided beer to underage cadets and they broke their own rules. The officers left before the cadets and I was one of the, I was the last to leave.And so I asked him for a ride back and he said, sure. He had his own agenda. He wanted to go to another bar. He wanted to watch the sunset at the Rocky Mountains i e make out. And I started getting really nervous cuz we had curfew 7 35. We had to be back at the academy. And I didn't wanna get in trouble this year because last year I was, I.Innocently doing favors for people and I would get in trouble. So I marched tours, I served demerits, I served confinements, I did it all. And I was like, I am not doing that this year. So I was really worried about the time element. And he tried to make a sexual pass at me. My memory later revealed and I said no.And he got really angry at me and jerked the steering wheel. The car fishtailed out, and this is at Black Forest [00:17:00] park in Monument, which is just outside the academy. He hit a huge boulder, moved the boulder, the car flipped. We were both thrown out. I was thrown into a ditch. Some bystanders were, were close by, they called 9 1 1.They came out to look at me and they couldn't get any signs of life. So they got a blanket and they covered me up. And then when the Tri Lake Fire Department, and you can kind of see. That was the front page of the newspaper. So they're working on me. And you can see the car landed on its top. Mm-hmm.Okay. So I was gone when I flew out from the windshield, that's when I called it Casper the ghost in the book. But I was just revealed in my meditation in August and the [00:18:00] book was published in August that it was my grandfather that came in the form of an angel and lifted me took me up and so I never hit the ground.I knew when I hit the ground I was gonna die. I knew it, but I went up instead in his arms, and we went to this space. It wasn't really a place, it was just a space. And that's when I, I was not in bodily form. I could see my body on the ground, I could see it in the ditch. It was just a corpse, a mangled corpse.And so this spirit, my grandfather, now I, I, we went to this space and I could hear other voices, other angels, other spirit guides. They weren't speaking English. I don't know what they were. I don't know how I heard them and understood them, but I did telepathy, whatever, but I could hear and communicate.And [00:19:00] so there were two angels next to me and they were saying, you meaning humans need to ask the angelic realm for help. That was the first message, is they're not gonna interfere in our lives unless we ask for help because of free will. We have choices. So that is one of the first messages is start connecting with your angelic realm.We all have at least one guardian angel that's assigned to us. Some of us have more, but start the relationship with your angels or any angels. And people say to me well that's kinda like when you ask the angels to help you for a parking space. I said, it works. It absolutely works because it's not about how big or small something is, it's about the relationship that you can count on them and you can trust them.And it may not look like what you want, but [00:20:00] they will send you signs. You just have to be open-minded. Then the second message that I wanna make sure people hear that I received was to tell people not to be afraid of death. And I was like, whoa, that's a big one. That's a real big one. And I, and so at that moment I knew I was gonna go back in that body and I didn't want to, I was like, no, I do, I, I wanna stay up here because up there death was, or, or that transformation of myself was absolute beauty light, the white light that I had seen.It wasn't the operating or theater room lights. It was, it was the light that almost every near death experience or ex, you know, has Raymond Moody who coined the term near death [00:21:00]experience, that is the single most. Common element that people report is seeing this bright white light, and it's clear, it's not blinding and it's just comforting.It's like you're cocooned in it and it's just so peaceful and beautiful. And the colors on the other side are just magical beyond the, what is it now? 125 cray color box? Is that what we're up to? So, you know, why would you wanna come back from that? There's no negativity at all. So it's, you know, in our.World. I think, you know, every book that's almost written around the subject of death is cloaked with this veil of doom and gloom and death has a cloud of depression and negativity around it. Throughout our culture and society and my own [00:22:00] experience, and I hope yours and others, hundreds of thousands of people because they have enough to have actually studied this and put a report together to list the 10 common lessons of NDEs.And they're, every single one of 'em is positive. And the first one is we do not die. Hence the title of my book. You are deathless. Yes, your physical, your physical body is gonna die decompose. But when you die, your energy body splits open and your soul leaves you and goes home. And we have many.Incarnations of our soul. This isn't our only rodeo. So that was the mission, and it's taken me, I found that out. Okay, think about this. 19 years, I had a gap in my memory. And then boom, it all comes together. And then I have to figure out, okay, what does [00:23:00] does that mean? Because when I died at 19, I was fearful of death.I had the concept of God from my southern. Baptist upbringing and Lutheran, where the teaching was, if you were a bad person that God was duality on one side, God loved you, he would protect you. He was you know, loving, kind. But if you broke the rules, if you were a bad person, if you were a sinner, you would go to a place called Hell where the wrath of God would come and you would burn eternally.Now, as a six-year-old growing up, that scares the wey outta you. So you live your entire life in fear of doing something bad. And I call that concept a vending machine concept of God, and it's not correct. It's a false belief that is not who or what God is. [00:24:00] Yes, take the first part of it, the positive. But that whole second part was invented by man to keep people in fear, which would keep you in control De'Vannon: on the on the aspects of angels.And I think it's, I think it's a beautiful experience that you had. I just wanted to like, like to, to remind people that, you know, when you're speaking you know, two angels and, you know, different things like that, you know, d don't forget to ask them, you know, like how they're doing, you know, cause they're not.And Nicole: thank them. Please thank them after they give you what you De'Vannon: need. They're not, they're not, they're not, they're not God. And you know, they get That's right. They can get run down too. You know, we, we see this illustrated in the book of Daniel in the Bible when Gabriel is coming to the deliver Daniel, his message when he was fasting for those [00:25:00] three weeks for the Nation of Israel.And, and Gabriel is telling Daniel that he was delayed because, you know an op an op, an opposition withstood him until the arch angel Michael came to help him. And so, so th so this, this illustration lets us know that angels have limitations if they have to eat Mannas, because eventually they get run down and they have to be regenerated.So for me, it's not all about accessing the spiritual realm to, to, to get shit from them. You know? So I think that, I think, I think it's important to, to speak. Whenever you're speaking about more than just acquisition than what you can get from them. And so just be like mindful of that people. Nicole: Yeah.And angels come in many forms. You know, they're earth angels and I talk about that. And my book, they're is a chapter called Calling All Angels because I know that the e m t [00:26:00] that brought me back to life was one of my angels. He was they had me covered up, okay. He gets there, he's the first one on the scene, 10 to 13 minutes later, so I'm clinically dead for that long.They had me, you know, under the, he takes the blanket off, he can't get any sign of life. So he does something called a sternal knuckle rub. Have you ever heard of that? It's where they, they go up your, your sternum and it's designed to elicit pain. It's a pain response that the medical team uses. And boy, if there's any sign of life in you that would respond to pain, it's that.So the only sign of life you got was my right eye flickered and my pupil dilated. Now, what do we say about eyes and our souls? De'Vannon: Eyes are the window to the soul. Nicole: Yes. At that moment, my soul came back in through my eye. [00:27:00] I was dead before they couldn't get anything. Okay? So my soul, it left when I was up in the air.Okay? My body split open two out. It went, it comes back when he's doing that and, and, and I often wonder, You know, why did you bring me back? You know? And cuz it's been painful and it's been a hard journey. But that is when the soul came back into my body and at that point he was able to get a blood pressure reading on me of 60 zero.Now that's pretty much dead anyway, but at least he could get that. And they got me these mask pants on. They'd just gotten 'em on the bus That forces all your blood up to your heart. I had had multiple injuries. I cut off my left foot, I severed my right wrist. My pelvis was broken on both sides. Had a rash from skidding on the, the payment of grow burn that went three levels deep, a [00:28:00]laceration between my anal and feature because I remembered sitting in the car.And my leg is on the dashboard and my other leg processes it. Do you remember sitting like that in a convertible? Put your leg on the dashboard De'Vannon: sounds so, so, so California, Nicole: don't ever do that. If you're in an accident, that's the absolute worst way to get injuries. So I cut up my, I had a, a hole between my anal and sphincter muscle and then a huge hole like this cut out of my left thigh.So I had damage to my nerves. Lost the feeling in that whole sexual area. So it was cuz I went butt up through the windshield and so that cut my foot and that injured that area. So, It was just about getting me stabilized that night, and the doctor on call was a maverick. She was the first woman [00:29:00]surgeon in Colorado Springs.She was the first woman to go to medical school at Jefferson College. Let me tell you. She said multiple times, this is not in my hands anymore, you know, whether Nicole makes it. And I just kept coming back to life. You know, I had a surgery code blue, they had to cut me up from here to here and. My parents were in the chapel praying and the surgical nurse went in there and said, we've lost Nicole.I'm so sorry. And so my dad's like, well, we need to figure out where to barrier. And mom's like, I don't believe it. And then two minutes later another surgical nurse runs in and said her heart just started again. And and there was another incident where I had another near death experience and I have an angel that named James that is, that protects me.And I know that sounds weird, but I call him my military angel, but he is here to make sure I [00:30:00] get this message out because. There is no need to fear death. And there's so many of us that have been conditioned or brought up with belief systems where we scare, we're scared of death. And here's the deal.It's gonna happen at every one of us, and it could happen at any age. And that's the other thing is we need to start learning to prepare ourselves not only physically with wills and all that other stuff, but E, but emotionally and spiritually. And understanding that your beliefs about God, whatever that concept of God is, shapes your relationship with death.Because if you believed, like I did when I died, I disobeyed my father, and that's what he told me later when he came to the hospital. I. You had two beers, you smoked one cigarette. And this is [00:31:00]the first time I've done this in my life. At 19, I'm finally gonna have fun. Okay. And you were with a cadet and you kissed him, he kissed you.So in his eyes, I broke his rules and I deserved to quote what I got. So I disappointed God as well. And I have spent you not believe how much therapy I've had to try to let go of that being blamed. And it fractured my relationship with my parents and with my siblings because I felt so guilty about that.And I've been trying to make it up all these years. And then in the epilogue, you're not gonna believe this, but there were four roommates, four women that went in in my class at the same time in my squadron and my roommate. She dropped out. She quit that December of my accident. Okay? [00:32:00] So I had not talked to her in 38 years.I found her on Facebook. We, four girls got together this past May. The book was already at the editors ready to be published. And we all never knew what happened to her. She just never came back. After spring, after Christmas break, she said, Nicole, I'm so sorry. She said I caused the crash. I said, what? No you didn't.The guy did. He was drunk and he is making a pass at me. And you know, he crashed. And by the way, he survived. He even got to graduate cuz his dad wore three stars. But that's a whole nother story cuz rank has its privilege as we know. And she said, you had asked me for a ride back to the academy before the event even started.And I said, yes, we'll go back together. And then when it was over, There was another cadet who was drunk and he wanted me to drive his car back for him. And I really liked him and I wanted to be alone with [00:33:00] him. So when you got ready to get in the car, I told you no I really don't want you in the car.There's one other guy left over there, why don't you go get a ride back with him? And I said, but that guy's been drinking. And she said, oh, it doesn't matter. They've all been drinking. She said, it'll be fine. Just go have some fun, you know, and I'll see you back at the academy. And she never did. So she lived with 38 years of guilt and it still haunts her and she quit because she couldn't bear the thought that if she would've just given me a ride back, both of our lives would've been totally different.So you never know. And I never knew that. My memory part never came back of that conversation. And I said to her, why didn't you ever tell me before? And she goes, well, I just thought you knew. And you are angry at me. So it's so important to communicate trauma and your version of [00:34:00]something and someone else's version of something, because sometimes we just think somebody knows something, but we don't check it out with 'em, and then we go around believing something and it, it just devastates our life.You know, there, De'Vannon: there's so much loss in this life because of things left unsaid, be it in romantic relationships, business relationships. I agree with Nicole. Y'all open your fucking mouth and tell people what the hell you think, know and feel. Rather than assuming they should know or assuming they will know, magically know.Just make it simple. And just say it, even if you think you're stating the obvious, you know, sometimes you need to say the quiet part out loud because you know so much just to be sure everyone's on the same page. Yeah. You know it's, it's not cool to think that, you know, like in my, in my previous relationship that I, [00:35:00] that I just had to end.That, that was one of the things that, that my ex would never, you know, give me, I said, don't, don't ever have one version of reality operating within your head. And you know that I don't know that. Cuz then we're on divergent paths and I'm thinking that we're on the same page and really we're not. And you know, and the only way that that could have ever happened is if he would've opened his mouth and told me what he was feeling and thinking, which he never was able to do that.And so be it friendships or whatever the case may be, just fucking say what's going on rather than letting those negative thoughts come in and, and control you. You could disband that with clarity in communication. Nicole: Yes, and please do it before they die.Don't do it on their deathbed, you know, say the things you need to say now. And I, you know, and, and, and then I went and told my father, you know, dad, you know, I knew the guy was drunk and I, I just, you know, and I had [00:36:00] arranged a, a, a ride back and I was trying to defend myself to my father with this. And he says he still made a bad decision and you should have walked back to the academy.And then, That's when I just went, I haven't talked to my dad since, and I won't, I'm done with him. So, you know, and I was trying to be done with him before, but when he, he's never forgiven me. He's never said he is sorry. He is a narcissist. He is in that military mode my way or the highway. That's how we were raised.I know what's best for you. And he didn't, he never got to understand who I am. And when I published this book, he has not read it. And he just said, you better get God writer. You're really gonna get it. So there's just more fear and I'm just like, you know, my experience with God is God is love. Period, end of sentence, and love is all that matters and is the source of all that exists.And when you think about [00:37:00] source that is God and is there anywhere that God does not exist?De'Vannon: He is no ever president. He is everywhere. And video1562552333: in Nicole: my per, he's not external either. He's not, he's not out there to be looked for. He's within all of us. We are all eternal sparks of God. De'Vannon: Mm-hmm. What I, what I you know, you know, Jesus describes the death. Like he, you know, in the Bible he told us to to, to basically mourn when somebody is born in a rejoice when they die.Because Yeah. When when you They're Nicole: going back home. Yeah. When you, and they're not gonna remember any of this negative stuff. You know? It's like when I got over to the, to the other side God was all around me. God was in me. God, I, you know, I was God. God was present and fullness and oneness. And [00:38:00] most of all, God was love, pure, non-judgmental love.And in that state it was not that I suddenly had been forgiven for my mistakes, is that they no longer existed. Nothing I had done on Earth was being weighed or measured. It was simply the way my story had played out in one realm.So that's another lesson coming from the NDEs is part of the 10 of 'em is we are not judged. And I think one of the worst things we do to ourselves present day is we judge our thoughts, we judge our emotions, we judge our each other. And if we can just get rid of the judgment. That would be De'Vannon: huge, right?God is the God of mercy in, in the, you know, and you know, he [00:39:00] said, judge, not, you know, it's really just that simple. But, you know, we learn all of that judgment from broken people who have positions of authority over our lives, you know, and things like that in society. But that, you know, from the beginning it was not so.You know even the, I think video1562552333: that, Nicole: I think, yeah, I think that's one of the biggest issues I have with religion is the hypocrisy that goes on, especially with things like Jesus's words. I mean, when people say, who would you like to have dinner with? I said, Jesus, I would like to ask him what he thinks of how people have interpreted what he has, quote said or not said based on the Bible.Bless you. And one of the things is the judgment judge, not less G B B judged, you know, and they're judging. You because you're, you're gay because you're whatever the condition is. There's just [00:40:00] still so much judgment and, and it's causing so much fractionation and just anger and hatred and, and it, and it's just like, wow.That is not at all what Jesus meant by that. You know, it's, it's quit judging others and don't judge yourself because that just lowers your esteem and lowers your own vibration. Mm-hmm. De'Vannon: Right. Now, I'm curious some of the other, the common themes of near death experiences besides the white light. You, you said they had, they had done research to find some commonalities.What are some of the other commonalities? Okay. Nicole: We are never alone. That's a big one because people believe like when the with the pandemic, a lot of people were dying alone, but we are never alone. The spiritual realm is always around us and when we die, Angels, deceased, loved ones. Even our deceased [00:41:00] pets, they meet us.And so we, that's why you see people, like, they'll start grabbing at things as they're dying. You know, they'll, they'll, and you're going, what are they grabbing at? But it's like they're having a window into the other realm, across the ba. So they keep switching from that, that perspective to back here on earth, that perspective.And then they finally transition. But we are never alone. We always have a spiritual angel guy, somebody with us. And I think that's more from the human part of us that wants to be there for someone, for us to feel better about ourselves, that we were there. But I know, and I talk about this in the book, a lot of people choose to die when nobody is around.My brother-in-law died from a l s at 51. House full of people. He waited till everyone was out of his room [00:42:00] at some point in the night and passed. He did not want anybody else around him, you know, and I know other people's same situations. They had, had people monitoring, and when someone goes and gets a cup of coffee, the person, you know makes their transition.So I think that is up to the person. And you don't, you know, your, in my opinion, your job is to hold the space for that person as they as they go through this. And I know the human form with death because we are human. There's still suffering, there's still grief, pain, loss, and we have to carefully and compassionately hold and heal that with people.But the cosmic context is benevolent and extraordinary of a what awaits us. And if [00:43:00] we know that true context, it's gonna enable us to live a happier life and prepare for our own graceful passing, you know, not to be resistant and to support others as they approach their own transition. I know that was a lot.De'Vannon: Well Nicole: for me, so that's another one. We're not, we're never alone. We are not judged. Everyone and everything is connected.Okay? We are all energy. When we leave this body that breath. Think about it. When you see somebody at a funeral, they're laid out. The cosmetologist has worked on 'em. They don't, in my opinion, I don't know about you. They just don't look like they did. [00:44:00] They can never get their hair right or their makeup. It just doesn't look like them.Right? And that's because the light, that beautiful light of the energy has been lifted out of them. And that's that breath. The breath. If you see it on a cold day, you see your breath, it vaporizes, its energy transforms. And so we are all connected and we need to start paying attention to the energy and start thinking about, your energy affects me, mine affects, you know, we're all in this, this together.And it doesn't matter the differences because when we. Transition. We go into that, that, that form of soul, which is energy. It's not a human body.[00:45:00]De'Vannon: I, I want you to talk about like your road to rehabilitation. So you let's take it back like physically now, did you have to do like a lot of physical therapy? Were there multiple surgeries? Like when were you able to like, come out of the hospital and go home? Like, and then after that, did you have continued.Rehabilitation. How did it work physically to get you back to, to good? I Nicole: was in i c u now they took me to the closest hospital, which was a community hospital, and they were not prepared for trauma at that hospital, so they had to bring in, I was too critical to move. So they had to bring in ano another nurse.I had to have two nurses on me at all times. I was so critical. They had to bring in nine different specialists. Okay. So they had to bring in an infectious d disease specialist from Denver, because I had three infections set in from all the fiberglass, the feces, the, the, all that stuff that [00:46:00] mixes up in you.I got gang green and sepsis in my right leg. I almost, I was on the verge of amputation of that, and I didn't know it until after it passed. So I was hooked up at one point to 10 different IVs. Okay. And. They had to do what they call a subclavian to put it in there because you run out of veins after a while.So the doctor described to my mother, she is very, very, very three very sick. Okay. And every day it was, I don't know if she's gonna be alive or if she's gonna die today. That's how serious it was. I had to have a colostomy. I don't know if many people know what that is, but that's where they, they cut your where your bowels are and they pull out part of your bowel and they resection that so that you can go to the bathroom.And so here I am at 19 and I wake up from a surgery with my [00:47:00] intestine in a bag, part of it, and going, I've never had sex with anybody. I, I, no one's gonna wanna have sex with me, you know, when they see that back, cuz I couldn't stand it. And so one was an emergency operation from all the infections and they I coded on the way to the operating room.So they couldn't give me the amount of anesthesia that they needed to put, put me out because they would've lost me again. So I went in, like on a muscle relaxer and of Tata anesthesia, and I could feel them, I could hear them talking, I could feel them pulling my stomach. But I couldn't move, I couldn't say anything.And it was awful. It was awful to, to, to feel all this and to hear all this and not be able to do anything. You know, you're just immobile. I had to have my foot sewn [00:48:00] back on, so I had to have. Two skin grafts done. They took it off my thigh and one was the inside of my right thigh that they had to, to plug up with this huge hole.And then the other skin graft went directly onto the tendon on my foot to keep it together. It had a 5% chance of taking, and it did. And the doctor, it's written up in the Denver Medical Journal because it was just unbelievable that it would graft without having to granulate and just. Here, right on the tendon.Now, today, I still have issues. I have to wear those lovely compression socking, but I got my foot. I'm so grateful. I still have my foot. But you know, I have bowel issues from it, from the colostomy. They did reverse the colostomy, but it was, you know, I, I just, and then migraines and the va finally, finally, after 38 years, gave me a hundred percent, I call it [00:49:00] compensation.I don't call it disability, I call it compensation rating. And it took me that many times. I was on my third appeal and the VA rep from North Carolina just moved here. And he said, Nicole, it says, clear in your notes a patient thought initially dead on arrival. That means you had a head injury. Okay. So I don't know how they have missed that all these years.And we filed it with just that phrase. And next thing I know, the money showed up at the bank and I was granted, you know, permanent disability. And I'm just like, I, I think it's just a persistence challenge with the VA and the right wording, because that was my last attempt. They only give you three, but I am finally in that and can get compensated in that, that realm.So I don't have to work because I worked for a long time and I have P T S D and that was only diagnosed two years [00:50:00] ago. So I'd been trying to push myself through things that were so stressful, making the p t s worse. And that has been a huge issue with me is trying to regulate my nervous system and get that on board to be more in a parasympathetic sympathetic state.De'Vannon: You know, hearing all of what you've been through and everything like that, you know, perspective is everything, you know, and the thing that I was, and I, when I got H I v I was freaking out about what might happen. You know, there are for worse things that can happen and I'm not downplaying, you know, the seriousness of H I V and the, you know, hepatitis B, which I also have a history of, you know, but, you know, I feel like accidents like yours are, you know, are worse.You know, cancers, hell Covid can kill you in two weeks, you know? Yeah. You know. I'm, I'm thankful that I'm at a point where I have a good attitude about the diseases that I've had to struggle with, [00:51:00] because now I see how bad it really could have been. You know, those diseases never actually did anything to me.It was just my perception and fear of, of death that that really caused me to do self-harm to myself. And so I'm saying all that to say, people watch your perspective because you might actually hurt, you hurt yourself when you didn't have to be hurt. And for other veterans out there trying to fight and battle and box with the VA for your disability, like the woman said, you gotta keep going.It took a, it took time, but I got my, you know, my, my full rating too, that the, the VA is a breeding ground for the most wicked people who have. Never been veterans. And they come and they sit in there and they try to block us from getting our benefits. And it's even worse when you have someone who was a veteran working at the VA doing the same sort of treachery.So you do have to fight and sometimes you need to get like the D A V or the American Legion or an advocate to represent you. And [00:52:00] what I had to do, I live in Louisiana, but the New Orleans VA is so damn corrupt. People here go to other states. I had to go over to the Houston va, now I talk to the Los Angeles, you know, va I, I mean d a v I went to, I went to the Houston Vav and the Los, and I talked to the Los Angeles, d a v.Any d a center can represent you cuz they're all one big organization. It doesn't matter what state you live in. And so if the VA in your town is fucking up and they're full of assholes, go over to another state, you know, and, and the DAV can help you that all out. Nicole: Yeah. Yeah. I remember I had sent in, I had gone to see, Three new doctors that all documented migraines had injury, because back then in the eighties, they didn't have T b i traumatic brain injury that was not, you know, a known condition that people, you know, doctors were putting down.And when the it came back rejected, not enough evidence. And I was like, did they even read that? [00:53:00] And when I called up there, they admitted that they hadn't read it. There are so many claims coming through. And so that's when I got the advocate here in North Carolina to help me. And he said, we're gonna do this and let's see what happens because you deserve it.And I just wanted the validation that they now have a connection between P T S D and migraines that is clearly established. And if you have P T S D and you have migraines, then you should be getting compensated for both.But anyway, so yeah, I totally agree with you on that. But I had to go through rehab. I had to learn to walk again. I started in a swimming pool. I went home in December. It was a big to-do. They met me at the airport. I had a kidney infection. I didn't want anybody to touch me cause I was so in pain. But, you know, it was a slow slog.And physically, and I will tell [00:54:00] you, it's it's challenging When it happens, you get so much attention and then as you get better, people just fall off. And it's very lonely, you know, because you're still having to pursue the rehab and your friends are in college, they're having a good time, their lives go on, and you just feel like you've been, you know, gypped that and especially when you don't have a memory of what happened, you know, and, and then you're just expected to get on with life.At least that was the expectation In my family, you look physically like you can do things again. So forget about your mind or your spirit. And I think there's something, there's spiritual abuse that goes on, and there's spiritual amnesia and spiritual amnesia is what we all get when we get all these filters put on us as we start growing up.And. [00:55:00] I love it. In my book, I talk about, I did neuro emotional technique for seven years with people including children. And I was with a little girl who was six years old who was coming from a evangelical background who was scared she was going to hell cuz she did something bad. Now she's adopted so that's even worse.So I asked her how she sees God and she eagerly told me God is a blue spirit with colors and balloons in all different colors, no head and can talk. And clearly this little girl is having a direct experience with God, with no filters. And to me, of all the definitions I've heard, I resonate with that the best.You know, there's nowhere where there's energy of God is not. And it just talks to you in a way that you talk to it, it's your own. Relationship, you have to connect to it. It's [00:56:00] a direct experience you have to come into. And I love all the colors because that's what I saw on the other side was the colors.You know, it was just amazing. And she saw 'em as balloons, you know, and it just I was just like amazed. And of course, her parents were like, when I told her there was no hell she looked at her mom, she goes, mom, is that true? There's no, there's no hell with fire in the devil down there. She goes, we'll talk about that later.And I never heard back from her, but, you know, I like to take that. Quote, because children are so innocent and they haven't been subjected to all these indoctrinations and theories and you know, everybody is going to have a different concept of God. But know that from my experience and hundreds of thousands of others, that God is love and we will see our loved ones when we return home.[00:57:00]And you know, I think loving ourselves and others is the most important thing we can do because when you truly love yourself, and I mean love. Unconditional love. All your mistakes, your messes, everything. When you understand that love does not have love is not only a verb and a noun and an emotion, but it's an energy.And when you're around people who have that love energy, you can just feel it, you know? I don't know if that's the way you felt when I was reading your the, the end of your book and your epilogue with the pastor that passed away that was real influential. Sorry, I forgot her name. Evangel Nelson.Yes. If she was like that for you, where she just lit up. You could see the light in her eyes, you could feel it, you know, she was, [00:58:00] and that to me is love. And that they accept you for just for your beingness. And that's what we all need to unwrap ourselves from all these layers and get to that part of us, the being that we were born to be, which is our soul, which is just love and light and beauty and grace, and all these beautiful things.De'Vannon: Let there be light, let there be light. Let there be so much light. Yeah. Nicole: And that's, we we're light workers. That's what you have a light above your head this whole time. And I'm just sitting there. It's like you have a little, little halo kind of, and we are, you know, we are, this is my vocation now. You know, I've had occupations, but my vocation is to help people to try to understand it's time to awaken, to stay, to get out of this unconscious, keep repeating generational things.Start understanding your relationship [00:59:00] with what you call, or whatever the concept of God is, and how does that work in your life, you know, instead of waiting for something terrible to happen and then you start thinking and delving into this. De'Vannon: That is so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so beautiful. And I thank you so much for sharing all that you have.So tell us any, like, last words that you have and And and then I'll go ahead and give everybody your website and everyth. Well, Nicole: first of all, I have to say I love your beard being purple because that purple is royalty and purple is spirituality. Okay? So it's a high vibration which you emanate so that, you know, hopefully our goal is to move our brave vibration upwards, you know?But you know, I guess my main message, you know, it was what Spirit said is not be afraid of death, because if you are, [01:00:00] you're not gonna truly live your life and. This world is so beautiful and I wrote this book because I wanna help other people with their fears about death and to support you through the loss of loved ones.And I hope my book will inspire you to live fully and freely with your heart and your hands wide open. You know? And that's, that was my intention. And it's on Amazon, it's on Barnes and Nobles. You can get it through independent books. It's only what I told somebody the other day, we have these little fairs that come through and one came through Newburn and they were selling those funnel cakes and they were $10.And I said, oh my God, my book is cheaper than the funnel cake. I was like, At 9 99, I was just like, all that work, 13 years to get this book outta me. And a funnel cake, which you eat in what? Five minutes? It was more than that. So it's coming out on Audible [01:01:00] probably in the next month. I just finished my last recording of that the rerecord yesterday.And people, that is not as easy as you think to read your own book. I don't know if you've done that yet with your book. Yeah, I have, but De'Vannon: it is hard. Oh yeah. It, it's because it's like you have to relive everything all over again. Yes. Every time you go through and you don't just read through, you may have to reread each chapter, each section many times to get it right.So you need therapy after you back and read your own book. Nicole: Yeah. And then you hear yourself telling your story, and that's like a, that's a wow. So it was really it was a good thing to go through, but it was a healing, it was another layer in the healing process. And I just want people to know that too, is that healing takes time.Get help if you're stuck. There's lots of resources out there. And to truly, truly come home to who you really are as a soul. [01:02:00]De'Vannon: Alanis Mariette said it like this, let's not equate death with stopping. Nicole: Oh gosh, no, it's, it's just, you're going on. It's like John Lennon said, you just get outta one car and go into the next.De'Vannon: Right, so, so her name is Nicole Kerr. The book is called You Are Deathless. I'll put a link to Amazon and the show notes. The website is nicole kerr.com. That will go in the show notes. She's on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, and all of that will go in the showy notes. Is everything. Always does. Thank you so very much for sharing and shining your light upon us and with us today, Nicole and everyone.Just remember that everything is gonna be all right. Nicole: Thank you so much, Devon, and I really appreciate it. You've been a joy to talk to.De'Vannon: Thank you all so much for taking time to listen to the Sex Drugs in Jesus podcast. It really [01:03:00] means everything to me. Look, if you love the show, you can find more information and resources at Sex Drugs in jesus.com or wherever you listen to your podcast. Feel free to reach out to me directly at Davanon Sex Drugs and jesus.com and on Twitter and Facebook as well.My name is Davanon, and it's been wonderful being your host today. And just remember that everything is gonna be all right. 

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In ad rotation, there are two different options. There's the default called optimized for performance. And then there's one called rotate ads evenly. I want to love rotate evenly because we're always testing. But it is rarely the best option to use and we'll cover why. First off in the news, Shae on our team brought to my attention a new rollout called comparison metrics. And I've noticed this in many of my accounts, since what it is, is when you choose your time range, you can choose the comparison range as well. So if you're looking at the last week, it'll automatically show you the changes from the previous week, along with percent changes next to each metric. So in the screenshot that Shae took for us, I can see that spend was up 37%, and visits were up 23.9% and costs were up 18%. So in this screenshot that Shae gave us, I can see that in the past seven days for this client, our spend is down 37% visits are only down 23%, which shows cost savings. Cost per click was down 18% and number of impressions were only down 11 and a half percent. It's hardly what I would call a game changer, but this kind of data can be really helpful just for understanding what's my performance doing over time. And being able to see that right within the platform. I applaud LinkedIn for coming out with changes like this. I wanted to highlight a couple reviews. We have DenisefromCumbria, and Denise I'm sorry, I can't figure out who you are on LinkedIn, just searching for Denise and Cumbria. But she said, "At last LinkedIn ads takes the floor. AJ is an expert in the space and then sharing some detailed information here. Episode One is packed with detail". Denise, thank you so much. I sincerely try to pack every episode with detail. So I do hope you're still a listener, we'd love to give you a shout out there. And if I can find out who you are, I'll shout you out by your full name and title and all that. Then we have username CGProverb, CG says, "A fantastic source of information five stars. I recently found this podcast when AJ was interviewed on another marketing podcast I follow. I have to say, after only listening to a few episodes, the content is invaluable. I am hooked. Thanks, AJ, for sharing this with us." CG, I'm so glad to have you hooked. Thanks for listening. Same goes to you. If you want to reach out to me and let me know who you are, I'd love to shout you out full name and title and company on all that. Okay, back to the topic at hand. Let's hit it. So we get asked a lot about the rotate ads evenly option versus the optimized for performance option. And I first started playing with this feature back in 2011. And like I mentioned in the intro, I really wanted to love it because I'm always running an AB test. So of course, I would want both of my ads, or maybe even all four of my ads to be shown evenly. So I can tell which one is getting a better click through rate. As we know with the way that LinkedIn ads works, when you launch, let's say two ads in a campaign, one is probably going to get a significant amount of impressions more than the other. So I wanted to even that out. So I started testing this and I actually started out testing it at a large scale. And I'm really glad that I was spending hundreds of 1000s on this test, because it allowed me to see the impact very quickly. And now I'm sharing this impact with you. Every single time I turned on this option, I noticed the same thing happened, impressions would drop. And this is significant. And my effective cost per click, no matter how I was bidding, would increase significantly. At the time, I had to go to my LinkedIn reps and ask what is going on here? Why would this be happening? But then LinkedIn and later years have come out and actually changed the definition of what this option is. So if you open up campaign manager, you have to actually go into editing one of your campaigns, and then get to the ad step. And right at the top of the page as you're seeing your ads. It'll say ads in this campaign, and there's a little cog, a little wheel. And as you click it, you'll see the two different ad rotation options. The definition for optimized for performance, it says recommended and I also recommend this, it says this option delivers impressions to the creatives evenly at first to learn which creative performs best, then more impressions will be delivered to the creatives with the best performance. Then when you read the definition for rotate ads evenly, it says, this has a nice clue in it, "this option enters each creative into the auction evenly", I added a little bit of emphasis here, "giving the ad a fair opportunity to compete for an impression without taking performance into account". So if you read into this enough, you'll understand why this is actually deleterious for your performance. What's happening is it's not showing each ad evenly to your audience, what it's doing is it's entering each ad evenly into the auction. But the auction is very strict. With the auction, better performance wins. And worse, performance gets hammered. What's actually happening here, let's say you have one ad that has a relevancy score of seven, and another one that has a relevancy score of five, both ads are getting entered into the auction evenly. That's exactly what it says it's going to do. But the ad with a relevancy score of seven is going to win more auctions every time it's put into the auction. And it's going to win it at a better rate. So maybe your effective cost per click from this ad is going to be $10. But what about the ad with a relevancy score of four, it's entered into the auction just as often as the other ad. But because it only has a relevancy score of four, it's going to lose most of the auctions it's put in there against. But when it does when you're going to pay a significant premium, because the ad has a poor relevancy score. So when you run these auctions, one after another over and over, you start to see that you've lost a lot of impressions, because you were entering a loser into the auction just as often. And the times when those ads do win the auction, your prices went up, and you had to pay significantly more for them. So this is why I call this option the charge me more and show me less. This is not great dynamics. And because of this, I don't recommend this option for most advertisers. There are limited cases where we do recommend though, and we'll get into those right here after the break. 7:10 The LinkedIn Ads Show is proudly brought to you by B2Linked.com, the LinkedIn Ads experts. Managing LinkedIn ads is a massive time and money investment. 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